Ama Apne Kya

Author(s): Ratnasundarsuri
Publisher: Ratnasundarsuriji
Catalog link: https://jainqq.org/explore/008890/1

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pAMca sopAna, paramapada taraphanA... zaherano aThaMga khIsAkAtaru gharethI zukana joIne kokanuM khIsuM haLavuM karI devAnA khyAla sAthe bahAra nIkaLyo to kharo paNa jyAM enI najara sAmethI potAnA tarapha AvI rahela eka navayuvAna para paDI, potAnA baMne hAtha eNe khIsAmAM nAkhI dIdhA ! Azcarya to e sarjAyuM ke sAmethI AvI rahela navayuvAnanI najara jevI A khIsAkAtaru para paDI, eNe ya potAnA baMne hAtha potAnAM khIsAmAM nAkhI dIdhA. ya A baMnenI sAthe potapotAnA mitro hato. eka mitre khIsAkAtarune pUchyuM, 'tArA hAtha tArA ja khIsAmAM kema nAkhI dIdhA ?' 'sAmethI je AvI rahyo che ne, e khIsAkAtaru che. huM bIjAnuM khIsuM to haLavuM karuM tyAre karuM, kyAMka A mAruM khIsuM haLavuM na karI jAya. basa, e khyAle meM mArA baMne hAtha mArA ja khIsAmAM nAkhI dIdhA che' khIsAkAtaruno A javAba sAMbhaLIne eno mitra stabdha thaI gayo. A bAju pelA navayuvAnane enA mitre A ja prazna pUchyo, 'tuM to khIsA kApavAmAM bhAre kAbela che. pelAne joIne tArA hAtha teM tArA khIsAmAM kema nAkhI dIdhA ?' 'tane khyAla na hoya to kahI dauM ke e mANasa khIsAM haLavAM karavAnI bAbatamAM rASTrapati eNvorDa meLavI le evo che. enI bAjumAMthI koI pasAra thayuM nathI ane enuM khIsuM haLavuM thayuM nathI. mArA baMne hAtha mArA ja khIsAmAM eTalA mATe nAkhI dIdhA che ke mAre mAruM khIsuM sAcavI levuM che' e navayuvAnanA A javAbane sAMbhaLIne enA mitrane kAMI ja bolavAnuM na rahyuM. hA. kALa bahu viSama che. patananAM nimitto cAre ya bAju e hade khaDakAI rahyA che. ke pavitratA ane naitikatA, e baMnene kaI rIte sAcavI rAkhavA e samajAtuM nathI. vAtAvaraNa mAtra bajAramAM ja bagaDyuM che evuM nathI. kaoNlejomAM ya vAsanAnAM nagna nRtyo cAlI rahyA che to skUlomAM ya jAtIya zikSaNa ApavA dvArA vyabhicAranA aDDAo kholI devAnA prayAso zarU thaI gayA che. oNphiso zuM ke maoNla zuM ? thiyeTaro zuM ke megejhIno zuM ? TI.vI.nI siriyalo zuM ke vartamAnapatro zuM ? sarvatra eka ja vAta che, vAsanAnI uttejanAnI. A sthitimAM ApaNI AjubAjuvALAone vAsanAnA ke vyabhicAranA zikAra banatA aTakAvavAnA prayatno ApaNe pachI karazuM, pahelAM ApaNI khudanI jAtane ApaNe bacAvI laIe. ApaNAM potAnA hAtha ApaNe ApaNAM ja khIsAmAM nAkhI daIe. jAta para kaDaka niyaMtraNo mUkI daIe. satata galata samAdhAno karAvatA rahetA manane sAMbhaLavAnI nA pADI daIe. to ja kadAca manane ane jIvanane galata mArge kheMcAI jatuM ApaNe bacAvI zakazuM. paNa sabUra ! ApaNe jAtane mAtra bacAvI ja nathI levI. ApaNe to vipula saddaguNonA ane vizuddha puNyanA svAmI banI javuM che. durgatine ApaNe mAtra sthagita ja nathI karI devI. sadgatinI paraMparA sarjIne paramagatine ApaNe najIka paNa lAvI devI che. e mATe jarUrI pAMca mahattvanAM paribaLone Aje ApaNe samajI levA che. prathama naMbaranA paribaLanuM nAma che : svataMtratA [FREEDOM] AMkho joI zake che, kAna sAMbhaLI zake che, jIbha bolI zake che, paga cAlI zake che, hAtha hAlI zake che, hRdaya dhabakI zake che, peTa khorAka pacAvI zake che, mana vicArI zake che ane saMpUrNa zarIra sakriya rahI zake che. A che svataMtratA. jo A svataMtratA che ApaNI pAse to ApaNe prathama naMbarano ati durlabha vijaya 3

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khATI gayA chIe. javAba Apo, mane mArA anaMtopakArI gurudeve saMyamajIvana ApavAnI udAratA karI kyAre ? mArAmAM vairAgyabhAva hato ke nahIM, e emaNe pachI joyuM che. samarpaNabhAva mArI pAse hato ke nahIM, e ya emaNe pachI joyuM che. sattvazIlatAnuM svAmitva mArI pAse hatuM ke nahIM e ya emaNe pachI joyuM che. pahelAM eozrIe mArI pAse zarIranI taMdurastInI ane mananI vicArazIlatAnI A svataMtratA hatI ke nahIM e ja joyuM che. ane emAM huM pAsa thaI gayA pachI ja eozrIe mArI anya yogyatAone cakAsI che. Ano artha ? A ja ke svataMtratA - indriyonI ane mananI - e to sAdhanAjIvanano pAyo che. e pAyo ja jo nabaLo che ke kAco che to enA para sAdhanA jIvananI imArata UbhI karI zakAya evI koI zakyatA ja nathI.. huM sukharUpa ahIM pahoMcI gayo chuM 21 mI sadInI A kAlpanika vAta. bAbAne jabhyAne hajI be miniTa paNa nahotI thaI ane tyAM eNe bhagavAnane Miss Cal lagADyo ! sAme ja UbhelI narsa to A joIne stabdha ja thaI gaI. 21 mI sadInI A asara? AvaDo bAbo bhagavAnane phona kare ? kamAla ! eNe bAbAne ja pUchI lIdhuM. 'teM bhagavAnane phona kema lagADyo ?' mAre emane ciMtAmukta karI devA che? eTale ?" 'mAre bhagavAnane jaNAvavuM che ke Apa mArI ciMtA na karazo. mAro janma sukharUpa thaI gayo che." 'emAM bhagavAnane jaNAvavAnI..." 'eTalA mATe jarUra che ke garbhapAtanI bolabAlAvALA A jamAnAmAM sukharUpa janma thaI javo e ya jevotevo camatkAra nathI' bAbAe narsane javAba ApI dIdho. huM tamane ja pUchuM chuM. janmathI laIne Aje 2530/35 ke 40nI vaye pahoMcI cUkelA tame kyAreya prabhune e badala dhanyavAda ApyA kharA ? pAMceya indriyo Aje paNa potAnA viSayone grahaNa karavAmAM sakSama che, mana Aje paNa sarasa rIte vicArI zake che e badala prabhu samakSa kyAreya AbhAranI lAgaNI vyakta karI kharI? paga taMdurasta to che ja paNa dhArI jagAe ene laI javAnI svataMtratA paNa maLI che, kAna sazakta che eto barAbara che ja paraMtu icchita zabdonA zravaNanI svataMtratA paNa maLI che, hAtha halanacalana karI zake to che ja paNa dhArI jagAe eno upayoga karavAnI svataMtratA paNa maLI che e badala kyAreya jAtane nasIbadAra mAnI che kharI ?" sabhA : 'nA' eka vAta tamane karuM? narakagatinA nArako ane devagatinA devatAo, e baMnene bhale ApaNe joyo nathI paNa tiryaMcagatinA tiryaMco to ApaNI AMkha sAme ja che ne? emanI parAdhInadazA to ApaNe anekavAra joI ja che ne? tarasa sakhata che, pANI sAme ja che ane chatAM baLada khIle baMdhAyelo hovAthI pANI pI zakato nathI. bheMsa AMgaNAmAM chUTI pharI rahI che ane acAnaka tyAM rahela ghAsa saLagI UThe che. bheMsanA paga sazakta che paNa DelInuM bAraNuM baMdha che. bheMsanA bahAra nIkaLavAnA prayAso vyartha jAya che ane tyAM ja e bhaDathuM thaIne khalAsa thaI jAya che. kUtaro sAMkaLe baMdhAyela che, siMha pAMjarAmAM keda che, sApa karaMDiyAmAM baMdha che, kAgaDo patharAonA mAra khAI rahyo che, popaTa pAMjarAmAM baMdha che. zuM che ochuM emanI AgaLa ? paMcendriya paTutA che paNa e baMdhanamAM che. mane bhale svataMtra che paNa paMcendriya paTutAnI A parAdhInadazA emanA manane satata durgAnamAM ja prasta rAkhI rahI che. are, mAnavagatimAM janma pAmI cUkelA evA keTalAya jIvone tame joI lo ke jemAMnA keTalAka pAse paMcendriya paTutA ja nathI to keTalAka pAse svastha mana nathI to keTalAka pAse e badhuM ya che paNa enA upayoganI svataMtratA nathI. cAlyA jajo kyAreka aMdha-badhira zALAonI mulAkAte. tyAM tamane jovA maLaze evAM bALako ke jeonAM zarIra sazakta che paNa emanI pAse AMkha ja nathI, jovA maLaze evI bAlikAo ke jemanuM rUpa jabaradasta che paNa emanI pAse bolI zake tevI jIbha ja nathI ane sAMbhaLI zake tevA kAna ja nathI. cAlyA jajo. kyAMka mananA kSetre ruNa banI cUkelAM bALakonA AvAsonI mulAkAta, tyAMnAM bALakonI mananI lAcArI, parAdhInatA, aparipakvatA vagerene barAbara nihALI lejo . indriyo badhI ja sArI paNa mananA nAme emanI pAse boja sivAya kazuM ja nathI. cAlyA jajo kyAreka sarakArI haoNspiTalonA janarala vorDamAM. tyAM vedanAthI kaNasI rahela dardIonI lAcAradazAne joI lejo barAbara. dUdhano vAMdho, davAnA paisA nahIM, vyavasthita nidAnuM nahIM, DaoNkTaronI kALajI nahIM, narsonI darakAra nahIM, pauSTika khorAka nahIM, taMdurasta vAtAvaraNa nahIM. AMkhomAM nirAzA, caherA para udAsI.. A tamAma parAdhInatAonI sAme tamane maLela svataMtratAnI sarakhAmaNI karI jojo.

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jIvanamAM AvI rahela nAnI ke mAmUlI takalIpho aMge nahIM to koI phariyAda karavAnuM mana thAya ke nahIM to e aMge dInatAnA zikAra banyA rahevAnuM mana thAya. 'abhAva'nA sarvatra gANAM gAyA karavAnuM mana nahIM thAya to 'alpatA' nI manamAM satata noMdha letA rahevAnI vRtti jAgrata nahIM thAya. are, je paNa svataMtratA maLI che enA khyAle haiyuM prasannatAthI tarabatara raheze. mana satata mastIno ja anubhava karatuM raheze. dila haMmezAM tAjagIsabhara ja raheze. vikAsanA mArga paranuM bIjA naMbaranuM sopAna che : sakSetra [FIELD] mALIne bIja maLe paNa phaLadrupa khetara na maLe to mALI e bIjanuM kare zuM ? mammInA hAthamAM sarasa majenuM meLavaNa AvI jAya paNa ene dUdha maLe ja nahIM to e meLavaNanuM e kare zuM ? basa, e ja nyAye svataMtratA maLI jAya AtmAne paNa sakSetra maLe ja nahIM to e svataMtratAnuM AtmA kare zuM ? sAMbhaLI che tame rAjeza vyAsanI A paMktio? 'kadI na lAge gaurava jevuM, AkAze samaLInuM hovuM UMce cakarAvA mArIne, nIce ukaraDAmAM jovuM. eka marelA uMdara khAtara, roja tUTe AkAzI sagapaNa.' samaLIne pAMkho evI maLI ke e cheka AkAzamAM UMce sudhI UDI zakI paNa re kamanasIbI ! UkaraDAmAM paDelA eka marelA uMdara para enI najara paDI ane gaNatarInI paLomAM AkAzanI UMcAI choDIne, AkAza sAthenuM sagapaNa toDIne e nIce AvI gaI ane nIce paNa e kyAMya bagIcAmAM na pahoMcatA sIdhI ukaraDe pahoMcI gaI ! mANasanA hAthamAM paththara to evo masta AvI gayo ke nayanaramya pratimAmAM rUpAMtara thaIne lAkho lokonA hRdayamAM e zubhabhAvonI choLo uchALI zake paNa durbhAgya enuM ke e koka guMDAnA hAthamAM jaI caDyo. eNe e paththarane pheMkyo kokanA mastaka para ane e mANasanuM mastaka eNe lohIluhANa karI nAkhyuM. javAba Apo. AMkho tejasvI maLe paNa ene TharavA mATe prabhu na maLatAM parastrI ja maLe to maLelI AMkhonI e svataMtratAnuM karavAnuM zuM ? kAna sazakta maLe paNa e prabhuvacanonAM zravaNa tarapha khUlavAne badale niMdAnA zabdo tarapha ja khUlatA rahe to maLelI kAnanI e svataMtratAnuM karavAnuM zuM ? paga majabUta hoya paNa prabhunA maMdira tarapha vaLatA rahevAne $ badale thiyeTara tarapha ja vaLatA rahetA hoya, koka pAMjarApoLa tarapha vaLatA rahevAne badale haoNTalo tarapha ja vaLatA rahetA hoya, tIrthasthAno tarapha vaLatA rahevAne badale klaba tarapha ja vaLatA rahetA hoya to paganI maLela e svataMtratAnuM karavAnuM zuM ? mana khamatIdhara maLyuM hoya paNa zubha bhAvanAothI ene bhAvita rAkhatA rahevAne badale ene saMkalpa-vikalpomAM ja vyasta rAkhavAnuM hoya to mananA e khamatIdharapaNAnuM karavAnuM zuM ? zuM kahuM ? karoDo-abajo mANaso A jagatamAM evA che ke jeo pAse svataMtratAnuM svAmitva to che paNa sakSetro maLavAnuM emane sadbhAgya sAMpaDyuM nathI. duSpariNAma AnuM e AvyuM che ke svataMtratAno durupayoga karatA rahevA sivAya teo bIjuM kAMI ja karI rahyA nathI. mArI e icchA che ke... varaso pUrve gujarAtanA eka zaheramAM banI gayela A prasaMga gaMbhIratAthI sAMbhaLI lo. tame stabdha thaI jazo. ya 5055 varasanI vayanAM e bahena. chellA traNeka mahinAthI emane peTamAM takalIpha hatI. aneka prakAranA upacAro pachI ya emAM koI rAhata na anubhavAI tyAre emanA dIkarAe moTA koka DaoNkTaranI mulAkAta mAgI. e DaoNkTare alaga alaga jAtanA riporTa kaDhAvyA ane nidAnamAM kaeNnsara AvyuM. dIkarAe manane majabUta rAkhIne mammIne A samAcAra ApI dIdhA. paLa-bepaLanI khAmozI pachI mammIe mauna toDyuM. 'beTA, eka icchA che' 'bola' 'mane nathI lAgatuM ke have huM cha mahinAthI vadhu A duniyAmAM rahI zakuM' 'DaoNkTaranuM kahevuM ema che ke...' "mAre e kAMI sAMbhaLavuM nathI, mAre to tane kahevuM che ke tuM amerikA, phrAnsa, jarmana, raziyA, jApAna vagere je-je sthaLoe sArAmAM sArI haoNTalo hoya tyAM mane laI jA.' 'kAraNa ?' 'jiMdagInA jeTalA paNa mahinAo ke divaso bacyA che emAM mAre e dareka haoNTalomAM pIrasAtI zreSTha vAnagIo khAI levI che. kAraNa ke maryA pachI to A badhuM khAvAnuM kyAM maLavAnuM che ?' 9

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kalpanA karo. jIvana samApta thavAnA Are hoya, mota AMkha sAme DAcuM phADIne UbhuM rahI gayuM hoya tyAre ya jo khAvAnI A hadanI lAlasA jIvaMta rahI zakatI hoya to zarIra taMdurasta ja hoya, nakhamAM ya roga na hoya tyAre to jIvaMta rahetI khAnapAnanI lAlasAnuM pUchavAnuM ja zuM? eka vAta yAda rAkhajo , svataMtratA e jo puNyano udaya che to satyetro e puryAbaMdha mATenAM khetaro che. puNyanA udaya mATe to bahu puruSArthanI ya jarUra paDatI nathI, lAMbI akkalanI paNa jarUra paDatI nathI to viziSTa pAtratAnI paNa jarUra paDatI nathI. paNa puNyabaMdha mATe ? prabaLa puruSArthanI ya jarUra paDe che, dIrdhadarzitAnI ya jarUra paDe che to kaMIka aMze pAtratAnI ya jarUra paDe che. tame keLAne ya joyuM haze ane kerIne ya joI haze. baMneno samAveza Ama to phaLamAM ja thAya che paraMtu e baMne vacceno eka mahattvano taphAvata khyAlamAM che? keLuM potAnI sAthe bIjane laIne nathI AvatuM jyAre kerI potAnI sAthe goTalIne laIne Ave che. Ano artha ? tame keLuM khAI lo. tamAruM peTa bharAI gayuM. vAta pUrI thaI gaI paNa kerInI bAbatamAM AkhI vAta ja judI che. tame kerI khAI lo. tamAruM peTa bharAI jAya paNa emAM rahela goTalIne tame jamInamAM vAvI do. ene khAtara-pANI ApatA raho. enI vyavasthita mAvajata karatA raho. lAMbe gALe tamane e saMkhyAbaMdha kerIo ApIne ja rahe. satyotra vinAnI svataMtratA jo keLAnA sthAne che to satyotra sAthenI svataMtratA e kerInA sthAne che. prathama vikalpamAM puNya bhogavIne khatama karI devAnuM che jyAre bIjA vikalpamAM puNyanA udayakALamAM puNya bAMdhatA rahevAnuM che. huM tamane ja pUchuM chuM. rasa zemAM che? keLAmAM ke kerImAM? puNya bhogavavAmAM ke puNya bAMdhavAmAM ? kevaLa svataMtratAmAM ke satyetra sAthenI svataMtratAmAM ? sabhA : puNya amAre bAMdhavuM che paNa hamaNAM nahIM. khUba gaMbhIratA sAthe mAre tamane A saMdarbhamAM eka vAta jaNAvavI che. satkArya sevana vilaMbamAM mUkavAnI vRtti jyAre paNa jAge tyAre A hakIkatane AMkha sAme rAkhajo. . 1. AyuSya game tyAre pUruM thaI jAya evI saMbhAvanA che. AvatI kAle zanivAra cokkasa AvavAno che paNa e zanivAre ApaNe haze ke kema e sarvathA anizcita che, 'puNya Aje nathI bAMdhavuM paNa AgaLa upara bAMdhazuM. satkAryanuM sevana Aje nathI karavuM paNa AvatI kAle karazuM" AvI vicAraNAne AdhIna banI jaIne satkArya sevanane vilaMbamAM mUkatA rahetA pahelAM A nagna satyane sadAya AMkha sAme rAkhajo. uttarAdhyayana sUtrano A saMdeza, 'AyuSya sarvathA asaMskArya che. he jIva ! pramAda karIza' eka paLa mATe paNa bhUlazo nahIM. satkArya jo karavuM ja che to AvatI kAle nahIM paNa Aje ja. Aje nahIM, atyAre ja. 2. puNya koI paNa paLe dago daI de evI zakyatA che. saMdhyAnA raMgono bharoso zo ? pavananI vahevAnI dizAno bharoso zo? vAdaLanA astitvano bharoso zo? basa, e ja nyAye puNyano koI ja bharoso nathI. AvatI kAle ApaNe TakI paNa gayA paNa Aje je puNya che ke AvatI kAle paNa TakI ja raheze e kahI zakAya evI sthiti nathI. saMpattikSetranuM puNya kadAca TakI paNa jAya to ya taMdurastImAM kaDAko bolAI jAya e zakyatA pUrI che. taMdurastI kadAca jaLavAI paNa jAya toya svajanonI vaphAdArImAM garabaDa UbhI thaI jAya e zakyatA ochI nathI. bhayanA A othAra nIce sukRtone vilaMbamAM mUkavAnI vAta e jAta sAthe chetarapIMDI sivAya bIjuM kazuM ya nathI. saMdeza spaSTa che. Aje puNya jo udayamAM che to Aje ja puNya bAMdhI lo. AvatI kAla para ene mulatavI na ja rAkho. 3. mananA bhAvo koI paNa paLe badalAI jAya evI zakyatA che. mAnI laIe ke AyuSya ApaNuM lAMbu che, puNya ApaNuM majabUta che paNa ApaNAM mananA bhAvo Aje jevA che, AvatI kAle paNa evA raheze ja e kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM ApaNe chIe kyAM ? are, pravacana sAMbhaLatA manamAM je bhAvo UThe che e bhAvomAM ghare pahoMcatA sudhImAM jo bhAre kaDAko bolAI jAya che to sukRta sevananA Aje jAgelA bhAvo AvatI kAle paNa ApaNe TakAvI ja zakazuM evI bhramaNAmAM rAcavAnI koI ja jarUra nathI. TUMkamAM, AyuSya, puNya ane mana A traNe ya paribaLo sarvathA binabharosApAtra che e vAstavikatAne AMkha sAme rAkhIne je paNa kSetranAM satkAryo sevavAnI anukULatA hoya e kSetranAM satkAryone Aje ja, atyAre ja sevI levA jevA che. AtmAnuM hita paNa emAM ja che to paralokanI saddharatA paNa emAM ja che. vikAsanA mArga paranuM trIjA naMbaranuM sopAna che : sanmitra. (FRIEND) lokhaMDanI khIlI joI to che ne? nadInA pANImAM ene nAkho. DUbI jatAM paLanI ya vAra na lAge paNa A khIlIne ApaNe nadInA pANImAM tarAvI devA mAgatA hoIe to? eka ja vikalpa che. lAkaDA sAthe ene joDI daIne e lAkaDAne pANImAM taratuM mUkI daIe. lAkaDuM to tarI ja jAya ane enI sAthe lokhaMDanI khIlI paNa tarI jAya ! paNa

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sabUra ! lokhaMDanI khIlIne lAkaDA sAthe joDI devAnI ceSTA karAvatI buddhi ja jo gerahAjara che to ? lAkaDuM hAjara hovA chatAM enA sahAre nadI tarI javAnI saMbhAvanA dharAvatI lokhaMDanI khIlI nadInA pANImAM DUbI jAya che. svataMtratAnuM pota Ama jovA jAo to lokhaMDanI khIlInuM che. saMsAra sAgaramAM AtmAne DubADI devA sivAya e bIjuM kAMI ja karatI nathI. paNa satyotranuM pota lAkaDAnA TukaDAnuM che. AMkho goThavAI jAya che prabhu tarapha ane enA sahAre AtmA tarI jAya che A saMsAra sAgara, kAna goThavAI jAya che jinavANI zravaNamAM, jIbha goThavAI jAya che prabhu stavanAmAM ane guNAnuvAdamAM, paga vaLavA lAge che prabhu maMdira tarapha, hAtha goThavAI jAya che, kokane Teko ApavAmAM ane mana bhAvita thatuM rahe che zubha bhAvanAothI ane maMgaLa manorathothI. AtmA sadgati ane paramagatino bhAjana banIne ja rahe che. paNa javAba Apo. sadgurunI A kSamatAne ApaNe samajI zakyA chIe kharA? jIvanamAM emanI A hadanI anivAryatA ApaNane samajAI che kharI ? emanA hAtha ane sAtha vinA A saMsAramAM ApaNe anAtha ja chIe e zraddhA ApaNA romaromamAM pratiSThita thaI cUkI che kharI ? A karuNa dazA ? 'tamArA zarIra paranAM vastro ATalA badhA melAM che to tame ene dhotA kema nathI ?' 'huM kapaDAM dhoI zakuM evI sthitimAM nathI' 'kema ?' sabUra ! T svataMtratAne satyotramAM joDI devAnI preraNA karato koI sanmitra arthAtu kalyANamitra ja jIvanamAM nathI maLyo to? to bIjuM kAMI ja nathI banatuM. svataMtratAnA durupayoga dvArA AtmA A saMsArasAgaramAM AmathI tema phaMgoLAto ja rahe che. satyetranA sahAre je svataMtratA AtmA mATe varadAnarUpa puravAra thaI zakatI hatI e ja svataMtratA satyotra sAthe na joDAI javAnA hisAbe AtmA mATe abhizAparUpa puravAra thaIne ja rahe che. zuM kahuM? svataMtratA durlabha jarUra che paNa satyetranI prApti thavI e to ethI ya vadhu durlabha che. ane sanmitrano yoga thavo e to bhAremAM bhAre durlabha che. paNa nasIbadAra chIe ApaNe sahu ke ApaNane A traNeya paribaLonI prApti thaI gaI che. svataMtratA hAthavagI che, sotro AMkha sAme che ane sanmitra ApaNane mArgadarzana ApavA satata taiyAra che. sabhA : sanmitranA sthAne kone goThavavAnA? Ano javAba ApI dIdho che paMcasutranA racayitAe zreSThatama sanmitra che, sadaga. je paNa AtmAne e maLI gayA, e AtmAnuM durgatigamana sthagita thaI gayuM ja samajo. zuM kahuM ? svataMtratA e jo lokhaMDanI khIlI che, sakSetra e jo lAkaDAno TukaDo che. 'rzerabajAramAM pUrepUro dhovAI gayo chuM" 'zuM vAta karo cho ?" | 'are, AgaLa vadhIne kahuM to mArA gharanA bAtharUmamAM keTalAMka kapaDAM evA bhInAM paDyA che ke jene nicovI zakavAnI hAlatamAM huM nathI.' 'paNa kema ?' 'ghara mATe doDadhAma karavAmAM huM pUrepUro nicovAI gayo chuM' 'kamAla kahevAya? 'kamAla to have Ave che. keTalAMka dhoyelAM kapaDAM gharanI dorInI nIce ja paDyA che. ene sUkavI zakavAnI mArAmAM tAkAta ja nathI. - 'kAraNa ?' 'rzerabajAramAM khAdhela mAre 'AvatI kAle zuM thaze mAruM'nI mana para je ciMtA savAra thaI gaI che e ciMtAmAM ne ciMtAmAM huM evo sukAI gayo chuM ke gharamAM rahela kapaDAM sUkavavAnI mArAmAM koI tAkAta ja bacI nathI.' jenA paNa jIvanamAM saddaguru nathI enI A ja hAlata che. vilAsI vAtAvaraNamAM enA sadguNo dhovAtA ja rahe che. pratikULatAonI vaNajhAra enI samAdhine nicovatI ja rahe che ane satkAryasevananA abhAvamAM enuM pUrvabhavopArjita puNya sukAtuM ja rahe che. pariNAma? mota pachI to e durgatimAM ravAnA thaI ja jAya che paraMtu jIvana daramyAna paNa e satata saMklezano zikAra banato rahIne jAtane trAsadAyaka sthitimAM mUkato rahe che. A karuNadazAnA bhoga na banavuM hoya to kalyANamitranA sthAne jIvanamAM sane goThavI ja dejo. tamArI svataMtratAne e mAraka nahIM banavA de. tamArA puNyane e pApajanaka nahIM banavA de, tamArI zaktione e zrAparUpa nahIM banavA de. anaMtakALe prApta thayela sanmitra e khIlIne lAkaDA sAthe joDatI buddhi che. 10

