Jainendra Kahani 10

Author(s): Purvodaya Prakashan
Publisher: Purvodaya Prakashan
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/010363/1

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jainendra kI kahAniyAM (dasavAM bhAga) ('mahAmahima', viccheda', 'nizzeSa' aura anya kahAniyAM) pUrvodaya prakAzana 8, netAjI subhASa mArga, dillI-6

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prakAzaka mudraka pUrvodaya prakAzana saMcAlaka pUrvodaya prAiveTa si0 8 netAjI subhASa mArga dillI-6 navacetana presa prA. li0, (lIz2iz2a oNpha arjuna presa) nayA bAjAra, dillI-6 1966 jainendra TrasTa cAra rupaye prathama saskaraNa mUlya

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jainendra kI kahAniyAM (dasavAM bhAga)

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mahAmahima 70 nizzeSa 16 yathAvata viccheda muphta prayoga kaSTa hue 65 bekAra jhamelA 73 ye do 66 vedo 6. patra do rAha 110 jInA maranA 120 ulaTaphera 137 cakkara sadAcAra kA 148 vikSepa 138 mukti 166

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prakAzakIya prastuta saMgraha meM sAlaha kahAniyA hai| rocakatA, mAmikatA va tIkSNa Atmaparaka va vastuparaka gahanatA kI dRSTi se yaha kahAnI-saMgraha adbhuta hai / sagraha me vaividhya va kalAtmaka sauSThava ke anAyAsa darzana hote haiM / isase lekhaka kA yaha pratinidhi sakalana hai| kucha atyanta vivAdAspada kahAniyA isame sammilita haiM jinhone bauddhika stara para gambhIra uthala-puthala upasthita kI haiN| pAThako eva sAhitya-zodhako ke lie yaha sakalana samAna rUpa se sagrahaNIya hai /

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mahAmahima 1 upA paricArikA nahI hai / kucha saikreTarI hI samajhie / vahI mahAmahima ke sabere ke nAzte pAnI kI vyavasthA karatI hai / kamare me AI aura dekhakara vaha daMga raha gaI ki mahAmahima baiThe hai / dAhinI bAha kohanI se meja para TikI hai aura ceharA hAtha me thamA hai / vaha grAI thI ki mez2a sApha karegI / cIjeM sahI jagaha cunakara rkhegii| aura taiyArI ho cukane para mahAmahima se kahegI / para aba vaha ThiThakI raha gaI / daravAje para hI socatI raha gaI ki vaha Age baDhe yA vApisa jAya / aisA kabhI nahI huA hai / mahAmahima hamezA udyata prasanna dIkhe hai / yaha to kalpanA se bAhara hai ki vaha apane se Akara isa kamare me baiTheM aura vaha bhI isa taraha ki vebhAna ho aura soca me ho / use khaDe khaDe anucita mAlUma hone lagA aura vaha dabe kadama vApasa jAne ko thI ki mahAmahima ne kahA, "are, " upA uSA stabdha raha gaI / use pahacAnA jAegA, nAma lekara sambodhana se pukArA jAegA, yaha usake lie bahuta adhika thA / mAno vaha jamakara patthara vana AI / "meja sApha karogI ?" ast kaThinAI se usake muha se nikalA, "jI !" "to, karo sApha / " kahakara mahAmahima kursI choDakara khar3e hue aura pIche saraka kara dIvAra se saTa aae| upA buta banI apanI jagaha khaDI raha gaI /

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10 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga "grAno, sApha karo meja / " upA DarI-sI Daga Daga bharatI zraI aura meja ko sApha karane lagI / mahAmahima khaDe dekhate rahe / upA ko mAlUma huA ki usakI pITha para mahAmahima kI nigAha hai| vaha jaise andara simaTatI gii| yaha ekama apratyAzita thA, asambhava thA / "tumhArI mA kI tabiyata aba kaisI hai ?" "jo ?" usane meja se apanA muha nahI uThAyA thA / kaise uThA sakatI thI ? usake mA hai aura vaha bImAra thI / yaha patA mahAmahima ko ho sakA, kyA itanA hI use vismaya - vimUDha karane ke lie kAphI na thA ? " davA kara rahI ho ? kyA davA kara rahI ho ?" "jI ?" isa bAra usane himmata karake mahAmahima kI ora muha pherakara unheM dekhA / mahAmahima kI Akho me paricaya dekhakara use bahuta vismaya huA / balki paricaya se Age bhI kucha thA - cintA thI, karuNA thI / "kyA davA karatI ho ?" "jI, kucha nahI / " " galata bAta hai - mujhe kyo nahI kahA "jI, mA davA nahI letI / " " davA nahI letI !" mahAmahima muskarAe, bole, "DAkTarI davA nahI letI hogI to desI leN| mA kI bImArI para tumane chuTTI kyo nahI le lI ?" y d ''k "jI " " va pahale se zrArAma hai na " jI / " "acchA, to meja sApha karake aura nAztA nipaTAkara jAkara mA ko saMbhAlanA aura thAke mujhe batAnA / "

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mahAmahima upA citra likhI-sI mahAmahima ko dekhatI rhii| use vizvAsa na A rahA thaa| mahAmahima ne kahA, "vasa, ho gaI meja sApha / jo ho aise hI le graao| phira jAo aura mA ko khavara lAkara do|" upA muDI, ekAdha hAtha meja para diyA aura varAvara paiTrI me calI gii| ___mahAmahima ko vakta nahI rahatA / samaya hI aimA hai / deza videza kI samasyAe baDhatI jA rahI haiM / sthiti visphoTaka yA banI hai / antarrASTrIya rAjanIti behada ulajha gaI hai / rASTra netAgo ke ApasI rAga-dveSa sabhAle nahI sabhalate / vaha saba hai / lekina isa vakta upA kI mA kI tabiyata kA savAla jo uname uTha AyA, so unhe baDA acchA mAlUma ho rahA hai / jaise vaha saba mithyA ho aura yaha saca / / __mahAmahima saca hI isa samaya apane Upara vismita hai / bahuta-bahuta kAma hai / saba behada jarUrI hai| unase bacakara ve pAe the aura yahA kursI me ThoDhI ko hAtha me lekara baiTha gae the / phira yahA UpA A gaI aura usakI mA kI bImArI kA dhyAna ho AyA / jAne kaise uDatI-sI bAta kI taraha unheM mAlUma huA thA ki uSA kI mA kI tabiyata ThIka nahI hai / dhyAna dene jaisI vaha bAta na thii| phira bhI ekAeka usakA smaraNa uTha pAyA aura nAgahAnI upA se usakA jikra ho AyA to aba unhe vaDI sArthakatA kA anubhava hone lagA yA / mAno bAkI aura jhamelA ho aura anAyAsa yaha eka sacamuca kI asaliyata bIca me zrA gaI ho| mahAmahima jaise gahare soca me paDa gae / dina rAta vaha deza aura videza meM rahate hai / patnI nahIM hai, koI nahIM hai / veTI hai, vaha bhI vasa hai aura jaise alaga hai / mAno usakA honA Anupagika ho, asalI honA dezo aura videzo kA hI ho / para aba isa choTe se kamare meM Akara dIvAra ke pAsa akele khaDe vaha socane lage ki deza aura videza jo isa samaya miTa gaye hai, so kucha

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jainendra kI pahAniyA dasavA bhAga burA nahIM huA hai / zAyada dina-rAta unakA hI honA bhora rahanA acchI vAta nahI hai / kabhI-kabhI hama tumako bhI honA caahie| abhI vaha khaDe hI the ki upA eka-eka karake cIjeM lAtI gaI aura unake sAmane meja para sajAtI calI gaI / vaha vaiThe nahIM, dekhate hI raha gae / upA sAmAnya-sI lar3akI hai / asundara nahIM hai, para sundara bhI nahI hai| bahuta jyAdA javAna bhI nahIM hai / ullekhanIya kucha bhI usake AsapAsa nahIM hai / para mahAmahima use dekhate raha gae aura unhe apane mana me yaha anubhava vilkula galata nahIM mAlUma huA ki upA hai aura deza-videza nahIM haiM / unhe vaDA acambhA mAlUma humA ki deza-videza ko ulajhane kisa AsAnI se utara kara dUra ho jAtI hai / manupya ko sAmane aura saca banAne kI dera hai ki vAkI phira Apa hI gauNa aura kyA ho AtA hai| sahasA bole, "vasa, basa, upaa| bahuta ho gayA / aba tuma mA ke pAsa jA sakatI ho|" upA cakita-sI bolI, "jI !" "basa aura nahIM cAhie / itane se cala jaaegaa| tuma jaano|" "mA aba ThIka hai|" "ThIka haiM to jAkara merA unhe praNAma denaa|" "jI?" mahAmahima ne ruSTa banakara kahA, "itanA bhI namabhatI nahI ho kyA ?" apanI mA ko jAkara merI tarapha se praNAma kaha denA / aura mujhe saba hAla batAnA / sunA ? samajhI ? basa aba jaano|" upA jA ko sapatI thI / brekaphAsTa kI tihAI bhI taiyArI nahIM ho pAI thI ! kAphI prAI thI aura basa TosTa / isa adhUnepana meM vaha kaise jA sakatI thI? para mahAmahima rAre meM aura vaha kaha cuke the, jAmro / mAno ropa meM unhone kahA thaa| saca kA vaha ropa hotA to vaha TipatI hI kaise ?

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mahAmahima alpAhAra 13 para vaha to kRpA se bhI vaDI karuNA kA thA / isalie aura bhI grAvazyaka thA ki vaha apane karttavya me pradhUrI na rahe / usane isalie mahAmahima kI bAta ko sunA - anasunA kiyA aura upAhAra ke anya padArtha eka-eka kara vaha lAtI calI gaI / mahAmahimakuma kI pITha thAme usI taraha khaDe rahe / dekhate rahe ki upA eka-eka kara padArtha lAtI jAtI hai aura meja para karIne se unhe rakhatI jAnI hai | unhone upA ke kAma me koI vyAghAta nahI upasthita kiyA | jAne vaha kyA socate raha gae / nizcaya hI upA unakI zrAjJA kA ullaghana kara rahI thI / para yaha ullaghana unhe khaTaka nahI rahA thA / unakA mana cintAgo aura vicAro se mAno isa samaya halkA ho rahA thA / vaha mahAmahima hai / isI kA dhyAna unase kho gayA thA / koI hai jo eka-eka kara taraha-taraha kI cIje lAkara meja para rakhatA jA rahA hai / vaha svayaM uname se kisI ko chuegA nahI / usakA kAma sirpha lAnA aura rakha jAnA hai / vaha to koI dUsarA hI hai jo una saba padArthoM kA bhoga pAegA / unhe anokhA laga rahA thA yaha ki vaha dUsarA koI aura nahI, svaya vahI hai / aba taka kabhI unheM yaha nahI sUjhA thA / prakTa thA ki vaha mahAmahima haiM aura dUsare sevaka haiM / ekadama vaidhAnika thA ki dUsare sevA kare aura vaha sevA pAe / lekina ina kSaNo me vaha vaidhAnikatA bIca se jAne kahA uDa gaI thI / eka vyakti ke mAninda hokara kursI kI pITha yAme vaha khaDe raha gae the aura dekhe jA rahe the ki dUsarA vyakti hai jo sahamA DaratA huA sA unake lie eka para eka vyajana aura padArtha vAtA aura yathAvidhi rakhatA jA rahA hai / mAno usakI kRtArthatA basa itane me hI hai / usa astitva kI, kauzala kI, vyaktitva kI dhanyatA isame hai ki vaha svayaM use svIkAre aura bhoga pAe / isa samaya baDA hI manosA laga rahA thA vastuno kA yaha vidhAna aura unheM apanI mahAmahima kI vAta vilkula samajha na yA rahI thI / cIjeM lAI jAtI rahI aura rakhI jAtI rahIM / mahAmahima anta

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jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga taka baiThe nahI / sahasA unhone pAyA ki jo raha-raha kara jA rahA thA, aura lA rahA thA, vaha isa bAra jAkara vApasa nahIM pAyA hai| do eka kSaNa isa para vaha tthhre| phira pukArA, "uSA!" upA ava jAne kI taiyArI me thI / mahAmahima kI isa naI avasthA ko dekhakara usane apanA kAma kucha sakSipta avazya mAna liyA thaa| arthAt kaoNphI DhAlakara kapa svaya taiyAra karake dene kI AvazyakatA usane Aja nahI mAnI thii| yaha bhI use yAda A rahA thA ki AjJA ho cukI hai, use mA ke pAsa jAnA cAhie / tabhI usane pukAra sunI aura vaha upasthita huii| mahAmahima ne kahA, "yahA baiTho aura eka kapa aura le paayo|" upA avizvasta banI sI khaDI raha gii| "sunA nahIM, eka kapa aura le paayo|" uSA kApa pAI aura hila na skii| "kahA yaha hai ki jAkara kapa laao|" mAno karatA hI thI mahAmahima ke zabdo me / upA gaI aura kapa le AI / aura prAkara phira khar3I ho gii| "kahatA hUM baiTho yahA / mere lie kapa vnaayo| aura apane lie bhii|" sacamuca isame kahA daNDa usake lie dUsarA na ho sakatA thaa| vaha vandI kI bhAti prAjA para kAma karane lgii| "kyo, mA kA rayAla pA rahA hai ? kahA thA tava nahIM jA skii| va kAphI khatma karake hI jAnA ho skegaa|" upA ghabarA rahI thii| mahAmahima ko bhI dhyAna pAne lagA thA vidhAna kI maryAdA kA / karmacArI-gaNa idhara-ughara yA nikaleMge / ve vayAnIcege? upA to isa vicAra meM apane bhItara maratI hI jA rahI thii| lekina mahAmahima usa vicAra para andara hI andara tanika aura utsAhita ho paae|

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mahAmahima 15 "kyA ghavarAhaTa hai ? mA koI mara nahI jaaegii|" kahakara mahAmahima ne apane hAtho se upA ke lie dUsarA kapa banAyA / yaha prAvazyaka isalie bhI ho gayA thA ki bAhara ke daravAje para eka baTalara dIkhAyA thA / kapa vanAkara mahAmahima ne use Age baDhAkara kahA, "lo / " yaha to hada hI thI / upA isa para uThI aura ekadama Dara kI mArI bhAgatI huI-sI vahA se calI gaI / mahAmahima muskarAkara raha gae / soca uThe ki nahI, zrAdamI hI paraspara saca nahI hai | mAlUma hotA hai dUsarI vAte bhI saca hai / phijUla kI vAte, deza-videza jaisI bAte ! janavarI, '65

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lihhiitb daravAje para dera taka thapathapAhaTa hotI rahI to zAradA ghuTano para hAtha dekara utthii| daravAjA kholA to dekhA murArI Ae haiN| "namaste bhAbhI / " "prAo murArI " kamare me Akara baiThe to murArI ne kahA, "bhAI sAhaba pAe hai-" zAradA ne uttara me kucha nahIM khaa| usake cehare para se bhI kucha prakaTa nahI huaa| "-zAma pAe the, tabhI ivara pAne ko kaha rahe the| lekina... unakI tabIyata ThIka nahIM hai|" zAradA cupa hI banI rhii| murArI para jora paDA / phira bhI vaha kahatA hI calA gayA "khAsI hai / tIna mahIne se, batAte hai, khAsI kA ThasakA cala hI rahA hai / mujhe to hAlata acchI nahIM mAlUma hotI / 'bhAbhI, aba pIche kI bAte-" zAradA ne dono hAtho se ghuTanoM para phira jora diyA aura mAno uThane ko huI / bolI, "cAya lAtI hU tumhAre lie|" nahI bhAbhI, nahI / takallupha kI bAta nahIM hai / vaha mere sAtha hI A rahe the| maiMne rokakara kahA ki pahale maiM dekha AU / ' bhAbhI, unake mana me pachatAvA hai|" "kisa bAta kA pachatAvA?" "bItI vAto ko bhulA do, bhAbhI / do tarapha jindagI vakhAra hotI

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nizzeSa 17 rahe, isase kucha phAyadA hai ? bhAI ava pahale se badala gae hai|" ___ zAradA ne kahA, "tumhAre bhAI hai-tumhAre pAsa nahIM raha sakate ? mai kauna raha gaI hU jo yahA AyeMge ? murArI, tuma loga unhe sabhAla lo| unakA cauthApana hai to kyA merA nahI hai ? jAnA to mujhe cAhie thA sahAre ke lie unakI tarapha / vaha cale bhI jAe, to unhe vayA? lekina maiM to akelI nahI hU aura apane bAla-bacco ko jaise banA maiMne sabhAlA hai| naukarI kara rahI hU aura jI rahI hU / ava merI zAnti me, meharavAnI kareM, vighna na ddaale| vacco ke lie bhI maiMne unakI tarapha nahI dekhA hai| maiM jAnatI hU, ye pandraha barasa kaise kasAle ke mere gae hai / maiM to tuma logo ke ghara se nikalI huI hai| phira mujhe kyo pUchA jAtA hai ? unase kaha denA, saba ThIka hai| yahA Ane kI, takalIpha uThAne kI koI jarurata nahI hai|" "bhAbhI, itanA kaThora nahIM honA caahie|" "tuma bhI mujhe doSa doge murArI ? to kaThora hI shii| mai apanI vipadA lekara to kisI ke yahA nahIM gaI / basa, itanA karo tuma loga ki meharavAnI kro| aura jaise choDA hai, vaise hI mujhe apanI kismata para chUTI rahane do / maiM aura kucha nahI mAgatI huuN|" "to bhAbhI, saca yaha hai ki bhAI sAhaba nIce hI khaDe hai / " "nIce ?" "kucha unhe bhI jhijhaka thii| kucha maine bhI kahA ki jarA dekhe pAtA "to unhe nIce hI se le jAyo / dekho, merA dina na kharAva kro|" lekina zAradA ko nahIM mAlUma thaa| usakI pITha thI daravAje kI tarapha / para murArI ne apane bhAI rAmazaraNa ko jhAkate vahA dekha liyA thA aura izArA kara diyA thA ki Ae nahI, tthhre| vaha bolA-"unakI naukarI chUTa gaI hai bhAbhI ! mahIne bhara se puSkara me the / soco tumhI ki kahA jAege ? mere pAsa kaba taka raha sakate

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jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga haiM, yA mere choTe bhAI ke pAsa ? tuma bhI yahA akelI ho, vaha ughara vehAla hai / pandraha sAla bahuta ho gayA, bhAbhI / ava gussA thUka do aura pahalI vAto ko bhUla jaayo|" ___"bhUla gaI hU murArI | vilkula bhUla gaI hU / kaha denA unase ki yaha bhI bhUla gaI hai ki vyAha huA thaa|" "bhAbhI " "mujhe taga na karo murArI, jaano|" "maiM abhI AyA, bhaabhii|" kahakara murArI uThA aura kamare se bAhara AyA ! vAhara rAmazaraNa ko saketa kiyA ki vaha jIne se philahAla utara jAe, itane vaha Akara khavara degA / rAmazaraNa ke cupacApa jIne se kucha kadama utara ke cale jAne para murArI andara AyA aura kahA, "praya kho|" zAradA ne kahA, "vaha daravAje para pAe saDe the na ?" "hA, maiMne unako nIce bheja diyA hai / 'bhAI sAhaba para bhAbhI aApakA gussA ho sakatA hai / maiMne to gunAha nahIM kiyA hai| mujhe maukA diyA hotaa|" ___"murArI" "bhAbhI, Apa jAnatI haiM ki giristI me mujhe eka kSaNa kA sukha nahI milA hai| hara samaya kA kleza aura kalaha ! Apake rUpa ne bhAbhI, mere mana me kyA jagaha le rakhI hai, kaise batAU ? kabhI nahI vahA, Aja kahatA hU, jaba bhAI sAhaba ko maiMne khuda hI jIne se utAra diyA hai ki " ___ zAradA hasI / bonI, "mere rUpa kI yaha pUjA tumheM aba yAda mAI "nahI bhAbhI / pahale dina se jaba tuma ghara me AI, maine tumheM devI kI jagaha rakha kara pUjA hai|" hama kara zAradA ne kahA, "pUjA hai na ? basa, aba bhI pUjate raho aura jaayo|"

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nizzepa "bhAbhI ?" "jAgro-" murArI ne jAnA nahI cAhA / jAne kaba kI sAdha thI aura AzA me vaha TUTanA nahIM cAhatA thaa| bhAbhI kI muskurAhaTa ne ekAeka use sIcakara hariyA diyA thA aura murArI ciTakA raha gyaa| usakI Akho me jAne kyA bhara AyA thaa| cAha to thI lekina usake mada ke sAtha jAne kaisI eka vinamratA aura kAtaratA mila pAI thii| mAno eka sAtha vaha TUTa paDanA cAhatA ho / bhItara apane me aura bAhara usa nArI pr| zAradA ne isa murArI ko dekhA / vaha phira bhI hasI / hasI me veda tIkhI dhAra thii| vaha AdamI kI AzAo ko eka sAtha bhItara taka kATatI calI gaI / usane kahA, "murArI | tuma cale jaao|" anantara murArI eka zabda nahIM bolA / cupacApa vahA se calA gyaa| zAradA pIDhe para baiThI thI / ghuTane para hAtha dekara vaha utthii| usane bhItara behada klAnti anubhava kii| jaise bahuta thaka gaI ho aura jInA vasa bhAra ho / uThakara usane bAhara jIne kA daravAjA vanda karane kI bhI cintA nahI kI aura varAvara viche palaga para ekadama leTa gaI / vadana ke joDo me darda mAlUma hone lagA thA aura vaha Upara sUnI chata me jAne kisa vindu ko Taka bAdhe dekhatI raha gaI thii| kucha isI acetAvasthA me usane jIne se caDhate hue Dago kI AhaTa sunI / use kucha bhaya-sA mAlUma huA / lekina vaha uTha nahI skii| vaisI kI vaisI leTI hI raha gii| thoDI hI dera me murArI aura rAmazaraNa dono calate hue kamare me aae| jaise kSaNa bhara usane kisI ora dekhA nahI, usa chata meM hI dekhatI raha gii| usane uThane kI cintA na kI / vaha bAhaTa se hI samajha gaI thI ki AnevAle kauna haiN| eka alasa virakti meM mAno samajhane ke bAda bhI use kucha karane yA mocane kI sudha na huii| usame eka daharAta vyApa

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jainendra kI kahAniyA darAvA gAga rahI thI jo mAno isa virakti se mila kara jama pAI aura usako jaDa banAtI jA rahI thii| murArI ke sAtha rAmazaraNa thoDI dera Ae saDe rahe / phira jora me bole, "yaha kyA phaile macA rakhA hai ?" nahI, sambhava nahIM huA / kAyA sthirIbhUta, nizcala, nizcetana nahIM raha sakI / vaha eka jhaTake se palaga para uThakara baiTha pAI aura dhotI ko mAthe ke jarA mAge liyaa| kahA, "vaitthie|" rAmazaraNa nahI baiThe / aura murArI bhI unake pAsa saThe rahe / palaga se unakI dUrI do vAlizta kI na hogii| vaha sirahAne kI tarapha saDe the / zAradA uThakara baiThI to tanika pAyate kI tarapha ho pAI thii| yaha bhara diyA thA, 'vaiThiye'-lekina nigAha ko moDakara udhara dekhane kA kaSTa usane apane ko nahIM diyA thaa| aba dhotI kI kinAra ko jaga mAye ke Age lAkara umane akampa svara se kahA, "baiTho muraariivaitthie|" "koI yahA vaiThane ko nahIM pAyA hai / " rAmazaraNa ne teja hokara kahA, "murArI | tuma jAno, TaiksI lAyo / 'aura sunatI ho tuma ! do minaTa me taiyAra ho jAno tumhe sAtha calanA hai / vahuta ho liyA yaha harajAyIpana / ava vadamAgI nahI clegii|" murArIlAla calA gayA thA / zAradA ne jarA prAva Upara karake rAmazaraNa ko desA / rAmagaraNa kI AkhoM meM agni thii| vaha kucha dera dekhatI rhii| aba usame dahazata nahIM rahI / masTa taba taka hI thA ki jara dUra thA / ava bilkula pAma pAne para mAno vahI eka nizcaya pIra sphati ke udaya kA kAraNa bana gayA thaa| usane svara ko bharanaka thAma phara kahA, "khaDe pyo ho / baiTha jaanii|" / "koI jarUrata nahIM hai baiThane ko, aura jaThAra tuma do minaTa tayAra naIto......" "kucha lAe ho-namaMcA vagairaha "

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nizzepa 21 rAmagaraNa ne kahA, "yaha hAtha kAphI hai / kyo, pahalI mAra bhUla gaI ?" zAradA baiThI-baiThI muskurAI / usake bhavo me tevara the / bolI, "vAravAra tumhe mArane kA kaSTa uThAnA paDegA--agara jItI rahane doge / eka vAra me khatama kyo nahI kara dete ?" "khatama hI karanA hogA, eka bAra / abhI yahA se calanA hogaa|" "kahA le calogo ?" "vaiThI-baiThI bAteM na karo, khaDI ho jAno / jahA maiM rahUgA, vahA tuma rhogii|" rahatI to thI / nikAlA tamhI ne nahI thA ?" "nikAlA thA, maine hI nikAlA thaa| isaliye nikAlA thA ki tuma ghara ke lAyaka nahIM thii| lekina aba dekhatA hU~ ki pati kA kartavya utanA hI nahI hai / ghara kI rakSA ke lie tumhe nikAlA thaa| para dekhatAhU vaha tumhe aura maukA dene ke barAvara ho gyaa| hada ho gaI hai tumhAre harajAI. pane kii| tuma samajhatI ho tuma gulachare uDAne ke lie ho / nahIM, tumhArA vAha hunA hai / aura puzcalI vyabhicAriNI ko ghara me rakhane kA dharma agarace, nahIM hai to bhI aba maine pahacAna liyA hai ki pati hokara maiM tumhe usa AvAragI ke rAste para baDhate jAne kA pApa ava nahI saha sktaa| Aja samajha lo, tumhArI badamAziyo kA anta A gayA hai|" ___ zAradA muskarAI / bolI, "murArI kahatA yA, naukarI chUTa gaI hai|" "tujhe isI kA gumAna hai, badakAra, ki tU vI0 e0 ela-TI0 hai aura naukarI para vahAla hai ! aurata kI jindagI khAvinda ke sAtha hai| aura vaha bhIkha mAgegA to bhI aurata ko usakI sevA karanI hai| vyAha paise se hotA hai ki marda se hotA hai? calo uThatI ho ki nahI ?" ___zAradA ne kahA, "mujhe irA vakta paune cAra sau mila rahA hai| dillI vaDI jagaha hai / dUToge to tumhe bhI kAma mila jaaegaa| yahI kyo nahI raha jAte ?"

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22 jainendra kI kahAniyA damavAM bhAga "yaha kyA kaha rahI ho tuma ?" "ThIka kaha rahI hai| dillI me kAma dekhate rahanA / kahAM isaraudhara jAte ho / banAyo, isa vIca kucha bavAyA hai tumane ? na vacco ko bucha de sake ho / tana bhara pAlA hai, so to yahA bhI ho hI jaaegaa|" "maiM yahA raha sakatA hU ?" "kyo nahIM raha sakate ho|" "murArI to kahatA thA ki " "tumane murArI ko adhikAra diyA hai ki-tamhArI jagaha vaha mere sAya .." "kyA baka rahI ho?" "-magara zarta hai ki tuma AdamI banakara ho / raha rahakara jo tuma upadezaka aura vahazI banA karate ho, so nahIM clegaa|" "tumane samajhA kyA hai apane ko ? vakavAma banda kro| aura tayAra ho jaayo| koI nokarI-vaukarI nahIM hogii| aura jaise maiM rahUgA aura kahagA, vaise tumhe rahanA aura karanA hogA / garma nahIM AtI tumhe ki maiM khaDA ha, aura tuma baiTho batalA rahI ho?" zAradA palaga para apanI jagaha se bhI aba baDI nahIM huI aura muskarAkara kahA, "abhI murArI ke yahA tuma le jAyoge-zamaM kI bAta yaha hai / maiM vahA nahI jaauugii|" ___ "choDo, na sahI / murArI vaise apanA hai aura mautavira hai| lekina koI bAta nahIM / sIve mere sAtha calo, jypur|" "jayapura / " "mAlika loga aba bhI cAhate haiN| naukarI maine apane meM chor3I thii| "rAmU kahA hai ? paca AegA?" "vaha to gAma po nAta-pATha taka pAtA hai| sAta mIna jAnA paratA hai| bar3I munila se nAla bhara bhaTakane para naukarI lagI hai !"

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nizzeSa 23 "to - vaha yahA rahegA / " " savA do sau use milatA hai| utane me dillI me kaise raha legA ?" "na hogA, hama kucha bheja diyA karege / aura basa aba tuma uTha jAo / " zAradA ne baiThe hI baiThe kahA, "agara maiM na uThu to ?" rAmazaraNa ne pajA kholakara dikhAyA aura jatalA diyA ki na uThane kA matalaba kyA ho sakatA hai / zAradA kI muskarAhaTa isa para aura bhI kaTIlI ho AI / usakI citavana mAno rAmazaraNa ko ghAyala karane lagI / mAno usa citavana me varjana kI jagaha AmaMtraNa ho / zAradA bolI, "mujhe khar3e hone ko kahate ho / acchA thA tumhI baiTha jAte / " usa citavana kI bhASA kA apane mana ke anusAra artha paDhakara rAmazaraNa ne kahA, "murArI TaiksI lA rahA hai / " "lAne do| murArI usame baiThakara calA bhI jaaegaa| phikara kyA hai / " "zAradA / " " murArI kA tuma bharosA karate ho / " "tuma saca kaha rahI ho ?" "mai tumhAre bharose ko toDanA nahI cAhatI / lekina " " "mAne do usa kamvasta ko !" zAradA mana hI mana hasI / bolI, "yaha tumhAre vaha bhAI hai jinake pIche tumane mere sAtha jAne kyA badasalUka nahI kiyA / " "mujhe pahale kyo nahI batAyA -- khUna pI jAtA usakA / " " ava bhI kahA batAyA hai ? vaha to bAta me bAta A gaI / aura batAyA isaliye nahI thA ki mujhe apane para bharosA thA, aura hai / tumhI

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jainendra kI pahAniyA dasavA bhAga ho ki unheM apanA AdhAra mAnate ho|" itane meM murArI TenasI lekara A gyaa| rAmazaraNa ne kahA, "murArI | TaiksI me jAno aura merA sAmAna yahI le aayo| maiM nahI samajhatA thA-" murArI kamare meM Akara zramamajasa meM khar3A raha gayA thaa| mAndA palaga para baiThI thI aura rAmagaraNa saDe the| gAradA ne kahA, "vaiTho, muraarii| aura tuma bhI baiTho na / ainI jaldI kyA hai sAmAna kI ?" ___ "tuma cupa raho / * 'murArI, jAyo / mujhe aisI aAzA na cI tumase , maiM yahI tthhrgaa| sabhI sAmAna merA lekara pA jaano|" / __ murArI panlaga jyAde dUra nahIM thaa| zAradA ne hAtha baDhAkara use bAha ne pakar3A aura usI palaga para biThAte hue kahA, "tuma bhI baiTha kyoM nahIM jAte ho, kurmI para / aura murArI, inakI bAta para mata jaanaa| kyo, sAmAna lAnA hI hai ? meM phira jAkara le paauugii|" "nahI / murArI ko jAne do|" "to acchA murArI, TamI le jaayo| do ghaNTe bAda nAnA / sAmAna phira dekhA jaaegaa|" murArI ne jAne se pahale rAmagaraNa ko denaa| rAmadAraNa tu kI taraha rADe rahe / mAno unakI anumati hai / mugage kucha dera anamajA meM rahA aura phira calA gyaa| rAmazaraNa kucha dera mAye me tevara mAle gare hI hai| phira vApara palaga para baiTha gaye / mAgdA jarA para haTa gii| "nayo, panA vAra hai ?" "tuma-payA cAha rahe the ?" "yaha ThIka nahIM hai hama logo kA praga rahanA / daga jane dagAta pahale haiM / aura baccoM para burA bhagarA hai|" bhAradA ne de| yaha unakA pati hai| umasA mana andara jana

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nizzepa 25 rahA thA / aura nigAha usakI kaThina thI / bolI, "paDa cukA asara jo paDanA thaa| vacce aba baDe ho gae haiN| dasa jano ke kahane kI phikara karate ho ! tumane kyA-kyA kahA hai, vaha yAda nahI karate ?" "choDo una bAto ko|" kahate hue rAmazaraNa jarA udhara sarake / zAradA pare haTa gaI / bolI, "Age na baDhanA " "kyA matalaba ?" "matalava apane se puucho|" "aura murArI ko vAha pakaDakara pAsa viThA liyA thA !...'' "hA, viThA liyA thA / dasa bAra vitthaauugii| para khavaradAra tuma . " rAmazaraNa kA usa strI se vivAha huyA thaa| sAta bhAvareM par3I thii| phira yaha usakI himmata | tejI se vAha vaDhAkara usane zAradA kI kalAI ko pakaDa liyaa| zAradA usake lie eka sAtha atyanta kamanIya aura bhartsanIya ho AI thii| hAtha kA chUnA thA ki eka jhaTake se zAradA ne apanI bAha chuDA lI, "khavaradAra | jo hAtha lgaayaa|" rAmazaraNa ne dAta pIsakara kahA, "moha | pArasA banatI hai| badajAta, chinAla kahI kii|" aura kahate hue phira unhone hAtha pheNkaa| zAradA tejI-se palaga se haTa gaI / bolI, "mai chinAla shii| para tuma mujhe nahI chU skte|" ____ "tujhe ' tujha harajAIna ko / chue tujhe to pApa lge| taine apane ko samajhA kyA hai ?" zAradA hasa AI / kaTIlI vaha hasI thI / bolI, "yahI kahatI hUM ki pApa lagegA, chUnA mt|" rAmazaraNa palaga ke sirahAne ke karIba the| zAradA pAyate se jarA haTa kara khaDI huI thii| usakI Akho me cunautI thI aura rAmazaraNa kI nigAha meM cAhata aura napharata kI jhulasa thii| "tU apane ko sUbasUrata samajhatI hai| isI gumAna ne tujhe vahakA

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jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAra, diyA hai| para'... " "mai kucha hU, para tuma chU nahIM skte|" "mai chU nahI sakatA ? mai terI boTI-coTI gara rAbatA huuN| para chinAla, saba vatA, tene mujhe rokA kyo ?" "maine nahI ropaa|" "aba ye nakhare / -maiM tujhe samajha luugaa|" "to muno ! isalie rokA thA ki maiM tumane akele meM bhugata lenA cAhatI thI / murArI ke sAmane svArI nahIM cAhatI thii| mAna bolakara suna lo| yaha garIra tumhe aba kabhI nahIM milegaa| eka daphe nahIM, dasa daphe vaha cukI hU / phira zamaM nahIM pAtI tumhe ki lAra TapapAte pAte ho| bhagavAna ke ghara meM nyAya hai, to tumhe miTTI kI aurata nahIM milegii| aurata ke mana ghoDe hI hotA hai / tuma samabhate ho mana tumhAre hI hai| jo bhugatA hai, mai hI jAnatI huuN| koI aura hotI to zapala na dekhtii| ghara taka meM kadama na rasane detii| para tuma to garama nATa gaye ho / gAlaga hai tumheM ki tumhAre bacce choTe se pale haiM ? aura una vagata tuma upadezapa naTe hue the| insAna ko jInA hotA hai aura jilAnA hotA hai| pahalA pharja vaha hai, tuma pharja ko stiAva meM prora gAstara meM TAle rahe / Upara se baiTha kara gAliyA dete rahe aura pavara nahIM lI ki jiyA jA rahA hai to pisa vidhi jiyA jA rahA hai| jIne meM premA lagatA hai| tumane ma mAyA ? pAbhI kucha liyA? panI gacha diyA ? basa dene kI nIti ke upadeza rahe, jo unhI se peTa bharanA ho / aura papaDe unhIM ko pATa-pATa para bana jAte ho| tumheM isalie maiMne gaMgA ki prAgine vAra suna lo ki tuma jAyo adhyAgama me aura parama meM rmoN| aura jagaha-jagaha jAke upadeza hAvA pro| hamako hamAre bhAga para chora do| koI patA namI nahIM mAgatA, koI tuma para cobhA nahIM bnegaa| beTiyA gaI hana mA-beTe jaisA hogA raha leNge| tumAre prAga mosAtha pasAra nahIM mAyagA | maiMne eka mahA yA ri dillI meM mucha yAma-dhAma dekha lo

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nizzeSa aura sAtha meM kharcA jyAde nahI lagegA / para vaha nahI hogA / yahA. dillI me tumhe naukarI mila jAe, cAhe kitanA hI tuma pAne lago, mujhe usase koI matalaba nahI honevAlA hai / maiM sAtha nahI rahUgI, nahI rahUgI, nahI rahUgI / maiM harajAI hU, chinAla hU, vesavA hU, para marate-marate tumase kucha kahane nahI grAUgI / anta samaya hai / merI zAnti me tuma vidhana mata DAlo / tumhArA jahA mana lagatA ho, dharma ke sthAno me, tIrthoM me jAke tuma bhI zAnti se raho / aura samajha lenA koI zAradA thI to vaha mara gaI / " rAmazaraNa sunate raha gae the / guma aura suma anta me bole " tumhe mere sAtha calanA hai / " "nahI calanA hai " kahatA hU, calanA hai / " "nahI, nahI calanA hai / " "nahI calanA hai -- nahI hI calanA hai kahate-kahate rAmazaraNa taDita vega se Age baDhe aura zAradA ke gAlo para jora se cATA jaDa diyA / EYn " - 27 zAradA kA gAla cATe kI coTa para tamatamA AyA / lekina usame krodha nahI huA / vaha jhujhalAI bhI nahI / eka hAtha ] zranAyAsa usakA apane coTa khAye hue gAla para calA gayA aura mAno tanika muskarAtI huI bolI, "sAtha lAza ko le caloge ? lAza saDegI, kAma na zrayagI / " rAmazaraNa ne kahA, "maiM thUkatA hU tujha para aura terI lAga para / cadajAta, raDI " aura sacamuca rAmazaraNa ne halaka se thUka nikAla kara zAradA para thUka diyA aura teja kadamo se muDakara vaha jInA utarate cale gaye / zAradA ne ghotI ke palle se apanA muha pochA / zIzA lekara gAla kI coTa kA nizAna dekhA aura santoSa kI sAsa lI / jaise bacI ho aura jItI ho / janavarI 65

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yathAvata jagatpa maiTrika kI parIkSA meM prathama zreNI meM pAsa humA / manoramA go yaha sunakara sukha hunA / para bahuta jaldI yaha cintA meM par3a gyii| manoramA eka prAimarI skUla meM adhyApiyA hai| mahIne gA use pahacattara rapayA milatA hai / isa kasya ne eka hAI skUla bhI hai aura vahIM se jagarUpa ne maiTrika piyA hai / yaha to jaise-taise cala gyaa| manoramA sobatI thI ki maiTrika par3ha lene ke bAda yahI pisI kAma-dhandhe meM laga lagA jAyagA / ugane kucha logo se isa bAre meM pahanara bhI rakhA thaa| lekina use Dara thA / jagarUpa paTane meM teja thA aura manoramA goTara magA rahatA thA ki agara maiTrika me vaha bahuta acche nambarga me pAra hayA go phira kyA hogA? vara cAhegA ki Age paDhe, pAyada mAsTara loga bhI cAheMge / suda unake mana meM bhI yahI hogA ki prAge pada para paramAge paDhanA hogA kase? apane pAro tarapha desanI thI pora yaha Tara usase dara nahI honA thaa| bAraha naudaha sAla se nana nakhe meM akelI rahatI hai aura mAsTarI pharanI hai| mame vizeSa avinA nahI hotI hai aura prAnadhAma logo meM unake lie acche bhAva / / para mayane to kucha nahI hotA saba me hai| aura paMge yA gavAla pAne para nAge tarapha zolakara mana usapA kA ha jAnA hai| jagarapa ne apane pAra hone pI gabarI mI apanI mA go sunaaii| Ane se papane aramAna bhI batalAe ki meM yaha mAleja me jAegA, bI0 e0 maregA, ema0 emgaa| pIra gA tuma dudha piyarana paro / gunAra mA uga salone jagarUpa mo deganI dI / bolata

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yathAvata kyA ? phikara kA pahADa mAno usake sira para pA TUTA thA / yahI kahI, kasve me, kAma-dhandhe me, laga jAtA to cintA miTatI / pharsTa klAsa pAsa huA hai, to usakA haka hai ki kAleja kI soce / kAleja yahA kahA varA hai ? aura yaha jAnA cAhatA hai ilAhAvAda / ilAhAbAda kI jagarUpa ne baDI mahimA batAyI thI / jarUra ilAhAbAda kI paDhAI UcI aura baDhiyA hotI hogii| para ilAhAvAda ? yaha saba bhAva manoramA ke dekhane me thA / jagarUpa kaisA honahAra lagatA hai / saca vaha mA ke sakaTa kATegA / lekina ilAhAbAda ? vahA ke kAleja kI paDhAI ?? usane kahA, "maiM Age tujhe kaise pA sakatI hU, beTA ? bAhara to kharcA bahuta hogaa|" ___ "kharcA to hogA mA / para Age kI bhI to soco ki beTA tumhArA UcA aphasara banegA aura phira koI kaSTa tumako nahI hone degaa|" utane Age kI manoramA nahI socatI hai, so nhii| kitanA sukha hogA use ki beTA aphasara hogA aura mA ghara me rAja kregii| para mana vahA jAkara aise ramatA hai jaise sapanA ho / Akha khulane para vaha ekadama dUra ho jAtA hai aura mAlUma hotA hai ki usakA na socanA hI acchA hai / "maiM to kara nahI sakatI hU "vaz2Iphe me terA nAma nahIM AyA hai ?" "nahI, do pojIzana kama raha gae hai|" "aura bhI to loga vaz2Iphe diyA karate hai ? koziza kara dekha / " "vaha to kara rahA hU mA / lekina kahate haiM siphAriza caahie|" "tere mAsTara loga siphAriza nahI kara deMge?" "vaha to saba karane ko taiyAra haiM, lekina kahate haiM ki siphAriza bar3I caahie|" "to phira ? agale sAla dekhA jaaygaa| maine yahA una phIcara vAlo me kaha kara rakhA hai / tIna-cAra mahIne to kAma sIkhanA hogA, phira ve kucha dene laga jAyeMge / aimeM bahuta hI paDhanA cAhe to paisA jamA / maine yahA jhAlanA hogA.

