Surakshit Khatra

Author(s): Usha Maru
Publisher: Hansraj C Maru
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/009270/1

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surakSita khatarA SAFE DANGER SAFE DANGER "Safe Danger" is a collection of poems and thoughts in English, Gujarati and Hindi, dedicated to Pujya Champaben (Bahenshree). The book is published on Pujya Gurudev Kanjiswami's 127th birth anniversary. I would love to hear from readers. Please write your comments or inquiries to ushamaru@gmail.com USHA MARU

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Safe Danger (surakSita ravRtarA) Without Gurudev's knowledge my safe world is full of danger. guru jJAna vinA surakSita saMsAra ja khataro che.

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T SAFE DANGER First Edition Published by Printed by 2016 : Hansraj C. Maru Sheela. Duncan, Anand, Umed Vivek, Tania, Luka Chintan : Jayant Printery Girgaon Road, Thakurdwar, 352/54, Murlidhar Mandir Compound, Mumbai- 400 002. (India) Tel. +022 4366 7171 Email jayantprintery@gmail.com 100% recycled paper No Copyright, 2016 Also by Usha Maru Free Prisoner (h), 2014 |

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vI tarALa gaganamAM dhara. AyasapanAmA ch| ii 20 0 na ra 21nuM bhakata banI 3yabhAi vIra nAthajI phUpA ne kAma ? tanyanA 9y (31La mAM 25dhAtmAnA ma2NathI LA danI eka. kiMjala 33 araNamAM tame dho-1 khabhAta nI raNa kSita mUvitra rilane * prajI aMtaranA adha caDhAvo 15 sadarUdeva cubhAna kuMdakuMdabhagavena cUMbhAta che vayenA khaM mAM mane 2mIna 2. bratAnA dela rahe che ?

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nA naMdanA dhAmamAM rahI nAma bhavana tame pAmo jIna zA namAM che ke mAre dhanA to jIvanano bhA ta che tenuM La ma ta deva Ape che. bIje nA tha | mamatI nAthe tamane vItare nI dhamacakunuM dha na Apo te vo . tomAM zA mAsInI jo no caDhA vI sadI naMta mAM dhAraNa karo. baMnene lAbha thA vara3rtham

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Translation of Pujya Champaben Shree's letter to her disciple's son residing in California: In the pure morning sky, shines the light of Simandhar Prabhu'. Become a devotee of all Tirthankars, and attain their blessings. In the sunrise of purity, remember your own blissful soul and offer your guru one ray of happiness from within. On the most auspicious morning, pray to the monks and make your offering. The true guru is our auspicious awakening. Shree Kundkund Aacharya is our auspicious awakening. While playing in the garden of the knower, smell the fragrance of the true flower, your soul. Live in the house of happiness and obtain the treasure of your own soul. Complete immersion in the Jain teachings is the true morning of our life. The fruits of this immersion are given to you by the souls who have attained moksha, Arhant Dev. As your own mother wishes and blesses, may your strength and keen perception give you the ability to utilize the wheel of pure religion. Within you, believe that your mother's wish is of utmost importance and you will both benefit. At present this Tirthankar in Videh Kshetra, another planet, is giving sermons every day.

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Dedication Dedicated to Pujya Gurudev Kanjiswami and Pujya Champa Bahen Shree The inspiring letter on the previous page was written by Pujya Champa Bahen Shree for the son of one of her devotees, an engineer residing in the United States of America. Since I have lived in the USA for the last 40 years, almost all my adult life, I connected with this letter as if it was written for me by my Bahen Shree. Every word seemed to awaken me, inspire me. While no Tirthankar walks the planet Earth today, the first line of Bahen Shree's letter says that there is indeed a Tirthankar named Shree Simandhar Swami who is awakening us every day in a faraway planet known as Videh Kshetra. This emphasizes that our faith and our tirthankars are eternal: they were always present, are currently present, and will always be present. In my upbringing, I understood that the key to Jainism is to discipline myself to resist greed, anger, and other vices. However, Bahen Shree offers a profoundly different perspective. She insists that souls do not require discipline; to the contrary when we discover the true nature of the soul, it is complete in itself, pure, free, and full of unlimited happiness. The soul is not the Doer, Controller, but is just the natural super-complete Knower. To understand, realize, and experience the 06

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free soul is the true Jain living. By experiencing my own pure nature, I naturally free myself from all my vices. In fact, Bahen Shree encourages us to play in the garden of the knower," "smell the flower of happiness." Traditionally play and religion never go together--temples require that we wear new clothing, remain quiet, and not eat. As a Pathshala Teacher, I did somersaults with my pupils while reciting Namokar Mantra. It is in that child-like, free and playful state when we are able to release from the distractions of the physical world to discover an inner freedom. This is the only thing worth doing in this precious human life. I have already played in worldly gardens for a long time and always pined for inner peace. Bahen Shree expresses her wish that we find the true nature within us. By knowing my true nature, free of desires and hatred, I will experience eternal peace and happiness. I examine my life and recognize that happiness and sorrow come and go and I am always left with a deep dissatisfaction. I am inspired to know my true nature and to transcend this turmoil of temporary emotions. In this letter Bahen Shree equates the word "offering" to a ray of happiness from within. All these years when I went to a temple, I thought the symbolic offerings of rice, saffron, coconut, and fruits were a method of expressing the absence of greed, anger, and possessiveness. I never comprehended that the offering of a true devotee is not the absence of vices but sharing bliss from within. A Jain devotee strives to experience inner bliss in every action, thought and word.

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Bahen Shree is able to guide me with such clarity, force, and love because she experienced inner happiness herself after studying the teachings of Gurudev Kanjiswami. You must have heard about the Gurudev: an extraordinary fearless person who has explained Jain religion and the true nature of the soul with clarity, depth, and simplicity. His voice rings in my ears; I can never forget the words he has spoken. I hope that Bahen Shree's letter allows you to connect with my Gurudev and Bahen Shree. I have never met either of them, however I feel very fortunate to be able to connect with them through their voices and writings. The poems in this book are inspired by Gurudev and Bahen Shree and this book is sincerely dedicated to them. I am responsible for any mistakes or limitations in the book. Please forgive me for that. I hope that all readers also find their own true nature, eternal bliss, and peace, with their own Purusharth (effort).

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Contents svabhAva bahenazrIno hasta likhita patra Translation of the Letter Dedication Safe surakSita surakSita Flow Guru Institutions Knowledge Love My Own Rest in Peace Shanti Path Wealth What I know! When I Met World Has So Much Suffering AtmalakSI. eka samayanuM jJAnA guru kahe jANanAra potAmAM ja to pachI navarAtrI nijapada siddhapada mAro paramezvara pramANa dravya bola 101 mArI bhAvanA sadaguru sarvajJanuM jJAnA surakSita khataro huM jANuM ke jANanAra huM dravya huM vastu jAnana jAnana AnaMda upAya eka jIva eka samaya kala Aja aura kala kucha na kucha karanA kauna bole ? kauna suneM? kSayopazama jJAna khuda hI khudA hUM gurudeva gurudeva kI vANI jAnakara gurune batAyA jIva jAga re jAga jaina jinarUpa hUM jaisA maiMne mAnA TAla sakU~gA tRSA dravya dRSTi nija svarUpa prabhu saMga mAnyatAyeM mRtyu meM mukti nahIM merI bhakti 105 107 109 110

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- maiM jAnUM maiM dravya hUM maiM hI saba hUM yadi maiM jIva hUM rAjA samaya kI balihArI sAdhaka, sAdhana, sAdhya svarUpa mujha meM gupta DANGER jataze khatarA 10 A Poem to Share Devotee Instant Gratification Learning Match MONA, MOMA & Me Pure and Applied The Wedding 203-775-1906 umeda che khataro che jIva tuM jANa dhaMdho nijamaya thAje pANI kaho ke kamaLa prasaMga bhA zabdo ne huM jIvanI sAta bhUlo smRti huMkoNa huM chuM atIndriya Asa 8565575E 111 113 114 115 117 119 121 122 127 129 131 132 134 136 139 141 143 145 146 147 149 150 152 153 155 157 159 160 162 163 165 icchAyeM upakArI sadA kaI dharma kartA karma kahAniyAM kaisI icchA ? kSamAvANI khAlI hAtha guru mile jAnUM to jAnUM svayaM ko jAla jJAna to jJAna hI jJAna bahatA kevala jJAna meM hI tAjamahala daur3a ke mila le naI kalI khilI pUrNa sata prabhu mAnava mujhe gavArA nahIM merA jIvana dhanya mere jJAna kA sAthI maiM thakatA nahIM maiM hI dhruva tArA maine hai khAyA aura khilAyA jI bhara ke rAga vidhi kA vidhAna samudra svataMtra svarUpa hAra phira jIta Why Safe Danger 166 167 168 169 171 173 174 176 177 179 181 183 185 187 188 190 192 193 194 195 197 199 201 202 204 205 207 209 211 213 215 |

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T Flow Life is a flow: child, young, old, death and then! Another life again Five senses continue to know something or another Mind keeps thinking, conscious or unconscious Emotions swing between good or bad feelings, immersed in these thoughts These lead me to take actions Stop and think, have you wondered whether there is something constant in this flow? That does not give way to this flow? Isn't this the world's biggest wonder? We get so consumed in the flow that it is hard to even imagine We can experience the constant too So far I kept occupied with the flow, thought that this flow is me and I have to live the flow, keep or maintain what I like and remove or change what I do not like. This has been my biggest mistake, foolishness and obstacle for not being able to Know, believe, recognize, feel the true, constant me! 13

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We think knowledge is to understand the world, things, systems, something new. To enjoy the novelties, varieties. The more topics we know about, the smarter we feel Or are we smarter to know fewer topics but with depth? Do we ever wonder about the knower? The knower exists; independent, complete, free, blissful Gold remains gold in necklace, bracelet, white or yellow Sugar remains sweet even mixed with coffee The soul never changes with the change in body The flow and steadfast seem to be together, but they are completely separate The respected do not react, but stay steadfast in their own belief They cope with the flow without any pain or suffering. They know reacting to the world generates desires and aversions The world is constantly changing, never stays the same, But I can stay the same, blissful, peaceful, happy Even if nailed to the cross, totally naked Meditating in one posture or wandering Poor or have all the riches of the world With degrees or no formal education at all I stay the same forever and ever, never to change

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I, the knower, have my own immense qualities to sustain myself To be able to know the flow of the world revolving To be able to experience myself The perfect me, blissful, peaceful, steadfast That is me within the flow of this world!

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T Guru What does a guru mean? A teacher, a guide, a spiritual educator An awakener The one who shows the path to complete purity, bliss, happiness within. 16 Why one needs a guru? He has walked a path He has realized its fruits He enables me to find my path. Who appreciates the guru? He who has learned and achieved He who has heard the lessons and realized the truth He who has walked the path and experienced the fruits of the path. Once I read my guru's writing My perspective opened, I felt my inner feelings A dialogue started within Learned invaluable principles of life I never understood. |

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Guru transformed my thinking My lifestyle, my looks My priorities, my vision This is the true guru, who helped me realize the true guru within me. Guru remains as a guru Disciple learns and changes Both are different Disciple has to experience his learning independently. Seed and a farmer Dependent on each other or completely free of one another? Seed has the ability to grow itself, disciple has the ability to learn oneself Farmer is defined by his crop and guru is defined by his disciples. Always there is a true guru within me I am disciple, I am guru I learn, I transform, I awaken I walk the path, I taste the fruits.

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T Institutions There is no religion in institutions Not a church, mosque nor temple Religion is my true nature, it is within me When I read, pray, contemplate, meditate It is me doing something within me, by me, for me Religion is my true nature, it is within me As I understand my feelings, my misgivings, my weaknesses My strengths, I do understand the ultimate truth is within me Religion is my true nature, it is within me 18 I do not wear the costume of Jain, Buddhist, Christian, Muslim I live and think about my internal strength alone Religion is my true nature, it is within me Sugar is sweet, does not change its true nature Whether served in church, mosque or in temple Religion is my true nature, it is within me Jesus, Mohamad, Buddha, Mahaveer, all have achieved. Something much greater within themselves, seemingly unachievable Religion is my true nature, it is within me |

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Now I see my guru with new respect, their teachings within me I meditate, contemplate and can become like them, tapping energy within Religion is my true nature, it is within me I do not meditate on institution's many viewpoints I meditate on only one ultimate truth within me Religion is my true nature, it is within me I realize ultimate peace, tolerance, satisfaction is within me I feel oneness within and totally free from institutions Religion is my true nature, it is within me

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T Knowledge - Knower Is my knowledge theoretical or practical? Is truth absolute or relative? Do I know through intuition or experimentation? Is breadth more important than depth? Einstein said if I lived again, I would not discover nuclear power He was a great seeker, realized infinite properties of an atom Humans use and misuse matter, as if it will provide happiness If his seeking turned inward, he would have found true happiness Gandhi lived for humanity, love among all humans He worked and prayed for unity But he regretted the division of the country Humans are united by knowledge of their own souls, not by country 20 Knowledge knows and reflects Clear and still like glass, deep like an ocean Powerful like fire, complete like a full moon Knowledge has its own taste of complete freedom Knowledge is me, soul, independent of this outer body Know, understand, and experience the self Without dependence on my senses Blind can see, deaf can hear; all can learn |

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T Knowing is not dependent on the mind or intellect The ultimate knowledge-knower is my soul Clear of all emotions; clear of likes and dislikes Powerful, steadfast, everlasting This knowledge can never be theoretical or practical My soul the knower is in itself complete Knows the world as it is in practical Knows reality with infinite relative aspects My soul itself is a complete knower No need to have intuition or experimentation My depth has no limitation, breadth is boundary-less I know the whole world as it turns If I look within, I understand the world as it is I, knowledge-knower, am peaceful and joyful Totally independent of this world. Totally complete within, called the knower *** 21

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Love We think of a mother's love for her child She bears the child for nine months Cares for the baby within, without touch, kiss or even smell Gives birth with profound pain and happiness It is hard to express the experience of mother's love We think of love between two friends They share everything, their day and night Share feelings when there is joy or sorrow If you are looking for one, you find both It is hard to express the experience of true friendship We think of love between two lovers As if they are living for each other They love, have family, share home, kids, money and more They share laughter and tears together It is hard to express the love between true lovers As a mother, friend, and lover We do feel some fears, anxieties, uncertainties, As if we are always dependent on something, someone We lose our sense of freedom, completeness within our own self It is hard to express these complex experiences

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Is there a love without doubts, fears, expectations? Independent, steady, unshakable? The love within only gives, like a flower, but never wilts or dies There are no words to express this love, but it can be experienced Those who have realized their soul have experienced blissful love within

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My Own Since I was born I have my own goodness and weakness Weakness was not in my family Neither in their circumstances Goodness was not in my family Neither in their circumstances Since I was born I have my own goodness and weakness Weakness was not in my husband Neither in my in-laws' circumstances Goodness was not in my husband Neither in my in-laws' circumstances I have my own goodness and weakness Weakness was not in my children Neither in their circumstances Goodness was not in my children Neither in their circumstances Since I was born I have my own goodness and weakness

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Now the time has come, I have seen goodness and weakness Within me, mine, to experience and to cherish This body may go, all the relations will also go But my goodness and weakness will stay with me I only experience my complete Pure blissful eternal goodness and Observe my weakness vanish

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Rest in Peace! Live in Peace Two bodies are so different. Happy/sad, Healthy/sick, Rich/poor Just/unjust, Disabled/capable, Intelligent/dull, Living/dead. One thing is common. All are living. All have a life. It doesn't matter where and how they live. The soul is the same in all, with the same capacity for knowing. If we know and experience the soul, then we don't feel the differences in the bodies. We are able to overcome sadness, insecurity, dissatisfaction, and the need to do better. The soul is permanent; the body and the circumstances we live in change constantly. Focus on our permanent nature, deriving fulfillment from what we have within. To know and accept our complete true nature is the power to live in peace. To be able to face death and temporary changes of life is the power to rest in peace.

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Shanti Path krodha, mAna, mAyA, lobha, azubha bhAva mujha meM nahIM OM zAMti:, zAMti:, zAMti: kSamA, dayA, dAna, bhakti, zubha bhAva bhI mujha meM nahIM OM zAMti:, zAMti:, zAMti: maiM zuddha, abheda, eka hI pUrNa avinAzI, jJAnAnaMda, caitanyaghana hUM OM zAMti:, zAMti:, zAMti: Krodh, Maan, Maya, Lobh, ashubh bhav mujh me nahi Ohm shanti, shanti, shanti. Kshama, Daya, Daan, Bhakti shubh bhav bhi mujh me nahi Ohm shanti, shanti, shanti. Main Shuddh, Abhed, ek hi Purn Avinashi, Gyananand, Chaitnyaghan hun Ohm shanti, shanti, shanti. Main Anger, Pride, Deceit, Greed negative feelings are not mine I am Peace, Peace, Peace. Forgiveness, Kindness, Generosity, Respect positive feelings are also not mine I am Peace, Peace, Peace. I am Pure, One, Complete, Forever, Happy, Knower, Capable of staying in my true nature. I am Peace, Peace, Peace.

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T Wealth Humans have spent lives over creating, acquiring or proper transferring of wealth. What is this wealth? Is it one's material wealth or one's worth? The material wealth is not mine to begin with I acquired this wealth through connection to this world Does this wealth more belong to the connections or to me? Is my worth my education, degrees, and professional trade? In the face of fast changing technologies, it can become useless Then how can I call this my worth? 28 My own true wealth and worth is my qualities, knowledge, soul And this wealth cannot be transferred, can be shared Cannot be created, can be propagated from within My own wealth should be learned, cherished And to fully experience, within myself. No one can Take this wealth from me, it is totally mine to keep Reality of life forces us to think Born will definitely die. All the acquired worth Including education, degrees, relations, become just memories |

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Natural disaster leaves us to think, everything vanishes in a flash, devastation Except my qualities of love, patience, and giving These are my real assets, not the wealth I acquired My own true wealth and worth is totally independent, without any fear Without any questions or obstacles, never decreases Is always there to enjoy and to share, what to acquire?

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What I know! What I know, is only what I know at that time. A doctor sends a mother home, you are not quite ready. Just rest. A few hours later, mother comes back to the hospital with a baby! In all aspects of our world, we seem to know what we know at that time. Think of nutrition, our environment, water, or air Even think of the risks we take or security we create. We become vegetarian for our health and end up eating lots of pasta, processed sugar, flour, and soy, not knowing variety or having time to create a balanced diet. Then we think this is healthy! I need to slow down, need to take a break from the knowing of a particular time. I need to know myself, the Knower. Then I can know more clearly, of a specific time and also of eternity, how everything exists and how it changes.

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When I Met When I met my true self, when guru showed me myself and I believed in guru, I tried to experience my true self Did I not know myself, and did guru have to show me? Or was what I believed all wrong, so I met myself I thought this body and the connections with this body, Like friends and family, was me and mine I thought what I experience with my senses, and think With my mind were all my own thinking and emotions I never knew that there is something within me Eternal, completely separate from my body and senses To perceive, to know, and to experience I never tried to look within me with deep focus I never knew myself, I was immersed in this world, this was my knowledge I got busy with the world's knowledge As if I never existed So I finally met myself, when guru showed me My soul within, complete, pure, to be cherished To be experienced with joy, freedom, and eternity Now, I am forever. I can experience myself forever.

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T World Has So Much Suffering The more we see suffering The more we want to alleviate it Every human has a smile. Every heart feels happiness But some of us detach ourselves. Why? Is there something beyond the world? Is there a guru or perfect being with all the answers? Is there a permanent solution? Has history shown true improvement? It appears that suffering is alleviated, but it is not We offer medicines, but they only address physical needs We redistribute wealth, but this only improves material well being We clean our environment, but this only preserves the outside world Do any of these bring us inner happiness? The do-gooders feel pride in their work The doctor rejoices in curing sick bodies The politician delights in filling peoples' pockets The environmentalist celebrates cleaning air, land, water Do any of these bring us inner happiness? Families supporting each other, seem to bring joy Honeymoon days turn to quarreling Birthdays, graduations, then children leave the house Our central supports, our parents, age and die Do any of these bring us inner happiness? 32 |

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T We tend to see suffering where it does not even exist Happiness is not connected to my body, health or sickness Happiness is not connected to the relations of this body Happiness is not in the circumstances, not in the environment Happiness is deep within me, it is my true nature The outside world is full of suffering and inside I feel bliss One needs to look, observe, feel, focus within The inside world is steadfast, pure, blissful, peaceful, perfect Does not require any change, cannot be changed, is ready to experience Gurus, prophets, have seen, felt, observed such perfection What need is there to change pure gold or a flawless diamond? One must believe that there is perfection within Then seek inner happiness despite worldly circumstances This is the path of realizing oneself, experiencing oneself I am not the doer, I am complete within, I am the knower Arihantas, Siddhas, Acharyas, Upadhyayas, and Sadhus Have realized their soul and are our examples to follow We humans are capable of attaining our inner unshakable bliss The experience of bliss within eclipses the sorrow outside Finding the bliss within, we shine light on those around us The more we see suffering The more we need to look within. Every human has a smile Every heart feels happiness 33

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AtmalakSI ghaNA kahe ke jainadarzana AtmalakSI che jainadarzana to jInasvarUpane ja darzAve che huM pote AtmasvarUpa ja chuM to lakSa kono? ghaNA kahe che ke AtmalakSI kriyAo dharma che huM jIva, paradravyanI kriyA mATe asamartha chuM huM jIva, kriyA kema karuM? ne karatAM lakSa kono? ghaNA kahe che vrata, tapa, niyama, mArI kriyA to bIjA kahe vAMcana, paThana, manana mArI kriyA badhA ja potAne jIva mAnavAnuM ja zuM bhUlyA? huM AtmasvarUpa jJAna-darzana-cAritramaya huM potAne ja jANato-dekhato ne mArI ja nirmaLatAe mane ja saMsAra jaNAya che, to mane lakSa kono? 34

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jagatamAM, jagatane jANanAra-dekhanAra paramAtmA e ja huM chuM, paripUrNa chuM, Avo jinendrano dharma che mujamAM ja paramAtmA paNa che, to mujane lakSa kono? huM ja jANanAra - dekhanAra mArAmAM ja ekAgra, lIna thAuM chuM, ne samasta saMsArathI pUrNa bhinna thAuM chuM Avo ja mAro pUrNa jaina svarUpa che, jIva tuM jANa! "paramAtmA sarvotkRSTa kahevAya che, te pote ja paramAtmA che." bahenazrInAM vacanAmRta - 111

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/ eka samayano jJAna eka samayano jJAna paNa jJAna ja che nirapekSa ja che e jJAna paralakSathI ke svalakSathI utpanna ja nathI thato. jJAna to sadAya jANanAra pote ja che 36 eka samayanAM satamAM ja ATalI kSamatA che ke pUrNa nirapekSapaNe lokAkAzane jANato kevaLajJAna che anaMta siddhone paNa jANato anaMta kevaLajJAna che eka samayanAM jJAnano viSaya abheda akhaMDa prabhu che jJAna sata, nizcayane ja potAno viSaya banAve che jJAnane sata sivAya anya khaMDa-khaMDano svIkAra nathI Avo ja mAro eka samayano jJAna nitya sAthe ja che jJAna, jJAnAkAra, ja pratyakSa rUpe che, mAro svarUpa che parokSa saMsAra mArI svacchatAthI mane ja jaNAya che |

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/ Avo ja mAro eka samayano camatkArI jJAna che mAro asAdhAraNa guNa che, saune jANato pote ja sva/para prakAzI, pratyakSa/parokSa bhAve sadaiva che Avo ja mAro eka samayano jJAna AnaMda ne zAMtithI ja suzobhita che, mArA jJAnamAM krodha, lobha, moha mAyA kyAMthI hoya, huM ja Avo jJAnasvarUpa jJAna chuM *** 37

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/ guru kahe hasatAM ramatAM mokSa guru kahe che ke hasatAM ramatAM mokSa, mokSa e vaLI zuM che ? e DigrI ke padavI ke vaLI koI vastu che ? emane to pAmavA karavAM paDe che dina rAta eka parizrama karIe, mahenata karIe to paNa na maLe to pachI kema guru kahe hasatAM ramatAM mokSa? 38 mokSa to sidhdhonuM sthAna che, e to sauthI moTuM pada che e pAmavA to lAge bhavonA bhava ne karavuM paDe khUba kaThIna parizrama to pachI kema guru kahe hasatAM ramatAM mokSa? arihaMto mokSamAM rahe, mAnavI to jIvana bhara emane pUje. derAsaro bane, tIrtho bane, roja thAya dIvA ne AratI to paNa mokSano to rasto paNa na jaDe to pachI kema guru kahe hasatAM ramatAM mokSa ? gurunI vAta to sadA sAcI ziSyane vizvAsa karI pAmavuM AnuM rahasya guru kahe ke ahIyAM ja tuM bhUlyo ziSya mokSa nathI koI DigrI, padavI ke vastu to pachI kema guru kahe hasatAM ramatAM mokSa ? |

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mokSa nathI maMdiramAM ke nathI e tIrthamAM mokSa nathI tyAgamAM ke zarIranA kaThIna parizramamAM mokSa nathI gharamAM ke pyAramAM, mokSa nathI sagAvhAlAmAM mokSa to che aMtaranAM paripUrNa jJAnAnaMdamAM mokSa to che sAcI samajaNa ne sAcA jJAnamAM eTale to guru kahe ke hasatAM ramatAM mokSa che. ekavAra tuM sva AtmAne jANa, ekavAra tuM ene pahecAna to pachI tane khabara paDe ke tuM to AtmA ja cho tAro potAnuM ghara kaho ke pada kaho e ja mokSa che e to tAruM potAnuM ne tuM to eno hakadArI che, eTale to guru kahe ke hasatAM ramatAM mokSa che. AtmAne jANyuM to pachI mokSa sarvavyApI gharamAM mokSa, maMdiramAM mokSa, mokSa sau tIrthamAM che khAtAM mokSa, upavAse mokSa, pyAramAM mokSa ne mokSa tyAgamAM che potAnA eka eka bhAvano jJAtA thaI, basa tuM AtmAmAM eTale to guru kahe ke hasatAM ramatAM mokSa che. AtmA to jJAnano pIMDa ne AnaMdathI bharapura pachI to tuM na bhaTake A saMsAramAM kadI gurubhakti kare, jinapUjA kare, e ja tane sarvasva have tuM parathI na baMdhAya, svamAM ja vase, jJAtA tuM eTale to guru kahe ke hasatAM ramatAM mokSa che.