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A mAnavajIvanane e niSphaLa nahIM banavA de. ane hAthamAM AvI gayela satzetranA sudUra sudhInA sadupayoga mATe aMtaHkaraNane ullasita karyA vinA e nahI rahe. eka ati agatyanI vAstavikatA tamArA khyAlamAM che? e kAgaLane ja rUpiyAnI noTanuM gaurava maLe che ke je kAgaLa para rijharva baeNnkanA gavarnaranI sahI hoya che. e ceka ja baeNnkamAM svIkArya bane che ke je ceka para enA lakhanAranA mAlikanI sahI hoya che. basa, e ja nyAye adhyAtma jagatamAM sAdhakanI e sAdhanA ja svIkArya bane che ke je sAdhanAne sadgurunI maMjUrI maLI hoya che. paMcasUtra zAstra to tyAM sudhI lakhI dIdhuM che ke 'guru dvArA ja paramagurunI prApti che'. zIkhoe to potAnA dharmasthAnanuM nAma ja 'guru dvArA' rAkhyuM che. A tamAma vAstavikatAo eTaluM ja kahe che ke jIvanamAM kalyANamitra to hovo ja joIe ane e kalyANamitromAM prathama naMbaranuM sthAna sadgurune ja apAvuM joIe. sabhA : mitra ane kalyANamitra vacce taphAvata zuM che ? mAtra AlokanI ja ciMtA kare te mitra che, paralokanI paNa ciMtA kare e kalyANamitra che. kevaLa zarIra ane mananA sukhanI ja ciMtA kare e mitra che, AtmAnA hitanI paNa ciMtA kare e kalyANamitra che. duHkha dUra karavAnA upAyomAM ja vyasta rAkhe e mitra che, doSone dUra karavAnA upAyomAM paNa pravRtta banAvI de e kalyANamitra che. saMpattimAM ja sukhanAM darzana karAvato rahe e mitra che, sadguNa-satkArya-samAdhimAM ja sukhanI zraddhA sthira karato rahe e kalyANamitra che. paNa, karuNatA mananI e che ke kalyANamitra upalabdha hovA chatAM mana emanI pAse javAnuM TALatuM rahe che. kAraNa spaSTa che. ahaMne jhukAvI devAnI taiyArI dAkhavyA vinA sadgurunA caraNamAM besI zakAtuM nathI. sukhane tilAMjali ApI devAnI taiyArI dAkhavyA vinA sadgurunuM zaraNa svIkArI zakAtuM nathI. janamajanamanA kusaMskArone paDakAratA rahevAnuM sattva dAkhavyA vinA sadgurune jIvanarathanA sArathI banAvI zakAtA nathI. paNa eTaluM ja kahIza ke A jIvanamAM eka vAra to e parAkrama karI dekhADavA jevuM ja che. manane jo nA pADatA ApaNe zIkhI jaIe ane aMtaHkaraNane hA pADI detA ApaNane AvaDI jAya, zarIra-mana kendrita sukhane jIvananA kendrasthAnethI haTAvI daIne Atmakendrita hitane jIvananA kendrasthAne goThavI devA ApaNe kaTibaddha banI jaIe to pachI kalyANamitra evA sadgurunA sAMnidhyamAM goThavAI jatA ApaNane koI ja paribaLa rokI zake tema nathI. 12 yAda rAkhajo. svataMtratAnuM prathama naMbaranuM sopAna jo jagatanA abajo lokone upalabdha thayuM che to sakSetranuM bIjA naMbaranuM sopAna to karoDo lokone paNa upalabdha thayuM che ke kema emAM zaMkA che. ane emAM ya sanmitranuM trIjA naMbaranuM sopAna to lAkho loko pAse paNa che ke kema e prazna che. nasIbadAra chIe ApaNe badhA ke ApaNI pAse svataMtratA, sakSetra ane sanmitra e traNe ya sopAno atyAre hAthavagAM che. alabatta, prathama be sopAna puNyane baMdhAyA che paraMtu ApaNe to evA bhAre nasIbadAra chIe ke trIjA naMbaranuM sopAna paNa ApaNane puNyathI ja upalabdha thaI gayuM che. kAraNa ke sadgurune ApaNe zodhavA nathI gayA, sAmethI ja ApaNane upalabdha thaI gayA che. kadAca kahevuM hoya to ema paNa kahI zakAya ke jIvananA rastA para Ama-tema bhaTakI rahelA ApaNane sadguru acAnaka kyAMka bheTI gayA che. gumarAha banIne jIvananI kImatI paLone veDaphI rahelA ApaNane sadgurue sAmethI pakaDI pADyA che. sarvathA arthahIna jIvana jIvI rahelA ApaNane sadgurue sAme caDIne jIvanano artha samajAvI dIdho che. sabhA : to have to amAruM AtmakalyANa pAkuM ne ? nA. dillImAM atyAre ApaNe badhA bhale beThA chIe paNa adhyAtmanI bhASAmAM kahevuM hoya to ema kahI zakAya ke dillI hajI ghaNuM dUra che. kAraNa ke cothA naMbaranA ane pAMcamA naMbaranA sopAnane sara karI lIdhA pachI ja adhyAtmajagatanuM dillI sara thaI zake tema che. sabhA H karyAM che e be sopAno ? e ja vAta have huM karuM chuM, vikAsanA mArga paranuM cothA naMbaranuM sopAna cheH saMvedanazIlatA. (FEELINGS) svataMtratA maLI gaI che. sotro hAthavagAM che. sanmitra sAthe che paraMtu A badhuM maLI gayA badala hRdayamAM jo koI AnaMda ja nathI, ahobhAvanAM pUra jo hRdayamAM UmaTatA ja nathI, gurudevanAM darzane dila jo lAgaNIzIla banI jatuM ja nathI. prabhunA pUjanamAM AMkhomAMthI harSanAM AMsu jo vahevA lAgatA ja nathI to nizcita samajI rAkhavuM ke puNyanA udayathI ApaNane maLI gayelAM prathama traNa sopAno ApaNA mATe sarvathA nirarthaka ja puravAra thavAnA che. sabhA : amArAM hRdaya rukSa kema banI gayA che ? 13

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kAraNo bIjAM aneka haze paNa mukhya kAraNa che, buddhinI garamI, buddhinuM eka ja kAma che, kyAMya jhUkavA na devuM, koInI ya samakSa bhInA na thavA devuM. koInI ya pAchaLa pAgala ne banavA devuM. badhe ja tarka, badhA sAme dalIlabAjI, sarvatra ahaMkAranuM ja prAdhAnya, satata cUMthaNA gUMthatA rahevAnI ja gaNatarI. badhe ja zaMkAzIla mAnasa. A badhA che buddhinAM kAryo. tapAsavAnuM mana thatuM hoya to tapAsI lejo. tamArA sahunAM manane, tamane tyAM A ja dekhAze, smazAnamAM jema hADakAMonA DhagalA ja jovA maLe, ukaraDe jema kacarAno Dhera ja jovA maLe, gaTaramAM jema gaMdhAtuM pANI ja jovA maLe tema buddhi pAse jIvonA doSono thayela saMgraha ja jovA maLe, nabaLA prasaMgonI smRti ja maLe, badalo levAnI vRtti ja maLe. potAnI sAthe anyo vaDe thayelA apamAnonI noMdha ja maLe. posTamaoNrTama thAya tyAre ja khabara paDe 'tamane TI.bI. che' zuM vAta karo cho ?' sAcuM kahuM chuM" 'paNa DaoNkTara sAheba ! gaI kAle to tame mane 'DAyAbiTIsa' che ema kahyuM hatuM ! 'kAlano riporTa ema ja kaheto hato" 'parama divase tame 'alsara'nuM nidAna karyuM hatuM.' 'e ya barAbara hatuM' 'paNa kharekhara mane zI takalIpha che enI khabara kyAre paDaze?' e to tamAruM posTamaoNrTama kyAre thAya che enA para nirbhara che' DaoNkTare hasatA hasato javAba ApI dIdho. hA, A che buddhinI vakratA, ene nidAnamAM nahIM paNa posTamaoNrTamamAM ja rasa hoya che. sAmAne abhayadAna ApavAmAM nahIM paNa patAvI devAmAM ja ene rasa hoya che. upakArI samakSa paNa jhUkI javAmAM nahIM, jhajhUmatA rahevAmAM ja ene rasa hoya che. paNa lakhI rAkhajo tamArI DAyarImAM ke buddhinA kSetre jeo devALiyA hatA paNa lAgaNI kSetre jeo samRddha hatA teo kevaLajJAna pAmIne mokSe padhArI javAmAM saphaLa banyA che jyAre buddhikSetre jeo bRhaspati jevA hatA paNa lAgaNI kSetre bhikhArI hatA teo saMsAramAM rakhaDapaTTI karatA rahevAmAM saphaLa [] rahyA che. eka praznano tame javAba Apazo ? tamArA sahunA anaMtopakArI mahAna zAsana prabhAvaka pUjyapAda paMnyAsa pravara zrI candrazekhara vijayajI mahArAjane cAlu pravacanomAM raDI paDatA tamo sahue joyA to che ne? sabhA : ghaNI ya vAra. javAba Apo. emanAM pAvana darzane tamArI AMkhoe kyAreya AMsu vahAvyA che. kharA ? emane vaMdana karatA tame kyAreya raDI paDyA cho kharA ? tamArA jIvanamAM pravezI gayela kharAbIo joIne jeo Aje paNa raDI paDe che emanAM darzana-vaMdane tamArA hRdayamAM jo koI gargadatA nathI ja anubhavAtI to nizcita samajI rAkhajo ke tamAruM bhAvi sukhada to nathI ja. zuM kahuM tamane? mIThAInA saMpUrNa jagatamAM tamane koka mIThAImAM dUdha jovA nahIM maLe to koka mIThAImAM badAmanI gerahAjarI jovA maLaze. koka mIThAI elacI vinAnI tamane jovA maLaze to koka mIThAImAM caNAnA loTanI anupasthiti tamane dekhAze paNa temane eka paNa, mIThAI evI to jovA nahIM ja maLe ke jemAM sAkara ja gerahAjara hoya. vepAranA saMpUrNa jagatamAM tame pharI vaLo. koka vepAramAM tamane jhaverAtanI bolabAlA jovA maLaze to koka vepAramAM lAkaDuM mukhya haze, koka vepAra kApaDa kendrita haze to koka vepAra lokhaMDa kendrita haze. koka vepAramAM tamane mevAnI ja mukhyatA nihALavA maLaze to koka vepAramAM bolabAlA anAjanI ja haze paNa sabUra ! A tamAma prakAranA vepAronuM sTIariMga vhIla to paisAnA hAthamAM ja hovAnuM tamane acUka jovA maLaze ja. cAlyA jAo tame adhyAtmanA jagatamAM. kyAMka koka svAdhyAyamArge AgaLa vadhI rahyuM che to kyAMka koka vaiyAvaccanA yoga para kadama mAMDIne AgaLa dhapI rahyuM che. kokane gurubhakti jAmI rahI che to kokane tapazcaryA phAvI rahI che. kokane dhyAna pasaMda paDI rahyuM che to kokane Agama vAMcana vadhu jAmI gayuM che. joke tyAgane svajIvanamAM pratiSThita karI dIdho che to koka anuprekSAne svajIvananuM cAlakabaLa banAvI beTho che paNa sabUra ! AmAMno eka paNa yoga evo nathI ke je yoga hRdayanI gagadatA vinAno ke saMvedanazIlatAnA sparza vinAno hoya! TUMkamAM, sAkaranI bAdabAkI karIne tame mIThAI jagatanuM sarjana jo karI zakatA nathI, paisAnI bAdabAkI karIne tamane vepAra jagatanuM sarjana jo karI zakatA nathI to saMvedanazIlatAnI bAdabAkI karIne tame adhyAtmajagatanuM sarjana paNa karI zakatA ja nathI. AvI anivArya saMvedanazIlatAne jo ApaNe hAthavagI rAkhavAmAM saphaLa nahIM banyA rahIe to enI 15

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gerahAjarI vinAnA bAkInA sadyogo ApaNA mATe keTalA lAbhakArI banyA raheze e prazna che. sAMbhaLI che A paMktio ? hRdayane jIva bharIne jIvavA do, buddhine kaho bahu bole nahIM; sonAnI mUrtine lokhaMDanA trAjavAmAM mUkIne kadI koI tole nahIM' gurudeva to sonAnI mUrti karatAM anekagaNAM mUlyavAna che. jyAre buddhi e to kATa khAI gayelA lokhaMDanA trAjavAnuM pratinidhitva dharAvI rahI che. ApaNe gurudevanuM mUlyAMkana buddhinA trAjave karazuM ? upakArIonA upakAranI kakSAne samajavA ApaNe buddhine kAme lagADazuM ? maLI gayelA tAraka anuSThAnonI tAkAta samajavAnuM kAma ApaNe buddhine soMpazuM ? sabhA : AvuM kema bane che ? eka mahattvanuM kAraNa e che ke gurudevane ApaNI buddhi mahAna mAnavA to taiyAra che paNa emane tAraka mAnavAnI bAbatamAM e satata AnAkAnI karyA kare che. 'gurudeva saMyamI che, paMca mahAvratadhArI che, tyAgI che, tapasvI che, zAsanaprabhAvaka che' A badhuM ja mAnavA to buddhi taiyAra che paNa 'vAsanAnI gaTaramAM ALoTI rahelA mArA jevA Dukkarane, pavitratAno cAro caratA haMsa jevo banAvI devAnI tAkAta to kevaLa gurudevanI ja che. kaSAya sevananA mArga durgati tarapha dhakelAI rahelA mArA jevA napAvaTane tyAMthI pAcho vALIne prabhubhaktinA mArge doDato karI daIne sadgatigAmI banAvI devAnI kSamatA to kevaLa gurudevanI ja che' A mAnavA mana taiyAra thatuM nathI ane enuM ja A duSpariNAma che ke emanA sAMnidhyamAM AvavA chatAM, emanAM darzana-vaMdana karavA chatAM, emanAM pravacano sAMbhaLavA chatAM haiyAmAM evA koI viziSTa spaMdano UThatA ja nathI. kabUla, koka karoDapatine jovA chatAM enA pratye tamArA haiyAmAM koI gadgadatAno bhAva na anubhavAya paNa je karoDapatie jhUMpaDapaTTImAM ja rahetA tamane baMgalAmAM rahetA karI dIdhA hoya enAM darzane ya tamArA haiyAmAM gadgadatA na anubhavAya evuM bane kharuM ? jo nA, to je gurudeve gumarAha evA ApaNe sanmArga para AvI jaIe e mATe lohI-pANI eka karyA che ane Aje ya e ja parizrama veThI rahyA che, je gurudeva satata ne satata ApaNAM AtmahitanI ja ciMtA karI rahyA che e gurudeva smRtipathamAM AvI jAya 16 ane ApaNe gadgadatA na anubhavIe e zakya ja ze bane ? eka kAma karazo ? tAraka paribaLone saMpatti na ApI zakavAnI vedanA to tame avAranavAra anubhavI haze, samaya na ApI zakyAnI vedanA ya tame anubhavatA hazo paNa have emane hRdaya nathI ApI zakatA enI vedanA anubhavavAnuM cAlu karo. sabhA : e mATeno koI saraLa upAya ? upAzrayamAM dAkhala thatAM pahelAM jema tame bUTa-caMpala bahAra utArI do cho tema upakArI paribaLo samakSa hAjara thatA pahelAM buddhinA joDAne tame dUra rAkhI do. bAkI, sUryanA prakhara tApamAM bagIcAnuM puSpa jema karamAI ja jAya che tema buddhinI jAlima garamImAM saMvedanazIlatAnuM puSpa paNa karamAI ja javAnuM che. vikAsanA mArga paranuM pAMcamA naMbaranuM sopAna che. sattvazIlatA (FORCE) svataMtratA maLI gaI. satzetro paNa maLI gayA. sanmitra paNa upalabdha thaI gayA ane saMvedanazIlatAnA svAmI paNa banI gayA paNa jo sAdhanA mATe jarUrI evI sattvazIlatA ja gAyaba che to adhyAtmamArgamAM gati zakya zeM banaze ? yAda rAkhajo. pApa pralobhanone nA pADI devA mATe ya sattvazIlatA vinA cAle tema nathI to dharmasevana mATe Avela takane hA pADI devA mATeya sattvazIlatA vinA cAlatuM nathI. AmAM mahattvanI vAta pAchI e che ke pralobhananuM pota to gharanAM bAraNAnI bahAra UbhA rahIne sisoTI vagADI rahela mitra jevuM che jyAre dharmasevananI takanuM pota baMdha bAraNA para TakorA lagAvI rahelA mitra jevuM che. javAba Apo. daravAjo kholavAnuM vadhu mana kyAre thAya ? sisoTIno avAja saMbhaLAya tyAre ke TakorAno avAja saMbhaLAya tyAre ? sabhA : amane to sisoTI ja vadhu AkarSe che. ane eTale ja to zAstrakAroe dharmapravRtti karatAM ya vadhu jora pApanivRtti para ApyuM che. dharmapravRtti karatAM ya AtmA mATe pApanivRtti bahu moTo paDakAra hovAnuM jaNAvyuM che. dharmapravRtti karatAM ya pApanivRtti mATe vadhu sattvazIlatA dAkhavavAnuM jaNAvyuM che. huM tamane ja pUchuM chuM. saraLa zuM lAge che ? tapazcaryA ke hoTalatyAga ? prabhupUjA ke TI.vI. tyAga ? guNAnuvAda ke niMdAtyAga ? pravacanazravaNa ke vikathA tyAga ? dAna ke lobhatyAga ? TUMkamAM, dharmapravRtti ke pApanivRtti ? 17

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sabhA : dharmapravRtti. have javAba Apo, sattvakSetre mAyakAMgalA ja hazo to tamane lAge che kharuM ke pApothI nivRtta thavAnA kSetre tame saphaLatA hAMsala karI zakazo? rAmarAma karo. rAmarAma. sabhA : pApanivRtti ame bhale na karI zakatA hoIe paraMtu dharmapravRttio amArA jIvanamAM pUrabahAramAM cAlu hoya to dharmapravRttionuM e puNya amArAM pApapravRttio janya pApone khatama karI nAkhanAruM na bane ? javAba Apo. davAno sevana sAthe dahIM khAvAnuM paNa tame cAlu ja rAkho to zaradIthI chuTakAro meLavavAmAM tamane saphaLatA maLI jAya kharI ? eka strI sAthe lagna karI dIdhA bAda paNa vezyA pAse javAnuM jenuM cAlu ja hoya enI samAjamAM AbarU baMdhAya kharI ? kamANI karatA rahevAnI sAthe jugAramAM hAratA rahevAnuM paNa je vepArInuM cAlu hoya e vepArIne baeNnka baeNlensa vadhAravAmAM saphaLatA maLe kharI ? jo nA, to adhyAtma jagatamAM paNa e ja kAyado samajI levAno che. pApapravRtti ane dharmapravRtti baMne sAthe ja cAlu hoya e A jagatamAM koI mahattvapUrNa vikAsa sAdhI zake evI koI ja zakyatA nathI. are, apekSAe kahevuM hoya to ema paNa kahI zakAya ke jIvanamAM dharmapravRttinA kSetre tame bhale pA pA pagalI bharI rahyA cho paraMtu pApanivRttinA kSetre jo tame hanumAna kUdakAo lagAvI rahyA cho to tamArA AtmakalyANane have jhAjhuM cheTuM nathI ja. paNa muzkelI e che ke dharmapravRttinuM ApaNane jeTaluM AkarSaNa che enuM lAkhamAM bhAganuM paNa AkarSaNa ApaNane pApanivRttinuM nathI. dharmamAM pravRtta thaIe paNa chIe to ya emAM lAMbI koI pAgalatA anubhavAtI nathI jyAre pApanuM pralobhane AMkha sAme AvyuM nathI ane tamAma tAkAtathI ApaNe emAM kUdI paDyA nathI. A aniSTathI UgarI javA mATeno zreSTha vikalpa eka ja che. sattvazIlatAne ApaNe parAkASTAe laI jaIe. kamajora paga jema zarIrane maMjila sudhI pahoMcADI zakatA nathI tema sattvahIna mana AtmAne lakSya sudhI pahoMcADI zakatuM ja nathI, sAMbhaLyo che A Tucako ? vAta tArI sAcI paNa huM karuM zuM? eka strI potAnA patinI hAjarImAM ja enI bahenapaNI sAthe vAta karI rahI 'thAya zuM? mArI pAse cahero AkarSaka che paNa lipasTika nathI. mArA hAtha suDoLa che paNa mArI pAse baMgaDI nathI. mArA kAna ekadama sarasa che paNa mArI pAse eriMga nathI.' patnInI A vAta sAMbhaLatAnI sAthe ja pati bolI UThyo, 'vAta to tArI sAcI che paNa huM ya karuM zuM? kAraNa ke mArI pAse khIsuM che paNa emAM paisA nathI !' hA, khIsA jevuM mana hoya ApaNI pAse paNa paisA jevuM sattva na hoya ApaNI pAse to dharmapravRttinA ke pApanivRttinA eka paNa kSetre ApaNe kazuM ja kharIdI zakavAnA nathI. je paNa AtmAo A saMsArasAgarano pAra pAmI gayA che, pAmI rahyA che ke pAmavAnA che e tamAma pAse sattvazIlatAnI A mUDI hatI ja che ane rahevAnI ja che. sabhA : sattva pragaTAvavA karavuM zuM? prema ane bhaya, A be paribaLo evA che ke aMdaramAM paDela sattvane e bahAra lAvI ja de che, prabhu para jo prema che, prabhuzAsana para jo prema che, prabhue sthApela caturvidha zrI, saMgha para jo prema che, prabhue pharamAvela anuSThAno para jo prema che, prabhunAM vacano para jo, prema che to dharmapravRttinuM aMdaramAM paDela sattva bahAra AvyA vinA rahetuM ja nathI. e ja rIte, saMsArano jo ya che, pApano jo bhaya che, pApasevanathI sarjAtI durgationo jo bhaya che, edurgatiomAM lamaNe jhIMkAtAM du:khono jo bhaya che, vibhAvadazAnI parAdhInatAno jo trAsa che to pApanivRtti aMgenuM aMdaramAM paDela sattva bahAra pragaTa thayA vinA rahetuM ja nathI, sAva sAcuM kahuM to nathI to ApaNe A premanA mAlika banI zakyA ke nathI to ApaNe A bhayathI phaphaDI UThyA. prema ApaNo che toya enuM pota kadAca saMdhyAnA raMga jevuM che ane bhayathI ApaNe trasta chIe to ya enuM pota parapoTA jevuM che. premano raMga UtarI jatA vAra lAgatI nathI to bhayanA trAsathI mukta thaI jatAM ya vAra lAgatI nathI. AsthitimAM aMdaramAM paDela sattva bahAra na ja pragaTatuM hoya to emAM koI ja Azcarya nathI. A khumArI? amadAvAdanA e suzrAvaka che. nAma che emanuM vinodabhAI ane calAve che e rikSA. rAtribhojana e karatA nathI ane prabhunI pUjA karyA vinA e rahetA nathI. sAdhusAdhvIjI bhagavaMto pratyeno emano bahumAnabhAva bhAre prazaMsanIya che to pravacanazravaNano rase emano anumodanIya che. eka divasa meM pravacanamAM vAta mUkI hatI ke tamAre tyAM saMyamajIvananA mArge jaI hatI, 'kevA divaso AvyA che mArA ?' 'kema zuM thayuM ?" 18 19

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rahela koI paNa mumukSunI patrikA Ave to e patrikA vAMcIne ema ne ema mUkI na detAM mumukSunA e parAkramanI anumodanA karavA kAMka ne kAMka satkArya to karIne ja rahejo. A vinodabhAIe e divasathI nakkI karyuM che ke 'koI paNa derAsare ke upAzraye lAgela dIkSAnI patrikA mArA vAMcavAmAM Avaze ane e dIkSArthI bhAI ke bahena jo amadAvAdanA ja haze to emanA ghare rikSA laIne huM pahoMcI jaIza ane emane vinaMti karIza ke amadAvAdanA koI paNa pAMca derAsare darzana karavA e mArI rikSAmAM besavAno mane lAbha Ape.' chelle mane vinodabhAI maLyA tyAre meM emane pUchyuM, 'rikSAmAM mumukSuone besADavAno lAbha maLe che ?' 'cAlu ja che' 'Aja sudhImAM keTalA mumukSuono lAbha maLyo ?' 'aDasaTha mumukSuono' 'zuM vAta karo cho ?' 'hA. mArI bhAvanA che ke kama se kama 108 mumukSuo mane lAbha Ape. huM paNa dhanya thaI jAuM ane mArI rikSA paNa dhanya thaI jAya !' ATaluM bolatA bolatA emanI AMkhamAM harSanAM AMsu AvI gayA. huM tamane pUchuM chuM. tame to zrImaMta cho ne ? gADIvALA cho ne ? tamane kyAreya A bhAva jAgyo ? eka paNa mumukSune tamArI gADImAM besADIne muMbaInAM be-pAMca derAsaronAM darzana tame karAvyA ? sabhA : ame AvuM vicArI paNa zakatA nathI. have vicArajo. dharmapravRttinI takane zodhatA pharajo. sAme caDIne AvatI takone vadhAvatA zIkhajo ane e mATe prabhuzAsana pratyenA premane parAkASTAe laI javA prayatnazIla banajo. bIjI bAju bhava bhayane, pApa bhayane, pramAda bhayane paNa hRdayamAM e hade pratiSThita karavA kaTibaddha banI jajo ke sApanuM nAma sAMbhaLatA veMta jema tyAMthI bhAgI chUTavAnuM aMdaramAM paDela sattva sakriya banIne ja rahe che tema pApanI saMbhAvanA dekhAvA mAtrathI enA tyAga mATenuM aMdaramAM paDela sattva sakriya banIne ja rahe. chelle rAjeza vyAsanI A paMktio : 'yAda karuM nA karuM toya e, varasAve kai harapaLa vhAla, 20 paDuM-AkhaDuM, bhUluM-maTakuM satata rAkhato mhAro khyAla, bhUlo lAkha karuM huM to paNa, kadI ya nA tarachoDe jI. prabhu haMmezAM saunI sAthe, sAtha kadI nA choDe jI... eka kAma ApaNe karazuM ? sAthe ja rahetA prabhuno hAtha ApaNe mAthe mUkAvI daIe. ApaNuM kAma thaI jaze. 21