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jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavAM bhAga karake Age par3ha bhI sakate ho tuma / " jagarUpa ne kahA, "acchA / " lekina mare mana se yaha 'acchA' usane kahA thaa| manoramA na jAnatI ho so nahI, para kyA kara sakatI thii| saca pUcho to beTe kA mana jitanA girA thA, usase kahI gaharAI me usakI mA kA mana jA pahucA thaa| usako apanI vevasI isa vakta bahuta hI cubha rahI thii| apanA atIta usake lie saba vyatIta ho cukA thaa| para isa hAlata me vahI ukhaDa-ukhaDa kara usake sAmane Ane lagA aura usame se nAnA sabhAvanAmo kI cinagAriyA bhI camaka detI huI phaTane lagI / para vaha saMbhAvanAe jaba thI, taba thii| aba to sava sapATa ho gayA hai aura Age kucha bhI nahI hai| jagarUpa 'acchA' kahakara vahA se calA gayA thaa| mA mana mAre baiThI raha gaI thii| atIta usase kaTa cukA hai| jagarUpa ko use dekara vaha svaya miTa gayA hai / lekina kyA miTa ho gayA hai ? jagarUpa ke bAhara kyA usakA kucha bhI aba vartamAna nahIM hai| usakI smRtiyA jAtI haiM aura lauTa Akara sirpha usako matha kara raha jAtI haiN| aise dina nikalate gae / jagarUpa kA hasanA-khelanA banda ho gyaa| jyAdAtara ghara se bAhara hI rahatA / ghara me dIkhatA to udAma aura malina / vaha mA se kucha na rahatA thA / lekina eka-eka dina vaha gina rahA thA aura usakI nigAha meM vaha tArIkha thI, jo kAleja ke dAkhile ke lie phArama jAne kI pratima tArIkha thI / usane cupacApa phArama magAkara bar3e sundara akSaro me bhara kara apane pAsa rakhA huyA thA / vaha nirAza to thA lekina idhara bhagavAna kA bharosA bhI usame hone laga gayA thaa| bhagavAna saba kucha kara sakate hai / vilakula ho sakatA hai ki eka dina vaha uThe aura takie ke nIce use phIsa ke pUre spaye rakhe mila jAe ! kyo nahIM ho sakatA hai ? jasta ho sakatA hai / bhagavAna kI kRpA se isase vaDI vaDI bAna huI haiM / yaha to bhagavAna ke lie ekadama jarA mI vAta

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yathAvata hai / bhagavAna kA bharosA usame itanA ho gayA hai ki takie ke nIce roz2a TaTola letA hai / para yaha kyA jarUrI hai ki rupaye takie ke nIce hI rakhe jAe ? isalie dina jAte-jAte vaha idhara-udhara pAle me yA khATa ke pAsa yA khATa ke nIce bhI rupae ke lie dekhane lagA hai / usakI yAda me vaha tArIkha varAvara ubharatI jA rahI hai ki jo dAkhalA phArama ke lie AkhirI hai / use kabhI hotA hai ki bhagavAna ko tArIkha kI yAda na rahI to kaise hogA ? para dhat, ye kaise ho sakatA hai / bhagavAna me bhUla kaise ho sakatI hai ? kamI bhakti me rahe to dUsarI bAta hai| bhagavAna saba jAnate hai aura sabake sahAya hote haiM / maiTrika taka kI paDhAI kama nahIM hotI hai| itane me laDakA acchI taraha jAna sakatA hai ki bhagavAna koI nahIM hote, kahIM nahIM hote / valki yaha jAna to usase pahale bhI ho jAnA cAhie / jagarUpa ko yaha saba mAlUma hai / bhagavAna kA bheda mAlUma hai ki DhakosalA hai| usakA viSaya vijJAna hai ki jisake hAtha me sRSTi kA rahasya hai / phira bhI bhagavAna kyo nahI ho sakate ? mAna lo agara ho, to ? matalaba ki ThIka tArIkha se pahale bhagavAna para bharosA rakhane se vaha cukegA nahI / tArIkha akAratha gaI to phira te hai hI ki kyA saca hai, kyA jhUTha ! ___jagarUpa apane me rahane lgaa| mA se kahane ko usake pAsa mAno ava kucha bacA nahIM hai / usakI takadIra alaga hai aura mA usame kucha nahIM kara sktii| mAM isa sagraha barpa ke jagarUpa ko ekAeka pAnI hai ki vaha usakI samajha se varavasa vAhara ho gayA hai / usakA hAla hI nahIM miltaa| pahale sava taraha kI zikAyate usake pAsa lAyA karatA yA aura tarahataraha ke ulAhane / ava apane me samAyA rahatA hai aura jAne kisa dhuna meM rahatA hai / usake adara isa bAta para eka gaharI udAnI ghara karatI jAtI thI / jaise adara se kucha khokhalA huA jA rahA hai| jaise baravasa usase kucha chInA jA rahA ho / usane kahA- 'jaggI, veTA, itane na ho

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32 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga kucha kAma hI kara lo / mai kahU una logo se ?" "nahI mA, bhagavAna kucha avazya kareMge / " jaggI beTe ne uttara diyA aura vaha mA kI upasthiti se bhaTapaTa alaga ho gayA / manoramA bhagavAna ko mAnatI hai / para kyA vaha sacamuca kucha karate hai ? abhI taka to kucha karate usane unhe dekhA nahI hai / jagarUpa kA, bhagavAna kA bharosA use andara taka kATa gayA / use aisA lagA ki jaise yaha usakA bhagavAna kA bharosA sirpha isakI ghoSaNA hai ki mA kA bharosA to aba kiyA nahI jA sakatA ! manoramA isa para gaharI pIDA se bhara AI aura usakI Akho me AsU A gae / me akelI thI / zrAsU kaba taka bahAtI kisake lie bahAtI ? ata haThAt aura mAno vyastatA ke sAtha idhara kI cIja udhara aura udhara kI ighara uThAne-dharane lagI / isI me usane yaha dekhA, vaha dekhA, aura apane sava Traka-vaksa khola-kholakara banda karane lagI / anta me eka Traka ke Age, usakI cIjo-kapaDo ko uThAte - paTakate ke bIca, vaha vaisI kI vaisI baiThI raha gaI / do-cAra cha-ATha minaTa vaha Traka kA eka hAtha se pallA pakaDe, sAmane avara zUnya me Taka bAdhe vasa dekhatI raha gaI / usakI sudha jAne kahA gaI thI aura vaha samAdhi me ho AI thI / anta me usane Traka kI talahaTI me se eka kAgaja meM lipaTA aura rezamI vina se vadhA paikiTa bAhara nikAlakara apanI goda me rakhA / aura phira behada zrAhistA aura sabhAla ke Traka kA sAmAna Traka me cina diyA / ava usame eka samAhita bhAva thA / mAno avara me pAva kahI Tika Ae ho / nagarapa ke Ane para manoramA ne kahA, "beTA, dAkhilA kava hotA hai ?" ?" jagarUpa ne mA ko dekhA aura prasannatA se kahA, "kyo, mA "kucha nahI, bhAgalapura calanA hogA / "

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yathAvata "bhAgalapura ?" "hA, vakhata derA ke batA ki rela kaba-kaba jAtI hai ? aura le yaha z2arA do TikaTa vahA ke le aa|" __jagarUpa ne phira mA ko dekhA / bhAgalapura dUra jagaha hai aura kAphI kharcA hogaa| bhAgalapura kA kabhI usane jikra nahIM sunA hai--phira yaha mA ko kyA huA hai ? lekina usakI mA ke cehare para kucha vaha thA ki jisake Age prazna kA avakAza nahI raha jAtA hai / ___ vaha rela me jA rahA hai aura use kucha nahI mAlUma hai / mA cupa hai aura eka zabda nahI bolatI hai / usane bAra-bAra prazna kiyA hai aura mA ne mAno sunA taka nahI hai / mA kI dRSTi sthira hai aura usame koI gati nahIM hai / jagamohana apane sAmAna me phArama vagairaha letA AyA hai / usake mana me hai ki bhagavAna kAma kara rahA hai| bhagavAna ke ajava Dhaga hai / lekina mA ko dekhakara use sazaya hone lagatA hai ki saba ThIka hai ki nhiiN| mA se eka bhI zabda pAnA usake lie sabhava nahI huA hai / yaha saba usake mana ko hilA detA hai| use Age paDhanA hai aura jarura paDhanA hai / lekina mA ko kyA huA hai ? bhAgalapura gADI vaDe vevakta pahucI thI / rAta ko utara kara mAveTe musAphirakhAne me so gae aura sabere uThane para mA ne kahA, ki beTA tuma sAmAna ke sAtha hI sAvadhAnI se rahanA / yaha paise lo, kucha khA-pI lenA / mai abhI thoDI dera me AtI hai| ___mA kI vahI mudrA thI aura jagarUpa kucha bhI unase pUcha nahI skaa| pUrA dina abhI nahIM nikalA thA aura mA pAva-paidala usake sAmane se baDhatI calI gaI aura vaha unheM dekhatA sAmAna ke sAtha baiThA raha gayA ! manoramA ne kucha dUra calane para rikzA liyA aura pUchatI huI vaha soce bhAgalapura ke DisTrikTa majisTreTa ke baMgale para pahucI / vahA usako praveza to mila sakA lekina mAlUma huA ki sAhaba ko DeDha-do ghaTA laga

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34 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga sakatA hai, abhI baiThanA hogA / manoramA barAmade me jo sTUla batAyA gayA, usa para zAnti ke sAtha baiThakara intajAra karane lagI / Ajakala anizcita dina hai aura zAsana ko kasA rahanA paDatA hai / varmA sAhaba yU bhI parAyaNa aura yogya samajhe jAte haiN| vaha kAphI savere uTha jAte hai aura taiyAra hokara meja para zrA jAte haiM / zrAte hI eka kapa cAya kA lekara do DhAI ghaMTe taka lagAtAra kAma karate hai / isa kAma ke bIca unhe vyAghAta pasanda nahI hotA / isIlie kahalA diyA gayA ki Deu ghaTA laga sakatA hai | lekina bIca meM ghaTI bajAkara prardalI se unhone pUchA, "Ae hai jo sAhaba, baiThe hai na ? unhe koI jaldI to nahIM hai ?" "jI, nahI baiThI hai / " "kauna ? strI hai ?" | 3, "jI, hujUra "to" abhI jarA baittheNgii| mAphI mAga lenA kahA viThAyA hai " baiThaka me baitthegii|" ardalI ne vizeSa cintA na kI / aura barAmade me sTUla para manoramA baiThI rahane dI gaI / thoDI dera DI0 ema0 zrapanA kAma karate rahe / phira hAtha uThAkara kursI ke pIche Tike, agaDAI lI aura ekAeka maDe hokara cale aura apanI vaiThaka me prAe / baiThaka me koI na thA / loTakara usI meja para Ae aura ghaTI dI / ardalI ke thAne para use unhone zepa se dekhA aura vahA, "unheM bheja do / " manoramA Akara jhukI aura sAmane kI eka kursI para baiTha gaI / "kahie, maiM kyA kara sakatA hU thApake lie ?" manoramA ne uThakara rezamI vina se lipaTA vaha paikTi DI0 ema0 ke sAmane kiyA / DI0 ema0 ne AbhAra mAnate hue .... paikiTa liyA aura meja para eka

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yathAvata 35 ?" tarapha rakha diyA aura kahA, "sevA vatAie - maiM kyA kara sakatA hU manoramA cupa vaiThI rahI / vaha gahare asamajasa meM thI / aise eka-do minaTa bIta gaye | DI0 ema0 use dekha rahe the / usane dhIme-dhIme kahanA zurU kiyA, "merA eka laDakA hai / satraha varSa kI avasthA hogI / " DI0 ema0 dekhate rahe / ekAeka vole, "Apa yahI rahatI haiM ? bhAgalapura jile me ?" "jI, nahI / dUra se AI hU | bhAyA hai | zrAge paDhanA cAhatA hai / " laDakA maiTrika me pharsTaklAsa DI0 0 ema0 dekhate rahe / vaha kucha yAda karanA cAhate the / yAda madada nahI kara rahI thI / anAyAsa bole, "bhAgalapura jile kI Apa nahI haiM?" "nahI / " " tava to " kahate hue, zranAyAsa unakA hAtha paikiTa kI tarapha baDhA thora khIca kara unhone use pAsa liyA / ugaliyo se rivana ko kholate hue bole, "isa jile kI hotI to zAyada me kucha kara sakatA thA / grava nija nijI taura para kucha de bhI sakU, jyAde intajAma to muzkila hai / " manoramA kucha volI nahI / vaha paikTi ko kholatI huI DI0 ema0 kI ugaliyo ko dekhatI rahI / "grApakA zubha nAma ?" " jAne dIjiye / " rivana khulane para unhoMne kAgaja haTAyA / usake andara phira eka kAgaja kI taha ko haTAyA / Akhira savase andara kI tIsarI kAgaja kI taha ko solA aura nIce jo cIja nikalI usako kSaNa eka dekhate raha gae / mAno samajha na pA rahe ho / manoramA ne usa nigAha ko dekhA / tejI se uThakara vaha gaI aura usane daravAje kI caTakanI andara se banda kara dii| dUsare daravAje ko bhI banda kara diyaa| aba vaha phira apanI kursI para zrA gaI bolI, "maiM manoramA hU / "

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36 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga "manoramA / * yaha kyA hai ?" "agiyA hai|" DI0 ema0 khaDe ho ge| bole-"yaha kyA badatamIjI hai ?" uThakara vaha khuda gae aura dekha liyA ki hA caTakanI vanda hai / dUsare daravAje kI bhI banda hai| vaha phira apanI jagaha para A gae aura khaDe raha gae / aba unhone manoramA ko dekhA-kyA saca, vaha manoramA thI / vaha yakIna nahIM karanA cAhate the| usake lie kAphI avasara bhI thaa| bole-"yaha kyA tamAzA hai ? ___manoramA ne dhIme se kahA-"mere pAsa isame kImatI upahAra dUsarA nahIM thaa| yaha vahI phaTI agiyA hai !" "manoramA / " "nahIM, maiM yAda dilAne nahI AI / lajjita karane bhI nahI AI hU / umase kyA milegA--tumhe yA mujhe ?" "manoramA !" "maiM to jAna-bUjha kara dUra ho gaI thii| mA-bApa se aura tumase / tumhAre sAtha badhakara tumhe rokatI aura khuda ko bhI bojha vanAtI, kyA phAyadA thA usa sabase / "aba veTA sanaha varSa kA hai| jagarUpa nAma rakhA hai| nahIM to kyA, jaga kA rUpa to hai hI / pharsTa klAsa pAyA hai| Age kAleja meM paDhanA cAhatA hai| mere pAsa intajAma nahIM hai / tumhe kaSTa na detI, para vaha bahuta paDhanA cAhatA hai aura " "vaha jarUra paDhegA / jahAM taka cAhegA paDhegA / para tuma gAyava kahA ho gaI thIM manoramA? maiMne bahuta yAda kiyaa|" "kiyA hI hogaa|" "aba tuma kyA kara rahI ho?" "naukarI kara rahI hU, paDhA rahI hai|" "tumako dayA nahI AI mujha para ? ki.. " "prema me dayA kaba hotI hai 'tuma dayA nahI kara sakate the, mai dayA nahIM

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yathAvata BO kara sakatI thii| dayA me eka dUsare ko hama bharate nahI, mArate hI rahate / vaha kaise ho sakatA thaa| tumase nahIM ho sakatA thA-mujhase nahIM ho sakatA thA / ava bhI dayA nahI hai jo mAgane AI huuN| jagarUpa merA hai, vaise tumhArA hai|" "kahA hai ?" "sTezana para choDa AI huuN|" "sTezana para ? 'tuma kitanI badala gaI ho mannA / " "nahI, badalI nahIM hai| yaha agiyA tuma rakhoge yA mere pAsa rahane doge?" "maiM usa dussAhasa kI kyA aba mAphI mAga sakatA hU ?" "vahI prema kI nizAnI hai / sAhasa nahI jisame vaha prema hotA bhI hai ?-lAo, mujhe do|" ___manoramA ne usI aitihAta se phaTI agiyA ko kAgaja kI tIna tahoM me lapeTA aura ribana se bAdhA / DI0 ema0 dekhatA rhaa| ___ basa / * aura Age kahAnI kI AvazyakatA nahI hai / kAraNa, jagarUpa ilAhAvAda kAleja meM paDhane calA gayA, aura manoramA apanI prAimarI kanyA zAlA me A gaI, aura bhAgalapura ke DI0 ema0 apane prazAsana ke kAma me vyasta rahe cale ge| disambara '64

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viccheda eka bujurga vahuta dUra se Ae haiN| sirpha isIlie thAe hai| parivAra ke hitaiSI hai aura jaba sakaTa kI bAta sunI to unase rahA nahI gayA / do-tIna roja bhI vaDe baicenI se kaTe / grata me vAyuyAna se yahA zrA pahuce / unhone ekAnta me savitA se pUchA, "savi / tuma vahU ho, lekina usase bhI adhika mere lie veTI ho / sunatA hU bAta jarA sI hai, usako mAna jAtI to kyA haraja thA ? tuma logo ke parivAra kI kyA jagaha hai, tuma jAnatI ho / vaha TUTe, isako kaise bardAzta kiyA jA sakatA hai / kaho, merI eka bAta rakha sakogI ?" savitA gumasuma baiThI rahI, vaha kucha na bolI / paiMtIsa varSa kI avasthA hogii| do bacco kI mAtA hai / kanyA kA vivAha bhI ho cukA hai / phira bhI vaha kucha nahI volI / bujurga kucha dera taka uttara kI rAha dekhate rahe / phira Apa hI vole, "maiM jAnatA hUM, tumhe isa samaya kitanA kaSTa hogA / zravazya kucha gaharI vAta honI cAhie ki tuma mAna nahI pAtI ho / maiMne sunA hai, sArA parivAra asahamata hai / tuma akelI paDa gaI ho apanI bAta me / jarUra usame kucha sat hogA ki tuma akelI sabake sAmane Tika sakI ho / lekina veTA, ghara kI ijjata bar3I cIja hotI hai / usame mana ko thoDA jhukAnA paDe, to isame kucha haraja to hai nahI / valki isI me gRhiNI kI zobhA hai / hamArI bhArata kI saMskRti pArivArika hai / isI se vaha saba taraha kI paristhitiyo ke itihAsa me me aba taka samayaM banI calI bhAI hai| parivAra majabUta nahI hai to samAja zrApa hI visarA ho jAtA hai /

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viccheda pazcima kA samAjavAda kucha unakI vahuta madada nahI kara pA rahA hai / vaha to udyoga-vyavasAya kA yuga hai aura hamAre jaise pichaDe deza unake lie maDI banane ko taiyAra hai to hI vaha samAja TikA huA hai, nahI to Arthika eka bhI dhakkA vaha saha nahI sakatA / kyoki unhone vyakti aura samAja ke prazna ke bIca me parivAra ko nirvala banA diyA hai / hareka agara apane ko mAne aura AjAda mAne to usa taraha parivAra kI ekatA kaise raha pAegI? milajula ke calate haiM to isame kucha jhukanA bhI paDatA hai / isa jhukane me to valki kRtArthatA hai / kyoki prakRti me eka isAna hI hai ki usako gardana sIdhI milI hai / aba yaha usakI saskRti hai ki svecchA se vaha use jhukAe / " ___ savitA suna rahI thI aura upadeza use acchA nahIM laga rahA thaa| balki isa paristhiti me dutkAra use pasanda A sakatI thI, aura samajha bhI pA sakatI thii| vaha aba bhI kucha nahI bolii| bujurga bolate gaye, "tumhAre svasura kI tumhe yAda dilAU / kitane vaDe AdamI the| sava unhe aAdarza ke taura para mAnate hai / maiM to joha, unhI kA banAyA hai| saca batAo, beTI, kyA bAta hai ?" savitA ava bhI kucha nahIM bolI to unhone hAtha baDhAkara usake sira para rakhA aura kahA, "bolo, beTI, bolo|" / savitA kA jI aba kucha pasIjA / volI, "kucha nhii|"] "aisA mujhe na kaho beTI / kulalakSmI ke yahI lakSaNa haiN| ghara kI bAta vaha kisI taraha vAhara nahIM jAne detI hai| lekina mujhe bhI gaira mAnakara bAta karogI to kaise hogaa| kunabe me bar3e choTe kA lihAja rakhanA ho sakatA hai / mere lie vaha vAta nahIM hai| kezava ko maiM DATaphaTakAra bhI sakatA hU / jAnatA hUM, aise meM aksara vItatI strI para hai, dopa puruSa kA hotA hai / saubhAgya kI bAta hai ki aba taka kezava merA mAna kucha rakhatA hai| vaise bahuta haikaDa hai yaha saca hai, aura maiM anumAna phara sakatA hUM ki kyA kucha tumhe sahanA paDatA hogaa| isaliye tuma

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jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga khulakara kaha sakatI ho, jo bhI vAta hai !" bujurga kA hAtha phira savitA ke sira para calA gayA thA / vaha sira nIcA kiye sADI ke chora ko mAthe ke jarA Age taka lAye baiThI thI aura Upara kI ora nahI dekha rahI thii| mAthe para usake baDA-sA vindA camaka rahA thaa| savitA ne AhistA se rUmAla se apane ko rokA mAno vaha subakane ke nikaTa A gaI ho| koziza se kahA, "kucha nhiiN|" bujurga kA bhI jI bhara AyA / bole, "isase pahale maine kezava se vAta kara lI hai / maiMne kahA to nahIM hai, lekina agara cAho to maiM use tumase mAphI mAgane ke lie kaha sakatA hai| ummIda hai vaha merI bAta rakhegA / vaise itanI sI vAta ki kizora ghara na pAye aura tuma sAtha na jAgro, kauna aisI bahuta baDI hai ? tumhAre bAre me mere mana me to kabhI sandeha ho nahI sakatA / lekina kula kI pAna ke lie aisA tumase AzvAsana cAhA bhI jAe to isame beTI koI bahuta baDI apamAna kI bAta to hai nahI / mAnatA hU, isame avizvAsa hai aura avizvAsa me apamAna bhI thor3A-bahuta zAmila hai hI / lekina apavAda bhI to koI cIja hai / avizvAsa na bhI ho to lokApavAda ke kAraNa aisA cAhA jA sakatA hai / kizora ko thoDA mai bhI jAnatA huu| koI aisA anivArya zrAdamI to vaha hai nahI, tumhArI ruci ke yogya bhI kisI taraha nahIM hai / " isa sthala para pAkara savitA ekAeka bolI, "mujhe ghara me nikAla kyo nahI diyA jAtA jo aise satAyA jA rahA hai|" vujurga kahate-kahate jhaTakA khAkara ekadama raka gaye / savitA kA mukha Upara uTha pAyA thaa| grAkho me ke bhare AsU aba taka pUrI taraha sUga nahI pAe ye / lekina to bhI eka Avega kI resa una pAso me dIpane laga gaI thii| vaha dhavarAye se bole, "nahIM veTI ! aimA azubha nahIM bolate / kulalakSmI ke jAne se kahI phira kula bacA raha jAtA hai kyA ? nahIM nahIM, ziva, ziva ! aisI bAta mana meM bhI kabhI nahIM laanaa| kona

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viccheda satA sakatA hai tumako / mujhe kaho, meM kezava ko hara taraha mIdhA kara sakatA huuN| "basa jarA kula kI lAja kI bAta hai| usa bAre me baDe loga kucha vacana bhI tumase cAhe, to usame tumhArI tarapha se to maiM koI kaThinAI nahIM dekhatA huuN|" "vacana / kaisA vacana ?" savitA ke mAthe para lAla bindI samakSa banI baiThI thii| vindI nahI, bindA hI kahanA cAhie / mAthe kA kAphI bhAga usane ghera rakhA thaa| usakA Aveza usa suhAgabindu ke pratikUla nahIM mAlUma huaa| bolI, "kaisA vacana Apa mujhase cAhate hai ?" bujurga ne kahA, "nahI beTI, nahI / dekho, galata nahIM samajhA karate / tumhAre mAna para isame bItatI hai, yaha maiM dekha rahA hU / lekina agara itane se sabako Azvasti milatI hai, to tumhArA usame kyA jAtA hai ?" aba una pAkho me kisI taraha kA bhIgApana nahIM raha gayA thaa| valki sakhtI pAtI jA rahI thii| bujurga anubhava kara rahe the ki kahI kucha galata ho rahA hai| lekina mAno vAta hAtha se nikalatI jA rahI thii| kucha yaha bhI lagA ki isa taraha andara ko bhabhaka nikale to acchA savitA ne kahA, "maiM ghara meM rahatI hai| ghara se bAhara merI to paharedArI nahIM hai / jisako cAhe bAhara se hI roka diyA jA sakatA hai / maiMne usa bAre me kucha kahA hai ? lekina yaha maiM kabhI nahI kara sakatI ki ghara ke andara koI Ae aura maiM Atithya na dU / jisako yaha ghara nahIM cAhatA hai, usako bAhara hI bAhara kyo nahI roka diyA jAtA hai ?" __"isame tumhAre mana para dabAva Ae, yaha to ghara kA koI AdamI nahIM cAhatA, vahU raanii|" "phira ye kyA cAhate hai ? roka deM jise rokanA cAhate hai| phira maiM zikAyata bhI karU to kahe / lekina pAne khuda dete haiM, cAhate haiM mujhase ki anAdAra mai karU / yaha nahIM ho sktaa| kizora ho ki koI ho,

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jaineMdra ko kahAniyA dasavA bhAga me to yaha nahI ho sakatA / maiMne unhe nahI bulAyA hai / maiM mAtha gaI zurU apane se nahI gaI, bhejI gaI to gii| phira mujha para kyA iljAma hai, mAlUma to ho / " "lekina sunatA hU, haTha tumhArI hai ki alaga hogI..." ( hA hai | lekina vaha dUsarI bAta hai / " "isase usakA koI sambandha nahI hai ?" 42 * "nA koI sambandha nahI hai / valki isa apavAda ke mujhe ulTe rukanA paDa rahA hai / aba taka to mujhe jAnA cAhie thA / " kabhI kA bujurgaM yaha sunakara duvidhA me raha ge| unhone savitA ko dekhA / usake cehare para malinatA nahI thI, kaThoratA thI / jaise kSamAprArthanA na ho, abhiyoga ho / dopa svIkAra kI jagaha, dopAropaNa ho / kAraNa to alaga ho " bujurga ne kahA, "savitA veTI ! maiM samajha nahI pA rahA hU, ThIka taraha se / kizora kI bAta ko maiM samajhatA thA, jaDa me hai / lekina "vaha yahI kahate the grApase ?" ." "hA, kezava yahI kahatA thA sunakara savitA ne kucha nahI kahA / thoDI dera mAno soca me ekadama cupa banI rahI / phira bahuta dhIme-jaise mere sunane ke lie na ho, usane kahA, "to ThIka hai / " aura kahakara aisI cupa ho gaI ki mAno Age kisI ke lie kucha nahI bacatA hai / 1 bujurga ko bhI aisA lagA ki bAta cAro tarapha se sapATa kaTa cukI hai / "navitA ava sUtra kahI zepa nahIM raha gayA hai / to bhI haThAt vole, mujhe itanA batAo ki kizora ko apane jIvana se tuma bAhara mAna sakatI ho ?" uttara meM mAno ropa meM savitA ne apane una hirnapI bujurga kI tarapha desA / mAno apane ko use rokanA paDa rahA ho| ugane yahA, "apanI jindagI meM maine liyA nahI hai aura bAhara karane kA gavAna nahI

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viccheda 43 hai / kaha dIjie unase, ki unakA haka hai ki kizora ko yA kisI ko apane ghara se hamezA ke lie bAhara kara sakate hai aura maiM isame koI nahI hU, aura mujhe koI etarAja nahI hai / isase Age -- mujhase kucha na kahA jAe, Apa bhI na kahe / " "to vaha tumhArI jindagI me nahI hai ?" savitA ne sAmane baiThe una bujurga kI grAkho me dekhate hue kahA, "Apane duvArA pUchA hai / dovArA kahatI hU, nahI hai / " bujurga ThiThaka rahe / phira uvara kara vole " to yaha saba kyA bakheDA hai ? maiM kezava se kahUgA, sabase kahUgA ki nAhaka kyo tUphAna khaDA kara rakhA hai| beTI, tuma ghabarAno nahI, saka ThIka ho jAegA / " savitA ne kahA, "kyA ThIka ho jAegA ?" 1 "apavAda yaha jar3a mUla taka na rahegA / aura tumhArA mAna pahalI kI taraha pratiSThita rahegA / " "merA mAna / " kahA aura dhIme se vaha hasI / behada kar3avI vaha hasI thI / bujurga ke mana me vaha hasI kautI-sI calI gaI / ekAeka bole, "kyo beTA, savi ! kyA bAta hai| "kucha nahI / " "kyo, maiM tumako kahatA hU~ ki kizora kI bAta jo ava yaha sApha ho gaI hai to tumhArI pratiSThA kulalakSmI kI taraha hogI aura meM isakA jAmina vanatA hU |" savitA khilA khilA paDI / aisI tIkhI vedhaka hamI kA sAmanA una vujurga ko kaba karanA paDA thA ? bole, "kyo, tumako vizvAsa nahIM hotA ?" rd "usa savako AvazyakatA nahI hai, upAdhyAya jI / mujhako to alaga rahanA hai / "

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44 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga bujurga ko sahasA koSa sA AyA, "to yo kaho ki jida tumhArI hai ?" savitA ne kahA, "jI hA, yahI kahiye ki jida merI hai / " "lekina kyo?" "mujhe kucha nahI / " aura kahakara usane AkheM nIcI kara lii| upAdhyAya jI ko kucha sadhAna na mila rahA thaa| vaha mana me pUrA vizvAsa lekara cale the| vizvAsa kA adhikAra bhI thA / kAraNa, parivAra ke saba logo kA unake prati sammAna kA bhAva thA aura vaha nispRha hitaipI the| unhone kezava se bAta kI thI, usakI mAtA se bAta kI thI, bhAI se vAta kI thI aura kahIM kisI taraha kI aDacana anubhava na kI thii| parivAra ke saba loga choTe-moTe ssalana taka ko dara gujara karane ke lie taiyAra the / kevala Age ke lie AzvAsana cAhate the| kizora kA nAma lokApavAda kA kAraNa bana rahA thA / savitA ke sambandha me upAdhyAya jI ko pUrA vizvAsa thA aura vaha mAnate the ki avazya kahI galataphahamI huI hai| kizora me koI viziSTatA na thI / savitA pariSkRta ruci kI mahilA thii| savitA ke pAsa Ate samaya unheM vizvAsa thA ki bAta ko sulajhate kucha dera na lgegii| savitA se milakara unhe vizvAsa ho gayA thA ki kizora kI bAta me jyAde dama nahIM hai| mavitA svAbhimAninI hai, isaliye usaDa sakatI hai| aura phira ugako aTigatA ko gavara samajhA aura samajhAyA jA sakatA hai| avazya yahI bAta huI hai| - liye yadi eka aora se vacana pAne kA Agraha rahA hai to dUsarI ora meM vacana na dene kA Agraha vana pAyA hai| isI para basa dono aura ge yA kasatI gaI hai aura TUTane kA vindu pApahunA hai| lekina usa bAta ke bAda bhI kucha hai, aisA unako anumAna na pA / isalie pahale to vaha kucha acaraNa me raha gae, phira jaba usa digA meM bhAge karane kI vahI koI rAha na milI to unameM Aveza ho paayaa| unhone pahA, "jida to acchI cIja nahIM hotI hai, savitA beTA /

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viccheda kezava ko maiM hara taraha se samajhA sakatA hai| batAyo na, aisA kyA hai ?" "kucha nahI / " "phira bhI, tumhArA yahI nizcaya hai ki sAtha tuma nahI raha sakatI ?" "jI " upAdhyAya jI sunakara apane me capa aura banda raha ge| ava uname dUsare prakAra ke vicAra Ane lge| mAno prazna pArivArika aura sAmAjika na ho , vaha saskRti se kama aura prakRti se adhika sambandha rakhatA ho| kucha dera vaha apane meM hI socate raha ge| phira ekAeka bole, "dekhanA savitA, zarama na mAnanA / tumame mAra-pITa to kabhI nahIM ho jAtI ?" savitA cupa raha gaI / bolI kucha nhiiN| upAdhyAya jI ke mana meM sahAnubhati jgii| cole-"aisA ho to bhI ghabarAnA nahIM cAhie beTA / pyAra meM hI aisA ho pAtA hai| nahIM to hamame me zipTa kauna nahIM hai, aura kauna aziSTa zabda taka bola pAtA hai ? samajhatI to ho vettii|" / savitA cupa sunatI vaiThI raha gii| upAdhyAya jI kucha ruke, phira volate gae, "jina sambandho me kahI koI tIsarA nahI pA sakatA hai, vahA phira vyakti kA kucha bhI pIche nahI raha jAtA hai, khoTA-kharA saba kucha sAmane yA jAtA hai| patipalI sambandha vahI paripUrNa samvandha hai| isame nirlajjatA me bhI lajjA - nahIM lagatI hai| dono paraspara mukta ho pAte haiN| ekadama niyamo se Upara / prAdamI isame asabhya bane to bhI use cintA nahIM hotI hai| yaha acUrA nahI, pUrA sambandha hai / aura isalie use sahAranA aAmAna nahIM hai| vaDI parIkSA kA kAma hai| vivAha kA dharma sabane kaTina dharma isIliye hai| brahmacarya aura sanyasta isIliye gRhastha Azrama ke mukAbale khela jame haiM / savitA beTI, tumako kahatA hU, ki isase bar3I vaitaraNI dUsarI

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46 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga nahI hai| ise jo tira sakA, usake lie phira koI saMtaraNa baDA nahI raha jAtA hai | pati-patnI eka dUsare ko cAhate hai, yaha to saba jAnate haiM / lekina usase saca yaha hai ki ve eka dUsare ko sahArate sahate haiM / apanA nikRSTa to ve kahI aura samAja-sasAra me jAkara DAla nahI sakate, so usakA ve eka dUsare para pheMkane ko majabUra hote hai / yaha to savitA veTA, isa sambandha kA varadAna hai / isame ghavarAnA nahI hogA / sunatI ho na ? ghabarA kara usa sambandha ko toDanA nahI hogA / vayo, beTI savitA ?" savitA cupa banI rahI / upAdhyAya jI usa mauna ke artha kA kucha anumAna na kara sake / bole, "to maiM aba samajhU na ki saba ThIka hai ?" savitA ava bhI cupa rahI / "kyo veTI ? itanI grAzvasti mujhe nahI de sakatI ho ?" "mujhe sAtha rahanA nahI cAhie, yaha dharma ke viruddha hogA / " "dharma ke viruddha ?" "jI / " "maiM upAdhyAya hU / dharma meM bhI kucha jAnatA hai / viccheda dharma nahI hai / " savitA ne Upara dekhA / vindI bhAla ke bahuta bhAga ko ghera kara lAla lAla damakatI vahA baiThI thI / upAdhyAja jI ko grAmo ke bilku sAmane vaha raktAkAra biva bar3A hotA calA gyaa| jaise nayA ugatA pUnama kA cAda ho / savitA ne kahA, "maiM patnI hU / mujhe dharma patnI honA cAhie / uma carma ko samajhanA merA dharma hai aura maiM Apako bahatI hU ki sAtha rahanA dharma hogA / maiM nAya nahIM raha naktI / " upAdhyAya jI ekAeka bole, "savitA / " usa samyodhana meM mAno kyA kucha nahIM thA /

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viccheda para savitA cupa kI cupa baiThI raha gaI / mAno dharma kA nirNaya ho cukA thA aura aba grAge kucha zeSa nahI vacatA thA / 47 upAdhyAya jI ne bahuterA vala andara se khIcA | dharma kA, nIti kA sahArA liyA / cAhA ki kucha kahe, bole, samajhAe / lekina sAmane mAno atyanta maulika granulaghanIya kucha thA jisakA svIkAra hI ho sakatA thA / vaha kyA thA ki jisame maila na thA, mAna na thA, para sattA thI, satyatA thI / to bhI jora lagAkara, socate hue-se upAdhyAya jI bole, "kezava me kucha doSa hai ?" savinA nIce dekhatI cupa hI rahI, bolI nahI / " lajjA na karanA, beTA / sava upAya ho sakatA hai / " savitA ne va Upara dekhA / sthira vANI me kahA, "Apa parivAra ke hitaiSI haiM, pUjya hai para patnI ke dharma me pati kA vicAra nahI hai, dharma kA hI vicAra hai / dharma parivAra se Upara hotA hai / mApha kareM, sAtha rahanA na hogA / maiM jA sakatI aktUbara '64 ?" hU +

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mukta prayoga 'livareTeDa mAiDa / ' zeilena (zailendra) ne Upara uTate hue sigareTa ke dhue po dekhA / vaha dera se sigareTa lekara dhue ko isI taraha dekhate hue restarA me baMTA thA, sirpha pAnI ke gilAsa ke vala apane ko samhAle rakha rahA thaa| bhItara se vaha sUnA thA aura AsapAsa kaI vAra zrApara ghUmate hue baiTara ko dekha kara bhI usane mInU ke zITa para se kucha prADaMra nahIM diyA thaa| pAnI pItA, phira sigareTa pIne lagatA , sigareTa pItA aura pira pAnI kA sipa lene lagatA / isI samaya mAlUma hunA ki sigareTa ke dhue ke Upara se hokara jaise havAI bhApa se bane bAdala ke khaNDa-sA kucha usake sAmane adhara meM taira pAyA hai| vaha kucha ghacalA hai, kucha ujalA hai| pahA use ajava lagA / phira usane pahacAnA ki groha, vaha to usa kA apanA hI hai livareTeTa mAiDa / zeilena mAmUlI yuvaka nahIM hai| avasthA tIsa varSa kI hogii| lakina vaya se adhika vizvasta hai / apanI pratimA ko jAnatA hai aura sAdhAraNa ko nApasanda karatA hai / syAla usa ke UcAdhyA me nhte hai aura vaha risI tanha yA vadhana yA sattaMvya yAsapAsa pasanda nahIM karatA hai| para adhara me tairate hue usa libareTeDa mAiTa ko umane phanagiyo se dekhA aura mana hI mana kucha kuTA / usa kuTana meM paTavATTa thI / urI phala ko pAma yAda AI, jaba usake sADhe teraha rapae eyaH sAya sacaM ho gae the| sADhe bAraha kA bila, eka rapayA Tipa | do usake mAthI ye aura eka hajarata jo mAne hue lesakA mAna lie jAte haiN| asala meM to vaha ghAma unhI ke lie banAI gaI thI aura yahA usane emAha

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mukta prayoga 46 livareTeDa mAiDa aisA calAyA thA ki lekhaka mahAzaya sakapakAe se raha gae ye / taba yaha ganda use svaya garviSTha pratIta huA thaa| para usa zAma ke bAda Age ke lie kula jamA sADhe sAta rupae usake pAsa vace raha gae haiM / basa yaha pUjI hai, vaha hai, aura Age kI sArI jindagI hai / savere se usa ne eka bhI paisA kharca nahIM kiyA hai| dina me khAnA nahIM khAyA hai, pAva-pyAde ghamA kiyA hai, aura restarA me pAkara bhI pAnI se Age nahIM baDhA hai / vaha kucha hairAna hai ki livareTeDa mAiDa 'limiTeDa parsa' ke sAtha hI kyo huA karatA hai ? yahI Aja kI samAja-vyavasthA ke khokhalepana kA pramANa hai| yA mAiDa hI to kahI 'limiTeDa' nahI raha gayA hai ? sambhava hai ki nIti-pranIti, pApa-puNya jaisI cIje bhItara meM kahIM dubakI raha gaI ho / nahIM to caturAI se paisA barAvara Ate rahanA cAhie / libareTeDa mAiDa ke pAsa baTumA avazya 'ana-limiTeDa' cAhie'' soca kara vaha mana hI mana phIkI hasI hasA / lekina usane satoSapUrvaka yAda kiyA ki kana lekhaka mahAzaya kisa prakAra ekAeka piTe-se raha gae the| sAta varSa pahale zeilena kAleja me prAdhyApaka banA thA / usakI yogyatA kI dhUma thii| hAla meM UcI zAdI huI thii| loga sarAhane se adhika usake bhAgya para IrSyA karate the| lekina jaldI hI use mAlUma ho gayA ki yaha sava sAra nahIM hai| do sAla ke aMdara patnI se vilagAva ho gayA / avyApakI choDa dI gaI aura kalama kI noka se sayako sudhArane aura isa-usako phaTakArane kA kAma usane zurU kara diyA / use nizcaya ho gayA thA ki duniyA cAvuka ke hI lAyaka hai / duniyA ne satramuca isame majA bhI liyA, lekina evaja me kAphI paisA nahIM diyA / pariNAma, zeilena ko mAlUma hotA calA gayA ki duniyA phareba hai, makkArI para tulI hai / paise vAle baDe loga Thaga aura beImAna hai / aura usa zreNI kI striyA rUpa-jIvI hai / koI Denu-do varSa taka usa kA yaha prayogAtmaka jIvana calA / yAda me zeilena ke vasura ne eka sthAna ke lie siphAriza kI, to virodhapUrvaka zeilena ne vaha jagaha svIkAra kara

