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understand that she became amenable to me with foresight and far-sighted psychological vision. Actually, it was due to her far-sighted vision that I could save myself from grievous sins.
I had come to England only for securing a high degree in medical studies. But I lost my sense of discrimination in the midst of the flow of lofty joys.
Thad joined the line of medicine in my younger days just with the idea of wiping the tears of the poor. But in the midst of all luxuries of life, the very desire to return to India died almost. I received letters now and then from India. My elder brother asked :
"Well brother! when do you intend to return? Do not waste our wealth of lofty culture in the sensual enjoyments of life over there. Your studies are over. You are an M.R.C.P. now. Come back please. Come here and do become the saviour of the poor, the helpless, the lowly and the lost!”
My mother who was the guard of my religious heritage also wrote now and again. But I had become hard-hearted. These letters did not affect me. But who could know, except the all-knowing god, as to what was hidden in the womb of future?
From January 1961, common fever and pain in the back started. Immediate common treatment was served: Screening was done. Every thing was normal. No ailment was detected.
On 6th February, the pains took a serious turn. Fever went high.
Our Head of the Department, Dr. Khan was summoned. I had told my wife : "Draw the attention of Dr.
