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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA svabhAva meM thiratA pahalA prazna: bhagavAna, Aja prAraMbha hone vAlI pravacanamAlA ko jo zIrSaka milA hai, vaha bahuta anUThA aura bebUjha hai--jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! bhagavAna, hameM isa sUtra kA artha samajhAne kI anukaMpA kreN| AnaMda maitreya! yaha sUtra nizcaya hI anUThA hai aura bebUjha hai| isa sUtra meM dharma kA sArA sAra A gayA hai--sAre zAstroM kA nicodd'| isa sUtra ke bAhara kucha bacatA nhiiN| isa sUtra ko samajhA, to saba smjhaa| isa sUtra ko jIyA, to saba jiiyaa| sUtra kA artha hotA hai: jise pakar3a kara hama paramAtmA taka pahuMca jaaeN| aisA hI yaha sUtra hai| sUtra ke artha meM hI sUtra hai| setu bana sakatA hai--paramAtmA se jor3ane vaalaa| yUM to patalA hai bahuta, dhAge kI taraha, lekina prema kA dhAgA kitanA hI patalA ho, paryApta hai| jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! manuSya svabhAva se paramAtmA hai, lekina svabhAva se bhaTaka gyaa| vaha bhaTakAva bhI aparihArya thaa| binA bhaTaka ke patA hI nahIM calatA ki svabhAva kyA hai| jaise machalI ko jaba taka koI pAnI se bAhara na nikAla le, taba taka use yAda bhI nahIM AtI ki kyA hai pAnI kA rAja, ki pAnI jIvana hai| yaha to jaba machalI taTa kI reta para tar3aphatI hai, tabhI anubhava meM AtA hai| sAgara meM hI rahI, sAgara meM hI bar3I huI, to sAgara kA bodha asaMbhava hai| bhaTake binA bodha nahIM hotaa| bhaTake binA buddhatva nahIM hotaa| isalie aparihArya hai bhaTakAva, lekina phira bhaTakate hI nahIM rahanA hai! anubhava meM A gayA ki sAgara hai jIvana, to phira sAgara kI talAza karanI hai| dhUpa meM tapta reta para tar3aphate hI nahIM rahanA hai| aura hama saba tar3apha rahe haiN| hamArA jIvana sivAya tar3aphana ke aura kyA hai--eka viSAda, eka saMtApa, eka ciMtAoM kA jhamelA, eka dukha svapnoM kA melA! eka dukhasvapna chUTa nahIM pAtA ki dUsarA zurU ho jAtA hai| katAra lagI hai--aMtahIna katAra! kAMTe hI kAMTe--jaise phUla yahAM khilate hI nahIM! dukha hI dukha! sukha kI basa aashaa| aura AzA dhIre-dhIre nirAzA bana jAtI hai| jaba bahuta bAra AzA hAra jAtI hai| hara bAra TUTa jAtI hai, bikhara jAtI hai, to svabhAvataH umra ke Dhalate-Dhalate, sAMjha Ate-Ate manuSya hatAza ho jAtA hai, nirAza ho jAtA hai| sUryAsta ke sAtha hote-hote usake bhItara bhI kucha jIvana TUTa jAtA hai, bikhara jAtA hai| marane ke pahale hI loga mara jAte haiN| jIne ke pahale hI loga mara jAte haiM! jIte jI jAna nahIM pAte jIvana kyA hai| aura kAraNa--itanA hI ki machalI tar3aphatI rahatI hai reta para; pAsa hI sAgara hai; eka chalAMga kI bAta hai| eka kadama se jyAdA dUrI nahIM hai| lekina apanI tar3aphana meM hI aisI ulajha jAtI hai, yAda bhI AtI hai sAgara kii| ve sukha ke dina vismRta bhI nahIM hote| isIlie to AkAMkSA hai AnaMda kii| Page 1 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA AnaMda kI AkAMkSA isa bAta kA sabUta hai ki kabhI hamane AnaMda jAnA hai| jise jAnA na ho, usakI AkAMkSA kaisI! jise kabhI cakhA na ho, svAda na liyA ho, usakI abhIpsA asaMbhava hai| jAnA hai kabhI; svAda aba bhI hamArI jabAna para hai| abhI bhI bhUlI nhiiN| kitanI hI bisara gaI ho bAta, bilakula nahIM bhUla gaI, bilakula nahIM miTa gaI! kitane hI dUra kI ho gaI ho AvAja, aba bhI AtI hai| aba bhI pukAra uThatI hai, magara sAhasa nahIM hotA phira--isa virATa sAgara meM DUbane kaa| jaba taTa para itanI kaThinAI hai, to sAgara meM patA nahIM aura kyA muzkila ho jAe! machalI sAgara meM phira pahuMca jAe, to jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! haTa gaI thI svabhAva se, phira vApasa lauTa aaii| phira AnaMda hai| phira utsava hai| phira hara roja holI hai, hara roja dIvAlI hai| aura aba pahalI bAra pahacAna hogii| sAgara meM pahale bhI thI; sAgara meM aba bhI hai| machalI bhI vahI, sAgara bhI vahI, phira bhI bAta badala gii| pahale ajJAna thA, aba buddhatva hai| yaha zIrSaka eka apUrva phakIra rajjaba jI ke vacana kA eka aMza hai| pUrA vacana khayAla meM loge, to yaha aMza jaldI samajha meM A sakegA jyUM mukha eka dekhi duI darpana, gahalA tetA gaayaa| jana rajjaba aisI bidhi jAneM, jyUM thA tyUM tthhraayaa|| jyUM mukha eka dekhi duI darpana...! ceharA to eka hai, lekina darpaNa meM jhAMkoge, to do ho jAtA hai| aura darpaNa meM jhAMke binA cehare kA patA nahIM cltaa| so majabUrI hai| jhAMka kara hI patA clegaa| darpaNa meM jhAMkanA to hogaa| magara jhAMkate hI jo eka thA, vaha do ho jAtA hai! isalie khatarA bhI hai| anivAryatA aura khatarA sAtha saath| anivAryatA--ki binA darpaNa meM jhAMke patA hI na calegA ki merA ceharA kaisA hai| nAka-nakzA kyA hai! maiM kauna hUM? kahAM se hUM? kyA hai merA svarUpa? darpaNa meM to jhAMkanA hI hogaa| lekina jhAMkate hI eka duvidhA khar3I ho jAtI hai, duI khar3I ho jAtI hai| maiMne sunA hai: amRtasara se eka relagAr3I dillI kI tarapha ravAnA huii| saradAra vicittara siMha ko jora se laghuzaMkA lagI thii| jAkara saradArI-jhaTake se saMDAsa kA daravAjA khola diyaa| jhAMka kara dekhA; darpaNa meM apanA ceharA dikhAI par3A! jaldI se kahA, mApha karie saradAra jI! daravAjA baMda kara diyA! magara laghuzaMkA jora se lagI thii| pAMca minaTa samhAlA, dasa minaTa smhaalaa| magara yaha bhItara jo saradAra ghusA hai, nikalA hI nahIM, nikalA hI nahIM! phira jA kara daravAjA khaTakhaTAyA, magara javAba bhI na de! phira kholaa| saradAra maujUda thA! kahA, mApha karanA saradAra jI! phira baMda kara diyaa| lekina aba samhAlanA muzkila ho gyaa| saMyama kI bhI sImA hai! tabhI kaMDakTara A gyaa| to vicittara siMha ne kahA ki hadda ho gaI! eka AdamI aMdara ghusA hai, so ghaMTe bhara se nikalatA hI nahIM hai! kaMDakTara ne kahA, dekho, maiM jAtA huuN| Page 2 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kaMDakTara ne jhaaNkaa| kaMDakTara bhI saradAra! jaldI se daravAjA baMda kara ke vicittara siMha ko kahA ki bhaI, tuma dUsare Dabbe ke saMDAsa meM cale jaao| bhItara to kaMDakTara hai! dekhA ki Dresa vagairaha kaMDakTara kI hai! vaha jo darpaNa hai, vaha sirpha saradAroM ko hI dhokhA de rahA hai--aisA mata socnaa| darpaNa saba ko dhokhA de rahA hai| aura jIvana meM bahuta taraha ke darpaNa haiN| hara AMkha eka darpaNa hai| mAM kI AMkha meM baccA apane ko jhAMkatA hai, to use pahale pratIti hotI hai ki maiM kauna huuN| vaha pratIti jIvana bhara pIchA nahIM chodd'tii| vaha duI chAyA kI taraha pIche lagI rahatI hai| kyoMki mAM ne jaisA agAdha, bezarta prema diyA, vaisA kauna degA! kucha mAMgA nhiiN| bacce ke pAsa dene ko kucha thA bhI nhiiN| baccA kucha bhI nahIM detA hai| mAM saba detI hai| isase eka bhrAMti paidA hotI hai, ki bacce ko yUM lagatA hai ki lene kA maiM hakadAra hUM! darpaNa se dhokhA khA gyaa| aba vaha jiMdagI bhara mAMgegA ki--do| patnI se maaNgegaa| mitroM se maaNgegaa| jahAM jAegA--kahIM chipI bhItara AkAMkSA rahegI ki prema do| prema maiM dUM--yaha to bAta hI nahIM utthegii| kyoMki pahalA darpaNa jo milA thA, vaha mAM kA darpaNa thaa| usa darpaNa se jo use chavi dikhAI par3I thI, vaha yaha thI ki maiM jaisA hUM, prema kA pAtra huuN| prema mujhe milanA cAhie; yaha merA haka hai, adhikAra hai| prema ko arjita nahIM karanA hai| binA arjita milatA hai| aura jIvana bhara dukhI hogA, kyoMki patnI mAM nahIM hogii| mitra mAM nahIM hoNge| yaha samAja mAM nahIM hogaa| phira mAM kahAM milegI? phira mAM kahIM bhI nahIM milegii| isa bar3I duniyA meM hara jagaha dutakArA jaaegaa| aura kaThinAI yaha hai ki isa bar3I duniyA meM jo bhI loga mileMge, una sabane mAM ke darpaNa meM apane cehare ko dekhA hai| ve bhI mAMga rahe haiM ki do! to mAMga uTha rahI hai ki do| prema do| patnI pati se mAMga rahI hai| pati patnI se mAMga rahA hai| mitra mitra se mAMga rahA hai| dene vAlA koI bhI nahIM! mAMgane vAloM kI bhIr3a hai, jamaghaTa hai| mAMgane vAle, mAMgane vAloM se mAMga rahe haiM! bhikhArI bhikhArI ke sAmane hAtha phailAe khar3e haiM! donoM ke hAthoM meM bhikSA-pAtra hai| vaha jo duI paidA ho gaI darpaNa se, aba ar3acana AegI; aba chInA-jhapaTI zurU hogii| jaba nahIM milegA mAMge se, to chIno--jhapaTo--jabardastI lo| isa jabardastI kA nAma hI rAjanIti hai| nahIM milatA mAMge se, to kyA kareM! phira yena kena prakAreNa, jaise bhI mila sakatA ho-- lo| kaisI-kaisI viDaMbanAeM paidA ho jAtI haiN| loga prema ke lie vezyAoM ke pAsa jA rahe haiM! socate haiM, zAyada paisA dene se mila jAegA! paisA dene se prema kaise milegA? prema to kharIdA nahIM jA sktaa| socate haiM, bar3e pada para hoMge, to milegaa| lekina kitane hI bar3e pada para ho jAo, prema nahIM milegaa| hAM, khuzAmadI ikaTThe ho jaaeNge| lekina khuzAmada prema nahIM hai| lAkha apane ko dhokhA dene kI koziza karo, de na paaoge| eka tasavIra dekhI thI pitA kI AMkhoM meM, vaha dhokhA ho gii| eka tasavIra dekhI thI bhAI-bahanoM kI AMkhoM meM, vaha dhokhA de gii| eka tasavIra dekhI thI bhAI-bahanoM kI AMkhoM meM, vaha dhokhA de gii| phira tasvIreM hI Page 3 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA tasvIreM haiM--apanI hI tasvIreM--lekina darpaNa alg-alg| to apanI hI kitanI tasvIreM dekha liiN| hara darpaNa alaga tasavIra dikhalAtA hai| eka tasavIra dekhI patnI kI AMkhoM meM, pati kI AMkhoM meN| eka tasavIra dekhI apane beTe kI AMkhoM meM, beTI kI AMkhoM meN| eka tasavIra dekhI mitra kI AMkhoM meM, eka tasavIra dekhI zatru kI AMkhoM meN| eka tasavIra dekhI usakI AMkhoM meM--jo na mitra thA, na zatru thA; jisako paravAha hI na thI tumhaarii| lekina tasavIra to hara darpaNa meM dikhAI pdd'ii| aise bahuta-sI apanI hI tasvIreM ikaTThI ho gii| hamane alabama sajA liyA hai! duI hI nahIM huI--anekatA ho gaI! eka darpaNa meM dekhate, to duI hotii| rajjaba ThIka kahate haiM, jyUM mukha eka, dekhi duI darpana! dekhA nahIM darpaNa meM ki do huA nhiiN| isalie dvaita ho gayA hai| hai to advait| svabhAva to advaita hai| eka hI hai| lekina itane darpaNa haiM--darpaNoM para darpaNa haiM! jagaha-jagaha darpaNa haiM! aura tumane itanI tasvIreM apanI ikaTThI kara lI haiM ki apanI hI tasvIroM ke jaMgala meM kho gae ho| aba Aja taya karanA muzkila bhI ho gayA ki isameM kauna ceharA merA hai! jo mAM kI AMkha meM dekhA thA--vaha ceharA? ki jo patnI kI AMkhoM meM dekhA--vaha ceharA? ki jo vezyA kI AMkhoM meM dekhA--vaha ceharA? kauna-sA ceharA merA hai? jo mitra kI AMkhoM meM dekhA--vaha? yA jo zatru kI AMkhoM meM dekhA--vaha? jaba dhana thA pAsa, taba jo AMkheM AsapAsa ikaTThI ho gaI thIM, vaha ceharA saca thA; ki jaba dIna ho gae, daridra ho gae--aba jo ceharA dikhAI par3a rahA hai? kyoMki aba dUsarI taraha ke loga haiN| eka bahuta bar3A dhanI barabAda ho gyaa| jue meM saba hAra gyaa| mitroM kI jamAta lagI rahatI thI, mitra chaMTane lge| usakI patnI ne puuchaa...| patnI ko kucha patA nhiiN| patnI ko usane kucha batAyA nahIM--ki hAtha se saba jA cukA hai| aba sirpha lakIra raha gaI hai--sAMpa jA cukA hai| to patnI ne pUchA ki kyA bAta hai! baiThaka tumhArI aba khAlI-khAlI dikhatI hai? mitra nahIM dikhAI pdd'te| Adhe hI mitra raha gae! pati ne kahA, maiM hairAna hai ki Adhe bhI kyoM raha gae haiM! zAyada inako abhI patA nhiiN| jinako patA cala gayA, ve to saraka ge| patnI ne kahA, kyA karate ho! kisa bAta kA patA? pati ne kahA, aba tujhase kyA chipaanaa| saba hAra cukA huuN| jo dhana thA--hAtha se nikala cukA hai| saba jue meM hAra cukaa| jo mere pAsa ikaTThe the loga, ve dhana ke kAraNa the, yaha to Aja patA calA! jina-jina ko patA calatA jA rahA hai ki aba mere pAsa kucha bhI nahIM hai, ve khisakate jA rahe haiN| ThIka hai: gur3a thA, to makkhiyAM thIM! aba gur3a hI nahIM, to makkhiyAM kyoM? phUla khile the, to bhaMvare A gae the| aba phUla hI gira gayA, murajhA gayA, to bhaMvaroM kA kyA! patnI ne yaha sunA aura bolI ki mere pitA ThIka hI kahate the ki isa AdamI se zAdI mata kro| yaha Aja nahIM kala gaDhe meM giraaegaa| maiM mAyake calI! Page 4 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA pati ne kahA, kyA kahatI ho! tuma bhI chAr3a calIM! patnI ne kahA, aba yahAM raha kara kyA? apane jIvana ko barabAda karanA hai! yahAM loga saba kAraNoM se jur3e haiN| akAraNa to prIti kahAM milegI? aura jaba taka akAraNa prIti na mile, taba taka prANa bhareMge nhiiN| yahAM to saba kAraNa haiN| loga zartabaMdI kie hue haiM! eka mitra apane bahuta pragAr3ha hitaiSI se kaha rahA thA ki do striyoM ke bIca mujhe cunAva karanA hai--kisase zAdI karUM? eka suMdara hai--ati suMdara hai, lekina daridra hai, dIna hai| aura eka ati kurUpa hai, para bahuta dhanI hai| aura akelI beTI hai bApa kii| agara usase vivAha karUM, to sArA dhana merA hai| koI aura mAlika nahIM usa dhana kaa| bApa bUDhA hai| mAM to mara cukI, bApa bhI Aja gayA, kala gayA! lekina strI kurUpa hai| bahuta kurUpa hai! to kyA karUM, kyA na karUM? usake mitra ne kahA ki isameM socane kI bAta hai! are, zarma khaao| prema aura kahIM dhana kI bAta socatA hai| jo suMdara hai, usase vivAha kro| prema sauMdarya kI bhASA jAnatA hai--dhana kI bhASA nhiiN| jo suMdara hai, usase vivAha kro|| mitra ne kahA, tumane ThIka salAha dii| aura jaba mitra jAne lagA, to usake hitaiSI ne pUchA ki bhaI, aura usa kurUpa lar3akI kA patA mujhe dete jAo! isa duniyA meM sAre nAte-rizte basa, aise haiM! phira ye sArI tasvIreM ikaTThI ho jAtI haiN| phira yaha taya karanA hI muzkila ho jAtA hai ki maiM kauna huuN| aura apane ko to tumane kabhI jAnA nahIM; sadA darpaNa meM jAnA! tumane kabhI kisI myUjiyama meM aneka taraha ke darpaNa dekhe! kisI meM tuma laMbe dikhAI par3ate ho| kisI meM tuma Thigane dikhAI par3ate ho| kisI meM tuma moTe dikhAI par3ate ho| kisI meM tuma dubale dikhAI par3ate ho| tuma eka ho, lekina darpaNa kisa DhaMga se banA hai, usa DhaMga se tumhArI tasavIra badala jAtI hai| aura itane darpaNa haiM ki anekatA paidA ho gaI! rajjaba to kahate, haiM--duI! duI para hI kahAM bAta TikI? bAta bahuta ho gii| do se cAra hote haiM, cAra se solaha hote haiN| bAta bar3hatI hI calI jAtI hai| duI haI, ki cuuke| phira phisalana para ho| phira phisalate hI jAoge, jaba taka phira punaH eka na ho jaao| eka ho jAo--to jyUM thA tyUM tthhraayaa| darpaNa se mukta honA saMsAra se mukta honA hai| darpaNoM se mukta honA saMsAra se mukta honA hai| jisa vyakti ko dUsaroM kI AMkheM kyA kahatI haiM, isakI jarA bhI paravAha nahIM, usI ko maiM saMnyAsI kahatA huuN| mujhase loga pUchate haiM, Apako itanI gAliyAM par3atI haiN| itanA Apake khilApha likhA jAtA hai! karIba-karIba sArI duniyA meN| Apako kucha parezAnI nahIM hotI! mujhe parezAnI hone kA koI kAraNa nahIM, kyoMki koI darpaNa kyA kaha rahA hai, yaha darpaNa jaane| mujhe kyA pdd'ii| Page 5 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA yaha darpaNa meM jo chavi bana rahI hai, yaha darpaNa ke saMbaMdha meM kucha kahatI hai; mere saMbaMdha meM kucha bhI nahIM khtii| yaha vaktavya darpaNa ke saMbaMdha meM hai--mere saMbaMdha meM nhiiN| isalie hamAre pAsa kahAvata hai ki kutte bhauMkate rahate haiM, hAthI nikala jAtA hai| hAthI pratIka hai--masta phakIroM kaa| hAthI kI cAla mastI kI cAla hai; matavAlI cAla hai| kutte bhauMkate rahate haiN| bhauMka-bhAMka kara cupa ho jAte haiN| Akhira kaba taka bhauMkate raheMge? kutte darpaNoM kI taraha haiN| aura darpaNa pIchA karate haiN| darpaNa nArAja ho jAtA hai, agara tuma usakI phikra na lo| agara tuma usakI na suno, to use krodha AtA hai| darpaNa bhauNkegaa| darpaNa hajAra taraha se tumhArI niMdA kregaa| darpaNa cAhegA ki tuma cyuta ho jAo; tuma apane keMdra se saraka aao| tuma darpaNa para bharosA kara lo| lekina darpaNa para jisane bharosA kiyA, vaha cuukaa| vahI saMsArI hai--jo darpaNa para bharosA karatA hai| jo darpaNa para bharosA nahIM karatA, jo kahatA hai: maiM to apane ko AMkha baMda kara ke jAnatA hUM; aura aba kisa darpaNa meM dekhanA hai! maiMne apanA asalI ceharA dekha liyA, aba kahAM mujhe, kisase pUchanA hai! aba kauna merA ceharA batA sakegA! jaba mujhe patA nahIM, to kauna merA ceharA batA sakegA!... kucha bAteM haiM, jo AMkha khola kara dekhI jAtI haiN| bAhara kA saMsAra AMkha khola kara dekhA jAtA hai| bhItara kA saMsAra AMkha baMda kara ke dekhA jAtA hai| AMkha baMda kara ke jo dikhAI par3atA hai, vahI tuma ho| darpaNa meM bhaTake--to bhttko| jyUM mukha eka dekhi huI darpana! dekhA nahIM darpaNa meM, ki do haA nahIM! choTe baccoM ko jaba pahalI daphA darpaNa dikhAo, to tuma dekhanA, unakI kyA pratikriyA hotI hai! choTA baccA, jisane abhI darpaNa nahIM dekhA, usake sAmane darpaNa rakha do| cauNkegaa| kiMkartavyavimUDha ho jAegA kSaNa bhara ko, ki aba kyA karanA--yaha dUsarA baccA sAmane hai! yA to Dara jAegA yA apanI mAM kI tarapha bhaagegaa| yA agara himmatavara haA, to TaTola kara dekhegA ki kauna hai! kahAM hai? darpaNa para TaTolegA, to pakar3a meM to kucha AegA nahIM; hAtha phisala phisala jAegA! darpaNa meM kucha hai to nahIM; sirpha bhrAMti hai! to choTA baccA agara buddhimAna hogA thor3A, to darpaNa ke pIche jA kara dekhegaa| saraka kara, ghuTane ke bala pIche jAegA, ki chipA hai koI pIche! yaha pratyeka choTe bacce kI pratikriyA hogI, jo pahalI bAra darpaNa ke sAmane aaegaa| samajhegA ki koI dUsarA hai| jarUra chipA hai| pIche chipA hogaa| yahAM se pakar3a meM nahIM AtA, to pIche se jA kara pakaDUM! aura jaba bhI lauTa kara AegA, to phira pAegA usako ki chipA hai! thor3I dera meM parezAna ho jAegA; pasInA-pasInA ho jAegA, ki karanA kyA! isa dUsare ke sAtha aba karanA kyA? rone lagegA, cillAne lagegA; mAM ko pukAra dene lgegaa| choTe bacce jaldI se TaTola kara dekhanA cAhate haiM, pahacAnanA cAhate haiM--kauna hai? kaisA hai? Page 6 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA choTe bacce bhI pahacAnate haiM ki kauna premapUrNa hai, kauna apremapUrNa hai| choTA baccA jisako premapUrNa pAtA hai, usake pAsa saraka AtA hai| jisako aprItikara pAtA hai, usase dUra haTa jAtA hai| choTe bacce ko krodha se dekho, rone lagatA hai| prema se dekho--pAsa Ane ko lalacAne lagatA hai| aura ina darpaNoM ke sAtha hama bhI yahI kara rahe haiN| lekina darpaNa hamAre sUkSma haiN| isalie hama bahuta ciMtita hote haiN| jisa darpaNa ne kala hamArI suMdara chavi dikhAI thI, agara vaha Aja asuMdara chavi dikhAe, to hameM lagatA hai--dhokhA diyA gayA, beImAnI kI gaI! hama krodhita hote haiN| hama kahate haiM, kala kI bAta ko badalo mata; itane jaldI mata badalo! hama nAtoM ko thira karanA cAhate haiN| hama cAhate haiM, hamAre nAte-rizte zAzvata ho jaaeN| hama cAhate haiM, samaya unameM koI vyavadhAna na ddaale| yaha hamAre sAre saMsAra kA phailAva hai| isa choTe se vacana meM adabhuta bAta kaha dI rajjaba ne: jyUM mukha eka dekhi duI darpana, gahalA tetA gaayaa| aura jinhoMne jitanA jAnA, jinhoMne jitanA pahacAnA--utanA kahane kI koziza kI hai, gAne kI koziza kI hai| lekina jo satya hai, vaha kisI gIta meM samAtA nhiiN| gahalA tetA gAyA--jitanA bana par3A hai, utanA jAnane vAloM ne kahA hai| lekina usa eka ko kahane kA koI upAya nahIM, kyoMki zabda bhI darpaNa hai| zabda meM lAte hI vaha eka bhI do ho jAtA hai| jaba vyakti apane bhItara paripUrNa zUnya meM, dhyAna meM DUbatA hai, to anubhava hotA hai, sAkSAtkAra hotA hai ki maiM kauna huuN| abhI koI darpaNa nahIM, sirpha pratIti hotI hai, anubhUti hotI hai ki maiM kauna huuN| aisA bhI nahIM ki koI uttara milatA hai, ki maiM kauna huuN| basa, eka bhaavdshaa| yaha parama zikhara hai| jaise hI tumane apane bhItara bhI kahA ki are, yaha rahI samAdhi! darpaNa zurU hue| eka se do ho gaI baat| bolane vAlA bhItara A gyaa| mana lauTa aayaa| mana ne kahA, suno merI! yaha hai smaadhi| yahI to hai nirvikalpa smaadhi| yahI to hai nirbIja smaadhi| yahI to pataMjali ne gaaii| yahI to kabIra ne gungunaaii| yahI to nAnaka bole| yahI to mahAvIra ke vacanoM meM hai| yahI to buddha kA saMdeza hai| yahI to kurAna hai| yahI gItA; yahI bAibila! A gae tum| pahuMca gae tum| aba bhrAMti zurU huii| darpaNa A gyaa| mana ne eka darpaNa sAmane kara diyaa| samAdhi eka bAta thI; mana darpaNa dikhAne lgaa| aba samAdhi do ho gii| zabda banI; vikRti zurU ho gii| phira tuma kisI se kahoge, taba aura vikRti ho jaaegii| kyoMki jo tumhAre bhItara chipA thA, usako to tuma kisI se kahane jAoge, to bAta aura bigar3a jaaegii| kyoMki jisase tuma kahoge, usakA koI anubhava nahIM hai samAdhi kaa| vaha samAdhi zabda ko to suna legA...aura cUMki bahuta bAra isa zabda ko sunA hai, isalie aisA bhI mAna legA ki artha merI pakar3a meM AtA hai| magara anubhava ke binA artha kahAM! usake lie zabda thothA hai, arthahIna hai| vaha suna legaa| zAyada tote kI taraha doharAne bhI lgegaa| Page 7 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA isI taraha ke tote to tumhAre maMdiroM meM, masjidoM meM, gurudvAroM meM baiThe haiN| isI taraha ke tote to tuma pUja rahe ho| yahI tote to tumhAre paMDita haiN| ye doharAe cale jA rahe haiN| inakA apanA koI anubhava nahIM hai| jinakA apanA anubhava hai, ve bhI jaba kahane jAte haiM, to bAta bigar3a jAtI hai; bana hI nahIM paatii| hajAra bAra kahI gaI, aura hajAra bAra bigar3a gii| ravIMdranAtha maraNazaiyA para the| unake eka mitra ne unase kahA ki Apa dhanyabhAgI haiN| Apako to dukhI nahIM maranA cAhie! kyoMki ravIMdranAtha kI AMkhoM se AMsU jhara rahe the| mitra ne kahA, maiM to socatA thA ki tuma to kRtakRtya ho ge| tumane chaha hajAra gIta gAe! duniyA ke kisI kavi ne itane gIta nahIM gaae| kAlidAsa aura bhavabhUti, aura zeksapIyara aura zelI--saba pIche par3a ge| zelI ne do hajAra gIta gAe haiN| vaha pazcima kA sabase bar3A kavi hai--saMkhyA kI dRSTi se-- mahAkavi hai| ravIMdranAtha ne usI koTi ke chaha hajAra gIta gAe haiM, jo saba saMgIta meM baMdha sakate haiM; jo chaMda-mAtrA meM Abaddha ho sakate haiM, jo gIta se, zabda se rUpAMtarita ho kara saMgIta bana sakate haiN| itanA virATa dAna tumane jagata ko diyaa| tuma dhanyabhAgI ho, mitra ne kahA, tuma kisalie ro rahe ho! ravIMdranAtha ne kahA, Thaharo, tuma merI bAta samajhe nhiiN| maiM isalie ro rahA hUM: maiM prArthanA kara rahA hUM ki he prabhu, abhI to sAja biThA pAyA thaa| abhI gIta gAyA kahAM! aura yaha vidA kA kSaNa A gayA! yaha koI bAta huI! yaha kaisA anyAya? jiMdagI bhara to maiM sAja biThAtA rhaa...| sAja biThAnA jAnate ho na! jaba tabalacI le kara apanI hathaur3I aura tabale ko ThoMka-ThoMka kara sAja biThA rahA hotA hai| jaba sitAravAdaka tAroM ko kasa-kasa kara usa jagaha lA rahA hotA hai, usa svara meM, jo na to bahuta tanA ho, na bahuta DhIlA ho| kyoMki tAra bahuta DhIle hoM, to saMgIta paidA nahIM hotaa| aura tAra bahuta khiMce hoM, to tAra TUTa hI jAeMge; saMgIta kyA paidA hogA--visaMgIta paidA hogaa| tAroM ko lAnA par3atA hai usa madhya meM--buddha ne kahA hai: majjhima nikAya--usa ThIka madhya biMdu para, jahAM na to tAra bahuta kase hote haiM, na bahuta DhIle hote haiN| na kase, na DhIle--jahAM kasanA aura DhIlA honA donoM kA atikramaNa ho jAtA hai| tAra jaba paripUrNa svastha hote haiM--na yaha ati, na vaha ati, jaba peMilama ghar3I kA bIca meM ruka gayA hotA hai, to ghar3I ruka jAtI hai| aise hI jaba tAra bilakula madhya meM ho jAte haiM, taba saMbhAvanA hai saMgIta ke janma kii| ravIMdranAtha ne kahA ki maiM to abhI sitAra ke tAra biThA pAyA thaa| tabale ko ThoMka-ThoMka kara rAste para lAyA thA bAmuzkila! ye chaha hajAra gIta usa gIta ko gAne kI koziza meM gAe haiM-- jo aba taka maiM gA nahIM paayaa| ye chaha hajAra asaphalatAeM haiN| ye chaha hajAra asaphala prayAsa haiN| eka gIta gAnA cAhatA huuN| basa, eka giit| magara jaba bhI gAtA hUM, kucha kA kucha ho jAtA hai! Page 8 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA gahalA tetA gAyA! bahuta gAyA gayA hai| gIta eka hai| satya eka hai| lekina koI aba taka use kaha nahIM paayaa| koI kabhI kaha bhI na paaegaa| ravIMdranAtha nAhaka ro rahe the| ravIMdranAtha ko buddhatva kA koI anubhava nahIM thA, nahIM to nahIM rote| jAnate isa satya ko ki usa gIta ko gAyA nahIM jA sktaa| hAM, jitanA bane, utanA gA do| magara yaha AzA mata karo ki kabhI pUrNa rUpa se satya ko zabda meM bAMdhA jA skegaa| na upaniSada bAMdha pAte haiM, na brahmasUtra, na kurAna; koI nahIM bAMdha paataa| hAM, jisase jitanA bana sakA; jisameM jitanI sAmarthya thI-- usane gunagunAne kI koziza kI hai| anukaMpA hai ki buddha bole, ki mohammada gaae| anukaMpA hai| lekina satya to anubhava hai| jaise hI zabda meM AyA ki do ho gayA--duI ho gaI! aura jaise hI kisI ko kahA--taitra ho gayA! aura jaise hI kisI ne suna kara usakI vyAkhyA kI--bAta aura bigar3a gaI! gItA kI hajAra vyAkhyAeM upalabdha haiN| bAta bigar3atI hI calI jAtI hai| TIkAoM para TIkAeM hotI rahatI haiM! bAta bigar3atI hI calI jAtI hai| isIlie jaba koI buddhapuruSa jIvita hotA hai, taba jo usake nikaTa hote haiM, basa, ve hI thor3A-bahuta svAda le leM, to le leN| bAda meM to bAta bigar3atI hI jaaegii| jitanI dera hotI jAegI, utanI bigar3atI jaaegii| isalie dharma jitanA purAnA hotA hai, utanA hI sar3a jAtA hai| dharma to nayA ho, abhI-abhI anubhava ke sAgara meM jisane ibakI mArI hai, jo abhI-abhI motI lAyA ho--zAyada kucha thor3A gunagunA pAe; zAyada thor3A kucha izArA kara paae| lekina jitanA purAnA ho jAtA hai, utanA hI sar3a jAtA hai| hiMdU-dharma kA yahI durbhAgya hai ki yaha sabase purAnA dharma hai pRthvI pr| isalie isakI sar3AMdha gaharI hai| yaha bhUla hI gayA nayA honaa| ise apanI kAyA badalanI hai baar-baar| yaha kAyAkalpa kI prakriyA bhUla gyaa| aura jaba bhI isakI kAyAkalpa karane kI kisI ne ceSTA kI, to isane inakAra kara diyaa| hama murde ke pUjaka ho ge| hamane buddha ko inakAra kara diyaa| mahAvIra ko inakAra kara diyaa| hamane kabIra ko inakAra kara diyA; hamane nAnaka ko inakAra kara diyaa| kAza! hama buddha ko inakAra karate, to buddha upaniSadoM ko phira janma de jaate| kAza! hama kabIra ko inakAra na karate, to kabIra ne phira buddha ko punarujjIvita kara diyA hotaa| kAza! hama nAnaka ko inakAra na karate, to bAta phira nikhara-nikhara aatii| dharma kA roja punarjanma honA caahie| jaise purAne patte girate jAte haiM aura nae patte Ate cale jAte haiN| jaise nadI kI dhaar| purAnA jala bahatA jAtA hai aura nayA jala usakI jagaha letA jAtA hai| dhAra rukI--ki sdd'ii| dhAra rukI--ki saritA mrii| phira DabarA haa| bahane do| bahate rahane do| yaha gaMgA ko pUjane vAle bhI rAja na samajha sake! gaMgA ko pUjA, lekina asalI gaMgA ko bhUla ge| asalI gaMgA ko to inhoMne kaThautI meM baMda kara liyA! ye kahate haiM, mana caMgA, to Page 9 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kaThautI meM gaMgA! kaThautI meM kahIM gaMgA hogI? pAgala ho gae? mana kitanA hI caMgA ho| mana kyA khAka caMgA hogA? jaba kaThautI meM gaMgA hogI, to mana kyA khAka caMgA hogA? gaMgA to bhe| lekina tumane gaMgA kI kathA par3hI n...| bhagIratha ne bar3e prayAsa se...itanA prayAsa kiyA ki bhagIratha kA kAma hI mahAprayAsa kA paryAyavAcI ho gyaa| aba jaba kabhI koI bar3A prayAsa karatA hai, to usako hama kahate haiM--bhagIratha prayAsa! bhagIratha ne itanA prayAsa kiyA ki AkAza se gaMgA ko utAra laae| lekina gaMgA AdhI hI A paaii| AdhI AkAza meM hI raha gii| yaha sUcaka hai| jitanA jAnA hai, utanA zabda meM na lA skoge| jitanA bhItara hai, utanA bAhara na lA skoge| AdhA hI A jAe, to bht| bhagIratha saubhAgyazAlI rahe hoMge ki AdhA bhI A gyaa| AdhA to svarga meM hI raha gyaa| AdhA to anubhava ke loka meM hI raha gyaa| AdhA to paraloka meM hI raha gayA! AdhA to AkAza meM hI raha gyaa| AdhA pRthvI para utraa| lekina gaMgotrI meM gaMgA kI jo pavitratA hai, jo zuddhatA hai, jo nizcalatA hai, vaha phira vArANasI kI gaMgA meM nahIM hai| vArANasI kI gaMgA to gaMdI hai| gaMdA nAlA hai| phira to kitanA kUr3A-karakaTa mila gayA usameM! phira to kitanI nAliyAM aura nAle girate gae, girate gae, girate gae! vaijJAnika kahate haiM: Aja gaMgA se jyAdA gaMdI koI nadI nahIM hai| usameM tuma DubakiyAM mAra rahe ho! lAzeM gaMgA meM DAlI jAtI haiN| murde gaMgA meM bahAe jAte haiN| aura phira itane pApI apane pApa gaMgA meM dhote haiM! jarA soco--to kitane pApI kitanI sadiyoM se pApa gaMgA meM dhote rahe! agara ina sabake pApa gaMgA meM dhula gae haiM, to bhUla kara gaMgA ko chUnA bhI mata, kyoMki pApa burI balA hai| aMgulI meM bhI laga jAe, to dhIre-dhIre bhItara praveza kara jAe! gaMgA to bilakula achUta smjhnaa| yaha to zUdra ho gaI! aba usameM DubakI mAra rahe ho| AzA yahI hai ki tuma aura thor3e pApa le kara ghara A jAoge! aba yaha gaMgA tumhAre pApa kyA chur3AeMgI? tuma kIcar3a se kIcar3a ko dho rahe ho| magara yahI dazA dharma kI hotI hai| anubhava ke loka meM to dharma pUrA hotA hai, eka hotA hai, akhaMDa hotA hai| abhivyakti meM Ate hI, bAhara utarate hI AdhA ho jAtA hai| phira jaba taka tuma taka pahuMce, phira tuma smjho| aura Adhe meM AdhA ho gyaa| phira tuma kisI aura se kaho--aura Adhe meM AdhA ho gayA! aura aba to bAta itanI purAnI ho gaI ki aba to patA hI nahIM ki kisane kisase kahA! kitane logoM ne kisako diyA? kaise bAta calatI rahI! kAnoM meM kAna--eka dUsare ko loka phUMkate rahe; eka dUsare ke kAna meM DAlate rahe! aura hama Agraha karate haiM isa bAta kA ki hamArA dharma bahuta purAnA! jitanA purAnA, utanA shresstth| isa galatI meM mata pdd'naa| jitanA purAnA--utanA sdd'aa| Page 10 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA dharma ko bhI punarujjIvita honA par3atA hai| hara bAra bhagIratha ko gaMgA ko vApasa lAnA hotA hai-- to gaMgotrI paidA hotI hai| gahalA tetA gAyA! magara zabda meM aTakanA mata--zUnya meM utrnaa| zabda meM bhaTakanA mt| gAne vAloM ne gAyA hai| unake izAre pakar3a lenA; lekina unake zabdoM kI pUjA mata krnaa| lekina zAstroM kI pUjA cala rahI hai! jana rajjaba aisI bidhi jaaneN...| rajjaba kahate haiM: maiM to sIdhA-sAdA, sAdhAraNa jana huuN| maiM koI paMDita nhiiN| maiM koI jJAnI nhiiN| mujhe kucha zAstroM kA patA nahIM hai| mujhe to sirpha eka vidhi kA patA hai; eka tarakIba jAnatA hUM; eka kImiyA mere hAtha meM hai| jana rajjaba aisI vidhi jAneM, jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! basa, mere pAsa to eka choTA-sA sUtra hai ki jaisA thA--merA svabhAva, jaisA thA janma ke pahale--vaisA hI maiMne use ThaharA diyA hai| aura usake Thaharane meM hI saba pA liyA hai| saba zAstra A gae, saba siddhAMta A ge| saba buddha A gae; saba kRSNa, saba krAisTa--saba A ge| kyoMki kRSNa ne bhI kaise pAyA--jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! aura buddha ne kaise pAyA--jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! aura jIsasa ne kaise pAyA--jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! tuma bhI ThaharA lo--jyUM thA tyUM ThaharA lo| kyA hai vaha vidhi? kyA hai vaha rAjoM kA rAja? kyA hai vaha rahasya? choTA-sA rahasya hai| dhyAna kaho use, to clegaa| jAgaraNa kaho use, to clegaa| bodha kaho use, to clegaa| saakssiibhaav| basa, mana meM jo cala rahA hai--vicAroM kA silasilA, tAMtA, vaha jo bhIr3a mana meM cala rahI hai--vAsanAoM kI, icchAoM kI, aiSaNAoM kI; smRtiyoM kA pravAha baMdhA huA hai| kalpanAoM kA jAla bunA jA rahA hai! atIta aura bhaviSya ke bIca tuma dabe jA rahe ho, pise jA rahe ho| kabIra kahate haiM, do pATana ke bIca meM sAbita bacA na koya! ye haiM do pATa--atIta aura bhaviSya--cakkI ke do pATa--inake bIca pise jA rahe ho! sAbita bacA na koy| lekina kabIra ne yaha pada gAyA--do pATana ke bIca meM sAbita bacA na koya--to kabIra ke beTe kamAla ne isake uttara meM eka sUtra likhA ki cakkI ke bIca meM kIla lagI hotI hai, jisa kIla para cakkI kA pATa ghUmatA hai| kamAla thA kabIra ke beTe kA naam| kamAla ne kahA ki sunie, kucha baca jAte haiM--kucha! kabIra ne kahA, kauna? kamAla ne kahA, ve, jo vaha bIca meM kIla ThaharI huI hai, jo calatI nahIM hai, jo ThaharI huI hai--jo sadA se ThaharI huI hai--usakA sahArA le lete haiM; ve baca jAte haiN| do pAToM ke bIca to koI nahIM bacatA; unameM pisatA hI hai| lekina vaha jo choTI-sI kIla khar3I huI hai thira, usakA jo sahArA le letA hai...| isalie kucha gehUM ke dAne baca jAte haiN| tuma cakkI calAo to patA clegaa| kucha gehUM ke dAne bar3e hoziyAra! ve donoM pAToM ke bIca se sarakakara kIla ke pAsa pahuMca jAte haiN| ve kIla kA sahArA le lete haiN| vahAM nahIM pIsa sakatI cakkI / Page 11 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA tumhAre bhItara bhI aisI kIla hai| kabIra ne kahA ki maiM yaha dekhatA thA ki koI isa sUtra ko pUrA kara sakatA hai yA nahIM / kamAla, maiM khuza hU~! usI dina kabIra ne kamAla ko yaha bAta kahI thI ki bUDhA vaMza kabIra kA upajA pUta kamAla! loga samajhate haiM, yaha kamAla kI niMdA kI nahIM yaha kamAla kI prazaMsA meM khaa| kabIra ne kahA, maiM to kabIra hI rhaa| kama se kama maiMne kucha to paidA kiyA; eka beTA paidA kiyA, eka beTI paidA kii| kabIra kA beTA thA kamAla, aura beTI thI kamAlI kabIra ne nAma bhI unako kamAla, kamAlI isIlie diyA thA, ki kabIra ne sAkSI bhAva meM hI unako janma diyA thA isalie kamAla -- thaa| yahI to kamAla hai ki saMnyAsI rahatA saMsAra meM hai, aura saMsAra use chue n| kabIra patnI ke sAtha rahe; bAjAra meM rhe| julAhe the, kapar3A bunate rahe, becate rhe| aura Akhira meM yaha bhI kaha ske...| himmata ke AdamI the, gajaba ke AdamI the! yaha bhI kaha sake paramAtmA ko ki jyoM kI tyoM rakha dInhIM cadariyA- yaha le apanI cAdara smhaal| yaha jyoM kI tyoM rakha de rahA huuN| jaisI tUne dI thI, vaisI hI rakha de rahA huuN| dAga bhI nahIM lgaa| yUM saMsAra meM raha AyA huuN| kAjala kI koTharI se gujara AyA huuN| aura yaha terI cAdara dekha! yaha le samhAla, apanI cAdara ! jyoM kI tyoM rakha dInhIM cadariyA ! sAkSI bhAva meM hI jIe! saMbhoga bhI sAkSI bhAva meM hI! isalie apane beTe ko nAma diyA kamAla ! aura sAkSI bhAva meM beTA paidA ho, to kamAla to hai| aura beTA phira kamAla kA hI hogaa| kamAla kA hI thA / kabIra ne kama se kama janma bhI diyA kucha, silasilA bhI chodd'aa| lekina kamAla ne silasilA bhI nahIM chor3A kisI ko janma hI nahIM diyaa| bUDhA vaMza kabIra kA upajA pUta kamAla! aisA sapUta paidA huA ki bAta hI khatama kara dii| usane silasilA hI tor3a diyaa| usane kahA, aba kyA calAte rakhanA silasile ko ! isa saMsAra ko kyoM bar3hAe cale jAnA ! yaha usa dina kabIra ne kahA thA, jisa dina kamAla ne yaha bAta jor3a dI thI ki itanA jor3a deM aura ki jisane bIca kI kIla ke sahAre ko pakar3a liyA, vaha baca gyaa| Page 12 of 255 do pATa haiM-- atIta aura bhaviSya ke, aura bIca meM kIla hai-- vartamAna / sAkSI bhAva kA artha hotA hai -- vartamAna meM Thahara jaanaa| na atIta raha jAe, na bhaviSya / phira kyA bacA ? tumhAre pAsa atIta aura bhaviSya ke sivAya aura kyA hai? kucha bhI nahIM / atIta gayA- bhaviSya gayA--ki zUnya bcaa| usa zUnya meM sirpha prakAza hai; sirpha bodha hai; sirpha hoza hai; koI viSaya nahIM hai| darpaNa hai, lekina darpaNa meM koI chavi nahIM banatI aba koI parAyA nahIM, koI dUsarA nahIM, koI dUjA nahIM / sAkSI hai, lekina koI sAkSI ke sAmane nahIM draSTA hai, lekina dRzya koI bhI nahIM hai| jAnI hai, lekina jJAna ke lie kucha bhI nahIM bcaa| http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! aisI sAkSI kI avasthA meM tuma punaH svabhAva meM thira ho jAte ho| buddha isako kahate haiN--tthaataa| buddha kA eka nAma hai tthaagt| jo aisA Thahara gayA, jo tathAtA meM A gayA--vaha tthaagt| jo svabhAva meM A gayA, jo svarUpa meM DUba gayA, usane phira sAgara pA liyaa| phira machalI nahIM tdd'ptii| phira mastI hai| phira utsava hai| phira jIvana eka samAroha hai| phira AnaMda hI AnaMda kI varSA hai| phira amRta ke megha garajate haiN| jyUM mukha eka dekhi duI darpana, gahalA tetA gaayaa| jana rajjaba aisI bidhi jAneM, jyUM thA tyUM tthhraayaa|| isalie maiM kahatA hUM, isa choTe se sUtra meM saba A gyaa| kucha zeSa nahIM raha jaataa| isa eka bAta ko tuma pUrI kara lo, to tumhAre jIvana meM dharma kA avataraNa huA; tumhArI jyoti jalI--jyoti jo janmoM se bujhI par3I hai| tumhAre bhItara phira jIvana kA pravAha bahA; pravAha, jo kitane janmoM se avaruddha hai| kaThautI kI gaMgA ho gae ho tuma! isa sUtra ko pUrA karate hI phira gNgotrii| phira vahI pAvana gNgaa| phira tuma jahAM se bahoge, vahAM tIrtha bneNge| tuma jahAM uThoge-baiThoge, vahAM tIrtha bneNge| tuma jahAM uThoge-baiThoge vahAM kAbA aura kAzI! dUsarA prazna: bhagavAna, izke butAM karUM ki maiM yAde khudA karUM isa choTI-sI umra meM, maiM kyA-kayA khudA karUM abdula karIma! izke butAM karUM ki maiM yAde khudA karUM! tumane do kara lie! vahI bAta kara lI--jyUM mukha eka dekhi duI drpn| izke butAM aura yAde khudA kyA do bAteM haiM? vaha jo maMdira meM mUrti hai aura masajida meM jo zUnya hai, vaha eka ke hI do darpaNa haiN| maMdira eka darpaNa hai; masajida eka darpaNa hai| satya to eka hai| kisI ne use nirguNa kI taraha dekhA; kisI ne use saguNa kI taraha dekhaa| saba guNa bhI usake haiN| aura jisake saba guNa haiM, vaha nirguNa hogA hii| isalAma use nirguNa kI taraha pUjA hai| dUsare majahaba, dUsare dharma use saguNa kI taraha pUje haiN| magara saba guNa usake haiN| yaha jo abhivyakta jagata dikhAI par3a rahA hai| ye jo raMga iMdradhanuSa ke--saba raMga uske| ye subaheM usakI, ye sAMjheM usakI, ye cAMdattAre uske| ye alaga-alaga rUpoM meM baiThe hue loga uske| strI meM strI hai, puruSa meM puruSa hai| vRkSoM meM vRkss| pattharoM meM ptthr| hama do meM tor3a lete haiM, basa duvidhA meM par3a jAte haiN| phira savAloM para savAla haiN| phira savAloM kA koI aMta nhiiN| Page 13 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maMdira, ki digaMbara kA izke butAM karUM ki maiM yAde khudA karUM? aba muzkila khar3I huI ki maiM masajida jAUM, ki maMdira jAUM! aura phira kitane maMdira haiM, kitane masajida haiM! phira masjidoM meM bhI jhagar3e haiM; phira maMdiroM meM bhI jhagar3e haiN| phira hiMdU ke maMdira jAUM, ki jaina ke maMdira jAUM, ki buddha ke maMdira jAUM? phira jainoM ke maMdiroM meM bhI jhagar3e haiM--ki zvetAMbara kA maMdira ? phira digaMbaroM meM bhI jhagar3e haiM-- ki bIsapaMthI kA maMdira, ki terApaMthI kA maMdira ! jhagar3oM para jhagar3e haiM! phira bAta bikharane lgii| do huI, ki phira khisalane lage tum| phira bigar3atI hI calI jAegI baat| phira isakA koI aMta nahIM hai bigar3Ava kaa| phira yaha jo eka thA -- anaMta hokara rahatA hai; aneka ho kara baMTa jAtA hai! masjidoM meM kitane jhagar3e haiM! masajida aura maMdira meM hI jhagar3e hote to bhI samajha lete| masjidoM meM jhagar3e haiN| ziyA aura sunniyoM meM jhagar3e haiN| eka dUsare kI gardana kATane ko taiyAra haiM! phurasata kahAM gardana kATane se ki khudA kI ibAdata ho / gardana kATane meM hI vakta calA jAtA hai| aura gardana kisakI kATa rahe ho| kATane vAlA bhI vahI hai, aura kaTane vAlA bhI vahI hai ! hiMdU mAro, to use mArate ho| musalamAna ko mAro, to use mArate ho| maMdira ko jalAo, to use jalAte ho| masajida ko jalAo, to use jalAte ho| izke butAM karUM ki maiM yAde khudA karUM? lekina bhUla vahIM ho jAtI hai zurU meM, jahAM do kara lete ho| do mata kro| jyUM mukha eka dekhi duI darpana ! kyoM do karate ho? jo rUpa jAe / izke butAM-- agara mUrtiyAM pyArI lagatI hoM, to harja kucha bhI nhiiN| agara amUrta pyArA lagatA ho, to harja kucha bhI nhiiN| kisa bahAne apane ghara lauTa Ate ho, bahAne kA koI savAla nahIM / bailagAr3I meM Ate ho, ki paidala Ate ho, ki havAI jahAja se Ate ho, ki relagAr3I meM Ate ho--ghara A jaao| magara loga jhagar3a rahe haiM ! bailagAr3I bhI nahIM calatI; relagAr3I bhI nahIM cltii| jhagar3e se nipaTeM, taba to cle| jhagar3e itane khar3e ho jAte haiM ki kucha calatA hI nhiiN| saba aTake haiN| jhagar3e meM jo par3A, vaha aTaka jaaegaa| koI gItA meM aTakA hai, koI kurAna meM aTakA hai| jo nAveM bana sakatI thIM, ve aTakAva banA lie haiM hamane / kaisI mUDhatA hai ! dhArmikatA to eka hai; dharma aneka haiN| isalie dharma galata haiM; dhArmikatA saca hai| aura dhArmika vyakti na hiMdU hotA, na musalamAna hotA / dhArmika vyakti ko masajida meM biThA do, to bhI sAkSI hotA hai; aura maMdira meM biThA do, to bhI sAkSI hotA hai| aba isase kyA pharka par3atA hai--kahAM sAkSI hue! dIvAleM hiMduoM ne khar3I kI thIM ki musalamAnoM ne! kyA pharka par3atA hai! maiM eka gAMva meM mehamAna thaa| mere sAmane hI eka maMdira bana rahA thA jisa ghara meM maiM mehamAna maMdira ko banA rahe the, jo kArIgara maMdira mujhe unakI bAtacIta se lagA ki ve pUchatAcha kI to patA calA ki hAM, ve the, thA usake sAmane hI maMdira bana rahA thaa| jo rAja ke patthara tor3a rahe the, mUrtiyAM nirmita kara rahe musalamAna mAlUma hote haiN| to maiMne jAnakArI kI, musalamAna haiN| Page 14 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA to jinake ghara meM ThaharA thA, jo usa maMdira ko banavA rahe the, maiMne unase pUchA ki yaha bar3e maje kI bAta hai! isa maMdira kI dIvAleM musalamAna uThA rahe haiN| aura isa maMdira kI mUrti bhI musalamAna gar3ha rahe haiM! aura isa maMdira kI sIr3hiyAM bhI musalamAna khar3I kreNge| aura yaha maMdira hiMduoM kA hogA? aura isI ko eka dina musalamAna jlaaeNge| maiMne unase pUchA ki yaha maMdira hiMduoM kA kaise ho jaaegaa| dIvAleM musalamAna uThA rahe haiN| kitane hI maMdira haiM bhArata meM, jo masajida banA die gae haiM, kyoMki musalamAnoM ke jamAne meM, jaba unakA rAjya thA, unhoMne hara kisI maMdira ko masajida banA diyaa| dera kyA lagatI thI! thor3e se pharka karane haiM, aura maMdira masajida ho gaI! aura phira agara hiMduoM kA rAjya lauTa AyA kisI kSetra meM--unhoMne masajida ko phira maMdira banA liyA! maMdira aura masajida meM kucha pharka nahIM hai| nAsamajhoM ko hogA phrk| samajhadAroM ko koI pharka nahIM hai| mujhe tuma masajida meM biThA do, kyA pharka par3egA! isI mauja aura isI mastI meM bailuuNgaa| tuma mujhe maMdira meM biThA do, koI pharka na pdd'egaa| isalie to gItA para bolUM, ki kurAna para, koI bheda nahIM pdd'taa| mujhe to jo bolanA hai, vahI bolanA hai| mujhe to jo kahanA hai, vahI kahanA hai| mujhe to gIta gAnA hai--vahI gAnA hai| tuma sAja mere hAtha meM koI bhI thamA do, gIta maiM vahI gAUMgA, rAga maiM vahI gaauuNgaa| tuma bAMsurI pakar3A do--to; aura tuma sitAra de do--to, bolUM--to vahI boluuNgaa| cupa rahUM--to usake lie hI cupa rhuuNgaa| mere mauna meM bhI vahI hogA; merI mukharatA meM bhI vahI hogaa| dhArmika vyakti na hiMdU hotA, na musalamAna hotA, na IsAI hotA, na sikkha hotaa| sirpha dhArmika hotA hai| merA prayAsa--bhagIratha prayAsa--yahI hai ki kisI taraha dharmoM se mukti ho jAe tumhArI aura dhArmikatA tumhAre jIvana meM khila jaae| mata pUcho mujhase--izke butAM karUM, ki maiM yAde khudA karUM? jisa bhAMti tuma dhArmika ho sko| tuma alaga-alaga loga haiM, alaga-alaga unakI ruciyAM haiN| aba mIrA ko tuma jabardastI mahAvIra banAnA cAho, to galatI ho jaaegii| mIrA becArI mIrA bhI na ho pAegI--mahAvIra to ho hI nahIM sktii| tuma mahAvIra ko mIrA banAnA cAho, to gar3abar3a ho jaaegii| phira ve mahAvIra bhI na ho pAeMge; aura mIrA ho nahIM skte| yaha yUM pAgalapana hai, jaise koI belA ko juhI banAe; juhI ko caMpA bnaae| caMpA ko gulAba hone ke pATha bddh'aae| sArI bagiyA pAgala ho jAe! yaha sAre AdamI kA bagIcA pAgaloM se bhara gayA hai| yahAM pAgala hI pAgala haiN| yahAM koI hoza kI bAta hI jaise nahIM kara rahA hai| maiM na kisI ko musalamAna banAnA cAhatA--na kisI ko hiNduu| hAM, itanA maiM jarUra kahanA cAhatA hUM: jo tumheM ruce| kurAna kI apanI mauja hai, apanI mastI hai| agara bhA jAe kisI ke dila ko, to basa, tthiik| to kurAna kI nAva banA lenaa| aura kisI ko gItA bhA jAe, to kyA ar3acana! gItA kI nAva banA lenaa| Page 15 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA DUbatA yaha nahIM dekhatA ki jo nAva mujhe bacAne ko AI hai, usakA mAjhI kauna hai? hiMdU hai, ki musalamAna ? IsAI hai ki sikkha ? yaha bhI nahIM pUchatA ki Astika hai, ki nAstika! DUbatA ye bAteM pUchatA hai? DUbatA yaha pUchegA ki tuma kauna ho ? tuma jaba bImAra hote ho, to tuma yaha nahIM pUchate ki DAkTara IsAI hai aura maiM hiMdU ; ki DAkTara hiMdU hai aura maiM jaina- kaise cikitsA karavAUM ? tuma jaba bImAra hote ho, taba tuma phikra nahIM karate aura tuma bImAra ho AdhyAtmika rUpa se bImAra ho / -- tuma yaha phikra kyA karate ho! tumheM jo cikitsaka ruca jaae| kyoMki dhyAna rakhanA davA se jisa hAtha para tumheM bharosA A jAe, bhI jyAdA mUlyavAna hai - cikitsaka davA to gauNa hai| usa hAtha se rAkha bhI mila jAe, to davA ho jAtI hai aura jisa AdamI para tumheM bharosA na ho, vaha tumheM svarNa bhasmI bhI de, motiyoM kI bhasmI pilAe kucha na hogA rAkha hI samajho tumhArA saMdeha tumheM khA jaaegaa| zraddhA jahAM janma jAe abdula karIma! jahAM tumhArI zraddhA ko paMkha laga jAe, vahIM se AkAza ko khoja lo / -- yaha kyA bAta pUchanI : kisa ghATa se utaranA hai? ghATa aneka haiM--sAgara eka hai| kisI ghATa se utaro / izke butAM karUM ki maiM yAde khudA karUM isa choTI sI umra meM, maiM kyA kyA qhudA karUM aura bAMTA, to jarUra umra bahuta choTI hai| agara ciMtA meM par3e, to muzkila meM A jaaoge| phira bahuta haiM... pRthvI para tIna hajAra dharma haiN| yaha izke butAM aura yAde khudA kI hI bAta nahIM hai| yahAM tIna hajAra dharma haiN| tIna hajAra dharmoM ke kama se kama tIsa hajAra upa-dharma haiM! agara tuma isa ciMtA meM par3a gae, to eka jiMdagI kyA aneka jiMdagiyAM choTI haiN| yahI taya na ho pAegA, ki kisa nAva para baiThanA hai ! aura saba mAjhI pukAra de rahe haiM ki Ao, merI nAva meM / yahI nAva pahuMcA sakatI hai| basa, yahI nAva phuNcaaegii| aba tuma agara isI ciMtA meM par3a gae ki kisa nAva meM baiThUM aura kisa nAva meM na baiThUM to jiMdagI jarUra bahuta choTI hai| ciMtA ke kAraNa choTI hai aura agara tuma nizciMta ho jAo, to yaha jiMdagI bahuta bar3I hai eka kSaNa bhI zAzvata jitanA bar3A hai| agara tuma nizciMta ho, ciMtA chUTa gaI, to jiMdagI ko choTI kahate ho! tumheM samaya kA aMdAja hai--ki samaya ghar3I ke anusAra hI nahIM hotA; samaya tumhAre citta kI dazA ke anusAra hI hotA hai| eka samaya to bAhara kA samaya hai jo ghar3I batAtI hai| aura eka samaya bhItara kA samaya hai| vaha bhItara kA samaya tuma para nirbhara hai| jaise tuma apanI preyasI ke pAsa baiThe ho abdula karIma ! varSoM bAda mile ho, to ghaMTe yUM bIteMge, pala bIte itanI tejI se bhAgeMge! rAta gujara jAegI aura patA na clegaa| Page 16 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA yahAM mere saMnyAsI mujhase kahate haiM ki samaya kaise gujara jA rahA hai, patA nahIM calatA! aisA bhAgA jA rahA hai!--mastI ke kaarnn| dukha meM samaya laMbA mAlUma par3atA hai, mauja meM samaya choTA ho jAtA hai| ATha sitaMbara ko viveka mujhase kahane lagI, eka varSa ho gayA! bharosA nahIM AtA ki Apake pitA ke mahAparinirvANa ko eka varSa ho gayA! aisA lagatA hai yUM, abhI, kucha hI dina pahale to hamane unheM vidA dI thI--aura phira ATha sitaMbara kA dina A gyaa| itane jaldI! dina yUM bhAge jAte haiM! agara tuma masta ho, to dina bhAge jAte haiN| samaya kA patA nahIM cltaa| aura agara tuma dukha meM ho, to samaya Thahara-Thahara kara, aTaka-aTaka kara calatA hai| samaya bUDhe AdamI kI taraha lakar3I Teka kara calane lagatA hai| ruka-ruka jAtA hai| paiseMjara gAr3I kI taraha calatA hai| mere eka mitra the rekhacaMdra pArekha; abhI kucha dina pahale vidA ho ge| unako paiseMjara gAr3I se calane kA bahuta zauka thaa| maiMne unako kaI daphA kahA ki yaha kyA pAgalapana hai! unhoMne kahA, eka bAra merI bhI maano| to eka bAra unakI mAna kara maiM paiseMjara gAr3I se yAtrA kiyaa| aura saca meM hI maiMne pAyA ki ve kahate the, usameM bhI rAja thaa| jahAM hama havAI jahAja se eka ghaMTe meM pahuMca sakate the, vahAM pahuMcane meM cAra dina lage! magara unakI bAta bhI mujhe samajha meM AI ki unakI bAta bhI ThIka thii| hara sTezana para gAr3I kA ruknaa| ghaMToM ruknaa| hara sTezana para unake jAne-pahacAne loga the| paricita the| kulI-kulI unako pahacAnatA thA! sTezana mAsTara unako phcaantaa| TikiTa kalekTara unako phcaantaa| hoTala vAlA unako pahacAnatA! jahAM gae, vahIM svAgata thaa| aura unako patA thA eka-eka jagaha kA--ki kahAM bhajie acche| kahAM dUdha acchaa| kahAM kI cAya acchii| kahAM kI kacaur3iyAM acchii| unako eka-eka cIja kA patA thaa| eka sTezana para gAr3I khar3I huI, ve mujhase bole, jaldI aao| sTezana ke bAhara le gae! maiMne kahA, kahAM le jA rahe ho? gAr3I calI gaI to kyA hogA? unhoMne kahA, tuma phikra mata karo! bAhara bahuta se AmoM ke vRkSa the| Ama kA eka jhuMDa kA jhuMDa khar3A thaa| aura Ama paka gae the| unhoMne kahA, Ama kA samaya hai| aura isa sTezana se to maiM kabhI jAtA hI nahIM jabaki pake Ama kA mausama hotA hai| to kucha Ama tor3a leN| maiMne kahA, hadda ho gaI! aba ye AmoM para car3hanA pdd'egaa| isa bIca agara gAr3I chUTa gaI...! unhoMne kahA, tuma phikra mata kro| yahAM gAr3I rukegii| jaba hama Upara car3he to eka AdamI hama se bhI pahale usa para car3hA huA thaa| una donoM ne namaskAra bhI kiyA aura gapazapa bhI kii| maiMne kahA ki aba utara caleM apana! unhoMne kahA, tuma bilakula phikra hI mata kro| jaba taka yaha AdamI isa para savAra hai jhAr3a para, gAr3I calane vAlI nhiiN| maiMne kahA, yaha hai kauna? unhoMne kahA, yaha DrAivara hai! isI ke pIche-pIche maiM AtA / gAr3I calegI kaise? phikra hI mata kro| Page 17 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA aura gAr3I calatI bhI kaise! ThIka hI thaa| phira bephikrI se saba ne Ama todd'e| jholiyAM bhara kara Ama laae| aba DrAivara hI car3hA ho, to tuma samajha sakate ho ki cAra dina lagane hI vAle the| jahAM Ama bhI tor3ane hoM rAste meM ruka kara, aura bhajie bhI khAne hoM, aura cAya bhI pInI ho, aura dUdha bhI lenA ho| aura baccoM ke lie miThAiyAM bhI lenI hoM; khilaune bhI unako mAlUma the kahAM milate haiM, acche, lakar3I ke| aura kahAM kyA--vaha sArA kA sArA...ghara AteAte unhoMne Dabbe ko sAmAna se bhara liyA! maiMne unako kahA, yaha bAta to ThIka hai| unhoMne kahA, aba tuma hI kaho--havAI havAI jahAja se jAte, to yaha majA kahAM! aura havAI jahAja se jo AdamI ur3atA hai, unhoMne kahA, usako janatA kabhI kSamA nahIM krtii| maiMne kahA, yaha bAta bhI ThIka hai| kyoMki kisI ke Upara se ur3oge, to vaha kSamA kaise karegA? kisI ke sira para car3hoge--kaise kSamA karegA? aura paiseMjara gAr3I meM!...mere Agraha se ve pharsTa klAsa meM cle| nahIM to ve kahate the ki majA tharDa klAsa meM calane kA hai| kyoMki dostI, pahacAna, maitrI, nae-nae saMbaMdha, aura eka se eka majedAra loga, aura unakI jIvana kathAeM! aura jaba rahanA hai cAra dina sAtha, to phira sabhI apanI-apanI khola dete haiN| jo sage-saMbaMdhiyoM se loga nahIM kahate, vaha Trena meM aparicitoM se kaha jAte haiN| apanoM se kahane meM Darate haiM, vaha ajanabiyoM se kaha jAte haiN| to hara AdamI eka kahAnI hai| hara AdamI eka anUThI kahAnI hai| to ve kahate ki yaha kyA pharsTa klAsa meM calanA! maiMne kahA, tuma itanI kRpA karo ki tharDa klAsa meM mujhe mata ghsiitto| maiM paiseMjara meM Ane ko rAjI ho gayA, itanA hI bht| tuma mujhe pharsTa klAsa meM to kama se kama calane do! magara ve bIca-bIca meM jAte rahe milane logoM se; tharDa klAsa meM baiThate rahe! unako caina na pdd'e| bhIr3abhAr3a! logoM kI ruciyAM bhinna haiN| ruciyoM ko dhyAna meM rakho aura tumhArI ruci jisa bAta se jur3a jAe, vahAM samaya ekadama bhinna ho jAtA hai| samaya kI dhArA badala jAtI hai| eka maje kI bAta hai, jo tumane zAyada khayAla meM na lI ho| samaya ke saMbaMdha meM eka virodhAbhAsa hai| jaba sukha ke kSaNa hote haiM, to jaldI jAte haiN| lekina dukha ke kSaNa dhIre-dhIre jAte haiN| aura bAda meM jaba tuma yAda karoge, to tuma cakita hooge| bAda meM sthiti bilakula ulaTa jAtI hai| jaba tuma yAda karoge, taba sukha ke kSaNa laMbe mAlUma hoMge, aura dukha ke kSaNa jaldI bIta jaaeNge| kyoMki dukha ko hama svIkArate nahIM, aMgIkAra nahIM krte| kara nahIM skte| vaha hamAre svabhAva ke pratikUla hai| phUloM ko hama saMjo lete haiM; kAMToM ko hama chor3a dete to jaba tuma bAda meM yAda karoge, to tuma kahoge, ahA, pyArA bacapana! kyA the dina! jaba tuma bur3hApe meM javAnI yAda karoge, to kahoge, ahA! kyA the dina! idhara huI zAma, udhara hAtha meM jAma! kyA the dina! hAlAMki javAna AdamI apanI musIbateM jAnatA hai| javAnI meM usako musIbateM dikhAI par3atI haiN| bur3hApe meM musIbateM bhUla jAtI haiN| Page 18 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA baccA apanI musIbateM jAnatA hai tuma jarA phira se soco bacapana ko punarujjIvita kara ke soco, taba tumheM patA calegA -- kitanI musIbateM thiiN| roja-roja skUla jaanaa| roja-roja skUla meM piTAI- kuttaaii| kAna pakar3a-pakar3a kara uThAyA jaanaa| ghuTane TikavAnA sajAeM -daMDa-baiThaka lagavAnA! kauna jAnA cAhatA hai| subaha-subaha sarda dina, aura zanivAra A jAe--kauna uThA cAhatA hai subaha - subaha ? eka karavaTa aura le kara AdamI kaMbala or3ha kara so jAnA cAhatA hai| jarA yAda karo, punarujjIvita karo, phira se jIo, to tuma itanA sukhI nahIM pAoge, jitanA tuma abhI pA rahe ho lekina agara tuma yUM dekhoge khar3e dUra ho kara to javAnI meM lagegA: bacapana bar3A adabhuta thA / sukha hI sukha thA / na koI ciMtA / magara yaha aba tuma kaha rahe ho taba bahuta ciMtA thI ki parIkSA meM pAsa hoMge ki nahIM hoMge mAnA ki naukarI kI ciMtA nahIM thii| dUsarI ciMtAeM thiiN| skUla meM zaitAna bacce the, ve staate| , -- mere skUla meM eka lar3akA thA, usakI cAMda pilapilI thii| vaha bhI mujhe jaba bAda meM milA, to kahane lagA, ahA, kaise acche dina the! maiMne kahA, tU to mata kaha! usane kahA, kyoM? maiMne kahA, mujhe bhalI-bhAMti terI jiMdagI yAda hai| jo bhI usase jarA majabUta thA, vahI usakI cAMda pilapilAtA thA! jo bhI mila jAe; vaha TopI utAra kara pahale usakI cAMda dbaae| aura maiMne usakI cAMda itanI dabAI ki mujhe eka daphA heDamAsTara ke pAsa bhejA gayA ki tuma kyoM isa lar3ake ko satAte ho tuma kyoM isakI TopI utAra isakI cAMda... 3 to maiMne heDamAsTara se kahA ki Apa isake pahale ki mujhe kucha kaheM, maiM isakI TopI utAratA Apa isakI cAMda pilapilA kara dekheM! unhoMne kahA, isameM kyA hai! isakI cAMda meM kyA hai? ve bhI utsuka hue| maiMne kahA, Apa dekheM to| jaba unhoMne usakI cAMda pilapilAyI, to ve bhI haMsane lge| unhoMne kahA ki bAta to ThIka hai| cAMda isakI adabhuta hai ! usakI bar3I pilapilI cAMda thI maiMne kahA, aba Apa hI kaho, aisI cAMda ho, to kasUra kisakA? aise denA ho sajA, Apa mujhe de sakate ho| magara isakI cAMda itanI adabhuta hai ki kisakA jI isakI cAMda dabAne kA na hogaa| usa lar3ake kI jAna musIbata meM thii| cAMda dabAte ! usakA kAna nahIM pakar3ate ho sakatA thaa| zikSaka bhI usako sajA dete, to TopI nikAla usakI usakI cAMda dabAte kyoMki vahI usakA sabase bar3A daMDa usakI hAlata maiM jAnatA thA ki vaha chipA - chipA skUla AtA; galI-kUcoM meM se AtA--ka kahIM sIdhI sar3aka se gayA, to milane vAle haiM duSTa--aura ve staaeNge| to hamezA skUla dera se aataa| aura jaldI chuTTI mAMgatA ki jaba skUla kI chuTTI hotI, to eka hajAra lar3ake! eka sAtha chUTanA ! usakI musIbata ho jaatii| ghara jAte-jAte usakI cAMda itanI dabAI jAtI ki usakI jAna musIbata meM thii| vahI mujhe bAda meM jaba milA, to maiMne kahA, caMdUlAla ! tU to mata kaha! Page 19 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA abhI parasoM eka patra lakSmI le kara aaii| kisI sajjana ne uttara pradeza se patra likhA hai ki Apase merI vinatI hai ki Apa kRpA kara ke caMdUlAla ke nAma se latIphe kahanA baMda kara deN| bilakula baMda kara deN| kyoMki mere bApa kA nAma caMdalAla hai| Apa koI dUsarA nAma cuna leN| ApakA kucha na bigdd'egaa| Apa koI dUsarA nAma cuna leN| magara yaha caMdUlAla kI vajaha se merI musIbata huI jA rahI hai| kyoMki maiM ApakA premI hUM aura Tepa sunane jAtA huuN| aura jaba bhI Apa caMdUlAla kA nAma lete haiM, saba loga merI tarapha dekha kara haMsate haiM ki yaha caMdUlAla kA beTA! aura mere bApa Apa para bahuta nArAja haiM ki yaha AdamI kyoM mere pIche par3A hai! aba maiMne kahA ki yaha bar3I muzkila ho gii| maiM koI dUsarA nAma cunUMgA, vaha kisI kA bApa hogA, kisI kA beTA hogaa| aura caMdUlAla koI eka hai? isakA caMdUlAla to mujhe patA hI nahIM thA ki ye caMdUlAla kahIM uttara pradeza meM rahate haiM! maiM to yUM hI cuna liyA thA caMdUlAla! are, isa deza meM kama se kama lAkhoM caMdalAla hoNge| magara isa lar3ake kA nAma hI mujhe bhUlA gayA hai, kyoMki hama use caMdUlAla hI kahate the| usakA nAma kucha aura hI thaa| magara usako sabhI loga caMdUlAla ke nAma se jAnate the| zikSaka bhI usako bulAte, to kahate, caMdUlAla! vaha nArAja hotA thaa| jhuMjhalAtA thaa| parezAna hotA thaa| magara abhI mujhe milA, to kahane lagA ki kahA, kyA dina the ve! maiMne kahA, tU to kama se kama mata kaha! tU to yAda kara ki terI kyA gati thii| maiMne kahA, uThA TopI! tujhe yAda dilAUM ki phira tujhe bhUlI-bisarI yAdeM AeM, to zAyada tujhe kucha khayAla meM par3eM! vaha kahane lagA ki yaha bAta to ThIka hai| agara lauTa kara socUM, to mujhe bahuta satAyA gyaa| magara aba ve bAteM to bhUla gii| aba to saba acchI-acchI bAteM yAda rhiiN| jaba tuma pIche lauTa kara dekhoge, to jo sukhada kSaNa the, ve laMbe mAlUma par3eMge, kyoMki ve tumane cuna lie| aura jo dukhada the, ve choTe mAlUma par3eMge, kyoMki ve tumane cune nahIM haiN| basa, unakI to halkI lakIra raha gaI majabUrI meN| vaha lakIra bhI tuma miTA denA cAhate ho| isalie bUDhA AdamI socatA hai--javAnI acchI thii| javAna socatA hai--bacapana acchA thaa| aura jo mara gae haiM, ve zAyada socate hoMge ki bur3hApA acchA thA--kabra meM leTe-leTe--ki ahA, kyA dina the! amarIkA kA eka suprIma korTa kA nyAyAdhIza nabbe sAla kA ho kara mraa| jaba vaha nabbe sAla kA thA, to apane beTe ke sAtha bagIce ghUmane gayA thaa| beTe kI umra thI paiMsaTha saal| yUM bAta cala rahI thI donoM meN| eka suMdara strI pAsa se gujrii| svabhAvataH beTe kI najara usa para par3I, bApa kI bhI najara pdd'ii| strI bahuta suMdara thI, najara bacAnA muzkila thaa| to beTe ne apane bApa se kahA ki pitAjI, ApakA mana hotA hogA ki Apa bhI javAna hote...! to bApa ne kahA ki yaha to mana nahIM hotA ki javAna hotaa| lekina itanA kama se kama mana hotA hai ki kama se kama paiMsaTha sAla kA hotA hI! kama se kama terI umra kA to hotA hI! aba paiMsaTha sAla bhI yUM bur3hApA hai| magara jo nabbe sAla kA hai, usake lie to paiMsaTha sAla kA honA bhI javAnI hai| Page 20 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA pIche lauTa kara dekhoge, to samaya kA rUpa badala jAtA hai| dukha meM samaya laMbA mAlUma hotA hai| smRti meM dukha kA samaya choTA ho jAtA hai| sukha meM samaya choTA mAlUma hotA hai; smRti meM sukha kA kSaNa laMbA ho jAtA hai| aura samaya ke saMbaMdha meM AkhirI jo bAta samajhane kI hai, vaha yaha hai ki dukha meM aura sukha meM samaya kA itanA aMtara par3atA hai; AnaMda meM samaya kI kyA avasthA hogI? AnaMda meM samaya miTa hI jAtA hai| jaba koI vyakti ThIka samAdhistha avasthA meM hotA hai, zUnya bhAva meM hotA hai, sAkSI bhAva meM hotA hai; jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA--usa avasthA meM hotA hai, taba samaya samApta ho jAtA hai| samaya hotA hI nhiiN| aura agara isa kSaNa ko tuma lauTa kara yAda karoge, to lagegA zAzvata thA! kyoMki itanA apUrva thA! itanA gadagada tuma hae the ki zAzvata bhI usa virATa AnaMda ko apane meM kaise samAegA, yaha bhI bharosA nahIM aataa| abdula karIma, isa choTI-sI umra meM, pUchate ho, maiM kyA-kyA khudA karUM? kucha na karo! basa, eka bAta karo--jyUM thA tyUM tthhraayaa| itanA hI karo, aura saba ho jaaegaa| izke butAM bhI ho jAegA, yAde khudA bhI ho jaaegii| mUrti meM jo amUrta chipA hai, vaha mila jaaegaa| phira mUrta se jAnA ho, to mUrta se jaao| amUrta meM sIdhI chalAMga lagAnI ho, to sIdhI chalAMga lgaao| magara dikhAI nahIM par3atA mujhe ki koI amUrta meM sIdhI chalAMga lagA pAtA ho| mAnA ki masajida meM koI buta nahIM hai, koI mUrtiyAM nahIM haiN| lekina kAbA kA patthara kyA hai? Akhira masajida kyA hai? masajida bhI vahI kAma karane lagI, jo mUrti karatI hai! Akhira masajida meM tuma hAtha dho kara vajU kara ke praveza kyoM karate ho? masajida kI pavitratA kyA hai? agara masajida bhI eka makAna hai, jaise aura makAna haiM, to masajida meM namana kyA karate ho! agara IMTa-patthara-gArA hI hai, jaisA saba makAnoM meM lagA hai| nhiiN| lekina masajida kI kucha khUbI hai| vahI khUbI mUrti ho gii| mAnA ki tumhArI masajida meM mUrti nahIM hai...bahuta se maMdira haiM, jinameM mUrti nahIM hotI--graMtha hote haiN| maiM jisa jaina parivAra meM paidA huA usake maMdira meM mUrti nahIM hotI, usake maMdira meM graMtha hotA hai, jaise gurudvArA meM graMtha hotA hai| tAraNa eka phakIra hue nAnaka ke samaya meM hI he| merA parivAra paraMparAgata rUpa se unhIM kI zRMkhalA meM haiN| jaisA nAnaka ne mUrti ko haTA diyA aura guru-graMtha ko jagaha de dI; vaise hI tAraNa ne bhI kiyaa| vaha eka havA thI usa samaya--Aja se pAMca sau sAla phle| kabIra, nAnaka, tAraNa, raidAsa--eka havA thI ki kyoM patthara kI mUrti pUjanI? magara kAgaja kI kitAba bhI to Akhira patthara kI mUrti hI hai| zAyada patthara kI mUrti jyAdA TikAU hai kAgaja kI kitAba se--agara sthiratA kI soco| agara paramAtmA kI zAzvatatA kI socA, to patthara kI mUrti zAyada usakI zAzvatatA kI khabara detI hai| lekina agara vicAra kI bAta soco, to zAstra jyAdA upayogI ho sakatA hai| mUrti kyA kahegI? zAstra par3hA jA sakatA hai; ciMtana-manana kiyA jA sakatA hai| to jinako ciMtana-manana priya thA, unhoMne zAstra rakha liyaa| jinako bhajana-kIrtana priya thA, unhoMne mUrti rakha lii| jo rucikara ho| Page 21 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA hiMdU ghara meM paidA hone se koI hiMdU nahIM; musalamAna ghara meM paidA hone se koI musalamAna nhiiN| janma se dharma kA koI saMbaMdha nhiiN| hamane bahuta saMbaMdha jor3a rakhA hai| isa galata saMbaMdha ne, isa nAjAyaja saMbaMdha ne hamArI nA mAlUma kitanI musIbata kara dI hai! hamArI jIvana kI bahuta-sI jar3atA isI nAjAyaja saMbaMdha ke kAraNa ho gaI hai| aba yaha ho jAtA hai ki eka vyakti jaina ghara meM paidA huA, to usake mana meM agara mIrA jaisI bhakti uThe, to kyA kareM? tdd'phegaa| kRSNa ko kahAM pAe! aura mahAvIra ke pAsa tuma nAca nahIM skte| jaMcegI nahIM baat| mahAvIra khar3e haiM bilakula ngn| inake pAsa tuma nAcoge--zobhA nahIM degaa| tAlamela nahIM baitthegaa| usake lie to kRSNa hI caahie| vahI rUpa caahie| vahI zRMgAra; vahI mora-mukuTa; vahI paridhAna; vahI nRtya kI mudrA; vahI hAtha meM bAMsurI--lagatI hai yUM ki aba bajI, taba bajI! vahI nAcate hue kRSNa kI pratimA ho, to tuma bhI nAca sakoge-- tAlamela hogaa| mahAvIra kI khar3I huI nagna pratimA ke pAsa kyA nAcoge? vahAM to saba nRtya baMda ho gayA; saba thira ho gayA hai| buddha kI pratimA ke pAsa nAcoge; jaMcegA nhiiN| vahAM to cupa ho jaanaa| vahAM gIta bhI nahIM gaanaa| vahAM mauna-sannATA caahie| magara koI gA kara bhI sannATe meM utaratA hai| koI nAca kara bhI sannATe meM utaratA hai| koI nAcate-nAcate kho jAtA hai nAca meN| miTa jAtA hai| gala jAtA hai| pighala jAtA hai| aura usI pighalAva meM, jaba ahaMkAra nahIM hotA--to jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! aba tumhArI mauj| mere isa maMdira ke dvAra aneka haiN| koI nAcatA haA Ae, to usake lie maiMne kRSNa kI mUrti sajA rakhI hai| aura kisI ko nAca na jaMcatA ho, cupa baiThanA ho, to usake lie maiMne buddha kI mUrti biThA rakhI hai| jisakI jaisI ruci ho| pahale apanI ruci ko phcaano| pahale apane dila ko pahacAno; apane dila ko TaTolo--aura usI AdhAra para calanA, vahIM se saMketa lenA, to yaha duvidhA khar3I nahIM hogI, to yaha duI khar3I nahIM hogii| jyUM mukha eka dekhi duI darpana! darpaNoM meM mata dekho| AMkha baMda karo aura apane bhItara ke rujhAna ko pahacAno ki merA rujhAna kyA hai| aura kaThinAI nahIM hogii| agara tuma dUsaroM kI sunoge, to kaThinAI meM par3oge, kyoMki dUsare apanI sunaaeNge| isalie maiM niraMtara aneka jIvana-dRSTiyoM para bola rahA huuN| kahIM aisA na ho ki koI jIvana-dRSTi tumase aparicita raha jaae| tumheM paricita karA detA huuN| aura niraMtara yaha ghaTanA ghaTatI hai: jaba mIrA para bolA hUM, to kisI ke hRdaya kI ghaMTiyAM bajane lgiiN| aura jaba buddha para bolA hUM, to kisI ke hRdaya kI gUMja utthii| aura maiMne yaha pAyA hai ki jisako mIrA ko suna kara gUMjA thA hRdaya, usako buddha ko suna kara nahIM guuNjaa| aura jisako buddha ko suna kara hRdaya AMdolita huA, vaha mIrA se aprabhAvita raha gyaa| jo mIrA ko suna Page 22 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kara royA thA, AMkha AMsuoM se gIlI ho gaI thIM--vaha buddha ko suna kara aisA hI baiThA rhaa| kahIM tAlamela na baitthaa| aura jo buddha ko suna kara gadagada ho AyA, jisake bhItara kucha Thahara gayA buddha ko sunatesunate--vaha mIrA ko suna kara socatA rahA thA; yaha saba kalpanA-jAla hai! yaha saba bhrama hai! ye saba mana ke hI bhAva haiN| kahAM kRSNa? kahAM kRSNa kI bAMsurI? kaisA nRtya? yaha mIrA strI thI, bhAvuka thI, bhAvanAzIla thii| bhajana to acche gAe haiM! vaha unakI bhajana kI prazaMsA kara sakatA hai--kAvya kI dRSTi se, saMgIta kI dRSTi se, magara, aura usake bhItara kucha nahIM hotaa| lekina jo mIrA ko dekha kara DAMvADola ho gayA thA, vaha buddha ko sunatA hai, lagatA hai: haiM-- registAna jaise! usake bhItara koI phUla nahIM khilte| usakA dila aisA nahIM hotA ki daur3a paDUM isa registAna meN| ki jAUM aura kho jAUM isa registAna meN| na koI koyala bolatI hai| na koI pakSI cahacahAte haiN| kucha bhI nhiiN| sannATA hai| yahAM maiM sAre dvAra tumhAre lie khola rahA huuN| isa taraha kI bAta kabhI pRthvI para nahIM kI gii| isalie maiM ise bhagIratha-prayAsa kaha rahA huuN| yaha pahalI bAra ho rahA hai| mahAvIra ne apanI bAta khii| maiM bhI apanI bAta kaha kara cupa ho sakatA huuN| magara merI bAta kucha logoM ke kAma kI hogI, thor3e se logoM ke kAma kI hogii| mIrA ne apanI bAta khii| buddha ne apanI bAta khii| kRSNa ne apanI bAta khii| aba samaya A gayA ki koI ina sabakI bAta ko punarujjIvita kara de| isalie tumheM merI bAtoM meM bahuta se virodhAbhAsa mileNge| milane vAle haiN| kyoMki jaba maiM mIrA para bolatA hUM, to mIrA ke sAtha ekarUpa ho jAtA huuN| phira maiM bhUla hI jAtA hUM--buddha ko, mahAvIra ko| phira mujhe kucha lenAdenA nhiiN| aura agara kisI ne buddha-mahAvIra kI bAta cher3I, to maiM mIrA ke sAmane unheM Tikane nahIM dUMgA! jaba mIrA maiM hUM, to usa samaya mIrA maiM huuN| aura jaba maiM buddha ke saMbaMdha meM bola rahA hUM; kisI ne kahA ki aba merI AMkhoM meM AMsU nahIM A rahe--to maiM use jhkjhoruuNgaa| to maiM kahUMgA ki tumheM ronA ho, to kahIM aura jA kara roo| rone kI jarUrata kyA hai! mIrA ke samaya jarUra kahUMgA ki roo, jI bhara kara roo| gIle ho jaao| itane gIle ki bilakula bhIga hI jaao| tarobora ho jaao| to merI bAtoM meM tumheM virodhAbhAsa mileMge, kyoMki maiM sAre dvAra khola rahA huuN| ve alaga-alaga dvAra haiN| unakI kuMjiyAM alaga; unake tAle alaga; unakI sthApatya kalA alaga; unakA raMgaDhaMga alg| magara ye saba dvAra eka hI jagaha le jA rahe haiN| jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! abdula karIma! mata pUchoH / izke butAM karUM ki maiM yAde khudA karUM isa choTI-sI umra meM, maiM kyA-kyA khudA karUM basa, itanA-sA kara lo| yaha choTI umra nahIM hai, bahuta hai| hisAba se dI gaI hai| isase jyAdA tuma zAyada jhela bhI na paao| isase jyAdA zAyada jhelanA muzkila ho jaae| Page 23 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA pazcima meM umra bar3ha gaI hai| sau sAla ke pAra jA cukI hai| Aja rUsa meM bahuta se loga haiM, jinakI umra eka sau pacAsa ke karIba pahuMca gii| saba se bar3I umra kA AdamI eka sau caurAsI varSa kA hai, aura abhI bhI kAma kara rahA hai| amarIkA meM, svIDana meM, sviTajaralaiMDa meM umra kA mApadaMDa bahuta Upara pahuMca gayA hai| aura taba vahAM eka naI carcA zurU huI--athanAsiyA kI, mRtyu kI, svataMtratA kii| kyoMki bUDhe yaha kaha rahe haiM ki hamArA yaha janmasiddha adhikAra hai ki jaba hama maranA cAheM, hameM marane diyA jA! hameM hairAnI hotI hai suna kara--athanAsiyA kI baat| mRtyu kA janmasiddha adhikAra--yaha bhI koI bAta hai! kisI ne sunI? kisI vidhAna meM duniyA ke abhI taka nahIM rhii| lekina aba lAnI par3egI, kyoMki AMdolana gati pakar3a rahA hai| lAnI pdd'egii| jo AdamI sau sAla ke Upara ho gayA, jI cukA kAphI, vaha kahatA hai ki aba mujhe jI kara kyA karanA hai? jo dekhanA thA, dekha liyaa| jo bhoganA thA, bhoga liyaa| aba mujhe kyoM sar3Ate ho? aura abhI muzkila yaha hai ki kAnUnI usako marane kA haka nahIM hai| yadi karane kI koziza kare, to sajA khAegA, jela jaaegaa| AtmahatyA kA prayAsa samajhA jaaegaa| pApa hai| aparAdha hai| abhI aspatAloM meM yUropa aura amarIkA ke aise bahuta se loga par3e haiM, jinakI hAlata jIvita nahIM kahI jA sktii| lekina basa, sAMsa le rahe haiN| sAMsa bhI le rahe haiM, vaha bhI kRtrima, yaMtra ke dvArA sAMsa le rahe haiN| DAkTaroM ke sAmane savAla hai--karIba-karIba duniyA ke sabhI pratiSThita DAkTaroM ke sAmane yaha ciMtA hai ki karanA kyA? kyA hama unako AksIjana denA baMda kara deM? baMda karate hI ve mara jaaeNge| to purAnI aba taka kI dhAraNA kahatI hai ki AksIjana tumane agara baMda kI, to tuma unakI hatyA ke jimmedAra he| tumane isa AdamI ko mAra ddaalaa| aura isa AdamI ko jilA kara kyA karanA hai? kyoMki vaha par3A hai--sAga-sabjI kI bhAMti-- gobhI-gAjara! gobhI-gAjara bhI nahIM, kyoMki gobhI-gAjara kisI kAma A jAe; vaha kisI kAma kA nhiiN| aura dasa-pAMca AdamiyoM ko ulajhAe hue hai| eka narsa lagI huI hai| eka DAkTara lagA huA hai| aura caubIsa ghaMTe usakI phikra karanI par3a rahI hai| yaha iMjekzana do, vaha iMjekzana do! TAMga Upara baMdhI huI haiM; vajana laTakAe gae haiN| na use hoza hai| vaha komA meM par3A hai| eka mahilA ko maiM dekhane gyaa| vaha nau mahIne se komA meM hai| aba savAla uThatA hai ki isako kaba taka jilAe rakhanA? kyoM--kyA prayojana hai? magara kauna mArane kA hakadAra hai! kyA DAkTara AksIjana denA baMda kara de| to DAkTara ke hRdaya meM bhItara kacoTa hogI, kyoMki usakA bhI zikSaNa to haA hai purAne AdhAroM pr| vaha bhI so nahIM pAegA rAta meM, ki yaha maiMne kyA kiyA! maiMne usa AdamI ko mAra DAlA! patA nahIM: vaha ThIka ho jAtA, phir| yA ho sakatA hai, vaha abhI aura jInA cAhatA ho| usakI AkAMkSA ke viparIta jAne vAlA maiM kauna hUM! aura usako jilAe rakhU...! aura ho sakatA hai, vaha maranA cAhatA ho| kyoMki kyA karegA jIkara--aisI avasthA meM? Page 24 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA sattara sAla mere hisAba se ThIka prAkRtika umra hai sattara se jyAdA AdamI bojhapUrNa mAlUma hone lgegaa| khuda ko bhI bojha lagane lagegA, auroM ko bhI bojha lagane lgegaa| aura agara sattara sAla jiMdagI meM kucha na kara pAe, to aba aura kyA karoge? aba vidA hone kA kSaNa gyaa| sattara sAla se jyAdA agara cikitsAzAstra ne logoM ko jilAne kI koziza kI, to usakA aMtima pariNAma yaha hogA ki sabhI samRddha deza ke vidhAnoM meM isa bAta ko jor3anA hI hogA-jahAM aura janmasiddha adhikAra haiM, vahAM eka janmasiddha adhikAra aura jor3anA hogA ki pratyeka vyakti ko apanI mRtyu kA varaNa karane kA adhikAra hai| tuma use jabardastI jilA nahIM skte| vaha agara maranA cAhatA hai, to tumheM use marane kI suvidhA denI hogii| tuma kauna ho, jo use jabardastI ? abdula karIma! yaha umra choTI nahIM hai| yaha umra ThIka utanI hai, jitanI caahie| prakRti ne utanA diyA hai, jitanA cAhie- na jyAdA, na km| lekina isa umra kA agara tuma AnaMda - hai jarUrata se bahuta jyAdA hai| kyoMki ke lie upayoga kara lo, to yaha zAzvata hai, bahuta eka kSaNa bhI AnaMda kA agara mila jAe, to basa tumane cakha lI bUMda amRta kI tuma amara hue| phira yaha deha jAegI, yaha mana jAegA, magara tuma jahAM ho vahIM ho| , zrI ramaNa ke mRtyu ke samaya jaba unase pUchA gayA ki bhagavAna, Apa vidA ho rahe haiN| Apa pAgala hue ho! kahAM jAUMgA? jahAM hUM -yahIM rhuuNgaa| jaisA hUM--vahIM jyUM thA lyUM ThaharAyA ! kahAM jAeMge? unhoMne kahA, rhuuNgaa| yahIM ke yahIM rahUMgA jo apane sAkSI bhAva meM baiTha gayA, usako na aba kahIM AnA hai, na kahIM jAnA hai| vaha zAzvata kA aMga ho gayA; vaha anaMta kA hissedAra ho gayA; vaha paramAtmA kA rUpa ho gayA; vaha paramAtmAmaya ho gyaa| isalie to hamane buddha ko bhagavAna khaa| mahAvIra ko bhagavAna khaa| kahane kA kAraNa thaa| bhagavattA ko upalabdha ho ge| bhagavattA kA artha hai: jisane bhI jAna liyA ki maiM janma ke pahale thA aura mRtyu ke bAda bhI rahUMgA; jisane apane svarUpa ko pahacAna liyaa| itanA hI kro| phira kisa bahAne karate ho, yaha tumhArI marjI / izke butAM mUrtiyoM se prema ho calegA to koI pyArI mUrti cuna lo aura agara zUnya taka sIdhI chalAMga lagAne kA sAhasa ho, to koI jarUrata nahIM mUrti cunane kI mUrti cuno, to prArthanA tumhArA patha hogaa| aura agara amUrti cuno, to dhyAna tumhArA patha hogaa| magara ye patha haiN| aura ye sAre patha eka hI zikhara para pahuMca jAte haiN| maiMne sAre paMthoM ko chAnabIna kara dekhA hai, ye saba eka hI zikhara para pahuMca jAte haiN| koI koI kRSNa ko bhajatA AtA hai| kurAna gunagunAtA AtA hai koI gItA gunagunAtA AtA hai koI zAMta-sAkSIbhAva meM AtA hai| magara saba ko A jAnA hai hai, jo amRta hai| apane usa biMdu para, jo zAzvata Page 25 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA Aja itanA hii| pahalA pravacana; dinAMka 11 sitaMbara, 1980; zrI rajanIza Azrama, pUnA saMskRti kA AdhAra: dhyAna pahalA prazna : bhagavAna, bhAratIya saMskRti saMsada apane paccIsa varSa pUre kara rahI hai, usake upalakSya meM DAkTara prabhAkara mAcave ne Apako ciMtaka, vicAraka aura manISI kA saMbodhana dete hae bhAratIya saMskRti graMtha ke lie Apake vicAra AmaMtrita kie haiM, jise ve graMtha ke prAraMbha meM prakAzita karake dhanyatA anubhava kreNge| bhagavAna, nivedana hai ki kucha kaheM! caitanya kIrti! maiM na to ciMtaka hUM, na vicAraka, na mniissii| ciMtana ko hama bahuta mUlya dete haiM; vicAraka ko hama bar3A saubhAgya samajhate haiM; manISA to hamArI dRSTi meM jIvana kA carama zikhara hai| lekina satya kucha aura hai| na to buddha vicAraka haiM--na mahAvIra, na kbiir| jisane bhI jAnA hai, vaha vicAraka nahIM hai| jo nahIM jAnatA, vaha vicAratA hai| vicAra ajJAna hai| aMdhA socatA hai: prakAza kaisA hai, kyA hai! AMkha vAlA jAnatA hai--socatA nhiiN| isalie kaisA ciMtana? kaisA vicAra? vicAra aura ciMtana aMdhere meM TaTolanA hai--aura aMdhe AdamI kaa| darzanazAstrI kI paribhASA zaoNpenahAra ne yUM kI hai--ki jaise koI aMdhA AdamI aMdhere meM kAlI billI ko khojatA ho, jo ki vahAM hai hI nahIM! vicAraka, ciMtaka, manISI--saba mana kI prakriyAeM haiN| aura jahAM taka mana hai, vahAM taka saMskRti nhiiN| mana kA jahAM atikramaNa hai, vahIM saMskRti kA prAraMbha hai| mana kA atikramaNa hotA hai dhyAna se| isalie mere dekhe, mere anubhava meM, dhyAna hI ekamAtra kImiyA hai, jo vyakti ko susaMskRta karatI hai| manuSya jaisA paidA hotA hai, prAkRta, vaha to pazu jaisA hI hai, usameM aura pazu meM bahuta bheda nhiiN| kucha thor3e bheda haiM bhI to guNAtmaka nhiiN--primaannaatmk| mAnA ki pazu meM thor3I kama buddhi hai, AdamI meM thor3I jyAdA; magara bheda mAtrA kA hai; koI maulika bheda nhiiN| maulika bheda to dhyAna se hI phalita hotA hai| pazu ko dhyAna kA kucha bhI patA nhiiN| aura ve manuSya jo binA dhyAna ke jIte hai aura mara jAte haiM--nAhaka hI jIte haiM, nAhaka hI mara jAte haiN| avasara yUM hI gayA! apUrva thA avsr| jIvana satya ke svarNa-zikhara chU sakatA thA; khila sakate the kamala AnaMda ke; amRta kI varSA ho sakatI thI, lekina dhyAna ke binA kucha bhI saMbhava nhiiN| Page 26 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA dhyAna kA artha hai--vaha kImiyA jo prAkRta ko saMskRta karatI hai| jaise koI anagar3ha patthara ko gar3hatA hai aura mUrti prakaTa hotI hai| jaise koI khadAna se nikale hIre ko nikhAratA hai, sApha karatA hai, pahalU ubhAratA hai--taba hIre meM camaka AtI hai, damaka AtI hai| taba hIrA hIrA hotA hai| hama saba paidA hote haiM anagar3ha patthara kI bhaaNti| vaha hamArA prAkRta rUpa hai| saMbhAvanA kI taraha hama paidA hote haiN| phira una saMbhAvanAoM ko--aura ve anaMta haiM--vAstavikatA meM rUpAMtarita karanA, saMbhAvanAoM ko satya banAnA, usakI kalA dhyAna hai| lekina akasara yaha ho jAtA hai ki hama sabhyatA aura saMskRti ko paryAyavAcI banA lete haiN| sabhyatA bAhara kI bAta hai, saMskRti bhItara kii| sabhyatA zabda kA artha hotA hai: sabhA meM baiThane kI yogyatA, samAja meM jIne kI kssmtaa| auroM se kaise saMbaMdha rakhanA, isakI vyAvahArika kuzalatA kA nAma sabhyatA hai--shissttaacaar| bhItara kUr3A-kacarA ho, bhItara krodha ho, bhItarara ISyA ho, bhItara saba roga hoM, magara kama se kama bAhara muskurAe jAnA! bhItara viSAda ho, magara bAhara na lAnA! bhItara ghAva hoM, ghAvoM ko phUloM se chipAe rakhanA! dUsaroM ke sAtha yUM milanA jaise ki tuma dhanyabhAgI ho, saba pA lie ho! mukhauTe lagAe rakhanA! sabhyatA mukhauTe lagAnA sikhAtI hai| phira tarahattaraha ke mukhauTe haiM--hiMduoM ke aura, musalamAnoM ke aura; jainoM ke aura, bauddhoM ke aura; bhAratIyoM ke aura, cIniyoM ke aura, rUsiyoM ke aura! phira saMsAra mukhauToM se bharA huA hai| isalie sabhyatAeM aneka hoNgii| bhArata kI alaga hogI aura araba kI alaga hogI aura mizra kI alaga hogii| itanA hI kyoM, bhArata meM bhI bahuta sabhyatAeM hoMgI--jaina kI alaga hogI, hiMdU kI alaga hogI, musalamAna kI alaga hogI, IsAI kI alaga hogI, sikkha kI alaga hogI; paMjAbI kI alaga hogI, gujarAtI kI alaga hogI, mahArASTriyana kI alaga hogI; uttara kI alaga hogI, dakSiNa kI alaga hogI! bheda para bheda hoMge; khaMDa para khaMDa hoNge| lekina saMskRti eka hI hogii| saMskRti bhAratIya nahIM ho sakatI, hiMdU nahIM ho sakatI, gujarAtI nahIM ho sakatI, paMjAbI nahIM ho sakatI, baMgAlI nahIM ho sktii| kyoMki saMskRti to aMtarAtmA kA pariSkAra hai| sabhyatA bAhara kI bAta hai| vaha aupacArika hai| svabhAvataH alaga-alaga hogii| alama mausama, alaga bhUgola, alaga jarUrateM--nizcita hI sabhyatA ko alaga kara deNgii| vaha eka jaisI nahIM ho sktii| pazcima meM sabhyatA aura hogI, vahAM ke anukUla hogI--vahAM ke bhUgola, vahAM ke mausama, vahAM kI jalavAyu ke anukUla hogii| aba vahAM jUte pahane rahanA caubIsa ghaMTe, moje pahane rakhanA, TAI bAMdha rakhanA--bilakula anukUla hai| lekina mUDha haiM ve jo bhArata meM TAI bAMdhe ghUma rahe haiM! sarda mulkoM meM, havA jarA bhI bhItara na calI jAe, isakI ceSTA calatI hai| lekina garma mulkoM meM, jahAM pasInA baha rahA hai, vahAM loga TAI kase hae baiThe haiN| inase jyAdA muda aura kauna hoMge? bhArata meM jUte kase baiThe haiM dina bhara, moje bhI pahane hue haiM! pasIne se tarabatara haiM, badabU chUTa rahI hai| lekina udhaar| sabhyatA udhAra lI ki tuma sirpha mUDhatA jAhira karate ho| Page 27 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA sabhyatA alaga-alaga hogii| tibbata meM alaga hogI...| aba tibbata meM brahmamuhUrta meM snAna karanA, sabhyatA nahIM ho sktii| kaise hogI? maranA hai? Dabala nimoniyA karanA hai? lekina bhArata meM to roja brahmamuhUrta meM snAna kara lenA, sabhyatA hogI, nizcita sabhyatA hogii| bhArata meM jamIna para baiThanA padmAsana meM bilakula sabhya hogaa| lekina pazcima meM jamIna para nahIM baiThA jA sktaa| itanI ThaMDa hai, itanI kaThinAI hai| bhArata meM ughAr3e bhI baiTho to sabhyatA hai, lekina pazcima meM ughAr3e nahIM baiTha sakate ho| lekina saMskRti bhinna-bhinna nahIM ho sakatI, kyoMki saMskRti na to mausama se jur3I hai, na bhUgola se, na rAjanIti se, na paraMparA se| saMskRti kI koI paraMparA nahIM hotii| saMskRti ko to pratyeka vyakti ko apane bhItara hI anveSaNa karanA hotA hai| saMskRti pAne kI kalA dhyAna hai, kyoMki dhyAna se prAkRta kA pariSkAra hotA hai; krodha ko karuNA banA de--aisA camatkAra hotA hai; vAsanA ko prArthanA banA de--aisA jAdU; isakA pUrA vijJAna ki jo-jo hamAre bhItara vyartha hai usako chAMTa de, tAki sArthaka hI baca rahe; jo hamAre bhItara zubhratama hai, use ubhAra de; aMdhere ko kATa de, dIe ko jalA de, rozana kara de! aMtarjyoti meM jagamagAtA huA vyakti jAnatA hai ki saMskRti kyA hai| kevala buddhoM ne jAnA hai ki saMskRti kyA hai| saMskRti buddhuoM kI duniyA kA hissA nahIM hai| buddhU to saMskRti ko bhI bigAr3a deNge| ve to usako bhI bhAratIya banA leMge, IsAI banA leMge, jaina banA leMge, hiMdU banA leMge! ve to usa para bhI rAjanIti thopa deNge| bhUgola, itihAsa--isake nIce daba kara saMskRti mara jaaegii| saMskRti to AtmA hai vyakti kii| vaha to setu hai paramAtmA se milane kaa| maiM tumheM yahAM saMskRti de rahA hUM, sabhyatA nhiiN| kyoMki merI dhAraNA mere anubhava se nikalI hai| anubhava merA yaha hai ki sabhya vyakti jarUrI nahIM ki susaMskRta ho| sabhya vyakti ke to kaI cehare hote haiM--baiThakakhAne meM kucha aura, snAnagRha meM kucha aura ; sAmane ke daravAje para kucha aura, pIche ke daravAje para kucha aur| mukha meM rAma, bagala meM churI! sabhya vyakti ke to bar3e dvaMdva hote haiN| kyoMki bhItara dabAyA hai usne| sabhyatA damana hai| koI bhI sabhyatA ho, damana hai| jabardastI vyakti ko samAja ke sAtha samAyojita karane kI ceSTA hai| binA rUpAMtarita kie, use sikhAnA hai ziSTAcAra ki aise jIo, yaha karo yaha na kro| ye saba Adeza Upara se thope jaaeNge| svabhAvataH usakA AcaraNa eka hogA aura aMtasa aur| sabhyatA damana hai, lekina saMskRti rUpAMtaraNa hai, damana nhiiN| saMskRti hogI, to sabhyatA to hogI; lekina sabhyatA ho, to saMskRti anivArya nhiiN| sabhyatA dhokhA ho sakatI hai| aura yaha bhI bheda hogA ki jo saMskRti ko upalabdha hai, usakI sabhyatA utane dUra taka hI sabhyatA hogI, jitane dUra taka usakI aMtarAtmA ke viparIta nahIM jaatii| jahAM viparIta jAegI, vahAM vaha bagAvata karegA; vahAM vaha vidrohI hogaa| sabhya AdamI kabhI vidrohI nahIM hotA, hamezA AjJAkArI hotA hai| isalie samAja ko ciMtA nahIM hai ki tumhAre jIvana meM saMskRti ho; samAja ko ciMtA hai ki basa tuma sabhya raho, itanA kAphI hai| sabhya rahe, to gulAma rhe| sabhya rahe, to dAsa rhe| sabhya rahe, to zoSaNa Page 28 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA tumhArA kiyA jA sakatA hai, basa, paryAsa hai| bhIr3a ke hisse raho bhIr3a jaisA cale clo| bher3acAla! phira bhIr3a ThIka ho to ThIka, galata ho to galata--yaha tumhArI ciMtanA nahIM honI caahie| saMskRta vyakti maulika rUpa se vidrohI hogaa| isalie maiMne kahA, saMskRti kI paraMparA nahIM hotii| saMskRti bagAvata hai, pratibhA hai| nijatA hai saMskRti meM-- udhAra nahIM, bAsApana nahIM / saMskRta vyakti sabhya hogA eka sImA taka jarUra sabake sAtha calegA, jaba taka ki use aMtarAtmA ko becanA na pdd'e| jisa kSaNa tumane kahA ki kucha aisA karo jo usakI aMtarAtmA kI AvAja ke viparIta jAtA hai, vaha bagAvata kregaa| buddha ne bagAvata kii| jIsasa ne bagAvata kii| nAnaka ne bagAvata kI kabIra ne bagAvata kI ye saMskRti ke zikhara haiN| buddha paraMparA ke sAtha nahIM cle| yUM kauna hogA jo buddha se jyAdA sabhya hogA? lekina buddha ke pAsa AMkheM haiM, to unheM dikhAI par3A ki vedoM meM dharma kahAM ninyAnabe pratizata to kUr3A-kacarA hai, to bagAvata kii| kUr3A-kacarA ke sAtha koI samajhautA nahIM ho sktaa| jarUra jo eka pratizata satya hai, usakA samagra svAgata hai; lekina jo ninyAnabe pratizata asatya hai, usakA samagra virodha bhI / mahAvIra ne bagAvata kii| kabIra ne bagAvata kI / saMskRta vyakti samAja nahIM caahtaa| samAja sabhyatA se rAjI hai utanA kAphI hai| basa, mukhauTA lagA lo, nATaka karate raho ki bhale ho, phira bhItara-bhItara kucha bhI karate rho| sabhya AdamI kI rAjanIti hotI hai; saMskRti kI koI rAjanIti nahIM hotii| sabhya AdamI bar3A kUTanItijJa hotA hai kahatA kucha karatA kucha dikhAtA kucha hotA kucha usakI muskurAhaTa meM jahara chipA ho sakatA hai usake phUloM meM kAMTe chipe ho sakate haiN| usakI hara bAta meM cAlabAjI hogii| usakI hara bAta meM beImAnI hogii| usake irAde kucha aura hoMge, vaha batAegA, kucha aura batAegA vaha jo sabase mela khAe aura irAde kucha aura hoMge, jinheM vaha chipA kara pUrA karatA rahegA; aura acche-acche bahAne khojegA / kala maiMne dekhA, eka patrakAra ne morArajI desAI kA iMTaravyU liyA hai| usane pUchA ki Apa pradhAnamaMtrI bane haiM, yaha Apa apane karma se bane haiM? to unhoMne kahA ki nahIM, yaha to mere bhAgya se maiM bnaa| yaha merI niyati thii| yaha paramAtmA ne mujhe banAyA ! jiMdagI bhara ApAdhApI karate rahe, jor3ator3a karate rahe, saba taraha kI cAlabAjiyAM karate rahe-aba yaha AkhirI cAlabAjI, ki aba yaha majA bhI kyoM na le lo ki paramAtmA ko phikra par3I hai ki morArajI desAI, sattara karor3a logoM meM yaha eka AdamI pradhAnamaMtrI bane ! aura pola to vahIM khula gaI, kyoMki Dhola kI pola jyAdA dUra nahIM hotii| dUsarA hI prazna patrakAra ne pUchA ki aba paramAtmA ne Apako pradhAnamaMtrI banAyA, yaha bAta samajha meM AI yaha Apake bhAgya meM thA, lekina phira ApakI sattA ukhar3a kyoM gaI to ve bhUla gae jhUTha koI kitanI dera yAda rakhe satya ko yAda nahIM rakhanA hotA jhUTha ko yAda rakhanA hotA hai| 7 Page 29 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA taba ve tatkSaNa bole ki yaha mere kucha sAthiyoM ko mahatvAkAMkSA thI pradhAnamaMtrI hone kI, caudharI caraNasiMha ko mahatvAkAMkSA thI pradhAnamaMtrI hone kI, unake kAraNa saba barbAda huaa| aba yaha bar3A majA hai ki caudharI caraNasiMha ko paramAtmA ne nahIM banAyA? caudharI caraNasiMha ko niyati ne nahIM banAyA pradhAnamaMtrI! sirpha morArajI bhAI ke lie paramAtmA ne bhAgya meM likhA! caudharI caraNasiMha kI khopar3I meM bilakula nahIM likhA? ye apanI koziza se bana gae! aura bar3A majA yaha hai, taba to caudharI caraNasiMha paramAtmA se bhI bar3e ho gae! kyoMki paramAtmA morArajI desAI ko banAtA hai pradhAnamaMtrI aura caudharI caraNasiMha unako khisakA dete haiM, aura khuda pradhAnamaMtrI bana jAte haiN| to paramAtmA se bhI jyAdA zaktizAlI ho ge| Dhola kI pola bahuta jyAdA dUra nahIM hotii| jhUTha bologe, agara jarA AMkha hogI pahacAnane vAle meM, tatkSaNa pakar3a jaaoge| magara isa patrakAra kI pakar3a meM nahIM aayaa| patrakAra to unako paira chU kara gyaa| paira chUtA huA citra chapA huA hai sAtha meM ki patrakAra na unake caraNa chue| ki kaisA dhanyabhAgI vyakti, paramAtmA ne jisako pradhAnamaMtrI banAyA! usa patrakAra ko nahIM dikhAI par3A ki yaha bar3A majA hai, caudharI caraNasiMha ko bhI paramAtmA ne hI banAyA hogA phira, phira iMdirA ko bhI paramAtmA ne hI banAyA hogA! magara abhI ye hI purAne upadravI, aba phira eka muhima uThA rahe haiM--iMdirA httaao| paramAtmA ne banAyA hai iMdirA ko, tuma kisalie haTAne kI ciMtA meM lage ho? kyA paramAtmA se duzmanI le rakhI hai? nahIM, aura kisI ko paramAtmA nahIM banAtA, morArajI desAI ko bhara paramAtmA banAtA hai| bAkI saba apanI koziza se bana jAte haiM! yaha paramAtmA sirpha inake hI sAtha hai! ye tathAkathita mukhauTe lagAe hue loga kaheMge kucha, kareMge kuch| inake maMtavyoM para bharosA mata krnaa| ye saMskRti ke lakSaNa nahIM haiN| hAM, sabhyatA yahI dhokhA sikhAtI hai, yahI pAkhaMDa sikhAtI hai| sabhyatA pAkhaMDa hai| maiM sabhyatA-virodhI hUM, saMskRti kA pakSapAtI huuN| lekina saMskRti dhyAna ke binA nahIM miltii| saMskRti zabda meM khatarA hai, kyoMki zabda banatA hai saMskAra se| saMskAra ke do artha ho sakate haiN| eka artha to ki dUsaroM ke dvArA die gae, dUsaroM ke dvArA Aropita, dUsaroM ke dvArA sikhAe ge| aura dUsarA artha ho sakatA hai pariSkAra kA; dhyAna ke dvArA nikhAre ge| jo loga saMskRti kA saMskAra se hI saMbaMdha jor3a kara raha jAte haiM, ve zabda ko to samajha gae, lekina zabda ke bhItara chipI huI AtmA se cUka ge| zarIra to zabda kA samajha meM A gayA, lekina AtmA chiTaka gaI hAtha se| saMskRti saMskAra hI nahIM hai, kyoMki saMskAra se sabhyatA banatI hai| mAM-bApa ne sikhAyA--aise uTho, aise baiTho; isa maMdira meM jAo, isa masjida meM jAo; yaha zAstra pddh'o| ye saba saMskAra haiN| to hara bacce ko saMskArita karate haiM hm| janeU pahanA dete haiM, to usako kahate haiM--yajJopavIta saMskAra! phira aise saMskAra hote hI rahate haiN| janma se lekara mRtyu taka saMskAra Page 30 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA karane vAle nahIM chor3ate; ve mare-marAe para bhI saMskAra karate cale jAte haiM! jo mara gae bahuta pahale, una para bhI saMskAra thopate cale jAte haiM! lAzoM ko bhI raMgate rahate haiN| saMskRti saMskAra hI nahIM hai, saMskRti maulika rUpa se pariSkAra hai| lekina pariSkAra ke lie dhyAna kI kalA caahie| aura dhyAna hiMdU hotA, na musalamAna hotaa| dhyAna kA artha hai: sAkSIbhAva! jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! tumhAre bhItara jo svarUpa hai, jo gahanatama tumhArI jIvana kI UrjA chipI par3I hai, jo tumhArA keMdra hai, usameM Thahara jaanaa| pUrNa virAma A jaae| koI daur3a na rahe, koI AkAMkSA na rahe, koI mahatvAkAMkSA na rahe! aisI zAMti ghanI ho, aisA nirvicAra ho, aisA mauna ho ki koI taraMga na uThe! jhIla aise zAMta ho rahe ki jaise darpaNa ho gii| to phira jo hai, vaha jhalakatA hai| jo hai, usakA jhalakanA hI paramAtmA kA anubhava hai| mahatvAkAMkSI vyakti ke mana meM itanI ApAdhApI hotI hai, itane vicAroM kI taraMgeM hotI haiM, itanI lahareM hotI haiM ki jhIla para cAMda kA nakza bane to kaise bane! TUTa-TUTa jAtA hai, bikharabikhara jAtA hai| cAMda to eka hai, magara jhIla meM jaba lahareM hotI haiM, to aneka khaMDoM meM bikhara jAtA hai| pratibiMba khaMDita ho sakatA hai, cAMda khaMDita nahIM hotaa| usI bheTavArtA meM morArajI desAI ne kahA ki mujhe paMcAnabe pratizata satya mila cukA hai! paMcAnabe pratizata! yaha koI dukAnadArI hai? lekina gujarAtI mana! lAkha karo, baniyA hone se chuTakArA nahIM ho sktaa| vahAM bhI pratizata cala rahA hai! maiMne sunA, eka yahUdI ko usake eka mitra ne pUchA ki saba ThIka-ThAka to hai? abhI-abhI usane vivAha kiyA hai| usane kahA ki saba ThIka-ThAka hai| bar3e AnaMda meM huuN| patnI kyA milI, devI hai, apsarA hai! aisI suMdara zAyada pRthvI para dUsarI koI strI na ho| mitra ne kahA, vaha to mujhe bhI mAlUma hai ki strI suMdara hai, magara kyA maiM yaha samajhU ki tumheM pUrI kathA strI kI mAlUma nahIM? tumhAre alAvA usake cAra premI aura bhI haiM! yahUdI ne kahA, usakI ciMtA na kro| acche dhaMdhe meM bIsa pratizata lAbha bhI bahuta hai! raddI dhaMdhe meM sau pratizata lAbha kA bhI kyA karoge? mila jAe koI DAkina aura usameM sau pratizata apanI ho, isase yaha bIsa pratizata apanI, yaha bahuta! yahUdI kA mana baniyA kA mana hai| yahUdI zuddha gaNita meM socatA hai| mAravAr3I ho ki gujarAtI ho--na yahUdI kA hotA hai| satya ke bhI khaMDa, usameM bhI pratizata! yaha koI dhana kI aura byAja kI duniyA hai? paMcAnabe pratizata satya mila cukA hai! satya jaba milatA hai, to pUrA milatA hai, akhaMDa milatA hai| usake khaMDa hote nhiiN| usake Tukar3e hote nhiiN| satya ke koI Tukar3e kabhI nahIM kara skaa| satya ke Tukar3e karoge, to satya satya hI nahIM hai| jhUTha ke Tukar3e hote haiN| jhUTha ke khaMDa hote haiN| satya akhaMDa hai, avibhAjya hai, advaya hai| do bhI nahIM kara sakate, aura ye to sau Tukar3e kie baiThe haiM! paMcAnabe Tukar3e inako mila gae haiM, pAMca Tukar3e aura bace haiM! aba yaha pAgalapana dekhate ho? Page 31 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA aura unhoMne kahA ki basa, aba eka mahatvAkAMkSA aura bacI hai--paramAtmA ko pAne kii| eka mahatvAkAMkSA pUrI ho gaI--pradhAnamaMtrI hone kI! jaba taka pUrI nahIM huI thI, taba taka vahI kahate the ki yaha merI mahatvAkAMkSA hai| aba pUrI ho gaI, to aba kahate haiM--yaha merI niyati thii| paramAtmA ne likhA hI haA thaa| yaha hone hI vAlA thaa| ise koI duniyA kI zakti roka nahIM sakatI thii| aba kahate haiM ki paramAtmA ko pAnA merI mahatvAkAMkSA hai! paramAtmA ko pAne kI koI mahatvAkAMkSA ho hI nahIM sktii| aura jisake mana meM paramAtmA ko pAne kI mahatvakAMkSA hai, vaha kabhI paramAtmA ko pA na sakegA, kyoMki mahatvAkAMkSI mana hI to bAdhA hai| taba taka mahatvAkAMkSA na gira jAe, vAsanA na gira jAe...phira vaha vAsanA paramAtmA ko hI pAne kI kyoM na ho, kucha bheda nahIM pdd'taa| dhana pAnA cAho, pada pAnA cAho, paramAtmA pAnA cAho--cAha to eka hai, cAha kA raMga eka hai, cAha kI bhAMti eka hai| cAha daur3AtI hai, bhagAtI hai, Thaharane nahIM detii| aura jo acAha huA, vaha ThaharA--jyUM kA tyUM ThaharAyA! jahAM koI cAha nahIM, vahAM koI daur3a nahIM, bhAga nahIM, ApAdhApI nhiiN| aura jo ThaharA apane keMdra para, use mila gayA prmaatmaa| paramAtmA vahIM chipA hai, kahIM bAhara nhiiN| aura jaba milatA hai, to pUrA milatA hai--smaraNa rkhnaa| yA to nahIM milA hai yA milA hai| AdhA-AdhA nahIM hotA ki thor3A milA, thor3A nahIM milA! paramAtmA kI upalabdhi krAMti hai-- kramika vikAsa nhiiN| lekina jinhoMne dhyAna nahIM jAnA hai, unhoMne saMskRti bhI nahIM jAnI; unhoMne dharma bhI nahIM jAnA; unhoMne satya bhI nahIM jaanaa| ve kevala sabhyatA ke hI AvaraNoM meM lipaTe hue haiM; sabhyatA ke AbhUSaNoM ko hI pahane hue baiThe haiN| aura sabhyatA ke AbhUSaNa dikhate AbhUSaNa haiM, vastutaH jaMjIreM haiN| sone kI sahI, hIre-javAharAta jar3I sahI, magara jaMjIreM jaMjIreM haiN| sabhyatA to eka kArAgRha banAtI hai--suMdara, sajAvaTa se banA huaa| lekina kArAgRha kArAgRha hai, cAhe dIvAroM para kitane hI bar3e citrakAroM ke citra TaMge hoM, aura cAhe kitanA hI suMdara pharnIcara ho, aura cAhe sIMkhace sone ke hoN| lekina kucha loga ina kArAgRhoM ko hI ghara samajha lete haiN| kucha kyA, adhikatama! maiMne sunA, eka yAtrI, eka satya kA khojI eka dharmazAlA meM ThaharA hai| dharmazAlA ke dvAra para hI eka totA TaMgA hai| suMdara usakA piMjarA hai aura vaha totA cillA rahA hai--svataMtratA, svataMtratA, svataMtratA!...yahI to usake bhI prANoM kI pukAra thI--svataMtratA, sAre baMdhanoM se svataMtratA! isI khoja meM to vaha isa pahAr3I sthala para AyA thA ki bailUMgA ekAMta meM ki sabase svataMtra ho jaauuN| yahI pukAra tote kI bhI hai! aura taba use lagA aise hI piMjare meM maiM baMda hUM, aise hI piMjare meM yaha becArA totA baMda hai| isake bhI paMkha kATa die haiM tote ke| piMjare meM baMda kara diyA, to paMkha kaTa gae, isase AkAza china gyaa| yaha AkAza kA pakSI; yaha AkAza kA mukta gaganavihArI, ise kahAM sIkhacoM meM baMda kara diyA! mAnA ki sIMkhace suMdara haiN| lekina sarAya kA mAlika kahIM nArAja na Page 32 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA ho jAe...! dila to huA isa khojI kA ki piMjarA khola dUM aura tote ko ur3A dUM, lekina totA kisI aura kA hai, jhaMjhaTa khar3I ho jAe! to usane kahA, abhI nahIM, rAta dekhuugaa| sAMjha jaba sUraja DUba rahA thA, taba bhI totA cillA rahA thA--svataMtratA, svataMtratA, kyoMki vaha jo sarAya kA mAlika thA, vaha svataMtratA ke AMdolana meM jela jA cukA thA aura jela meM use eka hI AkAMkSA thI--svataMtratA, svtNtrtaa...