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jainendra kI kahAniyA damayA bhAga lii| baDI kampanI thI, vetana jacA thaa| para zana. garna puna. siddha hone lagA ki AtmA ke sAtha, nahIM-nahIM, apane garva aura gorava ke sAtha, samajhautA nahIM kiyA jA sktaa| vyavasthA yaha manamAnI hai, samAja kRtrima hai aura adhInatA kisI svAbhimAnI ko sahya nahI honI caahie| yaha naubata Ane ke AsAra prakaTa ho hI rahe the ki patnI apane pitA ke pAsa lauTa gaI thI aura apane DeDha varSa ke putra kI ora dekhate hue, pitA kI sahAyatA se, usane reDiyo me naukarI kara lI thii| isa suyoga ke sAtha zeilena kA jIvana kucha samaya ke lie sUba utkaTa ho kara namakA thA / mAno adara kI zaktiyA khula khelane para tula pAI ho aura vaha akelA sabakA sAmanA le sakatA ho / kampanI ke ceyaramaina se vaha ulajha paDA aura unhe kharI-kharI sunAne se nahIM cUkA / vahA se chuTTI pA kara mAno satya kA hI eka avalamba usa ne apane lie rasa choDA / lihAjamulAhije nAma kI cIja ko usane sarvathA khatma kara diyA / usane taya kiyA ki samajhaute ke vinA ume rahanA he / praNa vAdhA ki yaha aise raha kara dikhA degaa| yahA saba akele hI to hai / yo jisake sAtha eka kapa cAya pI, vahI apanA nAthI hai / do paiga mAtha ho gae, tava to vaha sAthI abhinna hI ho jAtA hai| isa taraha naukarI chor3ane ke bAda dobArA usa ne mikhAnata prayogamukta jIvana prArambha kiyaa| mAnanA hI par3atA hai unakI kalama ke jora ko / agrejI to mAno usake lie mAtRbhASA hai / saba umakA mikkA mAnate haiM / pIche cAhe jo kahe, sAmane to rAstA hI dete cale jAte haiM / yaha prayogazIla jIvana use ina bAra phalA nahIM, yaha nahIM kahA jA sakatA / usakI mipratApa, usakA paricaya, sabhI vargoM meM phailA hai| sadA yaha acche libAna meM dekhA jAtA hai / varca meM bhI hAya bulA dIpatA hai| abhigAta restrAgrI meM abhijAta varga ke sAtha Apa aksara use pA sakate hai| ina dUsare prayogakAla kI hI bAta hai ki dUnaga vivAha humA / rayama acchI mAI, para vivAha TikA nahI / unagI apanI bAta mAne to patnI pamAda na

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mukta prayoga thii| khaira, ve carcAe daba gaI haiN| lekina jina dino khUba calatI thI, tava bhI zeilena usa kAraNa kisI ora se mada nahI dIkhatA thaa| aba to vaha aura joro para hai / bauddhika kSetro me praveza se bhI adhika usa kA prabhAva hai / loga usase dabate aura roba mAnate hai / kAraNa, vaha hara samaya mAnava-jAti ke ata karaNa kA pratinidhi hokara sApha-sApha kahane ko udyata rahatA hai aura jhUThI vinaya ke cakkara me nahI pddtaa| pariNAma yaha ki vaha khyAta hokara bhI puruSo me ekAkI hai / priya aura abhyarthanIya hai strI-varga me / zeilena ne vaTuA nikAla kara dekhA, vahI ThIka sADhe sAta rupaye the| baTuyA banda kara usane jeba me rakha liyA / Tina me se naI sigareTa nikAlI, pahalI vAlI se chulA kara sulagAI, aura gaharA kaza khIcA / phira alasa pArAma ke sAtha pahalI sigareTa ko ghisa kara bujhaayaa| aba kalAI kI ghaDI dekhI / sADhe cha se do minaTa Upara hue jA rahe hai / usako bhallAhaTa huii| mAno vaha apane tiraskAra se vizva ko tor3a ddaalegaa| usane krodha me nigAha uThA kara daravAje kI ora dekhaa| dekhate hI nigAha haTA lI aura vaha kucha muskraayaa| usa ne anubhava kiyA ki restrA ke isa bilkula sUne kone-kinAre ko cuna kara usane ThIka hI kiyA thaa| dvAra meM se praveza lekara ThiThakI khaDI yuvatI ne hAla me isa-usa meja para cAro ora dekhaa| aneka nigAho ne uThakara usa kI ora nihArA / lekina uname vaha paricita nigAha na dIkhI, jisakI use talAza thI / anta me usakA dhyAna kone kI ora gyaa| avazya vaha zeilena hai / lekina aisA vebhAna aura vemana aura anuttuka / yuvatI teja cAla se baDhatI huI vahA pahucI / bolii-"hlo|" zeilena ne AvAz2a suna kara nigAha sAmane kI / tanika muskarA kara pahacAnA aura sigareTa ke ruke kAza ke dhue ko hoTho ke parale kinAroM se dhIme-dhIme karake choDA, kucha kahA nahI /

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jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga yuvatI bolI, "yaha kyA bAta hai ?" "veTho / " "aAja yaha kyA hai ? vaDe aise-vaise dosa rahe ho|" "hA | dAvata merI ora se hai / hai na ? lekina mere vaTae me kula jamA sADhe sAta rapaye bace haiM / " __ "vasa ? yaha koI naI bAta to nahIM hai|" "naI nahIM hai / lekina kala sADe teraha rupaye eka ko ullU banAne me laga gae / majA to pAyA / lekina utanI rakama ke lAyaka vaha na thaa|" "kauna thA? tumhArA zikAra nAmI hotA hai|" __ "choDo, choDo' yaha lo, (mInU mAmane karate hue) bAra tumhe denA hai|" bhAgatA ne mInU ke zITa para maramarI nigAha dauDAI aura sAsA ArDara de diyaa| phira bolI-"saca kaho, aise kaba taka rahane kI socate ho?" "kyo, ima rahane meM kyA kamI hai ?" "rupae kI kamI nahIM ho jAyA karatI hai ?" "poha | rupayA to khela hai / nayA usakI kamI, yayA jyAdatI / aura tuma jo ho|" "apane hI lie to kahatI huuN| bolo, kyA nocate ho?" "tuma jAnatI ho, meM zAdI kA prAdamI nahIM hai|" "lepina aise meM kaba taka sacaM paratI jA sakatI?' vivAha ho to merA saba tumhArA hai / nahIM to..." "tumhArA mujha para bacaM varanA, maiMne kahA na ghA, sahI nahIM hai| kiyo prAgA me aimA karanA aura bhI galata hai|" "yaha tuma yaha rahe ho ? noco ki maya hamAre bIca vAlI kyA bacA hai ! vivAha kI rUparI vidhi kI hI to pAta hai|"

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mukta prayoga "isIse vidhi kI jarUrata nahI rahatI hai / " "mujhe kucha ho gayA to ?" "vivAha ke bAda hotA hai, taba sabako khuzI hotI hai / vivAha ke binA aura pahale ho, to khuzI kI bAta kyo nahI hai ? saca kaho, kucha hai zzd "" 53 "nahI, nahI, abhI nahI / lekina "lekina kI phikra kyo karatI ho ? tuma ne to mujhe DarA diyA / " "tuma Darate bhI ho ?" "DarUMgA nahI ? tumase nahI DarUMgA ? bhagavAna ke Dara se isIse baca pAtA hU ki tuma loga bhI ho / ( sigareTa dete hue) lo, pioogI ?" '' d "nA, nahI / acchA lAgno / " dono sigareTa pIte hai, aura kucha dera koI nahI bolatA | prakaTa hai ki strI ko sigareTa kA abhyAsa bahuta kama hai 1] eka karA letI hai ki phira dera taka sigareTa ugaliyo ke bIca me hI TikI raha jAtI hai, dubArA jaldI nahI uThatI / zeilena 'cena smokara' hai / vaha jAne kahA dekha rahA hai / AgatA ne apanI ora Ate hue dhue ko hAtha se haTAyA aura zerona kI nigAha apanI tarapha khIca kara kahA - " maine eka bAta pUchI thI, tuma ne batAI nahI / " zelena ne jarA use dekhA aura musakarA kara phira nigAha usI taraha chata kI ora uThA lI, volA nahI / yuvatI ne sAgraha kahA, "vatAyoge nahI zeilena ne sigareTa kA atima bharapUra kaza khIcA aura usa ke sire ko aiza-Tre me kasa kara ragaDa diyaa| kahA, hama tuma kyA " sazarIra eka dUsare ke lie kAphI nahIM haiM ? atarAtmA me bhI utarane kI jarUrata raha jAtI hai| "agara tuma kahI bhI aura prema karate ho to maiM kucha nahI khuugii| ?"

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janendra kI pahAniyA danavA bhAga zAdI kA navAla nahI karUgI / lekina..." "pramilA, prema acchA hai to kyA epha bhara ke lie ho acchA hai?" "bar3e behayA ho jI, tuma " "mujha para se do vyAha bIta cuke aura TUTa cuke haiN| ina ne jyAdA aura kyA tumhArI AMkheM khola sakatA hai !" "isI se merA nizcaya hai ki yaha vyAha hogA aura nahIM TUTegA / maiM saba jaimI nahI hU / merA imtahAna hI hai yaha vivAha / isIlie to sAmane AtI hU ki mujhe bhI dekhanA hai, vaha kyA hai, jisake kAraNa tuma idhara se udhara bhAgate ho / ve gaurateM anajAna rahI hogI / maiM..." "tuma jAnatI nahIM ho vivAha ko / vaha ghere me bacanA hai / tuga gayo baMdhanA cAhatI ho, meM yahI nahIM samajha pAtA / isIlie ki batAne ko koI bacce kA vApa pAma vadhA hAjira rahe 1" ___ "dekhatI hU , tuma vApa bana sakate ho, raha nahIM sagate / bhayo yahI "prema meM agara prakRtivarA koI pitA bana jAtA hai, to isameM samAja kA kyA ijArA hai ? lephina samAja ko sAtira vAhA jAtA hai ki eka bApa ghara ke jUe me jutA humA maujUda rahe ! choDo "choTo, yaha saca ukosale hai aura tuma isa kadara sUbagUrata ho ki..." kaha kara ugane sammAnapUrvaka mAgatA yA hAya uThAyA aura apane sAmane meja para rakha liyA / uga para phira apanA hAya rana para pAyA, phira dabocA, kahA, "yU pAra vanDaraphula, pramilA ! (numa vilakSAta pramilA " mAno pramilA ne yura anubhava nahIM kiyaa| vaha usI taraha ghira beTI rhii| inane meM grArDara kA sAmAna lie prAtArA dInA / hAya meja geTa gae aura yAneM una panepana ke stara meM alaga thA / nAne-pIne ke bIca meM pramilA ne pUchA, "tumheM ginane meM

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mukta prayoga jarUrata hai ?" 55 " tuma se - DAI sau mAmika / " --- "yaha to tumhAre lie koI baDI rakama nahI hai / suno, kucha kAma kyo nahI kara lete / " "bevakUpha na vano / vaha nahI ho sakatA / jisa pAkhaDa ko DhAnA hai, usI ko sira para lU "to phira ?" dd "dekho, pramilA, jAnatA hU tumhAre pAsa paisA hai / lekina tuma jA sakatI ho| maiM samajhatA thA, tumhAre pAsa dimAga hai, aura vaha AjAda hai / paise me jyAdA mere najadIka usakI kImata hai / lekina vaha cIja tumhAre pAsa nahI hai to apanA paisA lekara yahA se rukhasata ho sakatI ho / " "tuma ne DhAI sau mAsika kahA / yahI na ?" kaha kara ajaba vyaga se vaha hasI, "aura vaha saba tuma mujha se loge, kyo ?" "nahI eka paisA nahI lUgA / isa jhArDara ke sAmAna kA bhI nahI / " "vigaDo nahI hA, eka mujha se tuma saba cAha sakate ho / sava tuma ne liyA bhI hai / lekina 33 " phira vahI vivAha--yahI na ?" "vaha to nizcita hI hai / " "tuma zAyada rasama ko vivAha mAnatI ho / mere lie mana kA vivAha asalI hai aura use hI bemana Dhone-TikAne kI jarUrata bhalA vyo|" pramilA ne zeDalena ko dekhA / kucha dera jama kara dekhatI rahI / phira bolI--"yU prAra e cITa eNDa e skAunDrala | (tuma eka ghosevAja aura AvArA AdamI ho / ) " doilena ne suna kara tatkAla pramilA ko ugaliyo ko liyA zrIra gardana nIcI karake jaldI se cUma liyA / kahA, "baiMka yU !" pramilA hasa paDI / bolI, "tumhArI yahI zradAe to jIta jAtI haiM ! vaTa yU prAra e lophara zrAlarAiTa / "

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56 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga ' hajUra, yaha nAcIja kyA hai, apanI mAlikA kA sAkanAra sAdima hai / " "lekina suno, vyAha se pahale zrava eka painA nahI milegA / " tuma milogI to saba kucha milegA / " "kaise nahI milegA pramilA ! "tuma mocate ho meM bevakUpha hU ?" "khudA kA khopha karo, gajaba kI khUbasUrata ho / " "haTo, tumhArI paise para nigAha hai / " "grajI, nigAha to zrApa para hai / zrApake prAcala meM paisA hai, to usame merA kyA kasUra "acchA vAdA karo, kisI ghora se muhabbata nahI karoge / " "dono zAdiyoM me vAdA kiyA thA / vAdA vahI baghA rahatA to isa muhabbata kI naubata kaise bhAtI, merI pramilA ! vaha saba choTo / gADI lAI ho ? calogI ? calo, zrosalA caleM / " ..") 'd "phira vahI "dekho, bhUkhe ko kyoM mAratI ho? tumhArI rasama, savere se maine kucha sAyA nahI thA / zrava jarA peTa bharA hai to "baDe DhITha ho !" "grApakI duA hai / " pramilA kA paricaya pAne ko zrAvayatA nahIM hai / umra Une gharAne ko dillI ke loga jAnate haiM / kahAnI meM bhI paricaya dene kA kANa nahIM hai / kAraNa, khAnA-pInA cala hI rahA thA bIca meM hI zelena spaTa manAkara bolA, "yaha saba rahane do, utthii|" "kyo, aisI kyA ghavarAhaTa hai " "vaha yambarana burjuga cAharadIpa gayA hai, ka jaldI karo, nahIM to saca majA " vidA ho jaaegaa| ko tuma to vaha banakara AI ho..." hAtha para uThAyA to pramilAbAI viSAyA

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mukta prayoga 57 gayA aura phira dono jane hAtha me hAtha DAle tejI se restarA se bAhara nikala gae / hama restarA me hI baiThe hai / yaha samA zraura yaha zAma / prokhale ke lie maukA burA nahI hai / lekina Apa manAie ki kahAnI kahane vAle ke pAsa bhI khAsI naI oNTomobAila ho, aura vaha isa teja jindagI ke sAtha lapakatA jAe aura kahAnI ke zrAge ke moDo kI bhI khavara prApa ko de sake / taba taka ke lie kahAnI ko yahI samApta mAnanA hogA / agasta '63

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kaSTa bolendra ko vismaya humA jaya devA mi detIvojana ke sabase bar3e adhivArI umamI choTI-sI baiThaka meM cale pA rahe hai| usapo aura bhI vismaya huA yaha sunakara ki eka baDe mahatvapUrNa parigavAda me use bhAga lenA hai aura abhI sAya calanA hai / adhikArI yA vyavahAra ma ampardhanApUrNa thA aura vaha tajJa the ki zailendra ne unakA anunaya asvIkAra nahIM diyA hai| "asuvidhA ke lie kSamA pIjiegA / lekina / " "jI nahIM / jI nahIM .." "yaha anAcAra hai ki samaya bhI prAparI nahIM diyA jA rhaa| lerina videza meM jo mehamAna pAe hai unako pahale sayara gyii| ye apane mamatA bandhuno me TelIyojana para carcA karanA pavAda greNge| patAie Apako chora hA nahIM pAe ? gatimA maha gaTa phira bhagAmAI hai|" "jI nhiiN| jI nhiiN|" buTiyopace nogalendra mora bhI mila ar ho nAmI eka nAhiyAra yatA mojara pe / nAma RATonasAna dhe jinakI antarrASTrIya gyAni yo / rendranAra para humA / lekina nabhI hamane apane gA mA gA pA prAya gA, saniya nirimanAra meM ugo tara bagAme mora carcA meM sammilita hogaa| rajiyAnaramA bhIramA TIko mAEiT or

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kapTa pUra hai / svaya TelIvIjana para jisa zAlInatA se usane vyavahAra kiyA vaha mAno dUsaro ko phIkA kara detA thaa| carcA kAphI phailI aura kAphI gaharI bhI gaI / antarrASTrIya kSitija koSa usane chuA aura mana ke gahare bhedo kA bhI bheda liyA / usa saba me zailendra aisA tairatA huA pAra calA gayA ki usake sAthiyo ko bhI acaraja thaa| ____ kAryakrama pUrA hone para savako eka kamare me le jAyA gayA jahA upahAra kI vyavasthA thI / vahI usase eka phArma-rasIda para dastakhata karAyA gayA aura dilacaspa halkI-phulkI carcA hotI rahI / reDiyo ke kucha anya Uce adhikArI usa samaya sAtha the aura vAtAvaraNa apanI hanakI ragInI me uDatA huA mAno savako UcA le jAne vAlA thaa| zailendra ko vaDA acchA laga rahA thA / usane ghara kI udAsI aura nirAzA ko yAda kiyA jo ava ekadama upahAsya bana gaI thI / vaha desatA thA ki videzI amarIkI sajjana lambe aura Uce hai| rUsI bandhu utane hI choTe kada ke haiM / dono ke agrejI ke uccAraNa bhI anamila hai| dono mAno zailendra ko lekara sama hote hai, nahIM to paraspara vipama bane rahate hai / dRSTikoNa dono ke alaga, vyaktitva alaga / vaha bAteM karatA jAtA thA aura raha-raha kara dono ko dekhatA jAtA thaa| DIla-Daula ke lihAja se smI vandhu tagar3e Dhaga se khA rahe the aura amarIkI dhIme-dhIme grAma uThA pAte the| desakara usako taTastha prAnanda ho rahA thA aura vaha cAhatA thA ki amarIkI vidvAna itane gambhIra na rhe| phira use ThIka-ThIka patA nahIM ki kyA huA / zAyada vahA se uTha kara ve loga eka-dUsare kamare me le jAe ge| zailendra logo ke dhyAna kA kendra thA aura videzI loga aba usase vichuDa cuke the / para degiyoM kI to bhIDa thI / nAnA prakAra ke nAnA loga usase bAta karanA cAha rahe the / taraha-taraha ke prazna hote aura vaha apane uttarI se eka camatkAra paidA kara detA thA / isI samaya unake sAmane eka moTA sA liphAphA

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60 jendra paniyA dAyAM bhAga lAyA gayA / solane para usame bilkula naye dama-dasa rapaye ke noToM ko UcI kI gaDDI thI jisake Upara usI taraha ke kapAna-pAna ke noTa rame hue the| jindra ne unheM liphAphe meM nikAsa kara umI paniphe me rasa diyA aura liphAphA vahI meja para rahane diyA / vaha sogoM meM bA karatA jAtA thA aura liphAphe kI tarapha dhyAna nahI denA cAhatA thA / phira sahamA usane viphAphA liyA aura noTa bAhara nikA / yaha rahA thA ki usake Asa-pAsa ke loga jaldI-jaldI vadanate jAte hai / gAyada kamare me bhIr3a hai aura dUsaro ko avasara dene ke lie poTo - cIta karane ke bAda pahale vAle haTate jAte hai| usane noTo goginA, pahale pAca vAlo ko, phira dasa vAlo ko / ginate samaya vaha bAda ghara sakatA thA ki vaha logo ke prati sAvadhAna to nahI vana kA hai| u liyA ginatI jAtI thI aura muha bAta karatA jAtA thA / ugaliyA ginatI calI gaI aura vaha daga raha gayA ki noTa tine adhika mo, TeTa sau, do sau taka ko ke lie vaha taiyAra thaa| pAna ke noTo ke bAda dasa ke noToM kI ginatI to pUrI hI nahIM ho rahI thii| unake kucha samabha meM nahIM A rahA thA ki yaha bAta kyA hai / hI samAdhAna thA ki yaha usakI yogyatA kAnAvara yogyatA kisI taraha bar3hAkara nahI diyAnA nAhanA thaa| aura ko bhoTa ke prati bhora vinata dIpanA cAhatA thaa| noTo kI ginatI jina logoM ke prati unakA bhAvabhInA vaTunA jAtA thA / mAtRma nahI ginatI feat devA pUrI bhI ki nahIM huii| mesina rAzi kA anumAna use ThIka baiTa gayA thA / usane phira noToM ko yahI darI devI meM hAya ttaalaa| vaha dhanane meM ho pAne taraha-raha ke usameM epa ke mile hue noTsa meM donoM jeboM me ThAt eka pa apane cAro meM base bhAgana hai / aura bAhara giicaa| ye no nadI para dvArA die | nIMda meM

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61 unheM apane se ojhala cAhatA thA / jeva se granta me rUmAla nikalA aura vaha bhI una kAgajo ke Upara chor3a diyA / grava usane nizcinta hokara kursI kI pITha para sira pIche kiyA aura ArAma se ho baiThA / mAlUma nahI kitanI dera yaha majalisa rhiiN| kAphI kAphI kAphI dera taka rahI / use kisI kI cintA na thI / vaha sAnanda aura nirdvanda thA / vaha apane pUre pana meM thA isalie sabake prati prasanna thA / use yAda thA ki koI tiktatA usase nahIM prakaTa huI hai aura vaha kisI ke lie zragama nahI banA hai / kamare kA vAtAvaraNa prakAza ko laharo kI taraha mAno umaDatA aura nayA-nayA rUpa letA jAtA thA / usIke sAtha loga bhI adala-badalate the / nizcita eka bAta thI ki vaha kendra meM hai / anta me samaya hotA gayA aura mAlUma huA ki yaha sTuDiyo hai aura uThakara ghara jAnA hai / taba usane rUmAla sameta saba kAgajo kA Dhera uThAkara dAhinI jeba me ThUma liyA / saba kucha gaDamaDa thA aura use cintA na thI / usane dekhA ki usake sAtha prAsa-pAsa ke loga uTha khaDe hue the / sava kRtArtha dIkhate the aura yaha apanA sammAna use vizada kie jA rahA thA / saba kahI zrAnanda kA bhAva thA aura paraspara me vidA lekara mAno kRtana ve apanI-apanI rAha cale jAne ko udyata ye / kiMtu tabhI mAno nitAta udAsInatA meM, eka bAra phira zailendra apanI ArAma kursI me ho baiThA aura jeba me Thuse hue kAgaja usane bAhara kie| loga ava lagabhaga jA cuke the / nava Dhera kAgajI kA usane meja para paTaka diyA aura phira eka-eka ko haTA kara unameM sarakArI sikke ke noTa dekhane lagA | yaha kyA ? noTa to ve kahI ye nahIM / usane saba kAgajo ko ulaTA-palaTA / eka-eka kora daza kara aura phailAkara dekhA / lekina karAre kAgaja vAle ve pAca-pAca aura dasa-dasa rupaye ke noTa gAyava the / uname se eka bhI kahI nahI mila rahA thA | unane phira jaldI-jaldI kAgajoM ko denA / jevo ko TaTolA | koTa utArA, paiTa sakholA, para noTa hAtha nahI thaae| usane apane cAroM ora degaa| loga vana jA cuke the / rozanI thI lekina ghumtI mAlUna kaSTa *

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jainendra pI mahAniyo dayA bhAga hotI pI / unake gura samAna na pAyA / ume nimaya thA ki minIne una noTA mo ne liyA hai aura phira cupacApa garamA gayA hai / mAna ho rAmanA ? gayA vAra.. syA yaha ?..'yA yaha ...aneka-aneka pehare bhIra meM se Tage yAda pAte / paura pragaTa hone dera na honI kice gamako maya sAmAgote bhI cale jAte the / umane una sabhI ko bhI unamemaeyo doSI pAyA / lekina payA ho sakatA thA | mana meM yAnoM meM raMgaliyA jAna phara dono haliyoM ke bIca usane TonoM panapaTiyoM ko miyA aura gira pAma liyA / dekhate-degate yaha mira nIce bhuma praamaa| pucha gubanI kI AvAja pratimA ne sunI / amerAyA aura uTha para nane battI jlaa| patra mAlUma huA ki usamA pani mota-goge guvA rahA hai| ugane para mA pragaTA dhIme se hilAte hue pahA, "guno . ajI suno|" pati ne cauka gara mAga golI / mAno vaha bhAga pachapAyAnana mamI pA-basarA gA para dega uTA pora ninyAya meM bolA, "pApA?" pAnI ne gRdhA, "mI, mayA bAta hai?" pani ne bhAga phATa para T, "yA" / "ma.pra. pttnaa| mApada sapanA / " "gA!" mAra emANa yaha ranA, pitA , "nahI dina hii| Ane do| parahamA samA" mApana gara" " !... " "na , do, cAra 'T TAM" "mara RT FI " gaye / "

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kaSTa itanA kahA aura pati mahAzaya mAthe ko hAtha meM lekara rugrAse ho shraae| pratimA ne unake sira ko lekara apane vakSa me sameTA / kahA, "kucha nahI / sapanA thA / so jaao|" "nahI, nahIM / sapanA nahI thaa|" "tuma kyo phikara karate ho?" "saca kahatA hU~ / maiMne gine the / eka-eka kara gine the / ekadama nae noTa the aura pUre DhAI hajAra the|" ___ "suno, ava nahI kahUgI / mare rupaye kA mujhe kyA karanA hai / tuma phikara na karo / phikara-phikara me jAne kyA-kyA dekha jAte ho ?" "tumhe yakIna nahI AtA hai ?" kahatA huA pati patnI kI goda me se chinakara annaga ho baiThA / pratimA ne use aise dekhA jaise Akho me nirI prosa ho / giDagiDAtI bolI, "nahI / aba nahIM kahUgI / mere mAre hI to phikara hai|" pati ne uThAkara eka jora kA capana patnI ke gAlo para jaDa diyaa| cillAyA, "phikara hai terA sira / maiM jhUTha bolatA hU?" . patnI prAkha phADe apane devatA svarupa pati ko dekhanI rahI / "yakIna nahIM pAtA na ? aura maiM jhUTha bolatA hai, kyo ?" yaha kaha kara usane bhI jora se apane gAlo para usane capana jamA liyA phira to taDAtaDa vaha apane ko pITane lagA / rahatA jAtA thA, "maiM jhUThA hU, kamAtA ha tava bhI jhUThA * jhUThA hai tAle, tU mara / " patnI ne pati ke uThate hue dono hAtho ko jora se paraDa phara vara jorI apane vakSa ke nIce davA liyA / kahA, "mujhe mApha karo / mApha phro| ava kabhI nahIM phuugii|" pati meM jAne kitanA jora yA gayA / hAya cInakara uTha khaDA grA bolA, "maiM jhUThA hai na ? rupaye nahIM mile aura kisI ne nahIM curAe

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jainendra kI kahAniyA danamA bhAga mahIna' meM nimnA / nAtAyA, aura na gatI hai / bahIna?" "karI, nahIM, nhii| . ." "maiMne noTa nahIM gine, yahI na? meM jhUThA hUM aura tere nAmamA nahIM hUM, yahI na?" pratimA uThAra unI caraNoM meM lipaTa gii| bolI, "tI, nahIM ! the, gara / pinI ne cuna lie / bhava tuma so jaamii|" ___ namo meM paTI patnI go jora ge lAta mArapara usane dUra para diyA / yahA, "maiM bhUlA nahIM hai, samavarana doleTara aurata samamI hai kyA ?" rAna garI bhI ghora lendra meM sUna utara pAyA thA pora nAgA, taba menendramA maritakAmpa nahIM hai| nahI galata jinomAti bhii| prasnUbara '61

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bekAra "hukuma AyA hai kahAnI bhejo| batAyo kyA karU ?" "bheja do khaanii|" "kyA bheja dU ? kahA se bheja dU ? mana hI kisI kAma ko nahIM hotA hai|" ___"kyo ? aisA tumhAre mana para kyA prA bItA hai ? mujhe dekho, sArI cintA mujha para hai / tumhe vayA pi.kara ki kyA cIja kyA bhAva AtI haiM, bacco ke lie dUdha kaise juTatA hai / tumako to paDe rahanA aura socate rahanA hai / isa para kahate ho, mana nahIM krtaa| acchA tumhArA mana hai / uTho, aura likho kahAnI / nahI to ve loga bhI kyA kahege ?" ___ aba kaise batAU inako jo cUlhe-cauke me rahatI haiM, bAmana-buhArI meM rahatI hai / nA to rizto vAle lena-dena me rahatI haiM ki kha zceva para kyA bItI, ki cIna ke aNubama visphoTa kA kyA matalaba hai, ki vartAniyA kI sarakAra palaTa kara ekadama dUsarI bana gaI hai / vagairaha-vagairaha vAte hai jo asalI haiM aura mere dila para baiThI huI hai| una bAto ke bojha se agara vaha dila uThatA hI nahI hai to usame uma dila kI ora kAyala hI honA cAhie / maiM apane bAre meM bilkula vizvasta hU~ ki merA dimAga dUra taka jAtA hai aura bArIka bAto ko paDanA hai, aura hara choTI-moTI le-de se Upara rahatA hai| "phira vahI | abhI baiThe hI ho ! magIna lekara TAipisTa kamare me paiTA intajAra kara rahA hai| vahA kahAnI kI rAha desI jA hI hogii| vizepApha dIvAlI taka nikala jAne vAlA hai| udhara reDiyo para upanyAsa bhI jAnA hai / aura tuma aine mukta bane hue baiThe ho ki jaine saba kara

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68 nendrako hAniyA pAyA bhAga ho / merI gunate hI narI ho / patnI hai ki mAtra nahI jAna lii| pahane mAe meM vyAha jarara ho jAnA caahie| hiranamA mehanane paccIsa hajAra lagAyA thA, itanA to ve gara deMge ga?" "kahA kA bhamelA le baiThI ho? calatA, munAnI ha / " "basa, tumhe to yahAnI upanyAsa kI nagI hai, beTe-beTiyoM ko phira nahIM ! para me yahU mAtI to kucha to gabhAlatI mAga moma baga mere tira / tumheM payA hai, dina-gata pimanI nI meM hai, yA pinna pannA gana meM bImAra hai, tumane muDa miyA ? pahA thA, prAdamI meM cunA go, yahA pancha TAsTara hai, ThI taphatIza ho jaaegii| para na upanyA phuggA mile taba na ? yo pora hotA to aba . para pharameM banne dinAI dete| tumato cale jAte hogapane dAtara poraga sapane. apane kAma meN| para yaha pIna-gA gAne ko mAnina bAra gopAla na ho / para pA, use vIganA paho / sI kI gara Prima jAra ho gii| kAma se bhI lagAmA bhaya vApara bhAga 1 para tuma aine ho ki pikara paTAnI po to , mora higI yogI pAta hai riliganA-li pAnA mujhe bhI musIyA maaghogii| jaya tara dala ga andhA hai| lekina maiMne gummA diE AT- "to mArI , mugne ko mAnaugaya mAna-mAla poI, tuma zrImatI apanI uThagi ,meM pAnI writy ! mora macAna modI ra menAri yogI sa ra , padI nArakara dogAna para sonI, " !" " maga?' ho / 'no yA poragI pAya minaTa miiriijaanii||

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vekAra 66 "usakI zrava phikara nahI hai- hA, kyA kahate the, do bahane hai aura " "maiMne choTe bAbU ko phoTo ke lie kaha diyA hai, ThIka huA to bAkI vicAra pIche hogA / " "phoTo se kahI ThIka patA calatA hai ? yahI paDosa kI bAta hai, phoTo se kaisI sundara lagI thI, para bahU grAI to aisI ki / jAke tuma desa zrAte to kaisA ?" "kise dekha zrAtA ? bAta na vAta, vebAta kI vAta / mujhe ava jAne do / " "vambaI me hai laDakI ? dhArIvAla sAhaba ko phona kara deM ki dekha ke patA de / zAma taka unakA phona grA sakatA hai / ina bAto me dekho, dera nahI kiyA karate / aura tuma ho ki eka kAhila ho / lo, dhArIvAla ko milA phona / " "kyo, tumhe koI aura kAma nahI hai ki " "to meM milAtI hU, dhArIvAla ko / vatAnA kyA nambara hai ?" detI hU bambaI kI laDakI tumhArI DAyarI me hogA na ? arjenTa kiye kA patA to hai na tumhAre pAsa / " "nahI hai / " . "nahI hai ? vama tumase ho liyA kucha patA bhI nahI pUchA choTe bAbU karate / lo zrava pUcha lo / desa-bhAla ke zAma taka vApasa se ' are aise ghara-gRhasthI ke kAma nahI huA pUcha ke, phaurana dhArIvAla ko kaho ki saba phona para savara kare / zrAja kyA hai, tIja ra asoja kA mahInA / kAtika me gaje meM vyAha ho sakatA hai, joga bhI hai / tumhAre pAna kinane kI taiyArI hai ? jyAde phikara kI bAta nahIM, jevara ke lie mere pAsa ne ho jaaegaa| kAphI to purAnA paDA ho hai / kala hI bulA ke use nayA karane ke lie vaha duugii| vaha phikara mujha para | Upara kI taiyArI ke lie tumheM cintA hotI ho to meM rAdhe bAbU se vaha tapatI hU / tajurvekAra hai

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anendrakI kahAniyAM bhAga paura pahatoM ke kAma unhoMne kie haiN| unheM sauMpa meM rama pama nimitA ho sakate haiN|" meM apanI jagaha me una / zrImatI bonI, "tuma to bhI meM rikara meM dhAne lge| maimatI , mere rahane numheM jaga minA marane kI mana nahI / dame to tumhAre pAsa ho jAyagAna ?" "kyA ye bar3abAra macA rakhI hai| tumheM nahIM go mujhe to mAma " zrImatI uThI mora TelIpona sAgara mere do me damA diyaa| mA "lo choTe bAbU meM panA pUra lo|" hAtho meM meM TelIpAna ko phaiza nahIM graa| dhIma meM barAbara kI tipAI para rakhA aura gahA, "vambaI kA pAso" zrImatI jI uDa vara yotI, "to phira mayA gAva, gopAgaNAra ko milAyo / maha denA, mAma ko apanA magara ra pAreM pora dama anenTa gagama kr| aura pAga ponaya mAtIpUrNa gavara ? rAmane / yA paToga" meM bhI pIra sAga na dera, TelIphona meM kamA, nahI kara pA paa| legina yaha sara kuna ho rahA thaa| maga pAhA, "pATIla , cInI deya te / tara unako rAya meM mAnA jArI honAriyANA nApanI meM kucha nA ho inaTe pAma kiga ___" gAlI hai aura nomojoma baragahA mAniyA, gI tumhArA dhIraja bhATAramA bhIma go, mApAya go pota"

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bekAra 71 choTe vAva ke hAtha meM rahane do| vaha bIca me hai to unhI kA jariyA ThIka hai / saba tarapha se munAsiva ho, tabhI hamame me kisI kA baDhanA sahI hogA / usase pahale nahI / " "kyA tumane kiyA hai aba taka koI riztA yA TelA- -jo apanI aklamandI lagA rahe ho ? ye kAma aise nahIM hote| mujhe batAyo, dhArIvAla kA namvara kyA hai ?" "mujhe nahI maaluum|" kahakara me tIra kI mAninda vahA se calatA huA bAhara ke kamare me A gayA / para kamarA khAlI thA / vahA koI govinda na thA / loTakara AyA to zrImatI jI sacamuca nambara ke lie DAyarI TaTola rahI thI / maiMne kahA, "bAhara kamare me koI nahI hai / TAipisTa kyA huA 2" zrImatI jI DAyarI TaTola rahI thI aura TaTolatI rahI / "tumane TAipisTa ko kucha kahA thA ?" mAlUma hotA hai ki dhArIvAla kA nambara milane meM samaya liye hI jA rahA thA / "sunatI ho, kucha kahA thA zrImatI jI ne DAyarI se haTAkara aba muha merI ora kiyaa| kahA"hA, kahA thaa| tumhe to apanI tandurustI kI phikara hai nahI, khAsI taba kI aba taka cala rahI hai / zrArAma ko tumane harAma mAna rakhA hai / aisA bhI kyA kAma ? jaba dekho taba likhAI / likhAI jAya bhAva meM, sabase pahale tandurustI hai "" * maiMne jora se kahA, "kyA kahA thA usa TAipisTa ko ?" "kahA thA, bhAI Aja jAo, unakI tabIyata ThIka nahI hai / prAja visAnA nahI hogA / " 7" ?" - "tumane yaha kahA thA "haa| aura zaba tuma grArAma karo / dhArIvAla kA phona bhI vAda

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72 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga me ho jAegA / aisI koI tavAhI nahIM hai / tandurustI hai to duniyA hai aura saba kAma vakata para ho sakate hai / lo, pAyo yahA leTa jaano|" ____TAipisTa calA hI gayA thA aura ArAma me leTe rahanA mujhe kabhI burA nahI mAlUma hotA hai ! aktUbara '64

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jhaselA jagaha pAne meM samaya laga rahA thA aura meM bAra-bAra ghaDI dekhatA aura jujhalAtA thA / pAca kahA gayA thA aura aba usane pAca minaTa Upara ho gayA thA / eka-do minaTa aura nikala gae to anumAna ne eka dvAra maine Thelakara kholA / vahA sAina borDa nahIM thA aura maiM zakA meM thaa| daravAjA kholane para andara anverA disAI diyaa| thor3I dera me -mAlUma huyA ki eka maddhama vattI hai aura bAhara ke prakAza se pAne ke kAraNa hI anyerA itanA ghuppa dIsA thaa| maiMne pAkheM malI aura kamare ko bheda kara dekhane lgaa| kamarA lambA thA aura zurU me kucha-disAI na diyaa| phira dUra parale kinAre se eka nUrata isI tarapha baDhatI mAlUma huI / kyA vahI suzI hai ? pahacAnA nahIM jAtA thA aura cAla usa jaisI na thii| tabhI mAlUma huA ki pIche eka aura vyakti bhI hai jo kada me UcA, pUrA aura vizvasta mAlUma hotA hai / kauna ho sakatA hai ? yaha soca na pAyA thA ki supamA kI AkRti mujhe pahacAna me yA gaI / maiM tejI se Age baDhA caura dUsarI ora me mAno supamA jhapaTatI huI mujhame A girii| bolI-"rAjeza !" meM sanna raha gyaa| supamA jo thI usane ava yAdhI bhI nahIM thii| sUrata para ge saba ujar3a gayA thaa| bAla visare the aura sava vikharA thaa| pAyeM phonI, khoI, badahavAsa thii| yaha saba abhI dhyAna meM na lA pAyA thA ki supamA alaga ho gii| sAtha ke vyakti pAna A cuke the| supamA ne paricaya karAyA aura unhoMne mahA, "majA, aba meM jA sakatA hai?" supamA ne hAtha joDa die / vyakti ne merI ora hAtha baTAyA aura

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jainendra kI kahAniyA savA bhAga vidA lekara vaha tabhI cale ge| maiMne nigAha ghumAkara aba jagaha dezI / momabattI meM bhI dhImI eka lAiTa jala rahI thii| acchA mAlUma huA / mAno dina na ho, na rAta ho / eka dhudhalakA ho aura saba sapanA ho / usa sutI sakSipta deha ko kadhe se liyA aura mAno pUchate hue maiMne kahA-~"muzI ?" * "maiM inhI ke yahA hU~ / nahI,~thI !" uttara kA marma na mila sakA / vaha saphAI thI ki cunautI hama calate hue eka mez2a ke kinAre pA ge| usake girda ghUma kara suSamA eka kursI kI ora vaDhI aura baiThane po thI ki maiMne dono kadho meM use pakaDa kara sAmane liyaa| phira eka hAtha se ThoDhI uThAte hue mahA"yaha kyA kara liyA hai taine ?" usakI prA tira AI thI aura vaha kucha bola nahIM skii| kadhe para dabAva dekara use biThAyA aura maiM Apa bhI pArTI para ho baiThA / mujhe sUbhatA nahI thA ki kyA kahU ? gayA pUchU? vaha bhI nupa thii| maiMne usakI ciTThI kA javAba nahIM diyA thA / mubhame gussA thaa| maiM deza se bAhara gayA ki yaha saba ghaTanA ghaTa gayI thii| pIche hisAba lagAkara dekhA ki mere videza jAne me do dina pahale kI ghaTanA thii| isI para mere mana meM krodha yA ! itanI bar3I bAta hone vAlI ho aura mujhe mAlana na ho / isa para maiM kisI taraha supamA ko kSamA nahI kara pAtA thA / bahuta socatA thA ki ho sakatA hai ki yaha gamabhanI ho meM videga ke lie nikala gayA hai| pAkhira plena kI do-emaH tithiyA calI to thI ho| isa taraha nAnA taka usake pakSa meM karanA, lekina mana zilI meM matopa na pAtA thaa| videza me lauTane ho maine phona kiyA, phira phona kiyaa| koI uttara na paayaa| phira phona kiyA to nimo ne uThAyA aura nAma lete hI papa ne banda kara diyA! maiM vyagra thA aura na vAsa para sora bhI nArAja ki mujhe tuda yoja-talAza para ugo bAre meM patA

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jhamelA lagAnA hogaa| isake kAphI dino bAda usakA patra milA thaa| patra mAno mere hAtha meM pAkara giDagiDA pAyA thaa| lekina mana kA krodha usase aura ubharatA hI gyaa| maiMne mana me kahA--'mara kambakhta / mujhe kyA hai ? lekina saca kahatA hai ki kitanA hI maine mana ko samajhAyA ki mujhe kyA, lekina mujhe hI caina nahIM thaa| kyA huA hogA ? jana-pradavAda ne kyA hAla kiyA hogA? kyA usake mana para bIta rahI hogI ? kyA Asa-pAsa kA vyavahAra hogA? saba prazna mana me uThate the aura sabake uttara meM eka ghora andherA hI hAtha Ane ko raha jAtA thA aura meM aura bhI grodha se bhara pAtA thaa| socatA thA-calU, eka bAra usa zahara me jAkara dekha hI AU / lekina jAne kauna mujhe roka detA thA aura mAlUma hotA thA ki aisA honA asambhava hai| yahI mahIne bhara pahale kI bAta hai| taba se usake nAma para sivA kaSTa ke maine kucha nahI bhogA / vaicainI ke hAtha kahI kucha vindu bhI prAtA to usako masala kara apane ko kucha halkA bhI kiyA jA sakatA thaa| lephina khata kA javAba maine nahI diyA / na phira koI khaira-savara praaii| iga sunna sannATe para koI kyA kara sapAtA thA? lAnata-malAmata, phaTakAra-dutakAra kisa para DAla sakatA thA? ki Aja phona milaa| pUchA, kyA pAca baje mai pA sakatA hU~? mAvAja phApa rahI thI, galA bharA huA thaa| lekina uttake isa 'kyA' para me jhuMjhanA pAyA / "kyA meM A sakatA hU~?" kyo, vaha kmavasta jAnatI nahIM ki duniyA ke naya kAma choDakara mujhe jAnA hogA, 'kyA' kA navAla nahIM hai / phira bhI yaha umakA 'kyA' mujhe andara taka cora gayA / mAno usane apanA vizvAsa no diyA ho, merA vizvAsa kho diyA ho / duniyA meM pAhI usake lie kisI vizvAsa kA ThikAnA na raha gayA ho / maine kahA thA "kona supI ? tU bhI hai ?"