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pAMca kakSA paropakAranI - 2 > sAcuM kahuM? mArA karatAM to moTo sAgara che ke je amArA jevI seMkaDo nadIone potAnAmAM praveza ApIne beTho che. tAre moTAne ja namaskAra karavA hoya to mane nahIM paNa sAgarane karavA joIe' nadIe bALakane hasatAM hasatAM A sUcana karI dIdhuM ane bALaka UpaDyo sAgara tarapha, pAMceka kilomITara dUra rahelA sAgara pAse pahoMcIne jevA eNe sAgarane hAtha joDyA, sAgare turta ene pUchI lIdhuM. 'mane namaskAra kema ?' 'nadIo karatAM tuM bahu moTo che eTale ' bALake javAba ApavAmAM paLanI ya vAra na lagADI. 'jo sAMbhaLa, nadInI A mahAnatA che ke eNe namaskAra mATe tane mAruM saranAmuM ApyuM paNa hakIkata e che ke mArA jevA seMkaDo sAgaro je pRthvI para UbhA che e pRthvI to mArA karatAM anekagaNI moTI che, tuM namaskAra karavA mAMgato ja hoya to mane nahIM, sAgarone laIne beThela pRthvIne ja kara' sAgare bALakane salAha ApI. ane bALake tyAM ja UbhA rahIne pRthvIne hAtha joDI dIdhA. paNa pRthvIya ema kAMI bALakanA namaskAra jhIlI levA sIdhesIdhI taiyAra nahotI. eNe ya bALakane e ja prazna pUchyo je sahue pUkyo hato, 'mane namaskAra kema ?' 'tuM sAgara karatAM bahu moTI che ne, eTale.' bALake javAba Apyo. 'eka vAta tuM sAMbhaLI le. sAgara karatAM huM moTI chuM enI nA nathI paraMtu AkAza karatA to huM bahu nAnI chuM. moTAne ja namaskAra karavAnI tArI jo AkAMkSA che to tAre mane nahIM, AkAzane ja namaskAra karavA joIe" pRthvIe bALakane vinamrabhAve samajAvI dIdhuM ane bALake pRthvIne namaskAra karavA mATe nIce namAvelA hAtha sIdhA AkAza tarapha upara uThAvI lIdhA. 'mane namaskAra kema?" AkAze pUchayuM, 'pRthvI karatAM tuM virATe che mATe' bALake kahyuM, 'mArA karatAM paNa eka virATa vyaktitva che" - 'koNa ?' 'paramAtmA pote' ane AkAzano A javAba sAMbhaLIne stabdha thaI gayelA bALake prabhune namaskAra karyA to kharA paNa prabhue ene Ubho rAkhI dIdho. 'jo. mane namaskAra karavA pAchaLanuM potAne namaskAra karI rahelA bALakane joIne Azcaryacakita banI gayela magaramaccha bALakane pUchI lIdhuM. 'paNa mane namaskAra kema?" mArI mammIe mane zikhAmaNa ApI che ke je moTA hoya ene namaskAra karavA. huM ahIM nadIkinAre laTAra mArI rahyo hato ane meM joyuM ke nAnAM nAnAM mAchalAMo vacce virATakAya banIne tuM AmathI tema TahelI rahyo che. basa, mane lAgyuM ke tuM moTo che. mAre tane namaskAra karavA ja joIe ane meM tane namaskAra karI lIdhA' bALake javAba Apyo. 'mAchalAMo karatAM huM moTo chuM e vAta sAcI paNa mArA karatAM moTI to A nadI che. ke jemAM mArA jevA aneka magaramacchI rahyA che. tAre namaskAra karavA ja hoya to mane nahIM paNa nadIne karavA joIe' magaramaccha bALakane salAha ApI ane paLanI ya vAra lagADyA vinA bALake nadIne hAtha joDI dIdhA. mane namaskAra kema?' nadIe bALakane pUchyuM. 'magaramaccho karatAM te moTI che eTale 24

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tAruM kAraNa mArA khyAlamAM che to kharuM paNa mAre tane eka evuM saranAmuM batAvavuM che ke je mArA karatAM ya mahAna che' prabhue bALakane kahyuM. 'prabhu, ApanA karatAM ya vadhu mahAna koI hoI zake ja nahIM? 'koNa ?" 'tAruM hRdaya !' 'mAruM hRdaya ?' 'paNa zI rIte ?" sAMbhaLa, nadI moTI che kAraNa ke emAM magaramaccho rahe che. sAgara moTo che kAraNa ke emAM nadIo ThalavAya che. pRthvI moTI che kAraNa ke enA para sAgaro hiloLA laI rahyA che. AkAza moTuM che kAraNa ke enI chatrachAyAmAM pRthvIo rahI che. huM moTo chuM kAraNa ke AkAza karatA huM vadhu virATa chuM paNa tAruM hRdaya mArAthI moTuM che kAraNa ke tArA hRdayamAM tuM mane keda karIne beTho che. eTale 'moTA' ne namaskAra karavAnI tArI AkAMkSAne tAre saMtoSavI hoya to tAre mane nahIM paNa tArA hRdayane ja namaskAra karavA jevA che" prabhue Apela A javAbane sAMbhaLIne bALakanI AMkhomAM harSAzru AvI gayA. javAba Apo. je prabhu khuda ApaNA hRdayane potAnA karatAM mahAna jAhera karI rahyA che, ApaNuM A hRdaya kharekhara evuM mahAna che kharuM? ApaNAM hRdayano A oraDo sadbhAva, samarpaNabhAva ane sadguNothI suvAsita hovAnuM chAtI ThokIne kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM chIe kharA? ApaNAM hRdayanA A oraDAmAM koI DokiyuM kare to ene aMdara pravezI javAnuM ane rahI javAnuM mana thaI ja jAya evo A hRdayano oraDo svaccha ane sughaDa che evuM ApaNane lAgI rahyuM che kharuM? sabhA : ame pote hRdayanA A oraDAmAM jovA ane rahevA taiyAra na thaIe e hade e oraDAne ame durguNothI ane kusaMskArothI gaMdhAto karI dIdho che! zuM cAle A? sAMbhaLI che ne A paMktio ? hRdaya to bALaka che ene ramavA na do jyAM tyAM, khovAI jaze. kaDaka zabdomAM kahuM ne to ApaNuM hRdaya bALaka khovAI gayuM hota ne kyAMka, to ApaNe ene prayatno karIne paNa zodhI lAvata paNa ApaNuM A hRdaya bALaka to khavAI gayuM che kRtajJatA nAmanA doSano jaDabAmAM ! sahunA upakAro satata letA ja rahevAnA ane ekano ya upakAra yAda rAkhavAno nahIM. kokano para upakAra nAnakaDo paNa karavAno ane ene kyAreya bhUlavAno nahIM. A che kRtaghnatAno vikarALa cahero. javAba Apo.. A jIvanamAM ApaNe lIdhelA upakAronI saMkhyA vadhu ke pachI ApaNe karelA upakAranI saMkhyA vadhu? sabhA : ApaNe lIdhelA upakAronI saMkhyA vadhu. to have eka kAma zarU karI do. puNyano udaya je paNa kSetrano hoya e kSetramAM thoDoghaNo paNa bIjAno bhAga rAkhavAnuM zarU karI do. Ame ya tame badhA caeNrabajAranA rasiyA to cho ja ne ? koI kaMpanImAM saMpattinuM rokANa khUba karyuM. have tamArA puNyanuM rokANa paropakAranI kaMpanImAM karavAnuM zarU karI do. zuM kahuM tamane ? A dezamAM eka pracalita mAnyatA A hatI ke jo tamAre tyAM mahemAna roja ja Ave che to tamArA divaso caDatA che paNa tamAre tyAM kUtarAya jo AvatA baMdha thaI gayA che to tamArA divaso paDatA che. caDatA dinanuM pArakhuM, nita Ave me'mAna, paDatA dinanuM pArakhuM, ghara na Ave zvAna. evA gojhArA puNyano udaya tamAro atre cAlI rahyo che ke puNyane baMdhAvanAra sAdharmiko tamAre tyAM AvatA nathI. bhikhArIo ke garIbone tamArA epArTamenTamAM pravezavAnI manAI che jyAre gAya-kUtarA vagereno tamArA ghara sudhI praveza to asaMbhavita jevo banI gayo che ! nava prakAramAM prathama prakAranA puNyanuM nAma che annadAna ane tamArA jIvanamAM e puNyano amala lagabhaga baMdha jevo thaI gayo che. bhavAMtaramAM roTalA-pANI, bhegA thazo zI rIte? lakhI rAkho tamArI DAyarImAM A vAta ke je puNyanA udayakALamAM navA puNyano baMdha na thato hoya, zAtAnA je udayakALamAM bIjAone zAtA na pamADI zakAtI hoya ane prasannatAnI je anubhUti anyanI prasannatAnuM kAraNa na banatI hoya e puNya, e zAtA ane e prasannatA AtmA mATe bhAre jokhamI banIne ja rahevAnAM che. 26

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sabhA : Ano artha to e ja thayo ne ke amAruM puNya paropakAranuM kAraNa banatuM ja rahevuM joIe? cokkasa. paNa emAM ya keTalIka sAvadhagIrI rAkhavI ati jarUrI che ke jenI vAta atyAranA pravacanamAM huM tamArI samakSa mUkavA mAguM chuM. paropakAranI eka kakSA che daMDa para bAMdhelI dhajA jevI ke je sAnukULa pavana hoya to ja pharake che ane je dizAno pavana hoya che e dizAmAM ja pharake che jyAre paropakAranI bIjI kakSA che daMDa jevI ke je pavana hoya che to ya sthira rahe che ane pavana nathI hoto to ya sthira ja rahe che. pahelA paropakAranI je kakSA dhajA jevI che ke jenAM cAra prakAra che enI vAta huM ahIM tamArA samakSa mUkuM chuM. paropakAranI prathama naMbaranI kakSA che, ahaMkAra puSTinI. kAM to ahaMkArane puSTa karavA huM ahaMkAravardhaka paropakAra karato rahuM chuM ane kAM to paropakAra karatA rahevAthI mAro ahaMkAra puSTa thato rahe che mATe huM paropakAra karatA rahevAnuM cAlu rAkhuM chuM. paropakAranI A kakSAnI khataranAkatA e che ke paropakAra karavA chatAM jo enI, kadara thatI nathI ke apekSita Adara maLato nathI to e ja paLe paropakAra karavAnuM sthagita thaI jAya che ane A to saMsAra che. sahunI pAse potAnAM mana che ane sahunI pAse potAnA jIvananI vyastatA che. tamArA dvArA thatA paropakAranI sahu kadara karatA ja raheze ke paropakAra karavA badala tame jyAM jazo tyAM sahu tamane Adara ApatA ja raheze e tamAruM mAnavuM tamane bhAre paDIne ja rahevAnuM che. sAMbhaLyuM che A dRSTAnta? 'pappA! huM parikSAmAM pAsa thaI jAuM evuM ja tame iccho cho ne?" 'tArI pAchaLa ATalI mahenata huM eTalA mATe to karuM ' 'pappA, dhAro ke huM pAsa thaI gayo to ?' 'tane skuTara apAvI daIza" 'ane nApAsa thaI gayo to ?' 'rikSA apAvI daIza' pappAe saMbhaLAvI dIdhuM. basa, A ju pota hoya che prathama naMbaranA paropakAranuM. kadara thAya ane Adara maLe to paropakAra cAlu rahe ane e maLavAnAM baMdha thAya to paropakAranAM kAryo para e ja paLe pUrNavirAma mukAI jAya. ahaMkAranI eka nabaLI kaDI khyAlamAM che? nadIothI tRpta thavAnuM jo sAgaranA svabhAvamAM nathI, maDadAMothI dharAI javAnuM jo smazAnanA svabhAvamAM nathI, saMpattithI rAjI thaI javAnuM jo lobhAMdhanA svabhAvamAM nathI, strIothI tRpta thaI javAnuM jo kAmAMdhanA svabhAvamAM nathI to prazaMsAnA game teTalA zabdo sAMbhaLyA pachI ya rAjI thaI javAnuM ahaMkAranA svabhAvamAM nathI. jo paropakAranuM cAlakabaLa ahaMkAra ja haze to nizcita samajI rAkhavuM ke A paropakAranA pANInuM koI paNa paLe bASpIbhavana thaI ja javAnuM che. kAraNa ke jagata AkhuM ahaMkAranA bhikhArIothI bharyuM paDyuM che. bhojananI bhUkha to bhikhArIne ja hoya che, saMpattinI bhUkha to garIbane ja hoya che; paraMtu prazaMsAnA zabdonI bhUkha to kone nathI satAvatI hotI e prazna che. spaSTa zabdomAM kahuM to e bhUkhanA zikAra banavAmAM mAro naMbara paNa hoI zake che, gaLA phADIne tamArA sahu samakSa huM kalAkonA kalAko bolyA karuM ane tame mArA A zramanI kadara paNa na karo ? mArAM A zrama badala prazaMsAnA be zabdo paNa na uccAro ? mArI samakSa mArA hRdayavedhaka pravacanonA vakhANa paNa na karo ?' A bhAva jo mArA hRdayamAM ghara karI jAya ane emAMthI jo huM bahAra ja na nIkaLI zakuM to zakya che ke prabhuvacanonA viniyogano A ati durlabha yoga huM paNa choDI besuM. TUMkamAM, Adara-kadaranI apekSA rAkhyA vinA ja jo paropakAra karatA rahevAmAM Ave to ja e paropakAra dIrghajIvI banyo rahe, AnaMdadAyaka banyo rahe ane AtmahitakAraka banyo rahe, hRdaya para hAtha rAkhIne javAba Apo, ApaNo dvArA thato koIpaNa kSetrano paropakAra ahaMkArapuSTinuM kAraNa nathI ja banato athavA to ahaMpuSTi mATe ApaNe pokAra nathI ja karatA evuM kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM ApaNe chIe kharA ? sabhA : ahaMkArane puSTa karavA paropakAra bhale nathI karatA paNa paropakAra thaI gayA bAda enI kadara thAya ane e karavA badala Adara maLe evI jhaMkhanA to manamAM rahyA kare eTaluM ja kahIza ke A jhaMkhanAnA kadane ghaTADatA ghaTADatA nAmazeSa karavAnI dizAmAM gaMbhIratApUrvaka prayatnazIla banyA rahejo anyathA koIpaNa paLe paropakAra chUTI gayo, vinA nahIM ja rahe. kAraNa ke ahaMkAranI puSTi e svAdhIna nathI paNa parAdhIna che. ahaMkArane haMmezAM koI bIjAnI AMkhe moTA thavAnI icchA hoya che. ahaMkAra kAyama kokanA sahArA mATe taraphaDato ja hoya che ane jyAM kendramAM "sva" chUTIne "para" Ave che tyAM e 'parI' nA jIvana aMge koI ja nizcita AgAhI karI zakAtI nathI. nAnakaDo ja AghAta ane para' ne AdhIna vRtti-pravRtti samApta! 28

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sAMbhaLyuM che A dRSTAnta? 'beTA ! eka vAta tane karuM ?' | 'kaho' A vakhate bAramA dhoraNamAM jo tuM pAsa thaI gayo ne to tane huM skUTara apAvIza" ane parikSAnuM pariNAma jyAre pappAnA hAthamAM dIkarAe ApyuM tyAre enI AMkho zaramathI nIce jhUkelI hatI. pappAe pariNAma para najara pheravI. dIkaro nApAsa hato. 'beTA ! A zuM ?" pappA ! nApAsa thaI gayo' 'paNa meM tane skUTara apAvavAnI vAta karI e pachI to pariNA be mahine AvI. e daramyAna tuM karato zuM hato?' 'pappA ! skUTara calAvavAnuM zIkhato hato ? hA, Adara-kadaranAM pralobhano sAme jhUkI jatA paropakAranI A ja hAlata thAya che. Adara-kadaranI bhUkha saMtoSAtI nathI ane paropakAranI parikSAmAM pAsa thaI zakAtuM nathI. bAkAta karI nAkho jAtane paropakAranI A ahaMkArapuSTinI kakSAmAMthI ! paropakAranI bIjA naMbaranI kakSA che, sAmAnA atyAgrahanI. hRdayamAM dAna karavAnI koI vRtti nathI. kahevuM hoya to ema paNa kahI zakAya ke mane dAna karavA bilakula taiyAra nathI eTaluM ja nahIM, taka maLe to e sthaLethI bhAgI chUTavA taiyAra thaI gayuM che paNa AjubAjumAM jeo paNa beThA che e sahu dAna karavA mATe bhAre Agraha karI rahyA che. nirlajja thaIne emane nA pADI zakAya tema nathI ane eTale sarvathA ka-mane paNa dAnamAM rakama lakhAvavI paDe che. pariNAma? dAna thaIto jAya che paNa nathI to dAna karatI vakhate AnaMda anubhavAto ke nathI to thaI gayela dAna badala dilamAM anumodanAno koI bhAva UThato. kadAca jenA AgrahathI dAnamAM rakama lakhAvavI paDI hoya che enA pratye manamAM durbhAva paNa Ubho thaI jato hoya to nA nahIM. AvA dAnanuM ke AvA paropakAranuM AyuSya keTaluM rahevAnuM ? sAmAno Agraha baMdha thatAMnI sAthe ja dAna baMdha thaI jaze. sAmAnI AMkhanI zarama naDavAnuM baMdha thaI jatAM ja dAna baMdha thaI jaze. AvA avasaramAM hAjara rahevAnuM baMdha thaI jatAM ja paropakAra baMdha thaI jaze. AvA sthaLa para javAnuM baMdha thaI jatAM ja paropakAra sthagita thaI jaze. alabatta, Ano artha evo nathI ke sAmAnA AgrahathI paropakAramAM na ja joDAvuM ke Agraha karIne paNa sAmAne paropakAramAM na ja joDavo. nA. pAtratA ApaNe e hadanI vikasAvavI ke sAmAnA samyaka Agrahane sudAkSiNya guNanA sahAre amalI banAvIne paNa paropakAra mATe pravRtta thaIne ja rahevuM paNa paropakAramAM pravRtta thavA dareka vakhate kokanI preraNA ke AgrahanI apekSA na rAkhavI. paropakArano AnaMda e hadano anubhavavo ke mane svataMH ja paropakAra mATe lAlAyita banyuM rahe. ane sAmAne paropakAra mATe jyAre paNa preraNA karavAnuM ke Agraha karavAnuM ApaNane mana thAya tyAre enI sthiti khAsa jovI. sthiti joyA pachI enI bhAvanA paNa jovI ane bhAvanA joyA pachI ya enI pAtratA joyA vinA to rahevuM ja nahIM. jo e bAbatamAM ApaNe thApa khAI gayA ane sthiti, bhAvanA ke pAtratA joyA vinA sIdho ene paropakAra mATe ApaNe Agraha karI beThA to zakya che ke e pote durgAnagrasta paNa banI jAya, ApaNA mATe enA cittamAM durbhAva paNa Ubho thaI jAya. enI A sthiti joIne ApaNane potAne paNa meM ene kyAM Agraha karyo ?' Avo vicAra AvI jAya ane A prasaMganA kAraNe enI sAthenA AtmIyatAsabhara saMbaMdhamAM kadAca kAyamI kaDavAza paNa UbhI thaI jAya. sAMbhaLyuM che A dRSTAMta? pahelAM mane javAba Apo ke.. sAgaranI saphare nIkaLelA cinTa, pinTa, minTa ane rinka UbhA hatA sTImaranA tUtaka pAse ane acAnaka zuM thayuM, sTImaramAM beThelA anya yAtrIomAMnA koka eka yAtrIno sAgaramAM paDavAno avAja saMbhaLAyo. badhAya tUtaka pAse ekaThA to thaI gayA paNa koI kAMI samaje e pahelAM to cindune e yAtrI pAchaLa sAgaranA pANImAM jhaMpalAvato sahue joyo ane sahunA zvAsa addhara thaI gayA. sahunA mukhamAMthI cinTa mATe dhanyavAdanA zabdo nIkaLI gayA ane mAtra vIseka miniTano samaya pasAra thayo ane pelA paDI gayelA yAtrI sAthe cinha cheka sTImara pAse AvI gayo. tUtaka pAse UbhelA sahue doraDuM nAkhIne e baMnene upara laI lIdhA. sAMjanA samaye sTImara paranA yAtrIoe cijue karela A bhavya parAkrama badala enA bahumAnano samAraMbha yojyo. e bahumAna samAraMbhamAM cinTa mATe dareka yAtrIe prazaMsAnA zabdono dhodha vahAvyo. chelle samAraMbhanA adhyakSe cinTane be zabdo bolavAnI vinaMti karI. - cinha bolavA Ubho thayo. jevuM mAika eNe hAthamAM lIdhuM e jorathI barADI UThyo, 30 29

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pahelo bhoga dharmakSetrano ja levAya che. varaso pahelAMno A prasaMga che. cAturmAsa mAruM pUnA hatuM. muMbaIno eka paricita yuvaka cAturmAsa daramyAna maLavA Avyo. lagabhaga dara mahine maLavA AvI jato A yuvaka A vakhate cha mahinAnA lAMbA gALA bAda maLavA Avyo hato. meM ene kahyuM, 'ghaNA vakhate maLavA Avyo !' *kAraNa kAMI ?' 'lagabhaga dazeka vAra ApanI pAse AvavAno progrAma banAvyo paraMtu dareka vakhate kaMIka ne kaMIka kAma AvI gayuM ane ahIM AvavAnuM laMbAtuM gayuM." 'eka vAta karuM ?" 'pahelAM mane e javAba Apo ke sTImaranA tutaka parathI dhakko mArIne mane sAgaranA pANI para dhakelyo koNe ?' hI. apAtra pAse Agraha karIne jyAre paropakAra karAvavAmAM Ave che tyAre A ja karuNatA sarjAya che. enA dvArA thatAM paropakArathI sAmAne to je paNa lAbha thato hoya te paNa pote to nukasAnImAM UtarIne ja rahe che. saMdeza spaSTa che. apAtra pAse Agraha karIne paropakAra karAvo nahIM ane anyano Agraha thAya tyAre sudAkSiNya guNanA sahAre pAtratA vikasAvIne paropakAra karyA vinA rahI nahIM. paNa toya sAthosAtha Agraha e ja paropakAranuM cAlakabaLa na banyo rahe enuM ya dhyAna to rAkho ja. paropakAranI trIjA naMbaranI kakSA che, adhikanI hAjarInI. dAna huM eTalA mATe karuM chuM ke mArI pAse jarUra karatAM paisA vadhu che. kUtarAne roTalI huM eTalA mATe khavaDAvuM chuM ke gharamAM badhAyanA jamI lIdhA bAda paNa roTalI vadhe ja che. garIbone vastro huM eTalA mATe ApuM chuM ke mArI pAse jarUriyAta karatAM vastro ghaNAM che. pAMjarApoLonI mulAkAta huM avAranavAra eTalA mATe laI rahyo chuM ke dhaMdhA vagerenAM kAmo patAvyA pachI mArI pAse samaya sAro evo bace ja che. alabatta, A kAraNasara thatA paropakAro paNa anumodanIya ja che ane anukaraNIya ja che paNa paropakAranuM cAlakabaLa jo mAtra 'adhika' ja haze to je divase 'adhika'nA sthAne "alpa' AvI jaze e divase A paropakAronuM thaze zuM ? bajAramAM maMdI che. kharcA-pANI mAMDa mAMDa nIkaLI rahyA che. ugharANI aTavAI che. saMpattinuM dAna karI zakAze ? Aje acAnaka gharamAM traNa mahemAna AvI gayA che. jamavAnI badhI ja rasoI pUrI thaI gaI che. kUtarAne roTalI khavaDAvI zakAze? kabATamAM jeTalA paNa vastro hatA emAMnAM cAra-pAMca vastro kyAMka ADA-avaLA mukAI gayA che. vadhArAnuM eka paNa vastra have kabATamAM nathI. garIbone vastro ApI zakAze ? kuTuMbamAM kyAMka lagnano prasaMga hato, dhaMdhAmAM tejI hatI, vyavahAranAM keTalAMka kAmo patAvavAnA hatA. e badhAyamAM samaya khUba cAlyo gayo che. vadhArAnI eka miniTa paNa bacI nathI, pAMjarApoLo vagerenI mulAkAto levAnuM cAlu rAkhI zakAze ? sAcuM kahuM ? tamArA sahunAM jIvanamAM saMpattinI kheMca jyAre paNa UbhI thAya che, paheluM balidAna paropakAranuM ja levAya che. samayanI kheMca tamane jyAre paNa vartAya che. 'mane maLavA AvavuM eno samAveza tuM "kAma" mAM karI de ne ? ugharANI patAvavI e kAma. mitranA lagnamAM javuM e kAma. paisA kamAvA bajAramAM javuM e kAma. mitro sAthe pharavA javuM e kAma ane mane maLavA AvavuM e kAma nahIM ? badhAMya kAmo patI gayA pachI, samaya bace to ja mane maLavA AvavuM ema? Ano artha ? A ja ne ke saMsAranAM badhAM ja kAmo patI gayA pachI samaya bace to ja dharma karavAno ! A zuM cAle ?" mArA A praznano e yuvaka pAse koI javAba nahoto. tame khoTuM na lagADatA paNa tamArA vyavahAramAM je eka vAta pracalita che e vAta tamane huM ahIM karavA mAguM chuM. tame avAranavAra A vAkya bolatA raho cho ne ke 'vadhyuMghaTyuM bhikhArInuM' Ano artha zuM? A ja ke gharanA badhA ja sabhyo jamI le, gharamAM kAma karatA nokara vagere jamI le e pachI jo bhojana vadhe to e bhojana bhikhArIne ApavAnuM paNa e tamAmanA jamyA bAda bhojana bilakula na vadhe to bhikhArIne rAma rAma kahI. devAnuM. jo "adhika' e ja paropakAranA cAlakabaLa tarIke goThavAyuM haze to tyAM ya A ja karuNadazA sarjAze. saMsArane sAcavI lIdhA pachI jo saMpatti vadhe to ja dAna karavAnuM ane saMsArIone samaya ApyA pachI samaya bace to ja dharmane samaya ApavAno. A vRtti tamane keTalo paropakAra karavA deze e lAkha rUpiyAno prazna che. ane eka alaga vAta ja karuM? 31