| jaba nikalA thA bAhara to apane tote ko bhI usane rAma-rAma raTanA nahIM sikhAyA--svataMtratA, svataMtratA kA pATha sikhA diyaa| magara pATha pATha hai| aura majA dekhate ho, pATha svataMtratA kA sikhA diyA aura piMjare meM tote ko baMda kara diyA! itanA na sUjhA ki svataMtratA kA pATha sikhAte ho, to kama se kama ise to svataMtra kara do! rAta vaha satya kA khojI uThA, usane piMjare kA dvAra kholA, totA so rahA thA use jagAyA hilA kara aura kahA, ur3a jA! magara tote ne to apane sIMkhacoM ko jora se pakar3a liyaa| cillAe jAe svataMtratA, svataMtratA, aura pakar3e hai sIMkhacoM ko! yAtrI to hairAna huA, usane kahA ki isa zoragula meM kahIM mAlika jaga jAe to kahegA, mere tote ko ur3Ae dete ho, yaha kyA bAta hai! to usane jaldI se hAtha bhItara DAlA ki tote ko pakar3a kara bAhara nikAla le aura khola de, mukta kara de| lekina tote ne usake hAtha para coMce mArI, usake hAtha ko lahUluhAna kara diyA apanI coMca se, aura cillAe jAe--svataMtratA! vaha AvAja lagAe jAe kyoMki eka hI maMtra sIkhA thaa| sIkhe maMtroM kI yahI gati hotI hai| udhAra maMtroM kI yahI gati hotI hai| cillAe jo--svataMtratA! aura sIMkhace pakar3e hue hai| aura jo hAtha svataMtratA dene A rahA hai, usa hAtha para coTeM kara rahA hai, use lahUluhAna kara rahA hai| magara vaha yAtrI bhI jiddI thaa| usane to kisI taraha khIMca kara tote ko bAhara nikAla liyA aura mukta kara diyaa| nizciMta ho kara yAtrI so gyaa| subaha jaba uThA, to cakita huaa| totA apane piMjare meM thA! piMjare kA dvAra aba bhI khulA par3A thA aura totA phira cillA rahA thA--svataMtratA, svataMtratA, svataMtratA! aisI hamArI udhAra dazA hai| mahatvAkAMkSA--aura paramAtmA ko pAne kI! yaha totA hai, jo sIMkhace ko pakar3e hue hai aura svataMtratA cillA rahA hai| sIMkhace chor3a do| aura majA yaha hai ki totA to sIMkhace chor3a de to bhI jarUrI nahIM, kyoMki ho sakatA hai piMjare kA dvAra baMda ho; lekina tuma to apane hI dvArA daravAjA baMda kie baiThe ho! kholo, to abhI mukta ho jaao| kisI aura ne tumhAre daravAje ko baMda nahIM kiyA hai, tumane hI apanI surakSA ke lie daravAjA baMda kara liyA hai| aura aba cillA rahe ho--svataMtratA! magara sabhya AdamI aise hI ulajhana meM hai--dUsaroM ko hI dhokhA nahIM detA, khuda bhI dhokhA khAtA hai| sabhyatA nipaTa pAkhaMDa hai| saMskRti satya hai| lekina dhyAna rahe, saMskRti baMTI hotI nahIM--na pUraba kI, na pazcima kii| jo bhItara gayA, vahAM kahAM pUraba, kahAM pazcima! vahAM kahAM bhArata, kahAM pAkistAna! vahAM kahAM hiMdU, kahAM Page 33 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA musalamAna! jo bhItara gayA, vahAM to saba vizeSaNa gira jAeMge; vahAM to raha jAtI hai zuddha cetnaa| aura usa cetanA ko hI pA lenA, saba kucha pA lenA hai--saccidAnaMda ko pA lenA hai| vaha jo RSi kI pukAra hai, vahAM pUrI ho jAtI hai--asato mA sadagamaya! tamaso mA jyotirgamaya! mRtyormA amRtaMgamaya! he prabhu, mujhe asata se sata kI ora le cala, aMdhakAra se prakAza kI ora, mRtyu se amRta kI ora! dhyAna meM eka sAtha ye tInoM hI rahasya tuma para barasa Ate haiM; anAyAsa yaha prasAda upalabdha ho jAtA hai| saMskRti tumheM satya banAtI hai| saMskRti tumheM Alokita karatI hai| aura saMskRti tumheM amRta banAtI hai| kyoMki saMskRti tumheM samaya ke pAra le jAtI hai--jahAM koI janma nahIM, jahAM koI mRtyu nhiiN| jaba taka amRta na pA liyA jAe, taba taka jAnanA jIvana vyartha hai| dUsarA praznaH bhagavAna, cupa sAdhana, cupa sAdhya, cupa mA cuppa smaay| cupa samajhArI samajha hai, samajhe cupa ho jaae|| bhUribAI ke isa kathana para kucha kahane kI anukaMpA kreN| vedAMta bhAratI! bhUribAI se mere nikaTa ke saMbaMdha rahe haiN| mere anubhava meM hajAroM puruSa aura hajAroM striyAM Ae, lekina bhUribAI anUThI strI thii| abhI kucha samaya pahale hI bhUribAI kA mahAparinirvANa huA, vaha parama mokSa ko upalabdha huii| usakI gaNanA mIrA, rAbiyA, sahajo, dayA--una thor3I-sI inI-ginI striyoM meM karane yogya hai| magara zAyada usakA nAma bhI kabhI na liyA jAegA, kyoMki bepar3hI-likhI thI; grAmINa thI; rAjasthAna ke dehAtI varga kA hissA thii| lekina anUThI usakI pratibhA thii| zAstra jAne nahIM aura satya jAna liyA! merA pahalA zivira huA, usameM bhUribAI sammilita huI thii| phira aura ziviroM meM bhI sammilita huii| nahIM dhyAna ke lie, kyoMki dhyAna use upalabdha thA--basa, mere pAsa hone kA use AnaMda AtA thaa| eka prazna usane pUchA nahIM, eka uttara maiMne use diyA nhiiN| na pUchane ko usake pAsa kucha thA, na uttara dene kI koI jarUrata thiiN| magara AtI thI, to apane sAtha eka havA lAtI thii| pahale hI zivira se usase merA AMtarika nAtA ho gyaa| bAta bana gaI! kahI nahIM gaI, sunI nahIM gaI--bAta bana gaI! pahale pravacana meM sammilita huii| usa zivira kI hI ghaTanAeM aura bAtoM kA saMkalana sAdhanA-patha nAma kI kitAba hai, jisameM bhUribAI sammilita huI thii| pahalA zivira thA, pacAsa vyakti hI sammilita hue the| dUra rAjasthAna ke eka ekAMta nirjana meM, muchAlA mahAvIra meN| bhUribAI ke pAsa hAIkorTa ke eka eDavokeTa, kAlidAsa bhATiyA, usakI sevA meM rahate the| saba chor3a diyA thA--vakAlata, adaalt| bhUribAI ke kapar3e dhote, usake paira dbaate| bhUribAI vRddha thI, sattara sAla kI hogii| bhUribAI AI thii| kAlidAsa bhATiyA Ae the, aura dasa-paMdraha bhUribAI ke bhakta Ae the| kucha thor3e-se loga use pahacAnate Page 34 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA / the| usane merI bAta sunii| phira jaba dhyAna ke lie baiThane kA maukA AyA to vaha apane kamare meM calI gii| kAlidAsa bhATiyA hairAna hue ki dhyAna ke lie hI to hama yahAM Ae haiN| to ve gae bhAge, bhUribAI ko kahA ki bAta to itane gaura se sunI, aba jaba karane kA samaya AyA, to Apa uTha kyoM AI to bhUribAI ne kahA, tU jA, tU jA! maiM samajha gaI bAta | kAlidAsa bahuta hairAna hu ki agara bAta samajha gaI, to dhyAna kyoM nahIM krtii| mujhase pUchA A kara ki mAmalA kyA hai mAjarA kyA hai! bhUribAI kahatI hai, bAta samajha gaI, phira dhyAna meM kyoM nahIM karatI? aura maiMne usase pUchA to kahane lagI tU jA, bApa jI se hI pUcha le! / muskurAtI hai aura jaba maiM bhUribAI sattara sAla kI thI, mujhase bApa jI kahatI thI... ki tU bApa jI se hI pUcha le to maiM Apake pAsa AyA hUM, kAlidAsa bolaa| vaha kucha batAtI bhI nahIM; Ane lagA to kahane lagI-tU kucha samajhA nahIM re maiM samajha gaI / to maiMne kahA, vaha ThIka kahatI hai, kyoMki dhyAna maiMne samajhAyA akriyA hai aura tUne jA kara usase kahA ki bhUribAI, dhyAna karane calo! to vaha haMsegI hI, kyoMki dhyAna karanA kyA ! jaba akriyA hai, to karanA kaisA ! aura maiMne samajhAyA ki dhyAna hai cupa ho jAnA, so usane socA hogA bhIr3a-bhAr3a meM cupa hone kI bajAya apane kamare meM cupa honA jyAdA AsAna hai| isalie ThIka samajha gaI vh| aura saca yaha hai ki use dhyAna karane kI jarUrata nahIM hai| cupa kA use patA hai, hAlAMki vaha usako dhyAna nahIM kahatI, gyaa| vaha sIdhI-sAdI gAMva kI strI hai| kyoMki dhyAna zAstrIya zabda ho jaba vaha vahAM se lauTa kara gaI zivira ke bAda, to usane yaha sUtra apanI jhopar3I para kisI se kahA thA ki likha do| tumheM kahAM se isa sUtra kA patA calA, vedAMta bhAratI / cupa sAdhana, cupa sAdhyA, cupa mA cuppa samAya / cupa samajhArI samajha hai, samajhe cupa ho jAya / / -- cupa hI sAdhana hai, cupa hI sAdhya hai| aura cupa meM cupa hI samA jAtA hai| cupa samajhArI samajha hai| agara samajhate ho, samajhanA cAhate ho to basa eka hI bAta samajhane yogya hai--cupa samajhe cupa ho jAe aura samajhe ki cupa hue| kucha aura karanA nahIM hai cupa samajhArI samajha hai| Apa bAI ko kaha do, ApakI usake ziSyoM ne mujhase kahA ki hamArI to sunatI nahIM, mAnegI, ApakA kabhI inakAra na kregii| Apa jo kahoge, kregii| Apa isase kaho ki apane jIvana kA anubhava likhavA de likha to sakatI nahIM, kyoMki bepar3hI-likhI hai magara jo bhI isane jAnA ho, likhavA de| aba bar3hI ho gaI, vRddha ho gaI, aba jAne kA samaya AtA hai| likhavA de| pIche AeMge loga, to unake kAma pdd'egaa| maiMne kahA ki bAI likhavA kyoM nahIM detI? to usane kahA, bApajI, Apa kahate haiM, to ThIka hai| agale zivira meM jaba AUMgI, to Apa hI udaghATana kara denA likhavA laauuNgii| Page 35 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA agale zivira meM usake ziSya bar3I utsukatA se, bar3I pratIkSA karate rhe| usane eka peTI meM eka kitAba baMda kara ke rakhavA dI, tAlA DalavA diyA, cAbI le aaii| peTI ko usake ziSya sira para uThA kara lAe aura mujhase kahA ki Apa khola deN| maiMne khola diyaa| kitabiyA nikaalii| jarA-sI kitAba! hoMge dasa-paMdraha panne aura choTI-sI kitAba, hogI tIna iMca laMbI, do iMca caudd'ii| aura kAle hI panne, sapheda bhI nhiiN| saba kAle! likhA kucha bhI nhiiN| maiMne kahA, bhUribAI, khUba likhA tUne! aura loga likhate haiM, to thor3A-bahuta panne ko kAlA karate haiM, tUne aisA likhA ki sapheda bacane hI nahIM diyaa| likhatI gaI, likhatI gaI, likhatI gaI! usane kahA aba Apa hI samajha sakate ho, ye to samajhate hI nhiiN| inako maiM kahatI hUM ki dekho| aura loga likhate haiM, thor3A-bahuta likhate haiN| ve par3he-likhe haiM, thor3A hI bahuta likha sakate haiN| maiM to gaira-par3hI-likhI huuN| so maiMne likha mArI, pUrI hI bAta likha dI! chor3I hI nahIM jgh| aura kisI aura se kyA likhavAnA, so maiM hI likhatI rahI; gUdatI rahI, gUdatI rahI, gUdatI rahI--bilakula ki bAta ko kAlA kara diyA! aba Apa udaghATana kara do! maiMne udaghATana bhI kara diyaa| usake ziSya to bar3e hairAna he| maiMne kahA ki yahI zAstra hai| yaha zAstroM kA zAstra hai! sUphiyoM ke pAsa eka kitAba hai, vaha korI kitAba hai| use ve kitAboM kI kitAba kahate haiN| magara usake panne sapheda haiN| bhUribAI kI kitAba usase bhI Age gii| isake panne kAle haiN| sUphiyoM kI vaha kitAba bar3I prasiddha hai| paraMparA se guru usako ziSya ko detA rahA hai aura sUphI usa kitAba ko khola kara par3hate bhI haiN| tuma kahoge, kyA khAka par3hate hoMge? kore panne bhI par3he jA sakate haiN| kore panne ko dekhate raho, dekhate raho, dekhate raho, dekhate raho, to dhIredhIre kore ho jaaoge| bodhidharma buddha ke parama ziSyoM meM se eka--samakAlika nahIM, hajAra sAla bAda huA, magara parama ziSyoM meM se eka--nau varSa taka dIvAla kI tarapha dekhatA huA baiThA rhaa| dIvAla bhI thaka gaI hogI, magara bodhidharma nahIM thkaa| dekhatA hI rahA, dekhatA hI rahA, dekhatA hI rhaa| korI dIvAla! mana bhI ghabar3A gayA hogaa| mana bhI bhAga khar3A huA hogA ki tU baiThA raha, hama cale! jaba mana calA gayA, tabhI bodhidharma dIvAla se haTA aura bahuta hNsaa| kahate haiM, sAta dina bodhidharma haMsatA hI rhaa| logoM ne pUchA, haA kyA? usane kahA ki maiM yaha dekhatA thA ki kaba taka yaha mana TikatA hai| aba sapheda dIvAla ho, to mana kaba taka Tike! mana ko karane ko kyA bacA! na kucha par3hane ko hai, na kucha socane ko hai, na vicArane ko hai| korI dIvAla dekhate rahe, dekhate rhe| nau sAla! adabhuta AdamI thA bodhidharma! aura aise korI dIvAla ko dekhate-dekhate parama buddhatva ko upalabdha huaa| yaha par3hA zAstra! yaha hai vedoM kA veda! yaha upaniSadoM kA sAra! Page 36 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA upaniSada kahate haiM: ajJAnI to aMdhakAra meM giratA hI hai, tathAkathita jJAnI mahAaMdhakAra meM bhaTaka jAtA hai| yaha paMDitoM ke saMbaMdha meM kahA haA hai, mahApaMDitoM ke saMbaMdha meN| ye jo totoM kI taraha paMDita haiM--popaTalAla--jo raTe jA rahe haiM, inakI raTana kaise baMda ho! bodhidharma haMsA sAta dina tk| usake saMgI-sAthiyoM ne pUchA ki kyoM haMsate ho? usane kahA, maiM isalie haMsatA hUM ki maiM dekhatA thA ki kauna jItatA hai, maiM jItatA hUM ki mana jItatA hai! maiMne bhI kahA ki jaba taka tujhe udher3abuna karanA hai karatA raha, maiM to dekhatA hUM dIvAla, to dIvAla hI dekhatA rhuuNgaa| Uba gayA, thaka gayA mana, ghabar3A gayA hogaa| ghabar3A hI jaaegaa| bhAga khar3A huA mn| bodhidharma ne kahA, kahAM jAtA hai? are lauTa A! phira nahIM lauttaa| dhyAna kI yahI to prakriyA hai: baiTha rhe| AMkha baMda kara lii| bodhidharma ne sapheda dIvAla ke sAmane baiTha kara AMkha baMda kii| sapheda dIvAla ko dekhanA AMkha baMda karane jaisA hI hai| magara bhUribAI kI kitAba donoM ke pAra jAtI hai--sUphiyoM kI kitAba ke bhI, bodhidharma kI dIvAla ke bhii| jaba tuma AMkha baMda karoge, to aMdherA hI dikhAI par3egA, vaha kAlA hogaa| AMkha baMda kI aura cupa hue to pahale to aMdherA, aMdherA hI aMdherA! ghabar3AnA mt| dekhe hI cale jAnA, dekhe hI cale jAnA, dekhe hI cale jaanaa| dhairya rkhnaa| UbanA mt| tuma mata UbanA, mana Uba jaae| aura mana jisa dina Uba gayA, TUTa gyaa| tumase nAtA TUTa gyaa| aura tatkSaNa prakAza ho jAtA hai| saba aMdhakAra tirohita ho jAtA hai| mana gayA ki jo AvaraNa par3A thA prakAza para, vaha haTa gyaa| jaise kisI ne caTTAna rakha kara jharane ko dabA diyA thA; caTTAna haTa gaI, jharanA phUTa pdd'aa| jaise kisI ne dIe ko bartana se DhAMka diyA thA; bartana uTha gayA, rozanI jagamagA utthii| dIvAlI ho gii| bhUribAI kucha kahatI nahIM thii| koI usase pUchane jAtA thA--kyA kareM? to vaha oThoM para aMgulI rakha kara izArA kara detI thI--cupa ho raho, basa aura kucha karanA nhiiN| yahI usane isa sUtra meM kaha diyA hai-- cupa sAdhana cupa sAdhyA, cupa mA cuppa smaay| cupa samajhArI samajha hai, samajhe cupa ho jaay|| agAdha usakA mere prati prema thA--aisA ki mujhe bhI muzkila meM DAla detA thaa| bhojana karane meM baiThatA, to bhojana karanA muzkila, kyoMki vaha mere bagala meM baitthtii| aura merI thAlI kI cIjeM sarakane lagatIM, uThAne lagatI vh| jo cIja bhI maiM jarA-sI tor3a kara cakha letA, vahI gaI, nadArada! ghaMToM laga jAte bhojana karane meM, kyoMki phira laao| eka karor3a tor3a pAta roTI se ki roTI gaI, vaha prasAda ho gaI! vaha khuda letI usameM se prasAda aura phira usake bhakta baiThe rahate katAra meM, so vaha baMTa jAtI rottii| maiMne jarA-sA Tukar3A sabjI kA liyA ki vaha sabjI kI pleTa gaI! do ghaMTe, tIna ghaMTe laga jaate| Page 37 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA eka bAra AmoM kA mausama thA aura maiM zivira liyA, bhUrivAI A gii| vaha do TokariyAM bhara kara Ama le aaii| maiMne kahA, itane Ama meM kyA karUMgA? eka Ama do Ama bahuta hote haiN| usane kahA, Apako patA nahIM bApa jI, prasAda banegA ! maiM ghabar3AyA ki yaha prasAda jarA muzkila kA hone vAlA hai| aura usake paccIsa tIsa bhakta bhI maujUda the, ve saba A gae aura prasAda bananA zurU ho gayA ! vaha eka Ama ko mere muMha meM lagAe, idhara maiM eka ghUMTa bhI le nahIM pAyA Ama se ki Ama prasAda ho gayA, vaha gayA ! aura itanI jaldI par3I prasAda kI, kyoMki ve paccIsa logoM taka pahuMcAne haiM Ama, aura jyAdA dera na laga jAe, to Ama meM se picakArI chUTa jAe mere muMha para mere kapar3oM para saba Ama hI Ama ho gayA! mere kaMTha meM to zAyada eka Ama bhI pUrA nahIM prasAda ho gyaa| vaha khuda cakhe aura phira bhaktoM meM baMTatA jAe, aam| maiMne usase kahA, bhUribAI, Ama ke mausama meM aba kabhI bar3A upadrava hai! , gayA hogaa| vaha do TokariyAM baMTatA jAe, pahuMcatA jAe zivira nahIM luuNgaa| yaha to magara usako phikra nahIM, tarobora kara diyA usane Ama ke rasa se mujhe usakA prema adabhuta thA! apane DhaMga kA thA, anUThA thaa| use lauTanA nahIM par3egA jagata meM vaha sadA ke lie gii| cupa mA cuppa samAya! vaha samA gaI / saritA sAgara meM samA gii| kucha usane kiyA nahIM, basa cupa rahI aura usake ghara jo bhI calA jAtA, unakI sevA karatI kisI kI bhI sevA krtii| aura cupacApa, mauna adabhuta mahilA thii| yUM kucha prasiddha mahilAeM haiM bhArata meM, jaise AnaMdamayI, magara bhUribAI kA koI mukAbalA nhiiN| prasiddhi eka bAta hai, anubhava dUsarI bAta hai| yaha sUtra pyArA hai| ise khayAla rkhnaa| isa sUtra ko tuma samajha lo, to samajhane ko kucha aura zeSa nahIM raha jAtA hai| yoga prItama kA gIta, vedAMta bhAratI, tumhAre lie upayogI hogA- bhItara kA rAga jagAo to kucha bAta bane dhyAna kA cirAga jalAo to kucha bAta bane jala jAe ahaMkAra damaka uTho kuMdana se aisI ika Aga jalAo to kucha bAta bane bAhara kI holI ke raMga kahAM Tikate haiM zAzvata ke phAga racAo to kucha bAta bane bote babUla agara bIMceMge kAMTe hI khuzabU kA bAga lagAo to kucha bAta bane TUTeM saba jaMjIreM aMtara- paTa khula jAeM bhItara vaha rAga jagAo to kucha bAta bane gairoM kI yArI meM khote ho patiyArA -- Page 38 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA prItama se lAga lagAo to kucha bAta bane bhItara kA rAga jagAo to kucha bAta bane dhyAna kA cirAga jalAo to kucha bAta bane jala jAe ahaMkAra damaka uTho kuMdana se aisI ika Aga jalAo to kucha bAta bne| tIsarA praznaH bhagavAna, maiM Apako kaba samajhaMgA? samajhane meM bAdhAeM kyA hai upAya kyA hai? caMdrakAMta! samajhane kI bAta hI galata hai| yahAM samajhane ko kyA ? dhyAna samajhane kI bAta nahIM hai| aura merA to zabda zabda dhyAna meM DuboyA huA hai, bhigoyA huA hai| pIyo! ye samajhane ityAdi kI bAteM bacakAnI haiN| samajha to mana kI hotI hai, pInA hRdaya kA hotA hai| pIoge to bhara paaoge| samajha samajha kara to kacarA hI jur3atA jaaegaa| samajhane ko yahAM kucha bhI nahIM, DUbane ko hai| yaha zarAba hai - khAlisa zarAba! aMgUra kI nahIM, AtmA kI yaha maMdira nahIM, mayakadA hai| yahAM jo mere pAsa A baiThe haiM, inako tuma sAdhAraNa dhArmika loga mata samajho jinako tuma maMdira aura masjida meM pAte ho, ye ve nahIM haiN| ye riMda haiN| ye piyakkar3a haiM ye pIne ko A kucha aura DhaMga hai| tuma samajhane kI bAta uThAoge, to cUka se pInA hotA hai prema se| ; hAM, jisane prema kiyA, vaha samajha bhI gyaa| samajha apanejaise tumhAre pIche chAyA calI AtI hai| juTe haiN| yahAM kucha aura raMga hai, jaaoge| samajhanA hotA hai tarka samajha kara kauna samajha pAyA hai? Apa calI AtI hai prema ke pIche, prema hI samajha sakatA hai| aura jina logoM ne kahA hai, prema aMdhA hai, ve pAgala haiN| vAsanA aMdhI hotI hai, moha aMdhA hotA hai| prema to AMkha hai- aMtartama kI prema ko aMdhA mata kho| vAsanA nizcita aMdhI hotI hai vaha deha kI hai| rAga bhI aMdhA hotA hai vaha mana kA hai aura prema to AtmA kA hotA hai vahAM kahAM aMdhApana ! vahAM kahAM aMdhiyArA? vahAM to basa AMkha hI AMkha hai| vahAM to dRSTi hI dRSTi hai| isalie jo use pA letA hai, use hama draSTA kahate haiM, AMkha vAlA kahate haiN| tuma pUchate ho; maiM Apako kaba samajhaMgA ? are, abhI samajho! kaba? kala kA kyA patA hai? maiM rahUM, tuma na rho| tuma raho, maiM na rhuuN| maiM bhI hUM tuma bhI raho, lekina sAtha chUTa jaae| kisa mor3a para hama bichur3a jAeM, kahAM rAha alaga-alaga ho jAe, kisa pala kauna jAne ! bhaviSya to ajJAta hai| kaba kI mata pUcho, aba kI puucho| isa deza ke samasta mahAna sUtra graMtha aba se zurU hote haiN| brahmasUtra zurU hotA hai: athAto brahma jijJAsA- aba brahma kI jijnyaasaa| nArada kA bhakti-sUtra zurU hotA hai: athAto bhakti jijJAsA-aba bhakti kI jijnyaasaa| aba kaba nhiiN| athAto! usa eka zabda meM bar3A sAra hai| aba ! Page 39 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA yUM hI bahuta samaya bIta gayA kaba-kaba karate, kitanA gaMvAyA hai! janma-janma se to pUcha rahe ho--kb| chor3o kb| aba bhASA sIkho aba kii| jIsasa ne apane ziSyoM se kahA hai, dekhate ho ye lilI ke phUla, ye jo rAha ke kinAre khile haiM! inakA sauMdarya dekhate ho! solomana bhI, samrATa solomana bhI apanI hIre-javAharAtoM se jar3I huI vezabhUSA meM itanA suMdara na thA, jitane ye bhole-bhAle naMge phUla, lilI ke phUla, ye garIba phUla! eka ziSya ne pUchA, prabhu inakA rAja kyA hai? to jIsasa ne kahA, ye abhI jIte haiN| inake lie na bItA kala hai, na Ane vAlA kl| Aja saba kucha hai| yahI inake sauMdarya kA rAja hai| tuma bhI yUM jIyo, jaise lilI ke phUla--aura saba rahasya khula jAeMge, saba rahasya paTa uTha jaaeNge| cUMghaTa uTha jAe abhI, paramAtmA ke cehare se, magara kaba kI pUchI, to cuuke| mana hamezA kaba kI pUchatA hai| vaha kahatA hai--kl| abhI samajheM, aura samajheM, pIeMge kl| pahale samajha to leM, phira piieNge| are pIyo to samajhoge, samajha ke koI kabhI pIegA? samajhegA kaise binA pIe? cakhI nahIM tumane zarAba kabhI, kahate ho--samajheMge? kaise samajhoge? DhAlo surAhI se| ho pyAlI to ThIka, nahIM to hAthoM kI aMjulI banA lo| pyAlI ke lie bhI mata ruko, ki pAtra hogA taba pIeMge, pAtratA hogI taba piieNge| pyAlI ke lie bhI mata ruko, aMjulI banA lo hAthoM kii| pIo! zarAba ko samajhane kA eka hI DhaMga hai--piinaa| aura paramAtmA ko samajhane kA bhI eka hI DhaMga hai--piinaa| caMdrakAMta, tuma pUcha rahe ho: samajhane meM bAdhAeM kyA haiM? yaha samajhane kI icchA hI bAdhA hai| aura to koI bAdhA nahIM dekhatA maiN| aura koI bAdhA kabhI rahI nhiiN| yaha bAdhA aisI hai ki ise tuma kabhI haTA na skoge| tuma pUchate ho: upAya kyA hai? maiM bAdhA ko hI samajhA lUM, to basa upAya mila gyaa| bAdhA yahI hai--samajhane kI aakaaNkssaa| yaha bAdhA aisI hai, jaise koI AdamI kahe, pAnI meM maiM taba utarUMgA, jaba tairanA sIkha lUMgA! binA taire pAnI meM kaise utarUM? bAta tarkayukta hai| tairanA sIkhoge kahAM? apane bistara para? gaddI para hAtha-paira mAroge? tairanA sIkhoge kahAM? pAnI meM utaranA hI hogaa| pAnI meM utaroge, to hI tairanA siikhoge| yaha khatarA lenA hI hogaa| binA taire hI pAnI meM utaranA sIkhanA hogaa| calo, kinAre para hI sahI, magara thor3e-thor3e utro| uthale meM sahI, mata jAo gahare meM abhI, magara pAnI meM utaranA to hogA hii| eka hI cUMTa pIo, mata pI jAo pUrI suraahii| koI sAgara pIne ko nahIM kaha rahA hUM, eka hI bUMda piio| calo, itanA kAphI hai| magara jisane eka bUMda pI lI, use pUre sAgara kA rAja samajha meM A jaaegaa| jisane uthale meM bhI hAtha-paira tar3aphar3A lie, use tairane kA rAja samajha meM A jaaegaa| Page 40 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA tairanA koI aisI kalA nahIM hai, jo sIkhanI hotI hai dhyAna rakhanA, tairane ke saMbaMdha meM yaha baat| isIlie tairanA eka daphA jAna liyA, to koI bhUla nahIM sakatA; koI bhUla nahIM sktaa| pacAsa sAla bAda sATha sAla bAda bhI tuma dubArA pAnI meM utaro tuma pAoge, tairanA vaisA kA vaisA hai; jarA bhI nahIM bhUla / bhUla hI nahIM skte| kyA bAta hai? " aura saba bAteM to sATha sAla meM bhUla jaaegii| bhUgola par3hA thA skUla meM itihAsa par3hA thA skUla meM, na mAlUma kina-kina gadhoM ke nAma yAda kie the? Aja kucha yAda hai? tArIkheM kyA-kyA yAda kara rakhI thIM - - nAdirazAha kaba huA, aura taimUralaMga kaba huA, aura caMgejakhAna kaba huA! kyA-kyA pAgalapana sIkhA thA! eka-eka tArIkha yAda thii| Aja koI bhI tArIkha yAda nahIM aura kitanI mehanata se sIkhI thI, kaise raTA thaa| magara bAta kucha banI nahIM, kyoMki bAta svAbhAvika nahIM thii| tairanA koI nahIM bhuultaa| usakA kAraNa hai| tairanA kucha svAbhAvika ghaTanA hai| baccA mAM ke peTa meM pAnI meM hI tairatA hai; nau mahIne pAnI meM hI tairatA hai| jApAna ke eka manovaijJAnika ne chaha mahIne ke baccoM ko tairanA sikhAne meM saphalatA pA lii| aura aba vaha tIna mahIne ke baccoM ko tairanA sikhAne meM lagA huA hai| aura vaha kahatA hai ki eka dina kA baccA bhI taira sakatA hai| abhI eka hI dina kI umra hai usakI, abhI paidA hI huA hai, aura tairanA sIkha sakatA hai| vaha sikhA legaa| jaba chaha mahIne kA baccA sIkha letA hai, tIna mahIne baccA sIkhane lagA, to kyA takalIpha rahI zAyada eka dina kA baccA aura bhI jaldI sIkha legA, kyoMki abhI bhUlA hI nahIM hogaa| vaha abhI mAM ke peTa se AyA hI hai; abhI pAnI meM tairatA hI rahA hai| phrAMsa kA eka dUsarA manovaijJAnika mAM ke peTa se baccA paidA hotA hai to usako ekadama se Taba meM rakhatA hai--garama pAnI meM, kunakune / aura cakita huA hai yaha jAna kara ki baccA itanA praphullita hotA hai ki jisakA koI hisAba nhiiN| tuma yaha jAna kara hairAna hooge ki isa manovaijJAnika ne usa manovaijJAnika kA sahayogI merA saMnyAsI hai, usa manovaijJAnika kI beTI merI saMnyAsinI hai- pahalI bAra manuSya jAti ke itihAsa meM bacce paidA kie haiM, jo rote nahIM paidA hote se, haMsate haiM hajAroM bacce paidA karavAe haiM usane vaha dAI kA kAma karatA hai| usane bar3I naI vyavasthA kI hai| pahalA kAma ki bacce ko paidA hote se hI vaha yaha karatA hai ki use mAM ke peTa para liTA detA hai, usakI nAla nahIM kATatA / sAdhAraNataH pahalA kAma hama karate haiM ki bacce kI nAla kATate haiN| vaha pahale nAla nahIM kATatA, vaha pahane bacce ko mAM ke peTa para sulA detA hai| kyoMki vaha peTa se hI abhI AyA hai, itane jaldI abhI mata todd'o| bAhara se bhI mAM ke peTa para liTA detA hai aura baccA rotA nhiiN| mAM ke peTa se usakA aisA aMtaraMga saMbaMdha hai; abhI bhItara se thA, aba bAhara se huA, magara abhI mAM se jur3A hai aura nAla ekadama se nahIM kATatA / jaba taka baccA sAMsa lenA zurU nahIM kara detA, taba taka vaha nAla nahIM kATatA / Page 41 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA hamArI aba taka kI Adata aura vyavasthA yaha rahI hai ki tatkSaNa nAla kATo, phira bacce ko sAMsa lenI par3atI hai| sAMsa use itanI ghabar3AhaTa meM lenI par3atI hai, kyoMki nAla se jaba taka jur3A hai, taba taka mAM kI sAMsa se jur3A hai, use alaga se sAMsa lenI kI jarUrata bhI nahIM hai| aura usake pUre nAsApuTa aura nAsApuTa se phephar3oM taka jur3I huI nAliyAM saba kapha se bharI hotI haiM, kyoMki usane sAMsa to lI nahIM kabhI! to ekadama se usakI nAla kATa denA, use ghabar3A denA hai| kucha kSaNa ke lie usako itanI becainI meM chor3a denA hai| usa becainI meM bacce rote haiM, cillAte haiM, cIkhate haiN| aura hama socate haiM ve isalie cIkha rahe haiM, cillA rahe haiM ki yaha sAMsa lene kI prakriyA hai, nahIM to ve sAMsa kaise leMge? aura agara nahIM cillAtA baccA, to DAkTara usako ulaTA laTakAtA hai ki kisI taraha cillA de| phira bhI nahIM cillAtA, to use dhaula jamAtA hai ki cillA de! cillAnA cAhie hI bacce ko| cillAe-roe, to usakA kapha baha jAe, usake nAsApuTa sApha ho jAeM, sAMsa A jaae| magara yaha jabardastI sAMsa livAnA hai| yaha jhUTha zurU ho gayA, zurU se hI zurU ho gayA! yaha prAraMbha se hI galatI zurU ho gii| pAkhaMDa zurU huaa| sAMsa taka bhI tumane svAbhAvika rUpa se na lene dI! sAMsa taka tumane kRtrima karavA dI, jabardastI karavA dii| ghabar3A diyA bacce ko| yaha khUba svAgata kiyA! yaha khUba saugAta dI! yaha khUba sammAna kiyaa| ulaTA laTakAyA, dhaula jamAI, ronA sikhAyA; aba jiMdagI bhara dhauleM par3eMgI, ulaTA laTakegA, zIrSAsana kregaa| yaha ulaTa-khopar3I ho hI gayA! aura jiMdagI bhara roegA--kabhI isa bahAne, kabhI usa bhaane| isakI jiMdagI meM muskurAhaTa muzkila ho jaaegii| jhUThI hogI, thopegaa| magara bhItara AMsU bhare hoNge| isa manovaijJAnika ne alaga hI prakriyA khojii| vaha mAM ke peTa para bacce ko liTA detA hai| baccA dhIre-dhIre sAMsa lenA zurU karatA hai| jaba baccA dhIre-dhIre sAMsa lene lagatA hai aura mAM ke peTa kI garmI use ahasAsa hotI rahatI hai aura mAM ko bhI acchA lagatA hai, kyoMki peTa ekadama khAlI ho gayA, baccA Upara leTa jAtA hai to peTa phira bharA mAlUma hotA hai| vaha ekadama rikta nahIM ho jaatii| phira saba cIjeM aahistaa| kyA jaldI par3I hai? nahIM to jiMdagI bhara phira jaldabAjI rahegI, bhAga-daur3a rhegii| jaba baccA sAMsa lene lagatA hai, taba vaha nAla kATatA hai| phira bacce ko Taba meM liTA detA hai tAki use abhI bhI garbha kA jo rasa thA vaha bhUla na jAe; garbha kI jo bhASA thI vaha bhUla na jaae| Taba meM vaha ThIka utane hI rAsAyanika dravya milAtA hai, jitane mAM ke peTa meM hote haiN| ve ThIka utane hI hote haiM, jitane sAgara meM hote haiN| sAgara kA pAnI aura mAM ke peTa kA pAnI bilakula eka jaisA hotA hai| isI AdhAra para vaijJAnikoM ne khojA hai ki manuSya kA pahalA janma sAgara meM hI huA hogA, machalI kI taraha hI huA hogaa| isalie hiMduoM kI yaha dhAraNA ki paramAtmA kA eka avatAra machalI kA avatAra thA, arthapUrNa hai| zAyada vaha pahalA avatAra hai--matsya avatAra, machalI kI trh| dhIre-dhIre, dhIre-dhIre narasiMha avatAra--AdhA manuSya, AdhA pshu| aura zAyada abhI bhI Page 42 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA AdamI AdhA nara, AdhA pazu hI hai| abhI bhI narasiMha avatAra hI cala rahA hai! abhI bhI pUrA manuSya nahIM ho paayaa| pUrA manuSya to koI buddha hotA hai| sabhI pUre manuSya nahIM ho paate| to use liTA detA hai manovaijJAnika abhI Taba meN| aura cakita haA yaha jAna kara ki abhIabhI paidA huA baccA Taba meM leTa kara bar3A praphullita hotA hai, muskurAtA hai| ekadama se rozanI nahIM karatA kamare meN| yaha sArI prakriyA janma kI bar3I dhImI rozanI meM hotI hai, momabattI kI rozanI meM--ki bacce kI AMkhoM ko coTa na phuNce| hamAre aspatAloM meM bar3e teja balba lage hote haiM, TayUba lAITa lage hote haiN| jarA soco to, nau mahIne jo mAM ke peTa meM aMdhakAra meM rahA hai, use ekadama TayUba lAiTa...! cazme lagavA doge| AdhI duniyA cazme lagAI huI hai| choTe-choTe baccoM ko cazme lagAne par3a rahe haiN| yaha DAkTaroM kI kRpA hai! aMdhe karavA doge na mAlUma kitanoM ko! AMkhoM ke taMtu abhI bacce ke bahuta komala haiN| pahalI bAra AMkha kholI hai| jarA AhistA se pahacAna hone do| kramazaH pATha sikhaao| momabattI kA dUra dhImA-sA prkaash| phira AhistA-AhistA prakAza ko bar3hAtA hai| dhIre-dhIre, tAki bacce kI AMkheM rAjI hotI jaaeN| yaha bacce ko svAbhAvika janma dene kI prakriyA hai| isa bacce kI jiMdagI kaI arthoM meM aura DhaMga kI hogii| yaha kaI bImAriyoM se baca jaaegaa| isakI AMkheM zAyada sadA svastha raheMgI aura isake jIvana meM eka muskurAhaTa hogI, jo svAbhAvika hogii| aura isa bacce ko tairanA sikhAnA bahuta AsAna hogA, ekadama AsAna hogaa| tairanA bhUlI bhASA ko yAda karanA hai| hama jAnate the mAM ke peTa meM, phira bhUla gae haiN| isalie jaldI hI A jAtA hai tairanA, koI jyAdA dera nahIM lgtii| aura eka bAra A gayA, to phira kabhI nahIM bhuultaa| phira hama usake prati sacetana ho ge| lekina pAnI meM to utaranA hI hogaa| tarkazAstra kahegA pahale tairanA sIkha lo, phira pAnI meM utrnaa| zAyada kAra calAnA bhI sikhAyA jA sakatA hai binA sar3aka para lAe, lekina tairanA to nahIM sikhAyA jA sktaa| amarIkA ke eka vizvavidyAlaya meM unhoMne kAra calAnA sikhAne kI vyavasthA kI hai binA sar3aka para lAe, kyoMki sar3aka para lAne meM khatarA to hai vhii| kAra sIkhane vAlA AdamI kucha bhI khatarA kara sakatA hai--kisI kI jAna le le, kisI se TakarA de; vaha na TakarAe, to dUsare kitane hI behoza cale jA rahe haiM bhAge, ve usase TakarA deN| isalie sikkhar3a ko ela akSara apanI kAra para laTakAnA par3atA hai--lghng| vaha usake lie nahIM hai, vaha unake lie hai jo cAroM tarapha se bhAge cale jA rahe haiM ki jarA sAvadhAna rahanA! isa becAre ko bacAnA! yaha abhI nayA-nayA hai| abhI sIkha rahA hai, sikkhar3a hai| to unhoMne eka vyavasthA kI hai| eka bar3e hAla meM dIvAloM para sar3akeM hotI haiN| matalaba jaise philma calatI hai| dIvAloM para philma calatI hai| eka philma isa dIvAla para cala rahI hai, eka philma isa dIvAla para cala rahI hai| eka philma meM kAreM bhAgI jA rahI hai isa tarapha, dUsarI philma meM kAreM bhAgI jA rahI haiM usa trph| loga cala rahe haiM, loga A rahe haiM, loga jA rahe haiN| sAmane kI dIvAla para rAste para cauraste para pulisa vAlA khar3A hai| vaha bhI philm| AdamI Page 43 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA gujara rahe haiM aura yaha AdamI apanI kAra meM baiThA huA hai, aura kAra isakI jamIna se UMcAI para khar3I huI hai| pahie cala rahe haiN| DrAiviMga kara rahA hai| saba kAma kara rahA hai, magara kahIM jA-A nahIM rahA hai| hai kamare meM hii| kAra bhI khar3I huI hai| magara ye cAroM tarapha se loga gujara rahe haiM aura isase dRzya pUrA paidA ho rahA hai| koI bilakula sAmane A jAtA hai, to usako kAra bacAnI par3atI hai| vaha philma meM hI cala rahA hai sb| thrI DAyameMzanala philmeM haiM ve, to bilakula lagatA hai ki koI AdamI sAmane A kara gujara gyaa| yaha AyA ki Takkara huI jAtI hai! koI na A rahA hai, na koI jA rahA hai| DrAiviMga sikhAne kA yaha upAya khojA gayA hai| yaha acchA upAya hai| magara maiM socatA hUM ki yaha upAya tairane ke bAbata kAma meM nahIM A sktaa| kitanI hI tuma lahareM pAnI kI uThAo dIvAloM para aura yaha AdamI kitanA hI hAtha mAre ki aba ibA taba DUbA, kyA tuma usako dhokhA de pAoge? thrI DAyameMzanala hI philma ho, ki bilakula DubakI hI mArane lage, to bhI isako patA rahegA ki are, kyA DubakI! leTA hUM apane takiyA-gadde pr| hAlAMki pAnI bahA jA rahA hai cAroM tarapha se; sAgara hI sAgara hai, lahareM uTha rahI haiM, aba DUbA taba DUbA; magara ise patA to rahegA ki kahAM DUbA! kAra meM to sikhAyA jA sakatA hai isa taraha se, kyoMki kAra kRtrima hai, isalie kRtrima Ayojana kiyA jA sakatA hai| lekina tairanA svAbhAvika hai| isalie svAbhAvika prakriyA se hI sIkhA jA sakatA hai| aura maiM tumheM jo sikhA rahA hUM, yaha bhI tairane jaisA hai--kAra calAne jaisA nhiiN| yaha bhavasAgara ko pAra karanA hai, yaha tairanA hai| tuma pUchate ho: maiM Apako kaba samajhaMgA? samajhane caloge to kabhI nhiiN| pIne kI taiyArI ho, to abhii| samajhane meM bAdhAeM kyA haiM? bAdhAeM nahIM haiM--bAdhA hai| eka--vaha samajhane kI AkAMkSA, binA piie| pIne ke lie jarA himmata cAhie, sAhasa caahie| aura pahalI daphA jaba zarAba pIoge to kar3avI bhI lagatI hai| satya pIoge, vaha bhI kar3avA lagatA hai| isalie sUphiyoM ne satya ko aura zarAba se upamA dI hai, ThIka kiyA hai| tuma umara khayyAma kI rubAiyAM par3ha kara yaha mata samajhanA ki vaha zarAba kI bAteM kara rahA hai| vaha satya kI bAteM kara rahA hai| satya bhI jaba pahalI daphA pIo, to kar3avA lagatA hai| phira AhistA-AhistA svAda sIkhane meM AtA hai, magara pIne se hI sIkhane meM AtA hai| sArA Alama jhUma rahA isa mastI ke paimAne meM tuma bhI pIo zarAba prema kI Akara isa maikhAne meM riMdo kI mahaphila meM baiThe hilA rahe haiM sira hama bhI luTane meM mila rahA majA hai, kyA rakhA hai pAne meM Page 44 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA pilA rahA jo--dilavAlA hai, pIne meM kyA kaMjUsI kyA khUbI hai? pI kara dekho, kyA rakkhA batalAne meM yaha buddhoM ke aMgUroM se DhalI huI hai maya AlA agara tabIyata ho to DubakI khAo isa paimAne meM kyA kesara kastUrI bhaiyA, isameM haMsI-bahAra ghulI pIyo jarA sI, para laga jAeM, ginatI ho paravAnoM meM aisA miksacara pyAre, tumane kabhI nahIM cakkhA hogA jAma chalakatA dekha agara lo, Dola uTho mayakhAne meM prema-dhyAna se banI huI maya, pilA rahe bhagavAna hameM pIyo, tarannuma bana jAoge, tuma jIvana ke gAne meM yoga prItama ne yaha kavitA mujhe likha kara bhejI hai| bhejanI tumheM thI, bheja mujhe dI hai! maiM tumheM die detA huuN| maiM tumheM arpita kie detA huuN| AkhirI prazna: bhagavAna, hama tumheM cAhate haiM aise, marane vAlA koI jiMdagI cAhatA hai jaise| ye surIle zabda AMkhoM ko gIlA kara jAte haiN| prabhu, aba to tere caraNoM meM biThA de, terI zaraNa meM hI mahAmRtyu kA svAda mile--yahI abhyarthanA hai| tathAstu, citaraMjana! aisA hI hogA! yahIM jIyo, yahIM mro| isa mastI meM hI jIyo, isa mastI meM hI mro| phira mRtyu nahIM hai| phira mRtyu mahAsamAdhi hai, mahAparinirvANa hai| yahI maiM cAhatA hUM ki merA eka bhI saMnyAsI mare nhiiN| maranA to hogA, phira bhI mare nhiiN| jAgatA huA mare, nAcatA haA mare, hozapUrvaka mre| to zarIra miTa jaaegaa| miTTI miTTI meM gira jaaegii| thaka jAtI hai, gira hI jAnA cAhie, miTTI ko vizrAma caahie| phira uThegI, kisI kI aura deha bnegii| lekina tumhAre bhItara jo caitanya hai, vaha na to kabhI janmA hai, na kabhI maratA hai| pahale jIne kI kalA sIkha lo--AnaMdapUrNa, rasa bhiigii| phira usI meM se mRtyu kI kalA A jaaegii| kyoMki mRtyu jIvana kA aMta nahIM hai, jIvana kA zikhara hai| jIvana kI AkhirI UMcAI hai mRtyu| aMta nahIM hai, jIvana kI sugaMdha hai| jinhoMne jIvana hI nahIM jAnA, unake lie aMta hai| aura jinhoMne jIvana jAnA--unake lie eka nayA prAraMbha hai--mahAjIvana kaa| Page 45 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA citaraMjana, aisA hI hogaa| aisA honA hI caahie| tumheM hI nahIM, pratyeka saMnyAsI kI yahI abhyarthanA honI caahie| yahI abhyarthanA hai| aura merI pUrI ceSTA yahI hai ki tumheM pilA dUM; jo mujhe milA hai, vaha tumheM de duuN| tuma lene meM kaMjUsI na krnaa| tuma jholI phailAo aura bhara lo| maiM dene meM kaMjUsI nahIM kara rahA huuN| tuma lene meM mata cuuko| aura dhyAna rakhanA, akasara hama lene meM bhI kaMjUsa ho gae haiN| hama dene meM kaMjUsa ho gae haiN| hamane kaMjUsI kI bhASA sIkha lI, hama lene meM bhI kaMjUsa ho gae haiN| hama chAMTa-chAMTa kara lete haiM--yaha le leM, yaha chor3a deN| nahIM, aise nahIM clegaa| yaha paravAnoM kA DhaMga nhiiN| pUrA le lo| pUrA hI liyA jA sakatA hai, kyoMki maiM jo kaha rahA hUM vaha akhaMDa satya hai| paMcAnabe pratizata se nahIM calegA--sau prtisht| Aja itanA hii| dUsarA pravacana; dinAMka 12 sitaMbara, 1980; zrI rajanIza Azrama, pUnA AcAryo mRtyuH pahalA praznaH bhagavAna, saMta saphiyAna, abdula vahIda AmarI aura hasana basarI rAbiyA ko milane ge| unhoMne kahA, Apa sAhibe-ilma haiN| kRpA kara hameM koI sIkha deN| rAbiyA ne saphiyAna ko eka momabattI, abdula vahIda AmarI ko eka suI aura hasana ko apane sira kA eka bAla diyA aura ve bolIM, lo, samajho! bhagavAna, isa para sUphI loga apanA maMtavya prakaTa karate haiN| prabhu jI! Apa isa para kucha kaheM ki rAbiyA ne ve cIjeM dekara una tInoM ko kyA sIkha dI? dineza bhAratI! rAbiyA bahuta ine-gine rahasyavAdiyoM meM eka hai; gaurIzaMkara ke zikhara kI bhaaNti| buddha, mahAvIra, kRSNa, krAisTa aura lAotsU, jarathustra--usa koTi meM thor3I-sI hI striyoM ko rakhA jA sakatA hai| rAbiyA unameM agragaNya hai| rAbiyA kI sabase bar3I khUbI kI bAta yaha hai ki usane aMdhere kI ghATiyoM meM bhaTakate hue logoM se kisI tala para koI samajhautA nahIM kiyaa| vaha apane zikhara se hI bolI; zikhara kI bhASA meM hI bolii| isalie usakA jIvana bar3A bebUjha hai| buddhi aura tarka se pakar3a meM Ane vAlA nahIM aisI hI yaha ghaTanA hai| kucha bAteM khayAla meM le lo| do taraha ke buddhapuruSa hue haiM, buddhatva ko upalabdha vyakti--phira strI ho yA puruss| eka to ve, jinhoMne karuNAvaza Ama AdamI kI bhASA meM kucha kahA hai| lekina taba anivAryatA unheM satya Page 46 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA ke zikhara se utara kara nIce AnA par3A hai| aura jitanA Ama AdamI ke karIba Aoge, utanA hI satya ko na kaha skoge| Ama AdamI kI bhASA meM satya ko biThAnA arthAta satya ko kATanA, satya ke Upara jhUTha kI parateM car3hAnI hoNgii| jaise kar3avI davA kI golI para hama zakkara kI parta car3hA dete haiN| kar3avI davA zAyada, kar3avI golI zAyada gaTakI na jA ske| jarA-sI zakkara kI parta! kaMTha ke nIce utara jAe, phira to kucha svAda AtA nhiiN| satya bhI bahuta kar3avA hai| buddha ne kahA hai, jhUTha pahale mIThA, phira kar3avA; satya pahale kar3avA, phira miitthaa| satya kar3avA isalie hai ki hama jhUTha ke AdI ho gae haiN| jhUTha kI miThAsa hameM bhA gii| jhUTha kI mAyA hameM bhA gii| jhUTha bar3A sammohaka hai--bar3A saaNtvnaadaayii| satya jhakajhora detA hai, jaise tUphAna Ae, aMdhar3a aae| satya bahata berahama hai| to eka to ve buddhapuruSa hue, jinhoMne zakkara kI parta cddh'aaii--krunnaavsh| isa DhaMga se bAta kahI ki tumhAre kaMTha meM utara jaae| magara unake kahane ke DhaMga ke kAraNa hI tumane zakkarazakkara to cuna lI aura vaha jo kar3avA satya thA, vaha pheMka diyaa| tuma bhI bar3e hoziyAra ho! jaba taka zakkara rahI, taba taka tuma golI ko muMha meM rakhe rahe; kaMTha ke nIce nahIM utarane diyaa| aura jaise hI kar3avAhaTa AI--thUka diyaa| car3hAI thI zakkara kI parta samajhadAroM ne ki kaMTha ke nIce utara jaae| magara tumhArI nAsamajhI kucha unase kama nhiiN| unakI samajhadArI hogI bar3I; tumhArI nAsamajhI bar3I hai! unakA jJAna hogA anaMta, tumhArA ajJAna anaMta hai! tuma kucha pIche nahIM! tuma bhI bar3e cAlabAja ho| to tuma zakkara zakkara to pI gae! mIThA-mIThA gappa, kar3avA kar3avA ) / yaha tumhArA tarka hai| so unakI mehanata vyartha gii| unakI mehanata ko vyartha jAtA dekha kucha buddhoM ne satya ko vaisA hI kahA; binA koI parta car3hAe--ki pInA ho to pI lo| yaha rhaa| kar3avA hai| phira mata krnaa| thUkane kA savAla nahIM utthtaa| kar3avA hai--yaha jAna kara hI pI lo| maiM bhI aisI hI bhASA bola rahA hUM, jo kar3avI hai, ki pIche tuma yaha na kaho ki miThAsa kA dhokhA de diyA; ki pIche koI yaha na kaha sake ki hameM bAtoM meM bharamA liyaa| maiM satya ko vaisA hI khAlisa, binA kisI miThAsa ke...kar3avA hai, to kar3avA; tumheM jagA kara kaha denA cAhatA hUM ki kar3avA hai, pInA ho to kar3avepana se rAjI ho jaao| Aga hai| jalAegI, bhasma kara degii| tumheM saceta kara ke, sAvadhAna kara ke de rahA huuN| isalie jinheM lenA hai, vahI mere pAsa aaeNge| yahAM bhIr3abhAr3a ikaTThI nahIM ho sktii| yahAM koI prasAda nahIM baMTa rahA hai! yahAM krAMti baMTa rahI hai| rAbiyA unhIM thor3e se logoM meM se hai, jisane zakkara kI parta nahIM cddh'aaii| eka dRSTi se to dikhAI par3egA ki ve karuNAvAna haiM, jinhoMne parta cddh'aaii| aura ve karuNAvAna the, isalie parta cddh'aaii| magara tumase hAra ge| maiM to mAnatA hUM ki ve hI jyAdA karuNAvAna Page 47 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA siddha hue, jinhoMne parta nahIM cddh'aaii| ve satya ke prati bhI jhUThe na hue; unhoMne satya meM koI samajhautA na kiyaa| hAlAMki unake pAsa bahuta loga nahIM Ae, nahIM A skte| yaha bahuta logoM ke basa kI bAta nahIM yaha bahuta logoM kA sAhasa nahIM hai| chAtI caahie| thor3e loga Ae, lekina jo Ae so aae| jo DUbe so DUbe aura jaba jAna kara hI Ae ki kar3avA hai satya, Aga hai, aMgAre nigalane haiM--jAna kara nigale thUkane kA savAla na uThA / ye thor3e se loga hI krAMti ko upalabdha hue| ye thor3e se hI loga ahaMkAra ko jalA kara rAkha kara pAe / maiM rAbiyA se rAjI huuN| yaha kahAnI madhura hai lekina madhura tumhAre lie, kyoMki tumhAre lie sirpha kahAnI hai jinako rAbiyA ne eka momabattI, eka suI aura sira kA bAla thamA diyA thA, unake lie bar3I kar3avI rahI hogii| samajho to lo, tuma bhI samajho jaisA rAbiyA ne kahA ki lo, samajho! aisA hI maiM bhI kahatA hUM ki lo, samajho! saMta saphiyAna saMta to nahIM ho sktaa| vahI rAbiyA ne kaha diyaa| eka momabattI dekara kaha diyA ki paMDita ho, abhI saMta vagairaha kI bhrAMti meM na pdd'o| abhI bhItara kA dIyA jalA hI nahIM aura saMta ho ge| saMta ho gae, to yaha bAta hI phijUla hai ki pUcho mujhase ki Apa sAhibe-ilma haiN| kRpA kara hameM koI sIkha deM! saMta ko kyA bacA? saMta vaha jo satya ko upalabdha ho gayA, pI gayA, pacA gyaa| satya jisakI mAMsa-majjA bana gyaa...| saMta saphiyAna aise hI saMta hoMge, jaise tumhAre tathAkathita saMta hote haiM kina-kina ko tuma saMta kahate ho? kina AdhAroM para saMta kahate ho? tumhArI mAnyatAeM jo pUrI kara dete haiM, ve saMta jainoM kI jo mAnyatAeM pUrI kara dete haiM, ve jainoM ke saMta aura mAnyatAeM bhI kyA kyA maje kI haiN| koI muMha-paTTI bAMdhe hue hai, to vaha saMta ho gayA! kyoMki dekho, muMha-paTTI bAMdhe hue haiN| koI eka bAra bhojana karatA hai, to saMta ho gyaa| kyoMki dekho, eka bAra bhojana karatA hai! koI nagna khar3A hai, to saMta ho gayA ! maiMne sunA hai, patA nahIM kahAM taka saca hai, ki TArjana aphrIkA ke jaMgaloM meM bahuta dinoM taka laMgUroM ko pachAr3atA rahA baMdaroM ko ThikAne lagAtA rahA phira kisI ne use khabara dI ki yahIM jiMdagI gaMvA doge ! are, bhArata ke jaMgaloM meM isase bhI pahuMce hue laMgUra haiM ye baMdara kyA vahAM hanumAna ke ziSya haiM hanumAna kI saMtAneM haiN| vahAM baMdara haiM, jinhoMne rAvaNa jaise mahAbalI ko harA diyaa| agara Takkara lenI hai, to vahAM jaao| yahAM kyA choTe-moTe baMdaroM se ulajhe ho! na inakI koI kathA, na koI paraMparA na koI sabhyatA, na koI sNskRti| aise-aise baMdara ho gae haiM ki AdamI unakI pUjA kara rahe haiM! hanumAna ke jitane maMdira haiM, kisake hoMge? aura hanumAna ke jitane bhakta haiM--kisake hoMge? jahAM dekho, vahAM hanumAna cAlIsA par3hA jA rahA hai! aise-aise baMdara ho gae haiM ki jinhoMne laMkA meM Aga lagA dii| rAvaNa ko parAjita kara diyaa| rAma jinake sahAre jIte haiM jinake kaMdhe para rakha kara rAma ne apanI baMdUka calA lii| yahAM kyA kara rahe ho? Page 48 of 255 -- http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA TArjana ko joza cddh'aa| usane kahA, phira bhArata jAUMgA! coTa khA gayA usakA ahNkaar| eka jahAja para savAra huaa| TikiTa vagairaha lene kI to use koI jarUrata thI nhiiN| kaipTena bhI ghbdd'aayaa| pUre jahAja ke yAtrI bhI ghbdd'aae| kyoMki vaha dahAr3a de, to prANa nikala jAe! aura jaba kaipTena usake pAsa TikiTa kI pUchane ke lie gayA, to usane sirpha chAtI khola kara use dikhA dI! usane kahA ki bilakula ThIka hai| virAjie, bhojana ityAdi krie| aura jo bhI sevA ho--AjJA diijie| aisA khataranAka AdamI! utarA, baMbaI ke baMdaragAha pr| aura jaba usane sunA ki nAma baMdaragAha hai, ghabar3AyA ki hai baMdaroM kA deza! kisake pUrcha? ki tabhI use dikhAI par3A ki caupATI para muni thothUmala cale jA rahe haiM--muMha para paTTI bAMdhe hue, hAtha meM picchI lie hae! usane socA ki yaha ajIba kisma kA baMdara hai! sunA thA--ThIka hI sunA thA--ki laMgUra eka se eka adabhuta bhArata meM haiN| are, pUMcha pIche nahIM lagAI hai, bagala meM dabAe hue haiM! alaga hI hai puuNch| baMdara bahuta dekhe the, magara yUM pUMcha (picchI) bagala meM dabAe hue baMdara usane nahIM dekhA thaa| aura muMha para patA nahIM kyoM paTTI bAMdhe hue hai! Darate-Darate usane socA ki apanI purAnI tarakIba AjamAyI jAe, jo vaha aphrIkA ke jaMgaloM meM AjamAtA rahA thaa| kamIja khola kara usane apanI chAtI dikhAI: bhujAeM phar3akAI; aura kahA ki maiM TArjana hN| muni thothamala ne bhI apanI muMhapaTTI nikAlI aura kahA ki maiM muni thothUmala hUM! usane baMdara bahuta dekhe the, lekina bolane vAlA baMdara nahIM dekhA thaa| kahate haiM, TArjana usI samaya samudra meM kUda pdd'aa| vaha pahalA AdamI hai, jisane taira kara bhArata se aphrIkA kA sAgara pAra kiyA, caubIsa ghaMTe meM! phira usane pIche lauTa kara bhI nahIM dekhA ki yahAM TikanA ThIka nahIM, jahAM baMdara bolate haiM! aura abhI to yaha pahalA hI baMdara hai| abhI jaMgala meM pahuMce hI nahIM haiN| bastiyoM meM ghUmate baMdara jahAM bola rahe haiM, vahAM jaMgaloM meM kyA hAlata hogI? kahate haiM, TArjana akelA AdamI hai pUre itihAsa meM, jisane caubIsa ghaMTe ke bhiitr...| ghabar3AhaTa dekhate ho usakI! bhArata se aphrIkA taka kA samudra pAra kara liyaa| are, prANa saMkaTa meM hoM, to AdamI kyA na kara le! saMta tuma kisa-kisa ko kahate ho? kaise-kaise thothe loga, kaise-kaise jhUThe loga, kaise-kaise nakalI loga! akasara to zAstroM ko doharAne vAle jo tote haiM, unako tuma saMta kaha dete ho! ye saba cora haiN| ye beImAna haiN| jo inakA nahIM hai, ye use apanA batA kara kahate rahate haiM! kala kisI mitra ne pUchA thA ki vaha guru mahArAja jI ke bar3e bhAI satapAla jI mahArAja ko sunane gayA thaa| vaha cakita huA ki ve merI kitAboM meM se pannoM ke panne doharA rahe haiM! phira usane unakA sAhitya dekhA, to aura bhI hairAna huA ki vahAM to panne ke panne kahAniyAM, latIphe--saba vaise ke vaise| unameM eka zabda bhI nahIM badalA hai| to usane pUchA hai ki yaha mAmalA kyA hai? aura aba ye satapAla mahArAja itanA hI nahIM kara rahe haiN| aba ve laMdana meM jame hue haiM aura sakriya-dhyAna karavAne meM sakriya haiM! yaha laMdana se saMnyAsiyoM ne khabara dI hai Page 49 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA ki eka sajjana yahAM satapAla mahArAja jame hue haiN| ve sakriya-dhyAna karavA rahe haiM aura nAma ApakA lete nahIM! aura loga samajha rahe haiM ki sakriya-dhyAna inakI khoja hai! marAThI meM isI taraha ke eka totArAma paMDita ne, zAMtArAma vI. thAte ne abhI-abhI eka kitAba likhI hai aSTAvakra gItA pr| usameM aSTAvakra gItA para merA jo pahalA pravacana hai, pUrA kA pUrA, zabdazaH eka mAtrA bhI nahIM chodd'ii| pUrA kA pUrA pravacana curA liyA hai| usakI bhUmikA banA kara de dI! nAma kA ullekha nahIM hai! aura unakI pustaka kI marAThI patroM meM bar3I prazaMsA kI jA rahI hai ki aSTAvakra gItA para aisI koI kitAba nahIM likhI gaI! lakSmI ne unheM rajisTarDa posTa se patra likhA ki Apa javAba deM--usakA bhI Der3ha mahInA ho gayA, koI javAba nahIM hai! cora! hara taraha ke cora! karapAtrI mahArAja hiMduoM ke bar3e saMta haiN| unhoMne merI pustaka saMbhoga se samAdhi kI ora-- usake khilApha eka pUrI kitAba likhI hai| mere eka bhI tarka kA javAba nahIM hai| zAstroM se ullekha hai, aura mujhase pUchA hai ki zAstroM meM merI bAta kA samarthana kahAM hai? maiM kaba kahatA hUM ki zAstroM meM merI bAta kA samarthana honA cAhie! zAstroM ne koI ThekA liyA hai? satya cuka gayA zAstroM meM! zAstroM meM nahIM hai ullekha merI bAta kA, isase itanA hI siddha hotA hai ki jo maiM kaha rahA hUM, vaha maulika hai| kyoMki ho zAstroM meM ullekha? aura to koI tarka nahIM, basa, zAstroM kA hI ullekha kiyA huA hai ki isa zAstra meM bhI nhiiN| isa zAstra meM bhI nhiiN| isa zAstra meM bhI nhiiN| aura zAstroM meM mere viparIta unako jo-jo vacana mila gae haiM, ve saba ullekha kara die haiN| mere pAsa kitAba pahuMcAI hai ki maiM isakA javAba duuN| maiM javAba kyA dUM! merI saMnyAsinI hai--prajJA--usase pUcho javAba! vaha saMnyAsinI nahIM thI, taba ahamadAbAda meM karapAtrI mahArAja Ae the, to vaha darzana karane calI gii| ekAMta pA kara basa, unhoMne phira avasara nahIM khoyaa| ekadama se usake stana pakar3a lie! yaha javAba degI--maiM kyA javAba dUM! prajJA javAba de sakatI hai| vaha itanI ghabar3A gaI...! taba to usakI umra bhI kama thii| itanI becaina ho gaI ki rotI huI apanI mAM ke pAsa A kara kahA ki kyA karanA! mAM-pitA bhI ghabar3Ae ki aba itane bar3e saMta ke lie kyA kahanA! bUDhe haiM, sattara sAla ke haiM aura abhI bhI yaha khujalAhaTa nahIM gaI! saMbhoga se samAdhi kI ora merI kitAba ko javAba de rahe haiM! aba maiM inako kyA javAba dUM? thothe loga! magara tuma kisa-kisa ko saMta kahate ho, kahanA bar3A muzkila hai| koI carakhA calA rahA hai, to saMta? mahAtmA? tumhArI dhAraNAoM ke anukUla ho jAnA cAhie, bs| aura tumhArI dhAraNAeM tumhArI dhAraNAeM haiM--ajJAna meM pakar3I giiN| aba yaha saMta saphiyAna saMta to nahIM hai| saMta ko kyA jarUrata hai ki kisI se pUche jA kara ki koI sIkha deM! use to mila gayA sb| jise mila gayA, vahI to saMta hai| rAbiyA ne sIkha de dii| rAbiyA ne kahA, yaha lo mombttii| rAbiyA ne itanA kahA ki dUsaroM kI rozanI se kaba taka jIoge! are, apanI momabattI jalA lo| vaha dUsaroM ke sUraja se jyAdA behatara hai| apanI hai| usane sApha kaha diyA ki tuma paMDita ho--thothe pNddit| tumheM kucha Page 50 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA patA nahIM abhI aura saMta bane baiThe ho? aura loga tumheM saMta kI taraha pUjate haiM, to inakAra bhI nahIM krte| abhI bhItara kA dIyA jalA bhI nhiiN| yUM sacoTa uttara diyA! maiM nahIM samajhatA ki saphiyAna samajha pAe hoNge| momabattI le kara unhoMne bhI dekhA hogA ki bAta kyA hai? momabattI meM koI rAja to nahIM? ulaTa-palaTa kara dekhA hogaa| kucha likhAvaTa to nahIM? unakI bhI buddhi meM AyA hogA, yaha maiM mAnatA nhiiN| A gayA hotA, to ve kaha gae hote| to sUphiyoM ko phira socane-vicArane kI jarUrata na raha jaatii| aura abdula vahIda dArzanika rahe hoMge, tarka-zAstrI rahe hoMge, isalie unako eka suI thAma dii| suI bar3I pratIkAtmaka hai| rAbiyA ke apane bolane ke anUThe DhaMga the| kahane ke apane izAre the| usakA eka-eka izArA kImatI hai| isa saMbaMdha meM eka saMta phakIra pharIda ke jIvana meM ullekha hai, vaha khayAla meM lo, to suI kI bAta samajha meM A jaaegii| eka samrATa pharIda ko milane gyaa| socA, kucha le calUM bheMTa ke lie| kyA le calUM! kisI ne use sone kI eka kaiMcI hIre-javAharAtoM se jar3I huI usI dina bheMTa kI thii| bar3I suMdara thii| bar3I kalAtmaka thii| usane socA--yahI le cluuN| aura usane yaha bhI sunA thA ki pharIda akasara kapar3e sIte rahate haiM; garIboM ke kapar3e sIte rahate haiN| to unake kAma bhI A jaaegii| so vaha kaiMcI lekara pharIda ke caraNoM meM gyaa| sira jhukaayaa| kaiMcI pharIda ko bheMTa kii| pharIda ne kahA, dhanyavAda! lekina kaiMcI mere kyA kAma kI? kaiMcI to tuma le jaao| merA kAma kaiMcI kA nahIM hai--suI kA hai! samrATa ne kahA, maiM samajhA nahIM! pharIda ne kahA, maiM kATatA nahIM-- jor3atA huuN| tarka kATatA hai| tarka kaiMcI hai| suI jor3atI hai--suI prema hai| tuma pUchate ho dineza-bhAratI, ki kyA hai rAja rAbiyA ke isa adabhuta uttara kA? abdula vahIda AmarI tarka-zAstrI the, nizcita rahe hoNge| suI pratIka hai ki miyAM, jodd'o| kaba taka kAToge? kATa kara kisane pAyA? tarka karatA hai vishlessnn| vaha kATatA hai| saMzleSaNa karanA tarka ko nahIM aataa| tarka kaiMcI hai| tarka kA kAma hI yaha hai ki cIjoM ko todd'e| isalie vijJAna jo tarka para AdhArita hai, AtmA ko nahIM pahacAna pAtA, na paramAtmA ko jAna pAtA hai| kabhI nahIM pahacAna paaegaa| kabhI nahIM jAna paaegaa| kyoMki vijJAna kI sArI prakriyA vizleSaNa hai--kaatto| AtmA ko jAnane ke lie eka hI upAya hai usake paas--posttmaarttm| AdamI jaba mara jAe, to usake zarIra ko kaatto| jiMdA ko bhI kAToge, to mara jaaegaa| meDikala kAleja meM meMDhaka kATe jAte, aura pazu-pakSI kATe jaate| kATa-kATa kara samajhane kI koziza kI jAtI! nizcita hI AtmA hAtha nahIM lgtii| kyoMki jaise hI tumane kATA, prANa ur3a jAte haiM! piMjar3A par3A raha jAtA hai; pakSI ur3a jAtA hai| to AtmA mile kaise? yaha aisA hI pAgalapana hai, jaise kisI phUla ko tuma le jAo kisI vaijJAnika ke pAsa aura kaho ki yaha suMdara hai--bahuta suMdara hai! gulAba kA phUla hai! vaha kahe, mujhe do thor3A avasara, maiM Page 51 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA vizleSaNa kara ke dekhUMgA ki sauMdarya hai yA nhiiN| vaha phUla ko kaattegaa| kATanA usakI prakriyA hai| vaha phUla ko kATa kara, phUla ko galA kara, phUla ko jalA kara rAkha kara degA, aura chAMTa kara rakha degA ki kina-kina rAsAyanika dravyoM se mila kara phUla banA hai| miTTI yaha rahI pAnI yaha rahA; raMga ye rahe ; khuzabU yaha rahI / aura tumase kahegA ki bhaI, aura saba to milA - raMga milA, khuzabU milI, pAnI milA, miTTI milI, magara sauMdarya nahIM milaa| sauMdarya thA hI nahIM tumhArI bhAMti rahI hogii| jor3ane se pA sakoge / sauMdarya hotA hai samagratA meN| jaise hI kATA, vaise hI ur3a jAtA hai; sauMdarya adRzya ho jAtA hai| tumane kATA ki adRzya huA / phUla apanI samagratA meM suMdara hai| khaMDa huA--ki sauMdarya gyaa| sauMdarya akhaMDa meM hai satya bhI akhaMDa meM hai isalie tarka kabhI satya ko nahIM pA sakatA / tarka jo bhI pAegA, vaha marA huA hogaa| satya jIvaMta hai| satya jIvana kA hI dUsarA nAma hai| rAbiyA ne kahA, miyAM, abdula vahIda AmarI, kaba taka kaiMcI kI taraha kATate rahoge! aise kucha pAoge nhiiN| yaha lo sIkha ! suI kI taraha jodd'o| jor3o--tor3o mata vijJAna tor3atA hai, dharma jor3atA hai| aura jo dharma tor3atA ho, vaha dharma nhiiN| aura tumhArA tathAkathita dharma tor3atA hai hiMdU ko musalamAna se alaga kara detA hai musalamAna ko IsAI se alaga kara detA hai| IsAI ko jaina se alaga kara detA hai| phira jaina ko bhI kATatA hai| kATatA hI calA jAtA hai! kaicI kA kAma kATanA hai| phira zvetAMbara ko digaMbara se alaga kara detA hai| phira ziyA ko sunnI se alaga kara detA hai| IsAiyoM meM proTesTeMTa ko kaitholika se alaga kara detA hai| kATatA hI calA jAtA hai! khaMDa-khaMDa karatA calA jAtA hai| yaha dharma nahIM hai| yaha jIvana kA zAzvata niyama nahIM, jisako dharma khe| dharma to vaha hai, jo sabako hI dhAraNa kie hue hai| dharma to vaha, jo sabake bhItara anasyUta hai| jisa dhAge meM hama saba piroe hue haiM; jo hameM eka karatA hai| - dharma to eka ho sakatA hai; adharma aneka ho sakate haiN| ye saba adharma haiM--hiMdU, IsAI, musalamAna, jaina, bauddha-- ye saba adharma haiN| buddha ko dharma kA patA thA; ve tor3ate nahIM / jIsasa ko patA thA; ve tor3ate nahIM ve jor3ate haiM magara popoM ko, tumhAre tathAkathita zaMkarAcAryo ko--inako dharma kA kucha bhI patA nahIM hai| ye to adharma ko dharma mAna kara baiThe hue haiN| aura adharma yAnI chipI huI rAjanIti adharma yAnI chipA huA tarka yaha tarkajAla hai| isa tarkajAla meM jo ulajha gayA, vaha jaMgala meM bhaTaka gyaa| use kUla kinArA na milegA / ! gubbArA hai, usako phor3a dene rAbiyA ne kahA ki miyAM, yaha suI smhaalo| izArA smjho| kyA aMdAja hai! kyA adA hai usakI jarA-sI suI, magara kAphI hai- tarkazAstrI ke ghamaMDa kA jo ke lie kahA ki prema sIkho tarka chor3o kahA ki dhyAna sIkho - dhyAna jor3atA hai| dhyAna manuSya aura paramAtmA ke bIca setu hai, jJAna chor3o jJAna tor3atA hai aura jJAna bAdhA hai, dIvAra hai| -- Page 52 of 255 -- aura hasana ko sira kA eka bAla diyaa| bAla kI eka khUbI hai, bAla kATate ho tuma, to darda nahIM hotaa| zarIra kA aMga hai; tumane khayAla kiyA hogA, kATate ho, lekina darda nahIM http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA hotaa| nAkhUna kATate ho, lekina darda nahIM hotaa| to nAkhUna aura bAla mAnA ki tumhAre zarIra ke aMga haiM; lekina jIvita nahIM haiN| jIvita hote, to darda hogaa| jIvana hotA, to pIr3A hotii| murdA haiN| mare hue haiN| isalie bAla ko kATA jA sakatA hai| koI pIr3A nahIM, koI darda nhiiN| koI aura aMga to kATo zarIra kA! jahAM jIvana hai, vahAM pIr3A hogii| bAloM kA to kATe jAne para patA hI nahIM cltaa| jo vyakti zarIra ko hI saba kucha mAne baiThA hai, usane murde ko hI jIvana samajha liyA hai| hasana basarI ko rAbiyA ne kahA, bhItara jhaaNko| paridhi meM mata ulajhe rho| paridhi to mRtyu kI hai, aura bhItara amRta basA hai| bAloM meM mata kho jaao| ye to saba mardA haiN| jaise ye murdA haiM, aise hI tumhArA pUrA zarIra bhI sirpha AtmA kI AbhA se maMDita hone ke kAraNa jIvita dikhAI par3a rahA hai| lekina yaha AbhA apanI nahIM hai| eka aura sUphI kahAnI hai| eka phakIra aMdherI rAta meM lAlaTena lie eka rAste se gujara rahA hai| jaMgala kA rAstA hai| sannATA hai| ekAMta hai| bIhar3a vana hai| jaMgalI jAnavaroM kA khatarA hai| eka aura AdamI ko bhI usI rAste se yAtrA karanI hai, vaha bhI phakIra ke sAtha ho liyaa| phakIra ke sAtha meM lAlaTena hai| rozanI par3a rahI hai| phakIra kI rozanI meM vaha AdamI bhI calane lgaa| nizcita hI, lAlaTena kisI ke hAtha meM ho, isase kyA pharka par3atA hai! rozanI to rAste para par3a rahI thii| phakIra ko bhI dikhAI par3a rahA thA, usa AdamI ko bhI dikhAI par3a rahA thaa| donoM AdhI rAta taka sAtha calate rhe| phira vidA kA kSaNa A gyaa| donoM ke rAste phira alaga hone lge| jaba rAste alaga hue, taba usa AdamI ko patA calA ki vaha rozanI bhI alaga ho gii| vaha rozanI apanI na thii| vaha usa phakIra ke hAtha kI thii| usake hAtha meM thI laaltten| AdhI rAta taka to yaha yAtrI bhUla hI gayA thA ki rozanI apanI nahIM hai| rozanI parAI hai| aisI hI rozanI hamAre zarIra kI hai| do yAtrI sAtha-sAtha cala rahe haiM--amRta aura mRtyu| amRta bhItara hai| rozanI usakI hai| jIvana usakA hai| AnaMda usakA hai| rasa usakA hai| zarIra to sirpha maMDita hai--usake rasa se, usake Aloka se| jaba taka sAtha rahegA, taba taka zarIra ko yaha bhrAMti rahegI ki maiM bhI jiMdA huuN| usa yAtrI ko jaise bhrAMti rhii| bhUla hI gayA thA ki hAtha meM mere lAlaTena nahIM hai| lAlaTena kisI aura kI hai| calatA rahA rozanI meM masta--gIta gunagunAtA haa| aura jaba vidA hone kA kSaNa AyA, aura phakIra dUsare rAste para muDA--ghanaghora aMdherA ho gyaa| jisa dina AtmA chor3a detI hai zarIra ko, usa dina kyA raha jAtA hai? miTTI par3I raha jAtI hai| lAza par3I raha jAtI hai| hasana ko rAbiyA ne kahA, zarIra meM mata ulajhe rho| jIvana zarIra kA nahIM hai| zarIra kA mAlUma par3atA hai, kyoMki abhI calatA hai, uThatA hai, baiThatA hai, bolatA hai, khAtA hai, pItA hai| magara phira bhI yAda rakho jIvana to bhItara chipI AtmA kA hai| lekina AtmA itanI Page 53 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jIvaMta hai ki usake sAtha bhI jo ho loga, vaha bhI jIvita ho jaaegaa| magara yaha sAtha jyAdA dera calane vAlA nahIM hai| Aja nahIM kala, kala nahIM parasoM, rAste alaga ho jAeMge; AtmA apane rAste para cala par3egI; usakI yAtrA aura hai--aura zarIra par3A raha jaaegaa| eka kSaNa meM kyA se kyA ho jAtA hai! muThThiyoM meM khAka lekara dosta Ae bAde daphna jiMdagI bhara kI muhabbata kA silA dene lage! kyA silA diyA! muTThiyoM meM khAka le kara Ae the| murde ko jaba gar3Ate haiM, to hara mitra usa para eka muThI khAka DAla detA hai| yaha silA diyA muTThiyoM meM khAka lekara dosta Ae bAde daphna jiMdagI bhara kI muhabbata kA silA dene lge| kyA silA diyA! dostI kA kyA pariNAma AyA? ye sAre prema kA--jIvana bhara ke prema kA-- kyA niSkarSa, kyA nicor3a nikalA? aura kisI ke muMha se bhI na nikalA ki ina para khAka na DAlo ye haiM Aja hI nahAe hue! murde ko nahalA kara le jAte haiM; nae kapar3e pahanA kara le jAte haiM! aura kisI ke muMha se yaha na nikalA ki Aja hI badale haiM inhoMne kapar3e aura Aja hI haiM ye nahAe hue! jiMdagI bhara kI muhabbata kA silA dene lage! aura yaha silA diyA ki khAka pheMkane lage! inase yaha AzA na thI! dosta? duzmana yaha karate to ThIka the| lekina dosta bhI kyA kreN| miTTI miTTI meM gira gaI; aba aura kyA bheMTa deM! miTTI hI bheMTa dene ko rhii| kSaNa meM kyA ho jAtA hai! kSaNa meM ho jAtA hai| abhI saba ThIka thaa| abhI kSaNa meM saba bigar3a jAtA hai| maiMne parasoM hI zrI rekhacaMdra pArekha kA nAma ullekha kiyA thaa| abhI kucha dina pahale cala bse| sAdhu kI dIkSA lI thI unhoMne, aura kahate the: jaldI hI AtA hUM! jaldI AtA huuN| aba gairika meM dIkSA lenI hai; saMnyAsI honA hai| aura jaldI-jaldI meM unhoMne ATha sAla bitA die! ATha sAla ho gae unako mujhase nahIM mile! ATha sAla se khabareM AtI rahIM ki aba AyA; aba AyA! AtA huuN| jarA kAma-dhAma sulajha jaae| yaha ulajhana, vaha ulajhana! aura mare bhI to kyA mare! kaise mare! kheta para the| rAta soe-soe prANa nikala gae! dhanADaya the| unhoMne mere kAma ko bahuta sahAyatA dii| lekina kheta para the| bIsa mIla dUra the cAMdA se| subaha majadUra jaba Ae kAma karane, to dekhA ki Aja seTha nahIM! to jAkara jo unhoMne kheta para baMgalA banA liyA thA, daravAjA Page 54 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA khttkhttaayaa| koI kholatA nahIM; bhItara se baMda hai| daravAjA tor3A to vahAM to saba miTTI thii| sAMjha vidA le kara gae the, taba saba ThIka thaa| subaha Ae to miTTI thii| ghara kA koI maujUda bhI na thA vhaaN| aura varSA itanI teja thI ki bIca meM eka nAlA AyA huA thA ki do dina taka lAza vahAM par3I sar3atI rahI! koI khabara bhI nahIM pahuMcA sakA jA kara caaNdaa| kyoMki vaha nAlA itanA bhayaMkara aura pahAr3I, ki usako pAra karanA muzkila! aura lAza ko lAyA to jA nahIM sakatA thaa| to khabara karane kA bhI koI prayojana na thaa| do dina lAza sar3atI rhii| rekhacaMdra pArekha kImatI AdamI the| mujhe pahacAnane vAle una thor3e se logoM meM the, jinhoMne sabase pahale mujhe phcaanaa| magara phira bhI dera kara dI! samajha na pAe ki yaha jiMdagI hamezA calane vAlI nhiiN| kaba rAstA alaga ho jAegA, kahAM alaga ho jAegA--kucha patA nahIM! abhI hai, abhI nahIM! eka kSaNa meM bAta ho jaatii|... mujhe pahalI daphA dekhA, to pahacAna ge| aura yUM pahacAnA ki sAre cAMdA ke loga cakita the| kyoMki rekhacaMdra pArekha cAMdA meM prasiddha the ki unase bar3A kaMjUsa vahAM koI nahIM hai| unake dvAra para koI bhikhArI bhIkha nahIM mAMgatA thaa| rekhacaMdra pArekha kA makAna hai! vahAM bhIkha mAMgane se koI sAra nhiiN| milane vAlI nhiiN| dutakAre jaaoge| koI bhikhArI agara mAMgane khar3A ho jAtA, to usakA matalaba yaha thA ki nayA-nayA hai| gAMva meM pahalI daphA AyA hai| gAMva ke loga kaha dete sar3aka calate, ki bhaiyA, tU bekAra khar3A hai! yaha jagaha nahIM hai, jahAM kucha milegA! aura jaba mujhe dekhA aura pahacAna ge...| unakI patnI mujhe le gaI thiiN| unakI patnI aura bhI saMtoM ke pAsa unheM le jAtI rhiiN| kyoMki patnI kA khayAla thA ki pati ko mArga para lAyA jaae| yaha kyA dhana-paise ke pIche ye par3e haiM! ye dhArmika nahIM haiN| patnI ko dharma meM rasa thaa| sAdhu-saMtoM meM rasa thaa| magara rekhacaMdra pArekha ko koI sAdhu-saMta jamA nhiiN| AMkha thI usa AdamI ke pAsa pahacAnane vaalii| to dhokhA nahIM khaayaa| koI saMta saphiyAna jaisA AdamI dhokhA nahIM de skaa| koI karapAtrI mahArAja jaisA AdamI dhokhA nahIM de skaa| koI purI ke zaMkarAcArya ko rekhacaMdra mAnane vAle nahIM the| unakI patnI mujhe le gaI thIM apane ghara, isI AzA meM ki zAyada aura to koI jamA nahIM, maiM jama jAUM! mujhe dekha kara hI rekhacaMdra pArekha ne kahA ki aba majA A gayA! magara maiM kahe detA hUM, unhoMne apanI patnI se kahA, ki yaha masajida musalamAna para giregI; mujha para nhiiN| tU daba kara maregI isa masajida meN| tU lAI hai mujhe dabAne; tU mujhe bahuta jagaha le gaI ki kisI ko mere sira para car3hA de| magara yaha masajida tere sira para giregii| merA to tAlamela ho gayA; muzkila terI hogI; terA dharma ar3acana meM pdd'egaa| maiM adhArmika haiN| maiM nAstika hN| aura yaha pahalA AdamI hai, jo aisI bhASA bolatA hai ki nAstika bhI Astika ho jAe! aura saca hI unhoMne mujhase kabhI tarka na kiyaa| jo sabase tarka karate rahe, kabhI mere virodha meM eka zabda na khaa| Page 55 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maiM varSoM taka unake ghara ThaharatA rhaa| varSa meM kama se kama do bAra nizcita rUpa se cAMdA unake ghara mehamAna hotA rhaa| tIna cAra dina; varSa meM do baar| eka saptAha unheM hara varSa detA rhaa| aura ve aise DUbe ki sAre cAMdA meM loga cakita the, kyoMki unhoMne buniyAda rakhI mere kAma kii| aura maiMne kabhI unase to kahA nhiiN| lekina jaba unheM lagA ki jo mujhe jarUrata hai, unhoMne tatkSaNa pUrI kii| unheM lagA ki mujhe eka TAipisTa kI aura TAiparAiTara kI jarUrata hai, to eka TAipisTa aura TAiparAiTara bheja diyaa| maiMne pUchA, tuma kaise Ae! unhoMne kahA ki rekhacaMdra pArekha ne bhejaa| maiMne kahA, yaha bhI khUba huaa| jarUrata mujhe thii| kaba taka hAtha se patra likhatA rhuuN| mulka meM hajAroM prema karane vAle loga ho gae, muzkila khar3I ho gii| ve pahale vyakti the jinhoNne...| aba to isa Azrama meM hajAroM TAiparAiTara haiN| magara pahalA TAiparAiTara unakA thaa| ve buniyAda rakha ge| aba to isa Azrama meM saikar3oM TeparikArDara haiN| pahalA TeparikArDara unakA thA; ve buniyAda rakha gae! aba to isa Azrama meM zAyada bhArata kA sabase suMdara DArkarUma hai| aura sabase kImatI aura bahumUlya kaimare haiN| magara pahalA kaimarA unakA thaa| aba to isa Azrama ke pAsa darjanoM kAreM haiN| magara pahalI kAra unhoMne mujhe dI thI--pahalI kAra! ve saba mAmale meM pahale rhe| cakita thA cAMdA ki yaha AdamI, jisane kabhI kisI ko eka paisA bheMTa nahIM kiyA, isako ho kyA gayA! isakA dimAga kharAba ho gayA! aura maiMne kabhI unase eka paisA mAMgA nhiiN| aura unhoMne hajAroM rupae bahAe! mujhase sirpha eka bAta unhoMne pUchI--sirpha eka--ki maiM kaba kAma-dhaMdhA chor3a dUM? maiMne kahA, ApakI umra kitanI huI? unhoMne kahA, pcaas| taba ve pacAsa ke the| to maiMne kahA, basa, chor3a deN| unhoMne kahA, chodd'aa| chor3a hI diyA! bar3A kAma-dhaMdhA thaa| saba yUM kA yUM chor3a diyaa| phira phurasata thI, isalie ye khet...| aba kucha kAma na bacA, to dUra jaMgala meM eka jamIna le lI aura bagIcA lagAne meM laga gae ki aba kAma-dhaMdhA chor3a diyA, aba kucha paudhoM ke sAtha jInA ho jaae| ATha sAla pahale mAuMTa AbU zivira meM sAdhu ho kara ge| kaha kara gae ki AtA hUM jldii| saMnyastha honA hai| lekina ATha sAla laga ge| TAlate-TAlate rhe| kala para TAlate rahe--aura aba vidA ho ge| aba vidAI ke isa kSaNa meM rozanI kho jaaegii| ve jo socate the, vicArate the, ve jo socate the--unheM dikhAI par3ane lagA hai, vaha unheM nahIM dikhAI par3a rahA thaa| vaha mere hAtha kI lAlaTena thii| aba isa aMdhere meM unako akele jAnA pdd'aa| rAste alaga ho ge| kAza ve saMnyastha ho jAte! kAza ve samAdhistha ho jAte! to rozanI unakI apanI hotii| hasana ko rAbiyA ne kahA, yaha jaise sira kA bAla murdA hai, mAnA ki zarIra kA hissA hai-- aisA hI pUrA zarIra murdA hai--pahacAno yA na phcaano| aura jaba taka tumheM yaha samajha meM na Ae ki pUrA zarIra murdA hai, taba taka tuma samajhoge nahIM; taba taka tuma tilamilAoge nahIM; taba taka tumhAre jIvana meM vaha AMdhI na AegI, jo isa khoja para le jAe--amRta kI khoja pr| Page 56 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA atharva veda kA yaha pyArA sUtra hai: Aroha tamaso jyotiH--uTho aMdhakAra se, car3ho jyoti-ratha pr| Ahi rohena amRtaM sukhaM rkssN| are kyA dera kara rahe ho! sukha meM amRta-ratha para ArUr3ha ho jaao| vahIM surakSA hai| tumhAre bhItara amRta hai| tuma amRta putra ho| amRtasya putrAH! lekina mRtyu meM bhaTaka gae ho| mRtyu yAnI aNdhkaar| amRta arthAta aalok| uTho aMdhakAra se, car3ho jyoti ratha pr| uTho mRtyu se--amRta meM dduubo| aisA izArA kiyA rAbiyA ne| patA nahIM, jinako izArA kiyA thA, ve samajha pAe yA nhiiN| aura itanA to nizcita hai ki sUphiyoM ne isa para bahuta TIkAeM kI haiN| magara jinhoMne TIkAeM kI haiM, ve koI bhI nahIM smjhte| maiMne TIkAeM dekhI haiN| loga anumAna lagAte haiM ki zAyada! maiM zAyada kI bAta nahIM kara rahA huuN| maiM anumAna meM bharosA nahIM krtaa| rAbiyA merI bAta se inakAra kare, to jhaMjhaTa ho jaae| maiM rAbiyA kI gardana pakar3a lUM! kyoMki maiM kucha rAbiyA se bhinna nhiiN| usane suI pakar3A dI; momabattI pakar3A dI; bAla pakar3A die| maiM usakI gardana dabA dUM, kyoMki maiM jAnatA hUM ki inakA kyA artha hai| yaha maiM apane anubhava se jAnatA huuN| maiM bhI yahI kara rahA huuN| roja yahI kara rahA huuN| tumheM de kyA rahA hUM? yahI izAre: chor3o mRtyu ko| tuma pakar3e ho| jora se pakar3e ho| mRtyu ne tumheM nahIM pakar3A hai| chor3o mRtyu ko| jaago| nIMda meM ho| aura tuma tarkajAla meM par3e ho! tuma vyartha ke UhApoha meM ulajhe ho| tuma kaiMcI bana gae ho| suI bno--jodd'o| yahAM dekhate ho: kaise loga jur3a gae haiM! kina-kina dharmoM ke, kina-kina dezoM ke, kina-kina jAtiyoM ke, kina-kina raMgoM ke! karIba-karIba sArI duniyA se loga yahAM A gae haiN| sirpha rUsa se nahIM A pAe the, to do vyakti--pati aura patnI--jinhoMne cupake-cupake yahAM se saMnyAsa le liyA hai| saMnyAsa bhI corI se bhejanA par3A hai! mAlA bhejatA hUM kisI aura desh| aura vahAM ke rAjadUta kI DAka meM vaha mAlA pahuMcatI hai ruus| vaha rAjadUta mujhameM utsuka haiN| nAma to nahIM batA sakUgA unakA! aura vahAM se rUsa ke sNnyaasii...| aba koI rUsa meM pacAsa saMnyAsI haiN| nahIM pahana sakate gairika vstr| nahIM mAlA TAMga skte| chipa para milate haiN| dhyAna karate haiN| rUsI meM anuvAdita kara lI haiM unhoMne kitaabeN| TAipa karakara ke eka-dUsare ko bAMTate haiN| koI cAra kitAbeM--na mAlUma kitane loga par3ha rahe haiM! Tepa rUsI meM anuvAda kara-kara ke cupacApa eka hAtha se dUsare hAtha meM jA rahe haiM! lekina eka jor3A bar3I muzkila se, bar3I mehanata ke bAda nikala bhAgA hai| vaha laMdana pahuMca gayA hai| kala hI khabara AI hai ki hama khuza haiM ki hama rUsa ke bAhara A gae haiN| nikalanA to bahuta muzkila thA, magara nikala aae| aba hama jaldI hI pahuMca jaaeNge| loga kahAM-kahAM se A rahe haiM! Page 57 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jo barlina kA hissA rUsiyoM ke hAtha meM hai pUrvI barlina--vahAM se nikala bhAganA bahuta muzkila hai| lekina eka saMnyAsI vahAM se bhAga, niklaa| kAra kI DiggI meM chipa kara AnA pdd'aa| khatarA mola liyaa| jIvana ke lie khatarA thaa| pakar3a jAtA, agara DiggI kholI jAtI, jokhama utthaaii...| DiggI khula jAtI, to phaMsa jAtA--burI taraha phNstaa| zAyada dasa-paccIsa sAla kI sajA kaatttaa| zAyada sArI jiMdagI jelakhAne meM biittii| kyoMki kamyUnisTa phira koI kaMjUsI nahIM karate sajA dene meN| magara jokhama uThA lii| kAra kI DiggI meM baiTha kara bhAga niklaa| akelA hI nahIM bhaagaa| apane bacce ko, patnI ko--tInoM eka bar3I kAra kI DiggI meM kisa taraha samAe! kisa taraha chipe rahe! kisa taraha yAtrA kI! anUThI kahAnI hai| romAMcaka hai| A gayA yhaaN| loga A rahe haiM dUra-dUra se| aura yahAM A kara anasyUta ho jAte haiN| yahAM eka dhAge meM jur3a jAte haiN| eka prema kA dhAgA! loga cakita hote haiM bAhara se A kara ki kaise isa kamyUna kA kAma calatA hai| kyoMki maiM to kabhI dekhatA nahIM jA kr| maiM to kucha bhI nahIM dekhatA jaakr| kahAM kyA ho rahA hai--mujhe patA nhiiN| isa kamyUna ke Aphisa meM maiM Aja taka nahIM gayA huuN| chaha sAla meM eka bAra bhI nahIM gayA huuN| Azrama meM bhI kabhI pUrA nahIM ghUmA huuN| apane kamare se isa sthala taka, aura isa sthala se apane kamare taka! lekina prema kA eka dhAgA--aura loga kAma meM sakriya haiN| na koI unako kAma meM lagA rahA hai, na koI unakI chAtI para baiThA huA hai; na koI unheM dhakke mAra rahA hai ki kAma karo-- loga kAma meM lage haiM, sRjana meM lage haiN| eka prema ne sabako jor3a diyA hai| koI kisI se pUchatA nahIM ki hiMdU ho, ki musalamAna ho, ki IsAI ho, ki jaina ho, ki bauddha ho--kyA ho ki kyA nahIM ho! nIgro ho, amarIkana ho, bhAratIya ho--kisI ko ciMtA nahIM pdd'ii| kisI ko lenA-denA nahIM hai| sArA kacarA ho gyaa| ye saba vyartha kI bAteM loga bAhara kacarA-ghara meM pheMka aae| ise maiM kahatA huuN--suii| suI jor3anA jAnatI hai--tor3anA nhiiN| aura dhyAna meM lIna ho rahe haiN| ise maiM kahatA huuN--mombttii| apane bhItara kI jyoti jalAne meM lage haiN| ise maiM kahatA hUM--amRta kI khoj| kaise hama mRtyu ke jo pAra hai, use jAna leM--isakA anveSaNa cala rahA hai| aura to yahAM koI dUsarA kAma nahIM ho rahA hai| dineza bhAratI, ye tInoM kAma yahAM ho rahe haiM--momabattI kA, suI kaa...| aura rAbiyA ne yaha jo bAla diyA ki hasana kaba taka murde meM ulajhe rhoge| aba jaago| subaha ho gii--uttho| dUsarA prazna: bhagavAna, hara ora sunAtI apanA svara, maiM DhUMdUM tumako kidhara kidhara! pAyA ne dekha baiThI thaka kara, Page 58 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA tuma gae jIta maiM gaI hAra ! vINA bhAratI! prema ke rAste para hAra jAnA jIta jAnA hai| prema ke rAste para jisane jItane kI koziza kI, vaha haaraa| burI taraha hArA! prema ke rAste para jo hArane ko rAjI huA, vaha jiitaa| yaha prema kA virodhAbhAsa hai yaha prema kA tarka bar3A bebUjha hai hai! Page 59 of 255 sAdhAraNa bAhara ke jagata meM jo jItane kI koziza karatA hai, vaha hAratA hai| jo jItatA hai, vaha jItatA hai| isa bhItara ke hAratA hai, vaha jItatA hai| jo jItatA hai, vaha hAra jAtA hai| jisane ahaMkAra rakha diyA eka trph...| pahale to lagatA hai: hAra gyaa| hAratA hai koI, tabhI ahaMkAra rakhatA hai| thaka jAtA hai| tU kahatI hai: hara ora sunAtI apanA svr...| vaha apanA svara jo thA apanA vaha jo maiM kA bhAva, vahI bAdhA to phira tU sunAtI phira apanA svara jaba taka sunAegI, taba taka tU mujhe na dekha paaegii| hara ora sunAtI apanA svara vaha apanApana pIche chipA rahegA, to bar3I sUkSma dIvAla banI rahatI hai to tU kahatI hai, maiM TraM tumako kidhara kidhara phirA tU kidhara kidhara bhI DhUMDha nahIM pAegI, kyoMki maiM idhara hUM- kidhara kidhara nahIM idhara dekhA aura idhara dekhanA ho, to cupa ho, apanA svara baMda kara / / aba kahatI hai, pAyA na dekha baiThI thaka kara ! usa ghar3I hI pAyA jAtA hai, jaba koI thaka kara baiTha jAtA hai| jaba taka dekhane kI AkAMkSA bhI banI rahatI hai, rahatA hai| dekhane kI AkAMkSA bhI AkAMkSA hai| loga kahate, paramAtmA ko pAnA hai| yaha bhI tRSNA hai, yaha bhI vAsanA hai| isalie to buddha ne kahA, chor3o paramAtmA ko hai hI nahIM paramAtmA isIlie kahA ki hai hI nahIM paramAtmA, kyoMki jaba taka hai, taba taka tuma tRSNA karoge; taba taka tumhAre mana meM AkAMkSA jgegii--sugbugaaegii| buddha ne tor3a hI dI jar3a se baat| hai hI nahIM - kyA khoja rahe ho - - khAka ? chodd'o| baiTha jaao| AMkha baMda karo / jaba taka dIdAra kI tamannA hai, taba taka AMkheM khole dekhoge - kidhara - kidhara saba tarapha khojoge aura vaha bhItara virAjamAna hai vaha idhara virAjamAna hai aura tuma udhara dekho, to kaise pAoge? AMkheM to bAhara dekhatI haiN| AMkhe bhItara nahIM dekha sktiiN| AMkheM banI bAhara ko dekhane ke lie haiM AMkhoM kA prayojana bAhara hai| mullA nasaruddIna eka rAta ekadama apanI patnI ko jhakajhorA aura kahA, merA cazmA le A jaldI kara patnI ne kahA, AdhI rAta cazme kA kyA karanA hai? patniyAM bhI kucha aise mAna to letI nahIM jaldI se ! aura AdhI usakI nIMda kharAba kara dii| yaha prema kA gaNita bar3A ulaTA -- vaha jItatA hai| jo hAratA hai, loka meM, isa paraloka meM jo taba taka AMkhoM meM dhuAM samAyA dIdAra karanA hai paramAtmA kA / http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA aura kyA karanA hai tumako cazme kA AdhI rAta! koI khAte-bahI karanI hai! koI kurAna zarIpha par3hanI hai? mullA ne kahA, tU dera mata kr| bakavAsa mata kr| jaldI cazmA le aa| are, eka bar3A suMdara sapanA dekha rahA thA! magara dhuMdhalA-dhuMdhalA thaa| so maiMne socA, cazmA car3hA lUM! magara sapane cazme car3hA kara nahIM dekhe jaate| aura cazmA bhI car3hA lo, to bhI dhuMdhalApana agara hai sapane meM, to miTa nahIM jaaegaa| sapanA taka nahIM dekhA jA sakatA cazme se! AMkheM bhI bAhara, cazmA bhI baahr| AMkha ko kahate haiM cazma, aura usa para car3he hue ko kahate haiM cshmaa| donoM baahr| bhItara jaba koI bilakula hAra jAtA hai, DhUMDha-DhUMDha ke hAra jAtA hai, thaka jAtA hai, sarvahAra ho jAtA hai, taba AMkha baMda hotI hai| kucha hai jo AMkha baMda kara ke dikhAI par3atA hai| lekina jaba taka tRSNA hai, taba taka AMkha baMda nahIM hotI, khula-khula AtI hai| yaha bhI icchA banI rahe ki dekhanA hai satya ko, paramAtmA ko--yaha bhI mahatvAkAMkSA banI rahe, to paryApta hai bhaTakAne ke lie| tU kahatI hai, hara ora sunAtI apanA svara, maiM DhUMDhUM tumako kidhr-kidhr| pAyA na dekha baiThI thaka kr|...yh acchA huA ki nahIM dekha pAI aura thaka gii| pAyA na dekha baiThI thaka kr| tuma gae jIta maiM gaI haar| basa, yahIM se ziSyatva zurU hotA hai| vINA! yahIM se asalI yAtrA kA prAraMbha hai, jaba ziSya thaka jAtA, hAra jAtA, aura kaha detA hai ki lo, tuma smhaalo| yaha rahI merI ddor| yaha rahI patavAra aba tumhI maajhii| maiM to thkaa| maiM to haaraa| maiM to baiTha rhaa| aba pAra lagAo to tthiik| DubAo to tthiik| aura yaha rAstA aisA anUThA hai ki yahAM jo DUbate haiM, vahI ubara pAte haiN| yaha mayakadA hai, yahAM riMda haiN| yahAM sabakA sAkI imAma hai| yaha mayakadA hai| pIne vAlA to jaba DUba jAtA hai, bilakula DUba jAtA hai, madamasta ho jAtA hai; bhUla hI jAtA hai ki maiM kauna hUM; yAda hI nahIM rahatI ki maiM kauna hUM--tabhI yaha apUrva ghaTanA ghaTatI hai| mujhako to hoza nahIM tumako zAyada khabara ho loga kahate haiM ki tumane mujhe barabAda kiyA! yahAM hoza vAle cUka jaaeNge| yahAM samajhadAra cUka jaaeNge| yaha rAstA dIvAnoM kA hai| yaha rAstA paravAnoM kA hai| yahAM miTane vAle pA jAte haiN| yahAM DUbane vAle ubara jAte haiN| koI samajhAe yaha kyA raMga hai maikhAne kA AMkha sAkI kI uThe nAma ho paimAne kA garmi e zammA kA aphasAnA sunAne vAlo raska dekhA nahIM tumane abhI paravAne kA kisako mAlUma thI pahale se khirada kI kImata Alame hosa pe ahasAna hai dIvAne kA cazme sAkI mujhe hara gAma pai yAda AtI hai Page 60 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA rAstA bhUla na jAUM kahIM maikhAne kA aba to hara zAma gujaratI hai usI kUce meM e natIjA huA nAseha tere samajhAne kA maMjile kama se to gujaranA hai AsAM eka bAra izka hai nAma apane se gujara jAne kA vINA! tU apanA svara sunAtI rahI, isI se cUkatI rhii| jo bhI yahAM apanA svara sunAne meM lagA hai, vaha cUkatA calA jaaegaa| maMjile gama se to gujaranA hai AsAM eka baar|...dukh kI maMjila se gujaranA itanA kaThina nhiiN| dukha kI maMjila se to gujarate hI rahe haiN| janmoM-janmoM gujarate rahe haiN| usake to hama AdI haiM, paricita haiN| maMjile gama se to gujaranA hai AsAM eka bAra izka hai nAma apane se gujara jAne kA jo apane se pAra ho jAtA hai, jo apane ke pAra ho jAtA hai, maiM ke pAra ho jAtA hai, jo maiM ke pAra ho jAtA hai, maiM se Age nikala jAtA hai...| maiM para aTake haiM hama, to phira pahacAna na ho paaegii| maiM ke atirikta aura koI bAdhA nahIM hai| paravAne kA nAca dekha zammA ke pAsa! kauna samajhadAra rAjI hogaa| paravAne ko pAgala hI khoge| marane calA hai! miTane calA hai! zammA ke pAsa jA kara milegA kyA?