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jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga "marI nahIM " "nahI ! abhI nahIM mrii|" "maiM kyo pAU ?" 'mArane bhI nahI pA sakate ? usI ke lie A jaayo| dayA kro|" ina bAta kA maiM mahasA uttara nahIM koI banA sakA aura phona kAna para lie cupa raha gyaa| "rAjeza" vANI mAno bhItara pAnI se bharI kApa rahI thI aura mujhame mAna caDhatA jAtA thaa| "rAjerA ? . rAjeza ! sunate nahI ho? maiM mara rahI hai / " pAke dekhoge nahIM ki maiM mara rahI hU ?" maine jora se TelIphona vahI de mArA aura iga pAca baje taka itajAra karatA rhaa| gAyada use prAzA nahIM thii| zAyada use zrAzA thI / mana kahatA thA ki vaha jAnatI hai ki kucha aura mere lie sambhava nahIM hai| jAe vinA mujha se rahA nahI jA sakegA / aura sacamuna hI ga vimmita nahIM hunA jaba dekhA ki mere pAte hI usake sAtha ke gajjana vidA le gae haiN| supamA ko maiM jAnatA ha / hIre vI manI-mI vaha kaThAra ho gAtI hai aura kATa kara sakatI hai| "mbaI se kara pAI ?" "mAna roja hue !" "sAta roja?" "zrIra merA gugnA phira mubhage ghane lgaa| "prANa bhI majabUra horara tumheM yAda kiyA hai|" "na karatI Aja no kyA curA thA?" "andhA hI thaa| lenina ho nahIM nA / "rAjega, ye kyA ho jAtA hai ? jindagI kyA hai ? duniyA kyA hai ? pyAra kyA pAjUna hai ?"

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jhamelA.., 77 "kyA magAU ? kAphI, cAya ?" "graha, choTo / 'saca, rAjeza / pyAra kyA hai ? dhokhA hai ?" "jAke kahatA hU, ki jaldI kre|" "nahI, baittho| pAtA hogA / kyo, mujhe maha nahIM sakate ho ?" "nahI saha sakatA / zakala to dekho | aura yaha livAsa ! vAha ! kyA kahane hai | bambaI me yahI sIkhA hai ?" "tuma vilAyata me kyo jA baiThe the ?" "vako mata / mere jAne se pahale tuma yaha kara cukI thii|" "kauna kahatA hai " "maiM kahatA hU / tumane phona kiyA thA ? pUchA thA ? ava vAta banAtI ho / " "saca, tuma teraha ko nahIM cala gaye the ?" "nahI, satraha ko gayA thA / " / sunakara usake muha se lambA sAsa nikalA / jaise gaharI hAya ho / phira bolI, "choDo rAjega / aba kaho, tumhAre pAna yA jAU ?" rAjeza ne usa andhere ujAle meM supI ke cehare ko bhanpUra devA / prazna me pAradarzI ImAnadArI thI / bolA-"supamA / tU baka to nahI rahI ?" 'nahIM, baka nahIM rahI, tuma jAnate ho|" "praya kahA ho" "ghara mA gaI hai| eka pAMva inaphe yahA bhI hai jo abhI gaye haiM !" "sAto roja rahI thI ?" "ghara Aja gaI ho ?" " " 'svAgA milA?" "nahI, yoI mubhage nahIM bolaa|"

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jainendra kI kahAniyA damadA bhAga "suda gaI thI ?" "vahI pAkara le gae the, maine phona kiyA thaa|" rAjega pIhA se bhara pAyA / volA--"supamA / " "tuma jAnate to ho rAjeza / maranA isase aAsAna hotA hai !" "unhoMne kucha nahIM kahA " "kucha bhI nahIM kahA !" "kyA bAta hai ? patthara to hai nahIM vaha 1" "maine patthara kara diyA hai| itanA ki aba vaha mujha para DATa-upaTa bhI kharcanA phijUla samajhate haiM / " "unako to haka hai / aura nahIM to sastI hI kreN|" "sava haka taka kara diyA hai unhone / mai naraka me jAU, yA pApa meM paDU / lekina, unakI paravariza kI chata mere lie hamezA pulI hai| yahI hai gajeza, jo mai nahIM saha saktI |''nhii saha sakatI |''nhiiN raha sktii| ye kRpA ye dayA. ye bhIsa' batAyo rAjeza mayA ?" "vahI rho|" "rAjeza !" "hA, vahI rho|" "tuma kucha nahIM kara sakate " "nahI kara sktaa|" "rAjeza / nuga sarata kyoM banate ho? tuma vaha ho nahIM / tumhAre pAsa saba hai / jarA cAho to saba kara sakate ho / mere lie eka koTarI bahuta hai / tumhe kane batAka ki ghara mujhe hara ghar3I pIstA rahatA hai| usakI paravariza ke meM lAyaka nahIM hai / tumhe gayA batAU ki bahA merA aba bhI zrAdara hotA hai ! saba merI phimA karate hai / mumasa mucha nahI rahate aura merI hara svAhima, hara jarUrata kA syAla rakhate haiN| gajega, mujhe udhAra no / mujhe vahA gema sA jAtA hai jo aspatAla ho, aura mai mriij| gA, maiMne jo viyA gada bhugatane yo tayArI nagAra ? mere

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jhamalA 76 mana meM aba bhI nahI hai ki kie para lauTUM / pachatAvA mana me nahI hai| pyAra ko vyAha se baDA samajhA, isako kyA maiM galatI mAna sakatI hai? lekina, mujhe ubAra lo rAjega ?" "unhone to vyAha ko bar3A mAnane ko tumase nahIM kahA na ?" "nA |..nahI kahA !" "phira ?" "rAjeza ! tumako kyA huA hai / moco ki maiM kaise saha sakatI hai ? dasa mahIne pUre ho gae, mai sulakara unake sAtha rahI aura ghara kI tarapha nahI dekhA / ava dasa mahIne bAda ghara kI garaNa letI hU aura koI kucha nahIM kahanA, to kyA yaha mujhe kATegA nahI ?" "mana zaraNa lo|" "kahatI to hU~, kucha intaz2Ama kara do|" rAjeza apane vAvajUda andara me kasatA pA rahA thA / usane kahA "ThIka hai / eka munAsiba kamarA DeDha sau se do mI spaye mAhavAra kirAye meM ho skegaa| talAza karUM?" "rAjedA / " supamA ne davI cIsa me pahA-"tuma cale jAo yahA ne " "kAphI na pIne dogI? lo, vaha le bhI pAyA / " baMga maya sAmAna meja para rapa gayA / supamA sunna baiThI rahI aura rAjeza ne pyAlA banAkara supamA ko peza kiyA / supamA ne cupacApa sAsara ko hApa meM le liyA aura phira rAjeza ne apanA yapa banAyA aura pore se sipa liyaa| nAya hI maMDavica ke pleTa go unane supamA kI tarapha nryaayaa| kucha dera koI kucha nahIM bolA / anta me rAjeza ne gahA-"payo, banAyA nahI ?" mupamA mAno pAsumo meM se hamI / bolI-"mere pAsa bahuna paMgA hai| bahuta * bahuta bahuta paimA hai| mAnate ho aurato ke pAsa paisA gane mA pAtA hai manAte marda hai, A jAnA aurato ke pAsa hai| kiM isa

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80 jainendra ko gahAniyA dagavA bhAga khUvI se ki ve aurata haiM / tyo, mujhame kyA aba kucha vAkI nahIM rahA go paise kI bAta karate ho ?" ___"vAkI hogA, isIlie zAyada cupacApa pati ne apanA para phira tumhe peza kara diyA |-hai na?" " "gajeza, nikala jAyo yahA se / mai bevakUpha thI jo tumheM bulaayaa|" "hA, devakUpha thii| aura isase pahale bhI jo kI bevakUphI kI / tuma pyAra karatI ho, maiM vebakUphI vahatA hU / supamA, isIlie pAyA hai ki tuma samajha jAyo ki bevakUphI kyA hotI hai|" ___ "tuma pyAra ko bevakUphI kahate ho, tuma ? abhI taka tumhI na the ki mujhe samajhAte the ki vahI eka satya hai, vahI parama satya hai / paramezvara usane dUsarA nahI hai / aura ava ye kyA kahale lage?" rAjeza ne kaDavA banakara kahA-"kaha ye rahA ha ki do sau rapaye me eka ThIka kamarA ho sakatA hai / usa hisAba se pAca-u. saumpayA Upara kA aura sarca samajha lo| sAta sau rapayA mAhavAra tuma kitane mahIne taka cAhatI ho mai tumheM udhAra detA rahU ?" supamA vyathA aura vedanA se bhare svara se bolI-"rAjega / " "zAyada sAmayika patitva mujhe evaja meM dene kI bAta tumhAre mana meM ho / nava avazya udhAra udhAra nahI raha jaataa| payo, vaha vAna hai?" "rAjega, meM raha cukI hai ki tuma cale jAyo yahA meM !" "-nahIM / vaha mujhe majUra nahIM hai| vaha mahagA naudA hogaa| isame to nannA pyAra hotA hai| pyAra meM rAva mupata mila jAtA hai kyA yaha tumhAre pAsa hai, yA mere pAsa hai, jo diyA jA sake ? mujhe tuma para mAnanI ho jo pyAra to paramezvara kahatA hai / meM aba bhI une parameghara patA hu / tava pyAra hamArA rahA hai, paramezvara kA hai aura usame gaurA nahIM ho sktaa|" guno nupamA, bahako mana, yora bakAyA mata ! ye tIya hai ki kamAtA madaM hai, ganaMtI progta hai| paMge para pradhikA gorA mAnatI aura bholI hai, ga to manAne aura ganimAne bhara kAma

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jhamelA dAra hai| marda kI isI kamajorI ko agara aurata apanI tAkata samajhe jAegI to vaha pAgala hogI / taba jAnatI ho, pati usakA mAlika banegA aura sAthI nahI bana skegaa| pati mAlika kA aura patnI mAla mAlikI kA nAma hogA aura usakA bandhana antima hogA / tumhe nahIM mAlUma ki jisa bhApA meM soca rahI ho vaha prema kI nahI, artha kI hai| isIlie tumase kaha rahA hU ki pati ke ghara kI zaraNa lI hai to vahI raho aura vahI ThIka hai / usame tuma pima jAno, mara jAo, to bhI galata nahIM hogaa| kyoki kyoki 'vatAyo, jo pyAra thA vaha pyAra nikalA ? phira vaha uDa kaise gayA ? * 'maine tumase pUchA nahIM hai "supamA, mApha karanA / saca batAno, kyA hugA ?" 'tuma kyA use nahI jAnate ? dekhA to hai| kaI bAra dekhA hogaa|" "hA, dekhA hai / jAnatA hU / lekina, huA kyA ?" "kyA batAU rAjeza / mujhame saba ho gayA thaa| koI khUbasUratI na thI jo mubhame na ho! vaha jina pAsoM me dekhatA thA uname kucha kamI na rahatI thI / mAno vaha nigAha sArI duniyA, sArA khajAnA, sArA svarga mujhame pA jAtI thI / rAjega, ve dina aise svAba me gujare kiM kucha kahA nahIM jA sakatA / mai umagI rahatI thI aura ghara meM naukara ko bhI bardAzta nahIM kara sakatI thii| merA mana nahIM bharatA thA jaba taka bartana meM na gAjU, maphAI mai hI saba na marU aura sAnA bhI khuda hI na pakAU / eka daphe pAnA banatA pA aura hama nikala jAte the| jahAM cAhate jAte, aura saba jagaha raMgInI thI aura pUvamUratI thI aura vana masamala bana jAtA paa| lekina mere jisma me se jAne gayA sone lgaa| aura usage yAno me se bhI na jAne kyA kama hone lagA / lamahe vahIM hote aura saba maMjara banI rahatA / lekina, yaha batalAtA ki maiM unnIsa-bIsa varana kI kyo na huI aura kupArI payo na huii| bora mujhe bhI socanA paranA ki hAya unnIsa-caurA varanIvArI meM payo na huI / lekina, kuvArapana merai basa kA na thA / aura usako unI yo pAhata hone lagI thii| maiM maine

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jainendra mI kahAniyA dasavAM bhAga jahara bhI sAyA ! aura bhI rAste AjamAye / para apane se aura prAparA se napharata aime ghumar3atI huI uThatI ki hada pAra phara vaha pyAra bana paatii| hama eka dUsare ko napharata karate aura phira ekAeka pyAra meM DUbakara, phira napharata karane kA dama pA jAte | usa sabame svAda bhI pA rAjeza / vA teja svAda thA / mai usame rahe jA sakatI thii| maratI-maratI bhI jie jA sakatI thI * para kyA huA ki usane kahA, dillI cleNge|" ___maiMne isa bIna supamA kA eka hAtha apanI dono holiyo ke bIca le liyA thA aura vaha vahI TikA huA thaa| aba svaya uThApAra supamA ke hAtha ko maiMne supamA kI goda meM hI choDa diyaa| supamA ne kahA-- "vo ?" merA svara bharA thA / bolA- "kucha nahIM !" suna kara suSamA ne apanA hAtha vaDhAkara merI u galiyo ko le liyA aura kucha dera unhe umI taraha thAme rahI / lekina mujha se sahayoga, sahAga na gayA aura supamA kA hAtha vApana apanI hI goda meM siMca gyaa| maine jAnA ki usane merI ora dekhA hai| mai jAne pahA pAra derA rahA thA aura jAne kyA dekha rahA thaa| "suna rahe ho?" __jAne dUra kahIM kue ke bhItara se pAvAra pA rahI ho, aime bolA ___ "nahIM / guna nahIM rahe ho !" "hA, chorI / vaha saba hotA hai / tumane bahuta sahA / prAge mujhe tahane ko na kaho / " "nahIM, suno| hama dillI A ge| phira jAnate ho, ma roja gayA dumA ? bAta thI ki tImare roDa bambaI lauTeMge 1 meM usI pI mopatI thI aura cIz2a-canta ke intajAma meM thii| tabhI yA detI hai ki eka saMbare vaha cupacApa gAyaba ho gae hai ! bAnI niyAna jI kI aura apanA sAmAna gahanA liyA thA / mujhe patA nahIM humA, zAma ta patA nahIM

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jhamelA 83 humaa| Akhira patA calA to yahI merI samajha me nahI pAyA ki na kahane kI aura corI kI isame kyA bAta thI / mai jabaradastI to sAtha badhane vAlI thI nahIM / kahate to kucha unake lie subhItA hI kara detii| lekina, rAjeza, vatAyo yaha yayA hotA hai ? jo eka dina sava kucha thI vahI bhAra aura bojha kaise bana jAtI hai ? maiM aurata hU aura kisI taraha isa bAta ko nahIM samajha pAtI / " ___"tuma nahIM samajha pAmogI / koI nahIM samajha paaegaa| choDate haiM, usako samajhane kI jarUrata nahIM raha jAtI hai / pAnA cAhate haiM, vahI pAkhoM me vasA rahatA hai| supI, kaI hoge jo rAha me tumase bhI chUTa gaye hoMge / unake bAre me tuma samajha sakatI ho, soca saktI ho! . "yahI usa vicAre ke sAtha huzrA / usake mana meM kabhI tuma vattI thI, aba jo aura sUrata aura mUrata vahA basa gaI hogI vaha usI ke pIche calA gayA / tumhe agara choDa gayA to tumhe samajhane kI une jarurata hI kahA rahI? choDo / 'banda kro| pAtro, uTho / halkI bano aura raja ko pI jAyo / "pikcara calogI ?" ___ "nahIM, Age suno 'yaha prAja usakA satta pAyA hai / isI ke lie tumheM bulAyA thA ki pUchU, rayA karUM ?" usa ghudhalI rodAnI me gajega ne sata panA / bacakAnA-sA thA lekina pala meM bahuta darda thA / vaha saccA khata thA / paTakAra rAjega cupa ho gyaa| "bolo, batAyo / cha bAho na?" "tuma payA socatI ho?" "maiM kabhI kabhI nahI jAUgI!" "vaha pAgala ho sakatA hai| tumhAre binA jInA use muzkila hai| aise meM jo pAra gujare codA hai" yaha saba tuma jAnatI ho|" nahI jaantii| kane jAna sapatI ha / muha chipApara merI tauhIna mArapo jo calA gayA hai, gayA vaha yaha saba banAphara nahI lisa taktA ? "nahI, nava ghogA hai|"

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ye do rAma kumAra jI ko 'mahAzaya' kahanA pAtra kA sDha prayoga nahIM hai | zrAzaya vaha apanA bharasaka mahAn ramate hai / lekina unhoMne nira pAyA, bAla khIce, para kucha samajha me na zrAyA / savere kA samaya thA, aura vaha akele the / kucha kAma-dhAna ho nahIM sakA thaa| rAta ko nIda nahI grAI thI / aura vaha cupacApa uThakara sapere muha-pravere hI isa grapane adhyayana ke kamare me A gaye the ki kucha kreNge| para kiyA kucha nahI jA sakA / Akara pahale to vaha isa kamare meM para se udhara ghUmate rahe / phira mez2a para ghaMThe bhI, to kucha dera bAda kuhUniyA meja para Tika gaI, aura hatheliyoM me ThoDo tathA manapaTiyoM ke sahAre caharA Tika gayA / zrora vaha sona meM baiThe raha gaye / vaiThe-baiThe phira uTanA pahA / zrIra phira Tahalane lage / aise ho namaya bItatA gayA / pakSI pahUcahAne lage | aura saverA nikalatA calA pAyA / mAlUma huA ki samaya pravasya calA hai, aura zAyada kadama bhI barAbara calate rahe hai, para bAta yahI kI vahI rahI hai, tanika bhI cala-binala nahIM huI hai| 1 bAta manamuca hI pragama thI / zrajava jica ko sthA thI / isa para yakIna karane ko jI nahIM hotA thA / para yaha bhI, aura poratA se sAmane thI / anta meM unheM aura kucha nahIM sUbhA, no hAra para meja para baiThe, aura hAtha caDhAkara meja para lagI ghaTI ko jora se davA diyA | zrAvAja sunakara yAne nokara ne badagI bajAkara nahArAma kumAra jI ne aise degA, ki jaise hA se yaha kona sA gayA hai| para mana para pahA - "bIpI rahI hai unheM bhejanA / " jo 7"

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ye do 87 vIvI jI AI, to vaha koI vizeSa vizvasta aura Azvasta bhAva lakara upasthita huI, yaha nahIM kahA jA sktaa| Ate hI bolI-"kyA hai ? tuma soye nahI ?" "tumhI kyA so sakI ho ? suno, aba aura koI rAstA nahI hai / usase milanA hI hogA ?" "milakara kyA hogA? usakI z2ida to jAhira hai / vaha eka nambara hai, jo tuma samajhane ho / jhukane vaha kyo lagA? tumhI soco, ipara hI ThIka na hogA, to upara kyA prAgA rasI jA sakatI hai ? apanI lADalI ko to sabhAlo / unI ke vana-bUte para vaha kUda rahA hai|" "tumane usase bAta kI?" "yAta kyA sAka karU ? vaha to guma-suma ho rahatI hai / bole jAka, pUche jAU, aura anta me hAra kara meM hI mira phoDa lU / maine kahA thA, ki tuma bAta kro| tuma me vaha kucha DaratI bhI hai| mujhe to ginatI taka nahIM / tumhI ne ume car3hAyA hai / "tava ne kahatI pA rahI thI, ki smjho-nmo| lekina tumane eka nahIM sunI / tumheM laDakI kA bharosA pA, to aba sabhAlate gayo nahI ? hara bAta mujha para dete ho| bigAr3ate buda ho, sabhAlane ko maiM hU / " "acchA, acchA nAke umI ko bheja do|" "bheja to dUgI, lekina dekhanA, DATanA-upaTanA nhiiN| do dina meM becArI prAdhI ho gaI hai / vaha pauna nuga meM hai / lekina kambarala'"une to jela hogA cAhie, jaita / para tuma meM kucha nahIM hone kA duniyA me / mama liyaa|" unake partavya kA mAna itanA raha jAya, yaha prasannatA kA bhavAdana paa| sunakara mahAmAya ko bhauheM caDI / lekina unhoMne apane ko kAbU meM kiyaa| mahA--"aralA, yAvA / jAmo, TuppI ko bheja do|" "deganA pyAra me nmaanaa| eka daphA gAra niyA, vanna vaha bahuta

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janendra kI kahAniyA dagamAgama "tuma jAke bhejo to une|" / bhallAhaTa meM bAta ko sakSipta karate hue bole-"tuma jAke jA une / " abhI bhejatI hai / lekina tumhI sAra karate ho| aura banata para tumhI hAya bhI uThAte ho / ava mata uThAnA hAtha / kAhe detI h|" / rAma kumAra bahuta hI sIjha gye| unhone mAthe para hAga mAra para pahA-"are, bAbA, khatama karo / jaagro|" "hA, satama bhI ava meM hI kara / " pAhatI huI, bIvI jI kamare se bAhara ho gii| rAma kumAra kSubdha-mana vaiThe raha ge| thoDI dera me vaha vahA prAI, jisakA nAma duppI batAyA gayA thaa| vaha draupadI thI / saccI aura pahalI draupadI kaisI hogI, patA nhiiN| para aimI rahI ho to bhI mahAbhArata kA kAma pAyada thoDAbahuta nala jA sakatA thA / gundara thI. yaha gAnA paryApta nhiiN| gaundayaM me jo atirikta thA, vaha dhyAna khIcatA thaa| avasnA adhika nahIM thii| para abhI me andara ko dRDhatA aura prasaratA ganA de jAtI thii| rAma kumAra jaba apanI isa kanyA ko desate, to kinita capina raha jAte / 'vaha gaba isame kahA me yA gayA hai, jo hama igo mAtA-pitA dono me kicina bhI nahIM hai ? chuTapana ge degate pAye hai| baccI thI, taba bhI nAmAnya rUpa aura pracAra mI baccI nahI thii| apanI raNane aura calAne ko jage chuTagana gahI usake pAga kucha-na-nASTa ho jAtA thaa|' pAja hara samaya unako samakSa dekhakara gama camAra po sacamuca lagA, ki tAranA-pratADanA saba vyartha hai| bhAgya hI pAna gamayaM / / Age kahA-"baiThI, bettii|" draupadI baiTha gyii| "eka bAta pRcha, to btaayogii|" nopadI cupa rhii|

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7 ye do 89 vonI / "jii|" "tuma vahA raha makogI?" "jii|" "raha sakogI ?... lekina palI to usa ghara me maujUda hai ?" "maiM nibhA luugii|" "vayA kaha rahI ho?" rAma kumAra kucha dera nistabdha rahane ke bAda vausalA kara bole-"nibhA logI? para kaise nibhA logI? upa-patnI banakara ? vipalI vanakara ? eksTrA vanakara ? tuma nibhA logI, para jAnato ho ki kAnUna nibhAne ko taiyAra nahI hogA ? dUsarI patnI ho nahIM sktii|" "Apa unase bAta kara liijie|" "tuma kisase bAta kara rahI ho, mAlUma hai ? bApa se bAta kara rahI ho / meM usane yayA vAta karU! yaha ki tuma pAne ko taiyAra ho ? aura mai tumhArA pitA tumheM vahA viThAne ko taiyAra hUM? yahI bAta karane ko raha jAtI hai, "kyo ?" "vaha mukhI nahI hai / baDe dukhI haiM, bAbU jii|" "goha / to vaha sukha tumase ho sakegA / tuma zAyada yahI soca rahI ho, ki une suna milanA cAhie, aura tuma sukha de skogii| vimalA ko tuma gAbhI gahanI prAI ho / unane tumheM mA kA pyAra diyA hai / usa dunAra kA yaha pranidAna dogI / kyA tuma sacamuca samajha sakatI ho, ki vimalA ko durA devara tumhAre pAsa muga bacA raha jAyegA, ki khuda pA samo yA ginI ko de sako ? vimalA ko cintA aura citA para payA tuma umale pani ke suno bhavana mA nirmANa karanA cAhatI ho?" __dropadI ne panI / unane apane muha yo hAyo se haka liyaa| haThAt bolI-"nahIM, nahIM, nahIM ! meM unheM dula nahIM de sktii| kisI taraha meM yaha nahIM para sakhtI / lekina vaha to yaha to maiM uname yahI kahatI rhii| pUchatI rahI hai| yaha parate haiM-"

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Eo jainendra kI kahAniyA dama bhAga "kyA kahate haiM ? bolo na, cupa kyoM ho gaI ?" "nahIM / nahIM, nahIM / maiM bhAbhI jI ke dugakA kAraNa nahIM bnuuNgii| lekina vaha kahate hai-" kucha svara me pitA ne kahA- "yahI to pUcha rahA hai, pitA hai vaha "" ucchvAsa dhIre-dhIre samApta ho cukA thA, aura peharA bhI hAthoM se TakA nahI raha gayA thA / dropadI jora lagA hue mahA"hate hai vaha, ki yaha merI koI nahIM hai / kabhI kucha nahIM kI hai| merI phikra use kyA hai? usane apanA sahArA pA liyA hai| 'merA koI nahI hai / mA nahI hai, bahana nahIM hai, bhAI nahIM hai| bApa hai, aura yaha nahIM se bhI nahIMtara haiM / meM hai, aura mere cAro tarapha yuga homa hai|" kahate-kahate propadI phira ucchvAsa se bhara gaI / usI taraha behare ko hAyo me lekara subaka uThI / bolI, "bAbUjI gayA yaha jhUTha hai jhUTha hai ? pyAra jhUTha hai ? dhIra gayA meM jhUTha ke yaga meM thI ? nahIM, nhiiN| aigA kaise ho sakatA hai ? yaha bAteM, ve vAyade, ve gasameM / " nahIM, nhiiN| saba jhUTha kaise ho gagatA hai ? rAva jhUTha nahIM ho sakatA hai| zrI bAbU jI meM bAyaka mujhe aura poTiye ki maine jhUTha ko apanAyA hai, yopA mAyA aura yoga diyA hai| Apako parezAna kiyA hai| lekina ghI yA gA vaha vayA reva thA? nahIM, nhiiN| eka bAra ghApake sAmane pUcha bAra jAna lenA cAhatI hai| kirAyA? saca va ekdama nayA ? kahane yaha kurtI se nIce gira bhAI moda sagIra papapapapa para rone lgii| hI jAtI thI- "mujhe paura mAriye, bAbU jI mora mAriye meM jhUTha meM garI 1 d nanda rahI para gayA thA? gAto nahIM hai| para ha dIjiye ki yaha pAune emA hogA / "

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ye do 61 mahAzaya rAma kumAra kA citta pasIga gyaa| unhoMne beTI kI bAho ko apanI jAdho para ro gonakara use uThAte hue kahA-"uTho, beTI / sAmane baittho| hA, aise|" usI kI potI kA pallA lekara pAsuno se bhare usake cehare ko pochate hue kahA----"svaratha ho ke baiTho, beTI / tuma paTI-lisI ho, aura aba ema0 e0 ho jaayogii| mApha karo ki merA hAya tuma para uTha gayA thaa| aba samajhatA hU, ki vaha galatI thii| kyoki tumane jhUThA prAcaraNa kiyA bhI thA ! to usake bhItara saca hai, yaha samajha phara kiyA thaa| samajhA thA tumane ki pyAra kI rakSA kara rahI ho, aura jahA dusa hai yahA sutva kI sRSTi karane me apanA visarjana kara kara rahI ho / aba maiM samajha pAtA hai ki kyA cIz2a tumhe dRDhatA de rahI thii| maiM jida samajhatA thA, para jida ko bhI jo eka yAna thAme hue pI, usako maiMne nahIM dekhA thaa| aba vaha anyAya munaro na hogaa| levina, beTI, ava maiM tumhArI saccAI ko dekhatA hU~, to tumhe batalA bhI mapAtA hai, ki tuma bhUla meM thI, aura jhUTha meM thI, ki tumane eka nahI, do nahIM, pUre bhAra mahIno se hama logo se jhUThA vyavahAra rasA, hame bhUThA pAzvAsana diyaa| aura isame usa pAdamI ne tumhe upAsAyA, jisago tuma gahatI ho ki pyAra pAnatA aura cAhatA thA / socogI to patA bharogA ki yaha saba kitanA micyA vyApAra thaa| pyAra to rAmagura guca meM bhI baja saca hotA hai| agara usameM ghara mA milA, mora usakI bagaha se jhUTha gaura porI bhI mA gaI, to soco ki gayA yaha mUta meM pyAra bhI rahA hogA? yA ki yaha asala me chata hI hogA?.. bimalA ke lie usane kahA ki yaha sabhI unakI koI yA kucha bhI nahI rahI / bAraha varSa se yaha snA sAra detI rahI hai| hama rAva ne degA: jiunI jaimo parAyaNA pasnipA dhAna taura para nahI hotI "tuma pomapane ghara meM kula pora porI mA pAcaraNa pArAtA rahA, jo sparga mApane para meM bhUta kA vyavahAra karatA rahA, phira jo tanA lana banA hi parAyaNAlI meM durasa kI tarapha se vimukha hokara usakI

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62 jainendra ko mahAniyA darAyo bhAga .. saba taraha kI nindA aura guramA tumhAre mana me DAlatA rahA, mahU me tumheM saca me Upara uThAne ko goca rahA hogA ? kA nahIM hai, ki tuma dega lo ki pyAra ke nAma para jo tuma sogoM ne paidA kara liyA thA, usame yahI gore yAtA na bhI, aura yaha eka korA jhUTha pA ? tuma bAgha para usI ko ho / nisa para muTTI vAthI hai, solakara jaga dekho ki kyA uge una kucha hai bhI eka bAra batAmo | pAsaporTa banane para tuma loga sAta jAne vAle ye ?" rahanA "phorana cale jAte / " "mAnaM me hI ?" "hA, zuru mArca me / " "kA gayA hone vAlA thA "jI ?" "meM unakI hAlata jAnanA hai | pAca hajAra kA bhI inajAma lie mAnA nahIM hai| use vahI udhAra nahIM milegaa| phira maha para yaha mAmalA ? yahi par3hamhAtArI yA mulI veDhe, naromA thA, jo suna pAraMgI, tumhAre bAbu jI cuhI, ki tu kabhI tumheM usa nahIM ki kucha hogA, kahA meina ho dUrI nahIM ho nahIM gayI mAnA donoM cIjoM ko aisA hogA aura samAja meM kipariyAra gnaaegaa| bhI maiMne hai| Izvara pyAra meM hai nahIM mAnA hai / / diyA jaae| hai, nahIM hai| # para melA hai aura nAmohara

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bhAganA cAhate the / zAyada jarUrata par3ane para nAma taka badalate aura davechipe rahane kI koziza karate / bolo, isame tuma baDAI dekhanA cAhate the ? mAlUma hai, taba kyA hotA ? tuma kAnUna se bhAgate, aura kAnUna tumhe papADane pIche-pIche jAtA / socate hoge, ki deza se pAra videza meM jAne se kAnUna kI giraphta chuTa jaatii| vaha bAta saca nahIM hai| dezavidedA maya Apasa me aise mAmalo meM sahayoga karate hai| saba dezo me monogemI hai| duppI veTe, tuma samajhadAra ho| isa sAla ema0 e0 ho jAnogI / tumhArI koI svatantratA maiM tumase chInane vAlA nahIM huuN| lekina tumhI uga svatantratA ko apane cAro tarapha se kATa kara apane ko kaMdasAne meM DAla lo, to isame maiM tumhArI koI sahAyatA nahI kara sktaa| tuma vahI karane jA rahI ho| saca ke prakAza se phaTaphara tuma jhUTha ke adhere meM hI chipa kara apanA sthAna banAne ko raha jAtI, aura isakI anumati mere pAsa se pA na sakatI / ava bhI dekho ki tuma bAla-bAla kirA narama kI sabhAvanA se bacI ho| maiM pUchatA hU, kyA hai ki vaha AdamI mAja bhI mere sAmane nahIM pAtA hai ? jaba patA calA, usI kSaNa se vaha mAnnI mATatA pitA hai / yaha pyAra hai, jo jyotipka aura ugrIva hotA hai ? maiM samabhanA ha, draupadI, ki tuma pahacAnogI ki yaha vaha cIja hai, jo muha TipAkara reMgane ko praverI sIlI gariyo aura moriyo ko ilatI hai / yaha prema nahI haiM, ki jo ekamAra puNya hai| yaha dambha aura ela hai, jo nirA pora porA pApa hai|" ___ "pApa " dropado z2ora se yaha zabda mAhakAra, hamapI-bapako gI apane pitA ko dekhatI raha gii| phira apane bhItara jAne kahA se gasti khopatI haI colI--"prema pApa nahIM hotA, vAbU jii|" rAma pugAra ne atizaya sneha se rahA-"ThIka kahanI ho, beTI ! prema pApa nahI hotA / pApa hai, aura golie vaha prema nahI hai|" __ "cAvU jI, maiM mApane hAtha jor3atI hai| mujhe gadha-kucha dIna rahA hai| lekina emA bAra Apa unheM bulA diijie| ghAmako sAmane pUcha kara maiM

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janendra ko mahAnigA danayA bhAga apane mana meM bharachI taraha jAna lenA cAhatI , ki gayA jo thA, vaha rAya bhuva mA / nahIM, vaha gajharo manarI maha rAyate / mero pAlo meM detAra vaha manahI bola marate, mabhI nahIM bola gro|" "pApako vicAna nahIM hotA?" "avizvAsa kI bAta nahIM hai, bettii| vismaya pArI hai gigama cIsI gayAnI ko nahI dIkha rahA hai, ki isa mAre mAmale ke gItarAgA pIyA hai|" __ "dIga rahA hai, pAbujI / dIgane laga rahA hai| bhApa ura yunAe no| jo mujhe aba kucha-kucha dIna rahA hai, degI ni usI ko yaha degane se ro panasAra pArate haiN| mApa pahane the, ki unheM jida hai|" ___"hA mujhe batAyA gayA hai. ki jida hI hai| yaha uma garase meM pAna nahI pAnA cAhanA, jise sIdhI gApA le aparApa gA rAstA gahanA cAhie / tumhArI yaNA se maiM hAya mIne hue hai, nahIM to pAgapa zo ropane lie mAnana ne jo bAteM taiyAra para namI haiM, para gAya bagara unako daboca na~gI, maiM kaha nahI ptaa| tAhI banAmo, jida gAgarA jAna ho bhI gayA garatA hai?" maiM vAnigaha, pitA jI / mora bAliga logoM ko patalatA para poI mAnanAya nahIM thAla mAtA !" gama kagAra kA nArA manIna ho pAyA / mo-nagama patI-rimomAsara guma gAmAtI ho, zigAna me bAre meM laga gahI motii| vana meM nArI jAtA aura prabhAgA gogoM ko agavA na pAyA, magara gIta manamAnI / yamana mArA harIra bharanA nAgInIyA, goyanA mezita magara dara gagama dara na , moragapAgAmA pAne meM bataura rAnA gA ET, gogA ranii morA gAnA bhInoM pinA garI

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ye do L rhegii| isame koI kucha nahI kara sakatA hai, beTI, ki aparAdha ko kAnUna se niTanA paDe / phala kyA hogA, nizcita nahI hai / lekina parivAra bhaga ho, zrora damana zrora vidroha kA Amane-sAmane dvandva ho nikale to yaha khAnadAna ke lie yA kisI ke lie bhI zobhA kI bAta nahI hogI "pitA jI, dhamakAie nahI / " "beTI, tuma ko dhamakAne ke lie koI aura Ane vAlA nahI hai / mujhako bhI banda karatI ho, to lo bacA-sucA me bhI vanda ho jAtA hU~ | lekina choDo | bAta apane bIca me hai | damana aura dalana kA jo yanna saDA hai, vaha dUra aura bAhara hai, aura usake prAvAhana ke lie meM zrAtura nahI hU~ | lekina volo, bAta karogI ? use bulAka ? phona karU ?" "hA / bulA lIjie / " "vayA tuma ijAjata dogI, vaha zrAye, to pahale meM hI unase bAta karU ?" ''' "yo ? grAzramavAiegA to nahI ?" "isIliye kisakA prazna abhI tumhAre mana me TanA dopatA hai ? nahI, dhamakAUgA nahI / " "bAbUjI, zrApa loga unheM duzmana na mAniye / vaha duSTa bhI nahIM haiM / Upara se kora paTatA hai, to yaha andara se kasa jAte haiM / lekina merA bahina vaha kisI taraha nahIM kara sakate / meM unapA hita socatI hUM ki dU, ki 'yo tumhArA dina isameM nahIM hai, aura tuma apanA hutrA vyAha nibhAne se jidagI, bAbU jI, para vaha nahI jhukeMge / aura yaha ghara se nahIM choDane, saba taka diyA vacana meM ghI moTAna me gatI hU~ ?" , kA? phira vahI ? rAga kumAra ne Ave me 'do ke bIca eka ne to patA hai? mAnUna pAna para tor3a degA, yA prApa logoM kI nAtira kATegA, to yA ho ? mana ke andara yA sagarabA ho kA jAyegA,

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mendra monikA dAnA to usame gayA hogA, bArImA pAnI devI mAnanA caura gunI hogA ?" "syA madatIta dropadI ?" "yahI gastI hu, vAjI, ki agara Apa pahane uga meM dhAna rakhA mAho, to jarara kareM / lenina dhamanI yA ora se kAma jogA , to phira mAge kA mAga mugina ho jaaegaa| aura munagena yA sare, to phira mune doSa mata diijiegaa|" "tu vizvAsa hai, mina mamAna naMgI? yA tapa, mo meM bhI mA ___ "rimvArA kI bAta pahA hai, pAbUjI ? una para meM pAgapa nAga magA gAnI / prema paTiga tagI to hotA hai, saca pratima nottii| damA nirdoSa to nahI hai| gali unako pAra se mai gara bho ma pgii| legina gara. sudha bhItI, mere sAmane nahIM mhNge| maMgadhAriNI nahI sge| mujhe paga rA. pijomA, Thaura nImAra jAge nahI deza ho / murgI dogane laga gayA, frrmAre pyAra kI gacAI meM umra mahI-ga-gahI karavAI kI gI! nAgora hama nahIM apanAta, na mAsa-pAsa nAMgo me gamolA magamagara pAnehI gumano baTAminane naga jAne / sAmAgAra meM kI jamahI sAyaM saamaa| 'gama draupadI" "sa, bArI ! gA meM degii| aura papa ga mogA meM dara degaa| aura mana meM bImAra mA ! gami gopana garI / aura rimomA marada pAyo / ' rAmagAra gAramA ", 7 Tr---"T", " mAna

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ye do bAta karane kI koI jarurata nhiiN| na yahA tumhArI bAto ke vIca zAyada maujUda rahane kI hI jarUrata hai| tuma dono sulakara bAta ka bhora pIche mujha se khnaa|" ____ "nahI, vAvUjI," draupadI ne kahA--"Apako apanA mana z2arAra ra kara lenA cAhie, aura unase bharapUra kaha-suna lenA caahie| basa, me pulisa vagairA ko mata lAiegA / pAkhira prAtmIyo meM Dara-lihAja bAta kyA hai ? galatI hama logo kI tarapha se yahI to huI, kiDa bacAva se kAma liyA / tabhI jo hamane saca mAnA thA, vaha sarAya se hone ke kAraNa anta me jhUTha nikalA / aura AtmIyatA me gussA va ho, to vaha saba nikala-nikalA kara Akhira bhalAI ko hI rAha detA isaliye prApa mere parokSa me hara taraha uname apane mana kI kaha-suna laM yegA / vaszane kI bilkula na sociye| sirpha bAharI dhamakI ko lIjiyegA / aura yaha bhI jarUrI hai, ki Apa rahe, jaba hama dona bAteM hoN|" "nahIM, nahIM, do javAno ko bIca meM merA kyA kAma ?" aura pra bhAva se apanI beTI draupadI ko dono gAlo para thapathapA kara, vaha tarapha rakhe hue TelIphona kI ora baDhakara, cogA uThApAra, DAyala / lge| prala '62

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ve do "gAyo, ajita zrAzro, vaiTo / " mahAzaya rAjakumAra ne uga yuvaka ke abhivAdana meM nahA jo hara taraha yogya jAna paTatA thA aura jisa para vyaya na dogatI thI / yuvaka ne tanika kAra praNAma diyA | kahA, "sAgane mujhe yAda kiyA pA ?" "haa| maiMne guDa phona miyA thaa| tuma usa vakta se nahIM / vigatA thI / asuvidhA to nahIM huI?" "kyA pUchI jAe ?" ve nae itanA dUra bana gayA hU bAbUjI vigA 7 1 rAjakumAra jI ne eka bharA gAma giyA / vA, "hAM / dUra to cana gae ho kucha | lekina maiMne yaha nahIM monA yA hogA tuma loga kyo nahIM sake " "pAya merA nahIM hai| dada koI burI cIja to merA dI, pArI rakSA ko Apa bacA yaha aura 7. nahIM, vahI bar3hakara pyAra vana jAto burAI degI jAtI hai| mahArA se pate haiN| samAja ke nauni ghora niyama kI hai / usI bihAna sevaI ko bhI sthira hai| yaha ko yoga 7 bho|" "sarI ! bhane nahIM meM bahuta ghanA hai bAvujI ! koI 4 ne hama tuma ho !"