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jaNanAra bhASA bolAya che, vastu khavAya che drazya AMkho sAme Ave che, je yAda Ave che zabdo saMbhaLAya che, zuM huM Ane jANuM chuM? nA nA huM to jANanAra potAne ja jANuM chuM mArAmAM zabda nathI, je rUpI dravya dekhAya e paNa nathI. gaMdha, sparza, ke svAda paNa nathI mArAmAM to sukha, AnaMda zAMtino sAgara che hA, hA huM to jANanAra potAne ja jANuM chuM A zarIra che, doDe che, cAle che, kriyAvAna che cAlato, pharato, karato, e paNa pudgala ja che zuM huM A zarIranI kriyAno jANanAra chuM? nA, nA huM to jANanAra potAne ja jANuM chuM huM aMtaramAM zAMta sukhamaya AnaMdamaya chuM ene ja huM mAro potAno jANuM chuM, jANanAra chuM huM akartA, ayogI, abaddha, mArAmAM ja pUrNa chuM hA, hA huM to jANanAra potAne ja jANuM chuM

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pratyeka padArtha potA potAnuM ja kAma kare che potAnI rIte potAmAM ja pariName che kriyAvAna che jJAna jANavuM mAruM ja potAnuM ja guNa che, huM jANuM chuM nA, nA huM to jANanAra potAne ja jANuM chuM huM mane potAne potAmAM ja rahIne sadaiva ja jANuM chuM e ja huM, ne mAro svasamaya, svakSetra, svabhAva che mAro bhAva sthira, trikALa, sukhazAMtimaya ja che hA, hA huM to jANanAra potAne ja jANuM chuM huM dukhI thaI nathI zakato, potAne dukhI krodhI, lobhI, mohI, dayAvAna mAnanAra huM nathI A to badhuM, jUThuM, asatya kalpanAmAtra ja che nA, nA huM to jANanAra potAne ja jANuM chuM huM to sadaiva sukhI, pUrNa, zAMta, zuddha, jJAnAnaMda chuM e ja mAro pUrNa sata svarUpa che. je paNa dara samaya jaNAya che e huM nathI, e to mArI zuddhatA che hA, hA huM to jANanAra potAne ja jANuM chuM

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/ je samaya je thavAnuM thAya che, jaNAvavuM jaNAya che huM to potAne ja jANuM chuM, A para, mAtra jaNAya che huM para padArthane jANuM, mAruM kArya ja nathI, mAtra jaNAya che nA, nA huM to jANanAra potAne ja jANuM chuM 42 mane kAMI paNa yAda rAkhavAnuM vicAravAnuM zuM che? je jema che, tema ja jaNAya che, ne huM to pote ja potAmAM ja pUrNa sata sukha-zAMti-AnaMdamaya chuM hA, hA huM to jANanAra potAne ja jANuM chuM *** |

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/ potAmAM ja samAI javAnI chuM na huM mArI chuM, na tArI, potAnI, potAmAM ja samAI javAnI chuM na huM janmI chuM, na marI. avinAzI, potAmAM ja samAI javAnI chuM na huM ISTa chuM, na aniSTa, sadaiva sAkSI, potAmAM ja samAI javAnI chuM na huM mA chuM, na dikarI, Atma tatva, potAmAM ja samAI javAnI chuM na huM karma chuM, na karyodaya, dhruva, potAmAM ja samAI javAnI chuM na huM kAle hatI, na kAle rahIza, nitya, potAmAM ja samAI javAnI chuM na huM sukhI chuM, na dukhIyArI, cidAnaMdI, potAmAM ja samAI javAnI chuM na huM zarIra chuM, na Indriyo, saunI jJAnI, potAmAM ja samAI javAnI chuM na huM pUrI chuM, na adhUrI, svayaMmAM sampUrNa, potAmAM ja samAI javAnI chuM na huM saMkalpa karuM, na vikalpa, nirvikalpa, potAmAM ja samAI javAnI chuM na huM uSA chuM, na aMdhIyAro, prakAzI, potAmAM ja samAI javAnI chuM na huM mArI chuM, na tArI, potAnI, potAmAM ja samAI javAnI chuM h h 43

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/ huM pUrNa vitarAgI samarasano ja rasiyo mAro koI paNa saMyogI nathI, sahayogI che sahayogI potAnAM samaya sudhI ja rahe che to pachI kema thAya mane rAga ke dveSa re huM pUrNa vitarAgI samarasano ja rasiyo mArI sAthe rahela badhA ja padArtho na karI zake mAruM hita, na bagADI zake kAMI paNa mAruM re to pachI kema thAya mane rAga ke dveSa re 44 to pachI huM pUrNa vitarAgI samarasano ja rasiyo mAro koI sAthe saMbaMdha nathI ne eka smazAne badhA padArtho, eka sAthe rahIye-marIye to pachI kema thAya mane rAga ke dveSa re huM pUrNa vitarAgI samarasano ja rasiyo huM ja badhAne jANuM chuM samajI zakuM chuM je jema che, tema ja jANyo, mAnyo, potAnuM vedana to pachI kema thAya mane rAga ke dveSa re |

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/ navarAtri Avyo garabA ramavAno ekameka thavAno tahevAra re nAco, gAo, prabhu paramAtmAmAM ekAgra thAo re mujamAM jANuM prabhu tuja jevo zuddha siddha svarUpa re navarAtrimAM thAuM muja nita eka AtmasvarUpa re Avyo garabA ramavAno ekameka thavAno tahevAra re nAco, gAo, prabhu paramAtmAmAM ekAgra thAo re huM ja karuM puruSArtha banavA tuja zuddha svarUpa re pahele garabe have nathI mane koI paNa zaMkA re Avyo garabA ramavAno ekameka thavAno tahevAra re nAco, gAo, prabhu paramAtmAmAM ekAgra thAo re mane tArA sivA have nathI rahI koI paNa Aza re bIje garabe have nathI mane koI A-kAM-kSA re Avyo garabA ramavAno ekameka thavAno tahevAra re nAco, gAo, prabhu paramAtmAmAM ekAgra thAo re have nathI mane koI pratye aNagamAno bhAva re trIje garabe karuM muniyone sata sata praNAma re 45

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/ Avyo garabA ramavAno ekameka thavAno tahevAra re nAco, gAo, prabhu paramAtmAmAM ekAgra thAo re rakhaDyo bahAra have gurue samajAvyo mAro sata re cothe garabe mUrkhatA tajI huM pAmyo eka svarUpa re Avyo garabA ramavAno ekameka thavAno tahevAra re nAco, gAo, prabhu paramAtmAmAM ekAgra thAo re dara samaye thatA bhAvomAM na sukhI-dukhI thAuM re pAMcame garabe upagrahana thAo sarve bhAvo re Avyo garabA ramavAno ekameka thavAno tahevAra re nAco, gAo, prabhu paramAtmAmAM ekAgra thAo re dara samaye nija AtmAmAM ja sthita huM AnaMda re chaThe garabe pAmyo mArI sata sthiti ramato rAsa re 46 Avyo garabA ramavAno ekameka thavAno tahevAra re nAco, gAo, prabhu paramAtmAmAM ekAgra thAo re dara samaye jANuM, mAnuM, mAruM, nija AtmasvabhAva re sAtamAM garabe mArA Adarza jaina digambara munI ja re |

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Avyo garabA ramavAno ekameka thavAno tahevAra re nAco, gAo, prabhu paramAtmAmAM ekAgra thAo re gurue samajAvyo nita jJAnAnaMdane madhura vacane re AThamAM garabe nita gAuM AtmasvabhAvanA ja gIta re Avyo garabA ramavAno ekameka thavAno tahevAra re nAco, gAo, prabhu paramAtmAmAM ekAgra thAo re Avyo muja ajJAnIne jJAnI thavAno anero utsava re A ja che ane sadaiva ramavA nita navarAtrinAM garabA re

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nijapada siddhapada mAro nijapada siddhapada mAro, prabhu gijapada siddhapada mAro prabhu tamane huM nihALuM chuM nija padane ja nihALuM chuM nijapada siddhapada mAro, prabhu nijapada siddhapada mAro prabhu zAMta saumyarUpa tAro, che nijarUpa mAro prabhu aDola, nizcala, AnaMdIrUpa che tAro prabhu darzAve evo aDaga, tRptarUpa mAro nijapada siddhapada mAro, prabhu nijapada siddhapada mAro... prabhu koI avAja nathI cAha nathI koI jaDa no svAda nathI, Avo tRptarUpa mAro prabhu zuddha vItarAgamAM ja chalakAya che A rAga mAro nijapada siddhapada mAro, prabhu nijapada siddhapada mAro... prabhu koI hoMza nathI ke nathI koI AMsu sukha-dukhano bhAsa nathI A samasukhamAM lIna eka rasa che Avo eka ja uttama zaraNa che mAro nijapada siddhapada mAro, prabhu nijapada siddhapada mAro.....

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/ paramezvara prabhu tuM mAro paramezvara cho tane ja jANuM, tane ja mAnuM, gAuM tArA ja guNo prabhu tuM mAro paramezvara cho huM tArI ja chuM, ne tuM mAro, karuM tArI ja bhakti prabhu tuM mAro paramezvara cho huM tArI ja pUjA, tuM mAro pUya, chuM tArI pUjAraNa prabhu tuM mAro paramezvara cho jJAyaka tuM mAro, mane ja jaNAya, e ja mAro jJAna che prabhu tuM mAro paramezvara cho tArA vagara huM ja nahIM, tuM nahIM to huM kyAMthI prabhu tuM mAro paramezvara cho tuM mAro che priyatama, huM priyatamA kema houM tArA vagara prabhu tuM mAro paramezvara cho tane ja anubhavuM chuM, tuM Ape che badhuM ja mane prabhu tuM mAro paramezvara cho sarvasva tAro jaNAya mujamAM, tuM ja mAro zrRMgAra prabhu tuM mAro paramezvara cho tane ja praNamuM chuM, ne samAI jAuM tujamAM ja prabhu tuM mAro paramezvara cho tuM sarvajJa, mAro sarvasva, tane ja huM jaNAuM prabhu tuM mAro paramezvara cho 49

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/ pramANa dravya utpAda-vyaya yukta sata e ja huM huM pote dhruva paramAtmA ja sadA pariNamato sata utpAda-vyaya mArA che, mArAmAM che, paNa svAdhIna utpAda-vyaya saMyogomAM tanmaya thaIne mArAthI para ja thaI jAya che, mAruM jJAna paNa ajJAna ja banI zubhAzubha bhAvono kartA banI jAya utpAda-vyaya svAdhInapaNe ja mArAmAM, dhruvamAM tanmaya thAya che tyAre ja mArA thAya huM to trikALI sadaiva apariNAmI dhruva ja chuM utpAda-vyaya jyAre mArA nathI, tyAre mArA parajJeya mArA jevA thayA tyAre A pariNamatA jJAnamAM svadravya jJeya banI jAya che, huM dhruva to huM ja chuM Ama huM jJAnasvarUpa chuM, utpAda-vyaya paNa mukta ane potAnI sadaiva tanmayatAnAM svAdhIna sAthI svAdhInapaNe paradravyamaya che to ajJAna ja svAdhInapaNe svadravyamaya che to jJAna ja che. Ama pariNamato huM pUro pramANadravya chuM AmAM huM trikALI dhruva to apariNAmI, zuddha, buddha chuM 50 |

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huM utpAda-vyaya yukta sata hovA chatAM kyAre paNa utpAda-vyayamaya nathI thato, potAmAM ja, potAnI sattAthI ja dhuvapaNe TakI rahela A jagatano eka divya sata chuM, rahasya chuM, pragaTa chuM, zaktivAna chuM sAmarthyavAna chuM, eka camatkAra chuM, A jagatanI sAcI ajAyabI chuM, amUlya chuM, sauthI nyAro chuM

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bola 101 huM bhagavAna AtmA to mArAmAM ja chuM, kAMI vANImAM nathI huM jJAna chuM, darzana chuM, cAritra chuM, ne rasa, varNa, gaMdha, sparza nathI. nA, nA, nA, huM to eka ja abheda, akhaMDa, caitanya AtmA chuM vyApAra, adhyavasAna, vyApAra ja che zubhAzubha bhAva ja che. huM trikALI, akartA, avedaka, koI paNa jAtano vyApArI nathI vyApArano phaLa bhogavanAra paNa nathI, huM to sarvathA pUrNa ja chuM huM jJAnano vyApArI nathI, svayaM jJAnAnaMda chuM huM darzana karanAra nathI, pote ja darzanamaya chuM huM vedanAra nathI, pote ja AnaMda-zAMtimaya chuM huM asaMga ja chuM, mArI kamajorIthI koIno saMga thAya to guruno ja saMga karuM chuM pote asaMga ja chuM saMyogamAM zubhAzubha bhAva che, muja asaMgamAM nathI

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huM AvI agni chuM, jene dAhya padArthonI jarUra nathI huM Avo jANanAra chuM, jene jANavAnI jarUra nathI huM Avo zAMta AnaMdamaya chuM, vedavAnI jarUra nathI Avo ja huM vartamAnamAM zuM bhale bahArathI koI mAne na mAne jIva vartamAnamAM A ja mAna, ne anubhava paNa Ano ja kara to ja huM bhagavAnanI vANImAM nahIM ne potAmAM ja chuM "bhagavAnanI vANI sAMbhaLavAmAM (sAMbhaLavAnA lakSamAM) potAno nAza thAya che." zrI nihAlacaMdajI sogAnIjI, dravya draSTi prakAza bola # 101

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mArI bhAvanA AvA ukaLatA dhagadhagatA pANImAM joI zakyA evo e zItaLa trikALa pANIno svabhAva jo mArA sarvajJa, prabhu, paMcaparameSThI sarva pUjya re AvI aMdhArI rAtomAM joyuM jemane sadaiva ja prakAzamAna zaktirUpe sadAya trikALa sUrya jo mArA zAstra, vANI, dharma, sarva sadaiva pUjaya re AvI trikALa apariNAmI dhuva zaktine joI anubhavI, mane paNa darzAvI, AdaravA yogya jo mArA guru, sarvasva, saMta, vaMdanIya, sadaiva pUjya re huM A nirNaya, vizvAsane draDha, nizcalapaNe rAkhI ne AgaLa pUrNatA pragaTAvuM e batAvanAra je mArA munio, AcAryo, upAdhyAyo, sau pUjya re A jIva ja evo eka adbhuta caitanya dravya che je bhaTake paNa, ne pAme pUrNa zuddhatAne potAmAM ja mAro Avo jIva ja huM pote ja jJAyaka pUjya re 54

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Aja sanAtana, trikALa, pUrNa jaina digambara vItarAga dharma ja mAro paNa trikALa dharma che kema huM rakhaDuM? rakhaDyo e to badho ja saMyoga re huM to pUrNa ja hato, chuM, ne rahIza, huM to eka abheda, akhaMDa, paripUrNa, hato, chuM ne rahIza ja huM to sadaiva jJAyakabhAva mArAmAM ja pUjya re

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/ sadaguru sadaguru koNa jeNe.... zubhAzubha bhAvonA vAdaLAMmAM sUraja dekhADyo zubhAzubhanAM pAkhaMDamAM zuddha svarUpa batAvyo vastuno svabhAva che, paNa zubhAzubha vibhAva che vizvanuM svarUpa che AmAM mAruM paNa sata rUpa che 56 sadaguru koNa jeNe... jaina darzana sarvajJa prabhunuM joeluM sata rUpa che jJAnamAM ja Avo pratApa che ke jagatane jANe bahAra bhaTaka mAM, aMtaramAM ja tAro pUrNa trikALa satasvarUpa zAzvata rIte rahela che dekhADyo sadaguru koNe jeNe... AcAryoe sata varNavyo che paNa A paMcamakALamAM AvA pUrNa satane samajAvavuM, eka guMjathI garjavuM koI viralA anubhavInI ja vANImAM Ave mArA gurunI vANI tIrthaMkaranI ja hatI ne raheze sadaguru koNa jeNe koI evo jaina graMtha nathI, jenAM peTamAM jaIne graMthanAM bhAvone zItaLa pravAhathI samajAvyo nathI darzana samajavAnuM che, karavAnuM nathI, zuddha ja chuM e ja mArA pUrNa satane sadagurue ja mane batAvyo |

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sarvajJanuM jJAna sarvajJanuM jJAna A anaMta saMsAramAM cha dravyo jANe che ne cha dravyonuM ja pariNamana jANe che to jJAna kevuM jJAna che ! je anaMtane jANIne prayojanabhUta, mULa, pUrNa satane tAravI le che e ja jJAna che, jJAnasvarUpane jANanAra svAdhIna jJAna che sarvajJanuM jJAna anaMta karmone, mukhya ATha ne pachI mukhya eka darzana mohanIyane ja jANe che to jJAna kevuM jJAna che ! je anaMtane jANIne prayojanabhUta, mULa, pUrNa satane tAravI le che e ja jJAna che, jJAnasvarUpane jANanAra svAdhIna jJAna che sarvajJanuM jJAna anaMtA zubhAzubha bhAvone jANIne enI pAchaLa eka pUrNa vItarAgane jANe che to jJAna kevuM jJAna che ! je anaMtane jANIne prayojanabhUta, mULa, pUrNa satane tAravI le che e ja jJAna che, jJAnasvarUpane jANanAra svAdhIna jJAna che sarvajJanuM jJAna sarvane jANato dekhato potAne ja, vItarAgane ja, jJAnAnaMdane ja vede che to jJAna kevuM jJAna che ! je anaMtane jANIne prayojanabhUta, mULa, pUrNa satane tAravI le che e ja jJAna che, jJAnasvarUpane jANanAra svAdhIna jJAna che sarvajJanuM jJAna anaMta guNAtmaka dravyamAM anaMta guNonAM pariNamanane jotAM eka abhedane jANe che to jJAna kevuM jJAna che. je anaMtane jANIne prayojanabhUta, mULa, pUrNa satane tAravI le che e ja jJAna che, jJAnasvarUpane jANanAra svAdhIna jJAna che sarvajJanuM jJAna, anekAMtamaya jJAna, anaMta nayothI pUrNa, eka samyapha ekAMtane tAravI le che to jJAna kevuM jJAna che! je anaMtane jANIne prayojanabhUta, mULa, pUrNa satane tAravI le che e ja jJAna che, jJAnasvarUpane jANanAra svAdhIna jJAna che

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surakSita khataro divya dhvani prabhune anicchAe ja khare che gaNadharo, AcAryo, guruonI vANI paNa nispRhe ja nIkaLe che, gurudeva kahe che ke koNa saMbhaLAve, e to jaDa che, koNa kone sudhAre, samajAve, A to paranI paryAya che AvI nispRha nirmaLa anicchAe vahetI vANI ziSya mATe badhuM ja che ziSya e ja vANIne rucithI, pradhAnatAthI, dhyAnathI samarpita thaIne sAMbhaLe che, samaje che bhakti kare che, pUjAmAM paNa A vANI ja che sata vANI maLe ane tuM A vANI jema kahI rahI che ene ja, anAdinAM mithyAtvane na choDIne, madhyastha na thaI, khUba ja kALajI ne dhyAna sAthe, tapa rUpe na sAMbhaLe, na samaje to bahu ja moTo khataro bane che

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vANI maLI che, anaMta puNyo pachI mane avyAbAdha sukhazAMti ApavA, bhavono aMta karavA, ziSya e ja vANIne potAnAM svachaMdathI banAvI beTho che anaMta bhavono kAraNa, ne poSe che potAnuM mithyAjJAna zuM A moTo surakSita khataro nathI? mahAvIra pachI banyA, eka zAzvata jaina dharmanAM ja vibhAgo, badhA ja kahe ke ame ja sAcA, koNa sAcuM ? eTale ja satagurune mahAvIra pote ja kahI gayA ziSya tane pAmavuM haze, to sAMbhaLaje gurune dhyAnathI ne pachI siddha karaje pote, potAmAM ja to ja tuM pAmIza tAruM potAnuM zAzvata svarUpa

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/ svabhAva huM paripUrNa sadAya jANanAra dekhanAra, jANuM dekhuM ja chuM huM jJAna, darzana, AnaMda, vIryamaya eka akhaMDa dravya huM mArA jJAna guNathI jANuM ne pote ja jANanAra chuM huM jANanAra jema che tema ja, jenuM che tenuM ja jANuM chuM 60 huM paripUrNa sadAya jANanAra dekhanAra, jANuM dekhuM ja chuM huM jJAna, darzana, AnaMda, vIryamaya eka akhaMDa dravya chuM huM jANanAra sadA, nathI thato nAnuM-moTuM, vadhu ke ochuM Ane jANuM, tene jANuM, Avo bhAra kema hoI zake che huM paripUrNa sadAya jANanAra dekhanAra, jANuM dekhuM ja chuM huM jJAna, darzana, AnaMda, vIryamaya eka akhaMDa dravya chu huM rAgano karanAra nathI, svaparano jANanAra ja chuM huM jANuM eTale azuddha ke rAgano svAmI kema banI zakuM huM paripUrNa sadAya jANanAra dekhanAra, jANuM dekhuM ja chuM huM jJAna, darzana, AnaMda, vIryamaya eka akhaMDa dravya chuM svaparaprakAzaka mAro ja svabhAva che, caitanyasattA che mArAmAM rahIne, mArA vaDe ja jANavuM jANavuM mAro ja che

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huM paripUrNa sadAya jANanAra dekhanAra, jANuM dekhuM ja chuM huM jJAna, darzana, AnaMda, vIryamaya eka akhaMDa dravya chuM huM vikArone jANI enAthI bhinna svasvarUpane jANuM chuM huM zuddha, eka, mArA ja, mArAmAM jJAyakabhAvane jANuM chuM huM paripUrNa sadAya jANanAra dekhanAra, jANuM dekhuM ja chuM huM jJAna, darzana, AnaMda, vIryamaya eka akhaMDa dravya chuM huM jJAna-darzanamaya zarIra ane karmodayathI bhinna ja chuM huM pUrNa abaddha, aspRzI, vizeSatAo rahita jJAyaka chuM huM paripUrNa sadAya jANanAra dekhanAra, jANuM dekhuM ja chuM huM jJAna, darzana, AnaMda, vIryamaya eka akhaMDa dravya chuM huM jema che, jenuM che emaja jANanAra dekhanAra dravya chuM e ja mAro astitva che, sukhAnaMda, svayaM, siddha ja chuM huM paripUrNa sadAya jANanAra dekhanAra, jANuM dekhuM ja chuM huM jJAna, darzana, AnaMda, vIryamaya eka akhaMDa dravya chuM huM zarIra ane karmodayane kyAre paNa bhoganAro nathI huM sadAya sarve svabhAvane ja jANuM, dekhuM, ne bhogavuM chuM

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jJAna pUrNa lokAkAzane jANe che ane jANanAra jJAnasvarUpa eka, abheda, akhaMDa ekalo ja paramANumAtrathI paNa bhinna che A jANanAra ghana jJAnasvarUpamAM paradravyano paramANumAtra ane bIjA jJAnasvarUpano pUrNa tyAM abhAva ja che. e emAM pravezatA ja nathI A ghana jANanAramAM to dara samaye thatI jANavAnI kriyA paNa mArAmAM pesatI nathI, bahAra ja rahe che huM zuddha, vaja, sthira, evo pUrNa chuM ke mane jANavAnI kriyA karavAnI zI jarUra? e to jaNAi jAya che ne e to mArA ja jJAnasvarUpamAM thatI dara samayanI jJAnanI jANavAnI kriyA kahevAya che, huM to kRtakRtya ja chuM evo huM pUrNa, jJAnAnaMda, sukha-zAMtimaya, arUpI zuddha, nirmaLa, vaja, eka, abheda, akhaMDa chuM AvA paripUrNa tatvamAM koi anya kriyA saMbhavatI ja nathI evo ghana camatkArI tatva chuM, je A AkhA lokAkAzane eka ja samayamAM pUrNa spaSTatAthI jANe che, jaNAya che evo camatkArI, sarvotkRSTa, svaccha, nirmaLa, tatva chuM huM

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evo huM chuM e batAvanAra gurune huM jANuM chuM. evo huM chuM e batAvanAra sarvajJanAM jJAnane huM jANuM chuM evo huM chuM e batAvanAra sAcA devane huM jANuM chuM evo huM chuM e batAvanAra sAcA zAstrane huM jANuM chuM evo huM chuM e batAvanAra sAcA dharmane huM jANuM chuM evo huM chuM e batAvanAra ja pUrNa sata che noTaH 9/7/2014 dasa lakSaNa parva

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huM jANuM ke jANanAra jANavuM jANavuM mAro svabhAva che ke jANanAra jANanAra mAro bhAva che mane jANavAnI ruci che navuM navuM jANuM emAM AnaMda ne pravRtti lAge che A pravRttithI ja jJAnI nivRttAve che jANavuM jANavuM sthaLa mAro ja upayoga sUkSmapaNe jANanAra bhAvane jANe che jANanAra bhAva zaktivAna, sAmarthyavAna che huM je jANuM chuM, emAM aMtaramAM jJAnabhAva che huM jene jANuM chuM e paravastu, paradravya che jANanAra mAro svabhAva mArA anaMta guNo nuM pIMDa, ekarUpa, evI mahAsattA huM ja chuM mArI mahAsattA paripUrNa potAmAM Takela che potAnAM ja anaMta guNone jANe mANe che koi paravastu, parabhAvane huM jANatI nathI e to mArI nirmaLatAmAM pratibhAse che