--mauta milegii| purAne zAstroM meM sUtra hai, AcAryo mRtyuH| guru ke pAsa jA kara kyA milegA? mauta milegii| kyoMki guru mRtyu hai| usake pAsa ahaMkAra mregaa| aura abhI to tuma yahI jAnate ho ki tuma yAnI ahNkaar| ahaMkAra marate-marate taka bacane kI koziza karatA hai| koI taraha kI tarakIboM khojatA hai| AnaMda kiraNa ne yaha prazna pUchA hai| isameM dekho, tarakIba kahAM se A gii| kiraNa ko patA bhI na hogA ki tarakIba isameM A gii| prazna bar3A pyAra hai, bhAva bharA hai lekina kahIM pIche se svara A gyaa| ye garvabharA mastaka merA prabhu, caraNa-dhUla taka jhukane de jhukane kA bhAva hai, pyAra hai| magara mastaka merA hai! ye garvabharA mastaka merA prabhu caraNa-dhUla taka jhukane de maiM jJAna kI bAtoM meM khoyA aura karmahIna par3a kara soyA jaba AMkha khulI to mana royA jaga soe, mujhako jagane de maiM mana ke maila ko dho na sakA ye jIvana terA ho na sakA Page 61 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maiM premI hUM, itanA na jhukA dekhate haiM! maiM premI hUM, itanA na jhukA gira bhI jo paDUM to uThane de yaha garva bharA mastaka merA prabhu caraNa-dhUla taka jhukane de| bAta pyArI khii| phUla hI phUla haiN| magara eka kAMTA bhI A gyaa| aura vaha kAMTA paryApta hai bAdhA ke lie| jarA-sA, iMca bhara kA phAsalA paryApta hai| zAyada kiraNa ne jaba yaha prazna likhA, to socA bhI nahIM hogA ki maiM premI hUM, itanA na jhukA! usameM bhI zarta hai ki itanA mata jhukAo; itanA mata mittaao| kucha to bacane do! maiM premI hUM, kucha to bacane do! bilakula na ddubaao| kama se kama sira to bacane do| gale taka DubAo, AkaMTha ddubaao| magara sira to merA bacane do! maiM premI hUM, itanA na jhukaa| gira bhI jo paDUM to uThane de| aura agara gira jAUM to kama se kama uThane to do| phira-phira uTha AtA hai mn| phira-phira uTha AtA hai ahNkaar| jhuka-jhuka kara uTha AtA hai! ahaMkAra ke rAste bar3e sUkSma haiN| idhara se jAtA hai, udhara se A jAtA hai| bAhara ke daravAje se nikAla kara pheMka do, vaha pIche ke daravAje se lauTa AtA hai| daravAje se na Ane do, khir3akiyoM se A jAtA hai| khir3akiyoM se na Ane do, raMdhoM se A jaaegaa| kahIM na kahIM se rAstA khoja legaa| jarA-sI bhI raMdhra mila jAegI, khapar3oM meM jarA-sI saMdha mila jAegI--vaha jo cAbI ke lie tAle meM cheda hotA hai, utanA bhI paryApta hai| utane meM se hI saraka aaegaa| bar3A sUkSma hai! nasaruddIna ko eka zarAba ghara meM zarAbaghara ke mAlika ko bhI itanI dayA A gaI ki usane dhakke de kara nikAla diyA--itanA pI gayA thA, aura phira bhI mAMga rahA thaa| jAtA hI na thaa| aura do--aura do| mAMga cukatI hI na thii| mana mAnatA hI nhiiN| aur--aur| zarAbaghara ke mAlika taka ko dayA A gii| usakI to zarAba bikatI thii| magara usako bhI dayA A gaI ki aba yaha itanI pI cukA hai ki ghara bhI na pahuMca skegaa| dhakke de kara bAhara nikAla diyaa| vaha dUsare daravAje se bhItara A gyaa| zarAbaghara ke kaI daravAje the| vaha dUsare daravAje se bhItara A gayA aura phira usane A kara mAMga kii| mAlika ne use phira dhakke de kara nikAlA! vaha tIsare daravAje se bhItara A gyaa| use phira dhakke de kara nikAlA! vaha pIche ke daravAje se A gayA! aura jaba use dhakkA diyA jAne lagA, to vaha bolA ki mAmalA kyA hai! kyA tumane gAMva bhara ke sabhI zarAbakhAne kharIda lie haiM? jisa zarAbaghara meM jAtA hUM, vahIM se dhakke de kara nikAlate ho| tuma hI sabhI jagaha baiThe mila jAte ho! mAmalA kyA hai? vaha soca rahA hai-- alaga-alaga zarAbagharoM meM jA rahA hai| behoza! daravAje badala letA hai| magara bAta vahI ho kara rhegii| vahI milegA bhiitr| Page 62 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ kiraNa! tumane bAta to pyArI pUchI yaha garva bharA mastaka merA jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA prabhu caraNa dhUla taka jhukane de| magara kahIM zarta lagA rakhI hai| utanI zarta bhI nahIM jhukane degii| tuma kahate ho, maiM premI itanA na jhukA itanA jhukane meM bhI zarta lagAoge? phira cUka ho jaaegii| gira bhI jo paDUM to uThane de| uThane kI bAta hI chodd'o| gire to gire| phira uThanA kyA / jhuke to jhuke| phira uThanA kyA ! phira bAra- bAra kyA uThanA / DUbe to dduube| phira nikalanA kyA! hAro / aba hAro samarpaNa saMnyAsa hai| vINA! acchA huA kahatI hai tU, pAyA na dekha baiThI thaka kara tuma gae jIta maiM gaI hAra basa, pahalA kadama utthaa| aura pahalA kadama hI kaThina hai| phira to saba AsAna ho jAtA hai| paravAne kI bhASA samajhanI hotI hai saMnyAsI ko, ziSya ko / garma eka zammA kA aphasAnA sunAne vAlo raska dekhA nahIM tumane abhI paravAne kA , jaba nAcatA hai paravAnA zamA ke cAroM tarapha dekhI usakI mauja ! dekhI usakI mastI ! aisA nahIM kahatA, itanA na jalA, maiM premI huuN| jala hI jAtA hai| pUrA hI jala jAtA hai| dagdha ho jAtA hai| kisako mAlUma thI pahale se khirada kI kImata Alame hoza pe ahasAna hai dIvAne kA yaha jo parama satya hai, kisako isakI kImata mAlUma hai? pahale se kImata mAlUma hotI, to samajhadAra bhI kharIda lete| magara isakI koI kImata nahIM hai| kImata kI bhASA meM yaha A nahIM hai| nahIM to saba samajhadAra, tathAkathita cAlabAja, hoziyAra, tarkazAstrI, gaNitajJa satya ko pA lete| kisako mAlUma thI pahale se khirada kI kImata Alame hoza pe ahasAna hai dIvAne kA " vaha to dIvAnoM ne binA kImata pUche binA phikra kie ki kyA hogA pariNAma kyA hogA aMjAma--kUda par3e Aga meM jala gae aura pA liyaa| miTa gae aura pA liyA ! isalie jo tathAkathita samajhadAra haiM, una para bar3A ahasAna hai dIvAnoM kA / pahalA kadama hai samarpaNa aura dUsarA kadama hai upalabdhi / do kadama meM yAtrA pUrI ho jAtI hai| yA yUM kaho: eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiM--samarpaNa aura upalabdhi / idhara khoyA- -idhara paayaa| kSaNa kI bhI dera nahIM hotii| vINA ! uTha mata AnA / thakakara baiTha gaI, aba phira idhara-udhara mata dekhane laganA / phira kidhara - kidhara na bhaTakane laganA / yaha upalabdhi kucha aisI nahIM hai, jo prayAsa se hotI hai| yaha hAra se hotI hai jaba taka prayAsa hai, taba taka ahaMkAra hai jaba taka ceSTA hai, taba taka mana hai| Page 63 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA yahI dhanyabhAga hai ki eka dina AdamI thaka jAtA hai| mana thaka jAtA hai| baiTha rahatA hai| buddha ne chaha varSa taka satata ceSTA kii| kidhara kidhara na khojaa| magara kidhara - kidhara meM bhaTake rhe| phira jaba thaka gae aura eka sAMjha thakakara baiTha gae aura kahA ki phijUla hai saba khoj| kucha milanA nahIM hai| na saMsAra meM kucha hai, na mokSa meM kucha hai| hai hI nahIM kuch| saba vyartha hai| svabhAvataH saMsAra bhI dekha cuke the samrATa kA jIvana bhI dekha cuke the aura chaha varSoM meM tapasvI kA yogI kA jIvana bhI dekha liyaa| na bhoga meM kucha hai, na yoga meM kucha hai| na bhoga se milanA, na yoga se milA hai hI nhiiN| to jaba hai hI nahIM, to karanA kyA! aura usI rAta ghaTanA ghttii| usa rAta gahana vizrAma meM so ge| aba koI khoja na thii| kucha pAnA na thA / vizrAma hI vizrAma thaa| koI tanAva na thaa| koI ciMtA na thI / , subaha jaba uThe, aura rAta kA AkhirI tArA DUbatA huA dekhaa| basa, usa tAre ko DUbate hue dekhanA usakI AkhirI jhilamilAhaTA yaha gayA yaha gayA yaha gyaa| aise hI bhItara ahaMkAra calA gyaa| kyoMki jaba kucha khoja hI na rahI, jaba kucha pAne kI AkAMkSA na rahI, jaba kucha pAne ko hI na bacA; jaba hAra paripUrNa ho gaI--to yaha gayA, yaha gayA, yaha gayA ! jaise tArA DUbatA hai subaha-- AkhirI taaraa| vaha jo thor3I bahuta rekha bhI raha gaI hogI ahaMkAra kI, vaha calI gii| usI kSaNa bodha ko upalabdha ho ge| khoja khoja kara jo na milA, vaha bina khoje milA prayAsa se jo na milA thA, vaha vizrAma se milaa| ceSTA se, zrama se jo na milA thA, vaha virAma se milaa| daur3a kara jo na milA thA, vaha baiTha kara milA / ApAdhApI se na milA thaa| kidhara kidhara na bhaTake the! vaha idhara milA! ve jaba saba chor3a kara baiTha gae, to hogA kyA? jIvana-cetanA, jIvana-UrjA jo saba jagaha bikharI thI, simaTa aaii| saba nyasta svArtha gira ge| saMsAra bhI gira gyaa| mokSa bhI gira gyaa| koI AkAMkSA na rahI isa saMsAra kI yA usa saMsAra kI mahatvAkAMkSA mAtra samApta ho gii| to aba jIvana UrjA kahAM bhaTake ! lauTa AI apane para baiTha rahI bhiitr| keMdra para samAhita ho gii| kiraNeM lauTa AI sUraja kI vApasa vistAra sikur3a AyA saba keMdra para baiTha rhaa| vahIM upalabdhi hai| hAra meM jIta hai| AkhirI praznaH bhagavAna! sAMsoM kI saragama pe nAcUM maiM chamachama maujoM kI laharoM pe barasUM maiM rimajhima | gAtI hUM maiM gunagunAtI hUM maiM saba kucha suhAnA lagatA hai madhubana madhubana lagatA hai| zAma aura saverA, dIpa aura aMdherA udAsI kA melA, khuziyoM kA DerA bahatI hUM maiM gunagunAtI hUM maiM Page 64 of 255 -- " http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA saba kucha pyArA lagatA hai yaha jaga nyArA lagatA hai! sannATe meM DUbanA, haMsanA aura ronA kabhI mahAvIra ko dhyAnA, kabhI mIrA ko gAnA vahAM tumheM pAtI hUM maiM, khilakhilAtI hUM maiM saba kucha pyArA lagatA hai / apanA apanA lagatA hai! bhagavAna! ApakI kRpA se Aja maiM bhAgyavAna huuN| he karuNAvAna! guNA! jaisA tujhe ho rahA hai, aisA hI sabhI ko ho--aisA hI AzISa detA huuN| Aja itanA hii| dinAMka 13 sitaMbara, 1980; zrI rajanIza Azrama, pUnA saMnyAsa, satya aura pAkhaMDa pahalA praznaH bhagavAna, jIvana kI zuruAta se sabhI ko yahI zikSA milatI rahatI hai ki saca bolo| acche kAma kro| hiMsA na kro| pApa na kro| lekina hama saMnyAsI to isI rAste para jAne kI koziza karate haiM, phira hamArA virodha kyoM? isa virodhAbhAsa ko samajhAne kI kRpA kreN| rajanIkAMta! manuSyajAti Aja taka virodhAbhAsa meM hI jI rahI hai| isa virodhAbhAsa ko ThIka se samajho, to mukta bhI ho sakate ho| virodhAbhAsa yaha hai ki jo tuma se kahate haiM--satya bolo, ve bhI satya nahIM bola rahe haiN| unakA jIvana kucha aura kahatA hai| unakI vANI kucha aura kahatI hai| unake vyaktitva meM pAkhaMDa hai| aura baccoM kI najareM bar3I sApha hotI haiN| baccoM ke pAsa dRSTi bar3I nikharI hotI hai| hogI hI? tAjI hotI hai| bacce zIghra hI dekha lete haiM ki kahanA kucha--karanA kucha! baccoM se kahA jAtA hai: Izvara meM vizvAsa kro| eka tarapha kahA jAtA hai, satya se Digo mt| dUsarI tarapha kahA jAtA hai, vizvAsa kro| vizvAsa kA artha hI hotA hai--asty| Izvara ko jAnA nahIM--aura vizvAsa karo! yaha to asatya kA AdhAra ho gyaa| yaha to srota ho gayA, jahAM se bahuta asatya jnmeNge| kauna mAM-bApa apane baccoM se kahatA hai, Izvara ko jAnanA--taba maannaa| hara mAM-bApa apane baccoM ko kahatA hai, mAno--to jaanoge| aura mAnane kA artha jhUTha hotA hai| mAnane kA artha Page 65 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA hotA hai--jise jAnA nahIM use mAna lenaa| jise dekhA nahIM, use mAna lenaa| jisakI koI pratIti nahIM--use mAna lenaa| aMdhA AdamI prakAza ko mAnatA hai--jAnatA nhiiN| AMkha vAlA jAnatA hai; mAnane kI jarUrata nhiiN| AMkheM to nahIM dI jAtI--vizvAsa diyA jAtA hai| aura sAtha hI zikSA cala rahI hai ki satya kA anusaraNa kro| satya hI paramAtmA hai| yaha bhI ve hI loga kaha rahe haiM, jo kahate haiM ki paramAtmA meM vizvAsa kro| aura vizvAsa arthAta jhuutth| zraddhA to anubhava se paidA hotI hai| vizvAsa ajJAna ko chipAne kI ceSTA hai| vizvAsa bahuta sastA hai, udhAra hai, bAsA hai| ye vizvAsiyoM kI jamAtoM se to jamIna bharI hai| koI hiMdU, koI musalamAna, koI IsAI, koI jaina--ye saba vizvAsI haiN| saba aNdhe| kisI ne dekhA nhiiN| kisI ne jAnA nhiiN| jo tumheM samajhA rahe haiM, unhoMne bhI nahIM dekhA, unhoMne bhI nahIM jAnA, ve bhI jhUTha bola rahe haiN| magara isa DhaMga se bola rahe haiM ki jaise jAnA ho| isa bala se bola rahe haiM, jaise yaha unakA Atma-sAkSAtkAra ho| bejhijhaka bola rahe haiM! bApa beTe se kahatA hai, saca bolo| lekina beTA dekhatA hai ki bApa jItA to jhUTha hai! kabhI isI beTe ko kaha kara bheja detA hai; dvAra para koI khar3A hai--ki kaha do ki pitAjI ghara meM nahIM haiM? beTA dekhatA hai ki mAmalA kyA hai? saca bolUM, ki pitA jo kahate haiM, vaha mAnUM? yaha bhI sikhAyA jA rahA hai--AjJAkArI rho| AjJA maano| aura yaha bhI sikhAyA jA rahA hai-- saca bolo| para savAla yaha hai ki kabhI AjJA aura satya viparIta ho sakate haiN| phira kyA kareM? kabhI AjJA aisI ho sakatI hai ki agara mAneM, to jhUTha hotA hai; satya kA khaMDana hotA hai| aura agara satya boleM, to AjJAkAritA naSTa hotI hai| duvidhA khar3I ho jAtI hai| bacce ko tuma ulajhA rahe ho, sulajhA nahIM rahe ho| kahate to hoH hiMsA na kro| aura baccA dekhatA hai--tumhAre jIvana meM hiMsA hI hiMsA hai! tumhArI sArI kaThoratA--usase chipAI nahIM jA sktii| mAnA ki tuma pAnI chAna kara pIte hooge| pAnI chAna kara pIne meM kyA harjA hai! lAbha hI lAbha hai| svAsthya ke lie bhI acchA hai| haldI lage na phiTakarI, raMga cokhA ho jAe! pAnI chAna kara pI liyA--aura khUna binA chAne pI jAte ho! jainoM kI zikSA hai--ahiMsA prmodhrmH| aura jitanA zoSaNa jaina kara sakate haiM, koI dUsarA nahIM kara sktaa| tumane jaina bhikhArI dekhA? aura saba taraha ke bhikhArI dekhe hoMge--hiMdU, muslmaan| lekina tumane jaina bhikhArI dekhA? jaina bhikhArI hotA hI nhiiN| jainoM kI saMkhyA kitanI hai bhArata meM? kula paiMtIsa laakh| sattara karor3a logoM meM paiMtIsa lAkha koI saMkhyA hai! sAgara meM buuNd| lekina phira bhI jaina dikhAI par3ate haiN| kyoMki dhana hai| dhana kahAM se AtA hai? dhana kaise AtA hai? koI jaise utpAdana to karate nhiiN| byAja khA sakate haiN| pAnI chAna kara pI lete haiN| khUba binA chAne pI jAte haiM! beTA yaha dekhatA hai|... Page 66 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA tumane naciketA kI kathA to jaanii| kaThopaniSada usI kathA se zurU hotA hai| bUDhA bApa yajJa kiyA hai aura dAna kara rahA hai| naciketA, choTA-sA baccA, usake pAsa hI baiThA hai| bUDhA bApa samRddha hai, samrATa hai, aura dAna kyA kara rahA hai! jina gAyoM ne dUdha denA baMda kara diyA, ve dAna kara rahA hai| una gAyoM ko dAna kara rahA hai! to beTA dekhatA hai ki yaha kyA dhokhA ho rahA hai! yaha kaisA dAna? gAeM jo dUdha detI hI nahIM--yaha dAna huA, ki jisako de rahe ho, usakI phAMsI lagA rahe ho? to vaha pUchatA hai bApa ko ki Apa yaha kyA kara rahe haiM? ye gAeM dUdha to detI nahIM, inako dAna dene se kyA phAyadA? bApa tilamilA jAtA hai| bApa kabhI bardAzta nahIM krtaa| beTe kI svaccha dRSTi dekha pA rahI hai ki mAmalA kyA hai yaha! yaha kaisA dAna? krodha meM bApa kahatA hai, jyAdA bakavAsa mata kara, nahIM to tujhe bhI dAna kara dUMgA! naciketA sIdhA-sA baccA, vaha yahI pUchane lagA bAra-bAra ki mujhe kaba dAna kariegA? aba to yajJa bhI samApta huA jA rahA hai, mujhe kaba dAna kariegA? mujhe kisako dAna kariegA? bApa ne krodha meM kahA, tujhe mRtyu ko dAna kara duuNgaa| aba yaha krodhI AdamI--yaha dAna kara rahA hai; yajJa kara rahA hai! aura isake kharIde hue brAhmaNa, paMDita-purohita yazagAna kara rahe haiM! stutiyAM gA rahe haiM--ki tuma mahAdAnI ho! vaha beTA dekhatA hai--yaha kaisA dAna! usakI samajha ke bAhara hai| kyoMki abhI usake pAsa dekhane vAlI dRSTi hai| bar3oM ko jo nahIM dikhAI par3atA, vaha baccoM ko dikhAI par3a jAtA hai| bApa kA krodha--aisA krodha ki beTe ko kahatA hai ki mRtyu ko de duuNgaa| prasiddha kathA hai ki eka bahuta cAlabAja AdamI ne eka samrATa ko kahA ki Apake pAsa saba hai| sArI duniyA kI daulata hai| jo bhI isa pRthvI para suMdaratama hai, Apa usake mAlika haiN| lekina eka cIja kI kamI raha gii| kaheM to pUrI kara duuN| samrATa utsuka huaa| usane kahA, kisa cIja kI kamI raha gaI? vaha hamezA utsuka thA isa bAta meM ki kisI cIja kI kamI na raha jaae| kauna utsuka nahIM hai! phira vaha to samrATa thA-- cakravartI samrATa thaa| sArI pRthvI jIta cukA thaa| usake bhaMDAroM meM hIre-javAharAta bhare the| duniyA meM kisI ke pAsa itanI saMpadA na thii| to koI cIja kI kamI raha gaI--yaha bAta use akhrii| usake ahaMkAra ko coTa pdd'ii| usane kahA, bola, kauna-sI cIja kI kamI hai? jo bhI mUlya ho, maiM cukAne ko rAjI huuN| usane kahA, mUlya to bahuta lgegaa| usane kahA, usakI phikra hI mata kr| tU bola, cIja kauna-sI hai, jisakI kamI hai? usa cAlabAja AdamI ne khaa...| rahA hogA koI rAjanItijJa, koI kUTanItijJa koI bilakula chaMTA huA badamAza--usane kahA ki mahArAja, yaha zobhA nahIM detA ki Apa sAdhAraNa manuSyoM jaise vastra phneN| ye vastra to koI bhI pahana rahA hai| Apake lie to svarga se vastra lA sakatA hUM devatAoM ke| vahI Apake yogya hai| Page 67 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA samrATa ko thor3A to zaka huaa| vaha bhI kucha kama cAlabAja to na thaa| devatAoM ke vastra! usa AdamI ne kahA ki Apa socate hoMge ki yaha bAta saca nhiiN| kara ke dikhA de sakatA huuN| lA sakatA huuN| lekina kharca bahuta hai! samrATa ne kahA ki kharca kI koI phikra nhiiN| lekina agara dhokhA dene kI koziza kI, to gardana utAra luuNgaa| to yaha par3osa kA mahala hai merA, isameM calA jaa| kyA karanA hai? kitanA kharca hai? usane kahA, kharca kAhI lgegaa| kyoMki vahAM bhI rizvata calatI hai| dvArapAla se lekara pahuMcatepahaMcate devatAoM ke vastroM taka bahuta kharca ho jaaegaa| karor3oM kA kharca hai| kharca kI bAta karate hoM, to yaha bAta hI chor3a deN| kharca kI to pUche mt| jitanA mAMgUMgA, utanA denA pdd'egaa| samrATa ne kahA, ThIka hai| lekina dhyAna rakhanA: bhAgane kI koziza mata krnaa| isI mahala ke bhItara rahanA pdd'egaa| bAhara pahane lagavA die, phaujoM ke ghere DalavA die ki yaha AdamI bhAga na ske| aura roja vaha AdamI kabhI karor3a mAMge, kabhI do karor3a maaNge| patA nahIM aMdara kyA karatA thA--dvAra-daravAje baMda kara ke| para samrATa ne kahA jAegA kahAM bhAga kara! dhana bhI kahAM le jAegA! aura paMdraha dina bAda usane khabara bhejI ki vastra le AyA huuN| darabAra bhara gyaa| vaha AdamI eka bar3I suMdara maMjUSA meM vastra le kara aayaa| usane A kara maMjuSA rakhI aura samrATa se kahA, vastra to le aayaa| lekina devatAoM ne kahA ki eka zarta hai| ye sAdhAraNa vastra nahIM--devatAoM ke vastra haiN| ye unhIM ko dikhAI par3eMge, jo apane hI bApa se paidA hae haiM! samrATa ne kahA, isameM kyA ar3acana hai| yaha zarta svIkAra hai| usane peTI kholii| samrATa ko usameM kucha dikhAI na pdd'aa| peTI bilakula khAlI thI; dikhAI par3atA bhI kaise? usane kahA, mahArAja, ApakI pagar3I deM aura yaha devatAoM kI pagar3I leN| khAlI hAtha! aba samrATa agara yaha kahe ki mujhe dikhAI nahIM par3atA ki isameM kahAM pagar3I hai-- to siddha hogA ki apane bApa se paidA nahIM huaa| bar3A hairAna huaa| aura darabArI ekadama se prazaMsA karane lage ki ahA! kyA pagar3I haiM! kiraNoM kA jAla! cAMdattAre jar3e haiM! aisI pagar3I nahIM dekhii| dhanya ho gae dekha kr| saba darabAriyoM ko dikhAI par3a rahI hai! samrATa ne kahA, aba agara mujhe dikhAI na par3e, to jAhira hai ki maiM apane bApa se paidA nahIM huA! so dekhanI par3I pagar3I! jo pagar3I dikhAI par3atI thI, use beImAna ko de dii| usane use to peTI meM DAla diyaa| aura jo pagar3I thI hI nahIM, vaha samrATa ke sira para rakha dI aura kahA ki mahArAja, aba zobhA dekhate banatI hai! varNana nahIM ho sakatA isa zobhA kA! tAliyAM piTa gaIM, kyoMki darabAriyoM ne bhI eka dUsare se hor3a baaNdhii| kisI ko dikhAI nahIM par3a rahI thI pgdd'ii| aura jo thor3A jhijhake--jhijhakane hI se sAbita ho jaae| to tAliyAM jora se piTI aura eka dUsare se hor3a laga gaI prazaMsA meM, kyoMki jo jarA cupa raha jAe, kahIM zaka ho jAe ki yaha AdamI cupa kyoM khar3A hai! aura sabako yaha lagA--sabako bhItara yaha Page 68 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA lagA--ki mujhe hI bhara nahIM dikhAI par3a rahA hai! aba behatara yahI hai ki cupa rho| isa saMbaMdha meM ki kahanA ki mujhe nahIM dikhAI par3a rahI, kyoM apanI badanAmI karanI! kyoM mare bApa ko badanAma karanA! marI mAM ko badanAma karanA! sArI pratiSThA kho jaaegii| darabAra bhI kho jaaegaa| darabAra se nikAla bAhara kiyA jaauuNgaa| phira kamIja bhI utara gii| baniyAna bhI utara gii| dhotI bhI utara gii| aba samrATa khar3A hai-- sirpha apane laMgoTI bAMdhe hue! aura kyA prazaMsA ho rahI hai vastroM kI! aura jaba usane kahA ki mahArAja, laMgoTI bhI de deM! taba to use bahuta ghabar3AhaTa huii| pasInA bhI Ane lgaa| magara aba kare kyA! aba majabUrI thii| laMgoTI bhI gaI! usane peTI meM saba baMda kara liyA aura kahA ki kucha bheMTa mila jaae|...aur devatAoM ne kahA ki pahalI bAra pRthvI para ye vastra jA rahe haiN| aisA kabhI haA nhiiN| phira kabhI hogA nhiiN| yaha abhUtapUrva ghaTanA hai| isalie julUsa nikalanA caahie| ratha taiyAra kiyA jAe! aura janatA bAhara ikaTThI hai aura gAMva bhara meM rAjadhAnI meM khabara pahuMca gii| dUra-dUra se loga A gae the| rAjadhAnI ke rAjapatha ke donoM tarapha karor3oM loga khar3e the pratIkSA meM ki samrATa bAhara aaeN| AvAjeM A rahI thIM ki samrATa ke darzana karane haiM! kauna nahIM dekhanA cAhatA devatAoM ke vastra! aura vaha cAlabAja AdamI ratha para car3ha kara kuMDI pITatA gayA ki ye vastra unhIM ko dikhAI par3eMge, jo apane bApa se paidA hue haiN| nizcita hI sabhI apane bApa se paidA hue haiN| sabako vastra dikhAI pdd'e| aura kyA tAliyAM piTIM! aura saba dekha rahe ki samrATa bilakula naMgA baiThA hai| ThaMDa ke dina haiM; ThiThura rahA hai| dAMta baja rahe haiM! magara yaha zobhA-yAtrA cala rahI hai! magara saba prazaMsA kara rahe haiN| sirpha eka choTA-sA baccA apane bApa ke kaMdhe para baiTha kara A gayA thA dekhne| usane apane bApa se kahA ki daddU! samrATa bilakula naMgA hai! usake bApa ne kahA, cupa nAlAyaka! ullU ke par3he! bilakula cup| magara beTA bolA, cupa kaise rahUM? aura hairAnI mujhe isase bhI ho rahI hai ki saba loga vastroM kI prazaMsA kara rahe haiN| vastra to mujhe dikhAI nahIM pdd'te| Apako dikhAI par3ate haiM? usane kahA, hAM, dikhAI par3ate haiM? kyA suMdara vastra haiN| tujhako bhI dikhAI par3eMge, jarA umra bar3I honI caahie| abhI tU nAlAyaka hai, isalie nahIM dikhAI pdd'te| abhI tU baccA hai! sirpha eka bacce ne kahA thA usa bhIr3a meM ki samrATa naMgA hai| baccoM ke pAsa AMkha hotI hai, kyoMki abhI dhokhAdhar3I nahIM sIkhe; rAjanIti nahIM sIkhe; cAlabAjI nahIM sIkhe; gaNita nahIM sIkhe jiMdagI kaa| jiMdagI kA gaNita dhokhe kA gaNita hai| rAta tAroM se baca ke calatA hUM gumagusAroM se baca ke calatA hUM mujhako dhokhA diyA sahAroM ne aba sahAroM se baca ke calatA hai Page 69 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA inakI zikSA meM hI bhrAMti hai| ye jarUra tumheM kahA gayA hai, bolane se svarga milatA hai satya bhI aMta nahIM, sAdhya jAtI hai| ye jo tumheM zikSA de rahe haiM, ye jo tumhAre sahAre haiM, inase jarA sAvadhAna! jarA sajaga ! khuda pAkhaMDI haiM, aura tumheM bhI pAkhaMDa meM ghasITa rahe haiN| saca bolo kyoM? kyoM saca bolo? isalie saca bolo ki saca puNya milatA hai! satya bhI sAdhana hai! vaha bhI lAbha ke lie hai| nahIM - - sAdhana hai ! aura jaba satya sAdhana hotA hai, to ar3acana ho vahAM taka to AdamI satya bolegA, jahAM taka lAbha hone kI saMbhAvanA hai| aura jahAM hAni hone lagegI, vahAM kyA karegA? lAbha ke lie satya bolatA thaa| aba lAbha hotA nhiiN| aba jhUTha se lAbha ho rahA hai, taba AdamI kyA kare? aura yahI mAM-bApa, yahI zikSaka, yahI guru, yahI mahAtmA hamezA sikhA rahe haiM ki hamezA lAbha para dRSTi rkho| cAhe laukika lAbha ho, cAhe pAralaukika lAbha ho--lAbha meM pharka nhiiN| lAbha yAnI lobha kA vistAra / : kyA tuma socate ho tuma satya bologe, agara satya bolane kA pariNAma narka meM par3anA ho? nhiiN| tuma satya bolate ho, kyoMki satya bolane se svarga milatA hai svarga meM kyA milegA? apsarAeM mileNgii| urvaziyAM mileNgii| menakAeM mileNgii| kyA majA hai| yahAM striyoM se bhAgo, kyoMki strI naraka kA dvAra hai aura strI se bhAga kara svarga meM aura suMdara striyAM pAoge ! yaha kaisA ulaTA gaNita hai? yahAM tyAgo icchAoM ko aura svarga meM kyA hogA? kalpavRkSa mileMge? jinake nIce baiThakara icchA karate hI pUrI ho jaatii| yaha kyA beImAnI hai? -- musalamAnoM kA svarga, hiMduoM kA svarga, IsAiyoM kA svarga - vicAraNIya hai- bar3A vicAraNIya hai| sAre dharmoM kA svarga vicAraNIya hai kyoMki usase patA calatA hai ki tumhAre saMtoM, mahAtmAoM kI asalI icchA kyA hai| svarga kA patA nahIM calatA; sirpha tumhAre mahAtmAoM ke bhItara dabI huI vAsanAoM kA patA calatA hai| kalpavRkSa hiMduoM kaa| yahAM tapazcaryA kara rahe haiN| sira ke bala khar3e haiM? zarIra ko galA rahe haiN| kisa AzA meM isa AzA meM ki Aja nahIM kala sabhI icchAoM kI tRpti ho jaaegii| are, jiMdagI to cAra dina kI hai; gujara hI jaaegii| bhUkhe bhI rahanA par3A; naMge bhI rahanA par3A; tapa bhI karanA par3A gujara hI jaaegii| koI bahuta laMbI nahIM hai aura phira anaMta kAla taka anaMta kAla taka--khayAla rakhanA -- kalpavRkSa ke nIce majA hI majA hai! jo icchA karoge, tatkSaNa pUrI ho jAegI ! musalamAnoM ke svarga meM zarAba ke cazme baha rahe haiN| yahAM zarAba para pAbaMdI hai aura vahAM zarAba ke jharane baha rahe haiN| DubakI lo! tairo ! pIyo - pilaao| kucha kharca nahIM lgtaa| yahAM striyoM se tumhArA sAdhu-saMnyAsI baca baca kara calatA hai aura vahAM pAegA kyA? kAMcana - deha, svarNa jaisI deha jinakI aisI suMdara apsarAeM, jo sadA yuvA rahatI haiM, jo kabhI bUDhI nahIM hotii| jinake zarIra se pasInA nahIM nikltaa| usa abhIpsA se bharA hai| Page 70 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA svarga yAnI kyA? svarga zabda to kaMbala kI taraha hai| usake bhItara jarA jhAMkakara dekho, kyAkyA chipA hai| svarga to poTalI hai| poTalI kholo, taba tuma smjhoge| svarga zabda ke dhokhe meM mata par3a jaanaa| usake bhItara kyA-kyA chipA hai! musalamAnoM ke svarga meM, cUMki musalamAna dezoM meM samalaiMgikatA, homoseksualiTI bahuta pracalita rahI hai, to vahAM suMdara lar3akiyAM hI nahIM mileMgI, suMdara lar3ake bhI mileMge! hareM hI nahIM--gilmeM bhI! kyA gajaba hai! yahAM jo samalaiMgikatA meM par3A hai, usa jaisA pApI nahIM-- gilmeM bhI! kyA gajaba hai! yahAM jo samalaiMgikatA meM par3A hai, usa jaisA pApI nhiiN--vikRt| aura svarga meM devatA kyA kara rahe haiM? lar3akiyAM hI nahIM, lar3akoM ko bhI bhoga rahe haiM! zarma bhI nahIM AtI! pUcho IsAiyoM se ki unake svarga meM kyA hai? sAre svargoM ko chAna DAlo aura tuma vahI pAoge, jo tumhAre saMtoM-mahAtmAoM ne yahAM dabAyA hai, usako hI vahAM ubhArA hai| jo yahAM chor3A hai, usako hajAra-karor3a gunA kara ke vahAM pA lenA cAhA hai| hiMdU kahate haiM, yahAM eka paise kA dAna karo; eka rupae kA dAna karo--karor3a gunA milegA svarga meN| yaha sastA saudA hai| karane jaisA hai| yaha kisI bhI vyavasAyI ko jNcegaa| kisa dhaMdhe meM aisA milatA hai--eka rupayA lagAo aura karor3a rupae! sirpha lATarI meM milate haiN| svarga na haI--lATarI ho gaI! aura tumhAre mahAtmA lATarI meM lage hue haiN| ye kahate to haiM, saca bolo, magara satya se inheM prayojana nhiiN| inase pUcho, narka dekhA hai? svarga dekhA hai? Izvara dekhA hai? chor3o--Izvara, svarga, narka--bahuta dUrI kI bAteM ho giiN| AtmA dekhI hai? jo bhItara hI hai; jo tuma svayaM ho--usako pahacAnA hai? aura satya bolo! aura ye AtmA kA upadeza de rahe haiM logoM ko| aura Izvara kA upadeza de rahe haiN| aura svarga-narkoM kI bAteM batA rahe haiM logoM ko| maMdiroM meM nakze TaMge haiM! jo jamIna kA nakzA nahIM banA sake, unhoMne svarga-narka ke nakze banA lie haiM! svarga-narka kA nakzA banAnA AsAna hai| jamIna kA nakzA banAnA muzkila bAtI thii| yaha kyA majA hai! jainoM ke pAsa nakze haiM svarga aura narka ke| lekina pRthvI kA koI nakzA nahIM thaa| kyoMki pRthvI kA nakzA banAne ke lie to vijJAna ko AnA par3A, taba pRthvI kA nakzA bnaa| pRthvI ke nakze meM jhUTha nahIM cala sakatA thaa| pakar3a jaate| svarga-narka meM to mauja hai| jisakA dila Ae, jisakA jI cAhe, jaisA cAhe! eka choTA-sA baccA bar3I tallInatA se tasavIra banA rahA thaa| pharza para phailAe hae sAre kaagjaat| raMga bikhere he| aura bar3A tallIna thaa| usake pitA ne pUchA, bar3e tallIna ho| kyA kara rahe ho? usane kahA, Izvara kI tasavIra banA rahA hUM! bApa ne kahA, hadda ho gaI! Aja taka koI Izvara kI tasavIra nahIM banA paayaa| Izvara kaisA hai--yaha bhI patA nhiiN| beTe ne kahA, tthhro| merI tasavIra pUrI ho jAe; patA cala jAegA ki Izvara kaisA hai| jarA tasavIra pUrI ho jAne do; raMga bhara lene do, phira tuma dekha lenA ki Izvara kaisA hai! Page 71 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA Izvara kI tasavIra koI bhI banA sakatA hai aura vivAda ho nahIM sktaa| kyA vivAda karoge! mUla kA hI patA nahIM hai, to tasavIra ko kaise jAMcoge ki sahI ki galata? jaina kahate haiM--sAta narka haiN| hiMdU to eka hI narka se rAjI haiN| jaina kahate haiM--sAta narka haiM! usa samaya jaba mahAvIra ne janma liyA, saMjaya velaThThiputa nAma kA eka bahuta adabhuta vicAraka thaa| jaba usase kisI ne jA kara kahA ki jaina kahate haiM ki sAta narka haiM! usane kahA ki glt| sAta sau narka haiN| kaise taya karoge ki eka haiM ki sAta haiM ki sAta sau narka haiN| rAdhA svAmI saMpradAya ke mAnane vAle eka vyakti ne mujhe A kara pUchA ki ApakA kyA khayAla hai! hamAre guruoM kA vacana hai ki svarga caudaha khaMDoM meM baMTA hai| caudaha khaMDa haiN| aMtima khaMDa-- satya khaMDa--sacca khNdd--caudhvaaN| aura sirpha hamAre guru caudahaveM taka pahuMce haiN| bAkI acche loga hue| lekina kRSNa bhI basa sAtaveM taka phuNce| rAma bhI basa chaThaveM taka phuNce| mahAvIra aura buddha pAMcaveM taka phuNce| mohammada aura jIsasa to cauthe hI taka phuNce| sirpha inake guru, jinakA nAma bhI kisI ko patA nahIM, ve bhara caudahaveM taka pahuMce! maiMne kahA ki tumhAre guru bilakula ThIka kahate haiN| ve caudahaveM hI meM haiN| unhoMne kahA, matalaba! maiMne kahA ki paMdraha haiN| maiM paMdrahaveM meM baiThA huA huuN| unako dekha rahA hUM laTakA huA--caudahaveM meM! ve mujhase pUchate haiM bAra-bAra ki paMdrahaveM taka kaise AUM? unhoMne kahA, Apa bhI kyA bAta kara rahe haiM! are, kisI ne paMdraha pahale batAe nahIM nahIM! maiMne kahA, batAte hI ve kaise? jaba paMdraha taka koI pahuMcegA, tabhI batAegA n| jaise tumhAre guru ne caudaha batAe--jaba caudahaveM taka phuNce| aba becAre mahAvIra kaise batAeM! ve agara pAMcaveM hI meM aTake haiN...| koI chaThaveM meM aTakA hai| koI sAtaveM meM aTakA hai| kRSNa se pUchoge caudahaveM kI, to ve kaise batAeMge! sAtaveM kI batA sakate haiM bahuta se bhut| aba maiM paMdrahaveM taka pahuMcA, to paMdrahaveM kI batA rahA huuN| aura tumhAre guru caudahaveM meM hI aTake haiN| ve mujhase pUchate haiM bArabAra ki paMdrahaveM taka kaise AeM! ve to bar3e nArAja ho ge| maiMne kahA, tuma thor3A soco, ye baccoM jaisI bAtoM meM ulajhe hue ho| bacakAnI bAtoM meM ulajhe hae ho| aura isako jJAna samajhe ho! aura baccoM ko samajhA rahe ho ki saca bolo| acche kAma kro| kauna-sA kAma acchA hai? kisa kAma ko tuma acchA kahate ho? kisa kasauTI para kasate ho? gaU-mAtA kI sevA karanA acchA hai? to gaU-bhakta haiM isa deza meM! AdamI ko jInA muzkila ho rahA hai--gaU kI ciMtA par3I hai! aura gaUeM mara rahI haiM, sar3a rahI haiN| jaisA isa deza meM sar3a rahI haiM--duniyA meM kahIM nahIM sar3a rahI haiM! duniyA bhara meM gAeM svastha haiM, suMdara haiN| kitanA dUdha detI haiM duniyA meM gaaeN| aura ye gaUmAtA ke bhakta--purI ke zaMkarAcArya se lekara gujarAta ke zaMbhU mahArAja taka--ye sAre ke sAre gaU-mAtA ke bhkt| aura dUdha gAya detI hai AdhAra sera! svIDana meM detI hai cAlIsa ser| aura koI gaU-bhakta nhiiN| gaUeM bhI khUba haiM! beToM para nArAja hotI haiN| bhaktoM para bilakula prasanna hI nahIM haiN| Page 72 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA bhakti se kyA khAka kucha hogA? lekina kisI kI dRSTi meM jIvana bhara gaU sevA yaha acchA kArya hai| kaise-kaise loga haiN| kisa bAta ko acchA kahate ho isa duniyA meM aisI koI bAta nahIM, jisako kahIM na kahIM acchA na mAnA jAtA ho - aura usI bAta ko kahIM na kahIM burA na mAna jAtA ho| aba jaise jaina rAtri ko bhojana nahIM krte| vaha mahApApa hai aura musalamAna jaba ye upavAsa karate haiM, to rAtri ko bhojana karate haiN| vaha mahApuNya hai| dina bhara bhojana na kreNge| dina bhara upavAsa - rojA rAta bhojana kreNge| taba rojA tor3A jAtA hai, taba upavAsa tor3A jAtA hai aura jainoM ke lie mahApApA rAtri bhojana mahApApa sUraja DUbA ki bAta khatama phira bhojana nahIM kara skte| ; -- kisako acchA kahate ho? kyA kasauTI hai? aba taka koI mAnavIya kasauTI tumhAre sAmane hai ? kRSNa arjuna se kahate haiM ki jI bhara kara mAra, kyoMki AtmA na maratI hai, na mArI jA sakatI hai tU kahAM bhAgA jA rahA hai? arjuna para lagatA hai- jaina zAstroM kA prabhAva par3a gayA thA ! usa samaya jainoM ke bar3e tIrthaMkara neminAtha maujUda the--usa kAla meN| ve kRSNa ke cacere bhAI the| lagatA hai neminAtha kI chAyA par3a gaI arjuna para bhI arjuna bar3I jJAna kI bAteM bolane lgaa| usane kahA, maiM jAtA huuN| kyA karanA mAra kara ina sabako ? kyA milegA itane logoM ko mAra kara ? aura thor3e loga nahIM mare agara hama unake hisAba ko mAna kara caleM, to koI savA araba loga mre| hAlAMki itane loga mara nahIM skte| yaha bAta jhUTha hai| savA araba AdamI usa samaya sArI duniyA meM nahIM the| buddha ke samaya meM bhArata kI kula AbAdI do karor3a thii| to kRSNa ke samaya meM to eka karor3a se jyAdA nahIM ho sakatI-pUrI AbAdI / aura jarA soco bhIH kurukSetra ke maidAna meM kitane AdamI khar3e kara sakate ho? phuTabAla yA hAkI kA maica karanA ho, to muzkila par3a jAe, ki agara eka lAkha AdamI dekhane ikaTThe ho jAeM, to musIbata ho jAe vahAM eka araba nahIM, savA araba AdamI mAre ge| jahAM savA araba AdamI mAre gae hoM, vahAM kama se kama dasa araba AdamI lar3e hoMge nahIM to mAregA kauna! ki unhoMne khuda hI chAtI meM churA mAra liyA aura mara gae? Akhira hAthI ghor3oM ko bhI khar3A karane kI jagaha cAhie jahAM savA araba AdamI mare hoM, vahAM kitane ratha aura kitane hAthI aura kitane ghor3e rahe hoNge| ye kurukSetra meM baneMge? pUrA bhArata bhI agara yuddha kSetra bana jAe to / ... abhI bhI bhArata kI AbAdI kula satara karor3a hai| eka araba hogI isa sadI ke pUre hote-hote / yaha pUre bhArata ko agara hama yuddha kA maidAna banA leM, to zAyada savA araba AdamiyoM ko mArA jA ske| taba bhI bar3I bhIr3abhAr3a ho jaaegii| -- Page 73 of 255 magara agara mAna lo ki savA araba AdamI mAre gae, to arjuna ThIka hI kaha rahA hai ki itane AdamI mAranA aura rAjya ke lie, pada-pratiSThA ke lie!... cAra dina kI cAMdanI phira http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA aMdherI rAta! isake lie kyA itanA upadrava karanA? aura ina sabako mAra kara phAyadA kyA hogA? rAjya hI milegA! na aura mauta AegI--saba china jAegA! aura apanoM ko mAra kr...| ye saba apane hI hai kyoMki parivAra kA hI jhagar3A thaa| usa tarapha bhI apane loga haiM, isa tarapha bhI apane loga haiN| donoM tarapha riztedAra hI khar3e haiN| koI bhAI hai| koI cacerA bhAI hai| koI mamerA bhAI hai| koI bahina ke riztedAra haiN| koI kisI aura tarapha se riztedAra haiN| eka hI guru ke ziSya haiM ye saba, droNAcArya ke| ziSya isa tarapha lar3a rahe haiM, droNAcArya usa tarapha lar3a rahe haiN| kRSNa isa tarapha khar3e haiM, unakI phaujeM usa tarapha khar3I haiM! kisako mAra rahe ho? kyA phAyadA hai? lekina kRSNa ne kahA ki arjuna, ajJAna kI bAteM na kr| AtmA na to maratI hai, na mArI jA sakatI hai| na hanyate hanyamAne shriire| zarIra maratA hai--AtmA to maratI nhiiN| nainaM dahati pAvakaH nainaM chiMdaMti zastrANi--ta to zastra cheda sakate haiM aura na Aga jalA sakatI hai| tU kaisI ajJAna kI bAteM kara rahA hai? jI bhara kara maar| koI pApa nahIM hai| kisako mAneM saca? mahAvIra kahate haiM--kadama bhI samhAla-samhAlakara rkho| kahIM cIMTI na mara jaae| AdamI kI to bAta chor3a do, mahAvIra ke saMbaMdha meM kahA jAtA hai, ve rAta karavaTa nahIM badalate the ki rAta aMdhere meM karavaTa badaleM--naMgadhaDaMga to the hI, jamIna para sote the, koI bistara vagairaha to thA nahIM; palaMga vagairaha kA upayoga to kara nahIM sakate the--yaha saba to pApa dhyAna rakhanA, palaMga para mare to narka jaaoge| aura akasara loga palaMga para hI marate haiN| kucha saubhAgyazAlI logoM ko chor3a kara--jo havAI jahAja meM mara jAte haiM; ki koI relagAr3I meM mara jAte haiM; koI kAra ke eksiDeMTa meM mara jAte haiN| kucha thor3e se saubhAgyazAlI logoM ko chor3a do...| jisako tuma durghaTanA kahate ho| aura jisako tuma kahate ho ThIka-ThIka maranA, vaha to khATa para hI hotA hai| ninyAnabe pratizata AdamI to khATa para hI marate haiM! khATa se jarA sAvadhAna rhnaa| maiM jabalapura bIsa sAla rhaa| vahAM eka gAlI calatI hai, jo aura mulka meM kahIM nahIM cltii| vaha gAlI hai--terI khATa khar3I kara dUMgA! maiM bhI bahuta cauMkA, jaba pahalI daphA sunI--ki khATa khar3I kara dUMgA--isakA matalaba! unhoMne kahA, isakA matalaba ki khATa kI arthI banA deNge| khATa khar3I kara deMge! khATa para hI loga marate haiN| vaha marane kI gAlI hai| ve marane kA abhizApa de rahe haiM ki khATa ko terI arthI banA deMge! jaba koI maratA hai, to kahate haiM, usakI khATa khar3I ho gaI! ve to leTa gae; unakI khATa khar3I ho gaI! ve kyA leTe--arthI uTha gaI! mahAvIra koI khATa para nahIM sote the| hoziyAra AdamI rahe hoMge! are, khATa para maranA ho jAtA hai! aisI jhaMjhaTa hI kyoM lenaa| jamIna para hI sote| aura jamIna para cIMTe-makor3e-kIr3A...! aura bhArata meM kyA-kyA jIva-jaMtu palate haiN| jaba to caurAsI karor3a yoniyoM kA khayAla aayaa| Page 74 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kisI ko nahIM AyA duniyA meM yaha khyaal| hamako AyA khayAla! kyA-kyA macchar3a! kyA-kyA khaTamala! are, khATa bhI chor3a doge, to bhI khaTamala nahIM chuutteNge| to mahAvIra becAre karavaTa nahIM badalate rAta meM, ki kahIM karavaTa badalane meM koI khaTamala daba jAe; ki koI macchar3a daba jAe! aura naMga-dhaDaMga mahAvIra ko khaTamala aura macchar3a satAte to bahuta hoMge, isameM koI zaka nhiiN| mahAvIra ne kahA bhI hai apane ziSyoM ko ki dhyAna meM macchar3a bAdhA ddaaleNge| phikra na krnaa| yaha parIkSA hai| macchar3a sadA se duzmana haiM dhyAniyoM ke! maiMne to eka macchar3a ko apane baccoM se kahate sunA hai ki beTA, agara Aja ThIka se vyavahAra kiyA, to subaha hI buddhA-haoNla meM le caleMge pravacana sunavAne! magara agara ThIka se vyavahAra kiyA to! agara gar3abar3ajhAlA kie, phira nahIM le jAeMge! macchar3a purAne duzmana haiN| mahAvIra ne kahA hai ki macchar3a satAeMge, ye vyavadhAna khar3A kareMge dhyAna meN| tapasvI ina para dhyAna nahIM detaa| tapasvI to apane dhyAna meM hI lagA rahatA hai| kATe jAo--koI phikra nhiiN| hilatA hI nahIM; DulatA hI nhiiN| aura mahAvIra ko to aura bhI macchar3a satAte rahe hoMge, kyoMki jainI kahate haiM ki jaba sAMpa ne unako kATA, to khUna nahIM--dUdha nikalA! aba macchar3a chor3eMge dUdha pInA! aisA sastA milatA ho dUdha--binA DerI gae--ki mahAvIra ko cUsA--aura dUdha pIyA! pI-pI kara phUle na samAte hoMge! to vaha to mahAvIra kahate haiM, karavaTa bhI samhala kara lenaa| rAta lenA hI mt| eka hI karavaTa sote rahe becaare| aura idhara eka kRSNa haiM, jo kahate haiM ki jI bhara kara maar| koI harjA nhiiN| kauna-sA acchA kAma hai? jIsasa zarAba pIte the| zarAba pInA acchA kAma hai yA burA? morArajI bhAI svamUtra pIte haiN| aba svamUtra pInA acchA kAma hai yA burA? kisako kahoge? kisako taya karoge? kaise taya karoge? rAmakRSNa paramahaMsa machalI khAte the| baMgAlI aura machalI na khAeM bahuta muzkila! machalI aura cAvala--isake binA baMgAlI banatA nhiiN| isalie to bilakula phusaphUsA hotA hai| isalie kahate haiM--baMgAlI baabuu| bAbU to baMgAlI hI hotA hai| paMjAbI ko bAbU nahIM kaha sakate tum| vaha bAbU hotA hI nhiiN| vaha bilakula Thosa hotA hai| baMgAlI bAbU hotA hai| baMgAla kI havA meM thor3A--bihArI bAbU hotA hai| magara thodd'aa| pacAsa prtisht| phira vahIM khatama ho jAte haiN| asalI bAbU vahIM khatama ho jAte haiN| paMjAbI ko bAbU kahoge? ye vinoda baiThe haiM--inako bAbU kahoge! ye hamAre saMta mahArAja baiThe haiM-- inako bAbU kahoge! ye laTTha le kara khar3e ho jaaeNge| ye samajheMge--gAlI de rahe ho| bAbU kA matalaba bhI gAlI hI hotA hai| bAbU kA matalaba hotA hai: bU-sahita; jisameM bAsa AtI ho| asala meM aMgrejoM ne baMgAliyoM ke lie yaha gAlI khojI thii| kyoMki baMgAliyoM meM machalI kI bAsa AtI hai| Page 75 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA pahalI rAjadhAnI aMgrejoM ne kalakattA meM banAI aura baMgAliyoM se pAlA pdd'aa| aura baMgAliyoM meM bAsa AtI hai--AegI hii| machalI khAoge, to bAsa nahIM AegI, to kyA hogA! jhara-jhara ke roeM-roeM se machalI kI gaMdha utthegii| to aMgrejoM ko bAsa Ane ke kAraNa unhoMne yaha zabda khojavAyA ki inako nAma kyA denA-- bA-bU--bU-sahita! aura kyA majA hai! jo gAlI kI taraha upayoga kiyA, vaha sammAna bana gayA! jaba sattAdhikArI gAlI bhI dete haiM, to vaha sammAnajanaka ho jAtA hai| kyoMki bAbU ve unhIM ko kahate the, jo unake pAsa the| pAsa the matalaba--UMce padoM para the| gavarnara ke pAsa jo thA, vaha gavarnara kI kauMsila kA sadasya thaa| to bAbU sammAnita zabda ho gyaa| bAbU koI hI ho sakatA thA; sabhI nahIM ho sakate the| kalekTara, DipTI kalekTara--ye bAbU the| to phira sammAna kA zabda ho gyaa| phira hama jinako bhI sammAna denA cAhate haiM, unako kahate haiM--bAbU--bAbU jagajIvana rAma! unako bhI zarama nahIM AtI ki kaha deM ki kyA gAlI de rahe ho! zAyada patA bhI na ho| jaggU bhaiyA--behatara! bAbU rAjeMdraprasAda! nAma ke pahale hI gAlI lagI hai! rAmakRSNa to machalI khAte the| aba machalI khAne ko acchA kAma kahoge ki burA? vivekAnaMda bhI machalI khAte the| kazmIra ke brAhmaNa bhI mAMsAhArI haiN| isalie to neharU mAMsAhArI haiN| kyoMki ve kazmIrI braahmnn| kisako acchA kahate ho| kyA kasauTI hai acche kI? bAhara ke jagata meM koI kasauTI nahIM hai| kasauTI to sirpha eka hai aura vaha dhyAna hai| tuma jaba dhyAna ko upalabdha hoo, to tumheM patA calatA hai: kyA mere lie ThIka hai, aura kyA mere lie glt| aura jo tumhAre lie ThIka hai, jarUrI nahIM sabake lie ThIka ho| aura jo tumhAre lie galata hai--jarUrI nahIM, sabake lie galata ho| jo tumhAre lie amRta hai, vaha kisI ke lie jahara ho sakatA hai| aura jo tumhAre lie jahara hai, vaha kisI ke lie auSadhi ho sakatI hai| lekina yaha vyaktigata nirNaya hogaa| isakI koI sAmUhika dhAraNA nahIM ho sktii| magara hara mAM-bApa apane baccoM ke Upara, rajanIkAMta! thopa detA hai ki yaha acchA kAma hai| isako kro| jo usakI dhAraNA hai acche kAma kii| isakA kula pariNAma itanA hotA hai ki vaha acche kAma kare yA na kre...| kyoMki ho sakatA hai, vaha acchA kAma usako ruce hI n| vaha usako prItikara hI na pdd'e| lekina isakA eka pariNAma jarUra hogA--aura vaha yaha hogA ki vaha pAkhaMDI ho jaaegaa| Upara-Upara se dikhAegA acchA kAma kara rahA hai, aura bhItarabhItara se jo use karanA hai, vaha kregaa| isalie usake dohare cehare ho jaaeNge| usakI jiMdagI do khaMDoM meM baMTa jaaegii| maiM eka jaina brahmacArI ke sAtha yAtrA ko niklaa| bar3I iMpAlA kAra! aura jaba jaina brahmacArI usameM A kara baiThe, to unake pahale unake ziSya ne iMpAlA gAr3I kI gaddI para caTAI lA kara rakha dI! phira usa para caTAI para brahmacArI jI virAjamAna ho ge| Page 76 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maiM to bar3A hairAna huaa| maiMne kahA ki maiM kucha samajhA nahIM yaha caTAI kA raaj| gaddI kAphI sukhada hai, aba aura isa para caTAI kisalie rakhanI ? unhoMne kahA, hama to caTAI para hI baiThate haiN| hameM gaddI se kyA lenA-denA ! -- iMpAlA kAra kI gaddI para baiThe hue haiM, magara bIca meM caTAI ! ve apanI caTAI para baiThe hue haiM! maiMne kahA, tumhArI caTAI AkAza meM ur3a rahI hai? yaha iMpAlA kAra cala rahI hai ki tumhArI caTAI cala rahI hai? unhoMne kahA, hameM kyA matalaba! maiM AcArya tulasI ke eka aNuvrata sammelana meM bolA, to unako bar3I ar3acana huI ar3acana yaha huI ki koI bIsa hajAra loga ikaTThe hue the ve saba merI bAta suna sake, samajha ske| ve khuda bole, to binA mAika ke bole| to kitane loga samajheM ! sau do sau loga suna paae| isakA koI pariNAma nahIM huaa| dUsare dina dekhA ki mAika laga gyaa| maiMne unase pUchA ki jaina muni to mAika kA upayoga nahIM karate, kyoMki jaina zAstroM meM ullekha nahIM hai| ho bhI kaise ? mAika thA bhI nahIM una dinoM / to Apa mAika kA upayoga kaise kara rahe haiM? unhoMne kahA, maiM upayoga nahIM kara rhaa| maiM to bola rahA huuN| aba kisI ne mAika lA kara rakha diyA, to maiM kyA karUM ! aura taba se bIsa sAla ho gae, AcArya tulasI kyA kareM ye to kahate kisI se ki mAika rakho, aba kyA dohare jhUTha calate haiN| yaha unake hI izAre para mAika rakhA gayA hai| isake pahale kyoM nahIM rakhA gayA thA? usa dina jo unhoMne dekhA ki unakI bAta kA koI pariNAma nahIM huA, to unako dhakkA lgaa| ahaMkAra ko coTa laga gii| to usa dina se mAika rakhA jAne lgaa| izArA unhoMne hI kiyA hogA -magara pIche ke daravAje se / koI na koI mAika lA kara rakha detA hai-- roja ! aba becAre apanA bola rahe haiM; unako to apanA bolanA hai| ve nahIM ki na rkho| Page 77 of 255 to maiMne kahA, ThIka hai| agara koI mAika uThA le - phira ? unhoMne kahA, matalaba ! maiMne kahA, kala maiM mAika uThA kara batA duuNgaa| usa dina se jo merI unase khaTapaTa ho gaI, vaha calatI hai| maiMne mAika uThAyA nahIM; sirpha kahA thA ki kala maiM uThA kara batA duuNgaa| magara taba se unake mana meM eka duzmanI chir3a gii| kyoMki unakA hI mujhe lene jo Ane aba yaha bhI izArA kahA nahIM thaa| yaha dUsare dina to merA jo pravacana honA thA, vaha unhoMne radda hI kara diyaa| sammelana thaa| pravacana hI radda nahIM kiyA ki kahIM maiM mAika na uThA lUM, vAle the, jahAM mujhe ThaharAyA gayA thA ve lene hI nahIM Ae vakta para kiyA hogA kyoMki yaha maiMne nijI taura se kahA thA, kisI aura se to kaise pravacana radda huA? mujhe koI lene nahIM AyA -- yaha kaise huA ? aura maiMne unase kahA ki koI A kara Apa khAnA khA rahe haiM aura gau-mAtA kA gobara rakha de, to Apa khA leMge ki maiM kyA karUM aba kyA bAteM karate haiM! isane thAlI meM parosa diyA to ve kahane lage, http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maiMne kahA ki maiM sirpha yaha pUche rahA hUM ki yaha mAika jo rakhA gayA hai, sApha-sApha kyoM nahIM kahate ki mAika se bolanA hai! bolo mAika se, mujhe koI etarAja nhiiN| maiM to kahatA hUM ki bolanA hI caahie| eka jaina sAdhvI mujhe milane aaii| dekhA, usane paira para kapar3e kI paTTiyAM bAMdha rakhI haiN| maiMne pUchA, kyA huA! to vaha bolI ki aba dhUpa hai aura paira meM chAle ho gae haiN| malatA hai| nAhaka ye ciMdiyAM bAMdhanA! isase jUtA kyoM nahIM pahana letI? jUte kA zAstroM meM virodha hai! to cappala pahana le| cappala to thI nahIM usa samaya, to cappala kA koI virodha hai bhI nhiiN| maiMne kahA, zAstra meM to maiM rAstA nikAla sakatA huuN| cappala kA ullekha hI nahIM hai| cappala pahana le| dekha, maiM cappala pahanatA hUM ki nahIM! zAstra sammata eka hI bAta karatA hUM bs| ki jUtA nahIM phntaa| jUtA mujhe rAsa nahIM aataa| tU cappala pahana le|| aura cappala to aba plAsTika kI bana sakatI hai; rabara kI bana sakatI hai| camar3e kA jUtA banatA thA una dinoM, isalie mahAvIra ne kahA ki camar3e kA jUtA mata phnnaa| kapar3e kA jUtA banatA nahIM thaa| rabara kA jUtA banatA nahIM thaa| nahIM to manA nahIM krte| kyoMki camar3e kA matalaba hai ki hiMsA hogii| kisI na kisI jAnavara ko mArA jaaegaa| usakI khAla udher3I jaaegii| mata karanA itanI hiNsaa| magara aba to koI savAla nahIM hai| aba to plAsTika kI bhI cappaleM haiM, jisameM kisI kI koI mRtyu nahIM hotii| aura phira ye itanI paTTiyAM bAMdhanA aura gaMdI paTTiyAM, kyoMki vaha rAste para calegI paTTiyAM bAMdha kr| sArA paira baMdhA huA hai kapar3e se!... to usane kahA ki vaha ThIka hai| lekina maiMne apane gurudeva ko puuchaa| to guru ne kahA ki itanA kara sakatI hai ki paTTiyAM bAMdha sakatI hai| ve bhI bAMdhate haiM paTTiyAM--garmI ke dina meN| svabhAvataH mahAvIra calate the, to miTTI thI rAste para; aba sImeMTa hai| sImeMTa hI nahIM, kolatAra kI sar3akeM haiN| aura garmI meM kolatAra pighalatA hai, usa para jaina muni aura sAdhviyoM ko calavAnA! narka hogA kahIM Age--inako nAhaka yahIM narka meM DAla diyA! kolatAra garma ho jAtA hai, pighala jAtA hai--usa para inake paira jale jAte haiN| aba ye na pahaneM jUte, to kapar3e bAMdha lete haiN| magara kapar3A bAMdhanA--yaha behUdA DhaMga huA! jUtA hai kyA Akhira? kapar3A bAMdhane kA hI ThIkaThIka, samucita, vaijJAnika rAstA hai| lekina isa taraha kA pAkhaMDa paidA ho jAtA hai| acche kAma kI dhAraNA tuma agara dUsare se loge rajanIkAMta, to isase pAkhaMDa paidA hone vAlA hai| hiMsA na karo--samajhAyA jAtA hai| magara tumheM kucha bodha nahIM hai, Atmabodha nahIM hai| tuma jo bhI karo, usameM hiMsA ho jaaegii| kaise bacoge hiMsA se? jainoM ke hisAba se to phala bhI khAnA hiMsA hai--kyoMki usameM bhI jIvana hai--vRkSa meN| phala meM bhI jIvana hai| phala tor3anA hiMsA hai; jaba taka ki phala paka kara apane Apa na gira jaae| Page 78 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA aura taba taka tote, aura kaue, aura jamAne bhara ke pazu-pakSI, ve nahIM chodd'eNge| ve tumhAre pahale khA jaaeNge| pakane ke pahale unako patA cala jAtA hai| tuma taka bacane deMge ve! girane ke pahale khA jaaeNge| pakA phala jaba gire apane Apa, to hiMsA nahIM hai| tumane tor3A to hiMsA hai| sabjI khAoge-- hiMsA hai| isalie jainoM ne khetIbAr3I baMda kara dii| kyoMki khetIbAr3I meM to vRkSa kATane par3eMge, paudhe kATane par3eMge; aura hiMsA hogI--mahAna hiMsA hogI! magara gehUM tuma khA rahe ho| koI dUsarA kATa rahA hai| lekina kATa tumhAre lie rahA hai| tumane kisI ko paise de kara kisI kI hatyA karavA dii| kyA tuma socate ho, tuma hatyA ke bhAgIdAra nahIM? kyA tuma socate ho, jisane hatyA kI, vahI bhAgIdAra hai? jyAdA to tumhI bhAgIdAra ho| tumane hI paisA de kara hatyA karavA dii| to mAlI bagIce meM kAma kara rahA hai paise le kr| kheta meM kisAna kAma kara rahA hai, kyoMki paisA milegaa| karavA to tuma rahe ho| kaTavA tuma rahe ho| magara tuma nizciMta ho ki hiMsA maiM nahIM kara rahA; hiMsA koI aura kara rahA hai! hameM kyA lenA-denA! hama to alaga khar3e haiN| hama to dUra khar3e haiN| hiMsA to zvAsa lene meM bhI ho rahI hai| eka bAra jaba tuma zvAsa lete ho, to kama se kama eka lAkha jIvANu marate haiN| kaise bacoge hiMsA se? Atmabodha ho, to tuma jo bhI karoge, usameM prema hogaa| maiM hiMsA se bacane ko nahIM khtaa| nahIM kaha sktaa| kyoMki jIvana hI hiMsA hai| maiM to itanA hI kaha sakatA hUM ki kitanA tumhArA prema pragAr3ha ho jAe, utanI kama hiNsaa| aura prema agara paripUrNa ho jAe, to abhI vaijJAnikoM ne khoja kI hai ki agara vRkSoM ko bhI prema se kATA jAe, to hiMsA nahIM hai| isake aba to vaijJAnika sabUta upalabdha haiN| kyoMki isa taraha ke yaMtra bana gae haiM, jaise tumane kArDiyogrAma dekhA, jisameM tumhAre hRdaya kI dhar3akanoM kI jAMca-parakha kI jAtI hai| jaise nabja tumhArI dekhatA hai cikitsaka, yA tumhArA raktacApa dekhatA hai, vaise hI sUkSma yaMtra bana gae haiM, jo vRkSoM kI saMvedanazIlatA ko AMkate haiN| jaba vRkSa dukhI hotA hai, to yaMtravata meM se cIkha kI AvAja AtI hai| aura jaba vRkSa AnaMdita hotA hai, to yaMtra meM se dUsarI AvAja AtI hai--sumadhura--jaise gIta gA rahA ho! izAre yaMtra meM A jAte haiN| grApha bana jAtA hai, ki vRkSa dukhI hai yA sukhI hai| jaba koI A kara vRkSa ko krUratA se kATane lagatA hai, to cIkha uTha AtI hai yaMtra meN| grApha ekadama bigar3a jAtA hai; ekadama astavyasta ho jAtA hai| lekina agara tuma prema se vRkSa ko kaho ki eka phala mujhe caahie| tuma cakita hooge| vRkSa yUM bolate nahIM, lekina tumhAre prema ko samajheMge, tumhArI bhASA ko samajhate haiN| tuma agara prema se kaho, mujhe eka phala cAhie; maiM bhUkhA huuN| tumhArI bar3I kRpA hogI--mujhe eka phala de do| aura tuma eka phala prema se tor3a lo, to yaMtra meM grApha banatA hai, jisameM koI cIkha-pukAra nahIM--koI cIkha-pukAra nahIM! grApha Page 79 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA saMgItapUrNa banA rahatA hai| astavyasta nahIM hotA; asaMgata nahIM hotA; visaMgata nahIM hotaa| rekhAeM ekadama arAjaka nahIM ho jaatiiN| vahI pUrNa layabaddhatA banI haratI hai| aura cakita hooge tuma yaha jAna kara ki eka vRkSa ko tuma jaba kATate ho, to AsapAsa ke khar3e vRkSa bhI dukhI hote haiN| vahI vRkSa dukhI nahIM hotaa| una vRkSoM kI saMvedanazIlatA bhI jAMcI gaI hai| pAyA gayA hai ki ve saba dukhI ho jAte haiN| aura yUM hI nahIM ki eka vRkSa ko kATane para dukhI hote haiN| tuma eka pakSI ko mAro, to bhI vRkSa dukhI hote haiN| to mahAvIra ne ThIka kahA ki vRkSoM meM jIvana hai| mahAvIra pahale vyakti the, jinhoMne kahA ki vRkSoM meM paripUrNa jIvana hai--utanA hI, jitanA tuma meN| bAta to sahI khii| dhyAna ke anubhava se khii| lekina pariNAma jainoM meM kyA haA! kula itanA huA ki inhoMne khetIbAr3I baMda kara dii| pariNAma yaha honA cAhie thA ki unheM khetIbAr3I kA koI nayA sRjanAtmaka, premapUrNa mArga khojanA thaa| keneDA ke eka vizvavidyAlaya meM unhoMne eka hI taraha ke paudhe lagAe--do paMktiyoM meM, thor3e se phAsale pr| unako eka-sI khAda dii| eka-sA pAnI diyaa| koI aura bheda nhiiN| barAbara umra ke paudhe lgaae| lekina eka paMkti meM paudhoM ko mAlI ne prema diyaa| thpthpaae| do bAta kre| unase kahe ki jaldI bar3e ho jAo! pratIkSA kara rahA huuN| khilo| phUla bne| aura dUsaroM kI bilakula upekSA kre| use koI bAta nhiiN| unakI tarapha se pITha kara ke calA aae| unako suvidhA utanI hI de, jitanI pahale ko, lekina prema bilakula nhiiN| aura cakita hae vaijJAnika yaha jAna kara ki jina paudhoM ko prema diyA gayA, ve dugune bar3e he| unake phUla dugune bar3e he| unake phUloM kI zAna aur| unakI gaMdha aur| aura jina paudhoM ko koI prema nahIM diyA gayA, ve adhUre hI bddh'e| unake phUla bhI choTe aae| unakI gaMdha bhI vaisI pragAr3ha na thii| unakA sauMdarya aura nikhAra bhI vaisA na thaa| agara maiM tumase kahUMgA, to yaha nahIM kahUMgA ki khetIbAr3I baMda kara do| maiM tumheM khetIbAr3I kA nayA DhaMga sikhaauuNgaa| kyoMki khetIbAr3I kaise baMda ho sakatI hai? koI to kregaa| tuma binA bhojana ke to nahIM raha skte| mahAvIra bhI nahIM raha skte| koI jaina nahIM rasa sktaa| to koI khetIbAr3I kregaa| to phira khetIbAr3I karane kA koI premapUrNa DhaMga khojanA caahie| jaba khetIbAr3I karanI hI hai, jaba bagIcA lagAnA hI hogA, to koI nayA DhaMga khojanA hI hogaa| aise bhagor3epana se kAma nahIM clegaa| hiMsA mata karo--itane se kAma nahIM clegaa| prema kro| vidhAyakatA denI hogii| hiMsA mata karo--yaha nakArAtmaka bAta hai| nakAra se jIvana nahIM jIyA jaataa| vidheya se jIvana jIyA jAtA hai| lekina vidheya paidA hotA hai dhyAna se| aura nakAra paidA hotA hai vicAra se| tuma sirpha vicAra ke anusAra cala rahe ho| koI sikhAtA hai udhAra, tuma sIkha lete ho aura cala par3ate ho| tumhAre jIvana meM koI krAMti nahIM hotii| tumase kahA jAtA hai, pApa na kro| yaha aise hI hai, jaise koI aMdhe se kahe ki dekho, pharnIcara se mata ttkraanaa| aba aMdhA nikalegA, to ttkraaegaa| dIvAla se TakarAegA, pharnIcara se Page 80 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA ttkraaegaa| usakI lakar3I khaTa-khaTa kara ke cAroM tarapha ThoMka-pITa kara jAMca karegA, taba clegaa| nahIM to vaha hAtha-paira tor3a legA apne| lekina jisake pAsa AMkha haiM, usase tuma nahIM kahate ki pharnIcara se mata ttkraanaa| tuma jAnate ho, usake pAsa AMkha haiM; use daravAjA dikhAI par3atA hai, vaha daravAje se nikala jaaegaa| dhyAna bhItara kI AMkha ko khola detA hai| bAhara kI zikSA, aMdhe ko dI gaI zikSA hai| pApa na kro| abhI tumheM patA hI nahIM ki pApa kyA hai| pApa jAnoge kaise? AMkha kahAM? abhI puNya kyA hai ? pApa kyA hai? isalie bar3A ulaTA kAma calatA rahatA hai| puNya ke nAma se tIrthayAtrA kara Ate ho| gaMgA nahIM aae| haja yAtrA kara aae| sau-sau cUhe khAya ke billI calI haja ko aura phira lauTatI hai, to hAjI ho jAtI hai| hAjI mastAna! choTI-moTI hAjI nhiiN| muMha meM rAma bagala meM churI! donoM sAtha-sAtha cleNge| rAma-rAma bhI karate rahoge, aura jebeM bhI kATate rhoge| kyoMki khuda kI koI dRSTi to nahIM hai| aura majA yaha ki khuda kI dRSTi na ho, to eka adabhuta ghaTanA ghaTatI hai| tuma thothA pAkhaMDa jIte ho; usako samajhate ho puNya aura hara eka AdamI kA pApa tumheM dikhAI par3atA hai--haraeka pApI! isase ahaMkAra aura majabUta hotA hai| yahAM dUsare kI bhUleM dekhanA bahuta AsAna hai| dUsare kI choTI-sI bhUla pahAr3a jaisI mAlUma par3atI hai| tila kA tAr3a ho jAtA hai| apanI bhUla dikhAI hI nahIM pdd'tii| kyoMki apane bhUla dekhane ke lie jAgarUkatA cAhie, dhyAna cAhie / aura to kAma kabhI-kabhI AtA hai| ghaMToM usa para mehanata karate haiN| camakAnA / saje baje khar3e the saba janAba ke paiMTa ke baTana hI khule haiM! phira phaujI bhASA to tuma jAnate hI ho! ekadama cillAyA, are kutte ke pille! are ullU ke paTThe ! paiMTa ke baTana baMda kara zarma nahIM aatii| isI vakta baMda kara maiMne sunA eka senApati apanI phauja kA nirIkSaNa kara rahA thaa| sAre phaujI saja-baja kara Ae the| bar3A senApati A rahA thaa| aura phaujiyoM kA adhikatama kAma sajanA hI bajanA hai| to kapar3e - lohA -kalapha ! jUtoM para pAliza ragar3a-ragar3a kara -- saMgInoM para maalish| saMgInoM ko camakAnA / talavAroM ko aura senApati bar3A prasanna thaa| tabhI usane dekhA ki eka bhanabhanA gayA / vaha javAna bolaa...| ghabar3A gyaa| sakapakA gyaa| usane kahA, hujUra, abhI yahIM ! usane kahA, abhI yahIM pUchatA kyA hai| baMda kara -- aura usa javAna ne senApati ke paiMTa ke baTana baMda kara die| khule hue the| magara kauna khe| vaha to jaba usane baMda kie, taba senApati ko patA calA ! jiMdagI bar3I ajIba hai yahAM yahAM dUsare ke doSa dikhAI par3a jAte haiM; apane doSa dikhAI nahIM par3ate / dikhAI bhI kaise pdd'eN| apane doSa ko dekhane ke lie bhItara kI AMkha cAhie / pApa na kro| hiMsA na kro| acche kAma kro| saca bolo| tuma kahate ho rajanIkAMta, hama saMnyAsI isI rAste para jAne kI koziza karate haiM, to hamArA virodha kyoM virodha isIlie ki tuma saca meM hI isa rAste para jA rahe ho| koI nahIM cAhatA ki saca meM hI tuma isa rAste Page 81 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA para jaao| basa, bAteM acchI-acchI kro| karate raho beImAnI--aura ImAnadArI kI takhtI lagAe rkho| rAma-rAma japate raho; mAlA pherate raho--aura jaba maukA laga jAe, to cUko mata; avasara cUko mt| jaba hAtha laga jAe koI maukA, mata cUka cauhAna! mAra do haath| phira rAma-rAma japa lenaa| phira gaMgAjala pI lenaa| kyA bigar3atA hai! yahAM jiMdagI pAkhaMDa sikhA rahI hai| jo tumase kahate haiM, acche kAma kro| saca bolo| hiMsA na kro| pApa na kro| ve hI tumase kaha rahe haiM ki beTA, saMsAra meM kucha kara ke dikhA jaanaa| nAma chor3a jaanaa| pradhAnamaMtrI ho jAnA kama se km| rASTrapati ho jaanaa| are, kucha to ho jAnA! ve hI sikhA rahe haiN--mhtvaakaaNkssaa| ve kahate haiM, kakSA meM prathama aanaa| Age khar3e honA duniyA meN| dhana kmaanaa| nAma kmaanaa| yaza kmaanaa| samaya kI reta para koI cihna chor3a jaanaa| itihAsa meM svarNa-akSaroM meM tumhArA nAma likhA jaae| kula kI maryAdA rakhanA! aba ye donoM bAteM sAtha-sAtha nahIM ho sktiiN| agara mahatvAkAMkSI hooge, to jhUTha bhI bolanA pdd'egaa| rAjanItijJa aura jhUTha na bole--asNbhv| mullA nasaruddIna eka kabristAna se nikala rahA thaa| usane eka kabra para dekhA ki likhA hai, yahAM eka ImAnadAra rAjanItijJa vizrAma kara rahA hai! mullA nasaruddIna ne kahA, eka-eka kabra meM do-do AdamI kaise ho sakate haiM? ImAnadAra aura rAjanItijJa? ImAnadAra ho, to usakI kabra hI na bnegii| beImAna ho, to zikhara para car3ha sakatA hai yahAM duniyA ke| jitanA kuzala ho, jitanA beImAna ho, jitanA cAlabAja ho, jitanA catura ho, jitanA kapaTI ho--kahe kucha, bole kucha, kare kucha! jisako pahacAna hI na pAo ki A rahA hai ki jA rahA hai|... mullA nasaruddIna kA eka mitra hai raajnetaa| eka dina mullA nasaruddIna ne usase kahA ki maiM bar3A parezAna rahatA huuN| loga A jAte haiM, baiTha jAte haiM muhalle ke| aura ghaMToM sira khAte haiN| jAte hI nhiiN| rAjanetA ne kahA, isakI bhI tarakIba hai| mujhako dekho, maiM kyA karatA hUM! tumhAre pAsa itane loga nahIM Ate, jitane mere pAsa Ate haiN| magara jaise hI koI AtA hai, maiM tatkSaNa uTha kara khar3A ho jAtA huuN| jUte pahana letA huuN| chatarI uThA letA huuN| TopI lagA letA huuN| vaha AdamI pUchatA hai ki Apa A rahe haiM kahIM se ki kahIM jA rahe haiM? to jaisA AdamI hotA hai...| agara koI AdamI jisako mujhe khisakAnA hai, to maiM kahatA hUM--maiM jarA bAhara jA rahA hUM bhAI! agara biThAlanA hai; kAma kA AdamI hai, jisase kucha matalaba hai, to kahatA hUM--abhI-abhI aayaa| bar3e mauke para A gae! aba dekhate ho isa AdamI kI hoziyArI! chAtA uThA liyaa| TopI lagA lii| jUte pahana lie| ekadama khar3A ho gyaa| jo bhI AdamI AegA pUchegA ki Apa A rahe haiM ki jA rahe haiM! rAjanetA kA kucha pakkA nahIM ki A rahA hai ki jA rahA hai! Page 82 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA eka mAM apane beTe ko samajhA rahI thI ki beTA, AdamI to miTTI hai| miTTI se AyA-- miTTI meM jaataa| dUsare dina beTA bhAgA huA aayaa| usane kahA ki mAM, jaldI aao| usane kahA, kyA kAma aisA jaldI A par3A? usane kahA, jaldI aa| bistara ke nIce yA to koI A rahA hai yA koI jA rahA hai! miTTI par3I thii| aura mAM ne kahA thA ki miTTI meM se hI hama Ate haiM, aura miTTI meM hI jAte haiM! to beTA becArA samajhA ki ThIka hai| yA to koI A rahA hai yA koI jA rahA hai! kucha gar3abar3a ho rahI hai--bistara ke nIce--mere hI bistara ke nIce ho rahI hai| apanI AMkhoM se dekhA! rAjanetA bhI yUM calatA hai ki tuma pahacAna na pAo--uttara jA rahA ki dakSiNa jA rahA, ki pUraba jA rahA ki pazcima jA rahA! jina logoM ne bhagavAna ke caturmukhI hone kI kalpanA kI hai, bar3e hoziyAra rahe hoNge| cAroM mukha! rAjanetA ke itane hI hote haiN| cAroM dizAoM meM! tuma pahacAna hI nahIM sakate ki pUraba jA rahe ho, ki pazcima jA rahe, ki dakSiNa jA rahe ki uttara jA rahe! kahIM se A rahe ki jA rahe-kucha pakkA nhiiN| dekha letA hai ki jo kAma kI bAta ho; jo jisa samaya kAma A jAe-- vahI bolane lagatA hai, vahI kahane lagatA hai, vaisA hI karane lagatA hai! maiM Dhera rAjanetAoM ko jAnatA hUM, jo carakhA rakhe baiThe rahate haiM! kabhI kAtate-vAtate nhiiN| basa, koI milane AyA--ki jaldI se carakhA kAtane lage! eka rAjanetA ke ghara maiM mehamAna thaa| maiM bar3A hairAna huA, kyoMki aba mujhase kaba taka dhokhA dete! maiM ghara meM hI thaa| so carakhA cale hI nahIM unakA! aura jaba bhI koI bAhara se Ae, tatkSaNa ve apanA carakhA ThIka karane lge| dhAgA nikAlane lageM! maiMne unase pUchA, yaha mAmalA kyA hai? aise kaba taka Apa kAta pAoge sUta! kyoMki vaha AdamI A jAtA hai, to Apa phira rakha dete ho ki aba vaha AdamI A gyaa| aura AdamI jaba daravAje ke bhItara AtA hai, tabhI Apa dhAgA uThAte ho| aise kaba taka sUta kategA? usane kahA, sUta kAtanA kisako hai! are, ina mUoM ko dikhalAnA par3atA hai| aura sUta kAtanA kyA mujhe AtA hai--TUTa TUTa jAtA hai| magara hoziyAra rAjanetA choTe-choTe carkhe banAkara rakhe hue haiM! havAI jahAja meM bhI le kara calate haiN| kAma ke kucha nahIM haiM ve crkhe| khAdI to ve kharIdate haiM--mahIna se mahIna ki DhAkA kI malamala mAta ho| vaha kucha khuda kI kAtI huI khAdI nahIM hai| zuddha ho, yaha bhI jarUrI nahIM hai| jahAM-jahAM tuma dekho ki yaha zuddha khAdI bhaMDAra--samajha lenA ki azuddha khAdI bikatI hai| nahIM to zuddha kisalie likhA hai? tuma jAnate ho ki jahAM-jahAM likhA hotA hai zuddha ghI kI miThAI bikatI hai, pakkA samajha lenA ki azuddha ghI kI bikatI hai| jaba zuddha hI ghI kI bikatI thI, to kahIM koI takhtI nahIM lagI hotI thI: zuddha ghI kI miThAI bikatI hai! vaha to azuddha jaba zurU hotA hai, to zuddha kI bhASA zurU ho jAtI hai| Page 83 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA tumhAre samajhAne vAle, sikhAne vAle, rajanIkAMta, cAhate nahIM ki tuma saca meM hI saca bolo| ve bhI yahI cAhate haiM ki tuma bhI apane beToM ko sikhA jAnA ki saca bolo bettaa| acche kAma karo bettaa| hiMsA na kro| pApa na kro| aura jI bhara kara yahI saba karanA, kyoMki isake binA kahIM pahaMca na skoge| do kaur3I ke ho jaaoge| merI yahI jhaMjhaTa rahI apane adhyApakoM se, apane parivAra meN| kyoMki agara mujhase unhoMne kahA, saca bolo| to maiM saca hI bolaa| phira unheM hI mujhe samajhAnA par3A ki aisA saca nahIM bolate! tuma bilakula hI saca bola dete ho! to maiMne kahA, Apane kahA ki saca bolo| to saca bola diyaa| Apa kahate haiM ki ghara meM nahIM haiN| to maiMne jA kara kaha diyA ki ve haiM to ghara meM hI, lekina kahate haiM ki kaha do ghara meM nahIM haiM! Apa hI kahate haiM, saca bolo| aba maiM kyA karUM? yA to sApha-sApha kaho ki jhUTha bolo| yA sApha-sApha kaho ki saca bolo| yA yUM kaho ki jaba jaisA maukA ho, taba taisA bolo| magara kucha spaSTa to karo baat| pati patnI jhagar3ate raheMge aura jaise hI koI mehamAna AyA ki dekho muskurA rahe haiM eka dUsare kI tarapha dekhkr| sukhI dAMpatya jIvana! aura aise eka dUsare kI jAna khA rahe haiM! caMdUlAla eka hoTala meM gae aura beyarA se kahA ki bhaiyA, jalI-bhuMjI roTI le aa| sabjI meM yA to namaka jyAdA DAla yA bilakula na ddaal| sUpa aisA banA ki jaise jIvana-jala kA svAda! beyarA bhI bahuta hairAna huA ki Apa kaha kyA rahe haiM! tU merI mAna, caMdUlAla ne kahA, aura phira sAmane baiTha kara merI khopar3I khaa| usane kahA, kyoM? usane kahA, mujhe ghara kI bahuta yAda A rahI hai| patnI se bichur3e tIna mahIne ho ge| gulAbo kI bahuta yAda A rahI hai| sAmane baiTha jA aura khopar3I khaa| pacA, jitanI pacA sakatA ho| sukhI dAMpatya jIvana cala rahA hai saba jagaha! vaha saba dhokhA hai| maiMne saba taraha ke daMpati dekhe--sukha vagairaha kahIM bhI nhiiN| isalie hara kahAnI khatama ho jAtI hai vivAha pr| philmeM bhI khatama ho jAtI haiN| zahanAI bajane lagatI hai bisamillA khAna kii| aura bhAMvara par3a rahI hai| aura phUla pheMke jA rahe haiN| aura khela khatama! kyoMki phira! phira jo hotA hai, vaha kahanA ThIka nhiiN| phira to donoM sukha se rahane lage! aba kahane ko kyA bcaa| jaba donoM sukha se hI rahane lage, to kahAnI kahAM bacI! phira to dAMpatya jIvana kA svargIya sukha lUTate haiM log| aura bacce dekhate haiM ki kaisA dAMpatya jIvana! kyoMki baccoM se kaise chipAoge? dekhate haiM ki mAM bApa ke pIche par3I hai caubIsa ghaMTe! bApa piTAI kara rahA hai mAM kii| mAM piTAI kara rahI hai, bApa kii| yaha saba cala rahA hai! caMdUlAla apane beTe jhummana ke sAtha philma dekhane gayA thaa| philma meM cuMbana lene kI to manAhI hai| magara aura cIjoM kI manAhI nahIM hai| asalI cIjoM kI manAhI nahIM hai| eka patnI ne apane pati ko cAMTA rasIda kara diyaa| isakI manAhI nahIM hai| yaha bar3A majA hai! Page 84 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jaba patnI ne pati ko cAMTA rasIda kara diyA, to pati bilakula khar3A hI raha gyaa| jhummana apane bApa se bolA, pitAjI, bilakula Apa jaisA hai| caMdUlAla ne kahA, cupa raha the bevakta bAteM nahIM krte| khela dekha ghara meM yahI cala rahA hai| eka selsamena daravAjA khaTakhaTA rahA thaa| koI daravAjA nahIM khola rahA thaa| tabhI khir3akI se eka AdamI bAhara A kara girA dhaDAma se khir3akI se hI AyA thA so usane pUchA ki meM ghara kA mAlika hai yA nahIM? Apako to patA hI hogA, bhaiyA, kyA batA sakate ho ki ghara bhItara se hI A rahe ho! -- usane kahA ki hai ghara kA mAlika bhItara hI hai| abhI yahI to taya huA ki ghara kA mAlika kauna hai hama nahIM haiM, itanA to pakkA ho gyaa| ghara kA mAlika bhItara hai isalie to hiMdustAna meM patnI ko gharavAlI kahate haiM pati ko gharavAlA nahIM kahate ghara kharIde pati aura gharavAlI patnI / pati to khir3akI se pheMka die jAte haiM! mullA nasaruddIna se maiMne pUchA ki ghara ke hAlAta kaise cala rahe haiM? saba ThIka-ThAka ? unhoMne kahA, bilakula ThIka-ThIka phiphTI-phiphTI! maiMne kahA, matalaba ! / unhoMne kahA ki patnI cIjeM pheMka- pheMka kara mAratI hai| jaba mujhe coTa laga jAtI hai, to vaha khuza hotI hai| yAnI phiphTI! jaba nahIM lagatI, to maiM khuza hotA hUM--yAnI phiphTI phiphTIphiphTI cala rahA hai aura abhI kala hI nipaTArA ho gayA hai, phiphTI-phiphTI vaha bhI usane ghara kA bhItarI hissA samhAla liyA hai maiMne ghara kA bAharI aba hama bAhara hI raha rahe haiM! magara zAMti bar3I cIja hai| ye mAM-bApa tumheM kyA sikhAeMge! kaise sikhAeMge? inakA jIvana kucha aura hai ye bAteM kucha aura kara rahe haiN| ye zikSaka tumheM kaise sikhAeMge ye paMDita purohita tumheM kyA sikhAeMge? manuSya jAti pAkhaMDa meM jII hai| aura isalie cUMki merA saMnyAsI prAmANika rUpa se jInA cAhatA hai aura prAmANika kA mere lie artha zAstra sammata rUpa se nahIM prAmANika kA artha hai- apane bodha se aura yaha bodha usakA nijI hogA, svataMtra hogA yaha kisI ke dvArA Aropita nahIM hogaa| isalie mere saMnyAsI kA virodha hone hI vAlA hai isameM kucha Azcaryacakita karane vAlI bAta nahIM hai| agara tuma prAmANika hokara jIoge, to pAkhaMDI samAja meM tumhArA virodha hogA hii| kyoMki tuma una sabake pAkhaMDa ke lie eka praznacihna bana jAoge / -- maiM kahatA hUM ki jaisA satya tumhAre bhItara ho, vaisA hI jInA hai| usase anyathA jIne kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| mukhauTe lagAne kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| phira cAhe apamAna mile to apamAna | phira cAhe narka bhI jAnA par3e, to taiyAra rahanA; koI phikra mata karanA / merI apanI pratIti yaha hai ki jo prAmANika rUpa se jItA hai, vaha narka ko bhI svarga banA legA aura jo pAkhaMDI hai, vaha agara svarga bhI calA gayA, to vaha bhI narka ho jaaegaa| Page 85 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA eka yahUdI dharmaguru mraa| svarga phuNcaa| dekha kara bahuta hairAna huA ki vahAM kula-jamA tIna AdamI haiM! kucha tIna! bar3A cakita haa| ve bhI tIna kyA kara rahe haiM--bar3A hairAna huA! eka to haiM magarUra jI bhAI morArajI bhAI desaaii| ve merI kitAba saMbhoga se samAdhi kI ora par3ha rahe haiM! dUsare haiM ayAtullA khomainiyAka, ve ple baoNya par3ha rahe haiM! tIsarA hai popa veTikana kA, polaka; ve ple garla par3ha rahe haiN| aura ve bhI purAne na mAlUma kaba ke saMskaraNa, jo kisI taraha smagala kara lAe hoMge svarga meN| kyoMki svarga meM ye saba patrikAeM nahIM miltii| aura na kitAbeM milatI! usa yahUdI phakIra ne paramAtmA se jA kara kahA ki yaha maiM kyA dekha rahA hUM! kula tIna AdamI! aura ve bhI gajaba kI cIjeM par3ha rahe haiN| aura bar3e dhArmika bhAva se par3ha rahe haiM! to maiM eka bAra isake pahale ki taya karUM ki mujhe kahAM basanA hai--narka bhI dekha lenA cAhatA huuN| paramAtmA ne kahA, tumhArI mrjii| narka bhI dekha aao| to caubIsa ghaMTe vaha narka gyaa| dekhA to bar3A daMga huaa| vahAM na to koI Aga ke kar3Ahe jala rahe haiM; na koI Aga ke kar3AhoM meM bhUnA jA rahA hai| na kinhIM kI gardaneM kATI jA rahI haiM; na koI sUlI para laTakAyA jA rahA hai! na koI kor3e cala rahe haiN| vahAM to bar3A sannATA hai; bar3I zAMti hai| saMgIta baja rahA hai| bAMsurI baja rahI hai| kRSNa vahAM bAMsurI bajA rahe haiN| mahAvIra vahAM dhyAna kara rahe haiN| buddha vahAM mauna se baiThe haiN| loga nAca rahe haiM! loga samAroha manA rahe haiN| usane socA--hadda ho gaI! aura bar3e baiMDa-bAje haiN| vaha lauTa kara aayaa| usane kahA ki yaha mAmalA kyA hai? yaha saba ulaTa hAlata ho gaI hai! yaha svarga hai ApakA! saba udAsa par3A hai| dhUla jamI hai| aura ye tIna khUsaTa--ye baiThe haiM yahAM! inako dekha kara AdamI ko ghabar3AhaTa lge| inakA kauna satsaMga kare! aura narka meM bar3I mauja cala rahI hai| AnaMda hI AnaMda hai| kama se kama Apa eka baiMDa-bAjA to kharIda lo| to Izvara ne gurrA kara kahA ki ina tIna khUsaToM ke lie baiMDa-bAjA kharIdane ke lie paisA kahAM! to usa yahUdI phakIra ne kahA, maiM to naraka claa| Apa kSamA kreN| nArAja na hoN| maiM naraka claa| Izvara ne kA, tthhro| maiM bhI AtA huuN| ye tIna merI bhI jAna khoe jA rahe haiM! jahAM buddha hoMge, vahAM svarga hogaa| svarga meM buddha nahIM jAte; jahAM jAte haiM, vahAM svarga bana jAtA hai| tumase kahA gayA hai ki buddhapuruSa svarga jAte haiN| maiM tumase kahatA hUM--buddhapuruSa jahAM jAte haiM, vahAM svarga bana jAtA hai| tumase kahA gayA hai ki jo abuddha haiM, ve narka jAte haiN| nhiiN| ve jahAM jAeM--svarga meM bhI cale jAeM--vahAM narka bana jaaegaa| AdamI apane sAtha apanA svarga aura narka le kara calatA hai| pAkhaMDiyoM kI jamAta jahAM ikaTThI ho jAegI, vahAM narka hogaa| mata phikra karanA apamAna kii| prAmANika rUpa se jI kara apamAna mile, to bhI jIvana meM eka sugaMdha hotI hai, eka rasa hotA hai, eka ahobhAva hotA hai| gardana bhI kaTa jaae...| jIsasa Page 86 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kI kaTI, magara oThoM para prArthanA rii| maMsUra kI kaTI, magara oThoM para muskurAhaTa rhii| sukarAta kI kaTI, magara cAroM tarapha dhanyatA barasa rahI thii| prAmANika vyakti ko dukha diyA nahIM jA sktaa| hAlAMki dukha dene kI bahuta koziza kI jaaegii| jisane bhItara apane ko khaMDoM meM nahIM tor3A hai, usane svarga basA hI liyA hai| akhaMDa jo ho gayA, vaha svarga ho gyaa| aura jAM khaMDoM meM baMTA hai, vaha narka hai narka aura svarga bhaugolika nahIM haiM; AMtarika avasthAeM haiN| merI eka hI zikSA hai--akhaMDa bano; sahaja bano--aura apanI sahajatA ko samagratA se jiio| isakI phikra hI mata karo ki kisI zAstra ke anukUla baiThatI hai ki nhiiN| kyoMki jisane zAstra racA, vaha aura DhaMga kA AdamI rahA hogaa| usane zAstra apane hisAba se racA hai| lekina loga ulaTI sthiti meM par3e hue haiN| koI manu ke hisAba se jI rahA hai| koI mahAvIra ke hisAba se jI rahA hai| koI buddha ke hisAba se jI rahA hai| koI kRSNa ke hisAba se jI rahA hai| lekina dhyAna rakho, tumheM agara kRSNa ke kapar3e nahIM banate haiM, to phira kyA karoge! hAtha-paira kAToge apane! yahUdI kathA hai: eka bilakula pAgala samrATa thA, usake pAsa eka sone kA bistara thA; hIrejavAharAta jdd'aa| usake ghara jaba bhI koI mehamAna hotaa...| bhUla-cUka se hI loga hote the mehmaan| kyoMki dhIre-dhIre khabara pahuMca gaI thii| magara phira bhI kabhI-kabhI koI mehamAna ho jaataa| to vaha usako bistara para littaataa| vaha pAgala AdamI thaa| agara vaha bistara se laMbA sAbita hotA, to vaha usake hAtha-paira kaTavA detaa| bistara ke barAbara kara ke rahatA! aura agara choTA hotA, to usane pahalavAna rakha chor3e the, ve usake hAtha-paira khIMca kara usako laMbA karate! usameM hAtha-paira ukhar3a jaate| magara bistara ke anukUla honA cAhie! AdamI ko bistara ke anukUla honA caahie| AdamI ka lie bistara nahIM hai| AdamI bistara ke lie haiM! vaha bilakula zAstrIya bAta kaha rahA thaa| aise dhArmika AdamI thaa| yahI to sAre dharma kara rahe haiM--tumheM zAstroM ke anusAra honA cAhie! phira agara tuma thor3e laMbe ho, to kaatto| agara thor3e choTe ho, to khiiNco| tumhArI jiMdagI muzkila meM par3a jaaegii| tumheM sirpha apane anusAra honA hai| paramAtmA ne tuma jaisA koI dUsarA nahIM bnaayaa| tumheM anUThA banAyA hai| isa saubhAgya ko to smjho| kucha to dekho| kucha to smjho| kucha to phcaano| paramAtmA ne tuma jaisA koI AdamI na pahale banAyA hai aura na phira bnaaegaa| vaha doharAtA nhiiN| vaha pratyeka vyakti ko anUThA banAtA hai| tuma kisI ke anusAra, kisI DhAMce ke anusAra, jI nahIM sakate ho| jIoge--muzkila meM pdd'oge| jIoge--kaSTa paaoge| apanI jyoti se jiiyo| buddha ne aMtima kSaNa meM yahI kahA thA--appa dIpo bhava--apane dIe khuda bno| mata puucho...| to maiM kisI ko AcaraNa nahIM detaa| mere Upara yahI sabase bar3A lAMchana hai; sabase bar3I AlocanA hai--ki maiM apane saMnyAsiyoM ko AcaraNa nahIM sikhaataa| Page 87 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maiM unheM apane kapar3e nahIM de sktaa| kyoMki kisI ko choTe par3eMge, kisI ko laMbe pdd'eNge| kisI ko DhIle pdd'eNge| kisI ko custa pdd'eNge| maiM unheM kaise AcaraNa dUM! maiM sirpha unheM bhItara kA dIyA jalAne kI kalA sikhAtA huuN| phira ve apane kapar3e khuda kATeM; bnaaeN| apanA AcaraNa khuda nirmita kreN| apanI rozanI meM jiieN| AcaraNa nahIM detA maiM--aMtasa detA huuN| aura tuma aba taka AcaraNa hI ke anusAra jIe ho| tumhAre saba guruoM ne tumheM aMtasa nahIM diyA--AcaraNa dene kI koziza kI hai| ve tumheM eka DharrA de dete haiM ki basa, aisA kro| cAhe tumheM ruce, cAhe na ruce| zAstra likhate haiM akasara bUr3he log| svabhAvataH una dinoM meM bur3hApe kI bar3I kImata thii| aba bhI hamAre deza meM to buDhApe kI bar3I kImata hai| bUDhA kahe, to saca hI kahatA hogA! akasara yaha hotA hai ki bUDhA bahuta beImAna ho jAtA hai| bUDhA hote-hote--jIvana bhara kA anubhava...! bacce sarala hote haiN| bUDhe kapaTI ho jAte haiN| zAstra bUDhoM ne race; ve kapaTapUrNa haiN| unameM beImAnI hai| unameM hoziyArI hai| aura phira kaba race! kisane race! jamAne bIta ge| vaha vakta na rhaa| ve loga na rhe| saba badala gyaa| aba tuma unake anusAra, jIyoge, to kaSTa paaoge| maMjila kA patA mAlUma nahIM, rahabara bhI nahIM, sAthI bhI nahIM jaba raha gaI maMjila cAra kadama, hama pAMva uThAnA bhUla gae! tuma jaba taka udhAra jIyoge, aisI hI jhaMjhaTa meM pdd'oge| Izvara bhI sAmane khar3A hogA, pahacAna na skoge| cUMki tuma eka tasavIra TAMge cala rahe ho| usa tasavIra se mela khAnA caahie| aura tumhArI bAta kyA; tumhAre bar3e se bar3e tathAkathita zradveya aura pUjya logoM kI bhI yaha dazA hai| bAbA tulasIdAsa ke saMbaMdha meM yaha kahAnI hai ki jaba unako kRSNa ke maMdira meM le jAyA gayA vRMdAvana meM, to unhoMne jhukane se inakAra kara diyaa| unhoMne kahA, maiM to sirpha dhunardhArI rAma ke sAmane jhukatA huuN| maiM aura kisI ke sAmane nahIM jhuka sakatA! maiM to eka rAma ko hI jAnatA huuN| unhoMne kahA ki jaba taka dhanuSa-bANa nahIM leU hAtha--tulasI jhuke na maath| merA mAthA to taba jhukegA, jaba dhanuSa-bANa hAtha meM loge| eka tasavIra TAMge hue haiM, jaise dhanuSa-bANa kI koI bar3I khUbI ho! jaise dhanuSa-bANa kA koI bar3A rAja ho! dhanuSa-bANa to sirpha hiMsA ke pratIka haiN| yaha bAMsurI kahIM jyAdA prema kA pratIka hai| aura ye bAbA tulasIdAsa aMdhe mAlUma hote haiM! ye bAbA tulasIdAsa nahIM haiM--bAbA sUradAsa mAlUma hote haiM! AMkheM haiM inake pAsa? ye bAMsurI ke sAmane nahIM jhuka sakate--dhanuSa-bANa ke sAmane jhukeNge| ye kRSNa ko nahIM pahacAna skte| rAma ko hI pahacAnate haiM! eka bAMdha lI jkdd'| paramAtmA anaMta rUpoM meM prakaTa hotA hai| aura tuma koI eka rUpa pakar3a kara baiTha rahe, to cUkoge--cUkate hI jaaoge| jaba raha gaI maMjila cAra kadama, hama pAMva uThAnA bhUla gae! udhAra caloge, to yaha hAlata hogii| maMjila sAmane khar3I hogI aura tuma pAMva uThAnA bhUla jaaoge| Page 88 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA pAMca tumane kabhI uThAe nahIM dhakkama dhukkI meM A ge| bhIr3abhAr3a cala rahI thI, tuma bhI cale aae| maMjila kA patA mAlUma nahIM, rahabara bhI nahIM, sAthI bhI nahIM jaba raha gaI maMjila cAra kadama, hama pAMva uThAnA bhUla gae ! udhAra jInA pAkhaMDa hai| udaghoSaNA karo apanI nijatA kI paramAtmA tumhAre bhItara bhI hai utanA, jitanA kRSNa ke bhItara thaa| tumhAre bhItara se bhI zrImada bhagavata gItA paidA ho sakatI hai| honI caahie| vaha jharane kA srota tumhAre bhItara bhI hai| tumhAre bhItara se bhI buddhatva kI jyoti jala sakatI hai| tuma utane hI sakSama ho, jitane siddhArtha gautama tumhArI kSamatA kama nhiiN| - paramAtmA kisI ko kama aura jyAdA de kara nahIM bhejatA sabako barAbara saMbhAvanA detA hai| phira hamAre Upara hai hama usa saMbhAvanA ko vAstavika banAte haiM yA nhiiN| aura jo AdamI aura kucha hone kI koziza meM lagA hai, kisI dUsare kI nakala meM par3A hai, vaha kabhI svayaM to ho nahIM pAegA; aura dUsarA ho nahIM sktaa| vibUcana meM par3A raha jaaegaa| viDaMbanA meM ulajhA raha jAegA usakA jIvana sulajhegA nahIM ulajhana hI ulajhana se bhara jAegA usakA jIvana eka pahelI ho jAegA kAMTe hI kAMTe phUla usameM nahIM khileNge| jarA soco, agara gulAba juhI honA cAhe, to basa pAgala ho jAe ! gulAba bhI na ho sakegA, juhI bhI na ho skegaa| gulAba ko gulAba hI honA hai| juhI ko juhI honA hai| juhI juhI ho kara arpita hogI paramAtmA ko / gulAba gulAba ho kara arpita hogA paramAtmA ko| na to gulAba kA zAskha juhI ke lie lAgU ho sakatA aura na juhI kA Adeza gulAba ke lie lAgU ho sktaa| apanI advitIyatA pahacAno / isalie mere saMnyAsI kA rajanIkAMta, virodha hogA, kyoMki maiM kucha bAta kaha rahA hUM, jo paraMparA kI nahIM hai; jo paraMparA-mukta hai| maiM tumheM svataMtratA kA pATha de rahA hUM--aura svataMtratA ke pakSa meM koI bhI nahIM hai| hama sadiyoM se gulAma hai hama pahale AdhyAtmika rUpa se gulAma hue, isIlie hama rAjanItika rUpa se gulAma hue| hamArI rAjanItika gulAmI hamArI AdhyAtmika gulAmI kA tArkika niSkarSa thii| aura hama abhI bhI gulAma haiM AdhyAtmika rUpa se| isalie hama kisI bhI dina rAjanItika rUpa se gulAma banAe jA sakate haiM; isameM kucha ar3acana nahIM hai| / hameM svataMtratA kA pATha hI bhUla gayA; hama bhASA hI bhUla ge| aura paMDita-purohitoM ne tumhAre jIvana ko viSAkta kara diyA hai maiM cAhatA hU~ mukta ho jAo una sabase choTI-sI jiMdagI hai, itanA kara lo ki apane bhItara dhyAna jala jAe, dhyAna kI jyoti uTha Ae, zeSa aba apane Apa ho jaaegaa| phira kitanA hI kaSTa jhelanA par3e, hara kaSTa eka cunautI hogI aura hara kaSTa tumhAre lie eka vikAsa kA avasara hogA, eka maukA hogaa| Page 89 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA virodha hogaa| gAliyAM pdd'eNgii| apamAna hogaa| magara bhItara tumhAre zAMti hogI, AnaMda hogA, utsava hogaa| bhItara tumhAre paramAtmA ke sAtha milana calatA rhegaa|| paramAtmA se milanA hai, to samAja kI ciMtA na krnaa| aura samAja kI ciMtA karanA hai, to phira paramAtmA kI bAta hI uThAnA ucita nahIM hai| dUsarA praznaH bhagavAna, mere mAtA-pitA tuhADI zaraNa Ae haiM--maiMnUM milaNa de bhaane| sadaguru sAhiba, kirapA karo ki inhIM , vI tuhADA raMga laga jaae| saMta mahArAja! jaldI na kro| lgegaa| magara jaldI kI, to gar3abar3a ho sakatI hai| saMta kI icchA to pyArI hai, kyoMki kauna apane mAM-bApa ko vaha AnaMda na denA cAhegA, jo use svayaM mila rahA ho! tuma cAhoge ki tumhAre mAM-bApa bhI isa mastI ke Alama meM iba jaaeN| aba A gae haiM isa mahaphila meM, to kahIM khAlI na cale jAeM! kisI bahAne A ge| tumhIM ko milane ke bahAne A gae, kyA pharka par3atA hai! koI bahAnA cAhie Ane ke lie| A gae--yaha bhut| aura tumhAre mAtA-pitA sIdhe-sAde AdamI haiN| sarala AdamI haiN| lekina saralatA kI eka jhaMjhaTa hai, aura vaha jhaMjhaTa yaha hai ki saralatA atIta ke sAtha baMdhI hotI hai; paraMparA ke sAtha baMdhI hotI hai| saralatA AjJAkArI hotI hai| to ve bhI svabhAvataH eka raMga meM Dhale haiN| merA raMga thor3I bagAvata cAhatA hai; thor3A vidroha cAhatA hai| saMnyAsa hai hI vidroha samAja se| yaha samAja kA tyAga nahIM hai--yaha samAja se vidroha hai| yaha samAja se bhAga jAnA nahIM hai--samAja meM jInA hai aura krAMti ke raMga ko le kara jInA hai| lekina saralatA kA eka lAbha bhI hai ki agara ve yahAM A gae haiM, to jarUra merI bAta una taka pahuMca jAegI; utara jAegI unake hRdaya meN| magara tuma jaldI mata krnaa| tuma jaldI kie, to ve baMda ho jaaeNge| tumane koziza kI, to kaThinAI ho jaaegii| kabhI bhUla kara bhI koI koziza na kare ki saMnyAsI bana jAe--merA pitA, merI mAM, merI patnI, merA beTA, merI bettii| koI koziza na kre| kyoMki tumhArI koziza jabardastI mAlUma pdd'egii| tuma to pyAra se kara rahe ho| tuma to bAMTanA cAhate ho| tumhArI nIyata to tthiik| tumhArA bhAva to suNdr| lekina dUsare kI svataMtratA para bhI khayAla rkhnaa| merA raMga jabardastI nahIM thopA jA sktaa| yaha to phira vahI bhUla ho jAegI! samajha meM AegI unake baat| unake bAta, samajha meM AnI zurU huI hai| aura jaise-jaise umra bar3hatI hai, vaise-vaise do ghaTanAeM ghaTatI haiN| eka to yaha ki badalanA muzkila ho jAtA hai, kyoMki lagatA hai AdamI ko ki aba itanI jiMdagI to eka DhaMga se jI lie, aba kaise badaleM! AdateM majabUta ho gaI hotI haiN| Page 90 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA lekina eka phAyadA bhI hai| aura phAyadA yaha hai ki mauta karIba A rahI hotI hai| mauta daravAje para dastaka dene lagatI hai| to yaha bhI savAla uThanA zurU ho jAtA hai ki jiMdagI bhara isa DhaMga se jIe to jarUra, magara pAyA kyA? hAtha kyA lagA? aura mauta karIba AI jA rahI hai| aba dera karane kA samaya nahIM hai| aba samaya gaMvAne kA maukA nahIM hai| aba kala para nahIM TAlA jA sktaa| patA nahIM kala ho yA na ho| aura eka kSaNa meM mauta A jAtI hai| aura eka kSaNa meM saba badala jAtA hai| dabA ke kabra meM saba cala die, duA na salAma jarA-sI dera meM kyA ho gayA jamAne kA! eka kSaNa meM jo apane the--apane nahIM raha jaate| begAne ho jAte haiN| kSaNa meM jIvana tirohita ho jAtA hai| dabA ke kabra meM saba cala die, duA na salAma! aura koI salAma bhI nahIM karatA; duA bhI nahIM krtaa| yaha bhI nahIM kahatA ki alavidA! jaldI par3atI hai| AdamI marA ki kaise chuTakArA ho aba isa lAza se! kyoMki pakSI to ur3a AyA, aba to piMjar3A par3A raha gyaa| aba isa piMjar3e ko kyA duA karo, kyA salAma karo! dabA ke kabra meM sa cala die, duA na salAma jarA-sI dera meM kyA ho gayA jamAne ko! vahI haiM hama kabhI jo rAta-dina phUloM meM tulate the vahI hama haiM ki turabata cAra phUloM ko tarasatI hai| to jaise mauta karIba AtI hai, vaise eka lAbha bhI hai ki mauta jagAne lagatI hai| mauta pUchane lagatI hai, kamAyA ki gaMvAyA? taiyAra ho calane ko usa anaMta yAtrA para ki yUM hI vyartha ke ulajhanoM meM ulajhe rahe? vyartha ke dhokhe khAte rahe? Atma-vaMcanAoM meM par3e rahe? to tumhAre mAtA-pitA saMta, aba bUr3he ho rahe haiN| to yUM to muzkila hogA badalanA, kyoMki purAnI aadteN| magara mauta bhI daravAje para dastaka degI ab| isalie badalanA AsAna bhI ho sakatA hai| isa para nirbhara karatA hai ki kisa bAta para jyAdA dhyAna dete haiN| agara purAnI AdatoM para hI AMkheM gar3Ae rahe, to mauta ko nakArate rheNge| lekina tuma jaisA beTA jinake ghara meM paidA huA hai, ve dekheMge aage| saMta se mujhe prema hai, isalie to saMta mahArAja kahatA huuN| aise AdamI saMta nahIM haiM--aMTazaMTa haiM! magara unako maiM saMta mahArAja kahatA huuN| mujhe prema hai, lagAva hai| sarala hai sNt| bahuta sarala hai| bahuta sIdhA-sAdA hai| choTe bacce jaisA hai| to jisameM itanA sarala phUla khilA ho, una mAM-bApa ke bhI jIvana meM bhI krAMti honI kI saMbhAvanA pUrI hai| jAne kitanA jIvana pIche chUTa gayA anajAne meM aba to kucha katare haiM bAkI sAMsoM ke paimAne meN| Page 91 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jajyoM kI tismAra imArata sAMsoM kI bejAra khaMDahara jAne kyoM baiThe haiM tanhA hama aise vIrAne meN| kayA- kyA rUpa lie riztoM ne jAne kyA-kyA raMga bhare aba to pharka nahIM lagatA hai apanoM aura begAnoM meN| isa duniyA meM Akara hamane / kucha aisA dastUra sunA akla kI bAteM karane vAle hoMge pAgalakhAne meN| yahAM to bAteM akla kI ho rahI haiN| yahAM to bAteM sAdhAraNa jIvana kI nahIM haiM; parama jIvana kI haiN| sarala cita vyakti sAhasa kara sakate haiM, himmata kara sakate haiM, chalAMga lagA sakate haiN| isa para nirbhara karatA hai saba, ki purAnI AdatoM ko hI to najara meM nahIM rkheNge| jo bIta gayA vaha bIta gayA! jAne kitanA jIvana pIche chUTa gayA anajAne meM! to jo bhUleM ho gaI ho gaI jo gayA gayA aura subaha kA bhUlA sAMjha bhI ghara A jAe, to bhUlA nahIM kahA jaataa| aba to kucha katare haiM bAkI sAMsoM ke paimAne meM! jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA to jaba kucha katare hI bAkI raha jAte haiM, sAMsoM ke paimAne meM, to agara mauta para najara A jAe, agara mRtyu kA khayAla A jAe, to krAMti ho jAtI hai| magara tuma jaldI mata karanA / tumhArI jaldI bAdhA bana sakatI hai| Ae haiM yahAM apane AnaMda meM unheM bhAgIdAra bnaao| yahAM jo nRtya cala rahA hai, usameM unheM nimaMtrita karo yahAM jo zarAba Dhala rahI hai, use unheM pIne do| phira apane se ghaTa jAtI hai baat| laga jAegA rNg| yahAM se vahI nahIM jAeMge, jaise Ae the| aba yaha bAta aura hai ki isa bAra DUbeM ki agalI bAra dduubeN| yaha una para chor3a do| jarA bhI khIMcatAna mata krnaa| kyoMki bar3I kaThinAI hai| nAte-rizte bar3I nAjuka bAteM haiN| agara pati koziza kare ki patnI saMnyAsinI ho jAe, to vaha akar3a jAtI hai, kyoMki usake ahaMkAra ko coTa lagatI hai| agara patnI koziza kare ki pati saMnyAsI ho jAe pati akar3a jAtA hai usake ahaMkAra ko coTa lagatI hai aura beTA agara koziza kare ki bApa aura mAM saMnyAsI ho jAeM, taba to aura bhI ar3acana A jAtI hai, Page 92 of 255 -- http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kyoMki mAM-bApa--tumhArI kitanI hI umra ho, tumhArI kitanI hI samajha ho, kitanA hI dhyAna ho--unake sAmane to tuma bacce ho| unake ahaMkAra ko bahuta coTa laga jAtI hai| bahuta coTa laga jAtI hai--ki merA beTA aura apane DhaMga se mujhe calAnA cAhe! kabhI nhiiN| bahuta ar3acana A jAtI hai| yahAM merI eka saMnyAsinI hai amarIkA se--shuunyo| usakI umra hogI koI sattara vrss| usakI mAM kI umra hai nabbe vrss| mAM abhI jiMdA hai| usakI mAM ke patra Ate haiN| ve dekha kara maiM daMga huaa| sattara varSa kI lar3akI! aba to khuda bhI sattara varSa kI lar3akI bUDhI ho gii--shuunyo| zUnyo yahAM Akara saMnyasta ho gii| aura phira usane amarIkA kA khayAla hI vismaraNa kara diyaa| yahAM DUba gaI pUrI trh| usakI mAM use likhatI hai ki arI mUrakha, tujhameM akala na AI! tU baccI hI rahI! sattara sAla kI beTI ko likhatI hai ki tU baccI hI rhii| ghara vApasa aa| kisa ulajhana meM par3a gaI! kisa cakkara meM ulajha gaI! kisake sammohana meM A gaI! sattara varSa kI beTI bhI nabbe varSa kI mAM ko beTI hI mAlUma par3atI hai, kyoMki mAM aura beTI ke bIca jo bIsa sAla kA phAsalA hai, vaha to utanA kA hI utanA hai| jaba zUnyo pAMca sAla kI thI, taba bhI phAsalA itanA hI thA--bIsa sAla kaa| aba sattara sAla kI hai, to bhI phAsalA to bIsa hI sAla kA hai| isalie mAM-bApa kI najaroM meM bacce kabhI bar3e nahIM hote| maiM bIsa sAla taka yAtrA karatA rhaa| jitanI yAtrA maiMne kI, isa deza meM zAyada hI kisI vyakti ne kI hogii| mahIne meM kama se kama caubIsa dina yA to kAra meM yA havAI jahAja meM yA Trena meM calatA hI rahA--calatA hI rhaa| lekina jaba bhI maiM apane gAMva jAtA, merI nAnI mujhase eka bAta hamezA khtii| kyoMki unako hamezA do bAtoM kI ciMtA lagI rahatI thii| to vaha mujhe yAda dilA detI thI ki eka to calatI gAr3I meM kabhI mata car3hanA! maiM unako kahatA ki calatI gAr3I meM maiM caDhUMgA hI kyoM! ve kahatI ki nahIM; calatI gAr3I meM car3hanA hI mt| na calatI gAr3I meM utrnaa| gira-girA jAo, kucha ho jAe! aura yaha tumheM kyA sanaka savAra hai ki basa, ghUmate hI rahate ho! aba thira ho kara baiTho--eka jagaha baittho| aura dUsarI bAta ki kisI se vivAda nahIM karanA! isakI unheM hamezA ciMtA lagI rahatI thii| vaha jAnatI thI mujhe bacapana se--ki kisI se bhI merA vivAda ho jAtA thaa| ghara meM koI mehamAna Ae, usase vivAda ho jaae| koI paMDita pUjA-patrI ke lie Ae, usase vivAda ho jaae| skUla meM zikSakoM se vivAda ho jaae| zikAyatoM para zikAyateM! muhalle meM jisase bhI Ae zikAyata hI Ae! to unako hamezA ciMtA banI rahatI ki dekho, kisI se Trena meM anajAna ajanabI AdamiyoM se koI vivAda nahIM karanA nAhaka! tumheM kyA matalaba duniyA se? jAne do bhAr3a meM, jisako jAnA hai| nAhaka jhaMjhaTa-jhagar3A khar3A nahIM karanA kahIM! Page 93 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA ye do upadeza ve detI hI rahI--aMtima samaya taka! unakI najaroM meM svabhAvataH maiM sadA baccA hI rhaa| aura yaha svAbhAvika bhI hai| isameM kucha asvAbhAvika nhiiN| to tumhAre mAM-bApa ko yahAM suvidhA do| yahAM dhyAna meM laao| yahAM dhIre se unako chor3a do| aura haTa gae chor3a kr| tuma khar3e rahoge, to ve dhyAna bhI na kareMge--ki beTA dekha rahA hai--kaise nAceM! beTA dekha rahA hai--kaise gAeM! kyA kahegA yaha--ki hamAre mAM-bApa ko kyA huA! so ye bhI hone lage! ye bhI pagalAne lage! aba yaha to pagalA hI gayA hai! tuma unako chor3a die dhyAna meN| tuma haTa gae--bilakula haTa gae vahAM se, tAki ve mukta bhAva se, saralatA se sammilita ho skeN| sIdhe-sAde loga haiM--yaha mere khayAla meM hai| aura jaba yahAM A gae haiM, to