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ve do ee "apane kisa bAre meM bAbUjI ? yaha ki niyama hama kama dekha pAte hai aura sneha ko jyAde mAnate hai / yaha bAta to saca hai / " " vimalA ko tuma sneha nahI karate ?" "nahI / " "vyAha to kiyA hai| "hA / " y! 1 'vaha bhI tumhe sneha nahI karatI ?" "vaha nahI sakatA / " "sneha ko tuma mAnate ho ?" "tI ko mAnatA ha {"1 "draupadI ko tuma kava se jAnate ho ?" "zrApa kyA pUcha rahe haiM ?" "nahI, batAyo / vaha usa samaya sagraha varSa kI rahI hogI / iTara me thAI thI aura tuma naye lekcarAra lage the / taba se hI na yaha sneha granubhava huA hogA / usase pahale tumhAre sneha kI kyA dazA thI ? mApha karanA yaha jiraha nahIM hai / sneha ko samajhane kI bAta hai / sneha to jIvana hai, kyo haina ? arthAt usake binA jInA ho nahI pAtA / yauvana ko tuma mahatva dete ho aura ThIka dete ho / lekina sneha ke binA gaMgava mora vAyaMgya bhI nahI kaTa sakatA hai / ghajIta, tuma loga sneha para apanA pANipatya mAnate ho | yahI yauvana kI bhUla hai / grava soco aura batAo dIpaka iMTara meM ghAI aura tuma kAleja meM Ae to usane pahale sneha tuma bhI ke jIvana meM anupasthita to hogA na ? apane-apane vRtta - rahA hogA / " pIta ko nahIM lagA / usane pahA, "zrApa gayA cAhate hai 7" 'tumapo bulAyA hai aura bApa kucha gamamnA socanA cAhatA hU / tumane paristhiti aisI hai" bAta Apane soca ne sage nahIM bar3hA diyA hai ?

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100 anendra so mAhAniyAM samA bhA pitA jI ke pAna mA panI kA pAra hai|" "hA, yAna Age yaha gaI hai aura tuma pAyada ume bhaya pIche nahIM rogA cAhate ho / taba to use paura mI mAge bahane se rokA nahIM jA sakatA!" "baDhie, aura yahAe / maiM mApako rokAyA nhiiN| Apane zAyada bhAI jI pulisa se bAta kI hai / aura sabase bhI pAhe to giijie| nekina Apa bhI nahIM roka sapheMge aura hama bhI nahIM rogaH skeNge| pyAra galata cIja nahIM hai aura koI ume roga nahIM smegaa|" "tuma samanadAra ho ajIta ! mana meM sahI aura galana nahIM hotA, kAma me humA pharatA hai / vahA para tanA jAde hotA hai ki hama samora kI ijjata ke lie hI gAyada hama rahate haiM aura duniyA unameM pala rahI hai| palI rahate hue vivAha dUsarA nahI piyA jarA sastA, pAka mi gaga sAdha cAhane vAlA prema bhI nahI nagA jA sakatA ? maMcana gA meM yAlA prema ho to kauna roka sastA? tuma loga jo gAma rahamA pAege ho ! tuma jAnate ho, yaha mabhava nahI hai|" ___ "maiM talAya le sktaa|" "to lene taka rahare payo nahIM ? rApa mAya videza bhAgane yI namAge game Thana gaI!" "talAka meM samaya lgegaa|" "to itanA ce gAnA pAhie paa|" " / " pahAra ajIta eka padako mummAna meM mugma rANA / mA, "kmojiegaa| hama loga ugane nahIM hai / ra so guNa nahI maante|''upkaa umIda me ge mAtA ramA, yathA / mApana rAjapAI para thaiTarara bAna bharanI kI no mu, banAne kI bArasa na dii| mAdApoM ke pitA pani nimI ko bhI niranI hai| mApa pa dAyare meM apane pitAra meM dAyare meM go indagIko pararI gara / mAganImAra malANA meM bhI jaga giyAna meM kAra mara gAne mere dimAga ifrrit

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ve do 101 bAdhaka hai aura jisake lie mai jimmedAra nahIM hai / vaha jime patnI kahA jAtA hai, sAthina nahI hai / aura hama dono eka-dUsare kA sAtha nahIM de makate to vivAha pho samAdhi vanApAra usake nIce svaya zava banakara jIne kA koI artha nahIM hai / vimalA Az2Ada hai aura tabhI se AjAda hai, jaba draupadI kA merA paricaya humA / usa para merA koI adhikAra, koI paAropa nahIM gayA hai| maiM..." ___ "tuma me naitika sAhasa dekhatA hU~ ajIta / aura yaha acchA hai| lekina phira ye corI-sUTa kyo calatA rahA?" "Apa namaka na pAte / mAtA-pitA agalI pITI ko samajha nahI pAte haiN|" ___ "yaha josama bhI tumane gayo nahIM uThAyA ? vidroha kAyaratA se to acchA rahatA hai|" "mAja meM jahara yaha soca rahA hU~ ki kAyaratA hamane kyo dikhanAI / ho rAgAlA he ni pAyaratA vaha na ho, karuNA rahI ho / prApa mogo kA citta hama nahIM duvAnA cAhate the|" "aba tuma dekhate ho ki citta dumA nahIM hai, phaTa gayA, TUTa ho gayA hai| usa vakta tuma loga khulakara sAmane prA gae hote to maiM mamatA di gum dumamA dhyAna hai / aura duHsa dene kI kImata dekara tuma loga lako ekadama bAda de denA cA toTa TAlanA nahIM cAhate / mai usako sAhana mahatA / pAhe sahamata na hogA aura virodha bhI pharatA, para golara hI bhItara usako sarAha gamatA / lenina jisako tuma pAraNA paholo, pAranA nahIM thI, lipsA pI lipyAgI sIne tumheM phApara bananA palA / paura panIne jararI hotA hai ki tuma para rAntA choDo, sIdhA rAstA prlo|" "guniA, vAyunI / " mAna para prajIta ne kahA, "sabane kA rAtA hamAre lie sIdhA nahI hai| aMga meM rAle para sIdhA palane dhaura ugo ko jItA gira karane meM nae javAnI hai aura usa cunautI

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jainendra mo gahAniyA daro bhAga se hama pIche nahIM haTa sanarI | mApane apane pitRla meM parAma meM mA~: vada hokara zAyada samasyA ko yaha rUpa de diyA hai| mApane pAlo yo aura cunautI phanI hai| maMgunakara paratAri meM una punautI gho utA ghora pApa jo cAhe para nIjie / hogA yo, jo mAna / hama logoM kI pratimA banapane ko nahI hai aura yaha TUTagA nahI jaantii|" rAjakumAra jI ko jAne kaisA lagA / yaha gonara homa pAe / pyama me hamAra bole, "tuma dono mI pratijJA ho Ranit hai. lekina samAja kI bhI kucha pratimA hai / nasamA prArI pAra garA bana kara rAjya marATAmA hai / uso tuma bana kara bhAgane kI monoge, yahI na" "vahI meM prApI salAha lenA paratA, banAe ma pAra? hama jIvana ke prArambha meM haiM, hamArI mahAyatA niijie|" 'mahAmanA yahI hai ki gara bhUla jaayo| prabhI to bhUna hI maano| ghagara ghara meM tumhAre kalaha baDe aura rAtAra jasneho gae paura gira bhI jAe rAya jo ho gauna genA / mama tara gara bhogamita ragI pora gagano parIkSA meM ho|" __"ma bane bhA gamadUna, hA moI hamalA nahIM jaantaa|" "yA bhI gAda rahogeno nAma badana mara aura nAmA maradezA ho to hamaloga hI to gula meM maadaayo|" "gayo, do pamanA jana mAya nahIM pate?" "privAhita patnI meM rahamAna "yahA mauna hogA / naye nAma meM nA kI / mora moI jAnakAnevAlA nahIM milNgaa|" T, mAno hoge tora prAdI meM zAhara ho / ziragemI mAriariat guma kisImonAne ho ? to mayA kI start

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ve do 103 bIca meM hI ajIta ne kahA, "aura pApa apane ko vicArazIla rahate haiM / yahI ApakI vicAragIlatA hai ? bApa hone bhara se beTI ko apanI cIja mAnate hai aura usake jIvana kA bhalA-burA nahIM soca sakate / apanI aura samAja kI nIti ko rasane aura santAna ke mana ko kucala kara mAra DAlane kI jo bAta karatA hai vaha apane ko vigarazIla kahatA hai / "maiM calatA hU~ / saba vyartha hai|" "baiTho, baiTho " rAjakumAra jI ne uTate-uTate atithi ko Topate paura rokate hue kahA, "ThIka kahate ho tuma ki zAyada pitA mujha me bola rahA hai| isa samaya vicArazIlatA usake adhIna ho gaI ho sapatI hai / lekina draupadI se tumhArA paricaya huA, usame pahale use sneha kahA me milatA thA aura usakA sneha phisako milatA thA ? usa mavako yotA nahakara Aja tuma kyA kisI taraha asta aura pravartamAna kara sakate ho / yaha yAta saca hai ki tumhArI patnI ke jIvita rahate maiM yaha kamI nahIM hone dUgA ki yaha tumhAre saga-sAtha rahe / isako rokane ke lie kAnUna kI saba pakti kA prAvedana karate bhI maiM nahIM nimgaa| tumhArA mana aura draupadI kA bhI mana bAda me prAtA hai, tumhArA asalI sAmAjiyA hita pahale hai / uga sahavAsa me se vipa pora naraka upajatA hai jino bAhara kI bhora meM vizvAsa pora sadbhAva nahIM prApta hotA paura nalie jo do me ho ghuTakara raha jAtA hai / pyAra praphAga cAhatA hai| pandhere meM hI jisatI rahanA paDegA, vaha pAra itanI jaldI saTTA aura nA ho jAegA ki uname se deza kI lapaTeM phUTa nikleNgii| maiM paha rAva mAjahI ye sapAtA hU / tuma nahIM dega rAyate, payoki vIca ge ve sapaM sumane sabhI pAra nahIM kie haiM, jinameM yaha darzana prApta humA karatA hai / ropina sihana banugavahInatA ke nAma para tuma logo ko jamAna paramAnoMge guna melane meM gira nahI pahA pA rAyatA * yaha chotto| eka vAjatAmo, vimalA para tumheM nApa hai"

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104 jo mo mahAnimA bhAga "maga mA sanA / bar3I pAne peTImA / poragI ? para bhI nahIM milegii|" "mAra mAha hai?" " nahIM / vimalA mAraNa numa bhAgayA ! sAtA hai| tumhAre mAya menugata pAra na pA gAne ko na meM, nA nirana ho gaura tumane ugane koI dAvA bhI na TAnA nadiyAda upammiA vimA ho| lekina tuma ume gajAna mgnnaa|" "mAmA yAta namIlie / pAnImA phie|" ___ "apanI hI paataa|aupdii apanI hI hai, bimanA apanI ma mapana ho| dopadI ko zimalA meM zivanA-gitanA pyAra kiyA hai / gore raSTa mI pUjI meM tuma koI yojanA mArama na palA / viganA ko dUra jAnA paheM, TUTa jAnA par3eM, relA moI yAma gupana na maanaa|" "HITodviA uga, umapI pge|" pIta meM svara meM paTanA mAna pAnagara hone khaa| "noM beTe, pamA nA ?" "zAne zrIjie ! yaha pAra noTi" "do, ganI' no, nahIDA ! guma duyo mezinamA "dudhI bhInI!" mImA ma mAdIna hA moropA, "zo meM mo6 pAnA nahIM hai| mora pAra aura nirasI goDAmA mApa For mix mA. nAmA mopadIya naganahI samAna" ___ bhI aura iiti ript" para 24 mirarar ko nAma nabhara ITEM Tr En, "zaa, manirya! ma ? "

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ve do 105 hU, tuma dumI ho / aisI bAta nayA hai ?" ajIta kA galA bhara AyA / usane kahA, "kucha nahIM / " aura haThAt kace para pAe unake hAtho ko usane haTAyA / kahA, "Apa mujhe chora dIjie / maiM akelA hU aura akelA raha sakatA hai / aura pisI meM kucha nahIM mAgatA hai|" gamakumAra eka-do kadama pIche haTa pAe / bole, "maiM abhI draupadI ko bulAtA ha / tuma loga bAta karanA aura maiM yahA na rahUgA / aura tuma sarAya meM na rhnaa|" vAhakara rAmakumAra mez2a kI tarapha vaTe ki baTana dayAphara ghaTI deN| tabhI ajIta ne kahA, "tthhrie| abhI duppI ko na yulAie / maiM pApa se jAne kaba se kahanA cAhatA thA, himmata nahI hotI pii| pApa-pApa baiTha jaaie|" rAjakumAra baiTha gA aura bhInI vANI-se bole, "beTA, phaho kyA yAta hai?" manIta kA galA bharrA mAyA, 'payA pahU, bAbUjI / merI mA nahIM hai| mAmI, ghugA ko nahIM hai / yahina nahIM hai / pinA jI muna se pacapana meM jo sThe hai, jo aige raThe haiM ki vaha nahI ye barAbara ho gaye haiN| yA malena geTa cuke haiM / mai unakA pAlItA hai aura jAnatA dinAra pAra ke lie unake pAsa epha kevala mai hU / lekina vaha muna ne mAnisamora unako praya saba pAgAe guma kulAgAra se jala cugI haiN| duniyA meM gayA patA hai / yahI mopanA nahIM hai / vimalAjamIna, to pAyA hai / yaha pAranAI, pAnI, ra A. to piikokii| mazAgada bholA naho pA mAra magara merA ho / FigA / meM agamA patA gamA aura vA prayatI patI gii| gorakhagara ma para hI meM apane lie yoTA-cana mA pAnI ra pahA to ekA dama detA hai. so meM yA tora sapanA hali degInAdamI meM monA meM anila rara gayA mArA / gamaga agara pIne varatI to

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106 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga * isIlie ki idhara sava vIrAna hai aura usakI pyAsa pyAsI hI raha jAtI hai / isa apane sira ko lekara meM kahA jA marU ki jo tana mana ke sAtha dimAga kA bhI sAtha cAhatA hai / pativratA ThIka hai / lekina jina viSayo para mujhe rasa hai, kyA una para bhI mujhe koI sAtha aura sahArA nahI cAhie ? aura mai jitanA socatA hU, ekAntatA baDhatI jAtI hai aura merI AvazyakatA bhI utanI hI niviDa hotI jAtI hai / " dropadI milI thI 'bhApa usake pitA haiM / Apa jAnate haiM, maiM sigareTa pItA thA / zarAva pItA thA / rupayA uDAtA thA / uDate rupaye ko aise desatA thA jaise phUTate sUraja kI kiraNoM ko koI dekhatA hai / vaDA zracchA lagatA thA aura usa ramya dRzya ke aura apane vIca me sigareTa ke uThate hue jhilamile dhueM ko vIca me DAlakara usa saba ko AAkha-micaulI ke khela me svargIya svapnila banA letA thA / taba vaha dRzya mujhe baDA gudagudAtA thaa| aba vaha saba khatama ho gayA hai| zarAba chUtA nahI, sigareTa eka dama chUTa gaI / aura una ragole- sajIle sapanIle mugdha dRzyoM se bhI nAtA maine tor3a liyA | kyo ? kyoki ApakI kanyA draupadI devI thI / usane mujhe utkarSa kA mArga dikhAyA / usake kAraNa maine insAna bananA zurU kiyA hai | usase maiMne kalpanA sajAI hai ki maiM sacamuca kucha vana sakatA hU aura kara jA sakatA hU / 'vimalA khuza hai to khuza rahe / khuzI jahA se le sakatI hai, vaha sthala prAvAda aura khuzahAla banA rahe / isa bhAvanA ko lekara maiM ghara se bAhara bhaTaka gayA hU aura maiMne sabake lie susa ko kAmanA kI hai / usI me jora par3ane para sigareTa aura zarAva zrA gae to A gae, anyathA maiM udhara jAnA nahIM cAhatA thaa| jo gayA ekavAra use loTanA sabhava nahI huA karatA / duppI ne saba sabhava kara diyA hai / usane jAnavara ko prAdamI banA diyA hai / Apa cAhie to mubhame use chona lIjie / zrApako kanyA " hai, ApakA sava hai / lekina meM bhapanI kahA jAUgA / tarapha se use chor3a dUMgA to raha hI hai / dUsarA kahI poI Thaura-ThikAnA mujhe nahI hai / mere lie eka vahI zraba Apa kyA karate

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ve do 107 haiM, samAja kyA karatA hai, rAja kyA karatA hai- - isame meM kyA kaha sakatA hU~ ? mujhe agara jInA hai, jIte rahanA hai to koI kucha kare, mere lie dUsarA rAstA nahI hai / zrApakA bApa kA haka hai, merA koI haka nahIM hai / jAnatA hU pati aura patnI jIvita hai / zora meM bharasaka apanI straha chAyA usa vicArI bhaulI vimalA para se haTAnA nahIM cAhatA / isIlie talAka kI bAta nahI socI aura zrava bhI socanA TAlanA hI cAhatA hU / lekina agara aura rAha nahI hai to zrApa se saugandha khAkara hatA hU ki mAnasika yA zArIrika yA kahie to mArthika koI saMbaMdha udhara nahI rasUgA aura paripUrNa pArthakya kA pAlana krugaa| lekina mujhe jIne diijie| sabhava ho sakatA hai ki nikammA hI me na nika aura kucha kAma kI kiraNeM bhI mujhase phUTa nikleN| bAbUjI, maiM ApakA hUM, mujhe apanA banane diijie| meM duSTa nahI hU, zraparAdhI nahIM huuN| lekina kabhI lagatA hai ki rAstA mujhe nahI milane diyA gayA to meM saba kucha, sabhI kucha bana sakatA hUM / saca yahatA hU, bAbUjI, isa vakta kucha mujha se bAhara nahIM hai| devatA bhI bAhara nahI hai aura dAnava bhI bAhara nahIM hai | kucha mora matalava na liijiegaa| lekina hatyA bhI karanI par3a jAgagI to ina hAtho se ho skegii| yaha meM bilkula saMbhava mora bhAsAna mAnatA hai / " "majIta !" rAjakumAra jI ne dekhA ki prajIva TUTane ke binAre bhA gayA hai| jAne se yaha sapane aura apane mAMyoM ko dhAme hue hai / sambodhana sunakara bhajIta caukaa| yaha eka kSaNa nRlA sA sAmane devatA rahA | jaise pApoM meM STi na ho yA ghAMsoM ke pIche mosama meM se papa gAyana ho gaI ho| phira yaha sahanA uThA aura rAjakumAra kI ke paraNoM meM gira kara phuTa uThA, "merA koI nahIM hai, koI nahIM hai, bAnUjI ! merI rakSA diijie|" rAjakumAra jI pasIje aura galakara itane pATana ge|

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108 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga unako kucha sUjhA nahIM / tabhI eka hAya baDhAkara unhone baTana ko davA diyA / jora se davAye rhe| ghara ke adara vajatI huI ghaTI kI AvAja isa kamare taka sApha kAno me Akara paDatI thii| ajIta ne bhI vaha gaja sunI / vaha tanika ghvraayaa| rAjakumAra jI ne kahA, "veTA uTho, draupadI mAtI hogii|" draupadI mAtI hogii| kyA sacamuca vaha pAtI hogI ?.. zrajIta rAjakumAra jI ke caraNo me se uThA aura jhaTapaTa usane garvathA svastha ho jAnA caahaa| "beTA, ThIka vaiTha jaao| muha-uha pocha lo| tumhe svastha aura pramanna dIkhanA cAhie / hai na?" ajIta ne jaldI apane kapaDe savAre aura Age baDhakara AlamArI ke zIze ke sAmane jAkara bAla-vAna ThIka kie aura sabhala kara gaharI eka kAUca me nizcitatA ke sAtha ho baitthaa| tabhI dropadI ne kamare me praveza kiyaa| rAjakumAra jI ko udhara hI nigAha thI aura ajIta kI jAnabUjha kara pITha thii| draupadI eka kSaNa tthitthkii| phira AdhI kI taraha bhAgatI huI prAI aura donoM bAho ne baiThe hue ajIta kI gardana meM bhUla pddii| ucchvAna ke sAtha bolI, "bhAI sAhaba" rAjakumAra jI Asa meM bhara kara pAte hue pAsuoM ko rokakara haThAt pAso ko pochate hue cupacApa kamare se bAhara nikala paae| una dono ko mAlUma bhI nahIM huA / bAhara Ate hI unhoMne daravAje ko caTasanI lagA dii| ghara ke andara pahuce to ghara kI mAlakina ne pUchA, "kyA huA?" vole, "kucha nahIM / saba ThIka hai| dono andara hai|" "yaha kyA gajava kara diyA hai tumane !" "piphara na kro| bAhara me caTaganI banda hai|"

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ve do 106 prAdhe ghaTe bAda kamare me daravAje para andara meM lagAtAra pap-thap ko dhAvAja pAtI hI calI gaI to daravAjA kholanA pddaa| dono ke cehare para mvagaM likhA huA thaa| ajIta ne rAjakumAra jI ke paira chue, mAtAjI ke bhI para chae aura kahA, "draupadI kA koI bhAI nahI hai, saba bahane hI hai / Aja se sAmane yaha sagA bhAI usakA raTA hai / isa bAta poApa loga kabhI na bhuuliyegaa|" ajIta kI bhAgo me sAmane aura vaha hana rahA thaa| julAI '63

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chaH patra, do rAha priya vimmI / tumhAre pAsa se pAne me mujhe zAma ho gaI thii| bahuta acchA lagA thA aura mana lauTakara kisI duniyA ke kAma-dhAma ke lie vAkI nahI baca gayA thaa| maiMne kahA thA ki mITiMga hai, lekina mITiMga me meM nahIM gayA / sava tuccha lagatA thA aura tuma logo kI khuzI ko dekhakara jo khuzI maiM apane mana meM bharakara lAyA thA, use bakheranA nahIM cAhatA thA isalie zAma kA sava kAryakrama TAlakara meM cupacApa pAva-pAva pAsa gAdhI samAdhi para calA gayA / vahA eka tarapha ghAsa para taba taka baiThA rahA jaba taka uThanA jarUrI nahI ho gayA / samAdhi zAnta thI aura dhIme-dhIme nIrava bhAva se utaratI huI sancyA baDI muhAvanI laga rahI thI / jaise chU kara aura chana kara mere bhItara hI utarI jA rahI ho| mujhame bar3A susada ujAlA thaa| lekina vimmI meM nahIM jAnatA ki kaise dhIre-dhIre mujhameM eka madhiyArA chAtA calA gayA / jaise koI bhAra citta ko davA rahA ho| maine yAda kiyA, tuma dono ko una kilakAriyo ko, udhama ko, daMge ko, mastI ko, jo merI upasthiti tumage aura umagA detI thI, roka to kyA pAtI / tuma pIche se Akara kursI para baiThe nIraja ke kapoM para jhUla gaI thI / tumane usake bAlo ko mahejA, phira dhIre-dhIre tumhAre hAtha usake kAnoM kI lorI ko sahalAne lage / phira ye ugaliyA usake gAtoM para ghUmI aura mAno phira oMTho ko pucakArane lgii| tabhI tumane ekAeka zuphakara usake bAeM kAna kI mora ko dAto ke bIca dekara kATa jaanaa| nIraja 'mI' / karake jo uThA to usane tumhArI hAya ko ugalI

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cha patra, do gaha ko pakar3a kara cavA liyA ! tuma dono vigaDe aura phira silasilA pddh'e| saca mAno to ye saba devakara maiM dhanya anubhava kara rahA thaa| lekina phira bhI jAne yayoM, dhanI aura gaharI hotI huI sAMga ke sAtha mujha para esa. bhArIpana baiThatA calA gayA aura merA mana jAne kaise pAsa se bhara gyaa| gAcI mamAdhi se lauTane meM mujhe rAta ho gii| maiM yAnA nahIM sA sakA aura patnI ne pUchA, to kucha batA bhI nahIM sakA / vaha nArAja huI pora vigI aura maine jhiDaka diyA / unako prAdata to nahI hai ki mujhe sahamA chora de| lekina isa bAra unhoMne kucha jidda nahIM kI aura mujhe akelA choDa diyA / pracchA hI hamA, payoki maiM kisI se bAta nahIM phara samatA yA / maMga mana isa para bhArI thA ki jisa prasannatA ko apane golI meM bharakara meM tumhAre pAsa meM lAyA thA / vo pAne kirA vidha gahare ripAda meM badala gaI bhI paura mujhe ghAha nahI mila rahI thii| jaise maiM TUyA jA rahA thA, aura yaha tala na pAtA thA, jahAM mAra lU phi basa panta , pITA mAge nahI jA sktii| goyA so maiM gavasya, lekina bhAra paldI tuna gaI / bhara cAra banA hai|m visara para hUM, kamarA amelA hai gaura tumheM yaha patra likha rahA hai| jAnatA nahIM meM gayA cAhanA hai / pAyada kucha bhI nahIM cAhatA hU~ ! upadeza to de hI nahIM maratA / usa meM kahA hai, kAphI bAi, sephina bhara samA maha nahIM mAra pAyA hu ki javAnoM kI javAnI poI dopayA para kisI taraha halo analagandI hai / anubhava ko aura kya ko meM bahuta mahatva na de pAhU aura mujhe lagatA hai ki mInA ne mAtA pA prANoM kA vega jo nakorI po nahI dega pAtA, nahI mAna pAtA, tor3hatAmAmAribAnI sAsaratAtAmA pattAhI pannA , pAlpapAna nahIM hai / kina dimanA, mere mana meM vidA hotI hai para isa panAmA paataa| pAne ke bAda guma pAritode pAI hogii| pande do

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112 jainendra kI kahAniyA danavA mAga ghanTe, tIna ghanTa / phira to tumhe jAnA hI paDA hogaa| prAnvira tumhArA ghara hai aura vahA do pyAre-pyAre bacce hai / pati haiM, lekina eka bAra unhe choDa bhI do, kyoki vaha apane lie aura taraha kI vyastatA ThUTha sakate haiM / dina meM kArovAra hai, zAma ko klava hai aura 'lekina vaha choTo / para bacce to tuma para hai ! tuma nahI pahucogI to nauvara se lekara khAnA-pInA to ve apanA tava bhI kara leMge, dera ho jAegI to zAyada vistara para pahuca kara leTa bhI jaaege| lekina kyA una pAlo me nIda AyagI ? kyA ve apanI mammI kI rAha hI dekhate nahIM raheMge? isalie Akhira tuma ghara gaI hI hogii| zAyada ho ki sAne ke vakta se pahale pahuca gaI ho aura bacco ke pyAra me ekAdha cIz2a apane hAtha se bhI banAI ho / phira unake sAtha hokara tumane bhI kucha sAyA-pIyA ho aura unheM vahAnI lorI sunAI ho| jarUra tumane yaha kiyA hogaa| payoki tumhArA mana pyAra se bharA hai aura bacco kI usa mana me baDI mamatA hai| lekina meM socatA hU~ aura mana bhArI ho pAtA hai / samajha hI nahIM pAtA ki ina dono khuziyo ko tuma eka meM samAkara kaise manAla pAtI hogii| kyA dono milakara tumhAre bhItara dusmaha vyathA kA nirmANa na kara detI hogii| vimalA, meM vivAha kA praharI nahIM hai / usa kartavya meM prema phA nindaka bhI nahIM bana sakatA hai| lekina saca batAnA, bacco ke pitA rAta ko kyA jaldI zrA gae the ? maiM jAnatA hUM ki vaha jaldI nahI pAte / jAnabUjha kara jaldI nahI pAte / sava mo jAte hai, tabhI yaha ghara me pAte haiN| aise ki jame mehamAna ho, jaise cora ho / vaha pani haiM, pitA haiM. unheM adhikAra hai, mava nvatva unakA hai| lekina gatI pAte haiM ghara para aura dUra-dUra duniyA meM rahate hai aura yahI dUra meM ghara meM sAmAna aura suvidhA juTAne rahate hai| isalie ki yaha niI emA bhI upayoga na kara sakeM aura tumhe pinI taraha kA paTa na ho| tuma DApora se taniA bhI vighna na anubhava karo / maiM unheM jAnatA, nama

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cha patra, do rAha 113 jAnatI ho / ghara meM bebasa socatA hU ki kyA ye saba tumhe bahuta bhArI na ho jAtA hogA ? nacamuca gumane isa samaya sahA nahI jA rahA aura tumhAre prati sahAnubhUti meM mana umaTA yA rahA hai / tuma pratyanta svAbhimAnI ho / aise pati kA zrAzraya tuma agara choTa nahI pAtI ho to maiM jAnatA hai isake lie tumhAre mana me kitanI gaharI vRtajJatA kA bhApa hogA 1 tuma dhAyada palitva nahIM de pAtI ho, phira bhI patitva unakA apane Upara dhAraNa kie hue ho / sonanA hai aura na apane meM ganA nahI cAhatA, ronA cAhane lagatA hai / mAnA ho vimalA tuma rakacI ko mamatA hai / lenina hI bhara jAtA tuma usa ghara meM agara panubhava karatI ho ki jisame tuma apanA jIvana bitAtI ho, jahA~ se apane saba zrAzraya lie saba suvidhA prApta garatI ho, to digmI, gopi yaha kAphI hai ? ye upA unita pratidAna hai ? aura yadi pratidAna kI ghapekSA dUsarI ora se nahIM hai to unI vAraNa ye aura bhI anucita nahIM ho jAtA hai 2 aura gayA ? dayA nahI jAtA hai / 1 bhAgyapara (2) tumhArA, ga0 de0 ke lie bhAge ! lekina nAma kahie pApA varSa bho devAne hai| meM yaha garamI / maiMne pApako bhAtA hai| 1 kahI hogA ! mee nhiiN| dina kA hai aura kA ho jaaegii| bAkI ye pAna yaha para pAnA / rAgagaira hai, nadiyA hogA? parara

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114 janendra kI kahAniyAM dasayA bhAga idhara-udhara jAegI-to taba kyA hogA? aura mujhase rahA nahIM jAtA hai aura maiM vahA pahuca jAtI hai| kyoki yaha akelA rahatA hai aura kamarA bahuta sUnA hai aura usakA koI nahI hai / cauke me lagakara kucha usane lie taiyAra kara detI hai| lekina jyAdAtara vApata jaldI mA jAtI hai / kyoki ghara meM phira Akara bacco ke lie apane hAtha se kucha banAnAvanUnA hotA hai / kabhI avazya aisA hotA hai ki usakI prAkha meM jAne kyA dekhatI hU ki jA nahIM pAtI hai / vaha vahA macalatA hai aura vaDA DhITha hai aura mujhe ruka jAnA par3atA hai| kyA yaha sava meM ThIka samajhatI hU yA pasanda karatI hai ? yA mujhe acchA lagatA hai ? lekina maiM saba bhUla jAtI hU aura sacamuca phira samaya bhI bhUla lAtA hai aura kabhI to rAta kAphI dera se pahuca pAtI hU / ghara to hai hI, aura vaha sabase baDA kartavya hai| usa kartavya me truTi meM bharasapha nahIM krtii| lekina usako nibAhate hue agara mukha kI vUda eka rAha meM mila jAtI ho| to kyA sUse kaMTha me usakA apamAna karatI huI maiM nikalatI calI jAU aura usI meM kRtArthatA mAnU ? agara aisA nahIM karatI hai to kyA mata prApa bhI mujhe doSa deMge ? girastI eka jUvA hai aura pandhe para lie-lie pAtoM ko saba ora se bacAkara maiM aba taka use Dhoe calI gaI hai| Apa jAnate haiM ki ekAeka merI bhAga pulI to kame sulI ? batAie ki maiM phira apane ko roka sakatI thI ? kartavya kA cakkara agara thA to unake lie bhI na thA, sirpha mere hI lie thA? yA to dono ke lie thA } nahIM thA to mere lie bhI nahIM hai| Apa maca kAhie ! parzana nahIM, vicAra nahI, phaisalA dIjie / do TUka jo ho vaha zalie ! pyAra aura vyAha kI gola bAna na kiijie| tAtvika vivAda meM ne kucha nahIM milatA / maiM pyAra ko nahIM jAnanA cAhanI / vivAha ko bhI nahIM jAnanA cAhatI / ye zabda haiM aura mere palle meM svaya huuN| usa nipatA ko lekara mujhe dvividhA meM na hAnie / mere mana me pATa-phAya na paidA yojie / dekhie, bhApa hI kahI ye ki

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cha. para, do gA' pApa nahIM hai ! phira aimA na kIjie ki pApa paidA ho aura merA mana mujhe hI hakA mArane nage / prApakI ciTTI mujhe isIlie DarAtI hai| merA dina maDhe meM nikala jAtA hai aura usakI pAme jo maiM isa ghara meM nahI, una para meM bitAtI hai, mujhe apane dina se vihI nahIM mAlUma hotii| phira yaha Apa kyA likha rahe haiM ? kahIM to kimI ko kucha zikAyata nahIM hai / mana taka meM nahIM hai| maiMne pApA pAgraha-pUrvaka apane usa para meM kyA isalie bulAyA pA, gayA pApa bhI utsukatA pUrvaka imanie pAe the, ki mere mana me sarAya pA kIDA DAla de ? nahIM, nahIM ! maiM yaha nava nahIM lenA cAhatI ! uhAnubhUti nahIM lenA caahtii| prasannatA ho vIpa hai| vahI dhApasa meM nI dI jAtI hai| hamArI prasannanA me ge agara Apa prasannatA hI lekara gupTa ho to hame yAda ragie / nahIM to bhUla pAe / pApako, vimmI priya digala ! gumane mujhe ThIka nikSA do ! yahI no patA thA ki umara se makAna nahIM pAtI ! yahe gatIhata dene laga jAte haiN| paha nahIM socate ki yaha pare go jindagI meM dAla denA ho sakatA hai / pina vigmI, meM nAmAzmitA bhaura naMtipatA ko bilkula nahI gopana nIti samAja sanI mantrI pI hai ki gumane gA numane Rs / so samora yada dhanopAnie una ninnA me maiM mara rahA kamAnI rahA hai, yA ta gapabhI na canA / bAta dUsarI hai aura yaha para maiM mArepAramAniyA kA vikA, ge pora para ho gae dhaurAna mada mohamapI agara bhane rAtarima dAma kI hama pAnI meM ghara para na hogI !

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jainendra kI kahAniyA darAvA bhAga tumhArA ghara hai, parivAra hai| bhAvanA me avazya saba ekAkAra ho jAtA hai, lekina bhAvanA te yathArthatA kaTatI nahIM hai / yathArthatA ke tala para bheda bheda hI hai / aura ye bheda jaba bhAvanA DalatI hai itane ubharate aura cubhate hai ki usa kapTa ko bacAnA hI cAhie / maryAdA ye samAja kI hai isalie nahIM, balki isalie vi ve yathArthatAe haiM unamA dhyAna rakhanA par3atA hai / Aja bhUlane se jo kala unha phira yAda karanA para jAegA to vaha yAda sahaja na raha jAegI, tIsI vana pAegI / isaliye yadi kucha kahatA hU~ to pAhatA hU / burA na mAnanA / usake jIvana kI socatI ho kabhI yi jo tumheM pyAra karatA hai aura jise tuma pyAra karatI ho? abhI nayA silatA jIvana hai ugyaa| tIsa varSa kI umara hogI / pittanA sundara naujavAna hai| dekhate hI mana mugdha ho jAtA hai / tumhArI pAsa usa spa para mohita huI, to ye mAse kauna haiM jo nahI hotI hogI ? aura usa yuvaka ne lie merA mana parAhanA se bhara jAtA hai / java dekhatA hU~ ki usane tumako cunA, aura jabaki itanA sasAra usake sAmane sulA paDA hai / taba bhI tumhI para TikA hudhA hai / aba soco vimala, usakI tarapha se soco / usako payA apanA ghosalA yA banerA nahI cAhie ? bAma to ThIka hai, lephni gata go agara use kucha ho jAe, kyA isa pradezo meM tuma apane baccoM ke pAsa sone se inkAra kara dogI? nuno vimala, tumhArI sundaratA kara saka yogI ? umara kA antara kva taka dabaMgArana yathAvaMtAno po phalI na pabhI pahacAnanA hI hogaa| bhUle rahane meM jaba taka pananA hai, tabhI taka calatA hai / anta taka nahIM calegA ! nahIM calegA, nahIM bnegaa| lekina tuma apane lie sono hI gayo ? mAnatA hai tumane daha kImiyA mida kara lI hai ki yauvana tumane kabhI utaregA hI nahIM / umaga sadA hI banI rhegii| jAdU TagA nahIM, tumhArI mAnI ge yamA hI rhegaa| leni goco usopha meM / gyA meM bhI banekI jAlana hogI jisa para pAne lA dona mare aura bAre meM niga

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cha, papa, do rAha para mahAga TAla sake / kyA ume kabhI patnI ko dhAvazyakatA na hogI jo preyanI na ho, dAnI bhI ho ! mAgiyA na ho, gAsitA bhI ho / jyA tuma use vAde gAtI ho? patnitva damakatI ho? kabhI bAta gara kSego, pUcha dego ! pAloga varSa ne Upara pI patnI ko nIra varSa po dhamyA meM yaha svIkAra garegA? maiM svapna ko bahala mAnatA ! mAyA ko bhI mAnatA hai ! mAnatA pahanA kAhI manorama pa hai| yahI vyA hai / mana rupa me vahI matya bhI hai| lekina mAyA dagegI ghora phaTegI to kyA ogA ? bhrama gama naga pAyegA to yayA hogA? gayA uga roja kI yAda dilAU : tama pAI thIM aura ro rahI thii| meM kisI taraha tumheM sAntvanA nahIM pahuMcA sakA yA / sAnnira tumhArA jATa gahI to thA ki yaha tumame tumako nahIM, jAne kigako pAtA hai ? muma para pragaTa ho mAyA pAki jagatIroja jisake lie hai, sanI vaha mUrA ugamame dIpanI gAThina ho jAtI hai aura usapo mAga numaMga pAra gara dauTane lagatI hai| dimana, ainA hogA aura use samaya bItegA cAra-gAra hogA ! bahuta bAra hogA aura cAra tumgo ronA pgaa| maiM samA meM poja mahIM isa hara taka na pahane ki jahA pyAra hai, yahA napharala ho pAe / mubhase yaha ra dara nahI hotA hai| yaga haragira nahIM pArA kiyA para tuma pemAho, magara nA nikara hona. ra porana samA gomArAmatI nA ! pyAra kI homo, gA gumako barako choyo, para bhI sAmanA hai! nisAra porana jigaranAme lagA sImAlI nayA hogA? cA ? para ma ga maga mI mAmA phigara :: X/ kh } aaarnms, ts st, , waa aaatstsh, btstsm-?