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AjanA mANasanA duHkhanuM mULa enI pAse 'ochuM" che e nathI paNa ene je paNa maLyuM che e "ochuM ja lAgI rahyuM che' e che. "ochuM hovA'nA duHkhane to khatama karI zakAya che paNa 'ochuM ja lAgavAnA duHkhane khatama karavA to paramAtmA khuda paNa samartha banI zakatA nathI. e to barAbara che paNa... eka bhAI rikSAmAM eka lAkha rUpiyAnuM pekeTa bhUlI gayA. ghare AvyA tyAre emane khyAla Avyo ke lAkha rUpiyA to rikSAmAM ja rahI gayA che. e hAMphaLA-phAMphaLA banI gayA. potAnA eka mitrane emaNe paristhitinI jANa karI. 'kAMI thaI zake kharuM ?" eka vikalpa che" 'zuM ?' 'peparamAM jAherAta ApI do. kadAca koka rikSAvALAnA manamAM rAma vasI jAya ane tamArI rakama e tamane pahoMcADI de' pelA bhAIne mitranI A salAha para bahu vizvAsa to na beTho paNa akhataro karavA khAtara emaNe peparamAM jAherAta ApI dIdhA. be divasa bAvIsa divasa. sittera divasa vItyA ane acAnaka emanA ghare e rikSAvALo AvIne Ubho rahI gayo. "zeTha, laI lo mArI rikSAmAM rahI gayelA A tamArA lAkha rUpiyA. huM chellA keTalAya divasathI bahAragAma gayo hato. gaIkAle rAtanA ja ghare Avyo ane mArI patnIe peparamAM tame Apela jAherAta vaMcAvI mane. huM paisA laIne sIdho AvI gayo chuM atre. gaNI lo tamArA rUpiyA !? e bhAIe rUpiyAnuM pekeTa hAthamAM laIne rUpiyA gaNI to lIdhA paNa emanA caherA para rikSAvALAne prasannatAnI lakIra paNa jyAre jovA na maLI tyAre rikSAvALo ciMtita thaI gayo. 'zeTha, rUpiyA che to barAbara ne?' 'lagabhaga sittera divasa" 'tuM mane lAkha rUpiyA to ApI cUkyo paNa enA vyAjanuM zuM ?' A bhAIne tame mAno cho kharA ke prabhu paNa sukhI karI zake ? rikSAmAM rahI gayela lAkha rUpiyA sittera divasa bAda mULI gayA e badala koI AnaMda anubhavavAnI vAta nahIM. prAmANikatAno uttama Adarza pUro pADanAra rikSA DrAivarano AbhAra mAnavAnI koI vAta nahIM paNa rikSA DrAivara pAse sittera-sittera divasa sudhI lAkha rUpiyA paDyA rahyA enuM vyAja na maLyAnI vedanA ! enI rikSA DrAivarane phariyAda ! hA, saMpatti game teTalI maLe, manane e "adhika' lAgavAnI ja nathI, ochI ja lAgavAnI che. jo 'adhika'ne ja paropakAranuM cAlakabaLa banAvI besazo to zakya che ke jIvanamAM kyAreya paropakAra karI ja nahIM zako kAraNa ke 'adhika' zabda mananA zabdakozamAM che ja nahIM. alabatta, eka vAta cokkasa kahIza ke saMpatti sivAyanA anya je paNa kSetramAM 'adhika' hovAnuM tamane lAgatuM hoya e kSetrano to tame paropakAramAM upayoga cAlu karI do ! sabhA : dAkhalA tarIke ? parivAranA sabhyonA bhojana bAda vadhelI roTalInA khAkharA na banAvatA e roTalI to kamase kama koka garIbone ApI do ! badhAyanA peTamAM dUdha pahoMcI gayA bAda je dUdha vadhe e dUdhamAM meLavaNa nAkhIne enuM dahIM na banAvatA e dUdha to kama se kama koka jarUriyAtamaMdanA peTamAM pahoMcavA do ! sAva jUnAM thaI gayelAM vastronA badalAmAM vAsaNa letA rahevAne badale kama se kama e jUnAM vastro to kokanA zarIra para caDI javA do ! ghItelanA khAlI thaI gayela DabbAnA dasa-paMdara ke vIsa rUpiyA ugharAvavAne badale kama se kama e khAlI DabbAo to kokane maphatamAM ApI do ! sabhA : A kSetromAM paropakAro paNa amArA mATe Apa dhAratA ho eTalA saraLa 'to pachI ApanA caherA para prasannatA kema jhaLakatI nathI ?' 'eka prazna tane pUchuM ?' 'pUcho' 'tArI pAse A rUpiyA keTalA divasa rahyA?' jo vAstavikatA A ja hoya to eTaluM ja kahIza ke khetaramAM biyAraNanuM vAvetara karavAmAM upekSA sevanAra ane koThAramAM paDela anAjano upayoga karavAmAM utsAha dAkhavanAra kheDUtane jo AgaLa jatAM bhUkhe maravAnA divaso ja Ave che to puNyabaMdhanI tako pratye AMkhamIMcAmaNAM karanAra ane puNyanA udayamAM pAgala bananAra vyaktine bhAvimAM poka mUkIne raDavAnA divaso ja AvavAnA che. 33

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pharI kahuM chuM. puNyanA udayakALamAM to kama se kama puNyabaMdha karatA jAo ! Aje dAkhaveluM A parAkrama zakya che ke AvatI kAle pApanA udayakALamAM ya puNyabaMdha karatA rahevAnuM sarve aMtaramAM kadAca pragaTAvI de. paropakAranI cothA naMbaranI kakSA che, AnaMdano anubhava. 'gulAbajAMbu kema khAo cho ?' 'AnaMda Ave che" 'krikeTa kema ramo cho?" 'AnaMda Ave che? 'pharavA kema jAo cho?" 'AnaMda Ave che' paNa javAba Apo. peTa bagaDeluM haze tyAre ya gulAbajAMbu khAzo ? pAMca lAkhanI ugharANI DUbI haze tyAre ya krikeTa ramavA jazo? patnI sAthe bolAcAlI thaI gaI haze tyAre ya pharavA jazo ? nA. haragija nahIM. basa, e ja nyAye Aje bhale AnaMda Ave che mATe tame paropakAramAM pravRtta thaI rahyA cho paNa koI paNa kAraNasara AvatI kAle mana udvigna haze tyAre ya paropakAramAM pravRtta thavAnuM zakya banaze kharuM ? mana nakArAtmaka vicAronuM zikAra banI gayuM haze tyAre yu paropakAra zakya banaze kharo ? zarIra rogagrasta banI gayuM haze ane mana roganA vicArothI bhArekhama banI gayuM haze tyAre ya paropakAramAM AgaLa vadhavAnuM zakya banaze kharuM ? sAMbhaLI che rAjeza vyAsanI A paMktio? Ama thAya to Ama thAya, ne Ama hoya to Ama, aMtima zvAsa sudhI kaeN cAle, ghaTanA Ama tamAma, narI dhAraNAonI vacce, jIvI jAvuM kyAM che hela? Ama ja cAle saghaLA khela. A to mana che. dhAraNAo vinA e jIvI zakatuM nathI. zarato mUkyA vinA e rahI zakatuM nathI. apekSApUrtinA Agraha vinA ene cena paDatuM nathI. saMbaMdho bAMdhavAmAM e jeTaluM utAvaLuM hoya che enA karatAM bAMdhelA e saMbaMdhone toDI nAkhavAmAM vadhu utAvaLuM hoya che. enI caMcaLatA sAme vAMdarAnI caMcaLatA to koI visAtamAM nathI. enI duSTatA sAme rAkSasanI duSTatA to pANI bhare che. enA pAgalapananI sAme gAMDAnI haoNspiTalomAM rahelA gAMDAonI pAgalatA to DahApaNamAM khapI jAya che. enA bahurUpI svarUpanI sAme A jagatano khyAtanAma paNa bahurUpI kaMgALa ja puravAra thAya che. eka praznano javAba Apo. bhikhArIne dAna ApyA bAda AnaMdita banI jatuM mana, tamArA dvArA apAyela e dAnano bhikhArI durupayoga ja karI rahyo che e jANakArI maLyA bAda paNa AnaMdita rahI zakaze kharuM? sabhA : haragija nahIM. to pachI paropakAranA cAlakabaLa tarIke goThavAyela AnaMdanA anubhavanuM thaze zuM? bASpIbhavana ja ke bIjuM kAMI ? yAda rAkhajo . AnaMda anubhavavA mATe paropakAra karavo e judI vAta che ane paropakAra karyA bAda paNa AnaMda ja anubhavatA rahevuM e judI vAta che. keTalAya mANaso meM mArI jiMdagImAM evA joyA che ke jeo bhAre AnaMda sAthe paropakAramAM pravRtta to thayA hatA paNa jemanA para paNa emaNe paropakAra karyA hatA emanA jIvanamAM emaNe emanI apekSA viruddha kAMI paNa jovA maLyuM che ane paropakAra karyAnA AnaMdathI teo dUra thaI gayA che. sabhA : enAthI bacavAno koI vikalpa ? e vikalpane jaNAvatA pahelAM A dRSTAnta sAMbhaLI lo. varaso pahelAMno A prasaMga che. e divasomAM huM muMbaI-goregAmamAM hato. pAMcamano e divasa hato ane eka jinamaMdiramAM huM darzana karavA gayo hato. e bAjunA ja vistAramAM raheto eka yuvaka e ja derAsaramAM pUjA karavA Avyo hato. eNe mane joyo ane huM caityavaMdana karIne jyAre derAsaramAMthI bahAra nIkaLyo tyAre e paNa pUjA patAvIne bahAra nIkaLyo. mArI sAthe cAlIne e cheka upAzraya sudhI Avyo. vaMdana karIne e mArI pAse beTho ane pachI eNe potAnA anubhavanI je vAta karI e enA ja zabdomAM. 'mahArAja sAheba, bhikhArI rastAmAM je paNa maLI jAya ene kaMIka ne kaMIka ApatA rahevAnI mane varasonI Adata. kyAreka keLAM ApI dauM, kyAreka biskiTa ApI dauM to kyAreka rokaDa rakama ApI dauM. eka divasanI vAta che. rastA parathI huM pasAra thaI rahyo hato ane eka bhikhArI, doDato doDato mArI pAse AvIne Ubho rahI gayo. meM enA hAthamAM be rUpiyA pakaDAvI. dIdhA ane huM tyAMthI AgaLa cAlyo to kharo paNa kUtuhalavaza meM pAchaLa joyuM ane je 35 36

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jovA maLyuM e joIne huM stabdha thaI gayo. e bhikhArI pAnavALAnI dukAna para Ubho rahIne jIbha para mAvAnI paDIkI, mUkI rahyo hato ! 'mArA ApelA paisAno Avo durupayoga ?" paLabhara A vicAre mana khinna thaI gayuM. 'jo ApaNAM ApelA dAnano Avo durupayoga ja thato hoya to bahetara che ke dAna ApavAnuM baMdha ja karI devuM" paLabhara manamAM A vicAra AvI paNa gayo paNa bIjI ja paLe eka alaga vicAraNAnA sahAre manane e vicArathI mukta karI dIdhuM. | 'kaI vicAraNA karI ?' mArA ApelA dAnano durupayoga karanArane dAna ApavAnuM baMdha karI devAnuM jo huM vicAruM chuM to AvatI kAle prabhu paNa ema vicAre ke meM jyAre A yuvakane AMkha, kAna, paga, mana, saMpatti vagere je ApyA che eno e jo durupayoga ja karI rahyo che to zA mATe mAre AvatA janamamAM e badhuM ene ApavuM joIe? A vicAra manamAM Avyo ane huM dhrUjI UThyo. bhikhArIne huM paisA nahIM ApuM to eTalA mAtrathI enuM jIvana kAMI khatama thaI javAnuM nathI paraMtu prabhu mane jo AMkha, kAna, mana vagere nahIM Ape to to mArA janamojanama barabAda thaI jaze. nA. bhale mArA Apela dAnano bhikhArI dvArA apekSita sadupayoga nahIM paNa thAya, bhikhArIne dAna ApavAnuM huM cAlu ja rAkhIza. prabhu dvArA mane maLela AMkha, kAna, mane vagereno apekSita sadupayoga huM nahIM paNa karato houM to ya prabhu karuNA karIne AvatA janamamAM mane e badhuM to ja ApatA raheze.' e yuvake vAta pUrI karI. huM tamane ja pUchuM chuM. AvI udAtta vicAraNAnA svAmI banavAnI kSamatA tame keLavI che kharI ? karela dAnanI apekSita asara jovA na maLavA chatAM ya dAnanI pravRtti cAlu ja rAkhavAnI vRtti tame AtmasAta karI zakyA cho kharA? sabhA : jarAya nahIM. basa, eTale ja kahuM chuM ke paropakAranI zarUAta AnaMdathI karI zakAze kharI paNa paropakAra karI dIdhA bAda AnaMda TakI ja rahe e kahI zakAya tema nathI. kAraNa ? AkAzamAMthI varasatuM jaLa gaMgAmAM ja nahIM, gaTaramAM paNa jatuM hoya che. candranI cAMdanI bagIcA para ja nahIM, ukaraDA para paNa phelAtI hoya che. sUryanAM kiraNo gaganacuMbI imArata para ja nahIM, saDI gayela jhUMpaDA para paNa paDatA hoya che. basa, e ja rIte ApaNAM dvArA thaI rahela paropakArano sadupayoga ja nahIM, durupayoga paNa thato hoya che. ane mane A durupayoganAM darzana pachI ya AnaMdita rahI zake evI koI ja zakyatA nathI. sabhA : ApaNI AMkha sAme ja durupayoga thaI rahyAnuM dekhAtuM hoya e pachI ya ApaNe dAna karatA rahevuM joIe ema ApanuM kahevuM che? dAna baMdha to na ja karavuM joIe paraMtu dAna vivekapUrvaka karavuM joIe ema mAruM kahevuM che. dA.ta. tamArA dvArA apAyela paisAthI bhikhArI bIDI-sigareTa ja pIto hoya. mAvo ja khAto hoya ke jugAra ja ramato hoya to tame ene paisA na ApatAM keLAM Apo, bikiTa Apo ke roTalI vagere Apo. AvuM anya kSetromAM paNa samajI levuM. TUMkamAM, satkArya sevana baMdha karI devAnI bhUla kyAreya na karavI. pratyeka satkArya sevanamAM vivekane hAjara rAkhI devo. vivekanI upasthiti duSkAryamAM to pravRtta nahIM ja thavA de paraMtu satkAryasevanane paNa cAra cAMda lagADI denArI banI raheze. bAkI, e nakkara vAstavikatAne AMkha sAme rAkhajo ke tame paropakAra jyAre paNa karavA mAgazo tyAre karI ja zakazo e nakkI nathI. tamArA paropakArane sAmI vyakti svIkAravA taiyAra haze to ja tame paropakAra karI zakazo. DAyarImAM joIne kahuM chuM dakSiNa gujarAtanA e zaheramAM zeSa kALamAM cha ravivArIya yuvA zibira cAlu hatI. eka ravivAre zibira patyA bAda eka zibirArthI mane maLavA Avyo. sAheba, dharmanA kSetramAM huM bilakula navI joDAyelo chuM. mAro mitravarga bahoLo che. amo sahu kaMIka nAnakaDuM satkArya kavA mAgIe chIe. e aMge ApanuM koI sUcana?" 'bhikSuka bhojana karAvI zakazo ?' 'jarUra' e yuvaka cAreka divasa bAda maLavA to Avyo paNa enAM caherA para udAsI hatI. meM ene pUchayuM, "zuM thayuM bhikSuka bhojananuM? 'na karAvI zakyo' 'kema, paisA ochA paDyA ?" 'nA, paisA to pUratA thaI gayA paNa meM eka bhikSuka samakSa A prastAva mUkyo. eNe mane enA netAne maLavAnuM kahyuM. huM enA netAne maLyo. bhikSuka bhojana karAvavavAnI amArI bhAvanA meM ene jaNAvI. eNe khIsAmAMthI DAyarI kADhI. emAM joIne eNe mane kahyuM ke 42 ravivAra sudhInuM BOOKING thaI gayuM che. tamArI taiyArI hoya to 43 mo. ravivAra tamArA nAme lakhI dauM ! mahArAja sAheba, jIvanamAM pahelI ja vAra A anubhava thayo ke ApaNe dhArIe 37 38

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tyAre puSya nathI bAMdhI zakatA. nasIbamAM hoya che to ja ane tyAre ja puNya bAMdhI zakIe chIe !" paropakAranI je kakSAno samAveza asthira dhajAmAM nahIM paNa sthira daMDamAM thAya che e kakSA che AdarabhAvanI. eka ja vAkyamAM kahevuM hoya to ema kahI zakAya ke AdarabhAva e jIvamAtra pratyenA maitrIbhAvanuM FOUNDATION che, pAyo jeTalo nabaLo eTalI imArate kAcI. AdarabhAvamAM jeTalo kaDAko, maitrIbhAva eTalo bodo. eka vAta tamane karuM ? adhyAtmajagatamAM pravezavA mATe jarUrI nathI ke tamAre jaDapadArtha mAtrano tyAga karavo ja paDe paNa jIvamAtranA hRdayagata svIkAra vinA tame adhyAtma jagatamAM praveza pAmI zako evI koI ja zakyatA nathI. ane jyAM AdarabhAva Ave che tyAM upakAranI vRtti to puSpanI sAthe ja AvatI suvAsanI jema AvIne ja rahe che. puSya ane e suvAsahIna ? AdarabhAva ane e upakArarahita? kalaMka che. javAba Apo. A AdarabhAvanA ApaNe svAmI kharA ? mArI apekSA toDe, mArA svArthamAM ADo Ave, mAruM apamAna kare, samAja vacce mane badanAma kare, mArI ugharANI bADe enA pratyeya mAro AdarabhAva TakI ja rahe e kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM ApaNe kharA? sabhA : duHkha ApanAra pratye AdarabhAva Take ja zI rIte ? krikeTajagatanI eka vAta tamane karuM? baeNTsamaeNnane AuTa karanAra baoNlara koI paNa hoya, baeNTsamaeNna e baoNlara para nathI to tiraskAra karato ke nathI to enA para humalo karI besato. kAraNa? e barAbara samajato hoya che ke huM AuTa thayo chuM e mArI gaphalatanA kAraNe ja. mArI bedarakArInA kAraNe ja. jo huM sAvadha rahyo hota, AvanAra baoNlane barAbara ramI zakyo hota to tAkAta zI hatI koI paNa baoNlaranI ke e mane AuTa karI zakyo hota? nA. mArI ja gaphalate mane AuTa karyo che. baoNlarano e baoNla to emAM nimitta ja banyo che. prabhu A ja to vAta kare che, tane du:kha chaganabhAIe ApyuM che ke maganabhAIe ApyuM che. tAruM apamAna cinTee karyuM che ke nikuMje karyuM che, tArI ugharANI nareze dabAvI che ke rameze dabAvI che. tane gALa nAthAlAle ApI che ke pethAlAle ApI che, tArA potAnA koka janamano pramAda sevananA phaLa svarUpe baMdhAyela azubha karmo sivAya emAM anya koI ja javAbadAra nathI. tane jeo gunegAra ke javAbadAra lAge che e badhAya mAtra nimitta ja che. ethI vadhu ne vadhu bIjuM kazuM ja nathI. sabhA : prabhunA A vacanamAM saMmata thavuM bahu muzkela lAge che. ApaNe saMmata thaIe ke na thaIe, hakIkata A ja che. prabhuvIranA kAnamAM ThokAyelA khIlAnA prasaMgamAM ApaNe jo prabhue 17mA bhavamAM adhyApAlakanA kAnamAM sIsuM reDyuM e kRtyane ja javAbadAra TheravIe chIe to ApaNA vartamAna duHkhamAM bhUtakALanA koka bhavanA pramAdane javAbadAra mAnI levAmAM ApaNane takalIpha zI paDe che? paNa nA, mana e mATe saMmata thatuM ja nathI. du:khamAM e anyane javAbadAra mAnyo vinA rahI zakatuM ja nathI, svane javAbadAra mAnI levAmAM eno ahaM tUTe che. thayela nukasAnIne svIkArI levA saMmata thavuM paDe che. sAmI vyakti pratye dveSa Ubho karIne ene herAna karavAnI maLatI takane jatI karavI paDe che. A vRtti jIva pratyenA AdarabhAvamAM kaDAko na bolAve to bIjuM kare paNa zuM? sAMbhaLyuM che A dRSTAnna ? aDhAra varasanA yuvakanA traNe dAMta paDI gayelA joIne pahelI ja vAra ene maLelA eka yuvake ene pUchyuM, 'A tArA dAMta hamaNAM ja paDI gayA che ? 'hA' 'dAMtamAM saDo thaI gayo hato?' 'rasI thaI gaI hatI ?" 'kyAMya bhaTakAI gayo hato?" 'to?" 'havAnA kAraNe paDI gayA" eTale ?" eTale bIjuM kAMI nahIM. e pahelavAnane joIne huM hasI paDyo ane emAM mAre dAMta gumAvI devA paDyA !" ho. A che mana. jaDa padArtho pratye rAga karavAnI eka paNa taka jatI karavA e jo taiyAra nathI to jIvatattva pratye dveSa karavAnI maLI jatI eka paNa taka jatI karavA paNa e 39 40

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taiyAra hotuM nathI. apekSAe kahevuM hoya to ema paNa kahI zakAya ke jaDa pratye rAga karatA rahevA dvArA jIvo pratyenA dveSane dhabakato rAkhavAmAM ja ene AnaMda Ave che. mananA A abhigama vacce AdarabhAvanA svAmI banyA rahevuM ane enA sahAre paropakAra karatA rahevuM e khAvAnA khela to nathI ja. mana sAthe satata saMgharSa karatA raho, jIvo dvArA thatI nukasAnIne ane kanaDagatane naMbara be para rAkhatA raho, jIvamAtra pratye maitrIbhAva TakAvI rAkhavAnI vAta karatA prabhunAM vacanothI cittane bhAvita karatA raho to hajI kadAca AdarabhAvane sakriya banAvavAmAM thoDI-ghaNI paNa saphaLatA maLe. javAba Apo eka praznano. jagatanA jIvonI vAta ApaNe pachI karazuM. pahelAM tamArA khudanA parivAranA pratyeka sabhya para tamAro AdarabhAva jIvaMta kharo ? vAtsalya pradAnanA kSetre tame emanI upekSA na ja karo e nakkI kharuM? samaya pradAnanA kSetre tame emane prAdhAnya ApIne raho e nakkI kharuM? vAtacItanA kSetre tame emane ja agrakrama Apo e nakkI kharuM? mArA A praznono ekadama 'hA' mAM javAba ApI detA pahelAM tamAre mArA eka mArmika praznano javAba ApavAno che. Apazo? 'sabhA : hA. to Apo javAba. tame gharamAM ho. tamArA pitAjI sAthe ke mAtuzrI sAthe, patnI sAthe ke bAbA sAthe tamArI vAta cAlu hoya ane e ja vakhate mobAilanI ghaMTaDI raNake. tame vAta konI sAthe karo ? parivAranA sabhya sAthe vAta cAlu hoya e cAlu ja rAkho ke jeno phona Avyo hoya enI sAthe vAta zarU karI do ? sabhA : parivAranA sabhya sAthe pachI vAta karI laIe. tame parivAranA sabhya sAthe pachI vAta karI lo enA badale parivAranA sabhya sAthe je vAta cAlu hoya e pUrI karIne pachI ja phona karanAra sAthe vAta karo to zuM vAMdho ? e phona karanArane tame kahI na zako ke dasa miniTa pachI huM tamArI sAthe vAta karuM chuM ? zA mATe e vikalpa Ubho thAya tyAre parivAranA sabhyanuM ja balidAna levAmAM Ave ? tame kadAca A vAstavikatAne mAmUlI mAnatA ho to mAre tamane bhArapUrvaka jaNAvavuM che ke parivAranA sabhya pratyeno tamAro A vartAva, parivAranA sabhyanI tamArI A upekSA, emanA manamAM tamArA pratye UMDe UMDe paNa tiraskAranI lAgaNI janmAvIne ja rahe che ke je AgaLa jatAM tamArA ane enA vacce eka prakAranI vaicArika khAI, AtmIyatAnA saMbaMdhamAM kaDavAza UbhI karIne ja rahe che. huM tamane atyaMta gaMbhIratA sAthe kahuM chuM ke parivAranA sabhyone tame saMpatti ochI Apazo to cAlI jaze, sAmagrI ochI Apazo to bahu vAMdho nahIM Ave, sagavaDo thoDIka ochI Apazo to ya teo ene calAvI leze paNa samaya ApavAnI bAbatamAM jo bedarakAra rahezo to parivAranA sabhyonA hRdayamAM tamArA pratye dhikkAra, durbhAva, kaDavAza ane tiraskAra janmIne ja raheze ke je tamArA mananI prasannatAne raphedaphe karIne ja raheze. hajI thoDAMka varaso pahelA ja meM anubhavelA A prasaMgane kAna kholIne sAMbhaLI lo. tamane khyAla AvI jaze ke parivAranA sabhyone samaya ApavAnI bAbatamAM dAkhavatI bedarakArI kevI karuNadazAnuM sarjana karIne rahe che? dakSiNa gujarAtanA prasiddha eka zaherano e yuvaka hato. varase-dahADe kadAca vIseka karoDano e dhaMdho karato hato. potAnA nAnA bAbA sAthe e vaMdana karavA Avyo hato. prAraMbhika vAto thayA pachI meM ene sahajabhAve pUchyuM, 'tAro A bAbo zuM bhaNe che ?' 'mahArAja sAheba, e pAMcamImAM che' jevo e yuvake A javAba Apyo, bAjumAM ja beThelo bAbo turta bolI UThyo, 'pappA ! huM pAMcamImAM nahIM, trIjImAM chuM" bAbAnI A vAta sAMbhaLatAnI sAthe ja enA pappAnuM moTuM paDI gayuM. meM ene eTaluM ja kahyuM ke 'bajAramAM tAruM nAma che ne? bAbAnA haiyAmAM tAruM sthAna che kharuM? tAre eka to bAbo che ane e zuM bhaNe che, enI tane khabara nathI ! zuM karavAnI bajAranI tArI khyAtine ane zuM karavAnI tArI bAhya jagatanI saphaLatAne ? bAbAne te samaya Ape che kharo ? bAbA sAthe vAta karavAno tArI pAse samaya che kharo? nA, tArA magaja para savAra thayuM che paisAnuM pAgalapana ! savAranA nIkaLI javAnuM gharanI bahAra vahelA ane sAMjanA ghare AvavAnuM moDA !' mArA A pratyAdhAtono e yuvaka pAse koI javAba nahoto. eTaluM ja kahIza tamane ke paropakAranuM cAlakabaLa AdarabhAvane banAvo ane AdarabhAvanA virATa vartuLamAM kendranI najIka pahelA parivAranA sabhyone goThavI do. tamArA jIvanamAM je prasannatA anubhavAze, parivAramAM AtmIyatAnI je tAjagI phelAze, tamane e joIne ema lAgaze ke A bAbatamAM huM ATalo badho moDo kyAM paDyo?