mujha para chor3a de| yahAM raMga laga hI jaaegaa| yahAM Akara aura baca jAnA muzkila hai| yahAM holI ho rahI hai| yahAM gulAla ur3a rahI hai| yahAM dIe jala rahe haiN| dIvAlI hai| dina holI--rAta dIvAlI! kaise jAeMge baca kara! magara agara tumane jora DAlA, to dvAra baMda ho jaaeNge| tuma dvAra se haTa jaao| maiM nipaTa luuNgaa| maiM jAnatA hUM--kisa meM kaise praveza krnaa| Der3ha lAkha saMnyAsI aise hI nahIM ho gae haiM! usakI bhI kalA hotI hai| koI buddha huA kyA jaise, mujhameM kucha saMbuddha ho gayA koI mukta huA kyA jaise, mujhameM hI kucha mukta ho gayA jaba kisI buddha ke pAsa baiThoge, tumhAre bhItara kucha hone hI lgegaa| koI ghaMTiyAM bajane lageMgI hRdaya meN| koI gIta uThane lgegaa| koI gaMdha phailane lgegii| koI buddha huA kyA jaise, mujhameM kucha saMbuddha ho gayA koI mukta huA kyA jaise, mujhameM hI kucha mukta ho gayA maiM apanI sImita bAhoM meM, bAMdhe hUM AkAza asImita maiM apanI nanhIM cAhoM meM, sAdhe hue virATa aparimita koI zubha saMkalpa jage to, mere prANa cahaka uThate haiM merA aNu vyaktitva, magara lagatA mujhameM astitva samAhita koI paMchI ur3e gagana meM, jaise maiM hI urdU abAdhita kahIM mile jIvana ko utsava, vaha mujhase saMyukta ho gayA isa vyApaka saMsRti-sAgara meM, alaga-thalaga hai lahara na koI isa phaile cetana-kAnana meM pAdapa koI nahIM akelA sukha-dukha ke tAne-bAne meM saba sabase aMtargumphita haiM mujhameM hI hotI saba halacala, mujhameM hI lagatA saba melA hara panaghaTa merA panaghaTa hai, hara gAgara merI gAgara hai le koI bhI svAda amRta kA, samajho maiM samyukta ho gayA koI khuzI nahIM apanI bhara, koI pIr3A nahIM parAI Page 94 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA cAhe maraghaTa kA matalaba ho, hara ghaTanA mujhameM ghaTatI hai, sAta suroM kI baMsuriyA meM, maiM saba bhAvoM kA saMgama hUM, cAhe koI jage yoga meM, koI mukta rahe yA baMdI, koI ho jAe saMnyAsI, cAhe koI alakha jagAe, mujhase dUra kahAM jAegA, mere isa caitanya jaladhi kA dekho, yaha saMgIta uThA to, koI buddha huA kyA jaise, koI mukta huA kyA jaise cAhe kahIM baje zahanAI saba merA mAnasa-maMthana hai kabhI haMsI hai kabhI rulAI mujhameM jaga haMsatA-gAtA hai samajho maiM hI yukta ho gayA koI sumire yA bisarA de yA koI saMsAra basA de yA kAlikha se pute cadariyA cAhe supta rahe yA jAge dikhA na koI kUla kinArA mere lie nirukta ho gayA mujhameM kucha saMbuddha ho gayA mujhameM hI kucha mukta ho gayA , unako DUbane do| eka sAgara yahAM maujUda hai| dikhAI nahIM par3atA; adRzya hai| aura isameM jo DUbA, vaha bhIgegA; anabhIgA nahIM jA sakegA / magara tuma haTa jaao| saMta ! tuma kinAre para mata khar3e rahanA / tuma haTa hI jaao| tuma bAta hI mata utthaanaa| ve kaheM bhI, to bhI utsukatA mata dikhaanaa| apanI utsukatA bhItara hI bhItara rkhnaa| bolanA bhI mata kahanA bhI mt| hAM, tumhAre AnaMda ko unheM dekhane do| tumhAre bhItara jo rUpAMtaraNa huA hai, use pahacAnane do| basa, vahI unheM bhI le AegA / A jAeM, to zubha hai| A jAeM, to maMgala hai, kyoMki kala kA koI bharosA nahIM hai| Aja itanA hI cauthA pravacana dinAMka 14 sitaMbara, 1980 zrI rajanIza Azrama, pUnA jAgo-DUbo pahalA prazna bhagavAna, ahamaka ahamadAbAda mila gyaa| vahI mAravAr3I caMdUlAla kA pitA aura DhabbUjI kA cAcA! lekina hai bahurUpI dekhatI hUM--adRzya ho jAtA hai| acAnaka dUsare rUpa meM prakaTa hotA hai| isakI lIlA vicitra hai| janmoM-janmoM se svAmI bana kara baiThA hai| aba to maiM thkii| bUDhA, kurUpa, gaMdA--pIchA nahIM chodd'taa| Apake sAmane hote hue bhI Apase milane nahIM detaa| Apake prema-sAgara meM DUbane nahIM detaa| jIvana sauMdarya kI ur3Ana nahIM lene detaa| isI ke kAraNa maiM viraha agni meM jalI jA rahI huuN| maiM asahAya, asamartha huuN| bhagavAna ! mere bhagavAna! mehara karo meharabAna Page 95 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jugata karo jogezvara caraNa par3I dAsI torI bhAva-bhakti do avinAzI tAki maiM- Apake stuti gAna janmoM-janmoM taka gAtI rahUM, gAtI rahUM, gAtI rahUM! jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA yoga maMju ! ahamaka ahamadAbAdI yAnI ahaMkAra ahaMkAra eka bhrAMti hai, isalie chUTanA eka artha meM kaThina, dUsare artha meM bar3A srl| jarA-sI samajhane kI bAta hai| agara ahaMkAra se chUTane kI koziza kI, to phira muzkila ho jAegI, kyoMki jo nahIM hai, use kaise chor3ogI jo nahIM hai, usase kaise laDogI? jo nahIM hai, usase kaise bhAgogI? jo hai hI nahIM, use chor3ane ke prayAsa meM hI bhrAMti ho jAegI, bhUla ho jaaegii| jo nahIM hai, use jAnanA hI paryApta hai ki nahIM hai / chor3ane kI jarUrata nahIM uThatI / chor3ane kA to artha huA-mAna liyA ki hai| ahaMkAra se bahuta loga chUTane kI ceSTA karate haiM; usI ceSTA meM aTaka jAte haiN| ahaMkAra nahIM aTakA rahA chUTane kI ceSTA aTakA rahI hai| jaise koI aMdhakAra se lar3e jItegA kyA? lAkha kare upaay| aura kitanA hI balavAna ho--hAregA--sunizcita haaregaa| aura jaba bAra-bAra hAregA, to svabhAvataH socegA kitanA asahAya huuN| kitanA bevazA! kitanA zaktihInA! tarka kahegA : hArate ho, kyoMki aMdhakAra sabala hai| aura hArate isalie nahIM ho ki aMdhakAra sabala hai| hArate isalie ho ki aMdhakAra hai nhiiN| jo nahIM hai, usase lar3oge, to hAroge hI-miToge hI TUToge hii| ahaMkAra hotA, to jIta bhI saMbhava thii| -- -- Page 96 of 255 -- ahaMkAra svAmI banA baiThA hai aisA tujhe samajha AyA maMju ! yaha samajha na huii| agara ahaMkAra svAmI banA baiThA hai - aisA samajha meM AyA, to phira eka ceSTA uThegI ki kaise maiM ahaMkAra ko dabA kara usakI mAlakina bana jaauuN| saMgharSa zurU hogaa| aura saMgharSa meM parAjaya hai| aura yaha bahuta AdhArabhUta bAta hai, jo khayAla meM rakhanA / kabhI abhAva se mata lar3anA, nahIM to jiMdagI yUM hI vyartha ho jAegI aura isalie phira lIlA vicitra mAlUma hogii| kyoMki idhara se haTAyA - haTA bhI nahIM pAe ki vaha dUsare dvAra se praveza kara jaaegaa| phira lagegA ki bar3I sUkSma hai yaha prakriyA ! jitanA chUTane kI ceSTA- utanA ulajhAva saghana hotA jaaegaa| jo nahIM hai use jAnanA kAphI hai| isalie merA tyAga para jora nahIM hai| tyAga kA artha hai-chor3anA merA jora hai--bodha para jAganA bhAganA nahIM jo bhAgA, vaha muzkila meM pdd'egaa| jisase bhAgA vahI usakA pIchA karegA ! chAyA tumhAre pIche hI jaaegii| kucha hotI - tuma bhAgate, to chUTa jAtI magara kucha hai nahIM tuma jitanI tejI se bhAgoge, chAyA bhI utanI hI tejI se bhaagegii| aura taba ghabar3AhaTa vyApta ho jAegI ki he prabhu, aba kyA hogA! kitanA -- -- http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA hI teja dauDUM, yaha chAyA hai ki pIchA nahIM chor3atI! phira janmoM-janmoM daur3o, to bhI yaha pIchA nahIM chodd'egii| ruko--aura gaura se dekho| jAga kara dekho: isa ahamaka ahamadAbAdI kA koI astitva nahIM hai| na to yaha caMdUlAla kA pitA hai--aura na DhabbUjI kA caacaa| yaha hai hI nhiiN| baharUpI kaise hogA? hama lar3ate haiM, to baharUpI ho jAtA hai| eka rUpa harAte haiM, to bhrAMti dUsare rUpa meM khar3I ho jAtI hai| bhrAMti ke srota ko nahIM phcaante| to patte kATate raho, jar3a to banI hai| aura majA aisA hai ki jar3a ko hama pAnI dete haiM--aura pattoM ko hama kATate haiM! eka hAtha se pAnI dete haiM, eka hAtha se kATate haiN| idhara patte kaTate jAte haiM, nae patte nikalate Ate haiN| eka pattA tor3ate ho, tIna patte nikala Ate haiM! aise AdamI tIna se teraha ho jAtA hai| TUTatA hI jAtA hai| khaMDa-khaMDa ho jAtA hai| phira svabhAvataH nirbalatA lgegii| nirbalatA lagegI--aura saMtApa hogaa| eka hAra, hatAzA jIvana ko ghera legii| vijaya kI saMbhAvanA miTa jaaegii| tU kahatI hai maMju, bahurUpI hai| dekhatI hUM, adRzya ho jAtA hai| dekhane se jo cIja adRzya ho jAe, vaha hai hI nhiiN| na ekarUpI--na bhruupii| jo najara ke sAmane na Tike, jo adRzya ho jAe--jaise hI dekho vaise hI adRzya ho jAe, aura jaise hI pITha mor3o, phira khar3I ho jAe--to samajhanA ki bhrAMti hai, ajJAna hai, bodha kA abhAva hai| jalAo dIyA dhyAna kA aura krAMti apane se ho jAtI hai| isalie mere saMnyAsI ko maiM dhyAna ke atirikta aura kucha bhI nahIM de rahA huuN| na to kahatA hUM chodd'o| na kahatA hUM tyAga kro| na kahatA hUM tpshcryaa| na kahatA hUM vinamra bno| kyoMki vinamratA ahaMkAra kA hI rUpa hai| itanA hI kahatA huuN--hosh| behozI todd'o| yaha nIMda todd'o| ye sapane haiM--inase jaago| jAga kara sapanoM kA koI astitva nahIM raha jaataa| jAgate hI sapane samApta ho jAte haiN| seTha caMdUlAla mAravAr3I kA munIma popaTalAla varSoM se AkAMkSA karatA thA ki kucha to tanakhvAha meM bar3hatI ho jAe! magara caMdUlAla mAravAr3I ko dekhatA ki himmata hI na uThatI mAMga karane kii| caMdUlAla kI kaMjUsI aisI ki usase mAMga karanA khtrnaak| naukarI khatama ho sakatI hai| jo milatA hai, vaha bhI baMda ho sakatA hai| so popaTalAla cupa rahA, cupa rahA--mauke kI talAza meM rhaa| maukA caMdUlAla milane hI na de| caMdUlAla kabhI muskurAe bhI n| caMdUlAla kabhI popaTalAla kI tarapha ThIka se dekhe bhI n| kaho--to kaise kaho aise AdamI se| patthara kI dIvAla banA hai| phira usane eka tarakIba khoja nikaalii| eka subaha Akara kahA ki seTha jI, rAta eka sapanA dekhA ki Apane merI tanakhvAha paccIsa rupae mahInA bar3hA dI hai! caMdUlAla ne kahA, akar3a mt| agale mahIne kATa luuNgaa| sapane meM bhUla ho gaI hogii| sapane meM bar3hI tanakhvAha asalI meM kATane kI taiyArI hai! sapanA to jAge ki naSTa huaa| Page 97 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA caMdUlAla kI patnI gulAbo apanI eka sahelI se kaha rahI thI ki mujhe to isa caMdUlAla para zaka hotA hai--bahuta hotA hai| yaha beImAna jarUra kisI strI ke cakkara meM phaMsA hai| aba kala kI hI bAta: maiMne sapanA dekhA ki eka strI kI tarapha bar3I gaura se dekha rahA thA aura pAsa hI sarakatA jA rahA thA! usa sahelI ne kahA, tU bhI pAgala huI! are, yaha to sapanA thA! gulAbo ne kahA, jaba mere sapane meM aisI harakateM kara rahA hai, to apane sapane meM kyA nahIM karatA hogA! jaba mere sapane taka meM itanI himmata kara rahA hai, to jarA soca to ki apane sapane meM kyA nahIM karatA hogA! maiM maujUda--aura mere sAmane sarakatA thA usakI tarapha! mujhe to zaka hotA hai| mujhe to isa para bharosA nahIM aataa| yaha jarUra kisI ke pIche par3A hai| isakI cAla-DhAla! jaba se yaha sapanA dekhA hai, taba se hara bAta meM mujhe zaka hotA hai| cora kI taraha ghara meM ghusatA hai| cAroM tarapha dekhatA hai! zAdIzudA AdamI ghusatA hI cora kI taraha hai| isameM koI karegA kyA! eka baccA apane sAthI ko kaha rahA thA, mere pitA siMha kI taraha dahAr3ate haiN| hAthI kI taraha masta cAla se calate haiN| hiraNoM kI taraha daur3a sakate haiM! usa dUsare lar3ake ne kahA, are, chor3o bhii| aura jaba patnI ke sAtha calate haiM--terI mammI ke sAtha--to bilakula bhIgI billI kI bhAMti! yaha saba hAthI kI cAla, aura zera kI taraha dahAr3anA, aura hiraNa kI taraha daur3anA--asaliyata nahIM hai| asaliyata to vaha hai jo patnI ke sAmane...! eka beTe ne apane bApa se Akara pUchA ki hamArI bhASA ko mAtRbhASA kyoM kahA jAtA hai? bApa ne cAroM tarapha dekhaa| beTe ne kahA, kyA dekha rahe haiM? kahA ki terI mammI ko dekha rahA hUM! phira kAna meM phusaphusA kara kahA!... hAlAMki mammI dUra-dUra taka dikhAI nahIM par3a rahI thii| kAna meM phusaphusA kara kahA ki beTA, sn| bhASA ko mAtRbhASA isalie kahA jAtA hai ki pitA ko to bolane kA avasara hI kahAM milatA hai! mAtA ke rahate pitA bola sakatA hai? isalie mAtRbhASA! pitRbhASA to kaha hI nahIM sakate! to caMdUlAla becArA agara DarA-DarA ghara meM ghusatA ho, cAroM tarapha dekha-dekha kara ghara meM ghusatA ho--isase sirpha zAdIzudA hai, itanA hI patA calatA hai| magara patnI ne jaba se sapanA dekhA, taba se use zaka ho rahA hai| hama sapanoM para bharosA kara lete haiM! hama sapanoM meM jIne lagate haiN| aura yUM mata samajhanA ki gulAbo kI hI yaha galatI hai| maMju! yaha sabakI galatI hai| jAga kara bhI hama sapanoM meM jI rahe eka mitra ne pUchA hai ki maiM lobasAMga rAmpA kI kitAbeM par3ha rahA huuN| bar3I prabhAvita karatI hai| lekina Apako sunatA hUM, to kabhI-kabhI zaka hotA hai ki patA nahIM ye bAteM saccI haiM yA nahIM! Page 98 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA lobasAMga rAmpA kI jo kitAbeM haiM, ve upanyAsa haiN| isase jyAdA kucha bhI nhiiN| sirpha buddha unase prabhAvita ho sakate haiN| upanyAsa kA majA lenA ho, to bAta aur| aura upanyAsa kI dRSTi se bhI tRtIya koTi ke upanyAsa haiN| upanyAsa kI dRSTi se bilakula AkhirI zreNI ke haiN| magara adhyAtma kI taraha samajhoge, to samajhoge ki bar3I rAja kI bAteM lobasAMga rAmpA kaha rahA hai! saba kapola-kalpanAeM haiN| saba sapane haiN| magara kaI logoM ko prabhAvita karatA hai| kyoMki sapanoM se bhare loga sapanoM se hI prabhAvita hote haiN| sapane kI hI bhASA jAnate haiN| aura to koI dUsarI bhASA AtI nhiiN| upanyAsa kA majA lenA ho, to TAlasTAya ko par3ho, to dostovaskI ko pddh'o| cekhova ko pddh'o| gorkI ko pddh'o| upanyAsa kA majA lenA ho, to mahAna kalAkAra hue haiM--kyA sar3e-sar3Ae lobasAMga rAmpA ko par3ha rahe ho! jisameM kucha bhI nahIM--kacarA hai| magara agara adhyAtma samajho, to phira tumhArI mrjii| phira prabhAvita ho jaaoge| adhyAtma ke nAma se jitanA kUr3A-karakaTa duniyA meM calatA hai, kisI aura cIja ke nAma se nahIM cltaa| lekina calatA kyoM hai? kyoMki loga usI bhASA ko samajhate haiN| loga mUDha haiM aura jo unakI mUDhatA ko prabhAvita karatA hai, unheM jAna lenA cAhie ki usa bAta meM bhI kucha chipI huI mUDhatA hogI, tabhI to tAlamela baiTha rahA hai| buddhapuruSoM kI bhASA to cauMkAtI hai, jhakajhoratI hai| buddhapuruSa to yUM Ate haiM, jaise ki talavAra Ae! yUM ki jaise koI gardana kATa jaae| buddhapuruSa to agni kI taraha haiM--Agneya hote haiN| bhasmIbhUta kara deNge| nizcita hI usako, jo nahIM hai| jo hai--vaha to nikhara kara ubhara aaegaa| buddhapuruSa to yUM Ate haiM, jaise havA kA jhoMkA aae| rAkha ko ur3A le jAte haiN| magara tuma rAkha ko pakar3ate ho| tuma samajhate ho--yaha tumhArI saMpadA hai! dila ko saMvAra gaI jIvana nikhAra gaI jAne kahUM vo kyA hai khuziyAM bauchAra gaI! maiM khuda rahA na apanA TUTa gayA saba sapanA koI havA isa mana kA darapana buhAra gaI! jIvana bhayA ujayArA kho hI gayA aMdhiyArA prema agni maMdira meM diyarA-sA bAra gaI! Page 99 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ hAthoM meM usake chor3A tairA na bhAgA-daur3A nadiyA hI dekho merI naiyA ko tAra gaI ! - hAthoM meM usake chor3A! saMnyAsa kA artha hai- samarpaNa maMju ! chor3a! aba lar3ane kI jarUrata nahIM / yaha jo gairika saritA hai, yaha sAgara kI tarapha jA yaha nadI jA hI rahI hai sAgara kI trph| hI rahI hai aba tairane kI bhI jarUrata nahIM hAthoM meM usake chor3A bhAgane daur3ane kI bhI jarUrata nhiiN| tairA na bhAgA-daur3A nadiyA hI dekho merI naiyA ko tAra gaI ! jIvana bhayA ujayArA kho hI gayA aMdhiyArA prema agni maMdira meM diyarA - sA bAra gaI ! maiM khuda rahA na apanA TUTa gayA saba sapanA koI havA isa mana kA darapana buhAra gaI ! dila ko saMvAra gaI jIvana nikhAra gaI jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA - kahUM vo kyA hai khuziyAM bauchAra gaI ! sirpha jAga kara dekha lenaa| kucha karanA nahIM hai| ahamaka ahamadAbAdI vidA ho jAtA hai| aura tuma jAge raho -- phira lauTakara nahIM A sktaa| soe, to phira lauTa aaegaa| soe to phira spne| Page 100 of 255 saMnyAsa kI parama avasthA hai: jAge, to jAge / soe bhI jAge / kRSNa ne yogI kI paribhASA jo kI haiM, vahI saMnyAsI kI merI paribhASA hai| kRSNa ne kahA hai-vaha jo nIMda meM bhI jAgatA hai| yA sarva bhUtAyAma tasyAma jAgrati saMyamI / jo sabake lie rAta hai--yA nizA sarva bhUtAyAmasaMyamI ke lie, yogI ke lie vaha bhI nIMda nahIM vaha taba bhI jAgA hai| tasyAma jAgrati saMyamI / zarIra so jAtA hai, mana so jAtA hai- aura bhItara http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA caitanya jAgA rahatA hai| sAkSI jAgA rahatA hai| dina meM to jAgA hI rahatA; rAta meM bhI jAgA rhtaa| jAge meM bhI jAgA--soe meM bhI jaagaa| abhI hAlata ulaTI hai! abhI soe meM bhI soyA--aura jAge meM bhI soyaa| basa, isako hI jarA sIdhA kara lenaa| abhI tuma zIrSAsana kara rahI ho| maiM kahatA hUM: paira ke bala khar3e ho jaao| yaha baMda karo shiirssaasn| lar3anA mata, nahIM to lagegA ki maiM asahAya hUM, asamartha huuN| tyAganA mata--nahIM to lagegA, Apake samAne hote hae bhI Apase milane nahIM detaa| Apake prema-sAgara meM DUbane nahIM detaa| yaha to yUM huI bAta maMju! jaise koI kahe: aMdherA hai; dIe ko jalane nahIM detaa| aisA ho sakatA aMdherA kitanA hI prAcIna ho, kitanA hI purAnA ho, sadiyoM-sadiyoM, sahasroM varSoM se ho--to bhI kyA dIe ko jalane se roka sakegA? dIyA abhI jalatA--tAjA, nayA, sadyaHsnAta--abhIabhI nahAI-nahAI jyoti aatii| abhI-abhI jnmaa| jaise choTA-sA navajAta shishu| magara usako bhI purAne se purAnA aMdhakAra roka nahIM sktaa| nhiiN| aisA mata soca ki ahaMkAra tujhe prema meM nahIM DUbane detaa| prema meM DUba--to ahaMkAra vidA ho jAtA hai| dIyA jalA, to aMdhakAra vidA ho jAtA hai| lekina hama tarka khoja lete haiN| aura vahI mana tarka khoja rahA hai, jo mana ahaMkAra ko nirmita karatA hai| isalie hamArA tarka hamAre ahaMkAra ko bala detA jAtA hai| hama apane ko chipAte cale jAte haiN| isase eka pAkhaMDa paidA hotA hai| to jyAdA se jyAdA AdamI vinamra ho sakatA hai| lekina vinamra AdamI sirpha pAkhaMDI hotA hai| bhItara to ahaMkArI hai| yahI akar3a ki mujhase vinamra koI bhI nhiiN| aura manuSya kA mana jarUra hI bahuta catura hai| vaha hara cIja ke lie tarka khoja letA hai, tarka kA sahArA khoja letA hai! yUnusa ne eka kitAba likhI hai--parzansa, paizaMsa eMDa paalittiks| muhammada yUnusa ne isa kitAba meM kucha bar3I mahatvapUrNa bAteM udaghATita kI haiN| likhA hai ki unnIsa sau ikkIsa meM morArajI desAI ko briTiza sarakAra ne sAMpradAyikatA ke kAraNa, hiMdU matAMdhatA ke kAraNa naukarI se alaga kiyaa| hAlAMki morArajI yaha pracAra karate rahe haiM ki maiMne briTiza naukarI ko lAta mAra dI thI! aisA mana cAlabAja hai! nikAle gae naukarI se, lekina kahate haiM ki maiMne lAta mAra dI thii| aura nikAle gae jisa kAraNa se, vaha kAraNa samajha meM AtA hai, kyoMki abhI bhI hiMdUmatAMdhatA chUTI nahIM hai| dikhAte haiM apane ko gAMdhI kA anuyAyI, lekina gAMdhI se jyAdA anuyAyI haiM goDase ke| morArajI desAI aura vallabha bhAI paTela donoM ko yaha patA thA ki mahAtmA gAMdhI kI hatyA kI yojanA kI jA rahI hai| morArajI desAI taba mahArASTra ke mukhyamaMtrI the, aura unako khabara thii| lekina usa khabara para koI bhI vyavasthA nahIM kI gii| Page 101 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA saradAra vallabhabhAI paTela ko bhI khabara thI aura ve bhArata ke gRhamaMtrI the| unake hAtha meM sArI vyavasthA thii| aura unhoMne jA kara mahAtmA gAMdhI ko pUchA! aba hoziyAriyAM dekhnaa| unhoMne mahAtmA gAMdhI ko pUchA ki kyA hama ApakI surakSA kI vyavasthA kareM? nizcita ve jAnate the ki mahAtmA gAMdhI kyA kheNge| mahAtmA gAMdhI ne kahA ki jaba paramAtmA mujhe uThAnA cAhegA, to koI vyavasthA mujhe roka na skegii| aura jaba taka nahIM uThAnA cAhatA, taba taka koI mujhe uThA nahIM sakatA hai| isalie vyavasthA kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| tumheM lagegA ki yaha bAta to bar3I kImata kI mahAtmA gAMdhI ne khii| mujhe nahIM lagatA ki isameM kucha kImata kI bAta hai| jarA bhI kImata kI bAta nahIM hai| kyoMki agara goDase ke dvArA paramAtmA tumheM mAranA cAhatA hai, to saradAra vallabha bhAI paTela ke dvArA surakSA karavAnA cAhatA hai! tuma bIca meM Ane vAle kauna ho? agara saccA dhArmika vyakti ho, to vaha kahegA ki tumhArI jo mrjii| mArane vAle ko mArane se maiM nahIM roka sktaa| bacAne vAle ko maiM rokane vAlA kauna hU~! lekina beImAnI dekhate haiN| isameM kucha dhArmikatA nahIM hai| koI dhyAna kA bodha nahIM hai| hAlAMki tumheM yaha bAta bahuta prabhAvita kregii| bahutoM ko prabhAvita karatI hai ki ahA! yaha hai dhArmika vyakti! kahatA hai, Izvara uThAnA cAhatA hai, to koI roka nahIM sktaa| aura Izvara rokanA cAhatA hai, to tuma kyoM roka rahe ho? Akhira kisI ke dvArA hI uThAegA Izvara bhii| nAthUrAma goDase ke dvArA utthvaayaa| to kisI ke dvArA hI bacAegA! mujhase loga pUchate haiM ki Apa surakSA kA iMtajAma baMda kyoM nahIM karavA dete? maiM kauna hUM baMda karavAne vAlA! jaba maiM chure pheMkane vAle ko nahIM roka sakatA, to saMta mahArAja ko kaise rokU? jo jisakI marjI ho--kro| churA pheMkane vAlA churA pheMke, rokane vAlA roke| maiM khela dekha rahA huuN| isase jyAdA merA prayojana nahIM hai| saMta ko to rokU--aura churA pheMkane vAle ko to roka nahIM sakatA--to yaha to churA pheMkane vAle ko merA sAtha huaa| yaha to kisI na kisI rUpa meM AtmahatyA kI vRtti huI! magara AtmahatyA kI vRtti bhI AdamI bahuta acche AvaraNa meM rakha sakatA hai| mahAtmA gAMdhI ko lagane lagA thA ki ve khoTe sikke ho gae haiN| kyoMki jaise hI sattA unake ziSyoM ke hAtha meM gaI, unhoMne mahAtmA gAMdhI kI sunanA baMda kara diyA thaa| unhoMne kahA, jaba taka deza ko AjAdI nahIM milI thI, ve merI sunate the| aba merI koI nahIM suntaa| maiM khoTA sikkA ho gayA hUM! aura marane ke kucha dina pahale unhoMne yaha kahA thA ki pahale maiM eka sau paccIsa varSa jInA cAhatA thA, aba nhiiN| aba merI koI jarUrata hI nahIM hai| merI koI sunatA nhiiN| merI koI mAnatA nhiiN| maiM bilakula vyartha huuN| Page 102 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA ye AtmaghAta kI sUcanAeM haiN| unheM bhI patA nahIM ki ve kyA kaha rahe haiN| maiM eka sau paccIsa varSa jInA cAhatA hU~- yaha bhI vAsanA thii| agara paramAtmA pahale uThAnA cAhatA hai- phira kyA karoge ? jidda karoge ki maiM eka sau paccIsa varSa jIUMgA hI jIUMgA ? maiM to eka sau paccIsa varSa jInA cAhatA huuN| yaha bhI vAsanA thI aura aba yaha vAsanA hai ki jaldI uThA le, kyoMki aba maiM kisI kAma kA nahIM rhaa| aba merI koI mAnatA nahIM / manavAne kI itanI AkAMkSA ki jIvana ko bhI koI mUlya nahIM rhaa| mAneM loge| maiM jo kahUM, vaha mAneM to tthiik| to eka sau paccIsa varSa jInA hai aura mAnate hI nahIM koI merI, to aba jIne meM bhI kyA sAra hai| matalaba jIne kA itanA hI artha thA ki anuyAyI AjJAkArI rahe majA anuyAyI ke AjJAkArI hone meM thA aisA jAla calatA hai| abhI kala maiMne morArajI desAI kA eka vaktavya dekhA, jisameM unhoMne bhI Izvara para thopa diyA saba--ki maiM to Izvara kI marjI se jI rahA huuN| yahAM taka unhoMne kahA ki maiMne DipTI kalekTara hone ke lie jo darakhvAsta dI thI, vaha maiMne nahIM likhI thii| mere prophesara ne likhI thii| maiMne sirpha dastakhata kie the| aba maiM jAnatA hUM ki kyoM nahIM likhI hogI! likhate banatI nahIM hogI ! nahIM to koI prophesara se darakhvAsta likhavAne jAtA hai? gae hI kAhe ko the prophesara se darakhvAsta likhavAne? aura jaba darakhvAsta nahIM denI thI, to dastakhata kisa lie kie? phAr3a kara pheMka dete koI majabUrI thI ki prophesara ne darakhvAsta likha dI aura tumheM dastakhata karane hI par3eMge? are, jaba tumheM naukarI nahIM karanI thI, to darakhvAsta phAr3a dete| jaise dastakhata kie, aise phAr3a kara jayarAma jI karake ghara A jAte! pahale to gae kyoM? phira usane darakhvAsta kaise likha dI tumhAre binA kahe ? kisane use batA diyA ki kauna sI naukarI ke lie darakhvAsta likhe aura dastakhata tumane kie to dastakhata bhI usI ko karane dene the, ki jaba paramAtmA ko dilavAnI hI hogI naukarI, to dastakhata koI bhI kare, vaha to dilavA kara rhegaa| are, paramAtmA ke khilApha koI kAma ho sakatA hai duniyA meM patA nahIM hilatA, to DipTI kalekTara jaisI bar3I naukarI koI paramAtmA ke binA AjA ke ho sakatI hai? to kaha dete ki karegA to paramAtmA dastakhata karegA yA tU kara maiM kauna dastakhata karane vAlA ! lekina sacAI yaha hogI ki darakhvAsta likhate nahIM banatI hogii| lekina usako chipA lene ke lie hama kyA kyA Ayojana kara lete haiN| muhammada yUnusa ne apanI kitAba meM yaha bhI ullekha kiyA hai ki morArajI desAI isa bAta kI ghoSaNA karate phirate haiM ki maiM pacAsa varSa se brahmacArI huuN| yaha jhUTha hai sarAsara jhUTha hai| unakA eka musalamAna strI se prema thaa| usase eka avaidya saMtAna bhI huii| vaha saMtAna bhI abhI jiMdA hai| lekina una donoM ko, strI ko aura bacce ko unhoMne jabardastI pAkistAna bhijavA diyA-ki na rahegA bAMsa, na bajegI bAMsurI ve pAkistAna meM haiN| vaha begama abhI jiMdA hai, jisase unakA prema thaa| Page 103 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA hAM, patnI se brahmacarya rahA hogaa| patnI se brahmacArI kauna nahIM honA caahtaa| aisA tuma pati dekhoge, jo patnI se brahmacarya kA vrata na lenA cAhe! yaha saca hogaa| lekina yaha jo begama thI, isase prema kA calA silsilaa| isase baccA bhI paidA haa| baccA bhI jiMdA hai| begama bhI abhI jiMdA hai| usako pAkistAna bhijavA diyaa| vyavasthA kI pAkistAna bhijavAne kii| kyoMki jaba morArajI desAI phira se bhArata ke pradhAnamaMtrI bana baiThe, sattA meM A gae, to vaha begama bhArata-yAtrA ke lie aaii| pAkistAniyoM ko sAmAnyatayA khulA vIsA diyA hI nahIM jaataa| unako to jisa jagaha jAnA ho, usa eka jagaha kA vIsA diyA jAtA hai| agara baMbaI--to bNbii| vaha baMbaI chor3a kara hara kahIM nahIM jA skte| lekina isa begama ko khulA vIsA diyA gyaa| vaha bhArata bhara meM bhramaNa kara skii| sarakArI vizrAma sthAna meM tthhrii| itanA hI nahIM, dillI meM vesTarna korTa meM usake Thahare kI vyavasthA kI gii| vaha dillI gaI, bhopAla gaI, haidarAbAda gaI, baMbaI gii| kahIM koI rukAvaTa usa para na thii| ho bhI kaise sakatI thii| lekina brahmacarya kA thothA pAkhaMDa phailAe phirate haiN| mana bar3A pAkhaMDI hai| yaha kyA-kyA tarakIbeM nikAla letA hai! mahAtmA gAMdhI kI hatyA meM morArajI desAI kA bhI hAtha hai| kyoMki jaba patA thA, to rukAvaTa DAlI jA sakatI thii| aura saradAra vallabha bhAI paTela kA bhI hAtha hai| mahAtmA gAMdhI se pUchane kA savAla hI nahIM utthtaa| yaha to gRhamaMtrI ko svayaM Ayojana karanA caahie| kyA tuma eka-eka AdamI se pUchate phiroge ki tumheM koI mArane Ane vAlA hai, to sarakAra iMtajAma kare ki chuTTI de! agara koI mArane vAlA A rahA hai, to cAhe koI kitanA hI sAmAnya nAgarika ho, duniyA use jAnatI ho ki na jAnatI ho--yaha sarakAra kA kartavya hai ki usake mArga meM bAdhA ddaale| pUchane jAnA usa AdamI se, vaha bhI gAMdhI jaise AdamI se pUchane jAnA ki hama surakSA kA iMtajAma kareM yA nahIM! yaha to hadda ho gaI! kisI ke ghara meM corI par3ane vAlI hai, yaha pulisa ko patA cala jAe, to pulisa pUchane jAtI hai ki tumhAre ghara meM corI par3ane vAlI hai| hama iMtajAma kareM ki nahIM? hiMdU-muslima daMgA hone vAlA hai, to pulisa pUchane jAtI hai ki hama iMtajAma kareM yA nahIM? mahAtmA gAMdhI se pUchane jAne kA matalaba kyA hai? kahIM bhItarI AkAMkSA hogI ki chuTakArA ho jAe--isa bUr3he se chuTakArA ho jAe! mahAtmA gAMdhI kI hatyA ke sAta dina pahale hI saradAra vallabha bhAI paTela ne lakhanaU meM Ara.esa.esa. kI eka vizAla railI ko saMbodhana kiyA thaa| aura vahAM unakI bar3I prazaMsA kI thI--ki isa taraha ke rASTrasevaka cAhie! yaha kucha Akasmika nahIM hai ki bhArata meM jo janatA pArTI banI, jisane morArajI desAI ko sattA meM pahuMcA diyA, vaha mUlataH rASTrIya svayaM sevaka saMgha ke bala para hI khar3I thii| vaha ina matAMdha hiMduoM kA hI saMgaThana thA, jisakI tAkata para ve sattA meM pahuMca gae the| aura unako sattA meM biThAlane kA rAja yaha thA ki bhItara se buniyAdI rUpa se hiMdUvAda ke samarthaka haiN| Page 104 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA to gAMdhI ko haTAnA cAhA hogaa| kaha nahIM sakate siidhaa-saadhaa| nAthUrAma goDase ne chuTakArA dilA diyA, to rAhata kI sAMsa lI thI bhArata ke ina tathAkathita netAoM ne--ki jhaMjhaTa miTI! aba hama nizciMtatA se jo karanA hai kareM! aba koI bAdhA na rahI, koI kAMTA na rahA! AdamI bahuta cAlabAja hai| phira roeMge--aura bhASaNa deMge--aura hara taraha kA zoragula macAeMge ki bar3A inake Upara, chAtI para dukha A par3A hai| TUTe jA rahe haiM, mare jA rahe haiM! aura hara sAla zraddhAMjali car3hAe jA rahe haiM! aura rAjaghATa para baiThakara carakhA calAe jA rahe haiM! mana ke ina sAre dhokhoM se jAganA, mana ke isa pAkhaMDa se jAganA dhyAna hai| lekina Dara lagatA hai jAgane meM, kyoMki taba tumheM apanI sArI beImAniyAM dekhanI par3eM--apane sAre jAla, jo tumane hI bichAe haiM--apanI sArI gaMdagI! aura maMju tU kahatI hai ki bUDhA, kurUpa, gaMdA--pIchA nahIM chor3atA! bUDhA hai nizcita, kyoMki bahuta prAcIna hai| sadA-sadA se, janmoM-janmoM se pIche lagA hai| kurUpa bhI hai, gaMdA bhI hai| lekina pIchA nahIM chor3atA, usakA kAraNa yaha hai ki usakI gaMdagI dekhane kI, usakI kurUpatA dekhane kI kSamatA tU nahIM juTA pA rahI hai| agara use pUrI bhara AMkha le, to vaha sadA ke lie vidA ho jaae| aura usa para AMkha gar3A kara hI dekhanA hogaa| AMkha gar3A kara dekhane kA nAma hI dhyAna hai| lebila mata lagAo ki gaMdA hai, kurUpa hai, bUDhA hai| phcaano--dekho| aura nirNaya lene kI jaldI mata kro| sirpha dekho| kAphI hai dekhnaa| darzana kAphI hai| basa, rozanI kA jalAnA kAphI hai| rozanI ke jalate hI eka krAMti hotI hai, vaha krAMti samajhane jaisI hai| jo hai, vaha to pragaTa ho jAtA hai--rozanI ke jalate hii| aMdhere meM prakaTa nahIM hotA thaa| jo hai, vaha aMdhere meM dabA rahatA hai| aura jo nahIM hai, vaha prakaTa hotA hai| jaba tuma eka aMdhere kamare meM praveza karate ho, to aMdherA hI aMdherA dikhAI par3atA hai| dIvAloM para laTakI haI saMdara tasvIreM dikhAI nahIM pdd'tii| chappara se laTakA huA phAnsa dikhAI nahIM pdd'taa| kamare meM jamA huA taratIba se, suMdara pharnIcara, dikhAI nahIM pdd'taa| jo hai, vaha dikhAI nahIM pdd'taa| aura jo nahIM hai, vaha dikhAI par3atA hai| aMdhakAra! phira jalAo dIyA, to pharnIcara vidA nahIM ho jaaegaa| pharnIcara chalAMga lagA kara bhAga nahIM niklegaa| aura na hI dIvAroM se tasvIreM nikala kara nadArada ho jaaeNgii| sirpha aMdherA mittegaa| tasvIreM prakaTa hoNgii| jo hai, vaha dhyAna meM prakaTa hotA hai; aura jo nahIM hai, vaha vidA ho jAtA hai| ahaMkAra nahIM hai; mana nahIM hai| AtmA hai| paramAtmA hai| dhyAna isa abhUtapUrva ghaTanA ko tumhAre bhItara ghaTA detA hai| maMju! dhyAna meM dduub| aura dhyAna kI hI sugaMdha prema hai| dhyAna kA phUla khile, to prema kI sugaMdha apane Apa bikharI hai| Page 105 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA mata aisA soca ki yaha ahaMkAra tere prema meM bAdhA bana rahA hai| ahaMkAra kyA becArA bAdhA bnegaa| tU nahIM hai asahAya-asamartha; ahaMkAra hai asahAya aura asmrth| lekina hamArA usase tAdAtmya itanA ho gayA hai ki hama socate haiM--hama asahAya, hama asamartha! tU to svayaM paramAtmA hai| jisa dina dhyAna paripUrNa hogA, usa dina yaha udaghoSa nikalegA-- ahaM brhmaasmi| anlhk| tatvamasi! dUsarA prazna: bhagavAna prItama dvAra khar3I hUM mauna yahAM bhalA kaba socA AnA merA ApakA darzana pAnA! khIMca mujhe itanI dUrI se lAyA barabasa kauna? mauna khar3I khaTakhaTAUM dvAra-- are! hAtha khAlI hI AI! dene ko upahAra na lAI! arI! karegI kisase priyatama kI pUjA-satkAra? kSamA karanA-- yahIM kahIM bailUMgI chipakara AeMge dekhUgI pala-bhara basa, lauTUMgI usa pala kA hRdaya-paTa para citra utAra! vINA bhAratI! mauna meM hI dvAra khulatA hai| mauna se hI dvAra khulatA hai| mauna AyA--ki dvAra khulaa| khaTakhaTAnA bhI nahIM pdd'taa| tU kahatI hai--prItama dvAra khar3I hUM mauna! yahI to kuMjI hai--pyAre ke dvAra para cupacApa khar3e ho jaanaa| pukAra bhI nahIM dene kI jarUrata hai| ajAna bhI karane kI jarUrata nhiiN| kabIra ne eka masjida se gujarate samaya dekhA ki mullA car3hakara mInAra para, ajAna de rahA hai| to kabIra ne cillA kara kahA, utara nIce pAgala! kyA baharA huA khudAya? kyA terA khudA baharA ho gayA--jo itanI UMcI mInAra para car3ha kara, itanA zoragula macA rahA hai? mauna ho| cupa ho| cuppI kI bhASA hI basa paramAtmA jAnatA hai| mauna hI ekamAtra setu hai| bole ki dUra hue| pukArA ki bhinna hue| cupa hae ki abhinn| cupa hae ki ek| tU kahatI hai, prItama dvAra khar3I hUM mauna! kuMjI tere hAtha laga gii| yahAM bhalA kaba socA AnA!...soca-vicAra kara yahAM koI AtA? aura soca-vicAra kara jo AtA hai, vaha khAlI hAtha hI calA jAtA hai| soca-vicAra kara bhI kabhI koI AtA hai? kabhI koI AyA hai? Ae bhI to A nahIM paataa| Page 106 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA dUra se Ae the sAkI, suna ke mayakhAne ko hm| basa tarasate hI cale, aphasosa paimAne ko hm|| maya bhI hai, mInA bhI hai, sAgara bhI hai, sAkI nhiiN| dila meM AtA hai, lagA deM Aga mayakhAne ko hm|| hamako phaMsanA thA kaphasa meM, kyA gilA saiyAda kaa| basa tarasate hI rahe haiM Aba aura dAne ko hm|| bAga meM lagatA nahIM, saharA meM ghabarAtA hai dil| aba kahAM le jAke baiThe, aise dIvAne ko hm|| kyA haI takasIra hamase, tU batA de ai njiir| tAki zAdI marga samajheM, aise mara jAne ko hm|| dUra se Ae the sAkI, suna ke mayakhAne ko hm| basa tarasate hI cale aphasosa paimAne ko hm|| jo soca-vicAra kara AyA hai, vaha to jaisA AyA vaisA hI lauTa jaaegaa| khAlI AyA, khAlI lauTa jaaegaa| usakA paimAnA na bhregaa| sAkI se usakA milana na ho skegaa| saba hai, lekina vaha cUka jaaegaa| maya bhI hai, mInA bhI hai, sAgara bhI hai, sAkI nhiiN| dila meM AtA hai, lagA deM Aga mayakhAne ko hm|| saba hogA--sAkI se milana na ho paaegaa| sAkI sUphiyoM kA pratIka hai paramAtmA ke lie| aura taba jarUra krodha AegA ki hama itane dUra se Ae; bahuta suna kara Ae, bahuta AzA se Ae, bahuta AkAMkSA se Ae aura khAlI hAtha lauTanA par3a rahA hai| kyoM na Aga lagA deM mayakhAne ko hama! jo soca kara AyA, vaha AtA hI nahIM; A hI nahIM paataa| saba hotA: maya bhI, mayakhAnA bhI, sAkI nhiiN| saba use dikhAI par3atA hai| yahAM jo soca-vicAra kara A gae haiM, unheM saba dikhAI pdd'egaa| kauna puruSa kisa strI kA hAtha pakar3akara baiThA hai, unheM dikhAI pdd'egaa| kauna kisako AliMgana meM Abaddha kie hai--unako dikhAI pdd'egaa| maiM bhara unheM dikhAI nahIM pdduuNgaa| aura jo bina soce Ae haiM, unheM sirpha maiM dikhAI paDUMgA--aura kucha bhI dikhAI nahIM pdd'egaa| AliMganabaddha koI jor3A bhI khar3A hogA, to bhI unheM maiM hI dikhAI paDUMgA; aura kucha bhI nahIM dikhAI pdd'egaa| unheM vRkSoM kI hariyAlI meM, aura phUloM ke raMgoM meM, aura saMnyAsiyoM meM maiM hI dikhAI paDUMgA; aura kucha bhI nahIM dikhAI pdd'egaa| tU ThIka DhaMga se AI hai| tU kahatI hai: yahAM bhalA kaba socA AnA merA ApakA darzana pAnA! Page 107 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jo binA soce AyA hai, usakA to dIdAra nizcita hai| usane to darzana pA hI liyaa| nirvicAra meM hI to darzana hai| khIMca mujhe itanI dUrI se lAyA barabasa kauna! yahI to Ane kA DhaMga hai ki patA bhI nahIM calatA ki kyoM hama Ae; kisalie hama Ae; kauna khIMca lAyA! koI adamya AkarSaNa, koI bhItara kI Dora, jo dikhAI nahIM par3atI--adRzya--koI kiraNa chU lI hai--aura tU cala pdd'ii| koI dhuna uThI aura tU cala pdd'ii| yahAM to matavAle hI pahuMca pAte haiM, dIvAne hI pahuMca pAte haiN| jisa tarapha dekhA dIvAnagI meM tere dIvAne gae lAkha apane ko chupAyA phira bhI pahacAne gae allA allA kitanI pecIdA haiM rAheM izka kI khuda ko kho baiThe vo raharau jo bhI the pAne gae bajma meM nIcI najara ne rAje ulphata kaha diyA hama to rusabA ho rahe the tuma bhI pahacAne gae dara hakIkata apanA ilphAM hai tumhArI mAraphata khuda ko jaba pahacAnA hamane tuma bhI pahacAne gae isase bar3hakara aura kyA ho kama nigAhI kI dalIla umra bhara para tuma sAtha raha kara bhI na pahacAne gae AzikI unakI hai vAkapha hausalevAloM kA kAma are Apa usa kUce meM nAhaka ThokareM khAne gae jisa tarapha dekhA dIvAnagI meM tere dIvAne gae lAkha apane ko chapAyA phira bhI pahacAne gae tU kahatI hai, yahIM kahIM bailUMgI chipakara! kitanA hI chapakara baitth...| jisa tarapha dekhA dIvAnagI meM tere dIvAne gae lAkha apane ko chapAyA phira bhI pahacAne gae allA allA kitanI pecIdA haiM rAheM izka kI khuda ko kho baiThe vo raharo jo bhI the pAne gae pAne kA DhaMga eka hI hai--khuda ko kho baitthnaa| khuda ko kho baiThe--to phira pAne meM dera nhiiN| utanA sAhasa! aura vINA tujhameM utanA sAhasa maiM dekhatA huuN| tU kahatI hai: yahIM kahIM bailUMgI chipa para AeMge dekhUgI pala-bhara basa lauTUMgI usa pala kA hRdaya-paTa para citra utAra! Page 108 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA bajma meM nIcI najara ne rAje ulphata kaha diyA hama to rusabA ho rahe the tuma bhI pahacAne gae dara hakIkata apanA ilphAM hai tumhArI mAraphata khuda ko jaba pahacAnA hamane tuma bhI pahacAne gae jo yahAM mauna ho kara baiThegA, vaha mujhe bhI pahacAna legA; khuda ko bhI pahacAna legaa| yaha ghaTanA eka sAtha ghaTatI hai| ye eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiN| yaha rAja alaga-alaga nahIM khulatA; eka hI sAtha khula jAtA hai| tU kahatI hai: are hAtha khAlI hI AI! dene ko upahAra na lAI! khAlI hAtha, mauna, zUnya--basa, yahI upahAra hai| isase bar3A koI upahAra nhiiN| mere pAsa Ao--zUnya Ao, khAlI Ao, mauna Ao--to milana; to darzana; to maiM jo kaha rahA hUM, use samajhane meM pala bhara kI dera na lgegii| idhara maiMne kahA, idhara tumane smjhaa| yA yUM kaho, idhara maiM pUrA kaha bhI nahIM pAyA, aura udhara tumane samajha bhI liyaa| idhara maiM kahane ko hI thA ki udhara tumane samajha hI liyaa| isalie jo yahAM cupa ho kara baiThe haiM, mauna ho kara baiThe haiM, unheM kucha bheda nahIM par3atA ki maiM kyA kaha rahA huuN| ve vahI samajhate haiM, jo maiM kahanA cAhatA huuN| kyoMki jo maiM kahanA cAhatA hUM, vaha to kaha nahIM paataa| vaha to koI bhI nahIM kaha pAyA hai| use to kahane kA koI upAya nhiiN| kala eka daMpati kA patra amarIkA se mujhe milaa| pati prasiddha DAkTara haiN| tIna varSoM meM jo bhI saMbhava thA amarIkA meM mere saMbaMdha meM, vaha saba unhoMne kiyaa| sArI kitAbeM par3ha ddaaliiN| sAre Tepa suna ddaale| vIDio dekha ddaale| philmeM dekha ddaaliiN| sAre amarIkA ke AzramoM meM ho aae| saikar3oM saMnyAsiyoM se mile| dhyAna karanA zurU kara diyaa| lekina vyasta DAkTara haiM--Ane kA samaya nahIM mila paayaa| lekina abhI paMdraha dina pahale hRdaya kA daurA A gyaa| to cauNke| aura socA ki yUM to jiMdagI kisI bhI dina khatama ho sakatI hai| to tatkSaNa mujhe patra likhA ki aba dera nahIM kara sktaa| aba A rahA huuN| aba mujhe isakI bhI phikra nahIM ki Apa hiMdI meM boleMge, ki svAhilI meM boleMge, ki aMgrejI meM boleMge--boleMge ki nahIM boleMge, isakI bhI phikra nhiiN| basa, A rahA huuN| cupacApa Apake pAsa baiTha rahanA hai| kucha boleM--to tthiik| na boleM--to tthiik| kisI bhASA meM boleM; samajha meM Ae, to tthiik| na samajha meM Ae, to tthiik| basa, cupacApa Apake pAsa baiTha rahanA hai| mauta ne dvAra para dastaka de dI, aba aura dera nahIM kara sktaa| saba kAma-dhAma chor3akara A rahA hUM; jaisA kA taisA chor3a kara A rahA huuN| patnI ne bhI likhA hai ki maiM pati kI vajaha se aTakI thii| ve kahate the: maiM calatA hUM, maiM calatA hUM, aura thor3I dera ruka jaa| agale mahIne calatA hai| eka cAra saptAha aura pratIkSA kara Page 109 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA le| aise unhoMne tIna sAla gujAra die| magara saubhAgya hI samajho ki unako hRdaya kA daurA par3a gyaa| aba ve ekadama A rahe haiN| to maiM bhI A pA rahI huuN| basa, cupacApa baiThanA hai Apake paas| yaha avasara na cUka jaae| mauna hI ekamAtra bhASA hai, jisameM satya pravAhita hotA hai| ye zabda to maiM isalie upayoga kara rahA hUM ki tuma mauna ke lie dhIre-dhIre taiyAra ho jaao| jo taiyAra ho gae haiM, unheM mere ina zabdoM meM zUnya kA hI saMgIta sunAI par3atA hai| jo nahIM abhI taiyAra hue haiM, ve ina zabdoM meM tarka dekhate haiM, zAstra dekhate haiM, vicAra dekhate haiM--aura na mAlUma kyA-kyA dekhate haiM! ve apane ko hI ina zabdoM para thopate cale jAte haiN| khAlI hAtha AI, to acchI aaii| bhare hAtha AtA hai jo, vaha phira mujhe nahIM pahacAna paaegaa| isase bar3ha kara aura kyA ho kamanigAhI kI dalIla umra bhara tuma sAtha raha kara bhI na pahacAne gae phira vaha umra bhara bhI sAtha rahe, to bhI kamanigAha hai, aMdhA hai; vaha dekha nahIM paaegaa| aura mauna hone ke lie sAhasa caahie| khAlI hAtha Ane ke lie sAhasa caahie| AzikI unakI hai vAkapha hausalevAloM kA kAma are Apa usa kUce meM nAhaka ThokareM khAne gae jo khAlI hAtha Ane ko taiyAra hai, jo AMkhoM meM AMsU lie hue Ane ko taiyAra hai aura jo svIkAra karane ko taiyAra hai ki mere pAsa lAne ko kucha bhI nahIM; koI saMpadA nahIM--na bAhara kI, na bhItara kI--aisI svIkRti hausale vAle kA kAma hai| aura jo isa hausale ke binA A gae haiM--are, Apa usa kUce meM nAhaka ThokareM khAne gae! ve isa merI duniyA meM nAhaka hI ThokareM khAne A ge| ve thor3e kuTeMge-piTeMge aura apane ghara lauTa jaaeNge| aura khAlI hAtha hI jaaeNge| lAkha irAde unhoMne kie hoM, isase pharka nahIM pdd'taa| dUra se Ae the sAkI, suna ke mayakhAne ko hama basa tarasate hI cale, aphasosa paimAne ko hm|| maya bhI hai, mInA bhI hai, sAgara bhI hai, sAkI nhiiN| dila meM AtA hai, lagA deM Aga mayakhAne ko hm|| gussA AegA unheN| krodha aaegaa| mujha para bahuta loga nArAja haiN| Aga lagA denA cAheMge mere isa kamyUna ko| bahuta logoM kI yaha icchA hai! kAraNa kyA hai unakI nArAjagI kA? ve galata DhaMga se Ate haiM, to pahacAna nahIM pAte; to gussA AtA hai ki AnA-jAnA bekAra huaa| jo ThIka DhaMga se Ate haiM, zUnya Ate haiM, mauna Ate haiM--jo Ane ke lie Ate haiM; jinheM yaha bhI patA nahIM kisalie--kyoM--ahetuka, binA kisI kAraNa ke Ate haiM, akAraNa Ate haiN| dIvAnagI caahie| aura tU pAgala hai vINA! tU dIvAnI hai| jisa tarapha dekhA dIvAnagI meM tere dIvAne gae lAkha apane ko chapAyA phira bhI pahacAne gae! Page 110 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA tIsarA praznaH bhagavAna, mere namaskAra svIkAra kreN| nivedana hai ki maiM Apake saMnyAsiyoM meM guma ho jAnA cAhatI huuN| usake lie Apa mujhe zakti deN| maiM saMta kI bahana hUM--piMkI! piMkI! cala tU to raMgI! saMta kI thor3I icchA to pUrI huii| piMkI ko to paMkha lge| dekhA saMta mahArAja! aura aMgulI pakar3a lI maiMne, to pahuMcA bahuta dUra nhiiN| aura pahuMcA pakar3a liyA to phira...! aba yaha piMkI se zuruAta ho gii| maiMne kala hI tumase kahA thA ki mere apane DhaMga haiN| tuma ghabar3Ao n| piMkI to pakar3a meM A gii| aba tumhAre mAtA-pitA bhI pakar3a meM aaeNge| saMta kI bahana hai, to bacegI bhI kitanI dera! tU kahatI hai, Apake saMnyAsiyoM meM guma ho jAnA cAhatI huuN| isake lie Apa mujhe zakti deN| jarUra guma ho jaaegii| guma ho jAne ke lie zakti kI koI jarUrata nhiiN| guma ho jAne ke lie sirpha ahaMkAra ko haTA dene kI jarUrata hai| aura ahaMkAra koI bar3I caTTAna nahIM; sirpha eka bhrAMti hai; sirpha eka bhrama hai| jaise do aura do ko koI pAMca jor3a rahA ho--aura phira koI batA de ki dekho, do aura do pAMca nahIM--do aura do cAra hote haiM! to kucha bhI to nahIM karanA hotaa| do aura do cAra ho jAte haiN| basa, aisA hii| gaNita kI bhUla ho rahI hai| hamane apane ko samajhA hai, hama alaga haiM paramAtmA se--aura hama alaga nahIM haiN| lAkha samajho ki alaga ho, alaga nahIM ho| lahara samajhe ki maiM alaga hUM sAgara se; alaga nahIM hai| aura lahara kahe ki maiM sAgara meM guma ho jAnA cAhatI hUM, to sAgara kyA kahe! sAgara hNsegaa| sAgara kahegA, pAgala! tU alaga hai hI nhiiN| basa, alaga hone kI bhrAMti chor3a de| tU guma hI hai| tU sAgara meM hI hai| jaba tU soca rahI hai ki alaga hai, taba bhI sAgara meM hai| koI upAya nahIM paramAtmA se dUra hone kaa| na kabhI koI dUra huA hai, na koI kabhI dUra ho sakatA hai| paramAtmA vahI hai, jisase hama dUra nahIM ho sakate; jo hamArA svabhAva hai| magara bhrAMti pAla lete haiM hm| agara lahara ko bhI buddhi ho, to vaha bhI bhrAMti meM par3a jaaegii| lahara bhI socane lagegI ki maiM alg-thlg| aura vaha bhI tarka khoja legii| kyoMki aura bhI to bahuta lahareM haiN| koI bar3I hai, koI choTI hai| hama saba eka kaise ho sakate haiM? koI suMdara, koI asuMdara; koI strI, koI puruss| koI dekho dahAr3a rahI, AkAza meM uThI huI--aura koI bilakula choTI-sI lahara hai| aura koI gira rahI lahara, aura koI uTha rahI lahara--donoM eka kaise ho sakatI haiM! eka gira rahI, eka uTha rahI; eka mara rahI, eka janama rahI--donoM eka kaise ho sakatI haiM! alaga-alaga haiN| sApha hai| tarka ke lie bilakula sApha hai| lekina sAgara koI tarka mAnatA hai? vahAM eka lahara uTha rahI, dUsarI gira rahI hai| ye jur3I haiN| asala meM eka kA giranA dUsare kA uThanA hai| dUsare ke uThane meM usa girane vAlI lahara kA hAtha hai| vaha gira rahI hai, isIlie dUsarI uTha rahI hai| donoM jur3e haiN| aura eka hI sAgara meM haiN| eka hI sAgara kI chAtI para nRtya cala rahA hai anaMta laharoM kaa| Page 111 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA mere pAsa baiTha kara itanA hI samajha meM A jAe, to guma ho jAnA koI kaThina mAmalA hI nahIM hai| hama guma haiN| lekina piMkI pahale pakar3a meM aaii| kala maiMne kahA thA na ki bUDhe vyakti thor3I dera lagAte haiM; thor3A socate haiM, vicArate haiN| svbhaavtH| bilakula naisargika hai| jIvana bhara kA anubhava bIca meM dIvAla bana kara khar3A hotA aura saMta mahArAja ne piMkI ke lie prArthanA hI nahIM kI thii| piMkI kI inhoMne ginatI hI nahIM kI thii| mAM-bApa kI hI bAta kahI thii| ve bhUla hI gae piMkI kI ginatI krnaa| socA hogA: isakI kyA ginatI karanA! abhI sataraha-aThAraha sAla kI hai! ginatI ke bAhara hI rakhA! saMta ne socA hogA, baccI hai| lekina baccoM ke pAsa jyAdA dRSTi hotI hai| jyAdA sApha, nirmala dRSTi hotI hai| bacce jaldI merI bAta samajha pAte haiN| unheM bilakula ThIka-ThIka dikhAI par3a jAtA hai| bUDhoM kI AMkha para bahata jAle chA gae hote haiN| jiMdagI bahuta dhUla jamA gaI hotI hai unake darpaNa pr| isalie thor3I dera lagatI hai| magara zuruAta ho gaI saMta mahArAja! piMkI dduubegii| aura zakti kI phikra mata kr| zakti kA koI savAla nahIM--sirpha samajha kA savAla hai| zakti to saba meM chipI hai; sabake bhItara hai| na dene kI jarUrata hai, na mAMgane kI jarUrata hai| paramAtmA sabako barAbara zakti de kara bhejatA hai| aMtaryAtrA kI zakti to sabake bhItara samAna hai| sirpha aMtaryAtrA zurU karane kI bAta hai| tere mana meM bhAva uThA--bAta zurU ho gii| ar3acaneM aaeNgii| bAdhAeM aaeNgii| lekina agara bhAva saghana hai, to sArI ar3acanoM se aura bhI saghana ho jAtA hai| hara ar3acana cunautI bana jAtI hai| mAM-bApa tujhe rokeMge ki pAgala, eka to beTA pAgala ho gyaa| aba beTI bhI pAgala hone lagI! unhoMne to mujhe likhA hai ki Apa saMta ko Adeza kareM ki kama se kama sAla meM cAra bAra milane hamase ghara para AnA cAhie! aba unako mAlUma nahIM ki maiM Adeza to kisI ko karatA hI nhiiN| saMta ko bilakula svataMtratA hai| ve jaba cAheM, taba jA sakate haiN| saca to yaha hai ki mujhe bAhara jAnA ho, to saMta se pUchanA par3atA hai ki bhaI, nikalane doge daravAje se ki nahIM? chaha sAla meM sirpha tIna bAra nikalane diyA hai| agara vaha kaha deM ki nahIM, daravAjA hI nahIM kholate, to bAta khatama! maiM hUM bilakula alAla; meM utara kara daravAjA bhI nahIM khola sktaa| vaha to bar3A daravAjA hai, maiM kAra kA daravAjA bhI nahIM kholatA! na lagAtA na kholatA-daravAjA vagairaha kI bAta hI nhiiN| saMta khola deM to ThIka, nahIM to bAta khatama! chaha sAla meM sirpha tIna bAra kholA unhoMne! aura Adeza to maiM kisI ko detA nhiiN| maiM nahIM kaha sakatA ki jaao| aura jAnA cAheM, to maiM nahIM kaha sakatA ki mata jaao| yahAM to pratyeka saMnyAsI svataMtra hai| jaba taka usakI mauja--rahe; jaba mauja ho, jAe; jaba mauja ho to vApasa A jaae| na koI rokane vAlA hai, na koI bhejane vAlA hai| Page 112 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA aba piMkI, tere mAtA-pitA to Adeza kI bhASA meM socate haiM--paMjAbI haiN| to paMjAba meM to Adeza kI bhASA calatI hai| aba tU raMga meM DUbegI mere, to jhaMjhaTeM AeMgI, kyoMki tere mAtApitA to Adeza kI bhASA samajhate haiN| unheM terA vivAha karanA hai; aura mere raMga meM DUbI, ki phira yaha vivAha vagairaha kI jhaMjhaTa khatama ! unako bar3I ciMtA hogI usase eka to ye saMta sapUta nikala gae...! abhI kala hI to maiMne tumase kahA thA na ki kabIra ne apane beTe ko dekha kara kahA ki bUDhA vaMza kabIra kA upajA pUta kamAla ! ye kamAla pUta paidA ho ge| vaMza hI ujAr3a diyaa| zAdI hI nahIM kii| phira Age bAta hI na calI aba ye saMta to sapUta haiN| ina ne to vaMza ujAr3A ! aba piMkI, tU bhI raMga gaI isa raMga meM to unako ciMtA hogii| ye vivAha kI phikra meM lage hue haiN| ve lar3akA khoja rahe haiN| ve jaldI meM haiM ki isake pahale ki yaha bigar3e, isakA vivAha kara denA hai to jarA sAvadhAna rhnaa| vivAha se sAvadhAna rahanA! bhUlacUka mata krnaa| kyoMki vaha eka laMbI jhaMjhaTa hai| muzkila hai| isalie to sAta cakkara khilavA dete haiM, cakarA jAtA hai! samajha meM hI nahIM AtA, aba kyA aisI bhUlabhulaiyA hai ki usameM bhItara aura saba bhUlacUka kara lenA -- vivAha kI usameM phaMsanA AsAna hai --nikalanA bahuta usameM AdamI ghanacakkara ho jAtA hai! karanA -kyA nahIM krnaa| phira nikalane kA rAstA nahIM hai to ghusa jAte haiM, phira bAhara nikalate nahIM banatA / tumane kabhI dekhA -- kabhI pakSI koI kamare meM ghusa AtA hai| abhI daravAje se hI ghusA hai, aura daravAje se hI nikala sakatA hai| magara tumane pakSI ko dekhA ki vaha kyA karatA hai! baMda khir3akiyoM para coMca mAratA hai| dIvAla se TakarAtA hai| chappara se sira phor3a letA hai| lahUluhAna ho jaaegaa| aura ghabar3Ane lgegaa| jitanA lahUluhAna hogA- daravAjA milanA muzkila ho jaaegaa| AMkha ke sAmane aMdherA chA jaaegaa| khopar3I chappara se TakarA gii| cA~ca lahUluhAna ho gaI--khir3akI se / ghabar3A gayA ! aura abhI-abhI yaha AyA hai| - eka mitra mere--ve kahate haiM ki vivAha se kaise bAhara nikalanA ? sAta phere par3eM cuke haiM! are, to, maiMne kahA, tuma sAta ulaTe phere mAra do| khatama karo baat| jisa daravAje se Ae, usI se bAhara nikala jAo! kaheM, gAMTha baMdha cukI! are, to khola do| gAMTha bAMdhI, to koI bar3I bhArI bAta hai! uThAo kaiMcI kATa do, na khulatI ho to ! phira se apanI asalI sthiti meM vApasa A jaao| chor3o yaha cakkara! ve kahate haiM, Apa bAta to ThIka kahate haiN| magara bar3I muzkila hai| bahuta jhaMjhaTeM pAla lI haiN| AdamI eka jhaMjhaTa jaba pAlatA hai, to silasilA zurU hotA hai| jhaMjhaTa akelI nahIM aatii| eka jhaMjhaTa akelI nahIM aatii| sAtha meM bhIr3abhAr3a lAtI hai! jhaMjhaTa ke pIche jhaMjhaTeM AtI calI AtI haiN| Page 113 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA to jarA sAvadhAna rhnaa| vivAha kI jhaMjhaTa meM mata pdd'naa| tere mAM-bApa to koziza kreNge| kyoMki ve becAre kyA kareM! ve to eka hI jIvana kA DhaMga jAnate haiM--jisa DhaMga se ve jiie| hAlAMki unhoMne bhI jIvana meM usa DhaMga se jI kara kucha pAyA nhiiN| jaba maiM vizvavidyAlaya se ghara lauTA, to svabhAvataH mere mAM-bApa bhI utsuka the ki merA vivAha ho jaae| maiMne sirpha itanA hI pUchA ki mujhe tuma soca-samajha kara kaho ki tumane kucha pAyA? tumheM kucha milA ho--ImAnadArI se mujhe kaha do| phira ve kucha bole hI nhiiN| kyoMki aba ImAnadArI se kyA kahate! ImAnadArI to yahI thI ki vivAha se kyA milanA-julanA hai! kisako kaba milA hai? mere pitA ke eka mitra the vakIla, phira unhoMne mujhase sIdhI bAta karanI baMda kara dii| socA ki vakIla hai AdamI yaha, yaha samajhA skegaa| vakIla ko mere pAsa bhejaa| aura vakIla ne kahA, are, bar3e-bar3e mukadame jIta cukaa| yaha koI mukadamA hai! isa chokare ko maiM ThIka kruuNgaa| ve vakIla mujhe samajhAne aae| maiMne unakI bAta sunii| maiMne kahA, bAta to maiM karane ko rAjI huuN| lekina eka bAta pakkI kara leM--nyAyAdhIza bhI cuna leN| unhoMne kahA, matalaba! maiMne kahA ki gAMva meM itane majisTreTa haiN| Apake bhI pahacAna ke haiM, merI bhI pahacAna ke haiN| eka majisTreTa ko apana biThA leN| Apa dalIleM deM vivAha ke pakSa meN| maiM dalIleM dUMgA vipakSa meN| agara Apa jIta gae, to maiM vivAha kruuNgaa| agara maiM jIta gayA, phira--Apako vivAha chor3anA par3egA! unhoMne kahA, tU to bar3A upadravI hai! hamArI basI-basAI ujar3avA degA! maiMne kahA, ekattaraphA kaise saudA ho sakatA hai ki tuma mujhe samajhAo aura maiM vivAha kruuN| isakA dUsarA pahalU bhI to samajho! maiMne kahA, maiM tumhArA eka-eka tarka kATane ko taiyAra huuN| kyoMki maiM tumhArI jiMdagI ko bacapana se jAnatA huuN| tumhArI patnI ko jAnatA huuN| tumako jAnatA huuN| tumhAre ghara meM kyA calatA hai--vaha jAnatA huuN| eka-eka pola khola kara rakha duuNgaa| ve jo vahAM se bhAge, to lauTe hI nahIM! do-cAra dina bAda maiM unake ghara jAne lagA--ki vakIla sAhaba kahAM haiM! ve kahIM snAna-gRha meM chipa jaaeN| kabhI unakI patnI kahe ki bAhara gae haiN| daphtara gae haiN| phalAnA-DhikAnA! eka dina unakI patnI bolI, kyoM mere pati ke pIche par3e ho? ve tumheM dekha kara chipate kyoM haiM? bAta kyA hai, Akhira maiM bhI to samajhU! maiMne kahA, bAta yaha hai ki yaha vivAda honA hai| aura yaha taya honA hai ki kauna jItatA hai| agara maiM jItA, to tumhArA khAtmA smjho| agara ve jIte, to merA khaatmaa| magara aba phaisalA hokara rhegaa| mujhase ulajhe haiM, to maiM aise hI nahIM chor3a duuNgaa| daphtara ge| snAnagRha meM ge| maiM baiThA huuN| aura Aja yahIM baiThA rhuuNgaa| kabhI to lauTeMge daphtara se! Page 114 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA ve gae-kare to the nhiiN| bhItara ke kamare meM hI baiThe the| ekadama bAhara nikala kara A gae--ki agara dina bhara baiThanA hai, to maiM daphtara bhI nahIM jAne duuNgaa| unakA mukadamA thA adAlata meN| ve bole ki bhaiyA, maiM hAtha jor3atA huuN| maiM mAphI mAMgatA huuN| kAna pakar3atA hUM--ki kabhI aba tumase kisI taraha kI bAtacIta nahIM cheDUMgA isa saMbaMdha meN| aba maiM samajhA ki kyoM tumhAre pitA mere Upara DAla die! tuma kisI kI banI-banAI tur3avA do! tuma apane ghara jaao| mujhe kucha lenA-denA nhiiN| tuma mujhe bakhzo! maiMne kahA, tuma yaha kaho, to bAta alg| magara yAda rakhanA, kabhI bhUla kara yaha bAta mata utthaanaa| kyoMki maiMne bhI sAre tarka khoja nikAle haiM--vivAha ke vipriit| aura saca to yaha hai ki duniyA bhara kA anubhava yaha hai...| eka mitra ne pUchA hai, bhagavAna, maiM jaba bhI ghara para Apake pravacana kA Tepa sunatA hUM, to merI patnI Tepa baMda kara detI hai| pustaka par3hatA hUM, to chIna kara rakha detI hai| usakA dAvA hai ki sirpha vahI mujhase sarvAdhika prema kara rahI hai| itane prema ko samajhane meM maiM asamartha huuN| kRpayA mArgadarzana kreN| caMdrapAla bhAratI ne pUchA hai| aba kyA maiM mArgadarzana karUM! yaha to honA hI hai| yaha to bilakula svAbhAvika hai| patnI bardAzta nahIM kara sktii| pati bardAzta nahIM kara skte| kyoMki pati agara mujhase jur3a jAtA hai, to patnI ko lagatA hai--gayA hAtha se! gayA kAma se! patnI mujhase jur3a jAtI hai, to pati ke ahaMkAra ko coTa pahuMcatI hai--bhArI coTa pahuMcatI hai! pati ke ahaMkAra ko yaha coTa pahuMcatI hai ki mujhase bhI koI Upara hai terI dRSTi meM! jaba maiM maujUda hUM!...aura pati yAnI prmaatmaa| to phira aba tU kahAM jAtI hai? jisakA satsaMga karatI hai? yahIM pUnA meM DAlI dIdI hai| usake pati ko yahI kaSTa hai| DAlI mujhe kahatI thI ki mere pati kahate haiM: tujhe kyA pUchanA hai, mujhase puuch| are, jaba maiM maujUda hUM, to kahAM satsaMga karane jAnA! kyA tujhe jAnanA hai? paramAtmA ke saMbaMdha meM jAnanA hai? svarga ke saMbaMdha meM jAnanA hai? AtmA ke saMbaMdha meM? maiM to batAne ko maujUda huuN| jaba maiM kahUM ki maiM nahIM jAnatA, taba tU kahIM jaa| aura DAlI mujhase kaha rahI thI ki aba inase kyA pUchanA! inako maiM jAnatI hUM! ye kyA khAka jAnate haiM? magara kauna sira pacAe! ve merI kitAbeM pheMka dete haiN| jaise tumhArI patnI kara rahI hai| DAlI ke chipa kara merI kitAba par3hanI par3atI hai| aura aisA nahIM ki unakI mujhase koI duzmanI hai| mujhase unako kucha lenAdenA nahIM hai| magara ar3acana yaha A rahI hai ki unakI patnI, unase jyAdA kisI ko Adara de-to ahaMkAra ko coTa lagatI hai| aura patnI kor ISyA jaga jAtI hai| vaha kucha mujhase virodha meM nahIM hai caMdrapAla bhAratI! mujhase use kyA lenA-denA! usakA to kucha itanA hI kahanA hai ki usakI maujUdagI meM--aura tuma Tepa suna rahe ho--hadda ho gaI! patnI maujUda hai--aura tuma kitAba par3ha rahe ho! yaha bardAzta ke bAhara hai| Page 115 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA isakA matalaba patnI se jyAdA kImatI kitAba hai| pheMka degI kitAba ! Aga lagA degI kitAba meN| Tepa baMda kara degii| usa para dhyAna do! hara patnI kI caubIsa ghaMTe ceSTA hai- merI tarapha dekho! kitanA sajatI saMvaratI hai| kitanA darpaNa meM dekhatI hai apane cehare ko aura pati haiM ki dekhate hI nahIM / ve akhabAra par3ha rahe haiM! akhabAra ve becAre isIlie par3ha rahe haiM! usI akhabAra ko chaha daphA par3ha cuke haiN| phira bhI par3he jA rahe haiM! ve akhabAra sirpha AMkhoM ko chipAne ke lie par3ha rahe haiM ki kisI taraha yaha patnI na dikhAI par3e! aura patnI hai ki vaha vahIM vahIM ghUMghara karatI hai| phira A jaaegii| kabhI cAya lekara A jaaegii| kabhI kucha aura bahAne A jaaegii| phira akhabAra hI chIna legI ki kyA AMkheM phor3a loge apanI baiThe-baiThe! baMda karo yaha akhabAra aura merI maujUdagI meM zarma nahIM aatii| saMkoca nahIM -- hotA lAja-lajjA nahIM ziSTAcAra bhI nahIM! vivAha AraMbha jisakA padya meM aura upasaMhAra gadya meM caMdUlAla Izvara se prArthanA kara rahe the he Izvara hameM bhI -- du dete maukA AtA duma dabAkara bhAga to lete! - vizAradA patnI jI nRtya- 1 pati para itanA tarasa khAtI haiM ki unheM dina-rAta aMgulI para nacAtI hai! eka strI kI aMgulI kaTa gaI kAra meM, eka eksiDeMTa meM usane bIsa hajAra rupae iMzyoreMsa kaMpanI se maaNge| iMzyoreMsa kaMpanI bhI hairAna huI ki eka aMgulI kaTane ke bIsa hajAra rupe| adAlata meM mukadamA claa| majisTreTa ne pUchA ki isa aMgulI meM aisA kyA guNa thA ki bIsa hajAra rupae! usane kahA, isI para maiM apane pati ko nacAyA karatI thii| kyA tuma mere pati kI kImata bIsa hajAra bhI nahIM maante| aba maiM kahAM nacAUMgI? prema ke cakkara meM phaMsI beTI ko dekhakara mAM ne use lAkha samajhAnA cAhA, para vaha na mAnI / hArakara mAM ne anubhava kI bAta kaha dI, beTI, yaha nAyaka se zAdI karane kA cakkara ThIka Page 116 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA nhiiN| khalanAyaka se hI zAdI karanI caahie| use piTane kA bhI anubhava hotA hai--aura Adata bhI! yaha vivAha to bar3A adabhuta cakkara hai| isameM bar3A abhyAsa caahie| isameM kuTAI piTAI kA bahuta abhyAsa cAhie / gulajAna gusse se ubalate hue mullA nasaruddIna se bolI, tumheM narka meM bhI jagaha nahIM milegI ? mullA nasaruddIna ne zAMta svara meM javAba diyA, acchA hI hai| varanA saba jagaha tumhAre sAtha rahate-rahate maiM to pAgala hI ho jAUMgA! -- aba caMdrapAla bhAratI, maiM kyA tumheM mArgadarzana kruuN| yA to himmata se jUjho yA pUMcha dabA kara bhAga khar3e hoo| aba karoge kyA aura yA to himmata se jujho sApha patnI ko spaSTa kara do ki agara isa taraha kI kAragujArI jArI rahI, to pRthaka ho jaauuNgaa| to zAyada use samajha meM aae| kyoMki utanI jokhama vaha bhI nahIM lenA caahegii| aura yaha kucha prema vagairaha nahIM hai| yaha to ThIka aprema hai| yaha prema kA abhAva hai| vaha kahatI hai ki maiM hI tumase sarvAdhika prema kara rahI huuN| itane prema ko tuma samajhane meM asamartha ho, yaha bhI maiM samajha rahA huuN| itanA prema kauna samajha pAegA! yaha prema nahIM hai| prema to vahI hai, jo svataMtratA de jo svataMtratA chIna le aura naSTa kare, vaha prema nahIM hai| -- lekina vivAha se prema paidA hotA nahIM ho nahIM sktaa| vivAha to dhokhA hai prema kA hamane prema se bacane ke lie vivAha IjAda kiyA hai kyoMki prema khataranAka hai prema kA koI bharosA nhiiN| Aja hai-aura kala tirohita ho jaae| vivAha plAsTika kA banA hai miTatA hI nahIM! miTAo to nahIM mitttaa| plAsTika ko miTAo plAsTika kA phUla hai| karIba karIba zAzvata hai| ; -- miTA na pAoge ! aisA aura hama sabako sadiyoM se yaha samajhAyA gayA hai ki sthiratA kA bar3A mUlya hai| jabaki jIvana meM sabhI cIjeM kSaNabhaMgura haiM subaha phUla khilatA hai, sAMjha murajhA jAtA hai| subaha paMkhur3iyAM khulatI haiM sAMjha gira jAtI haiN| -- to prema to phUla jaisA hai asalI phUla jaisA kaba khilegA, kaba murajhA jAegA koI nahIM kaha sktaa| kitane dina TikegA - koI nahIM kaha sktaa| lekina vivAha ke saMbaMdha meM sunizcita huA jA sakatA hai ki TikegA, TikAU hai| aura hama TikAU cIjoM para bar3I AsthA rakhate haiN| tuma bAjAra meM jAte ho cIjeM kharIdane, to pUchate ho, TikAU hai? na sauMdarya kI phikra hai, na kalA kI phikra hai| basa, eka hI cIja kI phikra hai--TikAU hai! TikAU ho, to clegaa| hara cIja TikAU honI cAhie! TikAU kA hameM aisA Agraha pakar3a gayA hai! cAra dina kI jiMdagI ! jiMdagI nahIM TikatI aura tuma TikAU cIjoM se bhare le rahe ho ! yahAM jaba jiMdagI hI nahIM TikatI, to kauna-sI cIja TikegI? pAnI kA pravAha hai| eka kSaNa ko bhI nahIM ruktaa| jhUThI cIjeM Tika sakatI haiM saccI cIjeM to bahAva hoNgii| saccI cIjoM meM to parivartana hogA | Page 117 of 255 -- -- http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA to prema to parivartanazIla hogA; lekina vivAha thira hai| lekina jo thira hai, usase baMdha gae, to khaMbhe se baMdha ge| aba chttpttaaoge| aba svataMtratA ke lie tdd'phoge| apanI patnI ko spaSTa karo ki yaha prema nahIM hai| na kara sako spaSTa, use yahAM laao| yaha prema nahIM hai| yaha prema kA dhokhA hai| yaha prema ke nAma para prema ke kaMdhe para rakha kara baMdUka calAnA hai| yaha duzmanI hai--dostI nhiiN| dostI to suvidhA degI, avakAza degii| agara saca meM kisI se tumhArA prema hai, to tuma kabhI bhI usakI sImA kA atikramaNa na kroge| tuma use maukA doge svayaM hone kaa| tuma kabhI bAdhA na ddaaloge| agara piMkI ko usake mAM-bApa prema karate haiM, aura vaha vivAha nahIM karanA cAhatI, to usake mAM-bApa ko prema kA sabUta denA hogA, ki ThIka hai| agara vaha vivAha nahIM karanA cAhatI, to koI ciMtA nhiiN| unheM apanA bojha--apanI dhAraNAoM kA bojha usa para nahIM thopanA caahie| lekina Adeza kI bhASA agara samajhate haiM ve, to khatarA hai| aura paMjAba meM Adeza kI bhASA calatI hai, isalie to paMjAba bhArata ko sabase acche sainika detA hai| sainika kA matalaba yaha hotA hai ki vaha Adeza maanegaa| socegA nahIM, vicAregA nahIM-AjJAkArI hogaa| bole so nihAla, sata zrI akAla! kahIM bhI kUda pdd'egaa| kRpANeM khiMca jaaeNgii| vAhe guru jI kI phataha, vAhe guru jI kA khAlasA! maiM dillI se manAlI jA rahA thA eka zivira ke lie| jisa iMpAlA gAr3I meM maiM gayA, usakA eka saradAra DrAivara thaa| bar3I gAr3I aura saMkarA rAstA manAlI kaa| aura varSA huI thI, to phisalana bhraa| aura vaha ghabar3Ane lgaa| eka jagaha jA kara, to usane gAr3I khar3I hI kara dii| usane kahA, aba maiM Age nahIM jaauuNgaa| Age kAphI kIcar3a thI aura usane kahA, yaha khatarA maiM nahIM le sktaa| gAr3I bar3I hai| aura kIcar3a kAphI hai| aura saMkarA rAstA hai| agara jarA bhI phisala gaI, to yaha nIce jo gar3aDha hai, isameM samA jAeMge! bahuta samajhAyA usako, magara paMjAbI samajha se to mAnatA nahIM! jitanA samajhAyA, utanA hI vaha aura ThiThaka gyaa| vaha to baiTha hI gayA! gAr3I se utara kara nIce baiTha gayA! vaha to saMyoga kI bAta ki merI gAr3I ke pIche hI jIpa meM paMjAba ke pulisa ke AI.jI. ve bhI zivira meM bhAga lene A rahe the| ve bhI A ge| ve bhI saradAra! maiMne unase kahA ki kyA karanA! isa AdamI ne to bahuta jhaMjhaTa khar3I kara dI! unhoMne usa saradAra kI tarapha dekhA aura kahA ki kyA khAlase kI badanAmI karavA rahA hai! are saradAra hokara aura kIcar3a se Dara rahA hai! bole so nihAla sata zrI akAla! aura vaha saradAra aMdara baiTha gyaa| aura gAr3I usane calA dii| maiM usako lAkha samajhA-samajhA kara mara gayA, vaha nIce utara kara baiThA thaa| jaise hI sata zrI akAla aura khAlase kA nAma AyA--ki kyA saradAroM kA nAma pAnI meM ibA degA mUrakha! usane javAba hI nahIM diyaa| jaldI se utthaa| paMjAbI to Adeza kI bhASA samajhatA hai! Adeza de do, to kirapANa nikala aaeN| idhara saMta ko hI rokanA par3atA hai| kaI daphA kirapANa khIMcane lagate haiN| aba jaise saMta kA aura vinoda Page 118 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kA mukAbalA ho jAe; donoM paMjAbI! to kurbAnI pakkI! khiMca jAeM kirapANe! phira dera-dAra nhiiN| vaha to bhalA hai ki donoM kI dostI hai| piMkI, Adeza kI bhASA tere mAM-bApa boleMge, usase sAvadhAna rhnaa| agara mere raMga meM raMganA hai, to vivAha se bcnaa| aba ye mitra ulajha gae--caMdrapAla bhAratI! aba ye mArgadarzana mAMga rahe haiM! gaDDhe meM gira ge| haDDI-pasalI TUTa gii| aba pUchate haiM--mArgadarzana do! are, pahale pUchanA thA! aba AMkha para cazmA car3ha gyaa| aba kahate haiM--mArgadarzana do| aba dikhAI nahIM detA! aba aMdhere meM TaTola rahe haiN| kahate haiM--mArgadarzana do! aba mArgadarzana maiM to tumheM de dUM, magara patnI agara rAjI na ho, to mArgadarzana kA kyA hogA! DAkTara caMdUlAla se bolA, maiMne Apase kahA thA ki ApakI jisa aMgulI meM dAga par3a gayA hai, use garma pAnI meM epsama sAlTa DAla kara bhigoe rkhie| dUsare dina caMdUlAla ne aMgulI ke acche hone kI khabara dii| lekina usane epsama sAlTa nahIM, ATe kI pulTisa bAMdhI thI! to tumane merI salAha nahIM mAnI, DAkTara bigdd'aa| isameM merA koI doSa nahIM DAkTara sAhaba, caMdUlAla mimiyAye sura meM bole, maiM kyA kruuN| merI patnI mAnI hI nahIM! aura usane jabardastI ATe kI pulTisa bAMdha dI! ajIba bevakUphI hai, DAkTara ne kahA, aura merI patnI hai; vaha to hamezA epsama sAlTa ke Upara hI jora detI hai| maiM hI nahIM, mere marIjoM taka ko maiM agara pulTisa bAMdhanA cAhatA hUM, bAMdhane nahIM detI! to maiM to mArgadarzana de dUM, lekina patnI agara ATe kI pulTisa bAMdhe, to phira kyA karoge! vaha mArgadarzana para calane bhI nahIM degii| vaha kahegI, mere rahate kahIM aura jagaha se mArgadarzana tumane liyA kaise! dUsare zahara se cir3iyAghara dekhane AyA eka dala jyoM hI zera ke piMjare ke pAsa pahuMcA, zera ne eka khauphanAka dahAr3a lgaaii| dahAr3a itanI joradAra thI ki eka vyakti ko chor3a kara sAre loga behoza ho ge| cir3iyAghara kA adhikArI usa vyakti kI aura prazaMsA bharI dRSTi se dekhatA huA bolA, lagatA hai, Apa bahata niDara haiM! vaha vyakti bolA, jI nhiiN| daraasala maiM to ro-roja aisI dahAr3e sunane kA abhyasta ho cukA ha! kyA Apa bhI kisI cir3iyAghara meM kAma karate haiM? usane kahA, jI nhiiN| maiM zAdIzudA huuN| ghara kA mAlika saca meM kauna hai--tuma ki tumhArI patnI? mitroM ne mullA nasaruddIna se puuchaa| nasaruddIna ne apanI mUMchoM para tAva diyA aura kahA, maiM hI huuN| nizcita maiM hI huuN| aura aisA kahane ke lie gulajAna ne mujhe pUrA adhikAra diyA hai! mArgadarzana to maiM de dUM, magara patnI se pUcha kara Ae ki nahIM--ki mArgadarzana lene jA rahA huuN| le lUM? agara usane adhikAra diyA ho, to maiM de duuN| nahIM to dobArA jaba Ao, to pUcha kara Page 119 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA AnA--ki mArgadarzana le lUM! vaha kyA kahatI hai! kyoMki mArgadarzana para calane kahAM degI! jo kitAba nahIM par3hane detI; jo Tepa nahIM sunane detI; jo dhyAna nahIM karane detI--vaha mArgadarzana para cale kaise degI! bhaiyA, behatara ho, tuma use yahAM le aao| kisI bhI bahAne le aao| mahAbalezvara ghumAne le jA rahe ho, zAyada A jAe! ki pUnA meM sAr3iyoM kA bahuta acchA sTAka AyA huA hai--zAyada A jAe! usako kisI bahAne yahAM le Ao, to zAyada kucha bAta bana sake, to bana ske| mullA nasaruddIna ne apanI patnI kI kabra para yaha ibArata likhavAI: merI patnI gulajAna yahAM sukha kI nIMda so rahI hai| mujhe sukhI rakhane kI usane pUrI umra koziza kI, aura Akhira mara kara apanI koziza meM pUrI taraha kAmayAba ho gaI! tumhArI patnI tumheM sukhI rakhane kI pUrI koziza kara rahI hai| usase jyAdA prema tumheM koI nahIM karatA! sarvAdhika prema vahI karatI hai! vaha tumhArI gardana ko dabAe jAegI, kyoMki prema vaha karatI hai, to gardana kisI aura ko dabAne degI! jarA sAhasa karo--mArgadarzana kyA mAMgate ho! kitAba patnI pheMka sakatI hai, tuma baiThe dekhate rahate ho! hadda ho gaI! tumase kucha nahIM banatA! are, khar3e ho kara kama se kama kuMDalinI karo! hu-ha kI pukAra macA do, ki mohallA ikaTThA ho jaae| phira nahIM pheMkegI kitaab| phira hAtha jor3a kara khar3I ho jAegI ki kama se kama yaha hU-hU na karo! kitAba hI pddh'o| kucha upadrava kro| aba maiMne to kaise-kaise tumheM dhyAna die haiM--hU-ha! ki eka daphA kara do ki pUrA muhallA apane Apa ikaTThA ho jAe! are, muhallA hI nahIM...! mere eka mitra ne khabara kI hai ki iMdaura meM--iMdaura kA keMdra jahAM hai, usake pAsa hI musalamAnoM kI maraghaTa hai| aura ve ha-ha kI AvAja kreN| musalamAnoM meM khabara ca gaI ki ve loga jo haiM hU-hU kara ke muradoM ko jagA rahe haiM! bar3I ghabar3AhaTa phaila gii| hiMdU-muslima daMge hone kI naubata A gii| unhoMne kahA ki hama hu-ha nahIM karane deNge| aura tuma kucha bhI karo! musalamAnoM meM bar3A sannATA aura ghabar3AhaTa kA silasilA ho gyaa| aura unhoMne kahA, yA phira tuma keMdra kahIM aura le jaao| para, unhoMne pUchA, bAta kyA hai? tumheM hU-hU se takalIpha kyA hai! kyoMki gAMva duur| isIlie to hamane gAMva ke bAhara yaha jagaha lI hai! are, unhoMne kahA, gAMva to dUra hai, magara hamArA maraghaTa karIba hai| aura murade kisI taraha to so gae haiN| tuma unako jagA doge! aura muradoM ko jagAnA hama bardAzta nahIM kara skte| ve to jagAe jAeMge AkhirI dina, kayAmata ke din| aura tuma abhI jagAe de rahe ho! aura hama kisI taraha to unase chuTakArA pAe haiN| aura bhUta-preta uTha AeM--yaha nahIM calegA! unako haTAnA par3A vahAM se keMdra, kyoMki mAmalA adAlata taka pahuMca gyaa| musalamAnoM ne kahA ki yaha ha-ha maMtra khataranAka hai| inako karanA ho, to kahIM aura kreN| yaha to allAha kA hI hissA hai--hU! Page 120 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA hU hai bhI allAhU kA hI hissaa| yaha sUphiyoM kA maMtra hai| allAhU-allAhU karate-karate hU-hU bacatA hai| to maiMne kahA--allA kyA karanA hai| jo calA hI jAtA hai, usako chor3a hI do| hU hI bacA lo| jo bacane vAlA hai, usako pahale hI se bacA lo| jo jAne vAlA hai, usako jAne hI do! aura ve loga ghabar3Ae hoMge ki allAhU-allAhU kI AvAja aura hU-hU kI AvAja murade agara suna leM, to samajheM ki A gayA kayAmata kA dina! kyoMki usa vakta AvAja hogI bar3e jora se--allAhU kI! allAho akabara--ekadama AvAja uThegI aura murade kabroM se uTha aaeNge| aura ye duSTa abhI uThAe de rahe haiN| phira murde uTha AeM--unako sulAoge kaise? aura marde uTha AeMge, to muhalle vAloM ko, gAMva vAloM ko, apane riztedAroM ko hI satAeMge aura kisako satAeMge! unakA bhI kahanA jAyaja hai| to tuma kama se kama itanA kro| jaba murade jaga jAte haiM, to muhalle vAle kitane hI soe hoM, ekadama hU-hU kI pukAra macA doge--eka hI daphe meM patnI zAMta ho jaaegii| ekadama kahegI ki lallU ke pappA!...caraNoM para giregI ki aba zAMta ho jAo! sArA muhallA ikaTThA ho gayA! aura merI badanAmI na krvaao| yaha lo kitaab--pddh'o| kama se kama cupa to rahate ho! jaba bhI kitAba chIne--hU-hU kro| Tepa baMda kare--hU-hU kro| yaha sau maMtroM kA eka maMtra hai! sau sunAra kI eka luhAra kI! AkhirI praznaH bhagavAna, Apa isa bAra mAravAr3iyoM ke saMbaMdha meM kyoM kucha nahIM kaha rahe haiM! aura maiM TheTha mAravAr3a se isIlie AyA hUM! subhASa koThArI! tuma bhI dhanya ho! mAravAr3a meM hokara mAravAr3iyoM ke duzmana ho--kyA bAta hai? calo, aba itanI dUra se Ae ho, to mujhe bhI tumhArI lAja rakhanI par3e anyathA isa bAra maiM mAravAr3iyoM ko chor3a hI rahA thaa| kabhI-kabhI chor3a detA hUM, to mAravAr3I nizciMta ho jAte haiN| phira Ane lagate haiN| phira unakI piTAI kara detA hUM; phira bhAga jAte haiN| phira mahIne do mahIne zAMta rahatA hUM, to phira A jAte haiN| kabhI paMjAbiyoM kI piTAI, kabhI baMgAliyoM kI piTAI! matalaba piTAI mujhe karanI hai--kisI na kisI kI hogii| seTha caMdUlAla mAravAr3I apane mitra mullA nasaruddIna se kaha rahe the ki mere lar3ake ne to kamAla kara diyA! maiMne usase kahA ki eka bAra meM do sIr3hiyAM car3hA-utarA karo, tAki jUtA kama ghise| magara usa nAlAyaka ne kala chaha sIr3hiyAM eka bAra meM sAtha utarI! nasaruddIna bolA, taba to jUtA aura kama ghisegA! caMdUlAla rote svaroM meM bolA, jUtA to kama ghisaa| magara usa ulle ke paTTe ne apanI naI paiMTa phAr3a lI! guru to gur3a rahe, celA zakkara ho gae! beTA bApa se Age nikala gyaa| usane kahA, jaba jUte hI ghisanA bacAnA hai...! Page 121 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maiMne sunA ki eka rAta caMdUlAla par3osa ke gAMva meM kisI zAdI meM sammilita hone ge| koI tIna mIla jAne ke bAda unako khayAla AyA ki dIyA jalatA huA chor3a Ae; patA nahIM yaha nAlAyaka lar3akA bujhAe ki na bujhAe! aise hI so jAe! rAta bhara tela jalatA rhe| aura mujhe lauTate-lauTate subaha ho jAegI! so ve lauTa kara aae| daravAjA khaTakhaTAyA; lar3ake ne daravAjA kholaa| unhoMne kahA ki dIyA bujhA diyA ki nahIM re! usane kahA, Apa bhI kyA bAteM kara rahe haiM! ApakA beTA--aura maiM dIyA na bujhAUM! are, Apa idhara bAhara hue ki maiMne dIyA bujhA diyaa| Apa itanI dUra kaise Ae! aura Apako zarma na lagI--tIna mIla gae, tIna mIla Ae, jUtA ghisa jAegA! caMdUlAla ne kahA, tUne mujhe kyA samajhA hai re! dekha, jUtA bagala meM dabAe hue huuN| jUtA kaise ghisegA? paira ghisa jAeM, magara jUtA nahIM ghisa sakatA! mAravAr3I kI apanI duniyA hai! DAkTara sAhaba, aba merA beTA jhummana kaisA hai? caMdUlAla ne udAsa AvAja meM puuchaa| DAkTara ne kahA, ghabar3Ane kI koI bAta nhiiN| dhIraja rakhie seTha jI! use nakalI sAMsa dI jA rahI hai| seTha caMdUlAla garaja kara bole, dhIraja kaise rakhU jI! sarAsara beImAnI ho rahI hai| are, jaba maiMne asalI sAMsa ke paise cukAe haiM, to phira nakalI sAMsa kyoM dI jA rahI hai? seTha caMdUlAla ko usake kucha mitra dopahara ko milane aae| dvAra para unake naukara popaTalAla ne unakA svAgata kiyaa| to mitroM ne pUchA, seTha jI kahAM haiM? popaTalAla ne uttara diyA, seTha jI Dinara khA rahe haiN| Dinara khA rahe haiM! Dinara to rAta kA khAnA hotA hai--dina kA nahIM! eka mitra ne cauMkakara khaa| vaha to mujhe bhI acchI taraha mAlUma hai| lekina ve rAta kA bacA huA khAnA hI khA rahe haiM, popaTalAla ne khaa| seTha caMdUlAla mAravAr3I samudrataTa para cahalakadamI kara rahe the ki acAnaka eka jora kA tUphAna AyA aura caMdUlAla ke choTe beTe jhummana ko uThA kara samudra meM le gyaa| do sekeMDa meM hI sAgara kI laharoM meM uThatA-giratA jhummana havA ke vega ke sAtha itanI dUra nikala gayA ki usakA dikhanA bhI baMda ho gyaa| caMdUlAla ke prANa sUkhane lge| jhaTa unhoMne AkAza kI ora hAtha jor3a kara kahA, he parama pitA paramAtmA, mere beTe ko bacA lo| he karuNA ke sAgara, mujha para kRpA kro| merA saba kucha luTA jA rahA hai! unakA itanA kahanA hI thA ki eka camatkAra ghaTa gyaa| samudra meM eka bar3I lahara uThI aura vaha lahara jhummana ko kinAre para paTaka gii| caMdUlAla ne apane beTe ko eka najara meM Upara se nIce taka dekhA, gaura se dekhA, phira se dekhA--aura Izvara ko krodha bhare svara meM kahA, isIlie to mujhe tujha para zraddhA nahIM hotii| merI eka bhI prArthanA nahIM suntaa| tU khuda soca, maiM bhalA nAstika na hoUM, to aura kyA hoUM! tujhe merI jarA bhI phikra nhiiN| aba yahI Page 122 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA udAharaNa dekh| merA beTA to baca gayA; khaira koI bAta nhiiN| magara usakI TopI kahAM gaI? ho gayA na satyAnAza! mAravAr3I sabake bhItara chipA hai lekin| mAravAr3a meM hI nahIM rahatA; hara mana meM rahatA hai| mana hI mAravAr3a hai| mana bar3A kRpaNa hai, kucha chor3atA hI nhiiN| kUr3A-karakaTa bhI ikaTThA karatA hai-- dhana daulata hI nhiiN| jo pakar3a letA hai, usI ko ikaTThA karatA calA jAtA hai| mana ikaTThA karane meM mAnatA hai--bAMTane se DaratA hai| aura AtmA unheM upalabdha hotI hai, jo bAMTanA jAnate jo hai use baaNtto| mAravAr3I ko AtmA nahIM mila sktii| jo hai, use baaNtto| sAjhIdAra banAo auroM ko| prema hai, to prem| AnaMda hai, to aanNd| jJAna hai, to jnyaan| jyoti hai, to jyoti| dhyAna hai, to dhyaan| jo hai, use baaNtto| bezarta baaNtto| aura jitanA bAMToge, utanA hI paramAtmA tuma para brsegaa| tuma jitanA bAMTate caloge, utanA bar3hatA jAtA hai bhItara kA dhn| bhItara ke dhana kA arthazAstra alaga arthazAstra hai| bAhara kA dhana bAMTane se ghaTatA hai| bAhara kA dhana mAravAr3I ke arthazAstra kA hissA hai| bhItara kA dhana bAMTane se bar3hatA hai, rokane se ghaTatA hai| Aja itanA hii| pAMcavAM pravacana; dinAMka 15 sitaMbara, 1980; zrI rajanIza Azrama, pUnA guru kumhAra, ziSya kuMbha hai pahalA praznaH bhagavAna, maiM dhyAna kyoM karUM? divAkara bhAratI! jIvana meM kucha cIjeM haiM, jo sAdhana nahIM--sAdhya haiN| aura bahuta cIjeM haiM, jo sAdhana haiM--sAdhya nhiiN| pUchA jA sakatA hai ki maiM dhana kyoM arjita kruuN| nahIM pUchA jA sakatA ki maiM dhyAna kyoM kruuN| kyoMki dhana sAdhana hai--kyoM kA uttara ho sakatA hai| dhana kI koI upayogitA hai; dhyAna kI koI upayogitA nahIM hai| dhyAna apane Apa meM sAdhya hai--jaise prem| koI pUche ki maiM prema kyoM karUM! kyA uttara hogA? prema! kyoM kA prazna hI nahIM; hetu kI bAta hI nahIM; aMtarabhAva hai| jaise phUla meM sugaMdha hai; kyoM kI koI bAta nhiiN| aise hRdaya kA phUla khilatA hai, to prema kI sugaMdha uThatI hai| nahIM pUchA jA sakatA ki jIvana kyoM... sarala hogA socanA yUM: jaba dukha hotA hai, to tuma pUcha sakate ho kyoM; kyA kAraNa hai? lekina jaba AnaMda hotA hai, to na tuma pUchate ho, na tuma pUcha sakate ho ki AnaMda kyoM? kAraNa kyA? jaba tuma bImAra hote ho, jarUra cikitsaka ke pAsa jAte ho| pUchate ho, Page 123 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA bImArI kA kAraNa kyA? lekina jaba tuma svastha hote ho, taba kabhI gae cikitsaka ke pAsa pUchane--ki mere svAsthya kA kAraNa kyA? kyoM? nahIM; svAsthya kA koI kAraNa nahIM hai| svAsthya bar3A pyAra zabda hai| isakA artha hai--svayaM meM sthita ho jaanaa| svayaM meM Thahara ge| jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! isake pAra kucha bhI nahIM hai; koI maMjila nahIM hai| muhabbata kI koI maMjila nahIM hai muhabbata mauja hai sAhila nahIM hai| jo pUche ki muhabbata kI maMjila kyA hai, usane muhabbata ko samajhA hI nhiiN| aura dhyAna paramAtmA se prema kA nAma hai| dhyAna arthAta prema kA aMtima shikhr| kisI vyakti se prema ho jAe--to prem| aura isa virATa astitva se prema ho jAe--to dhyaan| cAhe use prArthanA kho| cAhe use pUjA kho| cAhe use prema kho| cAhe use dhyAna kho| zabdoM kA hI bheda hai| prema meM ahaMkAra kho jAtA hai| do vyaktiyoM meM bhI prema ho jAe, to unake bIca koI ahaMkAra kA TakarAva nahIM raha jaataa| aura jaba vyakti kA anaMta se prema hotA hai, samasta se prema hotA hai, samagra se, to phira kahAM ahaMkAra! jaise bUMda kho jAtI hai sAgara meM aisA vyakti kho jAtA muhabbata kI koI maMjila nahIM hai muhabbata mauja hai sAhila nahIM hai| tuma pUchate ho, dhyAna kyoM? tuma dhyAna kA artha hI na smjhe| dhyAna koI vastu nahIM hai| dhyAna tumhArA svAsthya hai--dhyAna koI bImArI nahIM hai| koI bhI bahAnA ho...ye saba bahAne haiM--dhyAna, prArthanA, pUjA, arcanA--saba bahAne haiN--nimitt| DUbanA hai| ibakI mAranI hai| aura aisI ki phira lauTane kI koI jagaha bAkI na raha jaae| DubakI aisI ki DUbane vAlA tirohita hI ho jaae| rAmakRSNa kahate the: samudra ke taTa para melA lagA thaa| kinAre para khar3e logoM meM yaha vivAda ho gyaa...| bar3e paMDita, bar3e purohita, bar3e jJAnI mele meM ikaTThe the| ajIba hai duniyA! mele ke jhamele meM paMDita-purohita, sAdhu-saMta, kisalie pahuMca jAte haiM? kuMbha kA melA dekhA! sAdhuoM kI katAreM calI AtI haiN| saMtoM ke akhAr3e! pahalI to bAta--saMtoM kA akhAr3A? pahalavAnoM kA akhAr3A ho, to samajha meM AtA hai| saMtoM kA akhAr3A! jaise kucha mArakATa honI hai| aura mArakATa ho bhI jAtI hai| akhAr3e akhAr3e se jUjha jAte haiN| isI bAta para jUjha jAte haiM ki kauna pahale snAna kare! bhAle uTha jAte haiN| ye loga ikaTThe ho rahe haiM, ye sAdhu-saMta nahIM haiM; nahIM to sAdhu-saMta ko mele aura jhamele se kyA lenA! ve to jahAM haiM, vahIM paramAtmA hai| vaha kuMbha kA melA jaaegaa| kisalie? kisa kAraNa? / lekina mele meM pAkhaMDI, dhokhebAja, thothe logoM kI bhIr3a ho jAtI hai| usa mele meM bhI rahI hogii| rAmakRSNa kahate ki unameM bar3A vivAda chir3A paMDitoM meM, ki sAgara kI gaharAI kitanI hai| Page 124 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA paMDitoM meM jisa cIja para vivAda na chir3a jAe...| muzkila hai aisI cIja pAnA, jisa para vivAda na chir3a jAe! hara kisI cIja para vivAda chir3a jAtA hai| paMDita to vivAda ko Atura hai| vivAda bhI lar3ane kA eka DhaMga hai| aba talavAreM nahIM uThatIM, to tarka uTha jAte haiM! bAta vahI hai--kATanI hai gardana dUsare kii| talavAra se kATo ki tarka se kATo-- hiMsA hI hai--nae DhaMga meM nikalI, sUkSma rUpa meM niklii| aura majA aisA ki jisa sAgara meM tuma utare hI nahIM--kinAre khar3e ho--usakI gaharAI kA patA kaise pA sakoge? kyA upAya hogA patA pAne kA? rAmakRSNa yaha kahAnI bahuta bAra doharAe haiM ki do namaka ke putale bhI bhIr3abhAr3a dekha kara A gae the mele meN| unhoMne yaha vivAda sunaa| unhoMne kahA, ruko! hama abhI patA lagA kara Ate haiN| yUM kaise taya hogA! taTa para baiThe-baiThe sAgara kI gaharAI kaise mApoge? hama jAte haiM; ibakI mArate haiM; abhI lauTa kara Ate haiM! donoM namaka ke putaloM ne ibakI mAra dii| pratIkSA karate rahe--pratIkSA karate rahe log| melA calA mahInoM--ujar3A--loga vidA bhI ho ge| putale nahIM lauTe, so nahIM lautte| lauTa bhI nahIM skte| namaka ke putale the, sAgara meM lIna ho ge| sAgara se hI bane the; namaka ke the, so sAgara se hI bane the, sAgara kA hI aMga the, sAgara meM hI vilIna ho ge| thAha to milI, magara jo lene calA thA, vaha kho gyaa| lauTa kara koI AyA nahIM khne| kucha the jo kinAre para khar3e rahe, ve to bace, lekina unheM thAha na milii| vivAda to bahuta claa| zabdoM ke jAla race gae, lekina gaharAI kA koI patA kaise cale! jisako gaharAI kA patA calA, vaha khuda hI kho gyaa| bahAnA hai kho jAne kaa| bahAnA hai usa parama pyAre ko pAne kaa| eka oMkAra satanAma--vaha jo eka hai, nAma kucha bhI de do--oMkAra kaho, allAha kaho, rAma kaho, rahIma kaho, rahamAna kaho--jo mauja ho, so ho| lekina usa eka ke sAtha eka ho jAnA hai, tallIna ho jAnA hai| aura isa tallInatA ke sivAya marIja ko ArAma nahIM A sktaa| dosta Ae ki dosta kA koI paigAma Ae Ae jisa tarahA se bImAra ko ArAma Ae Ae jisa tarahA se bImAra ko ArAma Ae dosta Ae ki dosta kA koI paigAma aae| abra chAyA hai, havA masta hai, gulazana khAmoza kAza! isa vakta vaha hAthoM meM lie jAma Ae kAza! isa vakta vaha hAthoM meM lie jAma Ae dosta Ae ki dosta kA koI paigAma aae| zAna hai ye bhI terI bajme taraba kI sAkI koI badamasta ho pIkara, koI nAkAma Ae Page 125 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA koI badamasta ho pIkara, koI nAkAma Ae dosta Ae ki dosta kA koI paigAma aae| vo bhI dina the ki merI zAma thI subahe-ummIda aba to ye hAla hai, ro detA hUM jaba zAma Ae aba to ye hAla hai ki ro detA haM jaba zAma Ae dosta Ae ki dosta kA koI paigAma aae| hAya vo vakta, patA pUcha rahA ho kasida aura yahAM raska se laba para na terA nAma Ae dosta Ae ki dosta kA koI paigAma aae| Ae jisa tarahA se bImAra ko ArAma aae| bahAne haiN| Ae jisa taraha se bImAra ko ArAma Ae! mata pUcho ki dhyAna kyoM karUM? yaha bhASA bAjAra kI, dukAna kii| yaha cIja kyoM kharIdUM? yaha bhASA prema kI nhiiN| yaha bhASA saMnyAsa kI nhiiN| dhyAna to apane Apa meM sAdhya hai| DUbo, to jAna pAoge kyoN| magara agara pahale se pUchA kyoM, to DUba hI na paaoge| isa sAre astitva meM kyoM kA koI uttara hI nahIM hai| gulAba ke phUla suMdara haiM--kyoM? aura juhI se gaMdha jhara rahI hai--kyoM? aura tAroM ke sAtha rAtarAnI mahaka uThI hai--kyoM? aura subaha sUraja ugA hai aura pakSiyoM ne gIta gAe haiM--kyoM? aura saritAeM bhAga rahI haiM himAlaya se sAgara kI tarapha--kyoM? astitva koI pahelI nahIM hai ki sulajhA lo| astitva eka rahasya hai, jise jInA hai| aura jisane prazna uThAe, vaha darzana-zAstra kI vyartha kI paheliyoM meM kho jAtA hai| prazna chor3o--niSprazna ho jaao| niSprazna honA hI dhyAna hai| na koI vicAra rahegA, to prazna kahAM raha jAeMge! jahAM vicAra nahIM, jahAM prazna nahIM, jahAM UhApoha nahIM, jahAM vAsanA nahIM, jahAM kahIM jAne kI koI AkAMkSA-abhIpsA nahIM, koI mahatvAkAMkSA nahIM--vahIM svAsthya hai, parama svAsthya hai| jyUM kA tyUM tthhraayaa| jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! basa, usa jagaha Thahare ki AnaMda hai, mahotsava hai| dUsarA praznaH bhagavAna, ApakA tIra ThIka nizAne para lgaa| pratyuttara sunate hI kabIra kA pada yAda AyA: guru kumhAra ziSya kuMbha hai ghar3i-ghar3i kATTai khoTa bhItara hAtha saMvAra de bAhara mArai coTa! Apake prati dhanyavAda ke bhAva se bhara gayA hai| anaMta anaMta dhanyavAda! yogatIrtha! Page 126 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maiM AnaMdita hUM ki tuma smjhe| Dara thA ki kahIM nAsamajhI na kara baittho| kyoMki jaba maiM tumhArI pITha thapathapAtA hUM, taba to pyArA lagatA huuN| taba tumhArI AMkhoM se AnaMda ke AMsU jharate haiN| tuma gadagada ho jAte ho| lekina jarA-sI coTa mAro ki basa, tuma tilamilA uThate ho| tumhArA ahaMkAra sira uThA kara khar3A ho jAtA hai| krodha se bhanabhanA jAte ho| magara merI bhI majabUrI hai| mujhe tumheM samhAlanA bhI hogA; aura mujhe tumheM mAranA bhI hogaa| donoM hI kAma karane par3eMge! tuma dhanyabhAgI ho ki tuma coTa ko bhI svAgata kara sake; aura tumheM kabIra kA yaha pyArA pada yAda aayaa| kabIra ke pada adabhuta haiM, bejor3a haiN| aba ina do choTI-sI paMktiyoM meM guru aura ziSya kI sArI kathA A gii| guru kumhAra ziSya kuMbha hai!...guru to hai kumhAra, aura ziSya ghar3A--kaccA; abhI miTTI se banAyA jA rahA hai| abhI cAka para car3hAyA jA rahA hai| guru kumhAra ziSya kuMbha hai, ghar3i-ghar3i kATTai khoTa! abhI bahuta-sI khoTa nikAlanI hai| kaMkar3apatthara hoMge miTTI meM--alaga karane haiN| ghAsa-pAta A milA hogA--alaga karanA hai| nahIM to ghar3A pAnI bharane yogya nahIM bana skegaa| ghar3A to bana jAegA, magara khAlI kA khAlI raha jaaegaa| ghar3e ko bharanA hai amRta se| amRta-ghaTa banAnA hai| guru kumhAra ziSya kuMbha hai, ghar3i-ghar3i kATTai khott| to jitanI khoTa hai, nikAla-nikAla alaga karanI hogii| aura jaba khoTa nikAlI jAtI hai, to pIr3A hotI hai| jaise ki koI tumhAre nAsUra se mavAda nikAle, to pIr3A to hotI hai, darda to hotA hai| lekina aura koI upAya hI nahIM hai| aura isalie bhI bahuta pIr3A hotI hai ki jise guru khoTa samajhatA hai, tuma use kharA sonA samajhate ho! tumane jisa ajJAna ko chAtI se lagA rakhA hai, use tumase chInanA hai| magara tuma use saMpadA samajhe ho! tumane jisa ahaMkAra ko sira para biThA rakhA hai, use nIce girAnA hai| magara vaha tumhArI pagar3I banA baiThA hai! vaha tumhArI ijjata! vaha tumhArI AbarU! tumhAre aMdha-vizvAsa chInane haiN| magara tumhAre aMdhavizvAsa, tumhAre rivAja, tumhAre rasma, tumhArI paraMparAeM--bApa-dAdoM ke jamAnoM se calI AtI--vahI to tumhArI kula jamA pUMjI hai| eka dhanapati bar3A kNjuus| usake pAsa sone kI IMTeM thiiN| lekina khAtA thA ruukhii-suukhii| kapar3e pahanatA thA purAne, jraajiirnn| rahatA thA eka jhopar3e meN| sone kI IMTeM usane apanI bagiyA meM gar3A rakhI thiiN| roja khoda kara dekha letA thA ki haiM apanI jagaha yA nahIM! phira miTTI se DhAMka detA thaa| par3osI ko thor3A zaka huA ki bAta kyA hai--yaha roja-roja vahIM jAtA hai| subaha jAtA hai| zAma jAtA hai| kabhI-kabhI AdhI rAta bhI jAtA hai| khoda kara kucha dekhatA hai! to par3osI kI utsukatA jaganI svAbhAvika thii| eka dina chipa rahA pdd'osii| dekhA, to daMga raha gyaa| sone kI IMTeM thIM! yaha kaMjUsa to lauTA IMTeM dabA kara, usa par3osI ne sone kI IMTeM to nikAla lI aura unakI jagaha sAdhAraNa miTTI kI IMTeM rakha diiN| Page 127 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA dUsare dina subaha jaba usane miTTI haTAI aura dekhA ki sone kI IMTeM nadArada haiM! ekadama chAtI pITa kara cillAne lagA, luTa gyaa| mara gayA! par3osI ne kahA, kyA luTa gae, kyA mara ge| kyA ho gayA? to kahA ki merI sone kI IMTeM thIM, vaha koI curA le gyaa| aura ye sAdhAraNa miTTI kI IMTeM rakha gayA! par3osI ne kahA ki tumheM pharka hI kyA par3atA hai! inhIM ko khoda kara roja dekha liyA krnaa| are, tumheM dekhanA hI hai na khoda kara! jiMdagI mujhe ho gaI tumheM dekhte| basa, tuma itanA hI to kAma karate ho--una IMToM kA itanA hI to mUlya hai--ki roja khoda kara dekhanA hai| aba tumheM kyA pharka par3atA hai ki sone kI haiM ki miTTI kii| khoda kara dekha lI; dabA dI! tumheM kucha upayoga to karanA nhiiN| khAnI to rUkhI-sUkhI hai, so tuma khAte rhoge| pahanane to purAne jarAjIrNa kapar3e haiM, so tuma pahanate rhoge| kaMjUsa bhI apane lie tarka khoja lete haiN| ve kahate haiM--sAdA jIvana--UMce vicAra! haiM kRpaNa, lekina kRpaNatA ko bhI oTa meM kara lete haiN| usa para bhI cUMghaTa DAla dete haiM! haiM kurUpa, lekina bUMghaTa DAla dete haiN| tumane khayAla kiyAH kurUpa se kurUpa strI bhI bUMghaTa DAla kara nikala jAe, to loga jhAMkajhAMka kara dekhane lagate haiM! burake meM chupA kara kisI strI ko le jAo...strI ko kyA, agara puruSa ko bhI le jAo, to bhI loga jhAMka-jhAMkakara dekhane lagate haiN| ruka-ruka kara! Thahara-Thahara kara! lauTa-lauTa kara! jisa cIja ko bhI chapA do, usameM rasa paidA ho jAtA hai| rasa phira bar3hatA calA jAtA hai! aura hamane apanI saba kurUpatAoM ko chipA liyA hai| dUsare hI nahIM usameM rasa le rahe haiM; dhIre-dhIre hama bhI usameM rasa lene lage haiN| hama apane aMdhavizvAsoM kI bhI yUM siddha karane kI koziza karate haiM ki jaise unameM parama satya chipe hue haiN| hiMduoM ke eka bahuta bar3e mahAtmA ne eka kitAba likhI hai--hiMdU-dharma kyoM? usameM hiMdU-dharma ke saMbaMdha meM vaijJAnika AdhAra die haiN| aura kyA-kyA bAteM kahIM haiM ki hairAnI hotI hai ki bIsavIM sadI meM bhI aisI kitAbeM chapa jAtI haiM! aura choTI-moTI kitAba nahIM hai| sAr3he sAta sau pannoM kI kitAba hai! aura likhane vAlA bhArI mahAtmA hai| aura kaise-kaise mUDha mahAtmA bana baiThe haiM! usane likhA hai ki hiMdU isalie coTI rakhate haiM, jaise ki bar3e-bar3e makAnoM para, carcoM para, maMdiroM para lohe kI salAkha lagA dete haiM, tAki bijalI gire, to salAkha ke dvArA sIdhI jamIna meM calI jaae| carca ke makAna ko yA maMdira ko yA imArata ko koI coTa na pahuMce! isIlie hiMdU coTI rakhate haiM! aura coTI meM gAMTha bAMdha kara usako khar3I rakhate haiM, tAki bijalI vagairaha na gire! bijalI gire bhI to coTI ke sahAre ekadama jamIna meM calI jAe! kyA gajaba ke loga haiM! kaise-kaise mUDha, kaise-kaise maMdabuddhi! magara hiMdU prasanna hoMge isa bAta se, ki kyA gajaba kI bAta kaha dI! Page 128 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA khar3AUM isalie pahanate haiM hiMdU ki ye khar3AUM ko pakar3ane meM aMgUThA dabA rahatA hai| aura aMgUThe meM vaha nasa hai, jisase brahmacarya sadhatA hai! aMgUThA dabA rahegA--brahmacarya sadha jaaegaa| agara itanA AsAna ho brahmacarya kA sAdhanA--ki aMgUThA bhara dabA rahe, taba to bar3I AsAna bAta hogI! nasabaMdI karane kI jarUrata nhiiN| sirpha aMgUThe meM nasabaMdI kara do| aMgUThe kA hI Aparezana kara denA cAhie DAkTaroM ko| vaha nasa bAMdha hI vahAM; khar3AUM bhI pahanane kI jarUrata na rhii| bAMdha hI dI nasa bhItara se, ki tuma phira bAhara se kholanA bhI cAho, to khola na sko| lekina hamArI mUrkhatAoM ko bhI agara koI sone kI parta car3hAne kI koziza kare, to hama prasanna hote haiN| ahA! dhanyabhAga hamAre ki hama hiMdU ghara meM paidA hue| kaise-kaise RSi-muni ho gae! kaisI-kaisI cIjeM khoja gae! hiMdU sAdhu-saMta samajhAte phirate haiM ki havAI jahAja aura eTama, bama, sb...