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ABUNDANT JOY OF SENTIMENTS
:26: A LINE OF DIFFERENCE BETWEEN
BHAGWAN AND A DEVOTEE
I believe that a devotee means a hut for limitless waiting, a balcony of cravings beyond any limit, and a large ocean of tears. And Bhagwan means (1) even after coming to a hut of waiting remains unseen, (2) even after coming in the balcony of cravings will not show fortune of giving 'Darshan' to his devotee; and (3) despite seeing his own reflection clearly in the large Ocean of warm tears would not make any kind of response. Taken as extract of my devotional feelings towards you, the definition which I have concluded is right or wrong? You know that. But your passive intertia makes me to give this definition. On one sidel experience that even in my blood you get circulated rhythmically and keep my flood circulating; it is indeed a joyful experience.
On the other hand, I and you are; quite far and at a distance ~ such despair makes me restless. On one side my heart tells me that you are just around me. On the other side my eyes thirsty for your 'DARSHAN' complains that where are you? why are you not seen ? One time I feel that if I run after your invisible steps, constantly I shall be able to find you. On the other side, it is felt that in doing so I am getting totally lost; I can not gain you; or you can not meet me I am just in the undecided hanging state like 'TRISHANKU'.
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