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pAMca prakAranI avasthA mananI... zeTha gharamAM che ? " AgaMtuke pUchyuM 'nathI' kyAM gayA che ?" 'muMbaI' 'kyAre gayA ?' parama divase rAtanA" 'kamAla che ! mane to emaNe ema kahyuM hatuM ke huM hamaNAM gharamAM ja . zuM tame game tyAre. rakama laIne AvI jajo paNa tuM kahe che ke zeTha muMbaI ja gayA che to have huM pharI pAcho game tyAre AvI jaIza ane ugharANI peTe bAkI nIkaLatI rakama zeThane ApI daIza." 'mArI vAta sAMbhaLo. parama divase rAtanA zeTha muMbaI gayA hatA paNa kAle rAtanA pAchA AvI gayA che. tamAre rakama ApavI hoya to zeTha aMdara beThA ja che" zeTha maganalAlanA nokara ghoDue rakama ApavA Avela zeTha chaganalAlane vAta karI. hA. AcArAMgasUtra eka majenI vAta kare che ane pitta hA A rise mANasa pAse eka mana nathI, aneka mana che. savAranuM mana juduM che to rAtanuM mana juduM che. dillImAM mana juduM che to muMbaImAM mana juduM che. patnI AgaLa mana juduM che to bALaka AgaLa mana juduM che. ekAMtamAM mana juduM che to samUha vacce mana juduM che. vepArI pAse mana juduM che to gurudeva samakSa mana juduM che. - AvA aneka prakAranAM manane laIne beThA chIe ApaNe ane e mananA sahAre A jIvanane ApaNe prasannatAthI haryuM-bharyuM rAkhavuM che. meM saphaLatA maLaze emAM ? mana eka ja hoya ane eka ja prakAranuM hoya to hajIya ApaNe ene keLavIne samyaka banAvI daIe paNa aneka mana ane e mananA prakAro aneka hoya tyAM ene keLavavuM zI rIte? paNa sabUra ! manane durasta to ApaNe pachI karazuM, pahelAM mananI ati mahattvanI pAMca avasthAone barAbara samajI to laIe ! mananI prathama naMbaranI avasthA che : niSphara mAnasa parapIDanamAM AnaMda anubhavatuM mana e niSphara mana che. anyanA duHkhamAM chUpo harSa anubhavatuM mana e niSphara mana che. anyanA duHkhamAM rasa letuM mana e niSphara mana che. AvA adhamatama ane kaniSThatama manamAM ApaNo naMbara nahIM ja e nakkI kharuM? sabhA : emAM Apane zaMkA kema che? kAraNe che enuM, potAnA sukhamAM patharA nAkhanArane ane potAnA duHkhamAM nimitta bananArane mana mApha to nathI karI zakatuM paNa UMDe UMDe e evI jhaMkhanA karatuM rahe che ke enA jIvanamAM rahela sukha saLagI jAya ane na Avela duHkha ene vaLagI jAya. huM tamane ja pUchuM chuM. tamArI pacAsa lAkhanI ugharANI jene DubADI dIdhI hoya ane bIjI bAju e jalasA karato hoya, ene kaeNnsara thaI gayAnA samAcAra tamArA kAne Ave tyAre tamArA manamAM UMDe UMDe ya AnaMda na ja thAya evuM kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM tame cho kharA ? sabhA : nA. amane to ema ja thAya ke 'beTo e ja lAgano che. gAmanA paisA dAbIne beTho hoya ene loko kadAca choDI de paNa kudarata thoDI choDe ? bhagavAnanA rAjamAM dera jarUra che paNa aMdhera to nathI ja !' A zuM? niSphara mAnasa ja ke bIjuM kAMI? du:kha e to du:kha ja che ne ? tamArA mATe ya du:kha jo trAsadAyaka banyuM rahe che to sAmA mATeya duHkha pIDAdAyaka ja banyuM rahe che. to pachI zA mATe enA kaeNnsaranA du:khamAM ATalo badho rAjIpo ? kaeNnsaranI e vedanA tame anubhavI bhale nathI paNa kaeNnsaranI vedanA kevI hoya che e tame kyAMka joI to haze ja ne? evI vedanA kokane lamaNe jhIMkAya ane mana jo e badala harSa anubhavatuM hoya to nizcita 45

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samajavuM ke anya tamAma prakAranI ApaNI dharmArAdhanAo niSphaLa ja javAnI che. javAba Apo. mALI masta hoya, biyAraNa taMdurasta hoya, khAtara sarasa hoya ane pANI puSkaLa hoya paNa jamIna ja e patharALa hoya to mALInI game teTalI mAvajata pachI ya, taMdurasta biyAraNanI upalabdhi pachI ya, sarasa khAtaranI hAjarI pachI ya ane puSkaLa pANInI upalabdhi pachI ya pariNAmamAM zuM? kAMI ja nahIM. basa, e ja nyAye hRdayanI bhUmi ja jo kaThora che, mananI vRtti ja jo niSphara che, cittanI bhUmi ja jo patharALa che to pachI tame bAhyathI ArAdhanAo game teTalI karo, e ArAdhanA phaLahIna ja banI rahetI hoya to emAM koI ja Azcarya nathI. khyAla che tamane ? samyakdarzananAM pAMca lakSaNo zAstrakAroe je batAvyA che emAMnA prathama naMbaranuM lakSaNa che, upazama, enI oLakha ApatA pUjyapAda upAdhyAya zrI yazovijayajI mahArAje samyakudarzananA 7 vyavahAranI sakjhAyamAM pharamAvyuM che ke aparAdhIzuM re paNa navi citta thakI, ciMtavIe pratikULa' tamArA pratye jeNe ghora aparAdha Acaryo che enA mATe tamAre cittathI paNa viparIta vicAravAnuM nathI. jo cittathI paNa aparAdhI mATe pratikULa ciMtavavAnuM na hoya to vacanathI enA mATe ela-phela bolavAnuM ke kAyAthI ene nukasAnImAM utArI devAnuM to karavAnuM ja kyAMthI hoya? sabhA : A zakya che kharuM? sAMbhaLo tamArI A zaMkAno javAba. pAMceka varasa pahelAMno ja A prasaMga che. e zaheramAM mAruM cAturmAsa hatuM. rojanAM pravacanomAM harI-pharIne 'prema, prasannatA, kSamA ane maitrI" A maMgaLa catuSkanI vAto AvatI ja rahetI hatI, eka bhAI ke jemanI uMmara 45/50 AsapAsanI hatI e eka divasa baporanA traNeka vAgyA AsapAsa maLavA AvyA. emaNe karelA bhavyatama parAkramanI vAta emanA mukhe ja emaNe karI ane e sAMbhaLatA mArI AMkhomAMthI harSAzru vahI gayA, e parAkramanI vAta emanA ja zabdomAM 'e bhAI pAsethI mAre sittera lAkha rUpiyA levAnA bAkI hatA ane thoDAka divasa pUrve ja mArA para emanA putrano phona Avyo ke pappAne joradAra eTeka Avyo che.' huM stabdha to thaI ja gayo paNa sAthosAtha vicAramAM ya caDI gayo ke mane ApavAnA sittera lAkhanI ciMtAmAM to emane hRdayarogano humalo Avyo nahIM hoya ne ? na kare nArAyaNa ane A ciMtAmAM ne ciMtAmAM ja jo emanuM jIvana samApta thaI jAya to to emAM nimitta banavAnuM mArA lamaNe jhIMkAIne ja rahe ! nA. mAre emane A ciMtAthI mukta karI ja devA joIe' paLano ya vilaMba karyA vinA huM pahoMcI gayo emanA ghare. emane haoNspiTalamAM laI javA eNbyulansa AvI gaI hatI. emAM emane suvaDAvavAnI taiyArI cAlI rahI hatI, ane e ja samaye emanI najIka pahoMcI jaIne meM emane vAta karI dIdhI ke "mArI sittera lAkhanI ugharANI huM kAyama mATe choDI dauM chuM. eTale tamArA manane enI ciMtAthI sarvathA mukta karIne haoNspiTalamAM jajo . | 'pachI ?" 'pachI zuM ? emane haoNspilamAM dAkhala paNa karyA ane mane jevA samAcAra maLyA ke emane bAya-pAsanuM oNparezana karAvavuM paDyuM che, meM emanA dIkarAne phona karyo, 'haoNspiTalanuM bila bharavAnuM zuM che ?" 'sADA traNa lAkha bharavAnA che' 'vyavasthA che?' 'nA' ane sADA traNa lAkha laIne huM haoNspiTale pahoMcI gayo. bila bharI dIdhuM. haoNspiTalamAMthI emane rajA maLI gaI. atyAre e ghare ArAma karI rahyA che paNa have emanA jIvana para koI ja khataro nathI. sittera lAkha ugharANInA ane sADA traNa lAkha haoNspiTalanA kula sADA tattera lAkha choDyA eno manamAM koI raMja to nathI paNa ATalI rakama choDI dIdhA bAda emanA manane ciMtAmukta karI devAmAM mane saphaLatA maLI eno mArA haiye pArAvAra AnaMda che. zo javAba che A jIvaMta prasaMgano tamArI pAse ? AvuM sattva tame ya keLavo e vAta huM tamane atyAre karavA nathI mAgato paNa A dRSTAMta sAMbhaLyA pachI tamane evuM lAge che kharuM ke AvuM gajabanAka parAkrama sAce ja vaMdanIya che, namaskaraNIya che ane khUba khUba anumodanIya che! sabhA : eTaluM to cokkasa lAge che. sarasa. A bhAva Aje tamArA haiyAmAM dhabakI rahyo che to pUrI saMbhAvanA che ke pApakarmanA udaye tamArA khudanA jIvanamAM AvI koka takalIpha kyAreka UbhI thaI paNa jAya tyAre tame paNa AvuM ja parAkrama dAkhavI zako. alabatta, mana para koI ja bharoso karI zakAya tema nathI. kAraNa ke peDhI dara peDhIthI 46

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jenA gharamAM daridratA cAlI AvI hoya enA gharamAM lAkhonuM jhaverAta hovAnI AzA rAkhavI vyartha che tema janamajanamathI svArthapuSTimAM ja rasa dharAvatA mana pAse, potAnA svArthamAM pratibaMdhaka bananAra pratye haiyAnAM heta UbharAtA rahe e AzA rAkhavI paNa vadhu paDatI ja che. chatAM puNyakarmanA sahAre peDhI-dara peDhInI daridratA jo TALI zakAya che to samyak samajanA ane satpuruSArthanA sahAre janamajanamanA galata abhyAsathI kusaMskArothI vAsita banI cUkelA manane jarUra samyakmAM rasa letuM karI ja zakAya che. prazna hoya to mAtra eTalo ja che ke ApaNA aMtaHkaraNamAM e mATenI bhAre talapa UbhI thAya. niSThura mAnasathI sarjAyela AtmAnI khAnAkharAbInI zAstrakAroe karela vAto para ApaNI zraddhA besI jAya. e kharAbIne have AmaMtraNa nathI ja ApavuM evo dRDha nirNaya thaI jAya. bAkInuM badhuM ja kAma deva-guru kRpAthI saphaLa ane sarasa thaIne ja raheze. mananI dvitIya naMbaranI avasthA che : nirlepa mAnasa 3 lagabhaga cAreka varasa pUrve iMdauramAM huM cAturmAsa hato. tyAM prakhyAta hindI komenTeTara suzIla dozI mane maLavA AvyA hatA. krikeTanI ramatane adhyAtmanA saMdarbhamAM kevI rIte dhaTAvI zakAya enA para meM lakhela eka pustakanuM vimocana emaNe karyuM hatuM. emaNe mane je eka gaMbhIra vAta karI hatI e emanA ja zabdomAM. 'mahArAja sAheba, krikeTa jagatamAM dhuraMdhara baeNTsamaeNna sacIna teMDulakara zUnya ranamAM AuTa thaI jAya che to A dezanA karoDo yuvAno nirAzAnI gartAmAM dhakelAI jAya che paraMtu dezanI rakSA khAtara sarahada para rAta-divasa aneka prakAranI takalIpho veThatA rahetA lazkaranA dasa-vIsa javAno koka mUThabheDamAM khatama paNa thaI jAya che ane enA bhale TUMkA paNa samAcAra peparomAM Ave che to e vAMcIne dezanA yuvAnonuM rUMvADuM ya pharakatuM nathI. Apa yuvAnonI zibiro karo cho. e zibiromAM hajAronI saMkhyAmAM yuvAno AvI rahyA hovAnuM meM sAMbhaLyuM che. Apa e yuvAnone samajAvI na zako ke kokanA mota para to manane thoDuMka saMvedanazIla rAkho !' hA, A artha che nirlepa mAnasano. anyanA duHkhanA ke motanA, pIDAnA ke takalIphonA, agavaDonA ke muzkelIonA koI paNa samAcAra kAne Ave, mana para enI koI ja asara nahIM. bhUkaMpamAM eka lAkha mANasanA motanA samAcAra peparamAM Ave to ya e vAMcyA pachI cAno kapa choDavAnI ya taiyArI nahIM, duSkALanA samayamAM lAkho pazu paMkhIo motane ghATa UtarI rahyAnA samAcAra kAne AvyA pachI ya caherA para glAnino 48 koI bhAva nahIM, 25 varasanA navayuvakanI Akasmika thaI gayela vidAya pAchaLa bhAre Akranda karI rahela enI patnInI vyathA sagI AMkhe nihALyA pachI ya manamAM glAnino koI bhAva nahIM. TUMkamAM, parane pIDA ApanAruM niSThura mAnasa bhale nahIM paraMtu paranI pIDAmAM alipta rahenAruM nirlepa mAnasa to kharuM ja. AvuM mAnasa dharma pariNamana mATe sarvathA ayogya ja banI rahetuM hoya to emAM kAMI navAI nathI. tamane eka vAtano khyAla na hoya to jaNAvI dauM ke sajjananA hRdayane to zAstrakAroe darpaNanI upamA ApI che. sAme rahelA padArthanuM pratibiMba potAnAmAM jhIlI zake e ja jo darpaNa che to sAmI vyaktinA duHkhanI sva-hRdayamAM asara jhIlI zake e ja sajjana che. javAba Apo. AvA sajjanamAM tamAro naMbara kharo ke nahIM ? sabhA : ame pote ja eTalA badhA du:khI chIe ke bIjAnAM duHkho tarapha najara nAkhavAno amane samaya ja nathI. ane Ama jovA jaIe to cAre ya bAju duHkhano dAvAnaLa ja saLagelo che. sahunAM duHkhanI mana para asara letA rahIe to ame pote ja gAMDA thaI jaIe evuM amane lAge che. A tame nathI bolatA, tamArI vikRta buddhi bolI rahI che. A avAja tamArA aMtaHkaraNano nathI, tamArA ahaMkArano che. A dalIla tamArI saraLatAnI jAherAta nathI karatI, tamArI vakratAnI jAherAta kare che. na bAkI sAcuM kahuM ? be sukhIo eka-bIjAnAM sukhanI noMdha levA taiyAra na hoya e banI zake che paraMtu be duHkhIo eka-bIjAnAM duHkhanI noMdha levA taiyAra na hoya e saMbhavita ja nathI. vAMcyuM che ne A prasiddha vAkya ? 'be garIba mANaso eka phATelI cAdara para besavA taiyAra thaI jaze paraMtu be amIra mANaso eka sophAseTa para besavA taiyAra nahIM thAya !" tAtparyArtha A vAkyano spaSTa che. sukha bIjAnI sAme jovA kadAca taiyAra nathI paNa thatuM paraMtu duHkha to bIjAnI apekSA rAkhyA vinA rahI ja nathI zakatuM. tame jo kharekhara duHkhI cho ja to anyanA duHkhanI upekSA na ja karI zako. jo tamane anyanAM duHkhono khyAla che ja to tame emanAM duHkhonI asarathI mukta na ja rahI zako. sAMbhaLyuM che A dRSTAnta ? kaoNlejanA chellA varasanI parikSAmAM 150 vidyArthIo beThA hatA. A parikSAnuM pariNAma vidyArthIonI kArakIrdi ghaDavAmAM bahu agatyano bhAga bhajavavAnuM hatuM ane eTale dareka vidyArthIe bhAremAM bhAre mahenata karI hatI. parikSA zarU thaI. praznapatra sahunA hAthamAM AvI gayuM. ekI zvAse vidyArthIo praznapatra vAMcI to gayA paNa 49

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praznapatramAMno chello prazna vAMcatA sahunA kapALe parasevAnA buMda bAjhI gayA. prazna hato. 'ApaNI kaoNlejamAM chellAM pacIsa varasathI eka bahena kacaro kADhI rahyA che. emanuM nAma lakho. mArksa-10.' dareka vidyArthInI AMkha sAme e bahenano cahero to AvI gayo paNa emanuM nAma ? koInA ya khyAlamAM nahotuM. koIne ya yAda na AvyuM. parikSAno samaya pUrNa thaI gayo. badhA ja vidyArthIo ekaThA thaIne prinsipala samakSa hAjara thayA.. 'sara, amArA 10 mArksa jaze ja?" 'pahelAM tame mArA A praznano javAba Apo. je bahena ApaNI saMpUrNa kaoNlejane chellAM 25, 25 varasathI masta arthAtu pradUSaNa mukta rAkhI rahyA che e bahenanuM nAmasuddhAM jANavAnI tamArAmAMnA koIe tasdI nathI lIdhI enI pAchaLa kAraNa zuM che ? tame A kaoNlejanI chokarIo sAthe ThaThThA-mazkarI karI che. kadAca eka eka chokarInAM nAma tamArA moDhe che ane tamArI mAtAnI uMmara dharAvatA A bahenanuM nAma tamane yAda nathI ! karuNatA ja che ne? cAlo, e praznano huM tamane pAMca mArksa ApavA taiyAra chuM. tamo mane javAba Apo. e bahenane tame kyAreya smita paNa ApyuM che kharuM ?" 'nA' sahuno A ja javAba hato. 'A hade tame jo eka jIvaMta vyaktinI upekSA karI zakatA ho to mAre tamane kahevuM che ke tamArA sahunuM bhAvi aMdhakAramaya che. tame sahu UbhA thaIne cAlyA jAo ahIMthI.' prinsipAlanA A vyathAsabhara Akrozano eka paNa vidyArthI pAse javAba nahoto. yAda rAkhajo . niSphara mAnasa jo rAkSasa banAvIne ja rahe che to nirlepa mAnasa kaThora banAvIne ja rahe che. niSphara mAnasa jo lokamAM apriya banAvIne ja rahe che to nirlepa mAnasa lokapriya to nathI ja banavA detuM. niSphara mAnasa jo mANasAI mATe kalaMkarUpa che to nirlepa mAnasa sajjanatA mATe kalaMkarUpa che. eka prazna pUche tamane? tamArA khudanA parivAra pratye to tame 'nirlepa mAnasa' nathI ja laIne beThA e nakkI kharuM? parivAranA koI paNa sabhya para AvI paDatA du:kha pratye tame ThaMDuM valaNa nathI, ja rAkhatA e nakkI kharuM ? sabhA : lagabhaga to evuM nahIM paraMtu sAthosAtha evuM paNa nahIM ke parivAranA du:khe ame amArA mahattvanAM kAryo mulatavI paNa rAkhI daIe. Ano artha ? pitAjInuM zarIra tAvamAM zekAtuM hoya to ya tame ugharANI patAvavA nIkaLI ja paDo ema ne? skUlanI parikSAmAM nApAsa thaI javAnA kAraNe dIkaro raDato hoya to ene raDato rAkhIne paNa tame bajAramAM javA ravAnA thaI ja jAo ema ne? mAtuzrIne tamArA sahavAsanI apekSA hoya to ya emane samaya na ApatA tame pharavA ravAnA thaI ja jAo ema ne? yAda rAkhajo A vAta ke anyanAM duHkho pratye ane emAM ya upakArIonAM ke svajanonAM duHkho pratye dAkhavAtuM nirlepa mAnasa evA azubha karmabaMdhanuM kAraNa banIne rahe che ke e karmanA udayakALamAM enI pAse koI pharakavA paNa taiyAra thatuM nathI. tame bhUkhyA ho, sAmI vyakti pAse bhojana vadhyuM hoya to ya e bhojana ane gaTaramAM pheMkI devAnuM mana thAya paNa tamane ApavAnuM mana na thAya ! tame gaTaramAM paDI gayA ho, tamArI bAjumAMthI pasAra thaI rahelA yuvAnonI najara tamArA para paDe to ya teo hohA karatA tyAMthI AgaLa nIkaLI jAya paNa tamane gaTaramAMthI bahAra kADhavAnuM teone mana na thAya ! saMdeza spaSTa che. tamArA sukhanA samayamAM jo tame duHkhI pAse javAnuM TALatA ja raho cho to tamArA duHkhanA samayamAM sukhIo paNa tamArI pAse AvavAnuM TALatA ja rahevAnA che. ane Aje bhale tame puNyanA udayanA hisAbe mUche (hoya to) tAva daIne pharatA ho ke mAre koInI ya jarUra nathI ane mane koInI ya paDI nathI paraMtu pApano udaya je divase jAge che (eka divasa to jAgavAno ja che) e divase game tevA DAku ke coranA caraNa paNe pakaDavA paDe e sthiti AvIne UbhI rahevAnI che. nA. niSphara mAnasanA zikAra to na ja bano paNa nirlepa mAnasanA zikAra banI gayA ho to emAMthI ya jAtane bahAra kADhI lo. rAkSasa na banyA rahIe to barAbara ja che paNa ApaNane sajjana banatA roke evAM doSanA zikAra paNa ApaNe zA mATe banyA rahevuM joIe ? sAMbhaLyo che A Tucako? eka karoDapati paNa kRpaNa mANasa maravA paDyo hato. zarama-dharame paNa samAjanA keTalAka AgevAno e samaye enI AjubAju beThA hatA. DaoNkTare AvIne ene tapAsIne jyAre ema kahI dIdhuM ke 'basa, have pAMceka miniTano ja khela che" tyAre eka AgevAne 51

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ene kahyuM ke 'have jyAre A jagatamAMthI jaI ja rahyA cho tyAre to samAjane kaMIka ApI jAo.' 'Akho ne Akho jAna to ApIne jAuM chuM' eTaluM ja e bolyo ane enuM prANapaMkheruM UDI gayuM. mananI tRtiya naMbaranI avasthA che : saMvedanazIla mAnasa anyone du:kho ApatuM ke anyonAM duHkhomAM AnaMdita thatuM niSphara mAnasa nahIM. anyanAM du:khonI upekSA karatuM ke noMdha nahIM letuM nirlepa mAnasa nahIM paNa anyonAM du:khe dravita thaI jatuM saMvedanazIla mAnasa. svazakti anusAra anyanAM duHkhone dUra karavA sakriya banI jatuM saMvedanazIla mAnasa. potAnuM sukha salAmata rahI jatuM hoya ane sAmAnuM du:kha dUra thaI jatuM hoya to e mATe sadAya tatpara saMvedanazIla mAnasa. sAMbhaLI lo A dRSTAnta, tAkAta zuM Takaze? be varasa pUrve ahIM (dillI)nA gujarAta epArTamenTamAM mAruM cAturmAsa hatuM. pAMca ravivArIya yuvA zibiramAM eka divasa A saMvedanazIla mAnasa para yuvako samakSa sAro evo prakAza pAtharyo. "jo saMvedanazIlatA nathI ApaNI pAse to pachI mazInamAM ane ApaNAmAM koI pharaka ja nathI. sarjana to mANasanI jema mazIna paNa karI zake che paNa mANasa sarjanano je AnaMda anubhavI zake che e AnaMda mazIna nathI ja anubhavI zakatuM. saMhAra to mazInanI jema mANasa paNa karI zake che paraMtu svahaste thaI gayela saMhAra badala mANasa vyathAnAM je AMsu pADI zake che e AMsu mazIna to nathI ja pADI zakatuM. ApaNe mazIna nathI paNa mANasa chIe e puravAra karI ApavAno eka ja rasto che, saMvedanazIlatAnA svAmI banyA ja rahIe. duHkhadarzana dravita thatA rahIe. upakAra smaraNe gada thatA rahIe. pApasevane vyathita thatA rahIe. dharmasavane AnaMdita thatA rahIe. A sAMbhaLyA bAda eka divasa eka yuvaka maLavA Avyo. eNe pote karelA eka akhatarAnI vAta enA mukhe meM sAMbhaLI ane huM stabdha thaI gayo. saMvedanazIla mAnasanI A tAkAta? saMvedanazIla mAnasanA svAmI banI javAnA AnaMdano A masta anubhava? eNe je vAta karI e enA ja zabdomAM. | 'mahArAja sAheba, ahIM pravacana sAMbhaLyo Aje huM sAikala rikSAmAM Avyo to kharo paNa rikSAmAMthI UtaryA bAda rikSAvALAne bhADAnI rakama cUkavyA bAda meM ene thoDoka samaya UbhA rahI javA jaNAvyuM. 'paNa zA mATe ?' enAM A praznano javAba ApyA vinA huM e sAikala rikSA jyAM UbhI hatI enI sAme rahela dUdhanI DerI para pahoMcI gayo ane tyAMthI lassIno eka glAsa laI AvIne rikSAvALA pAse AvI gayo. 'le, A pI le 'paNa kAMI kAraNa ?' 'tuM rikSA pagathI calAve che ne? e paga majabUta haze tyAM sudhI ja tuM rikSA calAvI zakavAno che. A lassI pI le. thoDIka tAkAta TakI raheze to rikSA lAMbA samaya sudhI, calAvI zakIza.' mahArAja sAheba, mArI A vAta sAMbhaLIne rikSA cAlakanI AMkhamAM AMsu AvI gayA. 'ATalAM varasothI huM rikSA calAvuM chuM paNa koIe mArA paganI tAkAtanI AvI ciMtA nathI karI jevI ciMtA tame karI che. kayA zabdomAM tamAro AbhAra mAnuM ?' ATalA zabdo bolatAM bolatAM e gaLagaLo thaI gayo. hA. A kArya che saMvedanazIlatAnuM. e gadgada banI zake che. e bhAvita banI zake che. e lAgaNIzIla banI zake che. e udAra banI zake che. e vyathita banI zake che. e AnaMdita banI zake che. e ullasita banI zake che. alabatta, ApaNe saMvedanahIna banI cUkyA chIe ema to kahI zakAya tema nathI kAraNa ke avAranavAra alaga alaga prasaMge saMvedanazIlatAnI upasthitinI jAherAta karatI jAtajAtanI lAgaNIo ApaNe anubhavIe chIe ja. prazna je che e A che. saMvedanazIlatA ApaNI sthAyI che ke asthAyI che? vyaktivizeSa pratye ja che ke sarva sAmAnya che ? mAtrA enI alpa che ke adhika che ? e saMyogAdhIna che ke svabhAvAdhIna? eka vAta bhUlazo nahIM ke, mAkhaNanI komaLatA ane paththaranI kaThoratA, agninI uSNatA ane vAyunI caMcaLatA, AkAzanI vyApakatA ane sAgaranI vizALatA jema cirasthAyI ja hoya che, svabhAvAdhIna ja hoya che tema ApaNI pAse rahela saMvedanazIlatA cirasthAyI ke svabhAvAdhIna ja hovAnI koI ja saMbhAvanA nathI, kAraNa ke pravacananI zarUAtamAM ja kahyuM tema ApaNe to ane mane laIne beThA chIe. maoNlamAM jema jAtajAtanI aneka prakAranI sAmagrIo maLatI hoya che tema ApaNA manamAM aneka prakAranI vicAraNAo UThatI ja rahe che. hA. mananI saMvedanazIlatAne sAce ja ApaNe jo dIrghajIvI, para 53