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/ huM potAne ja jANuM Avo jANanAra chuM huM potAne ja mANuM evo rasiyo chuM paravastu, parabhAva pratibhAse bhale che huM ene kyAreya jANato, mANato nathI AvA mArA ja sUkSma jJAnabhAvane bhUlyo hato gurue mane yAda karAvyo, batAvyo A jANavo jANavo kare che ne mUDha samajAvyo eja tArI AkulatA, dukha, azucipaNuM che tArA jANanArane aMtaramAM jANa, tArA jANanArano astitva, prabhutva, vibhutva, nirmaLa, nitya che e ja tuM, tArAmAM anaMta guNo sAthe Takela, anaMta samaya sudhI TakI zakanAra jJAnAnaMda cho sthULa jANavAnI rUcine choDa, dhIro, gaMbhIra, ane tIkSNa thai tArA svarUpa,jANanAro che ene jANa aMtaranAM svabhAvane pakaDa e ja tuM cho, tAro dharma che tAro jainadarzana che, jinasvarUpa che, tuM pote cho 65

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huM dravya huM dravya nirapekSa chuM, mArI paryAya paNa nirapekSa che huM dravya trikALI pUrNa sata chuM, mArI paryAya eka samayano sata ja che dravya trikALa che, paryAya paNa hameza thatAM kramamAM trikALa ja che huM dravya nirapekSa chuM, mArI paryAya paNa nirapekSa che huM eka dravya chuM, ane cha dravyono saMyoga hameza ja che huM pUrNa sadeva asaMyogI, asparzI, ja chuM huM eka pUrNa dravya sadaiva pariNamato ja chuM huM eka dravya chuM, ane cha dravyono saMyoga hamezA ja che huM jIva eka, bIjA nava tatvomAM nathI, bhinna ja chuM huM jIva, heya, zeya, upAdeya kaLAthI yukta chuM huM jIva, jANanAro mokSa sukhathI paripUrNa chuM huM jIva eka, bIjA nava tatvomAM nathI, bhinna ja chuM huM jIva eka, mAruM jJAna mane ja jANavA mANavA pragaTe che huM jIva, mAruM darzana mane ja ane koine nahIM dekhavA pragaTe che huM jIva, mAruM cAritra vItarAgI AnaMdathI bharapura che huM jIva, mAruM jJAna mane ja jANavA mANavA pragaTe che

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huM jANanAra, jJAyaka, AnaMdamaya svasaMvedana chuM huM eka, anaMta guNono pIMDa, anubhava gocara ja chuM, huM eka, svabhAvathI bhagavAna chuM, huM jIva ja chuM, huM jANanAra, jJAyaka AnaMdamaya svasaMvedana chuM

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huM vastu vastune vastuthI jovI paDe che, svabhAvathI ja svabhAvamAM javAya che aMdhArAmAM divasa na maLe, divasa thatAM divasane zodhavo na paDe vastune vastuthI ja jovI paDe evI che, svabhAvathI ja svabhAvamAM javAya che indriyajJAnathI zodhatAM nathI maLatI ne atIndriya jJAnamAM zodhavI ja paDatI nathI vastune vastuthI ja jovI paDe evI che, svabhAvathI ja svabhAvamAM javAya che vikalpomAM zodhatAM paNa nathI maLatI nirvilpa dazAmAM zodhavI ja paDatI nathI vastune vastuthI ja jovI paDe evI che, svabhAvathI ja svabhAvamAM javAya che sApekSa jotAM jotAM nirapekSa nathI jovAtuM. nirapekSa, nirapekSa vastune ja jue che vastune vastuthI ja jovI paDe evI che, svabhAvathI ja svabhAvamAM javAya che trikALa che, eka samayamAM zodhatAM maLatI ja nathI ne trikALamAM zodhavI paDatI nathI vastune vastuthI ja jovI paDe evI che, svabhAvathI ja svabhAvamAM javAya che trikALamAM ja vartamAna nimagna, lIna, ekAgra ja mArI vastu che, svabhAva che eja mAruM zuddha svarUpa che, mArI zuddhimAM vRddhi che, pUrNa AnaMdamAM sadA mATe samAi javAno eka ja anero, anupama kayAre paNa na jANyo evo upAya che 68

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- jAnana jAnana jAnana jAnana jAnana jAnana jAnanevAlA kauna hai sva ko jAne para ko jAne, jAne mere aura tere ko duHkha ko jAne, sukha ko jAne, jAne dhUpa aura chAMva ko mitroM jAne parivAra jAne, ghara ko aura duniyA ko jAne jAne to saba kucha phira bhI nA jAne jAnane vAle ko ThaMDI jAne, garamI jAne, havA aura tUphAna pahacAne pIDA jAne, samatA jAne, jAne UMca aura nIca ko bacapana jAne, yuvAnI jAne, jAne bur3he zarIra ko bhUkha jAne, pyAsa jAne, jAne tRpta peTa ko jAne to saba kucha phira bhI nA jAne jAnane vAle ko kar3avA jAne, mIThA jAne, jAne namakIna aura tIkhAsa ko pAtAla jAne, AkAza jAne, khAIyAM jAne aura jAne pahAr3oM ko jharane jAne, tAlAba jAne, jAne nadiyoM aura samudra ko kudaratakI sundaratA jAne, jAne usake prakopoM ko jAne to saba kucha phira bhI nA jAne jAnane vAle ko jo jAne ye saba kucha, jaisA hai vaisA hI, aura dekhe jaisA jina ne dekhA jo anubhava meM lAye jina vANI jaisA, to jAnanevAlA he AtmA-paramAtmA nahIM to mithyAtva hI hai cAroM ora jaise sabhI jIva dekheM yaha saMsAra apanA aura hama bhI to dekhate Aye, mAnate Aye isa saMsAra ko, jaisA hamAre karmo ne batAyA jAnana jAnana jAnana jAnana saccA jAnane vAlA terA hI zuddha svarUpa hai AtmA 69

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- merA AnaMda haMsAne meM nahIM, haMsanA bhI nahIM merA AnaMda to mujha aMtara kI gaharAiyoM meM zAntirUpa hai, rAga rahita nirAkula bhI hai. merA AnaMda svataMtra aura svAdhIna bhI hai koI bhI bhAva, paristhiti mujhe, mere AnaMda se judA na kara sake, AMsU bhI haMsate hI haiM. AnaMda merA AnaMda roma roma meM pulakita, aisA AnaMda aura zAMti kA sumela ki koI bhI zubhAzubha bhAva zoka rUpa hI anubhava meM AteM haiM. maiM hI AnaMdamaya, maiM aura merA AnaMda do nahIM haMsanA - ronA, AtA-jAtA, maiM AnaMdamaya eka sadaiva zAMta, gahana, bharapUra, acala anubhava hI hUM. noTa : kyA hai vo jiMdagI jisameM koI nAmumakina sapanA taka na ho. 70 |

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- upAya zarIra meM kahIM laga jAya to vahAM bahuta khUna, athavA rasa ikaTThA hone se sUjana A jAtI hai aura usa bhAga meM halacala svayaM hI baMda jaisI hotI hai, sAtha sAtha dukhatA bhI avazya hI hai taba upAya meM usako pUrA ulaTA kara dukhAva ko aura sUjana ko dabA kara gauNa karake kriyA karanA hI to hai. aise hI mana bahuta hI ciMtita aura hatAza ho sira dukhane lagA to dhyAna ko kucha aura hI jagaha lagA kara halakA karanA hI kucha zAMti detA hai bhale phira se mana ciMtA karanA zurU kyoM na kara de, vo to Adata se lAcAra hai phira bhI upAya DhUMDhane meM laga kara hI mana ko kucha zAMti hotI hai. isI prakAra merA jJAna, jJAnasvarupa ko hI svayaM hI svayaM ko hI jAnane nikalatA hai tabhI sAre indriya jJAna duHkha kA kAraNa hI lagate haiM karmodaya ke bhAva bhI bhale acche hoM duHkha hI dete haiM aMtara meM sattA meM, jaba taka eka rUpa akhaMDa acala dhruvamaya nahIM AtA anubhava meM, vedana meM Ate zubhAzubha bhAva duHkha aura baMdha ke hI kAraNa haiM. maiM mere nitya svarUpako jAnakara, mukhya kara, bhedajJAna hI karatA hUM, aura sabhI ko karatA hUM, yaha upAya guruoM ne samajhAyA hai aura svayaM bhI karake parama zAMti AnaMda ko hI vedate haiM maiM bhI isI upAya se saphala hoUMgA aura pUrNatA taka karatA hI rahUMgA isa upAya ko jAnakara maiM kRtakRtya ho gayA hUM, guruoM kA dAsa bhI ho gayA hUM. 71

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T gatiyAM cAra eka jIva kI gatiyAM cAra, nArakI, triyaMca, deva, manuSya haiM gatiyAM cAra siddha gati hI jAne gatiyAM cAra pAMcavAM nija siddha svarUpa hI AdhAra. eka jIva ke kaSAyoM cAra, . kaSAyoM cAra moha, mAyA, krodha, lobha haiM, kaSAya cAra pUrNa vItarAga hI jAne ina sabako cAra pAMcavAM vItarAga svarUpa hI hai AdhAra. eka jIva 72 eka jIva ke bhAva haiM cAra, bhAva haiM cAra audAyika, kSayopazama, upazama, kSAyika haiM cAra jJAyaka bhAva hI jAne yaha bhAva cAra pAMcavAM paramapAriNAmika bhAva hI AdhAra. |

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- eka jIva hI alaukika, anupama, camatkAra usake kahalAte dravya, kSetra, kAla, bhAva, cAra pUrNa mukta na baMdhA kisIse svAdhIna prakAra paripUrNa, khuda hI khuda se khuda kA hI AdhAra. eka jIva hI pariNamatA vividha prakAra, vividha prakAra jIva hI jJAtA-draSTA, jAne sAre hI prakAra sadaiva mukta rahakara hI baMdhatA vividha prakAra dhruva, akhaMDa, apariNAmI hI hai AdhAra. *** 73

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/ eka samaya eka samaya meM yaha gharabAra jAnane vAlA maiM nahIM maiM kabhI bhI ghara, nagara vAlA banatA bhI nahIM eka samaya meM yaha zarIra jAnane vAlA maiM nahIM maiM nirogI, rogI, baccA, javAna, vRddha hotA hI nahIM eka samaya meM yaha zarIra ke saMbaMdha jAnane vAlA bhI nahIM maiM mA~ / bApa, bhAI / bahana, laDakI / lar3akA bhI nahIM 74 eka samaya meM rAgAdi bhAva jAnane vAlA maiM nahIM bhAva bhale hote mujhameM para eka hI samaya ke haiM eka samaya jitanA jJAna bhI to maiM nahIM jo Tikate nahIM usa rUpa ke bhAva bhI maiM nahIM jAnanevAlA eka samaya meM kabhI bhI pUrA AtA hI nahIM parantu eka samaya meM bhI maiM hI jAnanahAra hUM eka samaya kA jAnanevAlA pUrNa jJAyaka prabhu hUM eka samaya meM maiM jAna lUM bhale duniyA ko maiM to isa duniyA se virakta vItarAgI eka caitanya anaMta guNoM kA eka hI rUpa hUM |

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eka samaya meM merI hI pahacAna jAnanevAlA hUM aura maiM to mujhe hI sadaiva trikAla jAnatA hUM merI hI zuddhatA ki duniyA jaisI hai vaisI hI mere jJAna meM jhalakatI hai aisA hI maiM jJAna hUM jJAnamaya, jJAnAnaMdI, jJAnasvarUpa, vijJAnaghana pUrNajJAna, pramANajJAna, pratyakSa jJAna hI hUM * * *

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kala Aja aura kala kala kA kiyA Aja nahIM aura nahIM Aja se kala, maiM to kala bhI thA, Aja bhI aura bhI rahUMgA kala kala kA kiyA Aja nahIM aura nahIM Aja se kala, maiM to kala bhI thA, Aja bhI aura bhI rahUMgA kala. maiM to hUM pUrNa, abaddha. asparzI aura hUM svataMtra. kaise ho sakatA baMdhA, kala se Aja aura Aja se kala kala kA kiyA Aja nahIM aura nahIM Aja se kala, maiM to kala bhI thA, Aja bhI aura bhI rahUMgA kala. ye to hai kahAnI saMyogoM kI, saMyoga hI haiM baMdha, saMyoga se hI hai viyoga aura baMdha se hI mukta kala kA kiyA Aja nahIM aura nahIM Aja se kala, maiM to kala bhI thA, Aja bhI aura bhI rahUMgA kala. saMyoga viyoga hI banatI kahAnI sukha duHkha kI, saMyoga viyoga hI banatI anubhUti duHkha kI hI kala kA kiyA Aja nahIM aura nahIM Aja se kala, maiM to kala bhI thA, Aja bhI aura bhI rahUMgA kala. maiM to hU~ sadA zAMta sukhamaya, mujha ko na saMyoga aura viyoga. mai to hU~ akelA hI pUrNa trikAla sata kala kA kiyA Aja nahIM aura nahIM Aja se kala, maiM to kala bhI thA, Aja bhI aura bhI rahUMgA kala. isa zarIra kI hI hai garmI aura zarIra kA hI kaMpana, maiM to hU~ niSkampana, pUrNa, arupI aura hU~ jJAnasvarUpa kala kA kiyA Aja nahIM aura nahIM Aja se kala, maiM to kala bhI thA, Aja bhI aura bhI rahaMgA kala. kala bhI na thA baMdhA aura nahIM hU~ baMdhA Aja, basa maiM jAna pAyA isa sata ko hI guru se Aja kala kA kiyA Aja nahIM aura nahIM Aja se kala maiM to kala bhI thA, Aja bhI aura bhI rahUMgA kala. gurudeva aura zAstroM ko sadA rahe merA praNAma, jinhoMne mujha se na baMdhA, batAyA merA mukta svarUpa kala kA kiyA Aja nahIM aura nahIM Aja se kala, maiM to kala bhI thA, Aja bhI aura bhI rahUMgA kala. 76

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kucha na kucha karanA kucha na kucha karane kA bhAva hai, yaha kyA hai? kucha na kucha kiyA to usIke do bhAga ho gaye zubhAzubha bhAva hI kucha na kucha karane ke bhAva haiM maiM svayaM niSkriya, pUrNa, apariNAmI, dhruva hUM. maiM merI hI pUrNa nirmala dazA meM pariNamatA hUM taba maiM kucha bhI karane ke bhAva se hI rahita hUM maiM pUrNa jJAtA-draSTA mujha jJAnasvarUpa ko hI eka abheda ko hI vedatA lokAkAza kA jJAtA hUM, Aja bhI kucha na kucha karane kA bhAva hI to merI eka samaya kI yogyatA kaho, kaho karma phala cetanA yaha mujhase bAhara ho rahA hai, maiM isa bhAva kA kartA nahIM mAtra jJAtA hUM, isIliye bhogatA bhI to nahIM. maiM zuddha, nirmala, akartA, jJAyaka bhAva hI hUM mujha meM hote, kucha na kucha karane aura usameM zubhAzubha kriyA bhI hote, maiM hI jAnatA hUM yaha saba ho avazya rahA hai, ho hI rahA hai.

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maiM hI yaha saba jAna rahA, maiM kartA nahIM maiM akartA kara hI nahIM sakatA isIliye maiM pUNya-pApa meM baMdhatA nahIM jJAtA hI hUM jitanA kartApane se vibhakta, utanA hI sva meM ekatva yahI sva meM ekatva merI zuddhi bhI hai aura zuddhi meM vRddhi bhI hai aura yahI merI mukti bhI maiM isI prakAra pUrNa akartA banakara hI merA svayaM kA pUrNa mukta svarUpamaya hI ho jAtA hUM. kriyA kA karanA na karanA mere hAtha meM nahIM parantu maiM koI bhI kriyA kA kartA nahIM pUrNatayA niSkriya svayaM ko hI AnaMda-zAMtimaya pUrNa jJAna ko hI vedatA svayaM jJAtA draSTA hI hUM ***

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- kauna bole ? kauna sune? maiM bola nahIM sakatA, tU suna nahIM sakatA tU bola nahIM sakatA, maiM suna nahIM sakatA yaha jaina darzana kA mUla sata hai ise jAne mAne bagairaha maiM kabhI jaina bana nahIM sakatA. kyA jinavANI nahIM ? guru upadeza de nahIM sakatA ? kyA maiM ziSya nahIM ? jinavANI suna nahIM sakatA ? sabhI kA honA hai, yahI to saMsAra bhI hai parantu mujha paripUrNa caitanya bhagavAna meM ho nahIM sakatA. bhASA vargaNA hai pudgala, caitanya kara nahIM sakatA maiM jaina hUM, jina svarUpa merA, kaise bolU~ aura sunUM bolakara sunakara rAgI dveSI maiM ho nahIM sakatA "maiM" jAnanahAra sabhI ko "maiM" hI jAna avazya sakatA. kisane kahA maiM bolakara, sunakara rAgI ho sakatA acchA lagAkara haMsa-ro sukhI-dukhI ho nahIM sakatA krodhI, lobhI, bhayabhIta, zaMkita bhI ho nahIM sakatA "maiM" jAnanahAra sabhI bhAvoM ko, haiM parAye jAna sakatA. 79

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- vItarAga svarUpa maiM rAga-dveSa kara hI nahIM sakatA jAna svabhAva merA hai svayaM meM hI paripUrNa jJAnAnaMda indriyoM, aura mana- -buddhi kA sahArA le nahIM sakatA merA jina svarUpa khuda hI khuda se hai jAna sakatA. 80 jinendra deva duniyA kA bhalA-burA na kara jAna hI sakate maiM bhI bAhara kI, zarIra kI koI bhI kriyA kara nahIM sakatA mere vItarAga bhAva ko hI to "maiM" pragaTa hai kara sakatA yahI "maiM" ' utkRSTa se utkRSTa kriyA, pUrNatayA, hUM kara sakatA *** |

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kSayopazama jJAna kSayopazama jJAna hai, nirNaya karane ko ki maiM pUrNa jJAna svarUpa yaha adhUrA jJAna nirNaya na karake, tarka-vitarka meM hI hai ulajhA adhUre jJAna meM prazna aneka aura samAdhAna kI nahIM hai kSamatA aisA Akara khar3A hai bIca meM, karatA abhimAna aura akar3atA. isIliye guru ne samajhAyA hai dRSTi kA viSaya aura batAyA bar3e vistAra se, yadi A jAye zraddhA kI mujha meM gahanatA madhyasthatA se, chor3a isa kSayopazama jJAna kI sAmarthyatA maiM jhuka jAUM, nama jAUM, svIkAra lUM, mujha svarUpa kI sattA sAre prazna, ki kaise hUM maiM pUrA aura itanA adhUrA, hoM nAza kaise maiM saMjJI paMceMdriyoM sahita, atIndriya-nirvikalpa-zAMta anaMta nayoM se paripUrNa, na AUM samajha meM nayoM se, nayAtIta na AUM na AUM isa kSayopazama jJAna meM, rahUM pUrNa svayaM sattA jIva na ulajha isa kSayopazama jJAna meM, uTha upara, dekha to tU hai, eka pUrNa vItarAga, sampUrNa, anupama, alaukika, sattA isI draSTi meM ekAgra, jo AnaMda- zAMtimaya ho rahA hai vedana tabhI jo bhI hai terA jJAna, vaha nAma samyakjJAna hai pAtA.

Page #83
- eka bAra vastu svarUpa ko dekhA, phira jAnA, donoM hI haiM hote sAtha meM, krama se bar3hatI hai ekAgratA, bar3hAtI jJAna bhI tadRSTi sahita kA hI kSayopazama jJAna hai merA phalatA namra, vinayI, vivekI, guru AjJA meM hI jJAna hai merA palatA. 82 *** |

Page #84
- maiM caitanya jJAnAnaMda svarUpa hUM maiM zarIra, ghara, parivAra, samAja se bhinna alaga hI hUM, maiM koI zarIra ghara, parivAra, samAja se samajhautA nahIM. maiM caitanya jJAnAnaMda svarUpa hUM maiM zarIra, samAja, pudgala aura samaya ko bhI jAnatA, jAnanevAlA mAtra hUM mujha svarUpa meM sthira raha hI jAnatA hUM. khuda hI khudA hUM maiM caitanya jJAnAnaMda svarUpa hUM maiM sukha, AnaMda, vIrya, zAMtimaya hUM maiM saMsAra ke dukhoM kI apekSA bagaira hI maiM to svayaM hI, svayaM meM sukhamaya hUM. maiM caitanya jJAnAnaMda svarUpa hUM maiMne zarIra, ghara, samAja ko jAnA avazya hai, jAnanevAlA hUM maiM hI sudhArane, badalane, TikAnevAlA nahIM. 83

Page #85
maiM caitanya jJAnAnaMda svarUpa hUM mujhe zarIra, ghara, samAja se zikAyata nahIM mere svayaM ke rAgAdi se bhI zikAyata nahIM maiM AnaMdamaya thA, hUM, aura sadaiva rahUMgA. maiM caitanya jJAnAnaMda svarUpa hUM maiM to khuda hI khuda meM rahanevAlA khuda meM hI pUrNa mukta, saMsAra se vibhakta khuda hI, khuda ke khudA meM samAnevAlA hUM. * **

Page #86
gurudeva maiMne gurudeva ko itanA hI jAnA jitanA svayaM ke jJAna ko hI jAna pAyA maiMne gurudeva ko itanA hI jAnA jitane mere haThAgrahoM, matAgrahoM ko chor3a pAyA maiMne gurudeva ko itanA hI jAnA jitanI mere jJAna meM azuddhi dUra kara pAyA. zuddha svarUpa nayAtita hai, to usameM naya kaise aura kyoM lageM zuddha svarUpa nayAdhIna nahIM mere gurudeva bhI pUrNa svataMtra hI haiM mere jJAna kA vikAsa, zuddhi meM vRddhi kaise ho, samajhAne vAle gurudeva hI haiM. maiM yadi zarIra karmoM meM aTakA to gurudeva ko nahIM jAnA maiM yadi merI hI tat samaya kI yogyatA meM aTakA to gurudeva ko na jAnA nimittoM meM aTakA to mere sarvotkRSTa nimitta gurudeva ko na jAna pAyA. maiM mere akartA ke marma na samajhA to gurudeva ko bilakula bhI na samajha pAyA maiM svayaM kI svataMtratA, maiM mujha se hI, mujha meM hI, paripUrNa ko na samajhA to phira maiM kaise samajha hI pAUMgurudeva kI siMha jaisI niDara na ruke aisI garjanA. mujha jaise jIva ko bhI saccA vyavahAra aura nizcaya samajhA sakAne vAle merI nidhiyoM ko samajhA, merA bAhara bhaTakanA, kahIM bhI sukha kI bhIkha mAMganA baMda karA kara aMtara meM Thaharane kA upAya, mArga, jJAna, sUjha, gurudeva ne hI dI hai.