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118 banendra kI kahAniyAM dayavA bhAra mAnyavara / patra milA! kyA ThIka ho jAegA? maiM nahIM mAnatI ki mere sApa kucha bhI veThIka hai| Apa apanI meharavAnI ko apane pAsa rkhie| apanA jJAna, apanA upadeza bhI pAsa rakhie / bhApako jAnanA hai, mujhe jInA hai / Apa jAnane ko Upara rakha sakate haiN| maiM jIne se apane lie phusaMta nahIM nikAlanA cAhatI huuN| zrApa bhava mere bAre meM kucha phapTa na kIjie ! kahIM patideva ho Apako ighara nahI milate rahe haiM ? aisA hI lagatA hai / aba mileM to phahie ki karanI bhoganI bhI hotI hai| pApako, dimavA dimala! priya nahI likhatA hU | zAyada tuma cAhogI nhiiN| parita pI piNe hai, kaI vAra mile haiM ! para pragasA ke atirikta tumhAre sambandha meM eka bhI anyayA zabda unake muha se nahIM nikltaa| vaha avagara bhI taba pAtA hai, jaba dUsare hAt use banA hI TAlate haiM / yaha prAyazcita pUrvaka nahIM balki udAratApUrvaka tumheM lete haiM, yaha mai tumheM kairo vatAka ? suno ! mAlUma huA hai ki makAna tumhAre apane paise kA hai| yAnI tuma samajha sakatI ho ki vaha tumhAre pati ko phamAImA nahIM hai / mujhe dukha hogA agara tumhAre vyavahAra meM yaha mAna bhI kAraNa banA hogaa| mujhe galata mata mamamanA ! jIne vAloM meM samayatA se jIne kA prayAsa pharane vAlo meM maiMne tumheM dekhanA cAhA hai| gItie numhAre lie gadA mana meM saMghramamA gAya ramA hai| kisI nIni-nigama ke nAte vaha nAva vahAM se haTane vAlA nahIM hai| lekina yaha aba bhI mAnA hai ki tuma

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cha. patra, yo rAha 116 nirAmA se bacIgI, nirAzA kA sAmAna paidA karane se bhI bcogii| bhagavAna tumheM susI rro| tumhArA, rA0 0 (6) zrI rA060 panyavAda ! basa! bimasa pragarata '63

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jInA maranA pati ne kahA, "grAja maMgalavAra hai / cobA roja ho gayA bugiyA ko pranpatAla gaye / hama zrava taka jA nahIM sake hai | jAne kyA hAla hogA ? zrAja jarUra calanA hai, cAra baje / " patnI bolI, "Aja ? Aja to mATe tIna baje zAntilAla jo ke yahAM sagAI hai| suda Aye the, bahuta bahuta kaha gaye haiM / nahI jAyeMge to burA maaneNge| aura haradama paDhoga nA savAla hai / " "lekina 1" "parayo to ragho gayA hI thA / kahatA thA pahale me tabiyata mamalI batAtI thI / kala cale jAyeMge / " 'vicArI tIna dina se rAha dekhatI hogI | kauna baiThA hai / aura maiM sagabhatA hU~, yaha usakA anta samaya hai / " "akala caleMge / yA tuma ainA karo ki sagAI nivaTA ra pAca baje apane le jaao| mujhe to chuTTI milegI nahIM / " "pAca baje se to kAkA ke janmadina kA utsava hai| TAla bhI jAnA, seni unhone chApa diyA hai hi zrAtA mujhe karanI hai| aisA karo hi ghara para parne, jana de kara nATe cAra nayA jAe / " hama tIna para hI "nahIM, nahIM / zAnivAna jI to / " kI parivAra ke lie upAya cuta lie jAnA nahIM kI, yaha jAnA kI thii| hI bhI zeyara dina yahI kyaa| unake muniyA amAna meM dhyAna pAyA / jora vira hai - pAnI meM rahane do| mannA ,

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jInA-maranA 121 tAna jAkAra svArI karAne se kyA phAyadA! lIlAdhara ke mana me humA thA ki embulama ko jo gADI maMgavAI hai, use vApisa kara diyA jAya / nephina dillI zahara meM jagaha kI baDI tagI hai / sevAdAra bhI nahIM milate hai| sumiyA koI nAte rizte meM to hai nhii| ThIka hai ki prabhAgina hai, koI use pUchane vAlA nahI hai / lekina eka kamarA unI ke nimitta kase aura pAya taka rakhA jA sakatA hai ? saca hai ki nAhaka kA bokayA gayA / he eka mahIne meM par3I thI vahA aura bhugata rahI thii| jaise-taMge kAraTa para do rAnara lisakara mehatara ke hAtha TanavAyA thaa| phAI paraphara ye devane pAle gaye, bedAga dekhakara taya kiyA phi bharapatAla bheja denA caahie| phona kiyA, jora lagAyA, aura pAmira dAgilA mila gyaa| lekina lImare roja nIce se posina ne bhApara banAyA ki bAhara Thagepara eka cuDiyA par3I hai, prApako pUcha rahI hai| panI gavAhara jAgara devA, supsiyA pii|sptaal ke pAnI ghara meM daravAje nAnAAra ThegA vahI roSTa gaye the| munagunAtI patnI vApasa pAI ziyA yayA bhalA kahA para liyA hai ? maiM gahA tU uge, apane ripa bama, mere pAleje para pAye dina naI-naI begAra honate rahate patnI ne aura rat yaha apasya , legina gAhane ke nAma hI para bAhara gaI mrar free

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122 jainendra kI pahAniyA damavA mAga "sara mApa esa0 ema0 po phona to kara diijiye|" "vaha to maiM abhI kara rahA hai|" "to dekhie, meM suda pA rahA huuN| phona ke alAvA maiM Apase eka purjA bhI le lUgA / amala meM kesa kAphI sarAva hai, nahIM to tapatIpha na detaa|" DipTI sAhaba ke yahA pahuca kara apane nAmane ema0 ema0 pho jo phona karAyA to mAlUma hA phi nissA hI dusarA hai| marIja ko DiscArja kara diyA gayA hai / maja sAma nahIM hai| davA batA dI gaI hai, ghara para rahakara istemAla karatI rahe, ThIka ho jaayegii| lIlAdhara ajava capakAra meM par3e / hAlata unheM jIne-garane ko dAsatoM thii| idhara aspatAla meM yaha savara pA rahI thI! DipTI sAhaba ne majabUrI jatalAI / lIlAdhara ne unhIM me pUchA ki batAipe, gayA kiyA jAya ? bole, "TAgaTara meharA, helpa cArja haiN| yaha cAheM to kara sakate haiN|" "to jarA unhI ne pUcha para desa nogiye|" TipTI sAhaba ke pI0 e0 ne mAlUma phiyA ko maharA cIpha kamisnara ke yahA gaye hue the| paba taka pAyeMge, gucha Toga pahA nahIM jA samatA / TiTI nAhaba ne apanI tarapha ge aura mAtama ganphe batAyA ki meharA daphtara eka bAra mAge jAra ! bhAra nahI to bAda mAra ra saho / jArI rAmagata ho to pApa itajAra gAra gamata hai| gayA unameM mAphisa meM pahalA diyA jAya ki pAte hI gahA naparI gapahAsa magIna mApa nagamate hoM to jarA intajAra gAra nAhI munAsiva hogaa| lIsApara ne gahA, "ThIpa hai, jarA itajAra hI kara legaa| mAra degalI galI hai, koI bAta nahIM, carA dAma hI pA jaayegaa|" mayA pAra ho gayA / mApAra meM magara mone lgaa| bAra se agara rahA thA / dipTI mAtra bharane mAgane nI pAlo para aura sAmane nA ga para gA go gaant para

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jInA-garanA 123 vicAra karatA raha gayA thaa| bAhara AdhI phAga dUra saDI TepattI ke calate hue nITara kA Tika Tika une sunAI de rahA thA / mAbira mADe cAra le ghaTI pI suI pAra kara gaI to usane bAhA, "jarA pUdhiegA, zAyada hai ki bApaTara meharA mA hI gaye ho|" "pI, yaha to kaha diyA gayA hai ki pAte hI yahA sabara deM / phona pA jAyegA, pApa phikara niijiye|" ____ mahakAra DipTI pAgaja paramuka gaye / usako namajha me na bhAyA ki phira na kI jAya to saMgena kI jAya ? zrImatI jI ko bahAdurI ke sAtha maha bhAyA ki abhI aspatAla kA intajAma huA jA rahA hai| yahAM dina ina rahA hai| pAca baje dapatara banda ho jAte hai| phira mAja batna hai, paura rAta ko tArane yA nasIva hI bana jAtA hai| majabUrana uThAra usane pI0 e0 go pAgAdA kiyA ki yaha jaga phona karake mAlUma to kre| mAlUma kiyA gayA ki paTara gaharA sApa ghaNTe ke gamare me mAye hiTI mArava meM gayara para DATara maMhagaro pAta kI phi. bhApa solApara jo somAnate hI hoNge| pAtAla meM eka nagIna nesa vAsina liyA ho / sAmI tarapha pA rahe haiM, jo mumakina ho para sAdara mehagAe mAdUma hue| baTa napAna meM mine aura bAki patAta jAma, yA gagA pidamata ra saahai| banAyA gyaa|

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124 jainendra kI kahAniyA pasamA bhAga vAda mAiyegA, to dAgile kA itajAma maiM garA dugaa|" "lIna. . ." __ lekina jitanA hI kiyA jAya, bAta to upara ge kaTa kara ma dhii| sa taraha mukhiyA patnI ko hAthoM mA parI / umane pati ko yaha sunAyA, vaha munAmA kiyA ghe| lekina usake ghagaraja pI sImAna nhI jaba pAna roja taka sunniyA ghara para nahI mora patnI ne ugamAnanI royA gI, itanI sevA kI ki moI Trena nanaM bhI gatI gara to nii| ajana roga pA gupiyA nA kucha sapAnI na pI, peTa saphA rahatA pA mora jI pradhAnAmA / jIma jara kamI-mAnI mAnI ! eka bAra nauragage meM dahI moThagI gATa hI ugane gagA lii| sImAra mAgatI, sabhI mubaa| lepinIhI janatA pA, gIbha para ina bhIgo po jaga lete hI andara ne peTa roMkAra kara detA kAmAne mAga hAla thA, lekina damlo pA hAna ina utsaahaa| goyA rAnI hI nahIM thI, hinanA-tulanAmA dina hotA kaa| lezina jaya dezo :paMga nahI milatA panI guranAma zrI gorajopara gade ho , jana garamAga ge potI / baiTagara ra gomunikA purAne para uganA rana nAnA, sama yAna gmaa| darasoI mAne gharahanI nI, nagina aura paniyoM nA ho gAvagama dipA kina gare ma va nInA gupitA kamA nAma freIvI pina palIkA paramI panna magara unIne mArI gA mAvi para maranA sI maarnii| pAI nAnI par3I aura hai| jisameM galI mAga

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jInA maranA 125 ne intajAma kiyA thA aura embuleMsa gADI daravAje para zrA lagI thI / patnI kA mana bhI suniyA ko bhejate kaTa rahA thA / para cikitmA ko vyavasthA to yahAM usa taraha kI ho nahIM sakatI thI, na timAradArI kA vaMzAntA thA | DakTaroM kI hara samaya kI deva-rega cAhie thI / isaliye aspatAla bhejanA bhI jarUrI thA / dUmare saca yaha hai ki giranI kA saca krama naga ho gayA thA dhaura patnI para kAma kA bhAra itanA ho gayA thA ki kucha dina meM vaha guda TUTa jA sakatI thii| isane cArA dUsarA japA para aspatAla kI yaha yAtrA priya kisI ko na ho rahI thI / jAne ke bAda patnI ne kaI bAra bAda riyA zrIramInAghara ko bhI syAla bAtA rhaa| para janarala milavA meM ke lie sirpha eka ghaTA cAra ne pAtaka kina-kina dUsare mI gharI meM bharathA / prAmi pani pyA, gayA aura nAma bhI gayA / bIca kara do| nItA ke ma theAkAnA pAnti apa meM mana ra kAma kiyA meM sirpha rAtrI ko merA ki gagana nahIM nagI ko pA gii| loga mAmU kahI sevaa|dir paramo lopa ho / nara } palI ke nAma nAme dina ho gye| yaha ho gii| eka na ke koI bhI vikarma para donoM kabhI yA meM gora nayA mA pora niyoga bhI I paraha ekA pakSamA gayA unake mere donoM tarapha mokara va pApIna i roSa meM pAta

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jainendra ko mAhAniyA darAyAM bhAga banAna thI ki jina para anyAgato ke bharaNa para sanaH / paranI andara calI gaI aura maiM unameM ge ema gurga para baiTha gyaa| ___ intajAma kI nArIpha ra ranI hogii| sApaTa-digam namUnI mInaramAra thI aura yahA yahA Tre para taraha-taraha meM snagAra aura hipata tiye caparAva vAghe bare ghUma rahe the| maiM andara nahI gayA / legina utsAha meM jo andara nAgara soga lauTa para basAna kara rahe the, usane mAlUma humA phi cAnIya gAra pAso daheja jarUra hogaa| Upara kA sanaM alaga / rozaniyA iga sadara mI zAhara jagamagA uThe / macamuca dAvata pA intajAma bhI jabaradasta thA / mayoM na ho, gAntilAla jI, dariyAdila prAdamI haiN| aura aigiena gigAmane riztA pina padara bAlAtara milA hai, mahara nAgI jauhmaalhraa| aura una johariyoM me yahA kI naiyArI to aura bhI maaraa| zAnti nAla jI kI TarA gagAI meM padhAre nae mahAsAnA mogI ke utsAha aura prAnanda ne nInAghara ko jgaayaa| unheM bhI gaya pAna sUba mAlUma humA / pabhI kabhI patI dega lete the / mAgira paune pApa baje uThakara unhoMne zAntilAna jI ko badhAI dI aura jAne ke lie anumani mAgI / zAnilAla jI bhAbhAra meM avagata dhe| maMpinImAra jI yo jAne nA de mAte / mATA pipaM vinA jAnA na paayegaa| pAnipata jogIlAgara govA meM sArA garama meM game / upara kI vyavadhIsAnnitAlamIne dezAmI , miThAsI, pATa mI, popA bhI nAnA nArigA gagamA int mAne mAyAmI | mana meyara dimirA masAmAyika mApana dhaura para mAnamara gamA / udAganA rAnA ra yamaya fre manApara mAno ga pAnI fraat / samaya pAna me mInApIkara rar! HTET aura meM eka kI mAra rn. ATTITE:ra

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jInA-maranA 127 ho rahA hai| janmotsava meM janna ko zomA nirAlI thii| bIca meM dIpa-ntambha paa| aura usame una mahAprANa prAyu me voM kI ginatI ke anusAra cAra staroM para dIpa gajAye gaye the| sAta me tIsa varSa taka kanyAoM kI tIna alaga-alaga nRtya ToliyA thii| isI adamara ke liye banAI gaI kavitA ke bhAgAra para migupo kI nRtya racanA kI gaI thii| vaTA sundara dogatA pA, una yAtigAmoM kA paridhAna / anta meM garabA nRtya tugrA thaa| usakI manodaratA me hama sabhI vibhora ho pAye the / lInAghara mantramugpa se dasa gomA po nihArate rahe / logo meM vaTA utsAha thA aura dRzya atyanta manapA / mInApara madhya meM baiThe the ghora samadhA nRtya-bAdha kA eka kAryakrama cala rahA thaa| itane meM barAbara meM zA0 meharA gA prAgamana humA / lIlA. para ghopriya mA misAgara svaya unakI tarapha pA rahe hai / unhone pUchA ki gorala kA kyA hAla hai? nInAyara ne rahA ki saMgala hI nAgA / sadayA gayA pA, pApara usane batAyA thA ki tazvita meM gadhAra hogaa| merA ne pahA, "vahI gumI ko vAna / bhane ma ema meM mAjamaniyAmAgIpa nahIM diyA parane sanIlie diyA gayA gAra para phira donIna roja meM hissA mita savaigA, ailA me mahino menopamAna paramA! "zrI. ra mAnahI vImI phAra gii| do gela meM dhArA jaayegaa|" para rAmAmAra mAra mAra meM para Aro WRITERTrir TET parazurAmA kAma wer ATM mA nArA manA ! mAnA nA nA banegA !

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128 nendra bAniyoM kA bhAga hone usane dI se aitihAta sAre kA samaya jA rahA thaa| lekina vinA bhASaNa meM do dazaka kA nayA / sAmane nRtya vA vAryakama ghana rahA thaa| itane meM degA ki eka rAjana Aye hai aura pAyA unhoMne usane hAtha evaM pUrvA camA diyA hai| liyA hai ki granthamocana ke samAroha kI ora se thA yahA huuN| gATI mAyA hUM, phaurana calanA hai / vAda yApa ghaTA aura lagA / prativA kucha ghATa cIna meM e / bolanA huA aura taba chuTTI para para ke lie syAnA huA jA sa sthAna bahuta hI bhavya aura bAhara hI kAkI mahatvapUrNa ! gAraga thA / nAra para matiditI poragI hai| upane ora mAneko vA / myA ni gaharA gyaa| nagara meM mIla kI para hogA poragI dAniya nakAra mirina dirA nA bhAI kA bhajana zera mana meM jo mAriraha meM vibhAga meM hI kI hai, yi pAnApA bhArata kI thA aura gosAI dene nagara ke 1 kabhI kuch| yAda mAnapAna kA thaa| ya kI hai| pati yA aura baha merA para pAnA

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jInA-maranA 16 yaa| ghara para gone kI taiyArI hI kara he ghe vi daravAje para prAda huii| yurA mAlUma humA gi yaha minI ke lie gayA mamaya hai / para daravAje para pAne ke gAya lIlAdhara me zAtha me tAra diyA gyaa| unhone degakAra kahA ki yaha nAma hamArA nahIM hai, kimI dUsare kA nAra hai| "nIlAgara jI kA yahI para nahIM hai|" "sacina tAra para mega nAma nahI hai|" "jI, apanAtI nAra hai aura dhApa yahA dene ko kahA hai|" tAra diyA aura bolA / linA thA-mupadavI mara gii| bhArIra uThA le jaae| gyAnA baja gyaa| rAta adhege| nAra hAtha meM hai| duniyA gara gaI: gerako uThA magA / nIlAra gAra kohAra meM liye raha gaye / gata pIpIga meM bijalI mI pagamya roganiyA jAnA mArapAli jI. patA dila nagAnA gAnATogA / yo paarnaaii| monAra pradara pAre / capApanA pAnI goditaa| palI meM vigaTa para AI, "yA hogA aba ?" "maya monA " mana zo mekAnimA-garamale ho parapaMgAmane le meM mAtA mA~ -gacI mAgaTarAga piga" "Iform HiT Hdha meM nAmI gonI, goI gagA, roI ne zani / " "kI mAMga para maranA / mAge / tara franA mAnA gaya nahI karanA 'yo namonopamA mage" " Frimar Age

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160 anendra pI mahAnimA dagA mAga mAramA jAte haiN|" lIlAdhara garedIye / gocA kisa rAma mAra hI hai| lagAI bAra kA cAra, janmadina ko uchAha kA camAra, savAgana ke papagaprajApAna aura vijJApana kA gr| aura rAga anna meM yaha gohamA cakara / lekina mauta para bhI pagAra samApta nahIM hai pamori garane meM marane vAle kI chuTTI ho jAnI ho, nIne vAloM ko eTTI manA hai? ___"pA moca nhe ho ? para do sampatAla pAlo ko gima kucha natI jaanne|" lIlAdhara ne gomA miTIka palI gI yAna hI hai| jo murza ho gayA hai, ugara koI yo jAnegA, yA unamA poI papA jAnegA ? ho. phona me gayo nahI para dene ho dhampanAsa pAnI mI!" yA galo, apa mAra jAyo / apane mApa karate phireNge|" patnI ko nIlAra ge degA / yahI thI jo apAra jamugiyA daha kI ana gamana ra nanda kI pagniyA~ kamI kI thii| dera yaha manI mI, gAta gemiTa pAIyo / yaha deha papa nika na gabhAna nI / jagame gAnA nAnA kI bhI jinkii| padArase para pazi jI aura raardii| para usI ko posanA, kapaDe pAnA, no pAmagAra aura pranA mata-matAne mAga mana panI moganima mAna-mana pAyApAraNa bhara zirAporavAloM para bhAra no guratamA pArAma gAmA / manonadA ra pAnasAra nAgatIlo nahomI ra manne ?' mAro galA gaa| pAnI TET, " pona goNA" in.ar gerazAmA ' To, momomo mo "rriremi" Tyr ino ? mA

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janA-maranA nimatraNa diyA / sInAghara gar3hA hI rhaa| jIvana bhI kemA vivaza hai ! kaisA nirmama thora nitAMta | gIta paga-paga para usake nAmane kyo na AtI hai, vaha ant pravRti jaise eka kSaNa ke lie bhI ruka nahIM sakatA / ullAsavimAna ko pravRtti karane parane ko, baTane uThane kI pravRtti / lIlAdhara sIdhe TelIphona kI tarapha bar3he aura DAIrekTarI meM dekhakara ema0 ema0 ke ghara kA nambara milaayaa| mAlUma huA, vaha ghara para haiM nahIM / gaya AyeMge | mAnUma nahIM / eka kSaNa govA aura TI0 ena0 diyaa| unake svara meM utAra mora mInAra meM yahAM vinAra bhI milA hai| meM jAnanA cAhatA hUM kibI huI to phona para vara muruko gayo nahIM dI gaI ? "nahI hai / bhApa cAhate kyA hai de" "kta yahA hogI aura usakA kyA kiyA jAyegA ?" "sabhI zAyada vA me ho / dhere ghara pahuMcA dI jAyegI / " kA kyA hogA ?" 0 ema0 e0 pAra rahA, "le jAye, aura jo cAhe 1 mere pApa nahIM hai |saan me bAta pIjiegA / " "parI ho yA mAnalA | marIja koI merA thA me ko boriMga ke taura pararatA hai / dhApa kA yaha doSa bhI parva hai| ST CLTA DA TZ DOT 4 I pIyU, SakR *1 mIjajavara ne hAI vaza ka gane mAnI kara liyA ema0 ke para pA nambara DAyala bhanAhaTa thI / diyaa| gumasuma vaha para guNa kisI para nahIM thA didI ke para 131 kama hai| pITha pIche bhI u

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132 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga jiyA jAya ? sukhiyA marI, yaha samajha me AtA hai| para vaha jII kyo ? yaha samajha me nahI AtA / idhara paitIsa varasa kI usakI jindagI kA phailAva sAmane AtA hai-cha varasa kI umara me vidhavA ho gii| lIlAdhara kI mA kI sasthA me solaha-aThAraha varSa kI umara me kAma karane A gaI / kAma ke sAtha do-cAra akSara bhI sIkha gii| pahale bAraha rupaye aura roTI-kapaDA pAtI thI / akSara sIkhakara vIsa rupaye khuzka pAne lgii| bIsa me apane Upara pAca kharcatI, pandraha idhara-udhara, pAsa-paDosa ke vAlabacco para nichAvara kara detii| phira kahI dUra calI gaI aura mAlUma huA ki kisI pAThazAlA me vahI vIsa rupaye pAtI hai aura cAkarI karatI hai / usane rUpa nahI pAyA thA aura zAyada jIvana bhara purupa bhI nahI pAyA thA / mA kI vajaha se lIlAdhara ko vaha jAnatI thI aura kahI ho aura cAhe lagaDAte-lagADate use pAnA paDe, rAkhI kA dina vaha nahIM bhUlatI thii| rAkhI para mahIne kI tanakhvAha se Upara kA sAmAna vaha le AtI hogI aura vApisa eka paisA svIkAra nahI karatI thii| vaha rahatI calI gaI, ekAkI aura nIrasa, aura vImAriyA use gheratI calI gii| kAna bekAra hue, TAgeM bekAra hone lagI aura phira peTa bekAra ho gyaa| do varasa se rAkhI para vaha nahI AI thii| kahA kisa hAla rahI, patA nahI / koI khaira-khabara nahIM milii| milA to Akhira me vaha kArDa milA jisa para jAne kisa tAkata se usane TeDhI-meDhI ve satareM likhI yaha jInA kyo huA ? kyo huA ? lIlAdhara samajha nahIM pAte / nahI samajha pAte usa vidhAna ko aura vidhAtA ko jo yaha saba bekAra kara jAtA hai| isa sukhiyA ko Akhira kyo jIne diyA gayA-pacapana sATha varasa kI umara taka / kyA usa vidhAtA kA yA isa duniyA kA bigar3atA thA agara use pahale hI uThA liyA jAtA / aura kyA thA ki use janamAyA gyaa|

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jInA-maranA 133 lIlAdhara ko gusmA yahI thaa| uga para yA jisa para gussA cala nahIM nakatA / jisa para kimI kA kucha vaza nahIM cala sktaa| jo haiM ghaaura nahI hotA to acchA thA ! "mote kyo nahIM ho ? Amo, so jaayo|" aura pannI kA hAtha car3hakara pAyA ki soco nahIM, leTa jAyo / vaha yahAA pragara jindagI kA pA to isa vacana vaha bhI lIlAdharako utanA bhI bekAra mAlUma humA / jaMge vaha sirpha dAla ho aura doSa usame kucha ghaya na ho vyavaM ho| __"mona meM base pate ho ? sugiyA to prava pAne se nhii| aura phira magera jo hamane maraghaTa le jAkara jalAyA, maiMne aspatAla vAloM ne pa. diyA / game pitA kI macA vAna hai" nIra ne anubhava liyA ki yagaka isame cinnA kI bAta nahIM kI gati ko unake mana meM sarAhanA ki vaha gitanI vyAvarisa pAmo samaya vaha nAra thI, vahI aba kAma cintA gIna re ye rie bhAra nahIM thii| garIra jo saba hai| mapraznoko mAyA garA pAgoM kI nijatI me nara diyA gayA yA bhogatoyoEiRT gAno gayA hotA hai ? mana nAro meM pArane pora ko lekara aina jiyA mAnA yoge meM gaura para jAnA! HompolisAra nIrApara mana ko ghara gayA / sI bahAmArI ra pI. bhamenA ho| TERo kora jogAena yo movieko me marane

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134 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga zrAgrahI mAlUma hotA thaa| ____ kucha nahI hai, eka dama kucha nahIM hai| lekina hA, zAyada vAha hai aura usa bAha kA gherA hai| usa ghere me ghirane ke lie lIlAdhara anAyAsa apane soca se uvare aura cAro tarapha ke bhISaNa nakAra ko dekhate-dekhate muskarAte svIkAra ne lIla liyaa| para rAta vItatI hai, saverA AtA hai aura usake sAtha mAno kartavya jAgane laga jAtA hai / lIlAdhara ne phona kiyA DI0 esa0 ema0 ko| isa samaya vaha tane aphasara na the aura lIlAdhara ke kahane para ki kyA hama loga pAkara zava dekha sakate haiM ? unhone abhyarthanA ke sAtha kahA, "avazya Aie / sIdhe mere daphtara me pAiegA to koI asuvidhA na hogii| maiM sADhe ATha baje pahuca jAtA hai|" lIlAdhara ne kahA, "calogI ?" "ava, savere hI savere itane kAma kI bhIr3a me ?" "dekha lo, lekina calanA caahie|" "to calo, dayA ko bhI bulA lU" / "dayA ko-culA lo|" dayA sahelI hai| tatpara aura sevA bhAvI hai / aura himmata ke kAmo me Age rahA karatI hai| DI0 esa0 ema0 ne pahucate hI lIlAdhara jI kA svAgata kiyA aura tatkAla phona se hidAyata dI ki eka mitra pA rahe haiM, unheM koI kapTa na ho / aura zava nambara 'a' unhe dikhA diyA jAya / lIlAdhara ne pUchA ki zava kA kyA kiyA jAyegA? "koI agara nahI mAgatA hai, to aDatAlisa ghaTe ke bAda usako kinAre kara diyA jAtA hai / Apa zarIra le jA sakate hai, cAheM to|" "zarIra-~-kyA Apake kisI upayoga meM nahIM A sakatA ?" "kyo nahI / yahA tIna meDikala kAleja haiN| sabako jarUrata rahA karatI haiM / "

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jInA maranA 135 patnI kI sahelI dayA kA Agraha huA ki nahI, zarIra kI vidhi - vat antyeSTi honI caahie| saba jhabhaTa aura kharca dayA bhugatane ko taiyAra huI | taiyAra huI ki zarIra ko abhI sAtha le calA jAyagA / mAlUma huA ki patnI bhI isase sahamata hai aura udyata sAtha le calo ra kharca saba apanI tarapha se hogA / hai ki zarIra ko lIlAdhara ne kahA, "aDatAlIsa ghaTe lAza ko saDAne se kyA phAyadA ?" DI0 esa0 ema0 ne batAyA ki etihAta kI jAtI hai lAza kI / barpha vagairaha kA pUrA intajAma rahatA hai / " mAnanA hogA ki mAkUla intajAma hai murdoM ke lie | jInevAlo ke liye agara nahI hai to sirpha isaliye ki jIte phira ve zrAkhira kisa - liye haiM ? lIlAdhara ne kahA, "abhI kyo nahI lAza ko kAlejo ke istemAla ke lie bhejA jA sakatA hai ?" "Apa likhakara deM ki vArisa koI nahI hai aura hamako ijAjata deM to phaurana intajAma ho sakatA hai / " lIlAdhara ke mana me vahI pahalI rAta vAlA gussA uTha AyA thA / unake mana me huA ki jIto kI yA murdoM kI jisa kadara cIr3a-phADa ho zrIra usame se jJAna-vijJAna kI jitanI vyarthatA ko nikAlA jAya, utanA acchA hai / lIlAdhara ne usI vakta kAgaja lekara usa para likha diyA ki aspatAla vAle lAza kA munAsiva intajAma kara sakate hai / use sabhAlane vAlA koI nahI hai / usake bAda tIno gurdAghara gaye / zrAdamI ne tAlA kholA aura jisa kamare me dAsila hue, vahA thaile me banda do lAzeM takhto para vichI thI / eka para barpha kI do jagaha AdhI-AdhI silliyA rasI thI / varAvara me gaTharI sI thI jisame mAlUma huA ki eka bacce ko lAza hai / tIsarI lAga sukhiyA vAlI thI / AdamI ne gATha solakara kapaDe se usakA ceharA bAhara kiyA thA / vaha ceharA rAkha sA sapheda aura zAnta yA /

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jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga dayA ne kahA, "dekho, bahana jI / kaisA zAnta ceharA hai / kaSTa se nahI marI, sukha- sAtA se marI hai / " "hA, dekho, palaka jaise cAhiye vanda haiM, mAthe para salavaTa nahI hai / kaSTa kI koI lakIra nahI hai he rAma !" lIlAdhara kamare ko dekha / rahe the / nIce TIna kA vaDA vaksa thA / eka tarapha kaI kuDo sI jaDI alamArI thii| mAlUma huA, garmiyoM me khAsa kara murde jyAde ho jAte haiM to vaksa me bhara diye jAte hai / alamArI bhI isI kAma ke liye haiM / 2" 136 " bhara diye jAte haiM zrAdamI ne kahA, "jI nahI, intajAma pUrA rahatA hai, varpha vagairaha kA / majAla ki vadavU Aye / " lIlAdhara ne kamare ko cAroM tarapha se dekhA, khiDakI se bAhara sapheda haDDiyoM ke Tukar3e-TukaDe hue DhAce paDe the / aura dekhA ki patnI aura dayA sukhiyA ke zAnta cehare ko desa rahI hai / unhoMne kahA, "calo " aura tIno cale Aye | aura zava raha gayA aura bAhara saba vaise hI huA jA rahA thA jaise ho rahA thA / disambara, '64

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ulaTa phera anta me aDatAlIsa varSa kI avasthA me pramIlA rastogI ko taya karanA par3A ki vaha inTaravyU me jAegI aura lAibreriyana kI jagaha pAne kA prayatna kregii| abhI mAdhava paDha rahA hai, rAghava bhI skUla me hai, aura unake pitA se kucha AzA nahI ho sakatI hai / pAzA thI suzIlA se / vaha purAnI sAthina hai aura bhAgya se skUla kI mukhyAdhyApikA hai / dUsare usane sunA thA ki inTaravyU me mAthura baiThane vAle haiN| vaha 'inake' sahapAThI rahe the aura vivAha java nayA thA to kabhI kadAsa ghara para A jAyA karate the / pramilA ne unhe dekhA nahIM, na unhone pramilA ko dekhA thaa| ghara baDA yA aura pardA rahA karatA thaa| vaha bhI zarmIlI thI, sundara mAnI jAtI thI isalie aura bhI zarmIlI thii| kintu zAyada hai ki nAma kI yAda unhe ho aura isa kAraNa inTaravyU meM pramilA ko mahArA ho jaae| mAthura vaDhate-caDhate gae the aura isI sasthA se sambadva eka inTaramIDiyeTa kAleja ke priMsipala ke pada se nivana hue the| inTaravyU saira ho gaI aura pramilA ko usame niyukti bhI mila gii| lekina paune do sau kI jagaha vetana usakA savA sau niyata huaa| isa para usane suzIla se pUchA, "sugIlA, yaha vetana ke mAna meM pharka yo padA ? aura batAyo mujhe kyA karanA cAhie ?" suzIlA ne kahA, "maiM kyA karatI? tujhI ne merA muha sI diyA thaa| aura yaha mAthura sAhaba the jo paune do sI ke lie rAjI nahIM the|" "mAthura nAhava / " "hA / unhone kahA ki pIne do sau vetana denA ho to hama pratibhA

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138 jainendra ko kahAniyA dasavA bhAga ko kyo na rakhe jo vI e kI jagaha ema e hai| merA Agraha tumhAre lie yA / unhone kahA ki agara tuma ema.e kI jagaha vI e. ko hI rakhanA cAhatI ho to ThIka hai, rakha sakatI ho / lekina phira sasyA ko kucha lAbha bhI honA cAhie / agara tumhArI kaiMDiDeTa savA sau lene ko rAjI ho to unakI niyukti ho sakatI hai| maine isa para bahuta prativAda kiyaa| lekina mAthura sAhaba apanI bAta se na Dige / batAo maiM kyA karatI ? mujhe dhyAna bhI AyA, izAre se terI bAta kaha dU / lekina bhalImAnasa, taine to mujhe kasama dilA dI thii|" pramIlA ne kahA, "to mAthura sAhaba vahI the jinhone tumhArI bAta ko TAla diyA thA, inTaravyU meM ki jaba tumane mere bAre meM kahA thA, yaha saskRta bhI jAnatI hai, bI e me eka viSaya inakA saskRta thA ! oha ! vahI na jo sunakara avanA se hasa paDe the, vole ye, eka viSaya to aise bahuto kA hotA hai / maiM nahIM magajhatI thI ki mAthura aise hoNge|" "hA, baDe sakhta hai / maine kahA bhI, tumhArI sthiti ke bAre me ki do bacce haiM, asahAya hai / lekina mAthura sAhava bole, ki hama kyA kara sakate haiM / yaha zikSaNa saMsthA hai, sadAvarta to hai nhiiN|" "acchA, yaha kahA " "paura saca batAU suzIlA, mujhe lagatA hai ki vaha terA ceharA deza kara suza nahIM hue / tujhe patA hai ki tU ava taka gajaba kI khUbasUrata banI huI hai aura kucha marda hote hai jo apane ko batalAnA cAhate haiM ki graha, hame sundaratA kA AkarSaNa nahIM khIca sakatA / saca kahatI hU jarA tU kAma sundara hotI to DeDa so to maiM tujhe jagara hI dilA sakatI thii|" ___ "calo, haTo ! tuma to cAhatI thI ki mundaratA mere kAma paaegii| aura aba yaha .." ___ "maiM kyA karatI, tumhI nIcI, bholI-sI nigAha kie baiThI rahI, maukA thA ki eka kaTAkSa hI choTA hotA / para tuma to." ___ "hasI na ro mugolA / mai pacAsa kI hone jA rahI hUM"yaha

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ulaTa phera 136 batAyo, maiM kyA karU, svIkAra kara lU ?" "nahIM to kyA karogI?" 'yahI socatI hU ki nahI to kyA kruugii| lekina vaDA apamAna jaimA mAlUma hotA hai|" suzIlA ne gaharI sAsa choDI / vaha isa pramolA ke prati pragamA se bhI Age aba lagabhaga zraddhA ke bhAva rakhatI thii| choTI thI, tabhI se vaha pramIlA kI vilakSaNa sundaratA ke jAdU me A gaI thii| usake bAda jIvana nikalatA calA gyaa| pramIlA jo hara taraha sampanna thii| aba isa avasthA me Akara vipanna aura prAyinI vana AI thI / aura muzIlA jo Arambha me asahAya jaisI hI thI, aba ima hAI skUla kI adhiSThAtrI thii| vaha kucha daga thI bhAgya ke khela para / daga yaha dekha kara bhI thI ki pramIlA bhAgya ke thapeDe khAte-khAte bhI hArane ko taiyAra nahIM hai aura jIvana se jUjhe hI calI jA rahI hai / usane kyA-kyA nahIM dekhA ? kyAkyA nahIM sahA / kyA yA jo chuTapana me use prApta nahIM thaa| rAjasI ThATha-bATa aura lADa-pyAra meM palI / dUsarI hotI usakI jagaha toTUTa hI gaI hotI / lekina pramIlA jI hI nahI rahI hai, apane ko pUrI taraha sacita rakhe hue cala rahI hai / vikharI nahIM hai jarA bhI / saudarya usa para meM aba bhI utara nahIM gayA hai / vaha hai aura samAhita hai / eka vismayajanaka sambhrama ava bhI usake vyaktitva ke AsapAsa dIkhatA hai| suzIlA yaha socatI huI pramolA ko dekhatI raha gii| ekAeka kucha bolI nhiiN| pramIlA ne kahA, "vatAyA nahIM, mujhe kyA karanA cAhie ?" muzIlA kA mana bhArI ho pAyA / bolI, "vatAne ko usame kyA hai ' svIkAra karanA hI paDegA / strI ko vivazatAeM haiM / lekina suna, aba bhI kucha vigaDA nahIM hai / mAthura sAhaba bAta ko nabhAla sakate hai| tU mujhe kahane kyo nahI detI ki tU......" __ "nahI suzIlA, nahIM / tujhe maiM phira kasama detI huuN|"

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140 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga "Akhira kyo ?" "nahI maiM kRpA nahIM le sktii| unake nAte bhAI kRpA to aura bhI kimI taraha nahIM le sktii|" to vatA, maiM kyA karU ? terI hAlata me pacAsa rupaye kA pharka kama nahIM hai aura tU kahane degI to maiM samajhatI hU Age tarakkI kA rAstA bhI khula jaaegaa| aura tU saca jAna, mAthura apanA vacAva kara rahe haiN| vacAva kI jarurata nahI raha jAegI to vaha bahuta udAra hai aura Age tere sAmane koI kaThinAI nahI aaygii|" "phira vahI, suzIlA / kaha cukI hU, vaha nahI ho sakatA / dekhanA kitI taraha kA jikra unase na karanA / aura calo, yaha savA sI hI shii| koziza karU gI ki itane mesavake peTo ke lie prA.A dAla to juDa jaae|" niyukti ho gaI / aura pramIlA kAma karane lgii| nau baje jAtI aura cha baje ghara A pAtI / sava kAma apane hAtho ne karanA pdd'taa| sirpha vartana sApha karane ke lie maharI rasanA jasrI ho gayA thA lekina usako diyA jAne vAlA vetana akhare vinA nahIM rahatA thA / rAghava kI phIsa mApha nahI hotI thI, mAdhava ne eka choTI sI tIna rupaye kI TyUgana kara lI thI / jaise taise gADI khiMca rahI thii| nhane ko tIno ke lie eka barasAtI hAtha A gaI thii| kigayA unakA paccIsa rupayA / pramIlA kA vaDA laDakA dUra nikala gayA thA / vaha kabhI chaThe chamAhe kucha payA bheja diyA karatA thaa| para idhara ume bhI kaThinAI kii| umara pA gaI thI, aura use videgI kanyA me prema ho gayA thaa| aiga meM chaThe chamAhe bhI kucha pA jAe, yahI kyA kama thaa| yo DeDa eka sAla nica gayA / kAma ke bojha ke kAraNa pramola kA zarIra daI dene lagA pA / barasAtI tIsare majila para thii| caTate marate aba vaha hApha jAtI thI aura joDa pirAne lage ye / usake mana meM yA thA ki jaise bhI ho, bacco ko kAvita karanA hai| unake mana ko marane