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banAvI devA mAgIe chIe to eno zreSTha vikalpa A che ke evA nimittonuM ane evAM sthAnonuM ApaNe vAraMvAra sevana karatA ja rahIe ke je nimitto ane sthAno ApaNI komaLatAne, ApaNI gadgadatAne, ApaNI saMvedanazIlatAne bahAra lAvavAmAM sahAyaka banIne ja rahetA hoya. bhAre kheda sAthe kahevuM paDe che ke AjanA kALe kaThoratAne, katajJatAne ane kliSTatAne bahekAve evAM nimittonI ane sthAnonI hAramALA sarjI dIdhI che. gaeNrabajAre tamane kaThora banAvI dIdhA che, TheraThera khulI gayelA vRddhAzramoe tamane mRtadana banI javA taiyAra karI dIdhA che to mIDiyAnAM tamAma mAdhyamoe tamane saMklezagrasta rAkhavAnI jANe ke harIphAI AdarI dIdhI che. sabhA : saeNrabajAra aMge ApanuM mantavya? tame mane pUcho cho ? Share no artha to tamane khabara che ne ? bhAgIdArI. je kaMpanInA 'zaira' tamArI pAse che e kaMpanI je paNa pApo karI rahI che e tamAma pApomAM tamArI bhAgIdArI enuM nAma che zerabajAra. tamArA amaryAdita lobhane bahekAvavA tame Aje bhale gaeNrabajAramAM ghUsI gayA ho paNa prabhu vacanothI huM je kAMI samajyo chuM enA AdhAre tamane spaSTarUpe kahuM chuM ke A bajAramAM javAthI baMdhAyela ezubhakarmo jyAre paNa udayamAM Avaze tyAre lohInA AMsu pADazo to ya tamArI samAdhi kavI asaMbhavitaprAyaH banI jaze. eka vAtano tamane khyAla che kharo ? jIbhathI thatuM niMdAnuM pApa, jIbhane asara karatuM hoya che. AMkhonI vikArI najarathI baMdhAtAM azubha karmo, AMkho para AkramaNa karatA hoya che. kAnathI rasapUrvaka saMbhaLAtA avarNavAda kAnane mATe khataranAka puravAra thatA hoya che, mana dvArA cAlatI azubhavicAronI hAramALA, manane mATe ghAtaka puravAra thatI hoya che paNa je pravRttimAM jIvonI hiMsA thatI hoya che enAthI je azubha karmo baMdhAtA rahe che e karmo to udayamAM Ave che tyAre to zarIranA pratyeka aMgopAMgone kSatavikSata karI nAkhe che. mAtra mAthuM du:khe che ane prabhunAM darzanamAM mana lAgatuM nathI. mAtra peTamAM darda anubhavAya che ane pravacanamAM majA AvatI nathI. patharIno mAmUlI du:khAvo thAya che ane AMkhomAMthI AMsu vahevAnA cAlu thaI jAya che. AMkhamAMthI pANI nIkaLavA lAge che ane mana becena becena banI jAya che. javAba Apo, hiMsAjanya karmo udayamAM AvIne jyAre AkhA zarIrane azAtAnuM zikAra banAvI deze tyAre samAdhi TakAvI zakazo zI rIte ? sabhA : hiMsA na thatI hoya e kaMpanInA zera laIe to? e kaMpanInA zeMranI bajAramAM koI kiMmata ja nahIM hoya to? ane mukhya vAtato e che ke tamane khabara ja kyAM che ke kaI kaMpanImAM hiMsA nathI ? sAcuM kahuM to prAyaH dareka kaMpanIo ghora hiMsA para ja cAlI rahI che. tamArI AMkho sAme tamane hiMsA bhale na dekhAtI hoya paNa eTalA mAtrathI e kaMpanInA zairo kharIdyA pachI e kaMpanImAM thaI rahela hiMsAnI bhAgIdArIthI tame bacI zakatA nathI ja, karuNatA kevI che? pAMca tithi tame lIlotarIno tyAga karI beThA cho. gADI nIce kadAca koI khisakolI cagadAI jAya che ke kUtaro marI jAya che to tame raDatI AMkhe enuM prAyazcita levA taiyAra thaI jAo cho ane A bAju ghora hiMsAo para ja cAlatI kaMpanIonA zairA laIne zrImaMta banI javA tame pAgalanI jema bhAgI rahyA cho ! javAba Apo. zairabajAramAM tame dAkhala thaI gayA cho enI vedanA tame kyAreya anubhavI che kharI ? e bajAramAM dAkhala thaI javAnA karelA pApanuM prAyazcita levAnuM tamane kyAreya mana thayuM che kharuM? kUdelI InDekse tamArA AnaMdanA sAgaramAM bharatI lAvavAnuM kAma nathI ja karyuM ema kahI zakavAnI sthitimAM tame cho kharA? tUTelA InDeksa tamane jAlima durthAnanA zikAra nathI ja banAvyA e kahI zakavAnI tamArI taiyArI che kharI ? sabhA : gaeNrabajAramAM dharakhama kamANI karI laIne sanmArge sArI evI rakama vAparI daIe to kema? zaeNrabajAramAM paisA kamAI ja gayA ho ane tame sanmArge rakamano savyaya karavAnuM cAlu karI dIdhuM hoya ke devA taiyAra thaI gayA ho to enI huM nA nathI pADato paNa gaeNrabajAramAM jAmI jaIne eka bAju paisA kamAtA rahezuM ane bIjI bAju e kamANImAMthI keTalIka rakama sArA mArge vAparI daIzuM e khyAla sAthe tame gaeNrabajAramAM ja paDyapAtharyA rahevA mAgatA ho to prabhunA zAsanane e gaNita haragija mAnya nathI. sabhA : Ape to bahu bhAre vAta karI dIdhI ! vAta bhAre nathI. tamArI lobhavRtti para AkramaNa thaI rahyuM che eTale tamane A vAta bhAre lAgI rahI che. gaeNrabajAramAM karelA saMpattinA tamArA rokANa aMge eTaluM ja kahIza ke rabajAramAM Avela tejImAM tamane thaI rahela prakAzanAM darzana e hakIkatamAM prakAza nathI paNa bhaDako che, A bhaDako tamArA jIvananI zAMtine saLagAvI deze. mota vakhatanI tamArI samAdhine khatarAmAM mUkI deze ane paralokanI tamArI sadgati para 54 55

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jAya che. praznArthacihna lagAvI deze, beryAda lobhavRttine mokaLuM medAna ApI deto A jaeNrabajAra tamArA saddaguNo mATe paDakAra banI raheze to tamArI saMvedanazIlatAnA to lIrelIrA uDADI mUkaze. eka sonerI salAha ApuM? puNya-pApa-dharama-karama e badhI vAtone paLa-be paLa mATe naMbara be para rAkhI do tame to ya eTaluM to nakkI karI ja do ke je paNa kSetra mArA zarIranA svAthya mATe jokhamarUpa puravAra thaI rahyAnuM mane lAgaze, mArA mananI prasannatA mATe khatarArUpa banI rahyAnuM mane anubhavAze ane mArA parivAra pratyenA premanuM balidAna laI rahyAnuM mane lAgaze e kSetramAM huM dAkhala thaIza nahIM ane e kSetramAM kadAca dAkhala thaI gayo paNa hoIza to e kSetramAMthI bahAra nIkaLI gayA vinA rahIza nahIM. gaeNrabajAramAM satata thaI rahela vadha-ghaTa tamArA zarIranA svAthya para kharAba asara kare ja che, tamArA mananI prasannatAne khaMDita kare ja che ane parivAranA sabhyo pratyenA tamArA premamAM oTa lAve ja che. karI do dRDha saMkalpa ke roTalI-dALathI calAvI levuM paDaze to ekavAra e mATe taiyAra thaI jaIza paNa ghora hiMsA para ja nabhatA ane cAlatA zaeNrabajAranI lakhalUTa kamANI para jIvanabhara jalasAo karatA rahevAnA mananA aramAnone to sakriya nahIM ja banavA dauM! | saMvedanazIla mAnasanA svAmI banyA rahevuM hoya to AvuM parAkrama dAkhavyA vinA cAlavAnuM nathI ja e vAta dilanI dIvAla para kotarI ja rAkhajo, mananI cothA naMbaranI avasthA che. dhArmika mAnasa gharmakriyAmAM jenuM mana rasasabhara che e che dhArmika mAnasa, dharmakriyA mATe jenA manamAM jabaradasta AdarabhAva che e che dhArmika mAnasa, dharmakriyA mATe jenuM mana dRDha AgrahavALuM che e che dhArmika mAnasa. eka ati mahattvanI vAta tamane jaNAvuM? kapaDAMne sAMdhavAnuM kAma ke sIvavAnuM kAma doro ja kare che paNa e dorAne soyamAM parovavAmAM na Ave to ? vagara soye dorAne tame sakriya banAvI zako ja zI rIte ? tamAro A anubhava paNa haze ke soyanuM kAma nathI hotuM tyAre paNa soyane surakSita rAkhI devA baheno soyane dorAmAM parovIne rAkhI mUke che. aMdhArAmAM soya guma thaI paNa jAya che to ya jamIna para Amatema hAtha pheravatA rahIne baheno dorAne uThAvI le che ane doro hAthamAM AvI jatAMnI sAthe ja dorAmAM parovAIne rahela soya paNa hAthamAM AvI ja eka apekSAe kahevuM hoya to ema kahI zakAya ke manamAM cAlatA zubha vicAro e jo dorAnA sthAne che to e zubha vicArone amalI banAvatA zubha AcAro e soyanA sthAne che. dorAnI salAmatI to e svataMtra rahI jAya to ya che paraMtu dorAnI tAkAtanI anubhUti to tyAre ja zakya bane che ke jyAre e soyamAM parovAI jAya che. kevaLa zubhavicAro ja karatA rahevuM hoya to emAM koI takalIpha to nathI ja paDavAnI paraMtu e zubha vicAro jo zubha pariNAma lAvIne ja rahe evI ApaNI icchA hoya to e zubha vicArone zubha AcAronI soyamAM parovI dIdhA vinA ApaNane nathI ja cAlavAnuM e nirvivAda satya che. sAMbhaLyo che A Tucako? emAM takalIpha zI che? 'eka bAbatamAM tArI salAha levI che" darzane vaMdanane pUchyuM, bola' 'sameta zikhara javAnuM vicAruM chuM 'sarasa' 'emAM takalIpha to nahIM paDe ne?" 'jarAya nahIM? 'eTale ?' 'tuM sametazikhara javAnuM vicAre ja che ne ? to vicAryA ja kara majethI, vicAra ja karatA rahevAmAM bIjI takalIpha zI paDavAnI che? takalIphanI saMbhAvanA to tyAre ja UbhI thAya ke jyAre e vicArane AcAramAM utAravA tuM prayatnazIla banI jA' ThaMDe kaleje vaMdane darzanane javAba ApI dIdho. A to prabhuno mArga che. ahIM nathI ekalA jJAnane tAraka manAyuM ke ahIM nathI eTalI kriyAne tAraka manAI, kriyAmAM UtaratuM jJAna ja prabhuzAsanane mAnya che to kriyA paNa jJAnapUrvakanI ja prabhuzAsanane mAnya che. spaSTa zabdomAM kahevuM hoya to ema kahI zakAya ke doro jema soyano sahayoga laIne ja kApaDane 'kapaDAM' mAM rUpAMtarita karI zake che tema jJAna kriyAmAM pariNamIne ja AtmAnuM paramAtmAmAM rUpAMtara karI zakavAmAM samartha bane che. sabhA : atyAre eka evI havA UbhI thaI gaI che ke Atmahita jo tame akabaMdha pat pa

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karI devA mAgo cho to jJAna ja kAphI che, kriyAnI koI jarUra nathI, samyapha samajaNa ja paryApta che, AcAronA DhasaraDA karavAnI koI ja jarUra nathI, e havAne to huM ke tame rokI zakavAnA nathI. mAtra eTaluM ja kahIza ke e havAnA zikAra banI javAthI jAtane to rokI ja dejo. je prabhunA pavitra AcAramArge Aja sudhImAM agaNita AtmAone muktipadanI bheTa dharI che e AcAramArgane choDI devAnI bhUla to tame kyAreya karazo nahIM paNa e AcAramArgamAM koI dama nathI evuM vicAravAnuM pApa paNa tame kyAreya karazo nahIM. tamane khyAla che kharo? vaizAkha suda-10 nA pAvanadine prabhu vIra kevaLajJAna to jarUra pAmyA paNa e tArake tIrthanI sthApanA to vaizAkha suda-11 nA dine ja karI. kAraNa ? suda-10 nI prabhunI dezanA niSphaLa gaI, sarvaviratijIvana aMgIkAra karavA eka paNa AtmA teyAra thayo nahIM e parAkrama dAkhavanArA puNyAtmAo suda-11 nA dine ja maLyA ane e hisAbe ja zAsananI sthApanA e dine thaI. saMdeza spaSTa che. zAsana janme che paNa AcAramAM, zAsana jIve che paNa AcAramAM ane zAsananI samApti paNa tyAre ja thaI jAya che ke jyAre AcAra samApta thaI jAya che. alabatta, eka bAbatamAM sAvadhagIrI dAkhavavAnI ApaNe AjathI ja zarU karavAnI jarUra che. gurudevanA upadezathI jIvanamAM zarU thayela dharmakriyAo ApaNA mATe AnaMdanI anubhUtinuM kAraNa banIne ja rahevI joIe. 'prabhupUjAthI mane puNyano baMdha thAya che e to barAbara che paNa prabhupUjA karatAM mane AnaMda apAra Ave che' 'sAmAyika dvArA azubhakarmonI nirjarA thAya che emAM to mane koI zaMkA ja nathI paraMtu sAmAyikamAM huM beTho houM chuM tyAre AnaMdanA mAnasarovaramAM huM snAna karI rahyo houM evuM mane lAge che" 'dAnamAM karela saMpattinA sadvyayathI sAmAne je paNa lAbha thato haze te paNa dAnadharmathI huM AnaMdano je anubhava karI rahyo chuM enuM to zabdomAM varNana karavuM mArA mATe zakya nathI.' hA, dharmakriyAone jIvanamAM ApeluM sthAna ApaNe jo cirasthAyI karI devA mAgIe chIe to eno zreSTha vikalpa A ja che, dharmakriyAomAM AnaMdano anubhava ! bAkI, upadezathI zarU thayela dharma jo AnaMdanuM kAraNa nathI ja banato to game tyAre chUTI jAya evI saMbhAvanA che paNa AnaMdanuM kAraNa banI gayela dharma pratikuLa paristhitimAM ya chUTI jAya evI koI ja saMbhAvanA nathI. javAba Apo. Aje tamArA jIvanamAM je paNa dharmArAdhanAo cAlI rahI che emAM AnaMdanuM kAraNa banI cUkI hoya evI dharmArAdhanAo kaI che ? keTalI che ? sabhA : eka che prabhupUjA ane bIjI che jinavANI zravaNa. A baMne yoganA sevanamAM amane je AnaMda Ave che e kalpanAtIta che. khUba sarasa , have anya dharmArAdhanAne paNa e ja raste laI javA prayatnazIla banI jAo. te-te dharmArAdhanAonI mAtra tAkAtane ja barAbara samajI lezo ne, to ya e dharmArAdhanAo AnaMdanuM kAraNa banavA lAgaze. sabhA : mAtra tAkAta samajI levAthI A pariNAma AvI jAya ? tamArA jIvananA eka vyavahArika dRSTAntathI A vAta temane samajAvuM. dhAro ke tamAre tyAM ko'ka AgaMtuka baporanA jamavAnA samaye AvI caDyA che. Atithya dharmanA jANakAra tame emane tamArI sAthe ja jamavA besADI dIdhA che, thALImAM roTalI, dALa, bhAta, zAka, pApaDa, athANuM vagere dravyo tamArI patnIe mUkI dIdhA che ane e ja vakhate tyAM acAnaka AvI caDela tamArA mitranI e AgaMtuka tarapha najara jAya che ane e cokI jAya che. tamArI najadIka AvIne tamane e kAnamAM kahI de che. | 'tamArI bAjumAM beThelA bhAI e bIjuM koI nathI, tame je kaMpanIno mAla vecI rahyA cho e kaMpanInA e bhAI maeNnejiMga DAyarekTara che" A sAMbhaLyA bAda tamAro pratibhAva? sabhA : 'patnIne kahI daIe, mIThAI lAva.' | 'pachI ?' sabhA : Agraha karI karIne emane jamADIe. basa, A ja vAstavikatA samajI levAnI che dharmArAdhanAnI bAbatamAM. jyAM enA sevanamAM rahela tAkAta ApaNane samajAI jaze. e samajaNa para ApaNI zraddhA besI jaze, e dharmArAdhanA ApaNA AnaMdanuM kAraNa banIne ja raheze. ane AnaMdanuM kAraNa banI jatI e dharmArAdhanAne TakAvI rAkhavA ApaNe prayatno nahIM karavA paDe. sahajarUpe ja e dharmArAdhanA jIvanamAM TakI jaze. mananI pAMcamAM naMbaranI avasthA che : AdhyAtmika mAnasa A avasthAnA vivecanamAM AgaLa vadhatAM pahelAM A eka kAlpanika paNa ati mArmika dRSTAnta khAsa dhyAnapUrvaka sAMbhaLI levA jevuM che. uc pa9

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sAce ja ? 'atyAre mAre tamane eka vAta karavI che' savAranA pahoramAM patinI jevI AMkho khUlI, patnIe enI pAse vAta mUkI. 'bola' 'chellAM 30varasathI tamAre sAthe huM rahI chuM. meM eka paNa vakhata tamane prabhunuM nAma letA nathI sAMbhaLyA.' 'atyAre e vAta cheDavAno artha zo che?' 'e ja kahuM chuM. Aje rAtanA nidrAvasthAmAM ja tamArA mukhamAMthI prabhunuM nAma nIkaLeluM meM sAMbhaLyuM.' 'sAcuM kahe che ?' 'biga pula sAcuM' patnIne mukhe A vAta sAMbhaLatAnI sAthe ja patino cahero gaMbhIra banI gayo. enI AMkhomAM AMsu ghasI AvyA. 'paNa tame raDo cho kema ?' patnInA A praznano javAba ApavAne badale gAdImAM sUtA sUtA ja chata tarapha hAtha joDIne pati eTaluM ja bolyo ke 'he prabhu ! ATaATalAM varaso sudhI tane hRdayamAM birAjita rAkhavAmAM huM saphaLa rahyo paNa patnInA kahevA mujaba nidrAvasthAmAM tuM mArA hRdayamAMthI nIkaLI jaIne mukhavATe bahAra nIkaLI gayo che. A hRdayamAM have tuM jyAre che ja nahIM tyAre mAre have jIvavAno artha ja zo che ?' ATaluM bolatAMnI sAthe ja patinuM prANapaMkheruM UDI gayuM. patnI avAcaka thaI gaI. je patine huM nAstika ziromaNI mAnatI hatI e pati AdhyAtmikatAnA A zikhara para birAjamAna hatA ? a22, huM emane oLakhI zakI ja nahIM.' dhArmika mAnasa jo 'satpravRtti' kendrita hoya che to AdhyAtmika mAnasa 'satpariNati' kendrita hoya che. e mAtra satpravRttinA sevanathI ja saMtuSTa thaI jatuM nathI. satpravRttinA sevanathI UbhI thavI joItI satpariNati paNa enA jIvananA lakSyasthAne hoya che. prabhupUjA to barAbara che ja paNa citta prasannatAnuM zuM? sAmAyika to jIvanamAM cAlu che ja paNa samatAnuM zuM ? dAnadharmanI sAdhanA to zakti anusAra cAlu che ja paNa saMpatti pratyenI mUrchAmAM kaDAko bolAyAnuM zuM ? sattvAnusAra jIvanamAM tapa-tyAga cAlu to che ja paraMtu AhAra saMjJA pratye thavI joItI lAla AMkhanuM zuM ? FO vAta paNa sAcI ja che. jIbha para sAkara mUkIe to mIThAzanI anubhUti thavI ja joIe ne ? peTamAM guMdarapAka padharAvIe to zarIramAM lohI banavuM ja joIe ne ? viTAminanI goLIo khAIe to mukha para camaka AvavI ja joIe ne? bAra-bAra kalAka bajAramAM gALIe to saMpattinI kamANI thavI ja joIe ne ? basa, e ja nyAye jIvanamAM satpravRttionuM sevana cAlu hoya to enA phaLa svarUpe satpariNatinI anubhUti thavI ja joIe ne ? eka ati gaMbhIra vAta karuM ? je jIvone Ame ya dharmapravRttio pratye 'elarjI' che teone dharmapravRttionuM sena karI rahelA jIvomAM satpariNatinAM darzana jyAre thatA nathI tyAre dharmapravRttione vagovavAnI taka teo jhaDapI letA ja hoya che. 'eka bAju tame pUjA karo cho ane bIjI bAju ATalo bhayaMkara krodha karo cho ? tamArA karatAM to ame sArA ke pUjA karIne to krodha nathI karatA ne ?' 'tame aThThAI to karI paNa hajI ya tamArAthI haoNTala nathI chUTI ? AnA karatAM aThThAI na karo to sAruM. kama se kama tamArI aThThAI vagovAya to nahIM ne ?' 'eka bAju tame pAMca pAMca lAkhanuM dAna karI rahyA cho ane bIjI bAju be naMbaranA dhana pAchaLa pAgala banIne doDI rahyA cho ? samAjanI thoDIka to zarama rAkho !' sabhA H e lokonI A dalIlo Ama sAcI to kharI ja ne ? jarAya nahIM. davA lenArA badhAya sAjA thaI jatA nathI. skUlamAM bhaNI rahelA badhAya vidyArthIo kAMI uttIrNa thaI jatA nathI. paisA kamAvA nIkaLelA badhA ja vepArIo kAMI paisA kamAI jatA nathI tema dharmapravRttio karanArA badhAya satpariNatinA svAmI banI jatA nathI ! ane eTalA mAtrathI dharmapravRttione vakhoDatA rahevAno e lokone kAMI ijAro maLI jato nathI. kAraNo aneka che AnI pAchaLa. bhUtakALanA bhavono galata abhyAsa, enAthI AtmA para khaDakAyelA kusaMskAro, saMyogonI pratikULatA, sAmagrInI alpatA, sattvanI maMdatA, karmonI AdhInatA-AvAM aneka paribaLothI jIvo gherAyelA che ane eTale ja samAna dharmapravRttio hovA chatAM samAna satpariNatinA svAmI teo banI zakatA nathI. paNa eTalA mAtrathI emanI dharmapravRttio nathI to niMdanIyanI kakSAmAM AvI jatI ke nathI to tyAjyathI kakSAmAM AvI jatI. 61

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alabatta. Ano artha evo nathI ke dharmapravRttio AcaratA rahevAnI sAthe tamane pApa pravRttio paNa AcaratA rahevAnI chUTa maLI che. nA, jevuM mAthuM evI ja TopI jo mastaka para hovI joIe to jevI dharmapravRtti evI ja dharmapariNati sAdhakanA jIvanamAM hovI joIe, e na hoya to ya kama se kama e aMgenuM lakSya to hovuM ja joIe. to ja dharmapravRtti sevanIya, vaMdanIya ane anumodanIya banI rahe che. sabhA : satpariNatinA svAmI banI javAno koI saraLa upAya ? upAya Ama jovA jaIe to saraLa paNa che ane mananI vakratAne ke ahaMkArane paDakAravAnI jo taiyArI na hoya to kaThina paNa che. sAMbhaLI lo e upAya. prazaMsanIya kAryo karavA jeTaluM sattva ApaNI pAse na hoya to ya jyAM kyAMya paNa, je koInA dvArA paNa satkAryonuM sevana thaI rahyuM hoya e tamAmanAM satkAryonI dila daIne prazaMsA karI zakIe evI sabuddhinA svAmI to banI ja jaIe. ya A bAbatamAM parama zAsana prabhAvaka pUjyapAda paMnyAsa pravara zrI candrazekharavijayajI mahArAjanA hRdayanI UMcAIne samajI laIe to ya ApaNane khyAla AvI jAya ke pariNatinI kevI pracaMDa nirmaLatA dhAraNa karIne teozrI beThA che ke jinazAsananA nAnAmAM nAnA ArAdhakanA nAnAmAM nAnA guNanI prazaMsA udAramAM udAra zabdo dvArA teozrI hajAronI medanI vacce karatA ja rahe che. AmAM pAchuM kamAlanuM Azcarya e che ke teozrI svayaM mahAna jinazAsana prabhAvaka che. jabaradasta pravacanakAra che. vidvAna lekhaka che. vizuddha saMyamanA custa AgrahI che. prabhuvacana premI che. zAsana anurAgI che. vizALa ziSya parivAranA yoga kSemakartA che. ane to ya guNAnurAgitAmAM teo kAyama mATe udAtta hRdayanI UMcAI para ja birAjatA hoya che. eozrInA udAtta guNanA aMzane to ApaNe ApaNA jIvanamAM sthAna ApI zakIe chIe ne ? mAsakhamaNa na karI zakIe, mApha ! kokanA vardhamAnatapanI anumodanA to karIe ! karoDanuM dAna na karI zakIe, mApha ! kokanA lAkhanA dAnanI anumodanA to karIe ! jIvanabhara mATe brahmacaryapAlana na karI zakIe mApha ! daza tithi brahmacaryapAlana karI rahelA puNyAtmAonA e sattvanI anumodanA to karIe ! jinamaMdira nirmANa na karI zakIe mApha ! prabhu pratimA bharAvanAranA e sadbayanI ane bhaktibhAvanI anumodanA to karIe ! 2 yAda rAkhajo, satkAryonA sevananI dila daIne prazaMsA karI zakIe evuM komaLa ane pavitra hRdaya paNa jo ApaNI pAse nathI to nizcita samajI rAkhavuM ke AdhyAtmika mAnasanA svAmI banavAnuM ApaNAM mATe svapnavat ja banI rahevAnuM che. sAMbhaLyo che A Tucako ? sAMbhaLyuM che ke... mane je samAcAra maLyA che e sAcA che ?' 'zuM samAcAra maLyA che ?' 'te eka lAkha posTakArDa kharIdI lIdhA che' 'hA. e vAta sAcI che' 'paNa zA mATe ?' 'mane vizvasanIya sUtro pAsethI jANavA maLyuM che ke A vakhatanA bajeTamAM posTakArDano bhAvavadhAro jAhera thavAno che ! ApaNe eka sAthe lAkha posTakArDano sTaoNka karI lIdho che. jevo bhAvavadhAro jAhera thAya, ApaNe e posTakArDa vecI daIne tagaDI kamANI karI laIzuM.' A bevakUphInA zikAra ApaNe banavA jevuM nathI. puNyano Aje jevo udaya che, saMyogonI anukULatAo Aje jeTalI che, satsAmagrIonI bahulatA Aje jeTalI che, zarIranI taMdurastI ane mananI svasthatA Aje jevI che, AvatI kAle A badhuM ya evuM ne evuM ja rahevAnuM che ke eTaluM ne eTaluM ja rahevAnuM che e bhramaNAmAM ApaNe eka paLa paNa rahevA jevuM nathI. Aje kharIdI lIdhelA eka lAkha posTakArDa bajeTa pachI jo mAthe ja paDavAnA che to Aje mulatavI rAkhelA satkAryo, AvatI kAle karmonI UthalapAthala vacce pazcAtApanuM kAraNa ja banI rahevAnAM che. Avo, niSThura ane nirlepa mAnasa, emAMthI bahAra nIkaLI jaIne saMvedanazIla, dhArmika yAvat AdhyAtmika mAnasanA svAmI banI javAnA mArga para kadama mAMDI ja daIe. phAvI jaze. 3