Page #87
merI nidhiyoM ko sampUrNa rIti se samajhAne vAle haiM gurudeva, maiM hI aba jAna jAUM yaha to mere hI lagana, rUci, puruSArtha para hI hai, aura sabase mahatva kI bAta batAuM, na chor3a gurudeva kI AjJA hI maiM pAUM merA sukha. maiMne gurudeva ko itanA hI jAnA jitanA svayaM ke jJAna ko hI jAna pAyA maiMne gurudeva ko itanA hI jAnA jitane mere haThAgrahoM, matAgrahoM ko chor3a pAyA maiMne gurudeva ko itanA hI jAnA jitanI mere jJAna meM azuddhi dUra kara pAyA. * * *

Page #88
/ gurudeva kI vANI pake hue cAvala ko mulAyama kara ke, nicor3a kara ke khilAtI hai mAM taba baccA khAkara bar3hatA hai, phalatA hai isI prakAra gurudeva ne AcAryoM ke kathana ko mulAyama kara, nicor3a kara, karuNA bhAva se khilAyA hai mujhe yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai naTa nATaka ke bhaje hue pAtroM ko svayaM kA nahIM mAnatA, nahIM batAtA vaise hI gurudeva ne svayaM ke zarIra kA paricaya na dekara prabhu paramAtmA merA AtmA kA hI sarvathA 9000 kaho yA anaginita bAra paricaya diyA yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai maiM mujhe rAgI / dveSI, manuSya mAnatA rahA, gurudeva ne hI mujha meM hI paramAtmA svarUpa dekhA hai, mujhe bhI batAyA, samajhAyA hai, aura gAya yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai chaha dravyoM kA jJAna karAyA aura mere saMsAra kA bhI jJAna karAyA, para maiM inase bhinna, svayaM meM hI pUrNa, jJAnAnaMda maiM hI eka akelA hUM batAyA yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai isa anaMta saMsAra meM mere hI, eka hI samyak ekAMta ko batAyA DUbUM aura tairatA pAra karUM isa bhava sAgara ko yahI batAyA yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai 87

Page #89
- vyavahAra merA kyA, aura kyA merA nizcaya, merA upAdAna kyA hai aura kyA haiM mere nimitta, mere hI pariNamana ho rahA eka krama se aura mere hI guNa akrama se yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai merA saccA tapa svAdhyAya se svayaM ko jAnanA phira isI meM hI zraddhA kara sAre vyavahAra se mukta hokara ekAgra honA svayaM meM, lIna honA batAyA yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai zarIra ke vrata tapoM ko bhI Atma lakSa se samajhAyA hai, zarIra ho to saMyama hetu batAyA hai, indriyoM ke viSayoM aura mana buddhi ke vikalpoM se bhinna mujhe batAyA yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai paMcaka meM bharata kSetra ke gujarAta meM kAThiyAvADI bhASA meM hI prAkRta aura saMskRta zAstroM ko khuda anubhava kara, samajha kara hameM saralatA se samajhAyA yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai maiM gurudeva ko milI nahIM maiMne to mere guru kI vANI hI jAnI hai, mAnI hai maiM isa vANI meM ramaNI svayaM ko bhI jAna, mAna pAI hUM, upakArI hUM yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai mere liye maMgala hai, mujhe pUjya hai mujhe sunane, par3hane, vicArane, maMthana karane ke liye bhI gurudeva kI vANI hI hai, isa vANI kA hI jhaMkAra hai, gIta hai, sura hai, tAla hai, bhakti hai yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai 88 |

Page #90
gurudeva meM sata kA hI pUrA AdhAra thA sata kI hI nirbhayatA, spaSTatA, vAtsalya bhAva se bharapUra, sarala, sahaja hI jIvana thA unakI bhASA koI bhI virodhAbhAsa se rahita rasIlI hai yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai apUrva, alaukika, vANI kA pravAha hai, gurudeva kahate vANI bhale kaisI bhI ho parantu vikalpa hI hai, maiM vANI meM nahIM, vANI mujha meM nahIM hai phira bhI ziSyoM kA sarvasva hai yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai gurudeva kI vANI hI jaise mere svarUpa kA darpaNa hai, mere sata svarUpa kA jJAna hai sata svarUpa kI zraddhA kA, cAritra kA varNana hai, kucha bhI kahA jAya isa vANI ko yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai aisA lagatA hai, ki gurudeva ne to kundakunda, amRtacandra aura jayasena AcArya jaise isa kAla ke mahAna AcAryoM ke bhAvoM ko khola khola samajhAyA hai, lekina mere svabhAva ko hI batAyA hai yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai mere guru ne to svayaM meM hI, svayaM se hI pUrNa sata svarUpa ko jAna, mAna, mujhe mere hI atIndriya AnaMda kI anubhUti ke liye merI hI bhASA zailI meM mujhe samajhAyA hai yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai mere gurudeva ke eka eka zabda meM, eka eka raNakAra meM AgamoM ke bhAva bhare haiM mujhe mere guru ne aise samasta AgamoM ke bhAva hI mujha meM samajhAye haiM batAye haiM yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai

Page #91
paMDita bhASA ke alaga alaga artha kara kara ke anaMta apekSAoM se samajhAte haiM mere guru ne isa anaMta meM se eka samyak ekAMta nikAla kara hI mujhe batAyA hai, yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai mere meM zubhAzubha rAga ho rahe haiM, maiM jAna rahA hUM, mujhe zubha cAhiye kI lar3AI meM hI par3A thA, guru ne hI mujhe merA zuddha upayoga batAyA, zuddha ko hI jAnUM samajhAyA yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai mere hI zubhAzubha bhAvoM ko vistAra se yathArtha rUpa samajhAyA, zubhAzubha bhAvoM meM rukanA hI merA pAgalapana hai, ise chur3AyA, merA hI zuddha bhAva pratyakSa karAyA hai yahI mere gurudeva kI vANI hai ***

Page #92
jAnakara gurU ne batAyA na hI mujhe koI gama hai aura na hI koI khuzI bhI zAMta svarUpa merA AnaMda aura vIratA se bharapUra hai na maiM kisI kA dAsa hU~ aura na hI koI merA gulAma svataMtra svarUpa merA, yahI mujhe gurU ne jAnakara hI batAyA. jJAna merA svataMtra aura maiM hI jAnatA sabhI jJeyoM ko maiM hUM svataMtra aura kise, kaba, kyoM, kaise jAnatA hUM yaha merI hI yogyatA hai aura jJeyoM meM jJAta hone kI zakti bhI hai, yahI mujha gurU ne jAnakara hI batAyA hai. vizva meM chaha dravya haiM aura sabhI pUrI taraha se svataMtra haiM svayaM meM, svayaM se, svayaM hI badalate bhI haiM, maiM akelA jJAnavAna yaha saba kucha jAnane vAlA sarvotkRSTa jIva tatva hUM maiM, yahI mujhe guru ne jAnakara hI batAyA hai. maiM isa vizva ko banAtA, saMvAratA, aura naSTa karane vAlA nahIM aura yaha vizva bhI mujhe banAtA, saMvAratA, aura naSTa kara nahIM sakatA ise maiM pratyakSa anubhava se jAnatA hUM, yahI mujhe gurU ne jAnakara hI batAyA hai.

Page #93
/ isI prakAra se maiM nizciMta, niHzaMka, nirbhaya, nitya hUM sadaiva se hUM aura rahU~gA bhI, maiM mujhameM hI trikAla mujhase hI TikanevAlA jJAnAnaMda hUM, na gama hai, na qhuzI hai pUrNa svataMtra svarUpa merA, yahI mujhe gurU ne jAnakara hI batAyA. 92 *** |

Page #94
jIva jAga re jAga jIva jAga re jAga, aisI hai tujha meM Aga jala jAeM sAre hI zubhAzubha rAga, jAga re jAga jIva jAga re jAga, aisI hai tujha meM Aga rahe ujjavalita sadA hI kabhI na ho zAma, jIva jAga re jAga. jIva jAga re jAga aise haiM tujha meM prANa tU khila uThe jaise sahastra kaliyoM vAlA kamala, jIva jAga re jAga. jIva jAga re jAga aisA hai terA puruSArtha thakanA nahIM tU to sadA rahe sphUrtimAna, jIva jAga re jAga. jIva jAga re jAga tujha meM hai aisI Aga bhasma hoM sAre baMdhana, tU rahe sadA mukta, jIva jAga re jAga. jIva jAga re jAga tujha meM hai aisI Aga zarIra ke hote kara de bhasma, zarIra kA vedana, jIva jAga re jAga. jIva jAga re jAga aisI hai tujha meM Aga tU sadA rahe nirAbAdha, sukhI rahe abAdha, jIva jAga re jAga. jIva jAga re jAga tujha meM hai aisI Aga maiM mara gayA, raha gayA jJAnAnaMda, jIva jAga re jAga. bahenazrI kA "svAnubhUtidarzana'' prazna - 75 : gahana saMskAra kinheM kahA jAtA hai ?

Page #95
- maiM jaina svayaM nirUpa hUM maiM khuda meM khuda se khudA hI hUM maiM jaina svayaM jinarUpa hUM indriyoM ke to viSaya anaMta aura eka eka viSaya hI khuda meM khuda hai maiM jaina jinarUpa hUM eka samaya meM to saba hI haiM eka samaya meM sabhI badalate bhI haiM maiM zarIra to khuda hI khuda kA hai zarIra khuda kI hiphAjata karatA hai maiM jaina svayaM jinarUpa hUM jaina svayaM jinarUpa hUM mana-buddhi meM vikalpa hI hote haiM vikalpa bhI khuda hI khuda se hI haiM maiM jaina svayaM jinarUpa hUM jaina svayaM jinarUpa hUM badalatA vaha bhI to khuda hI hai jaba maiM to eka nitya sampUrNa hI hUM maiM jaina svayaM jinarUpa hUM Ao suno, dekho aura vicAro sabhI to khuda hI khuda meM hI ThaharA huA maiM jaina svayaM jinarUpa hUM jJAnasvarUpa maiM hI hUM saba jAnatA maiM svayaM meM hI AnaMda zAMtimaya hUM maiM jaina svayaM jinarUpa hUM saba hue jJAta, para kisako ? mujhe hI maiMne to mere hI AnaMda-zAMti ko hI jAnA maiM jaina svayaM jinarUpa hUM. 94 |

Page #96
jaisA maiMne mAnA jaisA maiM mAnatA hUM, vaisA hUM maiM jAnatA, aura usI kA hai vedana mAnatA hUM maiM zarIra, maiM jAnatA mujha zarIra ko hI phira to vedana bhI hai zarIra kA aura saMbaMdha kA hI. jaisA maiM mAnatA hUM, vaisA hUM maiM jAnatA, aura usI kA hai vedana mAnatA hUM maiM AtmA, maiM jAnatA mujha Atma tatva ko hI phira to vedana bhI hai vItarAga bharA abaddha, arAgI kA hI. jaisA maiM mAnatA hUM, vaisA hUM maiM jAnatA, aura usI kA hai vedana mAnatA hUM maiM kartA, jAnatA mujha karmoM ko hI phira to vedana bhI hai kartApane kA hI, karmoM ke phaloM kA hI. jaisA maiM mAnatA hUM, vaisA hUM maiM jAnatA, aura usI kA hai vedana mAnatA hUM maiM akartA, nahIM jAnatA merA koI bhI karma phira vedana bhI hai akartA kA, asaMyogI kA, abaddha kA hI. jaisA maiM mAnatA hUM, vaisA hUM maiM jAnatA, aura usI kA hai vedana mAnatA hUM maiM kSaNika, nahIM jAnatA mere trikAla svabhAvako hI phira vedana bhI hai mujha pariNamana meM, anaMta badalate rAgoM kA hI.

Page #97
jaisA maiM mAnatA hUM, vaisA hUM maiM jAnatA, aura usI kA hai vedana mAnatA hUM sadaiva trikAla, jAnatA mujha trikAla ko hI phira vedana hai mujha pariNamana meM, trikAla prabhu kA hI. jaisA maiM mAnatA hUM, vaisA hUM maiM jAnatA, aura usI kA hai vedana mAnatA hUM zAzvata apariNAmI, jAnatA mujha trikAla ko hI phira vedana hai mujha pariNamana meM parama pAriNAmika bhAva kA hI. jaisA maiM mAnatA hUM, vaisA hUM maiM jAnatA, aura usI kA hai vedana mere jAnane kA, sAmarthya bhI dekho jaba pUrNa sata ko hI jAnA aura mAnA to vedana bhI hai avyAbAdha sukha, zAMti, AnaMda kA hI. * * *

Page #98
TAla sakU~gA jaisI karanI, vaisI bharanI, isako tU TAla sakegA kyA? karane bharane se kabhI bhI, bhavoM kA aMta lA sakegA kyA? acchI karanI se acchA saMsAra lA kara, sukhAbhAsa hI hai karanI meM rahA, janma maraNa kA daHkha, TAla sakegA kyA ? tU khuda hI khudA, pUrNa jJAnasvarupa hI, to phira tujhe kyoM karane bharane kI Adata hI hai, acchI karanI hI pasaMda hai kitanI hI Adata tUne kyoM na banAlI, yaha Adata hI hai kabhI bhI tU kisI kA bhI kucha bhalA/burA kara sakA hai kyA? jaisI karanI, vaisI bharanI, isako tU TAla sakegA kyA ? karane bharane se kabhI bhI, bhavoM kA aMta lA sakegA kyA? pahale kA kiyA Aja bhugata, acchA kara kara kala bhI acchA bhoganA hI manuSya bhava kA makasada hai, kyA ? aisA yadi tU kara bhI le phira bhI Akula/vyAkula raha saMsAra meM hI to phiratA rahegA aura tere khuda ke nija svarUpa se dUra kahIM sukhAbhAsa/duHkha meM bhaTakatA rahegA isa taraha tere zuddha AnaMdamaya ko pA sakegA kyA ? 97

Page #99
maiM hI khuda sampUrNa, jJAna svarUpa hUM aura mujha aMtara se bahatA zAMta/AnaMdamaya vItarAga kA hI niraMtara pravAha hai maiM pUrNa akartA karanI/bharanI ko avazya TAla,trikAla svarUpa meM hI merA hai rUpa, janma maraNa mujhameM kahAM? isI prakAra se nija svarUpa ko jAna, pahacAna kara maiM merI pUrNatA aura akartA svabhAva svIkAra kara ke jaisI karanI vaisI bharanI ko avazya hI TAla sakU~gA janmamaraNa ke dukhoM se bhI jarura mukta ho sakU~gA. * * *

Page #100
tRSA khAnA khAne kI jarUrata zarIra ke liye hai lekina svAda ke liye athavA icchA ke liye khAnA to vikAra hai hAnikAraka hI hai na! isI prakAra jAnane kI jarUrata to maiM kauna hUM jJAnasvarupa hUM yaha jAnane ke liye hI hai usake Age kA jAnanA to nukasAnakArI hI hai na! eka bAra yathArtha nirNaya kiyA phira to nizaMka hokara jJAnasvarUpa ko hI jAnanA merA dharma hai aba maiM kisako jAnUM, kyoM jAnUM, aura kaba jAnUM. jaise bhUkha se jyAdA khAnA mere liye vAstava meM hAnikAraka hI hai, usI taraha nijasvarUpa ko jAnanA hI merA hitakAraka jAnanA hai, jJAna hai. bhautika padArthoM kA jJAna to ajJAna hI hai Aja ke Adhunika pudgala kA jJAna to avazya hI ajJAna hai, jJAna kI tRSA hI hai.

Page #101
yaha tRSA kabhI bhI pUrI nahIM hotI aura jIva isa jJAna kI tRSA ke pIche pAgaloM kI taraha hI cAroM ora bhAgatA najara A rahA hai. merA jJAna to AnaMda zAMtimaya sadA hI rahane vAlA eka rUpa hI hai saMsAra kA jJAna anizcita sadA badalane vAlA hI hai Akula vyAkula hI hai. mujhe saMsAra kA jAnane vAlA kahA jarura jAtA hai kyoMki merA jJAna hI nirmala zuddha hai merA jJAna tRSA rahita, paripUrNa, svAdhIna mujha meM mujha se hI hai. * * * 100

Page #102
dravya dRSTi yaha jaina darzana kI eka mukhya se mukhya dena hai dravya dRSTi se hI samajha pAtA, maiM isa saMsAra ko aura samajha pAtA maiM hI mere pUrNa svarUpa ko. yaha vizva banA hai chaha dravyoM kA hI, na eka kama ho na hI eka adhika kabhI bhI huA, aura na ho sakate tabhI to yaha saMsAra jaisA hai vaisA hI maiM jAnatA hUM. sabhI dravya svayaM meM haiM pUrNa, aura pUrNatA meM hI Tike badalate dikhate haiM hara samaya, isI liye hotI hai bhramaNA maiM jaina hUM to mujhe to chaha hI pUrNa hI dete haiM dikhAI. sabhI dravya khuda hI khuda meM khuda kI kriyA karane meM pUrNa hI haiM, kisI ko kisI kI madada kI jarura hI nahIM maiM isa bAta ko na samajhU to hI mujhe dikhate anaMta dravya. sabhI jIva bhI isI prakAra mujhe to pUrNa zuddha hI dete haiM dikhAI to phira kaise karUM maiM kisIse rAga aura kisI se dveSa, sabhI to haiM mere jaise hI jIva dravya. 101

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mujhameM bhI jo bhI hai apUrNatA use maiM hI to hUM sudhAratA, yahI hai khUbI jIva dravya kI,maiM hI to karatA anaMta puruSArtha tabhI svabhAva hI meM Tika jAtA hUM. yahI to mere paMca parameSThiyoM ne hai mujhe sikhAyA kara itanA puruSArtha kI tU dekha sake terA pUrNa dravya hI nija svarUpa kA hI zaraNa,bana sake tU svayaM pUrNa hI. maiM bhI hUM jIva dravya, TikA mujha svarUpa meM hI pariNamatA hUM avazya maiM, sabhI gatiyoM meM hI mujha svayaM ko hI bhUlakara, aba jAnA, jAgA hUM. aba to maiMne jAna liyA mujha pUrNa dravya svarUpa hI aba pariNamUMgA mujha parama dravya jJAnAnaMda jaisA hI dravya dRSTi se hI maiM pAtA,mujha pUrNa siddha svarUpa hI * * * bahenazrI kA "svAnubhUtidarzana" prazna - 77 : amuka apekSA dravya se paryAya kI bhinnatA batalAte haiM isalie samajhane meM ulajhana lagatI hai 102

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- nija svarUpa merA nija svarUpa jIvita hai kyA ? mujhe mere svarUpa kA anubhava hai ? to phira kaise maiM hUM isa zarIra se bhinna, jaba mujhe to dina-rAta isa zarIra kA bhAsa hai, anubhava hai, merA nija kA to jaise bhAsa hI nahIM maiM to jJAnAnaMda, jAnanahAra hI hUM, phira cAhe jo bhI jAnane meM Aye zarIra, bhUkaMpa, krodha, zAMtabhAva athavA tIvra aura maMda kaSAya maiM nahIM, maiM to isa jJAna se bhinna sthira, svaccha, trikAla, ekarUpa jJAyaka hI hUM jJAnI, jJAyaka hI jAnanahAra hUM, mujha jJAna meM to jJAna hI hai maiM hUM, pUrNa hUM, trikAla hUM aura jo bhI hara samaya jAnanA ho rahA hai tIvra - maMda, zAMta - azAMta, mujhase bhinna hI haiM, pRthak hI haiM, maiM nahIM indriya jJAna ke anaMta viSaya haiM, mana buddhi ke bhI anaMta vikalpa haiM merA jJAna nirviSaya, atIndriya aura nirvikalpa, svayaM meM hI pUrNa hai abheda, akhaMDa, vajra, trikAla, ekarUpa, svaccha, svataMtra, jJAyaka hI hai 103

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zarIra mujha meM rAga nahIM karAtA, maiM zarIra kA kucha nahIM karatA rAga to mere eka samaya ke ajJAna kA phala haiM, mujha svabhAva meM nahIM maiM to rAga se bhinna mujha jJAnAnaMda kA anubhava kara sakatA hUM yahI bAta mujhe guru ne samajhAI hai, aura maiMne samajhI hai, aba maiM saca hI jIvita hUM, maiMne merA jIvatva pahacAnA hai, ina saMyogoM se bhinna mujha svarUpa ko hI jAnanA, mAnanA hI eka merA puruSArtha hai, karanA hai, maiM hUM * * * 104

Page #106
prabhu saMga prabhu terA sAtha hI merA avinAzI sAtha hai aba koI bhI saMyoga, paristhiti, ghaTanA ho mujhe mere sAtha se alaga hI nahIM karatA maiM mere saMga hI paripUrNa AnaMda zAMtimaya hUM. ghaTanAyeM bAhara hI haiM, zubhAzubha bhAva bhI bAhara hI raha jAte haiM, merI bhrakRTI bhI vicalita hI nahIM ho pAtI aba aisA maiM mere saMga hI paripUrNa AnaMda zAMtimaya haM. bhAva Ate haiM para mujhe chUte taka nahIM sparza bhI kara hI nahIM pAte, jo bhI jaisA bhI ho rahA hai sabhI tabhI yogya hI hai maiM mere saMga hI paripUrNa AnaMda zAMtimaya hUM. subaha zAMta hai, suramaI zAma bhI zAMta dhUpa to mujhe prabhu saMga lagatI hI nahIM dina aura rAta phira dina hote rahate haiM maiM mere saMga hI paripUrNa AnaMda zAMtimaya haM. 105

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pahAr3oM bIca surakSita, nadI meM zItala kaIyoM bIca akelA aura akele meM prabhu saMga hI maiM, mujha saMga prabhu hI hai maiM mere saMga hI paripUrNa AnaMda zAMtimaya hUM. bacapane meM nirmalatA, pAgalapana meM koI bhaya nahIM, javAnI meM bhI ullAsa ke sAtha hI vajra, sthira, ekarUpa umar3atA svarUpa hai maiM mere saMga hI paripUrNa AnaMda zAMtimaya hUM. * * * 106

Page #108
mAnyatAyeM mAnyatAyeM, mAnyatAyeM koI kahe purAnI saMskRti acchI to koI kahe naI pragati, kyA donoM sahI ho sakate haiM? koI kahe mIThA acchA to koI kahe namakIna aura tIkhA aura koI kahe, jaisA samaya, kyA sabhI galata ho sakate haiM? koI kahe sabhI cIjoM ko jatana se samhAlo aura koI kahe samhAlane se to sabhI cIjeM sar3eM, kyA donoM sahI ho sakate haiM? koI kahe kAma to pyAra aura dhIraja se hI hotA hai, aura koI kahe dhIraja rakha kara hI baiThe rahoge to kAma ho hI kaise? kAma hone ke liye to pyAra aura dhIraja ko zIghratA aura kartApane se milAnA par3atA hai. icchA bagaira saMzodhana kaisA? jaisI mAnyatA vaisA hI AdamI bana baiThatA hai svayaM vaisA hI puruSArtha bhI karatA hai. amIra bhI garIboM sA jIvana jI letA hai. 107

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/ AdamI mAnyatAoM kA hI sabase bar3A gulAma banatA hai mAnyatAoM se ghirA, mAnyatAoM ke hI pIche lagA rahatA hai| kyA mAnava svayaM ko sArI mAnyatAoM se svataMtra kara sakatA hai ? kyA mAnava kisI bhI mAnyatA bagaira hI jI sakatA hai ? isa saMsAra meM nahIM, saMsArI banakara nahIM, saMbaMdhoM meM nahIM, mukta mAnavI svataMtra, mAnyatAoM bagaira hI, saccA mAnavI hotA hai saMsAra meM hI rahakara, hara mAnyatA ko cunautI detA mAnavI isa saMsAra se upara sadA sukha aura zAMti meM hI jItA hai. 108 *** |

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mRtyu meM mukti nahIM mujhe cala cala ke thaka thaka ke maranA nahIM, mRtyu meM mukti nahIM zarIra cale, bhale hI cale, maiM mujha svarUpa meM hI masta hUM. jAnakara, samajha kara yaha duniyA, maranA nahIM, mRtyu meM mukti nahIM duniyA jAnane meM bhale Aye, maiM mujha svarUpa meM hI masta hUM. bhAvoM se bhAvuka ho haMsate rote maranA nahIM, mRtyu meM mukti nahIM vItarAgatA se raMgA huA maiM, mujha svarUpa meM masta hUM. mujhe jaina, pujArI, vratI bana maranA nahIM, mRtyu meM mukti nahIM jaina to svarUpa hI hai merA, maiM mujha svarUpa meM hI masta hUM. saMbaMdhoM ko TikAne meM, nibhAne meM maranA nahIM, mRtyu meM mukti nahIM sadaiva hI abaddha, avinAzI mujha svarUpa meM hI masta hUM. jInA, phira maranA, phira jInA nahIM, mRtyu meM mukti nahIM jIte hI svayaM mukta ko pahacAna, maiM mujha svarUpa meM masta hUM. 109

Page #111
merI bhakti bhakti kisako kahanA hai, bhakti kisase karanA hai hanumAna ne kI bhakti rAma se, ekalavya ne droNAcArya se ziSya guru se karatA bhakti, bhagata karatA bhagavAna se bhagata ko kyA hai pAnA, kara yaha aTUTa bhakti se. jo darzana batAtA hai mujha AtmA meM hI merA paramAtmA tIrthaMkaroM ne, sabhI ne, anAdi se hai pAyA, svayaM meM hI svayaM kA paramAtmA, vahI pAyA paMcaparameSThiyoM ne, to phira kaise maiM kara sakU bhakti kisI dUje jIva se. sahajAtma svarUpa hI jahAM hai merA paramaguru to phira maiM bhI banI bhakta mere hI nija zuddha paramaguru kI merA nija svarUpa, dhruva, nitya parama svabhAva mujha meM aura merI hI yaha palaTatI vartamAna avasthA hI hai bhakti. maiM bhakti karUM bhakti nija prabhu paramAtva svarUpa kI vartamAna ke sAre saMyogoM, paristhitiyoM ko kara dI haiM kurbAna mere dhruva svarUpa ke sAmane, bana gaI maiM bhagata pUrI taraha, sadaiva ke liye, mere nija prabhu meM hI samAne. 110

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maiM jAnU maiM jJAna hUM, jJAna meM hI rahakara sabhI ko hUM jAnatA maiM jJAna hUM, kabhI bhI kisIkA na banakara hI jAnatA gharabAra jAnA, amIrI garIbI bhI bahuta hai jAnI isa zarIra ke sAre saMbaMdhoM ko bhI to jAna liyA. maiM jJAna hUM, jJAna meM hI rahakara sabhI ko hUM jAnatA maiM jJAna hUM, kabhI bhI kisI kA na banakara hI jAnatA zarIra bhI to bacapana se huA javAna aura phira bUr3hA nirogI ullAsa se bharapUra jAnA aura rogI bhI jAnA. maiM jJAna hUM, jJAna meM hI rahakara sabhI ko hUM jAnatA maiM jJAna hUM, kabhI bhI kisIkA na banakara hI jAnatA hara samaya hote ina zubhAzubha bhAvoM ko bhI jAnA badalate rahate sadA, nacAte mujhe yaha bhI to jAnA. maiM jJAna hUM, jJAna meM hI rahakara sabhI ko hUM jAnatA maiM jJAna hUM, kabhI bhI kisIkA na banakara hI jAnatA ina sabako chor3a, kahIM bhI na ruka jaba maiMne isa jAnane vAle ko jAnA taba maiM acambhe se vahIM ruka hI gayA. 111

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maiM jJAna hUM, jJAna meM hI rahakara sabhI ko hUM jAnatA maiM jJAna hUM, kabhI bhI kisIkA na banakara hI jAnatA aba Thaharane kA sthAna pAyA nija svarUpa maiMne pAyA bhaTakanA hI dukharUpa pAyA Thaharane meM AnaMda pAyA. maiM jJAna hUM, jJAna meM hI rahakara sabhI ko hUM jAnatA maiM jJAna hUM, kabhI bhI kisIkA na banakara hI jAnatA guru kRpA se pAyA, jinavANI ne hI to hai batAyA dekha svayaM meM hI, svayaM se, tU hI hai paripUrNa batAyA. maiM jJAna hUM, jJAna meM hI rahakara sabhI ko hUM jAnatA maiM jJAna hUM, kabhI bhI kisIkA na banakara hI jAnatA gurudeva kI aura jinavANI mAM kI maiM upakArI sadAya unhIMne hai mujhe anaMta sukha ko mujha meM hI hai batAyA. * * * 112