| veda curA kara le gae aura vedoM meM se hI saba khoja nikAlA vijJAna! vedoM meM to hara cIja hai! maiM veda ko isa kone se le kara usa kone taka chAna gyaa| havAI jahAja aura eTama bama to dUra--sAikila banAne kI bhI koI vidhi nahIM hai! aura sAikila kA paMkcara ho jAe, to usako jor3ane kA bhI koI upAya nahIM hai| aura bar3A majA yaha hai ki ye pazcima ke loga curA kara le gae, jo na saMskRta jAneM, na veda phcaaneN| inhoMne khoja liyaa| aura tuma pAMca hajAra sAla se mUDho, kyA kara rahe ho? bailagAr3I meM hI cale jA rahe ho! aura tumhAre pAsa havAI jahAja banAne kI tarakIba veda meM likhI hai! tumase na banA havAI jahAja? kyA gajaba ke RSi-muni kI saMtAna ho tuma bhI! jinhoMne havAI jahAja banA lie the, puSpaka vimAna ur3Ate the jo! kahAniyoM kA bharosA kara lete ho--puSpaka vimAna! to phira kahanA hI kyA hai! to phira baMdara bhI pahAr3a le kara calate the| hanumAna jI pahAr3a hI le kara ur3a rahe the| kalpanAoM kA bhI koI hisAba hai! kapola-kalpita bAtoM ko...| magara agara hamAre bApa-dAdoM ke sAtha jur3I haiM, to hamArA ahaMkAra jur3A hotA hai| hama apane ahaMkAra ke poSaNa ke lie kucha bhI kara sakate haiM, kucha bhI kaha sakate haiN| eka machalImAra machalI pakar3a rahA thaa| mullA nasaruddIna usake pIche khar3A dekha rahA thaa| pUchA ki bhaI, aba taka bar3I se bar3I koI machalI--tumane kitanI bar3I machalI pakar3I? tuma to jiMdagI bhara se machalI mArate ho| usa AdamI ne kahA, aba usakA hisAba batAnA bahuta muzkila hai| usakI nApajokha bhI honA bahuta muzkila hai| jaba maiMne bar3I se bar3I machalI pakar3I thI, itanA hI kaha sakatA hUM ki pUrI jhIla eka phuTa nIce utara gaI thii| aura yaha vahI machalImAra hai, jisako mullA acchI taraha se jAnatA hai| tIna ghaMTe se dekha rahA hai| abhI choTI-sI bhI machalI pakar3a meM AI nahIM hai| tIna ghaMTe se baMsI laTakAe baiThA hai! mullA bhalIbhAMti jAnatA hai isa machalImAra ko| kyoMki eka dina mullA A rahA thA aura yaha machalImAra, jahAM bAjAra meM machaliyAM bikatI haiM, vahAM eka dukAnadAra se kaha rahA thA, bhaiyA, jarA machaliyAM pheMka do| cAra machaliyAM pheMka do| jo paise hoM, le lenA! Page 129 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA dukAnadAra ne kahA, pheMka kyoM dUM! are, hAtha meM le lo na! isane kahA ki maiM cAhe kitanA hI badanasIba machalImAra kyoM na hoUM, lekina jhUTha nahIM bola sktaa| patnI se jAkara kaha sakU~gA--maiMne pkdd'iiN| tuma pheMko, maiM pkdduuN| jhUTha maiM nahIM bola sakatA huuN| machalI cAhe na pakar3a meM AtI ho, magara bolUMgA to saca hii| tuma pheMka do, maiM pakar3a lUM! kahane ko bAta raha jAegI! isane itanI bar3I machalI pakar3I thI ki pUrI jhIla meM eka phuTa nIce utara gayA thA pAnI! nApajokha to becArA batAe bhI kaise! loga jaba jhUTha hI bolane para utArU ho jAte haiM--vaha apanA jhUTha honA cAhie, ahaMkAra ko bharane vAlA--to phira koI usameM hisAba nahIM krte| tuma dharma ke nAma para aMdhavizvAsoM kA poSaNa karate phirate ho| aura guru ko ye sAre aMdhavizvAsa chInane hoMge, tabhI tumhAre jIvana meM pahalI bAra zraddhA kI jyoti jgegii| jhUThI AMkheM chor3o, to asalI AMkheM khojI jA sakatI haiN| jaba taka jhUThI AMkhoM ko hI lagAe baiThe rahoge, taba taka asalI AMkhoM kA anveSaNa bhI kaise hogA! AviSkAra bhI kaise hogA? guru kumhAra ziSya kuMbha hai, ghar3i-ghar3i kATTai khoTa! prati pala, ghar3I-ghar3I khoTa para khoTa nikAlatA jAtA hai| jitanA ziSya rAjI hotA hai, utanI khoTeM nikAlatA hai, bhItara hAtha saMvAda de...| lekina bhItara se samhAlatA jAtA hai| kumhAra ko tumane ghar3A banAte dekhA! eka hAtha ghar3e ke bhItara rakhatA hai| bhItara se ghar3e ko samhAlatA hai| aura bAhara se Thokara mAratA hai--dUsare hAtha se| donoM kAma eka sAtha karatA hai| jo samajhadAra hai, vaha donoM bAtoM ko samajha letA hai| jo nAsamajha hai, vaha bAhara kI coTa dekha kara hI bhAga khar3A hotA hai| vaha kahatA hai, itanI coTeM maiM sahane ko rAjI nhiiN| kyoM sahUM! ina coToM se kyA hogA? yogatIrtha para maiMne bar3I coTa kI thii| maiMne to unase yahI kahA thA ki tuma chor3a hI do saMnyAsa! vaha bar3I se bar3I coTa hai| lekina usako bhI unhoMne pyAre DhaMga se liyaa| smjhe| chor3a hI do saMnyAsa--yUM hai, jaise tIra chAtI meM cubha jaae| koI aura hotA to bhAga hI khar3A hotaa| lekina unhoMne bAta ko vidhAyaka DhaMga se liyaa| koI aura hotA to kruddha hI ho jaataa| nArAja hI ho jAtA sadA ke lie| cUMki isa coTa ko bhI prema se liyA hai, yaha coTa unake Upara phUla bana jaaegii| bhItara hAtha saMvAra de, bAhara mAre coTa! Apake prati dhanyavAda ke bhAva se bhara gayA huuN| anaMta anaMta dhanyavAda! ziSya aise hI letA hai| ziSya coTa ko coTa nahIM maantaa| ziSya coTa ko AzISa hI mAnatA hai| vahI to bheda hai-- vidyArthI aura ziSya meN| vidyArthI ko coTa nahIM kI jA sktii| usako coTa kI ki vaha bhAga hI jaaegaa| ziSya ko coTa kI jA sakatI hai| aura jitanA hI ziSya gahana ho, utanI hI gaharI coTa kI jA sakatI hai| isalie yaha bebUjha ghaTanA ghaTegI ki guru usa ziSya ko sabase jyAdA mAregA--pITegA, jisameM sabase jyAdA saMbhAvanA hai| Page 130 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA ravIMdranAtha ne apanI jIvana-kathA meM eka ullekha kiyA hai| unake cAcA the avanIMdranAtha tthaakur| ve bhArata ke mahAnatama citrakAroM meM eka the| pUre bhArata ke itihAsa meM jo thor3e se mahAna citrakAra hue haiM, unameM avanIMdranAtha ThAkura kA nAma bhI jor3anA pdd'egaa| avanIMdranAtha ThAkura ke ziSya the--naMdalAla bsu| ve bhI bAda meM, avanIMdranAtha ThAkura se bhI bar3e citrakAra sAbita hue| eka dina ravIMdranAtha apane cAcA ke pAsa baiThe gapazapa kara rahe the| subaha-subaha cAya pIkara donoM baiThe gapazapa kara rahe the| tabhI naMdalAla, yuvA the, kRSNa kA eka citra banA kara laae| ravIMdranAtha ne likhA hai, maiMne itanA suMdara citra kRSNa kA kabhI dekhA nahIM! ravIMdranAtha khuda bhI citrakAra the| kavi ke sAtha-sAtha utane hI bar3e citrakAra bhI the| aura avanIMdranAtha to kahanA hI kyA !... ravIMdranAtha kA hRdaya dhaka se raha gyaa| itanA pyArA citra thA kRSNa kA, jaise aba bAMsurI bajI-aba bAMsurI bajI! jaise aba kRSNa nAce--aba kRSNa nAce! itanA sajIva thaa| vismaya vimugdha hokara dekhate raha ge| aura avanIMdranAtha ne citra ko dekhA, liyA hAtha meM aura daravAje ke bAhara pheMka diyaa| aura naMdalAla se kahA, yaha kucha mujhe dikhAne yogya citra hai? kucha soca-samajhakara lAyA kr| jaba koI cIja batAne yogya ho, to lAyA kr| isase acche citra to baMgAla ke paTiye banA lete sAtA baMgAla meM paTiye hote haiM, jo kRSNapaTa banAte haiM--kRSNASTamI ke, janmASTamI ke avasara pr| do-do paise meM becate haiN| ve sabase garIba citrakAra hote haiN| unakA kAma hI kula itanA hotA hai ki kRSNa kA kisI bhI taraha citra banA denA, tAki gAMva ke garIba do-do paise meM kharIda kara usakI pUjA kara leM! usase bar3I koI niMdA kI bAta nahIM ho sktii| avanIMdranAtha ThAkura kA yaha kahanA naMdalAla ko ki tujhase to baMgAla ke paTiye acche| ve bhI citra acchA banA lete haiM kRSNa kA! yaha kyA citra tU lekara AyA hai| bhAga yahAM se| ravIMdranAtha ko to bahuta dhakkA lgaa| bhUla hI gae ki mere cAcA haiN| vRddha haiN| aura mujhe isa taraha kI bAta unase nahIM kahanI caahie| naMdalAla to calA gayA, ravIMdranAtha TUTa par3e cAcA para ki yaha hadda ho gaI! maiMne bahuta citra dekhe haiN| Apake bhI citra dekhe haiM, jo Apane kRSNa ke banAe haiN| ve bhI isake mukAbale nahIM haiN| avanIMdranAtha ne kahA, zAMta ho| aura merI AMkhoM kI tarapha dekh| AMkha se AMsU gira rahe the avanIMdranAtha ke! ravIMdranAtha to aura bhI bhaucakke hae ki mAmalA kyA hai! mAjarA kyA hai! kahA ki bAta kyA hai? Apa ro kyoM rahe haiM? kahA, ro isalie rahA hUM ki naMdalAla ke sAtha mujhe bahuta kaThora honA par3a rahA hai| isakI saMbhAvanA mujhase bar3e citrakAra hone kI hai| tU ThIka kahatA hai| mere citroM se usakA citra jyAdA behatara hai| lekina abhI isameM aura bhI par3A hai| agara maiM isa para coTa kie jAUM, to abhI isameM aura bhI saMbhAvanA hai| abhI isakI pUrI saMbhAvanA vAstavika nahIM banI hai| jisa dina maiM Page 131 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kaha dUMgA--prazaMsA ke do zabda--vahIM Thahara jAegA yh| usase Age na bar3ha skegaa| socegA--bAta pUrI ho gii| jaba guru ne prazaMsA kara dI, to aba aura kyA bacA! jaba avanIMdranAtha ne kaha diyA, to aba aura kyA bacA! avanIMdranAtha utthe| jo citra pheMka diyA thA, vaha uThAkara vApasa laae| aura kahA ki citra adabhuta hai| magara abhI aura bhI naMdalAla meM par3A hai| abhI maiM na kahUMgA ki adabhuta hai| usake sAmane to na khuuNgaa| abhI to usa para aura coTeM karanI haiN| abhI isakA jala aura bhI nikhara sakatA hai| abhI isameM aura gaharAI AegI! abhI isameM aura UMcAI aaegii| aura ajIba bAta yaha huI ki naMdalAla apane daravAje para tAlA lagA kara, jisa choTe se jhopar3e meM rahate the, tIna sAla ke lie nadArada ho gae! ravIMdranAtha ne bAra-bAra avanIMdranAtha ko kahA ki aba kaho! kyA yaha coTa mArane jaisI thI? usakA dila hI tor3a diyA! avanIMdranAtha ne kahA, tuma tthhro| vaha lauttegaa| vaha ziSya hai--vidyArthI nhiiN| lauttegaa| nizcita lauTegA! aura tIna sAla bAda naMdalAla lautte| unakI hAlata baMgAla ke paTiyoM jaisI ho rahI thI--bilakula garIba! kapar3e phaTa gae the| ve hI kapar3e the jo ve tIna sAla pahale pahane the| aura Akara avanIMdranAtha ke caraNoM para gira par3e aura kahA ki Apane bar3I kRpA kI, jo usa dina mere citra ko uThA kara pheMka diyaa| baMgAla ke gAMva-gAMva meM gyaa| jahAM bhI kisI paTiye kI khabara sunI, usase jA kara sIkhA, ki jaba guru ne kahA hai ki paTiye bhI tumase acchA citra banA lete haiM--to jarUra banA lete hoNge| aura ina tIna sAloM meM itanA janA, itanA jIyA, itane anubhava hue! Apane kyA coTa mArI ki gadagada ho gayA hUM! avanIMdranAtha ne chAtI se lagA liyA aura kahA ki aba tujhase saca bAta kaha sakatA huuN| vaha citra suMdara thaa| dekha! bhItara dekha! terA citra merI dIvAla para TaMgA hai| jahAM merA citra kRSNa kA TaMgA thA, vaha maiMne alaga kara diyA hai| vahAM terA citra TAMga diyA hai| terA citra mere citroM se jyAdA suMdara hai| lekina eka bAra AkhirI coTa mAranI thii| aba maiM dekha sakatA hUM terI AMkhoM meM; aba maiM dekha sakatA hUM tere AsapAsa kI AbhA meM--vaha ghaTanA ghaTa gaI, jisakI maiM pratIkSA kara rahA thaa| aba maiM nizciMta mara sakatA hUM ki maiMne kama se kama eka citrakAra ko janma de diyA hai| itanA bhut| tU merI dhArA ko Age bar3hA skegaa| tU merA bhaviSya hai| tere Upara saba nirbhara hai| yaha jo maiMne kalA ko eka nayA mor3a diyA hai, tU usakA vasIyatadAra huaa| taba ravIMdranAtha samajhe ki guru coTa karatA hai, to kisalie coTa karatA hai| yogatIrtha! tuma dhanyabhAgI ho| aise hI samajhate cale, to nikhAra AegA--bahuta nikhAra aaegaa| nahIM to hama tilamilA jAte haiN| hama bar3e jaldI tilamilA jAte haiN| saMta ne kala hI mujhe khabara kI ki parasoM Apa bole, to mere pitA gadagada ho ge| unakI AMkhoM se AMsU baha rahe the| aura kala Apa bole, to ve bar3e gusse meM A ge| bar3e krodhita ho ge| ekadama tilamilA gae! Page 132 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maiM jAnatA thA, yaha hone vAlA hai| parasoM bhItara se sahArA diyA thaa| kala bAhara se coTa maarii| guru kumhAra ziSya kuMbha hai ghar3i-ghaDi kAThai khoTa bhItara hAtha saMvAra de bAhara mArai coTa ! magara ve nae-nae haiN| unako kyA patA ki yahAM kyA cala rahA hai| ruka jAeMge thor3e dina, to sApha ho jAegI bAta ki kyA cala rahA hai| vahI cala rahA hai, jo nAnaka ke pAsa cala rahA thaa| vahI cala rahA hai, jo kabIra ke pAsa cala rahA thaa| jIvita guru ke pAsa honA Aga ke pAsa honA hai jalAegI bhI, jagAegI bhI jo-jo vyartha hai, jala jaaegaa| jo-jo asAra hai, rAkha ho jaaegaa| aura jo-jo sAra hai, nikhara kara prakaTa hogaa| sonA jaba taka Aga se na gujare, kuMdana nahIM banatA hai| tIsarA praznaH bhagavAna, Apake Azrama meM sUphI nRtya meM zrI rAma, jaya rAma, jaya jaya rAma kI dhuna gAI jAtI hai yaha kaisA sUphI nRtya hai ? melArAma asarAnI! maiM samajhA tumhArI ar3acana, tumhArI ulajhana / tuma socate hooge ki sUphI nRtya kA koI saMbaMdha hai isalAma se; sUphI nRtya kA koI saMbaMdha hai musalamAna se| vahAM tumhArI bhrAMti hai| sUphI musalamAnoM meM hue, hiMduoM meM hiMduoM meM hue, IsAiyoM meM hue, sikkhoM meM hue, bauddhoM meM hue| sUphI eka khAsa raMga kA nAma hai| sUphI to eka khAsa DhaMga kA nAma hai| sUphI kA isalAma se koI gaThabaMdhana nahIM / zabda banatA hai| sUphI hone kA artha sUphI zabda banatA hai saphA se| usI saphA se jisase saphAI hai sApha-sutharA ho jAnA saphA! nahAe hue, dhoe hue svastha jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA ! ! sadyaH snAta tAje svaccha zubha / sUphI musalamAnoM meM hue, lekina isase yaha mata samajha lenA ki sUphiyoM kI sImA musalamAna kI sImA hai| sUphiyoM kI koI sImA nahIM hai| maiM to mahAvIra ko bhI sUphI khuuNgaa| aura nAnaka ko bhI sUphI khuuNgaa| aura tuma cakita hooge ki maiM to muhammada ko sUphI kahatA huuN| muhammada to bAda meM Ae; sUphI honA to sadA se rahA / -- sUphiyoM kI paraMparA to anaMta hai| alaga-alaga raMgoM meM, alaga-alaga DhaMgoM meM, alaga-alaga dezoM meM, alaga-alaga zabdoM meM vaha paraMparA ughar3atI rhii| jIsasa bhI sUphI haiM aura mUsA bhI / sUphI hone kA artha svaccha honA hai| lekina hama to dharmoM meM bAMdhane ke AdI ho jAte haiM jaise koI yoga sAdhatA hai, to hama socate haiM--hiMdU honA caahie| aba yoga kA hiMdU hone se kyA saMbaMdha? musalamAna yoga sAdha sakatA hai| IsAI yoga sAdha sakatA hai| jaina yoga sAdha sakA hai| bauddha yoga sAdha sakatA hai| yoga kA koI saMbaMdha hiMduoM se nahIM hai| yaha kevala Akasmika hai ki yoga kI paraMparA kA sUtrapAta hiMduoM meM huA aura yaha bhI Akasmika hai ki sUphiyoM kI bar3I dhArA isalAma meM bahI magara chIMTe to sAre jagata meM phaila ge| Page 133 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA lekina hamArI AdateM dAyaroM meM socane kI haiN| aura hama hara cIja kA dAyarA banA dete haiM, isase muzkila khar3I ho jAtI hai| isase hamane dharma ko bhI bhraSTa kara liyA hai| kucha to bacane do, jisakI koI sImA na ho| yaha merA kamyUna, na to hiMdU hai, na musalamAna hai; na IsAI hai, na sikkha hai; na jaina hai, na bauddha hai| aura eka artha meM yaha sabhI hai--eka sAtha hai| yahAM eka samanvaya ghaTita ho rahA hai| isalie yahAM sUphI nRtya meM koI ar3acana nahIM hai--zrI rAma, jaya rAma, jaya jaya rAma kI dhuna gAI jA sakatI hai| koI ar3acana nahIM hai| pharka hI kyA par3atA hai--tuma allAha kaho ki rAma kho| sUphI kA artha hai: tuma svaccha ho jaao| aba gaMgA meM nahA kara svaccha hue, ki narmadA meM nahA kara svaccha hue, ki amejAna meM nahA kara svaccha hue--kyA pharka par3atA hai! kauna nadI thI, kauna ghATa thI--svaccha ho jAo--tuma sUphI ho ge| ye mere sAre saMnyAsI sUphI haiN| hAlAMki sUphI phakIra jo musalamAna kI dhArA meM paidA hue haiM, hare vastra pahanate haiN| mere saMnyAsI gairika vastra pahanate haiN| magara isase kyA pharka par3a jAegA! kyA hRdaya kA kucha bheda ho jAegA! kucha aMtara nahIM pdd'taa| lekina hama khilaune meM ulajha gae haiN| hama choTI-choTI bAtoM meM ulajha gae haiN| dekhate-hI-dekhate kitane badala jAte haiM loga, hara kadama para ika nae sAMce meM Dhala jAte haiM loga, kIjie kisa ke lie guma gaztA jannata kI talAza? jaba ki mATI ke khilaune se bahala jAte haiM log| mATI ke khilaunoM se! koI mUrti ko pUja rahA hai--phaMsa gyaa| pUjA mUlyavAna na rahI; mUrti mUlyavAna ho gii| aura jaba mUrti mUlyavAna ho jAtI hai, to svabhAvataH masajida maMdira nahIM ho sktii| aura agara pUjA mUlyavAna ho, to phira masajida meM bhI ho sakatI hai, maMdira meM bhI ho sakatI hai| phira koI ar3acana nahIM hai| jhukanA mUlyavAna hai| amUrta ke sAmane jhuko mUrta ke sAmane jhuko--koI pharka nahIM pdd'taa| magara hamAre jAla bahuta haiM! maiM amRtasara meM mehamAna thaa| svarNa-maMdira ke TrasTiyoM ne mujhe nimaMtraNa diyA ki maiM amRtasara AyA hUM, to svarNa-maMdira jarUra aauuN| maiM gyaa| jaba maMdira meM praveza kara rahA thA, to maiMne dekhA ki sAre TrasTI mujhe bar3e prema se svAgata karane Ae the; ve jarA becaina haiN| kucha merI samajha meM na aayaa| maiMne pUchA, becainI kA kAraNa kyA hai? unhoMne kahA, Apase kaheM, acchA nahIM mAlUma hotaa| na kaheM, to bhI muzkila hai! maiMne kahA, tuma kaha hI do| acche-bure kI phikra chodd'o| maiM phikra hI nahIM karatA--acche bure kii| tuma kaha do| magara becainI nahIM rakhanI caahie| unhoMne kahA ki majabUrI hai| kSamA kreN| lekina Apa naMge sira svarNa-maMdira meM na jA skeNge| hamane Apa ko nimaMtraNa diyA, aba mehamAna ko hama kyA kaheM! kama se kama TopI lagA leN| TopI na lagAeM, to...eka mitra ne jaldI se rUmAla nikAla kara kahA ki rUmAla hI bAMdha leN| Page 134 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maiMne kahA, jaisI tumhArI mrjii| rUmAla bAMdha do| aba maiM A gayA hUM, to lauTa kara jAUM, to tuma dukhI hooge| bAMdha do tuma ruumaal| maiM rUmAla bAMdha kara hI maMdira meM A jAtA huuN| aba A hI gayA hUM, to tumhArI yaha zarta bhI mAna luuNgaa| lekina kyA tuma socate ho--sira para pagar3I rakha lene se yA rUmAla bAMdha lene se sammAna ho jAegA! kyA sammAna aura apamAna itanI thothI bAteM haiM? itanI saralatA se hala ho sakatI haiM? lekina mATI ke khilaune se bahala jAte haiM loga! maiMne rUmAla rakha liyA sira para, ve bar3e prasanna ho gae, bar3e AnaMdita ho ge| bar3e parezAna the| apamAna huA jA rahA hai! phira jaba mujhe aMdara le cale, to unameM se eka ne kahA ki Apa jAnakara khuza hoMge ki hamAre yahAM hiMdU-musalamAna kA koI bheda nhiiN| hiMdU bhI A sakate haiM musalamAna bhI A sakate haiN| maiMne kahA, tuma chor3o yaha bkvaas| binA TopI lagAe nahIM A sakatA hai tuma hiMdU-musalamAna kI bAteM kara rahe ho! aura jaba tuma kahate ho ki--hamAre yahAM hiMdU-musalamAna kA koI bheda nahIM--to yaha bAta hI kyoM kara rahe ho ki hiMdU bhI A sakate haiN| musalamAna bhI A sakate haiM! bheda to ho gyaa| nahIM to kauna hiMdU! kauna musalamAna! kaisA hiMdU--kaisA musalamAna! tumane bheda to kara hI liyaa| nAnaka ko bheda nahIM thaa| to ve makkA bhI cale gae the| kAbA bhI cale gae the| aura jarA soco, nAnaka ko aura unakI paraMparA meM Ae hue svarNa-maMdira ke ina rakSakoM ko--kitanA bheda hai| nAnaka paira kara ke so gae the kAbA ke patthara kI trph| svabhAvataH isI taraha ke pujArI rahe hoMge, jisa taraha ke ye pujArI the| unako bar3I becainI ho gii| kAbA ke pujArI! aura koI AdamI Akara kAbA ke patthara kI tarapha paira kara ke so jAe! apamAna huA jA rahA hai! jaisA ki merA binA TopI lagAe praveza karane se apamAna hotA hai, to paira rakhane se to ho hI jaaegaa| aura agara tuma mUrti kI tarapha kara ke leToge yA maMdira kI tarapha kara ke leToge yA kAbA ke patthara kI tarapha kara ke leToge, to svbhaavtH...|| maiMne unase kahA, tuma thor3A soco, tuma nAnaka ko mAnane vAle loga ho| maiMne sirpha TopI nahIM lagAI hai| aura saca yaha hai ki koI baccA TopI lagAe paidA hotA nhiiN| aba taka sunA nhiiN| so paramAtmA binA hI TopI lagAe bhejatA hai| TopI vagairaha lagAnA saba hamAre khilaune haiN| tuma mahAvIra ko to aMdara hI na ghusane dete| ve to naMgadhaDaMga aate| maiM to kama se kama kapar3e pahane hUM! aura mahAvIra rUmAla bhI nahIM bAMdhate--yaha bhI maiM tumase kahe de rahA huuN| kyoMki jo AdamI naMgA khar3A ho, vaha rUmAla bAMdhe--jaMcegA nhiiN| vaha to aisA huA, jaise naMgA AdamI TAI bAMdhe! yaha bilakula hI behUdI bAta ho jAegI--ki jaba naMge hI khar3e ho, to TopI kisalie lagAe ho! vaha to yUM bAta ho jAegI-- eka dina mullA nasaruddIna ke ghara koI milane A gayA, eka dNpti| daravAjA khaTakhaTAyA, to mullA ne jarA-sA daravAjA khola kara dekhaa| magara utane meM una logoM ne bhI dekha liyA-- Page 135 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA bilakula naMga-dhaDaMga! magara TopI lagAe hae! aba ekadama lauTa bhI nahIM sakate the ve log| aura mullA ko bhI to kahanA hI par3A ki Aie-Aie; padhArie-padhArie! to becAre aMdara A ge| patnI kisI taraha apane pati ke pIche chipI huI khar3I, ki aba yaha karanA kyA hai! mullA bolA, baiThie-baiThie! aba eka hI kursI para pati-patnI kaise baiThe! aura patnI ko laga rahA bar3A saMkoca ki yaha apanI naMgA khar3A hai| Akhira pati se bhI na rahA gyaa| pati ne kahA ki Apa naMge kyoM haiM? kyA bAta hai? to mullA ne kahA, saca bAta yaha hai ki isa samaya mujhase koI milane kabhI AtA hI nhiiN| garamI ke dina haiM aura pasIne se tarabatara hone meM sAra kyA! aura apanA ghr| apane hI ghara meM naMgA na ho sakU, to phira apanA ghara kyA! koI bAjAra meM to naMgA nahIM huuN| daravAjA baMda kara ke naMgA huuN| taba phira patnI se na rahA gyaa| patnI ne bhI jarA muMha bagala se nikAla kara pUchA, aura saba to ThIka hai| calo naMge ho, kyoMki garmI hai| magara TopI kisalie lagAe ho? to mullA ne kahA, are, kabhI koI bhUlacUka se A jAe, jaise Apa A gae, to kama kama TopI to lagAe rahUM! aba mahAvIra para tuma TopI rakha dete, yA rUmAla bAMdha dete, to aisA hI lagatA! bilakula gar3abar3a lagatA mAmalA! aura mahAvIra to rakhane bhI nahIM dete| maiM to isa artha meM sarala AdamI huuN| calo, TopI, to TopI rakha lii| koI bAta nhiiN| calo, rUmAla bAMdhA, to rUmAla bAMdha liyaa| magara agara tuma binA rUmAla ke mujhe svarNa-maMdira meM nahIM jAne de sakate, to tuma phira una pujAriyoM ke saMbaMdha meM kyA kahoge, jinhoMne nAnaka se kahA ki Apa paira kara ke so rahe haiM kAbA ke pavitra patthara kI trph| zarma nahIM AtI! saMta hokara, sAdhu hokara, phakIra hokara...! tuma bhI vahI kara rahe ho| aura maiMne koI itanA bar3A kasUra nahIM kiyaa| nAnaka kA kasUra bar3A thaa| lekina nAnaka ne kyA kahA una pujAriyoM se ki phira tuma mere paira usa tarapha kara do, jahAM paramAtmA na ho| maiM to sabhI jagaha paramAtmA ko dekhatA huuN| kahIM to paira kara ke soUMgA! cUMki vaha sabhI jagaha hai, isalie aba usakA apamAna-sammAna kyA! aura paira meM bhI vahI hai; cAroM tarapha bhI vahI hai| mujhameM bhI vahI hai, aura tumameM bhI vahI hai| to kahIM to paira kara ke soUMgA! jamIna para bhI paira rakha kara calUMgA, to vaha bhI paramAtmA hI hai| usa para bhI paira rakhanA paramAtmA para hI paira rakhanA hai| unase uttara na dete bana pdd'aa| cupacApa khar3e raha ge| maiMne kahA, thor3A socnaa| maiM nAnaka ke sAtha hUM yA tuma nAnaka ke sAtha ho| agara maiM aMdara jA kara tumhAre guru-graMtha sAhaba ke prati paira kara ke leTa jAUM, to tuma kyA karoge? tuma to bilakula pAgala ho jaaoge| tuma to ekadama dIvAne ho uThoge ki apamAna ho gyaa| tuma to sira para bhI rUmAla rakha kara prasanna ho rahe ho! mATI ke khilaune se bahala jAte haiM loga! Page 136 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA melArAma asarAnI! yahI tumhArI takalIpha hai| tuma pUchate ho, sUphI nRtya meM zrI rAma, jaya rAma, jaya jaya rAma kI dhuna gAI jAtI hai| yaha kaisA sUphI nRtya hai? yahAM jora nRtya para hai| agara nRtya meM nartaka kho jAe, to nRtya sUphI nRtya ho jAtA hai| phira se doharA dUM: agara nRtya meM nartaka kho jo, DUba jAe, tallIna ho jAe--nRtya hI bace, nartaka na bace; gIta meM gAyaka kho jAe, gAyaka na bace--gIta hI bce| basa, svacchatA A gii| ekadama barasa jAtI hai svcchtaa| amRta kI dhAra barasa uThatI hai| isalie usako sUphI nRtya kahate haiM, kyoMki yaha saphA kara detA hai, saphAI kara detA hai| ekadama kacare ko dho detA hai| aba kisa bahAne tuma karate ho--cAho, allAhU kA udaghoSa karo; aura cAhe jaya rAma zrI rAma ko| yaha hiMdI anuvAda hai aura kucha bhI nhiiN| yaha allAha kA hiMdI anuvAda hai| thor3A AMkheM Upara uThAo aura AkAza kI tarapha dekho| jamIna ko khaMDa-khaMDa meM bAMTa liyA hmne| AdamI ko khaMDa-khaMDa meM bAMTa liyA hmne| AdamI ko khaMDa-khaMDa meM bAMTa liyaa| jarA akhaMDa AkAza ko dekho| sitAroM se Age jahAM aura bhI haiN| abhI izka ke imtihAM aura bhI haiN|| abhI tumane prema jAnA hai, magara bar3A sImA meM baMdhA huA, Dabare kI trh| aura jahAM DabarA hai, vahAM sar3AMdha hai| hiMdU kA DabarA ho ki musalamAna kA DabarA ho; sikha kA ki jaina kA-- jahAM DabarA hai, vahAM sar3AMdha hai| jahAM sImA hai, vahAM sar3AMdha hai| sImA se thor3A Upara uttho| yahAM saba sImAeM tor3I jA rahI haiN| yahAM sImAoM ko visarjita kiyA jA rahA hai| yahAM hama gaNeza jI vagairaha ko visarjita nahIM karate; sImAoM ko visarjita karate sitAroM se Age jahAM aura bhI haiN| abhI izka ke imtihAM aura bhI haiN|| tahI jiMdagI se nahIM ye phijaaeN| yahAM saikar3oM kAravAM aura bhI haiN|| kanAata na kara Alame-raMgo-bU pr| camana aura bhI AziyAM aura bhI haiN|| agara kho gayA ika nizemana to kyA gm| makAmAte-Aho-phugAM aura bhI haiN|| tU zAhIM hai paravAja hai kAma teraa| tire sAmane AsmAM aura bhI haiN|| isI roja-o-zaba meM ulajha kara na raha jaa| ki tere jamAna-o-makAM aura bhI haiN|| gae dina ki tanhA thA maiM aMjumana meN| Page 137 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA yahAM aba mire rAjadAM aura bhI haiN|| thor3A sImAoM ke pAra dekho--sitAroM ke pAra--vahAM saba eka hai| jaba pahalA amarIkI cAMda para pahuMcA to tumheM patA hai, use kyA bhAva uThA! jaba usane pRthvI kI tarapha dekhA, to cAMda se pRthvI jaisI hI camakatI hai, jaisA pRthvI se cAMda camakatA hai| camakatI huI pRthvI dekhI! aura usake mana meM eka hI bhAva uThA--merI pRthvI! yaha bhAva na uThA-- merA amerikA! usa phAsale se kahAM amerikaa| merI pRthvI--usa pRthvI meM rUsa bhI sammilita thA; cIna bhI sammilita thaa| usa pRthvI meM bhArata bhI sammilita thaa| vahAM koI nakzA nahIM thA baMTA haa| pRthvI vahAM eka thii| aura itanI pyArI thI! socA bhI na thA ki cAMda jaisI camakatI hogii| pRthvI bhI utanI hI camakatI hai, jitanA cAMda camakatA hai| cAMda para pahuMca gae, to cAMda nahIM camakatA phir| phira cAMda pRthvI jaisA mAlUma hotA hai| kyoMki cAMda kI koI apanI kiraNeM nahIM haiN| sUraja kI kiraNeM cAMda para par3a kara lauTatI haiM, pratiphalita hotI haiM, isalie camaka AtI hai| jaise darpaNa meM se kiraNeM lauTa jAtI haiN| darpaNa kI nahIM hotI, AtI to dIe se haiN| lekina dIe se pakar3akara phira lauTa jAtI haiN| darpaNa unheM lauTA detA hai| aisI hI kiraNeM pRthvI se bhI lauTatI haiN| cAMda para khar3e hooge, to pRthvI bhI itanI jAjvalyamAna, jaise eka bar3A hIrA camakatA ho! cAMda se bar3I hai pRthvI--bahuta bar3I hai| to bahuta bar3A cAMda! aura usake mana meM eka hI bhAva uThA--merI pRthvI! merI pyArI pRthvI! agara dhArmika vyakti ko itanA bhI bodha na ho, to kyA use khAka dhArmika kaho! cAMda para jAne kI jarUrata nahIM hai| isalAma bhI merA hai| IsAiyata bhI merI hai| hiMdU bhI merA hai| jaina bhI merA hai| sikkha bhI merA hai| saba mere haiN| merA dharma! eka dhammo sanaMtano--buddha kahate haiM--yaha jo sanAtana dharma hai--ye saba usakI zAkhAeM smjho| usI ke patte smjho|, rAma kaho ki rahIma kaho--savAla yaha nahIM ki tumane kyA khaa| savAla yaha hai ki kahate vakta tuma kisa loka meM praveza kara gae! agara yaha rAma, yaha allAha tumheM sitAroM ke Age le jAe, to sUphI ho ge| sitAroM se Age jahAM aura bhI haiM abhI izka ke imtihAM aura bhI haiN| melArAma asarAnI! abhI prema kI kucha aura parIkSAeM denI hoNgii| tuma to suna kara hI ciMtA meM par3a gae ki yaha kaisA sUphI nRtya! yahI sUphI nRtya hai| aisA hI hotA hai sUphI nRty| tuma zabda meM hI ulajha ge| tumane ye nAcate hue loga na dekhe, jo masta the, lIna the| tumane unakI mastI na dekhI, unakI bekhudI na dekhii| tuma isI ciMtA meM par3a gae ki sUphI nRtya--aura zrI rAma, jaya rAma, jaya jaya rAma kA udaghoSa! tAlamela nahIM baiThatA! maMdira meM jaise koI kurAna Page 138 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kI Ayata uTha rahI ho magara saubhAgya hogA vaha dina jisa dina maMdiroM meM kurAna kI AyateM uTheMgI, aura masjidoM meM gItA kA udaghoSa hogaa| usa dina pRthvI saca meM hI dhanyabhAgI hogI / abhI to maMdira masajida kI gardana kATane ko taiyAra hai| masajida maMdira ko rAkha karane ko taiyAra hai| ye dhArmika loga haiM! abhI gItA kurAna ko jalAne meM utsuka hai| kurAna gItA ko miTAne meM utsuka haiN| ye dhArmika loga hai? dharma to eka hai, aura eka hI ho sakatA hai| kyoMki satya eka hai| lekina ye rAjanItiyAM haiM, jina ne tumheM bAMTa rakhA hai| ye sAre kAravAM usI kI tarapha jA rahe haiM--usI eka kI tarapha rAste thoDe alaga bhI hoM, vAhana alaga bhI hoM, maMjila eka hai| tahI jiMdagI se nahIM ye phijaaeN| yahAM saikar3oM kAravAM aura bhI haiN| kanAyata na kara Alame-raMgA-bU para camana aura bhI AziyAM aura bhI haiM / / thor3e AMkheM khola kara dekho yaha bagiyA tumhArI hI bagiyA akelI bagiyA nahIM hai aura bhI bagiyAeM haiM, jahAM aura bhI phUla khile haiN| aMdhe mata ho jaao| jisane gItA ko samajhA, agara qurAna ko na samajha pAe to samajhanA usane gItA ko nahIM smjhaa| vaha parIkSA meM asaphala ho gyaa| vaha prema kI parIkSA meM uttIrNa na huaa| aura jisane kurAna ko samajhA, agara vaha upaniSada ko na samajhe, to samajhanA ki kurAna ko bhI nahIM smjhaa| kyA khAka kurAna ko smjhaa| 7 / bhASAeM alaga thIM, izAre alaga the, aMguliyAM alaga thiiN| cAMda to aMguliyAM uThI haiN| hajAroM aMguliyAM uThI haiN| buddha kI, mahAvIra kI, mohammada kI jIsasa kI, jarathukha kI agara kho gayA ika, nizemana to kyA gama mukAmAte Aho- phugA aura bhI haiM ! giraje gurudvAre tumhAre hoMge kyA namAja par3ha lenaa| maMdira meM pUjA jisa dina ye sAre ghara tumhAre hoMge, ye sAre maMdira-masjideM, pharka par3atA hai, eka maMdira gira bhI gayA, to masajida meM kara lenA kyA pharka par3atA hai masajida jala bhI gaI, to maMdira meM namAja par3ha lenA, to maMdira meM pUjA kara lenaa| dhArmika vyakti bhI agara saMkIrNa ho, to phira dhArmika adhArmika meM bheda kyA hai? eka hI bheda ho sakatA hai: saMkIrNatA gira jAe, bhedabhAva gira jAe / tU zAhIM hai paravAja hai kAma teraa| tuma bAja pakSI ho, ur3AneM bharanA UMce AkAza meM tumhArA kAma hai| bAja pakSI hokara aura jamIna para ghasiTa rahe ho - kIr3e-makor3oM kI taraha ! tU zAhIM hai paravAja hai kAma terA tire sAmane AsmAM aura bhI haiM / / Page 139 of 255 -- eka hI hai- jisakI tarapha kabIra kI, nAnaka kI, -- http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA udd'o| aura jitane UMce jAoge, utanI aura naI UMcAiyoM ke dvAra khula jaaeNge| isI roja-o-zaba meM ulajha kara na raha jaa| ki tere jamAna-o-makAM aura bhI haiN|| inhIM choTI-choTI bAtoM meM mata ulajhAo apane ko| ye dina aura rAta, aura yaha roja kA kriyAkAMDa--isI meM mata bhUla rho| isI roja-o-zaba meM ulajha kara na raha jaa| ki tere jamAna-o-makAM aura bhI haiN|| aura bhI samaya hai, aura bhI sthAna haiM, aura bhI AkAza haiM, aura bhI bahuta kucha zeSa hai| khojo-to khoja aMtahIna hai| gae dina ki tanhA thA maiM aMjumana meN| yahAM aba mire rAjadAM aura bhI haiN|| yahAM mitra hI mitra haiM; yahAM zatru koI bhI nahIM hai| yahAM mire rAjadAM aura bhI haiN| yahAM auroM ne bhI bheda pAyA hai| kisI ne ThekA nahIM le liyA hai paramAtmA kaa| kisI nAma meM, kisI zAstra meM paramAtmA samApta nahIM ho gayA hai| dharma Ate rahe, jAte rhe| dharma aura bhI AeMge jaaeNge| magara jo zAzvata satya hai, vaha to sadA thira hai| kitane dharma Ae aura ge| ve sirpha chAyAeM thIM, pratibiMba the| zabdoM meM zUnya kI banAI gaI AkRtiyAM thIM, izAre the| aMguliyAM uThatI rahIM, giratI rahIM--cAMda apanI jagaha hai| mahAvIra Ae, buddha Ae, jarathustra Ae, lAotsU Ae, mIrA AI, sahajo AI, caitanya aae| Ate rahe loga, jagAte rahe loga, magara jisakI tarapha jagAte haiM--vaha eka hai| aura usa eka ke prati jAga jAo, to phira cAho apane ko yogI khnaa..| yoga kA matalaba hotA hai-- jur3a jaanaa| yoga kA artha hotA hai--jodd'| jo paramAtmA se jur3a gayA, vaha yogii| phira cAhe sUphI kho| sUphI kA artha hotA hai--jo svaccha ho gayA, jisake mana kA sArA maila dhula gayA--vaha suuphii| phira tumhArI jo mauja ho, nAma de lenaa| nAma se kucha pharka nahIM pdd'taa| kaba taka baccoM jaise ulajhe rahoge--mATI ke khilaunoM se! mATI ke khilaunoM se bahala jAte haiM loga! jaago| thor3A dekho vistaar| saMkIrNatAoM ke roja-roja tor3ate clo| kitanI hI pIr3A ho, magara saMkIrNatAeM tor3anI haiM, tabhI tuma jAna sakoge jIvana kA parama sty| use jAne binA koI mukti nahIM hai, koI mokSa nahIM hai| sunA hai ki eka paigaMbara ismAila-alaihi-salAma bhojana karate samaya kisI na kisI ko apane sAtha biThA kara bhojana karavAte the| kabhI akele nahIM khAte the| eka dina ve khAnA khAne baitthe| dastarakhAna sjaayaa| lekina sAtha khAne ke lie koI na thaa| iMtajAra karate rhe| aura tabhI unakI najara eka sattara varSa ke bUDhe para pdd'ii| khuzI se daudd'e| use bulaayaa| vajU krvaayaa| vajU kara ke jaba khAnA khAne baiThe, to usa bUDhe ne bismillAha kahe binA hI khAnA zurU kara diyaa| Page 140 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA ina paigaMbara ne usake hAtha ko roka diyA, muMha meM kaura jAne se pahale hii| kahane lage, bismillAha kie bagaira khAne nahIM duuNgaa| allAha kA nAma le kara zurU kro| lekina usa bUr3he ne inakAra kara diyA bismillAha karane se| vaha bolA, maiM to Atiza parasta, agni-pUjaka pArasI huuN| maiM nahIM mAnatA isalAma ko| isalie Apa cAheM, to khilAeM, na khilaaeN| maiM bismillAha nahIM bolUMgA! tabhI AkAza se eka Ayata (vahaya) nAjila huI ki ai paigaMbara, isa AdamI ko hama sattara varSa se khAnA de rahe haiN| hamane ise kabhI nahIM kahA ki hamArA nAma lo| na kabhI isane bismillAha hI kii| phira tuma kyoM isako khAne se roka rahe ho? sirpha eka dina khilAne meM bhI tuma zarta lagA rahe ho! yaha AvAja sunI, to paigaMbara rone lage aura usa vyakti se bole, mujhe kSamA kara do aura khAnA khaao| dharma kI koI zarta nahIM, koI sImA nhiiN| rAma kaho, rahIma kaho, allAha kaho, oMkAra kaho; kucha na kahanA ho, kucha na kaho--mauna rho| agni ko pUjo--vaha bhI usakA pratIka hai| jala ko pUjo--vaha bhI usakA pratIka hai| saba usake pratIka haiM, kyoMki vahI hai--aura to kucha bhI nahIM hai| cauthA prazna: bhagavAna, kyA maiM bhI kabhI usa jyoti ko pA sakU~gA, jisake darzana Apa meM mujhe hote haiM? satyaprema! kyoM nahIM! maiM to kevala darpaNa huuN| merA to itanA hI upayoga hai ki tumheM tumhArI yAda dilA duuN| vaha jyoti jo tumheM mujhameM dikhAI par3a rahI hai, tumhArI bhI jyoti hai| tumheM usakA hoza nahIM; mujhe usakA hoza hai| jarA-sA bheda hai| tuma soe ho, maiM jAgA hN| tuma bhI vahI ho, maiM bhI vahI huuN| tuma apanI tarapha pITha kie ho, maiMne apanI tarapha muMha kara liyaa| tuma vimukha ho, maiM sanmukha ho gayA huuN| magara bAta to vahI kI vahI hai| aba tuma dIe kI tarapha pITha karake khar3e ho jAo, to dIyA dikhAI nahIM pdd'egaa| svbhaavtH| jarA mur3a Ao--aura dIyA dikhAI par3ane lgegaa| tumhAre bhItara bhI jyoti chipI hai| jIvana hI to jyoti hai| jIvana hI to paramAtmA hai| tuma pUchate ho, kyA maiM kabhI usa jyoti ko pA sakU~gA? kabhI kyoM--abhI pApa sakate ho-- yahIM pA sakate ho| jarA-sA mur3ane kI bAta hai| dila ke AIne meM hai tasavIre yAra jaba jarA gardana jhukAI dekha lii| basa, jarA-sI gardana jhukAne kI bAta hai! na pUcho kauna haiM, kyoM raha meM nAcAra baiThe haiN| musAphira haiM, saphara karane kI himmata hAra baiThe haiN|| Page 141 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA udhara pahalU se tuma uThe, idhara duniyA se hama utthe| calo hama bhI tumhAre sAtha hI taiyAra baiThe haiN|| kise phursata, ki pharje-khidamate-ulphata bajA laae| na tuma bekAra baiThe ho, na hama bekAra baiThe haiN|| makAme-dastagIrI hai, ki tere rAharoe ulpht| hajAroM justujUeM karake himmata hAra baiThe haiN|| na pUcho kauna haiM, kyA muddaA hai, kucha nahIM baabaa| gadA haiM aura jere-sAyo-dIvAra baiThe haiN|| thaka gae ho| bahuta-sI abhIpsAeM kI, AkAMkSAeM kii| hara sapanA TUTA, to hatAza ho gae ho| isalie pUchate ho, kyA maiM bhI kabhI usa jyoti ke darzana pA sakU~gA? Dara gae ho| bhayabhIta ho gae ho| makAme-dastagIrI hai, ki tere raahroe-ulpht| hajAroM justujUeM karake himmata hAra baiThe haiN|| tuma bhI usa prema-patha ke rAhI ho, lekina galata AkAMkSAeM karake hAra gae ho| galata AkAMkSAeM pUrI nahIM hotii| dhana pAne caloge, pA loge, to bhI haaroge| aura na pAyA, to to hAroge hii| pada pAne cloge| pA liyA, to bhI hAroge; na pAyA, to to hAroge hii| kyoMki jinhoMne pA liyA, unhoMne bhI kucha na paayaa| dhana pA kara bhI kyA milatA hai? bhItara kI nirdhanatA aura pragAr3ha ho jAtI hai| pada pA kara kyA milatA hai? bhItara kI hInatA aura ubhara kara dikhAI par3ane lagatI hai| jaise koI sapheda khar3iyA se blaikaborDa para likhatA hai| sapheda dIvAla para likhe, to patA nahIM cltaa| garIba AdamI ko apanI garIbI utanI patA nahIM calatI, jitanI amIra AdamI ko apanI garIbI patA calatI hai| kAlI dIvAla para sapheda khar3iyA kI taraha akSara ubhara Ate haiN| na pUcho kauna haiM, kyA muddaA hai, kucha nahIM bAbA! itane thaka gae ho ki kahate ho, mata puucho| pUcho hI mata ki kyA uddezya hai| na pUcho kauna haiM, kyA muddaA hai, kucha nahIM baabaa| gadA haiM aura jere-sAyAe-dIvAra baiThe haiN|| bhikhArI haiM aura dIvAla kI chAyA meM baiThe haiN| mata pUcho bAbA ki kauna haiM? kyA haiM? aisI thakI hAlata hai| isalie tuma yaha kaha rahe ho ki bhagavAna, kyA maiM bhI kabhI usa jyoti ko pA sakU~gA? kyoM nahIM! abhI pA sakate ho| kabhI kI bAta hI mata chedd'o| kabhI meM to hatAzA A gaI, nirAzA A gii| merA to jora abhI para hai--yahAM aura abhii| samajho, to abhI mur3a sakate ho| koI roka nahIM rhaa| sivAya tumhArI hatAzA aura nirAzA ke aura koI bAdhA nahIM hai| gira jAne do ina hatAzA ko| Page 142 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA zikavA besUda, zikAyata se bhalA kyA hAsila / jiMdagI hai to baharahAla basara bhI hogii| isI ummIda pe majalUma jie jAtA hai| pardee-zaba se namudAra sahara bhI hogI / / to ummIda rkho| aise hAra nahIM jaate| pardee-zaba se namudAra sahara bhI hogii| agara rAta hai, subaha bhI hogii| cAhatA hUM terA dIdAra mayassara ho jaae| socatA hUM ki mujhe tAbe - najara bhI hogI ? phikra na karo agara usake dIdAra kA bhAva uThA, agara usa jyoti ke darzana kI AkAMkSA uThI hai--koI phikra na karo socatA hUM ki mujhe tAbe najara bhI hogI dekhane kI zakti bhI hogI, tabhI to yaha AkAMkSA jagI hai| pyAsa tabhI uThatI hai, jaba jala maujUda ho agara duniyA meM jala na hotA, to pyAsa bhI na hotii| aura agara bhojana na hotA, to bhUkha bhI na hotii| bhUkha ke pahale bhojana hai| pyAsa ke pahale pAnI hai| tumane dekhA, mAM ke peTa meM baccA AtA hai, aura jaise-jaise baccA bar3A hone lagatA hai, mAM ke stana dhIre-dhIre dUdha se bharane lagate haiN| jaba taka baccA nahIM AtA, taba taka mAM ke stana meM dUdha nahIM aataa| lekina bacce ke janme pahale dUdha A jAtA hai| idhara baccA janmA--dUdha A cukA hotA hai| dUdha pratIkSA karatA hai bhUkha ke pahale bhojana hai! pardee-zaba se namudAra sahara bhI hogI / / cAhatA hUM terA dIdAra mayassara ho jaae| socatA hUM ki mujhe tAbe - najara bhI hogI ? yAde eyyAme-gulistAM ko bhulA rakkhA thaa| kyA khabara thI ye khAliza bAre jigara bhI hogii| hAe iMsAna, dariMdoM se haiM bar3hakara vahazI / kyA kisI daura meM takamIle bazara bhI hogI / / mutamuina hUM maiM bahuta cazmetavajjoha se terI / ika na ika roja udhara se ye idhara bhI hogI / / maiM jAnatA hUM ki terI najara meM karuNA hai maiM terI karuNA ko pahacAnatA huuN| nahIM to jIvana kauna detA! isa jIvana ko itane phUloM se kauna bharatA ! isa jIvana ko prabhu pAne kI AkAMkSA se kauna bharatA ! itanI gaharAI se hamAre bhItara prabhu ko pAne kI AkAMkSA bharI hai| sivAya paramAtmA kI anukaMpA ke aura koI kAraNa nahIM hai use hama pAnA cAhate haiM, kyoMki usane bIja rakha chor3A hai hamAre bhItara pyAsa kA Page 143 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA mutamuina hUM maiM bahuta cazmettavajjoha se terI! mujhe pakkA bharosA hai ki terI karuNA bharI AMkha hai| ika na ika roja udhara se ye idhara bhI hogii| mar3egI merI tarapha bhii| Aja tArIkie-mAhaula se dama ghuTatA hai| kala khar3A cAhegA tAliba to sahara bhI hogii|| magara dhyAna rakhanA--khudA cAhegA tAliba to sahara bhI hogii| tumhArI cAha se nahIM hogaa| tumhArI cAha chor3ane se hogaa| tuma kahate ho, kyA maiM bhI kabhI usa jyoti ko pA sakU~gA, jisake darzana ApameM mujhe hote satyaprema! jruur| lekina eka zarta pUrI karanI hogii| yaha cAha bhI chor3a do| cAha hI bAdhA hai| yaha cAha AkhirI bAdhA hai| isako bhI jAne do| bharosA kro| zraddhA kro| jisane jIvana diyA hai, aura jIvana ko parama satya pAne kI abhIpsA dI hai--usane jarUra iMtajAma kara rakhA hogaa| usane pahale se hI iMtajAma kara rakhA hogaa| isa zraddhA kA hI nAma dharma hai| dharma siddhAMtoM meM vizvAsa kA nAma nahIM hai; astitva kI parama karuNA meM zraddhA kA nAma hai, isalie zikAyateM na krnaa| zikavA besUda, zikAyata se bhalA kyA haasil| jiMdagI hai to baharahAla basara bhI hogii|| isI ummIda pe majalUma jie jAtA hai| pardee-zaba se namudAra sahara bhI hogii|| cAhatA hUM terA dIdAra mayassara ho jaae| socatA hUM ki mujhe tAbe-najara bhI hogI? yoda eyyAme-gulistAM ko bhulA rakkhA thaa| kyA khabara thI ye khAliza bAre-jigara bhI hogii|| hAe insAna, dariMdoM se haiM bar3ha kara vhshii| kyA kisI daura meM takamIle-bazara bhI hogii| mutamuina hUM maiM bahuta cazmetavajjoha se terii| eka na ika roja udhara se ye idhara bhI hogii|| Aja tArIkie-mAhaula se dama ghuTatA hai| kala khudA cAhegA tAliba to sahara bhI hogii|| Aja aMdhere meM prANa chaTapaTA rahe haiN--maanaa| magara zikavA besUda, zikAyata se bhalA kyA haasil| na zikavA karanA, na zikAyata krnaa| jisakI jiMdagI se zikavA aura zikAyata gira jAtI hai, usakI jiMdagI se prArthanA uThatI hai| Page 144 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA lekina ajIba aMdhe loga haiN| maMdira bhI jAte haiM, masajida bhI jAte haiM, gurudvArA bhI jAte haiM, to vahAM bhI zikAyata hai| prArthanA bhI unakI zikAyata kA hI eka DhaMga hai--ki he prabhu, aisA kara, vaisA kr| aisA kyoM nahIM kiyA! mere pAsa loga Ate haiM, ve kahate haiM ki hama naitika rUpa se jIte haiN| sAdagI se jIte haiN| phira asaphalatA kyoM? aura jo beImAna haiM, anaitika haiM--ve saphala kyoM? yaha zikAyata hai, yaha zikavA hai| zikavA besUda zikAyata se bhalA kyA haasil| yaha sirpha isa bAta kI gavAhI hai ki tumheM abhI bhI zraddhA nahIM hai| tumhArI zraddhA bhI tumhArI vAsanA kA hI rUpa hai| aura zraddhA aura vAsanA kA kyA tAlamela! tuma prArthanA bhI karate ho, to kucha mAMgate ho| vahAM bhI tuma bhikhArI hI ho| na pUcho kauna haiM, kyA muddaA hai, kucha nahIM baabaa| gadAM haiM aura jere-sAyAe-dIvAra baiThe haiN|| vahAM bhI tuma bhikhArI hI ho| prArthanA bhikhamaMgApana nahIM hai| prArthanA AnaMda-ullAsa hai| prArthanA nRtya hai, gIta hai, utsava hai| prArthanA mahotsava hai| prArthanA dhanyavAda hai--anugraha kA bhAva hai| zraddhA ho, prArthanA ho--jarUra satyaprema, vaha apUrva ghaTanA tumhAre jIvana meM bhI ghaTegI--jo mere jIvana meM ghaTI hai| mere jIvana meM ghaTa sakatI hai, to tumhAre jIvana meM ghaTa sakatI hai| hama saba eka jaise nirmita hue haiN| isa deza meM aura isa deza ke bAhara bhI, dharma ke itihAsa meM jo sabase bar3e durbhAgya kI ghaTanA ghaTatI hai, vaha yaha ki hamane jina logoM ke jIvana meM jyoti prakaTa huI, unako hI manuSya jAti se tor3a diyaa| hiMduoM ne kaha diyA, ve avatAra haiN| jainoM ne kaha diyA--ve tIrthaMkara haiN| bauddhoM ne kaha diyA, ve buddhapuruSa haiN| musalamAnoM ne kaha diyA, ve paigaMbara haiM! IsAiyoM ne kaha diyA, ve Izvara-putra haiM! hamane AdamI se unako alaga kara diyaa| isakA eka duSpariNAma honA thaa--haa| bhayaMkara duSpariNAma huaa| jaba tuma tIrthaMkara, avatAra, Izvara-putra, masIhA, paigaMbara--isa taraha jinake jIvana meM jyoti AI, unako alaga kara dete ho, to sAdhAraNa AdamI ko kyA AzA raha jAe! sAdhAraNa AdamI socatA hai: maiM to sAdhAraNa AdamI hUM; Izvara-putra nahIM paigaMbara nahIM, tIrthaMkara nahIM, avatAra nhiiN| mere jIvana meM to aMdherA hI badA hai| merI to kismata meM aMdherA hI likhA hai| merI rAta kI to kAI subaha nahIM hone vaalii| aura agara mahAvIra ko huI, to koI khUbI kI bAta kyA! ve tIrthaMkara the| ve koI sAdhAraNa puruSa na the| ve to Ae hI the--parama satya se hI janme the| agara jIsasa ke jIvana meM vaha jyoti jagI, to ve to Izvara ke beTe the! aura IsAI jora dete haiM ki Izvara kA eka hI beTA hai--jiiss| ikalautA beTA hai, tAki sApha ho jAe tumheM ki tuma isa bhrAMti meM mata rahanA ki tuma bhI Izvara ke beTe ho| Page 145 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA musalamAna kahate haiM, AkhirI paigaMbara ho cuke--mohmmd| aba koI paigaMbara nahIM hogaa| sikkha kahate haiM, dasa guru ho cuke, aba gyArahavAM guru nahIM hogaa| jaina kahate haiM, caubIsa tIrthaMkara ho cuke, aba paccIsavAM tIrthaMkara nahIM hogaa| yaha AdamI ko tor3a dene kI bAta hai| AdamI aura jAgRta puruSoM ke bIca itanA phAsalA mata khar3A kro| merA pUrA jora isa bAta para hai ki maiM tuma jaisA huuN| merI koI viziSTatA nhiiN| na koI avatAra huuN| na koI tIrthaMkara huuN| na koI Izvara-putra huuN| tuma jaisA huuN| aura mere jIvana meM jo ghaTA hai, vaha tumhAre jIvana meM ghaTa sakatA hai| kala maiM tuma jaisA thA, Aja tuma mere jaise ho sakate ho| jarA bhI bheda nahIM hai| itanA hI bheda hai ki maiM jAga kara baiTha gayA hUM--aura tuma abhI so rahe ho| aura tumheM maiM hilAne kI koziza kara rahA hUM ki jaago| hAlAMki kisI ko bhI sote se jagAne meM ar3acana to hotI hai| jAgane vAlA to jaga AtA hai isalie--ki kaba taka sapanoM meM khoe rahoge--vyartha sapanoM meM! jaago| subaha ho gii| pakSI gIta gAne lge| sUraja ugane lgaa| AnaMda barasa rahA hai| amRta kI jhar3I lagI hai| aura tuma so rahe ho! magara sone vAlA apane sapanoM meM khoyA hai| ho sakatA hai, sone ke sikke gina rahA ho! noToM kI gaDDiyAM barasa rahI hoN| bar3I se bar3I kursI para car3hA baiThA ho| rASTrapati ho gayA ho| pradhAnamaMtrI ho gayA ho| aura tuma usako jagA rahe ho| usakA sapanA TUTa jAe--to nArAja to hogA hI--ki abhI kursI para baiTha bhI nahIM pAyA thA ki tumane hilA diyA! kursI bhI kho gaI! mullA nasaruddIna eka rAta sapanA dekhA ki eka phariztA usase kaha rahA hai ki mAMga, kucha mAMganA hai! AdamI kI mUDhatA to dekho! magara tumhAre hI jaisA AdamI hai mullA nasaruddIna! usane kahA, eka sau kA noTa mila jAe! AdamI mAMge bhI to kyA mAMge! paramAtmA bhI mila jAe--tuma soco--to kyA mAMgoge? kyA mAMgoge agara--kabhI vicAra karo ki paramAtmA mila hI jAe...! tuma subaha-subaha ghUmane nikle| paramAtmA mila gayA rAste para aura pUchane lagA ki kyA mAMgate ho? to kyA karoge? noTa kI giDDiyAM mAMgoge! kahoge--ilekzana meM isa bAra jItanA ho jAe; ki phalAnI strI se merA prema ho gayA, vaha mujhe mila jAe; ki beTA nahIM ho rahA--beTA ho jaae| kucha isI taraha kI phijUla kI bAteM maaNgoge| mAMgoge kyA? ye hI saba bAteM tumhAre bhItara utareMgI--ki lATarI khula jAe! kucha na kucha isa taraha kI bAteM--ki ghur3adaur3a ho rahI hai pUnA meM, merA ghor3A jIta jAe! aba tuma dekhate ho ki ghor3e bhI itane nAlAyaka nahIM haiM, jitanA AdamI nAlAyaka hai! ghor3e AdamiyoM kI daur3a nahIM karavAte! aura AdamI kitane hI daur3eM, koI ghor3A dekhane nahIM aaegaa| maiM tumase pakkA kahatA hUM--koI ghor3A dekhane nahIM aaegaa| kaheMge, ye baddha daur3a rahe haiM--daur3ane do| isameM apane ko dekhanA kyA hai! magara ghor3e daur3ate haiM aura AdamiyoM kI bhIr3a ikaTThI hai! abhI sArA baMbaI pUnA meM hai| jinakI bhI jebeM jarA garma haiM, ve saba pUnA meM haiN| ghur3adaur3a ho rahI hai| ghor3e daur3a rahe haiM! tumheM kyA par3I hai! magara AdamI ajIba hai! gadhe bhI daur3eM, to bhI AegA! Page 146 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA murge lar3Ate haiM log| tItara lar3Ate haiM log| aura bhIr3a ikaTThI hotI hai| tItara bhI socate hoMge ki ho kyA gayA AdamI ko! murge bhI socate hoMge ki hama hI bhle| do AdamI lar3ate haiM, hama to phikra hI nahIM krte| lar3ate rho| bhAr3a meM jaao| AdamI ajIba pAgala hai! to mullA nasaruddIna se pharizte ne pUchA, kyA mAMgatA hai? usane kahA, sau kA nagada noTa ho jaae| phariztA bhI kaMjUsa hI rahA hogA, kyoMki phariztA kahAM sapane meM! mullA hI kA mana hai| idhara se phariztA banA hai| idhara se mullA ! vahI javAba de rahe haiM, vahI savAla kara rahe haiN| phariztA bhI pakkA kaMjUsa rahA hogaa| usane kahA ki sau to nahIM duuNgaa| nabbe le lo| mullA ne kahA, sau se eka paisA kama nahIM! phariztA bhI iMca-iMca bddh'e| usane kahA, ikyAnabe le lo! mullA bhI jidda para ar3A ki sau hI luuNgaa| nagada baMdhA haA noTa! loga aMdhe noTa ke bar3e premI haiN| dUsaroM se udhAra le kara kharcA karate haiN| kahate haiM ki jarA baMdhA noTa hai| tur3avAnA nahIM hai| jarA eka rupayA ho to de do| baMdhA noTa hai| are, to baMdhe noTa kA kyA karoge? usa garIba kA bhI eka kA baMdhA noTa hai| usakA tur3avAe de rahe ho! AnA baMdhA bacA rahe ho! baMdhe noToM ko loga bAMdhate haiM! mullA ne kahA, lUMgA to baMdhA nott| ikyAnabe vagairaha se kAma nahIM calegA! to pharizte ne kahA, acchA, bAnabe le lo| honI lagI bar3I chInA-jhapaTI ninyAnabe para bAta bilakula aTaka gii| phariztA bhI iMca Age na bddh'e| usane kahA, ninyAnabe se eka kaur3I jyAdA nahIM duuNgaa| aura mullA kahe ki aba ninyAnabe taka A gae, to aba eka ke pIche kyA kaMjUsI kara rahe ho! dUsare kI kaMjUsI dikhAI par3atI hai, apanI nahIM dikhAI pdd'tii| magara phariztA bolA, ninyAnabe se eka kaur3I jyAdA nhiiN| lenA ho, le le| bAta itanI bigar3I ki mullA cillAyA ki denA ho to sau| nahIM to maiM bhI lene vAlA nahIM huuN| baMdhA luuNgaa| kyoMki TUTe noTa khatama ho jAte haiN| kahate haiM na loga--baMdhI muTThI lAkha kI, khulI to khAka kii| baMdhe noTa kA majA hI aura hotA hai! jora se cillAyA ki lUMgA to sau! to nIMda khula gii| nIMda khula gaI, to phariztA nadArada! jaldI se AMkha baMda kara lI aura kahA, acchA bAbA, ninyAnabe de de! magara aba kahAM-- phariztA hI nahIM hai! aTThAnabe hI de de| are bhaI, jo denA ho de de| ikyAnabe hI de de| nabbe de de| magara vahAM koI hai hI nhiiN| phariztA nadArada ho gyaa| nIMda ke sapane to TUTa jAeMge--nIMda ke sAtha hii| isalie jo tumheM jagAegA, vaha pahale to duzmana mAlUma hogaa| jIsasa ko tabhI to tumane sUlI dii| sukarAta ko jahara pilaayaa| yUM hI to nhiiN| akAraNa to nhiiN|| tumhArI nIMda ko tor3atA hai jo, usa para nArAjagI AtI hai| hama sapanA dekha rahe haiM pyArApyArA aura inako yaha dhuna savAra hai ki nIMda tur3avA deM! ye nIMda tur3avAne ke pIche par3e hue haiM! sone bhI nahIM dete caina se| aise AdamI ko sUlI lagA do| aise AdamI ko jahara pilA do| Page 147 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA abhI mujha para hI kucha dina pahale eka AdamI churA mAra gayA--churA pheMka kara--ki isa AdamI ko khatama hI kro| aba isa becAre kI koI nIMda TUTa rahI hogii| isako kahIM coTa par3a rahI hogii| isakA sapanA kahIM khisaka rahA hogaa| kahIM phariztA calA jAe! aura baMdhA noTa karIba hI thA! ninyAnabe se sau meM dUrI bhI kyA thI! are, itanI dUra khIMcatAna kara le Ae the| eka hI rupae kI bAta thii| jaba ninyAnabe taka khIMca liyA, to eka aura khiMca jaataa| magara nIMda bevakta tor3a dI! to gussA to A hI jAe! churA pheMkane meM vahI gussA hai| tumane hamezA hI sadaguruoM ke sAtha asada vyavahAra kiyA hai| magara tuma kSamA yogya ho| jIsasa ne marate vakta aMtima vacana jo kahe ki he prabhu, ina saba ko kSamA kara denA, kyoMki inheM patA nahIM, ye kyA kara rahe haiN| inheM patA nahIM ki ye kyA kara rahe haiM! ye bilakula nIMda meM haiN| ye behoza haiN| maiM jagAne kI koziza kara kara rahA thaa| inako patA hI nahIM hai; nIMda ke sivAya inhoMne kucha jAnA hI nahIM hai| sapane hI inakI saMpadA haiN| to jagAne meM ar3acana to hai| tuma pUchate ho satyaprema, kyA maiM bhI kabhI usa jyoti ko pA sakU~gA, jisake darzana Apa meM mujhe hote haiM? nizcita hii| jarA bhI saMdeha kA kAraNa nahIM hai| Azvasta hoo| tumhAre bhItara jyoti maujUda hai| tuma use lekara hI paidA hue ho| pAne kahIM bAhara bhI nahIM jAnA hai--na kAbA, na kAzI, na kailaash| jarA bhItara mur3akara dekhanA hai--aura krAMti ghaTita ho jAtI hai| aura camatkAroM kA camatkAra ghaTita ho jAtA hai| Aja itanA hii| chaThavAM pravacana; dinAMka 16 sitaMbara, 1980; zrI rajanIza Azrama, pUnA dukha se jAgo pahalA praznaH bhagavAna, zrImadabhAgavata meM yaha zloka hai: yazca mUDhatamo loke yazca buddheH paraM gtH| tAvubhau sukhameghete klizyatyaMtarito jnH|| saMsAra meM jo atyaMta mUDha hai aura jo paramajJAnI hai, ve donoM sukha meM rahate haiN| paraMtu jo donoM kI bIca kI sthiti meM hai, vaha kleza ko prApta hotA hai| kyA aisA hI hai bhagavAna? AnaMda maitreya! Page 148 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA nizcaya hI aisA hI hai| mUDha kA artha hai--soyA huA, jise hoza nhiiN| jI rahA hai, lekina patA nahIM kyoM! calatA bhI hai, uThatA bhI hai, baiThatA bhI hai--yaMtravata! jiMdagI kaise gujara jAtI hai, janma kaba mauta meM badala jAtA hai, dina kaba rAta meM Dhala jAtA hai--kucha patA hI nahIM cltaa| jo itanA behoza hai, use dukha kA bodha nahIM ho sktaa| behozI meM dukha kA bodha kahAM! jhelatA hai dukha, para bodha nahIM hai, isalie mAnatA hai ki sukhI huuN| karIba-karIba pratyeka vyakti isI bhrAMti meM hai ki saba ThIka hai| jisase pUcho--kaise ho--vahI kahatA hai--ThIka hN| aura ThIka kucha bhI nhiiN| saba gaira-ThIka hai| jisase pUcho, vahI kahatA hai, majA hai! AnaMda hai! paramAtmA kI bar3I kRpA hai! zAyada use yaha bhI bodha nahIM ki vaha kyA kaha rahA hai| na sunane vAle ko par3I hai, na bolane vAle ko par3I hai kucha socane kii| kahane vAlA kaha rahA hai, sunane vAlA suna rahA hai| na kahane vAle ko prayojana hai--kyoM kaha rahA hai| na sunane vAle ko ciMtA hai ki kyA kahA jA rahA hai! aisI behozI meM sukha kI bhAMti hotI hai| pazu aisI hI behozI meM jIte haiM--aura ninyAnabe pratizata manuSya bhii| pazu zabda bar3A pyArA hai| pazu kA artha hai--jo pAza meM baMdhA ho| pazu kA artha sirpha jAnavara nahIM; pazu kA bar3A vaijJAnika artha hai--baMdhA huA; moha ke pAza meM baMdhA huA; mUrchA ke baMdhanoM meM jakar3A huA; AsaktiyoM meM; khoyA huA sapanoM meN| pazuoM ko tumane dukhI na dekhA hogA, rote na dekhA hogA, pIr3ita na dekhA hogaa| isalie to pazuoM meM koI buddha nahIM hotaa| jaba pIr3A kA hI patA na calegA, to pIr3A se mukta hone kI bAta hI kahAM uThatI hai! prazna hI nahIM utthtaa| manuSyoM meM kabhI koI ekAdha vyakti buddhatva ko upalabdha hotA hai; kbhii| aMguliyoM para gine jA sakate haiM aise loga; karor3oM meM koI ek| kauna buddhatva ko upalabdha hotA hai? vahI jise jIvana kI pIr3A ThIka-ThIka dikhAI par3atI hai, jise itanA hoza A jAtA hai ki jIvana dukha hI dukha hai| AzA hai sukha kI, magara milatA kahAM? daur3ate haiM pAne ke lie, magara pahuMcatA kauna hai? hAtha khAlI ke khAlI raha jAte haiN| dhana bhI ikaTThA ho jAtA hai, pada para bhI baiTha jAte haiM, magara bhItara kI riktatA nahIM bharatI, so nahIM bhrtii| bhItara kA dIyA nahIM jalatA, so nahIM jltaa| dhana se jalegA bhI kaise? pada se bhItara rozanI bhI kaise hogI? koI saMbaMdha nahIM donoM kaa| dhana bAhara hai, bhItara nirdhanatA hai| bAhara ke dhana se bhItara kI nirdhanatA kaise miTe? mahala meM raho ki jhopar3e meM, rahoge to tuma hI! tuma agara jhopar3e meM dukhI ho, to mahala meM bhI dukhI rahoge! tuma agara jhopar3e meM soe ho, to mahala meM sooge| lekina jhopar3e meM jo hai, vaha bhI soca rahA hai, sukhI huuN| rAha ke kinAre jo bhikhamaMgA baiThA hai--laMgar3A, lUlA, aMdhA, baharA, kuSTa se galA jA rahA hai, hAtha-paira gira rahe haiM TUTa-TUTakara--vaha bhI jIe jA rahA hai! patA nahIM kisa AzA meM! kisa bhrAMti meN| Page 149 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kala saba ThIka ho jaaegaa| kala kabhI AtA hai? jo nahIM AtA, usI kA nAma kala hai| tuma kisI bhikhamaMge se bhI kahoge--kisalie jI rahe ho? to nArAja ho jaaegaa| tumheM nahIM dikhAI par3egA koI kAraNa jIne kaa| lekina jIveSaNA aisI hai ki hara hAla AdamI jIe jAtA hai! gahana akAla ke dinoM meM mAtAeM apane baccoM ko kATa kara khA gaIM! bApoM ne apanI beTiyAM beca dii| TUTa gae saba nAte; chUTa gae saba rishte| apane jIvana kI AkAMkSA itanI hai ki AdamI kucha bhI kara sakatA hai! jisake lie jIte the, usI ko mAra bhI sakatA hai| aisI avasthA meM patA nahIM cltaa| kAMToM meM biMdhe par3e rahate haiM, aura phUloM ke sapane dekhate rahate haiM! yaha zloka ThIka kahatA hai ki jo saMsAra meM atyaMta mUDha haiM, ve sukhI haiN| sukhI isalie ki unakI mUDhatA itanI saghana hai ki unheM mUDhatA kA bhI patA nhiiN| mUDhatA kA patA jise cala gayA, vaha to mUDha na rhaa| kala hI maiMne dekhA zrI morArajI desAI kA eka vktvy| eka patrakAra pariSada meM unase pUcha gayA ki Apa AcArya rajanIza kA gujarAta meM Agamana ho rahA hai--kaccha meM--usakA virodha kareMge yA nahIM? Apa virodha kI agavAnI kyoM nahIM karate? kaccha meM praveza na ho, isa virodha meM Apa netRtva kyoM hAtha meM nahIM lete? to unhoMne kahA ki kaccha kI janatA hI virodha kregii| aura AcArya rajanIza kA ve hI loga samarthana karate haiM, jo mUrkha haiM, mUDha haiM! maiMne vaktavya par3hA, to socA yA to morArajI desAI ko apanA vaktavya vApasa lenA cAhie yA phira merA samarthana karanA caahie| do meM se kucha eka karanA caahie| agara vaktavya sahI hai, to merA samarthana karanA cAhie, kyoMki ve to mUDhatA meM sarvocca haiM! are, pradhAnamaMtrI kA pada to AyA-gayA! aba to bhUtapUrva ho gae; bhUta ho gae! lekina mUDhatA to nija kI saMpadA hai; usameM kabhI bhUtapUrva hone kI saMbhAvanA nahIM dikhtii| magara parama mUDhatA yaha hai ki dUsaroM ko mUDha samajhate haiN| khuda kI mUDhatA kA khayAla nahIM hotaa| eka se eka mUrkhatApUrNa bAteM ve roja kahate haiM! aura khayAla meM bhI nahIM ki kyA kaha rahe haiM! kaccha kI janatA ko mujhase koI virodha nahIM hai| agara virodha hai, to morArajI desAI ko aura unake sAtha hAra gae rAjanItijJoM ko--ine-gine thor3e se log| kaccha kI janatA to svAgata ke lie taiyAra hai| roja kaccha se loga yahAM A rahe haiN| abhI parasoM hI mAMDavI kA eka pratinidhi maMDala ATha vyaktiyoM kA yaha nivedana karane AyA thA ki Apa jo kaccha ke, morArajI desAI ke jo saMgI-sAthI haiM, ve jo zoragula macA rahe haiM, usa bhrAMti meM Apa jarA bhI na pdd'naa| hama Apake svAgata ke lie AMkheM bichAe baiThe haiN| kaccha ke logoM ko koI virodha nahIM hai| virodha hai to ye kucha kachuoM ko--jinakI camar3I itanI moTI hai ki jisameM kucha ghusatA hI nahIM! mUDha sukhI anubhava karatA hai apane ko, isalie ki use dukha kA bodha nahIM hotaa| isIlie to jaba kisI kA Aparezana karate haiM, to pahale use behoza kara dete haiN| behoza ho gayA, to phira dukha kA patA nahIM cltaa| phira usake hAtha kATo, paira kATo, epeMDiksa nikAla lo| jo Page 150 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA karanA ho karo, use kucha patA nhiiN| hoza meM kisI kI apeMDiksa nikAla lo| jo karanA ho karo, use kucha patA nhiiN| hoza meM kisI kI apeMDiksa nikAloge, to AsAna nahIM maamlaa| DAkTara kI gardana dabA degA--lar3ane ko, marane ko, mArane ko rAjI ho jAegA--ki yaha kyA kara rahe--merA peTa kATa rahe! mere prANa nikala rahe haiM! bhAgane lgegaa| pahale use behoza kara dete aura yahI prakriyA mRtyu kI hai| marane ke pahale adhikatama loga behoza ho jAte haiM--kSaNa bhara pahale, kyoMki mRtyu to bar3e se bar3A Aparezana hai| AtmA zarIra se alaga kI jaaegii| apeMDiksa kyA hai! AtmA kA zarIra se alaga honA isase bar3I aura pIr3A kI koI bAta kyA hogI! sattara-assI-nabbe sAla donoM kA saMga-sAtha rhaa| jur3a gae, eka dUsare meM mila gae, tAdAtmya ho gyaa| usa sAre tAdAtmya ko chinna-bhinna karanA hai| to prakRti behoza kara detI hai; sirpha kucha buddhoM ko chor3a kr| kyoMki unako behoza nahIM kiyA jA sktaa| ve jAge hI jIte haiM, jAge hI sote haiM, jAge hI marate haiN| isalie marate hI nhiiN| kyoMki jAga kara ve dekhate rahe haiM--zarIra mara rahA hai, maiM nahIM mara rahA huuN| muskurAte rahate haiN| dekhate rahate haiM ki zarIra chUTa rahA hai| lekina maiM zarIra nahIM huuN| mana vidA ho rahA hai, lekina maiM mana nahIM huuN| vastutaH to ve bahuta pahale hI zarIra aura mana se mukta ho cuke| mauta AI usake pahale mara cuke| usake pahale unhoMne zAzvata jIvana ko jAna liyaa| buddha kI jaba mRtyu huI, to unake ziSya rone lge| buddha ne kahA, cupa ho jAo naasmjho| mujhe mare to laMbA arasA ho gyaa| maiM bayAlIsa sAla pahale usa rAta mara gayA, jisa dina buddha huaa| aba kyA ro rahe ho! bayAlIsa sAla bAda! Aja kucha nayA nahIM ho rahA hai| yaha to ghaTanA ghaTa cukii| bayAlIsa sAla pahale usa rAma pUrNimA kI--maiMne dekha liyA ki maiM zarIra nahIM, mana nhiiN| bAta khatama ho gii| mauta to usI dina ho gii| roo mt| rone kA kucha bhI nahIM hai| kyoMki jo hai, vaha rhegaa| aura jo nahIM hai, vaha nahIM hI hai| vaha jAtA hai, to jAne do| sapane hI TUTate haiM--satya nahIM TUTate haiN| to jo parama jJAna ko upalabdha hai, vaha bhI sukhii| mahAsukha buddha ne use kahA hai--bheda karane ko| ajJAnI sukhI hotA hai| dhana mila jAtA hai, lATarI mila jAtI hai--sukhI ho jAtA hai| pada mila jAtA hai--sukhI ho jAtA hai| khilaunoM meM--mATI ke khilaunoM meM bharama jAtA hai! eka bhrama TUTatA nahIM ki dUsare bhramoM meM ulajha jAtA hai| nae-nae bhrama khar3e karatA rahatA hai| jhamele meM lagA rahatA hai| yaha kara lUM--vaha kara lUM--ApAdhApI! isameM itanA ulajhAva hotA hai, itanA vyasta ki patA hI nahIM calatA ki kaba jiMdagI AI, kaba jiMdagI gujara gaI! kaba subaha huI, kaba sAMjha ho gaI! kaba sUraja ugA, kaba DUba gayA! bacapana khilaunoM meM nikala jAtA hai, javAnI bhI khilaune meM nikala jAtI hai| badala jAte haiM khilaune| baccoM ke khilaune choTe haiM, svabhAvataH, javAnoM ke khilaune jarA bar3e haiM! magara Azcarya to yaha hai ki bur3hApA bhI khilaunoM meM hI nikalatA hai| kama se kama bur3hApe meM Ate-Ate to Page 151 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jAga jAnA caahie| marane ke pahale to jAga jAnA caahie| marane ke pahale to sAre vyartha ke jAla-jaMjAla se chuTakArA kara lenA caahie| marane ke pahale jIvana kyA hai--isakI pahacAna ho jAnI caahie| jisako ho jAtI hai--use mhaasukh| yaha zloka kImatI hai| yaha kahatA hai--yazca mUDhatamo loke yazca buddheH prNgtH| ve jo mUDha haiM, ve bhI sukhI haiM nakArAtmaka arthoM meN| kyoMki unako dukha kA patA nhiiN| aura ve jo buddhapuruSa haiM, buddhajana haiM, jo parama gati ko upalabdha hae, ve bhI sukhI hai--vidhAyaka arthoM meN| unheM patA hai ki sukha kyA hai| ve mahAsukhI haiN| bheda ko samajha lenaa| donoM kA sukha alaga-alaga hai| mUDha kA sukha vaisA hI, jaisA behoza AdamI kA Aparezana ho rahA hai, aura use patA nhiiN| kAzI ke nareza kA Aparezana huA unnIsa sau ATha meN| apeMDiksa kA Aparezana thaa| lekina kAzI ke nareza ne klorophArma lene se inakAra kara diyaa| aura kahA ki isakI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| maiM jAnatA hUM ki maiM zarIra nhiiN| Aparezana kro| aMgreja DAkTara bar3I muzkila meM pdd'e| Aparezana karanA tatkSaNa jarUrI hai, nahIM to mauta ho sakatI hai| epeMDiksa phUTa sakatI hai| saMghAtika sthiti hai| ThaharA nahIM jA sktaa| aura kAzI ke nareza ko jabardastI bhI nahIM kI jA sktii| ve kahate haiM ki behoza karane kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| maiM dhyAna karatA rahUMgA, tuma Aparezana kara denA! kabhI yaha ghaTanA ghaTI na thI isake phle| DAkTaroM ne bahuta jhijhakate hue samajhAne kI koziza kii| lekina samajhAne ke lie samaya bhI na thaa| taba majabUrI meM unhoMne kahA ki ThIka hai| thor3I-sI cIraphAr3a kara ke dekhI ki kyA pariNAma hotA hai| lekina kAzI-nareza to AMkha baMda kie masta hI rhe| AMkhoM se AnaMda ke AMsU jharate rhe| phira unhoMne apeMDiksa bhI nikAla lii| ve AnaMda ke AMsU jharate hI rhe| cehare para eka AbhA--jaise patA hI na calA! jaise unhoMne kucha isa bAta kA hisAba hI na liyaa| apeMDiksa pahalI daphA manuSya jAti ke itihAsa meM binA behoza kie nikAlI gii| cikitsaka cakita the| bharosA na AtA thA apanI AMkhoM para--ki itanA bar3A Aparezana ho aura koI vyakti hile-Dule bhI nahIM! pUchA unhoMne kAzI nareza ko ki isakA rAja kyA hai? unhoMne kahA, rAja kucha bhI nhiiN| rAja itanA hI hai ki maiM jAnatA hUM--maiM zarIra nahIM huuN| maiM sAkSI huuN| maiM apane sAkSI-bhAva meM rhaa| maiM dekhatA rahA ki apeMDiksa nikAlI jA rahI hai| peTa phAr3A jA rahA hai| aujAra calAe jA rahe haiN| maiM draSTA huuN| zarIra alaga hai| maiM yUM dekhatA rahA, jaise koI kisI aura ke zarIra kI zalyakriyA dekhatA ho| maiM zarIra nahIM hUM; aura hI hai shriir| jJAna ko upalabdha vyakti ke lie koI dukha nahIM hai, kyoMki dukha zarIra aura mana ke hI hote haiM; AtmA kA koI dukha nahIM hotaa| AtmA kA svabhAva AnaMda hai| hamane zarIra ke sAtha apane ko eka mAna rakhA hai, to hama dukhI haiN| mana ke sAtha apane ko jor3a rakhA hai, to hama dukhI haiN| mana yAnI maayaa| mana yAnI moh| mana yAnI sArA saMsAra; yaha sArA vistaar| mana aura zarIra se alaga jisane apane ko jAna liyA, vaha parama buddhatva Page 152 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA ko upalabdha ho jAtA hai| phira vahAM koI dukha nahIM hai| phira vahAM mahAsukha hai, parama zAMti hai| AnaMda hI AnaMda amRta hI amRtA aura yaha bAta bhI saca hai ki ina donoM ke bIca meM jo hai, vaha dukhI hai| mUr3ha--use patA nahIM, behoza hai prabuddha use patA hai, paripUrNa hoza hai| ina donoM ke madhya meM jo hai, vaha dukhI hai| vaha bar3e jhamele meM hai| na yahAM kA, na vahAM kaa| na ghara kA na idhara zarIra khIMcatA hai, udhara AtmA pukAratI hai| idhara bAhara kI udhara bhItara kA loka nimaMtraNa detA hai| yahAM dhana khIMcatA hai, paMcAtAnI! koI TAMga khIMca rahA hai| koI hAtha khIMca rahA hai! ghATa kA - dhobI kA gadhA hai! duniyA AkarSita karatI hai, vahAM dhyAna pukAratA hai| jarA jarA-sA hoza bhI hai, magara dhuMdhalA-dhuMdhalA itanA nahIM ki mahAsukha dikhAI par3a jaae| magara itanA hoza hai ki dukha dikhAI par3atA hai| itanI rozanI nahIM ki aMdherA miTa jaae| magara itanI rozanI hai ki aMdherA dikhAI par3atA hai jaise subaha-subaha, bhora meM bhI sUraja nahIM nikalA; abhI rAta ke AkhirI tAre nahIM dduube| kucha-kucha halkI-sI rozanI hai| aura gahana aMdhakAra bhI --sAtha- sAtha ! madhya meM jo hai, vaha saMdhyA kAla meM hai| usakI bar3I viDaMbanA hai| na yahAM kA, na vahAM kA! vaha trizaMku kI bhAMti laTaka jAtA hai| na isa loka kA, na paraloka kA / kucha logoM kI yaha gati hai| khAsa kara una logoM kI, jinake jIvana meM thor3I-sI dhArmikatA hai jinake jIvana meM thor3A sA prArthanA kA svara sunAI par3A hai jinake jIvana meM krAMti kI thor3I-sI cinagArI par3I hai| ve bar3e dukhI ho jAte haiM aura ve taba taka dukhI raheMge, taba taka ve parama satya ko na pA leN| buddha bahuta dukhI ho gae the, tabhI to rAjamahala chodd'aa| aura jina ghaTanAoM ko dekha kara dukhI hue the, unhIM ghaTanAoM ko tuma roja dekhate ho, aura tumheM kucha bhI nahIM hotA ! cAra ghaTanAoM kA ullekha hai| buddha jaba paidA hue, to jyotiSiyoM ne kahA ki samrATa, hama bar3e saMkoca se bhare haiN| Apake beTe kA bhaviSya bar3A anizcita hai| yA to yaha cakravartI samrATa hogaa| agara ruka rahA saMsAra meM, to yaha sAre jagata kA vijetA hogA lekina pakkA nahIM kaha skte| eka saMbhAvanA yaha bhI hai ki saba tyAga kara saMnyAsI hogaa| taba yaha buddhatva ko upalabdha hogaa| yA to cakravartI samrATa yA buddha / sirpha eka yuvaka jyotiSI bhI maujUda thaa| kodannA usakA nAma thA vaha bhara cupa rahA samrATa ne pUchA ki tuma kucha nahIM kahate usane eka aMgulI utthaaii| samrATa ne kahA, izAre mata kro| sApha-sApha kho| kyA kahanA cAhate ho eka aMgulI uThA kara ? konnA ne kahA ki maiM sunizcita rUpa se kahatA hUM ki yaha vyakti buddhatva ko upalabdha hogA / samrATa ko bahuta dhakkA lagA ki eka hI beTA thaa| vaha bhI bur3hApe meM paidA huA thA! yaha saMnyasta ho jaaegaa| phira mere sAmrAjya kA kyA hogA! ise kaise rokA jAe ki yaha sanyasta na ho| Page 153 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA hara mAM-bApa baccoM ko rokate haiM--kahIM saMnyasta na ho jAeM! bar3I hairAnI kI duniyA hai| aura majA yaha ki agara kisI aura kA beTA saMnyAsI ho jAe, to yahI mAM-bApa usake caraNa chUne jAte haiM! inakA khuda kA beTA saMnyAsI hone lage, to inako ar3acana AtI hai| ar3acana isalie AtI hai ki inake nyasta svArtha ko dhakkA lagatA hai| ar3acana isalie AtI hai ki beTA hamase Age jA rahA hai! isase iMkAra ko bhI pIr3A hotI hai| hama jo na kara pAe, vaha beTA kara rahA hai, ki beTI kara rahI hai! aura phira buddha ke pitA ne jo bar3A vistAra kara rakhA thA dhana kA, sAmrAjya kA, usakA kyA hogA! jIvana usI meM gaMvAyA thaa| bar3I AzA thI isa beTe kI ki beTA mila jAegA, to samhAlane vAlA koI hogaa| hama to na raheMge, lekina apanA koI khUna kA hissA samhAlegA! kyA-kyA moha haiM duniyA meM! hama na hoMge to kama se kama hamArA beTA smhaalegaa| khuda ke beTe nahIM hote, loga dUsare ke beTe goda le lete haiM aura bhrAMtiyAM banA lete haiM ki apanA hai| koI apanA samhAlegA, to bhI bharosA hai ki calo, hamArA zrama vyartha nahIM gyaa| zrama to vyartha hI gyaa| jaba tuma hI cale gae, to tumhAre zrama kA kyA mUlya hai! buddha ke pitA bar3e ciMtita he| pUchane lage ki koI rAstA batAo--kaise isako rokeM? to una jyotiSiyoM ne kahA, agara ise rokanA ho, to cAra cIjoM kA patA mata calane denaa| bImArI hotI hai--yaha patA mata cale denaa| kyoMki bImArI meM ise dukha hogaa| dukha hogA, to phira bacanA muzkila hogaa| bur3hApA AtA hai, yaha patA mata calane denA, kyoMki buDhApe kA agara isako khayAla A jAegA, to mauta jyAdA dUra nahIM hai phir| aura mauta hotI hai--yaha ise patA mata calane denaa| aura cauthI bAta ki saMnyAsa kI bhI saMbhAvanA hai--yaha ise patA mata calane denaa| basa, ye cAra bAtoM se bacAe rkhnaa| aura ise pilAo zarAba aura raMgareliyAM manAne do| samrATa ho tuma, suMdaratama striyAM ikaTThI kara do, unhIM meM bhUlA rahe, bhaTakA rhe| saMgIta cle| nAca cle| zarAba cle| daura para daura cleN| isako behoza rkho| agara ise behoza rakhane meM samartha ho gae, to yaha cakravartI samrATa ho jaaegaa| samrATa ne kahA, phira ThIka hai| usane buddha ke lie alaga-alaga RtuoM ke lie alaga-alaga mahala bnvaae| garmI ke lie alaga mhl| aise sthAna meM, aise mausama meM, aise vAtAvaraNa meM, jahAM saba ThaMDA thA, zItala thaa| use garmI kA patA na cle| sardI meM aura jagaha--jahAM saba garma thA, use sardI kA patA na cle| varSA meM aisI jagaha jahAM thor3I bUMdAbAMdI ho| varSA kA majA bhI ho, lekina varSA kI pIr3A na ho| samrATa ne sArI suMdara striyAM, jitanI suMdara yuvatiyAM rAjya meM mila sakatI thIM, saba ko uThA liyaa| vaha usake hAtha kI bAta thii| buddha ko sirpha lar3akiyoM se ghera diyaa| khilaune hI khilaune de die| aura sArI suvidhAeM juTA diiN| zreSThatama cikitsaka buddha ke pIche lagA die ki bImArI Ane ke pahale hI ilAja kreN| bImArI Ae--phira ilAja nhiiN| bImArI Ane ke pahale ilaaj| buddha ko patA hI na cale ki bImArI Ane vAlI thii| Page 154 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA aura kisI bUDhe ko buddha ke mahaloM meM jAne kI AjJA na thii| yahAM taka ki koI sUkhA huA pattA buddha ke bagIce meM nahIM Tikane diyA jAtA thaa| sUkhe patte ko dekha kara zAyada unheM yAda A jAe ki kabhI hameM bhI to nahIM sUkha jAnA pdd'egaa| Aja hare haiM, kala kahIM sUkha kara vRkSa se gira to na jAeMge! kumhalAe hue phUla rAta meM alaga kara dete the| buddha ke bagIce meM mAlI rAta bhara kAma karate the| kumhalAe phUla, sUkhe patte, pIle par3a gae patte--saba alaga kara die jAte the| buddha ko aise dhokhe meM rakhA gyaa| lekina kaba taka dhokhe meM rakhoge! jiMdagI se kaise kisI ko chipAyA jA sakatA hai! eka mahotsava meM--yuvaka mahotsava meM buddha bhAga lene jA rahe the--usakA udaghATana krne| rAjakumAra hI usakA udaghATana karatA thaa| rAste para iMDiyAM pITa dI gaI thIM ki koI bUDhA na nikale, koI bImAra na nikale, koI murde kI lAza na gujare, koI saMnyAsI na nikle| magara duniyA bar3I hai| kisI bahare ne sunA hI nahIM ki kuMDI pittii| kisI bImAra ko patA hI na calA ki iMDI pittii| bar3I rAjadhAnI thii| aura jaba buddha kA ratha jA rahA thA rAjadhAnI meM se, to unhoMne dekhA eka AdamI ko: kamara jhuka gii| rugNa! khAMsa rahA, khakhAra rahA! pUchA ki kyA ho gayA isako? sArathI ne kahA ki mujhe AjJA nahIM hai ki maiM Apako isa taraha kI bAtoM ke saMbaMdha meM kahUM! buddha ne kahA, maiM tumheM AjJA detA hUM ki bolo| kyA ho gayA ise? buddha ko inakAra bhI nahIM kiyA jA sktaa| rAjakumAra hai| to usane kahA, majabUrI hai| lekina Apake pitA kI AjJA nahIM hai| buddha ne kahA, jaba maiM tumase kahatA hUM, javAba do anyathA naukarI se tuma alaga kie jAte ho! usa sArathI ne kahA, mAlika nArAja na hoN| yaha AdamI bImAra hai| isako kSaya roga ho gayA hai| yaha tapedika se bImAra hai| yaha khAMsa rahA hai, khakhAra rahA hai| buddha ne kahA, kyA maiM bhI kabhI bImAra ho sakatA hU~? isako kahate haiM prtibhaa| isako kahate haiM buddhimttaa| isako kahate haiM prakhara tejasvitA--medhA! usa AdamI kA prazna tatkSaNa apane para lAgU ho gyaa| kyA maiM kabhI bImAra ho sakatA hUM? usa sArathI ne kahA ki maiM kyA kahaM Apase! lekina deha hai, to bImArI hai| deha to bImAriyoM kA ghara hai| isameM saba bImAriyAM chipI haiN| Aja nahIM kala...abhI Apa javAna haiN| abhI saba svastha hai| saba suMdara hai| magara kaba TUTa jAegA svAsthya, kahA nahIM jA sktaa| TUTa hI jAtA hai| magara khayAla rakheM, apane pitA ko mata kahanA ki maiMne ye bAteM Apase khiiN| nahIM to merA astitva khatare meM hai| buddha ne kahA, tuma ciMtA mata kro| aura tabhI eka bUDhA AdamI gujarA; bahuta jraajiirnn| aura buddha ne pUchA, ise kyA ho gayA? ise kauna-sI bImArI hai? Page 155 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA sArathI ne kahA, ise koI bImArI nahIM hai| yaha bur3hApA hai| yaha sabako hotA hai| yaha bImArI nahIM hai, yaha sahaja jIvana kA aMtima caraNa hai| buddha ne kahA, kyA aisI hI jhurriyAM mere cehare para par3a jAeMgI! aisI hI zikana! aisA hI kamajora maiM ho jAUMgA! AMkheM merI aisI hI dhuMdhalI ho jAeMgI? aise hI baharA maiM ho jAUMgA? sArathI ne kahA, majabUrI hai| magara pratyeka ko eka dina isI taraha ho jAtA par3atA hai| saba cIjeM Akhira thaka jAtI hai| iMdriyAM thaka jAtI haiM, TUTane lagatI haiM, bikharane lagatI haiN| buDhApe se kauna baca sakA hai! aura tabhI eka murde kI lAza nikalI aura buddha ne pUchA, aba ise kyA ho gayA hai? ye kisa AdamI ko bAMdha kara lie jA rahe haiM? sArathI ne kahA, yaha bur3hApe ke bAda kI ghaTanA hai| yaha AdamI mara gyaa| aura taba usI lAza ke pIche eka saMnyAsI-gairika vastroM meM! buddha ne kahA, yaha AdamI gairika vastra kyoM pahane hue hai? isake hAtha meM bhikSA kA pAtra kyoM hai? isa AdamI kI haya zailI kyA to patA calA ki yaha saMnyAsI hai| usane sAre saMsAra ko chor3a diyA hai| kyoM chor3a diyA hai? isalie ki jIvana meM dukha hai, bImArI hai, buDhApA hai, mRtyu hai| yaha AdamI amRta kI talAza meM calA hai| buddha ne kahA, lauTA lo; ratha ko vApasa lauTA lo| maiM bImAra ho gyaa| maiM bUDhA ho gyaa| maiM mara gayA--yUM smjho| mujhe bhI satya kI talAza karanI hogii| ve mahotsava meM bhAga lene nahIM ge| lauTa aae| aura usI rAta unhoMne gRha-tyAga kara diyaa| ye cAra satya tumheM roja dikhAI par3ate haiM--bImAra bhI dikhAI par3atA hai, tuma bhI bImAra par3ate ho| bUDhA bhI dikhAI par3atA hai, tuma bhI bUDhe ho rahe ho| roja ho rahe ho| pratipala ho rahe ho| jisako tuma janmadina kahate ho, vaha janmadina thor3e hI hai; mauta aura karIba A gaI! usako janmadina kaha rahe ho! loga janmadina manAte haiN| lekina mauta karIba A rahI hai| eka sAla aura bIta gyaa| eka barasa aura bIta gyaa| jiMdagI aura choTI ho gii| tuma socate ho, jiMdagI bar3I ho rahI hai| jiMdagI choTI ho rahI hai| janmane ke bAda AdamI maratA hI jAtA hai| pahale hI kSaNa se maranA zurU ho jAtA hai| yaha marane kI prakriyA sattara-assI sAla legI, yaha aura baat| dhIre-dhIre kramazaH AdamI maratA jAtA hai| lekina tuma dekhakara bhI kahAM dekhate ho| tuma behoza ho| isalie tuma sukhI ho| buddha bahuta dukhI ho ge| madhya meM A ge| mUDha na rhe| abhI parama jJAna nahIM huA hai| magara bIca kI hAlata A gii| bahuta dukhI ho ge| talAza meM nikala ge| jaba AdamI bahuta dukhI hotA hai, tabhI talAza meM nikalatA hai| magara dukha ko anubhava karane ke lie bhI buddhimattA caahie| dhanyabhAgI haiM ve, jo dukha ko anubhava kara sakate haiM, kyoMki Page 156 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jinhoMne dukha ko anubhava kiyA, unhoMne phira dukha se mukta hone kI ceSTA bhI kii| karanI hI pdd'egii| buddha chaha varSa athaka tapazcaryA kie, dhyAna kie| aura eka dina parama buddhatva ko upalabdha hae, taba mahAsukha ke jharane phuutte| taba amRta-rasa brsaa| taba jIvana kA rAja khulA, rahasya khulaa| taba bhItara kA sUraja ugaa| dhyAna milA, to bhItara kA dhana milaa| samAdhi milI, to saba samasyAoM kA samAdhAna milaa| phira koI dukha na rhaa| phira koI saMtApa na rhaa| yaha sUtra bilakula ThIka hai--yazca mUDhatamo loke yazca buddheH paraM gtH| bar3A virodhAbhAsI sUtra hai ki mUDhoM kI gati aura parama buddhoM kI gati eka artha meM samAna hai| mUDha bhI sukhI, buddha bhI sukhii| magara unakA sukha bar3A alg-alg| mUDha behozI ke kAraNa sukhI; buddha hoza ke kAraNa sukhii| jamIna AsamAna kA bheda hai| tAbubhau sukhameghete klizyatyantarito jnH| lekina jo bIca meM haiM, madhya meM haiM, unako bar3A kleza hai| lekina madhya meM AnA hI hogaa| pazutA chor3anI hogI; manuSya honA hogaa| manuSya hI hogA; manuSya madhya meM hogaa| lekina usa dukha se gujare binA koI buddhatva taka nahIM jA sktaa| vaha kImata cukAnI par3atI hai| jo usa kImata ko cukAne se bacegA, vaha pazutA ke jagata meM hI, mUDhatA ke jagata meM hI ulajhA raha jAtA hai| aura tuma yahI kara rahe ho| adhikatama loga yahI kara rahe haiN| kisI taraha apane ko bhulAe rakho; ulajhAe rkho| jAla bunate rahe ulajhAva ke| aura kala para TAlate raho--manuSya hone kI saMbhAvanA ko| kala mauta aaegii| tuma bahuta bAra janme ho aura bahuta bAra aise hI mara gae! avasara tumane kitanA gaMvAyA hai-- hisAba lagAnA muzkila hai! aba aura na gNvaao| yaha kImata cukA do| yaha dukha se thor3A gujaranA pdd'egaa| aura jitane jaldI cukA do, utanA behatara hai| yaha dukha hI tapazcaryA hai| yaha dukha hI sAdhanA hai| isa dukha kI sIr3hI se car3ha kara hI koI parama sukha ko upalabdha huA hai| aura koI upAya nahIM hai| baca kara nahIM jA skte| isalie zAstra kahate haiM ki devatA bhI devaloka se nirvANa ko nahIM pA skte| pahale unheM manuSya honA pdd'egaa| manuSya hue binA koI buddhatva ko upalabdha nahIM ho sakatA hai, kyoMki manuSya caurastA hai| devatA sukhI haiN| zarAba pI rahe haiN| apsarAoM ko nacA rahe haiN| aura usI taraha ke upadrava meM lage haiM, jisameM tuma lage ho| kucha pharka nahIM hai! thor3A bar3e paimAne para haiM unakA jraa| unakI umra laMbI hogii| unakI deha suMdara hogii| magara saba yahI jAla hai, jo tumhArA hai| yahIra iissyaa| yahI vaimnsy| tumane kahAniyAM to par3hI haiM ki iMdra kA siMhAsana bar3e jaldI Dola jAtA hai| koI tapazcaryA karatA hai, iMdra kA siMhAsana DolA! ghabar3AhaTa car3hatI hai ki yaha AdamI kahIM iMdra na ho jAe! vahI rAjanIti, vahI dAMva-peMca! aura iMdra karate kyA haiM? bheja dete haiM apsarAoM ko--menakA ko, urvazI ko ki bhraSTa karo isa tapasvI ko| yaha bhraSTa ho jAe, to maiM nizciMta souuN| magara Page 157 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kyA khAka nizciMta so pAoge! itanI bar3I pRthvI hai, koI na koI tapazcaryA karegA, koI na koI dhyAna kregaa| nIMda kahAM? devatA bhI dukhI haiM, utane hI jitane tum| lekina na tumheM patA hai, na unheM patA hai| ve bhI behoza haiN| isalie zAstra ThIka kahate haiM ki manuSya hue binA...| manuSya ke caurAhe se to gujaranA hI hogaa| yaha caurAhA hai| yahAM se pazu kI tarapha rAstA jAtA hai| yahAM se manuSya kI tarapha rAstA jAtA hai| yahAM se devatva kI tarapha se rAstA jAtA hai; aura yahAM se buddhatva kI tarapha bhI rAstA jAtA hai| manuSya caurAhA hai| cAroM rAste yahAM milate haiN| agara tuma samajho, to jIvana eka parama saubhAgya hai| agara tuma jAgo, to manuSya hone se buddhatva hone kI tarapha mArga jA rahA hai; tuma use cuna sakate ho| lekina loga zarAba pIeMge! agara dukhI hoMge, to zarAba piieNge| kyoM AdamI zarAba pItA hai dukhI hotA hai to? bhulAne ke lie| pazu ho jAegA zarAba piikr| jo samajhadAra hai, vaha dhyAna karatA hai| yaha dhyAna kI zarAba pItA hai| vaha samAdhi kI tarapha bar3hatA hai| vaha kahatA hai, aise bhulAne se kyA hogA! bhulAne se dukha miTatA to nhiiN| phira kala subaha hoza aaegaa| phira dukha vahIM ke vahIM paaoge| aura bar3A ho jaaegaa| rAta bhara meM dukha bhI bar3A ho rahA hai| jaba tuma so rahe ho, taba dukha bhI bar3A ho rahA hai| subaha ciMtAoM ke jAla aura khar3e ho jaaeNge| kala jaba tumane zarAba pI thI, jitanI ciMtAeM thIM, subaha pAoge--aura jyAdA ho gaIM, kyoMki zarAba pIkara bhI tuma kucha upadrava karoge na! kisI ko gAlI doge, kisI ko mAroge, kisI ke ghara meM ghusa jaaoge| kisI kI strI ko pakar3a loge| kucha na kucha upadrava karoge! subaha tuma pAoge--aura jhaMjhaTeM ho gaIM! ho sakatA hai subaha havAlAta meM pAo apane ko; ki kisI nAlI meM par3A huA paao| kuttA muMha cATa rahA ho! ki jIvana-jala chir3akA rahA ho| aura jhaMjhaTeM ho gaIM! subaha ghara pahuMcoge, to patnI khar3I hai--mUsala lie hue! isase nipaTo! daphtara jAoge, vahAM jhaMjhaTeM khar3I hoNgii| hajAra bhUla-cUkeM hoNgii| kyoMki nazA sarakate-sarakate utaratA hai| thor3I-sI chAyA banI hI rahatI hai| kucha kA kucha ho jaaegaa| kucha kA kucha bola jaaoge| kucha kA kucha kara gujroge| aura ciMtAeM bar3ha jAeMgI aura dukha bar3ha jaaeNge| kala muzkila thii...