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pAMca paribaLo prabhunA parivAranA sabhA to ene e besADI de. je dardI siriyasa che enA pratye e bedarakAra rahe? sabhA : nA, ene ja e laI jAya. potAnI thanArI patnIne e tarachoDIne cAlyo jAya? sabhA : ene e gADImAM besADI de, e gauravaprada bane kharuM ? sabhA : Apa ja Ano javAba ApI do. potAne abhayadAna jeNe ApyuM che enA hAthamAM e gADInI cAvI pakaDAvI de ane ene sUcanA karI de ke je dardI siriyasa che ene e laI jaIne haoNspiTalamAM dAkhala karIne pAcho A ja jagAe AvI jAya. ane tyAM sudhI e potAnI thanArI patnI pAse Ubho rahI jAya ! e mitra pAcho AvI jAya tyAre patnIne gADImAM besADIne e AgaLa nIkaLI jAya! saMdeza spaSTa che. jIvana jenI sAthe vitAvavAnuM che e che jagatpati. jIvana jenuM jokhamamAM che e che jagata ane jIvana potAnuM jenA dvArA bacyuM che e che jAta ! TUMkamAM, prAdhAnya ApavAnuM jagatpatine, pachI sAcavI levAnuM jagatane ane tyArabAda sAcavI levAnI jAtane. javAba Apo. prabhunA ApaNA paranA anaMta upakArano ApaNane khyAla kharI? e anaMta upakAra ApaNA smRtipatha para kAyama jIvaMta kharo ? e upakAranA smaraNe ApaNI AMkho bhInI bhInI kharI ? ApaNuM haiyuM gadagada kharuM ? sAMbhaLI che dalapatabhAI racita stavanAnI A kaDI ? naraka-nigodanAM mahAduHkhothI, te prabhu amane ugAryA, kSaNa-kSaNa samare tuM prabhu amane, ame bhale ne vicAryA; traNa anaMtu che prabhu tAruM, zAnI yAcanA karavI janama janamanI tana-mana-dhananI, pApavAsanA haravI phUla nahIM to pAMkhaDI, prabhu tArA caraNe dharavI. paramAtmA mahAvIradeva naMdIvardhana mATe bhAI hatA, yazodA mATe pati hatA, siddhArtha mATe putra hatA, priyadarzanA mATe pitA hatA ane supArtha mATe bhatrIjA hatA paNa ApaNA mATe? eka praznano javAba tamArA sahu pAsethI apekSita che. eka yuvaka gADI laIne rastA parathI pasAra thaI rahyo hato ane acAnaka enI najara rastA para AvelA eka basasTaoNpa para paDI. tyAM traNa jaNA basanI rAha joIne UbhA hatA. emAMnA eka jaNane hRdayano humalo thaI javAthI tAtkAlika haoNspiTalamAM khaseDavo paDe tema hato. bIjo jaNa e hato ke jene potAne akasmAta thaI gayo hato tyAre bhAre jahemata uThAvIne bacAvyo hato jyAre trIjI vyakti e yuvatI hatI ke jenI sAthe eka ja mahinA bAda enAM lagna thavAnA hatA. muzkelI e yuvakanI e hatI ke potAnI gADImAM e eka ja vyaktine besADI zake tema hato. have tame javAba Apo. e kone besADe? sabhA : hRdayaroganA humalAvALAne. jeNe potAne jIvitadAna ApyuM che enAM pratye e AMkhamIMcAmaNAM kare? e mRtadana bane? $5 66

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sabhA : zuM hovA joIe? prabhu "mArA" che, basa, A eka ja saMbaMdha jo prabhu sAthe A jIvanamAM ApaNe Ubho karI zakIe to ApaNA saMsAra paribhramaNanI maryAdA nakkI thaI gayA vinA na ja rahe e nizcita vAta che. ane majAnI vAta to e che ke lohInA saMbaMdhe bhale ApaNe prabhunA parivAramAM sthAna nathI pAmI zakyA paNa keTalAMka paribaLo evA che ke e paribaLone jo ApaNe svajIvanamAM sthAna ApI zakIe to nizcita prabhu ApaNane potAnA parivAramAM laI levA taiyAra che. bolo, ApaNe prabhunA parivAramAM sAmela thavA taiyAra kharA? sabhA : prazna ja nathI. to sAMbhaLI lo. pAMca 'pa' evA che ke jene ApaNe apanAvI laIe to prabhunA parivAramAM ApaNuM sthAna nizcita thaI jAya. 'e pAMca "pa" mAM no prathama "pa" che, prema. A 'prema' zabda potAnA garbhamAM na jANe keTakeTalA camatkArI laIne beTho che. durjanane sajajana eNe banAvyA che. saMsArIne saMta eNe banAvyA che. nirAzane utsAhasabhara eNe banAvyo che. pApIne dharmAtmA eNe banAvyA che. nAlAyakane lAyaka eNe banAvyA che. kAmAMdhane nirvikArI eNe banAvyA che. lobhAMdhane niSparigrahI eNe banAvyA che to AtmAne paramAtmA paNa eNe ja banAvyA che. tame amArA mATe zuM mAno cho ? amArA mA-bApa kharAba hatI mATe ame emane choDIne saMyamajIvana aMgIkAra karI beThA chIe ema? amAro parivAra svArthI hato mATe ame ene choDI daIne cAritrajIvananA mArga para AvI gayA chIe ema? saMsAra amane dAvAnaLa jevo lAgI gayo hato mATe ame ene choDIne saMyamI banI gayA chIe ema? sabhA : arma to ema ja mAnIe chIe. to tamArI e mAnyatA bhUlabharelI che. ame mA-bApane kharAba to saMsAramAM hatA tyAreya nahotA mAnatA ane atyAreya nathI mAnatA. mA-bApane to Ajeya ame upakArI ja mAnIe chIe paNa e upakArI ane guNiyala mA-bApane paNa ame choDIne cAritranA mArge AvI gayA. kAraNa ? A ja ke mA-bApa karatAM ya gurudeva amane vadhu gamI gayA. mA-bApamAM amane A janamanA upakArInAM darzana jarUra thayA paNa gurudevamAM to amane janamajanamanA upakArInAM darzana thayA ane eTale ja ame gurudevanA caraNamAM jIvanabhara mATe AvI gayA. alabatta, mA-bApanI saMmatipUrvaka ja. mA-bApanI prasannatApUrvaka ja. mA-bApanA AzIrvAdapUrvaka ja. e ja rIte saMsArakSetranA parivArane ame choDI dIdho enI nA nathI paNa e svArthI hato ke kapaTI hato mATe nahIM paraMtu guradeva pAsethI sAMbhaLavA maLyuM ke "jagatano pratyeka jIva e ApaNAM parivArano ja sabhya che. lAgaNI DhoLavI ja hoya to saMsAranA sImita parivAranA sabhyo para ja zA mATe DhoLavI ? jagatanAM jIvamAtrane ApaNI lAgaNInAM viSaye zA mATe na banAvavA?' basa, gurudevanI A vAta magajamAM goThavAI gaI ane ame cAritranA mArge AvI caDyo. mAbApa, bhAI-bhAbhI, kAkA-kAkI, bahena-phaIbA vagereno banelo nAno parivAra jarUra choDyo paNa ahIM AvIne ame kIDA-maMkoDAne, pRthvIkAya-apakAyane, bilADIne-kUtarAne yAvatuM nigodanA jIvone paNa amArA parivAramAM samAvI lIdhA. A ja nyAye saMsAra amane 'dAvAnaLa' svarUpa lAgI gayo hato mATe ame tyAMthI, bhAgI nIkaLyA chIe evuM nathI. amane to prabhunuM A zAsana udyAna svarUpa lAgI gayuM. cittanI prasannatA, mananI niSpApatA, AtmAnI hitakAritA, janamajanamanI sukhAkAritA e badhuM ya A zAsanane ja baMdhAyeluM che enI pUrNa zraddhA amane thaI gaI ane ame jIvanabhara mATe A zAsananA khoLAmAM AvIne besI gayA. TUMkamAM, saMsAratyAganA amArA A parAkramanA kendramAM 'vairAgyanuM sthAna e to nathI ja ke je sthAna 'prema'nuM che. DhoMsA pratyeno rAga jema thepalAno tyAga karAvIne ja rahe che, pArakara pena pratyeno rAga jema baoNlapenano tyAga karAvIne ja rahe che, baMgalA pratyeno rAga jema phalaeNTano tyAga karAvIne ja rahe che tema deva-guru pratyenA preme amane mAbApano tyAga sahaja ja karAvI dIdho che. jIvamAtra pratyenA preme amane svajanono tyAga sahaja ja karAvI dIdho che ane zAsana paranA preme amArA saMsAratyAgane ya sahaja ja banAvI dIdho che. have to tamane khyAla Ave che ne ke prema keTakeTalA gajabanAka camatkArono sarjaka banI zake che ? ane AmAM ya sauthI vadhu majA to e che ke rAga-ke je bilakula prema jevo ja dekhAya che-je paNa aniSTo sarje che emAMnuM eka paNa aniSTa prema sarjato nathI. rAga saMsAravardhaka che, prema saMsAranAzaka che. rAgadurgatijanaka che, prema sagatisarjaka che. rAga sadguNaghAtaka che, prema saguNa poSaka che. rAga zarIra-mana kendrita che, prema Atma kendrita che. rAga vibhAvamAM rAkhe che, prema svabhAva tarapha laI jAya che. rAga sImita che, prema asIma che. rAga durguNa saMgrAhaka che, prema saguNavardhaka che. 68 67

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Avo prema hRdayamAM pratiSThita karI devAmAM ApaNe saphaLa banyA nathI ane prabhunA parivAramAM ApaNuM sthAna pAkuM thayuM nathI. AvA premanA mArge ApaNA kadama maMDAyA nathI ane durgatie ApaNA taraphathI moM pheravyuM nathI. sabhA : AvA premanA mAlika banI javAno koI saraLa upAya ? upAya jarUra che paNa ene saphaLa banAvavo ke kaThina ja rAkhavo e tamArA hAthamAM che, jhaverAtanI dukAnamAM rahela nekalesa tamArA hAthamAM AvI javA taiyAra che paNa e mATenI jarUrI kiMmata jo tame cUkavavA nathI ja mAgatA to e nekalesa tamArA darzanano viSya jarUra bacI zake, tamArA gaLAnI zobhA to na ja banI zake. A ja hakIkata premanI bAbatamAM samajI levAnI. jo tame pUratuM mUlya cUkavavA taiyAra cho to premane hRdayamAM pratiSThita karI devAmAM tamane koI ja takalIpha paDI zake tema nathI ane pAuM-bhAjInA mUlya jo tame premane AtmasAta karI levA mAgo cho to jIvananA aMta samaya sudhI paNa tame e premane pAmI javAmAM saphaLa banavAnA nathI. sabhA : premanuM mUlya cUkavavA ame taiyAra chIe. to sAMbhaLI lo A eka satya prasaMga. to prabhu tArA para prasanna che. suratano e yuvaka che. sAmAyika enI masta hoya che. jIvadayAnA kSetre enuM yogadAna gajabanAka hoya che. sAdharmika bhaktino enA haiyAno umaLako vaMdanIya hoya che to prabhubhaktinI enI pAgalatAnuM to varNana thAya tema nathI. A yuvakane eka vAra ajaina saMtane maLavAnuM banyuM. 'mArA manamAM eka zaMkA che' 'zuM?" 'prabhu mane khUba khUba game che, prabhunI bhakti karyA vinA mane cena paDatuM nathI. bhakti karatA mArI AMkhomAMthI avAranavAra AMsu paNa vahetA hoya che paNe khabara mane e nathI paDatI ke mArAthI prabhu prasanna che ke nahIM? TUMkamAM, huM to prabhu pAchaLa pAgala chuM. ja paNa prabhu mArAthI prasanna che ke nahIM, e mAre jANavuM che, e jANavA mATeno koI e jo tane maLyA bAda prasannatA anubhavatA hoya to nizcita samajI rAkhaje ke prabhu tArAthI prasanna che!' premane hRdayamAM pratiSThita karI devAno tame upAya pUchaDyo che ne? A che tamArA e praznano javAba, jIvone tame prasanna rAkho, prabhu tamArAthI prasanna raheze. ane jIvone prasanna rAkhavA mATe tame e sahune bIjuM je paNa ApatA ho te paNa prema ApyA vinA to tamAre cAlavAnuM nathI ja. zuM karyuM? pappA mammIne prasanna rAkhe che, mammI bALakone prasanna rAkhavA lAge che. ApaNe jIvone prema ApavA dvArA prasanna rAkhIe. prabhu ApaNAthI prasanna thaIne ja raheze. pAMca "pa" mAMno dvitIya naMbarano "pa" che: prasannatA. saMkaTanAM sainya bhale jIvana gherI vaLe, sukhanI saMbhAvanA cho ne sudUra rahe, rAkhaje prasanna chatAM prANa, o mAnavI ! jIvanane jIvI tuM jANe, eka apekSAe kahevuM hoya to ema kahI zakAya ke zarIranI svasthatA jALavI rAkhavI e eTalo moTo paDakAra nathI paNa mananI prasannatA TakAvI rAkhavI e to bahu moTo paDakAra che. kAraNa ke zarIra mATe pathya zuM che ane apathya zuM che eno to ApaNane anubhavathI khyAla AvI jAya che ane e anubhavanA AdhAre jo ApaNe paththasevana cAlu rAkhIe chIe ane apathya sevanathI zarIrane dUra rAkhIe chIe to zarIranI svasthatA TakAvI rAkhavAmAM khAsa takalIpha paDatI nathI. paraMtu mananI prasannatAno to koI nizcita AdhAra ja nathI. patnI anukULa hoya che tyAre ya mana aprasanna hoI zake che to apamAnanA zabdo sAMbhaLavA chatAM ya mananI prasannatA akabaMdha rahI zake che. prabhunA maMdiramAM vAjiMtranA nAda vacceya mana udvignatAnuM zikAra banyuM rahetuM hoya e saMbhavita che to 47 DigrInI garamI vacce ya mana prasanna prasanna hoI zake che. A sthitimAM manane covIseya kalAka prasanna ja rAkhavAmAM saphaLatA meLavavI zI rIte ? kayuM gaNita manane samajAvI devuM ke jenA sahAre e aprasannatAnuM zikAra bane ja nahIM? A praznano sIdho-sAdo javAba A che ke manane svIkArabhAvanuM svAmI banAvI, devuM. 'svIkAramAM sukha, inakAramAM duHkhu" A sUtra enA astitvanuM aMga banAvI devuM. 70 upAya kharo ?" eka upAya che" 'tArA paricayamAM je paNa loko AvatA hoya e jo tArAthI prasanna rahetA hoya, 69

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'garamI ghaNI che? svIkArya che. dhaMdhAmAM maMdI ghaNI che? svIkArya che. apekSAo pUrI thatI nathI ? svIkArya che." sabhA : svIkArabhAvanuM A valaNa jIvanane haMmezAM takalIphomAM ja rAkhI deze evuM nahIM bane? prazna tamAro barAbara che, javAba eno A che ke jIvanamAM takalIpho je paNa Ave, ene samyaka puruSArtha dvArA dUra karavAnA prayatno karyA pachI ya e takalIpho jo evI ne evI ja UbhI rahe to e vakhate manane takalIphonA svIkArabhAvamAM goThavI devuM, enAthI mananI prasannatA khaMDita thatI bacI jaze. dA.ta., koka pArTImAM tamArA paisA aTavAyA che. e paisA meLavavA tame tamArI rItanA badhA ja prakAranA puruSArtha karI cUkyA cho. e pArTIne tame kadAca dhamakI paNa ApI cUkyA cho paNa e pATa e hade nabaLI paDI cUkI che ke enI pAsethI 2kama pAchI meLavavAmAM tamane hamaNAM to saphaLatA maLI nathI paraMtu bhaviSyamAM ya saphaLatA maLavAnI saMbhAvanA dekhAtI nathI. A sthitimAM jo tame manane asvIkArabhAvamAM ja rAkho cho to prasannatA tamArI khaMDita thatI ja rahevAnI che ane manane jo A paristhitinA svIkArabhAvamAM goThavI do cho to tamArI prasannatA akabaMdha rahI ja javAnI che. javAba Apo. paristhitine badalAvI devAnA prayAso karyA pachI ya emAM koI ja saphaLatA na maLe tyAre tame karo cho zuM? sabhA durgAna ane durbhAva. eTaluM karyA pachI ya kAMI vaLatuM to nathI ja ne? jo nA, to pachI svIkArabhAvanA svAmI banI jaIne mananI prasannatA TakAvI rAkhavAmAM tamane vAMdho zuM Ave che? sAMbhaLI che ne A aMgrejI ukti? When we have not what we like, than we must like what we have, ApaNane gamatI cIja ApaNI pAse jyAre na hoya tyAre ApaNI pAse je cIja hoya e ApaNane gamI javI ja joIe. tamArI vAta to zuM karuM ? amArA saMyamajIvanamAM to Dagale ne pagale AvI paristhitio AvIne UbhI ja rahetI hoya che. anukULa gocarI nathI maLatI. vihAranA rastAo barAbara nathI maLatA. makAna pratikULa maLe che. sUvAnuM sthAna kyAreka maccharonA upadravathI vyApta hoya che. zrAvako taraphathI kyAreka amArAM sUcanono hakArAtmaka pratisAda nathI maLato. are, hamaNAMnI ja vAta karuM to dillI AvavA mATe mAruM mana kemeya karIne taiyAra nahotuM paraMtu siddhAnta divAkara pUjyapAda gacchAdhipatizrI AcArya bhagavaMta zrImadvijaya jayaghoSasUrIzvarajI mahArAje mane AjJA karI ke zIla-sadAcAra-saMskAra ane dharmarakSAnAM kAryo aMge tamAre dillI javAnuM ja che. basa, pachI meM e aMge manamAM koI nAnakaDo sarakho ya vikalpa nathI karyo. bharapUra prasannatA sAthe meM dillI taraphano vihAra laMbAvyo che. atyAre dillImAM AvI gayAne mane be varasa jeTalo samaya thaI gayo che. 48 DigrInI garamI ane DigrInI ThaMDI ame ahIM anubhavI che. e sivAyanI paNa keTalIka pratikULatAo ame ahIM veThI che paNa nathI to meM mArA mananI prasannatAne khaMDita thavA dIdhI ke nathI to mArA vinIta ziSyomAMnA nAnA koI ziSya paNa mananI prasannatA khaMDita thavA dIdhI ! rahasya AnI pAchaLa zuM che? A ja, svIkArabhAva ! paristhiti nathI ja badalI zakavAnA ne ApaNe ? kSetra nathI ja badalAvI zakavAnA ne ApaNe ? basa, svIkArI lo ene ane mananI prasannatAne rAkhI do akabaMdha ! eka vAta karuM tamane? pharakavAnI dizA kaI rAkhavI e nakkI karavAnuM kAma jo dhajAnA hAthamAM nathI, pavananA hAthamAM ja che to saMyogo kevA rAkhavA ke kevA lAvavA e nakkI karavAnuM kAma ApaNA hAthamAM nathI paNa kudaratanA arthAtu karmasattAnA hAthamAM ja che. A sthitimAM pratikULa vAtAvaraNamAM ke vyaktinA pratikULa vartAvamAM manane durgAnagrasta ke durbhAvagrasta rAkhavAmAM koI ja buddhimattA nathI. eka anubhavanI vAta jaNAvuM ? varaso pUrve saurASTranI dharatI para anaMtopakArI pUjyapAda gurudevazrI sAthe amAro vihAra cAlI rahyo hato. eka divasa eka gAmathI bIje gAma ame jaI rahyA hatA. vihAra dhAryA karatAM lAMbo nIkaLyo hovAnA kAraNe paNa thAkI gayA hatA. A sthitimAM rastAmAM eka gAmaDiyo maLI gayo. 'bhAI, A gAma keTaluM dUra che?' meM ene pUchyuM "basa, eka khetara jeTaluM ame AgaLa cAlyA. traNa khetara pasAra thaI gayA pachI ya jyAre e gAmanAM koI khoraDAM ya na dekhAyA tyAre amArI sAthe ne sAthe ja cAlI rahelA e gAmaDiyAne meM pharI vAra pUchyuM. 'bhAI, A gAma...' 72

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"basa, A AvyuM ja samajo" bIjA be khetara ame cAlI nAkhyuM. na koI gAma dekhAya ke na gAmanuM koI mANasa dekhAya. mArI akaLAmaNa vadhI gaI. pelA sAthe ja cAlI rahela gAmaDiyAne thoDAka bhAre avAjamAM meM pUchyuM. 'bhAI, A gAma AvavAnuM che kyAre ?' ane e gAmaDiyo A sAMbhaLatA veta rastA para ja Ubho rahI gayo. mArI sAme joIne eNe mane je saMbhaLAvyuM e Aje ya mane barAbara yAda che. eNe mane kahyuM, mahArAja sAheba, huM samajI gayo chuM ke tame khUba thAkyAM cho eTale mane vAraMvAra 'gAma keTaluM dUra che?" ema pUchyA karo cho paNa kAna kholIne tame sAMbhaLI lo ke gAma keTaluM dUra che? ema pUchatA rahevAthI nathI AvavAnuM. gAma jayAre paNa Avaze tyAre cAlavAthI ja AvavAnuM che." saMdeza spaSTa che. gAma jyAre paNa Ave che tyAre jo pUchavAthI nahIM paNa cAlavAthI ja Ave che to mananI prasannatA jyAre paNa TakI rahe che tyAre svIkArabhAvathI ja TakI rahe che, phariyAdo karatA rahevAthI ke asvIkArabhAvathI nathI ja TakatI. eka vAstavikatA tarapha tamAruM dhyAna doruM ? je sthaLamAM hADakA karatAM kUtarAo vadhu hoya che e sthaLamAM zAMti jo saMbhavita banatI nathI to je vyakti pAse puNya karatAM apekSAo vadhu hoya che e vyaktinA jIvanamAM zAMti ya saMbhavita banatI nathI to e vyaktinA manamAM prasannatA ya saMbhavita banatI nathI. tamArA khudane mATe tamane zuM lAge che ? apekSAo karatAM tamAruM puNya vadhu che ke puNya karatA tamArI apekSAo anekagaNI vadhu che? sabhA : puNya biMdu jeTaluM che, apekSAo siMdhu jeTalI. A sthiti chatAM ya svIkArabhAva mATe tame manane jo. taiyAra karavA nathI ja mAgatA to nizcita kahuM chuM ke svIkArabhAva vinAnA tamArI pAse rahelAM bIjAM game teTalAM paNa sukho temane prasannatAnI anubhUti karAvI zakavAnA nathI ja. prasannatAna 'pa" nA svAmI banI javAnA saMdarbhamAM tamane chellI vAta karI dauM? sAdhanAkALa daramyAna prabhu vIre potAnA para je paNa parisaha-upasargo AvyA che e tamAmano koI paNa jAtano pratikAra karyA vinA svIkAra karatA rahIne jo prasannatAne hAthavagI ja rAkhI che to e prabhunA parivAramAM sAmela thaI javA mAgatA ApaNe paNa 'svIkArabhAva dvArA prasannatA'nA mArga para Aje ja, atyAre ja kadama mUkI devA jevA che, e mArga para ApaNA kadama paDyA nathI ane prasannatA hAthavagI banI nathI. prasannatA hAthavagI banI nathI ane prabhunA parivAramAM ApaNo praveza thayo nathI ! pAMca 'pa' mAMno tRtIya naMbarano "pa" che : pavitratA pavitratAno artha mAtra "brahmacaryanuM pAlana' eTalo ja ahIM nathI levAno. Atmahita jyAM akabaMdha rahI jAya, bhAre puruSArtha karIne arjita karelA saddaguNo jyAM surakSita rahI jAya, anaMtakALe prApta evuM A mAnavajIvana hAthamAMthI vyartha cAlyuM na jAya e aMge satata sAvadhagIrI dAkhavatA rahevuM enuM nAma che pavitratA. sabhA : AjanA kALe pavitratA TakAvI rAkhavI e bahu moTo paDakAra lAge che. paDakAra lAge che ema nahIM, paDakAra che ja chatAM eTaluM cokkasa kahIza ke pavitratA TakAvI rAkhavA aMgenI keTalIka pAyAnI vAto jo barAbara samajI levAmAM Ave ane dRDhatApUrvaka enuM jo pAlana karavAmAM Ave to pavitratA TakAvI rAkhavAmAM koI ja vAMdho Ave tema nathI. eka vAtano tamane khyAla che? makAnamAM prakAzano anubhava karavA mATe tame lAiTanI vyavasthA bhale karI che paNa emAM eka vAta nizcita che ke jyAM sudhI tame svica cAlu karatA nathI tyAM sudhI lAiTa thatI ja nathI ane lAITa eka vAra cAlu karI dIdhA pachI ya tame jo svica baMdha karI do cho to lAiTane baMdha thaI jatAM paLanI ya vAra lAgatI nathI, adhyAtmanA saMdarbhamAM A vAtane samajAvuM to mArAmAM ane tamArAmAM - ApaNA sahumAM - sAruM karavAnI ane kharAba karavAnI, baMne prakAranI yogyatA (upAdAna) paDI ja che paNa jo ApaNe kharAba nimittonuM sevana karatA ja nathI to kharAba karavAnI yogyatA aMdaramAM paDI hovA chatAM ya ApaNe kharAba karatA ja nathI ane sanimittonuM jo ApaNe bharapUra sevana karatA rahIe chIe to aMdaramAM sAruM karavAnI je yogyatA paDI che e bahAra AvyA vinA rahetI ja nathI, saMdeza spaSTa che. nimitto e 'svica'nA sthAne che ane upAdAna e 'lAiTa'nA sthAne che. ApaNe be ja kAmo karavAnAM che. kharAba nimittonuM sevana karavArUpa svica para AMgaLI ApaNe kyAreya mUkavAnI nathI. koka nabaLI paLomAM AMgaLI mukAI paNa gaI hoya to ya vahelI take e svica parathI ApaNe AMgaLI uThAvI levAnI che ane galata pravRttione sthagita 73 74