Page #114
maiM dravya hUM maiM jIva dravya hUM aura merI kathA to zurU bhI hotI hai dravyAnuyoga se hI, aura pUrI bhI dravyAnuyoga meM hI maiM jJAnasvarUpa, maiM to apane hI anaMta guNoM meM ramaNatA hUM, mujhe prathamAnuyoga jAnanA jarUrI nahIM, maiM jJAnasvarUpa, karmo, pudgala se pUrNatayA hI sarvathA bhinna hUM, mujhe karaNAnuyoga jAnanA jarurI nahIM, maiM jJAnasvarUpa svayaM ko svayaM kA mAna jAna svayaM meM ekAgra, mujhe caraNAnuyoga jAnanA jarurI nahIM. maiM jIva dravya hUM aura merI kathA to zurU bhI hotI hai dravyAnuyoga se hI, aura pUrI bhI dravyAnuyoga meM hI mujhe zubhAzubha rAga bhI hote haiM, isIliye pUjya guru ne mujhe bar3I hI karuNA se prathamAnuyoga, karaNAnuyoga aura caraNAnuyoga samajhAye haiM, aura mujhe merI hI kathA pUjya guru ne bahuta hI vistAra se batAI hai, mujhe bAhara kahIM bhI, kabhI bhI, bhaTakanA nahIM, maiM guru ko pUrNa samarpita hI svayaM ko jAna mAna pAyA haM. maiM jIva dravya hUM aura merI kathA to zurU bhI hotI hai dravyAnuyoga se hI, aura pUrI bhI dravyAnuyoga meM hI. 113

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maiM hI saba hUM bIja kA cAMda nikalA hai, kucha ujAlA hai aba to pUnama hI AyegI, ujiyArA hI merA hai maiM to pUnama kA cAMda pUrNa ujiyArA hI hUM jhAr3a meM kalI khilI hai phUla kA intajAra hai aba to phUla hI khilegA mahakatI bagiyA hI merI hai maiM to khilA sadaiva mahakatA phUla hI hUM AkAza to bAdaloM se ghirA bijalI camakI hai aba to barakhA barasegI, zItalatA hI merI hai maiM to zItala svabhAva vAlA hI hUM prAtaHkAla meM sUraja kI kiraNeM camaka rahI haiM ThaMDI havA ke jhoMke haiM, ramaNIyatA hI merI hai maiM anaMta guNoM meM hI ramaNatA eka hUM vRkSa meM to phala laTaka rahe haiM, mIThe hI haiM phaloM se bagiyA bharI hai, mIThA svAda hI merA hai maiM AnaMda, sukha, vIrya se sadaiva bharapura hUM 114

Page #116
yadi maiM jIva hUM yadi maiM jIva hUM, to jIva merA nAma maiM ajIva, zarIra, indriyoMvAlA, mana, dravyakarma, bhAvakarma, nokarma jitanA nahIM yadi maiM jIva hUM, to jIva merA nAma maiM tapa, bhakti, pUjA Adi kriyA bhI nahIM, kriyAyeM mujha jIva meM hotI hI nahIM yadi maiM jIva hUM, to jIva merA nAma jaba milUM, jahAM milUM, usakI paravA nahIM, para milanA to nija svarUpa se hI yadi maiM jIva hUM, to jIva merA nAma svasaMvedana se bharA jJAna, zAMti hI hUM maiM, isI kA hI vedana merA sva bhI hai yadi maiM jIva hUM, to jIva merA nAma samasta avasthAoM kA jJAna ho, athavA ho bhale vedana bhI, sabhI hI jJAna hI hai yadi maiM jIva hUM, to jIva merA nAma mujhe caina-sukha-zAMti sva meM hI hai, kisI bhI prakAra se kisI bhI para meM nahIM yadi maiM jIva hUM, to jIva merA nAma jaba taka na mile mujha hI mujhe,phira kaise rahUM maiM zAMta, kyA hai merI khoja bhI khUba nirAlI 115

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yadi maiM jIva hUM, to jIva merA nAma khoja bhI mujhe lAtI hai, para vastu se chur3A nija svabhAva kA hI anubhava karAne yadi maiM jIva hUM, to jIva merA nAma khoja bhI lAtI hai mujhe vikalpoM se chur3A nirvikalpa jJAna kA hI anubhava karAne yadi maiM jIva hUM, to jIva merA nAma. * * * 116

Page #118
rAjA maiM hUM AtamarAma merI hai pahacAna jAnanA dekhanA rAma ne bhI bera to khAye the zabarI ke usane eka eka bera ko cakhA aura mIThe se mIThe bera hI khilAye bhagavAna rAma ko isI taraha. maiM bhI yadi jAnUM kisIko to usa jJAna kA svAda bhI to aparaMpAra AnaMda aura zAMtimaya hI honA cAhiye na tabhI to maiM hUM AtamarAma merA jJAna jAne to jJeya bhI hai merA AnaMda zAMtimaya AtamarAma maiM hUM jIvarAja merI hai pahacAna jAnanA dekhanA rAjA kA bhojana bhI to koI vizeSa vizvAsu hI banatA hai aura vizvAsu se banA bhojana bhI cakha karake hI to parosA jAtA hai. maiM bhI yadi jAnUM to pUre vizvAsa aura zraddhA ke sAtha hI merA jJeya bhI svayaM zAMtimaya aparaMpAra anaMta guNoM se suzobhita eka rUpa svaccha, nirmala, paripUrNa, sadaiva, aTala, merA hI to hotA hai. mere jJAna kA jJeya koI bhI para dravya isIlie ho hI sakatA nahIM para dravya saMyoga se, AkulatA, vyAkulatA dilAne vAlA dukhamaya hI hai maiM, merA jJAna, merA jJeya khuda hI, khuda meM hI, khuda se hI pUrNa AnaMdamaya hUM. 117

Page #119
maiM rAjA, maiM hI rAma, maiM hI to hUMjIva pUrNa, AtamarAma maiM hI nirmala, maiM hI svaccha, maiM hI to hUM jAnanahAra, pUrA lokAkAza jhalaka jAye mujha AnaMdamaya jJAna meM, maiM hI jJAnasvarUpa, AnaMda-jJAnamaya. * * * 118

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samaya kI balihArI kahate haiM samaya sabhI dardo kI davA hai samaya ke sAtha bar3e se bar3A duHkha bhI AdamI saha letA hai. sahanA sIkha hI jAtA hai. kyA isa bAta meM saca bhI hai? subaha ho yA zAma mithyAtva kI nahIM zAma AdamI dukhI hotA hI kyoM hai? jo use acchA lage, priya lage usIkA chUTa nA hI to hai rogI zarIra samaya se hI nahIM davA se ThIka hotA hai. mithyAtvI, ajJAnI jo cIja hI usakI nahIM unako hI priya banA viyoga meM dukhI hai isa ajJAna kI davA to jJAna hI hai, samaya kyA kare? samaya to dukha meM jIne kA Adi hI banA sakatA hai. 119 \

Page #121
yadi maiM svayaM ko pahacAnUM, jAnUM, aura mAnUM to dukha hI kahAM maiM to pUrNa sukhamaya hI hUM dukha se to ho sakatA maiM kosoM dUra kSaNa meM jJAna se, phira kyoM maiM karUM barbAda samaya ko. mujhe to dukha kA aMta karanA hai, na kI dukha ke saMga jIne kA Adi bananA hai. mujhe to svayaM ko sukha-zAMtimaya jJAnAnaMda ko hI merA jAna mAna sukha kA hI sadaiva anubhava karanA hai samaya kA kyA ? ** * 120

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sAdhaka, sAdhana, sAdhya maiM hI hUM sAdhana, sAdhaka aura merA hI sAdhya aisA alaukika, adabhuta, anupama hai rUpa merA maiM prabhu nitya hI hUM, mere hI anitya bhAva haiM, pratyeka samaya ekarUpa hI pragaTa hotA hI rahatA hUM isa prakAra hI maiM sadaiva, anaMta samaya taka rahatA hU~ maiM nitya ekarUpa mere hI anitya meM pragaTatA hUM maiM hI hUM sAdhana, sAdhaka aura merA hI sAdhya aisA alaukika, adabhuta, anupama hai rUpa merA maiM anitya, nitya meM hI ekAgra hokara hI, svayaM hI AnaMda-zAMtimaya sadaiva rahatA hai maiM anitya meM bhI pratyeka samaya nitya ko hI anubhava ne meM pUrNatayA sAmarthyavAna hUM maiM hI hUM sAdhana, sAdhaka aura merA hI sAdhya aisA alaukika, adabhuta, anupama hai rUpa merA aisA alaukika hai bhAva merA, astitva merA, maiM mujha meM hI pUrNa siddha samAna sadA pada merA maiM hI hUM nitya aura maiM hI hUM anitya bhI, aisA paripUrNa camatkArI caitanya svarUpa hai merA maiM hI hUM sAdhana, sAdhaka aura merA hI sAdhya aisA alaukika, adabhuta, anupama hai rUpa merA saMsArI hUM taba taka to merA anitya hI saMsAra sanmukha hokara sukhAbhAsa aura dukhI hI hUM mukta hUM taba to mere hI nitya siddha svarUpa ke sanmukha hokara abAdha sukhI hI hUM. maiM hI hUM sAdhana, sAdhaka aura merA hI sAdhya aisA alaukika, adabhuta, anupama hai rUpa merA sAdhaka dazA bhI to merI hI mere meM hI hai saMsAra meM paribhramaNa kA samaya jaise huA hai aMta prabhu darzana nitya svarUpa meM hI lIna hotA hUM aura bhUmikAnusAra rAgAdi kA jJAtA banatA hUM. maiM hI hUM sAdhana, sAdhaka aura merA hI sAdhya aisA alaukika, adabhuta, anupama hai rUpa merA isI prakAra saMsArI, phira sAdhaka, aura phira pAtA hUM merA hI nitya pUrNa svarUpa mujha meM hI maiM hI hUM sAdhana, sAdhaka aura merA hI sAdhya aisA alaukika, adabhuta, anupama hai rUpa merA. 121 \

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/ svarUpa mujha meM gupta svarUpa mujha meM gupta nahIM, maiM hI svarUpa meM gupta hUM isIliye bAharI koI bhI kriyA maiM kara sakatA nahIM zarIra kI bhI koI kriyA, bolanA, calanA, khAnA-pInA vicAranA, anumAna lagAnA, zekhacilliyAM kara sakatA nahIM. svarUpa mujha meM gupta nahIM, maiM hI svarUpa meM gupta hUM maiM merA ghara hU~, ThaharanekA sthAna maiM hI trikAla hUM mujhameM hI pUrNa, akhaMDa, zAzvata, ekarUpa merA ghara hai nija svarUpa meM hI Thahara, ramaNatA maiM kara sakatA hUM. svarUpa mujha meM gupta nahI, maiM hI svarUpa meM gupta hUM merA ghara akhaMDita hai usameM malinatA AtI hI nahIM phira malinatA dUra ho, zuddhi A jAe bhAva bhI nahIM ina zubhAzubha bhAvoM meM chupA nahIM, chipa sakatA nahIM. 122 svarUpa mujha meM gupta nahI, maiM hI svarUpa meM gupta hUM maiM zarIra, zarIra ke saMbaMdhoM se to bhinna hI hUM zubhAzubha bhAvoM se bhI pUrNatayA bhinna hI hUM zuddha jJAyaka zubhAzubha kara hI nahIM sakatA kabhI. |

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svarUpa mujha meM gupta nahI, maiM hI svarUpa meM gupta hUM mujhameM anaMta guNa jJAna-darzana-cAritra saMga ekarUpa haiM anaMta anaMta raha kara hI eka dUje meM eka rasa rUpa haiM maiM aisA eka camatkArI, prakAzamAna udyotamAna hUM. svarUpa mujha meM gupta nahI, maiM hI svarUpa meM gupta hUM bAhara dekhU yA dekhU maiM aMtara, jaba taka maiM dekhU eka nahIM mujha rAgI ko zubhAzubha bhAva ho hI jAtA hai, hotA hai merA aMtara hI, eka rUpa, akhaMDa, acala, trikAla hai. svarUpa mujha meM gupta nahI, maiM hI svarUpa meM gupta hUM mere eka rUpa kI pratIti, anubhUti, hI merA dharma hai isa nija rUpa meM Tika sakanA, jamA rahanA, ekAgra rahanA hI to merA vIrya hai, sukha bharA cAritra bhI to hai. svarUpa mujha meM gupta nahI, maiM hI svarUpa meM gupta hUM mere bAhara to mujha meM hI jaise mere hI anaMta rUpa hoM aisA dikhAI detA hai, lekina yahI to jUThA hai, saca nahIM eka hI sata hai, vItarAga hai, siddha hai, zAzvata trikAla hai. 123

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svarUpa mujha meM gupta nahI, maiM hI svarUpa meM gupta hUM anaMta ko na dekhatA svarUpa meM lIna hote hote hI maiM pUrNa taraha svarUpa meM lIna ho hI jAtA hUM, tabhI to merI paryAya bhI eka zuddha bhAva meM Tika hI jAtI hai. svarUpa mujha meM gupta nahI, maiM hI svarUpa meM gupta hUM paryAya hai, kSaNika hI hai, abhI zubhAzubha rUpa ho rahI hai lekina maiM to eka zuddha svarUpa hI hUM aura svarUpa meM hI ekAgra, lIna, nimagna raha sakane vAlA vIryavAna hI haM. * * * "jJAna vairAgyarUpI pAnI aMtara meM sIMcane se amRta milegA, tere sukha kA phavvArA chUTegA; rAga sIMcane se du:kha milegA. isaliye jJAna-vairAgyarUpI jala kA siMcana karake mukti sukharUpI amRta prApta kara" bahenazrI ke vacanAmRta-16 124

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A Poem to Share Family home, summer home And a home for my interests! Am I wandering between all of these? Or do I own one home? Day job, night job And job for my interests! Am I wandering between all of these? Or do I work one job? Government, non-government And private organizations! Am I wandering between all of these? Or do I build one organization? Intellectual exercise, physical exercise And spiritual exercise! Am I wandering between all of these? Or do I practice one exercise? 127

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Lectures from Guru, book reading And self-introspection! Am I wandering between all of these? Or do I have one teaching? We seek change in search of happiness But we only get lost, wandering, wandering. My stability is a gem I have not yet unearthed. 128

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Devotee Who is the devotee? One who tries tirelessly, who has everlasting Energy, drive, devotion to triumph over the present condition One devotee is sustaining and promoting humanity so Everyone will live in this world with justice and peace Another devotee seeks the soul within, conquers personal deficiencies When devotee finds the ultimate bliss within, then the world is perfect Devotee, learn from history, history is ours, we have lived it It is neither philosophy nor theory; history tells us what happened We have been trying to improve this world forever, But concerns remain, just change in geography, context, issues Similarly, devotees have forever sought inner strengths Those who found themselves, found ultimate bliss, happiness Devotee, either you try to fix the world outside or Go within to find your own eternal bliss and observe the world as it is 129

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After all, is justice and peace for me in my soul or in the outside world? Devotee, recognize it is within, not bound by country, circumstance or time The world turns with its own universal laws Thus no one can create, sustain, or destroy this world Devotee, you cannot afford to lose focus, make your goal inward Let fires burn around you, the forest will thrive stronger when the fires subside Lotus flower grows white, pure, fragrant, does not even touch the water beneath Water could be clean or muddy, I am the lotus Let the world be, and find your own peace Then devotee, you will be able to propagate the everlasting peace My path, my spiritual justice, my spiritual law is clear to me, without compromise I want to feel complete freedom, peace, and joy. And propagate that to others If my goal is just, then my devotion is also never ending, not tiring, only inspiring As I find peace and happiness, so will humanity. 130

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T Instant Gratification The failure for our future generation Information technology has created all, instant gratification Video games, television shows, do not let us relax or think Do not let us savor ourselves, the joy within us, gratification deep down Technology stimulates the five senses and creates temporary happiness Stimulation distracts us from a deeper knowledge Our gurus have contemplated this for 2000 years Have experienced the vast, boundless, still knower The knowledge () is pure, perfect and deep Pearls are found deep in the ocean, not in the crashing waves Human is attracted to this shallow gratification, instant information Feels happy, sad, informed, successful, like a little boy who cannot live without games Boy, do not get consumed, instant is not gratification, but a disguise. Instant is temporary and gives us pain, is an obstacle to reach deeper Young man, gratification is not instant. It is not based on the changing outside world Profound everlasting gratification springs from your steady, pure, perfect form 131

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T Learning I witnessed the intensity and need for learning I asked my grandson, are you hungry? He answered "no" I was making a sandwich and hot chocolate for his brother So asked again, can I get anything for you? He answered, "no, not now, I am doing something" 132 He was trying to solve the Rubixcube If he was not getting it, he was crying and trying He was hungry and thirsty for the learning He was in despair if he was not getting the steps This intensity is crucial for true learning First, one has to make the decision to learn Desire to learn is one's own triumph Second, one has to try with intensity and effort Information is transformed into knowledge Then only one learns, does, and enjoys |

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T My grandson's resolve inspired me If I have not reached my goal, then keep on working No need to get tired or hungry or thirsty Keep on trying with desire and intensity Next morning he could solve the Rubixcube in no time *** 133

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Match This morning I woke up, feet were cold, looking for socks Never could find a pair, there are a hundred socks, but not a single pair! Went in the kitchen, to pack grandchildren's school lunches The story repeats, cabinet full of containers but none with the right lid! Is this same for feelings and reality? Never matching Do I feel what reality is, or do I imagine reality the way I want to feel I am clever at changing reality to match my feelings As I match or mismatch the socks and the containers If I am true to my reality and feel the way it is My life could be very different, simpler, and more straightforward Not to maneuver, but to simply be aware One can know the true depth of reality and one's feelings The adage says, "Think with your heart and feel with your mind." If I think with my heart, then I am truer to reality, and know more A player thinks with the heart and sees where the ball is going, Before it even leaves the hands of the thrower, by reading the emotions 134

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Now the player feels with the mind, so does not get caught in emotions And is able to respond to that ball with the speed of knowing That is a clever ball player and also a clever player in life To know "The way it is" brings eternal bliss and happiness My body has no match with my soul, they are just different Know them differently by their qualities, and feel them differently Only "I," the soul, is the knower, is able to feel. My body changes on its own and remains separate. I am a completely free spirit, a soul, in this body Full of bliss and happiness, not affected by this body The body and its relations change, "T" remain constant There is no match, both are complete themselves. 135

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MONA, MOMA & Me January 24th, 2015. I am sitting in Boston, MA, USA. Snow has been falling outside, so I woke up to white earth, brown trees covered with white buds, white flowers; if I look up there is blue sky covered with white rain. There is beauty of white, cleanliness of white, purity of white, and flying, singing, dancing, picture of white. Snow talks and I enjoy. It is as if I am in nature's museum! The Museum of Modern Art (MOMA) in New York City is quite famous. People come from all over the world to see it. I remember one day, one of my cousins, but the age of my daughter, came from India to visit us in Connecticut. We were going to take her to New York. I asked, where do you want to go? She said, I have seen the city, so now I want to do shopping. Can you please take me to the Indian area for shopping? I said yes and we all got into the car. My young son, born in the USA, was also with us. He asked the girl, I hear you have seen the city, did you visit MOMA? She thought, I saw the Statue of Liberty, the World Trade Center, Times Square but, what is MOMA? She said no I haven't, but I do want to shop. She had never been exposed to modern art. He said, listen, if you have not seen MOMA, you have not seen New York. She was convinced. I told her, if you see the museum quickly, we may still be able to do shopping. She enjoyed the museum so much that I could not drag her out. For me, thank goodness, it closed at five that day. We did some quick shopping and I drove back an hour and halfto Connecticut. MONA, Mumukshus of North America is an amazing online organization that focuses on the soul. Today, Saturday morning, January 24th is Shree Kundkund Acharya's 136

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birthday. Shree Kundkund Acharya is the master on the topic of the soul. His writings of 2000 years ago are the most revered teachings of Jainism around the globe. He has written comprehensive and detailed books known on the topic of soul. This is my kind of museum and I can enjoy this forever. On this snowy morning, I remember the joy I saw in a girl who was never exposed to modern art and yet became completely engrossed in the MOMA. Similarly when I started reading the lectures given by Gurudev Shree on the Samaysar granth written by Pujya Kundkund Acharya for the first time I could not stop myself. I read about 6,000 pages in few months utilizing every free moment I had. The topic of the soul, which may not seem interesting to many, captured me. After indulging in the memory of MOMA from years ago, I refocus on the MONA-run swadhyay about to start. We begin by listening to a melodious prayer. We then discuss one topic, the soul, through three main texts, or granths: Ratnakarand Shravakachar, Pravachansar, and Niyamsar. Many may be unfamiliar with these names. But these are the fundamental books on the topic of the soul. Three lecturers joined us from India one at a time for about an hour each. We discuss the topic and ask questions. We have e-texts in front of us on our computers and iPads; with the translations in the language we are most familiar with, such as Hindi or Gujarati. First lecture: Pandit Uttam Chandji talks about Ratnakarand Shravakachar, and he discusses the first two shlokas of this granth. This granth, written by Shree Samantbhadracharya, describes the life of a Jain householder. It talks about how one can live while enjoying the Eternal, and not experience any sorrow, tears, or even temporary joy. He speaks very fluent Hindi with great speed and clarity. He explains the 137

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fundamental definition of Dharm (religion). The meaning of Dharm is not simply to do good and stay away from evil, neither is it blind faith. True Dharm is for me to experience, enjoy, and submerse in the true nature of the soul forever. The second lecture: Pandit Hemchandji talks about the Pravachansar written by Shree Kundkund himself. He speaks in Hindi with medium speed and tone. He explains the 114th gatha of this granth, explaining my true nature. My soul is a dravya, or substance, full of anant, infinite or uncountable, qualities and can be experienced as one full, unshakable, unbreakable, ever-blissful being, dravyarthiknaya. At the same time, each of my qualities can be experienced individually, Paryayrthiknaya. The third lecture: Rajubhai Kamdar speaks in fluent, authentic, Kathiavadi Gujarati. His voice is slow, monotonous; he seems to sing one tone for an hour. Today's topic is about how one can step back from this world and enjoy the bliss of one's soul. The topic is from gatha 77 to 87 from granth Niyamsar, written by Shree Kundkund himself. Stepping back from the world allows one to step into the soul, which I have never done before. Today is quite special because it is Shree Kundkund Acharya's birthday. Beautiful pure white earth feels like my soul as described by three gurus, based on three shashtras. It brings MOMA, MONA and Me together for an extraordinary feeling. To me, today, MOMA and the whole world seem uninteresting. Instead one topic, the soul, grips me, in different forms, books, angles, voices, languages, tones and speeds. I am immensely grateful to Pujya Kanji Swami and to the gurus who learned from him. They give their time to make important ancient texts accessible to us today. I feel lucky to, with the help of MONA, understand my selfand immerse in my eternal soul. 138

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Pure and Applied? The doctor said, what we teach is half wrong in medical school Problem is we do not know which half is wrong Isn't this the problem of science today and forever? It maybe the reason our theories change every decade or so We do not know the ultimate truth and then believe in half truth All our fights, disagreements are about this half truth In medical science, we seem to progress, learn, regress Our quest to understand the body, to be healthy and happy, still seems far People talk about pure and applied sciences. If one does not know the pure, how could one apply? How could there be two sciences? The pure scientist's quest is to find the whole truth Does not believe in distractions from the quest in looking for applications The focus is to reach complete truth Does not matter how much time and effort it might take 139

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The applied scientist may think, why just keep searching? One should apply what one knows and benefit from it Forgoes the opportunity to find the complete truth And takes the risk of applying the half truth Both pure and applied science stop at the understanding of matter Ultimate science is the science of not only matter but also the soul Science of body changes as I change, circumstances change Science of soul stays the same, constant, blissful We neither know the ultimate truth, nor take the time to understand it Life is short and there's a lot to be done, so take the half-truth and run with it My ultimate peace, truth and happiness, is not in my body My ultimate peace, truth and happiness is in my soul, residing within this body 140

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The Wedding Jain philosophy explains complex human nature completely, explicitly, and perfectly. We witness this philosophy in our lives every day, but even more so during the big events of our lives such as these three days. The emotions of connection and renunciation are profound during a wedding. Wedding and renunciation! Sounds strange! Is a wedding an event of only connections, connections between two souls, two bodies, and two families? Or is it much more than that? For the wedding, the parents commit their wealth, health and time to make the celebration the best. After the celebration, my son or daughter is not going to come running to us for every discussion or call us every evening either. My child has found a lifelong partner to depend upon and be happy with. The first lifelong partners, the parents, are displaced by the second lifelong partner. Is this connection and renunciation in one? When we make new connections, the old ones take a back burner. We spend a life time maintaining the bonds provided to us by birth or life coincidences. In the present case, the first connection with parents was given by birth and second was made on Shadi.com. A quite wonderful, profound lifelong connection of two doctors, with similar thinking and nature, was established. A solemn puja will be performed before the wedding to remind us that we are here to enjoy the celebrations of connections, fully knowing the fragility, delicacy, pain, and tears that come with them. Can we be bonded to our connections and free from them at the same time? We experience strong bonds only if we also understand the freedom hidden in the bonds. For wedding dresses, one buys the best fabric. Then the tailor has to cut the fabric. For a 141

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moment, one fears that the best of best fabric is going to get cut. But the fabric has to find its own freedom first. Then the fabric has to get stitched just right to fit all the emotions. That is called the perfect dress. Mehndi is applied for hours in fine designs with great perfection. To balance the color and the designs, the lines have to be thick enough to give a deep color, yet delicate enough to portray an intricate illustration. After a couple of weeks, the deep bright color of Mehndi fades like the sunshine and evenings of our lives. If we invest in intricacies of understanding our soul, we can be steadfast within. Then we will not feel our connections deepening and fading like Mehndi, but be able to experience a calm, stable deep bright color of our own. Many instruments make one, beautiful melody. Many instruments are required to create harmony. Many of us will dance and make one moving circle, uniting with colors and music, fully knowing and wanting to forget all the challenges of our lives. The harmony is not in outside connections and circumstances, but within. My own infinite qualities join to create one strong, steadfast nature. The present life provides us with bonds, yet within us we are eternally complete and free. Isn't this a wonder! If I am complete within me, then I have the strength to fight and enjoy, to connect and disconnect, to laugh and cry, and to love. We bestow an eternal blessing to the couple to understand that strength within, which empowers one to live life fully. Strength within is our true strength, allowing us to share, give, take. At the end of the celebrations, parents may feel they are losing an important connection to their children, but we hope parents also connect with their souls. Then they all will experience just right, never fading, never ending, equanimous happiness and unity within. 142