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ulaTa phera 141 yA dabane nahIM denA hai| khuda apane para kitanA bhI vojha kyo na pdd'e| cAhe kAma kA, cAhe cintA kA yA nindA kA / use lagane lagA thA ki jIvana sacamuca balidAna hai / eka kA balidAna hI hai jo dUsare ko yahA khilAtA hai / aura yadi usakA jIvana khuda pisa rahA thA to mAdhava paura rAghava to the jo usa para pala-baDha rahe the / yahI mAno usakI apanI sArthakatA yo aura isI me vaha hara dina ke savere ko usakI zAma se milA detI thI / avere taDake uThatI aura kAma me pravRtta ho jAtI / mAdhava aura rAghava dono ko khilA-pilA kara nau vaje DyUTI para pahuca jaatii| zAma ko hArI thakI cha baje AtI aura phira roTI-cUlhe ke jhajhaTa meM juDa jAtI / mAdhava ne jo zAma kI TyUzana lI thI, so rAta nau baje ghara yA pAtA thA / rAyana bhI ina kaThinAI ke dino me se apane lie zikSA grahaNa kara rahA thA / vaha mA ke lie jitanA vanatA sahAI aura upayogI hone kI koziga kiyA karatA thaa| isame phurmata hI na milatI kisI bAta kI / dUsare tIsare mahIne bacco ke pitA kI ciTThI milatI to usakA mana ukhaDa AtA thA / adhikA ciTThI unako nahIM AtI thI, bacco ko pAtI thii| vahI unake dukha ke ubhAra ke lie kAphI ho pAtI thii| lekina acchA thA ki kAma kA tAtA aisA thA ki dukha ko sahalAne ko samaya na choDatA thA / aura jindagI kI gADI ruka na pAtI thI, Age sarakatI baDhatI hI jAtI thii| suzIlA kabhI-kabhI ghara A jAtI yA pramIlA hI suzIlA ke pAsa calI jAtI / yA to nAte-riztedArI se kabhI kisI Tele kA bulAvA A pahucatA aura bacanA nabhava na hotaa| lekina nAtedAriyo kA nivAha bhArI bahuta paDatA aura usake mana kA bojha vaDha jAtA / kAraNa, avele hokara jindagI se jUjhatI huI nArI ke lie sarAhanA ke bhAva hone vA kAyadA samAja me nahI pAlA jAtA hai | usame bhI yadi vaha nindA dabIDakI ho, muha para mula kara na AtI ho, vana eka UparI ziSTAcAra ke vyagya ne hI prakaTa ho pAtI ho, taba to vaha asahanIya hI ho jAtI hai|

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142 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga para asahya ko bhI sahA jAtA hai aura jInA paDatA hai| bAta bahuta purAnI hai / mAthura sAhaba ke eka choTA bhAI thA / nAma thA zekhara / vaha pramIlA ke baDe laTake vIra se ekAdha sAla ho vaDA hogaa| jaba-taba ghara para A jAyA karatA thA aura vIra ke sAtha pramilA ko vaha bhI bhAbhI kahatA thaa| unhe bahuta hI mAnatA thA / bhAbhI ko bhI usase vaDA lADa thA / kabhI vaha mAthura sAhva ke sAtha aataa| taba mAthura to vAhara maradAnI baiThaka me apane sahapAThI mitra se vatiyAte rahate aura zekhara kI bhAbhI bhUle bhI bAhara na nikltii| zesara bhItara apanI bhAbhI ke pAsa rahakara aura macala kara jAne kyA kyA unase sunatA aura lekara khAtA rahatA thaa| huA yaha ki pramIlA ko vaha zekhara hI mila gayA / khAsA javAna ho gayA thaa| lekina dekhate hI pahacAnane me use dera na lagI / vaha nAyA aura ekdama bhAbhI se lipaTa gayA / pramIlA vehada sakucita huii| mAthura mAhaba ke yahA koI pArTI thI aura skUla ke karmacArI ke nAte pramIlA bhI vahA gaI thii| usa pArTI meM anekAneka gaNamAnya loga the / pramItA eka kinAre baca-vaca kara nima rahI thI / gesara ke ima acAnaka premApramaNa para vaha ghabarA pAI / bolI, "are, zekhara | tU hai ? tepina jarA dekha bhAI cupa kara, bona nhiiN|" gedara bhAbhI se haTa to gayA, levina usake mana meM bahuta utsAha thaa| kaise batAtA ki ina pandraha-bIsa varSoM ke antarAla meM bhAbhI barAbara unake mana me kyA banI rahI hai| kintu bhAbhI kI nibhaka para anta meM unako bhI kucha aTapaTA lagA aura thor3I dera bAda vaha cupacApa vahA se calakara mAzura mAhaba ke pAsa pA gayA / unhe sabara dI ki yahA bhAbhI AI huI hai| "bhAbhI, kona nAmI ?" "vahI, ratogI sAhya vAlI / zrApa bhUla gae ?" mAyura ekdama Azcarya me pa8 gae / puganI gaTI bAta pala meM naI

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ulaTa phera 143 aura jItI ho gAI / paDhAI ke vAda abhI jIvana gurU hI huA thaa| sahapAThI mitra ke yahA jAte the aura kabhI vahA haThAt idhara se udhara jAtI huI ramaNI kI pagadhvani unhe suna jAtI thii| kabhI acAnaka usake pagatala bhI dIkha jAte the| acAnaka, kyoki vaha phaurana udhara se Akha haTA lete the| eka hI vAra zAyada aisA huA thA ki usake dono hAtha bhI dIsa gae the / ceharA dIkha sakatA thA yadyapi sADI kI kora ko kAphI Age taka le A gayA thA aura usako parde kA nimitta samajhA gayA thaa| derA sakate the aura dekhanA bhI cAhate the / lekina dekhanA sabhava ho nahIM sakA thA / aura mana hI to hai / phira vaya kI bAta hai / taba jAne kyA cina kSaNa me bana jAegA aura zAzvata hokara raha jAegA / kucha aimA hI unake sAtha huA thaa| vole, "kyA bakatA hai ? vaha yahA kahA pAegI?" gesara ne kahA, "lAU unhe yahA bulA ke ?" "hA, le ke praa|" zekhara ne jAkara kahA ki bhAI sAhava bulA rahe hai / munakara pramIlA dhaka se raha gaI / ittI kSaNa ko vaha Dara rahI thii| huA ki kaha de vaha nahI jA skegii| para mAthura mAthura hI na the, skUna kameTI ke upAdhyakSa bhI the| manamArI vaha sAtha-sAtha ho lI jaise vandinI ho / pArTI kA gavasara thA aura Asa-pAsa bhIDa thii| pramIlA zekhara se ekAna Daga pIche raha gaI thI / pAsa pahucane para mAthura sAhaba ne zekhara se vAhA, "are kahA hai terI bhAbhI?" anAyAma utsAha se yaha vola paDA, "kyo, yahI to hai !" bolane ke sAtha umane agala-bagala dekhA aura pIche eka padama haTakara pramIlA ko bAha se pakaDAbhAra mAthura sAhaba kI ora Age vaTA diyaa| mAthura ne dekhA / jaise una para gAja girI / sAmane pramIlA murajhAI sI jA rahI thii| vaha pAsa uThAkara dera nahIM sakatI thii| mAthura ko saba bhUla gayA / apanI vAyu bhUla gaI, pada bhUla gyaa|

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144 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga apanA pApA hI jaise unase kho gyaa| kyA inhI ke saundarya se apane ko bacAne ke lie vaha sasta hue the / kyA inhI ke vetana kA panAsa rupayA pana kara DAlA thA / vaha kisI taraha apane ko samajhA nahIM sake / unakI kalpanA vekAma ho gii| sampannatA kI kisa UcAI para unhoMne ina mahilA ko dekhA thA-vaha bhUla nahIM pAte the / balki dekhA kahA thaa| nahI to bhAkI taka nahIM pAI thI 1 dekhane kI spRhA hI mana meM juTAkara rakha pAI thii| vahI unake adhIna mAmUlI-sI jagaha kI naukarI pAne kI prAyinI banakara Ane ko vivaza huii| yaha tahamA unhe akalpanIya aura asahanIya huaa| mAno vaha apane ko dhikkAra rahe ho| isa vibhAva me mAye me vala DAlakara vaha vahA se ekadama lauTa paDe / eka zabda bhI pramIlA ko nahIM kahA / sirpha tAkIda ke svara me gegara ko kahA, 'idhara praayo|" ___ zekhara jAte hue bhAI sAhaba ke pIche cala diyA aura pramIlA aparAdha kI mUrti banI-sI vahI akele khaDI raha gaI / umako bhI eka kSaNa kucha nahIM mUjhA / phira ekAeka nAnA dusambhAvanAe usake mAthe me kolAhala macAtI huI bhAgane-dauDane lagI / usake mana me nizcaya-nA vanakara jAga uThA ki aba usakI naukarI samApta ho gaI hai / usake sAtha jaina sArA bhaviSya bhI usake lie samApta huA jAtA lgaa| mAthura ke mAye para paDe vakra ko dekhakara usake citta meM sarAya nahIM raha gayA thA-yA baDA marAya paidA ho gayA thA ! zekhara lauTA to usakI bhAbhI vahI kI vahI rADI yI / unakA ceharA dekhakara vaha manna raha gayA / usakA mana uThalA A rahA thaa| lekina aba ainA baiThA ki usako kucha nahIM suujhaa| ugane vAheM apanI bhAbhI ke kandhoM para kI aura mAno unheM pAmate hue vaha unheM le claa| vahA, "bhAbhI, anI jAnA nahIM hogaa| bhAI sAhaba ne kahA hai ki ThaharanA hogaa|" pramIlA ne meyara po dekhA / jaina vaha gada gamana nahIM pA rahI thii|

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ulaTa phera 145 zekhara ne jaldI se kahA, "bhAI sAhava ne kahA hai, pIche hama pahucA dege ghara | tAkIda se kahA hai ki tumhArI bhAbhI abhI jAegI nahI, kaha denA / " pramIlA ne suna liyA / usako apanA aparAdha samajha na pA rahA thaa| lekina aba ekAeka zekhara ke svara se haThAt use laga pAyA ki kahI usakA bhaya nirmUla hI to nahI hai ? phira bhI DeDha mAla ke anubhava meM usane pAyA thA ki mAthura sAhaba usakI tarapha khAsataura se sakhta hai / use tarakkI nahI milI hai aura usa para dUsarI tAkIdeM bhI rahI haiM / jAne eka sAtha AzvAsana aura AzakA se kaisI vaha mathI jAne lgii| "kyA huA bhAbhI ?" zekhara kI bhAbhI kucha nahIM bolii| "yaha tumako kyA ho rahA hai ?" "kucha nhii|" zekhara kI bAho ne anAyAsa bhAbhI ko kanyo-se jaise apanI ora khIca kara sarakSaNa me liyaa| usa davAva para ekAeka pramIlA me samaya phaTatA calA gayA aura vizvAsa bharane lgaa| bhIDa chaTa cukI thI, loga cale gae ye aura pramIlA mAyura mAhava ke sAmane akelI baiThI thii| zekhara thA aura kamare se vaha jA cukA thaa| gae ekAca minaTa ho gae aura una dono me koI kucha nahIM bolA thaa| anta me mAthura ne kahA, "pramIlA |" svara bhArI thA aura kApa rahA thaa| pramIlA ne ghavaDA kara Upara dekhaa| mAthura ne apanI nigAha nIcI nahIM kI / vaha pramIlA ko dekhate rahe / dekhate-dekhate unakI Akho me AsU bhara Ae / bhara kara ve Tapa-Tapa girane bhI lge| pramIlA vimUDha-mI baiThI raha gaI / skUla kI vaha karmacAriNI thI, mAyura upAdhyakSa the| yaha na hotA aura pramIlA nArI ho sakatI to pugpa kI ora baDhakara vaha nAntvanA detI aura grAmU na vahane detii| para

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146 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga aba vaha vimUDha vanI baiThI raha gii| ___mAthura nirlajja niyAja koI do minaTa taka Tapa-Tapa prAsU gigate rahe / nigAha unhone nahIM haTAI aura bole bhI nahIM / anta me unhone smAla nikAlA, AkheM pochI, nAka mApha kiyA aura bhara pAte kaTha-se vole, "pramIlA ! .. yaha tumane kyA kiyA ?" pramIlA cupa raha gii| "vatAyA kyo nahI mujhe ? mere hAtho yaha pApa kyo karavAyA ?" pramIlA aba bhI kucha bola nahIM skii| mAthura hI kahate gae "aura aba cha ho bhI nahI sakatA hai| ' choTo, devA jAegA / para pramIlA, yaha huA kyA ?" pUcha kara mAthura use kore se kucha dera dekhate hI raha gae to pramIlA ne apane ko samAhita kiyA / bolI, "hotA kyA, bhAgya kA ulaTaphera / aura kyA ?" "vaha kahA hai-sarapa ?" "zAyada naukarI meM haiN|" "gAyada ?.. aura tuma ?" "maiM yahA hU-Apake skUla meN|" mAyura munate aura dekhate raha gae / Akhira pachatAe-se svara meM vahI vola paTe, "mujhe batAyA kyo nahI tumane pahale ?" "kyA batAtI ?" "majhe pahacAna to sakI nI na ?" "nhiiN|" "pahacAnA nahIM ? 'jAnatI to hogI?" "jAnatI thI inIlie to skana meM naukarI ke lie darakhAsta dI thii| lekina maine pUrI tanha pApako devA kada yA ki pahalAnatI ?" mAthura gAra dera ra ke, phira bole, "maiMne dekhA thaa| ceharA nahI dekhA thA, pAva devA yA / aura eka bAra hAtha bhI denA thaa| aura harA''

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ulaTa phera 147 nahI, dekha nahI pAyA / dekhA hotA to yaha pApa kaise hotA ? lekina tuma akelI kyo ho ? vatAyo, maiM kucha kara sakatA hU?" "kyA lava akele nahIM hai ? aura isame kauna kyA kara sakatA hai ?" mAyura pramIlA ko dekhate raha gae / samajha gae yaha mahilA sapano me palI ava anta pura vAsinI nahIM hai / jIvana yathArtha ke anubhavo ne bAhara se vAdAma kI taraha ise kaThora banA diyA hai| zAyada vaha kaThoratA hI hai jisane ise TUTane nahI diyA hai aura usakI sundaratA kI kasAvaTa ko jyo kA tyo rasa liyA hai| ThIka hai, zAyada yahI ThIka hai| vidhAtA ke marma ko kauna jAnatA hai ? bole, "pramIlA | tuma parde ke pIche hara taraha kI sukha-suvidhA ke vIca rahatI thii| maiM mAsTara lagA thA aura tumhArI paristhitiyo kI ora aise dekhatA thA jaise dharatI para se koI svarga ko devatA hai / aura tuma 'nahI, maiM jyAde nahI kaha skuugaa| itanA hI pUchanA cAhatA hUM ki mujhe mApha kara sakogI?" "Apane mujhe naukarI dI hai|" "dekho, isa bAta ko phira muha para na lAnA ! choTA laDakA tumhArA kisa skUla meM paDhatA hai ? mAdhava ke kAleja me kyA-kyA viSaya hai ? dekhanA, kucha ho mujhe jasra maukA denA / saspa tava bhI sanakI thaa| choDo tumhe kaSTa hotA hai, usakI vAta choTo / lekina agara tumane ava yAne kisI taraha kA kapTa pAyA, nitya-nimitta kI AvazyakatA me sakoca kiyA aura mujhe nahIM kahA to mujhase merA kasUra uThAyA nahIM jAyagA / aura dopa tumhArA hogaa| sunatI ho pramIlA ! huA so hunA, Age mujhe aura uDa na denA / " pramIlA ne muskarAkara kahA, "mApane niyukti ke namaya mere pacAsa rupae kama kyo kie the ?" "maiM pAgala ho gayA thaa|" "kyo?" "pAgala hone meM bhI koI 'kyo' hotA hai ? * 'tuma ema e0 nahIM thI

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148 janendra kI kahAniyA damavA bhAga aura saca kahU ? * maiM bhI ema e nahIM hai|" pramIlA hama paDI / kahane ko huI "aura * " mAthura ne bIca me hI kahA, "aura ? vajaha ho tuma " pramIlA muskarAI / bolI, "maiM !" "hA, tum|" __ aura ava Ayu kA sAvvA varSa nikaTa yA rahA hai / vaDA laDakA mAdhava ema e0 karake acchI naukarI para laga gayA hai| rAghava pI anta taka phIsa mApha rahI aura vajIphA milatA rahA / ava vI e0 karake vaha bhI naukarI pA gayA hai / pramIlA skUla me lAiberiyana cala rahI hai / naukarI jAne kI sUrata nahIM hai / satpa pati hai aura dUra hai aura sAlI haiM aura aiThe hai aura duniyA jArI hai / pharavarI '65

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cakkara -sadAcAra kA ! maiM kucha cakkara me hU / mAlUma na thA ki sadAcAra me bhI cadakara I ---- nikala AegA / zAyada apane vAre me kucha yahA kahane kI jarUrata hai / tIsa varSa kA hU, vivAhita hU, gracchI Aya hai / lekina mujha para kAma kI jimmedArI bilkula nahI hai aura eka kAra mere lie alaga kara dI gaI hai / pitAjI kA kahanA hai, jisame bhAI sAhaba sahamata hai, ki phala baDo kI sevA kA milatA hai / kAma karane vAle hama haiM hI tuma paDhe-likhe ho, samAjasevA kI ruci raso ra sArvajanika samparkoM kI ora dhyAna do / yaha salAha merI vRtti aura prakRti ke anukUla hai aura maiM milane-julane kA kAma kiyA karatA hU / - aba bAta yaha hai ki sadAcAra kI jarUrata hai--aura bhraSTAcAra kI bilakula jarUrata nahI hai / kahA jAtA hai ki bhraSTAcAra yo rahA hogA hara kAla me, para jarUrata kI mAnA ke grandara / grava jarUrata kI rekhA se vaha bAhara thA rahA hai / ThIka hI hai ki samAja ke aura rAja ke netA loga udhara vyAna de / usa dhyAna dene ke kArovAra me mere jaisA vyakti sammilita na hogA, yaha kaise ho sakatA hai / mere pAsa samaya thA, kAra thI, sAdhana ce zrIra kAma behada zrAvazyaka va samAjopayogI thA / zrata desA gayA ki meM doDa-dhUpa me hU meha aura bhraSTAcAra kI rokathAma ke prayatnoM meM vyasta hU / nadAcAra honA cAhie ra usako jArI karane aura rakhane kA kAphI bhAra apane kadho anubhava karatA rahatA hU~ / lekina zravasthA merI tIna hI varSa hai / isa kAraNa kucha maryAdAeM haiM /

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jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga huA yaha ki sadAcAra samiti ke adhyakSa kA sthAna khAlI huA, jo the unako baDA pohadA diyA gayA aura vaha dUra cale ge| kucha dino taka soca-vicAra calatA rahA / eka roja misTara varmA, jo yo sadAcAra meM kucha na the, magara DipTI sekreTarI the aura sadAcAra vAlI samiti ke lie nepathya ke sUtradhAra the, ekAeka pUcha baiThe, "zarmA jI ko jAnate ho?" __ "kauna zarmA jI ?" "acchA, nahI jAnate ho ?" usa pratiprazna me lagA, yaha to bAta gaDabaDa huI jA rahI hai| gane jaldI se kahA, "zarmA jI, eka to apanI hI tarapha hai, kamalAnagara meN|" misTara varmA ne merI ora dekhA / una dRSTi meM dayA thI aura mAno kSamA bhI thii| mujhe lagA ki maiM una nigAha me gira rahA hai| mujhe hara hAlata meM nahate rahanA cAhiye thA / isaliye kahA, "kahie, unheM kyA kahanA hogA?" "jAne do, tuma unheM nahIM jAnate / " "lekina-jI-" misTara varmA jarA hane aura ghaTI bajA kara mezana Aphinara mAnUma kiyA ki hA, garmA jI udhara kama nA nagara me hI rahate hai| maiMne mapaTa kahA ki unheM to meM sUba jAnatA hai / yahie? varmA muskarAe, vole, "eca0 ema0 kA rayAla thA gi adhyakSatA pe lie unameM yahA jAya / tuma" "zarmA jI se " maine bharasaka svara ko dumAnI rgaa| garmA jI the to eka hamAre mohalle meM, para nanakI se AdamI namajhe jAte the / sAta kI apanI mArvajaniA doSa-dhUpa meM mabhI mujhe unakI prAsyakatA nahIM huii| gunA thA koI haiM, kucha hai / lekina adhyakSatA meM prasaga meM isa taraha unamA nAma sIye ena0 ema0 kI tarapha se sunane ko mila jAegA, pragatI

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cakkara-sadAcAra kA / 151 kalpanA bhI kabhI mujhe na ho sakatI thii| vahI nAma misTara varmA kI ora se cunautI kI taraha caukAtA huA, jaba mere samakSa AyA to bahuta samajhie ki maiM apanA satulana bacAye rakha sakA aura yaha nahI pragaTa hone diyA ki zarmA jI ke vyaktitva ke lie mere mana me kama Adara hai| kahA, "zarmA jI se vatAie, kyA kahanA hogA ? vaha to mujhe vehada apanA ajIja mAnate hai / maiM avazya unase kaha sakatA hU aura svIkAratA lA sakatA hU~ / " varmA ne mujhe dekhA / phira unake hoTho me muskarAhaTa kA vakra thaa| pUchA, "tumhArA kyA rayAla hai ?" "zarmA jI, "maine TaTolate hue kahA- "eca0 ema0 ne bahuta munA. siva socA hai|" "to jAkara tuma unase milo| abhI adhyakSatA kI bAta kahane kI jarUrata nahI / bana rukha dekho aura mujhase kahanA / taba eca0 ema0 khuda milanA caahege|" eca0 ema0 khuda milanA cAhege ki adhyakSa hone ke lie samakSa nivedana kara sake / mujhe lagA, duniyA galata hai aura yahI kucha bhUla hai / lekina kahA ki acchI bAta hai aura gAma ko hI maiM Apako vApisa Akara mila sakatA hai| varmA ne kahA ki nahI, jaldI kI bAta nahIM hai aura paraso se pahale zAyada unase mulAkAta bhI na ho skeN| maiMne kahA ki acchA, aura dekha liyA ki gama khAe vinA duniyA me baTanA nahI ho sakatA hai, aura aphasara sadA aphasara hotA hai / para yaha saba to bhUmikA huI / dArmA jI ke yahA jAnA huA to vahA DrAiMga rama taka na thaa| vAhara eka tasta paDA thA / mAlUma huA ki yahI vaiThanA hogA / pAca varata kA eka baccA pAkara merA kArDa bhItara le gayA aura pAca minaTa taka maiM una choTe se barAmade ke sUne me baiThA dekhA kiyA ki pajava tamAzA hai / maiM yahA baiga hai ki jahA tarIke se baiThanA bhI nahIM

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152 jainendra ko pahAniyA dasavA nAga namIva ho sakatA / aura vaiThA isalie hai ki eca0 ema0 ina mahAgaya ne milanA cAhate hai aura maiM kisI taraha eca0 ema0 taka apanI pahaca banAnA cAhatA hai / kucha betukI sI mAlUma huI vaha pAca minaTa kI dera ki java zarmA jI varAmade me upasthita hue / maine paDe hokara hAya goTe aura unhoMne kathA pakaDa pAra pahale mujhe usI tarata para biThAyA aura vagavara meM phira suda baiTha gaye / paMge me lakaDI kI caTTI thI aura pahane hae the prAdhI dhotI aura prAdhI vAho kI bhii| cehare me koI sAna prabhAva nahIM najara aayaa| maumya thA avazya, para rogItA nahIM kaha skte| "kaho, bhAI, yahI rahate ho, mAmalA nagara?" "ele na bolI, jaise maiM tumhe jAnatA nahI hu, gAlIgAmajI ke to laDake ho na? kaho, kaine pAra kiyA ?" ___ hama loga mAnate the ki raghara zrApa cucha udAgIna rahate haiM / deza ko sabasthA vipama hai / para kI lolupatA haiN| bhAvAcAra rada rhaa| aise meM pApa meM kahe vi udAmIna rahane kA haka nahIM hai, bhArae nAra hama naujavAno kA mArgadarzana kIjiye / mAga para ganika mUlyoM kI tarapha vA durlakSa ho rahA hai aAjakala / eka grApA-pApI cala rahI hai / daigie tI dayA namaH zuddha nahIM miltii| gAne-pIne kI nIjo me to milAna pI hada nahIM raha gaI hai| 'gorI kI pUlisI natI / ma ghora damA me prApata uThanA cAhie aura ." "ThIka hai, bIka hai| tuma para kyA ho " "chaha varSa hue pAliTiga meM hama liyA yA ginahara pariyA mokaga-ge-kama dhAragI nA denA cAhie baiMga medhA ke Fire ginA jI ne yahI gonAra yAma kA yoga muna para natI mAnA aura prAga-jaigo ke mArgadarzana meM sevA ke nimicoTa diyA hai|" "canne kitane hai?"

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cakkara- sadAcAra kA 1 "laDakA hai ? kitane varSa kA hai ?" " do varSa kI baccI hai / " " to tuma deza ke kAma me ho ?" "jI / " 153 "acchA hai, acchA hai / " bAta khatama sI lagatI thI / maiMne haThAt kahA, "sadAcAra ke pracAra 1 ke lie batAie kyA kiyA jAnA cAhie ?" -- -kI samitiyA vana to rahI hai / kAma bhI tejI se "sadAcAra ? ho rahA hai / tumhe usame laga jAnA cAhie / " "lekina, Apa -- " "hA, hA, kaho / maiM kyA ?" "ApakA usame yoga cAhie / " "yoga hai kyo nahI / avazya hai, acche kAma me bhagavAna kA yoga hotA hai / phira savAla kyA "hama zrApako apane sAtha samajha sakate hai ? samiti me le sakate haiM ?" "sAtha meM kyo nahI hai / lekina samiti -- usako jAne do / " " samiti to kArya ko svarUpa dene ke "hA, hA, vaha to hai / " zarmA jI ne jaise dekhanA zrava prArambha kara rahe ho / lie hai / " kahA- aura mujhe aise dekhA zzd kucha kSaNa usa nigAha ke nIce meM astaprAya sA baiThA rahA / phira haThAt kahA, " to ApakI anumati hama mAna sakate hai ?" unhone uttara nahI diyA / cehare para kucha kAThinya phalaka zrAyA / lekina haThapUrvaka mAno hasate hue bole, "tumhe usakI bahuta cintA hai ? tuma to javAna ho, bar3e loga cintA kara hI rahe hai / deza kI bAteM una para choDa do / " "lekina, sara, yaha deza kI bAta nahI hai, janatA kI bAta hai / janajana kI bAta hai / "

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154 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasayA bhAga hamAra bole, "hA, hA, jana-jana kI bAta hai / bolo, gayA loge? lasmI le sakoge ? yA kokAkolA hI cAhie ?" "jI nahIM, kRpA hai / lekina-" / "dekho veTe, deza netA loga mo nahIM rahe haiM / ye jage hue hai aura tatpara haiM / aise meM bahuta jyAde jimmedArI auro ko apanI nahIM mAnanI cAhie / samajhe na ? samitiyA hai, aura kAma ke lie tuma javAna loga ho / phira kyA cAhie ? netA hai jo kaTibaddha hai, kAryakartA haiM jo tuma jaise parAyaNa haiN| maiM bahuta adhika vyakti hU, mere lie kAma roko nahIM, cale clo|" ___maiMne mana meM apanA mAthA ThokA / yahI vastu hai jo hamArI pravanati ke mUla me hai / yaha asalagnatA aura taTasthatA / jage jo hai, dUsare para hai| Apa basa sAkSI haiM aura draSTA haiM / arAnopa me kahA-~-"nAgarika prApa bhI hai aura hara nAgarika kA dAyitva hai-" gargA jI kA ceharA kATora hotA dikhAI diyaa| vaha paDe hue aura pahA-caMTho maiM abhI paayaa| kahakara vaha cale gae aura maiM pATA humA yA mUne uga barAmade meM apane ropa ko lekara ekAeka akelA baMTA raha gyaa| bahuta vivi mAtama huyA unakA vyavahAra aura tarka kA tAra jisa jagaha chuTA pA unake prativAda kA joga mubhame uphanA pA rahA thaa| Aye to unake hAtha meM lamsI pA gilAgadhA / yahA-"to, piyo| garmI hai, ThaTaka paayegii|" gilAna hAtha meM liyA aura maiMne bhagavara tapata para rakha diyaa| kahA-"pAhie, mere lie gayA pAnA hai ?" "are bhaI, pahale piyo to|" / "mApane vRyA yaha kaSTa giyA" "depo na stinI garmI hai bhora yahA panA bhI nahIM hai| mApha karanA, ghara meM nahIM hai aura lasmI ghAyada mAphI ThaTI na ho| piyo, piyo, rAmAMpo mt| tumhArA hI ghara hai|"

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1 cakkara- sadAcAra kA 155 upAya na thA aura mana hI mana meM jhallA rahA thA ki kisa jagaha Akara phasA / lekina misTara varmA se mujhe milanA thA aura mai avazya cAhatA thA ki eca0 ema0 se jo bAta nikalI hai, usakI pUrti me maiM kisI na kisI taraha kAma grAU, jisase vahA taka merI rasAI ho sake / gilAsa lekara maiM sipa karatA jAtA thA aura zarmA jI kI ora isa pratyAzA se dekhatA jAtA thA ki vaha pighaleMge aura merA kAma pUrA ho jaaegaa| lekina mAlUma hotA thA, lassI ke gilAsa se bAhara kisI deza aura sadAcAra kI unhe cintA nahI hai aura unakA mAnasa ghirA ora simaTA hai / para tovaha, usa DhIma gilAsa ke Adhe taka Ane me merI sAmartha samApta ho gaI aura gilAsa ko maiMne eka tarapha kara denA cAhA / zarmA jI bole - " are bhaI, javAna ho| yaha kyA, pUrA pI ddaalo|" lekina vaha kisI taraha sabhava na huA, aura meM lajjita ho prAyA aura zarmA jI ne kRpA kI aura maiMne antima bAra kahA ki vatAyA jAya ki samiti me hone kI anumati meM prApta mAna sakatA ki nahI zarmA jI ke cehare kI kaThoratA ekAeka behada ughara AI / bole"tuma javAna ho, sApha kaho, kisane tumheM bhejA hai ?" ? maiM ghabarAyA / bolA - "bhejA ! jI nahI " samiti tuma nahI banAye ho, nahI banA sakate ho | yaha kAma rAjya ke matrI se zurU huA hai| sacamuca kAma bhI unhI kA hai / sadAcAra kAnUna se calegA zraura banegA / jaise durAcAra svabhAva ho AdamI kA / tumhAre kadhe kyo phAlatU haiM ki usa bojha ko Dhote ho / baDI tAkata hai kAnUna ke pAsa | kyo usakA bharosA nahI karate ho aura usame dakhala dene pahucate ho ? phira kahane Ate ho, vaisI bevakUphI meM karU saca bolo, kisane bhejA hai ?" - " "jI nahI / " merI mudrA zAyada isI yogya ho AI hogI / zarmA jI majJa dekhakara

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156 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga hame / vole-"acchA acchA, kisI ne na bhejA shii| para bhAI sadAcAra ke lAyaka to maiM hU nhii| sirpha tIna sau rupaye merI prAya hai, socane kI bAta hai ki tIna hajAra mAsika pAya se pahale sadAcAra kyA zurU bhI ho sakatA hai ?" mai to bhaucakka hokara zarmA jI kI ora dekhane lgaa| vaha kahane ke anantara kucha hasa Aye aura vaha hasI bahuta nirmala mAlUma hotI thii| lekina dekhate dekhate vaha ceharA kasa AyA aura mAno unhone upaTa ke sAtha mujhe dekhA / bole-"tuma yahA Aye ho, sadAcAra ke bAre me pUchate ho / tumhe baiThane ko kursI nahIM milii| garmI me havA kA pakhA nahIM milA / lassI me barpha nahIM mila sakA / maiM pUchatA hU, yaha sadAcAra hai ? jitanI dera tumhAre sAtha baiThA rahA hai, lagatA rahA hai ki maiM yathAyogya tumhArA satkAra bhI jo nahIM kara pA rahA hU, so durAcAra kara rahA huuN| zrAmadanI hotI to maiM tumhe sophA para viThA sakatA thA aura tumhArI khAtira jarA tarIke se kara sakatA thA' samajhe ? sadAcAra paise se hotA hai, isalie paise ke lie jo kiyA jAtA hai, use durAcAra mAnanA ikataraphA hai"bhraSTAcAra tuma loga kisako kahate ho ? merA yaha prAcAra bhraSTa kyo nahI hai ki maiM jI khola kara svAgata satkAra bhI nahIM kara sktaa| kyo maiM davA aura simaTA rahatA hU / kharca kama karane kI phikra me rahanA kyA kabhI sadAcAra ho sakatA hai ? isalie galatI karate ho, agara sadAcAra me mujhe Age karanA cAhate ho / minisTara loga, aphasara loga haiM, jinako haka hai ki sadAcAra kareM aura karAe / 'tumako kisI ne bhejA nahIM hai, khuda Aye ho / mujhe yakIna nahIM karanA cAhie isa bAta kaa| tumane pAliTiksa me ema0 e0 kiyA hai| tuma UcA dekha sakate ho, maiM jAnatA hU~ ki aisI bhUla tumhAre basa kI nahIM ho sakatI / samajhadArI kA rAstA vaha nahIM hai| lekina loga hai jo rAja bhI cAhate haiM aura sadAcAra bhI cAhate haiM / dono cAhe apanI jagaha nahIM hai. "uname jAkara kahanA, agara izArA tumhe vahA se milA hai, ki zarmA kI AmadanI jisa

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cakkara- sadAcAra kA 1 157 roja ve tIna hajAra mAsika kI banA dege, usa roja se vaha avazya sadAcAra zurU kara degA / aura jisa samiti me kaho, hone kI yogyatA pA jAegA | phira anumati kA savAla nahI raha jAyegA / valki samitiyo para hone kI zrAturatA usame hone laga jAegI / aise na dekho, jaise maiM bAta anokhI kaha rahA hU / batAo tumhArI AmadanI kitanI hai ? - batA bhI / " ... "jI ?" " are bhaI, maiM inkamaTaiksa kA AdamI nahI hU / " "jI 'jI nahI / " "choDo choDo, maiM dekha sakatA hU ki tumane apane lie sadAcAra kA kAma jo cunA hai so ThIka cunA hai / AmadanI tumhArI ThIka ThAka lagatI hai / isaliye tumhArA cunAva bhI ThIka hai / lekina agara grAmadanI ThIka nahI ho to phira usako UcI aura kAphI banAne ke lie bhI usa kAryakrama kA cunAva munAsiba samajhA jaaegaa| yAnI tumako dekhanA cAhie ki hara tarapha se sadAcAra kA sambandha samIcIna grAya se ho jAtA hai| "} maiM zarmA jI ko avizvAsa kI nigAha se dekhatA raha gayA / kahate kahate yaha khaDe ho prAye / mAno unhone pahacAna liyA ki maiM calA jAnA cAhatA hU~ aura mAno vaha bhI apanI ora se vidA ke lie tatpara hai / unhone kahA - " lekina sadAcAra ke sAtha durAcAra bhI grAmadanI ko caDhAne caDhAne kI koziza meM hotA batAyA jAtA hai / " mere bhAI, yahI muzkila hai / mApha karanA, tumhe meM koI sIdhA javAba nahI de sakatA / sadAcAra vinA vaDhI caDhI ghAya ke ho nahI sakatA / vahI caDhI Aya ke lie hI phira durAcAra kiyA jAtA mAlUma hotA hai| isalie maiM to cakkara me hu / lekina tuma logoM ke prayatno kI saphalatA cAhatA hU / " maiM suda cakkara me ho prAyA / saDA huA to sacamuca jaine ghiranI zrA gii| maiM kucha bola nahI pAyA / ThIka taraha bidA kA abhivAdana bhI nahI

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158 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga kara skaa| __ zarmA jI ne zAyada merI hAlata dekha lI ho, unhone mujhe gale se lagAyA phira alaga karate hue kadhe para thapathapAkara kahA-"hama jaise bhaTake logo kI cintA na karanA / javAna ho, aura apane sevA ke kAmoM me datta-citta hokara baDhate rahanA aura yazasvI honaa|" -isI se kahatA hU, maiM cakkara me hU, baDe cakkara me hu aura kapTa ye hai ki cakkara sadAcAra me se bana gayA hai / julAI '65

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vikSepa dillI vizvavidyAlaya ke naye kAnvokezana hAla me jalsA jArI thA / eka vyakti sIghA calatA huA pAyA / deha para sirpha kopIna aura hAtho me kucha aTara-saTara / maca thI taka pAkara vaha ArAma se baiTha gayA aura hAtha kI cIjo ko eka para eka cinakara sAmane apane eka stUpa kA nirmANa kara liyA / saketa huA ki use uThA diyA jAya / para pragaTa huA ki calatI huI sabhA kA dhyAna aise aura bhI adhika usakI ora AkRSTa hogA aura usase vighna adhika hI vddhegaa| kintu vaktA bolanA samApta karake, se haTakara gaye to yaha mahAzaya vaDhakara vahA apanA vaktavya dene yA pahuce / pahucate the ki idhara-udhara se do-cAra prAdhyApaka lapake aura eka ne to una mahAzaya kI gardana hI jA dharI / isa bhAti hAla se unako bAhara kiyA gayA / savane mAnA, vaha vikSipta the / kyA kahAnI ke lie bhI yaha mAnanA Avazyaka hai ? ahA-hA / kyA mAyA hai | ustAda, mAnatA hU tujhe / hama paramAtmA hai, lekina mAna liyA ki tU bhI hai / kyA AsamAna se pAnI barasatA haidhAra kI dhAra, dhAra kI dhAra / lekina tU samajhatA hogA ki saba kisI ko bhigo degA? para hama bhI haiM ki dekha to bhigo ke ! le sAlI, yahI to bhiigegii| aura eka jhapATe me usane kopIna kholakara barasate pAnI me mAnamAna meM phaharAI aura phira usako muTThI me vAgha liyaa|] ava vatA, tU hame kaise bhigoyegA? vaha to muTThI me hai, jo bhIga saktI thI! hama haiM tere sAmane, kara le jo tere basa me ho / eka bUda pAnI nahIM chU sktaa| darama le jitanA cAhe aura varasA le tU jitanA cAhe / hamAre badana para

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160 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga gira ke grAsU kI taraha grApa hI DharatA jAegA saba / apane ko kyA, apana sUkhe ke sUkhe ! bAriza hote-hote kama huI aura phira thama gaI / mahAzaya usa vakta sar3aka para the / saDaka sUnasAna thI / vAriza rukI to mahAzaya ThaTThA mAra kara hase / ... grava vola | dekhA ki nahI ? yaha hai isa hama paramezvara kA karataba / le kholatA | yaha rahI jo bhIga sakatI thI / para tujha se to isakA bhI kucha na vigaDA / AA, veTI grA jA / apanI jagaha zrArAma se ho jA ! mahAzaya ne kopIna ko yathAsthAna bAgha liyA / calate-calate dekhA ki bAIM tarapha daravAjA hai aura sar3aka sApha hai / sAmane bhI saDaka hai, saDaka bAIM tarapha bhI hai / pITha kI tarapha mur3akara dekhA ki saDaka poche bhI hai / Upara grAsamAna kI tarapha dekhA ki saDaka udhara bhI ho sakatI hai / bhaI, vAha / unhone sirake baDhe hue vAlo me hAtha pheraa| ThoDhI para baDhatI huI dADhI para bhI hAtha sahalAyA aura socA, socane kI grAvazyakatA thI / dekho na, jidhara dekho, saDaka hI saDaka / aise samaya vicAra hI kAma de sakatA hai / idhara se to hama calakara yA rahe hai / dhruva rahI tIna / sAmane, dAyeM, vAye / Upara kI bAta choDa do| hama sIdhe grAsamAna kI tarapha saDaka banAte hue jA sakate hai, para udhara Upara sAlA paramAtmA rahatA hai / do paramAtmA kaise raha sakate haiM ? Upara nahI jAege / Upara vAlA TagA rahe cAhe to Upara hI / kyA karegA ? pAnI barasA degA / dhUpa pheMka degA / vijalI girA degA / para isameM hamArA vaha kyA kara sakatA hai ? dekho, hama haiM ki sAmane jAe, cAhe dAe jAe, cAhe vAe jAe / vaha to baiThA hai ghara me jahA kA tahA ! hama haiM ki cala rahe hai| marajI hai ki nahIM bhI caleM / yA cAhe idhara caleM, cAhe udhara caleM, cAhe kivara bhI caleM / tarapha - isalie hama 1 para nahI, dAye nahI, bAyeM / dAyeM to dakSiNa hotA hai / dakSiNa me