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karI devAnI che. ane sanimittonuM sevana karavArUpa svica para ApaNe AMgaLI mUkatA ja rahevAnuM che. pralobhanavaza ke pramAdavaza kyAreka tyAMthI AMgaLI UThI paNa gaI hoya toya vahelAmAM vahelI take e svica para ApaNe AMgaLI mUkI devAnI che. jinazAsanano A ja rAjamArga che. anaMta tIrthakara bhagavaMtoe Atmahitane akabaMdha karI devA mAgatA sAdhakone A ja saMdeza Apyo che. "kharAba nimittonuM sevana karatA rahIne ya sArA banyA rahezuM" evA bhramamAM tame rahezo ja nahIM. sArAM nimittonuM sevana tamane zIdhra sArA kadAca nahIM paNa banAvI de paraMtu kharAbanimittonuM sevana tamane kharAba banAvI detAM paLanI ya vAra nahIM lagADe. mATe paheluM kAma A karo. kharAba nimittothI jAtane jeTalI dUra rAkhI zakAya eTalI rAkhatA raho. javAba Apo, ATaluM karavA tame taiyAra cho kharA? nakkI karI do. galata sthAnamAM javuM nathI. galata sAhitya vAMcavuM nathI. galatano saMga karavo nathI. huM nathI mAnato ke A traNa bAbatamAM cokkasa banI gayA pachI ya pavitratA TakAvI rAkhavAmAM tamane khAsa koI takalIpha paDe. sAMbhaLyo che A Tucako? sAva saraLa che 'huM to pUro kaMTALI gayo chuM' zenAthI ?' 'dArUthI' 'to choDI de ne?" 'varasothI paDela kuTeva choDI devI ekadama saraLa to nathI ja ne?" 'sAce ja tAre dArU choDavo che?" 'hA. kAraNa ke baMdha mUThIe tuM dArUnI baoNTala kholI ja nathI zakavAno ne? baoNTala khUlyA vinA dArU peTamAM padharAvI ja zI rIte zakIza?' hA. A ja vAstavikatA che. cinagArIne jo lAkaDA-peTrola-ghAsatela ke rU nathI maLatAM to ApoApa e jema bujhAI jAya che tema manamAM suSupta paDela kusaMskArone jo galata sthAna-sAhitya ke saMganAM kunimitto ApavAmAM nathI AvatA to mananA e galata kusaMskAro ApoApa nisteja yAvatuM naSTaprAyaH thaI jAya che. eka bAbatano khyAla che? sajjananA AmaMtraNane 'hA' pADavAmAM jeTalI tAkAta joIe che enA karatAM ke gaNI tAkAta durjanano AmaMtraNane 'nA' pADavAmAM joIe che. Ano artha ? A ja ke dharmasevananI takane jhaDapI levA mATe mana sAthe bahu saMgharSa karavo paDato nathI paraMtu pApasevananA pralobhanane ThukarAvI devA to mana sAthe bhAre saMgharSa karavo ja paDe che. ApaNAM manane ApaNe tapAsI lezuM to ya A bAbatanI ApaNane barAbara pratI thaI ja jaze. gharamAM prabhune padharAvavA mana taiyAra che paNa gharamAM rahela TI.vI.ne kADhI nAkhavA mana saMmata nathI, stutio bolatA rahevA mana saMmata che paNa gALo bolavAnuM baMdha karI devA mana taiyAra nathI. zubhavicAromAM vyasta rahevAmAM manane koI ja vAMdho nathI paNa azubha vicArone tilAMjali ApI devAnI bAbatamAM to mana jhUkI javA taiyAra ja nathI. mananuM A valaNa eTaluM ja kahe che ke zubhanA sevanano AnaMda mANavA e kadAca taiyAra thAya paNa che to ya azubhanA sevanamAM AvatI majA para pUrNavirAma mUkI devA e haragija taiyAra nathI. ane eTale ja pavitratA TakAvI rAkhavA dvArA prabhunA parivAramAM sAmela thaI javAnuM kArya ApaNe mATe bhAre paDakArarUpa che. chatAM, bhUtakALanA anaMta janmonA viSayajanya sukhonA duHkhada anubhavo atyAre ApaNA smRtipatha para na paNa hoya to ya vartamAna jIvananAM viSayajanya sukhonA duHkhada anubhavo to ApaNA smRtipatha para che ne? sApa jAya che ane e jema potAnA lisoTA choDato jAya che tema indriyanA dareka viSayoe enA sevanakALe kadAca anubhava sukhano karAvyo paNa che to ya enA sevana pachInA kALamAM e viSAda, udvega, glAni, atRpti vagere saMkhyAbaMdha mAnasika paritApo mUkatA ja gayA che. A anubhavo parathI bodhapATha laIne ApaNe have e ja rastA para AgaLa vadhavA 'e kAma kare. jyAre paNa dArU pIvAnuM mana thAya tyAre tuM tArA baMne hAthanI mUThI vALI de. * 'enAthI zuM thaze?" 'dArU chUTI jaze' 'mUThI vALavAthI ?" 75

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mAgatA manane jo 'ruka jA' kahI devAnI hiMmata dAkhavavA taiyAra chIe, potAno bhogamAgI rahela kAyamanI bhUkhALavI indriyone ApaNe jo 'bhUkhI' ja rAkhavAnuM sattva dAkhavavA taiyAra chIe to pavitratAne AtmasAta karI devAnuM ApaNA mATe jarAye azakya paNa nathI to duHzakya paNa nathI. zuM kahuM? sukhanI ApaNI tarasa sAcI che paNa e tarasa chipAvavA ApaNe indriyonA viSayonA je sarovara pAse pahoMcatA rahIe chIe e sarovara sUkuM che ane e sarovaranuM pANI ApaNI sukhanI tarasa chipAvI ja devAnuM che e ApaNI AzA bhrAmaka che. jeTalA vahelA e sarovarathI ApaNe dUra thaI jazuM eTalA vahelA ApaNe sAcA arthamAM pavitratAnA svAmI banI jaIne prabhunA parivAramAM sAmela thaI zakazuM. ane chelle eka Tucako. meLa na paDyo. 'tame nokarImAMthI rAjInAmuM ApI dIdhuM ?" nA. zeThe mane kADhI mUkyo' kAraNa ? meLa na paDyo" kono? tamAro ane zeThano?' 'nA' 'to ?" 'rokaDAno ane copaDAno !' anaMta anaMtakALa pachI ya bhoga ane tRptino meLa paDyo nathI ane anaMtakALa pachI ya e be vacce meLa paDavAno nathI. ApaNA A anubhavane AMkha sAme rAkhIne ane prabhunA A vacana para zraddhA rAkhIne ApaNe have to indriyonA viSayone tyAM nokarI karI rahelA manane AtmagharamAMthI tageDI mUkavAnuM parAkrama karI dekhADIe, pavitratA ApaNI akabaMdha thaI jaze. pAMca 'pa" mAMno caturtha naMbarano 'pa che : puNyakArya A "pa" nI chaNAvaTa karatA pahelAM eka prazna tamane. 'tamane vadhu rasa zemAM ? beMkamAM paisA jamA karAvavAmAM ke pUrve jamA thayelA paisA upADavAmAM ?" sabhA : beMkamAM paisA jamA karAvavAmAM. bIjo prazna : kheDUtane biyAraNa vAvavAmAM vadhu rasa ke vAparavAmAM ? sabhA : vAvavAmAM trIjo prazna : gharamAM rahela kacaro kADhavAmAM vadhu rasa ke kacaro vadhAravAmAM vadhu rasa ? sabhA : kacaro kADhavAmAM. to have javAba Apo. sukha je paNa maLe che e che puNyano udaya ane jIvanamAM satkArya je paNa thAya che e che puNyano baMdha. tamArI bhASAmAM kahuM to puNyanA udayanuM sthAna che baeNnkamAM jamA thayelA paisA upADavAnuM jyAre puNyabaMdhanuM sthAna che baeNnkamAM paisA jamA karAvavAnuM. tamArA jIvanamAM atyAre prAdhAnya zenuM che ? puNyanA udayanuM ke puNyanA baMdhanuM? tamArA haiye prasannatA zenI che? puNyano udaya joradAra cAlu che enI ke puNyano baMdha joradAra thaI rahyo che enI? tamArA mananI nizcitatAno AdhAra zuM che? jIvanamAM sukho bharapUra mAtrAmAM che e ke jIvanamAM satkAryonuM sevana pUrabahAramAM cAlu che e? sabhA : sAva sAcuM kahIe to puNyano udaya e ja amArI vartamAna mastInA mULamAM che. puNya baMdhanI bAbatamAM to ame bhAre udAsIna chIe. vAstavikatA jo A ja hoya to pUchavuM che temane mAre ke AMkha baMdha thayA pachI jazo kyAM? varaso pUrve mATuMgA (muMbaI) mAM dhIrubhAI aMbANI mane maLavA AvelA tyAre meM emanI samakSa A ja vAta mUkI hatI. "dhIrubhAI ! muMbaIthI amadAvAda javAnuM tamAre bane to amadAvAda javA ravAnA thatA pahelAM "amadAvAdamAM huM UtarIza kyAM ?' e pAkuM to karI ja lo ne ?' 'to javAba Apo, AMkho baMdha thayA pachI paralokamAM UtaravAnuM kyAM banaze, e aMge atyArathI koI vicAraNA karI lIdhI che kharI ? koI Ayojana vicAryuM che kharuM?" mArA A praznano dhIrubhAI pAse to koI javAba nahoto paNa tamArI pAse koI javAba che kharo ? sabhA : no. to eTaluM ja kahIza ke e aMge atyArathI ja jAgrata thaI jAo. cAmaDI vinAnA zarIranI jo koI zobhA nathI, rasa vinAnI zeraDInI jo koI kiMmata nathI, paisA vinAnA saMsArI mANasanI jo koI AbarU nathI to puNya vinAnA saMsArI AtmAnI saMsAranA A bajAramAM phUTI koDInI kiMmata nathI. 9

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zuM kahuM tamane? patnI vinA jIvanamAM samAdhi TakAvI rAkhavAmAM vAMdho nathI Avato. vagara baMgale jhUMpaDAmAM ya jIvana mastIthI pasAra karI zakAya che. miSTAna-pharasANanAM bhojana vinA ya garIba mANasane potAnA caherA paranA hAsyane TakAvI rAkhavAmAM saphaLatA maLI zake che ane amArA jevA saMyamIne vagara paise ya mukha paranI mastI TakAvI rAkhavAmAM vAMdho nathI Avato paNa puNya vinA ? nathI to tamAre cAlatuM ke nathI to amAre cAlatuM! sabhA : Apane ya puNyanI jarUra paDe ? Aryadeza-AryakuLa-mAnavabhava-paMcendriya patA-sazakta mana-saMskArI mAtA-pitA, jinazAsana, satsAmagrIo-saAlaMbano, sanimitto, saManuSThAno, vItarAga paramAtmA, nigraMtha gurudeva, vItarAgapraNIta mokSamArga A badhuM ya puNya vinA amane maLI gayuM? nA. joradAra puNyano udaya ke AtmakalyANamAM sahAyaka A badhuM ya amane maLI gayuM. are, A jIvanamAM evI ArAdhanAo mArAthI zakya banavAnI ja nathI ke jenA baLe sarvakarmono kSaya karIne ame ahIMthI sIdhA ja mokSamAM cAlyA jaIe. Ano artha ? A ja ke A jIvananI samApti bAda amAre paNa kyAMka to janma levAno ja che, ane e janma amane sArI gatimAM to ja maLavAno che. jo amArI pAse puNyakAryonI mUDI haze to ! have tame ja kaho, zubha puNyabaMdha vinA mAre ke tamAre koIne ya cAle tema che kharuM ? sabhA : nA, to e vAta to nakkI thaI gaI ne ke puNyabaMdhanA eka mAtra kAraNabhUta puNyakAryone jIvanamAM mahattvanuM sthAna ApI dIdhA vinA bhavAMtaramAM nathI to ApaNe sukhanI sAmagrIo pAmI zakavAnA ke nathI to ApaNe dharmanI sAmagrIo pAmI zakavAnA. A samajaNa jevI hRdayamAM pratiSThita thaI gaI, e ja paLathI jIvanamAM puNyakAryo zarU thaI gayA ja samajajo. A lagana ? amadAvAdanA eka suzrAvaka che, sAteka varasa pahelAM amadAvAdamAM ame karela cAturmAsa daramyAna e dararoja pravacanamAM AvatA hatA. prajJApanIyatA sArI, hRdayanI saraLatA paNa sArI. dilanI udAratA paNa sArI. cAturmAsa pUruM thayuM. amadAvAdathI pUnA tarapha javA ame vihAra laMbAvyo-rastAmAM naDiyAda AvyuM ane e bhAI tyAM mane maLavA AvyA. vaMdana karIne beThA, dharmacarcA thaI ane pachI UbhA thatAM thatAM emaNe mane vinaMti karI. 'rUpiyA 72,00 sanmArge vAparavA che. Apa sUcana karo tene kSetramAM e rakamano savyaya huM karI dauM.' "phara,000 ja kema?' mArA e praznano emaNe to javAba na Apyo paNa emanI sAthe AvelA emanA mitre A aMge khulAso karyo. 'gurudeva, Ape amadAvAda choDyuM e divase emaNe abhigraha karyo hato ke Apa naDiyAda pahocI jAo e gALA daramyAne dhaMdhAmAM 'paOO'nI jeTalI paNa noTo Ave e badhI ja noTo sanmArgamAM vAparI devI. Apane e jANIne Azcarya thaze ke rUpiyA 50no mAla laI janAre paNa jo paCO nI noTa ApI che to ene 450 rUpiyA to emaNe pAchA ApyA ja che paNa e bhAI taraphathI maLela 500 nI noTa to emaNe sanmArga khAte alaga ja rAkhI dIdhI che !' puNyakArya aMgenI e bhAInI A koThAsUjhe, A lagane ane A dhagaze mane stabdha karI dIdho ! puNyakArya mATe koI puNyAtmA AvuM masta parAkrama karI zake e vAta mArI kalpanA bahAranI hatI. sabhA : amArI kalpanAmAM paNa A vAta besatI nathI. A satya prasaMga parathI eka bodhapATha e levA jevo che ke jIvanamAM bahu moTAM puNyakAryo karavAnI kSamatA na paNa hoya to ya zakti anusAra nAnAM nAnAM satkAryo to karatA rahevA jevA ja che. krikeTanA jagatamAM ATalAM varasomAM eka paNa baeNTsamaeNna evo pAkyo nathI ke jeNe kevaLa coggA ane chaggAo lagAvIne semyurI pUrI karI hoya paNa evA keTalAka baeNTsamaeNno jarUra pAkyA che ke jeoe eka paNa coggo ke chaggo lagAvyA vinA ja securI pUrI karI che. Ano artha ? A ja ke bahu moTAM puNyakarmo - ke jene ApaNe coggAnI - chaggAnI upamA ApI zakIe - karatA rahIne ja kevaLajJAna pAmI cUkyA hoya evA parAkramI AtmAomAM to tIrthakara bhagavaMtono samAveza paNa thaI zakato nathI to ApaNe to zI visAtamAM chIe ? paNa nAnAM nAnAM puNyakAryo - ke jeno samAveza ApaNe eka rana ke be ranamAM karI zakIeto ApaNe khUba AsAnIthI karI zakIe tema chIe ane e puNyakAryonA sevana dvArA ApaNe kevaLajJAna pAmI zakIe tema chIe. to kama se kama ApaNe e to zarU karI daIe !

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sabhA : A vAta amane khUba gamI gaI che. tamo sahu yogyatA laIne ja beThA cho eTale AvI vAto tamane na gamavAno to koI prazna ja Ubho thato nathI. paNa eTaluM ja kahIza ke have enA amalamAM paLano ya vilaMba na karo. samayanI evI gADImAM ApaNuM jIvana pasAra thaI rahyuM che ke je gADImAM 'rivarsa geyara' paNa nathI to 'breka" paNa nathI. mane Aje 60 varasa thayA che. huM mArA jIvanane 55 varasa para paNa laI jaI zakuM tema nathI to 60mAM varasa para ja UbhuM rAkhI zakuM tema nathI. A sthitimAM huM jo sAruM karavA mAguM chuM to mAre enI zarUAta atyAre ja karI devA jevI che ane huM jo galatathI dUra thavA mAguM chuM to e aMgenuM sarva phoravavAnuM paNa mAre atyArathI ja zarU karI devA jevuM che. sAMbhaLyuM che A dRSTAnna? mane bharoso nathI dAnezvarI karNa pAse acAnaka eka yAcaka AvI caDyo. e vakhate karNanA hAthamAM eka suvarNapAtra hatuM. karNo e suvarNapAtra dAnamAM ApI devA yAcakanA hAthamAM mUkavAno jevo prayAsa karyo, yAcake potAno hAtha pAcho kheMcI lIdho. 'paNa kema ?' 'suvarNapAtra tamArA DAbA hAthamAM che ane DAbA hAthe apAtA dAnane svIkAravAmAM apazukana thAya che. tame suvarNapAtra jamaNA hAthamAM laIne mane Apo to e huM svIkAruM.' 'bhUdeva ! tamArI vAta to sAcI che paNa eka vAta tamane karuM? nathI to mane mArA AyuSya para bharoso ke nathI to mane mArA mana para bharoso. DAbA hAthamAM rahela svarNapAtra jamaNA hAthamAM levA jatAM vacce ja AyuSya mAruM pUruM thaI jAya e ya zakyatA che to vacce mAruM mana badalAI jAya e ya zakyatA che. mATe bhUdeva ! mAruM DAbA hAthanuM dAna paNa tame svIkArI ja lo.' tAtparyArtha A dRSTAMtano spaSTa che. pAMca 'pa' mAM no paMcama naMbarano 'pa' che : pariNati tamane samajAya evI bhASAmAM kahuM to pariNatino artha e che ke sampravRttinA sevanakALamAM to pravRttinA pariNAmanuM lakSya jIvaMta hoya ja paraMtu satravRttinuM sevana koka saMyogamAM na paNa cAlu hoya tyAre ya sampravRttinuM lakSya aMtaHkaraNamAM jIvaMtatA anubhavatuM hoya, javAba Apo. paisAno vicAra tame bajAramAM ho tyAre ja Ave ke bAtharUmamAM snAna karatA ho tyAre ya Ave? sabhA : rAtanA svapnamAM ya vicAro paisAnA ja AvatA rahe che. basa, pariNatinuM AvuM ja che. dAna cAlu hoya tyAre to mUcchatyAganI pariNati jIvaMta hoya ja paraMtu dAna sthagita hoya tyAre ya mUtyAganuM lakSya aMtaHkaraNamAM jIvaMta hoya, tapanA kALamAM to hArasaMjJA pratye lAla AMkha hoya ja paraMtu tapanA pAraNe ya AhArasaMjJA pratye karaDI najara ja hoya. - hokAyaMtra to tame joyuM che ne? hAthamAM pakaDIne tame ene goLa goLa ghumAvo. eno kAMTo tamane badhI ya dizAmAM pharato kadAca dekhAya paNa jevuM e hokAyaMtra jamIna para sthira thaI jAya, eno kAMTo tamane uttara dizA batADI de, basa, A ja kArya pariNatinuM che. saMyogo bhale jAtajAtanA badalAyelA hoya, pravRttio bhale alaga alaga hoya, paristhiti bhale aneka prakAranI hoya paNa AtmahitanuM aMdaranuM lakSya akabaMdha ja hoya. eka dRSTAMta dvArA A vAta samajAvuM? bhaktimAM mana lIna ja che. eka saMtanI pAse eka navayuvAna Avyo. praNAma karIne emanI sAme besI gayo. 'mAre eka prazna Apane pUchavo che.' 'pUchI le" Apa pravacanomAM ema kahyA karo cho ke tamAre tamAruM mana prabhubhaktimAM lIna rAkhavuM ja joIe paraMtu amArA jevA saMsArI mANaso mATe e zakya che kharuM? kyAreka amane vAtAvaraNa anukULa maLe che to kyAreka pratikULa, kyAreka svajano amane anukULa maLe che to kyAreka pratikULa. TUMkamAM, satata badalAtA raheto saMyogomAM amAre manane bhaktimAM lIna rAkhavuM zI rIte ?' 'tArA A praznano huM javAba ApuM e pahelAM mArI AsapAsa beThelA mArA A traNa anuyAyIone huM je prazna pUchuM te, ane emanA taraphathI eno je javAba maLe e tuM sAMbhaLI le. kadAca tArA mananuM samAdhAna thaI jAya.' 'pUcho" ane e saMte potAnI DAbI bAju beThelA bhagatane pUchayuM, 'bhaktimAM mana lIna rahe che kharuM?" "bApajI ! patnI evI sarasa svabhAvanI maLI che ke enA taraphathI mArI tamAma anukULatAo sacavAI ja jAya che. A hisAbe mAruM mana eTaluM badhuM prasanna rahe che ke Tara

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prabhupUjA, e badhuM ya paralokamAM to ApaNI sAthe nathI ja AvavAnuM. paralokamAM sAthe e pUjAmAM ApaNe meLavelA bhAvo, ApaNe Ubho karelo hRdayano uchaLato bahumAnabhAva, ApaNe anubhavelI gadgadatA e ja AvavAnuM che. A vAstavIkatAno saMdeza spaSTa che. kevaLa satravRttionA sAtatyapUrNa sevanathI ja ApaNe saMtuSTa thaI javAnuM nathI. saspravRttione anurUpa nirmaLa pariNatinA svAmI paNa ApaNe banI ja javAnuM che. dariyAmAM UchaLatA mojAMo to joyA che ne ? madhadariye eka mojuM UchaLe che, e bese che e pahelAM eka bIjAM mojAMne e uchALe che. e moju besatA pahelAM trIjA mojAne uchALI de che ane ema karatAM karatAM eka mojuM dirayAnA kinAre pahoMcI jAya che. basa, A ja kAma ApaNe karavAnuM che. A janamamAM keLavelI pariNatine ApaNe bhUvAMtaramAM sAthe laI javAnI che, e bhavanI pariNatine AgalA bhavamAM ApaNe sAthe laI javAnI che ane Ama karatAM karatAM eka maMgaLa bhava, eka maMgaLa divasa ane eka maMgaLa paLa ApaNA jIvanamAM evI AvIne UbhI karI devAnI che ke je maMgaLa paLe AtmA saMsAra sAgarano pAra pAmIne ja rahe, jevo prabhubhaktimAM besuM chuM, mana e ja paLe prabhumAM lIna thaI jAya che." saMte jamaNI bAju beThelA bhagatane pUchyuM, 'tamArA mananI sthiti zI che ?" bApajI ! patnI evI karkazA maLI che ke mAro svabhAva ane bilakula phAvato ja nathI ane e hisAbe mArAthI e sarvathA anAsakta banI gaI che. AkhA divasamAM eka vAra paNa enuM moTuM huM jovA pAmato nathI. basa, A ja kAraNasara jevo huM prabhubhaktimAM besuM chuM, sahajarUpe ja mAruM mana emAM lIna banI jAya che.' saMte trIjA bhagatanI sAme joIne A ja prazna pUchyo, "bhagata, tamArI manaHsthiti ?' 'bApajI , meM to lagana ja nathI karyA. jevo prabhu sAme huM beTho nathI ane prabhumAM mAruM citta jANyuM nathI. ApaNe to lIlAlahera ja che.' saMtanA A traNeya anuyAyIonA javAbo sAMbhaLIne pelA yuvakane potAnA praznano javAba ApavA saMtane vinaMti karavAnI jarUra ja na rahI. A tAkAta che pariNatinI. tamane e kyAMya AdhA-pAchA thavA detI nathI. tamane e nirAza thavA detI nathI. tamane e nAsIpAsa thavA detI nathI. viparIta saMyogomAM ya e tamArA utsAhane dhabakato ja rAkhe che. nivRttikALamAM ke azaktikALamAM ya e tamane prasanna ja rAkhe che. viparIta prakRtivALA jIvo vacce ya e tamane tamArA lakSyanI najIka ja rAkhe che. sabhA : pariNatinuM AvuM svAmitva pamAya zI rIte ? eka ja upAya che. satravRttionuM rasapUrvakanuM sAtatyapUrNa sevana. bajAramAM jema roja jAo cho ane rasapUrvaka dhaMdho kare cho , jamavA jema roja beso cho ane rasapUrvaka bhojana karo cho tema dharmapravRttio roja ja karatA raho ane rasapUrvaka karatA raho. rasapUrvakanuM A dharmapravRttionuM sAtatyapUrNa sevana aMtaramAM evI sthira pariNatinuM nirmANa karI deze ke e pariNati bhavAMtaramAM ya sAthe AvIne Atmahitane akabaMdha karatI ja raheze. eka vAta yAda rAkhajo ke, satsAmagrI ane pravRtti, e baMne paralokagAmI to nathI ja, bhale ne ApaNane prabhunuM svarNamaMdira upalabdha thaI gayuM che. e maMdiramAM birAjamAna prabhunI pratimA bhale ne ratnanI che ane e prabhunI pUjA ApaNe bhale ne atyaMta kImatI ane uttama dravyothI karI che paNa e svarNamaMdira, e ratnamaya pratimA ane e kImatI-uttama dravyothI saMpanna premanA daravAjethI prabhunA parivAramAM sAmela thaI javAno zarU karela prayAsa jyAre pariNati AgaLa virAma pAme che tyAre ApaNe prabhunA parivAramAM to sAmela thaI cUkyA ja hoIe chIe paNa ApaNA khudanuM prabhu banavAnuM paNa ApaNe lagabhaga nakkI karI cUkyA hoIe chIe. Avo, cAragatirUpa saMsAramAM mAnavajIvana e ja eka evuM jIvana che ke je jIvana paramAtmA" banI javA mATe vakhaNAyeluM che. surata bhale ghArI mATe vakhaNAyuM hoya ane gholavaDa bhale cIku mATe vakhaNAyuM hoya, AgrA bhale tAjamahAla mATe vakhaNAyuM hoya ane kAzmIra bhale himAlaya mATe vakhaNAyuM hoya paNa mAnavajIvana? e to prabhu banI javA ja vakhaNAyuM che. ApaNe A jIvanamAM kadAca prabhu na paNa banI zakIe to ya kama se kama prabhunA parivAramAM to sAmela thaI ja jaIe ne ? traNa divasanA cAra pravacanamAM e aMgenI aneka vAto meM tamArA samakSa mUkI che. e vAtone hRdayamAM dhAraNa karIne zakti anusAra svajIvanamAM amalI banAvavA prayatnazIla bano ane uttama evA mAnavajIvananI prAptine saphaLa banAvIne ja raho evA mArA tamane sahune aMtaranA AzIrvAda che. 84