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203-775-1906 This is just a phone number, a meaningless arrangement of 10 digits. Yet these digits tell the story of a remarkable person in vivid detail. Hansraj Champshi Maru travelled to America from India in 1968. He completed a master's degree and a PhD in Chemical engineering in Chicago, even as he and I started a family. In 1978, we moved to Brookfield, Connecticut and lived there for thirty years. During that entire time, 203-775-1906 was our phone number. Even when we moved to Boston seven years ago with our children and grandchildren, these ten digits have remained as Hans' mobile number. Today, he received a phone call on his cell phone, and the person left a long message. The man is a Jain recently arrived from India, now in Texas, and has received a job opportunity in CT. When he Googled the location for a Jain Center in CT, our old address, 7 Trailing Ridge Road in Brookfield and 203-775-1906 appeared. When he reviewed the location on Google Maps, the location appeared to be a private property, and the man was confused, so he called. A tiny slice of earth, 7 Trailing Ridge Road, again offers deep significance to Hans' remarkable life. It was the house of Hans and our family for 20 out of the 30 years we lived in Connecticut. Even in today's technology era if someone searches for a Jain organization in the whole CT, he locates Hans's former house. A life of meaning brings new meaning to assortments of digits and slices of earth. Hans is outwardly an educated, successful engineer, who directed over 100 PhDs in alternative energy research and built a path-breaking fuel cell company. He is a father and a grandfather and in many ways the patriarch of the extended Maru clan in America 143

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and beyond. Yet above all, Hansraj Maru is a Jain. Others might see that Jainism manifests in Hansraj as a vegetarian, as someone who abstained from alcohol his whole life, even as work demanded attending gala dinners where he was pressured by his superiors to indulge. Yet more deeply, he has lived with Jain values, Jain ideas, Jain practices, throughout his life. He was raised in a small rural town in India as a farmer's son on one acre of land. When he was just eight years, old he would spend hours with Jain monks helping them write prayers after his school and farm work. After moving to the United States, he founded the Jain Center of Connecticut and taught for over two decades. He also was a regional Vice President for the Jain Association of North America, an association with a membership of about 100 Jain Centers. Even today, just like this phone call, we get 20 to 30 phone calls during the Jain festivals of Paryushan, Das laxan, and Mahaveer Jayanti asking how to find the Jain Center of Connecticut. To all who are close to him he is known for his loving personality with unshakable patience. As an executive at FuelCell Energy, Inc., he would talk with the same compassion to his boss as to the cleaner. All levels of employees, from secretaries to other chiefs, would come to his office for support and advice. When he volunteered with the public schools, we always heard about his calm, consistent efforts with all involved. While I try not to pick up any unknown numbers, he still answers the phone calls looking for the Jain Center with the same patience. People who drive up the quarter-mile long hilly driveway looking for a Jain temple at 7 Trailing Ridge Road will find a house that Hans left years ago. Hans, who left India, then Chicago, then Connecticut, now settled in Boston, is and always will be known for his Jain values, his Jain way of life, but most importantly, his Jain way of being. 144

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umeda che umeda che umeda aMtarathI, AnaMda che AnaMda aMtarathI hara pala vadhAvuM chuM nija dhruva paramAtmAne aMtarathI zAMti che amApa, sukha che zAzvata ne dhana, sadAya samAnA evo ja to che anero mAro nija dhuva che aMtarathI umeda che umeda aMtarathI, AnaMda che AnaMda aMtarathI hara pala vadhAvuM chuM nija dhuva paramAtmAne aMtarathI pUrNa, tRpta, ayogI, ekalo, saharatrapaNe bharapUra evo ja to che anero mAro nija dhruva che aMtarathI umeda che umeda aMtarathI, AnaMda che AnaMda aMtarathI hara pala vadhAvuM chuM nija dhuva paramAtmAne aMtarathI zuddha che, sapUrNa che, abheda, akhaMDa, mAro jJAnAnaMda evo ja to che anero mAro nija dhuva che aMtarathI umeda che umeda aMtarathI, AnaMda che AnaMda aMtarathI. hara pala vadhAvuM chuM nija dhuva paramAtmAne aMtarathI pUrNa akartA ne vIryavAna ke thAya kAma pote ja evo ja to che anero mAro nija dhuva che aMtarathI umeda che umeda aMtarathI, AnaMda che AnaMda aMtarathI hara pala vadhAvuM chuM nija dhuva paramAtmAne aMtarathI 145

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/ khataro che jIvane vizvAsa' vagara anubhava thato nathI ane jIvane anubhava vagara vizvAsa Avato ja nathI eTale ja badhA jJAnI kahe che jIva tane vizvAsa ja pahelAM karavo paDaze, guru kahe divasane rAta, to paNa ziSyane aMtarathI pUrNa vizvAsa thAya e ja ziSya gurugamya, jJAnIgamya, paMcaparameSThIgamya AtmasvarUpane anubhava karI zake che, thAya che jIva tuM sata deva-zAstra-gurumAM ja pUrNa surakSita che enAMthI bahAra badhe ja khataro che, jANa, hamaNAM ja jANa 'vizvAsa H ahIM dhAraNA ane anumAnane lIdhela che 146 |

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jIva tuM jANa A vastu mArI A tArI, A kAMI jJAna nathI vastu to vastunI ja vastumAM ja che, A jJAna che A ISTa, A aniSTa kAMI jJAna nathI Aje je ISTa kAle aniSTa thato jaNAya che Aje je mArA mATe ISTa eja ja kAle mArA mATe aniSTa rUpe paNa jaNAya che to pachI jJAna zuM che? jJAna to jema che ema ja, ne jenuM che enuM ja jANanAra che mAruM dravya eka abheda, akhaMDa, trikALa che huM jANanAra eka, anaMta guNo mArAmAM che. huM jJAyaka bhAva Takela, pariNamato chuM Avo mAro AnaMda, zAMtimaya, svabhAva che AnAthI mArAmAM kAMI ochuM ke adhika nathI. AnAthI mArAmAM kAMI viparIta paNa nathI. AmAM kAMI paNa saMzayano sthAna nathI Avo nirvikalpa jJAna mAro vitArAgamaya pragaTa mArA svarUpane ja prasiddha karanAro che 147 -

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/ dIvo dIvAne ja darzAve, ne darpaNa darpaNa ne ja badhuM jaNAya e dIvo ne darpaNanI ja khUbI che mAro jJAna mane ja darzAve, anubhavAya evo che nirvikalpa, AnaMda, sukha, vIryano trikALa puMja avinAzI tatva huM chuM ne sadAya rahIza jIva tuM jANa 148 *** |

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/ dhaMdho mArA gurudeve dhaMdho paNa karyo, hamezAM kahetA dhaMdho to mArA ja bApuno, mAro ja hato, huM pUrNa svataMtrapaNe dhaMdho karI zakato dhaMdhA para dharmanuM vAMcana karuM, koI saMta Avyo hoya to dhaMdhAne choDIne sAMbhaLavA jaI zakuM, huM mArA dhaMdhAmAM svataMtra hato AvI samajaNa ApaNane kAma karatAM AvI jAya to ApaNe paNa sAce ja potAnI svataMtratAne samajI, mANI zakIe ApaNe to sahaja je dhaMdho maLyo che enAM parAdhIna thaI jaIye mAro dhaMdho hoya to pUrI javAbadArIthI karavo AvI gulAmI eTale ja ApaNe gurudevane sAMbhaLatA hoIye paNa nathI sAMbhaLatA samajI nathI zakatA ne potAnI svataMtratAne anubhavI nathI zakatA huM paNa dhaMdho karatAM, saMyogomAM paNa rahetAM, zarIra ne ghara kuTuMba sAthe jIvatAM, A badhAthI svataMtra potAmAM paripUrNa anubhavI zakuM 149

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nijamaya thAje, nijamaya thAje, prabhumaya thAje, svarUpamaya thAje re zarIra che, zarIranAM saMbaMdho che, e to enAM samayarUpe rahIne, Avaze ne jAze re, huM to hamezAM ja chuM ne nijamaya thAje, prabhumaya thAje, svarUpamaya thAje re karmo che, karmono udaya che e to enAM samayarUpe rahIne, Avaze ne jAze re, huM to hamezAM ja chuM ne nimaya thAje, prabhumaya thAje, svarUpamaya thAje re sthitiyo che, parasthitiyo che, e to enAM samayarUpe rahIne, Avaze ne jAze re, huM to hamezAM ja chuM ne nijamaya thAje, prabhumaya thAje, svarUpamaya thAje re zubhAzubha bhAvo che, thavA yogya che, e to enAM samayarUpe rahIne, Avaze ne jAze re, huM to hamezAM ja chuM ne nijamaya thAje, prabhumaya thAje, svarUpamaya thAje re Indriyono jJAna che, jaNAya che, e to enAM samayarUpe rahIne, Avaze ne jAze re, huM to hamezAM ja chuM ne 150

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/ nijamaya thAje, prabhumaya thAje, svarUpamaya thAje re saMkalpa vikalpo che, jaNAya che, e to enAM samayarUpe rahIne, Avaze ne jAze re, huM to hamezAM ja chuM ne nijamaya thAje, prabhumaya thAje, svarUpamaya thAje re eka samayano jJAna che, jaNAya che, e to enAM samayarUpe rahIne, Avaze ne jAze re, huM to hamezAM ja chuM ne nijamaya thAje, prabhumaya thAje, svarUpamaya thAje re eka ja huM akhaMDa, abheda, Avato ne jAto ja nathI hamezAMthI huM, hamezAMthI chuM, huM to hamezAM ja chuM ne *** 151

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pANI kaho ke kamaLa huM sthira, gahana, zItaLa pANI ja chuM AvA pANImAM kAdavanuM hovApaNuM che ne AvA pANImAM kamaLanuM paNa hovApaNuM che kamaLa pANIne rAga utpanna karAvatuM nathI meluM kAdava dveSa utpanna karAvatuM nathI pANI to sthira, gahana, zItaLa ja rahe che kAdava, kAdavapaNe rahela ne mATImAM ja che kamaLa, kamaLarUpe khIle che ne karamAya che pANI to sthira, gahana, zItaLa ja rahe che jyAre huM kamaLarUpe anubhavato pANI ja chuM tyAre kAdava vagara haMmezAM khIlato kamaLa chuM pANI to sthira, gahana, zItaLa ja rahe che kAdavathI sadA bhinna rahIne kamaLano sAtha, karanAra khIlatA kamaLathI sadA abhinna chuM pANI to sthira, gahana, zItaLa ja rahe che ajJAnI kAdavane ja anubhavI rahyo che tyAre jJAnI pANInI sAthe kamaLane ja anubhave che pANI to sthira, gahana, zItaLa ja rahe che 152

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/ prasaMga mArA jIvanano moTAmAM moTo mahAnattama prasaMga kayo? zuM che ? manuSyabhavamAM karavA jevo, kyo te Avo prasaMga je mArA A bhavane ane sagaLA bhavone saphaLa kare A eka ja prasaMga, mArA potAnA nijasvabhAva zuddha nirmaLa paripUrNa, abheda, akhaMDa, rUpane ja jANavuM dekhavuM emAM ja ekAgra thavuM e ja mahAna prasaMga karavAno che ahobhAgya jAgyo, anaMta kALa pachI guru maLyA ne Avo prasaMga maLyo have to A ja mAro viSaya, A prasaMganI ja niraMtara taiyArIo, dhUma ne dhAma, sadaiva raNakAra che prasaMganI mahAnatA avazya bhAse, ruci ne laganI thI Avo ja prasaMga karavA jevo, mANavA jevo ne AvA prasaMganI ja taiyArIomAM jora zora che have koI labdhinI rAha nathI, ne jyAre thavAnuM haze tyAre ja thaze evI udAsI paNa nathI aMtaramAM eka ajaba jevI taiyArIo, utsAha umaMga bharapUra che 153

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Avo adbhuta, alaukika prasaMga Avyo che mAre AMgaNIe, vadhAvuM chuMmArA jJAyaka prabhune, tajI sarva mithyAtva, thAuM chuM lIna mArA ja prasaMgamAM mAro prasaMga thoDA divasanI ujavaNI nathI. A prasaMga pachI bIjo koI prasaMga ja nathI. sadaiva mATe, che ne raheze mAro sarvottama prasaMga 154

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mA mA jJAnasvarUpa sattAmaya AnaMdanI mUrti che. mA ja potAnA bALakone sArI rIte jANe che mA ja bALakane janma Ape, mAnAM ja khoLAmAM vizrAma pAmI, zAMti sukhamaya thAya che samaya vItatA bALaka kAMI khoTuM paNa kare to mA ja ema kahe, mAro bALaka Ama kare ja nahIM kAMI bhUla thaI haze, enI saMgata ja bagaDI haze bALaka mAro, mAro ja rahevAno, tame ja jojo bALaka kAMI sAruM kare to mA phulAI jAya che mAro bALaka juo, kevo suMdara, ramaNIya che mAro bALaka jJAnI, zAMta ane dhIrajathI pUrNa che mAro bALaka potAmAM ja pUrNa, ene parano saMga kayAM evI mA ne bALakanI kahAnI A vizvanuM svarUpa che jaina darzane A svarUpane anaMta nayothI samajAvyo che gurudeve A satane A paMcamakALamAM, bharatabhUmI para guMjAvyo, pokAryo, lalakAryo che, huM bhUlI gayo e mATe 155

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jIva dravya pote ja potAne samajI le, potAnI anaMta sattAo ja mArA bALako che, ne pariName che, jANI le potAnA bALako to mArA ja svabhAva che mAnI le svIkAre to sadaiva mATe sukha zAMtimaya ja sthira thAya che 156

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zabdo ne huM zabdo paNa trikALI che enI racanA nathI, huM paNa trikALI chuM mArI paNa racanA nathI to pachI mArAmAM ne zabdomAM zuM saMbaMdha ? upadezarUpa zabdone upadeza ApanAra sAthe mAro saMbaMdha kevo ? ne kevI rIte ? zabdo paNa trikALI che enI racanA nathI, huM paNa trikALI chuM mArI paNa racanA nathI huM chuM jJAnasvarUpa jANavuM mAro ja kAma che, huM zabdone paNa jANuM chuM, to pachI huM zabdone jANuM ke zabdo vaDe mane jANuM? zabdo paNa trikALI che enI racanA nathI, huM paNa trikALI chuM mArI paNa racanA nathI mArA ja tatsamayanA jJAnanI, mane ja jANavAnI yogyatA pragaTe che tyAre Avo ja sata upadezanuM hovApaNuM che Avo ja saMbaMdha paNa che zabdo paNa trikALI che enI racanA nathI, huM paNa trikALI chuM mArI paNa racanA nathI jANuM chuM, to ja huM aMtaramAMthI zabdonAM bhAvane pakaDI svabhAvamAM ja TharI jAuM chuM evo ja zabdo sAthe nimitta-naimittika saMbaMdha che zabdo paNa trikALI che enI racanA nathI, huM paNa trikALI chuM mArI paNa racanA nathI mAro eka samayano jJAna, svaparaprakAzI mane jANe, ne zabdo emAM AvA ja jaNAya. trikALa jJAna sAthe mArA jJAnano tAdAbhya saMbaMdha che 157

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zabdo paNa trikALI che enI racanA nathI, huM paNa trikALI chuM mArI paNa racanA nathI. Ama mAro trikALI jJAyaka bhAva, svabhAva pragaTe che AnaMda ne zAMtinI dhArA pragaTe che huM AvI dhArAmAM anaMta samaya TakI jAuM chuM zabdo paNa trikALI che enI racanA nathI, huM paNa trikALI chuM mArI paNa racanA nathI 158

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jIvanI sAta bhUlo 1. nimitta para thI draSTi upaDatI nathI ne upAdAna para jatI nathI. 2. kArya mArAmAM ja, nimitta vagara thaI rahyuM che, vizvAsa nathI Avato. 3. kArya kSaNika upadAnamAM ja thaI rahyuM che, vizvAsa nathI Avato 4. huM paripUrNa, akartA, avedaka, zuddha, trikALa chuM, vizvAsa nathI Avato 5. nimittathI 50 TakA ne mArAthI 50 TakAno bhrama rahI jAya che 6. aMtaramAM ajJAnathI rAga ja utpanna thAya che, e ja anaMta bhavothI bAMdhe che 7. AnaMdanuM vadana thatuM nathI, kAraNa ke rAga ne jJAnano bheda thato nathI 159 / \

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smRti prabhu paramAtmAnI smRti ja mArI bIjI koI paNa smRti mArI nathI. mArI smRtimAM bIjuM kazuM nathI IndriyonAM viSayonI smRti mArI nathI. anAdithI Indriyone ja jANyo mANyo viSayone ja bhogavyA che eTale smRtimAM AvI jAya prabhu paramAtmAnI smRti ja mArI bIjI koIpaNa smRti mArI nathI. mArI smRtimAM bIjuM kazuM nathI ghara, kuTuMba, saMsAranI smRti mArI nathI badhAye to A ja yAda rAkha zIkhavADyuM purANI Adato, viparIta abhiprAyonI smRti AvI jAya prabhu paramAtmAnI smRti ja mArI bIjI koI paNa smRti mArI nathI. mArI smRtimAM bIjuM kazuM nathI rAgAdi bhAvonI smRti mArI nathI. anAdithI e ja bhAvone che vedayo samaye samaye jaNAtuM jJAna smRtimAM AvI jAya 160

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prabhu paramAtmAnI smRti ja mArI bIjI koI paNa smRti mArI nathI. mArI smRtimAM bIjuM kazuM nathI. mArI smRtinAM badhA vikalpo mArA nathI vikalpone ja yAda rAkhIne karI che kriyAo gurunAM Apela maMtro ja smRtimAM aMkAI jAya prabhu paramAtmAnI smRti ja mArI bIjI koI paNa smRti mArI nathI. mArI smRtimAM bIjuM kazuM nathI mAro nija jJAyaka bhAva ja mArI smRti mAM che huM to mAro anaMta guNothI bharapUra jJAyaka ja chuM e ja mAro jJAnadarzanamaya svabhAva che prabhu nija paramAtmAnI smRti ja mArI bIjI koI paNa smRti mArI nathI. mArI smRtimAM bIjuM kazuM nathI 161

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huM koNa huM koNa chuM enuM bhAna nathI abhAna che huM jANanAra, sadaiva jANanAra ja chuM enuM bhAna nathI abhAna ja che mArA jJAnabhAvane ja jANavAnI ruci nathI. mArA potAnAM svabhAvanI ja aruci che potAnI aruci, e ja kaSAyabhAva che rAgabhAvamAM ja ruci che, to rAgane ja kare che zubha ne azubhamAM, rAga pote acetanA ene kyAM che khabara huM zubha ke azubha banyo chuM huM pote, potAnAM jJAnane ja pariNamAvuM chuM ajJAna rUpe, ne mAnuM chuM DAhyo pote potAne karI karI zubha bhAvone, enuM bhAna ja nathI huM jJAna svabhAva pote jANanAra nitya chuM. avinAzI chuM, AnaMda zAMtimaya huM ja chuM nirbhaya, nizaMka, ekarUpe sthira huM ja chuM 162

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| huMchuM atIndriya huM chuM atIndriya, nirvikalpa jJAnAnaMda caitanya mane bolavAno bhAva hoya kema? saMyogathI che thAya che, huM A bhAvono jANanAra, kartA nathI huM chuM atIndriya, nirvikalpa jJAnAnaMda caitanya mane khAvAno bhAva hoya kema ? saMyogathI che thAya che, huM A bhAvono jANanAra, kartA nathI huM chuM atIndriya, nirvikalpa jJAnAnaMda caitanya mane sAMbhaLavAnuM bhAva hoya kema? saMyogathI che thAya che, huM A bhAvono jANanAra, kartA nathI huM chuM atIndriya, nirvikalpa jJAnAnaMda caitanya mane sUMghavAno bhAva hoya kema? saMyogathI che thAya che, huM A bhAvono jANanAra, kartA nathI huM chuM atIndriya, nirvikalpa jJAnAnaMda caitanya mane dekhavAno bhAva hoya kema? saMyogathI che thAya che, huM A bhAvono jANanAra, kartA nathI 163

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/ huM chuM atIndriya, nirvikalpa jJAnAnaMda caitanya mane sparzavAno bhAva hoya kema saMyogathI che thAya che, huM A bhAvono jANanAra, kartA nathI huM chuM atIndriya, nirvikalpa jJAnAnaMda caitanya mane vicAravAno bhAva hoya kema? saMyogathI che thAya che, huM bhAvono jANanAra, kartA nathI 164 huM chuM atIndriya, nirvikalpa jJAnAnaMda caitanya huM potAne, potAmAM saMyoga vagara, zuddha, nirmaLa zAMtimaya, ekarUpa, tRpta paripUrNa jJAyaka bhAva chuM. *** |

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Asa sAla meM haiM RtuyeM cAra, sabhI svayaM svayaM meM pAra kudarata ati suMdara hai, sadA badalatI mohaka hai phira bhI mAnava na ho sakA sukhI kabhI bhI isa kudarata meM, kyoMki ye to sadA hI jagAtI Asa. grISma meM, ThaMDI kI Asa, ThaMDa meM hai grISma kI, patajhar3a meM hariyAlI kI Asa aura sAvana to umar3a jagAye pUrNatA kI Asa aura jagAye pyAsa, pyAsA DhUMr3he sadA ko rahe Akula vyAkula aura dukhI. jIva kI gatiyAM cAra, deva, mAnava, triyaMca, nArakI cAroM hI gatiyoM meM jIva rahatA pyAsA, bhaTakatA, jaba jAna le pahacAna le svayaM ko to, takatA jIva gati paMcamI ko, jo hai svayaM meM hI sukhamaya pUrNa. aba to yaha jIva, huA alaga kudarata se aura huA alaga ina pudgala ke saMyogoM vAlI gatiyoM cAra se, svataMtra, eka, abheda, akhaMDa, sukhazAMtimaya, avinAzI anupama, alaukika, paripUrNa, na hai aba koI Asa. 165

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icchAyeM icchAoM kA honA hai, karanA to nahIM, icchAyeM hotI haiM, phira bhI kabhI kabhAra pUrI ho jAtI haiM, yA adhUrI raha jAtI haiM, ina sabhI kA anubhava bhI hai, vedana bhI hai. para maiM to anicchuka hI hUM pUrNa hI hUM, mujha meM icchAyeM hI nahIM to phira kyA ho pUrA kyA rahe adhUrA! isa pUrNatA kA bhI anubhava hai, vedana bhI hai, AnaMda, zAMtimaya, sthira, vajra, gaharA maiM aisA pUrNa hUM icchAyeM manokAmanAeM kucha bhI mujha meM nahIM, mujha se bAhara haiM, mere jJAna meM para padArtha jaisI hI haiM. isIliye mujhe AkulatA, vyAkulatA nahIM, rAga, dveSa nahIM, qhuzI duHkha bhI nahIM vItarAgatA, AnaMda, zAMtimaya pUrNa hai, yahI to merA jIva hai, jInA hai, maiM hUM. * * * 166

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upakArI sadA maiM upakArI to sadaiva hI hUM, hamezA se sabhI kI lekina aNu mAtra bhI kabhI bhI kisI kI ho na sakI mAM ne janma diyA to bar3A hone ke liye hI aura phira mAM se alaga hI hone ke liye, phira bhI maiM rahI upakArI. isa zarIra ko khAna-pAna milA, svasthatA bhI, yauvana bhI jaga kI suvidhAyeM bhI milI para jaba zarIra hI merA nahIM to jaga meM to rahI palI alaga hI hone ke liye, phira bhI rahI upakArI. deva guru zAstra mile, unhIM se to jJAna bhI milA, saMga kiyA ve hI mere pUjya, unhIM kA hai sahArA mujhe, phira nigraMtha guru ne hI kahA chor3a mujhe pahacAna svayaM ko, tU hai alaga hI,phira bhI rahI upakArI. * * * 167

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kaI dharma mahAvIra kA jJAna eka rUpa hI thA mahAvIra eka dharma, eka pUjya hI the 500 varSoM meM bharata kSetra meM yaha eka jJAna eka dharma eka jJAnAnaMda ke kaI rUpa pragaTa ho hI gaye! gurudeva kA bhI jJAna eka rUpa virodhAbhAsa rahita hI sadaiva thA unakI vANI meM Aja bhI eka hI hai aba 35 varSoM meM to gurudeva ke eka jJAna svarUpa ke hI kaI rUpa pragaTa haiM. maiM jIva to sadaiva hI eka hI hUM abheda, akhaMDa, nirmala eka rUpa anAdi kA aura vartamAna kA pAgalapana hI mujhe anaMta rUpa detA hai aura maiM bhI mere jJAna meM hI anaMta zubhAzubha rUpa dhAraNa kara baiThatA hUM 168

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kartA karma kartA-karma, ye mere karma aura maiM inakA kartA yaha kyA hai? kyA jo kriyAyeM ho rahI haiM unako samajhAne ke liye hI likhA gayA hai? kriyAyeM to saMsAra meM chaha dravya khuda khuda kI hI khuda hI kara rahe haiM isIlie jinavANI mA~ ne kisI ko bhI kisI kA kartA batAyA hI nahIM. chaha dravya pUrNa bhI haiM, svataMtra bhI haiM, saMyoga hI jarura najaroM meM AtA hai. sAtha rahate haiM isIlie kyA unako eka dUje kA kartA karma banA diyA? kartA-karma kyA merA bhAva hai? ajJAna hai, mithyAtva hai maiM mere gharabAra, zarIra, manabuddhi, viveka kA kartA nahIM maiM hI khAtA, pItA, par3hatA, samajhatA, mAnavI nahIM yahI jinavANI kaha rahI hai, maiM to svayaM hI jItA jAgatA jAnanahAra hI hUM. mujhe to hara samaya jJAna hI ho rahA hai na sAMsa kA lenA, khAnA, pInA, par3hanA, samajhanA ho rahA hai. 169