| aura ho sakatA hai ki jeba hI kaTa jAe! bImAriyAM thIM aura bImAra ho jAoge! jiMdagI vaise hI ulajhI huI thI, zarAba se sulajha nahIM jaaegii| gAliyAM de doge| jhagar3e kara loge| kuTa jAoge, piTa jaaoge| kisI ko pITa doge, churA mAra doge--patA nahIM behozI meM kyA kara gujaroge! itanA taya hai ki ciMtAeM kama nahIM hoMgI; bar3ha jaaeNgii| saMtApa gahana ho jaaegaa| phira aura zarAba pInA--isako bhulAne ke lie! aba tuma par3e duSTa-cakra meN| eka hI upAya hai--jAgo, hoza se bhro| Page 158 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA agara dukha haiM, to unakA bhI upayoga kro| dukha kA eka hI upayoga kiyA jA sakatA hai--aura vaha yaha hai ki sAkSI bno| aura jitanA sAkSI-bhAva bar3hegA, utanA dukha kSINa hotA jaaegaa| idhara bhItara sAkSI jagA ki rozanI huI, dukha kaTA, aMdherA kttaa| jisa dina tuma parama sAkSI ho jAoge, draSTA mAtra, usa dina jIvana meM koI dukha nhiiN| usa dina jIvana paramAtmA hai| dUsarA prazna: bhagavAna, Apane piMkI ko uttara diyaa| usake bAda merI mAM ne piMkI ke donoM hAtha pakar3a kara kahA, tUne kyoM prazna bhejA? aba to yaha bAta rikArDa ho gaI; sabako patA cala gayA! prazna pUchane se pahale hamase kyoM nahIM pUchA? yaha kahakara usane piMkI ke donoM hAtha apanI gardana para rakha lie aura kahA ki merI gardana dabA de; mAra DAla! piMkI ne kahA, agara maiM Apase pUchatI, to Apa mujhe prazna pUchane bhI nahIM detIM! saMta mahArAja! isa taraha kA moha hI to sAre saMsAra meM chAyA haA hai| mAM socatI hogI ki piMkI ko prema karatI hai bhut| vaha to socatI hogI ki acchI bhAvanA se hI vaha piMkI ko roka rahI hai| lekina ajJAna meM acchI bhAvanAeM saMbhava nahIM haiN| aMgrejI meM kahAvata hai ki narka kA rAstA zubhAkAMkSAoM se paTA par3A hai! hama apanI behozI meM acchA bhI karane jAte haiM, to burA hI hotA hai--acchA nahIM hotaa| aura hama saba behoza haiN| tumhArI mAM behoza hai| usane acche ke lie kiyA hogA ki yaha tUne kyA upadrava kara diyA! aura sabake sAmane prazna pUcha kara badanAmI karavA dI! aba lar3akA khojanA muzkila ho jAegA, kyoMki lar3akA kahegA, isa lar3akI ko to zAdI karanI nahIM hai, to kyoM jhaMjhaTa meM paDUM! aba to patA cala jaaegaa| yaha bAta tumhArI mAM ke amRtasara pahuMcane ke pahale amRtasara pahuMca jAegI, kyoMki amRtasara meM to merA pravacana roja sunane ke lie loga ikaTThe hote haiN| Aja yahAM bolatA hUM, kala vahAM sunane vAle taiyAra haiN| yaha rekArDa to vahAM pahuMcegA, isalie mAM DarI hogI ki bAta rekArDa ho gii| yaha pUre deza meM sunI jaaegii| lar3akA kahIM to khojane jAoge, vahIM yaha bAta sunI jaaegii| to usako becArI ko pIr3A huI hogI ki yaha muzkila khar3I kara dI isne| pUchA kyoM nahIM mujhase pahale! aba piMkI bhI ThIka kahatI hai ki agara maiM Apase pUchatI, to Apa mujhe prazna pUchane hI na detii| usakI bhI majabUrI hai| itanI svataMtratA hI kahAM dete haiM hama baccoM ko ki ve hamase ImAnadAra vyavahAra kara skeN| hama bar3e ajIba loga haiM! hama cAhate haiM--bacce saba kucha hamase pUcha kara kreN| burI cAha nahIM hai| lekina jaba pUchate haiM, taba hama unheM karane nahIM dete| to hama virodhAbhAsa khar3A kara rahe haiN| Page 159 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA - , bacce choTI-choTI bAteM pUchate haiM, to bhI nahIM karane dete! choTA sA baccA mAM se kahatA hai, maiM bAhara jarA khela AUM? nahIM nahIM to hamArI jabAna para rakhA hai nahIM kA majA hai eka nahIM meM tAkata mAlUma par3atI hai, ki dekho, kisakA bala hai| nahIM hamase ekadama nikalatA hai| hAM bar3I muzkila se nikalatA hai una bAtoM meM bhI jinameM hAM nikalanA hI caahie| aba bacce ko bAhara khelanA hai- sUraja kI rozanI meM havA meM, vRkSoM ke tale / nahIM kahane kI kyA jarUrata hai! lekina mAM apane nahIM ke lie bhI tarka khojatI hai --ki kahIM gira par3e! jhAr3a para car3ha jAe ! kucha coTa khA jAe ! ye saba bahAne khoja rahI hai vaha / nahIM kA majA aura hai majA yaha hai ki kauna tAkatavara hai merI calatI hai yahAM lekina bacce bhI itanI AsAnI se to nahIM chor3a deNge| vaha baccA zoragula macAegA paira pttkegaa| cIjeM todd'egaa| kitAba phAr3a degaa| Akhira meM ghabar3A kara mAM kahegI ki jA bAhara khela! yahI bAta becArA vaha pahale se pUcha rahA thaa| magara sIdhe aMgulI ghI nikalatA nahIM ! to hama choTe-choTe baccoM ko rAjanIti sikhA dete haiN| baccA pUchegA ki mitra ke ghara calA jAUM ? nahIM! to phira vaha upadrava khar3e kregaa| phira vaha mauke kI talAza meM rhegaa| ghara meM mehamAna jAeMge, taba vaha bhArI upadrava macA degA / aura mehamAna Ane ke pahale mAM samajhAegI ki ghara meM mehamAna A rahe haiM, dekha, upadrava mata mcaanaa| magara vahI avasara hai usake lie nikala bhAgane kA ki ghara meM jaba mehamAna Ae, to vaha itanA upadrava macA de ki mAM ko kahanA hI par3e ki jA, par3osa meM kisI ke ghara meM khela hAtha jor3atI hUM abhI tU yahAM se jA! yaha becArA vaha pahale hI se kaha rahA thaa| magara pahale jAne na diyaa| pahale nahIM kA majA liyA! to baccA bhI majA cakhAegA ! bacce bhI samajha jAte haiM dhIre-dhIre ki tumhArI sahane kI sAmarthya kitanI hai| hara bacce ko patA hai ki mAM kitanI dUra taka bardAzta kara sakatI hai| pitA kitanI dUra taka bardAzta kara sakatA hai| vaha vahIM taka khiiNcegaa| khIMcatA jaaegaa| eka bardAzta kI sImA A jAtI hai| tumheM khuda hI kahanA par3egA ki bAbA, hAtha jodd'e| jA, jo karanA ho kara ! maiM bacapana meM bar3e bAla rakhatA thA / mujhe bahuta zauka thA bar3e bAla kA / itane bar3e bAla ki mere pitA ko ar3acana hota thii| svabhAvataH hotI thii| maiM unakI ar3acana bhI samajhatA thaa| magara mujhe bar3e bAla pasaMda the| aba unakI ar3acana dekhUM ki apanI pasaMda dekhUM ! -- unakI ar3acana yaha thI ki ghara meM aura to koI khAsa jagaha thI na to unakI dukAna para hI maiM baiThA rahatA thaa| unake grAhaka Ate, ve pUchate, yaha lar3akI kisakI hai? isase unako bar3I ar3acana hotI thI, ki lar3akA hai aura jo dekho, vahI kahatA hai ki lar3akI kisakI! to ve mujhase kahate ki tU bAla kaTavA le| eka dina bahuta gusse meM A ge| jiMdagI meM eka hI daphA unhoMne mujhe cAMTA mArA aura cAMTA mAra diyA ki dina bhara kI jhaMjhaTa ! kisa-kisa ko samajhAUM ki lar3akA hai--lar3akI nahIM! aura jo dekho, vahI tujhe lar3akI samajhatA hai| ye bAloM kI vajaha se terI jhaMjhaTa nahIM, hamArI jhaMjhaTa huI jA rahI hai! Page 160 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA to maiMne kahA ki tumheM kyA dikkata hai| lar3akI hI sahI mujhe koI dikkata nahIM hai| mujhe bar3e bAla pasaMda haiM aura lar3akI kahate haiM, to lar3akI hI sahI koI lar3akI meM huA nahIM jA rahA hUM unake kahane se tumheM itanI kyA parezAnI hai magara unheM parezAnI thI isakI lar3ake kI bAta hI aura hotI hai| lar3akI kI koI ginatI hai? are, lar3akA hotA hai, to loga baiMDa-bAje bajAte haiN| lar3akI hotI hai--mAtama chA jAtA hai ! ekadama udAsI chA jAtI hai--ki lar3akI ho gaI ! bhAgya phUTa ge| unhoMne mujhe cAMTA mAra diyA ki bAla kaTAne hI pdd'eNge| maiMne kahA, ThIka hai| maiM jAkara sira ghuTA aayaa| karanA kyA ! aba eka dUsarI musIbata zurU ho gii| kyoMki mere usa ilAke meM baccoM ke sira tabhI ghoMTe jAte haiM, jaba bApa kI mRtyu ho jAe / so loga pUchane lage, isa bacce kA bApa mara gayA ! kyA huA? aba ve unhIM se puuche| unhoMne kahA, tUne aura merI musIbata kara dii| bAbA tU apane bAla hI bar3hA le ! lar3akI kama se kama thA, ThIka thaa| isameM hama to kama se kama jiMdA the| aba jo dekho vahI pUchatA hai ki isa lar3ake kA bApa mara gayA becAre kA -kyA ho gayA ! anAtha ho gayA abhI se / bholA-bhAlA choTAsA lar3akA ! isake bApa kA kyA huA! to unako samajhAnA par3e ki maiM jiMdA hUM! to ve kaheM, isake bAla kaise kaTa gae? to aba yaha aura eka laMbI kathA ho gii| batAnA par3e pUrI kathA ki mAmalA yaha hai pahale to itanA hI thA ki batA dete the ki lar3akA hai bhaI bAla bar3e haiN| aba yaha sArI pUrI kathA batAnI par3e ki maiMne isako cAMTA mAra diyA isane bAla pUre kaTavA AyA / ; nAI bhI koI kATane ko rAjI nahIM thA, kyoMki nAiyoM kI dukAna - choTA gAMva--merI dukAna ke samAne hI sAre nAiyoM kI dukAna! isa nAI ke pAsa gayA, usa nAI ke pAsa gayA! koI nAI kATane ko rAjI nahIM magara eka aphImacI nAI thA- natthU naaii| vaha kisI ke bhI kATa de / tuma dAr3hI kaTavAne jAo, vaha bAla kATa de| tuma bAla kaTavAne jAo, vaha dAr3hI kATa de ! jaba maiM usake pAsa gayA, usane kucha pUchA hI nahIM usane jaldI se kapar3A bAMdhA aura sira ghoMTa diyaa| bAda meM pUchA ki kyA tere pitA cala base maiMne kahA, nahIM, koI cala basA nahIM / to usane kahA, tUne mujhe jhaMjhaTa meM ddaalaa| pahale kyoM nahIM btaayaa| maiMne kahA, tuma pahale puuchte| usane kahA ki duniyA jAnatI hai ki maiM aphImacI huuN| maiM apanI pInaka meM rahatA huuN| yaha to jaba maiMne terA sira ghoMTa diyA, taba mujhe khayAla AyA ki yaha hai kauna! bAta kyA hai? aba tU apane pitA ko merA nAma mata btaanaa| itanA hAtha jor3atA huuN| paise vagairaha mujhe cAhie nhiiN| basa, nAma bhara merA mata btaanaa| nahIM to mujhase jhaMjhaTa hogI - ki tumane kyoM isake bAla kATe? ve jarUra pInaka meM rahate the| unake pAsa kaTavAne hI loga jAte the, jinako paise vagairaha nahIM dene hoM, ve hI unake pAsa bAla kaTavAne jAte the| Page 161 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kabhI kisI ke Adhe bAla kATa deM ve--aura cale gae! do ghaMTe nadArada! vaha baiThA hI hai aadmii| ve do ghaMTe bAda lauTe ki bhUla hI gae! maiMne unase kahA ki agara Apa isa taraha mere sAtha vyavahAra kareMge, to phira maiM bhI isI taraha vyavahAra kruuNgaa| maiMne kahA, yaha jhaMjhaTa hI mittaao| na rahegA bAMsa, na bajegI bAMsurI! are, jaba bAla bar3e hone se lar3akI hone kI jhaMjhaTa hai, to bAla khatama hI kara do| basa, unhoMne phira kabhI mujhe cATA nahIM maaraa| mArA hI nahIM phir| phira mujhase unhoMne kabhI koI jhaMjhaTa nahIM kii| jo maiM kahUM, hAM bhara dete the ki jA, jo tujhe ThIka lge--kr| lekina ar3acana yaha hai ki nahIM kahane meM eka majA hotA hai| ahaMkAra kA majA! aba piMkI kI mAM kahatI hai ki mujhase kyoM nahIM pUchA? pUche kyA becArI! jAnatI hai jiMdagI bhara se ki pUchane se to hAM hone vAlA nahIM thaa| aura agara hAM kahanA hI thA usake pUchane para, to phira usake pUchane meM etarAja kyA hai! aura itanI svataMtratA bhI nahIM hai ki koI prazna pUcha sake! yaha kaisA prema? yaha prema nahIM hai, yaha moha hai| yaha jhUThA prema hai| usane kucha galata bAta to na pUchI thii| hRdaya kA bhAva pUchA thaa| usane pUchA thA, Apake saMnyAsiyoM meM kaise kho jAUM? yaha raMga mujha para bhI kaise chA jAe? kyA burA thaa| kucha burI bAta to na pUchI thii| kucha cora na honA cAhA thaa| koI DAkA na DAlanA cAhA thaa| lekina bar3I ar3acana hai| saMnyAsa se loga jyAdA Darate haiN| lar3akA zarAbI ho jaae--clegaa| juArI ho jaae--clegaa| vezyAgAmI ho jaae--clegaa| saMnyAsI bhara na ho! saMsAra meM saba calegA; saMnyAsI bhara na ho! saMnyAsa se hama aise ghabar3A gae haiN| kyoMki saMnyAsa kA artha hotA hai ki yaha hama se Age jAne lagA! hama se Upara jAne lagA! jo hama na kara pAe, vaha yaha karane lagA! isase ahaMkAra ko bar3I coTa par3atI hai| pati zarAbI ho, juArI ho--patnI bardAzta kara legii| saca to yaha hai ki patniyoM ko majA AegA--pati agara zarAbI ho, juArI ho| kyoM? kyoMki patnI Upara ho jaaegii| pati jaba bhI AegA ghara meM duma dabA kara aaegaa| aura patnI jaba dekho, usakI chAtI para car3hI rahegI ki dekho, tuma zarAba pInA baMda kro| ki dekho, tuma juA khelanA baMda kro| ki yaha bAta galata hai, jo tuma kara rahe ho! isameM patnI dhArmika ho jAtI hai, naitika ho jAtI hai| aura pati becArA ekadama pazu kI gati meM ho jAtA hai! svabhAvataH majA AtA hai ahaMkAra ko| pati agara saMnyasta ho jAe, to patnI ke ahaMkAra ko coTa lagatI hai--bhArI coTa lagatI hai| usakA matalaba yaha hai ki tuma mujhase Age jAne kI himmata kara rahe ho! patnI saMnyasta ho jAe, to pati ko coTa lagatI hai ki yaha mujhase Upara uThI jA rahI hai! hama bure AdamI ko bardAzta kara lete haiM; acche AdamI ko bardAzta karanA aura kSamA karanA bahuta kaThina hai| Page 162 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA aba piMkI ne kucha galata bAta to nahIM pUchI thii| kucha pApa to nahIM kiyA thaa| aura agara usane apane hRdaya kA saccA-saccA bhAva kahA, to ucita hai ki kaha hI denA caahie| agara use vivAha nahIM karanA hai, to tuma jabardastI usa para vivAha thopa doge, to jiMdagI bhara tumheM kosegii| jiMdagI bhara pIr3ita rhegii| hAlAMki tuma usake bhale ke lie hI kara rahe ho| magara bhalA hogA nhiiN| tumhArI bhalI AkAMkSA anivArya nahIM hai ki bhalApana laae| tuma agara jabardastI usa para vivAha thopa do, to vaha jiMdagI bhara dukhI rahegI, aura tumheM kabhI kSamA na kara paaegii| maukA do--pratyeka vyakti ko haka do jIne kaa| aura koI choTI nahIM hai vh| koI baccI nahIM hai| soca sakatI hai| vicAra sakatI hai| merA to khayAla thA satraha aTThAraha sAla kI hogii| lekina caubIsa sAla kI hai, satraha aTThAraha sAla kI nhiiN| sarala hai, isalie mujhe lagA ki umra kama hogii| caubIsa sAla kI hai| aba caubIsa sAla! karIba-karIba jiMdagI kA eka tihAI hissA jI cukii| agara pacahattara sAla kI umra ho, to paccIsa sAla eka tihAI hissA ho gyaa| kaba tuma use maukA doge ki kama se kama apanA prazna pUcha sake, apanA bhAva prakaTa kara sake! samajhane kI ceSTA kara sake! itanI bhI AjAdI agara prema na de, to yaha kaisA prema hai! tumane pUchA hai saMta ki Apane piMkI ko uttara diyaa| usake bAda merI mAM ne piMkI ke donoM hAtha pakar3a kara kahA--tUne kyoM prazna bhejA? aba to yaha bAta rikArDa ho gii| saba ko patA cala gyaa| prazna pUchane se pahale hama se kyA nahIM pUchA? kyoM pUche tumase? AtmA usake bhItara bhI hai| hRdaya usakA bhI apanA hai| tumane usake zarIra ko janma diyA, isakA yaha artha nahIM ki tuma usakI AtmA ke mAlika ho gae! baccoM ko janma do, lekina bacce tumhAre nahIM haiM; paramAtmA ke haiN| ise kabhI bhUla mata jaanaa| baccoM ko prema do, lekina prema baMdhana nahIM hai| prema svataMtratA detA hai| baccoM ko sammAna bhI do, agara cAhate ho ki ve tumheM sammAna deN| lekina isa deza meM to bar3I ulaTI dhArA hai| isa deza meM koI socatA hI nahIM ki baccoM kA bhI koI sammAna hai| phira ye bacce bar3e hokara bUDhe mAM-bApa ko agara satAte haiM, to kyA galata karate haiM! ye uttara de rahe haiN| jo tumane inake sAtha kiyA, vahI ye tumhAre sAtha kara rahe haiN| jaba ye kamajora the, choTe the, bacce the, tumane inheM staayaa| aba ye bar3e ho gae, tuma bUDhe ho gae, tuma kamajora ho gae, aba ye tumheM staaeNge| vahI gaNita hai| jo kamajora hai, vaha satAyA jaaegaa| tAkatavara use staaegaa| phira mAM-bApa rote haiM ki beTe satA rahe haiN| beTiyAM satA rahI haiN| bahueM satA rahI haiN| hamArI sunate nahIM haiM! hameM bilakula yUM kara diyA hai eka kinAre, jaise hama haiM hI nahIM! lekina tumane inake sAtha kyA kiyA thA, jaba ye choTe-choTe bacce the, jaba inakI koI tAkata na thI, jaba ye asahAya the, jaba ye tumhAre Upara nirbhara the, taba tumane inheM prazna bhI na pUchane diyaa| taba inheM tumane itanI bhI svataMtratA na dI ki apane mana kI bAta kaha sakeM! to phira svabhAvataH ye tumheM bhI isakA badalA cukaaeNge| aura phira kaSTa hotA hai| Page 163 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA baccoM ko sammAna do, agara cAhate ho ki bacce bhI tumheM sammAna deN| sammAna ke uttara meM hI sammAna mila sakatA hai| lekina hara mAM-bApa bur3hApe meM dukhI hote haiM ki bacce phikra nahIM karate! tumane jisa DhaMga se inakI phikra kI thI, usane saba jahara kara diyA usane bAta hI kharAba kara dii| lekina manuSya jAti jaba taka aise hI jItI AI hai| isI galata ravaiye se yaha hamAre khUnahaDDI-mAMsa-majjA kA hissA ho gayA hai - yaha galata ravaiyA / aura yaha kaha kara piMkI kI mAM ne piMkI ke donoM hAtha apanI gardana para rakha die aura kahA, merI gardana dabA de; mAra DAla ! yaha bhI koI bAta huI ! aura kauna itanI jaldI maratA hai ! saMta saMnyAsI ho gae, taba mAM nahIM marI koI maratA hai aise mere Der3ha lAkha saMnyAsI haiN| eka mAM nahIM marI! eka bApa nahIM marA! aura hAlAMki saba yahI kahate haiM ki mara jAeMge! ye dhamakiyAM jhUThI haiN| inakA koI mUlya nahIM hai| magara dhamakiyoM se tuma dabA loge, to yaha galata vyavahAra hai, amAnavIya vyavahAra hai kauna maratA hai! saMnyAsa kI to bAta chor3o, agara beTI mara bhI jAe, koI mAM maratI hai? tumane sunA kabhI ki beTI mara gaI, saca to yaha hai, mAM kahegI, calo, kyA karate? calo, jhaMjhaTa miTI jhaMjhaTa miTI aura mAM ne AtmahatyA kara lI ho beTI ke marane se ? jhaMjhaTa chUTI ! kahAM khojate lar3akA ? kahAM se daheja lAte ? kahe na Upara se, magara bhItara jAnegI ki calo, eka lar3akA mara jAe, to kauna maratA hai! marane se bhI koI nahIM mrtaa| aura isane prazna hI pUcha liyA, isameM gardana dabAne kI bAta A gaI! magara ye dhamakiyAM haiN| hama choTe baccoM ko bahuta dhamakAte haiN| yaha vyavahAra ucita nahIM / yaha vyavahAra bilakula hI galata hai| yaha hiMsA hai aura svabhAvataH isa hiMsA kA uttara kyA hogA! lar3akI ke hRdaya meM kyA bhAva uThegA tumhAre prati sammAna uThegA ? mAM ke prati Adara kA bhAva paidA hogA ki duzmanI paidA hogI ? soco jarA dekho jarA isakA pariNAma kyA hogA? piMkI samajhegI ki tuma use prema karatI ho ? samajhegI ki tumhArA jarA bhI prema nahIM hai| dhamakI meM kahIM prema ho sakatA hai? bhaya paidA ho jAtA hai magara hamAre ye tarka rahe aba tk| bAbA tulasIdAsa kaha gae haiM--bhaya binu hoya na prItibhaya ke binA prIti nahIM hotii| yaha vacana kAphI hai siddha karane ko ki tulasIdAsa ko koI jIvana kA anubhava nahIM hai| mahAkavi the, lekina koI buddhapuruSa nahIM / bhaya se kahIM prIti paidA hotI hai ? asNbhv| yaha to jahara se amRta paidA karane kI bAta ho gaI ! bhaya se to aprIti paidA hotI hai, ghRNA paidA hotI hai jisako bhI tuma bhayabhIta karoge, vaha tumhAre prati ghRNA se bhara jaaegaa| kahe, na kahe Aja na kahe, to kala khegaa| aise nahIM kahe, to vaise kahegA koI na koI tarakIba nikaalegaa| aura nahIM bhI tarakIba nikalI, to bhI usake bhItara to tumhAre prati ghRNA bhara jaaegii| Page 164 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA piMkI se kSamA maaNgnaa| yaha bAta to galata hai| magara yahI phailatI jAtI hai| hamArI jiMdagI kA tarka ho gayA hai| ye behozI meM hI karate haiM hm| yaha mAM ne kucha jAnabUjha kara nahIM kiyaa| yaha hamArA hisAba baiTha gayA hai ki isa taraha se kAma hotA hai| dabA do! magara apane baccoM ko dabAnA, to phira kisako tuma prema karogI? kisako sammAna dogI? aba maiM saMta ke pitA ko dekhatA hUM, unakI AMkhoM ko dekhatA huuN| unakI gIlI AMkhoM ko dekhatA huuN| aura maiM jAnatA hUM ki ve saMnyAsa meM DUba sakate haiN| lekina yaha piMkI kI mAM! jaba piMkI ko svataMtratA nahIM de rahI--aura piMkI se kaha rahI hai--merI gardana dabA do-to yaha pati ko svataMtratA degI! asNbhv| yaha to bahuta tUphAna macA degii| bar3A upadrava ho jaaegaa| abhI piMkI to naI-naI hai jagata meM, isalie pUcha gii| pitA to becAre pUchege bhI nahIM, ki kauna jhaMjhaTa mola le! aba itanI gujAra dI hai--aura gujAra deMge! aba bahuta ho gaI, thor3I bacI hai| magara ye bhaya ke nAte, nAte nahIM haiM--jaMgala haiN| prema bhaya nahIM detA, abhaya detA hai| prema kahatA hai--puucho| jaano| khojo| jIyo apane DhaMga se| tumheM jo suMdara aura sukhada lage, hamArA usameM sAtha hai| hama para bharosA rakho ki hama tumhAre pIche haiN| hama tumheM sAtha deNge| tumheM apanI jiMdagI apane DhaMga se banAne kA haka hai| hamane apane DhaMga se banAI jiMdagI; tumheM apane DhaMga se banAne kA haka hai| kisI bacce para AropaNa na kro| yaha duniyA bar3I suMdara ho sakatI hai| isameM bahuta phUla khila sakate haiN| isameM hara baccA buddhatva ko upalabdha ho sakatA hai| hara baccA itanI kSamatA lekara paidA hotA hai| lekina hama usakI kSamatA ko kATate jAte haiN| aura kaise-kaise DhaMga se kATate haiM! aba piMkI ko hamane aparAdha bhAva paidA karavA diyaa| aba mAM ne use itanA DarA diyA ki vaha socegI ki yaha bAta hI pUcha kara usane pApa kiyA! nahIM pUchanA thaa| kyoM mAM ko dukhI kara diyA--aura itanA dukhI ki mAM AtmahatyA karane ko utArU ho rahI hai--ki merI gardana dabA do! hAlAMki yaha saba bakavAsa hai| koI na gardana dabAtA hai| na koI maratA hai| lekina bacce itane se Dara jAeMge, ghabar3A jaaeNge| svabhAvataH apanI mAM ko kauna mAranA cAhatA hai! aura mAM ko kauna dukhI karanA cAhatA hai! to isa bhaya meM piMkI rAjI ho jaaegii| tuma jaisA kahoge, vaisA hI kregii| lekina tuma isakI jiMdagI bhara ko vikRta kara dogii| maiMne sunA hai ki eka bahuta bar3A DAkTara jisakI sarjarI sAre jagata meM vikhyAta thI, jaba pacahattara varSa kA haA aura riTAyara hone lagA, kyoMki aba usake hAtha thor3e-thor3e kaMpane lage the| aura sarjana ke hAtha nahIM kaMpane caahie| to usake sAre ziSyoM ne...usake bahuta se vidyArthI the| ve khuda bhI bahuta prakhyAta DAkTara the--una saba ne eka samAroha kiyaa| karIba-karIba aMtarrASTrIya samAroha thaa| kyoMki sArI duniyA meM usake ziSya the| saba ikaTThe hue| unhoMne utsava manAyA--nAca-gAnA huaa| zarAba bhii| bhojana! lekina dekha kara saba hairAna hae ki vaha vRddha DAkTara bar3A udAsa hai! usake eka vidyArthI ne pUchA, jo aba khuda bar3A DAkTara ho gayA thA, ki Apa itane udAsa kyoM haiM? hama to samAroha manA rahe haiM Apake sammAna meN| ApakA vidA samAroha! aura Apa udAsa? Page 165 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA usane kahA, maiM udAsa isalie hUM ki maiM kabhI DAkTara honA hI nahIM cAhatA thaa| maiM to cAhatA thA nartaka honaa| lekina mere mAM-bApa ne mujhe jabardastI meDikala kAleja meM bhartI karavA diyA-- merI icchA ke khilaaii| merI jiMdagI bekAra gii| cakita hae usake vidyaarthii| unhoMne kahA, Apa kyA kahate haiN| itane khyAti prApta Apa haiN| ApakI jiMdagI bekAra gaI! usane kahA, khyAti kA kyA karUM? nAma kA kyA karUM? jo maiM honA hI nahIM cAhatA thA, vaha ho kara maiM kyA karUM? maiM jagata vikhyAta cikitsaka hone kI bajAya bilakula ajJAta-nAma nartaka honA pasaMda krtaa| vaha mere hRdaya kA bhAva hotaa| vaha merI AtmA kI abhivyakti hotii| na koI merI nRtya dekhatA--koI ciMtA nhiiN| magara mere phUla to khilte| maiM khilA hI nhiiN| maiM eka udhAra jiMdagI jItA rhaa| mAM-bApa to kaba ke mara cuke, magara mujhe phaMsA ge| phira bAta itanI dera ho gaI thI ki aba nartaka to ho nahIM sakatA huuN| yaha jiMdagI to gaI! agara koI agalI jiMdagI hogI, to aba nahIM sunuuNgaa| tuma thor3A soco, agara buddha ke mAM-bApa ne buddha ko roka liyA hotA! patA nahIM calA unako, nahIM to rokate hii| buddha bhI rAta cupacApa bhAga gae the| jAnate the ki agara cupacApa na gae, to muzkila ho jaaegii| yazodharA ko, apanI patnI ko bhI kucha nahIM khaa| gae the usake kamare taka, dvAra tk| dvAra se jhAMka kara dekhA thaa| kyoMki nayA-nayA beTA paidA huA thaa| jAne ke pahale eka daphA beTe ko dekha lenA cAhate the| apane beTe ko buddha ne nAma diyA thaa--raahl| rAhula banatA hai rAha se! buddha ne nAma rAhula isIlie diyA thA ki ve saMnyAsI kI taiyArI kara rahe the aura beTA paidA huA! to unhoMne socA ki yaha to aise hai, jaise ki cAMda para rAhu laga jaae| aba yaha beTe kA moha mujhe kahIM roka na le! isase apane ko saceta rakhane ke lie usako rAhala nAma diyA thA--ki yaha kahIM beTe kA moha mujha para rAhu bana kara na chA jAe! kahIM mujhe grahaNa na laga jAe! jAte-jAte eka daphA dekha lenA cAhate the ki beTe kA ceharA to dekha lUM--phira dobArA maukA mile na mile! magara beTA mAM kI chAtI se lagA soyA thaa| usakA ceharA nahIM dekha paae| aura bhItara jAne kI himmata nahIM kI ki agara beTe kA ceharA dekhane kI koziza kI aura agara yazodharA jAga gaI, to ar3acana ho jAegI--ki AdhI rAta tuma kahAM jA rahe ho? kahAM kI taiyArI hai? ratha kisalie taiyAra hai? tumane ye vastra ghara se bAhara jAne ke kyoM pahana rakhe haiM? aura AdhI rAta beTe ko dekhane kyoM Ae ho? subaha kyoM nahIM A sakate the? kahIM koI jhaMjhaTa khar3I na ho jAe! ghara jAga na jAe! cupacApa, binA beTe ko dekhe cale ge| aura bAraha sAla bAda jaba buddhatva ko pA kara lauTe, taba bhI bApa nArAja the! patnI nArAja thI! bAraha sAla bAda yaha beTA eka jItA-jAgatA sUraja hokara lauTA thA, lekina bApa ko nahIM dikhAI par3a rahA thaa| bApa to ekadama gusse meM the| ekadama cillAne lge| nArAja hone lge| moha aisA hai! Page 166 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA buddha khar3e sunate rhe| ghar3I bhara saba sunaa| aura phira apane pitA ko kahA ki eka bAra mujhe gaura se to dekheN| maiM vahI nahIM hUM, jo gayA thaa| koI aura huuN| kucha aura hokara AyA huuN| nayA hokara AyA huuN| kucha saMdeza le kara AyA huuN| kucha satya le kara AyA huuN| kucha pAyA hai, vaha Apako bhI denA cAhatA huuN| isIlie AyA hUM ki kahIM ApakI jiMdagI bekAra na calI jaae| maiMne to upalabdha kara liyaa| maiM to bharA pUrA ho gyaa| Apa abhI bhI khAlI haiN| isalie AyA huuN| kaheM to lauTa jaauuN| magara eka bAra mujhe AMkha khola kara to dekha lo| AMkhoM se AMsU haTAo, krodha haTAo, tAki mujhe dekha sko| buddha ke bApa to gusse meM the| aura gusse meM A gae ki tU samajhatA kyA hai! hamane hI tujhe paidA kiyA; merA hI khUna hai tU, aura mujhase kahatA hai ki hameM gaura se dekho! kyA maiM tujhe pahacAnatA nahIM? buddha ne kahA, Apa jarUra pahacAnate haiN| lekina jise Apa pahacAnate the, vaha aba maiM rahA nhiiN| maiM eka krAMti se gujara gyaa| bApa ne kahA, jA jaa| ye bAteM kisI aura ko batAnA! ye kinhIM aura ko smjhaanaa| tU vahI hai| maiM tere cehare ko dekha rahA huuN| buddha ne kahA, ceharA vahI hai, maiM vahI nahIM huuN| aura Apako maiM itanI yAda dilA dUM ki Apa yaha bhrAMti chor3a deM ki maiM Apase paidA huaa| Apase gujarA jruur| Apase AyA jruur| Apa mAdhyama the| lekina Apa mere mAlika nahIM haiN| Apa mere sraSTA nahIM haiN| sraSTA to koI aura! koI parama ajJAta zakti! yaha bAta sunakara bApa thor3e cauNke| gaura se dekhA! bAta saca thii| ceharA to vahI hai, magara AbhA badala gaI hai| saMnyasta hue| zAyada vaha pahalI ghaTanA thI--bApa ne beTe se saMnyAsa liyaa| phira buddha yazodharA ke pAsa ge| AnaMda, unakA bhikSu, unakA ziSya sadA unake sAtha rahatA thA--chAyA kI trh| buddha ne usase kahA, AnaMda, tU thor3A pIche chUTa jA, kyoMki agara tU maujUda rahegA, to yazodharA bar3e kulIna ghara kI lar3akI hai, terI maujUdagI meM vaha kucha bhI na khegii| aura bAraha varSoM se usane kitanA krodha kara rakhA hai ikaTThA, vaha maiM jAnatA huuN| usakA moha bar3A thaa| utanA hI krodha bhI bar3A hogaa| vaha Aga meM jala rahI hai bAraha varSoM se| kisI se kahA nahIM hai| use kaha lene de| nikala jAne de| recana ho jAne de| tU jarA pIche chUTa jaa| agara tU sAtha hI khar3A rahA, to vaha kucha bhI nahIM khegii| cupacApa mere paira chuegI--aura gaTaka jAegI sAre krodha ko| bhadra hai| kulIna hai| rAjagharAne kI hai| yUM tere sAmane bAta kahegI nhiiN| muMha nahIM uThAegI ghUghaTa nahIM uThAegI; bAta kahane kI to bAta aura hai| tU pIche chUTa jaa| AnaMda pIche raha gyaa| aura saca AnaMda cakita huA yaha jAna kara ki vaha ekadama pAgala kI taraha TUTa par3I buddha pr| cIkhI! cillAyI! roI! nArAja huI! aura jo piMkI kI mAM ne kahA piMkI ko ki tUne mujhase pUcha kara kyoM nahIM pUchA! vahI yazodharA ne buddha se kahA ki tuma mujhase pUcha kara kyoM nahIM gae? maiM tumhArI patnI thI, mujhase pUchane meM kyA etarAja thA? buddha ne kahA, tU yaha dekha ki agara maiM tujhase pUchatA--tU mujhe jAne detI? bAraha varSoM bAda bhI itanI kruddha ho rahI hai tU, usI Page 167 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA rAta itanI kruddha hotii| itanA zoragula macA detI--yahI cIkha-pukAra--ki sArA ghara jAga jaataa| pitA A jaate| parivAra A jaataa| jAnA merA muzkila ho jaataa| kSamA mAMgatA hUM--ki tujhase binA pUche gyaa| lekina aba zAMta ho aura maiM tere lie kucha bheMTa lAyA hUM, vaha svIkAra kr| agara ghara meM hI raha jAtA, to yaha bheMTa kabhI lA nahIM sakatA thaa| yaha satya lAyA hUM tujhe dene| yaha AnaMda lAyA hUM tujhe dene| jholI phailA aura maiM jo dene AyA hUM, vaha le| khAlI hAtha nahIM AyA huuN| aura aba maiM jo lAyA hUM, agara tU le sakI, to tU samajhegI ki merA jAnA yogya thaa| aura yazodharA ne bAda meM kSamA maaNgii| jaba samajhI--saMnyasta ho gii| aura usane kSamA mAMgI ki mujhe mApha kara do| maiMne apane moha meM, apane ajJAna meM jo bAteM kahIM--eka buddhapuruSa se aisI bAteM kahIM--mujhe kSamA kara do! bhUla jaao| vismaraNa kara do| buddha ne kahA, maiMne unako liyA hI nhiiN| maiM to tujhe avasara diyA thA, tAki terA ubhAra nikala jAe, uphAna nikala jAe, to tU zAMta ho ske| AyA hI isalie, nahIM to AtA hI nahIM--ki jinako maiMne cAhA hai, unako jaba AnaMda mujhe milA hai, to baaNttuuN| pahale una ko bAMTUM, phira kisI aura ko baaNttuuN| terI sudha bhUlA nahIM huuN| terA adhikAra pahalA hai| lekina agara tU kahatI hai ki pUcha kara jAnA thA, to maiM kabhI jA hI nahIM sakatA thaa| yaha zAzvata kathA hai| yaha sadA kI bAta hai| piMkI kI mAM ne jo kiyA, vaha koI bhI mAM krtii| hAlAMki kisI bhI mAM ko karanA nahIM caahie| mUrchA meM, behozI meM! lekina saMta, ciMtA na lo| jo bhI hotA hai, acchA hotA hai| isase piMkI ko bhI samajha aaegii| piMkI kI mAM ko bhI samajha meM aaegii| tumhAre pitA ko bhI kucha bAta samajha meM aaegii| kucha isameM ciMtA lene kI bAta nahIM hai| yUM hI to samajha AtI hai| kaMTakAkIrNa mArga hai, isI se cala kara to maMjila karIba AtI hai| haMgAmA to macegA...! haMgAmA hai kyoM barapA, thor3I-sI jo pI lI hai| DAkA to nahIM DAlA, corI to nahIM kI hai|| nAttajurbA-kArI se, vAija kI ye bAteM haiN| isa raMga ko kyA jAne, pUcho to kabhI pI hai? piMkI kI mAM bhI kyA kare! usane kabhI yaha raMga pIyA nhiiN| usane kabhI yaha DhaMga jAnA nhiiN| jo jAnA hai, jo bhASA usane sIkhI hai--gRha kI, parivAra kI, gRhasthI kI--vahI to apane baccoM ko sikhaaegii| aura to upAya bhI nahIM haiM! haMgAmA hai kyoM barapA, thor3I-sI jo pI lI hai| DAkA to nahIM DAlA, corI to nahIM kI hai|| nAttajurbA-kArI se, vAija kI ye bAteM haiN| isa raMga ko kyA jAne, pUcho to kabhI pI hai? usa maya se nahIM matalaba, dila jisase hai baigaanaa| Page 168 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA makasada hai usa maya se, dila hI meM jo khiMcatI hai|| vAM dila meM, ki sadame do, yAM jI meM, ki saba saha lo| unakA bhI ajaba dila hai, merA bhI ajaba jI hai|| hara jarrA camakatA hai, anavAre-ilAhI se| hara sAMsa ye kahatI hai, hama haiM to khudA bhI hai|| sUraja meM lage dhabbA, phitarata ke karizme haiN| buta hamako kaheM kAphira, allAha kI marjI hai|| haMgAmA hai kyoM barapA, thor3I-sI jo pI lI hai| DAkA to nahIM DAlA, corI to nahIM kI hai|| piMkI ne kucha burA to nahIM kiyaa| koI DAkA nahIM ddaalaa| koI corI nahIM kii| thor3A apanA pAtra bar3hAyA, ki maiM bhI pIUM; ki maiM kaise DUba jaauuN| usake prazna meM usane apane pAtra ko hI bar3hAyA thA ki thor3A-sA maiM bhI pI luuN| lekina mAM kA bhI koI kasUra nhiiN| nAttajurbA-kArI se, vAija kI ye bAteM haiN| isa raMga ko kyA jAne, pUcho to kabhI pI hai? hama to vahI kaha sakate haiM, jo hamane jAnA hai, jo hamane pahacAnA hai| saMbhava hai isa bahAne, piMkI ke bahAne, usako bhI samajha aae| samajha to sabako A sakatI hai| samajha sabakA janmasiddha adhikAra hai| magara koI jidda hI bAMdha kara baiTha jAe, to bAta alg| agara koI aMdhe hone kI kasama hI khA le, to bAta alg| koI agara AMkha baMda karane ke lie taya hI kara liyA ho, to bAta alg| anyathA yahAM to bAteM sIdhI-sApha haiN| kisI se merI maMjila kA patA pAyA nahIM jaataa| jahAM maiM hUM, phariztoM se vahAM AyA nahIM jaataa| mere TUTe hue pAetalaba kA, mujha pe ehasAM hai| tumhAre dara se uTha ke aba kahIM jAyA nahIM jaataa|| camana tumase ibArata haiM, bahAreM tumase jiMdA haiN| tumhAre sAmane phUloM se mujhAyA nahIM jaataa|| hara ika dAgetamannA ko kaleje se lagAtA huuN| ki ghara AI huI daulata ko ThukarAyA nahIM jaataa|| mohabbata ke lie kucha khAsa dila mahasUsa hote haiN| ye vo nagmA hai jo hara sAja para gAyA nahIM jaataa|| yaha to prema kA eka alaga hI jagata hai| saMnyAsa jIvana ko jIne kI eka alaga hI zailI hai| mohabbata ke lie kucha khAsa dila mahasUsa hote haiN| ye vo nagmA hai jo hara sAja para gAyA nahIM jaataa|| taiyArI cAhie sAja kii| sAja ko pahale biThAlanA par3atA hai| tAra kasane hote haiN| aura jiMdagI sabake sAjoM ko bigAr3a jAtI hai| jiMdagI saba ke sAjoM ko galata pATha par3hA jAtI hai| yA to Page 169 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kisI ke tAra bahuta kasa jAtI hai ki chuo, to TUTa jaaeN| yA kisI ke tAra bahuta DhIle kara kara jAtI hai--ki lAkha khIMcate raho, saMgIta uThe n| lekina agara yahAM A gae haiM tumhAre mAtA-pitA, tumhArI bahana kisI bahAne se, to yUM hI nahIM lauTa jaaeNge| cAhe lauTa jAeM-- magara yUM hI nahIM lauTa jaaeNge| mere TUTe hue pAetalaba kA mujhape ahasAM hai tumhAre dara se uTha kara aba jAyA nahIM jAtA bar3I muzkila se jAnA hogaa| aura jAeMge, to bhI maiM pIchA kruuNgaa| maiM yAda AtA rhuuNgaa| piMkI ne acchA kiyA ki puuchaa| kucha harjA nahIM ki mAM khinna huI, nArAja huii| yaha svAbhAvika hai| yaha sAdhAraNa hai| isameM kucha ciMtA kI bAta nhiiN| vaha bhI pchtaaegii| zAyadara ISyA bhI jagI ho| zAyada socA ho ki piMkI ne pUchA aura maiMne nahIM pUchA! maiM hI pUcha letii| isane pAtra bar3hA liyA aura maiM aTakI hI raha gaI! zAyada usIra ISyA meM yaha bAta nikala AI ho| AdamI kA mana bar3e ulajhanoM se bharA huA hai, bar3e jAloM se| use khuda bhI patA nahIM hotA ki kisalie kyA bAta ho jAtI hai| itanI behozI! itanI gahana behozI hai! tIsarA prazna: bhagavAna, Apa rAjanetAoM kA itanA majAka kyoM ur3Ate haiM? nareMdranAtha! rAjanetA kisI aura kAma ke haiM bhI to nhiiN| karo bhI to kyA karo! maiMne kama se kama unake lie kAma nikAla liyA! eka bahAnA nikAla liyA! unake hone ke lie bhI eka sArthakatA khoja lI! nahIM to yUM to bilakula nikamme haiN| kisI matalaba ke nhiiN| kisI makasada ke nhiiN| ekadama thothe| calo, maiMne kama se kama kucha to artha diyA--unake nirartha jIvana ko| isalie majAka ur3AtA huuN| aura isalie majAka ur3atA hUM ki tuma kahIM rAjanIti meM na par3a jaanaa| rAjanIti pravaMcanA hai| rAjanIti kA artha kyA hotA hai? rAjanIti kA artha hotA hai--dUsaroM para kabjA paanaa| pati patnI para kabjA kara le| patnI pati para kabjA kara le| mAM-bApa baccoM para kabjA kara leN| yaha saba rAjanIti hai| rAjanIti se tuma itanA hI mata samajhanA ki ve jo dillI kI tarapha jAte haiM, ve hI rAjanetA haiN| jo bhI dUsare para kabjA karatA hai, vaha rAjanIti kara rahA hai| choTe paimAne para, bar3e paimAne para--yaha bAta aura hai| jisakI jitanI haisiyata! magara dUsare para kabjA karane kI koziza meM rAjanIti hai| aura apane para kabjA karane kI koziza meM dharma hai| apanI mAlakiyata dharma hai--aura dUsare kA mAlika honA adharma hai| rAjanIti adharma hai| aura adharma kA majAka na ur3Ao, to kyA karo! majAka ur3AtA hUM, kyoMki ye adharma ke jo gubbAre haiM, inako agara jarA suI cubhA do, utane meM hI phUTa jAte haiN| majAka hI kAphI hai| aura bar3I coTa karane kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| Page 170 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA eka netA bhASaNa de rahe the Apa pichalI sArI bAtoM ko bhUla jAie aura nae sire se Age bar3hie hameM aba deza ko sunhre...| usI samaya pIche se AvAja AI, bhaiyAjI, pahale mere udhAra ke sAre rupae vApasa de dIjie, taba saba kucha purAne bhulAne kI bAta kiijie| abhI nhiiN| purAnA kaise bhUla jAUM? pahale paise to lauTA do! eka sabhA meM eka sajjana apanI pArTI ke netA kI prazaMsA karate hue kaha rahe the ve sUraja haiM, hama unakI kiraNeM haiN| ve samudra haiM; hama unakI lahareM haiN| ve phUla haiM; hama unakI khuzabU haiN| bIca meM khar3e ho kara mullA nasaruddIna ne kahA, ve kar3AhI haiM aura tuma unake camace ho! bAka saba bakavAsa hai! eka netAjI ne eka bAra apanI patnI ko apane dosta mullA nasaruddIna ke sAtha palaMga para leTe hue raMge hAthoM pakar3a liyaa| dUsarI bAra kI bAta hai, netAjI ke choTe bacce ne unheM khabara dI ki Apake mitra nasaruddIna ke sAtha dopahara ko mammI baiThaka rUma meM sophe para soI huI thiiN| netAjI ko isa bAta se kAphI krodha aayaa| eka bAra galatI mApha kI jA sakatI hai, kiMtu dubArA nhiiN| phira bhI ve kisI taraha saMyama sAdha kara cupa raha ge| phira tIsarI bAra aisA huA ki netAjI ke Aphisa meM har3atAla ho jAne ke kAraNa ve zAma ko jaldI ghara lauTa aae| ghara meM jo dekhA, to unakA gussA AsamAna para car3ha gyaa| kicana meM DAiniMga Tebila para nasaruddIna aura unakI patnI bilakula digaMbara par3e the| hue netAjI ne garaja kara kahA, bezarmI kI bhI hadda hotI hai| Akhira meM kahAM taka bardAzta karUM! Aja kucha nirNaya lenA hI pdd'egaa| pahale palaMga para rAsalIlA hotI thii| phira sophe para aba DAiniMga Tebila para ho rahI hai! kula-maryAdA aura saMskRti nAma to koI cIja hI nahIM bcii| tuma donoM kAna kholakara acchI taraha se suna lo| yaha merA AkhirI phaisalA hai| caubIsa ghaMTe ke aMdara hI maiM sAre upadrava kI jar3a ko hI samApta kara ke dama lUMgA / aisA cillAkara netAjI gusse meM bhanabhanAte hue ghara se nikala kara cale ge| dUsare dina subaha vApasa aae| patA hai unhoMne kyA kiyA? ghara ke sabhI palaMga, sophe, TebileM, kursiyAM tathA anya pharnIcara eka kabAr3I ko rAste dAmoM meM beca diyA aura taba caina kI sAMsa lii| aise unhoMne jar3a hI kATa DAlI na palaMga, na sophA, na Tebila aba karo rAsalIlA ! netAoM ke apane gaNita haiM ! tumhIM ho tAlI, tumhIM ho thAlI, tumhIM ho gAr3I, dayA karo he dayAlu netA dayA karo he dayAlu netA rahe anAr3I ke hama se bartha khAlI, dayA karo, he dayAlu netA tumhIM ho DAkU, tumhIM ho khaMjara, tumhIM ho cAkU tumhIM dunAlI, dayA karo, he dayAlu netA tumhIM ho cInI, tumhIM ne oThoM se cAya chInI tumheM ho bhASaNa, tumhIM ho baiMgana, tumheM ho iMjana, dilA do TI. TI. tumhIM pulisa ho, tumhIM ho golI, tumhIM ho cammaca, Page 171 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA pilA do kAphI kI eka pyAlI, dayA karo he dayAlu netA tumhIM dala-badaluoM ke ho bappA, kabhI bhajana ho, kabhI ho TappA sakala bhajana maMDalI bulA lI, dayA karo, he dayAlu netA tumhIM bAr3ha ho, tumhIM ho sUkhA, mare na kyoM phira kisAna bhUkhA tumhI ho TraikTara, tumhI ho TrAlI, dayA karo he dayAlu netA piTe to tuma ho, udAsa hama haiM, tumhArI dAr3hI ke dAsa hama haiM kabhI rakhA lI, kabhI muMDA lI, dayA karo he dayAlu netA aura ina netAoM kA karo bhI kyA! upayoga bhI kyA hai! netA jI ke pAsa hai eka bar3A kamAla AzvAsana dene aura use pUrA na kara pAne ke aphasosa ke bIca DAlate haiM jeboM meM noTa nikAlate haiM khAlI rUmAla! tumane jAdUgara bahuta dekhe hoMge; ve khAlI rUmAla DAlate haiM aura noTa nikAla de haiN| netA bhI jAdUgara hai| noTa DAlatA hai--khAlI rUmAla nikAla detA hai! ina netAoM se itanA pIr3ita hai deza aura yahI deza nahIM--sArI duniyaa| magara loga itane mUrchita haiM ki unheM patA hI nahIM ki kisa taraha unakI jiMdagI ko barbAda kiyA jA rahA hai! kauna lUTa rahA hai? kauna unake jIvana ko naSTa kara rahA hai? aura majA aisA hai ki ye netA saba sevaka haiN| ye netA tumhAre hI hita ke lie caubIsa ghaMTe saMlagna haiN| aura hita kisI kA hotA nahIM hai! ahita hI ahita hotA hai| itane hitecchU haiN| itane hitaiSI haiN| jagaha-jagaha, jahAM dekho vahIM, gAMdhI TopI lagAe hue, zuddha khaddara pahane hue, netAgaNa cale jA rahe haiN| aura hita kahIM hotA dikhAI par3atA nhiiN| agara duniyA meM thor3I samajhadArI ho, to rAjanIti apane Apa kama ho jaae| agara duniyA meM thor3A-sA dhyAna kA vistAra ho, to tumheM netAoM kI jarUrata na raha jaae| tuma aMdhe ho, isalie koI netA caahie| aura netA khuda hI aMdhe haiN| kabIra ne kahA hai, aMdhA aMdhA TheliyA, donoM kUpa paData! aMdhe aMdhoM ko mArgadarzana de rahe haiM! khuda aMdhe haiM aura Thela rahe haiM aMdhoM ko--ki cale aao| bar3he clo| Age bar3he clo| aura kuoM meM girAeMge, khaDDoM meM giraaeNge| khaDDoM meM girA hI diyA hai jagaha-jagaha! inakA majAka na ur3Ao, to kyA karo! inakI prazaMsA karUM? inake sammAna meM do phUla car3hAUM! unakI kabra para car3hA dUMgA do phuul| inakI turabata ko na tarasane dUMgA phUloM se|| magara ina para to jitanI coTeM kI jA sakeM, karanI jarUra hai| aura majAka ina para coTa karane kA eka sabhya DhaMga hai| ziSTAcAra bhI raha jAtA hai--coTa bhI ho jAtI hai! hA Page 172 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA Aja itanA hii| sAtavAM pravacana; dinAMka 17 sitaMbara, 1980; zrI rajanIza Azrama, pUnA ika sAdhe saba sadhai pahalA prazna: bhagavAna, yogavAsiSTha meM yaha zloka hai: na yathA yatane nityaM yadabhAvayati ynmyH| yAdRgicchecca bhavituM tAdRgbhavati naanythaa|| manuSya nitya jaisA yatna karatA hai, tanmaya ho kara jaisI bhAvanA karatA hai, aura jaisA honA cAhatA hai, vaisA hI ho jAtA hai; anyathA nhiiN| bhagavAna, kyA aisA hI hai? sahajAnaMda! aisA jarA bhI nahIM hai| yaha sUtra Atmasammohana kA sUtra hai--AtmajAgaraNa kA nhiiN| kucha honA nahIM hai| jo tuma ho use AviSkRta karanA hai| kohinUra ko kohinUra nahIM honA hai, sirpha ughar3anA hai| kohinUra to hai| jauharI kI sArI ceSTA kohinUra ko nikhArane kI hai--banAne kI nhiiN| kohinUra para parateM jama gaI hoMgI--miTTI kI unheM dhonA hai| kohinUra ko camaka denI hai, pahalU dene haiN| jaba kohinUra pAyA gayA thA, to Aja jitanA vajana hai, usase tIna gunA jyAdA thaa| phira usa para pahalU dene meM, kATane-chAMTane meM, jo vyartha thA use alaga karane meM, aura jo sArthaka thA, use bacAne meM, kevala eka tihAI bacA hai| lekina jaba pAyA gayA thA, usakA jo mUlya thA, usase Aja karor3oM gunA jyAdA mUlya hai| vajana to kama huA--mUlya bddh'aa| tuma jo ho, usakA AviSkAra karanA hai| aura yaha sUtra kucha aura hI bAta kaha rahA hai| yaha sUtra Atmasammohana kA, ATohipnosisa kA sUtra hai| yaha sUtra kaha rahA hai, manuSya nitya jaisA yatna karatA hai, tanmaya ho kara jaisI bhAvanA karatA hai, aura jaisA honA cAhatA hai, vaisA hI ho jAtA hai anyathA nhiiN| tuma agara bhAva karoge kucha hone kA, satata karoge bhAva, to usa bhAva se tuma AcchAdita ho jaaoge| AcchAdana itanA mahAna ho sakatA hai ki bhrAMti hone lage ki maiM yahI ho gyaa| eka sUphI phakIra ko mere pAsa lAyA gayA thaa| tIsa varSa kI satata sAdhanA! phakIra ke ziSyoM ne mujhe kahA ki unheM pratyeka jagaha Izvara dikhAI par3atA hai| vRkSoM meM, pattharoM meM, caTTAnoM meM--saba tarapha Izvara kA hI darzana hotA hai| maiMne kahA, unheM le aao| tIna dina mere pAsa chor3a do| Page 173 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jaba ve mere pAsa tIna dina rahe, to maiMne unase kahA, kyA maiM pUchUM ki yaha jo Izvara tumheM dikhAI par3atA hai--dikhAI par3atA hai yA tumane isakI bhAvanA kI hai? unhoMne kahA, isameM kyA bheda hai? maiMne kahA, bheda kucha bahuta bar3A hai| sUraja ugatA hai, to dikhAI par3atA hai--tumheM bhAvanA nahIM karanI par3atI ki yaha sUraja hai! cAMda nikalatA hai, to tumheM dikhAI par3atA hai| tumheM bhAvanA nahIM karanI par3atI ki yaha cAMda hai| sauMdarya ho, to dikhAI par3atA hai; tumheM bhAvanA nahIM karanI par3atI ki sauMdarya hai| bhAvanA to taba karanI par3atI hai, jaba dikhAI na par3atA ho / bhAvanA se bhrAMti hotI hai| satata koI bhAvanA kare aura tIsa sAla niraMtara bhAvanA kI ho, to svabhAvataH bhAvanA AcchAdita ho jaaegii| to maiMne unase kahA, eka kAma karo, bheda sApha ho jaaegaa| tIna dina bhAvanA karanA baMda kara do| unako bAta samajha meM pdd'ii| tIna dina unhoMne bhAvanA nahIM kii| cauthe dina mujha para bahuta nArAja ho ge| unhoMne kahA, merI tIsa varSa kI sAdhanA naSTa kara dii| maiMne kahA, jo tIsa varSa meM sAdhA ho, agara tIna dina meM naSTa hotA ho, usakA mUlya kyA hai ? to tuma kahIM pahuMce nahIM / kalpanA meM jI rahe the| eka svapna nirmita kara liyA thA apane cAroM tarapha aba tumheM vRkSa dikhAI par3ate haiM--paramAtmA dikhAI nahIM par3atA kyA huA usa paramAtmA kA ? agara dikhAI par3a gayA thA, to tIna dina meM kho gayA ! maiMne kahA, kucha siikho| nArAja na hoo| sIkhane kA yaha hai ki tIsa sAla vyartha gae; nAha tumane gNvaae| abhI bhI dera nahIM huii| abhI bhI jiMdagI zeSa hai| bhAvanA karanA baMda karo / AMkhoM ko nikhAro bhAvanA se lAdo mt| bhAvanA ke cazme mata pahano bhAvanA cazme de sakatI -- hai| koI lAla raMga kA cazmA pahana le -- sArA jagata lAla dikhAI par3ane lagA ! lAla huA nahIM; na lAla hai, magara bhAvanA kA cazmA car3ha gayA! utAro cazmA aura jagata jaisA hai, vaisA prakaTa ho jaaegaa| saba lAlI kho jaaegii| hI bhrAMti nahIM hai, yaha sUtra vyakti ko jhUTha karane kA sUtra hai magara isI sUtra para duniyA ke sAre dharma Aropita haiN| yaha yogavAsiSTa kI yaha bhrAMti sAre dharmoM ke AdhAra meM par3I huI hai| tuma jAte ho maMdira meM tumheM dikhAI to patthara kI mUrti par3atI hai, lekina bhAvanA karate ho ki rAma haiM, kRSNa haiM, buddha haiM, mahAvIra haiN| apanI bhAvanA ke sAmane jhukate ho tuma tumheM kucha dikhAI nahIM par3a rahA hai| jaina ke maMdira meM bauddha ko le jAo, use jhukane kA koI mana nahIM hotaa| use mahAvIra bilakula dikhAI nahIM par3ate patthara dikhAI par3atA hai| musalamAna ko le jAo tuma jaba jhukate ho, to vaha haMsatA hai ki kaisI mUDhatA hai! patthara ke buta ke sAmane - yaha kaisI butaparastI! yaha kaisA aMdhApana! patthara ke sAmane jhuka rahe ho! magara tuma patthara ke sAmane nahIM jhuka rahe ho tumane to apanI bhAvanA Aropita kara rakhI hai tumhAre lie to tIrthaMkara haiM, mahAvIra haiM! Page 174 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jaina ko masajida meM le jAo, use koI ahobhAva anubhava nahIM hotaa| lekina musalamAna gadagada ho jAtA hai| yaha satya kisa bAta kI ora iMgita karatA hai? gaNeza jI ko dekha kara jo hiMdU nahIM, vaha hNsegaa| jo hiMdU hai, vaha ekadama samAdara se bhara jaaegaa| hanumAna jI ko dekha kara jo hiMdU nahIM hai, vaha socegA, yaha bhI kyA pAgalapana hai! eka baMdara kI pUjA ho rahI hai! aura AdamI baMdara kI pUjA kara rahe haiM! zarma nahIM, saMkoca nahIM, lAja nahIM! lekina jo hiMdU hai, usane eka bhAvanA Aropita kI hai| usane eka cazmA car3hA rakhA hai| tuma duniyA ke vibhinna dharmoM para vicAra karo, tumheM bAta samajha meM A jaaegii| jIsasa ko sUlI huii| eka jaina muni ne mujhase kahA ki Apa mahAvIra ke sAtha jIsasa kA nAma na leM, kyoMki kahAM mahAvIra aura kahAM jIsasa! kyA tulanA! jIsasa ko sUlI lagI! jaina hisAba se tIrthaMkara ko to kAMTA bhI nahIM gar3atA hai; sUlI laganA to bahuta duur| jaina hisAba se tIrthaMkara jaba calate haiM rAste para, to sIdhe jo kAMTe par3e hote haiM, ve tatkSaNa ulaTe ho jAte haiM ki kahIM tIrthaMkara ke paira meM gar3a na jaaeN| kyoMki koI pApa to bacA nahIM, to kAMTA gar3a kaise sakatA hai? pApa ke kAraNa dukha hotA hai| pApa ke kAraNa kAMTA gar3atA hai| akAraNa nahIM kucha hotaa| yahI to pUrA karma kA siddhAMta hai| aura jIsasa ko sUlI lagI, to jarUra pichale janmoM meM koI mahApApa kiyA hogA anyathA sUlI kaise lage! jaina ko ar3acana hotI hai ki jIsasa ko mahAvIra ke sAtha rkho| isa AdamI ko sUlI lagI, jAhira hai, ki akAraNa sUlI nahIM laga sakatI, to jarUra koI pichalA mahApApa isake pIche honA caahie| aura IsAI usI sUlI ko apane gale meM laTakAe hue hai| usI sUlI ke sAmane jhukatA hai| usake lie sUlI se jyAdA pavitra aura kucha bhI nahIM hai| sUlI usake lie pratIka hai jIsasa kaa| agara tuma IsAI se pUcho, mahAvIra ke saMbaMdha meM, to vaha kahegA ki jIsasa ke sAtha tulanA nahIM kI jA sakatI, kyoMki jIsasa ne to manuSya jAti ke hita ke lie apanA jIvana arpaNa kara diyaa| mahAvIra ne kyA kiyA? mahAvIra to nipaTa svArthI haiN| koI aspatAla kholA? koI garIboM ke lie bhojana juTAyA? bImAroM kI sevA kI? kor3hiyoM ke paira dabAe? aMdhoM ko AMkheM dI? laMgar3oM ko paira die? kyA kiyA? tuma dekhate hI ho ki madara TeresA ko nobala prAija milii| mahAvIra agara jiMdA ho, to nobala prAija mila sakatI hai? kisa kAraNa? na to anAthAlaya kholate haiN| na vidhavA Azrama kholate haiM! nipaTa svArthI haiM! apane dhyAna aura apane AnaMda meM lage haiM! isa svArthI vyakti kI pUjA karane kA prayojana kyA hai? isane tyAga kyA kiyA hai? aura agara dhana-daulata bhI chor3I hai, to svArtha ke lie chor3I hai, kyoMki dhana-daulata ke kAraNa AtmAnaMda meM bAdhA par3atI hai, brahmAnaMda meM bAdhA par3atI hai| magara AnaMda to apanA hai| isane kisI dUsare kI ciMtA kI hai isa vyakti ne? Page 175 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA to mahAvIra aura buddha IsAiyoM ke lie AdaraNIya nahIM mAlUma hote / kRSNa ko hiMdU pUrNAvatAra kahate haiM aura jaina unako narka meM DAla dete haiN| kyoMki kRSNa ne hI yuddha karavA diyA; mahAhiMsA karavA dii| arjuna to bilakula muni hone ke karIba hI thA! vaha to saba chor3a kara bhAga rahA thA, tyAga rahA thaa| kRSNa use ghasITa laae| eka vyakti ko jo jaina hone ke karIba thA --bhraSTa kara diyA ! kRSNa ko daMDa denA jarUrI hai| aba tuma jarA dekho! hiMdU kahate haiM pUrNAvatAra aura unakA kahanA, unake cazme kI bAta hai| pUrNAvatAra isalie ki kRSNa meM jIvana kI samayatA prakaTa huI hai| rAma ko bhI pUrNAvatAra nahIM kahate hiMdU / kyoMki rAma kI maryAdA hai| maryAdA yAnI sImA kRSNa amaryAda haiN| unakI koI sImA nahIM hai| mahAvIra tyAgI-vratI, magara inakA tyAga vrata saMsAra se bhayabhIta hai| ye saMsAra ko chor3a kara tyAga ko upalabdha hue haiM, jJAna ko upalabdha hue haiN| kRSNa to saMsAra meM raha kara jJAna ko upalabdha hue haiN| yaha asalI kasauTI hai Aga meM baiTha rahe aura parama zAMti ko anubhava kiyaa| Aga se bhAga gae ! bhagor3e ho ! jo kRSNa ko mAnane vAlA hai, vaha mahAvIra aura buddha ko bhagor3A khegaa| jiMdagI meM jUjho; jiMdagI cunautI hai| isa cunautI se bhAgate ho --avasara gaMvAte ho| yaha kAyaratA hai| yaha pITha dikhA denA hai| jaina ke lie kRSNa narka meM kRSNa ne jiMdagI se pITha nahIM dikhaaii| isIlie arjuna ko bhI rokA ki kyA bhagatA hai! kyA kAyarapana kI bAteM karatA hai| kyA napuMsakatA kI bAteM karatA hai| kyA tU klIva ho gayA! uThA gAMDIva chor3a yaha ahaMkAra ki mere dvArA hiMsA ho rahI hai| apane ko bIca se haTA le paramAtmA kA mAdhyama bhara ho jaa| apane ahaMkAra ko bIca meM na lagA / to hiMdU ke lie kRSNa pUrNAvatAra haiN| usakA apanA cazmA hai| DAlane yogya haiN| avatAra kI to bAta hI chor3o! AdamiyoM se bhI gae bIte haiM! sabhI AdamI bhI narka meM nahIM jaate| mahApApI hI narka meM jAte haiN| kRSNa ne mahApApa karavA diyaa| kyoMki jaina ke hisAba ke lie to cIMTI bhI mAranA pApa hai| aura isa vyakti ne to koI eka araba, savA araba AdamiyoM kI hatyA karavA dI ! isI ke kAraNa hatyA huii| to itanI bar3I mahAhiMsA kA kauna jimmevAra hogA? apane ape cazme haiN| -- Page 176 of 255 - aura maiM kahatA hU~ satya usako dikhAI par3atA hai, jo sAre cazme utAra kara rakha detA hai jo na hiMdU hai, na musalamAna hai, na IsAI hai, na jaina hai, na bauddha hai ye to saba bhAvanA kI bAta hai| tuma apanI bhAvanA ko Aropita kara lete ho| to jo tumane Aropita kara liyA hai, jarUra dikhAI par3ane lagatA hai| magara dikhAI par3atA hai vaisA hI, jaisA sapanA dikhAI par3atA hai| dikhAI par3atA hai vaisA hI, jaise zarAba ke naze meM kucha-kucha dikhAI par3ane lagatA hai| mullA nasaruddIna roja zarAbaghara jAtA / cakita the loga ki hamezA jaba bhI zarAba pIne baiThatA, to apanI jeba se eka meMDhaka nikAla kara Tebila para rakha letA! usane meMDhaka pAlA huA thaa| kaI bAra logoM ne pUchA ki isakA rAja kyA hai? http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA pItA rahatA shraab| pItA rhtaa| phira ekadama se zarAba pInA baMda kara detaa| meMDhaka khIse meM rkhtaa| ghara calA jaataa| eka dina zarAba kI dukAna ke mAlika ne kahA ki Aja merI tarapha se piiyo| magara yaha rAja aba batA do| aba hamArI utsukatA bahuta bar3hatI jA rahI hai| mAjarA kyA hai? yaha meMDhaka ko bAra-bAra lAte ho| isako biThA lete ho! mullA ne kahA, mAmalA kucha bhI nahIM hai| rAja choTA-sA hai| yaha gaNita hai| jaba yaha meMDhaka mujhe do dikhAI par3ane lagatA hai, taba maiM samajha jAtA hUM ki basa, aba ruka jAnA caahie| aba khatare kI sImA A gaI! jaldI se isako--donoM ko uThA kara khIse meM rakhatA hUM aura apane ghara kI tarapha calA jAtA hUM, kyoMki aba jaldI ghara pahuMca jAnA cAhie, nahIM to kahIM rAste meM giruuNgaa| jaba taka eka dikhAI par3atA rahatA hai, taba taka pItA huuN| jaba do dikhAI par3atA hai, to basa! mullA apane beTe ko bhI zarAba pIne ke DhaMga sikhA rahA thaa| bApa vahI sikhAe, jo jaane| aura to kyA sikhAe! zarAbI zarAba pInA sikhaae| hiMdU hiMdU bnaae| jaina jaina bnaae| bauddha bauddha bnaae| jo jisakI bhAvanA! to apane beTe ko lekara zarAbaghara gyaa| kahA ki eka bAta hamezA khayAla rkhnaa| dekho--zarAba pInA zurU kro| aura kahA ki ve jo usa Tebila para AdamI baiThe haiM do, jaba cAra dikhAI par3ane lage taba ruka jAnA! usake beTe ne kahA ki pitAjI, vahAM sirpha eka hI AdamI baiThA haA hai! Apako abhI do dikhAI par3a rahe haiM! yaha mullA to pIe hI hue hai| isako to do dikhAI par3a hI rahe haiM! aba yaha kaha rahA hai, jaba cAra dikhAI par3ane lageM, to basa, pInA baMda kara denA! yaha to naze meM hai hii| naze meM jo dikhAI par3atA hai, vaha satya nahIM hai| hAM, satata yatna se tuma nazA paidA kara sakate ho| satata bhAvanA se tuma apane bhItara kI rAsAyanika prakriyA badala sakate ho| ye manovijJAna ke sIdhe-sAde sUtra haiN| agara bAra-bAra tuma socate hI raho, socate hI raho, to svabhAvataH usa socane kA pariNAma yaha hogA ki tumhAre bhItara bhAvanA kI eka parta banatI jaaegii| eka bahuta bar3A sammohanavida phrAMsa meM huaa| vaha apane marIjoM ko...usane bahuta marIjoM ko sahAyatA phuNcaayii| vaha unako kahatA, basa, eka hI bAta socate raho ki roja, dina-ba-dina ThIka ho rahA huuN| subaha se basa yahI soco, pahalI bAta yahI soco uThate vkt| aura rAta sote samaya taka AkhirI bAta yahI socate raho ki maiM ThIka ho rahA huuN| dina-ba-dina ThIka ho rahA huuN| tIna mahIne bAda marIja aayaa| usa cikitsaka ne pUchA ki kucha lAbha huA? usane kahA, lAbha to haa| dina to bilakula ThIka ho gayA, magara rAta bar3I muzkila hai! aba dina-ba-dina ThIka ho rahA haM--so usane becAre ne dina kA hI hisAba rkhaa| so dina to, usane kahA ki bilakula ThIka gujara jAte haiM, kyoMki bhAvanA bilakula majabUta kara lI hai| caubIsa ghaMTe eka hI bhAvanA karatA hUM ki dina bilakula tthiik| magara rAta! rAta bar3I becainI A jAtI hai| vaha jo dina bhara kI bImArI hai, vaha bhI ikaTThI ho kara rAta phUTatI hai| Page 177 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA sonA kharAba ho gyaa| nIMda harAma kara dI hai| kyA sUtra tumane diyA! yaha manovaijJAnika ne socA hI na thA ki dina meM yaha sirpha dina ko hI ginegA--rAta chor3a degA! mere pAsa eka daphA eka yuvaka lAyA gyaa| usake pitA, usake mAM ro rahe the| unhoMne kahA ki hama thaka gae! vizvavidyAlaya se isako haTAnA pdd'aa| isako eka bhrAMti ho gaI hai| eka makkhI isake bhItara ghusa gaI hai--yaha isako bhrAMti ho gaI hai| yaha muMha khola kara sotA hai, to isako bhrAMti ho gaI ki muMha khulA thA aura makkhI aMdara calI gii| zAyada makkhI calI gaI bhI ho| vaha to nikala bhI gii| eksa-re karavA cuke| DAkTaroM se cikitsA karavA cuke| magara yaha mAnatA hI nhiiN| yaha kahatA hai, vaha bhanabhanA rahI hai| bhItara cala rahI hai| basa, ye caubIsa ghaMTe yahI rAga lagAe rakhatA hai ki yaha idhara paira meM ghusa gaI aMdara! idhara hAtha meM A gaI! yaha dekho, idhara A gaI--idhara calI gii| isako koI dUsarA kAma hI nahIM bacA hai; na sotA hai, na sone detA hai| na khAtA hai, na khAne detA hai! makkhI bhanabhanA rahI hai! sira meM ghusa jAtI hai! sira se paira taka calatI rahatI hai! cikitsakoM ne kaha diyA, bhaI, yaha saba bhrAMti hai| hama kucha bhI nahIM kara skte| kisI ne ApakA nAma liyA, to Apake pAsa le aae| maiMne kahA, koziza kara ke dekheN| maiMne kahA, yaha kahatA hai, to ThIka hI kahatA hogaa| jarUra makkhI ghusa gaI hogii| usa yuvaka kI AMkhoM meM ekadama camaka A gii| usane kahA, Apa pahale AdamI haiM, jo smjhe| koI mAnatA hI nahIM merii| jisako kahatA hUM, vahI kahatA hai--pAgala ho gae ho! are, pAgala ho gayA hUM--kaise pAgala ho gayA hUM! mujhe barAbara bhana-bhanAhaTa sunAI par3atI hai| calatI hai| kabhI chAtI meM ghusa jAtI hai| kabhI paira meM calI jAtI hai| kabhI sira meM! merI musIbata koI nahIM smjhtaa| aba nahIM AtI tumhAre eksa-re meM, to maiM kyA karUM! magara mujhe apanA anubhava ho rahA hai| apanA anubhava maiM kaise jhuThalA duuN| lAkha samajhAo mujhe! merA sira khA gae samajhA-samajhA kara! eka makkhI mujhe satA rahI hai| aura bAhara ke samajhAne vAle mujhe satA rahe haiN| ye mAM-bApa samajhAte haiN| muhalle bhara meM jo dekho vahI samajhAtA hai| DAkTara samajhAte haiN| jahAM le jAte haiM, vahIM loga samajhAte haiM--bhaI, chor3o yaha baat| kahAM kI makkhI ! agara ghusa bhI gaI hogI, to mara-marA gaI hogii| koI aise bhanabhanA sakatI hai aMdara! magara maiM kyA karUM! bhanabhanAtI hai| makkhI mAnatI nahIM--maiM mAna bhI lUM, to kyA hotA hai! maiMne kahA, tuma bilakula ThIka kahate ho| makkhI aMdara ghusI hai| jaba taka nikAlI na jAe, kucha ho nahIM sktaa| to tuma leTa jaao| AMkha para maiMne usakI paTTI bAMdha dii| aura maiM bhAgA pUre ghara meM khojabIna kI ki kisI taraha eka makkhI pakar3a luuN| bAmuzkila eka makkhI pakar3a paayaa| usakI paTTI khulvaaii| usako makkhI dikhaaii| usane kahA, aba yaha koI bAta huI! apane bApa se bolA, dekho, aba yaha makkhI kahAM se nikalI? kahAM gae ve eksa-re! Page 178 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maiMne unake bApa ko, mAM ko kahA thA ki tuma bilakula cupa rhnaa| yaha mata kahanA ki maiMne makkhI pkdd'ii| isake bhItara se nikAlI hai| unhoMne kahA, bhaI hameM mApha karo hamase galatI huii| tuma ThIka the; hama galata the| usane kahA, lAie makkhI; mujhe diijie| maiM apane una sabako dikhAne jaauuNgaa| aba bilakula sannATA hai| na koI bhanabhanAhaTa / aba hai hI nahIM makkhI bhItara, vaha khuda hI kahane lagA ki jaba makkhI bhItara hai hI nahIM, nikala gaI... yaha rahI makkhI, to bAta khatama ho gii| taba se vaha ThIka ho gA / taba se vaha svastha ho gayA / eka bhAvanA gahana ho jAe, to jarUra usake pariNAma hone haiN| yaha rugNa huA jA rahA thA; dIna huA jA rahA thA, thI, magara pariNAma to saca ho rahe the| jaise ki koI rassI meM sAMpa ko dekha kara bhAga khar3A ho gira par3e paira phisala jAe, to haDDI TUTa jaae| haDDI TUTanA to saca hai, magara rassI meM sAMpa jhUTha thaa| aura yaha bhI ho sakatA hai ki hArTa aTaika ho jaae| bhAga khar3A ho jora se; vajanI zarIra ho; gira pdd'e| hArTa aTaika ho jaae| ghabar3A jaae| mara bhI sakatA hai AdamI usa sAMpa ko dekha kara, jo thA hI nahIM ! -- magara isako dikhAI pdd'aa| isako dikhAI par3A, basa, utanA paryApta hai isake lie| hAlAMki isane bhrAMti kara lI thii| kalpanA kara lI thii| isake bhItara se hI Aropita huA thaa| yaha sUtra sAre dharmoM ko bhraSTa kiyA hai| isa taraha ke sUtroM ne hI AdamI ko galata rAste para lagA diyA hai| basa, bhAvanA karo! bhAvanA se tuma jarUra pariNAma lAne zurU kara doge| agara tumane bhAvanA kI majabUtI se to pariNAma Ane zurU ho jaaeNge| lekina bhAvanA cUMki jhUTha hai isalie kabhI bhI khisala sakatI hai| tuma jo makAna banA rahe ho, usakI koI buniyAda nahIM hai| tuma reta para mahala khar3A kara rahe ho, jo giregA burI taraha giregA aura aisA giregA ki tumheM bhI cakanAcUra kara jaaegaa| maiM tumheM bhAvanA karane ko nahIM kahatA sahajAnaMda! maiM to kahatA nirvicAra ho jAo, nirbhAva ho jAo, nirvikalpa ho jAo saba bhAvanA ko jAne do saba vicAra ko jAne do| zUnya ho jAo zUnya hI dhyAna hai| nirvicAra hI dhyAna hai aura taba jo hai, vaha dikhAI par3egA jaba taka vicAra hai, taba taka kucha kA kucha dikhAI par3atA rahegA / vicAra vikRta karatA hai| vicAra bIca meM A A jAtA hai| zurU hoNge| pariNAma sacce ho sakate hIna huA jA rahA thaa| bAta jhUThI vicAra ke kAraNa tumheM kucha kA kucha dikhAI par3ane lagatA hai| jo nahIM hai, vaha dikhAI par3ane lagatA hai| jo hai, vaha nahIM dikhAI par3atA / tuma khayAla karo, upavAsa kara lo do dina kA, aura phira bAjAra meM cale jAo / upavAsa ke bAda tumako bAjAra meM sirpha hoTaleM, resTAreMTa, cAya kI dukAneM, bhajie kI gaMdha isI taraha kI cIjeM ekadama dikhAI par3eMgI, jo kabhI nahIM dikhAI par3atI thiiN| kyoMki do dina kA upavAsa tumhAre bhItara kI manodazA badala degaa| aba bhojana hI bhojana dikhAI pdd'egaa| Page 179 of 255 -- http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jarmanI ke prasiddha kavi hAina ne likhA hai ki maiM eka daphA jaMgala meM tIna dina ke lie bhaTaka gyaa| gayA thA zikAra ko, rAstA bhUla gyaa| sAthiyoM se chUTa gyaa| tIna dina bhUkhA rahA / aura jaba tIsare dina rAta pUrNimA kA cAMda nikalA, to maiM cakita huA ki jisa cAMda meM mujhe hamezA apanI preyasI kA ceharA dikhAI par3atA thA, vaha bilakula dikhAI nahIM pdd'aa| mujhe dikhAI par3I eka sapheda roTI AkAza meM taira rahI hai! cAMda meM roTI dikhAI par3I! kisI ko cAMda tIna dina se jo bhUkhA hai, usako cAMda meM roTI dikhAI par3I! bhUkhe ko dikhAI par3a sakatI hai| eka sapheda roTI kI taraha tairatA huA mAlUma hogaa| aba kahAM kI suMdara strI vagairaha ! bhUkhe AdamI ko kyA karanA hai suMdara strI se! isIlie to upavAsa kA itanA prabhAva bar3ha gyaa| upavAsa tarakIba hai vAsanA ko dabAne kI jaba tuma bhUkhe rahoge ikkIsa dina agara bhUkhe rahoge strI vagairaha saba bhUla jAeMgI strI ko dekhane ke lie svastha zarIra caahie| puruSa ko dekhane ke lie svastha zarIra caahie| -- yaha tarakIba hAtha meM laga gaI dhArmikoM ke, ki apane ko bilakula bhUkhA rakho, apanI UrjA ko kSINa kara lo - itanI kSINa kara lo ki basa, jIne yogya raha jaae| jarA bhI jyAdA na ho paae| jarA jyAdA huI ki to phira khatarA hai| phira vAsanA ubhara sakatI hai| magara isase koI vAsanA se mukta nahIM hotaa| yaha sirpha damana hai| yaha bhayaMkara damana hai| upavAsa tarakIba hai damana kii| bhUkhA AdamI bhUla hI jaaegaa| bhUkhe ko sirpha roTI dikhAI par3atI -- hai aura kucha nahIM dikhAI pdd'taa| bhare peTa AdamI ko bahuta kucha dikhAI par3ane lagatA hai--jo bhUkhe ko nahIM dikhAI par3atA aura jaba tumhAre jIvana kI saba jarUrateM pUrI ho jAtI haiM, taba tumheM kucha aura dikhAI par3anA zurU hotA hai--jo jarUratoM ke rahate nahIM dikhAI par3a sktaa| jarUrateM jaba taka haiM, taba taka jarUrateM bIca meM AtI haiN| isa bAta ko khayAla meM lo sahajAnaMda ! tumheM nAma maiMne diyA sahajAnaMdA sahaja kA artha hotA hai, jo hai hI, usako jAnanA hai| use bhAvita nahIM karanA hai| use kalpita nahIM karanA hai| usake lie yatna bhI nahIM karanA hai| sahaja hai| dharma sahaja hai, kyoMki dharma svabhAva hai hai hI hamAre bhItara paramAtmA tumhAre bhItara virAjamAna hai| tuma jarA apane vicAra eka tarapha haTA kara rakha do| tumase kahA gayA hai--vizvAsa kro| maiM tumase kahatA hUM--vizvAsa chodd'o| kyoMki vizvAsa eka vicAra hai| aura vicAra agara satata karoge, to vaisA dikhAI par3ane lgegaa| magara vaisA hotA nahIM sirpha tumheM dikhAI par3atA hai| tumhArI bhAMti hai tumhArI kalpanA hai| aura kalpanA suMdara ho sakatI hai, pyArI ho sakatI hai, madhura ho sakatI hai| tumane mIThe sapane dekhe hoNge| susvAdu sapane dekhe hoMge lekina sapanA sapanA hai jAgoge--TUTa jaaegaa| sapane dekhane ke lie hI loga jaMgaloM meM bhAge; upavAsa kiyaa| kyoMki yaha manovaijJAnika satya hai Aja vaijJAnika rUpa se pramANita ki AdamI ko akelA chor3a do, tIna saptAha meM, usakI kalpanA bahuta prakhara ho jAtI hai kyoM? kyoMki jaba dUsaroM ke sAtha rahatA hai, to dUsaroM kI maujUdagI use kalpanAzIla nahIM hone detii| use biThA do himAlaya kI eka guphA meN| Page 180 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kyA karegA baiThA-baiThA! sirpha kalpanA kregaa| aura to kucha karane ko bacA nhiiN| aura yathArtha se usake sAre saMbaMdha chUTa jaaeNge| yathArtha se to bhAga AyA vh| aba ekAMta meM baiThA-baiThA kalpanA karatA rhegaa| apane se hI bAteM karane lagegA dhiire-dhiire| tumane dekhA hogA pAgalakhAnoM meM jA kara, pAgala apane se hI bAteM karate rahate haiM! tuma unako pAgala kahate ho| aura usako tuma dhArmika kahate ho, jo Izvara se bAteM kara rahA hai! kahAM kA Izvara? kalpita! lekina vaha Izvara se bAteM kara rahA hai! khuda hI vaha bolatA hai, khuda hI javAba detA hai| yaha ekAMta meM saMbhava hai| ekAMta ho--aura bhUkhA ho--ye do cIjeM agara tuma pUrI kara lo, to tumhArI koI bhI kalpanA saca mAlUma hone lgegii| lekina yaha apane ko dhokhA dene kA upAya hai| dharma nahIM hai-- AtmavaMcanA hai| yaha sUtra isa lihAja se mahatvapUrNa hai ki isa sUtra meM sAre dharma kA dhokhA A gayA hai| nA yathA yatane nityaM yadabhAvayati ynmyH| manuSya nitya jaisA yatna karatA hai, tanmaya ho kara jaisI bhAvanA karatA hai, vaisA hI ho jAtA hai| yadRgicchecca bhavituM tAdRgbhavati naanythaa|| vaisA hI ho jAtA hai anyathA nhiiN| aura mana kI bhAvanA kA bar3A prabhAva hai kucha cIjoM pr| zarIra para to bahuta prabhAva hai| tuma eka choTA-sA prayoga kara ke dekho| apane hAthoM ko bAMdha kara baiTha jaao| aMguliyoM ko aMguliyoM meM phaMsA lo| dasa AdamI baiTha jaao| aMguliyoM meM aMguliyAM phaMsA kara aura dasoM doharAo ki aba hama kitanA hI upAya kareM, to bhI hama hAtha ko khola na skeNge| yaha choTA-sA prayoga hai, jo koI bhI kabhI bhI kara sakatA hai| hama kitanI bhI koziza kareM, hAtha ko hama khola na skeNge| lAkha koziza kareM, hAtha ko hama khola na skeNge| dasa minaTa taka yaha bAta doharAte raho, doharAte raho, doharAte rho| aura dasa minaTa ke bAda pUrI tAkata lagA kara hAtha ko kholane kI koziza krnaa| aura tuma hairAna ho jaaoge| dasa meM se kama se kama tIna AdamiyoM ke hAtha baMdhe raha jaaeNge| ve jitanA khIMceMge, utanI hI muzkila meM par3a jaaeNge| pasInA-pasInA ho jAeMge, hAtha nahIM khuleNge| tIsa pratizata, tetIsa pratizata vyakti sammohana ke lie bahuta hI suvidhA pUrNa hote haiN| tetIsa pratizata vyakti bar3e jaldI sammohita ho jAte haiN| aura yahI sammohita vyakti tumhAre tathAkathita dhArmika vyakti bana jAte haiN| ye hI tumhAre saMta! ye hI tumhAre phakIra! inake lie kucha bhI karanA AsAna hai| jaba apanA hI hAtha bAMdha liyA khuda hI bhAvanA karake aura aba khuda hI kholanA cAhate haiM, nahIM khultaa| aura eka majA hai: jitanI ve koziza kareMge aura nahIM khulegA, utanI hI yaha bAta gaharI hotI jAegI ki aba muzkila ho gii| hAtha to baMdha gae, aba nahIM khulane vaale| ghabar3A jaaeNge| hAtha ko kholane ke lie aba inake pAsa koI upAya nahIM hai| aba hAtha ko kholane ke lie inako pUrI prakriyA ko doharAnA pdd'egaa| aba inako khIMcAtAnI baMda karanI caahie| aba inako phira dasa minaTa taka socanA cAhie ki jaba maiM hAtha kholUMgA, to khula jaaeNge| khula jAeMge--jarUra khula jaaeNge| dasa minaTa taka ye Page 181 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA punaH bhAva kreN| khIMce nhiiN| khIMceMge, to muzkila ho jAegI, kyoMki khIMcane se siddha hogA nahIM khulate haiN| nahIM khulate haiM--to nahIM khulane kI bAta aura majabUta hotI calI jAegI ki nahIM khula sakate haiN| aba maiM kucha bhI karUM, nahIM khula sakate haiN| khIMceM n| aba to baiTha kara soceM vahI, jo pahale socA thA usase ulaTA, ki aba maiM jaba kholUMgA dasa minaTa ke bAda, to barAbara khula jAeMge; nizcita khula jaaeNge| koI saMdeha nahIM; khula jaaeNge| taba inake dasa minaTa ke bAda hAtha khuleNge| tuma prayoga karake dekha sakate ho| dasa mitroM ko ikaTThA kara ke baiTha jaao| tumane zAyada kabhI socA na ho ki tuma bhI una tetIsa pratizata meM eka ho sakate ho| isa taraha kA AdamI kisI bhI taraha kI bImAriyoM ke jAla meM phaMsa sakatA hai| meDikala kAlejeja meM yaha anubhava kI bAta hai ki vidyArthI jisa bImArI ke saMbaMdha meM par3hate haiM, bahuta se vidyArthiyoM ko vahI bImArI honI zurU ho jAtI hai| jaba ve peTa-darda ke saMbaMdha meM par3heMge aura unako marIjoM ke peTa-darda dikhAe jAeMge, aura unase peTa kI jAMca karavAI jAegI-- aneka vidyArthiyoM ke peTa gar3abar3a ho jaaeNge| ve kalpita karane lagate haiM ki are, kahIM vaisA hI darda mujhe to nahIM ho rahA hai! apanA hI peTa dabA-dabA kara dekhane lagate haiN| aura jaba peTa ko dabAeMge, to kahIM na kahIM darda ho jaaegaa| ahasAsa hogA ki darda ho rahA hai| ghabar3AhaTa zurU ho jaaegii| meDikala kAleja meM yaha Ama anubhava kI bAta hai ki jo bImArI par3hAI jAtI hai, vahI bImArI phailanI zurU ho jAtI hai vidyArthiyoM meN| sUphiyoM meM eka kahAnI hai: junnaida nAma kA phakIra...| junnaida prasiddha phakIra maMsUra kA guru thA gAMva ke bAhara eka jhopar3e meM rahatA thA, bagadAda ke baahr| kahAnI bar3I pyArI hai| kahAnI hI hai, aitihAsika to ho nahIM sakatI, magara bar3I manovaijJAnika hai| eka dina usane dekhA ki eka kAlI chAyA bar3I tejI se bagadAda meM jA rahI hai| daravAje ke bAhara hI usakA jhopar3A thA nagara ke| usane kahA, ruka! kauna hai tU? to usa kAlI chAyA ne kahA, maiM mauta huuN| aura kSamA kareM, bagadAda meM mujhe pAMca sau vyakti mArane haiN| phakIra ne kahA, jo usakI mrjii| mauta aMdara calI gii| paMdraha dina ke bhItara pAMca sau nahIM, pAMca hajAra AdamI mara gae! phakIra bar3A hairAna huA ki pAMca sau kahe the aura pAMca hajAra mara cuke! jaba mauta vApasa lauTI paMdraha dina ke bAda, to usane kahA, ruk| beImAna! mujhase jhUTha bolane kI kyA jarUrata thI! kahAM pAMca sau, aura mAra DAle pAMca hajAra! usane kahA, kSamA kreN| maiMne pAMca sau hI maare| bAkI sAr3he cAra hajAra apane Apa mara ge| maiMne nahIM maare| ve to dUsaroM ko marate dekha kara mara gae! jaba mahAmArI phailatI hai, to sabhI loga mahAmArI se nahIM mrte| kucha to dekha kara hI mara jAte haiM! itane loga mara rahe haiM, maiM kaise baca sakatA hUM! itane loga bImAra par3a rahe haiM, maiM kaise baca sakatA hUM! Page 182 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA tumane eka maje kI bAta dekhI ki DAkTara dina bhara lagA rahatA hai marIjoM kI duniyA meM aura nahIM mrtaa| bImArI--aura bImArI ke bIca par3A rahatA hai aura isako bImArI nahIM pkdd'tii| aura tumako jarA meM bImArI pakar3a jAtI hai! chUta kI bImArI! ekadama tumheM chU jAtI hai| aura DAkTara dina bhara na mAlUma kisa-kisa taraha ke marIjoM kA peTa dabA rahA hai| hAtha dekha rahA hai| nabja pakar3a rahA hai| iMjekzana lagA rahA hai| aura bImArI nahIM pakar3atI! aura tumheM bImArI pakar3a jAtI hai| tumhArA bhAva, basa tumheM pakar3A detA hai| yaha dekha kara bhI tumheM khayAla meM AtA hogA ki DAkTaroM meM tuma eka taraha kI sakhtI paaoge| tuma lAkha roo-dhoo; tumhArI patnI bImAra par3I hai, tuma lAkha roo-dhoo aura tumheM lagegA ki DAkTara bilakula udAsIna hai| usako udAsIna honA par3atA hai, nahIM to vaha kabhI kA mara cuke| usako udAsInatA rakhanI par3atI hai, sIkhanI par3atI hai| vaha usake vyavasAya kA aMga hai, anivArya aMga hai| usako eka udAsInatA kI parta or3hanI par3atI hai| aba yahAM to roja hI koI mara rahA hai| koI tumhArI akelI patnI mara rahI hai! roja koI maratA hai| na mAlUma kitane bImAra Ate haiM! yahAM agara eka kI bImArI se vaha AMdolita hone lage, to vaha khuda hI mara jaae| kabhI kA mara jAe! to vaha dhIre-dhIre kaThora ho jAtA hai| sakhta ho jAtA hai| usake cAroM tarapha eka parta gaharI ho jAtI hai, jisa parta ko pAra kara ke kITANu bhI praveza nahIM kara skte| DAkTara tumheM kaThora mAlUma hogaa| narse tumheM kaThora mAlUma hoNgii| aura tumheM lagatA hai ki yaha bAta to ThIka nahIM! DAkTara ko to dayAvAna honA caahie| nau ko to dayAvAna honA caahie| honA to cAhie, magara ve baceMge nhiiN| unake bacane kA eka hI upAya hai ki ve thor3I-sI kaThoratA rkheN| ve aprabhAvita rheN| kauna marA, kauna jIyA...yUM samajheM ki jaise philma meM kahAnI dekha rahe haiN| kucha lenA-denA nhiiN| sAkSIbhAva rakheM, to hI jiMdA raha sakate haiN| nahIM to jiMdA rahanA asaMbhava hai| unako bhI jInA hai, aura unake jIne ke lie yaha anivArya hai ki ve eka kaThoratA kA kavaca or3ha leN| yaha sUtra arthapUrNa hai isa dRSTi se ki isI sUtra ke kAraNa sAre dharma galata ho gae haiN| merA yahAM prayAsa yahI hai ki tumheM isa sUtra se Upara utthaauuN| merI ghoSaNA smjho| maiM kaha rahA hUM ki tumhArA svabhAva paryApta hai| tumheM kucha aura honA nahIM hai| isalie yatna kyA karanA hai! bhAvanA kyA karanI hai! tuma ho| tumheM jo honA cAhie vaha tuma ho hii| tumheM apane bhItara jAga kara dekhanA hai ki maiM kauna huuN| kucha honA nahIM hai| jo ho, usako hI pahacAnanA hai| Atma-paricaya karanA hai| AtmajJAna karanA hai| AtmajJAna ke lie bhAvanA kI jarUrata nahIM, vicAraNA kI jarUrata nahIM; yatna kI jarUrata nhiiN| AtmajJAna ke lie nirvicAra honA hai| prayatna-zUnya honA hai| daur3anA nahIM, baiThanA hai| bhAganA nahIM ThaharanA hai| na zarIra meM koI kriyA raha jAe, na mana meM koI kriyA raha jaae| donoM niSkriya ho jaaeN| basa, dhyAna kA saragama baja utthegaa| Page 183 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA citta meM vicAra nahIM, deha meM kriyA nahIM--usI akriyA kI avasthA meM tumhAre bhItara jo par3A hai hIrA--damaka utthegaa| jo sUraja chipA hai--ughar3a aaegaa| badaliyoM meM chipA hai, prakaTa ho jAegA; kSitija ke Upara uTha aaegaa| tuma Aloka se bhara jaaoge| aura yaha koI bAhya upalabdhi nahIM hai| yaha tumhArI nijatA hai, tumhArA svabhAva hai, tumhArI sahajatA hai| isa sahajatA meM hI AnaMda hai sahajAnaMda! dUsarA praznaH bhagavAna, yaha jIvana kyA hai? isa jIvana kA satya kyA hai? kahAM-kahAM nahIM khojA, lekina hAtha khAlI ke khAlI haiN| puruSottama! khojoge, to hAtha khAlI hI rheNge| aura kahAM-kahAM khojoge to khAlI hI rheNge| kahAM-kahAM khojane kA matalaba--bAhara-bAhara khojnaa| kAzI meM, ki kAbA meM, ki kailAza meN| gItA meM, ki kurAna meM, ki bAibila meN| kahate ho--kahAM-kahAM nahIM khojA! isIlie to khAlI ho| jhAMkanA hai apane bhItara--kahAM-kahAM nahIM khojanA hai| saba khoja chor3a do| baiTha rho| apane bhItara Thahara jaao| jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! usa sthiratA meM, usa sthitaprajJa kI avasthA meM, usa parama svAsthya meN...| svAsthya kA artha hai--svayaM meM Thahara jaanaa| svsth| sva meM sthita ho jaanaa| tuma paaoge| aura majA yaha hai--use hI pAnA hai, jise pAyA hI huA hai| use hI khojanA hai, jo milA hI huA hai| tuma use le kara hI Ae ho| vaha tumhAre janma ke sAtha AyA hai| janma ke pahale bhI tumhArA thA; aba bhI tumhArA hai; mRtyu ke bAda bhI tumhArA hogaa| magara tuma bhAgate phiro sArI duniyA meM, to svabhAvataH cuukoge| kyoMki bhItara to jhAMkane kA avasara na milegaa| aba tuma pUchate ho, yaha jIvana kyA hai? yaha prazna isalie uTha rahA hai ki tumane jIvana ko bhItara se jI kara nahIM dekhaa| buddhi meM basa, soca rahe ho ki jIvana kyA hai? jaise ki koI uttara mila jAegA! jIvana koI aisI cIja nahIM hai ki buddhi uttara de de| jIvana to jIne meM hai| jIvana koI vastu nahIM hai| isakA vizleSaNa nahIM ho sakatA--ki Tebila para rakha kara aura isakA tuma vizleSaNa kara DAlo, ki parakhanalI meM rakha kara aura isakI jAMca-par3atAla kara lo; ki tarAjU para taula lo, ki gajoM se nApa lo! yaha jIvana to tumhAre bhItara hai| tuma jIvita ho--aura pUchate ho, jIvana kyA hai? tuma sugaMdhita ho--aura pUchate ho sugaMdha kyA hai! tuma caitanya ho--aura pUchate ho: jIvana kyA hai? yahI hai jIvana--jo tuma ho| pUchate ho, jIvana kA satya kyA hai? kahAM-kahAM nahIM khojA? khojate raho; janama-janama se khoja rahe ho| khoja-khoja kara to khoyA hai| aba khoja chodd'o| Page 184 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maiM yahAM khoja chor3anA sikhAtA hUM baiTha raho mauna ho jaao| zabdoM meM mata talAzI zAstroM meM mata tlaasho| vahAM zabda hI paaoge| aura zabda saba thothe haiN| apane zUnya meM virAjo | aura usI zUnya meM avirbhAva hogA / |-- -- aura jise kahIM nahIM pAyA, baiThA hai| atithi bhI kyoM kaho cale ho / jo khojane calA hai, use hI khojanA hai| vo dila nasIba huA, jisako dAga bhI na milA / milA to gamakadA, jisameM cirAga bhI na milaa| gaI thI kahake, maiM lAtI hUM julphe yAra kI bU / phirI to bAde sabA kA dimAga bhI na milaa| asIra karake hameM kyoM rihA kiyA saiyAda / vo hama saphIra bhI chUTe, vo bAga bhI na milA || bhara Ae mahaphile-sAkI meM kyoM na AMkha apanI | vo benasIba haiM, khAlI AyAma bhI na milA / / cirAga lekara, irAdA thA, bakhta ddhuuNddheNge| zabe-phirAka thI, koI cirAga bhI na milaa|| khabara ko yAra kI bhejA thA, guma huA aisA havAse raphtA kA aba taka surAga bhI na milaa|| jalAla bAge jahAM meM vo aMdalIba haiM hama | use apane ghara meM pAoge vaha pahale se hI tumhArA atithi huA atitheya hai| vahI tumhArA mAlika hai, jisakI tuma khoja meM camana ko phUla mile, hamako dAga bhI na milA / / bhaTakoge bAhara, to yahI dazA hogii| bhara Ae mahaphile sAkI meM kyoM na AMkha apanI vo benasIba haiM, khAlI ayAga bhI na milaa| khAlI pyAlA bhI nahIM milegaa| zarAba se bharA huA pyAlA to bahuta dUra khAlI pyAlA bhI na milegaa| cirAga le ke, irAdA thA, bakhta ddhuuNddheNge| zabe-phirAka thI, koI cirAga bhI na milaa| yaha bAta kucha cirAga le kara DhUMDhane kI nahIM hai puruSottama ! DhUMDhane meM hI loga vyasta haiM! DhUMDhane meM hI loga parezAna haiN| DhUMDhane meM hI loga cUka rahe haiN| rAbiyA eka sUphI phakIra strI nikalatI thI rAste se jisa rAste se roja nikalatI thI, vahAM eka dUsarA phakIra hasana masajida ke samAne hamezA baiThA rahatA thA - AkAza kI tarapha hAtha uThAe, jholI phailaae| cillAtA thA, he prabhu, dvAra kholo ! rAbiyA ne kaI bAra isa hasana ko yUM masajida ke sAmane prArthanA karate dekhA thaa| eka dina usase na rahA gyaa| bar3I himmata kI aurata thii| jAkara hasana ko jhakajhora diyA aura kahA ki cupa rh| baMda kara yaha bakavAsa / maiM Page 185 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA tujhase kahatI hUM--daravAjA khulA hai| aura tU nAhaka cillA rahA hai ki daravAjA kholo| daravAjA kholo! tU apanI dhuna meM masta hai| daravAjA kholo--daravAjA kholo--isI meM lagA hai| daravAjA khulA hai! AMkha khol| bakavAsa baMda kr| daravAjA kabhI baMda nahIM thaa| eka samrATa kA vajIra mara gyaa| use eka vajIra kI jarUrata thii| kaise vajIra cunA jAe! sAre deza meM khojabIna kI gii| tIna buddhimAna vyakti rAjadhAnI lAe ge| aba rAjA ko cunanA thA ina tIna meM se koI ek| eka alamasta phakIra se usane pUchA ki, Apa hI koI rAstA btaao| kaise cunUM? tInoM mahAbuddhimAna haiN| bar3e medhAvI haiN| taya karanA muzkila hai ki kauna kisase jyAdA hai! eka se eka bar3ha kara haiM sb| maiM bar3I ulajhana meM par3a gayA hUM--kisako cunUM, kisako choDUM? tInoM cunane jaise lagate haiN| lekina AdamI to eka hI cAhie! phakIra ne use eka tarakIba btaaii| aura vaha tarakIba kAma A gii| una tInoM ko eka kamare meM baMda kiyA gayA aura una tInoM se kahA gyaa...| samrATa khuda gayA kamare meN| usane kahA ki maiM daravAjA baMda kara ke bAhara jA rahA huuN| isa daravAje para tAlA nahIM hai| dekho, tAle kI jagaha gaNita ke aMka likhe hue haiN| yaha eka pahelI hai| isa pahelI ko jo hala kara legA, vaha isa daravAje ko kholane meM samartha ho jaaegaa| so tuma yaha pahelI hala kara loge, to jo pahale nikala AegA pahelI hala kara ke, vahI vajIra ho jaaegaa| tInoM ko chor3a kara daravAjA baMda karake samrATa bAhara baiTha gyaa| do to ekadama se hisAba-kitAba lagAne meM laga ge| AMkar3e likhe unhoMne aura bar3e gaNita ke kAma meM laga ge| aura eka kone meM jAkara AMkha baMda kara ke baiTha gyaa| una donoM ne usakI tarapha dekhA ki yaha pAgala kyA kara rahA hai! are, yaha samaya AMkha baMda kara ke baiThane kA hai| hala kaise hogI pahelI? para unhoMne socA, acchA hI hai ki eka pratiyogI khatama huaa| vaha to apanI dhuna meM mst...| vaha pahelI aisI thI ki hala na ho| vaha pahelI to hala hone vAlI thI nhiiN| ve lage rahe--pahelI meM ulajhate gae, ulajhate gae! jAla bar3A hotA gyaa| aura vaha AdamI baiThA rahA cupacApa--baiThA rhaa| ekadama se utthaa| unheM patA hI nahIM calA ki vaha AdamI kaba bAhara nikala gyaa| vaha daravAjA baMda thA hI nahIM! vaha sirpha aTakA thaa| vaha AdamI zAMta baiThA rhaa| zAMta baiTha rhaa| usane kyA kiyA? vaha to sirpha mauna baitthaa| usane sAre vicAra alaga kara die| usane to dhyAna kiyaa| aura dhyAna kI eka adabhuta khUbI hai ki dRSTi nirmala ho jAtI hai| dRSTi pAradarzI ho jAtI hai| aMtardRSTi khula jAtI hai| acAnaka use bhItara se bodha huA ki daravAjA aTakA hai| pahelI saba zarArata hai| pahelI ulajhAne kA DhaMga hai| vaha utthaa| usane kahA ki sabase pahale to yahI dekha lenA cAhie ki daravAjA baMda bhI hai yA nahIM! phira pahelI hala karane meM lgnaa| Page 186 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA vaha utthaa| usane hAtha lagAyA ki daravAjA khula gayA! vaha bAhara nikala gyaa| ve donoM to ulajhe hI rahe pahelI sulajhAne meM, jo sulajhane vAlI thI hI nhiiN| unako to taba nIMda TUTI, jaba samrATa usa AdamI ko lekara bhItara AyA aura usane kahA, bhAiyo, aba hisAbakitAba baMda karo jisako bAhara nikalanA thA, vaha nikala cukA hai| vaha vajIra cuna liyA gayA hai| aba tuma kyA kara rahe ho! apane ghara jAo! unhoMne kahA, vaha nikalA kaise! kyoMki vaha to sirpha AMkha baMda kie baiThA thA ! samrATa ne kahA, vaha phakIra ne bhI mujhase kahA thA ki una tInoM meM jo dhyAna karane meM samartha hogA, vaha bAhara A jAegA jo gaNita biThAlane meM baiTheMge, ve aTaka jAeMge jo tarka lagAeMge, ye bhaTaka jaaeNge| kyoMki yaha daravAjA yUM hai, jaise jiNdgii| jiMdagI koI gaNita nahIM koI tarka nahIM jiMdagI bar3A khulA rAja hai jIo mauna se, zAMti se, paripUrNatA se to khulA rAja hai| magara ulajha sakate ho tuma / prema ko jAnane kA eka DhaMga hai--prema meM DUbo lekina svabhAvataH jo hoziyAra AdamI hai, cAlabAja AdamI hai, vaha kahegA, pahale maiM jAna to lUM ki prema kyA hai| phira DUbUMgA! basa, cUkegA phira jisane socA ki pahale jAna lUM - - prema kyA hai... / kaise jAnegA prema ! prema karake hI jAnA jAtA hai| aura to jAnane kA koI upAya nahIM hai| yA hai koI upAya ? miThAsa kA anubhava to svAda meM hai aura koI upAya nahIM / prakAza kA anubhava AMkha kholane meM hai| AMkha baMda kara ke koI baiThA rahe aura kahe ki AMkha taba kholUMgA, jaba maiM jAna lUM ki prakAza kyA hai? hai bhI yA nahIM! taba AMkha kholuuNgaa| vaha sadA hI AMkha baMda kie baiThA rahegA / vaha aMdhA hI banA rahegA / are, AMkha kholo! tuma kahate ho, jIvana kyA hai? aura jIvita ho tuma! jarA bhItara AMkha kholo| jIvana dhar3aka rahA hai| kauna dhar3aka rahA hai tumhAre hRdaya meM? yaha dhar3akana kisakI? ye zvAseM kisakI? yaha kauna prazna pUcha rahA hai? yaha kauna khojatA phirA hai? eka muammA hai, samajhane kA na samajhAne kA jiMdagI kAhe ko hai, khvAba hai dIvAne kaa|| huzna hai jAta merI, izka siphaata hai merii| hUM to maiM zama, magara bhesa hai paravAne kA / / jiMdagI bhI to pazImAM hai yahAM lA ke mujhe| DhUMDatI hai koI hIlA mere mara jAne kA / / aba use dAra pe le jA ke sulA de sAkI / yUM bahakanA nahIM acchA tere mastAne kaa|| hamane chAnI haiM bahuta dero harama kI galiyAM / - kahIM pAyA na ThikAnA tere dIvAne kaa|| , kisakI AMkheM dame Akhira mujhe yAda AtI haiN| dila murakkA hai, chalakate hue paimAne kaa|| Page 187 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA hara naphasa umre-gujaratA kI hai, maiyata phaanii| jiMdagI nAma hai mara-mara ke jie jAne kaa|| jiMdagI nAma hai mara-mara ke jie jAne kA! jiMdagI ko jAnanA hai, to pratipala atIta ke prati marate jaao| atIta ko mata Dhoo, atIta ke prati mara hI jaao| jo nahIM ho gayA--nahIM ho gyaa| atIta ke prati mara jAo aura bhaviSya ke prati bilakula hI rasa na lo| ina do cakkiyoM ke pATa ke bIca hI jiMdagI dabI jA rahI hai--atIta aura bhvissy| jiMdagI hai vrtmaan| jiMdagI hai--abhI aura yhaaN| aura tuma kahIM-kahIM bhaTaka rahe ho! atIta kI smRtiyoM meM--bhaviSya kI kalpanAoM meM! aisI thI jiMdagI; aisI honI cAhie jiMdagI! aura cUka rahe ho usase--jaisI hai jiNdgii| hamane chAnI haiM bahuta dairo-harama kI gliyaaN| maMdiroM aura masjidoM kI galiyAM chAnate raho, chAnate raho--khAka milegii| kahIM pAyA na ThikAnA tere dIvAne kaa| pAoge nhiiN| kucha bhI na paaoge| hUM to maiM zama, magara bhesa hai paravAne kaa|| huzna hai jAta merI, izka siphaata hai merii| hUM to maiM zama, magara bhesa hai paravAne kaa|| bheSa meM hI mata bhaTaka jaanaa| yaha zarIra to sirpha vastra hai| yaha mana bhI aura bhItara kA vastra hai| usake bhItara--zarIra aura mana ke bhItara jo sAkSI baiThA hai, vahI! hUM to maiM zama--vaha jyoti hai anaMta, zAzvata, kAlAtIta; magara bhesa hai paravAne kA! isa bhesa ko agara dekhoge, to bhUla ho jaaegii| bheSa kucha hai aura jo bhItara chipA hai, vaha kucha aur| na tuma deha ho, na tuma mana ho| tuma caitanya ho| tuma saccidAnaMda ho| tumhArA nAma pyArA hai puruSottama! puruSottama kA artha samajhate ho! puruSa kahate haiM, pura kahate haiM nagara ko| aura puruSa kahate haiM, usa nagara ke bhItara jo basA hai usko| puruSa kA saMbaMdha strIpuruSa kA nahIM hai| strI bhI puruSa hai; puruSa bhI puruSa hai| puruSa kA saMbaMdha hai, yaha jo nagara hai mana kaa...