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were not satisfied by my recovery. They therefore decided to arrange for another conference of the doctors.
I talked clearly and frankly to Dr. Nicholson in the matter. "You have treated me wonderfully well and after operation too you have given excellent treatment to me. Still I am in a delicate state of health; I am not recovering fast as you expect. You do not probably know the reason of this. But fact is that, thanks to you all and favour of God, the power of the Almighty has saved me. In the hospital, I do not have an atmosphere suitable to my routine of life. I am not able to recover fast according to your expectations in spite of all fine facilities here due to tensions on my mind. Kindly therefore permit me to go home.
Dr. Nicholson was deep in thought for a while. He ultimately had confidence in me. He therefore applied plaster upto my waist and sent me home in an ambulance car.
With all inconvenience due to the plaster upto the waist, my wife who was deeply religious served me excellently well and in all warmth.
She advised me to become self-controlled, calm and composed following the new internal vision that had dawned on me. This awakened in me repentance for the sins committed by me in a sense of ignorance.
Now my wife began to nourish a desire to save me by fraternal warm feeling and regard, from Durgati. I therefore prepared myself mentally for a religious life, following her instructions, even while I was in plaster.
My mind awakened regarding my sins, pondering on my Atma, and my duties and I continued to grow more and more anxious about these.