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maiM to trikAla, pUrNa, zuddha, jJAnAnaMda, sukha zAMtimaya hI hUM maiM paripUrNa, kucha bhI kaise aura kyoM karUM? jAnanA bhI to merA karma aura maiM isakA kartA bhI kaise banaM. maiM to paripUrNa caitanyamAtra, jJAnamAtra, tatva hUM na jagata kA jAnanahAra svayaM meM hI jJAnAnaMda hI hana kartA-karma kyA hai? mUrkha yaha to mUrkhatA hI hai aura kyA hai. * * * "prathama bhUmikA meM zAstra zravaNa paThana manana Adi saba hotA hai, parantu aMtara meM usa zubha bhAva se saMtuSTa nahIM ho jAnA cAhiye. isa kArya ke sAtha hI aisA khaTakA rahanA cAhiye ki yaha saba hai kintu mArga to koI alaga hI hai. zubhAzubhabhAva se rahita mArga bhItara hai - aisA khaTakA to sAtha hI lagA rahanA cAhiye." bahenazrI ke vacanAmRta-25 170

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- kahAniyAM kahAniyAM hama sunate haiM, mahApuruSoM kI, striyoM kI yaha kathAyeM jIva ke eka jIvana kI hI kathAyeM haiM na jIva ke tatsamaya kI yogyatA ko hI batAtI haiM na anaMta jIvoM kI kitanI anaMtAnaMta kathAyeM, kahAniyAM. koI bhI viSaya kA adhyayana kareM to usa viSaya ke mahAna vyaktiyoM kI kathAyeM hama jAnate haiM, sunate haiM mahAna jIvanoM se prabhAvita hokara unake jaisA hamArA bhI jIvana ho, aise bhAvoM se bhAvita ho uThate haiM. eka hI aisA mahAna jIva kaho, usakI vANI hI kaho saccI jinavANI hI kaho. usane bhI kahAniyAM to khUba sunAI, para ina kahAniyoM ko puruSa se bhinna batAIM puruSa to eka trikAla sata aura kahAniyAM kucha samaya kI. kahAniyAM badalatI hI rahatI haiM, jitanI, jisa viSaya kI cAhiyeM utanI avazya hI milatI haiM, yahI anaMtAnaMta saMsAra hai puruSa to eka hI hai, abheda, akhaMDa kauna kara sake isa puruSa kI bAta, pUjya gurudeva ke sivAya, unhIM kA yaha nAda thA. 171

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pUjya gurudevakI AvAja zera jaisI bulaMda aura sadA hI ghoSita puruSa trikAla eka mahA sattA, pUrNa sata, eka jJAyaka prabhu isakI pratyeka samaya kI avasthAyeM bhale hI puruSa jaisI hI athavA bhinna. puruSa to puruSa aura avasthAyeM, avasthAyeM hI. kahAniyAM anAdi se sunatA, sunAtA AyA hUM, ina kahAniyoM ke anaMta bhAvoM meM hI DUba yaha karUM, aisA karUM, aisA banUM, jItA rahA hUM Akula, vyAkula dukhI bhI to khUba hI huA hUM. pUjya gurudeva ne hI merA puruSa mujhameM hI, abhI hI batA, mujhe pUrNa batA, mujhe batAyA hai. gurudeva ne hI kahA, tU to khuda hI eka trikAla pUrNa sata hai, tU to bAhara kI ina kahAniyoM ko chor3a svayaM kI mahAsattA ko hI dekha svayaM pUrNa kRtakRtya phira kaise bane yaha aura vaha, Akula-vyAkula anAdi kA bhulA Aye ghara. jAne, mAne, bana bhI jAye jJAnAnaMda. yahI merI bhI eka kahAnI hai, merA bhI eka phasAnA hai, mujhe hI kabhI kabhI vizvAsa na Aye kaise to bana gaI yaha kahAnI hai gurudeva ko suna pAnA, samajha pAnA hI isa duniyA kA sabase bar3e se bar3A merA saubhAgya hai, merA hI mujhameM hI puruSa hI hai. 172

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kaisI icchA? maiM khuda hI sampUrNa hUM mujhe kaisI icchA? icchA duHkha kA kAraNa hai, mujhe bhikhArI hI banAtI hai maiM icchA rahita hUM yahI merA vizvAsa hai maiM niSkriya hUM, zarIra kI kriyA maiM karatA hI nahIM dina rAta yaha rAga dveSa kA bulAvA hai kucha na kucha kriyA ke liye, mujhe kucha bhI karanA hI nahIM indriyoM meM,mere jJAna kA koI vyApAra hI nahIM merA jJAna, mujha sata svarUpa meM hI ThaharA hai aba vahAM se bAhara AnA nahIM, koI savAla nahIM koI javAba bhI denA nahIM, samAdhAna hI hai maiM khuda hI sampUrNa hUM mujhe kaisI icchA? aMtara meM, mujha svarUpa meM hI rahanA hai, ThaharanA hai isa duniyA meM rahanA, zarIra kI kriyA karanA to saMyama ke liye hI hai saba mujhase bAhara hI hai aMtara hI AnaMda zAMti maya hai gahana hai maiM khuda hI sampUrNa hUM mujhe kaisI icchA? "dhruvadhAmanA-dhyeyanA-dhyAnanI dhakhatI dhUNI dhagaza ne dhIrajathI dhakhAvavI te dharmano dhAraka dharmI dhanya che." pUjaya gurudevazrIe Apelo maMtra 173

Page #175
kSamAvANI merA dharma mujha aMtara meM hai aura maiM hUM Atma svarUpa isIliye pahalI aura sabase uttama kSamA hai svayaM se maiMne mujhe hI svarUpa meM na mAna na jAna jo isa saMsAra meM anaMta svarUpa haiM jAne, yahI bar3A huA pApa aura maiM kSamA mAMga, mujha Atma svarUpa ko hI merA jAnUM mAnUM. merA dharma mujha aMtara meM hai aura maiM hUM Atma-svarUpa aba jaba maiMne mAnA jAnA hai, svayaM ko Atma-svarUpa taba maiM sabhI sahayogI jIvoM se jo bhI kahA sunA una sabhI se bhI kSamA cAhatA hUM, sabhI haiM sahayogI mere maiMne hI mAna liyA, yahI to huI bar3I se bar3I merI bhUla. maiM aba kSamA mAMga, mujhako jAnUM mAnUM Atma svarUpa hI isa sRSTi kA hai kaNa kaNa svataMtra, maiMne hI sadaiva merA-terA kara, kiyA anyAya anaMta padArthoM se, maiMne anaMta jIvoM aura anaMtAnaMta pudgaloM ko banA merA karma, bana baiThA kartA aba maiM kSamA mAMga, rAgoM se na jur3a, bhAvatA hUM vItarAga ko. 174

Page #176
- merA dharma mujha aMtara meM hai aura maiM hUM Atma svarUpa yahI nija svarUpa ko hI pAne karatA hUM maiM kSamA sabhIse prabhu aisI hI dRSTI denA jisase dekhUM maiM mujhako pUrNa aura na dekhUM khAmiyAM maiM kisI bhI jIva meM, kabhI bhI aisI hI kSamA bhAva ho paidA aMtara meM, pAUM pUrNa vItarAga rUpa. *** 175

Page #177
/ khAlI hAtha khAlI hAtha hI AyA thA, khAlI hAtha hI jAUMgA kArmaNa zarIra ko bhI halkA karatA hI jAUMgA svayaM ko, svayaM meM, svayaM se, hI pahacAnatA maiM svayaM ko hI vedatA, apUrva jJAnAnaMda sAtha hI jAUMgA. khAlI hAtha hI AyA thA, khAlI hAtha hI jAUMgA ye hAtha mere nahIM, pudgala ke hI to haiM, isIliye inheM yahIM dharatI para rAkharUpa chor3atA hI jAUMgA svayaM ko hI vedatA, apUrva jJAnAnaMda sAtha hI jAUMgA. khAlI hAtha hI AyA thA, khAlI hAtha hI jAUMgA isa hAthoM ko merA mAna, kucha na kucha karatA gayA hAthoM se jo huA, mAtra tatsamaya kI yogyatA samajhatA jAUMgA svayaM ko hI vedatA, apUrva jJAnAnaMda sAtha hI jAUMgA. khAlI hAtha hI AyA thA, khAlI hAtha hI jAUMgA hAtha to mere kabhI the hI nahIM phira kyoM, aura kaise maiMne mere mAna liye, isI mAnyatA kA pUrA abhAva karatA jAU~gA svayaM ko hI vedatA, apUrva jJAnAnaMda sAtha hI jAUMgA. khAlI hAtha hI AyA thA, khAlI hAtha hI jAUMgA isa jJAna, gurudeva ko hI mAnatA, jAnatA hI aba maiM jJAnasvarUpa, AnaMda zAMtimaya ko hI jAnatA jItA jAUMgA svayaM ko hI vedatA, apUrva jJAnAnaMda sAtha hI jAUMgA. 176 |

Page #178
gurU mile guru mile haiM, jinavANI kA sahArA milA hai azarIrI banane ke liye himmata jagAye aisA upadeza milA hai guru ne hI isa zarIra meM hI eka ratanamaNi sata ko svayaM meM jAnakara hI mujhe batAyA hai maiM to khuda hI sampUrNa hUM guru mile haiM, jinavANI kA sahArA milA hai azarIrI banane ke liye himmata jagAye, aisA upadeza milA hai mere maiM pUrNa niSkriya jyoti anaMta zaktiyoM kA piMDa rUpa akSaya, trikAla rUpa hai, isIkA zaraNa hai, sAtha hai, saMga hai aura guru kI vANI kA hI sAnnidhya bhI hai. guru mile haiM, jinavANI kA sahArA milA hai azarIrI banane ke liye himmata jagAye aisA upadeza milA hai ahobhAgya mere mujhe isa bhava meM guru mile, gurudevane hI mujhe isa saMsAra se nikAlA hai icchAoM meM DUbe ko abAdha sukha luTAyA hai maiM hUM khuda hI khudA kA vizvAsa jagAyA hai. 177

Page #179
T guru mile haiM, jinavANI kA sahArA milA hai| azarIrI banane ke liye himmata jagAye aisA upadeza milA hai| saMyama bharA saMta sarIkhA mere guru kA jIvana, saMyama meM hI AnaMda zAMti kA jharanA mujha sata svarUpa aMtara, saMyama bAhara hI hai| guru ne hI yaha sikhAyA samajhAyA bhI hai. guru mile haiM, jinavANI kA sahArA milA hai azarIrI banane ke liye himmata jagAye aisA upadeza milA hai| maiM to khuda hI sampUrNa hUM aura guru kI vANI kA hI sAnnidhya bhI hai| maiM hUM khuda hI khudA kA vizvAsa jagAyA hai guru ne hI yaha sikhAyA samajhAyA bhI hai. 178 *** |

Page #180
jAnUM to jAnUM svayaM ko maiM kaI cIjeM sIkhatI hUM, par3hatI hUM, anubhava bhI karatI hUM samaya ke nikalate kaise to bhUla bhI jAte haiM jaise kabhI sunA hI nahIM, dekhA hI nahIM, phira kabhI, kucha yAda bhI A jAtA hai, aisA saba kaise, kyoM, isI taraha hotA hai? yaha saba to karmoM kA udaya, usIse jo saMyoga milate haiM hama aisA mAna lete haiM, yaha dekhA, yaha sIkhe, yaha jAnA vAstava meM to usa samaya vahI honA thA, huA, aura maiMne jAnA, parantu yaha to sArI bAhara kI duniyA hai aisA jAnA. isIliye mujhe to aMtara meM, mere svayaM ko, AtmA ko hI sirpha dekhanA hai, darzana karanA hai, aura mere svayaM ko hI anaMta guNoM, zaktiyoM se bharapUra, eka ko hI jAnanA hai atIndriya, abheda, akhaMDa, AnaMda kA hI jJAna aura anubhava hai. phira yaha anubhava sahita jJAna kabhI bhI na bhUlA jAyegA. indriyoM se sIkhA-jAnA isa zarIra ke sAtha naSTa ho jAyegA mana-buddhi se sIkhA, saMkalpa vikalpoM se sIkhA bhI bhUla hI jAyeMge eka atIndriya svayaM se svayaM meM jAnA mere sAtha AyegA. 179

Page #181
yaha anubhava hI mujhe sadaiva yAda rahegA, merA hai, mere hI sAtha mujha se abhinna hI hai, aura rahegA. mujha se kabhI bhI alaga na hogA. isI spaSTatA, dRr3hatA, ke saMga sahaja jJAna, AnaMda vIrya, zAMta, gaMbhIra, svayaM, svayaM meM hI magna merA jJAnanA hai. *** 180

Page #182
jAla AdamI svayaM kI DigriyoM, padaviyoM, duniyA ke jJAna se vazIbhUta hokara hI isa duniyA meM bhaTakatA rahatA hai mAlI apane podhoM ko, saphAI karane vAlA kacare ko kitanI acchI taraha se jAnatA hai, ora usI jJAna meM to kAmayAbI bhI mAnatA hai, yahI podhoM kA jJAna, mAlI ko isa duniyA meM bhramaNa karane kI hI sAmagrI detA hai. DAkTara, vakIla, iMjiniyara, saMzodhaka, sabhI svayaM ke hI viSaya meM itane DUba jAte haiM ki sata se hI dUra ho jAte haiM pahale jIva isa bAta kA vizvAsa kara le ki maiM isa duniyA se, duniyA ke jJAna se, bhinna, alaga, caitanya tatva hI hUM to phira jIva, isa duniyA ke jJAna, sahI meM ajJAna, ke vazIbhUta na hokara, jAla meM na phasakara, svayaM bhaTakatA na rahe. jaise zera bhaya ke vazIbhUta hokara svayaM ke svabhAva ko hI bhUla sarkasa meM lakar3I ke izAre para khelatA hai, kUdatA hai isI taraha yaha jIva bhI isa dunayA meM, duniyA ke paradravyoM ke jAla meM aisA to phasatA hai, ki use kyA mAlUma, sata kyA? svayaM kA svabhAva, jJAnasvarupa, jo AnaMda aura zAMtimaya kyA ? na jAne jJeyoM ko, na jAne jJAna ko, to phira jJAyaka bhAva kyA? 181

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jInA hai, maranA nahIM, jAnanA hai nija jJAna ko, duniyA ko nahIM mere pUrNa jJAna ko jAnanA kaisA, itanA nirmala so sabhI jJeya jhalaka jAyeM merA jJAna hI sukha, zAMtimaya, avinAzI, jAnanahAra, anaMta zaktiyoM se bharapUra, svAdhIna, nirvikalpa, atIndriya, abaddha, hI hai jJAyaka duniyA kA jJAna, duniyA meM hI bhaTakane kA badalatA ajJAna hai merA jJAna pUrNa sata, nirbhaya, jAnanahAra svayaM svabhAva meM hI sthira. * * * 182

Page #184
jJAna to jJAna hI hai zarIra svabhAva se nirogI hI hotA hai roga saMyoga se hotA hai aura zarIra hI rogI kahalAtA hai zarIra kA eka eka aMga svayaM kA kAma paripUrNa karatA hai aMgoM kI burI AdatoM se bharA upayoga hI asaphala banatA hai sonA bhI svayaM pUrNa svaccha hotA hai, milAvaTa se bhI to sone kA mola kama hotA nahIM, bhale camaka badala bhI jAye. isI prakAra jJAna to jJAna hI hai, zuddha buddha jAnane vAlA jAnane vAlA to jAnatA hI hai, jAnane meM hI para jJeya bhI aura para jJeyoM ke nimittoM se hote bhAva bhI jhalakate haiM ye parAzrita bhAva, jJAna svayaM nahIM, jJAna kA zuddha upayoga bhI nahIM. jJAna to jo jaisA hai vaisA hI hara samaya jAna rahA hai maiM jJAna svarUpa to jaisA hai vaisA hI hara samaya jAna rahA hUM. mere jJAna kA hI sAmarthya hai, ki hara samaya anAdi anaMta jAna hI rahA hUM maiM to mere ko hI jAna rahA hU~, merI hI zuddhatA aisI, ki hara samaya merI hI tat samaya kI yogyatA jhalaka jAtI hai hara samaya kI yogyatA maiM nahIM, isakI milAvaTa bhI mujha meM nahIM maiM zAzvata, merA mola bhI kabhI bhI milAvaTa se kama hotA nahIM maiM zAzvata jJAna, isa jhalakate jJAna meM AtA bhI nahIM, jAnatA hI hUM. 183

Page #185
/ maiM svabhAva se hI jJAnasvarUpa zAMta sukhamaya paripUrNa hUM pudgala kA jJAna saMyoga hI hai aura merA kahalAtA hai merA hara samaya bhI to usa samaya kA pUrNa sata hI hai yaha to merA hI anAdi kA ajJAna hai ki maiM isa ko hI merA jJAna samajha baiThA hUM maiM eka samaya kA nahIM maiM jJAna trikAla zAzvata zuddha amApa vItarAga zAMti AnaMda se bharapUra jJAna to jJAna hI hai. 184 *** |

Page #186
jJAna bahatA kevala jJAna meM hI pAnI to kevala pAnI se hI milatA hai nadiyAM, jharane bahate pahAr3oM meM se hI haiM bUMda bUMda banate jharane aura jharane bane nadiyAM nadiyAM hI jA mila banAyeM samudra ko hI pAnI to kevala pAnI se hI milatA hai pAnI bahatA pahAr3oM se aura bahatA jAtA kaI khetoM se, maidAnoM se bhI phira bhI bahate bahate milatA to samudra se hI. pAnI to kevala pAnI se hI milatA hai jJAna bhI to milatA kevala jJAna se hI jJAna hI ajJAna meM bhI bahatA rahe athavA anaMta nayoM meM bhI bahatA rahe phira bhI. jJAna to indriya jJAna bhI ikaTThA hokara manabuddhi ke anaMta vikalpa bhI ikaTThA hokara eka nirvikalpa, nirapekSa, atIndriya, nayAtIta akhaMDa, abheda, kevala jJAna meM hI jA mile. 185

Page #187
/ pAnI kabhI hI na huA jharanA, kheta, nadI athavA samudra, pAnI to sadaiva rahA pAnI hI jJAna bhI kabhI na huA indriya, eka naya athavA ajJAnamaya, jJAna to rahA jJAna hI. 186 pAnI to kevala pAnI se hI milatA hai| jJAna bhI to milatA kevala jJAna se hI. *** |

Page #188
tAjamahala tAjamahala vizva kA acaraja, eka kalA kI, saMgamaramara kI, pyAra kI bemizAla nizAnI hai pyAra kI mRtyu hI usakI buniyAda bhI hai, rAgAdi bhAvoM kI mRtyu hI zuddha zAzvata bhI hai. buniyAda do diloM ke dhaDakate pyAra meM thI, athavA akele rAjA ke pyAra bharI yAda meM thI zAzvata sata kI buniyAda bhI vartamAna meM hI akele dhruva nija paramAtmA kI dRSTi meM hI hai. akelA huA rAjA, tabhI tIvra yAda meM vo banA bhI sakA aisI pyAra kI bemizAla nizAnI ko akelA hotA hUM maiM, atIndriya, nirvikalpa tabhI to pragaTatA hai, bemizAla nija svarUpa merA. tAjamahala banAne vAle sAre kArIgaroM ke kATe gaye the hAtha, so na bane kabhI koI dUjA tAjamahala maiM bhI jaba kATatA hUM sAre-ke-sAre zubha bhAva, tabhI na bane koI dUjA bhava aura rahUM parama svarUpa hI. tAjamahala bhale kitanA bhI ho bemizAla aura bhale hama kitanI bhI kareM usakI samhAla phira bhI hai usakI umra kI maryAdA, maiM trikAla nija bemizAla svarUpa hUM amaryAdita svayaM banA banAyA siddha. mujha Atma svarUpa meM hai aisI nirmalatA, svacchatA, sundaratA, na pAI jAya kisI saMgamaramara meM sahastra kalAoM se paripUrNa maiM, na hai merA koI bhI mukAbalA, na koI acaraja isa saMsAra meM, mujhase merA hI pyAra, itanA aTUTa, tanmaya eka dUje meM, ki na ho sake aisA pyAra do diloM meM maiM mujha meM hI aisA sampUrNa, akhaMDa, abheda, ki koI do mujha jaise eka na kabhI hue, na ho sakate. aisA sata, camatkAra hai, hara eka AtmA, kyoM na kare tU vizvAsa khuda hI kA, yahI to rahA eka bar3A acaraja isa vizva kA, kaise ho bhI sakatA aura koI bhI acaraja isake sAmane isa vizva kA. 187

Page #189
daur3a ke mila le zubhAzubha bhAvoM kA AnA jAnA to isa jIva ko sadaiva se rahA hai jIva inhIM bhAvoM meM pUrI taraha se ulajhA phaMsA hI to rahA hai inhIM bhAvoM kI gaharAiyoM meM, inhI bhAvoM ke pIche tale meM jIva svayaM pAriNAmika bhAve nitya niraMjana zAzvata bhI to hai. koI ina dIvAroM ke ghara AyA to jIva daur3e unheM milane yahI jIva kyoM na svayaM ke hI kSetra meM, aisI ghar3I bhI lAye daur3a ke mila le svayaM ko hI svayaM ke kSetra meM, aisI ghar3I bhI lAye isa jIva kA isa bhava meM yahI to prathama meM prathama kartavya bhI hai. bhUkha, pyAsa, zarIra, aura zarIra ke sambandhoM ke pIche dauDA yaha jIva kyoM svayaM ko mAnane pahacAnane se jaise svayaM hI hara bAra iMkAra hI kara rahA ho. nitya niraMjana zAzvata bhI aMtara se kaha rahA ho maiM bhI hUM, mujhase bhI mila, maiM bhI terA hI hUM. aba to maiM, mujha meM ye dIvAreM, yaha makAna, ye zarIra kyA ? ye sabhI bhI haiM, inakA sthAna bhI hai, mujhe iMkAra bhI nahIM para maiM ina sabase nirAlA, alaukika isa loka se pare hI hUM maiM mujha meM hI anupama apUrva aisA mujha se hI A daur3a milA hUM. 188

Page #190
maiM maiM hI hUM, mere hI sahaja svabhAva se hI daur3a kara milane calA zubhAzubha bhAva AyeM, Ate bhI mujha meM hI, svayaM kI zakti se hI jAnatA hI hUM, parAye hI lagate haiM, maiM inheM milane aba daur3atA hI nahIM maiM to inase bhinna, svayaM hI svayaM ko hI milane daur3a calA hUM ** * 189

Page #191
/ naI kalI khilI cAMda, sUraja, phUla, khuzabU, hue haiM sabhI purAne naI eka kalI khilI, maiM to hUM usIkA dIvAnA nitya, akAraka, avedaka, apariNAmI to hai hI purAnA tara, sarvaguNAMza, pragaTa paryAya kA hI dIvAnA hara paryAya meM, hara samaya meM, merI hI dhruva caitanya hI jIvita pratyakSa dekhane vAlA hI hUM maiM dIvAnA 190 cAMda, sUraja, phUla, khuzabU, hue haiM sabhI purAne naI eka kalI khilI, maiM to hUM usIkA dIvAnA akAraka, avedaka, apariNAmI hI to dhruva rUpa meM rahakara hI, hara samaya, nayA khilatA hai, na isI khilerUpa ko hI jAnatA mAnatA maiM hI anubhavatA naI khilI kalI kA hI hUM maiM dIvAnA cAMda, sUraja, phUla, khuzabU, hue haiM sabhI purAne naI eka kalI khilI, maiM to hUM usIkA dIvAnA yahI eka bAta maiMne anaMta samaya se kI nahIM dhruva kI bAteM bhI anaMta bAra kI, yahAM taka ki dhruva prabhu paramAtmA ko bhI anaMta bAra maiM jA samavasaraNa meM, mila kara bhI to AyA hUM |

Page #192
- cAMda, sUraja, phUla, khuzabU, hue haiM sabhI purAne naI eka kalI khilI, maiM to hUM usIkA dIvAnA para maiMne kabhI bhI isa dhruva paramAtmA ko hI naI kala meM, zuddha paryAya meM pariNamatA hI na jAnA na mAnA, to phira kaise to kara sakUM maiM vedana na dIvAnA, prabhu bana dIvAnA, naI kalI kA hI dIvAnA cAMda, sUraja, phUla, khuzabU, hue haiM sabhI purAne naI eka kalI khilI, maiM to hUM usI kA dIvAnA. *** 191

Page #193
- 192 pUrNa sata kahI akhaMDita hI pUrNa sata hUM phira kyoM yaha khaMDa khaMDa jJAna ? yaha khaMDita jJAna merA jJAna nahIM, maiM eka hI akhaMDita hI pUrNa sata hUM phira kyoM yaha saMkalpa vikalpa ? yaha mana buddhi ke sAre vikalpa mere nahIM, maiM eka hI nirvikalpa hI pUrNa sata hUM phira kyoM yaha zubhAzubha bhAva ? meM hote lagate zubhAzubha bhAva mere hI nahIM, maiM eka hI vItarAga hI pUrNa sata hUM phira kyoM yaha sukhAbhAsa aura duHkha ? yaha sukha jisake pIche duHkha merA hI nahIM, maiM eka hI abAdha sukha hI pUrNa sata hUM phira kyoM yaha AkulatA vyAkulatA ? yaha AkulatA vyAkulatA merI hI nahIM, maiM eka hI nirAkula hI pUrNa sata hUM maiM akhaMDa, abheda eka jJAna svarUpa maiM nirvikalpa, nayAtIta eka jJAna svarUpa maiM zAMti, AnaMdamaya eka jJAna svarUpa maiM zuddha upayogamaya eka jJAna svarUpa maiM caitanya, umar3atA eka jJAna svarUpa yaha mujha |