| aura nagara bar3A hai mana kaa| bar3A vistAra hai isakA! aura yaha deha bhI kucha choTI nhiiN| isa deha kI bhI bar3I AbAdI hai| baMbaI kI AbAdI bahuta thor3I hai| tumhArI deha meM koI sAta karor3a jIvANu haiN| baMbaI kI AbAdI to abhI eka karor3a bhI pUrI nhiiN| Tokiyo kI AbAdI hai eka krodd'| Tokiyo se sAta gunI AbAdI hai tumhaarii| yaha deha sAta karor3a jIvita aNuoM kA nagara hai, virATa nagara hai| isa choTI-sI deha meM bar3A rAja chipA hai| aura mana kA to tuma vistAra hI na puucho| jamIna se AkAza ke kulAbe milAtA rahA hai| isakA phailAva kitanA hai! Page 188 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA manovaijJAnika kahate haiM ki eka-eka mana kI itanI kSamatA hai ki pRthvI para jitane zAstra haiM, jitane graMtha haiM, jitanI kitAbeM haiM, jitane pustakAlaya haiM--eka AdamI yAda kara sakatA hai-- itanI kSamatA hai! aura thor3I-bahuta kitAbeM nahIM haiN| sirpha briTiza myUjiyama kI lAyabrerI meM itanI kitAbeM haiM ki agara hama eka kitAba ke bAda eka kitAba ko rakhate cale jAeM, to jamIna ke sAta cakkara pUre ho jaaeNge| itanI hI kitAbeM mAsko kI lAyabrerI meM haiN| aura duniyA meM bahuta bar3I-bar3I lAyabreriyAM haiN| ye sAre pustakAlaya bhI eka AdamI yAda kara sakatA hai, itanI kSamatA hai| itanA tumhAre mastiSka kA phailAva ho sakatA hai| aura isa mastiSka aura isa deha ke bhItara chipA baiThA hai jIvana, caitny| puruSa yAnI isa pura ke bhItara jo bAsA hai; vaha jo isa pura ke bhItara keMdra para baiThA huA hai| aura jaba tuma ise jAna lete ho, to puruSottama ho jAte ho| taba tuma sAdhAraNa puruSa nahIM raha jaate| uttama ho jAte ho| tuma zikhara chU lete ho|| mata khojo kahIM aur| jo bhItara hai, use bAhara khojoge--cuukoge| vahAM hai hI nahIM, to pAoge kaise! dairo harama kI galiyAM chAnate raho--khAka milegii| bhItara jhaaNko| svayaM ko jAna lenA saba kucha jAna lenA hai| aura jo svayaM ko nahIM jAnatA, vaha kucha bhI jAna le, kucha bhI nahIM jaantaa| ika sAdhe saba sadhai, saba sAdhe saba jAe! tuma eka ko sAdha lo, bs| yaha jo tumhAre bhItara puruSa hai, isako hI pahacAna lo| itanA kAphI hai| aura tumhArA jIvana rozana ho jaaegaa| jagamagA utthegaa| dIpAvalI ho jaaegii| aura aise dIe, jo phira bujhate nhiiN| aura aisI rozanI jo phira kabhI dhImI nahIM hotii| jo pragAr3ha se pragAr3hatara hotI calI jAtI hai| isI parama jyoti kA nAma paramAtmA hai| AtmA kA hI parama rUpa paramAtmA hai| tIsarA prazna: bhagavAna, zrI kammU bAbA eka sUphI phakIra the, jinakA do sAla pahale dehAMta ho gyaa| ve goregAMva baMbaI meM rahate the, jahAM para aba unakI majAra hai| merI aMtarAtmA mAnatI hai ki ve prabuddha saMta the, jinhoMne satya ko samajhA thaa| dayA aura karuNA ke samudra the| sabhI dharma va samAja ke vyakti unake pAsa jAte aura zAMti pAte the| khUba masta phakIra the| unhoMne mere bahuta prayAsa karane para mujhe eka sUphI kalAma diyaa| usake savA sAla bAda hI unakA dehAMta ho gyaa| unheM kucha pUcha na paayaa| kyoMki marane ke eka sAla pahale ve bilakula bacce kI taraha ho gae the| kalAma kisa DhaMga se par3hanA hai, isakA unhoMne koI sunizcita tauratarIkA va niyama nahIM btaayaa| jaba icchA ho, jahAM ho, unakA diyA kalAma par3ha sakate haiN| maiM kucha samaya se Apase bahuta adhika prabhAvita hUM, paraMtu socatA hUM ki yadi maiMne Apase saMnyAsa liyA, to kahIM zrI kammU bAbA tathA unake die gae sUphI kalAma kA tiraskAra to na hogA? kabhI yaha bhI socatA hUM ki zAyada isa kalAma kI hI anukaMpA se aura sadaguru Page 189 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kammU bAbA ke phajala se hI merI Apake prati itanI Asakti bar3ha gaI ho| isa sthiti meM kRpayA merA mArgadarzana kiijie| mujhe isa dvaMdva se mukta kiijie| ajayakRSNa lakhanapAla ! pahalI to bAta yahaH sadaguru baMdhana nahIM hai -- mukti hai| sadaguru se bhI baMdha jAoge, to tumane mukti ko bhI jaMjIroM meM DhAla liyaa| maiM hUM Aja mujhase jo sIkha sako, sIkha lo| jo jAna sako jAna lo aura agara tumane mujhase kucha sIkhA aura jAnA aura vaha adhUrA raha gayA, to vahI ruka to nahIM jAnA hai| kala phira khojnaa| jaba maiM na rahUM, to phira kisI jIvita guru ko khojnaa| agara tumane eka bAra jIvita guru ko pahacAnA ho thor3I bhI usakI chAyA pAI ho, thor3I bhI usase kiraNa jhalakI ho, to yaha dvaMdva uThegA hI nahIM kyoMki do sadaguru bhinna nahIM hote| hajAra sadaguru bhI bhinna nahIM hote| hajAra zUnyoM ko bhI pAsa le Ao, to eka hI zUnya banatA hai| nahIM, tuma unheM bhI nahIM phcaane| tuma mujhe bhI nahIM pahacAnate ho| tuma mAnate ho ki tumane unheM phcaanaa| agara pahacAnA hotA, to yaha dvaMdva hI khar3A na hotA / taba tuma tatkSaNa mujhe pahacAna lete| taba dera hI na thI / sAtha bhI baMdhana hI khar3e kara lekina hamArI dhAraNAeM bar3I ajIba haiN| hamane to sadaguruoM ke lie| koI mahAvIra se baMdha gyaa| to paccIsa sau sAla ho gae, pIr3hI dara pIr3hI baMdhA huA hai! aba mahAvIra kA kahIM nAmonizAna na rahA jo mahAvIra ke pAsa the, unhoMne kucha pAyA jarUra paayaa| lekina aba paccIsa sau sAla meM jo paraMparAgata rUpa se mahAvIra ko mAna rahe haiM, unake pAsa kyA hai? satya kI koI paraMparA nahIM hotI / isalie tiraskAra kabhI hotA hI nahIM / aura sAre sadaguruoM kA saMdeza eka hai jaba maiM na rahUM aura tumhAre lie kucha adhUrA raha jAe, to jarUra kisI sadaguru ko khojanA | vaha merA tiraskAra nahIM hai| saca to yaha hai ki vahI merA sammAna hogaa| vahI merA sammAna hogaa| kyoMki tumane itanA pAyA thA ki aba tuma use pUrA karane ke lie Atura ho rahe ho| lekina sadaguruoM ke nAma se bahuta se to jhUThe guru calate haiM ve yahI sikhAte haiM ki guru yAnI vaisA hI saMbaMdha hai, jaisA pati-patnI kA / ki eka ko cuna liyA, to basa, eka ke hI! ye jhUThe guru tumhArA baMdhana bana jAte haiN| inakA Agraha vahI hai, jo pati-paniyoM kA hai ye tumheM apanI saMpatti banA lete haiN| ye tumhAre mAlika hokara baiTha jAte haiN| aura inako Dara hotA hai ki kahIM tuma haTa na jaao| to ye tumhAre bhItara aparAdhabhAva paidA karate haiM ki aba kisI aura ko mata cunanA / kisI aura ko cunanA apamAna hogA merA ! aura tuma kisI aura ko cunoge, to tumhAre bhItara ye aparAdha ke bhAva ko chor3a jAeMge eka bhItara ghAva kara jaaeNge| Page 190 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA nahIM; sadaguru yaha nahIM krtaa| sadaguru kA yaha kAma hI nahIM hai| sadaguru kA kAma itanA hai ki tumhArI mukti honI caahie| tumhAre jIvana meM saubhAgya kA udaya honA caahie| kahAM se hotA hai, kisa bahAne hotA hai- isa para aTakegA sadaguru ? sUphI kalAma se hotA hai; ki dhyAna se hotA hai; mere pAsa hotA hai --ki kisI aura ke pAsa agara maiMne tumheM prema diyA hai, - hotA hai isase kyA pharka par3atA hai| agara maiM tumheM cAhatA hUM, to maiM yahI cAhUMgA ki tuma mukta ho jAo kisI bhI bahAne jAnA hai--kisa nAva meM baiThate ho, kisakI nAva meM baiThate ho, par3atA hai! sahI! saba bahAne haiM usa pAra kauna mAjhI hai isase kyA pharka usa pAra jAnA hai| aura agara tuma abhI isI pAra ho, aura tumhAre guru usa pAra cale gae, to kisI nAva meM baiThanA pdd'egaa| aba vaha nAva kAma nahIM aaegii| aba vaha sUphI kalAma tumhAre kAma nahIM aaegaa| -- vaha sUphI kalAma itanA hI agara kara gayA ki phira tuma kisI aura guru ko pahacAna lo, to paryAsa hai| bahuta hai| itanA kAma ho gyaa| dhanyavAda do ki usane tumheM itanI dRSTi de dI usane tumheM itanA bodha de diyA ki tuma aba mAjhI ko pahacAna sakate ho; ki tuma nAva pahacAna sakate ho| itanI tumheM AMkha de dI / isameM dvaMdva kI koI saMbhAvanA nahIM hai ajayakRSNa lakhanapAla ! tuma pUchate ho, maiM kucha samaya se Apase bahuta adhika prabhAvita huuN| paraMtu socatA hUM ki yadi maiMne Apase saMnyAsa liyA...! aura saMnyAsa kyA mujhase liyA jAtA hai? yA kisI aura se liyA jAtA hai? ye saba to bahAne haiN| jaise hama khUMTI para koTa ko TAMga dete haiN| aba kisI khUMTI para koTa ko TAMgate haiM--isase kyA pharka par3atA hai| koTa TAMganA hai| khUMTI na mile, to khIlI para bhI TAMga dete haiN| aura khIlI na mile, to daravAje para bhI TAMga dete haiN| TAMganA hai| kucha na mile, to kursI para hI rakha dete haiN| kahIM na kahIM TAMganA hai| savAla hai koTa ko TAMganA ! artha hai- ahaMkAra ko samarpita karanA kisI bhI bahAne kara do| saMnyAsa kA itanA hI ahaMkAra eka jhUTha hai lekina tumase chUTatA nahIM to sadaguru kahatA hai- lAo, mujhe de do| tumase chUTate nahIM mujhe de do! calo yaha bheMTa mujhe car3hA do yaha bImArI mujhe de do| tumase nahIM chuutttaa| tuma samajhate ho hIre-javAharAta haiN| to calo, maiM lie letA huuN| hai to kucha bhI nahIM; khAlI havA hai| havA se phUlA gubbArA hai| saMnyAsa kA itanA hI artha hotA hai-- ahaMkAra kA smrpnn| isameM kyA merA - aura kyA terA ! maiM to sirpha eka nimita huuN| yahAM chor3a do yA kahIM aura chor3a denaa| jahAM mauja A jAe, vahAM chor3a denaa| magara itanA dhyAna rakho... / tuma kahate jarUra ho ki tumhArI aMtarAtmA mAnatI hai ki ve prabuddha saMta the| magara jAnatI nahIM- mAnatI hI hogii| agara tuma jAnate hote, to yaha dvaMdva uThatA hI nhiiN| tuma tatkSaNa mujhe Page 191 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA pahacAna lete| jisane eka dIyA dekha liyA jalatA huA, kyA vaha dUsare jalate hue dIe ko dekha kara pahacAna nahIM pAegA ki yaha jalatA huA dIyA hai! lekina jisane bujhA dIyA--mAnA ho--ki jalA huA dIyA hai--usako ar3acana hogii| vaha kaise taya kare ki yaha bhI jalA hai ki nahIM! usane jyoti to dekhI nhiiN| rahI ho--na rahI ho; mAnI thii| rahI ho--to bhI mAnI thii| na rahI ho, to bhI mAnI thii| usakI mAnyatA thii| tumhAre mAnane se kammU bAbA kA siddha-puruSa honA yA na honA kucha bhI saMbaMdhita nahIM hai| tuma mAno ki siddhapuruSa the, to tumhArI mAnyatA hai| tuma mAno ki nahIM siddha-puruSa the, to tumhArI mAnyatA hai| isase kammU bAbA ke saMbaMdha meM kucha khabara nahIM miltii| isase sirpha tumhArI dhAraNA kA patA calatA hai| aura tumhArI dhAraNA ke kAraNa hI ar3acana A rahI hai| tuma apanI atIta kI dhAraNA ko pakar3e hae baiThe ho| aura ar3acana kyA hai? ar3acana yaha nahIM hai ki kammU bAbA kA tiraskAra ho jaaegaa| samajhane kI koziza karanA ajayakRSNa lakhanapAla! ar3acana yaha hai ki tuma apane atIta meM koI bhUla kie ho, yaha mAnane kI taiyArI nahIM hai| merA atIta aura bhUla bharA ho sake? ki maiMne aura galata ko pahacAnA ho? kabhI nhiiN| ahaMkAra kahatA hai, aisA ho nahIM sktaa| tuma aura galata ko mAno! tumane jaba mAno, to ThIka hI mAnA thaa| yaha savAla kammU bAbA ko chor3ane aura nahIM chor3ane kA nahIM hai| yaha savAla tumhAre atIta ke ahaMkAra ko chor3ane aura nahIM chor3ane kA hai| ar3acana vahAM A rahI hai| magara ahaMkAra bar3A cAlabAja hai| vaha sIdhA-sAdhA sAmane khar3A nahIM hotaa| nahIM to tuma pahacAna loge| vaha pIche se AtA hai| vaha tumheM pIche se pakar3atA hai! vaha tarakIba se pakar3atA hai| vaha bar3I hoziyArI se pakar3atA hai| vaha dUsare ke kaMdhe para rakha kara baMdUka calAtA hai| aba vaha kammU bAbA ke kaMdhe para baMdUka rakha kara calA rahA hai! kammU bAbA to rahe nahIM, to vaha kaha bhI nahIM sakate ki bhaiyA, mere kaMdhe para baMdUka mata rkho| aba tumhArI marjI, kisI ke bhI kaMdhe para rakha lo| vaha kammU bAbA ke kaMdhe para baMdUka rakha kara calA rahA hai tumhArA ahNkaar| vaha kaha rahA hai, saMnyAsa mata lenaa| kammU bAbA kA tiraskAra ho jAegA! asala bAta yaha hai ki vaha yaha kaha rahA hai ki saMnyAsa mata lenA, nahIM to mujhe tyAganA par3egA! kammU bAbA se kyA lenA-denA! aura kammU bAbA ko agara tuma pahacAnate the, to saMnyAsa meM kSaNa bhara kI derI karane kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| koI AvazyakatA nahIM hai| do jyotiyAM alaga-alaga nahIM hotii| ho hI nahIM sktiiN| jyoti kA svarUpa eka hai| usa bAra bhI tuma cUka gae; kammU bAbA ke sAtha bhI tuma cUka ge| isa bAra bhI mata cUka jaanaa| taba tuma cUka gae mAnyatA ke kaarnn| jAna na pAe aura mAna liyaa| hameM sadiyoM se yahI sikhAyA gayA hai--mAna lo| hama se yaha kahA gayA hai ki mAna lo, to jAna skoge| isase bar3I jhUTha koI bAta nahIM ho sktii| Page 192 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jarA soco! mAna lo to jAna sakoge--yaha hamAre sAre dharmoM kA AdhAra bana gayA hai| lekina jisane mAna liyA, vaha aba kyA khAka jAnegA! aba jAnane ko kyA bacA? mAna hI liyaa| niSkarSa hI le liyaa| jAnane meM to mukta mana caahie| koI niSkarSa nahIM caahie| koI dhAraNA nhiiN| koI vizvAsa nahIM, koI avizvAsa nhiiN| jAnane ke lie to khule mana se yAtrA karanI hotI hai--ki mujhe kucha patA nhiiN| jisako pahale se hI patA hai ki kyA ThIka hai aura kyA galata hai--vaha kabhI nahIM jAna paaegaa| usakA galata aura ThIka--hamezA bIca meM A jaaegaa| vaha vahI bhUla karegA, jo yogavaziSTa ke sUtra kI hai| tumane mAna liyA thA; tuma cUka gae unako jAnane se| mujhe mata mAna lenA--nahIM to mujhe bhI cUka jaaoge| yahAM to jAnane kI bAta hai; mAnane kI bAta nahIM hai| jAno--phira maannaa| mAnanA pIche hai--jAnanA pahale hai| aura kammU bAbA ko Ar3a mata bnaao| lakhanapAla! Dara kucha aura haiN| lekina hama DaroM ko bhI suMdara veza pahanAte haiN| aba tumane kitanA suMdara veza pahanAyA! Dara hogA ki kahIM mAM dukhI na ho| lekina vaha tuma na khoge| bhaya kucha aura hogA--ki loga kyA kaheMge! ki pAgala ho gae! ajayakRSNa lakhanapAla udyogapati haiM--bar3e udyogapati haiN| maraphI reDiyo ko banAne ke kArakhAne ke mAlika haiN| to Darate hoMge ki loga kyA kaheMge! ki ajaya, kRSNa tuma bhI pAgala ho gae! tuma bhI dIvAne ho gae! ye gairika vastra pahana kara cale A rahe ho! mAM hai| mAM muzkila meM DAla degii| patnI se to talAka ho gayA hai| yaha acchA huA! yaha bahuta hI acchA huA! eka ar3acana to httii| lekina mAM! mAM dikkata degii| ve tumane savAla nahIM utthaae| ve asalI savAla haiN| becAre kammU bAbA ko kyoM ghasITa rahe ho! kyoM murdo ko bIca meM lA rahe ho! majAroM ko bIca meM khar3A mata kro| jarA jAMca-parakha karo bhiitr| aura ahaMkAra hai, jo yaha kaha rahA hai ki tumane kammU ko mAnA thaa| aba badala rahe ho? beImAnI kara rahe ho! dagAbAjI kara rahe ho! gaddArI kara rahe ho! yaha bhASA hI rAjanIti kI hai| yaha bhASA dharma kI nahIM hai| agara tumane kammU bAbA ko jAnA thA, aura vaha jyoti vidA ho gaI--mahAjyoti meM lIna ho gaI--to merI tarapha gaura se dekho| vahI jyoti phira maujUda hai| jyoti to hamezA vahI hai| buddha kI ho| mahAvIra kI ho| kRSNa kI ho| kabIra kI ho| nAnaka kI ho| jyoti to sadA vahI hai| kyoMki satya eka hai| isalie kaisA tiraskAra! kisakA tiraskAra! tiraskAra ho hI nahIM sakatA jyoti ke jagata meN| lekina ahaMkAra yaha bAta mAnane ko rAjI nahIM hotA ki maiMne jisako pakar3A thA, vaha bhrAMti thI; ki maiM kabhI bhUla kara sakatA hUM ki maiMne kabhI atIta meM bhUla kI hai| ahaMkAra atIta Page 193 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA para jItA hai; atIta usakA bhojana hai, usakA poSaNa hai| aura maiM kahatA hUM--atIta se bilakula chuTakArA pA jaao| usameM kammU bAbA bhI A jaaeNge| aura maiM yaha nahIM kaha rahA hUM ki kammU bAbA siddhapuruSa nahIM the| isase kucha lenA-denA nahIM hai tumheN| siddhapuruSa the, to kyA karoge! siddhapuruSa nahIM the, to kyA karoge! jo bhI the--gae usa paar| isa pAra aba nAva nahIM hai| abhI merI nAva isa para hai| baiThanA ho--baiTha jaao| kala calI jAegI, phira pachatAoge, phira rooge! phira yaha dvaMdva khar3A hogA ki maiMne yaha kyA kiyA! maiM baiTha kyoM na gayA isa nAva meM? itanA prabhAvita thaa| taba phira tuma kisI se pUchoge jA kara ki aba aura eka muzkila se gii| do AdamiyoM se prabhAvita thA--eka kammU bAbA, aura eka maiN| aura aba tIsare ko kaise cunanA! do ko cunA nahIM--aba tIsare ko kaise cunanA? yUM hI tuma jiMdagI bhara bhaTakate rhoge| mAjhI apanI nAveM usa pAra le jAte raheMge, tuma isI pAra aTake rhoge| itanA maiM tumase kaha sakatA hUM ki saMnyAsa apUrva kImiyA hai--ahaMkAra ke visarjana kI, atIta ke visarjana kI, nava janma kii| sAhasa ho, to DUba jaao| aura koI bahAne na khojo| jarUra kammU bAbA ne tumheM jo kalAma diyA thA, usakI vajaha se hI tuma mere pAsa A gae hooge| pratyeka sadaguru apane ziSyoM ke lie iMtajAma kara jAtA hai| agara na baiTha pAeM usakI nAva meM, cUka jAeM, bhaTaka jAeM, samaya para na pahuMca pAeM, dera-abera kara deM--to yUM na ho ki pIche unake lie koI upAya na raha jaae| itanI sUjha to de jAtA hai, itanA bodha de jAtA hai ki ve phira kisI aura ko pahacAna leMge; kisI aura mAjhI ko pahacAna leNge| dvaMdva chodd'o| lekina Dara kucha aura hogaa| Dara mere hisAba meM yaha hai ki mAM se tuma Dare hae ho| mAM dukhI na ho jAe!... aba dekhA, saMta mahArAja kI tIna dina se maiM bAta kara rahA thaa| kala unakI bahana ne, piMkI ne saMnyAsa lene kA taya kara liyaa| unake pitA yahAM mere sAmane baiThe ro rahe the| AMsU kI dhAra lagI huI thii| aura saMta se unhoMne kahA bhI ki aba amRtasara jAne kI koI icchA nahIM hotii| vahAM dukha hI dukha hai| aba yahIM ruka jAne kA mana hotA hai| saMta ne kahA, kauna kahatA hai jaao| ruka jaao| jiMdagI to raha lie vhaaN| aura aba amRtasara meM hai kyA! amRta yahAM hai--sara vahAM hai! aba kyA karoge amRtasara meM raha kara? ruka jaao| taba taka saba ThIka thaa| tabhI unakI beTI ne piMkI ne Akara pUchA ki maiM saMnyAsa le lUM! basa, saba tirohita ho gayA bhaav| usakA hAtha pkdd'aa| ghasITa kara usako jabardastI rikze meM DAla liyaa| bhIr3a bhI laga gii| logoM ne samajhAyA bhI ki yaha kyA kara rahe haiM! saMta ne bhI kahA ki vaha caubIsa sAla kI hai, yaha kyA kara rahe haiM? magara ve to phira bhUla hI gae usa krodha meM ki yaha merI cIja hai!...lar3akI tumhArI cIja hai? cIja? AdamI ko cIja kahate hameM zarma bhI nahIM aatii| AtmA ko cIja banA dete haiM! magara Page 194 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA hama sadiyoM se yaha kahate rahe haiN| kanyAdAna karate haiN| jaise cIja ho koii| kanyAdAna! strI-dhana kahate haiM hama--ki strI to dhana hai| hamane striyoM kA kitanA apamAna kiyA hai! caubIsa varSa kI lar3akI--kaba isako mukti doge ki apane DhaMga se soca sake? magara usako ghasITa liyaa| saMta ne kahA bhI ki usako agara saMnyAsa lenA hai, to lene deN| aura abhI to Apa hI kahate the ki jAne kA mana nahIM hotaa| aura vaha bhI yahI kaha rahI hai ki merA bhI jAne kA mana nahIM hai aba! Apako jAnA ho, to jaaeN| maiM yahAM ruka jAnA cAhatI huuN| AgababUlA ho ge| phira unhoMne dera nahIM kii| pUnA unheM khataranAka mAlUma par3A, ki kahIM unakI cIja--unakI lar3akI kahIM hAtha se na chUTa jAe! ThIka yahAM se jAkara hoTala meM se sAmAna nikAla kara ve bhAga hI khar3e hue! saMta jaba taka hoTala meM pahuMcA, to ve apanA sAmAna TaiksI meM rakha rahe the! saMta ne kahA ki itanI jaldI kyA hai! unhoMne kahA, basa, aba bAta hI mata kro| maiM eka minaTa yahAM nahIM ruka sktaa| yaha to khataranAka mAmalA hai! tatkSaNa amRtasara cale gae, jahAM dukha hI dukha hai--unake hI hisAba se! aura vaha lar3akI bhI nahIM jAnA cAhatI, aura ve bhI nahIM jAnA caahte| lekina jaba lar3akI ne kahA ki maiM saMnyAsa lenA cAhatI hUM, taba unake ahaMkAra ko coTa laga gii| aura jaba lar3akI ne jidda kI ki maiM yahIM ruka jAnA cAhatI hUM, aba Apake sAtha mujhe jAnA bhI nahIM hai, taba to bhArI AghAta ho gyaa| yUM khuda bhI yahAM rahanA cAhate the! aura pachatAeMge amRtasara jA kara ki yaha maiMne kyA kiyA! dukhI hoNge| sarala AdamI the| magara kitane hI sarala hoM, haiM to saradAra hI! to saralatA ko bhUla ge| eka kSaNa meM saradAra vApasa A gayA! atIta yUM hamale karatA hai| isa taraha AtA hai aMdhar3attUphAna kI bhAMti ki tumheM ur3A le jAtA hai| lar3akI ko jabardastI ghasITa kara le ge| aba saMta ko Dara hai ki ve zAyada zrInagara na gae hoM! bajAya amRtasara jAne ke| kyoMki zrInagara meM unhoMne lar3akA khoja rakhA hai| ve zAyada yahAM se sIdhe zrInagara jAeMge aura tatkSaNa lar3akI kI zAdI kara deMge, tAki unakI jhaMjhaTa miTa jAe-- tAki cIja kisI aura kI ho jAe! phira ve jAneM! aura mujhe bhI lagatA hai, ve yahI kreNge| aura jIvana bhara lar3akI ko dukhI kareMge aura khuda dukhI rheNge| aura aba yahAM Ane kI himmata bhI nahIM juTA skeNge| kyA muMha le kara AeMge! yaha jo da vyavahAra kiyA unhoMne apanI beTI ke sAtha! aura saMta se kahA ki agara apanI bahana ko yahAM lAnA ho, to amRtasara aanaa| vahAM tumheM majA cakhAUMgA! saradAra haiM! aura talavAra becane kA dhaMdhA karate haiM! so kRpANa nikala leMge ve, agara saMta gae vhaaN| aise saMta bhI agara purAne saMta hote, to yahIM kRpANa nikala jAtI! saMta bhI jaba pahale-pahale yahAM Ae the, to dhyAna kama karate the, kRpANa jyAdA calAte the! dhyAna meM! ekadama talavAra calA dete the! jaba saMta pahale-pahale dhyAna karate the, to vahAM sthAna Page 195 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA khAlI ho jAtA thaa| AsapAsa dasa-paMdraha loga ekadama haTa jAte the| kyoMki ve isa taraha talavAra calAte the! mujhase kaI daphA logoM ne kahA bhI ki yaha kisa taraha kA dhyAna hai! yaha to AdamI kisI ko mAra hI DAlegA! kyA kareM--ve bhI saradAra the| aba to saMta ho gae haiN| saradAra vagairaha saba kho gyaa| nahIM to kRpANa ve bhI calA sakate the! maiM balasAr3a meM eka zivira le rahA thaa| koI pAMca sau loga zivira meM sammilita the| aura eka saradAra jI bhI sammilita the| jaba sakriya dhyAna maiMne karavAyA aura maiMne kahA ki aba jo bhI dila meM ho--nikAla DAlo! to usa saradAra ne isa taraha se dhUMsebAjI kI ki pAMca sau ke pAMca sau dhyAnI chaMTa kara khar3e ho gae alg| saradAra akelA! pAMca sau ko haTA diyA! maidAna khAlI! kyoMki kaI ko coTeM mAra dI! vaha ghuse calAe! jaba dhyAna khatama huA, to saradAra ne dekhA ki bAta kyA huI! akele hI raha gae! saba loga khar3e ho kara dekha rahe haiM dUra se ki aba karanA kyA! taba use zarma lgii| mere pairoM para gira par3A aura kahA, mujhe mApha kreN| Apane kahA ki aba dila khola kara nikAla do, to jo bharA thA, maiMne nikAla diyaa| aba kisI ko coTa vagairaha lagI ho, to mujhe mApha karanA, kyoMki maiM kisI ko mAranA nahIM cAhatA thaa| magara jo dila meM bharA thaa...| jaba Apane kahA--nikAla hI do--aura samagratA se nikAla do, to phira maiMne kahA--aba kyA kaMjUsI karanA! yaha pahalI daphA to maukA aayaa| nikAla do! ajayakRSNa lakhanapAla, dvaMdva kahIM aura hai; vaha ahaMkAra aura tumhArI cetanA ke bIca hai| vaha atIta aura vartamAna ke bIca hai| aba kammU bAbA tumhAre lie sirpha atIta ke pratIka raha gae haiN| maiM vartamAna huuN| aura maiM tumase yaha kahatA hUM ki sadA vartamAna ke prati niSThA rakhanA, kyoMki vartamAna hI paramAtmA hai| atIta ho gyaa| sAMpa to nikala gayA, aba to sirpha reta para nizAna raha gae! pUjate raho cAhe to| tumhArI marjI--phUla car3hAte rho| lekina jo jA cukA-jA cukaa| aba tuma kitanA hI kammU bAbA kA kalAma par3hate raho, kucha bhI na hogaa| kalAma meM kucha nahIM hotA; jAdU hotA hai sadaguru meN| isalie akasara yaha huA hai--akasara kyA, hamezA yaha huA hai ki jo sUtra mahAvIra kI maujUdagI meM logoM ke jIvana meM dIe jalA die, vahI sUtra paccIsa sau sAla meM kisI kI jiMdagI meM dIe nahIM jalA ske| vahI sUtra! vahI ke vahI sUtra! jAdU thA mahAvIra meM, to jisa sUtra ko kaha diyA, usI meM jAdU A gyaa| vaha jAdU thA mahAvIra meN| vaha mahAvIra ke bhItara thA jaaduu| usa jAdU meM DUba kara jo sUtra AyA, usameM hI thor3A jAdU lipaTA A gyaa| vaha zUnya thA bhItara; vaha samAdhi thI bhItara--usameM DubakI mArakara jo bhI zabda AyA, vaha bhI usI mAdhurI se bhara kara aayaa| thor3A amRta usameM bhI baha aayaa| thor3I bUMdA-bAMdI usameM bhI ho gii| jisa para par3a gaIM ve bUMdeM, vaha jIvita ho utthaa| lekina aba paccIsa sau sAla se totoM kI taraha loga usI ko doharA rahe haiN| aba usameM kucha bhI nahIM hai| bAta kucha bhI nahIM hai| tumane isa para khayAla kiyA ki davA kama kAma karatI hai, cikitsaka jyAdA kAma karatA hai| davA meM jAdU nahIM hotA, jAdU cikitsaka meM hotA hai| aura agara kabhI ThIka cikitsaka Page 196 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jisase tumhArI zraddhA kA tAlamela baiTha jAe, miTTI bhI thamA de, to auSadhi ho jAtI hai| aura jisase tumhArI zraddhA kA tAlamela na baiThA ho, tumheM amRta bhI pilAe, to jahara ho jaaegaa| agara tuma saca meM hI mujhase prabhAvita ho, to aba soco mt| agara saca meM hI prabhAvita ho, to chalAMga lo| aba mata pUcho ki phira socatA hUM ki maiMne Apase saMnyAsa liyA, to kahIM kammU bAbA aura unake die sUphI kalAma kA tiraskAra to na hogA! yahI sammAna hogaa| tiraskAra kaise hogA! tiraskAra hotA hI nahIM sadaguru kaa| tuma karanA bhI cAho, to nahIM hotaa| sadaguru kA tiraskAra kiyA hI nahIM jA sktaa| aura yaha to koI savAla hI nahIM tiraskAra kaa| yaha to sammAna hogaa| yaha to jahAM taka yAtrA tumhArI ruka gaI hai, usase Age bar3hanA hogaa| isase kammU bAbA kI AtmA kahIM bhI hogI, to AnaMdita hogii| tuma para phUla barasA degii| isameM dvaMdva kucha bhI nahIM hai| lekina hAM, agara koI aura dvaMdva bhItara chipeM hoM ki loga kyA kaheMge! vaha tuma mujhase bhI nahIM kaha sakate; pUcha bhI nahIM sakate ki loga kyA kaheMge; ki mAM kyA khegii| parivAra kyA kahegA; sAjhIdAra kyA kaheMge! lauTa kara bar3audA jAoge, to bar3audA ke loga kaheMge, are! yaha tumheM kyA ho gayA! auroM kI to bAta chor3a do, mere saMnyAsI jaba apane ghara jAte haiM, to unake bacce unase pUchate haiM ki pApA! ApakA bhI dimAga kharAba ho gayA! yaha Apako kyA ho gayA! mere eka mitra saMnyAsa lekara vArANasI gae, vahAM unakA ghara, paMdraha dina bAda unakI khabara AI ki aspatAla se likha rahA hUM, kyoMki mere parivAra ke logoM ne mujhe aspatAla meM bharatI karavA diyA hai aura kAraNa yaha hai ki maiM jiMdagI bhara kA dukhI AdamI, udAsa AdamI, jaba lauTakara AyA, to nAcatA huA aayaa| jaba ghara utarA tAMge se, to nAcatA huA, gIta gAtA huA aMdara gayA! patnI ne kahA ki are, kyA pAgala ho gae! ghara bhara ke loga ikaTThe ho ge| muhalle bhara ke loga A gae ki ho kyA gayA tumheM! acche-bhale gae the! to unako bahuta haMsI aaii| unhoMne kahA ki maiM acchA-bhalA gayA thA! acchA-bhalA hotA, to jAtA hI kyoM? are, rotA huA gayA thA! haMsatA huA AyA huuN| mUryo! jaba maiM ro rahA thA, taba tuma koI Ae n| aura aba jaba maiM haMsa rahA hUM, to tuma samajha rahe ho, maiM pAgala ho gayA! ve to bilakula hI samajha gae ki bilakula ho gayA pAgala! bilakula gayA kAma se! pakar3a kara bistara para liTA diyA! to unhoMne mujhe likhA ki maiM haMsane lagA! khilakhilAhaTa chUTane lagI mujhe ki hadda ho rahI hai! majA A rahA hai! yaha bhI khUba rahI! jiMdagI dukha meM gii| koI sahAnubhUti ko bhI na aayaa| Aja haMsatA huA AyA hUM, to mujhe bistara para liTA rahe haiM jabardastI! muhalle ke logoM ne kahA, letto| DAkTara ko bulAo! are, maiMne kahA, kyA pAgala ho gae ho! mujhe DAkTara mila gayA! Page 197 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA magara ve bole ki tuma cupa raho tuma bAta hI na karo tuma to AMkheM baMda kara ke vizrAma kro| tuma thor3A ArAma karo! DAkTara ko bulA liyaa| DAkTara ko dekhakara unako aura haMsI AI DAkTara nabja dekha rahA hai, sTetheskopa lagA kara dekha rahA hai ! to unako hNsii...| DAkTara ne kahA, haMsanA baMda kro| mujhe pahale jAMca karane do| unhoMne kahA ki haMsI isI bAta kI A rahI hai ki jAMca karane ko kucha hai nhiiN| jaba jAMca karane ko bahuta kucha thA, taba kahAM the? taba koI na AyA ! DAkTara ne bhI kahA patnI ko ki bAta khataranAka hai zArIrika koI mAmalA nahIM hai| mAnasika koI gar3abar3a hai| aspatAla meM hI bharatI kara denA ThIka hai| to unhoMne aspatAla se hI likhA hai ki aspatAla meM par3A huuN| haMsa rahA hUM davAiyAM le rahA hU~! ajIba yaha duniyA hai| yahAM haMsI kSamA nahIM kI jA sktii| yahAM AnaMda bardAzta nahIM kiyA jA sktaa| yahAM dukha svIkAra hai sabhI ko, kyoMki sabhI dukhI haiN| ajayakRSNa lakhanapAla, avasara hai, cUko mata kahIM phira pIche pachatAnA na ho phira pachatAe hota kA, jaba cir3iyA cuga gaI kheta ! Aja itanA hii| AThavAM pravacana dinAMka 18 sitaMbara, 1980 zrI rajanIza Azrama, pUnA AcaraNa nahIM - bodha se krAMti pahalA prazna: bhagavAna, jamAnA ho gayA ghAyala terI sIdhI nigAhoM se khudA nA khAsatA tirachI najara hotI to kyA hotA ? muhammada husaina! sIdhI najara kAphI ho, to tirachI najara kI jarUrata kyA ! aura sIdhe-sIdhe jo kAma ho jAe, vaha tirache hone se nahIM hotaa| tirachA honA to mana kI Adata hai; sIdhA honA hRdaya kA svabhAva | maiM jo kaha rahA hUM, vaha do aura do cAra jaisA sIdhA sApha hai jisakI samajha meM na Ae, usakI samajha tirachI hogI, usake bhItara vikRtiyoM kA jAla hogaa| agara tumhAre pAsa bhI sIdhA-sAdA hRdaya ho, to merI bAta kA tIra ThIka nizAne para pahuMca hI jAegA, pahuMca hI jAnA caahie| prema se sunoge to sunate sunate hI krAMti ghaTa jaaegii| Page 198 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA mere sakUne-dila ko to honA hI thA tabAha unakI bhI eka nigAha kA nukasAna ho gayA aisA nukasAna maiM nahIM krtaa| jisako badalanA hai, jisake bhItara AturatA hai, abhIpsA hai badalane kI, vaha to jarA se izAre meM badala jAtA hai| mere sakUne-dila ko to honA hI thA tabAha unakI bhI eka nigAha kA nukasAna ho gayA jo taiyAra hI ho kara AyA hai miTane ko, usa para eka najara kA bhI nukasAna kyoM karanA! aura jo taiyAra ho kara hI AyA hai miTane ko, vahI miTegA; zeSa to vyartha kI bAtoM meM hI ulajhe raha jaaeNge| zeSa to aisI bAtoM meM ulajhe raha jAeMge, jinase unakA koI prayojana na thaa| AdamI kI mUDhatA aisI hai ki kAMToM ko cuna letA hai, phUloM ko chor3a detA hai| rAtoM ko gina letA hai, dinoM ko chor3a detA hai| dukhoM ko pakar3a letA hai, AnaMda kA jAma bhI lie usake sAmane baiThe raho--dekhegA hI nhiiN| aise vyakti ke jIvana meM prArthanA nahIM uTha sktii| aise vyakti ke jIvana meM to zikAyateM hI zikAyateM hoNgii| soje-gama de ke mujhe usane ye irzAda kiyaa| jA tujhe kazmakaze-dahara se AjAda kiyaa|| vo kareM bhI to kina alaphAja meM terA shikvaa| jinako terI nigahe-lutpha ne barbAda kiyaa|| itanA mAnUsa hUM phitarata se kalI jaba cttkii| jhuka ke maiMne ye kahA, mujhase kucha irzAda kiyA? mujhako to hoza nahIM, tumako khabara ho shaayd| loga kahate haiM ki tumane mujhe barbAda kiyaa|| ve jo pyAse haiM paramAtmA ke, unako to itanI bhI khabara nahIM hotI-- mujhako to hoza nahIM, tumako khabara ho zAyada loga kahate haiM tumane mujhe barbAda kiyaa| unheM to patA bhI nahIM cltaa| aura yaha barbAdI barbAdI nahIM hai| yaha tIra kA cubha jAnA mRtyu nahIM hai--amRta kI ghaTanA hai| vo kareM bhI to kina alahAja meM terA shikvaa| jinako tere nigahe-lutpha ne barbAda kiyaa|| usakI nigAha barbAda kare, to AbAdI hai| usakI nigAha miTA de, to nayA janma hai| aura merI to apanI koI nigAha nhiiN| jo zAMta aura mauna hokara mere pAsa baiThegA, usako usakI nigAha hI dikhAI pdd'egii| aura usakI nigAha to sIdhI-sApha hai| maiM to bAMsa kI poMgarI smjho| gIta usakA hai| sunane vAlA caahie| muhammada husaina! tumane ThIka dekhA, ThIka sunA, ThIka phcaanaa| Page 199 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA ye daure-masarrata, ye tevara tumhaare| ubharane se pahale, na DUbeM sitaare|| bhaMvara se lar3o, tuMda laharoM se uljho| kahAM taka caloge kinaare-kinaare|| muhammada husaina! agara laga gaI bAta, to aba kinAre-kinAre na clo| aba ibo isa gairika saritA meN| agara ho gae ghAyala, to aba bhAganA mt| aba jaago| ye daure-masarrata, ye tevara tumhaare| ubharane se pahale, na DUbeM sitaare|| bhaMvara se lar3o, tuMda laharoM se uljho| kahAM taka caloge kinaare-kinaare|| ajaba cIja hai ye mohabbata kI baajii| jo hAre vo jIte, jo jIte vo haare|| siyAha nAgineM bana ke DasatI hai kirnneN| kahAM koI ye roje-rozana gujaare|| saphIne vahAM DUba kara hI rahe haiN| jahAM hausale nAkhudAoM ne haare|| kaI inkilAbAta Ae jahAM meN| magara Aja taka dina na badale hmaare|| rajA saile-nau kI khabara de rahe haiN| uphuka ko ye chUte hae teja dhaare|| ye daure-masarrata, ye tevara tumhaare| ubharane se pahale, na DUbeM sitaare|| bhaMvara se lar3o tuMda laharoM se uljho| kahAM taka caloge kinaare-kinaare|| agara ghAyala hae ho, to aba aura taraha ke vicAroM ko bIca meM mata Ane denaa| lAkha vicAra AeMge, kyoMki hamArA atIta ekadama se nahIM chor3a detaa| jakar3atA hai, pakar3atA hai| jaMjIreM bhI chor3ane ko ekadama se rAjI nahIM hotiiN| unakI mAlakiyata jAtI hai| kArAgRha kI dIvAleM bhI rukAvaTa DAleMgI ki kahAM jAte ho! hameM chor3a kara jAte ho! yaha gaddArI, yaha dhokhA! hama hI tumhArI surakSA haiN| bAhara khule AkAza meM bahuta tar3aphoge, bahuta parezAna hooge| ruka jaao| mAna jaao| atIta saba taraha ke jAla pheNkegaa| suMdara suMdara jaal| sunahare jAla--zabdoM ke, zAstroM ke, siddhAMtoM ke, hiMdU hone ke, musalamAna hone ke, IsAI hone ke, jaina hone ke| aura laTakA letA hai AdamI ko| choTI-choTI bAteM meM aTakA letA hai| aura AdamI socatA hai, bar3I hoziyArI kI bAteM kara rahA hai| Page 200 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA svAmI zAMtisvarUpa bhAratI ne pUchA hai ki ApakI adhyAtma aura dharma para bAteM to hameM bahuta pyArI lagatI haiN| magara rAjanIti yA samAja para jaba Apa kucha kaha dete haiM, to maiM rAjI nahIM ho paataa| isase aparAdhabhAva paidA hotA hai| maiM kyA karUM? aparAdhabhAva do hI DhaMga se miTa sakatA hai| yA to saMnyAsa chor3a do| agara tumheM rAjanaitika aura sAmAjika vicAroM ko pakar3ane kA itanA Agraha hai; tumheM apane vicAra itane pakar3ane kA Agraha hai, to chor3a do ve madhura baateN| aparAdhabhAva se mukta ho jaaoge| saMnyAsa se mukta ho jaao| aura yA phira agara saca meM hI adhyAtma aura dharma kI bAteM tumheM itanI pyArI lagatI haiM, to itanI bhI kImata nahIM cukA sakate ki do kaur3I ke apane rAjanaitika vicAra aura sAmAjika dhAraNAoM ko chor3a do! aura kyA tumhAre rAjanaitika vicAra aura kyA tumhArI sAmAjika dhAraNAeM! apanA bodha nahIM hai--samAja kA tumheM kyA khAka bodha hogA? apanI pahacAna nahIM hai aura socate tuma yaha ho ki rAjanIti para tumhArI koI dRSTi ho sakatI hai! sirpha buddhoM ke sivAya samAja aura rAjanIti ke saMbaMdha meM bhI jo loga kucha kahate haiM, vaha unakI mUDhatA se hI niklegaa| aura majA yaha hai ki hama nahIM cAhate ki buddhapuruSa kucha bhI rAjanIti aura samAja ke saMbaMdha meM kaheM, kyoMki kama se kama hama yaha to mAnate hI haiM ki usa dizA meM to hamArI hI dRSTi ThIka hai| buddhapuruSoM ko bolane kI jarUrata hI kyA hai! ve to apanA adhyAtma smhaaleN| mere sAtha honA hai, to puure-puure| adhUre-adhUre--apane ko dhokhA mata do| maiM tumheM chuTTI dene ko tatkSaNa rAjI huuN| chor3a do saMnyAsa; aparAdhabhAva se mukta ho jaao| bacA lo apanI raajniiti| bacA lo apanI sAmAjika dhAraNAeM! agara unakI koI kImata hai--to ThIka hai| kImatI cIja ko bacA lenA caahie| aura agara unakI koI kImata nahIM hai; do kaur3I kI haiM--aura do kaur3I kI hI haiM--to phira tumheM jo pyArA laga rahA hai usake lie kurbAna kara do| kaisA aparAdhabhAva! maiM kucha bAteM jarUra aisI kahatA hUM, jo tumhArI parIkSAeM haiN| mere apane DhaMga haiM AdamiyoM ko taulane ke, parakhane ke, badalane ke| maiM kucha aisI bAteM jarUra kahUMgA, jo tumhArI dhAraNAoM ke viparIta jAtI rheN| adhyAtma to havAI bAta hai| usameM to tuma bar3e jaldI rAjI ho jAte ho| aba mokSa meM tumheM jhagar3A bhI kyA! dhyAna se tumheM virodha bhI kyA! saba mIThA-mIThA hai| aura saba suMdara hI hogaa| kucha tumhArI to vahAM to gati nahIM hai| AkAza meM tumhArI koI gati nahIM hai| isalie vahAM to tuma bar3e jaldI rAjI ho jAte ho| zAyada una bAtoM se bhI tumhAre ahaMkAra kI tRpti ho rahI ho--ki dekho, maiM saMnyAsI ho gyaa| aba dekho, maiM adhyAtma kA pathika ho gyaa| aba merI yAtrA paramAtmA kI tarapha cala rahI hai| aba maiM mokSa pAne ke lie agraNI ho rahA huuN| aba dUra nahIM hai mNjil| lekina tumhArI do kaur3I kI dhAraNAeM haiM ki koI rASTrIya svayaM sevaka saMgha kA sadasya hai| usako maiMne kucha kaha diyA--coTa laga gii| ki koI janatA pArTI kA sadasya hai, usako maiMne kucha kaha diyA aura coTa laga gii| Page 201 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maiM kucha aisI bAteM kahatA hI rhuuNgaa| ve mere chAMTane ke DhaMga haiN| jinako nAva se utara jAnA hai, unako maiM utAra hI denA cAhatA huuN| maiM aise logoM ko nAva meM rakhanA hI nahIM cAhatA, jo aparAdhabhAva se bhare hoN| jinake bhItara kisI taraha kA dvaMdva ho--isake pahale ki ve jagaha rokeM, maiM unako mukta kara denA cAhatA huuN| magara loga bar3e samajhadAra haiM! ludhiyAnA se Ae hue eka jaina mitra ne pUchA hai ki kisI buddhapuruSa ne kabhI bhI apane pravacana ke lie phIsa nahIM lagAI? vaha buddhapuruSoM kI galatI thI, isameM maiM kyA karUM! isalie tuma jaise nAlAyaka unake sAtha jur3a ge| maiM vaha galatI nahIM kruuNgaa| mere apane jIne kA DhaMga hai| kisI buddhapuruSa se mujhase kyA lenaa-denaa| ve apane DhaMga se jIe; mujhase to pUchA nahIM! maiM unase kyoM pUchaM! mahAvIra ko nagna rahanA thA, ve nagna rhe| buddha to nagna nahIM rhe| kRSNa to nagna nahIM rhe| ye sajjana unake pAsa pahuMca gae hote| aura jarUra ludhiyAnA se loga unake pAsa pahuMcate rahe hoMge! paMjAba meM to eka se eka adabhuta loga paidA hote haiN| buddha se loga jA kara pUchate the ki mahAvIra ne to vastra chor3a die| Apane vastra kyoM nahIM chor3e? aura mahAvIra se loga pUchate the ki buddha ne vastra nahIM chor3e; Apane vastra kyoM chor3e? kRSNa to bAMsurI bajA rahe haiM! ApakI bAMsurI kahAM hai? aura rAma to dhanuSa-bANa lie khar3e haiN| aura Apa naMga-dhaDaMga khar3e haiM! hara buddhapuruSa kA apanA DhaMga hogaa| buddhaoM ko chAMTane kA merA apanA DhaMga hai| maiM buddhaoM para mehanata nahIM karanA caahtaa| aura jaina haiM, to garIba to nahIM hoNge| pAMca-dasa rupae bacAne ke lie aise dIvAne ho rahe haiN| yaha nahIM dikhAI par3egA unheM ki hama pAMca-dasa rupae bacAne kI bAta kara rahe haiN| magara bAta ko yUM chipAeMge ki kisI buddhapuruSa ne to phIsa lagAI nahIM! pAMca-dasa rupaye bacAne haiM kula jmaa| aura buddhapuruSoM ne tumheM kyA samajhAyA--ki parigraha mata rkhnaa| tumase kama se kama pAMca-dasa rupae kA parigraha chuTavA rahA hUM--aura kyA! itanA bhI nahIM chUTatA! aura kyA khAka chor3oge! aura maiM koI bhikhArI nahIM hUM, isalie dAna mAMgatA nahIM; phIsa letA huuN| bhIkha kyoM maiM mAMgU? maiM koI bhikhArI hUM! tumheM bhIkha dene kA majA hai| tuma cAhate hooge ki koI bhIkha maaNge| to tumheM majA to rahe--ki hamane dAna diyA! vaha akar3a bhI tumhArI yahAM nahIM Tikane vaalii| vaha ahaMkAra bhI tumhArA maiM yahAM surakSita nahIM rkhtaa| yahAM to bhItara AnA hai, to tumheM apanI utsukatA jAhira karanI pdd'egii| aura tuma A rahe ho| tumheM koI jabardastI bulA nahIM rahA hai| tumhArI AkAMkSA ho--aao| aura tumheM paisA bacAnA ho, to mata aao| lekina mujhe salAha mata do| maiM kisI kI salAha kabhI mAnA nhiiN| aura mujhe jo salAha dene kI himmata karatA hai, vaha kyA khAka mujhase kucha sIkha kara jA sakegA! Page 202 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jo yahAM salAha dene AyA hai, vaha salAha kaise le sakegA? eka hI kAma kara lo, to bahuta! itanI buddhimAnI na dikhAo! mujhe apane DhaMga se jInA hai| apane DhaMga se hI jiiuuNgaa| isa taraha ke kUr3A-karakaTa ko maiM yahAM pasaMda bhI nahIM krtaa| unhoMne likhA hai, aba to ApakA Azrama Atmanirbhara ho gayA hai| aba phIsa kyoM? jaise ki inake dvArA Atmanirbhara ho gayA ho! jaise ki tumhArI phIsa se Atmanirbhara ho gayA ho! aura tumheM kyA patA isa Azrama ko kitanA bar3A honA hai| yaha Azrama kabhI bhI itanA Atmanirbhara nahIM ho jAegA ki isako phIsa kI jarUrata na rhe| kyoMki yaha vikAsamAna hai| yaha to bar3hatA hI calA jaaegaa| yaha phailatA hI calA jaaegaa| isa Azrama meM kama se kama eka lAkha saMnyAsI to hone hI caahie| isase kama kyA calegA! aura tuma pAMca-dasa rupae ke lie mare jA rahe ho| magara tuma yaha soca rahe ho ki tumane bar3I kImata kI bAta kahI hai| jarA mujhase kucha bAteM kahane ke pahale soca liyA kre| yahAM salAha nahIM clegii| mujhe patA hai, maiM kyA kara rahA hUM, kyoM kara rahA huuN| gurajiepha ne apanI pahalI kitAba chApI; to usake dAma rakhe usane--eka hajAra rupe| usa jamAne meM, Aja se pacAsa sAla pahale, eka hajAra rupayA bahuta kImatI cIja thii| Aja se Der3ha sau sAla pahale briTiza gavarnameMTa ne pUrA kA pUrA kazmIra gulAba siMha ko, karNasiMha ke dAdA-paradAdA ko, sirpha tIsa lAkha rupae meM beca diyA thaa| pUrA kazmIra! aura Aja se tIna sau sAla pahale pUrA nyUyArka vahAM ke AdivAsiyoM ne paradeza se Ae hue logoM ke lie sirpha tIsa rupae meM beca diyA thA--pUrA nyUyArka! Aja se pacAsa sAla pahale hajAra rupae kI bar3I kImata thii| jo bhI lene kI socatA kitAba, usakI himmata na hotii| hajAra rupae! loga gurajiepha se pUchate ki kisI buddhapuruSa ne kabhI apanI kitAboM ke aise dAma nahIM rakhe? gurajiepha kahatA, unakI ve jaaneN| merI maiM jAnatA huuN| jo AdamI hajAra rupae nahIM cukA sakatA, usakI koI abhIpsA nahIM hai| usakI koI AkAMkSA nahIM hai| satya muphta nahIM miltaa| aura tuma bhASA samajhate ho dhana kii| dhana kI hI ekamAtra bhASA tuma samajhate ho| usako hI chor3ane meM tumhArI AtmA ekadama kaSTa pAne lagatI hai| to gurajiepha ne apanI kitAba...eka hajAra pannoM kI kitAba hai| usameM so panne bhUmikA ke kaTavA rakhe the| aura bAkI nau sau panne jur3e hue the; kATe nahIM the| to vaha kahatA ki tuma le jaao| sau panne par3ha lenaa| agara na jaMceM, to apane hajAra rupae vApasa le jAnA aura kitAba vApasa kara denaa| agara jaMceM to hI Age ke panne kaattnaa| nahIM to kATanA mt| kATa lie, to phira kitAba vApasa nahIM luuNgaa| lekina ve sau panne itane adabhuta the ki muzkila thA ki AdamI binA kATe baca jaae| magara usane to bAta sApha kara dI thI ki sau panne par3ha lo| muphta par3ha lo| phira Age mata kaattnaa| apane paise vApasa le jaanaa| kitAba lauTA denaa| Page 203 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA tumane eka dina suna liyaa| agara bAta na jamatI ho, agara tumheM dasa rupae, pAMca rupae bahuta pyAre lagate hoM--apane paise bacAo aura ludhiyAnA bhAgo vaaps| yahAM kyA kara rahe ho? kyoM samaya kharAba kara rahe ho? lekina ye choTI-choTI bAteM, ye TuccI bAteM tumheM bhArI mUlya kI mAlUma par3atI haiM dasa rupae dene meM ghabar3Ate ho aura paramAtmA ko khojane nikale ho! aura jaba maiM tumhArA ahaMkAra mAMgUMgA, to kyA karoge! jeba khAlI kara nahIM sakate aura jaba maiM tumase kahUMgA ki apane prANa hI khAlI kara do--kaise kara sakoge? ye merI apanI vidhiyAM haiM; mere apane upAya haiN| aura maiM kisI buddhapuruSa kA anukaraNa nahIM huuN| maiM apane DhaMga kA AdamI huuN| aura apane DhaMga se hI jiiuuNgaa| muhammada husaina, tumane kahA-- jamAnA ho gayA ghAyala terI sIdhI nigAhoM se khudA na khAsatA tirachI najara hotI to kyA hotA? pUchatA hUM ki tuma ghAyala hae ki nahIM? jamAne ko jAne do| jamAne se kyA lenaa-denaa| muhammada husaina ghAyala hae ki nahIM? agara ghAyala hae ho, to phira raMga jAo isa raMga meN| aura agara ghAyala nahIM hae ho, to phira iMtajAma karUM tirachI nigAhoM kA! dUsarA praznaH bhagavAna, mere guru svAmI laTapaTAnaMda brahmacArI kahA karate the: dugdhAhAra aura phalAhAra kA sAtvika AhAra kiyA kro| subaha brahmamuhUrta meM uTha kara oma kA jApa kiyA kro| apane pAsa vastra kevala tIna hI rkho| aura kucha saMgraha na kro| hara strI ko apanI mAMbahana-beTI kI taraha dekho| aura mana meM bure vicAra na Ane do| aura laMgoTa ke pakke rho| lekina mere guru laTapaTAnaMda jaldI hI svargavAsI ho gae aura maiM abhI taka satya ke mArga para unakI zikSA ke anusAra nahIM cala paayaa| aura aba ApakI bAteM mujhe AkarSita karatI haiN| aura vicitra bhI lagatI haiM aura eka taraha kA saMdeha bhI mana meM paidA karatI haiM ki satya kI khoja ke lie anuzAsana cAhie yA unmukta jIvana? merI umra abhI chabbIsa varSa kI hai aura gRhasthAzrama meM praveza karane kA samaya bhI A gayA hai| maiM duvidhA meM hUM ki saMnyAsa lUM athavA vivAha karUM? kRpayA mArgadarzana deN| kanhaiyAlAla dvivedI, mathurA nivAsI haiN| so tuma samajha sakate ho!...ye tumhAre guru laTapaTAnaMda brahmacArI svargavAsI nahIM ho sakate; narkavAsI hae hoNge| aise laTapaTAnaMdoM ke lie svarga meM sthAna nahIM hai| aura kyA-kyA mUDhatA kI bAteM tumase kahI haiM! dugdhAhAra--sAtvika AhAra! zAstroM meM likhA hai, so doharA rahe hoMge totoM kI trh| lekina dugdhAhAra sAtvika AhAra nahIM hai| kyoMki dUdha zarIra se nikalatA hai, jaise khuna zarIra se nikalatA hai| isIlie to dUdha pIne se khUna jaldI Page 204 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA bar3ha jAtA hai| kyoMki dUdha meM khUna ko bar3hAne vAlI zakti hai, kSamatA hai| dUdha mAM kA khUna hI hai| aura apanI mAM kA pIo--to ThIka! gau-mAtA kA pI rahe ho! gau-mAtA kA dUdha tumhAre lie nahIM hai| ye laTapaTAnaMda kisakA dUdha pIte rahe? gau-mAtA kA? yaha gau-mAtA kA dUdha gau-putroM ke lie hai| yaha bachar3A-bacher3iyoM ke lie hai| yaha laTapaTAnaMdoM ke lie hai nhiiN| koI gAya nahIM kahatI ki Ao beTA laTapaTAnaMda, dUdha pIo! yaha gaU ke sAtha anAcAra hai, balAtkAra hai| jabardastI usakA dUdha chInA jA rahA hai| usake bacce kA dUdha chInA jA rahA hai! aura yaha bhI dhyAna rakhA ki gau kA dUdha pIoge, to sAMDa ho jaaoge| kyoMki vaha sAMDoM ke lie hai; AdamiyoM ke lie nhiiN| jitanA jyAdA dUdha pIoge, utanI hI kAmavAsanA staaegii| sAtvika kaise ho jAegA! kyoMki jitanA dUdha pIoge, utanI hI zarIra meM UrjA hogii| aura UrjA bhI sAMDoM jaisI hogii| kyoMki vaha dUdha banA sAMDoM ke lie thA; tumhAre lie banA nahIM thaa| phira laMgoTa kasa kara bAMdho! laMgoTa ke pakke raho! pahale dUdha pIo--phira laMgoTa ke pakke raho! dugdhAhAra AhAra sAtvika kataI nahIM hai| maiM nahIM kahatA ki mata piio| magara yaha jAna kara pInA ki yaha sAtvika AhAra nahIM hai| isa bhrAMti meM mata rahanA ki dugdhAhAra sAtvika AhAra IsAiyoM kA eka saMpradAya hai--kvekara--ve dUdha nahIM piite| cAya bhI binA dUdha ke pIte haiN| kAphI bhI binA dUdha kI pIte haiN| ve dUdha ko mAMsAhAra hI mAnate haiN| aura maiM unase rAjI huuN| ve ThIka kahate haiN| tumhAre sAre RSi-muni galata bakavAsa karate rahe haiN| kvekara ThIka kahate haiN| kyoMki dUdha prANI-AhAra hai--enImala phuDa hai| cAhe mAMsa khAo, cAhe khUna pIo--cAhe dUdha pIo! sAtvika kyA hai dUdha meM? aura yaha bhI tumane dekhA ki AdamI ko chor3a kara koI jAnavara eka umra ke bAda dUdha nahIM piitaa| aura tuma chabbIsa sAla ke ho gae aura gRhasthAzrama meM praveza karane kA avasara A gayA, aura abhI bhI dUdha pI rahe ho? bacher3e, bachiyAM eka samaya taka dUdha pIte haiM, isake bAda ghAsa carate haiN| tuma ghAsa kaba caroge? gRhasthAzrama meM praveza hone kA avasara A gayA--aba ghAsa caro! aba gau-mAtA kA dUdha kAphI pI lie| kAphI satA lie gau-mAtA ko| aba ghAsa khAne kA samaya A gayA! aura abhI mausama acchaa| harA ghAsa upalabdha hai! jI bhara kara caro! AdamI ko chor3a kara koI pazu pRthvI para bacapana kI eka umra ke bAda dUdha nahIM piitaa| jaba bhojana karane ke yogya ho gae, to aba dUdha pIne kI kyA jarUrata? dUdha to choTe bacce ke lie hai| vaha jo ki bhojana nahIM pacA sakatA, usake lie hai| laTapaTAnaMda--inake lie dUdha hai? inase bhojana nahIM pacatA thA? lekina mUrkhatApUrNa bAteM agara purAnI hoM, to hameM lagatA hai ki sahI honI hI caahie| aura taba tumheM merI bAteM vicitra bhI mAlUma hoNgii| kyoMki tuma galata satsaMga meM rahe ho| tuma nAsamajhI Page 205 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA ke vAtAvaraNa meM pale ho| mathurA kI havA tumheM kharAba kara gii| yaha sadiyoM se dUSita havA hai| aura ye laTapaTAnaMda tuma ko mila gae! aura kyA-kyA bAteM tumheM sikhA gae--ki subaha brahmamuhUrta meM uTha kara oma kA jApa kiyA karo! jarA vaijJAnika vizleSaNa samajho, vaijJAnika anveSaNa smjho| pratyeka vyakti ke lie alagaalaga samaya meM uThanA ucita hai| zAstra akasara bUDhe logoM ne likhe haiN| svbhaavtH| una dinoM buDhApe kA bar3A Adara thaa| bUDhe hone meM bar3I kImata thii| hAlAMki bUDhe hone meM koI kImata nhiiN| gadhe bhI bUDhe hote haiN| ghor3e bhI bUDhe hote haiN| bUDhe hone meM koI kImata nahIM hai| aura gadhA bUDhA hokara aura bhI bar3A gadhA ho jAtA hai| aura kucha bhI nahIM hotaa| bUDhe hone se kyA hogA! mUrkha AdamI bUDhA hokara mahAmUrkha ho jAtA hai| koI bUDhe hone se buddhimattA nahIM aatii| umra kA buddhimattA se koI saMbaMdha nahIM hai| lekina zAstra bUDhoM ne likhe haiN| bUDhe jyAdA dera nahIM so paate| aura una dinoM na bijalI thI, na rozanI thI--jaba zAstra likhe gae--sUraja DUbA--ki rAta ho gaI! sUraja DUbA, ki sone kA samaya A gyaa| jaba jaldI so jAoge, to do baje, tIna baje nIMda khula jaaegii| bUr3he AdamI kI to khula hI jaaegii| baccA mAM ke peTa meM caubIsa ghaMTe sotA hai| usako brahmamuhUrta meM mata jagA denA, nahIM to usakI jiMdagI hI kharAba ho jAegI; vaha apaMga ho kara paidA hogaa| choTe bacce teIsa ghaMTe soeNge| phira bAIsa ghNtte| phira ikkIsa ghNtte| phira bIsa ghNtte| phira aThAraha ghNtte| javAna hote hue AdamI ATha ghaMTe, sAta ghaMTe ke karIba A jaaegaa| yaha bhI pratyeka vyakti kA alaga-alaga hogaa| buDhApe meM AdamI cAra ghaMTe, tIna ghaMTe, do ghaMTe--bahuta ho jaaegaa| kyoM? kyoMki nIMda kA saMbaMdha zarIra ke vikAsa para nirbhara hai| jaba bacce kA zarIra nirmita hotA hai mAM ke peTa meM, to usako caubIsa ghaMTe sonA par3atA hai| zarIra meM itanA kAma cala rahA hai ki agara usakI nIMda TUTegI, to zarIra ke vikAsa meM bAdhA pdd'egii| vaha soyA rahatA hai; zarIra meM vikAsa hotA rahatA hai| jo vikAsa mAM ke peTa meM nau mahIne hotA hai, phira pUrI jiMdagI meM bhI usa gati se vikAsa nahIM hotaa| isalie nIMda jarUrI hai| cikitsaka ke pAsa jAo; pUcho usase; agara koI bImArI ho gaI hai, to pahalA kAma hai-- nIMda jarUrI hai| kyoMki nIMda nahIM hogI ThIka se, to bImArI ko pUrA karane kA zarIra ko avasara nahIM milegaa| sone kA artha hai: saba kAryakrama baMda ho gayA; saba kriyAkalApa baMda ho gyaa| aba zarIra ko maukA hai ki apanI svAsthyadAyI zaktiyoM kA upayoga kara le| aba koI ulajhana nahIM, dukAnadArI nahIM; bAjAra nahIM; kIrtana-bhajana nhiiN| aba zarIra ko bilakula avasara hai ki apanI UrjA ko phira se jIvaMta kara le| isalie javAna AdamI ko sAta-ATha ghaMTe sonA hI caahie| isase kama soegA, to nukasAna pahuMcegA usko| Page 206 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA phira pratyeka vyakti ke sone kA alaga-alaga kAla gaharA hotA hai| vaijJAnika khoja se yaha patA calA hai ki bAIsa ghaMTe to zarIra kA eka tApamAna rahatA hai| aura do ghaMTe ke lie rAta meM zarIra kA tApamAna kama se kama do DigrI nIce gira jAtA hai| ve do ghaMTe sarvAdhika gaharI nIMda ke ghaMTe haiN| kisI kA do baje se cAra baje ke bIca giratA hai| kisI kA tIna baje se pAMca baje ke bIca giratA hai| kisI kA cAra se chaha ke bIca giratA hai| kisI kA pAMca se sAta ke bIca giratA hai| una do ghaMToM ko agara tuma ThIka se nahIM soe, to tuma dina bhara udAsa rahoge, khinna rahoge, becAna rahoge, parezAna rhoge| ve do ghaMTe to gaharI nIMda meM jAne hI caahie| aura ve cUMki pratyeka vyakti ke alaga-alaga haiM, isalie koI niyama nahIM banA sakatA ki brahmamuhUrta meM hI uTha aanaa| ho sakatA hai tumhAre lie ve hI do ghaMTe sarvAdhika mUlyavAna hoN| isalie tumheM apanA hI nirIkSaNa karanA hogA ki merI nIMda sabase jyAdA gaharI kaba hotI hai| jaba tumhArI nIMda sarvAdhika gaharI hotI hai, usako tor3anA hI mata anyathA tuma apane zarIra kI duzmanI kara rahe ho| aura phira zarIra usake badale legaa| zarIra tumheM phira chor3egA nhiiN| zarIra kI prakRti ke viparIta jAoge, to ghAtaka bImAriyAM hoNgii| zarIra jaldI hI kSINa ho jAegA, rugNa ho jAegA, vRddha ho jaaegaa| isalie maiM kucha nahIM kaha sakatA ki brahmamuhUrta meM jaganA yA nhiiN| tuma jAMca kara lenaa| akasara to yaha hotA hai ki brahmamuhUrta meM tuma jabardastI uThate ho, kyoMki zAstroM meM kahA gayA hai| khIMcatAna kara apane ko uThA lete ho| nIMda A rahI hai aura uTha gae ho| ThaMDe pAnI meM nahA kara nIMda ko bhagA rahe ho| phira kisI taraha baiTha kara jhapakI khA rahe ho aura oMkAra kA maMtra japa rahe ho! aura oMkAra kA maMtra japoge, to aura jhapakI AegI, kyoMki maMtra japane se nIMda Ane kA saMbaMdha hai| kisI bhI cIja ko bAra-bAra doharAoge, to nIMda paidA hotI hai| isalie mAM apane bacce ke pAsa lorI gAtI hai| lorI kA artha itanA hI hotA hai ki eka hI zabda ko doharAe jAtI hai ki so jA beTA--munnA beTA, rAjA beTA! kucha ekAdha do zabdoM ko doharAe calI jaatii| thor3I dera meM beTA so jAtA hai| mAM socatI hai ki zAyada mere sumadhura saMgIta ke kAraNa so rahA hai! cAhe ye devI karkazA hoM! beTA isalie so gayA hai ki vaha jo bakavAsa lagA rahI thI--ki rAjA beTA! munnA beTA! rAjA beTA--munnA beTA! usako kaba taka sune! ghabar3A kara bhItara saraka gayA; nIMda meM DUba gayA--ki he mAtArAma! chuTTI do! tumhArI bhI chuTTI, merI bhI chuTTI! tuma kyA karoge oMkAra kA jApa? baiTha kara doharAoge--oma oma om| doharAne se sirpha taMdrA aaegii| aura agara brahmamuhUrta meM jabardastI uTha Ae ho--aura abhI javAna ho, to jabardastI hI uThoge-taba to aura bhI nIMda aaegii| isase aparAdhabhAva paidA hogaa| tumhArI tathAkathita dhArmika dhAraNAeM tumheM aparAdhabhAva se bhara detI haiN| phira tumheM yaha becainI hogI ki brahmamuhUrta meM maiM sajaga kyoM nahIM ho pAtA! nIMda kyoM nahIM AtI hai? Page 207 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA aura laTapaTAnaMda jaise logoM se jA kara pUchoge, to ve kaheMge, tAmasI vRtti sAtvika AhAra kro| bure vicAroM ko mana meM mata Ane do| jaise ki bure vicAroM ko mana meM Ane denA yA na Ane denA tumhAre vaza kI bAta hai bure vicAra AeMge, to tuma kyA karoge? aura majA tuma dekhate ho eka tarapha kahate haiM, tumhAre svAmI laTapaTAnaMda brahmacArI - mana meM bure vicAra na Ane do, aura laMgoTa ke pakke raho! jaba bure vicAra nahIM Ate, to laMgoTa ke pakke rahane kI kyA jarUrata! yaha to bar3I ulaTI bAta ho gii| jaba bure vicAra Ate hI nahIM, to aba laMgoTa DhIlA bhI rakho, to kyA harjA hai! laMgoTa na bhI pahano, to clegaa| jaba bure vicAra Ate hI nahIM, to bAta hI khatama ho gaI jar3a hI TUTa gii| aba yaha laMgoTa ke pakke rahane meM kyA matalaba hai| lekina isa taraha kI gadhApaccIsI kI bAtoM ko dharma samajhA jAtA hai| aura bure vicAra na AeM, isake lie kyA rAstA batAyA tumhAre laTapaTAnaMda ne unake khuda bhI abhI miTe nahIM hoNge| bure vicAra na AnA sivAya sAkSI bhAva ke aura kisI bhI taraha se samApta nahIM hotaa| oMkAra kA pATha karoge; rAma-rAma japoge--isase bure vicAra baMda nahIM hoNge| kyoMki isase sAkSI bhAva paidA nahIM hotaa| yaha to saba bakavAsa hai| yaha vyartha bakavAsa hai| yaha khuda hI burA vicAra hai| sAkSI bhAva kA to artha yaha hai ki jo bhI vicAra Ate hoM--bure ki acche--jAga kara sirpha dekhate rho| yaha vicAra aayaa| yaha utthaa| yaha sAmane khar3A ho gyaa| yaha vidA hone lgaa| yaha gayA ! yaha gayA / yaha gayA / dUsarA A gyaa| jaise rAste ke kinAre koI rAha ko calate hue dekhe| kAra gujrii| basa gujrii| bailagAr3I aaii| loga gujara rahe haiN| idhara-udhara jA rahe haiN| tumheM phikra nahIM yaha kahane kI ki kauna acchA hai, kauna burA hai kauna sAdhu kauna asAdhu tuma sirpha dekha rahe ho| sirpha draSTA maatr| basa, itanA hI hoza rakhanA ki maiM draSTA huuN| laMgoTa vagairaha bAMdhane kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| yaha to draSTA hone se nIce gira jAnA hai| yaha to / kartA ho jAnA hai| laMgoTa kasa kara bAMdha rahA hai--kauna bAMdha rahA hai? tumane apane sAtha jabardastI kara lI aura jabardastI ke pariNAma bure yAnI damana / tuma kartA ho ge| yaha hone vAle haiN| jabardastI laMgoTa ke pakke raho isakA matalaba hotA hai jabardastI karate raho apane sAtha apane ko kasa-kasa kara bAMdhate raho apane cAroM tarapha jaMjIreM khar3I kara lo isase damana ke bure pariNAma hone vAle haiN| aura hue haiN| yaha deza jitanA pAkhaMDI ho gayA hai, duniyA meM koI deza nahIM hai| ye tumhAre isI taraha ke guru, svAmiyoM, tathAkathita saMtoM-mahaMtoM kI kRpA hai ki deza pAkhaMDa - ziromaNi ho gayA hai| pRthvI para koI deza itanA pAkhaMDI nahIM hai| kyoMki pRthvI para kisI deza meM isa taraha kI mUrkhatAoM kA itanA purAnA jAla nahIM hai| caMdUlAla kI apanI patnI gulAbo se eka dina noka-jhoMka ho gaI aura ve gulAbo se bole, dekho, isa taraha aMTazaMTa na bako anyathA meM sabhI mitroM ko batA dUMgA ki zAdI ke pahale bhI tumhAre sAtha mere saMbaMdha the ! Page 208 of 255 -- http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA hAM, batA do| Dara kise hai| aura maiM bhI logoM ko batA dUMgI ki tuma koI pahale vyakti nahIM ho, jisake sAtha maiM soI thI! sacAiyAM kucha aura haiM, chipAvaTeM kucha aura haiM! caMdUlAla ne apanI patnI se kahA, Aja par3osa vAlI dukAna se koI cIja bhUla kara mata khriidnaa| kyoM? patnI ne puuchaa| isalie ki vaha ullU kA paTThA hamArA tarAjU hI eka dina ke lie mAMga kara le gayA hai! yahAM dukAnadAra do taraha ke tarAjU rakhate haiM: kharIdane ke lie eka taraha kA tarAjU, becane ke lie aura taraha kA traajuu| Trena se utarate hue svAmI maTakAnAtha brahmacArI--(rahe hoMge tumhAre laTapaTAnaMda brahmacArI jaise hI)-ne eka chAtA uThAyA aura bagala meM dabA kara Age bar3hane lage ki acAnaka unheM eka AdamI ne pakar3A aura kahA, svAmI jI, kyA ApakA nAma naMdalAla hai? jI nhiiN| lekina kyoM? bAta yaha hai svAmI jI ki yaha jo chAtA Apa le jA rahe haiM, yaha naMdalAla kA hai| aura vaha maiM aba svAmI jI se ekadama sIdhA-sIdhA kaise kaho ki chAtA curAo mata! to becAre naMdalAla ko yaha rAstA nikAlanA par3A, yUM ulaTA kAna pakar3anA par3A--ki ApakA nAma naMdalAla to nahIM hai! yahAM Upara kucha hai, bhItara kucha hai| caMdUlAla kalakattA ge| dotIna mahIne laga jAne vAle the; dhaMdhe ke kAma se gae the| bar3I ciMtA thI gulAbo kii| abhI-abhI zAdI huI thI caMdUlAla kii| javAna strI ko kaise akelA chor3a jAeM? bhAratIya zAstra kahate haiM, jaba strI mAM-bApa ke pAsa ho, to pitA usakI rakSA kre| aura jaba vivAhita ho jAe, to pati usakI rakSA kre| aura jaba bUDhI ho jAe, to beTe usakI rakSA kreN| kyA gajaba kA deza hai! yahAM rakSA hI rakSA kI jarUrata hai, jaise cAroM tarapha bhakSaka baiThe hue haiM! choTI baccI ho, to bApa rakSA kre| javAna ho, to pati rakSA kre| bUDhI ho jAe, phira bhI rakSA kI jarUrata hai| kyoMki ye jo brahmacArI ghUma rahe haiM; laMgoTI kasa kara bAMdhe hue haiN| inase khatarA hai hii| yaha jo tathAkathita dhArmika jAla phailA huA hai, yaha jo pAkhaMDa phailA huA hai--jahAM mukhauTe lagAe hue loga baiThe haiM, inase Dara to hai hii| yaha saMta-mahAtmAoM kA deza! yaha RSi-muniyoM kA deza! yahAM devatA paidA hone ko tar3apate haiM! zAyada isIlie tar3apate hoM! to caMdUlAla ciMtita the ki kisakI rakSA meM chor3a jAeM patnI ko! Akhira unhoMne socA ki brahmacArI maTakAnAtha, unake guru, isase yogya aura kauna AdamI hogA! yahI unakI zikSA ki laMgoTa ke pakke raho! itanI zikSA dete haiM laMgoTa ke pakke rahane kI; khuda to laMgoTa ke pakke hoMge hii| aura akasara jo laMgoTa ke pakke nahIM haiM, ve hI laMgoTa ke pakke hone kI zikSA dete haiN| ve jora-jora se cillA kara tumako hI nahIM samajhA rahe haiN| apane ko bhI samajhA rahe haiN| Page 209 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA yaha duniyA bahuta ajIba hai! baTreMDa rasela ne likhA hai ki agara kahIM corI ho jAe, to jo AdamI bahuta zoragula macA rahA ho ki pakar3o cora ko| mAro cora ko| kahAM gayA! kauna hai! usako pahale pakar3a lenaa| kyoMki bahuta saMbhAvanA yaha hai ki isI ne corI kI ho| yaha to maiMne bahuta bAda meM pddh'aa| jaba maiM choTA baccA thA, to mere gAMva meM tarabUja-kharabUja bar3e suMdara hote haiN| dara-dara taka unakI khyAti hai| mere gAMva meM jo nadI bahatI hai, tarabUjoM-kharabUjoM ke svAdiSTa hone ke kAraNa usa nadI kA nAma bhI zakkara ho gayA hai| nadI kA nAma hI zakkara! itanI miThAsa tarabUjoMkharabUjoM meM hotI hai| aura eka kakar3I to khAsa hotI hai--zakkara kakar3I, jo hiMdustAna meM kahIM hotI hI nhiiN| lAjabAva hai vaha! maiMne sAre deza meM ghUma kara tarabUja-kharabUja cakhe haiM, lekina bAta saca hai ki zakkara meM jo, usa nadI ke kinAre jo tarabUja-kharabUja hote haiM, unakA koI mukAbalA nhiiN| to bacapana se hI maiM tarabUja-kharabUja curAne jAtA thaa| baDa rasela ko to bahuta bAda meM maiMne pddh'aa| magara yaha tarakIba maiM pahale hI se upayoga karatA thaa| do-cAra lar3akoM ko lekara ghusa jAnA tarabUja-kharabUja curaane| aura kabhI pakar3ane kI naubata A jAe, ki mAlika A jAe, to mAlika ke sAtha ho jaanaa| itane jora se zoragula macAnA ki pkdd'o| chor3o mt| yaha AdamI hamezA ghusatA hai! aura maiM vahIM khar3A hUM, bAkI to bhAga khar3e ho| svabhAvataH vaha mAlika samajhe ki yaha AdamI to curA sakatA hI nhiiN| yaha to yahIM khar3A huA hai| aura sAtha usakA dUM maiM, mAlika kA--ki pkdd'o| pulisa meM le jAo! eka tarabUja-kharabUja ke kheta meM bAra-bAra yaha huaa| Akhira usane kahA ki hara bAra jaba bhI maiM AtA hUM, taba yaha chokarA hamezA hI yahAM hotA hai! aura hamezA hI cillAtA hai ki pakar3o! usane mujhase pUchA, lekina yaha mAjarA kyA hai--ki jaba bhI mere kheta meM corI hotI hai, tuma hamezA hI yahIM hote ho! aura tuma hamezA hI merA sAtha dete ho| ekAdha bAra ho, to sNyogvsh| ho sakatA hai, tuma yahAM rahe ho! magara hamezA! aura AdhI rAta ko! to maiMne kahA ki maiM yahIM ghUmatA rahatA hUM ki kahIM kisI kI corI vagairaha na ho jAe! usane kahA ki tumhArA bhI ajIba hisAba hai! tuma corI kisI kI na ho jAe...! maiMne kahA, isIlie ki gAMva meM koI baccA corI na kara pAe, maiM yahIM ghUmatA huuN| AdhI rAta taka cakkara lagAtA rahatA huuN| kisI ke kheta meM corI nahIM honI caahie| usane mujhe do tarabUja bheMTa kie| usane kahA, beTA, aise hI--isI taraha jIvana honA cAhie! sAtvika jIvana! becAre caMdUlAla ne socA ki svAmI maTakAnAtha brahmacArI kI hI rakSA meM chor3a jAeM patnI ko| so chor3a ge| Page 210 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jaba tIna mahIne bAda vApasa lauTe, kare ! ekadama cale Ae dhar3alle se kara rahe haiN| jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA to tAra vagairaha dene meM caMdUlAla mAnate nhiiN| kauna kharcA bhItara pahuMca ge| dekhA to brahmacArI maTakAnAtha patnI se prema Aga-babUlA ho gae caMdUlAla patnI kI gardana pakar3a lI aura kahA ki basa, nAtA-riztA khatama / golI mAra duuNgaa| yaha sItA sAvitrI kA deza aura yaha terA vyvhaar| yaha dhokhebAjI ! aura kasama khAI thI tUne, jaba gayA thA maiM kalakattA, ki dhokhA nahIM degI ! patnI to ghabar3A gii| kucha bola na nikalA! ghigghI baMdha gii| aura tabhI caMdUlAla svAmI jI kI tarapha mur3A aura kahA ki svAmI jI, he bhUtapUrva gurudeva ! kama se kama itanA ziSTAcAra to barato ki jaba maiM apanI patnI se bAta kara rahA hUM, taba to tuma kama se kama yaha DaMDa-baiThaka lagAnA baMda kara do! tuma prema hI kie jA rahe ho maiM usakI gardana dabA rahA hUM! tuma yaha bhI nahIM phikra kara rahe ki maiM maujUda huuN| kama se kama abhI to ruka jAo! magara damita log| maukA pA jAeM, to ruka nahIM skte| laMgoTa ke pakke loga khataranAka / inase jarA sAvadhAna rahanA / aura sadiyoM se yaha hotA rahA hai| tumhAre sAre purANa ina kathAoM se bhare haiN| tumhAre RSi-muni isI taraha ke jIvana jIe haiN| tumhAre devatA bhI AkAza se utara Ate haiN| unake pAsa suMdara urvaziyAM haiM, menakAeM haiM, unase bhI Uba jAte haiM jamIna para A jAte haiN| kisI RSi-muni kI patnI ko dhokhA de jAte haiM kisI RSi-muni kI patnI ke sAtha vyabhicAra kara jAte haiN| yaha tumhArI sanAtana paraMparA hai| yaha tumhArA sanAtana dharma hai| yaha dhokhAdhar3I isalie paidA hotI hai ki maulika rUpa se hama kisI Atmika krAMti se to gujarate nahIM; basa, Upara se AropaNa kara lete haiN| -- aba tumhAre svAmI tuma se kaha gae haiM ki apane pAsa kevala tIna hI vastra rakho aura kucha saMgraha na kro| saMgraha kA saMbaMdha kitanI cIjeM tuma rakhate ho, isase nahIM hai| tumhArA tIna se itanA moha ho sakatA hai, jitanA kisI kA apane pUre sAmrAjya se na hoN| janaka ke jIvana meM yaha pyArI kathA hai eka saMnyAsI usake guru ke dvAra bhejA gayA ki jA, aMtima zikSA tU janaka se grahaNa kara use to bahuta dukha huaa| guru ne kahA thA, isalie bemana se aayaa| dukha isalie huA ki maiM saMnyAsI, aura isa bhogI samrATa se, jo dhana, yaza, pada-pratiSThA kI daur3a meM lagA hai--isase zikSA lene jAUM ! magara guru ne kahA, to majabUrI thI, to gyaa| aura jaba pahuMcA janaka ke darabAra meM, to aura daMga raha gyaa| vahAM mahaphila jamI thii| zarAba cala rahI thii| nRtya ho rahA thaa| janaka bIca meM baiThe the| darabArI masta ho kara DAle rahe the| jAma para jAma cala rahe the| jAma calane lage dila macalane lage bAda muddata vo mahaphila meM kyA A ge| jaise gulazana meM bahAra A gaI bajma laharA gaI! Page 211 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA vahAM to zarAbaghara kA vAtAvaraNa thaa| saMnyAsI to bahuta becaina huaa| lekina janaka ne kahA, aba A gae ho, to kama se kama rAta ruko, vizrAma kro| subaha cale jaanaa| subaha saMnyAsI ko lekara pIche hI bahatI huI nadI meM snAna karane janaka gyaa| kapar3e donoM ne utAra kara rkhe| svAmI ke pAsa tIna hI kapar3e rahe hoNge| kapar3e bAhara rakhe taTa para aura donoM nadI meM utre| aura jaba donoM nadI meM utare, to svAmI ekadama cillAyA ki dekho, kyA ho gayA! tumhAre mahala meM Aga lagI hai! samrATa ne kahA, lagI rahane do| isa saMsAra meM to sabhI cIjoM ko naSTa ho jAnA hai| hama apanA snAna jArI rakheM ! svAmI ne to ekadama daur3a lagA dI kinAre kI tarapha vaha bolA ki tuma jAno tumhArA mahala jAne mere tIna kapar3e ve bilakula dIvAla ke pAsa rakhe haiN| kahIM jala na jAeM ! samrATa ne kahA, thor3A soco merA mahala jala rahA hai aura tuma sirpha tIna kapar3oM ke pIche bhAge jA rahe ho! kisI Asakti jyAdA hai? kisakA moha jyAdA hai? Asakti aura moha kA saMbaMdha mAtrA se nahIM hotaa| Asakti aura moha kA saMbaMdha bodha se hotA hai| tuma tIna kapar3oM se baMdha sakate ho| eka laMgoTI se baMdha sakate ho| usa eka laMgoTI ko aise pakar3a sakate ho, jaise ki koI sAmrAjya ho / aura koI vyakti pUre sAmrAjya ke rahate alipta raha sakatA hai| alipta hone meM aparigraha hai; lipta hone meM parigraha hai| mAtrAoM meM mata ulajho mAtrAoM se krAMti nahIM hotii| garIba AdamI, bhikhamaMgA, apanI rukhI-sUkhI roTI ko bhI aise kasa kara pakar3e rakhatA hai, utanA hI kAphI hai, usameM hI usakA sArA moha laga jAtA hai| lekina hama gaNita se jI rahe haiN| hama mAtrA kI bhASA meM socate haiN| aura jIvana kI krAMti guNAtmaka hotI hai--mAtrAtmaka nahIM, parimANAtmaka nahIM / ye kyA pAgalapana kI bAteM haiM ki apane pAsa kevala tIna hI vastra rkho| are, tIna rakho ki teraha rakho, isase kucha pharka nahIM pdd'taa| savAla yaha hai ki tuma vastra nahIM ho yaha smaraNa rkho| vastra hI nahIM; tuma zarIra bhI nahIM ho- yaha smaraNa rkho| zarIra hI nahIM; tuma mana bhI nahIM ho yaha smaraNa rkho| phira jitane vakha rakhanA ho, rakhe raho, kucha pharka nahIM par3atA / pahanoge to eka hI vakha koI aMtara nahIM pdd'taa| lekina bar3A ajIba hisAba hai isa deza kA / hama ulajha gae haiM bAharI bAtoM meN| aura hamAre saba mApadaMDa bAharI ho ge| to hama pUchate haiM ki jhopar3e meM hai, to mahAtmA hai| aura mahala meM hai... tuma janaka se cUka jAte janaka tumheM mahAtmA nahIM mAlUma hote janaka saca meM hI mahAtmA the| tumhAre bahuta se mahAtmAoM se kaI gune jyAdA, guNAtmaka rUpa se bhinna the| kRSNa to sAmrAjya ke bIca rhe| tIna kapar3e the kRSNa ke pAsa - tuma socate ho? lekina mukta-paripUrNa mukta aura jinake pAsa tIna kapar3e haiM, ve mukta haiM? taba to ye sAre deza meM jo bilakula naMge bhUkhe haiM, ina saba ko svarga milane vAlA hai! phira to pazu-pakSI jinake pAsa eka bhI vastra nahIM haiM, ye to tuma se Age rheNge| laTapaTAnaMda pIche chUTa jAeMge ! gadhe ghor3e Age Page 212 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA nikala jaaeNge| svarga meM pahale gadhe-ghor3e praveza kareMge; phira kahIM laga jAe maukA laTapaTAnaMda ko, to laga jAe; kyoMki ve tIna kapar3e to pakar3e hI hoMge! aura laMgoTa to kasa kara bAMdhA hI hogA unhoMne! tumheM merI bAteM vicitra laga sakatI haiM, kyoMki merI bAteM satya haiM aura satya sadA vicitra lagatA hai| aba kyA pAgalapana kI bAta hai ki ve tuma se kahate the ki hara strI ko apanI mAM-bahana-beTI kI taraha dekho! mAM kA kyA matalaba hotA hai? mAM kA matalaba hotA hai--tumhAre pitA kI patnI! hara strI ko apane pitA kI patnI samajhoge, kucha pitA kA bhI vicAra karo! pitA ko narka bhijavAnA hai! beTI kA kyA matalaba hotA hai? binA patnI ke beTI kahAM se lAoge? aura jaba sabhI striyAM tumhArI beTiyAM hoMgI, to koI camatkAra karanA par3egA, taba beTI paidA hogii| beTI, ki mAM, ki bahana--saba kAmavAsanA ke hI rizte haiN| mAM bhI kAmavAsanA kA hI riztA hai; tumhAre pitA kI patnI hai vh| tumase usase paidA hue ho| kAmavAsanA se hI paidA hue ho| aura bahana se bhI kAmavAsanA kA hI riztA hai| tuma eka hI garbha se Ae ho; eka hI kAmavAsanA ke srota se Ae ho| aura kyA riztA hai? aura beTI kA kyA matalaba?--ki tumhArI kAmavAsanA se jo paidA hogii| sirpha patnI ko chor3akara bAkI sabako bacA liyaa| aura binA patnI ke tInoM nahIM ho skte| yaha majA dekho! yaha jarA mUDhatA dekho! patnI se hI mAM hotI sakatI hai| aura patnI se hI beTI ho sakatI hai| usI aura patnI ke hI hone se bahana ho sakatI hai| usI patnI ko chor3a diyA aura bAkI tInoM bacA lie! vRkSa to kATa diyA, patte bacA lie, phUla bacA lie, phala bacA lie! inameM prANa na raha jaaeNge| aura jisa vyakti ko sAkSI-bhAva hai, vaha kyoM aisA soce ki koI bahana hai, koI mAM hai, koI beTI hai; strI strI hai; na patnI, na bahana, na mAM, na bettii| ye no hI kyoM bAMdhane? ina nAtoM se mukta honA hai--ki ye nAte banAne haiM! sirpha patnI bhara se bhaya hai ina tathAkathita brahmacAriyoM ko| aura kisI se bhaya nahIM hai| usa patnI se bacane ke lie kyA-kyA tarakIbeM nikAlate haiM! maiMne sunA hai: caMdUlAla...rAste para bhIr3abhAr3a thii| sarakasa kI tarapha loga jA rahe the| sarakasa kA pahalA zo chUTA thaa| dUsarA zurU hone kA thaa| to bar3I bhIr3amabhakkA thii| eka suMdara strI ko dekha kara saMyama na sAdha ske| laMgoTa DhIlA ho gayA! kucha jyAdA nahIM kiyA, eka cyUTI le dii| aba cyUMTI aisA koI bahuta bar3A pApa nahIM hai| magara strI ne cIkha-pukAra macA dI ekadama; hAlAMki strI bhI vahAM gaI hI isalie hogI ki koI cyUTI le de| kyoMki sajI-bajI...aisI sajI-bajI ki koI cyUTI na le, to dukhI lauTe ghr| koI dhakkA na mAre, to soce ki aba maiM suMdara nahIM dikhAI par3atI! to merA sArA sAja-siMgAra vyartha gayA! Page 213 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA to caMdUlAla ne usakI AkAMkSA pUrI kara dii| cyUTI le dii| magara eka pulisa vAle ne pakar3a liyA aura aisI kuTAI kI caMdUlAla kI ki cI bulavA dI! jamIna para girA kara chAtI para baiTha gayA! usane bhI maukA nahIM chodd'aa| usako piTAI karane meM majA A rahA hogA! usane yaha maukA dekha kara piTAI kara dii| dharma kI rakSA ke lie to piTAI kI jA sakatI hai! aura bhIr3a ne bhI usakA sAtha diyaa| aura bhIr3a ne bhI rasIda kie kucha haath| kyoMki aisA maukA kauna chor3e! jina-jina ke dila meM gubAra thA, jina-jina ko krodha thA--kisI para bhI rahA ho--unhoMne caMdUlAla kI piTAI kara dii| kapar3e phaTa ge| lahUluhAna ho gayA muNh| kharoMceM A giiN| aura vaha pulisa vAlA chAtI para baiThA hai aura de rahA dhamAdhama aura kaha rahA ki dekha, aba Aja se hara eka strI ko apanI mAM-bahana-beTI smjh| aura tabhI gulAbo vahAM aaii| aura caMdUlAla se bolI ki ai pappU ke pitA, jyAdA coTa vagairaha to nahIM AI? caMdUlAla ne pulisa vAle kI tarapha dekhA aura kahA ki nahIM bahanajI, bilakula coTa nahIM AI! jaba sabhI striyoM ko apanI bahanajI mAnanA hai, aura pulisa vAlA yahIM baiThA hai! abhI phira car3ha baiThegA chAtI para ki phira tumane harakata kI! to vaha gulAbo, apanI patnI taka ko bahanajI kaha rahA hai! yaha kyA pAgalapana hai! yaha jabardastI ke AropaNa, jabardastI kA AcaraNa! koI AvazyakatA nahIM hai kisI strI ko mAM mAnane kI, yA bahana mAnane kI, yA beTI mAnane kI, yA patnI mAnane kii| koI AvazyakatA nahIM hai| vaha vaha hai; tuma tuma ho| puruSoM ke bAbata nahIM kahate tuma se tumhAre brahmacArIjI ki hara eka puruSa ko apanA pitA mAno, beTA mAno, bhAI mAno! kyoM? jaba striyoM ke pIche itane dIvAne haiM, to puruSoM kA bhI to kucha iMtajAma kara do! lekina puruSoM ke saMbaMdha meM kucha nahIM khte| kyoM? kyoMki AropaNa karane kI koI jarUrata nhiiN| naisargika vAsanA ko dabAnA hai| sAkSI bano, kanhaiyAlAla dvivedI! ina vyartha kI bAtoM se kucha bhI na hogaa| laTapaTAnaMda narka meM par3e hoMge, agara kahIM koI narka hai| aba tuma pUchate ho ki ApakI bAteM mujhe AkarSita karatI haiN| saubhAgyazAlI ho ki buddhi bilakula bhraSTa nahIM ho gaI; ki thor3A bahuta bodha bAkI hai; ki thor3I bahuta samajha zeSa hai| ki laTapaTAnaMda bilakula barbAda nahIM kara gae tumheN| aura tuma kahate ho, vicitra bhI lagatI haiN| vicitra isalie lagatI haiM ki ve laTapaTAnaMda...! laTapaTAnaMda vicitra nahIM lage, to merI bAteM vicitra lageMgI hii| jarA nAma to dekho--laTapaTAnaMda! aura vicitra na lagA! aura merI bAteM vicitra lageMgI phir| kyoMki cunAva karanA par3egA ab| taya karanA hogaa| aura tuma nizcita bhAgyazAlI ho ki tuma kahate ho ki unakI zikSA ke anusAra cala nahIM paayaa| acchA huA ki nahIM cala paae| cala pAte, to pAgalakhAne meM hote| cala pAte, to basa Page 214 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA laTapaTAnaMda jaise hI kucha upadrava meM phaMsa jaate| baca gae--jAna bacI aura lAkhoM pAe, lauTa kara buDU ghara ko Ae! aba tuma pUcha rahe ho ki satya kI khoja ke lie anuzAsana cAhie yA unmukta jIvana? AtmAnuzAsita unmukta jiivn| anuzAsana aura unmukta jIvana meM to virodha hai| anuzAsana dUsaroM kA--aura unmukta jIvana apanA--isalie virodha hone vAlA hai| lekina merA zabda samajho: AtmAnuzAsita unmukta jiivn| svayaM ke viveka ke prakAza meM jIyA gayA svataMtra jiivn| koI virodha nahIM hai| anuzAsana aura unmukta jIvana meM virodha hai| anuzAsana kA artha: dUsare jo kaha rahe haiM--aisA kro| aura tumhAre prANa kucha aura karanA cAhate haiM, to saMgharSa hai| aura jisa cIja se bhI tumhAre bhItara saMgharSa paidA hotA hai, vahI cIja tumheM kamajora karatI hai, naSTa karatI hai, bhraSTa karatI hai| maiM kahatA hUM: AtmAnuzAsita unmukta jiivn| tumhArA anuzAsana tumhAre apane dhyAna se AnA cAhie, tumhAre bodha se AnA caahie| phira unmukta jIvana meM aura anuzAsana meM koI virodha na raha jaaegaa| kyoMki jahAM se unmukta jIvana AtA hai, vahIM se tumhArA anuzAsana bhI aaegaa| taba krAMti ghaTita hotI hai| taba tumhAre bhItara eka saMgIta bajane lagatA hai| eka tAlamela baiTha jAtA hai| saba virodha gira jAte haiN| saba dvaMdva gira jAte haiN| usI virodha ke kAraNa tumheM aba yaha savAla uThA hai ki maiM duvidhA meM hUM ki saMnyAsa lUM athavA vivAha karUM! yaha athavA kI bAta hI nhiiN| saMnyAsa bhI lo--aura vivAha bhI kro| kyoMki saMnyAsa kA vivAha se kucha virodha nhiiN| asala meM saMnyAsa lekara agara vivAha na kiyA, to laTapaTAnaMda ho jaaoge| saMnyAsa lo aura vivAha bhI kro| saMnyasta ho kara saMsAra meM rho| jaise kamala jala meM rahatA hai| yahI saMnyAsa kI ThIka-ThIka paribhASA hai| bhagor3Apana nhiiN| saMsAra se bhAganA nahIM hai| saMsAra ko bodhapUrvaka jiio| saMsAra paramAtmA kI anukaMpA hai| usake dvArA diyA gayA eka virATa avasara hai| isake saba raMga-rUpa phcaano| isakI saba gatividhiyoM ko jiio| itanA hI khayAla rahe ki behozI meM nhiiN| bs| hoza meM jiio| hozapUrvaka jiio| hozapUrvaka jo bhI kiyA jAegA, usase baMdhana paidA nahIM hotA; usase mukti AtI hai| aura behozI meM jo bhI kiyA jAegA, usase baMdhana AtA hai, mukti nahIM aatii| behozI meM tuma saMnyAsa bhI le lo; ghara se bhI bhAga jAo, to bhI tuma baMdhe hI rahoge--mukta nahIM ho skte| kyoMki behozI baMdhana hai| saMsAra nahIM bAMdhe hue hai tumheM, tumhArI mUrchA bAMdhe hue hai| isalie mere pAsa to eka hI zikSA hai--ekamAtra--aura vaha hai ki behozI tor3o, mUrchA tor3o, jAgaraNa kA sUtra pkdd'o| phira jAgaraNa kA sUtra agara tumase kahe ki vivAha kI koI jarUrata nahIM, to mata krnaa| aura jAgaraNa kA sUtra tumase kahe ki nahIM, abhI kucha vAsanA bhItara zeSa hai, jise jI kara hI maiM pAra kara sakU~gA, to vivAha karanA--binA kisI aparAdha-bhAva ke| phira tumhAre jAgaraNa se jo Page 215 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA bhI tumheM ThIka-ThIka lage, vaha krnaa| lekina tuma apanI mAlakiyata se karanA, mere kahane se nhiiN| isalie maiM apane saMnyAsI ko koI AcaraNa nahIM detA hUM, koI anuzAsana nahIM detA hUM, kyoMki maiM kauna hUM--kisI ke Upara apane ko thopUM! maiM to sirpha bodhamAtra detA huuN--ishaaraa| isalie merA saMnyAsa sirpha unake lie hai, jinake pAsa buddhimattA hai, jinake pAsa bodha ko jagAne kA sAhasa aura kSamatA hai| yaha kAyaroM ke lie nahIM hai| aura kAyaroM ko rokane ke lie maiMne sArA iMtajAma kara rakhA hai, ki unako daravAje ke bAhara hI roka diyA jaae| jo sajjana ludhiyAnA se Ae haiM jaina mitra, unhoMne yaha bhI kahA hai ki Apase milane kI saba ko suvidhA honI caahie| kyoM? kyoMki suvidhA honI cAhie? sirpha usako milane kI suvidhA hogI, jo itanI buddhimattA pradarzita kare, jo itanA dhyAna pradarzita kare ki mere sAtha cala ske| hara kisI ko kyoM milane kI suvidhA honI cAhie! merA samaya naSTa karane kI hara kisI ko kyoM suvidhA honI cAhie! Akhira maiM bhI svataMtra huuN| agara tuma mujhase milane ko svataMtra ho, to maiM bhI to svataMtra hUM ki tumase milUM yA na miluuN| Akhira maiM apane jIvana kA mAlika huuN| maiM apanI cetanA kA mAlika huuN| maiM unase milanA cAhatA hUM, jinake jIvana meM kucha dikhatA hai ki ho sakatA hai| maiM sirpha saMnyAsiyoM se milanA cAhatA huuN| hara kisI se nahIM milanA caahtaa| isalie tuma yaha mata socanA ki koI aura tumheM roka rahA hai mujhase milane se| isa Azrama meM jo bhI ho rahA hai, vaha mere izAre para ho rahA hai| isalie isa Azrama meM kisI bhI cIja para tuma yaha soca kara mata baiTha rahanA ki koI dUsarA roka rahA hai tumheM mere pAsa Ane se| koI rokane vAlA nahIM hai| jisa dina maiM milanA cAhUM, usa dina koI nahIM rokegaa| maiM nahIM milanA cAhatA hara kisI se| bhIr3abhAr3a se mujhe kyA lenA-denA hai! maiM koI rAjanetA nahIM haiM ki bhIr3abhAr3a ikaTThI kruuN| rAjanetA to paisA kharca kara ke bhIr3abhAr3a ikaTThI karate haiN| yahAM to tumheM Ane ke lie paisA kharca karanA par3atA hai| maiM bhI bIsa varSoM taka hara kisI ko Ane de rahA thaa| phira maiMne dekhA ki yaha to mUDhoM kI jamAta hai! isa bhIr3abhAr3a meM sirpha merA samaya kharAba ho rahA hai| maiM unake kAma A sakatA hUM, jinameM sAhasa ho| aura yaha kAyaroM kI jamAta ikaTThI ho jAtI hai| aura inakI bhIr3a meM ve mujha taka pahuMca hI nahIM pAte, jinako pahuMcanA cAhie thaa| to mujhe bhIr3a ko chAMTanA pdd'aa| aura merI apanI tarakIbeM haiM chAMTane kii| maiM eka sekeMDa meM chAMTa detA huuN| jarA-sI bAta se chAMTa detA huuN| mujhe koI bahuta upAya nahIM karanA pdd'taa| jainoM kI mere pAsa bhIr3a thii| do dina meM chAMTa dI! basa, jaina-dharma ke saMbaMdha meM kucha kaha diyA ki ve bhAga khar3e hae! gAMdhIvAdiyoM kI bhIr3a thI mere paas| basa, gAMdhI ke saMbaMdha meM kucha kaha Page 216 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA diyA ki ye bhAga khar3e hue mujhe jisako chAMTanA ho, kucha karanA nahIM pdd'taa| eka bAta kaha dUMgA, aura ve apane Apa bhAga jaaeNge| maiM to unako hI apane pAsa cAhatA hUM, jo isa agnipatha para calane ko rAjI haiM una thor3e se logoM ke lie| hara kisI ke lie koI upAya nahIM hai mujhase milane kA / na koI jarUrata hai| na mujhe koI AkAMkSA hai| maiM kucha netA nahIM huuN| mujhe tumhAre mata nahIM cAhie; na voTa caahie| maiM kyoM phikra karUM bhIr3abhAr3a kI ! isalie mujhe jo kahanA hai, jaisA kahanA hai, vaisA hI khuuNgaa| rattI bhara samajhautA nahIM kruuNgaa| samajhautA kare rAjanetA aura tumhAre jo dharmaguru samajhautA karate haiM, ve saba rAjanetA haiN| samajhaute kI bhASA hI rAjanIti kI bhASA hai| maiM bilakula gaira-samajhautAvAdI huuN| mujhe jo kahanA hai, jaisA kahanA hai, usako dhAra de kara khuuNgaa| gardana kaTatI hokaTatI ho, kaTa jaae| merI kaTe merI kaTa jAe tumhArI kaTa jAe! koI phikra nhiiN| tumhArI kaTe -- unako AtmA ko jAnane kI kuMjI -- maiM apane saMnyAsiyoM ko koI anuzAsana nahIM detA huuN| hAM, jarUra detA huuN| vahI dhyAna hai| aura jo vyakti apane ko pahacAnane lagatA hai, usake AcaraNa maiM apane Apa krAMti ho jAtI hai phira use dUdha pInA ho dUdha pIe phala khAne ho phala khAe / mAMsAhAra karanA ho mAMsAhAra kare meM kucha nahIM khtaa| lekina tuma yahAM dekho mere pAsa lAkhoM mAMsAhArI Ae haiM aura cupacApa zAkAhArI ho gae haiN| aura maiMne eka dina nahIM kahA kisI ko ki zAkAhArI ho jaao| isako meM krAMti kahatA huuN| maiMne kisI se kahA nahIM ki tuma zAkAhArI ho jaao| yahAM to mere pAsa mAMsAhAriyoM kI sArI duniyA se... kyoMki sArI duniyA mAMsAhArI hai| jaina apane baccoM ko par3hane pazcima bhejate haiM ve saba jA kara mAMsAhArI ho jAte haiN| kyA khAka ahiMsA sikhAI thI unako! maiM una DAkTaroM ko jAnatA hUM, paricita hUM, ve mere mitra haiM, jo pazcima par3hane ge| vahAM se mAMsAhAra karanA sIkha kara A ge| aba corI-chipe mAMsAhAra karate haiM aMDe khAte haiM aura jaina maMdira bhI jAte haiM! Upara-Upara ahiMsA paramodharmaH bhI calatA hai| ye na gae hote pazcima, to abhI bhI zAkAhArI hote magara vaha zAkAhAra honA jhUTha hotaa| pazcima ne inakA jhUTha ukhAr3a diyaa| inakI jhInI-sI parta pAkhaMDa kI phAr3a dii| pazcima meM jAkara inako samajha meM A gayA ki mAMsAhAra karanA zarIra ke lie zaktizAlI hai| basa, vahAM se mAMsAhAra karanA sIkha kara A gae! gaI saba zikSA / gayA saba anushaasn| magara abhI bhI bAhara se chipAnA par3atA hai| abhI bhI bAhara to vahI mukhauTA lagAe rahate haiN| maiM eka DAkTara ke ghara mehamAna thaa| jaba maiMne unake phrija meM aMDe dekhe, to maiMne kahA ki tuma jaina ho aura aMDe kaise! unhoMne kahA, aba Apase kyA chipAnA kama se kama Apase to maiM saca kaha sakatA hUM ki maiM aMDe khAtA huuN| magara aura kisI ko nahIM batA sktaa| corI-chipe khAtA huuN| lekina aMDA binA maiM nahIM cala sktaa| pazcima gyaa| pAMca sAla pazcima meM rhaa| aMDe khAnA sIkha gyaa| aura bahuta kucha bhI khaayaa| aura saba to chor3anA pdd'aa| kyoMki yahAM corI se Page 217 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA aura calAnA bahuta muzkila hai| magara aMDe calA letA huuN| yaha merA jo kaMpAuMDara hai, cupacApa le AtA hai| magara bAhara abhI bhI ve digaMbara jaina maMdira meM pUjA karate bhI dekhe jAte haiN| aura ahiMsA paramodharma kI takhtI lagA rakhI hai unhoMne apane baiThakakhAne meM! itanA pAkhaMDa sajA kara calanA par3atA hai| yahAM mere pAsa sArI duniyA se loga Ae hue haiN| maiMne kisI ko kahA nahIM ki mAMsAhAra chodd'naa| kabhI kahaMgA bhI nhiiN| lekina jo vyakti bhI dhyAna meM utaratA hai, use eka bAta sApha honI zurU ho jAtI hai ki apane jIbha ke thor3e se sukha ke lie kisI kA jIvana lenA? bAta hI mUrkhatApUrNa mAlUma par3ane lagatI hai| gira jAtI hai apane se| mere pAsa jo loga Ae haiM, unameM se adhikatama loga zarAba pIne vAle loga rahe haiN| kyoMki pazcima meM zarAba aisI pI jAtI hai, jaise yahAM pAnI pIyA jAtA hai| zarAba koI pApa nahIM hai duniyA meN| honI bhI nahIM caahie| zAkAhArI hai| dUdha se jyAdA zAkAhArI hai| aMgUra kA hI rasa hai| phalAhAra kaho! thor3e sar3e hue phaloM kA AhAra hai| magara apanI-apanI mauj| kisI ko sar3e phala acche lagate haiM, to kyA karoge! tAje aMgUra nahIM khAeMge; sar3A kara khAeMge, to zarAba bana jaaegii| magara dUdha se to jyAdA sAtvika hai| phira yahAM A kara unakI zarAba apane Apa chUTane lagatI hai; apane Apa girane lagatI hai| kyoMki dhyAna meM jaise-jaise jAte haiM, eka bAta samajha meM AtI hai ki hama zarAba kyoM pIte the| pIte the ki dukha bhUla jaae| aba dukha hI nahIM bacA, to bhulAnA kyA hai! aura eka bAta samajha meM bhI AtI hai ki aba AnaMdita ho rahA hai jIvana; praphullita ho rahA hai| zarAba pIte haiM, to AnaMda bhUla jAtA hai| AnaMda ko kauna bhulAnA cAhatA hai! zarAba kA kAma bhulAnA hai| dukhI ho, to dukha ko bhulA degii| AnaMdita ho--AnaMda ko bhulA degii| magara AnaMda ko kauna bhUlanA cAhatA hai! jo AnaMda ko nahIM bhUlanA cAhatA, vaha zarAba pInA apane Apa baMda kara degaa| maiM kisI ko kahatA nahIM ki zarAba pInA baMda kro| maiM kisI ko kahatA nahIM ki mAMsAhAra mata kro| isa taraha kI TuccI aura choTI bAteM maiM karatA nhiiN| maiM to mUla bAta de detA huuN| phira tumhArA jIvana hai| dIyA tumheM de diyA, aba isakI rozanI meM tumheM jahAM jAnA ho| dIvAla se TakarAnA ho--to ttkraao| daravAje se nikAlanA ho--to nikala jaao| itanA merA jAnanA hai ki jisake hAtha meM dIyA hai, vaha daravAje se nikalatA hai--dIvAloM se nahIM ttkraataa| aura jisake hAtha meM dIyA nahIM hai, usase tuma lAkha kaho ki dIvAloM se mata ttkraanaa| vaha ttkraaegaa| saMnyAsa bhI lo--dhyAna bhI kro| aura vivAha se kucha virodha nahIM hai| vivAha meM kucha burA nahIM hai| aura dhyAnI agara vivAha kare, to usake vivAha meM bhI eka sugaMdha hotI hai| kyoMki usake vivAha meM bhI baMdhana nahIM hotA; svataMtratA hotI hai| usake prema se prArthanA paidA hone lagatI hai| usake saMbhoga se bhI samAdhi kI gaMdha Ane lagatI hai, sugaMdha Ane lagatI hai| Page 218 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA aura damita citta kA vyakti AMkha baMda kara ke yogAsana mAra kara baiTha jAe, to bhI kyA karegA! bhItara vahI kAmavAsanA kI AMdhiyAM aura tUphAna calate rahate haiN| asalI krAMti bhItara hai - bAhara nhiiN| bAhara dhokhA hai, bhItara krAMti hai| kanhaiyAlAla dvivedI, agara jIvana ko krAMti se gujAranA hai, agara hai sAhasa --to saMnyAsa | aura maiM nahIM kahatA ki vivAha mata krnaa| isalie ghabar3Ao mata ki saMnyAsa lene se phira vivAha nahIM kara pAUMgA yahI to mere saMnyAsa kI viziSTatA hai ki tumheM saMsAra se tor3atA hI nhiiN| maiM jor3ane ko hUM--tor3ane ko nahIM / paramAtmA se jor3anA hai| aura yaha saMsAra bhI paramAtmA kA hai kyoM isase ttuuttnaa| ahobhAva se juDo dhanyavAda se juDo anugraha se judd'o| agara tumheM paramAtmA kI isa kRti meM rasa nahIM hai, to kyA khAka paramAtmA meM rasa hogA ! jaba tuma saMgIta ko prema nahIM karate, to saMgItajJa ko kaise prema karoge? aura nRtya ko prema na nahIM karate, to nartaka ko kaise prema karoge? yaha paramAtmA kA nRtya hai ye pakSiyoM ke kaMTha se phUTate hue gIta, ye vRkSoM para khile hue phUla -- ye saba paramAtmA ke raMga haiM; ye saba paramAtmA ke DhaMga hai| inako prema kro| yaha vyaktiyoM kA sauMdarya--striyoM kA, puruSoM kA sauMdarya - yaha saba paramAtmA kI hI abhivyakti hai| isase bhAganA nahIM hai| hAM, ise jAga kara jInA hai| aura jAgane se saba ho jAtA hai| -- cauthA praznaH bhagavAna, maiM eka yuvatI ke prema meM thaa| vaha mujhe dhokhA de gaI aura kisI aura kI ho gii| aba maiM jI to rahA hUM, kiMtu jIne kA koI rasa na rhaa| maiM kyA karUM? nageMdra ! prema meM the yA svI para kabjA karane kI AkAMkSA meM the? kyoMki tumhArI bhASA kahatI hai ki vaha mujhe dhokhA de gaI aura kisI aura kI ho gaI! prema ko isase kyA pharka par3atA hai! agara vaha yuvatI kisI aura ke sAtha jyAdA sukhI hai, to tumheM prasanna honA caahie| kyoMki prema to yahI cAhatA hai ki jise hama prema karate haiM, vaha jyAdA sukhI ho, vaha AnaMdita ho| agara vaha yuvatI tumhAre bajAya kisI aura ke pAsa jyAdA AnaMdita hai, to isameM rasa kho dene kA kahAM kAraNa hai| magara hama prema vagairaha nahIM krte| prema ke nAma para hama kucha aura karate haiM--kabjA -- maalkiyt| tuma pati honA cAhate the| pati yAnI svAmI / aura vaha kisI aura kI ho gaI ! aura maz2A yaha hai ki tumheM usase prema thaa| tumane apane prazna meM yaha to batAyA hI nahIM ki use bhI tumase prema thA yA nahIM tuma se hotA, to tumhAre sAtha hotI tumheM prema thA, isase jarUrI to nahIM ki use bhI prema ho prema koI jabardastI to nahIM tumheM thA, yaha tumhArI marjI / aura use nahIM thA, to usakI bhI to AtmA hai, usakI bhI to svataMtratA hai| aba kisI ko kisI se prema ho jAe aura dUsare ko pratyuttara denA na ho, to koI jabardastI to nahIM hai| Page 219 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA tuma prema karane ko svataMtra ho, lekina kisI ke mAlika hone ko svataMtra nahIM ho| tuma kisI ke jIvana para chA jAnA cAho, hAvI honA cAho, yaha to ahaMkAra hai--prema nahIM hai| prema jAnatA hai--svataMtratA denaa| khuza hoo ki agara vaha kahIM bhI hai aura prasanna hai|...yhii to tuma cAhate the ki vaha prasanna ho jaae| lekina nhiiN| zAyada tuma yaha nahIM cAhate the| tuma cAhate the ki vaha tumhArI chAyA bana kara cle| tumhAre ahaMkAra kI tRpti ho| vaha tumhArA AbhUSaNa bne| tuma duniyA ko kaha sako ki dekho, maiMne isa yuvatI ko jIta liyA! vaha tumhArI vijaya kA pratIka bane, patAkA bne| yaha tumhAre ahaMkAra kA hI Ayojana thaa| aura ahaMkAra jahAM hai, vahAM prema nahIM hai| aura zAyada isI ahaMkAra ke kAraNa vaha kisI aura kI ho gaI ho| samajhadAra rahI hogii| acchA kiyA--kisI aura kI ho gii| tumhArI hotI, tuma staate| tumhArA ahaMkAra batA rahA hai ki tuma usakI chAtI para patthara bana kara baiTha jaate| aba tuma kaha rahe ho, aba maiM jI to rahA hUM, kiMtu jIne kA koI rasa na rhaa| yuvatI ko dekhA thA, usake pahale jIte the ki nahIM? taba rasa thA ki nahIM? to aba kyA bigar3a gayA! jaise pahale jIte the binA yuvatI ke; yuvatI ko jAnA nahIM thA, taba bhI to jIte the na! mere pAsa loga A kara pUchate haiM ki hameM bar3A Dara lagatA hai ki marane ke bAda kyA hogA? maiM unase kahatA hUM ki janma se pahale kA tumheM kucha Dara lagatA hai? tuma the yA nahIM--kucha patA hai? ve kahate haiM, kucha patA nhiiN| kucha harjA hai nahIM the to? unhoMne kahA, kyA harjA hai! jaba patA hI nahIM, to rahe hoM yA na rahe hoN| maiMne kahA, to basa yahI mauta ke bAda hogA, jo janma ke pahale thaa| isalie ghabar3AhaTa kyA hai! janma ke pahale kA tumheM kucha patA nahIM hai| mauta ke bAda kA bhI tumheM kucha patA nahIM hogaa| to ciMtA kyA kara rahe ho! yuvatI nahIM milI thI, usake pahale bhI tuma jiMdA the--aura bar3A rasa thaa| aura yuvatI ko dekhakara sArA rasa kho gayA! aise gulAma ho? aura kala kA to bharosA rakho--kala kahIM phira koI dUsarI yuvatI mila jAe--usase bhI suMdara, usase bhI AkarSaka--to tuma paramAtmA ko dhanyavAda doge ki acchA huA ki usa bAI se chuTakArA ho gayA! mullA nasaruddIna apanI patnI ke sAtha jA rahA thaa| eka suMdara strI pAsa se gujrii| khaTaka gii| AMkha meM aTaka gii| patnI to aisI cIjeM ekadama se pahacAna letI haiN| patnI ne phaurana mullA se kahA ki aisI suMdara strI ko dekhakara tumheM jarUra bhUla hI jAtA hogA ki tuma vivAhita ho! mullA ne kahA ki nahIM; nahIM phajUla kI mAM! aisI striyoM ko dekhakara hI mujhe yAda AtA hai ki are, maiM vivAhita haM! hAya rAma, maiM vivAhita hUM! aisI striyoM ko dekhakara hI yAda AtA Page 220 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kala kA bharosA rkho| agara bIte kala meM dhokhA khA gae the, to Ane vAle kala meM bhI dhokhA phira khaaoge| aisI kyA jaldI par3I hai! aura pUchate ho, jIvana meM koI rasa nahIM rhaa| aba maiM kyA karUM? agara isa taraha hI rasa AtA ho, to phira koI talAza kara lo| yuvatiyoM kI koI kamI hai! pRthvI bharI par3I hai| lekina agara kucha samajha kI bAta karanI ho, to thor3A soco| tumane baccoM kI kahAniyAM par3hI hoNgii| baccoM kI kahAniyoM meM yUM kahAniyAM AtI haiM ki koI rAjA hai usake prANa usane tote meM rakha die| isase usako koI mAra nahIM sktaa| jaba taka tote ko na mAre, rAjA ko nahIM mAra sktaa| rAjA ko kitanA hI mAro, maratA hI nhiiN| usane prANa apane tote meM chipA rakhe haiN| jaba tote ko pakar3a kara mAra DAloge, to rAjA mara jaaegaa| ye kahAniyAM bar3I ThIka haiN| aba yaha to yUM haA ki tumane apane prANa usa lar3akI meM rakha die| itane jaldI giravI rakha die! hara kisI ke hAtha meM de dete ho prANa! jIvana kA rasa hI calA gyaa| jyAdA kucha rahA nahIM hogA rs| bhrAMti meM ho tuma ki rasa thaa| aise kahIM rasa jAtA hai? rasa ko tuma jAnate hI nahIM ki rasa kyA hai| jinhoMne jAnA hai, unhoMne kahA hai--raso vai sH| unhoMne to paramAtmA kI paribhASA ko hai ki vaha rasa hai| unhoMne to sirpha paramAtmA ko hI rasa mAnA hai; aura kisI cIja kA koI rasa nahIM hai| mila jAtI strI, to bhI rasa kho jaataa| aura strI gale se baMdha jAtI--so alaga! phira usase chUTanA muzkila ho jaataa| jarA tuma usase bhI to pUcho, jisake gale baMdha gaI hai! usakI kyA hAlata hai! usakA bhI to becAre kA dukha-darda jaano| usakA dukha-darda jAna kara tumako bar3I sAMtvanA milegI, bar3A AzvAsana milegaa| eka pAgalakhAne meM eka rAjanetA dekhane gayA thA pAgalakhAne ko| eka AdamI apane bAla loMca rahA thaa| chAtI pITa rahA thaa| aura hAtha meM eka tasvIra lie thaa| AMkhoM se AMsU baha rahe the-- jhara-jhara! chAtI se lagAtA thA tasvIra ko| sIMkhacoM meM baMda thaa| pUchA usane supariMTeMDeMTa ko, isa AdamI ko kyA ho gayA! yaha kyA kara rahA hai? yaha tasvIra kisakI hai? usane kahA, yaha tasvIra eka strI kI hai, jisako yaha pAnA cAhatA thA aura nahIM pA skaa| jaba se nahIM pAyA, pAgala ho gayA hai| (rahA hogA nageMdra jaisA!) basa, aba taba se yaha basa bAla loMcatA hai| rotA hai| chAtI se phoTo lagAtA hai| cIkha-pukAra macAtA hai| isako pAgalakhAne meM rakhanA par3A hai| isake ghara ke loga parezAna ho ge| isane saba kA caina harAma kara diyA hai| rAjanetA ne kahA, becArA! Age bddh'e| dUsare kaTaghare meM eka AdamI sIMkhacoM ko pakar3a-pakar3a kara hilA rahA thaa| sIMkhacoM se sira mAra rahA thaa| lahUluhAna ho rahA thA usakA sir| pUchA, isako kyA ho gayA? isa becAre ko kyA ho gayA? usa supariMTeMDeMTa ne kahA ki aba Apa na pUcho, to acchaa| isane usa lar3akI se zAdI kara lI, jisa lar3akI kI yAda meM pahalA marA jA rahA hai| jaba se isane zAdI kI hai, taba se Page 221 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA isakI yaha hAlata ho gii| taba se yaha sIMkhacoM se sira mAratA hai! dIvAloM se sira phor3atA hai| yaha AtmahatyA karane ko utArU hai| yaha AtmahatyA na kara le, isalie isako pAgalakhAne meM rakhanA par3A hai| kisako becArA kahoge? vaha, jisako nahIM milI strii--vh| yA jisako mila gaI--vaha? kisake jIvana meM rasa hai? tuma jarA unako to dekho, jisako unakI preyasiyAM mila gaI haiN| unake premI mila gae haiN| una para to jarA najara ddaalo| vahAM kahAM rasa hai? Ube baiThe haiN| jaba bhI tuma kisI jor3e ko udAsa dekho, samajhanA--vivAhita haiN| jaba bhI tuma kisI strI-puruSa ko lar3ate dekho, samajho vivAhita haiN| eka-dUsare kI gardana ko dabAte dekho--samajho ki vivAhita haiM! jarA dekho to cAroM tarapha AMkha khola kr| tuma mujhase kucha rahe ho, aba maiM jI to rahA hUM, kiMtu jIne kA koI rasa na rhaa| itane jaldI gaMvA doge jIvana kA rasa! jIvana kucha aura bar3e kAma ke lie hai| jIvana kucha aura virATa AkAza ko pAne ke lie hai| abhI aura bhI maMjileM haiN| abhI aura bhI AsamAna haiN| dila ke saharA meM koI Asa kA juganU bhI nhiiN| itanA royA hUM ki aba AMkha meM AMsU bhI nhiiN|| kAsAe-darda lie phiratI hai gulazana kI hvaa| mere dAmana meM tire pyAra kI khuzabU bhI nhiiN|| china gayA merI nigAhoM se bhI ehsaase-jmaal| terI tasvIra meM pahalA sA vo jAdU bhI nhiiN|| mauja-dara-mauja tere gama kI zaphaka khilatI hai| mujhe isa silasilAe-raMga pe kAbU bhI nhiiN|| dila vo kamabakhta ki dhar3ake hI calA jAtA hai| ye alaga bAta ki tU jInate pahalU bhI nhiiN|| ye ajaba rAhagujara hai ki caTTAneM to bhut| aura sahAre ko terI yAda ke bAjU bhI nhiiN|| jaldI hI bhUla jaaoge| phira ulajhoge aura bhUla jaaoge| abhI lagatA hai ki dila ke sahArA meM koI Asa kA juganU bhI nhiiN| itanA royA hUM ki aba AMkha meM AMsU bhI nhiiN|| lekina yaha saba ronA-dhonA, yaha AzAoM kA bujha jAnA, yaha juganuoM kA bhI kho jAnA, jyAdA dera nahIM ttikegaa| AdamI bhrama pAlana meM bar3A kuzala hai| jarA ruko| phira bhrama paaloge| eka bharama TUTatA nahIM ki dUsarA bharama hama paidA kara lete haiM! phira se rasa kI dhAra bahane lagegI! hAlAMki vaha rasa kI dhAra bilakula jhUThI hai| rasadhAra to bahatI hai sirpha usake jIvana meM, jo paramAtmA ke prema se bhara jAtA hai| ina choTe-moTe premoM meM prema nahIM hai; AsaktiyAM haiN| prema ke dhokhe haiN| prema kevala zabda hai--pyArA shbd| lekina zabda ko ughAr3a kara dekho, to Page 222 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA bhItara kucha bhI lhiiN| koI artha nhiiN| koI gaurava nahIM, koI garimA nhiiN| koI kAvya nahIM, koI saMgIta nhiiN| aba talaka mujha sI kisI para bhI nahIM gujarI hai maiM bahAroM meM jalA aura kinAroM meM bahA, maiMne hara AMkha meM DhUMDhA hai pyAra apane lie dila merA pyAra bharA pyArA kA bhUkhA hI rhaa| jiMdagI merI sisakatI rahegI kyA yUM hI kyA mujhe koI sahArA na mila sakegA kabhI? bahAreM dekhatI haiM mur3a ke magara rukatI nahIM, koI bhI phUla kyA merA na khila sakegA kabhI? isase bar3ha kara ke bhalA aura kyA hai majabUrI apane aramAnoM kI lAzoM para mujhe calanA par3A, chipAtA AyA hUM jisako maiM bar3I muddata se Aja saba ke hI sAmane vaha rAja kahanA pdd'aa| aba talaka mujha sI kisI para bhI nahIM gujarI hai maiM bahAroM meM jalA aura kinAroM meM bahA, maiMne hara AMkha meM DhUMDhA hai pyAra apane lie dila merA pyAra bharA pyAra kA bhUkhA hI rhaa| isa jagata meM tuma agara prema ko khoja rahe ho, to yaha aisA hI hai, jaise koI reta se tela ko nicor3ane kI koziza kara raho ho--jo nahIM hai vhaaN| tuma kisase prema mAMga rahe ho? yaha bhI to dekho ki tuma jisase prema mAMga rahe ho, vaha bhI tumase prema mAMga rahA hai! na usake pAsa hai, na tumhAre pAsa hai| yahAM hara koI hara kisI se mAMga rahA hai| aura saba bhikhamaMge haiN| tuma bhI cAhate ho, dusarA prema de| aura dUsarA bhI cAhatA hai ki tuma prema do| aura donoM ko isakI phikra nahIM hai ki hai bhI kisI ke pAsa, jo de de? pahale honA to cAhie--dene ke pahale honA caahie| isalie to yahAM hara vyakti hArA huA hai, thakA huA hai, parezAna hai, pIr3ita hai| koI tumhI nhiiN| smjho| isa mauke ko cUko mt| bar3I kRpA kI usa yuvatI ne, jo kisI aura kI ho gii| tuma para usakI dayA hai, anukaMpA hai| usane bar3A prema jatalAyA tumhAre prti| eka avasara diyA tumheM dekhane kaa| tuma mAMga rahe the prem| magara tumhAre pAsa hai? jisake pAsa hai, vaha mAMgatA nahIM; vaha detA hai| aura jisake pAsa nahIM hai, vaha mAMgatA hai| aura kisase mAMga rahe ho? jisake pAsa ho, usase maaNgo| aura prema kA jharanA kisake pAsa hotA hai? jisake pAsa dhyAna--usake pAsa prem| binA dhyAna ke prema nhiiN| Page 223 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA dhyAna kA phUla hai prema buddhoM ke pAsa prema hotA hai| unase mAMgo mata jholI phailAo mata phailAo to bhI barasa jAte haiN| dhyAna kI chAyA hai prema mAMgo, to bhI ve dete haiN| jahAM rozanI hai, vahAM jAoge, to rozanI tuma para par3egI hI tumhAre mAMgane, na mAMgane kA savAla nhiiN| phUla khilegA, usake pAsa se gujaroge--gaMdha milegii| mAMgane na mAMgane kA koI savAla hI nahIM hai| lekina isa jagata meM bar3I ajIba hAlata cala rahI hai| bhikhamaMge bhikhamaMgoM ke sAmane bhikSApAtra lie khar3e haiM ki kucha de do! bAbA, kucha mila jAe ! aura dUsarA bhI mAMga rahA hai| aura donoM isa bhrAMti meM haiM ki dUsare ke pAsa hogA kisI ke pAsa nahIM hai| sirpha una thor3e se logoM ke pAsa prema hotA hai, jinhoMne dhyAna kI aMtima gaharAiyAM huI haiN| prema pariNAma hai dhyAna kA aura majA yaha hai ki dhyAnI kisI se prema nahIM mAMgatA, detA hai; sirpha detA hai mAMgatA hI nahIM / aura yaha bhI tuma samajha lenA -yaha jIvana kA mahAgaNita - ki jo detA hai, use bahu milatA hai| hAlAMki vaha mAMgatA nhiiN| vaha chAMTa-chAMTa kara bhI nahIM detaa| vaha sirpha bAMTatA hI rahatA hai| aura usa para bahuta barasatA hai| AkAza se barasatA hai| bAdaloM se barasatA hai| cAMdattAroM se barasatA hai| paramAtmA use cAroM tarapha se bhara detA hai| vaha luTAe calA jAtA hai; paramAtmA use die calA jAtA hai| raso vai saH paramAtmA rasa rUpa hai| lekina kisako paramAtmA milA hai? jo bhItara jAgA hai; jisane bhItara sArI taMdrA aura nIMda tor3a dI hai; jisane bhItara behozI kI sArI parateM ukhAr3a pheMkI haiM; jisane mUrcchA ko jar3oM se ukhAr3a diyA hai; jisane bhItara rozana kara liyA apane ko; jo prakAzita ho gayA hai- usake bhItara paramAtmA utara AtA hai| rasa kI dhAra baha jAtI hai| nageMdra ! tuma jisa DhaMga se soca rahe ho, usakA to aMtima pariNAma AtmahatyA hai| maiM jo kaha rahA hUM, usakA aMtima pariNAma AtmarUpAMtaraNa hai aura isako bhI tumase kaha dUM ki AtmahatyA ke kSaNa meM hI AtmarUpAMtaraNa kI saMbhAvanA hai, kyoMki jaba AdamI aisI jagaha A jAtA hai, jahAM Age calane ko koI jagaha nahIM raha jAtI, krAMti ghaTatI hai| nahIM to krAMti nahIM ghaTatI / rAstA khatama ho jAtA hai vahIM isa avasara ko cUkanA mt| yaha avasara hai ki tuma jaago| aura prema kI jagaha dhyAna para dRSTi jmaao| prema dhokhA de gyaa| dene hI vAlA thaa| kyoMki thA hI nhiiN| dhyAna ne kabhI kisI ko dhokhA nahIM diyA hai| Aja taka nahIM diyA hai| jisane bhI dhyAna kI tarapha najara uThAI - mAlAmAla ho gayA hai| samrATa ho gayA hai| aura majA yaha hai ki usakI saMpadA meM prema kI saMpadA bhI AtI hai| Page 224 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA bhItara jhAMko, vahAM prabhu kA rAjya hai| apane para aao| prema kahatA hai--dUsare ko pkdd'o| dhyAna kahatA hai--apane ko pkdd'o| isalie Upara se to prema aura dhyAna ke rAste bilakula viparIta mAlUma par3ate haiN| aura haiM bhI vipriit| tumhAre prema se to dhyAna kA rAstA bilakula viparIta hai| aba tumhArI najara usa yuvatI para aTakI hai| dUsare para aTakI hai| yaha bhI koI bAta huI! pahale apane ko to khoja lo| phira dUsare kI talAza meM jaanaa| aura maiM tumase kahatA hUM ki tuma apane ko khoja lo, to dUsare tumhArI talAza meM aaeNge| tumheM kahIM kisI kI talAza meM jAnA na pdd'egaa| tuma daidIpyamAna ho uTho, to tumhArI kiraNeM dUsaroM ko bulA laaeNgii| dUra-dUra se loga cale AeMge--tumhAre jharane para pAnI pIne; apanI pyAsa bujhaane| kucha aisA karo ki tumheM to rasa mile hI mile--auroM ko bhI rasa mila jaae| kucha aisA karo ki paramAtmA tumase baha utthe| aura jaba AdamI aisI jagaha A jAtA hai, jahAM socane lagatA hai ki aba khatama hI kara lUM apane ko...