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vikSepa 161 sirpha dakSiNA ho sakatI hai / vAma me hotI hai vAmAgnI kaho, kaise rahe ? ahA haa-haa| isIlie dekha lo, vAIM tarapha hI daravAjA hai ! dvAra se hotA hai dvArAcAra / calo bhaI, dvArAcAra dekhe| ___ vAha bhaI | mAnanA hogA logo ko | jabhI to vizvavidyAlaya kahate hai | kyA khUba banAI hai imArata ! kitanA paisA lagA hogA ? baDA paisA lagA hogA ! paisA sAlA bahuta lagatA hai / jAne yaha paisA kahA rahatA hai ? hamako to dIkhatI nahI jagaha ? para hai sAle me karAmAta / idhara do, udhara jalebI kA donA tumhAre hAtha me / aura vaha jalebI vAlA banAtA hI hai, khAtA nahIM hai, na ghara le jAtA hai / paisA do aura jalevI le lo / yA aura cAhe kucha to vaha le lo| para hama paramAtmA ko paisA kyA karegA ? jalebIvAlA aAja hamako jalevI nahIM diyA / bolatA, paisA lAyo / hama hasa diyA / hamane kA bAta hai ki nahI ? jalevI vaha khAtA nahI hai aura paisA mAgatA hai / para pahacAnatA nahI hama paramAtmA haiM / kyA paisA, kyA jalebI | hama sabako lAta mAra sakatA hai / vizvavidyAlaya | yahA loga vidyA paDhate haiM / paDha kara vidyA ko paDhAtA hai / paDhA kara nayA karatA hai ? paisA pAtA hai, paisA hAtha se dekara jalebI pAtA hai / jalebI khA ke phira paDhAne A jAtA hai / paDhA ke paisA leke phira sAtA-pItA-pahanatA hai / eI Dho vichA kA cakkara / alavata cavakara | hama khAyegA, kAhe ki khAnA svAda lagatA hai / para unake vAste karegA kAhe ko / khAne ke vAste paDhAyegA, paDhA ke paisA pA ke nAyegA / hama muphta paDhAyegA / mupata khAyegA / jindagI hamArI hai aura AjAda hai aura muphata / ekadama muphata / / pro-ho-ho / yaha vAriga phira honA mAgatA hai / vAdala kAlA ho gayA hai / Upara ghUmatA hai / hama nahIM bhIgA, para vAla kAlA hai aura sAlA vaha bhIga jAtA hai| (aura umane sira ke vAlo ko davAkara hAtha me mUtA / ) isa bAra yaha nahI hoegaa| hama eka dama nahI bhIgegA, vAla bhI nahIM bhIgegA / kucha bhI nahIM bhIgegA / aura mahAzaya ne yAnvokezana hAla

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160 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga gira ke prAsU kI taraha Apa hI DharatA jAegA saba / apane ko kyA, apana sUkhe ke sUkhe / bAriza hote-hote kama huI aura phira thama gaI / mahAzaya usa vakta saDaka para ye / sar3aka sUnasAna thI / bAriza rukI to mahAzaya ThaTThA mAra kara hse| ..'ava vola | dekhA ki nahIM ? yaha hai isa hama paramezvara kA karatava / le kholatA hai / yaha rahI jo bhIga sakatI thii| para tujha se to isakA bhI kucha na vigar3A / zrA, veTI A jA / apanI jagaha ArAma se ho jaa| ___mahAzaya ne kopIna ko yathAsthAna vAgha liyA / calate-calate dekhA ki bAI tarapha daravAjA hai aura saDaka sApha hai / sAmane bhI saDaka hai, saDaka bAI tarapha bhI hai / pITha kI tarapha muDakara dekhA ki saDaka pIche bhI hai| Upara AsamAna kI tarapha dekhA ki maDaka udhara bhI ho sakatI hai| bhaI, vAha | unhone sirake baDhe hue vAlo me hAya pherA / ThoDhI para baDhatI huI dADhI para bhI hApa sahalAyA aura socA, socane kI prAvazyakatA thii| dekho na, jidhara dekho, saDaka hI saDaka / aime samaya vicAra hI kAma de sakatA hai / idhara se to hama calakara pA rahe hai / aba rahI tIna tarapha / sAmane, dAye, bAyeM] Upara kI bAta choDa do| hama sIdhe grAsamAna kI tarapha saDaka banAte hue jA sakate hai, para udhara Upara mAlA paramAtmA rahatA hai| do paramAtmA kaise raha sakate hai ? isalie hama Upara nahIM jAege / Upara vAlA TagA rahe cAhe to Upara hI / kyA karegA? pAnI barasA degA / dhUpa pheMka degaa| bijalI girA degA! para isame hamArA vaha kyA kara sakatA hai ? dekho, hama haiM ki sAmane jAe, cAhe dAe jAe, cAhe vAe jAe / vaha to vaiThA hai aghara me jahA kA thaa| hama haiM ki cala rahe hai / marajI hai ki nahIM bhI caleM / yA cAhe idhara caleM, cAhe udhara caleM, cAhe kidhara bhI cleN| para nahI, dAyeM nahI, vAyeM | dAyeM to dakSiNa hotA hai / dakSiNa meM

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vikSepa 161 sirpha dakSiNA ho sakatI hai / vAma me hotI hai vAmAgnI kaho, kaise rahe ? ahA haa-haa| isIlie dekha lo, vAI tarapha hI daravAjA hai / dvAra se hotA hai dvArAcAra | calo bhaI, dvArAcAra dekheN| ___ vAha bhaI / mAnanA hogA logo ko jabhI to vizvavidyAlaya kahate hai ! kyA khUba banAI hai imArata | kitanA paisA lagA hogA? vaDA paisA lagA hogA | paisA sAlA bahuta lagatA hai / jAne yaha paisA kahA rahatA hai ? hamako to dIkhatI nahI jagaha ? para hai sAle me karAmAta / idhara do, udhara jalebI kA donA tumhAre hAtha me | aura vaha jalebI vAlA banAtA hI hai, khAtA nahIM hai, na ghara le jAtA hai / paisA do aura jalevI le lo / yA aura cAhe kucha to vaha le lo| para hama paramAtmA ko paisA kyA karegA ? jalebIvAlA aAja hamako jalebI nahI diyA / bolatA, paisA lAyo ! hama hasa diyA / hasane kA bAta hai ki nahI ? jalevI vaha khAtA nahI hai aura paisA mAgatA hai | para pahacAnatA nahI hama paramAtmA hai / kyA paisA, kyA jalebI / hama sabako lAta mAra sakatA hai / vizvavidyAlaya / yahA loga vidyA paDhate hai / paDha kara vidyA ko paDhAtA hai / paDhA kara kyA karatA hai ? paisA pAtA hai, paisA hAtha se dekara jalevI pAtA hai / jalebI khA ke phira paDhAne A jAtA hai / paDhA ke paisA leke phira khAtA-pItA-pahanatA hai| eI Dho vichA kA cakkara / / alavata cakkara / hama khAyegA, kAhe ki khAnA svAda lagatA hai ! para usake vAste karegA kAhe ko / khAne ke vAste paDhAyegA, paDhA ke paisA pA ke sAyegA / hama muphta paDhAyegA | muphta khAyegA / jindagI hamArI hai aura AjAda hai aura muphata / ekadama muphata ! ___o-ho-ho / yaha bAriza phira honA mAgatA hai / bAdala kAlA ho gayA hai| Upara ghUmatA hai| hama nahIM bhIgA, para vAla kAlA hai aura mAlA vaha bhIga jAtA hai| (aura usane sira ke vAlo ko davAkara hAtha se suutaa|) isa bAra yaha nahIM hoegaa| hama eka dama nahIM bhIgegA, vAla bhI nahIM bhiigegaa| kucha bhI nahIM bhIgegA / aura mahAzaya ne kAnvokezana hAla

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5 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga 162 ke porca me dauDakara dAkhila ho jAte hai | le bhAI, ThIka hai / ava varasa le, jitanA jI cAhe ! vAha ustAda paramAtmA, tU bhI pAnI kA baDA bhaNDAra jamA karake rakhatA hai / hama paDhate the, mAnasUna hai aura pAnI kA bhApa banatA hai, usame se bAdala banatA hai aura samandara ke kinAre se ur3ate-uDate jahA tahA pahucakara vApisa pAnI barasAne laga jAtA hai / yaha viggAna hai / hama vijJAna paDhe the aura vidyAlaya me vijJAna paDhAyA jAtA hai / UcA vijJAna, taraha-taraha kA vijJAna | para hama hasatA hai aura paramAtmA hasatA hai / aura vaha pAnI varasAtA hai / hamAre pAsa pAnI karane kA vaDA sAmAna nahI hai / nahI to hama bhI hasI ko pAnI banA ke barasA denA / to hama zrava hasI ko ho mIdhA barasAtA hai / kAhe ki loga vijJAna kI bAta karatA hai| pAnI ko pAnI nahI bolatA hai, kucha aura bolatA hai / hAiDrojana zrAvasIjana bolatA hai / kAma kI bAta ko vekAma banA ke vijJAna bolatA hai / pAnI kA pyAsa lagatA hai, aura hama pAnI pI letA hai| tuma bhI pI letA hai / saba loga pI letA hai, para vijJAnI pItA nahI hai / vizleSaNa karatA hai / vizleSaNa se pAnI ko uThA ke kucha prora vanA detA hai / kahatA hai yaha nahI hai, vaha hai / aura vaha vaha nahI hai, yaha hai / zrAdamI zrAdamI nahI hai, tatva hai / aura tatva zrAtmA hai aura zrAtmA hama tuma nahI haiM, pAra hai ThIka hai, pAra hai / hama zrAtmA hai, hama paramAtmA hai, hama vijJAna hai / 1 mahAzaya ne po ke bAhara dekhA / pAnI par3a rahA thA / sAmane dekhA pAnI paDa rahA thA / muDakara pIche dekhA, pAnI paDa rahA thaa| lekina vArDa tarapha pAnI nahI thA, sIDhiyA thI / sIDhiyo ke bAda varAmadA thA / varAmade ke bAda phira sIDhiyA thI aura taba daravAjA prAtA thA / - mahAzaya ne usa sava sthAna ko gaura se dekhA jo DhakA thA aura jahA pAnI nahI paDa rahA thA / mAlUma huA ki yaha zranosA ghaTanA hai / pAnI tIna tarapha hai, eka tarapha nahIM hai / zrora jidhara nahI hai, udhara zrAsamAna bhI nahI hai / vahA dIvAreM haiM aura upara chata hai / dizAe usase

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vikSepa 163 ruka gaI haiM aura prAkAza khatama ho gayA hai / mahAzaya ko yaha sacamuca hI bahuta vilakSaNa mAlUma huA / dizA ananta haiM, aura AkAza sarvavyApI hai| lekina Thosa ITa ke jora se anata khatama ho jAegA, aura saba kahI hone vAlA AkAza bAhara hI roka kara khaDA kara diyA jAyegA / aura vahA phira kyA hogA ? vidyA hogI aura usakA prAlaya hogA / vizvabhara kI vidyA ko lAyA jAegA aura diyA jaaegaa| vizza vidyAlaya / kAraNa ki vidyA anata me uDa na jaae| aura ghira ke vanda va surakSita rhegaa| usane sava tarapha dekhaa| vaha aba pahalI sIDhiyo se caDhakara Upara yA gayA thaa| pAkho se dekhA, phira pAsa jAkara dIvAra para hAtha lagAkara dekhA / ThIka hai, aura majabUta hai / havA Ara-pAra nahI jA sakatI hai| use anumAna na huA, dIvAra kitanI ghanI hogI / ugalI moDakara usake kone meM usane dIvAra ko ThakaThakAyA / Thaka-Thaka ko phira kAna pAsa lAkara munA / usane apane ko pUrA vizvAsa dilA liyA ki dIvAra polI nahI hai, balki sAnI moTI hai / umane Upara chata kI ora dekhaa| jaise usane koziza kI ki hama chata ko bheda kara usakI nigAha pAra jA sake / vaha dera taka ima tanha dekhatA rahA / chata jyo kI tyo rahI aura usa nigAha ko apane me pItI samAtI calI gii| mAlUma huA ki vahA kucha bhI jumbiza nahIM huI aura chana aine TikI hai jaise pratima aura paramasatya vahI ho / usako eka kSaNa ke lie apane bAre me sazaya huaa| yaha ki kyA vaha paramAtmA nahIM hai ? chata apanI jagaha se uDa nahIM rahI thii| mAno unake darzana ko rokane ko aDI ho / para usakA darzana parama hai, avAdha hai / vAghA vahI ho nahIM sktaa| isI se vaha paramAtmA hai / lekina nigAha ne chata uDI nahIM, nahIM uDI, taba vaha hnaa| usakI muskarAhaTa parama utINaM thI / jaise mAno yaha kRpA kara rahA ho| phira usane Upara pho muha kiyA pora chata kI tarapha phUka chodd'ii| sacamuca phUka meM chata vaha ur3a gii| ephadama uDa gaI aura dika-kAlA-AkAza sava

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164 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga ekadama khula pAe aura taba mAno vijaya garva me vaha Age vaTA / ___ sabhA zuru hue samaya ho cukA thaa| aba caukasI kI AvazyakatA na thii| isalie hAla ke daravAje para koI na thA / loga sava maca para hotI huI kArravAI dekhane aura sunane, sunane se adhika desane aura dekhane me adhika sunane, me tallIna the| ___ mahAzaya vaha dvAra para ThiThake / eka nigAha me saba kucha ko usane sameTA / dUra, nIce kintu Upara, maca thA, jahA pAca-mAta kusiyo para pAca-sAta loga baiThe hue the / varAvara meM eka puruSa khaDe hue bola rahe the| bAkI nIce kusiyo me baiThe the / unakI pITha mahAzaya kI tarapha thI aura muha maca kI tarapha thaa| usane aise dekhA, jaise dikkAlajayI ho / rAstA sAmane nirvAdha thaa| balki banAta-vidyA thaa| vahA~ pare kucha kahA jA rahA thA aura sunA jA rahA thA / lekina usake kAno me kucha nahI paDA / use lagA ki bama pratIkSA hai / vezaka usI kI pratIkSA hai| usane apane hAtha kI sAphI ko jhaaddaa| dUsare sAmAna ko bhI isa hAtha se usa hAtha kiyA / sAmAna me kAgaja ke gatte kA banA huyA eka DivyA sA thA jisase bhopU kA kAma liyA jA sakatA thaa| phaTI purAnI jInumA ekAdha kitAba thii| pAsa me sarakaDe kI mAno eka pensila thii| yaha saba kucha pahale vAyeM me usane dAhine hAya kiyA, aura dAhine me phira bAyeM hAtha / zAyada umai sandeza denA thA aura isa prakAra vaha usI kI taiyArI kara rahA thA / usane phira eka bAra cAro ora grAkha ghumAkara desaa| jaise apane ko aura avasara ko tolaa| mAno umane uma thoDe mamaya meM bharapUra bhara liyaa| bhara liyA kRpA se jo usake andara yahA isa prakAra nitAnta grahaNIgIla bhAva meM baiThe hue logo ke lie usame udaya ho AI thii| eka gahana agAgha anukampA ki vicAre mUrkha haiM ki yahA baiThe haiM / vAhara pAkAga hai aura varSA hai aura ananta hai aura zUnya hai| yahA dave-lipaTe baiThe haiN| bAhara Ate to denate ki bhIgA meM jAtA hai / aura desate ki bhIgane se baca kona maratA hai| koI nahIM baca sakatA / usa paramAtmA kI varSA

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vikSepa 165 se basa yaha hama paramAtmA hI baca sakatA hai, jo saba kucha hai, aura jise kucha nahI chUtA hai| hA, hama, hama, hama / hAla me dono tarapha kusiyA lagI huI thI aura vIca me se mArga chUTA thA jo maca taka jAtA thA / mAno saba kucha kA nirIkSaNa karane ke vAda, usake mana me apanA karttavya spaSTa ho cukA thaa| vaha bindu spaSTa ho cukA thA, ki jahA pahucanA aura jamanA hai / jahA kucha dera apane ko samAhita karane ke bAda parama dayA me ina vikhare aura bhUle huo ko apanA sandeza denA hai / muktidAyI aura parama hitakArI sandeza | sandeza ki e par3he-likhe logo, mUrkha bane yahA kyo baiThe ho ? lo, yaha mai prAtA hai| suno, aura vama yahA se bhAga jaao| bIca ke mArga me se mAno dhyAnastha aura avadhyAnastha vaha vaDhA aura baDhatA huA calA gyaa| ekAna, ekaniSTha / patA tava calA jabaki ThIka maca ke samakSa vaha khaDA huA aura usane kramaza sAmane dekhA, dAyeM dekhA, vAyeM dekhA / adhyakSa ke sAmane meja thI aura usa para guladastA thA aura ghaDI thI aura pahanAe gae puSpa hAro kA Dhera sA thA / usa sabake bIca me A jAne se adhyakSa ko vaha mUrti disAI na dI / para vyavasthApako kA dhyAna gayA aura zrotAo ne bhI isa nismaganigraMtha purupa ko desA / kintu ava taka vaha sthiti kA pArAyaNa pUrNa kara cukA thA aura prAsana mAra ke vahI baiTha bhI gayA thA / prAsana padmAsana nahI thA, aura thoDI dera me hI use mAlUma ho gayA ki vaha to padmAsana hI cAhiye / tanika uThakara jhADe gae jhADana vo usane apane nIce liyA aura divya-bhAva ke sAtha vaha padmAsana lagAkara baiTha gayA / tava usa gatte ke bhopU ko usane apane samakSa mAnastabha kI bhAti TikAyA aura usa para vizva kopa spa yaha jatrI pratisthApita kii| phira abhiSekapUrvaka vahA rArakaDe ko kAlama ko prasthApita kiyaa| mAno jJAna ke sumeru ko hI usane isa prakAra racanA kara lI / phira dRSTi ko nAmAgra karake mana hI mana usane kucha uccAraNa karanA prArambha kiyaa| proTha avazya

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166 jainendra kI kahAniyAM dasavA bhAga usame budabudA jAte the kintu dhvani vAhara nahIM AtI thI / kucha kSaNa uparAnta usane usa jJAna ke sumeru ko zIza navAkara namaskAra kiyA / anantara ava taka artha-nirmilita apane netro ko sarvathA hI nimilita karake vaha dhyAnamagna ho rahA / __ vyavasthApaka ne saketa kiyaa| do ora se do vyakti baDhe / eka nikaTa hI A gayA aura mAno usa vyakti ne ina dhyAnastha yogI ko kanve para tanika chuA / yogI ne vAyA hAtha tanika hilA diyA / jaise ki yoga me vighna DAlane me varjita kiyA ho / prAkha usane nahI solI aura vAyeM hAtha kI jhiDakI kA vaha naketa hI mAno bharapUra paryApta huA / dUsarI dizA se AtA huA vyakti ina vyApAra para apane sthAna para rukA raha gayA aura pahale vyakti ne dekhA ki kArya kucha kaThina hai / vaha asamajasa me humA / usane karuNabhAva se nigAha uThAkara vyavasthApakAdhyakSa se Age ke lie ve pharmAna mAgA / saketa hunA ki choDo, cher3ane kI aAvazyakatA nahIM hai / aura ve svayaM sevaka dono phira jaise ke taise apanI-apanI dizA meM lauTa ge| ___ AkheM ava khula pAI thI / vaha dekha rahA thA / deya rahA thA ki loga pIche baiThe hai aura pAca-sAta jane sAmane bhI baiThe haiM / eka kucha saDe hokAra yama me kaha rahe haiM aura saba suna rahe haiN| kyA kahA jA rahA hai aura cayA sunA jA rahA hai ? kyo inhe itanA bhrama hai ki baiThe hai aura muna rahe haiM / sunanA hai to hame sune / yA phira kucha yoga hI kareM / aura usako apanI taraha anaDhake kyo nahIM baiThate ? aise vekAra aura pahane aura lipaTe kyo baiThe haiM ? aura sAmane jJAna stUpa banAkara kyo nahIM baiThate ki jaise meM baiThA huuN| aura kyA saba bacce haiM ? pAgala haiM ? itanA nahIM samajhate ki maiM baiThA huuN| Dhaga me to vyavahAra kareM ! aiM, yaha ho kyA rahA hai ? zAyada sabhA ho rahI hai / ThIka hai ki cabhA ho rahI hai / para kyoM ho rahI hai sabhA ? kucha aura kyoM nahIM ho

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vikSepa rahA hai| pAgala hai ki dekho ki karane ko basa sabhA hI kara pAte haiN| aura yaha kauna hai ki jo bIca me baiThA hai / Akho para cazmA haiM aura camakatI cAda hai / kaisA baiThA hai ki hasa taka nahIM rahA hai / lagatA hai ki hasa hI nahIM sakatA hai| jaise ATe kA na huA jJAna kA hI piMDa ho / jAna kI jagaha usake andara kucha vaha ho jo jaDa paDakara sila ho gayI ho| ekAeka aTTahAsa humA / loga cauMke / savakA dhyAna udhara gayA jidhara jAnA thaa| lekina jora ke ThahAke ke bAda vaha aAkha mIcakara apane sAmane ke sumeru ke Age hAtha joDa kara namana karane lagA thA / barAbara se svayasevaka phira lapakane ko huaa| para vyavasthApaka kI ora se saketa ho gayA ki jAne do, jAne do| saba zAnta thA aura usakI pAkheM khula pAI thii| usane dekhA ki vaktA hAtha joDa rahA hai| apanI jagaha se usane hAtha joDe / tabhI sunAI diyA ki tAliyA baja rahI hai| usane bhI tAlI bajAI / lekina ekAeka kyA dekhatA hai ki yatra ke sAmane kA sthAna khAlI hai| bolane vAlA lauTa gayA hai aura tAliyA pIche se vajI jA rahI haiN| ThIka hai / ThIka yahI avasara hai| sabako isI kI pratIkSA hai| pAgala haiM to bhI merI prokSA me hai / bacce haiM aura una para dayA karane ko calanA hogaa| kucha kahanA hogaa| kahanA hogA aura batAnA hogaa| batAnA hogA ki yaha saba nahIM hai ki jo hai / pramaca hai vaha saba jo tuma pharate rahe ho aura karate rahate ho / dekho, yaha maiM prAtA hU~ aura batAtA hai / batAtA hU ki .. yaha apanI jagaha se uThA / apane nIce kI sAphI uThAI, phira samajha kara usane une yahI chor3a diyaa| aba vaha ginatI kI sIDiyA caDhatA humA maca para pahucA / pahucA, pahucA ki gardana para unake eka kasA hAtha paDA / gardana daboca lI gaI thI aura use Thela kara barabasa eka ora le jAyA jA rahA thA / garadaniyA vAtA hAtha cAhe eka hI rahA ho,

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jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga 168 para aneka jana aura theM / usame huA ki hAya, ye nahI jAnate hai / huprA ki meM inheM kSamA karatA hU / zraura taba Upara vAle paramAtmA se bhI usane kahA ki suna, tU bhI inhe kSamA kara denA / becAre hai auaura pAgala hai | hama-tuma jaise paramAtmA ko pahacAna nahI sakate hai } agasta '65.

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mukti ? prazna thA ki kyA strI ko mukti mila sakatI hai ? carcA me tIna vyakti the| zrI zADilya, unakI patnI manoramA aura Agata atithi zrI pAra0 nArAyaNa / zADilya vyasta vakIla the, aba usase adhika citaka haiN| manoramA ne ghara ko sampanna aura suvyavasthita pAkara apane samaya ko khAlI baiThe likhane meM lagAyA aura dekhate dekhate sAhitya meM apanA sthAna banA liyA haiM / bhAra0 nArAyaNa prArambha me muvakkila ke taura para mile, para dhIredhIre vaha parivAra ke mitra bana gae hai / UcA unakA vyavasAya hai aura tAtvika vipayo me buddhi dvArA rasa lene kA unhe cAva hai| pAra0 nArAyaNa kA dRDha mata hai ki strI ko vaha sava prApta ho sakatA hai, jo purapa ko / usakI kSamatA kama nahIM hai kisI artha me, hA, adhika avazya mAnI jA sakatI hai| ___zADilya sahamata hone ko taiyAra haiM / lekina prazna ko vyarSa mAnate hai / kyoki vaha mukti ko mAna bhI le to samajha nahI pAte haiN| manoramA kA vizvAsa hai ki strI mukti nahIM pA sktii| pA sakatI hotI to usake lie mAtA banane kA vidhAna na hotaa| zarIra se vaha aisI banI hai ki mukta hone kI nahIM soca sakatI hai / kAraNa, use saphala honA hai| usakA bhI kAraNa ki gRpTi ko calate rahanA hai| nArAyaNa ne kahA-"bhAbhI jI, ApakI ukti me kaTUvita to nahIM hai ? mujhe umame vyaMgya kI dhvani mAlUma hotI hai|" manoramA ne kahA-"vyasya / nahIM to|" pADilpa mIna rhe| mAno unheM kucha kahanA nahIM thA / nArAyaNa ne

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170 janendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga unakI ora dekhA, aura dekhA ki vaha kisI aura nahIM desa rahe hai, soye se hai| usane kahA-"strI ko parayasa rahanA hotA hai, kyA yahI prApa kahanA cAhatI hai ? lekina bhAI mAhava to kisI ko vaza me rasa nahI sakate / usa taraha kI kalpanA hI iname nahI hai / aura phira yaha to samAja kI prathA kI bAta hai / vivAha paravazatA nahIM hai|" manoramA ne dekhA ki carcA ava tatva kI nahIM raha gaI hai, ekadama pAsa bhAtI jA rahI hai| usako kucha sakoca huaa| phira bhI usane kahA-"paravazatA kI bAta meM nahIM khtii| vivAha me bhI koI paravazatA nahIM hai / para svatantratA strI ko pUrI taraha priya hI nahIM hotii| Apa uThA dIjiye vivAha kA bandhana, yA parivAra kA dAyitva / sAre samAja kohI cAhe to Apa ujADa diijiye| paraspara kartavya kA prazna hI miTA ddaaliye| phira bhI strI apane rAga-tantuo se apane lie bandhana paidA kie binA na rhegii| isalie mukti kI mambhavatA usake lie nahIM hai / maiM to kahUgI kI magatatA hI nahIM hai|" gADilya ava bhI kucha nahIM bole / unakI dRSTi dUra thI aura mAno vaha anyamanaska ye / nArAyaNa ne dekhA aura pUchA-"aura puruSa ?" "puspa !" kahate kahate jaise manoramA kI / aura bolI-~-"vaha raha sakatA hai svapna me, yA mahatvAkAkSA me| rAgAtmakatA hama striyo kI prakRti hotI hai / purupa ke lie vaha parigraha hai / lagatA hai, umage vaha ghiratA hai aura usanI mArI koziza chUTane kI ho rahatI hai| isa taraha mukti kI dhAraNA vaha paidA karatA hai aura umako apanI sAdhanA banA letA hai| kahate haiM, strI aura puraSa paraspara yoga aura rAhayoga ke lie hai| lekina yaha sAbita naca nahIM hai, purupa ko viyoga usase adhiSa prAvasyaka mAlUma ho sakatA hai ! yoga-sahayoga jaise zabda use pahA roratese lagate hai / agala meM vaha viyoga TUTatA hai| viyoga pada taka ko ugane igalie itanA UcA uThA diyA hai ki usakA artha sagAra meM viyukta honA bana gayA hai, yugata baga kimI paramezvara se / jisamA prAramyaka ayaM

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mukti ? 171 honA cAhie, viyukta isa jagata se aura saba hama-tuma se / nahIM to pUcha dekhiye apane bhAI mAhaba se|" __nArAyaNa ne kahA-"sunA, bhAI sAhaba ?" ___ bhAI sAhaba ne sunA / mAno kahI se TUTakara vaha vartamAna meM upasthita hue aura bole-"tumhArI bhAbhI jI ko nArAyaNa tuma pA nahIM sakoge / bAta taka meM yaha agama ho jAtI hai|" ___ nArAyaNa ko kucha acchA mAlUma huA / jaise bAta me ava spadana paDa rahA ho / aba taka jaise vaha dUra aura vAyavya thii| aba vaha ghaniSTha aura vAstava ho / usame jiye jAte hue jIvana kA sandarbha ho aura vastu-sthiti se dUra kaTI nirI saiddhAntika hI na ho| valki darda kI taraha kasakatI aura rakta kI taraha dhamanI me dhaDakatI bhI ho / "maiM nigama " manoramA ne kahA, "agama hai tumhArA mokSa ! nahIM to batAno vaha kyA hai ? chUTanA cAhate ho, to kisase ? mukti kyA aura kahA aura kyo ? tuma loga jIvana bhara sasAra racate ho / kamAne ke lie laDate ho, lar3ane ke lie kamAte ho-aura kitAvo meM likhate ho ki jIvana kA Adarza mukti hai| matalaba ki sRSTi ke saba padArthoM se aura hama saba jIvo se khela khAla kara gara jAyo to kaho yaha sava mAyA hai, saba prapatra thA, aura asala me jIvana kI yAtrA saca me jisa tIrya ke hetu me thI, vaha to mokSa hai| rAha ke paDAvo para kucha hama Tike raha bhI gaye to yaha to vidhAma thA kevala agalI yAtrA ke lie sakSama hone ke artha / nahIM to masAra vAdhA hai aura vighna hai|" __ pADilya ne sunate sunate bhavo me bala DAlA aura pUchA-"tuma kyA cAhatI ho?" manoramA saceta huii| bolI-"kyA matalaba ?" "maiMne tumhe payA kaha nahI diyA hai ki tuma svatantra ho !" "kaha diyA hai, lepina rayA meM bhI nahIM raha cukI hU ? eka bAra nahIM, dama dAra ki maiM svatanya ho nahIM sakatI hU, goca nahIM sakatI hU / usa

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172 jainendra kI kahAniyA darAvA bhAga zabda kA hI mere lie kucha apaM nahIM hai| tumhAre najadIka artha ho to merI cintA tumhArA kAma nahIM hai, na kisI dUsarI cintA ko tumhe oDhanA caahie| vaha saba maiM sameTa lUgI / tuma mana ko roko mata, jivara bhIpTa ho, baDha jaayo|" ___"sunate ho nArAyaNa ?" zADilya ne khaa| "tumhArI bhAbhI gayA kaha rahI hai ? kaha rahI hai, meM sanyAsI ho jaauuN|" ___hA, nArAyaNa, maiM inase kaha rahI hai ki tuma kabhI kabhI vikata aura vyAkula kyo divAI de pAte ho ? jase sAlI ho aura sava vRthA ho, hama loga jaga-jAta ke aga ho| tumhe aAvazyakatA paramezvara kI mAlUma hotI hai / chUTanA cAhate ho tuma jaga se aura pAnA cAhate ho paramAtmA ko / chUTanA cAhate ho isa saba se aura pAnA jise cAhate ho use basa mukti yAnI pUrI taraha chUTane kA hI nAma dete ho| to kahatI hU, aTako mata / hama saba para eka kSaNa ke lie mata ruko / nahIM kahatI rAnyAsa, para mukti kA jo bhI vAnA hotA ho taya kara lo| gAmmo me usa vAne ko hI sanyAma kA nAma diyA hai| kapaDe bhagave ho jAte hai, aura ghara ghara nahIM rahanA / ThIka hai, vaha sahI / lekina, nArAyaNa, maiM inhe agara akelA aura prAkula nahIM dekha saktI to bAhatI hai ki maiM bevana hU / apanI isa bekalI para nArAja bhI nahI hU / mujhe vaha priya hai| merA vaha svadharma hai / ho mukti to ho, strI hokara mujhe use chUnA bhI nahIM hai / jaba taka yaha ghara meM haiM, meM inheM apane rAga anurAga ke sUto kI lapeTa me mukta nahIM kara sakatI hai / yaha-yahI gahate rahate haiM ki merI cintA mata kro| lekina nizcinta rahanA hama striyo ko milA nahIM hai| isalie merA rAga, merI cintA hI inake lie bojha bana gaI ho to patra tumhAre sAmane yaha rahI hai, ki yaha prAjAda haiN|"tumheN mAtRma hai, nArAyaNa ? inhoMne saba jagaha se apanA nAma haTA liyA hai, merA TAla diyA hai / bhArata choDa dI hai, pavitA parane lage hai| bhakti gI aura rahAya kI vAritA / macchI to bAta hai| lekina magita aura rahanna go

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172 jainendra kI vAhAniyA dasavA bhAga zabda kA hI mere lie kucha artha nahIM hai / tumhAre najadIka artha ho to merI cintA tumhArA kAma nahIM hai, na kisI dusaro cintA ko tumhe moThanA cAhie / vaha saba maiM sameTa lUgI / tuma mana ko roko mata, jidhara gabhIpTa ho, baDha jaayo|" ___ "sunate ho nArAyaNa ?" zADilya ne kahA / "tumhArI bhAbhI kyA kaha rahI hai ? kaha rahI hai, maiM sanyAsI ho jAU / " / hA, nArAyaNa, maiM inase kaha rahI hU ki tuma kabhI kabhI vikala aura vyAkula kyo dikhAI de Ate ho ? jaise sAlI ho aura sava vRthA ho, hama loga jaga-jAta ke aga ho| tumhe AvazyakatA paramezvara kI mAlUma hotI hai / chUTanA cAhate ho tuma jaga me pora pAnA cAhate ho paramAtmA ko / chUTanA cAhate ho isa saba se aura pAnA jise cAhate ho use basa mukti yAnI pUrI taraha chUTane kA hI nAma dete ho| to kahatI ha, aTako mata / hama saba para eka kSaNa ke lie mata ho / nahI kahatI sanyAsa, para mukti kA jo bhI vAnA hotA ho taya kara lo| zAsmo meM usa vAne ko hI sanyAna kA nAma diyA hai| kapaDe bhagaye ho jAte haiN| aura ghara ghara nahIM rhtaa| ThIka hai, vaha rahI / lekina, nArAyaNa, mai inha agara akelA pora pAkula nahIM dekha sakatI to kahatI hai ki meM bevarA huuN| apanI irA baikalI para nArAja bhI nahIM hai / mujhe vaha priya hai| merA vaha svadharma hai| ho muSita to ho, tyI hokara majhe jame chUnA nI nahIM hai / jaba taka yaha ghara meM haiM, meM inheM apane rAga anurAga ke mumo kI lapeTa se mukta nahIM kara sakatI hU / yaha-yahI vhate rahate hai ki merI cintA mata kro| lekina nizcinta rahanA hama striyoM ko minA nahI hai| isalie merA rAga, merI cintA hI inake lie boma bana gaI ho to para tumhAre sAmane kaha rahI ha, ki yaha prAjAda haiN|" tumha mAlUma hai, nArAyaNa ? inhone saba jagaha se apanA nAma haTA liyA hai, merA sAla diyA hai / yamAlata choDa dI hai, kavitA karane lage haiN| bhakti mI aura rahanya kI kavitA / acchI to bAta hai / legina bhakti aura rahasma kI

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174 jinendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga kara do aura unase bhI UMcI coTI para caDhakara dikhA do, zrapane ko aura duniyA ko, ki tuma kama nahI ho / tyAga ke sahAre apane ko adhika mAnane kI prAvazyakatA tumhAre lie agara hotI hai to isIlie ki mana me kahI tumhAre bhItara hai ki dUsare loga tumhAre baDappana ko anyathA jAnate nahIM haiM / " "choDo manno / " ekAeka zATilya ne kahA / "tuma nahI samabhogI | nArAyaNa, zAyada tuma bhI nahIM samakoge / isa sagAra me mAlUma hotA hai koI nahI samajhegA / hama kyoM eka dUsare ko samajha nahI pAte haiM ? kyoM apane-apane piMjare meM haiM ki cAhe eka dUsare se bAta kara leM aura bhI taraha-taraha ke sambandha paidA kara leM, lekina piMjare ke bhItara sirpha aura suda hI bane rahe ? nArAyaNa, yaha patnI hai| cAlIsa varSoM se hama sAtha haiN| hamAre pyAra kI kathAe banI hai, mora sacamuca usame unnata prema kA bhoga kisI ne pAyA nahI hogaa| tuma mitra ho aura jAnatA hai, mere lie kyA kucha tuma bhugata nahIM sakate ho / lerina yaha yayoM hai ki meM akelA hU aura manoramA taka mujhe galata samajha sakatI hai / " nArAyaNa vA antaraMga samamaMjasa mAno bar3hatA gayA usane hamakara vahA, "bhAgI manogmA jI, bhAI sAhaba ko bhApa vo ganana samabhatI haiM? kavitA karate haiM to karane dIjiye / vakAlata nahIM karate, sata karane dIjie / bhAI sAhaba, bhAie prApa hI choTie / kahA se hama loga gaphAna se baiThe | lekina maiM jAUgA / jAne meM pahane vacana dIjie ki muktikambantA loga mukta hI rakheMge praura apanI bAtoM meM usa yA Apasa meM kisI ko gheranA vAghanA nahIM cAheMge | mahie bhAI sAhaba, pahie bhAbhI jI ? mujhe paba rajAjata deM / " nArAyaNa upampati meM patA gayA to mAno use yaha seva gayA jo donoM taToM ko to bhI kisI taraha milAva hue thaa| pati pAna donoM kI nigAhoM meM gAto paricaya hI aura bopana kitanI bhI abhitA nahIM raha gaI thii| jaise

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mukti ? 175 kA bhI vAstA eka dUsare ke bIca na ho| do-eka kSaNa koI kucha nahI bolA / zADilya khaDe the, manoramA baiThI thii| dono ne eka-dUsare ko dekhA aura desakara anadekhe ho ge| kucha karane ke lie zADilya ke hAtho ne meja para se Tre ko aura gilAso ko uThAyA aura barAbara meM konisa para rakha diyA / jaise kucha kareM tabhI apanA honA sahA jA sakatA hai / lauTakara unhone mejapoza ke kone ko ThIka kiyA / jarA idhara-udhara apekSA kI nigAha se dekhA aura phira sophA ke pIche alamArI ke sAmane jAkara vahA se kitAba nikAlI aura vaiThakara paDhane lge| __ manoramA apanI jagaha para jyo kI-tyo baiThI raha gii| gilAma uThAne, mejapoza ThIka karane aura phira jAkara alamArI me se pitAva khIMcate aura baiThakara paDhane laga jAne kI pati kI sArI vidhi ko manoramA binA dekhe dekhatI raha gaI / jAnatI thI, kucha nahIM hai, kevala kiyA hai| usame prAtmatA nahIM hai, kevala vyarthatA hai / vyastatA basa bacAva hai / kitAba korI kriyamANatA pratIka hai ki jisakI proTa vaha mujhase bace aura apane ko jhele / manoramA kA mana isa anubhUti para bhItara-bhItara aiMTha-sA aayaa| lekina vaha apanI jagaha se hilI na DulI / mAno durladhya cAvadhAna bIca me ho aura dono ora nirupAyatA ho| zArilya dUra usa kone me paDhate rhe| manoramA alaga isa tarapha baiThI rhii| pATitya phI mAyu tirasaTha varSa hai| manoramA aThAvana hai| cAlIsa varSa ke lagabhaga dono sAtha rahe haiN| para zADilya paDha para paDha rahe haiM, manoramA peTI kI baiThI hai| samaya saraka rahA hai-aura mAlUma hotA hai, bIca meM nipaTa 'antarAla hai, sambaddhatA ke sUma vahA se lupta ho gae hai / zuddha prAkArA raha gayA hai, apavA kAla / anyathA do nijatAyo paura mahatAmo me nitAtatA hai aura bIca meM mAma zUnya / jaMga sAgo ne alaga hue do dvIpa ho ki madhya meM nitAnA ghora aparicaya paura anabhijatA hI samaya ho| mitAva sAmane hai maura anubhava hotA hai ki duniyA hai pIra nahIM haiN|

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176 jainendra kI kahAniyA dasavA bhAga kyA hai maba hai, aura vyartha hai / par3a rahe hai aura zabda aura nApaya bhI paDhe jA rahe haiM, para kucha nahIM hai aura saba dhoyA hai| kAra aura vyarSa hai| jInA boma hai| mAna karanA hai pIkara / gava jI kA jAla hai, nahIM to| aura manoramA baMTI hai / rAhatI huI vimanammA eka vidhA kinisako TAlane kA yA nibaTAne yA upAya nahIM hai / eka do pAna dasa minaTa ho ge| nahI rAhA nahI, jAtA hai / thA aba taka ki hone do o ho mai dayA garu ? legina vaha saba thA, para nahIM cala rahA hai| nahIM, kucha karanA hogaa| apane meM ghirapara baiTanA nahIM ho pAegA, nahIM ho pAyegA / manoramA apanI jagaha se utthii| aTThAvana varSa kI manoramA / palate-calate gophe durmI meM pITha ke pIche yaha pahaca gii| rophina pati para rahe hai / unheM nahIM mAlaga / usane kandho para hAtha rAmA / unheM nahIM mAlUma / zAnyo ko davAyA / unheM nahIM mAlUma / ___ jora ne davAyA / nahIM mAlUma "suno / " "payA hai ? mujhe pahane do|" palI ne kara minAra banane hAvA ne chInI paura yahI meM gora meM maja ra ka dii| dhaura gama gAhA "pona" "yaha vA vslmog|" "anamA prachA, uttho|" "mijAra lAmo pA merI naThA phe|" "pinAyapoge?" "nI to ina namjhAga gira" "zira yo, paurapura kI gAyoM deno|" "haTo tuma, ra sAmro padA" manoramA gAmane mA gaI thii| usane uTArara pani yA Fre ra

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mukti ? 177 liyaa| patine jhiTaka diyA / vaha aura nikaTa grA gii| bolI, "munate ho, meM bhArI bahuta ho gaI hai / tumheM takalIpha na ho|" "vako mata / " "dekho, kaha rahI hU / phira jo burA maano|" "kyA huA hai tumhe / zarma karo jraa|" "to lo|" __ manoramA vaiThe hue pati kI jAnu para dhabba se A baiThI aura cibuka me hAtha dekara pati ke cehare ko Upara uThAyA aura cUma liyA / pati ne kahanA cAhA ki kucha to zaUra siikho| para usakA samaya na thA aura mAlUma huA ki ava usake lie kahI kucha nahIM raha gayA hai| na kavitA, na sabhyatA, na muktatA / svaya jo miTa gayA hai to kyA isI me saba mila gayA hai| julAI '65

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