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/ prabhu tU hI merA, tU hI mujha meM, tU hI sabakucha hai tU hI merA sakuna aura tU hI zaraNA bhI hai tU hI merA prema aura tU hI sAthI bhI hai| kahIM bhI caina nahIM, tU hI to caina bhI hai prabhu tU hI merA, tU hI mujha meM, tU hI sabakucha hai tU hI merA rAga aura tU hI kamajorI bhI hai| tU hI merA ciMtana aura tU hI dhyAna bhI hai ronA bhI aura haMsAnA bhI tere hI sAmane hai prabhu tU hI merA, tU hI mujha meM, tU hI sabakucha hai tU hI merA jJAna aura tU hI darzana bhI hai tU hI merI prArthanA aura tU hI pUjA bhI hai kahIM bhI sthira nahIM, tU hI dhAma bhI hai prabhu prabhu tU hI merA, tU hI mujha meM, tU hI sabakucha hai tU hI merA svarUpa aura DhUMDhanA bhI tujha meM hI hai tU hI merI pukAra aura AvAja bhI tU hI hai kahIM dekhanA hI nahIM, tU hI merA drazya bhI hai prabhu tU hI merA, tU hI mujha meM, tU hI sabakucha hai 193

Page #195
- mAnava AMkha se hI dekhatA hUM aura bina AMkha aMdhA hUM yaha mAnanevAlA hI sadA aMdhA hai kAnoM se hI sunatA hUM aura bina kAna baharA hUM yaha mAnanevAlA hI sadA baharA hai maiM eka jJAyaka jJAnasvarupa ina indriyoM se nahIM indriyoM ke AdhAra se bhI nahIM indriyoM kA parAzrita bhI to nahIM pUrNa svAdhIna svAzritahI hUM mAnava, mAnava ko hI jAna pahacAna tabhI tU tere satsvarUpa ko bhI jAna sakegA mAnava tU to anaMta AnaMda, sukha, zAMtimaya pUrNa tatva hI hai, caitanya hI hai, jJAna hI hai prabhu pratimA kI AMkha AdhI khulI AdhI baMda hI hai na sadA dekhatA, jJAnamaya prabhu hI paramAtmA hai| sadA dekhatA, sadA zAMti sukhamaya rahatA hI caitanya svarUpa hI jJAna svarUpa hai. Note: This poem was inspired by the work of Daniel Kish who has overcome his blindness. He has said my biggest obstacle was that people just refuse to believe I too can see. 194 |

Page #196
mujhe gavArA nahIM maiM jIva hUM jAnanA dekhanA hI merA kAma isake alAvA kucha bhI kAma mujhe gavArA nahIM maiM hUM jJAnAnaMda jJAna hI, hai merA AnaMda aura koI bhI prakAra kA jJAna to gavArA nahIM. maiM jIva hUM jAnanA dekhanA hI merA kAma isake alAvA kucha bhI kAma mujhe gavArA nahIM maiM hUM jJAnasvarupa jJAna hI hai pahacAna merI aura koI bhI pahacAna to mujhe gavArA nahIM. maiM jIva hUM jAnanA dekhanA hI merA kAma isake alAvA kucha bhI kAma mujhe gavArA nahIM maiM hUM paripUrNa svapara ko khuda hI khuda meM jAnUM aura kisI taraha kA jAnanA mujhe gavArA nahIM. maiM jIva hUM jAnanA dekhanA hI merA kAma isake alAvA kucha bhI kAma mujhe gavArA nahIM maiM hUM svaccha nirmala isIlie duniyA kahe jJAtA parantu duniyA ko bhoganA mujhe gavArA nahIM. 195

Page #197
- maiM hUM jAnanA dekhanA hI merA kAma isake alAvA kucha bhI kAma mujhe gavArA nahIM mujha meM hI mujha se hI sadaiva paripUrNa hUM eka samaya kA alpajJa jAnanA mujhe gavArA nahIM. maiM hUM jAnA dekhanA hI merA kAma isake alAvA kucha bhI kAma mujhe gavArA nahIM mujhameM hI sadA AnaMdarUpa raha sakatA hUM phira kaise, kyoM, aura kaba ho mujhe para gavArA. maiM hUM jAnanA dekhanA hI merA kAma isake alAvA kucha bhI kAma mujhe gavArA nahIM. 196 *** |

Page #198
merA jIvana dhanya maiM jaina hUM, merA darzana bhI jaina hai, aura cAritra vItarAga yahI merA svarUpa anaMta kAla, trikAlI, avinAzI hI hai maiM jAnUM mere jJAna se to aise hI mere zuddha svarUpa ko hI yahI merA pUrNa zuddha svarUpa hI merA pUjya, dhyeya bhI hai. maiM mAnUM to mere hI pUrNa ayogI, akartA rUpa ko hI yahI to merA hai, mere sAtha hI sadA rahane vAlA bhI hai maiM ramaNa karUM, carUM, to mere hI sundara trikAla rUpa meM yahI to mere guNoM kA, sugaMdhoM kA, merA hI eka bAga hai. isase bAhara to sabhI hI hai parAyA, kabhI bhI nahIM merA jAnatA to maiM hI hUM, isIlie maiMne jAnA sabhI parAyA maiM, maiM hUM, aura vizva ko bhI pUrNatA se jAnanevAlA to maiM hI hUM, aura maiMne hI jAnA hai vizva kA sata vizva rUpa. mere hI jaina darzana ke paMca parameSThiyoM ne yaha saba svayaM jAnakara, mAnakara, ramaNa karate hue hI mujhe aura sAre anaMta jIvoM ko bhI yaha zAzvata pUrNa sata batAyA hai samajhAyA hai vItarAga zAstroM kI racanA kI hai divya dhvanI meM AyA hai. 197

Page #199
maiM jIva kA yadi koI kAma, kartavya, karane kA hai, to basa yahI eka hI to maiM jJAnAnaMda kara sakatA hUM bhoga sakatA hUM maiM to mujha trikAla svarUpa meM hI, sadaiva hI magna, AnaMda se bharapUra, sukhazAMtimaya jIvana hI jItA hUM, jI sakatA hUM. merA saccA jIvana hI merA jIvana hai, aura mere hI vItarAga paMca parameSThI hI mere pUjya, merA jaina darzana hI pUjya hai maiM, mere pUjya, aura merA pUjya darzana sabhI to anAdi anaMta isa anAdi anaMta vizva meM hI haiM, yahI merA pUrNa sata bhI hai. merA sArthaka puruSArtha to mujhe hI, mere hI darzana ko, sAdhya ko, pUjya ko hI jAnatA, karatA hai, aura saba to hamezA hI nirarthaka dukhamaya hI hai, mere jIvana kI to, anapahacAna, jAne mRtyu hI hai maiM jaina hUM, merA darzana bhI jaina hai, aura merA cAritra vItarAga hI hai. * ** 198

Page #200
mere jJAna kA sAthI mere jJAna kA sAthI jJAyaka prabhu paramAtmA hI hai pratyakSa mere samakSa sadaiva hI merA sAthI hI hai yaha zarIra, zarIra ke avayava mere sAthI nahIM puNya pApa ke saMyoga bhI to mere sAthI nahIM. mere jJAna kA sAthI jJAyaka prabhu paramAtmA hI hai pratyakSa mere samakSa sadaiva hI merA sAthI hI hai anukUla, pratikUla paristhitiyAM bhI mere sAthI nahIM nirogI athavA rogI zarIra bhI merA sAthI nahIM. mere jJAna kA sAthI jJAyaka prabhu paramAtmA hI hai pratyakSa mere samakSa sadaiva hI merA sAthI hI hai zubhAzubha bhAva bhI mere aMtara ke sAthI nahIM bhAva Ate haiM, kamajorI se haiM para mere sAthI nahIM. mere jJAna kA sAthI jJAyaka prabhu paramAtmA hI hai pratyakSa mere samakSa sadaiva hI merA sAthI hI hai| tatsamaya kI yogyatA meM zubhAzubha kA prabhAva hai duniyA mujhe mere zubhAzubha bhAvoM se hI pahacAnatI hai. 199

Page #201
mere jJAna kA sAthI jJAyaka prabhu paramAtmA hI hai pratyakSa mere samakSa sadaiva hI merA sAthI hI hai maiM to mere hI jJAyaka ko hI jAnatA, mAnatA hU~ isIlie zubhAzubha kabhI bhI mere sAthI hI nahIM. mere jJAna kA sAthI jJAyaka prabhu paramAtmA hI hai pratyakSa mere samakSa sadaiva hI merA sAthI hI hai. * * * 200

Page #202
- maiM thakatA nahIM saMgItakAra, saMgIta se kabhI thakatA nahIM bhale usakA muMha, hAtha, zarIra thaka bhI jAye citrakAra, citrakalA se kabhI thakatA nahIM bhale usake hAtha, paira, zarIra thaka bhI jAye. jJAnI, jJAna meM kabhI bhI thakatA hI nahIM bhale usakI AMkhe, manabuddhi, zarIra thaka bhI jAye jJAna, zarIra manabuddhi AMkhoM se hai hI nahIM svayaM meM, svayaM se, jAnanA sahaja hI ho jAye. isa prakAra jahAM hai rUci, jaisI hai rUci, vahI~ merA vIrya, phira thakAna kA savAla hI kaise ho jAye ruci-anuyAyI - vIrya sirpha kahane kI bAta nahIM eka jIvana kA sata hai, thakAna to jaise miTa hI jAye. 201

Page #203
maiM hI dhruva tArA prabhu hI merA jJAna hai mere jJAna kA upayoga bhI prabhu hI jAnUM, prabhu hI mAnUM, prabhu kA hai saMga bhI z2aba se jAnA banA prabhumaya kyoM jAne para aba para hI to saMsAra hai, paramaya hotA dukhiyArA. jJAna kA kartavya yahI, jAne vo khuda ko hI khuda hI to prabhu hai, khuda hI to sukhiyArA prabhu hI merA jJAna hai mere jJAna kA upayoga bhI prabhu hI jAnUM, prabhu hI mAnUM, prabhu kA hai saMga bhI. jJAna kA udyama yahI, ki vo simaTe khuda meM hI khuda hI to sundara hai, khuda hI jaga se nyArA prabhu hI merA jJAna hai mere jJAna kA upayoga bhI prabhu hI jAnUM, prabhu hI mAnUM, prabhu kA hai saMga bhI. 202

Page #204
jJAna hI to zuddha paripUrNa, khuda meM Tikane vAlA jJAna hI to khuda se hai, khuda hI jAnanahArA prabhu hI merA jJAna hai mere jJAna kA upayoga bhI prabhu hI jAnUM, prabhu hI mAnUM, prabhu kA hai saMga bhI. prabhu hai mujha meM, maiM hUM prabhumaya, merA hI jJAna bhI maiM hI jAnatA jagata ko maiM hI hUM dhruva tArA prabhu hI merA jJAna hai mere jJAna kA upayoga bhI prabhu hI jAnUM, prabhu hI mAnUM, prabhu kA hai saMga bhI. * * * 203

Page #205
maiMne hai khAyA vilAyA jI bhara ke maiMne hai khAyA khilAyA jI bhara ke, hai piyA aura pilAyA bhI khUba saba kucha karate, khuza hote lobha, moha, mAyA, krodha bhI kara hI liyA aba to jAna liyA dAne dAne para likhA hai khAne vAle kA nAma maiMne kaI kAma kiye aura karAye, acche acche kAma karane karAne meM aise to hue vyasta ki kaba hue javAna se bUr3he khabara hI na par3I aba to jAna liyA honahAra to jaisA honA avazya hI hotA hai jio aura jIne do kA pAlana kara hamane kitanoM ko hai bacAyA kitane rote huoM ko haMsAyA. aisA karanA mahAna kArya bhI mAnA aba to jAna liyA janma maraNa kI eka pala bhI badalI na jAya aba khyAla AyA maiM isa saMsAra meM pUrNa akartA hI hUM. maiM to mujha meM aura saba bhI khuda khuda meM sampUrNa haiM. phira kaise karUM? kyA karUM? aba to jAna liyA "maiM " jAnanahAra, sukha-zAMti kA akSaya bhaMDAra hUM * ** 204

Page #206
- rAga rAga mere meM hI hote bhAva haiM na, bar3e dilacaspa bhI haiM rAga meM raMga hai, vividhatA hai, sIkhane / sikhAne, haMsane / rulAne kI kSamatA bhI hai, gaharAiyAM bhI to anaMta haiM, jaise jaise jIva rAgoM ko karatA bhogatA hai, vaise vaise hI rAgoM meM DUbatA bhI hai. bhale phira rAga ho corI DAke kA, athavA dayA dAna kA bhale rAga ho krikeTa, phuTabAla kA athavA ho zataraMja kA bhale rAga ho gAne kA, paDhane kA, athavA ho kalAkArI kA rAga anaMta, gaharAiyAM bhI anaMta, anubhava bhI haiM anaMta. isI anaMta meM jIva DUba jAtA hai, vItarAga bhI kucha hai, aise vicAra, vizvAsa ko bhI kho baiThatA hai, eka bAta hai phira bhI jIva jitanA jitanA rAga karatA hai use sAtha meM duHkha kA bhI anubhava hai, AkulatA / vyAkulatA aura kSaNikatA kA bhI anubhava hai. 205

Page #207
isIliye jIva rAga meM AnaMda zAMti kabhI bhI nahIM pAtA cAhe vaha rAga kI gaharAiyoM ko chU le athavA u~cAIyoM ko rahatA azAMta, aura AnaMda zAMti kI khoja meM lagatA hai yahI khoja use vItarAga kI aura lAtI hai, khIMcatI hai. bhavya jIva avazya kahIM na kahIM, kabhI na kabhI to vItarAga koI guru se, jinavANI mA~ se suna, svayaM meM hI, svayaM ke svarUpa ko jAna, mAna kara Age bar3hatA anubhava bhI karatA hai tabhI use khada ke rAga ke pAgalapana kA bhI khayAla AtA hai. * * * 206

Page #208
- vidhi kA vidhAna yaha prabhu ne dekhA vidhi kA vidhAna hai adabhuta, alaukika, anupama, sRSTi hI hai anAdi, anaMta saMsAra aura mukta dazA hI hai. prabhu ne vizva ko dekhA hI chaha dravyoM meM, aura sAre chaha dravya svayaM kA kArya sadA hI svayaM hI svayaM se hI karate haiM. yahI hotA hai, saMbhava hai, sarvajJa ne yahI dekhA bhI hai jIva hI kalpanAeM karatA hai, ki yaha zarIra merA, paisA merA, ghara parivAra bhI merA yahI jUThI kalpanAyeM, ajJAna, mithyAtva hI jIva kA mahApApa, aparAdha aura dukha bhI hai jIva jo hai to jJAnasvarUpa jAnanahAra para usakI dazA isa saMsAra meM hai hI bahuta dayA, karuNA ke pAtra, ajJAnamaya jIva jItA hI hai ajJAnarUpa, dukharUpa hI paradravya kI kalpanAeM, paradravyoM meM hI sukhAbhAsa, duHkha kA anubhava bhI kiyA paradravyoM meM hI ramaNa kiyA paradravyoM meM hI DUba saMsArI bana dukhamaya hI rahA aba aise jIva ko sarvajJa batAte haiM, he jIva, tU kauna hai? kahA~ se hai ? kyA hai ? vAstavika meM terA svarUpa kyA hai? jAna, samajha, yahI tere sukha kA AdhAra hai 207

Page #209
tU paradravyoM ke vicAra, saMkalpa, kalpanAoM ko chor3a. ye tere nahIM. sAre dravya bhI svayaM meM hI paripUrNa haiM, aura tU bhI tujhameM hI paripUrNa hai. jJAnAnaMda, jJAnasvarUpa hai tujhe kisI ko kucha denA nahIM, aura kisIse kucha lenA bhI nahIM. yahI vidhi kA vidhAna hai kyoM ajJAnamaya pApa hI karane para tulA hai? isa lena dena meM dukha hI dukha bharA hai paradravya mere karma ho hI nahIM sakate, maiM paradravya kA karma bhI asaMbhava hI hai mujhe mere svayaM meM bhI kucha karanA nahIM, maiM bhI pUrNa merA pariNamana bhI pUrNa svataMtra hI hai * * * 208

Page #210
samudra samudra meM lahareM to AtI jAtI haiM pravAha to hai sadaiva hara lahara kA sparza alaga, koI lage zaktivAna aura koI lage halakI, hara lahara kA raMga bhI alaga, evaM sugaMdha bhI alaga, kisa lahara meM vanaspatI, to kisa meM haiM raMga biraMge nanheM prANI, rahatA hai yaha pravAha sadaiva. maiM to dekhatI hI rahI, jAnatI hI rahI, kaise koI bhI badale isa samudra ke pravAha ko. isa pravAha ke saMga aisA hI anubhava rahA ki, maiM to jAna hI rahI samudra ko samudra jo hai vizAla, gaharA, athAha aura dikhe dUra dUra taka aparimita, anaMta, aMtara meM sthira, kinAroM para pariNamatA. merA jJAna to jAne sAre samudra ko, usakI gaharAI ko evaM usake pravAha ko bhI, samudra ke eka eka paramANu ko evaM usameM rahate eka acala, aDola bhAva ko samudra hI hai, gaharAiyoM meM, aura hai kinAroM para laharoM meM samudra meM lahareM to AtI jAtI haiM pravAha to hai sadaiva. 209

Page #211
merA jJAna to jAna sake aise anaMta samudroM ko, dekho to isa jJAna kI bhI vividhatA, evaM vizAlatA, merA jJAna bhI hai gaharA, akhaMDa, acala, aDola, svayaM hai pariNamatA jJAna bhI to anaMta jJeyAkAroM meM pariNama sakatA hai evaM ekarUpa jJAyaka isa anaMtA anaMta ko jAna sakatA hai. dhanya hai yaha pratIti, dhanya hai yaha jJAyaka kA jJAna apariNAmI hI pariNamatA, akhaMDa, aDola hI sadA hai bahatA alaukika hI isa lokAkAza ko yathArtha rUpa meM jAnatA na to isakA koI Adi, aura na hI koI aMta, avinAzI samudra meM lahareM to AtI jAtI haiM pravAha to hai sadaiva. * * * 210

Page #212
svataMtra svarUpa jaina darzana, jina svarUpa hI merA hai, abaddha pUrNa svataMtra hai mahAvIra ke zAzana ke jainoM mahAvIra ne to kahA mere se pahale anaMta tIrthaMkara ho gaye aura ve sabhI bhI isI jina svarUpa ko pAkara batA gaye, jo pUrNa svataMtra hai. aisA zAzvata jina svarUpa kaise to baMdha sakatA hai yaha svarUpa kaise eka guru vANI, athavA koI bhI eka saMpradAya meM bhI baMdha kara raha sakatA hai yaha svarUpa to khuda hI nitya, niraMjana, jJAnAnaMda, pUrNa svataMtra hai. yaha jina svarUpa svayaM meM hI paripUrNa sadaiva ke liye nitya bhI hai, aura svayaM hI pariNamatA anitya bhI svayaM meM eka bhI hai aura anaMta guNoM se bharapUra bhI anAdi se anaMta samaya taka rahane vAlA tatva hI hai. jina darzana bhI svayaM meM hI pUrNa svataMtra sadaiva se hI hai anaMta tIrthaMkaroM, siddhoM, AcAryoM, upAdhyAyoM se aura anaMta sAdhuoM se suzobhita eka hI to darzana hai aisA eka, aneka meM samAyA Adi anaMta hI to hai. 211

Page #213
bhAvI tIrthaMkara gurudeva ne hI isa svataMtratA ko hameM pUrNa rUpa se 45 varSoM taka lagAtAra hai samajhAyA dhanya haiM hama jo gurudeva ko isa kAla meM suna pAte bhAgya to khuleM jaba suna, svasvarUpa meM samA jAte. * * * 212

Page #214
hAra phira jIta pahale hAra phira jIta hai, yahI duniyA kI rIta hai pahale nigoda phira mokSa,yahI duniyA kI rIta hai rAga kA aMza bhI raha jAye, jala khAka hI hotA hai jIva isI taraha pUrNa vItarAga dazA ko pAtA hai svayaM ko jItA hI mAna liyA, phira hAra meM bhI jIta hai. maiM AtmA to sadaiva mukta, hAra jIta kA khela nahIM bAhara se hArA dikhU, phira bhI aMtara meM jItA hI hUM rAga ko jaba jAna liyA hai parAyA, aba to merA aMtara kA vItarAga hI, bAharI rAga ko jalA degA svayaM ko jItA hI mAna liyA phira hAra meM bhI jIta hai. bAhara ke hAre hue rUpa meM na phaMsa kara,aMtara meM hI jaba jhAMka liyA, to aMtara kA jItA hI jIta hai vaha eka hI abheda, akhaMDa, sadA hI paramAtmA hai yahI maiM, yahI merA, isI eka kA hI AsarA hai svayaM ko jItA hI mAna liyA phira hAra meM bhI jIta hai. 213

Page #215
- mujhe hArA, pAmara saMsArI mAna lenA hI merA mithyAtva hai mujhe jItA, paripUrNa mukta mAna sakanA hI samyakatva hai maiM sabhI gatiyoM, kSetra, bhAvoM meM eka hI pAriNAmika bhAva hUM, isI ko maiMne jAna, pahacAna, zraddhAna kara mujhako jItA hI mAna liyA phira hAra meM bhI jIta hai. 214 *** |

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T Why Safe Danger? Why this book? Why Safe Danger? This is my second book, the first one was entitled Free Prisoner. After contemplating my free spirit in the walls of my body, I thought now I was safe. I had found my guru, I was on the right path. I worked for Occupational Safety and Health (OSHA) for 18 years as a consultant. One thing I had learned quite clearly was that, when one feels confidant, or safe, one loses the sharp awareness towards safety and makes major mistakes. So while confidence is good to boost one's effort, at the same time, it can be dangerous. In the path of finding my ultimate blissful freedom, I cannot afford to have anything less than full effort and attention. My goal is greater than anything I can achieve in this world and more final than any destination of this world; therefore my effort also has to be great, with awareness and sharpness every moment, with the danger of losing focus looming. On the other hand, the free spirit is always safe in these walls of the body. This body never touches my spirit, never is able to diminish my spirit in any way. So I am always safe and sound to be discovered, felt, cherished, and enjoyed. Gurudev has explained my soul, with such details and clarity that I feel capable to try to walk the path of achieving total bliss. As I listen to him, read his lectures, live through his teachings, feelings and thoughts flow through my mind and are written in the form of these poems. The writing process has given me a special chance to examine my beliefs, my connections to the family and this world. It has given me a clearer understanding of my existence in this world. I hope that these poems also help readers think differently and challenge some of their beliefs. 215

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True understanding is strength. Understanding changes us, how we think, how we live, and also how we feel. Through clear learning of the universal laws, one can understand one's own eternal nature, bliss and peace. In true eternal peace, however, these very thoughts and writings can also create noise or disturbance. * ** 216

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Readers' comments on Free Prisoner (mukta gulAma) Pujya Pandit Shree Gyanchandji Jain, Vidisha, M.P., India : vartamAna kAlIna zrI Rdina sailera zrI mahAvIra svAmI paryatIbIsa tIrthadara evaM prAcArya suramundradeva urA racita zrI samayasAra mAriyoM ke mAdhyama se vastu svarUpamA samyam udghATana karane mAle rImAna meM rAjya gurudevazrI AnajI svAmI hue jinale nimitra se deza-videza se jinazAsanI marI bhAvanA aura ho rahI hai|-- uSA mArUnirikana mukha gulAma" pustaka meM zrI rAjya yuko zrI jayA uDyATiinela mUlabhUta sihAra-bharavitAna, kamara pAya, Davya-guNa- paryAya kI mAtrA ra mi mAtra jJAyaDarakA ra sundara vivecana kiyA gayA hai| | sabhI jIva jhAtmArAdhanA vaka samyam prabhAgatA meM nihita vanassImagata yAbAre - jainarala nAgI kalA paM.zAnabhara jena nizA 217

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Pujya Shree Rakeshbhai Zaveri, Dharampur, Gujrat, India : pUjyazrI rAkezabhAI jhaverI, dharmapura, jAhera pravacanamAMthIH gaNadharavAdazibira7, pravacana1,Part2, July 26, 2014 mane roja 5 thI 7pustako premathI loko ApatA hoya che. huM eka glAnsa pheravIne jyAM mokalavAnI hoya tyAM mokalAvI dauM. A pustaka mukta gulAma "Free Prisoner" aDadhI meM rAtanAM vAMcI ane aDadhI meM savAranAM. pUjayazrI kAnajIsvAmInAM 125mI janmajayaMtinAM nimitte pragaTa thayela che. traNa bhASAomAM bahuja suMdara rIte, pustakanI zaruAta karI che. jeNe mane mAruM mukta svarUpa samajAvyuM eno huM dAsAnudAsa 21 Sa zeql szege. In that sense free and in that sense prisoner. AdaraNIya rasikabhAI zeTha, vAMkAnera, saurASTra, hAle Houston, Texas adhyAtmatatvarasika zrImatI uSAbena mAruA kalIkALamAM adhyAtmayugasRSTA, jInendrapraNita vItarAga mArga pravartaka, parama pUjya prAtaHsmaraNIya kahAna gurudevanAM tatvane varelA che. teonAM lakhANamAM anaMtaguNa svarUpa AtmAnAM atIndriya jJAnaguNanI khUba ja mahimA kare che. teonI prathama kRti mukta gulAmamAM kAvyanI racanAmAM teonAM spaSTa vicAro A bAbatano paDagho pADe che. teonI bIjI kRti suMdara ja haze. tenI saphaLatAnI kAmanA karuM chuM. 218