| jarUra tumane socA hogA bahuta bAra ki aba apane ko miTA hI lUM, kyoMki aba jIvana to hai hI nhiiN| rasa nahIM hai| jIe jA rahA huuN| kyA sAra hai jIne meM! khatama hI kyoM na kara lUM? jaba khatama karane taka kI taiyArI ho, to isake pahale eka kAma aura kara lo, phira khatama kara lenaa| isake pahale eka kAma yaha to kara lo--jAna to lo ki maiM kauna huuN| phira AtmahatyA karanI ho, to AtmahatyA kara lenaa| hAlAMki jisane apane ko jAnA hai, usane kabhI AtmahatyA nahIM kI hai| kyoMki vaha to jAnatA hai--AtmahatyA ho hI nahIM sktii| AtmA amara hai| miTAo to bhI miTa nahIM sktii| jalAo, to bhI jala nahIM sktii| aura isa zAzvata ko pahacAnate hI apUrva ghaTanAeM ghaTatI hai| camatkAra ghaTate haiN| jAdU jIvana meM A jAtA hai| tuma miTTI chuo aura sonA ho jaaegii| tuma kAMTA chuoge aura phUla ho jaaegaa| yaha sArA astitva paramAtmA se jagamagA uThatA hai| tuma jagamagA jAo bhItara, to bAhara dIe hI dIe jala jAte haiN| jala hI rahe haiN| sirpha tuma aMdhe ho, isalie dikhAI nahIM par3a rahe haiN| aura cAroM tarapha se rasa tumhArI tarapha bahane lagatA hai| tuma baho--phira dekho| yaha saMkaTa kI ghar3I hai, isakA upayoga kara lo| mere hisAba se saMkaTa kI ghar3iyAM bar3e saubhAgya kI ghar3iyAM hotI haiN| samajhadAra unako varadAna banA lete haiN| nAsamajha--unako abhishaap| saba tuma para nirbhara hai| Aja itanA hii| nauvAM pravacana; dinAMka 19 sitaMbara, 1980; zrI rajanIza Azrama, pUnA Page 225 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA buddhatva aura pAMDitya pahalA prazna: bhagavAna, kisI ko caina se dekhA na duniyA meM kabhI maiNne| isI hasarata meM kara dI khatama sArI jiMdagI maiNne|| kahate haiM loga mauta se bhI badatara haiM iNtijaar| basa rAha dekhate hI gujArI jiMdagI maiNne|| uThAe kyoM lie jAte ho mujhako bAge-duniyA se| nahIM dekhI hai dila bhara ke bahAre jiMdagI maiNne|| loga ghabarA kara yUM hI kaha dete haiM ki mara jaaeN| mara ke bhI lekina sukU pAte nahIM dekhA maiNne|| jaba ye AsI uThAeMge phiradausa meM jaam| maya badala jAegI pAnI meM sunA hai maiNne|| Aga dojakha kI bhI arka e zarma se bujha jaaegii| parezAM AdamI ko dekha ye na socA maiNne|| saba tarapha kaLa tamannAoM kI banI haiM yhaaN| eka bastI ko bhI basate nahIM dekhA maiNne|| isa jahAM meM tU kaise bepie madahoza rahatA hai? ai sAkI! Aja taka dekhA na tujhasA AdamI maiNne|| batA tU kauna hai iMsAna yA koI phariztA hai? yA dekhA hai khudA ko khvAba meM banA AdamI maiNne|| amRta priyA! janma ke sAtha jIvana nahIM milatA; janma ke sAtha jIvana kI kevala saMbhAvanA milatI hai| usa saMbhAvanA ko vAstavika banAe binA na koI AnaMda hai, na koI sugaMdha hai; na phUla khilate haiM, na vasaMta AtA hai, na pakSI gIta gAte haiM; na subaha hotI hai, na AtmA ke AkAza meM tAroM kI camaka! kucha bhI nahIM! aMdherA hI aMdherA udAsI hI udaasii|| lekina hama isa bhrAMti meM hI jIte haiM ki janma pA liyA, to jIvana pA liyaa| jaise koI bIja ko lie baiThA rahe--baiThA rahe--baiThA rahe--to bIja meM na to sugaMdha hogI, na phUla khileNge| aura udAsa hogA vaisA aadmii| hAlAMki bIja meM phUla bhI chipe haiM, sugaMdha bhI chipI hai| magara jo chipA hai, use prakaTa karanA hogaa| jo avyakta hai, use vyakta karanA hogaa| jo saMbhAvita hai, use vAstavika karanA hogaa| jo svapna hai, use satya karanA hogaa| itane loga haiM pRthvI para aura itanI gahana udAsI hai| kAraNa eka hai, choTA-sA hai: janma ko jIvana kA paryAya samajha liyA hai| janma ke sAtha to avasara milatA hai jIvita hone kA; Page 226 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jIvana nahIM miltaa| isalie isa deza meM hama usa vyakti ko brAhmaNa kahate the, jo dvija hai| dvija kA artha hai, jisane dabArA janma pA liyaa| eka janma to milatA hai mAM-bApa se| usakA koI bahuta mUlya nahIM hai| tuma bIja kI taraha paidA hote ho aura bIja kI taraha hI mara jAoge--to jiMdagI meM kaise gIta! kaisI bahAra! kucha bhI nhiiN| khAlI ke khAlI Ae, khAlI ke khAlI gae! rikta hAtha Ae, rikta hAtha ge| pIr3A hogii| saMtApa hogaa| tanAva hogaa| becainI hogii| lekina koI utsava nahIM hogaa| utsava asaMbhava dvija honA hogaa| bArA janma lenA hogaa| eka janma mAM-bApa ne diyA, eka tumheM svayaM lenA hogaa| svayaM janma lene kI prakriyA kA nAma hI saMnyAsa hai| saMnyasta hue binA koI brAhmaNa nahIM hotaa| janma se koI brAhmaNa nahIM hotaa| janma se to sabhI zUdra hote haiN| phira kyA karate haiM apanI jIvana UrjA ke sAtha--isa para nirbhara karatA hai| sau meM se ninyAnabe pratizata loga to zUdra kI hI bhAMti mara jAte haiM; unakA dUsarA janma nahIM ho paataa| aura dhyAna rakha lenA--brAhmaNa ghara meM paidA hone se koI brahma nahIM hotaa| jaba taka bhItara brahma kA janma na ho jAe, taba taka koI na brahma hai, na brAhmaNa hai| buddha brAhmaNa haiN| jIsasa brAhmaNa haiN| mohammada brAhmaNa haiN| lekina brAhmaNa ghara meM paidA hone se koI brAhmaNa nahIM hotaa| buddha ne kahA hai, jo brahma ko jAna le, vahI brAhmaNa hai| aura brahma kahIM bAhara to nhiiN| brahma tuma meM chipA baiThA hai| bahuta purAnI kahAnI hai| Izvara ne pRthvI banAI, saMsAra racA, taba vaha bIca bAjAra meM hI rahatA thA saMsAra ke| kucha anubhava na thA saMsAra kaa| svAbhAvika thA ki usane jo racA thA, usake bIca meM rhaa| lekina loga use parezAna krte| zikAyatoM para zikAyateM! abhI bhI loga vahI karate haiM maMdiroM meM, masjidoM meM, gurudvAroM meM, girajoM meN| kahate haiM, prArthanA karate haiM zikAyata! hajAra zikave le kara jAte haiM--aisA honA; aisA nahIM honA cAhie; Izvara ko salAha dene jAte haiM ki kaisA honA caahie| aura jo salAha dete haiM, agara gaura se suneM, to bar3I adabhuta salAha dete haiN| imarasana kahA karatA thA, maiMne bahuta logoM kI prArthanAeM sunIM aura yahI pAyA ki saba paramAtmA se kahate haiM ki he prabhu, do aura do mila kara cAra na hoN| do aura do mila kara pAMca ho jAeM! duniyA meM saba marate haiM aura AdamI prArthanA karatA hai, he prabhu, maiM kabhI na mruuN| yaha do aura do ko pAMca karane kI koziza hai| jiMdagI meM cIjeM AtI haiM aura jAtI haiN| aura loga prArthanA karate haiM ki jo mujhe milA hai, sadA merA rahe; thira rhe| javAnI hai, to jvaanii| buDhApA na aae| svAsthya hai, to bImArI na aae| dhana hai, to nirdhanatA na aae| jIta rahA hUM, to hAra na jaauuN| aura jAnate haiM saba ki Page 227 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA sabhI ko hAranA hai| aura sabhI kI mauta Aja nahIM kala Ane hI vAlI hai| phira bhI do aura do pAMca ho jAeM...! jo nahIM ho sakatA hai--vahI hama mAMgate phirate haiN| jo ho sakatA hai, vaha to ho hI rahA hai| usako mAMgane kI jarUrata nahIM hai| abhI bhI loga vahI kara rahe haiM, to jaba paramAtmA bAjAra meM hI rahatA rahA hogA, logoM ne usakA jInA harAma kara diyA hogA! abhI bhI bhaktoM ne usakA jInA harAma kiyA huA hogaa| inakI sabakI agara vaha prArthanAeM sunatA hogA, to tuma soco, pagalA gayA hogA! AtmahatyA kara lI hogI! kabhI kA samApta ho gayA hogaa| loga dina-rAta caubIsa ghaMTe usake dvAra para khar3e rhte| aura aisI-aisI prArthanAeM, jo eka dUsare ke viparIta par3atI! pUrI bhI kare, to kaise kare! koI cAhatA hai ki Aja varSA ho, kyoMki usane bIja boe haiN| aura koI cAhatA hai: Aja varSA na ho, kyoMki usane kapar3e raMge haiM aura kapar3e sukhAne haiN| koI cAhatA hai, Aja dhUpa nikle| aura koI cAhatA hai, Aja dhUpa na nikle| kisa-kisa kI cAheM pUrI hoN| kaise pUrI hoM? cAheM virodhAbhAsI haiN| isa pRthvI para cAra araba AdamI haiM, cAra araba cAheM haiM--sabake virodha meN| sattara karor3a loga isa deza meM haiN| pratyeka vyakti pradhAnamaMtrI honA cAhatA hai| rASTrapati honA cAhatA hai! yaha kaise hogA? ApAdhApI hogii| daur3adhUpa hogii| khIMcatAna hogii| upadrava hogaa| isalie to rAjanIti upadrava bana jAtI hai| rAjanIti saMgharSa ho jAtI hai| kyoMki sAre mahatvAkAMkSI eka dUsare kI gardana para savAra hai; eka dUsare ke sira para paira rakha kara car3ha jAnA cAhate haiM padoM para! khIMcAtAnI hogii| uThA paTaka hogii| paramAtmA ghabar3A gyaa| kahAnI kahatI hai--bahuta ghabar3A gayA! usane apane saMgI-sAthiyoM ko bulaayaa| pUchA ki kyA karUM? aisI koI jagaha batAo, jahAM chipa rhuuN| kisI ne kahA, Apa himAlaya para chipa jAo--gaurIzaMkara para! paramAtmA ne kahA, tumheM patA nahIM, abhI thor3I-hI dera meM hilerI aura tenasiMga paidA hoMge aura ve gaurIzaMkara para pahuMca jaaeNge| aura eka dahA eka AdamI pahuMcA ki phira katAra laga jaaegii| yaha kucha sthAyI hala na huaa| aura eka daphA patA cala gayA ki maiM gaurIzaMkara para hUM ki baseM pahuMca jAeMgI, hoTaleM khula jAeMgI, TreneM calane lgeNgii| helIkApTara utarane lgeNge| vahI upadrava ho jaaegii| vahI bAjAra bhara jaaegaa| kucha aura soco! kisI ne kahA, cAMda para kyoM nahIM cale jAte? Izvara ne kahA ki vaha aura samajho ki thor3I dera aura baca rhuuNgaa| lekina kitanI dera! anaMta kAla Izvara ke sAmane hai| dina do dina ke bacane kA savAla nhiiN| taba eka bUDhe salAhakAra ne Izvara ke kAna meM salAha dii| aura Izvara ne kahA, tthiik| yaha bAta tthiik| usa bUr3he ne kyA salAha dI? usane kahA, Apa AdamI ke bhItara chipa rho| vahAM AdamI kabhI na jaaegaa| saba jagaha jAegA--gaurIzaMkara car3hegA, cAMda para pahuMcegA, maMgala para pahuMcegA, tAroM Page 228 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA para pahuMcegA--aisI koI jagaha nahIM chor3egA; jahAM-jahAM taka saMbhAvanA hai vahAM-vahAM taka jaaegaa| sirpha eka jagaha nahIM jAegA--apane bhItara nahIM jaaegaa| Izvara ne kahA, yaha bAta jaMcatI hai| aura agara kabhI koI apane bhItara jAegA bhI, to apane bhItara jAte-jAte itanA nirmala aura zAMta ho jAegA ki tumheM parezAna nahIM kregaa| koI buddha jAegA; koI mahAvIra, koI lAotsU, koI kanphyUziyasa, koI jarathustra--inase to kucha pIr3A na hogii| inakA to AnA AnaMda hI hogaa| ye apane sAtha nRtya laaeNge| ye apane sAtha gIta laaeNge| kRSNa kI bAMsurI baje bhItara, to Izvara ko koI ar3acana nahIM ho sktii| buddha kI vANI jhare bhItara, to Izvara ko kyA ar3acana ho sakatI hai| ye kucha mAMgeMge nhiiN| ye AeMge, to kucha cddh'aaeNge| ye AeMge, to apane ko cddh'aaeNge| aura ye AeMge, to khile phUloM kI bhAMti aaeNge| juhI khile, belA khile, gulAba khile, to bhItara kI bagiyA aura pyArI ho utthegii| nae-nae raMga lAeMge ye log| nae-nae DhaMga laaeNge| jIne kI naI kalA laaeNge| nae-nae upahAra cddh'aaeNge| agara koI AyA bhItara, to Ate-Ate rUpAMtarita ho jaaegaa| bhItara Ane meM vyakti dvija hotA hai, brAhmaNa banatA hai| brAhmaNa banatA hai, to brahma ke yogya banatA hai| aura jaise-jaise yogya banatA hai, vaise-vaise brahma ke sAtha eka hotA calA jAtA hai| jaba taka koI dvija nahIM hotA, taba taka jIvana meM aisA hI hogaa| amRta priyA, tU kahatI hai: kisI ko caina se na dekhA duniyA meM kabhI maiNne| isI hasarata meM kara dI khatama sArI jiMdagI maiNne|| auroM kI tarapha dekho hI mt| pAgala hai tuu| AMkha baMda kr| apanI tarapha dekh| loga auroM ko dekhane meM kitanA samaya gaMvA rahe haiM! itanI dera meM to apane se pahacAna ho jaae| itanI hI AMkha apane para gar3A leM, to khuda se mulAkAta ho jAe; krAMti ho jAe; rozanI phUTa pdd'e| jharane avaruddha haiM--bahane lgeN| mullA nasaruddIna--eka AdamI vaMzI laTakAe machalI mArane baiThA hai--usake pIche khar3A dekha rahA hai| lAThI Teke khar3A huA hai| tIna ghaMTe ho ge| cAra ghaMTe ho gae! machalI kucha pakar3I nahIM gii| Akhira mullA ke bhI bardAzta ke bAhara ho gyaa| mullA ne usase kahA ki mere bhAI, tuma bhI kyA machalImAra ho! are, kyoM sira khapA rahe ho, cAra ghaMTe se bekAra samaya kharAba kara rahe ho| eka machalI pakar3I nahIM! usa AdamI ne kahA, bar3e miyAM, maiM to kama se kama pakar3ane kI koziza kara rahA huuN| tuma yahAM kyA kara rahe ho! tuma sirpha mujhe dekha rahe ho| maiM to zAyada kabhI machalI pakar3a bhI luuNgaa| tumheM kyA milegA? tuma jo lAThI Teka kara yahAM khar3e ho cAra ghaMTe se| tuma sirpha yaha dekha rahe ho ki maiM machalI pakar3a pAtA hUM ki nhiiN| tumheM kyA lenA-denA hai? na machalI se tumheM kucha lenA, na mujhase kucha lenaa| tuma to rAstA lago! loga eka-dUsare ko dekha rahe haiM aura soca rahe haiM ki kaisI udAsI haiM! saba kI najareM dUsaroM para gar3I haiN| itane meM to apane se pahacAna ho jaae| Page 229 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA amRta priyA ! auroM ko mata dekha auroM ko jisane dekhA, vaha bhaTakA apane ko jisane dekhA, vaha pahuMcA! itanI UrjA to apane ko dekhane meM lgaa| kyA prayojana hai kisI aura ko dekhane se yaha unakI jiMdagI hai| agara unheM udAsa hI rahanA hai, to koI lAkha upAya kare, to bhI unheM prasanna nahIM kara sktaa| agara unhoMne yahI taya liyA hai, agara dukhI rahanA hI unakA nirNaya hai, to unakI marjI unakI svataMtratA hai| ye mAlika haiM apane / magara tU kyoM parezAna hai! aura unako udAsa dekha-dekha kara tU udAsa ho jaaegii| hAre hue logoM ko dekhoge, parAjita logoM ko dekhoge, to mana meM yaha nirAzA saghana hone lagegI ki yahI jiMdagI hai yahI mujhe hone vAlA hai| buddhoM ko dekho| aura buddha na mileM, to apane ko dekho| kyoMki vahAM buddhatva chipA hai| vaha bhI buddha ko hI dekhanA hai| bAhara ke buddha ko dekhakara bhI bhItara ke hI buddha kI yAda AtI hai| bhItara ke buddha ko dekha kara bAhara ke buddhoM ko samajhane kI sUjha AtI hai| ye kucha alaga-alaga bAteM nahIM haiN| jaise koI AIne meM dekhatA hai, to apanI hI tasavIra dikhAI par3atI hai| aise hI buddhoM meM jaba koI jhAMkatA hai, to apane ko hI pAtA hai| tU kahatI hai: isa jahAM meM tU kaise bepIe madahoza rahatA hai! bhItara kI eka mastI hai, usake lie pInA nahIM pdd'taa| bhItara bhI chanatI hai| kala hI kisI ne pUchA thA ki bhagavAna, kyA Apa roja subaha bhAMga chAna lete haiN| ApakI bAteM bar3I pyArI lagatI hai| bhAMga chAnane kI jarUrata nahIM; bhagavAna chAna letA huuN| bhAMga kyA pInI, jaba bhagavAna ko piiyo| phira aMgUra kI DhalI kyA pInI--jaba AtmA kI DhalI pInA A jaae| subaha hI nahIM chAnatA, hara pala chAnatA huuN| jAga kara chAnatA hUM, so kara chAnatA huuN| chAnatA hI rahatA huuN| eka aisA bhI rasa hai, jo bhItara maujUda hai| jarA talAza karanA hai| usa rasa ko hI hamane paramAtmA kahA hai. raso vai saH vaha bhItara kA jo amRta hai, usako pIyo to tU bhI aisI hI ho jaae| tujhe pUchanA na par3e ka isa jahAM meM tU kaise bepIe madahoza rahatA hai? ai sAkI! Aja taka dekhA na tujha sA AdamI maiMne / / batA tU kauna hai iMsAna yA koI phariztA hai? yA dekhA hai khudA ko khvAba meM banA AdamI maiMne / / nahIM, kucha bhI nhiiN| sirpha darpaNa meM tumane apanI tasavIra dekhii| maiM darpaNa hUM-- isase jyAdA kucha bhI nhiiN| maiM tumheM tumhArA ceharA dikhA hUM, pUrA ho gayA hai| aba jitanI dera lekina darpaNa meM jaba tuma ceharA Page 230 of 255 to kAma pUrA ho gyaa| maiMne apanA dekha liyaa| merA kAma yahAM hUM, jinako bhI apanA ceharA dekhanA ho, ve dekha leN| dekhate ho, to darpaNa meM apanI talAza karane nahIM nikala http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jaate| aura darpaNa ko chAtI se bhI nahIM lagA lete| aura darpaNa ko lie bhI nahIM phirane lagate ho| darpaNa meM ceharA dekha liyA; pahacAna apanI huI; darpaNa se kucha lenA-denA nahIM hai| sadaguru ko darpaNa hI smjho| na usako pakar3anA hai, na usakA anukaraNa karanA hai| na usake raMga-rUpa meM DhalanA hai| basa, apanA ceharA dekho| aura apane cehare kI pahacAna A jAe, to bhItara utro| khojo vhaaN| jo dikhAI par3A thA sadaguru meM, usako khojo bhiitr| sadaguru kI nakala mata kraa| yahI bhUla ho gii| IsAI haiM duniyA meM, magara IsA kahAM? bauddha haiM duniyA meM, magara buddha kahAM? jaina haiM duniyA meM, jina kahAM? kyA ho gayA? kahAM cUka huI? kahAM paira galata par3a gae? itane IsAI aura eka bhI IsA nahIM! aura jisa dina eka bhI IsAI na thA, usa dina IsA thaa| itane bauddha haiM aura eka bhI buddha nahIM; mAmalA kyA hai? loga nakala meM par3a ge| logoM ne darpaNa meM to dekhA, phira darpaNa meM hI khojane lge| dekhA thA apane ko; khojanA thA bhItara; lauTanA thA apane pr| mullA nasaruddIna eka rAta bahuta pI liyaa| ghara aayaa| pIyA huA AdamI ghara lauTatA hai, to patnI se DaratA hai| yUM to binA pIe bhI DaratA hai, magara pI kara to bahuta hI DaratA hai| aise jaba taka daravAje taka nahIM AyA thA, bar3A Dola kara cala rahA thaa| patniyoM ko dekhate hI nazA taka utara jAtA hai! daravAje ko jaise hI khaTakhaTAyA, yAda AI ki aba patnI durusta kregii| rAta ke tIna baja rahe haiN| lekina saubhAgya ki beTe ne uTha kara daravAjA khola diyaa| dhanyavAda diyA paramAtmA ko| daravAjA baMda karake AhistA se aMdara gyaa| lekina rAste meM koI jagaha girA thaa| yAda aayaa| kahIM koI kharoMca laga gaI ho cehare para; koI lahU vagairaha nikala AyA ho| ghaMToM nAlI meM par3A rahA thaa| vaha to eka kutte ne kRpA kI ki jIvana-jala chir3aka diyA usa para, so thor3A use hoza aayaa| taba ghara kI tarapha cala pdd'aa| socA ki darpaNa meM dekha luuN| nahIM to subaha patnI dekhate hI se kahegI ki kharoMca kaise lagI? yaha coTa kahAM AI? to jA kara darpaNa meM dekhaa| kaI jagaha cehare para kharoMca thii| coTa thii| to socA ki malahama paTTI lagA luuN| to malahama paTTI lagA lii| malahama paTTI lagA kara bar3A nizciMta so rhaa| subaha patnI utthii| snAnagRha meM gaI aura vahAM se ekadama cillAtI huI aaii| jhakajhora kara mullA ko uThAyA ki tumane pUrA AInA kharAba kiyA hai! mullA ne kahA, kyA huA? usane kahA, calo bhiitr| AIne para usane jagaha-jagaha malahama lagA rakhI thii| paTTI cipakA dI thii| kyoMki becAre ko behozI meM apanA ceharA AIne meM dikhAI par3A thaa| to jahAM-jahAM kharoMca thI, vahAM-vahAM usane belADonA cipakA diyA hogaa| malahama lagA dI hogii| tumane sArA AInA kharAba kiyaa| tuma rAta pI kara Ae the| Page 231 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA pIyA haA AdamI kaise bace! kucha na kucha bhUla kara hI legaa| kucha na kucha cUka ho hI jaaegii| behozI meM cUka honI nizcita hai| behozI meM yaha haA ki loga IsAI ho ge| IsA honA thA--IsAI ho gae! IsAI hone kA artha hai: nakala meM par3a ge| IsA jaise hone kI nakala meM par3a ge| aura nakala kA koI mUlya nahIM hai| jhUThe sikke haiN| inakI kitanI hI katAra laga jAe! AdhI pRthvI IsAI hai| karor3oM loga IsAI! karor3oM loga hiMdU! karor3oM loga muslmaan| karor3oM loga bauddha--aura jiMdagI beraunaka; aura jiMdagI eka bojh| aise Dho rahe haiM loga, jaise pahAr3a sira para rakhe hoN| mare jA rahe, dabe jA rahe! maiM darpaNa hUM, isase jyAdA nhiiN| aura jo tumheM mujha meM dikhAI par3e, bhUla kara mata socanA ki darpaNa kA hai| tumheM apanI tasavIra dikhAI par3a rahI hai| isakI talAza meM bhItara jaanaa| agara isakI talAza meM bAhara nikala gae, to jo bhUla cala rahI thI, calatI rhegii| ye bAhara to hI daur3a rahe haiM sAre log| koI dhana ke lie daur3a rahA hai| koI pada ke lie daur3a rahA hai| tuma paramAtmA ke lie daur3ane lgoge| magara daur3a bAhara hai| aura jaba taka daur3a bAhara hai, taba taka galata hai| kisa cIja ke lie daur3ate ho, isase bheda nahIM pdd'taa| jaba taka bAhara daur3ate ho--galata daur3ate ho| phira sau sAla jIyo ki hajAra sAla jIyo, pharka nahIM pdd'taa| upaniSadoM meM yayAti kI kathA hai| yayAti sau varSa kA huaa| mauta A gii| yayAti ghabar3A gyaa| usane to socA hI nahIM thA ki kabhI maranA hai| mauna socatA hai ki kabhI maranA hai! maraNazayyA para par3A huA AdamI bhI nahIM socatA ki maranA hai| vaha bhI kala kI yojanA banAtA rahatA hai| kala ke vicAra karatA rahatA hai| kala kyA karanA hai! marate-marate dama taka bhI, AkhirI kSaNa taka bhI mauta ko hama svIkAra nahIM krte| jIne kI abhIpsA itanI prabala hai ki yayAti kI jaba sau varSa meM mauta AI, to vaha bahuta cauMka gyaa| gir3agir3Ane lgaa| bar3A samrATa thA, cakravartI thA; mauta ke caraNoM meM gira par3A aura kahA ki abhI mata le jaa| abhI mata le jaa| abhI to merI jiMdagI kI koI bhI tamannA pUrI nahIM huii| jaisA tU kahatI hai| uThAe kyoM lie jAte ho mujhako bAge-duniyA se| nahIM dekhI hai dila bhara ke bahAre jiMdagI maiNne|| aisA hI usane khaa| itanI jaldI! kama se kama sau sAla mujhe aura de do| dayA kro| abhI to kucha bhI pUrA nahIM huaa| koI vAsanA pUrI nahIM huii| mauta ko bhI kahate haiM, dayA A gii| mauta ne kahA, mujhe kisI ko to le jAnA hI pdd'egaa| khAnApUrI to karanI hI par3egI phAila meN| tumhArA beTA agara koI jAne ko rAjI ho...| usake sau beTe the| yayAti kI sau patniyAM thiiN| usane kahA ki koI ar3acana nhiiN| mere beTe merA bar3A Adara karate haiM, bar3A sammAna karate haiN| usane sau hI beTe ikaTThe kara lie| unameM koI beTA assI sAla kA thaa| koI aThahattara sAla kA thaa| koI pacahattara sAla kA thaa| koI sattara sAla kA thaa| bUDhe the| khuda bhI bUDhe ho rahe the| Page 232 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA usane sAre beToM se kahA ki beTA, mauta mere dvAra para khar3I hai| yaha hai maukA parIkSA kaa| Aja dekhU ki kauna mujhe prema karatA hai| tuma kahate to bahuta the ki pitAjI, tumhAre lie hama mara sakate haiN| Aja samaya A gyaa| dekheM, kauna cunautI svIkAra karatA hai! mauta kahatI hai ki maiM jI sakatA hUM sau sAla aur| tuma meM se koI jAne ko rAjI ho, hAtha uThA de| saba eka dUsare kI tarapha dekhane lage! kauna jAne ko rAjI! ye bAteM karane kI haiN| pati patniyoM se kahate haiM ki mara jAUMgA tere binaa| patniyAM patiyoM se kahatI haiM, mara jAUMgI tumhAre binA! premI preyasiyoM se kahate haiM ki mara jaauuNgaa| jI na skuuNgaa| eka pala na jI sakU~gA! ye saba bAteM haiN| na koI maratA hai, na kucha hotA hai! yaha AdamI jo isa strI se kaha rahA hai ki tere binA mara jAUMgA, na mAlUma kitanI striyoM se kaha cukA hai! aura abhI taka marA nhiiN| asala meM yaha isakI Adata hI ho gii| yaha isakI zailI hI ho gii| beTe idhara-udhara dekhane lge| sirpha eka beTA jisakI umra abhI kevala solaha hI varSa thI, khar3A ho gyaa| usane kahA, maiM taiyAra huuN| mauta ko to bahuta dayA A gaI usa beTe pr| socA ki bholA-bhAlA hai| abhI chorA hI hai| ise kucha anubhava nahIM hai| anubhavI jo haiM, ve to idhara-udhara dekha rahe haiM ki kauna jAtA hai, dekheM! eka dUsare kI tarapha dekha rahe haiM ki tuma bar3I UMcI bAteM karate the, aba dekheM! eka dUsare kI tarapha dekha rahe haiM ki uTho bhAI, hAtha utthaao| kahate to tuma yaha the; kahate to tuma aisA the| bar3e caraNa chUte the| bar3I pUjA karate the? aba maukA A gyaa| aba dikhA do apanI mardAnagI; apanA joza-kharoza! yaha avasara na cuuko| koI apanI tarapha nahIM dekha rahA thA! yaha beTA uTha kara khar3A ho gyaa| isane kahA, maiM rAjI hUM! mauta ne kahA, suna nAsamajha! tere aura koI ninyAnabe bhAI rAjI nahIM haiN| tU kyoM rAjI ho rahA hai? pUcha pahale ina dUsare bhAiyoM se, ye kyoM rAjI nahIM haiN| to unameM se eka bUDhe bhAI ne kahA, jaba hamAre pitA rAjI nahIM haiM, sau sAla ho gae unako, merI to abhI umra kevala sattara hI sAla hai! jaba ve sau sAla meM jAne ko rAjI nahIM haiM, to maiM sattara sAla meM kaise rAjI ho jAUM! abhI merI kauna-sI icchAeM pUrI ho gaIM! unakI sau meM nahIM huIM, to merI sattara meM kaise ho jAeMgI! maiM bhI adhUrA huuN| merI bhI tRSNA khAlI hai| merA bhI bhikSApAtra abhI bharA nhiiN| merA bhI mana abhI jAne ko rAjI nhiiN| jaba unakA nahIM, to merA kaise ho? sabhI bhAiyoM ne isameM sahamati bharI ki bAta ThIka hai| hamArA kaise ho! hama bhI apanI icchAeM pUrI karanA cAhate haiN| hama AdamI apanI icchAeM pUrI karanA cAhatA hai| aura jaba pitA ko itanI dayA nahIM hai, apane beToM kI bali car3hAne ko rAjI haiM, to hamako kisalie dayA ho! apanA-apanA svaarth| ve apanA dekha rahe haiM, hama apanA dekha rahe haiN| yaha mAmalA svArtha kA hai; pitA-putra kA hai hI nhiiN| isameM pitA-putra kA saMbaMdha kahAM AtA hai! Page 233 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA to mauta ne kahA, suna apane bhAiyoM kI baat| tU to abhI solaha sAla kA hai| tUne to kucha bhI nahIM dekhaa| jiMdagI kA ka kha ga bhI nahIM dekhaa| vApasa le le apanA vacana! lekina vaha beTA haMsane lgaa| usane kahA, maiM isIlie to rAjI hUM ki mere bhAI--koI sattara ke haiM, koI pacahattara ke haiM, koI assI taka ke haiM--inako jiMdagI meM kucha nahIM milA; mere pitA sau sAla ke haiM, inako jiMdagI meM kucha nahIM milaa| ye sau AdamI mere sAmane maujUda haiN| ninyAnabe mere bhAI, sauvAM merA pitA--inako jiMdagI bhara jI kara kucha nahIM milA, to maiM isa nAhaka jiMdagI meM kisalie jIUM! mujhe kyA khAka mila jaaegaa| ina saba ko dekhakara hI to maiM rAjI ho gayA ki mujhe le clo| kyA sAra hai isa ajiMdagI meM! phira bhI usa bUDhe yayAti ko bodha na aayaa| akasara aisA ho jAtA hai ki choTe bacce bUDhoM se jyAdA spaSTa hote haiM, sApha hote haiM, svaccha hote haiN| unakI dRSTi abhI tAjI hotI hai| unakI dRSTi para abhI dhUla nahIM jamI hotI anubhava kii| usane jidda kI to mauta use le gii| sau sAla bAda mauta phira aaii| sau sAla kaba gujara gae-- patA nahIM calA! aura yayAti phira gir3agir3Ane lgaa| isa sau sAla meM usane phira zAdiyAM kara lI thiiN| purAne beTe to mara cuke the| purAnI patniyAM mara cukI thiiN| nae beTe the, naI patniyAM thiiN| phira vahI savAla utthaa| phira eka beTe ko mauta le gii| aisI kahAnI kahatI hai ki hajAra sAla taka yayAti jiMdA rhaa| mauta AtI rahI aura hara bAra vaha sau sAla aura mAMgatA rhaa| jaba hajAraveM sAla mauta AI, to usane kahA, aba bahuta ho cukaa| aba aura to nahIM mAMgoge? yayAti ne kahA, nahIM, maiM mAMgane vAlA bhI nahIM thaa| itanA hI kaha jAnA cAhatA hUM una manuSyoM ke lie, jo mere pIche AeMge--ki sau sAla jIyo ki hajAra sAla jIyo, kucha hAtha nahIM lgtaa| hAtha khAlI ke khAlI raha jAte haiN| bAhara kI daur3a se kabhI kisI ke hAtha nahIM bhre| phira cAhe dhana ke lie daur3o, cAhe pada ke lie, cAhe paramAtmA ke lie! aura jo bhItara gayA hai, ekadama bhara gayA hai| pUcho buddhoM se, pUcho jAgrata puruSoM se! jo bhItara gayA mAlika ho gyaa| jo bAhara rahA--bhikhamaMgA rhaa| hajAroM khvAhizeM aisI ki hara khvAhiza pe dama nikle| bahuta nikale mere aramAna lekina phira bhI kama nikle|| nikalanA khulda se Adama kA sutane Ae the lekin| bahuta beAbarU hokara tere kUca se hama nikle|| mohabbata meM nahIM hai pharka jIne aura marane kaa| usI ko dekha kara jIte haiM jisa kAphira pe dama nikle|| khudA ke vAste pardA na kAbe kA uThA jaalim| kahIM aisA na ho yahAM bhI vahI kAphira sanama nikle|| kahAM mayakhAne kA daravAjA aura kahAM vaaij| Page 234 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA para itanA jAnate haiM kala vo jAtA thA ki hama nikle|| pharka nahIM hai yahAM kucha--tumhAre tathAkathita dhArmikoM meM aura adhArmikoM meM, pApiyoM meM aura puNyAtmAoM meM--bahuta pharka nahIM hai| eka jaise hI loga haiN| kahAM mayakhAne kA daravAjA aura kahAM vaaij| kahAM vaha dharmopadezaka dharmaguru...! kahAM mayakhAne kA daravAjA aura kahAM vaaij| para itanA jAnate haiM kala vo jAtA thA ki hama nikle|| saba eka hI taraha ke upadrava meM ulajhe haiN| hajAroM khvAhizeM aisI ki hara khvAhiza pe dama nikle| bahata nikale mere aramAna lekina phira bhI kama nikle|| jiMdagI bhara daur3a kara bhI koI aramAna pUrA nahIM hotaa| nikalanA khulda se Adama kA sunate Ae the lekin| bahuta beAbarU hokara tere kUce se hama nikle|| para sabhI beAbarU hokara nikale haiN| yahAM se AbarU pAkara to vahI nikalatA hai, jo apane ko jAna kara nikalatA hai| yaha kUcA una thor3e se logoM ke lie sArthaka ho jAtA hai, jo khuda ko pahacAna lete haiN| amRta priyA, apane ko phcaan| samaya mata gNvaao| maiM tuma se kahatA hUM ki jIvana mahAAnaMda hai, mahAutsava hai| jIvana zAzvata gIta hai, jisakA na koI prAraMbha hai, na koI aNt| magara tumhArA jIvana to bIja hai abhii| ise dhyAna kI bhUmi do| isa para prema kA pAnI brsaao| isa para zrama bhI kiraNeM par3ane do| jAgarUka hokara isakI rakSA kro| aura dera nahIM lagegI, jaldI hI aMkura nikleNge| jaldI hI vasaMta A jAegA, madhumAsa A jaaegaa| eka kSaNa meM bhI yaha bAta ho sakatI hai, tvarA cAhie, saghana abhIpsA caahie| abhIpsA aura AkAMkSA kA bheda khayAla meM rkhnaa| AkAMkSA hotI hai bAhara kI; abhIpsA hotI hai bhItara kii| jo vyakti samagrarUpeNa svayaM ko khojane meM laga jAe; rattI bhI bacA kara na rakhe; AdhA-AdhA nahIM--pUrA pUrA laga jAe; ninyAnabe pratizata bhI nahIM, sau pratizata laga jAe--to eka kSaNa meM krAMti ghaTa sakatI hai| eka kSaNa meM tumhAre jIvana meM sugaMdha A sakatI hai; sUraja nikala sakatA hai| yaha jo aMdherI rAta cala rahI hai janmoM-janmoM se, isakI subaha ho sakatI hai| nahIM to yaha udAsI calatI rahegI--calatI rahegI--calatI rhegii| na kisI kI AMkha kA nUra hUM, na kisI ke dila kA karAra huuN| jo kisI ke kAma na A sake maiM vo eka muzte-gubAra huuN| merA raMga rUpa bigar3a gayA, merA yAra mujhase bichur3a gyaa| jo camana khijAM se ujar3a gayA maiM usI kI phasle-bahAra hN|| pae-phAtehA koI Ae kyoM, koI cAra phUla car3hAe kyoN| koI A ke zammA jalAe kyoM, maiM vo bekasI kA majAra hN|| Page 235 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA maiM nahIM hUM nagmA-e-jAMphijA, mujhe suna ke koI karegA kyA / maiM bar3e biroga kI hUM sadA, maiM bar3e dukhoM kI pukAra huuN| jiMdagI kI donoM saMbhAvanAeM haiM: aMdherI rAta bhI ho sakate ho tuma Alokita divasa bhii| na kisI kI AMkha kA nUra hU~, na kisI ke dila kA karAra huuN| jo kisI ke kAma na A sake, maiM vo eka muzte - gubAra huuN|| yUM to miTTI ho| agara apane ko na pahacAno to eka muTThI bhara miTTI ho| isase jyAdA to kucha bhI nhiiN| aura miTTI miTTI meM gira jaaegii| miTTI miTTI meM giranI hI hai; kaba gira jAegI, kahA nahIM jA sktaa| isalie dera na karo jAgane meM dera na kro| jAgane ko sthagita na kro| jAgane ko kala para na TAlo / jisane kala para TAlA, usane sadA ke lie TAlA / muTThiyoM meM khAka lekara dosta Ae bAde daphna muTThiyoM meM khAka lekara..... aura kareM bhI kyA jaba koI mara jAe, to dosta aura kareM bhI kyA aba khAka para khAka hI DAlI jA sakatI hai| muTThiyoM meM khAka le kara dosta Ae bAde daphna jiMdagI bhara kI muhabbata kA silA dene lage! kyA silA diyA khUba silA diyaa| jiMdagI bhara kI muhabbata kA silA dene lage! kaisA silA-ki muTThiyAM bhara-bhara ke khAka DAlane lge| aura kisI ke muMha se na nikalA mere daphna ke vakhta ki ina para khAka na DAlo inhoMne Aja hI badale haiM kapar3e aura Aja hI haiM ye nahAe hue muTThiyoM meM khAka le kara dosta Ae bAde daphna jiMdagI bhara kI muhabbata kA silA dene lage! para kareM bhI kyA karane ko kucha bacatA bhI nahIM idhara sAMsa ukhar3I udhara logoM ne arthI sajAI kSaNa bhara meM kyA ho jAtA hai| jarA sI dera meM kyA ho gayA jamAne ko abhI jo apane the parAe ho gae! jarA sI dera meM kyA ho gayA jamAne ko ! lekina jamAnA bhI kyA kare! tuma miTTI hI rahe; miTTI meM hI gira ge| to aba miTTI meM hI pUra kara loga cale ge| saba dabA kara cala die - - miTTI meM dabA kara cala die ! koI duA salAma bhI nahIM krtaa| Page 236 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA saba dabA ke cala die, na koI duA na salAma! kyA ho gayA jamAne ko! jarA sI dera meM kyA ho gayA jamAne ko! lauTa kara bhI koI nahIM dekhtaa| kaisA silA diyA! jiMdagI bhara kI muhabbata kA silA dene lage! yaha kabhI bhI hogaa| yaha abhI ho sakatA hai| Aja ho sakatA hai| isake pahale ki yaha ho-- bhItara ke caitanya ko pahacAna lo| isake pahale ki mauta Ae, apane bhItara ke amRta ko jAna lo, tAki maro, to bhI tumhAre bhItara nRtya rahe; maro, to bhI tumhAre bhItara AnaMda rhe| maro, to bhI jAnate hue ki maiM nahIM mara rahA huuN| jo mara rahA hai, vaha maiM nahIM huuN| deha maratI hai, maiM nahIM maratA huuN| jaba taka isa amRtattatva ko koI nahIM jAna letA, taba taka jIvana meM na koI rasa hai, na koI AnaMda hai, na koI utsava hai| dUsarA prazna: bhagavAna, ApakA aura hamAre saMbhAvita kaccha ke Azrama kA virodha karane vAle zrI zaMbhU mahArAja ko dinAMka 31-8-80 ke roja bIsa-paccIsa saMnyAsI aura saMnyAsiniyoM ke sAtha hama milane ge| bar3audA meM unakI bhAgavata saptAha thii| usa mauke para milane kA Ayojana kiyaa| bahuta-sI bAteM huI, jinameM nimna bAteM khAsa rhiiN| zrI zaMbhU mahArAja ne batAyA: pahalA--bhagavAna rajanIza kA virodha karane kA kAraNa, mere guru zaMkarAcArya ke khilApha bolate haiM, isalie karatA huuN| maiM jo bolA hUM, usakA khaMDana karo, usako javAba do| mere kaccha Ane kA virodha karane se usakA koI javAba hogA? maiM kaccha AUM yA na AUM, maiMne jo zaMkarAcArya ke saMbaMdha meM kahA hai, usakA javAba aise diyA jAegA? maiMne kahA kyA hai zaMkarAcArya ke virodha meM! smRti ke lie--zaMbhU mahArAja kI--doharA detA huuN| maiMne yahI kahA hai ki zaMkarAcArya ke isa kathana se maiM rAjI nahIM hUM ki brahma satya hai aura jagata mithyA hai| aura to maiMne kucha bhI nahIM khaa| siddha karo ki jagata mithyA hai| merA kaccha Ane kA virodha karate ho, isase to siddha hotA hai--jagata satya hai| kaccha satya hai? aura jagata asatya ho jAegA? merA AnA satya hai! tumhArA virodha satya hai! to jagata kaise asatya ho jAegA? jagata asatya hai aura brahma satya hai--isa bAta kA maiMne nizcita virodha kiyA hai| aba bhI virodha karUMgA, kyoMki merI dRSTi meM yaha sUtra bhArata kI daridratA, dInatA, hInatA, gulAmI-- saba kA AdhAra hai| isa sUtra ko jaba taka hama ukhAr3a na pheMkege, taba taka bhArata ke jIvana meM saubhAgya kA udaya nahIM ho sktaa| bhArata kyoM vijJAna ko janma nahIM de pAyA?--jagata asatya hai--islie| vijJAna kaise janme? jaba jagata hai hI nahIM, to vijJAna kaisA? jagata kA yathArtha mAno, to vijJAna kA janma ho sakatA hai| aura bhArata meM sabase pahale vijJAna kA janma ho sakatA thaa| kyoMki hama pAMca Page 237 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA hajAra varSoM se aise mahata ciMtakoM ko janma die haiM ki vijJAna kA janma na ho, yaha bAta samajha meM nahIM aatii| jaba pazcima bilakula jaMgalI avasthA meM thA, taba hamane sabhyatA ke svarNa zikhara chae haiN| aura hama vijJAna ko janma na de sake! kAraNa hai--isa bhrAMta upadeza meM ki jagata mithyA hai; jagata mAyA hai| aura aisA nahIM ki maiM hI virodha kara rahA hUM; mahAvIra ne bhI virodha kiyA hai| asala meM jisake pAsa bhI thor3I spaSTa dRSTi hai, vaha yaha kahegA ki jagata ko kaise asatya kaha sakate ho| aura agara jagata asatya hai, to hama saba asatya ho ge| phira hamArI dhAraNAeM aura hamAre dhyAna bhI asatya ho ge| aura hamArI samAdhiyAM aura samAdhi ke anubhava bhI asatya ho gae! aura phira hamArA brahma kaise satya hogA, jaba hama hI satya nahIM haiM; jaba hama hI jhUTha haiM, to jhUThe logoM kA anubhava kaise satya hogA? maiM kahatA hUM: jagata bhI satya hai, brahma bhI satya hai| jagata aura brahma eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiN| jagata bAhara--brahma bhiitr| magara agara bAhara asatya hai, to bhItara bhI satya nahIM ho sktaa| jarA soco| agara bAhara tumhAre ghara kA sArA jagata asatya hai, to tumhAre ghara kA bhItara kaise satya ho sakatA hai? tumhArA ghara hI nahIM Tika sakegA; usake lie jamIna cAhie, jisa para ttike| vaha jamIna bAhara honI caahie| nahIM to tumhArA ghara atala khaDDa meM gira jaaegaa| padArtha utanA hI satya hai jitanA prmaatmaa| zaMkarAcArya kI yaha dRSTi ghAtaka siddha huI, bhayAnaka abhizApa siddha huii| isakA pariNAma yaha huA, hamane jagata meM utsukatA chor3a dii| phira hama rote phirate haiM, bhIkha mAMgate phirate haiN| koI kAraNa na thA bhIkha mAMgane kA, agara hamane jagata kI thor3I ciMtA kI hotii| magara ciMtA kyoM kareM, jaba asatya hI hai to! aura bar3A majA yaha hai, zaMkarAcArya bhI bhojana karate haiN| zaMkarAcArya bhI logoM ko samajhAne jAte haiM--jo ki asatya haiM! zaMkarAcArya vivAda ke lie sAre deza meM ghUmate haiN| kisase vivAda kara rahe ho? kisa kAraNa vivAda kara rahe ho? vahAM koI hai hI nahIM! nAhaka apane se hI bAtacIta kara rahe ho! apane ko hI harA rahe ho| yaha zaMkara-digvijaya kI jo carcA karate haiM zaMkara ke mAnane vAle, yaha digvijaya kisakI? yaha vijaya-yAtrA kisa para? koI dUsarA to hai nahIM, dUsarA to asatya hai| phira vivAda kisase hai? maMDana mizra nahIM haiM, to vivAda kisase kara rahe ho? jIta kisako rahe ho? hAra kauna rahA zaMkarAcArya kA pUrA jIvana to kucha aura kaha rahA hai| zaMkarAcArya ne jagata kA tyAga kiyA; jo hai hI nahIM, usakA tyAga kiyA jA sakatA hai? maiM pUchatA yaha hUM--jo hai hI nahIM, usakA tyAga kaise karoge? kama se kama tyAga ke lie to Page 238 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA honA cAhie! jaise eka bhikhamaMgA kahe ki maiMne rAjapATa sa tyAga, kara diyA! tuma haMsoge! tuma kahoge: rAjapATa thA kahAM? do aphImacI eka jhAr3a ke nIce leTe the| pUrNimA kI raat| aura eka aphImacI ne kahA, ahA, kyA pyArA cAMda nikalA! karor3oM rupae meM bhI kharIda sakatA hai! dUsarA aphImacI haMsane lgaa| usane kahA, cupa rh| bakavAsa na kara! are kyA tU kharIdegA! himmata hai terI kharIdane kI? karor3a se kAma nahIM clegaa| usane kahA, dasa karor3a meM kharIda sakatA huuN| pacAsa karor3a meM kharIda sakatA huuN| eka araba meM kharIda sakatA huuN| dUsare aphImacI ne kahA, bakavAsa baMda kr| hameM becanA hI nahIM! tU lAkha sira mAre, jaba hama beceMge hI nahIM, tU kharIdegA kaise? cAMda kI kharIda-pharokhta ho rahI hai! jaise inake bApa kA ho! jo hai hI nahIM, vaha kharIdA jA rahA hai! jo hai hI nahIM, vaha becA jA rahA hai--jo apanA hai hI nhiiN...| inako tuma aphImacI kahate ho| aura isI taraha kI pInaka kI bAtoM ko tuma vedAMta kahate ho? maiM nahIM khtaa| maiM to mAnatA hUM, vijJAna utanA hI satya hai, jitanA dhrm| duniyA meM do taraha kI bhrAMtiyAM huIM--eka bhrAMti zaMkarAcArya jaise logoM ne phailAI, jinhoMne kahA--jagata asatya hai aura brahma satya hai| artha huA--vijJAna asatya hai, dharma satya hai| aura dUsarI taraha kI bhrAMti kArla mAkrsa jaise logoM ne phailAI, jinhoMne kahA, jagata satya hai, brahma asatya hai| vijJAna satya hai, dharma aphIma kA nazA hai| maiM kahatA hUM: ye donoM galata haiN| aura eka maje kI bAta hai, donoM eka bAta se rAjI haiM; donoM advaitavAdI haiM--kArla mAkrsa bhI aura zaMkarAcArya bhii| kyoMki donoM eka meM mAnate haiM, do meM nahIM maante| hAlAMki unakA eka alaga-alaga hai| kArla mAkrsa kahatA hai: jagata satya hai, aura brahma asatya hai| magara hai advaitavAdI, yaha khayAla rkhnaa| aura zaMkarAcArya kahate haiM: brahma satya hai, jagata asatya hai| ve bhI advaitavAdI haiN| maiM kArla mAkrsa aura zaMkarAcArya ko eka-sI hI bhrAMtiyoM kA zikAra mAnatA huuN| merI dRSTi meM donoM hI satya haiM aura donoM alaga bhI nahIM haiN| maiM bhI advaitavAdI huuN| lekina maiM mAnatA hUM--eka sikke ke do pahalU hote haiN| isase maiM dvaitavAdI nahIM ho jaataa| sikkA eka hai, pahalU do haiN| aura sikkA eka pahalU kA koI banAkara dikhA de, to maiM mAna lUMgA ki kArla mAkrsa bhI saccA hai aura zaMkarAcArya bhI sacce haiN| eka pahalU kA koI sikkA banA kara batA de| kaise banAoge eka pahalU kA sikkA? sikke ke do pahalU hote haiN| prakAza nahIM ho sakatA hai, agara aMdhakAra na ho aura aMdhakAra nahIM ho sakatA, agara prakAza na ho| puruSa nahIM ho sakatA, agara strI na ho; strI nahIM ho sakatI, agara puruSa na ho| janma nahIM ho sakatA agara mauta na ho; mauta nahIM ho sakatI, agara janma na ho| ye eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiN| Page 239 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA ThaMDA aura garma eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiM sukha aura dukha eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiN| -- vijJAna aura dharma -- eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiN| pUraba aura pazcima- eka hI sikke ke do pahalU haiN| maiMne zaMkarAcArya kA jo virodha kiyA hai, usa virodha meM kArla mAkrsa kA virodha bhI sammilita hai| maiM yaha kaha rahA hUM sirpha ki kyoM eka sikke ke pahalU ko svIkAra karate ho aura dUsare pahalU ko inakAra karate ho? aura dUsare ko inakAra karane meM koI vaijJAnikatA nahIM hai, koI tarka nahIM hai| aura usake duSpariNAma donoM ne bhoge haiN| pazcima duSpariNAma bhoga rahA hai ki dharma kho gayA hai pazcima meM padArtha hI padArtha raha gayA hai to vijJAna bahuta bar3hA vijJAna ne to aMbAra lagA diyA khojoM kA aura AdamI kI AtmA bilakula kho gii| vastueM ikaTThI ho gaI AdamI kho gayA! yahAM hamane ulaTA kAma kiyaa| AtmA to baca gaI, magara roTI kho gaI, chappara kho gayA, kapar3e kho ge| yaha AtmA bhI bar3I dIna-hIna ho gaI, bar3I daridra ho gaI, bar3I pAkhaMDI ho gii| ho hI jaaegii| pazcima meM vikSiptatA paidA ho rahI hai, kyoMki AtmA na ho to saMtulana kho jAtA hai| zarIra hI zarIra bcaa| aura pUraba bhI AtmaghAta kI kagAra para khar3A huA hai| dekhe ho roja-roja kyA hotA jA rahA hai! logoM kI bhIr3a bar3hatI jAtI hai--bhojana roja kama hotA jAtA hai| vastra kama hote jAte haiN| jamIna kama hotI jAtI hai| logoM kI bhIr3a bar3hatI jAtI hai| agara rokA na gayA bhAvoM kA car3hAva to eka dina akhabAroM meM chapeMge ye bhAva gehUM dasa paise jor3I cAvala pacAsa paise kauDI canA eka rupae meM pacAsa pAMca rupae meM kilo ghAsa dUdha eka rupae bUMda ghI eka rupayA dasa paise sUMgha eka rupayA tolA Ama kacce aura dasa rupae meM tIna bacce! isa sabakA jimmA kisa para hogA ? zaMkarAcArya isameM jimmevAra haiN| maiM jo kaha rahA hUM, zaMbhU mahArAja ko kahanA caMdrakAMta bhAratI, merI bAtoM kA uttara deN| mere kaccha Ane kA virodha karane se merI bAtoM kA uttara nahIM hotaa| isase sirpha bhaya mAlUma hotA hai, kAyaratA mAlUma hotI hai, napuMsakatA mAlUma hotI hai| aura mujhe jo kahanA hai, vaha maiM kaccha meM rahUM ki pUnA meM, maiM kahUMgA kucha pharka par3atA nahIM kahAM rahUMgA, isase kyA pharka par3atA hai? jo mujhe kahanA hai, vaha kahUMgA, jaba taka ki tuma use galata siddha na kara do| Page 240 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA lekina javAba inameM se koI bhI dene ko nahIM haiN| aura ye gau-bhakta haiM! aura saMsAra mAyA hai| to yaha gaU mAyA nahIM hai? gau-bhakta cala rahI hai--aura saMsAra mAyA hai! sirpha gau ko chor3a kara, bAkI saMsAra mAyA hai? dUsarA zaMbhU mahArAja ne kahA ki rajanIza jI kI iMdirA gAMdhI taka bar3I pahaMca hai| agara rajanIza jI unako kaha kara gau-hatyA baMda karavA deM, to maiM unakA ziSya ho jaauuNgaa| merI kisI taka koI pahuMca nahIM hai| maiM apane kamare ke bAhara nahIM nikalatA, pahuMca ho kaise sakatI hai? aura agara merI pahuMca ho bhI, to maiM isa taraha kI mUrkhatApUrNa bAtoM meM par3atA nahIM ki gau-hatyA baMda karavA do; ki zarAba baMda karavA do! ye saba bevakUphI kI bAteM haiN| ye saba dehAtI-buddhi hI bAteM haiN| jarUra gau-rakSA honI caahie| magara gau-rakSA aura gau-hatyA baMda karavAnA do alaga bAteM haiN| saca to yaha hai--agara gau-hatyA jArI rahe, to hI gau-rakSA ho sakatI hai| tuma cauMkoge thor3A aura zaMbhU mahArAja to bahuta tilamilA jaaeNge| magara maiM bhI kyA karUM, mujhe jaisA dikhAI par3atA hai, vahI khuuNgaa| maiM rattI bhara anyathA nahIM kaha sakatA--burA lage bhalA lge| gau-rakSA ho sakatI hai, agara gau-hatyA jArI rhe| agara gau-hatyA baMda huI, to gau-rakSA nahIM ho sktii| aura merI bAta gaNita kI taraha sApha hai| duniyA meM koI aisA deza nahIM hai, jahAM gaUoM kI itanI durdazA ho, jitanI bhArata meM hai| kyoM? vahAM kahIM gau-hatyA baMda nahIM huI hai, magara gaurakSA ho rahI hai| yahAM kI cAlIsa gAyeM utanA dUdha nahIM detIM, jitanA svIDana kI eka gAya dUdha detI hai| yaha gau-rakSA hai! bhArata meM AdamiyoM ko khAne ke lie to bhojana nahIM hai, tuma gaUoM ko bacA-bacA kara karoge kyA? bhUkhA mAroge, aura kyA karoge? bhUkhA mAra rahe ho! haDDI-haDDI ho rahI haiM bhArata kI gaayeN| bhUkhI mara rahI haiN| tuma bhUkhe ho, to tumhArI gAyoM ko kauna bhojana dene vAlA hai? AdamI ko nahIM mila rahA khAne ko, ghAsa nahIM mila rahI AdamI ko khAne ko, gaUoM ko kauna khilAegA; kaise khilAegA? bhArata ke pAsa jitane pazu haiM, gAyeM-bhaiMseM, utane duniyA ke kisI deza ke pAsa nahIM haiN| AdamiyoM se jyAdA saMkhyA huI jA rahI hai! magara unako khilAoge-vilAoge kaise? bacAte jAo, to basa haDDI-haDDI hoNgii| unako jabardastI jilA kara rakhanA hai, sar3AnA hai, mAranA hai? isase jyAdA dayApUrNa hogA ki jo gAya, jitanI gAeM tuma bacA sakate ho, utanI gAyeM tuma bcaao| unako svAsthya do| unako ThIka samyaka bhojana do| unakI ThIka cikitsA kI vyavasthA kro| gau-rakSA agara karanI hai, to gau-hatyA nahIM rokI jA sktii| majabUrI hai| abhI to nahIM rokI jA sktii| abhI to AdamI kI hatyA ke dina karIba A ge| AdamI itanA huA jA rahA hai, itanI saMkhyA bar3hI jA rahI hai ki hamako bacce rokane par3a rahe haiN| saMtati-nirodha--vaha hatyA hI hai| usako tuma hatyA na kaho, saMtati-nirodha kaho, acche zabda meM chipAo, magara hai to Page 241 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA yaha bhI hatyA hai garbhapAta ke vaha bhI hatyA hai| hatyA hI bhrUNa hatyA hai baccA mAM ke peTa meM nahIM Ane deMge, lie hameM kAnUnI vyavasthA karanI hI par3egI karanI par3a rahI hai hameM bUr3hoM ko Aja nahIM kala marane kI svataMtratA denI hI pdd'egii| vaha bhI hatyA hai| lekina majabUrI hai, koI aura upAya nahIM hai| aura majabUrI ke lie jimmevAra zaMkarAcArya haiM aura ye zaMbhU mahArAja jaise loga haiN| nahIM to itanI majabUrI kI koI jarUrata na thI / hamane bhI agara vijJAna ke jagata meM thor3I gati kI hotI, agara hamane bhI utpAdana ke jyAdA vaijJAnika DhaMga khoje hote, agara hamane bhI udyoga meM nae-nae takanIka IjAda kie hote, to yaha hAlata na aatii| hama sirpha bacce paidA karate haiM, aura hamase kucha bhI nahIM hotA aura saMsAra mAyA hai| bar3A majedAra kAma cala rahA hai| bacce paidA karane bhara meM mAyA nahIM hai! maiMne kala tumase kahA ki caMdUlAla ne apane guru svAmI maTakAnAtha brahmacArI ko apanI patnI ke sAtha rAsalIlA karate hue pakar3a liyA, to bar3e gusse meM A gayA caMdUlAla svAbhAvika hai| patnI ko to usane kahA ki maiM terI hatyA hI kara dUMgA, talAka to nizcita hai| aura brahmacArI ko, jo usake guru the, unako kahA ki are brahmacArI ke bacce, are laMgoTa ke kacce ! are ulle ke paTThe! kama se kama jaba maiM apanI patnI se bAta kara rahA hUM, taba to tU cher3achAr3a baMda kara de! uTha, apane tIna kapar3e pahana ! brahmacArI ko tIna kapar3e rakhane kI suvidhA hai| ve tInoM Tebila para rakhe haiN| aura brahmacArI ne kyA kahA? brahmacArI ne kahA, vatsa, kyoM nArAja ho rahA hai? are yaha jagata to mAyA hai! saba sapanA hai- kaha gae zaMkarAcArya kyoM bhrama meM par3a rahA hai? kyoM sapane meM ulajha rahA hai, are, kyA mAyA moha meM ulajhA hai? ye tumhAre tathAkathita sAdhu-saMta-mahAtmA, inake bar3e ajIba kAma haiN| eka tarapha jagata ko mAyA kaheMge, dUsarI tarapha jagata ko chor3o isakA upadeza deMge jo hai hI nahIM, usako chor3anA kyA? eka tarapha kaheMge ki dhana mAyA hai, aura dUsarI tarapha kaheMge ki dAna dharma hai| bar3e maje kI bAteM haiN| kucha gaNita hotA, koI tarka hotA, koI hisAba hotA, koI buddhi kI bAta hotI! dhana mAyA hai jhUTha hai - aura dhana kA dAna? svarga meM usakA phala milegaa| jhUTha kA dAna karoge? jo hai hI nahIM usakA dAna karoge? Izvara taka ko dhokhA doge! aura phira svarga meM usakA karor3a gunA phala pAoge yaha hI mahAtmA samajhA rahe haiN| kyA majA cala rahA hai! asatya ko tyAga kara diyA aura eka karor3a gunA phAyadA! yaha to kucha lATarI jaisA mAmalA huA ! lATarI meM bhI kama se kama asalI dAma lagAnA par3atA hai| yaha to lATarI se bhI bar3hiyA lATarI huii| kucha lagAnA hI nahIM pdd'aa| haldI lage na phiTakarI raMga cokhA ho jAe ! aura paramAtmA ke daravAje para dAniyoM kI bar3I ijjata hotI hai| aura dAna bhI kisako denA ! brAhmaNa samajhAtA hai, brAhmaNa ko denaa| kyoMki brAhmaNa ko dAna dene kA lAbha bahuta hai| aura jaina kyA samajhAtA hai? jaina samajhAtA hai, jaina muni ko denA; brAhmaNa ko nahIM, jaina muni ko dene kA bar3A lAbha hai aura bauddha kyA samajhAtA hai, ki bauddha bhikSu ko denA jaina muni ko Page 242 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA nahIM; kyoMki bauddha bhikSu ko dene kA bar3A lAbha hai! tuma jarA gaNita dekha rahe ho? sApha hai| dAna hamako do! pahale samajhAte haiM ki dhana mAyA hai, tAki jarA tumhArI muTThI DhIlI ho; phira kahate haiM--aba dAna karo--aura dAna hamako karanA! brAhmaNa kahatA hai mujhako; jaina muni kahatA hai mujhako; bauddha bhikSu kahatA hai mujhako--dAna mujhako karanA, to hI lAbha pAoge, to hI puraskAra milegA svarga meM! kisI aura ko mata de denA, nahIM to bhttkoge| bekAra gyaa| gau-hatyA baMda karavAnA ghAtaka hogaa| aura aisA nahIM hai ki maiM koI gaUoM kA duzmana huuN| lekina maiM pUchanA cAhatA hUM ki ye sajjana apane ko kahate haiM maiM gau-bhakta hUM, yaha bhakti kaisI, kisalie bhakta ho gaU ke? isIlie na ki usase dUdha milatA hai! yaha bhakta hai yA svArtha? aura dUdha tumhAre lie zaMbhU mahArAja, gau meM paidA hotA hai ki gau ke bachar3e ke lie paidA hotA hai? yaha gau ke bachar3e se chInanA aura dUdha zaMbhU mahArAja pIeM, yaha to zoSaNa hai, balAtkAra hai| agara asalI gau-bhakta ho, to dUdha pInA baMda kara do, pahalI to baat| gau-bhakta dUdha nahIM pI sktaa| kaise pIegA? gau-bhakta ko to yaha karanA cAhie ki apanI patnI kA dUdha bachar3oM ko pilavAe! yaha sIdhI bAta hogI, agara bhakti hai| yaha kaisI bhakti hai ki bachar3oM ko alaga haTA kara unakA dUdha khuda pI rahe ho! aura dUdha ko kahate haiM ki bar3A zuddha AhAra hai, sAtvika AhAra hai! chIna rahe ho, hiMsA hai yh| aura gau ke bachar3oM ko bAMdha dete haiM paas| saca to yaha hai ki murdA bachar3oM ko bAMdha dete haiM, maremarAe bachar3oM meM bhusa bhara kara rakha dete haiM, tAki gau ko dhokhA rahe ki bachar3A pAsa hai, to usake stana se dUdha bahane lge| agara apanI patniyoM kA dUdha pilAo bachar3oM ko, sAMDoM ko, naMdiyoM ko! yaha bhakti hogI! jo AdamI gau kA mAMsa khA rahA hai, vaha bhI bhakta nahIM hai| aura jo gau kA dUdha pI rahA hai, vaha bhI bhakta nahIM hai| kyoMki donoM zoSaNa kara rahe haiM gau kaa| aura ye gau-bhakta to gajaba kA zoSaNa karate haiM! ye to paMcAmRta pIte haiN| ye dUdha hI nahIM pIte; gau-mUtra, gobara, dUdha, dahI, ghI--ina pAMca cIjoM kA nAma paMcAmRta! isase to morArajI bhAI desAI behatara, kama se kama apanA to pIte haiM--svadezI! svAvalaMbI! kyA gau kA pI rahe ho! are, RSi-muni pahale hI kaha gae ki amRta-ghaTa bhItara hai! magara morArajI desAI ke pahale koI nahIM khoja pAyA thA--amRta-ghaTa kahAM hai! amRta ghaTa yAnI blaiDara! vahAM amRta bharA huA hai| aura ToMTI bhI paramAtmA ne dI huI hai, jaba cAho taba nikAlo aura pIo! maiM to morArajI bhAI ko kahUMgA: thor3e aura Age bar3ho--paMcAmRta bnaao| kyA jIvana-jala hI pI rahe ho! paMcAmRta pIo, to amara ho jaaoge| jaba svamUtra pIne se pacAsI sAla jI gae aura pradhAnamaMtrI bana gae, agara paMcAmRta pIo, apanA hI paMcAmRta honA cAhie, phira to mauta asaMbhava hai| aura pakkA samajho ki tuma sArI duniyA ke rASTra jaba ikaTThe ho jAeMge, tumheM pahale usake pradhAna banoge--bar3A pradhAna! asalI bar3A pradhAna! Page 243 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA gau-bhakti kyA hai yaha? kisalie hai? aura agara dUdha ke kAraNa hI gau-bhakti hai, to phira bhaiMsa kI bhakti kyoM nahIM karate? Akhira bhaiMsa kA kyA kasUra hai becArI kA! na to merI kisI taka koI pahuMca hai, na mujhe kisI taka pahuMca kI koI jarUrata hai| maiM apane kamare ke bAhara nahIM jAtA, pahuMcUMgA kaise! aura agara merI pahuMca hotI bhI to maiM isa taraha kI mUrkhatApUrNa bAtoM meM rasa nahIM letaa| jiMdagI meM bar3e savAla haiM aura tuma kahAM gau-hatyA kI bAtoM meM par3e ho! ye hI mUDha jana, ye hI dehAtI kisma ke sAdhu-saMta, gaMvAra jinako kahanA cAhie--gaMvAra kA matalaba samajha lenA, gAMva ke, aura kucha matalaba nahIM hai| gaMvAra yAnI gAMva ke--ye hI bhArata ko bIsavIM sadI meM nahIM Ane de rahe haiN| inhIM duSToM ke kAraNa bhArata pichar3A huA hai| yaha koI hajAra sAla pIche jiMdA hai| duniyA kahAM se kahAM pahuMca gaI! AdamI jamIna se cAMda taka pahuMca gyaa| ye gaU ke thana se aTake hue haiM! aura thana meM se kucha nikalatA bhI nhiiN| kucha nikale to bhI ThIka, magara thana hI khIMca rahe haiN| aura gau-bhakti cala rahI hai! magara ye saba rAjanItika dAMva-peMca haiN| yaha hiMdU-mana kA zoSaNa hai| hiMdU kI dhAraNA hai gau-bhakti kii| to basa hiMdU-mana ko zoSaNa karanA ho, to gau-bhakti kI bAta kro| aura ve kahate haiM ki agara maiM itanA kara dUM, to ve mere ziSya ho jaaeNge| tuma to ho jAoge, magara maiM tumheM ziSya svIkAra karUMgA? kabhI nahIM! aise dakiyAnUsI logoM ko maiM ziSya svIkAra nahIM krtaa| aura pahalI to bAta yaha ki ziSya hone kI zarta nahIM hotii| aura tuma zarta lagA rahe ho| sazarta koI ziSya hotA hai? ziSya kA artha hI hotA: bezarta smrpnn| ve zarta lagA rahe haiM ki gau-hatyA baMda karavA dUM, to mere ziSya ho jAeMge! jaise mujhe pralobhana de rahe hoM; jaise mujhe kucha rasa ho inake ziSya hone meM! inakA kyA karUMgA? aura eka bAMjha gAya bAMdha lI ghara meM! inakA karanA kyA hai! koI yahAM zrImadabhAgavata saptAha karavAnA hai? aura zrImadabhAgavata meM hai bhI kyA? jo hiMdU nahIM hai, agara vaha par3hegA zrImadabhAgavata to hairAna hogA ki kRSNa kI jina lIlAoM kA varNana hai, agara ye lIlAeM hara-eka karane lage to haraeka AdamI jela meM ho| phira hameM jela bar3e karanA pdd'eN| saca to yaha hai ki hameM sabako jela meM kara denA par3e, kucha thor3e-se loga jo zrImadabhAgavata ko mAna kara na calate hoM, unako baahr| yA yUM samajho ki abhI jo jela haiM, unako bAhara banA denA par3e aura abhI jo bAhara hai usako jela banA denA pdd'e| zrImada bhAgavata meM hai kyA? jarA soco, jarA vicaaro| tumhArI striyoM ke jarA koI kapar3e curA kara jhAr3a para car3ha jAe, to kyA karoge? pulisa meM khabara karoge ki inakI pUjA karoge? pUjA hI ke arthoM meM pUjA karanI par3egI phira; ThIka se pUjA karanI par3egI! jisako marAThI meM zikSA kahate haiM, vaisI zikSA denI pdd'egii| Page 244 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA aura kRSNa kI solaha hajAra striyAM thIM, jinameM dUsaroM kI striyAM thIM bhagAI huI! dUsaroM kI vivAhita striyAM thIM bhagAI huI! saba corI-capATI thii| aura bar3A majA yaha hai ki kRSNa kI loga prazaMsA kie cale jAte haiM ye bhaktagaNa, kyoMki unhoMne draupadI kI lAja bcaaii| aura solaha hajAra striyoM kI lAja lUTI, usakA kucha hisAba nahIM! dUsaroM kI striyoM kI lAja lUTI, usakA kucha hisAba nhiiN| aura draupadI inakI bahana thI, usakI lAja bacAI to koI khAsa bAta huI? are, apanI bahana kI to koI bhI lAja bacAtA hai! isIlie to jaba kisI ko tuma gAlI dete ho, to usako bahana kI gAlI dete ho| kabhI socA tumane, kyoM dete ho? bahana kA koI hAtha hI nahIM hai! bahana kI gAlI dekara tuma usako ukasAte ho ki bacAo lAja! eka bar3e maje kI bAta hai ki AdamI kasUra kare, usakI bahana ko gAlI par3atI hai! aura kisI kI bahana ko gAlI do, phaurana laTTha lekara khar3A ho jAtA hai| lAja bacAegA hii| sabhI kRSNa haiM isa arthoM meM to! aura ye dUsaroM kI striyAM bhagA lAe! aura isakA bhakta gaNa bar3I prazaMsA se--kyA rasa le-lekara varNana karate haiN| Aha! vAha-vAha! subhAna allAha! koI yahAM zrImadabhAgavata saptAha karavAnA hai? maiM aise logoM ko ziSya vagairaha nahIM letaa| merA rasa ina dakiyAnUsI murdo meM nahIM hai; ve honA bhI cAheM, to bhI daravAje ke bAhara se saMta mahArAja hI unheM lauTA deMge ki rAste para laga jAo! Age bar3ho! aura tIsarI bAta, unhoMne kahA ki rajanIza jI ko bhagavAna kahane meM mujhe takalIpha nahIM hai| takalIpha nahIM hai, to kahA kisalie? takalIpha hogI, nahIM to bAta hI kahane kI nahIM hai kuch| bhagavAna kahane meM takalIpha nahIM hai aura bhagavAna ko kaccha Ane dene meM takalIpha hai? kyA maje kI bAta ho rahI hai! aura kahA ki maiM unheM bar3e pavitra, prajJAvAna aura vidvAna samajhatA huuN| agara bar3e pavitra, prajJAvAna aura pavitra samajhate ho, to jo maiM kaha rahA hUM, usa para thor3A dhyAna do| usa para to kucha dhyAna dete nhiiN| yaha kahA hogA ki Dara ke mAre, kyoMki mere saMnyAsiyoM ne unako aisI dikkata meM DAla diyA ki unako kisI taraha samajhAne-bujhAne ke lie kahA hogA ki calo, bhagavAna bhI mAne letA hUM, prajJAvAna bhI mAne letA huuN| prajJAvAna hama usako kahate haiM, jisako buddhatva upalabdha huA, prajJA upalabdha huii| aba jisako buddhatva upalabdha huA, usakI bAta suno, samajho, agara mAnate ho to| yA phira isa taraha kI jhUThI bAteM na kho| ye khuzAmadI bAteM haiN| magara tathAkathita bhakta basa, khuzAmada hI sIkhe haiN| isa deza meM camace bahuta purAne haiN| yaha koI naI bAta nahIM hai ki Aja dillI meM camace ikaTThe ho gae haiN| camacA isa mulka meM bar3A dhArmika vyakti rahA hai--sadA se| isalie to hama Page 245 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA paramAtmA kI stuti karate haiM; vaha camacAgirI hai, aura kucha bhI nahIM hai--ki hama pApI aura tuma mahAkaruNAvAna, ki hama dIna-hIna aura tuma dIna-hInoM ko bacAne vAle! yaha tuma stuti kara rahe ho yA khuzAmada? stuti kA matalaba bhI khuzAmada hI hotA hai| aura khuzAmada se tuma socate ho tuma paramAtmA ko prasanna kara loge! rAjanetAoM ko kara lo bhalA, kyoMki ye tuma jaise hI mUDha haiN| inameM aura tumameM kucha bheda nahIM hai| inako tuma jo kaho khuzAmada meM, usako jAna leNge| nipaTa bhoMduoM ko kaho ki Apa jaisA buddhimAna koI bhI nahIM hai; jinakI zakla dekha kara bacce Dara jAeM, unako kaho ki ahA, ApakA sauMdarya! nahIM pRthvI para aise koI sauMdarya kA dhanI huA kabhI! aura ye bar3e prasanna hoMge, bar3e AnaMdita hoNge| ye tumhArI bAta svIkAra kara leNge| isI stuti ko tuma paramAtmA ke lie kara rahe ho| paramAtmA ko bhI loga rizvata de rahe haiM isa deza meN| isalie to rizvata isa deza se haTAnA bahuta muzkila hai| nAriyala car3hA Ate haiM hanumAna jI ko| nAriyala kyA hai? rizvata hai--ki beTA nahIM ho rahA, beTA paidA ho jAe, to eka nAriyala aura car3hAUMgA; ki pAMca Ane kA prasAda bAMTa dUMgA! ki he gaNeza jI, agara isa bAra lATarI mere nAma khula jAe, to pakkA samajho, satyanArAyaNa kI kathA karavA dUMgA; gaNeza utsava meM gaNeza kI mUrti banavA dUMgA, ki jhAMkI sajavA dUMgA! tumane kyA samajhA hai paramAtmA ko? magara loga aise hI mUDha haiN| mere gAMva meM, jaba maiM choTA thA, mere gAMva meM muharrama bar3e utsava se manAyA jAtA hai| aura hiMdU-musalima daMgA mere gAMva meM kabhI haA nhiiN| to hiMdU-musalamAna donoM hI sammilita hote haiN| aura muharrama ke samaya valI uThate haiM, valI kI savAriyAM uThatI haiN| aura jo AdamI savArI le kara kUdatA-phAMdatA hai, uchalatA hai, usake sAmane loga manautiyAM manAte haiN| aura jo jitanA uchalatA-kUdatA hai, utanA hI bar3A valI samajhA jAtA hai| mujhe bacapana se hI zaka rahA ki yaha uchala-kUda saba jhUTha hai| to maiM bAmuzkila koziza karake eka savArI kI Dora pakar3ane ko kisI taraha se maukA pA gyaa| pIche hI par3A rahA logoM ke, to unhoMne kahA ki acchA bhaI, isa chokare ko rassI pakar3A do; yaha pIche hI par3A hai| bar3A dhArmika bhAva vAlA hai| maiM sAtha meM eka suI bhI le gayA thA, kyoMki maiMne suna rakhA thA ki jaba valI A jAte haiM, to phira usako patA hI nahIM calatA; gardana bhI kATa do, to patA nahIM cltaa| to maiM suI cubhoUM ki patA calatA hai ki nhiiN| aura jaba maiM suI cubhoUM, to ve aura uchleN-kuudeN| patA use ThIka se cala rahA hai ki jaba bhI suI cubhAUM, taba vaha aura uchale-kUde, aura zoragula macAe! hAlata yaha ho gaI ki maiM jisakI Dora pakar3a lUM, vaha valI sabase jyAdA prasiddha ho jAe gAMva meM, usako jyAdA car3hotarI car3he; aura loga kahane lage, isa chokare meM bhI kucha guNa hai, jisakI Dora pakar3a letA hai...| magara jo valI baneM, ve mere hAtha-paira jor3eM bAda meM ki bhaiyA, tU Page 246 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA kisI aura kI Dora pkdd'naa| aba tujhase kyA chipAnA! aura hama vaise hI kUdeMge, tU suI mata cubhAyA kara! yaha prAiveTa, akele meM mujhase kaha deM ki dekha, suI mata cubhaanaa| Dora tU bhalA pakar3a, kyoMki phAyadA hameM bhI hai, car3hotarI hotI hai| koI beTA nahIM ho rahA, kisI ko beTI nahIM ho rahI, kisI kI sagAI nahIM ho rhii| to loga car3hotarI car3hAte haiM, revar3iyAM baMTavAte haiM, miThAiyAM lAte haiN| terI vajaha se hamako kama se kama cAra-pAMca gunA jyAdA milatA hai| magara tU hamArI jAna le letA hai| hama vaise hI uckeNge| tU sirpha hAtha se izArA kara diyA kr| suI cubhAne kI koI jarUrata nahIM hai| to maiM unase kahatA ki AdhA merA! to AdhA mujhe miltaa| aura maiMne karIba-karIba sAre valiyoM kI rassiyAM pakar3a kara dekhIM, ve saba suI cubhAne se khUba uchlte-kuudte| aura bAda meM mujhase hAtha jor3a kara kahate ki bhaiyA, tU hamArI badanAmI na krvaa| krodha to hameM itanA AtA hai eka jhApar3a, tere ko eka capata mAra deM, magara agara mAreM, to hamArI bhadda khula jaae| so hama kucha kaha bhI nahIM sakate, uchalanA hI kUdanA par3atA hai| magara loga car3hA rahe haiN...| taba se maiMne dekhA ki kyA dhokhAdhar3I cala rahI hai! gaNeza jI kI mUrti ke sAmane car3hA rahe ho, hanumAna jI kI mUrti ke sAmane car3hA rahe ho! kisI ko gau-bhakti kI par3I hai, kisI ko baMdara-bhakti kI par3I hai! koI hAthiyoM kI pUjA kara rahA hai! isa deza kI buddhi to dekho thodd'ii| aba ve khuzAmada ke lie kaha rahe haiN| yaha stuti hai jhuutthii| ve mere sNnyaasii...| aura mere saMnyAsI to tarka karane meM kuzala ho jAte haiN| ve to coTa karane meM kuzala ho jAte haiN| unake pAsa to talavAra meM dhAra A jAtI hai| to bIsa-paccIsa saMnyAsI gae, unhoMne unako ThikAne lagA diyA hogaa| usa bhaya se kaha rahe haiN| nahIM to yaha virodhAbhAsa kaisA? cauthI bAta unhoMne kahI ki akhabAroM meM merA jo nivedana anya caudaha sAdhu-mahaMta-maMDalezva Adi ke sAtha AyA hai, usameM jo zabda aura bhASA chApI gaI hai, aisA maiMne kabhI kahA hI nahIM hai| jo bhI chapA hai vaha presa kI vikRti mAtra hai| agara aisA hai zaMbhU mahArAja, to usakA khaMDana karanA cAhie akhabAroM meN| yaha mere ziSyoM ko kahane se kucha sAra nahIM hai| akhabAroM meM khaMDana karo ki tumhAre vacana galata chApe gae haiN| vaha to tumane khaMDana nahIM kiyaa| yaha jhUTha bAta hai| sacAI yaha hai ki zaMbhU mahArAja ne paccIsa hajAra rupayA de kara akhabAroM meM ve vaktavya chpvaae| akhabAroM meM koI vaktavya chApane ko rAjI bhI nahIM thaa| aura ye kauna haiM caudaha sAdhu-mahaMtamaMDalezvara? ye ve hI loga haiM, jinake nihita svArthoM para mujhase coTa ho rahI hai| ye ve hI loga haiM, jo kaha rahe haiM--jagata mAyA hai aura brahma satya hai| ye ve hI loga haiM, jo logoM kA zoSaNa kara rahe haiM aura isa deza kI prajJA ko Age nahIM bar3hane de rhe| ye ve loga haiM, jo jaMjIreM haiM, jinako tor3e binA hama Age bar3ha nahIM skeNge| ye hamAre phAMsI ke phaMde haiN| Page 247 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA agara yaha saca hai, to mere saMnyAsiyoM se kahane se koI prayojana nhiiN| akhabAroM meM vaktavya do ki tumhArA vaktavya galata chApA gayA hai, vikRta kiyA gayA hai| aura akhabAroM meM svIkAra karo ki tuma mujhe bhagavAna svIkAra karate ho, prajJAvAna svIkAra karate ho, vidvAna svIkAra karate ho| ye svIkAra nahIM kara sakeMge akhabAroM meM ve| kyoMki ye svIkAra kareMge, to phira merA kaccha Ane meM virodha kaise kareMge? virodha to ve yaha kara rahe haiM ki mere kaccha Ane se kaccha kI saMskRti naSTa ho jAegI, kaccha kI sabhyatA naSTa ho jAegI, kaccha to pAtAla meM calA jAegA--mere Ane se! inameM se kisI ko kaccha kI abhI taka koI sudha na thii| maiMne kaccha jAne kI bAta kI, to inako kaccha kI bar3I prIti jagI hai! sabako kaccha kI prIti jagI hai| kaccha ko bacAnA hai! aura maiM jo de rahA hUM, vaha saMskRti nahIM to kyA hai? nizcita hI vaha bIsavIM sadI kI saMskRti hai| bIsavIM kI hI nahIM, ikkIsavIM sadI kI saMskRti hai| maiM jo de rahA hUM, vaha bhaviSya kI sabhyatA hai| aura tuma jo bacA rahe ho, ve atIta kI murdA lAzeM haiM, jinako kabhI kA daphanA diyA jAnA cAhie thaa| isalie vaktavya ve de bhI nahIM sakate, kyoMki agara kaheM ki yaha bhagavAna hai vyakti, prajJAvAna hai, to phira isase kaise saMskRti naSTa ho jAegI aura sabhyatA naSTa ho jAegI? aura jaba mere ziSya hone ko taiyAra haiN...| aura muddA kyA hai ki gau-hatyA baMda ho jAe, to ve mere ziSya hone ko taiyAra haiN| zaMkarAcArya ko chor3ane ko itanI jaldI taiyAra! phira merI saba galata bAteM mAnane ko taiyAra! phira maiM tumhArI saMskRti naSTa nahIM kara dUMgA? phira tumhArI sabhyatA kA kyA hogA, tumhAre dharma kA kyA hogA? kaccha ko DubA rahA hUM, tumako bhI DUbA dUMgA! tuma kaise bacoge mere ziSya ho kara? gau baca jAegI mAna lo, magara tuma kaise bacoge? yaha jarA soco| isa taraha ke vyartha ke loga hamArI chAtI para savAra haiN| aura pAMcavI bAta unhoMne kahI ki aba bhagavAna rajanIza acche DhaMga se bola rahe haiN| pahale jaise nahIM rahe haiM, kucha sudhara gae haiM! bilakula galata! maiM aura bigar3a rahA huuN| sudharane kA savAla hI nahIM utthtaa| mujhe jaise-jaise anubhava hotA jA rahA hai ina sAre nAsamajhoM kA, utanI-utanI maiM dhAra rakha rahA huuN| inakI gardaneM kATanI haiN| maiM coTa aura gaharI kara rahA huuN| merI coTa roja gaharI hotI jaaegii| isa galatI meM na rahe koii| magara yaha phira ve mere ziSyoM ko samajhA rahe haiN| aba yaha bar3e maje kI bAta hai ki eka tarapha kahate haiM mujhe bhagavAna rajanIza, aura dUsarI tarapha yaha bhI kahate haiM ki sudhara rahe haiM! bhagavAna meM bhI kucha sudharane ko bacatA hai? matalaba yaha huA ki bhagavAna ho kara bhI kucha sudharane ko raha jAtA hai zeSa! bigar3ane ko hI bacatA hai, sudharane ko kucha nahIM bctaa| aba bhagavAna hI ho gae to aba bigar3ane kA Dara bhI nahIM rhtaa| aba to Page 248 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA to koI pharka nahIM pdd'taa| vahIM utsava mnaauuNgaa| vahIM tuma saMnyAsI banA liyA hai! tuma mujhe narka meM bhI bheja do, pAoge ki zaitAna ko maiMne aba mujhe koI na sudharanA hai, na bigar3ane kA koI Dara hai magara ye dekhate ho mUDhatA pUrNa bAteM ki bhagavAna rajanIza acche DhaMga se bola rahe haiM; pahale jaise nahIM rahe haiM, kucha sudhara gae haiM! kucha! usameM bhI kaMjUsI hai| pUrA kaise kaheM, kyoMki bhItara to kucha aura bharA hai| bhItara to yaha bharA hai ki maiM unakI jar3eM kATe DAla rahA huuN| isalie kucha apane lie bacAva bhI to rakhanA pdd'egaa| agara kaha deM ki bilakula sudhara gae haiM, to phira virodha kaise kareMge? to kucha sudhara gae haiN| so mere saMnyAsiyoM ko bhI rAjI kara leM aura mahaMta maMDalezvara aura mahAtmAoM ko bhI rAjI kara le ki kucha hI kahA hai maiMne, kucha pUrA to kahA nhiiN| bhagavAna kA artha hI hotA hai ki jisane saba pA liyA; jisane apane ko pA liyA; jo apane ghara A gayA; jisane apane svabhAva meM thiratA pA lI jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA ! aura AkhirI chaThavIM bAta unhoMne kahI ki maiM akhila bhArata sanAtana dharma pariSada kA upapramukha hUM aura gujarAta meM rahane ke kAraNa kaccha ke Arama kA virodha saMgaThana kI ora se karanA par3a rahA hai| kyA beImAnI hai ! to chor3o aisA saMgaThana jisake kAraNa jhUTha kAma karane par3a rahe haiM! isa vaktavya kA to matalaba yaha huA ki ve virodha nahIM karanA cAhate, lekina cUMki sanAtana dharma pariSada ke upa pramukha haiM, isalie saMgaThana ke kAraNa virodha karanA par3a rahA hai| to chor3o saMgaThana satya ke lie satya bar3A hai ki saMgaThana bar3A hai? lekina saba tarapha rAjanIti hai| upa-pramukha haiM, kaise chor3a deM! pada para haiN| pada bar3I cIja hai, satya vagairaha kI kisako phikra hai! satya kA virodha kiyA jA sakatA hai, magara pada thor3e hI chor3A jA sakatA hai! pada ke lie samajhautA kiyA jA sakatA hai| ye kaise dhArmika loga haiM, jo khuda kaha rahe haiM apane muMha se ki saMgaThana ke kAraNa virodha karanA par3a rahA hai; maiM virodha nahIM karanA cAhatA! yaha to majabUrI hai, cUMki meM upa-pramukha huuN| to istIphA kyoM nahIM dete? kauna tumheM roka rahA hai istIphA dene se istIphA de do aise saMgaThana meM kyA rahanA jo galata kAma karatA ho, galata kAma karavAtA ho? aura aise saMgaThana ko sanAtana dharma kaise kahanA ? sanAtana-dharma kisI kI bapautI nahIM hai| hiMduoM kI koI bapautI nahIM hai| sanAtana-dharma aura hiMdU-dharma paryAyavAcI nahIM haiN| sanAtana-dharma para kisI ko ThekA nahIM hai| sanAtana-dharma kA artha hotA hai: dharma kI vaha anaMta dhArA, jisameM saba buddha hue - lAotsU hue, jarathustra hue, kRSNa hue, mahAvIra hue, jIsasa hue, kabIra hue, nAnaka hue, raidAsa hue, rajjaba hue| yaha anaMta dhArA ! sanAtana-dharma kA artha hiMdU nahIM hai| sanAtana dharma kA artha to samasta dharmoM kA jo sAra hai, nicor3a hai--bAibila, kurAna, veda, dhammapada avestA ina sabakA jo nicor3a hai, jo Page 249 of 255 7 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA sArasUtra haiN| eka dhammo sanaMtano buddha ne kahA hai vaha hai sanAtana-dharma, jo sAre dharmoM kA nicor3a hai| dharma Ate haiM aura jAte haiM, sanAtana dharma na AtA hai na jAtA hai| sanAtana dharma to satya kA paryAyavAcI hai| hiMdU raheM duniyA meM na raheM, koI pharka nahIM par3atA - sanAtana dharma rahegA! kisI aura raMga-DhaMga meM rahegA, kisI aura veza meM rahegA, kisI aura zAstra se prakaTa hogA, kisI aura buddha ke vacanoM meM jhalakegA hiMduoM ke hone se kucha pharka nahIM pdd'taa| lekina hiMduoM ko yaha bhrAMti hai ki unakA dharma sanAtana hai| jainoM ko yaha bhrAMti hai ki unakA dharma sanAtana hai| jaina davA karate haiM ki veda se bhI purAnA hai unakA dharma, kyoMki veda meM, Rgveda meM jainoM ke pahale tIrthakara ke nAma kA ullekha hai| isase bAta to yaha siddha hotI hai ki Rgveda bAda meM likhA gayA hogA jainoM ke pahale tIrthakara, pahale ho cuke hoMge aura sammAnapUrvaka ullekha hai jIvita agara hote to sammAna to ho hI nahIM sakatA thaa| jIvita ; buddha kA to hamezA apamAna hogA hai! kama se kama, jyAdA ho gae hoMge, taba taka sammAna mila pAtA hai| kama se kama mare hue tIna sau sAla to ho hI gae hoMge, magara kama se kama tIna sau sAla kA phAsalA to cAhie, jIvita buddhoM ko to sUlI lagatI hai, patthara mAre jAte haiM, kAnoM meM khIle ThoMke jAte haiN| murdA buddhoM kI pUjA kI jAtI hai ! itane sammAna se ullekha hai AdinAtha kA, isase sabUta milatA hai ki dera ho gaI hogI, kAphI samaya ho gayA hogA AdinAtha ko hue| agara jIvita hote to veda unakA sammAnapUrvaka ullekha nahIM kara sakate the, kyoMki AdinAtha aura veda meM kyA tAlamela? koI tAlamela nahIM / veda bahuta hI maoNlika hai, bahuta hI sAMsArika hai, bahuta padArthavAdI hai| veda meM kucha sUtra haiM jo adhyAtma ke haiN| ninyAnabe pratizata sUtra to bilakula hI bhautikavAdI haiM--itane bhautikavAdI ka bhautikavAdI bhI zaramA jaae| gau bhaktoM kI aisI-aisI prArthanAeM vedoM meM haiM ki merI gaU ke thanoM meM dUdha bar3ha jAe aura duzmana kI gaU ke thanoM kA dUdha sUkha jaae| kyA dhArmika bAteM ho rahI haiM? aura veda ke samaya meM gau hatyA jArI thI, azvamedha yajJa hote the, gaumedha yajJa hote the, naramedha yajJa bhI hote the, jinameM AdamiyoM kI bali dI jAtI thii| gaUoM kI bali dI jAtI thI, ghor3oM kI bali dI jAtI thii| aura ye veda ko mAnane vAle loga zoragula macAe phirate haiM-gau-hatyA baMda honI cAhie ! vedoM meM kahIM koI gau-hatyA baMda karane kA ullekha nahIM hai| AdinAtha bilakula virodha meM the--kisI bhI taraha kI hiMsA ke| jaina dharma kA to mUla hI -- ahiMsA parama dharma hai| AdinAtha kA sammAna se ullekha isa bAta kA sUcaka hai ki kAphI samaya ho cukA hogA AdinAtha ko mare to jainoM ke pAsa tarka to hai ki unakA dharma inase bhI jyAdA purAnA hai| lekina purAne hone se koI sanAtana nahIM hotaa| Page 250 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jainoM ke pahale aura saMskRtiyAM ho gaIM, aura dharma ho ge| har3appA, mohanajodar3o meM khudAI jo huI hai, ve sAta hajAra sAla purAnI sabhyatA ke avazeSa haiN| har3appA meM eka mUrti milI hai-- padmAsana meM baiThe hue vyakti kii| nizcita hI yoga, pataMjali ke yoga-sUtra se jyAdA purAnA hai| mahAvIra baiThe padmAsana meM, isase pAMca hajAra sAla pahale koI baiTha cukA hai| har3appA meM usakI mUrti milI hai| aura har3appA aura mohanajodar3o donoM hI AryoM ke bhArata Ane ke pahale kI sabhyatAeM haiM, AryoM kA kahIM koI ullekha nahIM hai| aura AryoM ne kahIM har3appA aura mohanajodar3o kI sabhyatA kA ullekha nahIM kiyA hai| vedoM meM koI ullekha nahIM hai| veda bAda meM race gae haiN| to har3appA, mohanajodar3o meM koI dharma rahA hogA, taba to padmAsana lagAe baiThA hai koI AdamI, dhyAna kara rahA hai| eka AdamI kI AMkha baMda kie hue khar3I huI mUrti milI hai| koI AMkha baMda karake khar3A hokara dhyAna kara rahA hai| dhyAna bhI thA, yoga bhI thA, dharma bhI thA--hiMduoM ke bahuta pahale, jainoM ke bahuta pahale, buddhoM ke bahuta phle| magara kahAM gayA vaha dharma jo har3appA, mohanajodar3o meM thA? na usake mAnane vAle rahe, na vaha dharma rhaa| magara dharma kisI ke sAtha naSTa nahIM hotaa| savAriyAM badala jAtI haiM, magara dharma kI yAtrA jArI rahatI hai| pazcima meM bahuta-se dharma rhe| samApta ho ge| magara dharmoM ke samApta hone se dharma samApta nahIM hotaa| dharma sanAtana hai| dharma kA artha smjho| dharma kA artha hai: jagata kA svabhAva; jagata kA niyaMtraNa karane vAlA sUtra, jagata ko jo apane meM bAMdhe hue hai| jagata ko jo dhAraNa kie hue hai--vaha dhrm| esa dhammo sanaMtano! usI dharma ko hama sanAtana kaha sakate haiN| usakA hiMdU, IsAI, musalamAna se kucha lenA-denA nahIM; jaina-bauddha se kucha lenA-denA nhiiN| ye saba usI dharma kI chAyAeM haiN| jaise cAMda nikalatA hai, to nadI meM bhI pratibiMba banatA hai, tAlAba meM bhI, jhIla meM bhI, pokharoM meM bhI, DabaroM meM bhI--jisakI jitanI haisiyata, vaisA pratibiMba bana jAtA hai| gaMdA DabarA hogA, to usa meM bhI pratibiMba banatA hai| tuma eka thAlI rakha doge pAnI bhara kara, to usameM bhI pratibiMba bnegaa| karor3oM pratibiMba baneMge, cAMda eka hai| kyA tuma socate ho, tumhArI thAlI TUTa jAegI, pAnI bikhara jAegA, to cAMda TUTa jAegA aura bikhara jAegA? kyA tuma socate ho, tumhArI talaiyA sUkha jAegI, to cAMda sUkha jAegA? kyA tuma socate ho, tumhArI nadI AMdhItUphAna se bhara jAegI aura lahareM uTha AeMgI to pratibiMba chitara-bitara ho jAegA, magara cAMda thor3e hI chitara-bitara ho jaaegaa| esa dhammo sanaMtano! vaha dharmasanAtana hai, jisakI chAyAeM to banatI haiM, miTatI haiM, magara jo svayaM na banatA hai na miTatA hai, jo sadA se hai| sabhI buddhoM ne usakI tarapha izArA kiyA hai| sabakI aMguliyAM usI cAMda kI tarapha uThI haiN| aMguliyAM alaga-alaga haiM, cAMda eka hai| aMguliyAM mata pakar3a lenaa| Page 251 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA jo hiMdU hokara baiTha gayA, usane eka aMgulI pakar3a lii| jo jaina hokara baiTha gayA, usane dUsarI aMgulI pakar3a lii| jo IsAI hokara baiTha gayA, usane tIsarI aMgulI pakar3a lii| ye tInoM aMguliyAM alaga-alaga haiN| nizcita jIsasa kI aMgulI alaga hogii| mahAvIra kI aMgulI alaga hogI; buddha kI aMgulI alaga hogI; kRSNa kI aMgulI alaga hogI; aMguliyAM alaga-alaga hoNgii| inakI deheM alaga-alaga haiM, inake raMga-rUpa alaga-alaga haiM, inakI bhASA alaga-alaga haiM, magara jisa cAMda kI tarapha izArA hai, na IsAI dekhatA usa cAMda ko, na hiMdU dekhatA, na bauddha dekhatA; kisI ko usa cAMda se matalaba nahIM, sabako apanI-apanI aMgulI kI par3I hai| aMgulI kI pUjA cala rahI hai| bar3I ajIba yaha duniyA hai! maiMne sunA hai, eka mahAtmA ke do ziSya the| eka dopahara mahAtmA, garmI thI, lettaa| donoM ziSyoM meM jhagar3A ho rahA thA, pratispardhA ho rahI thI--kauna sevA kre| mahAtmA ne kahA, aisA karo, tuma mujhe bAMTa lo| yaha jhagar3A baMda kro| bAyAM paira eka kA, dAyAM paira eka kaa| mahAtmA leTa gyaa| eka bAyAM paira dabAne lagA; jisakA bAyAM paira thA, vaha bAyAM dabAne lgaa| jisakA dAyAM thA, vaha dAyAM dabAne lgaa| nIMda meM mahAtmA ne karavaTa badalI; bAeM para dAyAM paira par3a gyaa| to jisakA bAyAM thA, usane kahA, haTA le apane paira ko! mere paira para par3a rahA usane kahA, are dekha lie tere jaise bahuta! kauna hai, jo mujhase kahe ki haTA le! hai koI mAI kA lAla, jo mujhase kaha de ki merA paira haTa jAe? nahIM httegaa| kara le jo tujhe karanA hai! usane kahA, dekha haTA le! nahIM to kuTAI kara dUMgA tere paira kI! usane kahA, dekhU to tU kara kuTAI mere paira kii| agara tere paira ko kATa kara do Tukar3e na kara dUM, to merA nAma nahIM; mere bApa kA nAma badala denA! inakI bAtacIta sunakara mahAtmA kI nIMda khula gii| AMkheM baMda kI huIM usane bAta sunii| usane kahA, bhAiyo, ruko, donoM paira mere haiN| na terA bAyAM hai, na usakA dAyAM hai! aba mere paira kI kuTAI aura kATapITa mata kara denA! magara yahI ho rahA hai| satya kI kATapITa ho rahI hai, kyoMki merA, terA! satya kisI kA bhI nahIM hai| hama satya ko ho sakate haiM, satya hamArA nahIM hotaa| aura duniyA meM do hI taraha ke loga haiM--eka ve, jo cAhate haiM, satya hamArA ho, hamAre anukUla ho, hamAre DhAMce meM Dhale; aura eka ve, jo kahate haiM, hama satya ke hone ko rAjI haiM; satya kA jo raMga ho, jo DhaMga ho, satya jahAM le jAe, hama usake sAtha jAne ko rAjI haiM; hama satya kI chAyA banane ko rAjI haiN| ye dUsare loga hI kevala satya ko khoja pAte haiN| pahale taraha ke loga to hiMdU, musalamAna, IsAI, jaina, pArasI, sikkha hokara samApta ho jAte haiN| ye kabhI satya ko nahIM pA sakate haiN| yaha kaisA sanAtana dharma hai? zaMbhU mahArAja kahate haiM, maiM akhila bhAratIya sanAtana dharma pariSada kA upa-pramukha huuN| aura gujarAta meM rahane ke kAraNa kaccha ke Azrama kA virodha saMgaThana kI ora se karanA par3a rahA hai| Page 252 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA sahA yaha to bar3I rAjanIti ho gii| yaha to kucha sanAtana dharma na rhaa| yaha to dharma bhI na rahA, sanAtana kI to bAta hI chor3a do| isameM to kucha dhArmikatA bhI na rahI; yaha to pada kA moha rhaa| chor3o aisA pada jisake kAraNa galata kAma karanA par3a rahA hai| itanI dhArmikatA kA sabUta to do| chor3o aisA saMgaThana, jisake kAraNa virodha karanA par3a rahA hai| upa-pramukha bane rahane ke lie itanA rasa hai! ajIba loga haiM aura ajIba jhUThoM meM par3e haiN| ajIba beImAniyAM meM ulajhe hue haiN| aura beImAniyoM ko bar3e acche-acche zabdoM meM DhAla rahe haiM, DhAMka rahe haiN| phira inake jhUThoM ke parde ke bIca se ye jo bhI dekhate haiM, vaha bhI vikRta ho jAtA hai| ye mujhe samajha nahIM paate| kaise samajha pAeMge? inake Agraha hI, inake pakSapAta hI, inake pUrvAgraha hI bAdhAeM bana jAte haiN| sunA hai maiMne, DhabbU jI kisI sarakArI kAryavaza eka saptAha ke lie dillI gae the| dUsare hI dina vApasa lauTa aae| maiMne pUchA, Azcarya hai ki Apa to sAta dina ke lie jarUrI kAma ke lie dillI gae the, do hI dina meM kaise lauTa Ae! bole, kyA batAeM, sAle dillI ke logoM ko mere Ane kI khabara pahale se hI ho gaI thii| ataH unhoMne merI beijjatI karane ke lie jagaha-jagaha sTezana para hI mere virodha meM posTara cipakA die the| isalie to maiM sTezana se hI vApasa lekara TikaTa, turaMta lauTa aayaa| merA Azcarya aura bddh'aa| maiMne kahA, maiM kucha samajhA nhiiN| mAmalA jarA vistAra se batalAie! mere bAra-bAra pUchane para unhoMne bAmuzkila sakucAte hue kahA, dillI ke kucha guMDoM, laphaMgoM aura asAmAjika tatvoM ne posTara cipakAe the, jina para likhA thA--Aja hI dekhie, cUkie nhiiN| A gayA, A gayA Apake zahara meM--jorU kA gulAma! ve to becAre kisI philma kA posTara cipakAe the, magara ye jorU ke gulAma haiM DhabbU jii| ye samajhe ki mere lie posTara cipakAe gae haiM--A gayA, A gayA! Aja hI Apake zahara meM, jorU kA gulAma! sTezana se hI lauTa Ae! loga apane hI pakSoM se, apane pakSapAtoM se, apanI dhAraNAoM se dekhate haiM, isalie satya se cUka jAte haiN| maiM sIdhI-sApha bAta kaha rahA hUM--binA lAga-lagAva ke| sirpha ve hI samajha sakate haiN| jinameM itanA sAhasa ho ki apane pakSapAta aura pUrvAgrahoM ko eka tarapha haTA kara rakha deN| aura majA to yaha hai, inhIM pakSapAtoM ke kAraNa loga dukhI haiN| magara phira bhI apane dukha ko bhI loga pakar3a lete haiN| apanA dukha! apanA hai, to usase bhI moha banA lete haiN| do mitra sar3aka para jA rahe the| eka mitra calatA aura bIca-bIca meM ruka jaataa| dUsare mitra ne pUchA, kyA ApA jUtA taMga hai, ki Apa ThIka se cala nahIM pA rahe? pahalA bolA, hAM, vAkaI jUtA taMga hai| dUsare mitra ne kahA, taba to bar3A kaSTa ho rahA hogA? pahalA bolA, hAM, thor3A to hai hI, para isase lAbha bhI bahuta hai| dUsarA mitra bolA, lAbha! vaha kyA hai? Page 253 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA pahalA mitra bolA, taMga jUtA pahanane se jo kaSTa hotA hai, usase dUsare sabhI kaSTa bhUla jAte haiM! eka se eka majedAra loga haiN| eka se eka unakI tarakIbeM haiM! taMga jUtA pahane hue haiM, aura kaSTa bhUla hI jaaeNge| taMga jUte kA kaSTa itanA hai ki aba aura kaSTa kyA yAda raheMge! cala rahe haiM ghasiTa kara, laMgar3a rahe haiM! loga dukhoM ko bhI pakar3e baiThe haiM, jhUThoM ko bhI pakar3e baiThe haiM! aura itanI bAteM unhoMne kahIM aura unheM jarA bhI saMkoca na AyA ki kyA ve kaha rahe haiM! zAyada soca-vicAra bhI na uThA hogaa| caMdrakAMta bhAratI ne ThIka kiyA ki mujhe ye sArI bAteM likha kara bheja diiN| ye sAre loga jhuThoM meM pale haiN| inake pAsa apanA koI jIvaMta anubhava nahIM hai| saba udhAra hai, saba bAsA hai| totoM kI taraha haiM ye log| ye doharA rahe haiM gItA, kurAna, baaibil| magara apanA koI anubhava nahIM hai| aura jaba taka satya svayaM kA anubhava nahIM ho, taba taka satya satya nahIM hotaa| magara apane jhUTha para bhI ahaMkAra Aropita ho jAtA hai| hamAre jhUTha ko bhI koI tor3a de, to hameM pIr3A hotI hai--hamArA jo thA! aura hamAre sAre cAroM tarapha ke vAtAvaraNa se hameM jhUTha hI sikhAyA jAtA hai| eka vakIla sAhaba ne apane putra ko kAbila vakIla banAne kA nizcaya kiyA thA, isalie use bacapana se hI jhUTha bolanA sikhA rahe the| eka dina putra kI parIkSA lene ke lie vakIla sAhaba ne kahA, beTA, agara tuma merI bAta khatama hote hI phaurana koI zAnadAra jhUTha bolakara dikhAo, to maiM tumheM dasa rupae duuNgaa| abhI to Apa paMdraha rupayA inAma dene ko kaha rahe the--putra turaMta bolaa| dekhA, sIkha gayA! mullA nasaruddIna apane beTe ko rAjanIti kA pATha par3hA rahA thA, usase kahA, beTA, sIr3hI para car3ha jaa| beTA sIr3hI para car3ha gayA--AjJAkArI beTA! aura mullA ne kahA, aba tU beTA, kUda pdd'| maiM tujhe samhAla luuNgaa| beTA thor3A DarA ki kahIM cUka jaae| UMcI siiddh'ii| kahIM bApa ke hAtha se nIce gira jAeM, hAthapaira TUTa jAeM! mullA ne kahA, bephikra rh| are, apane bApa para bharosA nahIM? kUda par3a! thor3A jhijhakA, skucaayaa| mullA ne phira use utsAha dilAyA, so vaha kUda pdd'aa| aura jaba vaha kUdA, to mullA do kadama pIche haTa kara khar3A ho gayA! dhar3Ama se nIce giraa| sira phUTa gayA dIvAla se; paira chila gayA; rone lgaa| mullA ne kahA, cupa! usane kahA, Apa haTa kyoM gae? mullA ne kahA ki aba tU yAda rakha--isa jiMdagI meM apane bApa kA bhI bharosA ThIka nhiiN| yaha pATha tujhe par3hAyA hai beTA! mullA rAjanItijJa hai, apane beTe ko rAjanIti sikhA rahA hai--yahAM apane bApa kA bhI bharosA ThIka nahIM! aisA usane nagada pATha pddh'aayaa| Page 254 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com
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________________ jyoM thA tyoM ThaharAyA yahAM hama jhUThoM meM pAle jA rahe haiM; udhAra dhAraNAeM hama para thopI jA rahI haiM aura hama unako hI Dho rahe haiN| AMkheM aMdhI ho gaI haiM dhAraNAoM meN| hRdaya baMda ho gae haiN| kucha sUjha-bUjha nhiiN| kucha hoza-havAsa nhiiN| ina chaha hI bAtoM meM itanI viparItatAeM haiM, itane virodhAbhAsa haiM ki koI eka vyakti itanI bAtoM eka sAtha kaha sakatA hai, to nizcita hI vikSipta hone kA pramANa detA hai| / hI cAhatA hUM tumase ki tuma sAre pakSapAtoM se mukta ho jaanaa| merI bAteM ko bhI mata pakar3anA, kyoMki merI bAteM pakar3oge, to ve pakSapAta bana jaaeNgii| bAteM hI mata pkdd'naa| tumheM nirvicAra honA hai| tumheM mauna honA hai| tumheM zUnya honA hai| tabhI tumhAre bhItara dhyAna kA phUla khilegaa| aura dhyAna kA phUla khila jAe to amRta tumhArA hai, paramAtmA tumhArA hai| esa dhammo sanaMtano! aura dhyAna kA phUla khila jAe, to rajjaba kI bAta tumheM samajha meM A jAegI: jyUM thA tyUM ThaharAyA! tuma vahIM Thahara jAoge, to tumhArA svabhAva hai| svabhAva meM thira ho jAnA isa jagata meM sabase bar3I upalabdhi hai| Aja itanA hii| dasavAM pravacana; dinAMka 20 sitaMbara, 1980; zrI rajanIza Azrama, pUnA Page 255 of 255 http://www.oshoworld.com